#cw negative emotions

[selectivechaos]

great im gonna have to spend the next few weeks mute /sarcasm.

like im mute around my immediate family and strangers. i also have to go to a funeral for a family member where i will see extended family. to be honest i don’t know if im even that anxious around them because i never see them, but i probably will be. i always got anxious around extended family when younger and couldn’t speak to them unless spoken to. but because my immediate family will be within earshot, i won’t be able to speak at all for the few weeks im staying there. except to my cat. 🌹🌹

[ruegarding]

in relation to the last post, the entire plotline is poorly executed.

annabeth's reaction to percy in tartarus is normal, like, not good, but normal. percy's not only challenging the laws of the world, he's indulging cruelty. being afraid is a normal reaction to have. despite that, it's still a conflict that needs to be resolved...and it's not.

immediately afterwards it's like ok back to normal! the jagged edges of percy's soul smooth over and annabeth is back to business (which immediately begets the question: why did rick write that then? which is never answered. the point? missing*). like, the actual issue isn't even addressed. before turning the poison onto akhlys, percy is being tortured w it (and nothing annabeth tries stops it). percy isn't doing this bc it's fun and exciting. he's doing this bc he was feeling so angry, so hurt, so scared, so traumatized that he resorted to hurting someone to make himself feel better. this is literally never addressed.

even in boo, annabeth's arc isn't abt learning to not be afraid or to trust percy again, it's to allow herself to be afraid. w piper. away from percy. and she never confronts percy directly, she never reconciles her fear w percy, they never address how this changes their relationship. also piper is there bc annabeth is so freaked out by percy that now piper is freaked out by percy. which is. a separate issue that is only an issue bc once again it never gets resolved.

and then w percy obviously he has his suicide attempt. like, he thought what he did in tartarus was so unforgivable that he not only believed that he deserved to die, but deserved to die slowly and painfully from something that he could easily prevent. like. that's the thing. percy's powers come easily to him. do u know how low he would have to be to not even subconsciously try to save himself? and the only response is a "i think i get it" from someone who's perspective does not properly convey the severity of the situation (ppl read this scene without even realizing it's a suicide attempt). once again, percy and annabeth do not confront this conflict together. percy tries to kill himself and the narrative is like...anyway.

if rick didn't know how to handle this, or even if he just didn't want to write it, he didn't have to write it. any of it.

but it's not that rick doesn't know how to handle this situation bc he writes the same thing in boo and handles it a million times better. nico and reyna have a very similar situation to percy and annabeth and the inclusion of both of these scenes and the difference in how they're handled ends up vilifying annabeth in the narrative.

reyna and nico have known each other for less time. they have built up less trust. and yet. when nico challenges the laws of the world and indulges cruelty in a way that reminds reyna of her extremely traumatizing backstory, she comforts nico. she doesn't treat him like he's dangerous. hedge tells him "we all get angry" and reyna vehemently agrees. nico is given explicit support even before he can start spiraling. and when nico is told to not use that power, it's bc of how it affected him, not how it made them feel, not that it's unnatural.

this shows that there was a correct answer. annabeth didn't have it, and suddenly her "normal" reaction looks bad in comparison. but instead of addressing this in any meaningful capacity, we're going to ignore it and send p*rcabeth to college. #relationshipgoals.

it's such a narrative failure. and rick could've just. not written it.

[tarucore]

screenshotting this one bc I can acknowledge that I’ve got shipper goggles on and op isn’t about that life which is fair but

I feel like batfam fans misunderstand the term parentification a lot and conflate it with Dick filling a parental role for his siblings, which might be part of the “oldest daughter syndrome” that’s so often pinned on him but that isn’t what parentification actually means

If I say that Dick Grayson was parentified, then that isn’t referring to him taking care of his siblings, it refers to the way Bruce treated him. As someone capable of taking care of his emotional needs and not as the child in need of care in the relationship

Parentification is a term that’s been around for decades, and while having to care for younger siblings might be a part of the definition, it focuses mostly on the role reversal of the parent-child dynamic. I’m not going to get into the psychology of it but being parentified has very little to do with if he actually acted as a parent for his siblings and everything to do with if he acted as a parent for Bruce

This is honestly why I prefer the term spouseification, which is less ambiguous than the term parentification and I feel accurately describes their “equal” relationship and the type of emotional abuse that Dick went through

Also from what I’ve read, Dick doesn’t act as a parental figure for any of his siblings except for Damian. While he might have given extra emotional support to Tim due to Bruce being Bruce, Dick still fits solidly into an older brother role. I’m not even going to touch on Dick’s relationship with Jason which is too weak to even be considered fraternal never mind parental

[teakoodrawz]

" I'm a Psycho, loving it~ "

[chelledoggo]

i've been pretty much raised my whole life to doubt my emotions and feelings

my dad was insistent on making me believe i was genuinely a bad person no matter what i thought i actually felt

like when he would get angry at me and i'd apologize to him in tears he'd say shit like "you're not sorry! you'll do it again!"

i even feel guilty mentioning this right now lol

[xannerz]

its always surreal to me to see people praise s2 of centaurworld. s2 was so spectacularly bombastic and aimless and it ended in this awkward forgettable fizzle.

i feel like a dick saying it b/c i really do love the show lmao. or, at least half of it lmao (/stares at tnwk). gf and i've been thinking about rewatching it just to write out our thoughts on why s2 was such a poor follow-up to s1 - from the tone to the setup to all the worldbuilding the narrative had to offer in between the (far more) memorable songs of s1. idk. it's sad because cw really had the bones of a cult classic, but idek if you can call it that.

ive seen a few posts commenting on its lack of popularity, and i feel like it certainly deserves more, b/c i do feel like it's a novel idea made w/ love, but the shift btwn s1 and s2 wasnt just in the plot. there was a full-on *fracture* in the quality and direction and i'm still scratching my head over it. more than i should be, probably. but, it's just a bummer.

[multi-lefaiye]

takes a long sip of water. it's okay. not every story will be finished. what matters is that i'm enjoying the process and writing and outlining something that makes me happy. <- affirmations said while visibly shaking a little

[hells-greatestdad]

// gonna try and be around today

I think I can but then sometimes I say that a lot and run into a block or something

So I will try

[gulava]

Love having all these symptoms of M.S. but no Rheumatology appointment sooner than January when my insurance might be cancelled at the end of this year if I don’t win my appeal. /s

[herawell]

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[selectivechaos]

cw: negative emotions related to sm; depersonalisation; internalised ableism ⚠️⚠️

think sm destroyed my confidence in my ability to speak, to be social, to converse; destroyed my understanding of how my voice sounds. am never sure of how it will come out; the pitch, the tone, the volume, if it will crack, squeak, waver.

it destroyed my relationship with my voice, with words, with speech.

feels like people see their voices as attached to them. something they wear like a bracelet. and mine fucking broke and fell off.

feel like I should be more angry about it. used to be. but depersonalisation means I don’t really know who to mourn.

think one thing would like people who find speech easy to do, is not treat it like it is easy for everyone else. not assume. not belittle my struggles and my fears.

🌹🌹

[error-rambles]

-bites the hand that feeds her-

Nom

[asinglesock]

I have a particularly painful headache that I suspect is because I haven't eaten in six hours but H has carpenters working in the kitchen so I can't cook

[vacant2007]

i never do anything with love when i get it

[gardenelfi]

the suffocating void after hopes shattered is so much worse than not having hope at all

[autistic-katara]

kinda funny how ill read abt my blorbos almost graphically trying to off themselves in fics but ill just remember my friend’s suicidal or smthn and ill feel physically sick and have an anxiety attack or something