#create your own drama you deserve your own karma

[karmaismyfriend]

Can’t wait for the exposure of this nonsense😈

Truth will always come to the light 😈

☮️💟☯️

[kalki-tarot]

Your Future spouse's Late night Feelings

Pick only one picture that calls you out the most. Meditate and stay calm. 🤍✨️

This reading is only meant for entertainment purposes and kalki tarot is not responsible for any decisions you make in your life on behalf of these readings. The future is not set in stone and can be changed by only you. You have your own free will and you should be responsible for it.

This reading will talk about anything that comes through about what your future spouse thinks and feels late at night. Please take what resonates and leave the rest.

PILE 01.

First of all, they think of how they can become a better partner for you. They try to analyse themselves and think about how to please you more through their efforts. They think of giving you their love and affection but their inner conflicts stop them from doing so. They nay have anxiety or overthink a lot. They argue with themselves in their heads most of the times.

They think about their career too and what they can do to achieve more in life. They think of what higher education they should take up. Something heartbreaking must've happened in the past with them and they try to avoid these thoughts surrounding that painful situation but they can't help it. They get emotional and yearn for justice for what pain they have to go through.

I heard "conversations with god". If they believe in some higher power, they do talk to it and try to not cry. But they are overcoming this slowly. There is a woman in the picture, it can be you also, if you are in a relationship. They want to mend things with you. They want to start new. They are ready to give you what you want.

If you're not in a relationship then this person had a woman in their lives who broke their heart. They were too invested in it. They thought of them as their world but they broke their trust. They had arguments and shady fights. All these thoughts surround this person at night.

PILE 02.

This person is very lonely but not in a bad way or you can say that they are usually by themselves most of the time but they are actually comfortable in this silence. They have a hard time sleeping, it may take an hour for them to actually sleep. Very light sleep.

Most of the times when they are lying in their bed at night they criticize themselves. They want to do a lot of things and they think of plans and strategies. They don't really think about love, maybe you haven't entered in their life yet. They may have past lovers but they are over them fully. They are mature and grounded, very understanding person. They don't stay stuck in places. They think of their karmas and their destiny. Where would life take them next?

This is the best pile, they don't seem to worry about anything. Very peacful and no drama energy. I like this! They are comfortable with themselves. They may read books at night. And they create new stories in their heads. They think of how to make themselves a better human being. They also self introspect alot.

They think of starting something new or just doing new adventurous things. They also meditate late at night so they don't really have thoughts and significant feelings at night lmao. They try to heal themselves through this. They are slowly getting over a lot of things currently. It's their 'no drama only positive vibes' era.

PILE 03.

First of all, this can be a twinflame connection or you guys mirror eachother a lot. You feel what they feel and vice versa. 11, 22, 33 can be significant. This person definitely feels heartbroken in love.

I don't know but there is a 3rd party who's giving me energy sucker vibes. This person who you are asking about is a vercy compassionate human being and gives others more than they deserve. The same they did with this 3rd party but they used them.

They feel heartbroken because of this situation and now they are just focusing on their career. They are forced to leave this connection but there is something which is blocking them from doing so. Their guides are not letting them be in a toxic situation but they are not understanding the signs as these signs lead them to you. And they feel hella confused outta this situation.

[lick-me-lennon22]

How they'd comfort you after you've been betrayed by your friends

(requested by anon, who's recently experienced something that would be difficult for anyone to cope with 💘 I hope I'm able to provide you with some comfort during this rough time 💕)

John

when you share this news with John, he reacts with a mix of empathy and righteous indignation

he is gutted for you and vengeful, channeling his protective instincts and offering to confront the betrayers on your behalf

he recommends some of the outlets he uses to handle his anger (most of them aren't exactly healthy, but he means well)

he suggests writing a song together as a form of catharsis, spouting silly lyrics full of jabs at your "friends"

John would plan a date and take you out to the pictures to see a nice feel-good film

he records your favorite songs and some affirmations (as well as a few silly jokes) on cassette for you to listen to on particularly rough days

You know what? Screw 'em. You're too good for that kind of nonsense. You're a gem and anyone who can't see that doesn't deserve a spot in your life. It's their loss - not yours. Those so-called mates don't know what they're missing. And if you need me to kick some arse on your behalf, just say the word.

