#crying and throwing up though lol
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👋🥲💜🏴☠️
#hi my loves#absolutely DYING with work rn#the busiest it’s been since early december or so#so my energy is just like 📉📉📉#and i wasn’t even supposed to work today after working most of yesterday#but i am ✨working today✨ 😍#so y’know lol ✨SUFFERING✨#but hello i live bitch#and i love y’all so much and hope you’re doing alright#i guess on the plus side:#CANT BE SAD ABOUT OFMD IF IM SMASHED INTO THE BEDROCK BY WORK SKDJWJ 😭😭😭#CANT BE SAD WHEN YOU CANT EVEN THINK ✌️😵💫#crying and throwing up though lol
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I raise you something else for the joint friend group that forms after Marcus and Sejanus start dating: Lamina is also part of it. Why? Cause of her and Reaper helping each other in the arena, cause she’s like the only one we see interact with Marcus, and cause she’s always been one of my favorite tributes
#okay pretend she’s the same age as the others and hear me out#she was very shy and lonely in high school#didn’t have many friends but thanks to a group project her and reaper started talking and hanging out#and it was kind of an improbable pair but they’re besties now#and reaper is such a gentleman with her and helped her come out of her shell a lot#she’s the blonde of the friend group#her and sejanus are the first ones to cry on movie nights#and her and reaper are also a duo on karaoke night#she lowkey doesn’t like jessup for how he acts with reaper but she’s too polite to let it show#but you can bet her and reaper complain about jessup all the time when the others aren’t around lmao#they’re huge gossipers together#she backs him up but she’s also annoyed lol#cause jessup started the whole thing at first but reaper never backed down and now it’s both of them initiating the bickering#so she’s like “omg reaper stoppp you’re only making things worse”#“...though if we need to throw hands… you tell me” lmao#it’s not actually that serious this is a joke#their fights are silly like “AND WHAT WAS HER SISTER? THE WICKED WITCH OF THE EAST BRO” lmao it’s not anything serious#but again reaper is such a gentleman with her so she side eyes jessup for not liking him#though jessup is also a very nice guy and for some reason he only has a problem with reaper#so she can’t really hate him#but lowkey she doesn’t like him much either lol#sejarcus
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i'm back on my bullshit (hyperfixating on doomed fictional gay dumbasses again). anyways. poor shoko, girlie deserved better
#drawing#small artist#character art#ink drawing#traditional art#my art#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen#jjk gojo#jjk geto#jjk shoko#jjk nanami#jjk haibara#jjk satosugu#gege when i catch you gege#poor shoko though seriously shes been though enough#screaming crying throwing up at 3am over satosugu breakup#lol#tw jjk spoilers
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Saying that non-conforming female characters don't face as much misogyny as their "feminine" counterparts is so funny cause literally the misogyny in their treatment is more overt because they aren't staying "in their place" like men think they should. The disdain for women + misogynistic societal ideals are so much more blatant in male characters interacting with these women. Countless times they are, in essence, told they need to sit down, shut up, and know their place but somehow that translates into them having "masculine privilege". I can only assume that people with this take haven't actually read the books and only get their information from second-hand sources.
#Men actually love it when the group they're oppressing doesn't conform with their restrictive measures that's exactly how things work 🙄#George saying that his non-conforming female characters were outcasts was really just overkill cause this is explicitly stated in the books#It's such a stupid take to have or try to argue cause there's literally no basis for it anywhere in the books#the inherit misogyny in othering women for not conforming to a misogynistic and patriarchal society though...I have to laugh#Coming from the so-called feminists in fandom make a career of throwing female characters under the bus to prop up their faves#Brienne literally gets told not to go crying if she gets raped because she's asking for it by /acting like a man/#and her mistreatment by both genders for her looks and behavior is well documented in her POV and those who interact with her#Asha gets denied her claim for being a women and repeatedly treated like an idiot for pushing for it anyways#Arya is an outcast in her own family and her behavior is lamented by her father mother and sister lol#I would just really like to know where this supposed privilege comes in??? where is it actually at??#cause it doesn't get them better treatment...better access to their claims...security from being assaulted...so where exactly is it?#just another fandom idea that can never be backed up but people treat like an absolute fact anways#obligatory this isn't me that feminine female characters don't face misogyny cause people love misinterpreting my points#asoiaf#brienne of tarth#asha greyjoy#arya stark#daenerys targaryen#fandom nonsense
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Absolutely loving, adoring, Le*nda de L*sle’s review of MacCulloch’s work...
