#currently unemployed

[mushroomwillow]

I guess if people see this and they have thoughts, lmk. I can’t guarantee that itd work in my situation, but I’d be willing to hear people out.

Ok I quit. Boss msgs me, asking if I’d be willing to do a leave of absence. I said I’d be ok with talking to her over a call.

However, I already went to her and explained I need time off. I can’t do the job due to mental and physical health. And a billion other reasons.

So please tell me, even tho you’ve been an incredible boss, how you’re going to convince me that causing trauma to a child is going to be worked around. How you’re going to magically have a solution to me being over worked.

I’m genuinely curious in the most bitter way.

I’ve figured out with my fiance that in order to pay my bills, I need at least $750 a month. Of course I also need groceries.

On his income alone, we could apply for food stamps. It won’t cover a ton, but it’ll cover a bit.

And as far as me making the $750, food delivery, donating plasma (which has other benefits of actually helping people) and babysitting. Hell there’s the little girl across from us I could talk to her mom about it. I could also walk dogs, they also have dogs, not saying they’ll be all for it, but it’s worth a shot. Who knows. There’s apps for it too.

And all of this I could do while still having my daughter when she comes back from her dad’s, and focus on school. It’s going to be hell. But maybe less of a hell than being forced to cause trauma, when I am literally getting my degree to help people with trauma.

I’m angry, I’m depressed. I’m impossibly anxious. Idk what to do with no education, physical and mental illness, and needing to provide for myself, my daughter, and helping my fiance.

I’ve googled and searched YouTube and Pinterest. Everything seems so redundant. Start a blog, do surveys, idk how that’d give me $750 a month. Hell idk if I can afford the gas to do food delivery considering gas is $4 a gallon.

[alexandraisyes]

I’ve never advertised my commissions on here actively but this is a new thing I wanna do while I’m working on my Sinker AU! Feel free to shoot me a message if you’re interested! And if not could you help me out and reblog this? It would mean a lot while I’m in between jobs!

[sh3nlong-promakh0s]

i want to be a voice actor or storyboarder so bad

but also i want to never work ever but just do that shiz for fun anyway

[abandoned-as-mustard]

why do i need an english degree to be a copyeditor. is it not enough to have had a lifelong career with the autism grammar police

[therapythoughtstogether]

Just wondering if I'll ever have a family...

If you happen to pass by my blog on a somewhat regular basis, you can all the that this weekend things are heavy on my soul. Well, heavier than usual...

I hear people talking about the upcoming Christmas and how they are going to celebrate with their families. It's not that this Christmas I won't have a Christmas tree for the first time in my life...it's very possible that I may not even have a safe place to stay.

Since I was little I always wanted to be a mom. People always said I'd be a great mom. I'm a teacher after all! My little students loved me and their parents always said that I was like a second mom to them.

I don't know if I'll ever find a person who loves me for who I am and wants to be with me without hurting me. I'm deeply traumatized by now. I'm afraid I'm "broken beyond repair". I don't know if I'll ever have children and the nice loving little family I've always dreamt of.

I know that right now my main concern is safety and survival, and preventing an unwanted pregnancy to the best of my abilities. But with the holidays approaching I'm afraid that dream will never come true.

[therapythoughtstogether]

How am I all of these at the same time? 🥲

Sending love back and to everyone in similar situations.

[letthegrxxngirlgo]

Its not healthy for me here but I can’t survive on my own

[intotheelliwoods]

A well deserved rest for these guys 😌 <3 <3

[therapythoughtstogether]

I do love the holidays...but this time, for the first time in my life, I don't have any of the things that are associated or I personally associate with the holidays: I don't have a family, I don't have a home, I don't have hope, I don't have joy, I don't have friends, I don't have my fur baby, I don't have a Christmas tree...

I'm so sad about it all. It's so painful...I just hope that next year will be different. That I will have all those things that the little childlike me loves and will always love, or at least some of them. But hey, I'm allowing myself to dream big for a moment.

This will be definitely a topic for my next therapy session.

just some holiday reminders!!

It’s okay to have complicated feelings about the holidays (even if you used to really love them).

it’s okay to hide in the bathroom/take a step outside for some deep breaths.

it’s okay if events or activities meant to be ‘fun/recreational’ (like shopping, cookie decorating, etc) are stressful or tiring for you.

remember that it’s okay to rest 💜

it’s okay to set boundaries even around family (‘I don’t feel like talking about that right now, etc’)

you deserve to be hydrated, rested, and well fed 💜

There is no wrong way to feel about something! There can be so much shame around struggling in a season famous for being filled with ‘love and joy.’ You aren’t alone and you are loved 💜💜

[cosmogyros]

I went to register myself as arbeitslos this morning and Christian Lindner lost his job this evening. So close... we could practically have bumped into each other in the waiting room at the Arbeitsagentur.