Paul

when you explain what's happened, Paul invites you to vent your frustrations over a few drinks or a cuppa

he adopts a gentle and reassuring tone, validating your emotions and reminding you of your strengths

he reassures you that what happened isn't your fault and that you've done nothing wrong

Paul would offer to arrange a small gathering or cozy night in with some friends and the other lads, complete with homemade food and lighthearted conversation

You invested a lot of trust and time in those relationships and you don't deserve to be hurt in such a way. It's beyond me how people can be so cruel, especially to someone as wonderful as you.True love, true friendship, they're built on a foundation of honesty and respect. Chin up, my dear. You're a beautiful soul with so much to offer. They're missing out on something truly special.

George

after you divulge what you've just been through, George shows you to a secluded spot - one where he often meditates - so you can vent in the privacy of nature and without feeling judged

has to tamp down his own frustration on your behalf - he knows people can be pretty unreliable, and he wants to guide you towards growth instead of resentment

he offers a reflective and philosophical perspective, telling you to have patience with yourself and set boundaries that honor your worth

he reminds you that sometimes these painful experiences can serve as catalysts for profound growth and self-discovery, and that karma has a way of taking care of things

George suggests exploring creative outlets and introduces you to some literature that will foster healing and help you take on a different perspective

Betrayal cuts deep, but it also reveals the true nature of those around us. You're not defined by the actions of others. The right people will be drawn to your radiance, and you're better off without that drama in your life. Trust that the universe has a way of aligning things in your favor and know that you're worthy of nothing less than genuine, unconditional love.

Ringo

as you vent your frustrations to Ringo, he offers a listening ear and shoulder to lean on without judgement

he provides constant reassurance and reminders of your worth and strength, making sure you know that the behavior of your "friends" says a lot more about them than it does about you

he tells you to focus on the present moment and emphasizes the importance relationship of self-care when it comes to healing

he'll lend his help with practical support such as running errands and helping with daily tasks, allowing you space to recover and take time for yourself

Ringo would suggest a spontaneous day trip or adventure to lift your spirits and create new memories

I know you've had a bit of a rough go lately, but you've got me to lean on. And I'm here to listen, to comfort, to support you in any way I can. You're strong, you're resilient, and you've got a whole lot of love to give. Rise above it - keep shining your light. Life's too short to give those pricks any more of your time. You're a treasure, love, and don't you forget it.

[11queensupreme11]

Me: I'm going to read Arsenic blues, wishing to see what the queen has to us ❤️

After reading the note: The fuck!?

Can't believe people are really stealing your job and asking why they haven't the right to it. People are crazier every time I check is half concerning and half amazing how their brains work

Have to be nice, living in that fantasy world for free and without Isekai yourself.

Be for real and growth. Write your own stuff and don't come here asking yourself why the author is mad when you literally just committed a CRIME

Anyway, great character as always queen! ❤️

It is amazing how Loki has one type, defender of rights only person here that knows about human rights and thinks they deserve it.

Loki's the "fuck around and found what happens" god and is always hurting him but he can't scape the consequences of his own actions

Dumb bitch, you're lucky you're hot

Baldur was the first to say: they deserve to live cause you created them and if they're bad it is because you all are worse, maybe if you all learn a minimum of moral they would be better ❤️

I love him, Loki really didn't deserve him, he doesn't deserve Percy either but Baldur is... *Chef kiss*

He was the first, if you know what I'm saying, it is even wonderful how a person (god) can be so kind without knowing what it really is. It is hard to be kind, but without an example!?

Made him the god of humanity and sent him far away from Loki's (too late)

Loki: what's wrong here? Him or me?

Me: You have one chance, and hint, it isn't Baldur you asshole

(That hint of karma. Poseidon is going to lose his daughter, one as loved as Baldur and it's just his fault cause he doesn't have a heart. Love that for him. I love him but I also love the drama)

(Maybe we're more like the gods that we like to think I guess)

Thinking about it, maybe Percy being too gremlin with him IS a good thing.

No matter what, that side of her, the way she's always ready to fight but also being ready to relax with him is his... Well, Loki is always on the edge, but her giving so much kindness to him is also pushing him away.