My thoughts, feelings, opinions I’ve put below. It gets very long because I cannae haud me wheesht
I don’t know why she’s obsessed with the idea that he mustn’t have loved his wife. ‘the supposedly grieving widower’? I don’t think the arrangement of a marriage for a king - which Henry obviously agreed to - is a sufficient way to judge what Thomas’s relationship with his wife was like. The (foreign and domestic) political, religious and dynastic factors at play there can’t be ignored in favour of extrapolating that he didn’t understand marrying for love. The “happy marriage” in quotation marks😭 have got to laugh. her condescending cynicism is based on nothing tangible, as far as I can work out. She shades MacCulloch as well through the, ‘he believes that although the evidence is sparse, Cromwell was indeed a grieving widower'…. Ngl I would argue it’s not a particularly strained logical leap to assume he might’ve been upset.
We know barely anything about their relationship. Mostly what can be concretely said is he, unusually, never remarried - we’ll obviously never know the reason(s) for that, but still. There was seemingly one notable relationship outside of it, which we only know of because it resulted in an illegitimate daughter, a wee while after his wife passed away. But even that isn’t for 100% certain. He also atypically didn’t have a mistress. There’s also exactly one (1) extant letter from him to his wife, which is pleasant enough, but not much revealing - he asks her for news of home and sends her a deer. she didnt live long enough so as to have any external remarks on their marriage once he entered court spheres. Essentially it’s impossible to draw anything more than speculative conclusions, but based on what can be tentatively extrapolated from his actions, it seems more likely he grieved for his wife than didn’t imo. And also just considering natural, human emotion??
(Even if you want to suggest they didn’t marry for love in the beginning - and/or weren’t in love by the end - they were married for what? Roughly a decade and a half? With no signs of estrangement, and friendly correspondence in letters to Cromwell asking him to pass on their regards to his wife. So even if it was simply an amicable relationship, on a basic level being with someone in such close proximity, for that long, and losing them is probably going to be upsetting?)
On a tangential note, as MacCulloch does point out, the valentine to Mary mentioned here wasn’t at all romantic - it’s misleading to present that, as she does, as an attempt for he himself to marry into royalty. Or more charitably, I think she misremembered the context for it from the book
I’d also question de Lisle’s point about the executions. Personally I don’t think it suggests a greater misogyny than any of his contemporaries? Imo it’s indicative of the broader pattern of a brutal, violent ruthlessness towards those he saw as any enemy, in his way, and/or as going against the crown/policy etc. As opposed to any particular or especial hatred towards women. This isn't meant as an excuse for those actions in any way, because they're - quite obviously - horrific. I just question the rationale behind such a judgement of even-worse-than-usual-for-the-time-misogyny based upon it. Such brutality wasn't isolated to women, men were treated just as abominably. She talks of their humiliation to evidence her point, but again, men were faced with the same. (Ask Richard Whiting who got dragged up Glastonbury Tor at nearly 80, whose case involved, 'to be tryed [presumably for treason] at Glaston and also executyd there' from cromwell's remembrances; or John Forrest, who was strung up in chains, which is a humiliating - to use her term - prolonged death in itself, but was also supposedly burnt using kindling made from a statue of a saint - oh how clever of you!). We don’t (afaik) have letters or remarks which reflect cromwell’s views on women in the same way as for Norfolk, for example. it's just a bizarre extrapolation to me. again, imo it's an incredibly dark, ruthless streak through his personality. it seems to have been his standard handling of any major execution. Also, to be clear, I’m not suggesting he wasn’t sexist/misogynistic, because ofc he was. All men back then were, as a symptom of living and socilisation in such a patriarchal society.
