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[hizerain]

2025.01.19

This month has been hellish. I'm fully aware that's a gross oversimplification, I've done some frankly amazing things such as run a 10K for the first time but my mental health has been a complete disaster which has led to ruined exams, a relapse of sorts I've rarely had in years and a general apathy that cut so uncompromisingly deep that all things life were horrendous to even imagine. I'm processing, working with it. It's provided me with the unsurprising yet completely novel insight that the many things I do have more than a slight twinge of OCD infused with them. It's already quite a year.

[thedeadpoets-blog]

“honestly, don’t you two read?”

— hermione granger, harry potter and the philosopher’s stone

[camillamaecaulay]

graves grow no green that you can use.

gwendolyn brooks

[keatingwilde]

maybe romanticising my degree is the only viable option to get me through it

[theonewhereistudy]

I've started this week slowly despite this being my final week for turning in any activities for university and that my grades so far are not very good in math. But hey! At least I'm having some nice-looking breakfast and dressing up like an academic.

Ps: yells at you *I'm still the darkest and most mysterious person you'll ever meet even if my bedside "table" is a cute dog!!!*

[somethingwithmoles]

Tommaso Minardi, Self-portrait, 1803, oil on canvas, 37 x 33 cm, Galleria d'arte moderna, Florence

Source: Wikimedia Commons

[moonyacademia]

March, 2023

I feel I’m going through some really strange months: sometimes floating, sometimes just breathing. I have a new old watch that ticks a bit faster than it should, and every few days I need to set it back a couple of minutes. Everything moves too fast and too slow.

[unadulteratedtyrantenthusiast]

why I compare them with you?

when I know I'd rather burn my hands holding you,

than feeling the absence of you being away.

t.k

[persephnx]

08.08.2023 ✨

I really like this corner of my desk

[secretvillains]

details from my last trip

[blumenundpoesie]

a blanket of snow on fairy lights

[hizerain]

2024.12.28

I've been thinking a lot about friendship. I'm trying to move away from immediate communication and general constant availability as much as I can given that it has a disastrous effect on my well being. However, that has lead me to reconsider how I approach friendships. Given the dominance of instant communication, it seems inevitable that much of our friendship is measured by response-times and general availability. I don't have clear definite new metrics to judge friendships, especially given that I have been considering whether I'd consider any of my presumed friendships as such, but it's been a good exercise to reconsider what I value in friendship, what I offer in friendship and what I require in a friendship.

[thedeadpoets-blog]

when night comes

[camillamaecaulay]

from wichita vortex sutra, allen ginsberg

[keatingwilde]

oh to sit in an abandoned lecture hall of an old university campus, scribbling away poetry in black ink on loose paper

[yoan-le-grall]