She chooses to spend time with him and genuinely enjoy that time when he isn't tricking her (to the surprise of EVERYONE including him)

(Percy, being too kind is one thing)

At least he's learning that maybe killing and hurting your loved ones isn't the best decision.

Took him millennials but progress is progress

For now, act 4 is going to give him a ticket express to that fall to madness

Beelzebub...

Well, his trauma is stopping him right now, but I trust him to find a way, it's the smartest one so I'm going to wait before saying something

(For once, the author's favorite is one of my favorites)

(Just laughed cause that is karma right there, you were the one always making the deals with bad ends, now is your turn babygirl. Still rooting for you king ❤️)

Thanks for the chapter Queen and remember, a alive Nico is the best kind of Nico ❤️

bro omg that plagiarizer was weird af. did you see the old ask asking for permission to make an hp x pjo x ror fic inspired by mine? THAT TURNED OUT TO BE THEM. they made a third wattpad account sfahdvbjhv 😭😭😭

i made another chapter calling them out on wattpad and they deleted the books and fucked off (they'll probably be back with a fourth account 💀) but yeah, that's just weird behavior fr 😭

and also.... the thing i wrote about poseidon getting karma? yeah, that's a big ass hint for the future HEHEHEHE

and yesss percy actually does enjoy loki's company most of the times, he just ruins it by... you know, being an asshole to her sometimes, but other than that, she likes hanging out with him! she actually considers him as a friend (but beelie is her #1 bestie in the ror verse LMAO)

[what-the-actual-wizardry]

Witchcraft Ask Game

What drew you to witchcraft?

It’s a funny story that I habitually tell (I may make another post about it later, haha). When I was in high school I was pretty intensely bullied. It was a small school, so most of the people that harassed me were paired up with one of the girls from the ‘popular’ brigade- athletes, cheerleaders, drama queens, etc. I started learning to tell fortunes as a novelty, something to entertain these girls, because I knew that their boyfriends wouldn’t beat on me in front of them. After that, it was a rabbit hole of talismans, sigils, and spellcraft. At some point I ended up telling fortunes professionally, for a shop, where I met the love of my life. I think I got the good end of it.

Do you follow a specific witchcraft tradition, or are you eclectic?

Not a tradition, no; my craft has migrated to be mostly practical and opportunist, with a sprinkling of whatever I understand and can use properly, with a distinct respect for closed traditions; I have been known to wander the campus telling fortunes for college kids, and make charms at times.

Do you believe in the Threefold Law, or karma in witchcraft?

No. Any definition of karma that I have heard has been through the wringer of misrepresentation so many times as to be unrecognizable, and the Threefold law is tripe designed to scare-monger people out of doing baneful magic. I believe that there will be equal consequences for any action, and that anyone with half a brain can run from those consequences, but the wise will know when the risk isn’t worth the gain. 

What advice would you give to someone who feels called to witchcraft but is unsure where to begin?

Misinformation abounds, so don’t accept any unbacked claims. The practice is deeply personal, and should be treated with similar privacy to the rest of your matters. This isn’t a hobby or a LARP, it’s a framework for changing your life. Similarly, other people’s practice will be different and equally deserving of respect, until it infringes on you. 

What tools or items are absolutely essential for your practice?

Essential is a stretch- some form of sortilege, a focus like a wand or crsytal, pen and paper, and access to the outdoors. Comfortably I would also have kitchen supplies, my amulet and scourge, and access to a library. 

Have you ever had a dream or vision that felt prophetic?

Several, but most notably: my father was working on the engine block in his truck. The hood was precariously suspended, and I heard a howl of agony somewhere far-off. I started towards him to stop the hood from falling, only for it to drop seconds later while my father let out that same wail, the hood having crushed the bones of his right hand.

What do you think of Aleister Crowley?

The man was utterly insane. What started out as a well-intended project to help the budding neo-pagan community flourish and release itself from the will of others became nothing more than a demented power trip fueled by megalomania by the end. His early work was excellent, but the man was utterly despicable otherwise.

Do you think witches can create their own deities?

There is a modern Christian saying that appeals to me here- that anything you devote yourself to becomes God. I think this has always been true. I don’t think deities exist without us. 

How do you feel about people worshiping deities from pop culture?