(also interesting for her to pair this suggestion w/ her thoughts about his marriage come to think of it. she seems to be linking the two in a broader picture, I assume wherein this should be added to the ‘evidence’ he didn’t/couldnt have loved his wife)
also the contrast of his physical looks in the Holbein, against his 'becoming' a 'convivial figure' in MacCulloch's work, is disappointing. not reading personalities from portraits, nor ascribing negative character traits to appearances and/or weight (implicitly or otherwise) shouldn't be a big ask, but apparently is. It'd be a wee bit different if she’d pointed to his expression - I still think that’s an unsound way to go about things fwiw - which at least isn’t intrinsically linked to his features, but alas no.
Lastly, re: MacCulloch’s arguments, i would say he’s more impartial than she implies. He might be Anglican, but I wouldn’t say he’s ‘on the Protestant side’ particularly. I struggle to see how his presentation of Catholics - from what i remember, altho it’s been a while since i've read it - is less than fair? He directly praises more and fisher iirc. but someone with a better knowledge of the book could correct me on this point.
also, positioning that he's on the 'protestant side', alongside the next line being about his argument that cromwell was grieving, is an interesting choice. is the suggestion that if you agree with the latter your sympathies must lie with "protestantism"? that it's only through a biased lens you could reach that conclusion? sksjksjk diabolical suggestion that that's the only reason anyone might consider he mourned his wife. like am i going insane or is it genuinely what she's saying??… i cant see why she'd juxtapose those specific points otherwise. Like critiquing mantel's comments about catholics and their presentation in wolf hall is fair enough, but connecting that with the fact she wrote cromwell as 'heartbroken' and that he loved his wife, comes across to me as though she's suggesting the former should invalidate mantel's interpretation of the latter. which again i dont think is fair based on the evidence we do have..
I would also question (because it is confusing to me) despite the fact that MacCulloch and Mantel were friends, why the “”””””happy marriage”””””” across both works is the way in here??? like why are you so bothered as to both lead and finish the article with that?
(And, frankly, MacCulloch paints a picture of a happier marriage - he writes that the simplest explanation is, ‘he couldn’t bear to marry anyone else’ - than Mantel does. Who presents their relationship as literally (as in, textually), ‘loves’ but not ‘in love’. and has him actively wanting to remarry. she had a line in TMATL that goes he was ‘mostly faithful’ which? I’m not sure if she meant to imply infidelity but… altho she did present a picture of him missing her i guess)
#it’s just so bizzare. utterly utterly bizarre#… obsessive; even#he probably loved his wife and grieved when she died?!?#screaming crying throwing up#it's possible to acknowledge he did some awful things. whilst also suggesting he loved his family. they're not mutually exclusive#I’ve said it before I’ll say it again#why do some people have an inability to be normal and not deranged about this man#additionally#there’s more than enough to reasonably say about Cromwell. about henry too. but some of what's written verges on ridiculousness. or farce#the preoccupation w/ their looks and weight specifically is a particularly common one.. suddenly I’m prepared to go to the mat. to the dirt#to paraphrase a hilarious meme; 'touch their minds lord!'#if this was a considered criticism of the work. absolutely fair play. but it’s just? not?#it’s almost like her airing a personal beef with this dead man who’s long since been bones#it's so funny when historians clearly have a weird personal vendetta w a Tudor figure. just go have a matcha latte and calm down#you get the same with Anne Boleyn too#very much a 'why are you so obsessed w/ me' vibe. imagine getting someone so bothered 500 years later#RATTLED lol#a bitter irony that though they (arguably) werent allied in life; in death they're getting the same groups of people furious#love that for them#(also I’m not trying to act like a stan here btw but her patronising tone when she's basing her points on nothing is irritating lol)#tudor history#Thomas Cromwell#Diarmaid MacCulloch#the Tudors#wolf hall
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Some people will never ask for your side of the story because the side they hear fits the description of how they want to feel about you.