[seanwinchester]

Yesterday I felt inspired by this gifset so

Here's a complete list of every single character in the show who gets to drive the Impala (shown, mentioned, or strongly implied) (in order of appearance)

Note: "drive" here gets extended to "operate/take control of" (see: ghosts)

Dean Winchester (1st appearance: 1x1)

Sam Winchester (1st appearance: 1x1)

the Woman in White/Constance Welch's spirit (1x1)

a shapeshifter with Dean's appearance (1x6) (mentioned)

John Winchester (1st mention: 1x20, 1st appearance: 4x3)

Andrew Gallagher (2x6)

Meg Masters (in Sam's body) (2x14) (mentioned) / (in her second 'regular' vessel) (7x23)

Bobby Singer (1st appearance: 4x6)

Adam Milligan (4x19) (mentioned)

Gary Frankle (in Sam's body) (5x12)

Sal Moriarty (first owner of the impala before John) (5x22)

Rose Brown's spirit (6x14)

Tracy Bell (a hunter) (9x2)

Gadreel (in Sam's body) (9x10)

Dark Charlie (10x11)

Jessie (a valet) (11x4)

Lily Markham (victim turned monster) (11x4)

Deputy Donelly (11x4)

Mary Winchester (12x1) (implied)

Rowena Macleod (12x11) (mentioned)

a valet at the three-star hotel (12x16)

Kelly Kline (12x19)

one of Santino Scarpatti's bodyguards (13x15)

Jack Kline (14x7)

Max (14x13)

AU Sam and/or Dean (15x13) (mentioned, unspecified if one or both drove the car)

Dean Winchester Jr (during and/or after 15x20) (presumably)

Bonus - close cases/worth mentioning:

The police have the impala towed when Sam and Dean get arrested in 2x7 (implied, we only know she's been put in an impound yard)

Bela Talbot has the car towed in 3x6

Lucifer (with Dean's appearance) drives the impala in Sam's hallucination (7x2) (but the real driver is Sam)

a leviathan with Dean's appearance drives a similar impala (though not Baby) in 7x6 (unspecified if leviathan!Sam drove it as well)

Henry Winchester tries and fails to steal the car in 8x12

the actresses playing Dean and John on stage drive a prop replica of the impala in 10x5

Bonus x2 - a much shorter list of characters who have been the car:

Sam Winchester

[brucespringsteencomments]

Sometimes I feel like I've seen every Bruce photo and watched every Bruce video out there that nothing really surprises me anymore, and then I'll see the wildest comment here and be proven wrong.

you've been bruced.

join me.

[abracadaze]

being in your early 20s is like the only way out is through. the only way out is through. am i out yet? no? well the only way out is through. looks like i'm still in the through part. you know what they say, the only way out is through. i wish i was out but i'm stuck at through. once i get through this i'll be out. the only way out is th

[therapythoughtstogether]

I feel unloveable...

I've struggled with self esteem and self worth for long. But with all the things that have happened over the last weeks and are still happening, I feel like I lost all the value in me.

I know that everyone has value as a human, as a person...except for me...I feel like no one can love me, I'm just used for other people's pleasure.

I feel like without an income, I have no value. Something that I would never tell to any other unemployed person. I'm so depressed and anxious that I cannot be a good company.

I'm afraid I will never be cute again. I used to take care of myself, and now I struggle to brush my teeth and hair. I don't have any self care products because I cannot afford them. I cannot go for walks alone because I don't have the key to this place, so mostly I'm alone in the room for hours each days, and I go somewhere with this guy once a week o Sundays. Even then I don't want to go... I cannot do yoga because I don't even have a mat now...

I do my best not to drink alcohol, but sometimes reality is too painful and I do end up drinking. I cannot choose what I'm given to eat, and it's lots of my fear foods. My eating habits are erratic and I turn to food for comfort. I'm gaining weight and it makes my body dysmorphia so much worse. I cannot face my reflection...

As I said before, I feel like my spirit is broken, my will is withering, my light is fading...

I know right now is just survival. But I actually do want to be loved. I honestly do want to be taken care of. I want someone to brush my hair and hold me. I want a friend to go for walks. I want to do face masks again and choose what I ca eat within what I can afford.

I don't think anyone can lie me anymore. I'm fighting hard to stay alive.