For clout? Iffy. Because they admire a quality associated with that character, and wish to see more of it in themselves? Rock on, little dudes. Worship Miku if it means you feel cute, musical and powerful. Worship fucking Tyrael if it means you understand the cost of true justice. Hell, worship Ragatha if it makes you a better and more empathetic friend. Just don’t forget what gods are for, yeah?

What’s your opinion on the idea that "all magic comes with a cost"?

See question 3, with the added caveat of this: Do you not think that the effort of gathering the herbs, studying the moon phases, writing the sigils, and showing up for the ritual is essentially paying for the magic? 

What’s the weirdest thing that’s ever happened to you during a spell?

I jokingly poured a bit of my ice water on the ground when it was barely starting to rain, and said ‘make it a good one.’ The clouds immediately began to darken, as if to say  ‘challenge accepted’, and the ensuing thunderstorm was the biggest in the valley in nearly three years.

If you could cast one spell right now, what would it be and why?

Probably the sigil I’ve been working on to seek purpose in my life. Feeling directionless lately. 

What’s your belief on the afterlife, and how does it affect your spiritual practices?

I hold the unique idea that we all go to the afterlife that, in the final all-consuming moment of peace or panic before death, we believe we deserve. I try not to do things that reflect poorly on my own moral boundaries as a result.

What’s your opinion on the importance of connecting with the land in witchcraft?

I haven’t noticed it to be necessary, just convenient and more personal overall. 

How do you feel about using magic to influence others?

I don’t like doing it. I don’t think it’s my right to choose. However, I acknowledge that by leaving my spells vague enough, I am still influencing actions that aren’t mine. I think that the best-intended magic will be performed through the right channels, but you should never influence somebody because of selfishness or a belief that you know better than them.

What’s your opinion on hexing or cursing?

Neutral; do it if necessary, but account for bystanders that might be harmed by the broader effects of your magic. 

Do you believe in spiritual psychosis?

Yes, having experienced it myself; I know that people can be driven to actions or beliefs that just don’t hold up to inspection by the errant belief in something deranged. Worse, if they sound convincing enough or have enough influence, they can arrange entire legions of victims ready to defend their cause, and thus the narrative that is harming them, to the death. 

When it was happening to me, I had to stop doing magic and start examining my world more closely. I was lucky enough to have people that helped me through that process. I can only hope the same for anyone else going through it, because it’s scary at times.

[horizon-verizon]

Im not sure if you watched ep. 3, but I feel like they’re utterly destroying Rhaenys’ character. Season 1 Rhaenys I liked, but this season she is already feeling so oddly out of character. The fact they made her defend Alicent to Rhaenyra is crazy to me.

Also Rhaenyra begging Alicent for peace?? What’s that about?

And Ulf being Baelon’s son pissed me off so bad. They could’ve chosen any other of Jaeherys’ children.

This episode is why I’m boycotting the rest of this show.

Haven't watched. And I don't have the desire to, either. Wrote about Rhaenys in these posts when others talked abt her recently: #1, #2, #3. Pointed out some in-HotD character inconsistencies, I believe, in the first linked post.

Answer to your rhetorical question: It's sexism:

Male Gaze and HotD -- xenonwitch

Essentialism in Pacifist Women v Violent Men - rhaenyragendereuphoria

Alicent, rhaenicent, Fascism, and Sansa Stans -- rhaenyragendereuphoria

Why Rhaenicent is so Popular -- me/rhaenyragendereuphoria

Excuse me anon, I'm taking this opp to rant again.

I mean, yeah, this is really just the show's MO and has been from the beginning, I just think people didn't really think about the implications of some of the changes they made and what they meant about how these writers saw the project they were creating so now they're caught by surprise at the stuff here. It's kinda understandable bc you just want to enjoy stupid drama sometimes. But I felt that it would inevitably travel towards interpreting the actual book/orig story itself bc people kept using the "two canons" and "F&B is a historical document w/biased/sexist writers" even when they did read the book....which shows how they didn't actually read the book or understand what the purpose of the unreliable narrators & how they are there to get readers to try to read between the lines as best they can and not take some things (not ALL things!) at face value. The book is presenting the reader with the opp to see how susceptible they are to propaganda and we are supposed to work through a process of battling the cognitive dissonance it creates and/or see our own biases while arguing how Rhaenyra DID NOT deserve her fate (Doylistically/exegetically). How greedy and violent men have over generations assured the demise of themselves in their exclusion of women. Sounds trite to those who don't understand the implications.