#sadgirl#im sad and tired#im screaming inside my head#i'm sad#sad boy#sad but true#sad thoughts#help my brain#screaming crying throwing up#sorry lol#its true#true story#true and honest#facts#seriously though#true
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days without crying over them counter: 0
#rambles#delete later#like I actually am so fucking mad im SO MAD still#i need to move on but it’s like im stuck in that week#i don’t even think I have the words. i just feel so fucking betrayed. i feel insane#i hope they think of me and feel guilty. i hope they need advice and wonder what I would say#i hope they get HIT BY A CAR!!!!!!#i feel vaguely like I was preyed on. they admitted to trying to seduce me on purpose so I’d have sex with them#as an at-the-time-asexual virgin. and I was sooo flattered lol but now I’m just like. okay. what the fuck#they made me feel sooo loved and flattered and desired right up until they didn’t#and what was with the weird mixed signals. that was the reason I couldn’t move on from my crush#‘I don’t want anything right now’#okay then stop kissing my hand and cuddling me and calling me over to ask me unnecessary questions while you’re in the shower#stop mentioning how attractive I am and stop flirting with me#I’m killing myself what did I even mean to you was I just entertainment#like what did I even fucking mean I’m going insane#all I want to know is what I fucking was. yeah sure I was your ‘best friend’ who you had no issues with cutting off for no reason#i was your ‘best friend’ who you never texted first#what the hell WAS i#you came to me for advice and support and comfort so was I a therapist#that one night when I was crying and begging you not to leave me alone for the night#you promised me we’d call the next day#you hung up and we never called the next day. even though I asked twice#i bent over backward for you constantly and you couldn’t even be bothered to check in when I was having a fucking crisis like okay lmao#I’m gonna throw up I need to stop thinking and go to bed#and yet I still miss them so fucking much. so so so so much. i miss the affection. i miss being held. i miss their voice and smile#I’d let them mistreat me if it meant I got some kind of attention from them and that really makes me hate myself lol#maybe I’m just another creepy obsessed guy now#i FEEL obsessed. i feel insane. i feel disrespected and maltreated and also very very lonely#my face feels crusty from crying maybe it is bedtime
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what are your interests that aren’t yakuza
uhm. a lot !!! I think !!!
#snap chats#dont think its a surprise to say i love sonic. i dont post bout it anywhere but i do very much love sonic#and kirby !!!! i love kirby .... and like. other videogames 💀#i like talking about comics with my bro. we rewatched all the xmen movies since i was leaving for college and that was funny#i get legal rights to mention that today cause someone did a minedai ver of a lipstick ad james mcavoy and michael fassbender were in#i did scream and cry when i saw it. btw. its bookmarked in my heart and on my twitter but moving on#dragonball's alright. i GUESS. i GUESS i like dragonball ... i havent been keepin up with it but daima's droppin oct 11th so i heard#maybe i oughta go back to reading manga .. thatd mean i go into a bookstore again vjaLKAJ#i also like reading :) but i dont exactly make fanart for reading jvELKVJA#SO FUNNY THO my library was giving away free dupe books and i know the librarian scared of me walking away with two piles#lets just get back to videogames that was easier. i like metroid :) gonna throw up when MP4 comes out#though. VERY funny that they didnt remaster MP2 and MP3 for the switch before but whaddya gonna do i'll live#metroid fusion is real fun ...... i really like metroid fusion ... yk maybe i dont have a lot of interests#MEGAMAN I LOVE MEGAMAN and resident evil …… capcom gang ……. ace attorney omg them too 😩#i always think AA is sega but no its not. criminal but it does mean phoenix wright shows up in MVC so thats alright ig#at least not. franchise? interests? like i like sports and Reading As I Said but i aint bloggin bout that#yeah idk. 'what are yuor other interests' is such an odd question cause i HAVE other interests i just dont think about it#yk. unless i have a blog for it LOL but for most of these i dont#but yeah i guess. theres that !!!!!! its like 1AM im definitely excluding things i like but vjlaekvjaeklJVELAKJ
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i think if i tried hard enough i could be an ocguy. if i really tried
#bobtalk#i like my ocs!!! (theyre more vibes based than anything) (whenever i get art of them i throw up crying happy)#...........but i like never draw them lmao#but making newer. slightly less just vibes based ocs has been fun...still not good at designing though >_< lmao. my range is pretty small#have my cake (ocs ive had for Years that im emotionally attached to) and eat it too (new guys with more solid details/lore lmao)#i should work more on developing a wider range for sure ngl. also get my shit more consistent. and also <- he has much to learn re:art#(when i have more free time...! please........)#by the way. if i could instantly beam any skill into myself. it would be writing. because lol. lmao even. but we ball!!!#things that looking on artfight will have a guy pondering. indeed#(got some schoolwork done today....a lot left to go before the semester's over but...! progress...! urghgh! goodnight now<3)