Which is parse out the truth as best you can, recognize patterns or deviations/inconsistencies (& think abt why those are there) from such to do so, understand the cultural and character context to understand the likelihood of that what Septon Eustace/Mushroom/Munkun/others all tell the version of an event the way they do. And, with any literary text, look to syntax, vocabulary, the use of some figurative language, tone, the mood the language sets and for what reason? That Rhaenyra likely sat the Iron Throne when she took back KL, that can't be denied. That she was bleeding bc she was "cursed" & "rejected", bc she was so "obviously" not worthy of the throne? That's what Septon Eustace wanted you to believe, just as he wanted people to not criticize Aegon for being with a 12 year old girl by saying "she was of good status to be a paramour".

Back to how people use this fallacious argument abt 2 canons and unreliability--I felt that people would use this to then argue that HotD was actually "revealing" mysteries and hidden truths of F&B/AWoIaF, and that was proven by how people think of the 3 eggs Dreamfyre laid that became Dany's dragons. Now you got people believing that they are Syrax's depsite how F&B makes it so damn clear they aren't. And so now you got people arguing for Baelon cheating on Alyssa the same way some were arguing for Rhaenyra to not be the person GRRM wrote her to be...karma keeps receipts.

This show is a money-making, marketing project that seeks to deny the sort of sexism-commentary F&B was actually doing or willfully misunderstands it and most lore in order to make bucks off a rich world. Because people in real life do not take sexism seriously, thus they do not know or care to understand the basic "woman=human" "idea". People even take pains to deny it at the same level or close to racism. It is the oldest form of discrimination...except maybe ableism?

The sooner people realize and internalize all that, the sooner they will not be disappointed by this show and be more interrogative of it.

Me, I chitter over the slowly accruing hatred for it on Twitter.

[whiskeyswifty]

what are your thoughts on the tour costumes? I like the flowy purple dress although it is so weird to see Taylor perform in something that is not sparkly. But overall it is pretty unexciting imo, though she looks hot.

I think overall, i'm pleased! Not impressed, but pleased! She's done worse, she's done better, but I think given the marathon of the show, the number of costume changes is impressive and even if they're not all exciting, i think she put her energy into the right places. let me explain.

the challenge of pop concert tour costumes is threefold;

1. you need them to highlight the popstar like a beacon so they don't get lost on the stage despite being a speck to people in the bleeders. everyone should know exactly where she is at all times. however you can accomplish that, via sparkles, costume size, bright colors, etc. that's paramount. football stadiums are massive.

2. you need them to be dynamic and entertaining, either by how they move and create shapes with the fabric or construction, or create characters that lend drama and action to the narrative of the show.

3. you need the popstar to be able to move in them in every direction, bend every joint, and be able to slip in and out of them easily, like within 5 seconds. the standard costume change for a pop tour is 10 seconds on average, and if you ever want to see how they do that, there are lots of youtube clips that show you performers quickchanging. it's like a race car surrounded by the pit crew, it's so impressive.

I think they all clearly show these concerns were considered in the choice of each one, and some of these concerns were weighted over others. given the run of songs, and the amount of costumes, 3 was the most prioritized and it shows with the simplicity of the costumes overall, at least in their construction. i don't mind that really, i get it. more elaborate getups like the red circus ringleader or very architectural costumes like you often see in beyonce shows are cumbersome and exhausting. the popstar only has a few second long breaks to get water squirted in their mouth. their energy needs to be devoted to singing and moving, not bearing the burden of sweaty, heavy costumes. as spectacular as they are, this isn't a broadway show, it isn't in a climate controlled environment, and it doesn't have breaks! it can be done but i understand why many popstars have forgone that costume style. ESPECIALLY if she's doing a 44 song run with no breaks. she needs every breath she has.

however i will say, while each individual costume was not particularly impressive on it's own, the reason i'm fine with her watering each of them down is because of the VOLUME of costumes she had! i think i've counted 12 so far, 13 maybe if you include add-ons? i might be missing some. and that choice was to make sure that each era has it's own appropriate characters, which is HUGELY important for this kind of catalog speedrun. that's very impressive! most era's having multiple costumes! and they're all very distinct from each other which is huge, even if on their own they're not particularly distinct as a piece of fashion or design. she get's an A++ for that, for creating era characters so you know exactly where you are, when an era ends, and it augments the feeling of the music/era the show is in. the folklore dress being flowy and ethereal, the effervescent crystals of the lover bodysuit looking almost multicolored*, and the shimmery Karma jackets in the end. they're all really distinct, with some even being updated throwbacks to old costumes, like the 22 shirt and the fearless dress. of course to accomplish that many changes without leaving the stage too often, it requires quick changes that force the simplification of the costumes, but that is a fair trade i think. that volume of costumes deserves a lot of merit because it took a lot of thought and planning to make sure the costumes chapterized the show like that. well done overall in that regard.

and i do think in terms of number 1, they popped on the stage! it helped that this show is sneakily a 360 show, with most of the action happening center stage where it's pretty bare. so there's little obscuring her, but even then, she's easy to find. they help do that by muting the backup dancer costumes, so she's always the pop of color in the bunch. so very thoughtful and using the best resources they have to pull of this herculean task.

all in all, i think it's effective and impactful as a whole, and it's not super realistic to hope for full outfits of yesteryear. while i don't think the show itself is particularly engaging or impressive, that's because the main priority was cramming as many songs in as possible across 10 albums. because of that, you're going to lose many of the signature aspects of a popstar show in return. there's no time to establish a consistent theme or commit to really showy, theatrical performances of any particular song, including the costumes that come with that. everything has to be gone in 10 minutes at most. it's a vehicle for her discography on shuffle and to please as many people in the audience as possible. i'm at peace with that choice, as much as i don't prefer it when i go to a pop show. but with that as her priority, i think she pulled it off extremely well from where i'm sitting! also i didn't actively hate any of them i think except the rep one. the one leg out bodysuit looks soooo stupid to me. sorry!

also she looked very hot. like the entire time. yeah sighhhh.

*but not rainbow... and i found it SO FUNNY that after an entire lover era of blatant rainbow attire.... for the lover era in this show she watered down the rainbows until they were no longer there and wore essentially just clear/white for.... reasons aldkfjaldkfd. she said gay rights OVER. i no longer know any gay people!!

[bluehwale]

What the actual fuck. I’m sorry, but who the hell is so extremely stupid to hate on your friends?! Like what do they expect you to do? Hate on your own friends?? Ditch the people you know and like and suddenly start hating on them? And for what? Like what reason is there to hate somebody who is just minding their own business and who I guess these people who wrote those messages don’t even know??? 🤨

Seriously this got me soo mad because why do some people need to do this? And literally people here do not now each other enough to even have a real reason to hate each other fr. And the people you manage to get to know on this app are people you are willingly talking to?? Like there is the option to block people without creating unnecessary drama around it 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

Sorry for ranting I’m just extremely mad and sad this is happening to you. Nobody deserves to be hated, but you and actually all of the people I came across in this app seem so kind that I just can’t imagine what on earth could make someone so angry to just hate on you/or your friends…

I wish we could just enjoy being here without this unnecessary hate, but since it’s not possible (because some people can’t just shut the fuck up) please take a break if you need one. It’s important that you enjoy being here and we (the normal people who enjoy your blog and the interactions you have with your friends) will wait for you 🤍

Enjoy the comeback (lord help us all honestly - aoty is coming I can feel it in my bones) and please ignore these idiots (literally have no better word for them 😑). Have a nice day, you really deserve it.

Sorry I was (still am) so angry I didn’t realise how much I wrote 😅

omg pls don’t apologize bcs ure speaking straight FACTS man i literally dont understand what goes thru ppl’s heads sometimes

i also felt ur anger like my brain went ?!?! nthen my heart started pumping like crazy bcs NO ONE MESSES W MY FRIENDS TF but ykw let bigots be bigots ik karma will get them <3

again, thanku sm for ur comforting words ily ☹️🫶

[existentialmagazine]

Review: jazzygold’s soulful new anthem ‘ex-friends’ explores the pain and strength that comes through a friendship breakup

Known for her gorgeous blends of R&B with soul, alternative-pop and indie essences, jazzygold is an artist alike no other. As the artist project of Jasmin Mote, this woman of colour from the Faroe Islands has sought to be the figure she needed growing up, giving young girls like her a figure that looks like them to look up to. With an assortment of singles like ‘lonely afterparties’ and ‘homerun’, this talented up-comer has proven herself as an artist worth listening to time and time again.