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It's funny how my psychiatrist and psych nurses are all so supportive about my as of yet undiagnosed physical issues and do their best to keep those in mind when we discuss my care. Meanwhile GP and qualified doctors either tell me to "not compare my googling to their medical degree" or go all "yeah EDS sounds quite likely actually but there's no point diagnosing that since it cannot be cured anyway"
#the fact that eds + pots + fibromyalgia ALL run in the family doesnt matter apparently#throwback to last year when visiting that side and someone not even related who was there took ONE look at me and sibling and went#''omg you really ARE related!!!'' after they saw our fucked up overy bendy joints#i guess i have to pay for having unusually good psychiatric care compared to most lmaoooo#would have been lovely to know whats wrong though before the painful surgeries#im incoherent cause my pulse started racing to the point i couldnt form words or even stand#its calmed down now but i feel so distraught over recovering from psychosis finally#only for my body to break down even more#i dont know how to not feel despair and hopelessness#im so tired of the pain and exhaustion and not being able to do even basic things#so tired of staring at my ceiling so often because i cant even lift my head#i should make a specific whining tag because i should shut up about this but i cant#idk what itd be thougy im too sad and upset rn#im sorry#silvi talks#<- can at least block that if tired of my yapping#im open for tag name suggestions#maybe ''silvi is crying screaming throwing up'' lol#idk
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You guys don't know how wrong it feels to be Halloween and be into masked men, everytime I see a Ghost (Simon), Michael Mayers or Ghost (Scream) costume the only thing I can imagine is getting fucked at a party or anywhere by them.
Them grabbing me by my throat and telling me how of a good girl I am for being their little cum dumpster.
Them spreading my legs and inserting all the length inside of the wet pussy that's already ready and waiting for them to use.
Them leaving me unable to walk after the hardest fuck I've received in all my fucking life. Overestimated, creampied, and clenching pussy because of them.
#crying and throwing up#fanfiction#call of duty#lol#simon ghost riley#cod mw2#halloween#masked#masked men#hornyposting#seriously though#just thinking#imagine#scream movie#ghost#michael myers#i need therapy
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honestly it's crazy that pierre isn't alpine's lead driver. lol (through gritted teeth)
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But I know that this? This is nice
#screaming crying throwing up#so annoyed I didn't dye my clothes red though lol#bg3 spoilers#yes this was worth back tracking 7 hours of game play
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''I'm not like other americans I wear skirts tee-hee'' everyone wears skirts lol you're not special
I'm special, everyone says so. 🩷
#It really is just yoga pants and jeans/slacks in the city though#More and more girls are starting to wear skirts lately though which is really cute#And honestly I got mildly picked up for only wearing skirts when I was in middle/high school which is silly but it's kind of rare here#Mostly I just hate how pants feel tbh#And I don't like the looks lol I tried to wear yoga pants to work once and an old man took a picture of my butt while I was grabbing a drin#The camera shutter went off and everything I wanted to throw up and cry and never wore them again#Long skirts hide your form more so I only wear tiny ones or pants when I'm out with my fiancé and men can't be creepy
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convinced a friend to read dungeon meshi a little bit ago and tonight i’ve convinced them to read skip to loafer after im a god among men
#YAAAAHOO !!!!#they’re gonna love stl. can’t wait for them to scream and cry and throw up about it#first they have to finish dunmeshi though lol#mine
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anyways learning more abt Zevlor's betrayal and yea ok ig the tiefs are valid to hate his ass u_u just learned they were getting dismembered bit by bit out there while he was failing his saving throw. Super glad all the kids made it though that's something
#this doesn't change any of my feelings about the man himself though i'd still forgive him in a heartbeat#Calli too I mean damn#Calliope just had her durge scene with isobel and then karlach back at camp#so she was crying pissing throwing up etc#finds out from the tiefs that Zevlor basically had his durge scene but failed the throws LOL#it's bad out there but these bitches are made for each other i swear#this isn't even headcanon territory this is all canon but i'm tagging it for refs sake#Zevlor Headcanon Factory
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