Exploring the challenges that friendships can face, jazzygold’s newest single is one that draws on those relationships that sometimes we can overlook, with friendship losses and fake friends often being even more devastating than any heartbreak. Aptly titled ‘ex-friends’, everything about the soundscape is familiar yet refreshing for this sure-to-be star, slow and soulful in ways that cannot help but feel nourishing. With slow bass twangs, steady beats and synth pulsations, the almost sultry leading ambience is hard to deny, an easy listen for a song that’s rooted in aching emotion.

Despite the verses’ carefree attitude and newfound confidence in letting go, the chorus is much more buried in angst, a fiery burst of bottled-up feelings. With blaring sirens, intense drums, dominant guitar, drawn-out synth keys and jazzygold’s vocals at their most powerful yet, this eruption feels almost alternative-rock adjacent. With a relentless need to be heard, her words float through a range of soft lows and emphatic highs, a seriously impressive belting of confidence no longer hiding in the shadows.

Drawing on her own experiences, jazzygold admits “This track is for anyone who’s learned the hard way that friendship breakups can hurt more than any relationship drama. But it’s also about reclaiming your power, rebuilding yourself, and knowing karma will handle the rest.” Between its anger and hurt comes a newfound self-worth, charged-up on the fire of knowing what you deserve despite being treated as lesser than. With admissions like ‘wanted them to pick me’, jazzygold admits that these were people who’s opinions mattered greatly to her, desperately seeking their approval. The tables have turned though, now singing ‘karma always finds a way back home to you’, putting her faith in the universe to deliver what they deserve. Despite their attempts to harm her name by ‘painting me as the villain’ , jazzygold takes the high-ground, singing with such a modest front that just makes her work feel that bit more real.

If you’re in need of a friendship break-up anthem, look no further than ‘ex friends’ here!

Written by: Tatiana Whybrow

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[whitefluffybearcub]

8/1/2024

— the Crafters of intricate deceits and the masters of complex manipulations, they themselves, one day also would not recognize what is real or fake, what is true or false, what is genuine or not.

They also get a taste of their own doings and become imprisoned by the mazes they have created.

It is how the narrative goes.

8/2/2024

— on the high and main stages, “they” are all brought for. Their words, not really theirs. Their persona and traits, portrayed by a third party, not really them.

They sold their souls and now are selling products trends or thoughts

They all answer to their masters and do their biddings.

There is nothing more to these.

8/3/2024

— in the realm of the inverted, everything is seemingly as it should be but one must figure out for themselves what is love and isn’t, and what is genuine and not, as they should.

— humans that operate at the same level of vibration, would express themselves in the same concept but in different fashion and scenarios.

— you are hurt but you won’t allow yourself to heal. You find superficial means to remedy and numb the pain but it keeps coming back.

What torture, to be imposed by one’s self.

— it is all just dreams. Don’t be afraid.

8/4/2024

— you can’t make someone see what you see. They see it as their soul designates it to be.

Each perception in this realm is its own world. They must experience via how their soul has planned.

8/7/2024

— in the human realm, one has to choose low vibrational energy so they can experience what it has been designed for them.

This would explain why some steal, cheat, lie, and others.

— human egos are to be served as human triggers and catalysts of the narratives.

8 /11/2024

— yes, greed is low vibrational energy but also a great teacher.

— some people live for the drama. That would have to do.

— we all are conduits of energy in this simulation trying to play out one of narratives in the infinite, while having a individualized and conscious experience.

— in the era everyone is the big star. Ego has many students in this classroom.

— could you ever imagine while in this world, her star on the most famous stage ultimately leads her to ruins.

8/14/2024

— deep down you know what you deserve for your doings. It plays out in front of your eyes in every waking breath.

8/15/2024

— if they are selling goods for the devil, they cannot energetically be a genuine and good person.

— karma sometimes comes at the end and it would hurt the most.

Nonetheless it is just part of the simulated narrative in this simulation.

— everything and everyone is energy, and when in this humanly realm it would have its own designated story. The stories collide as well.

A complex system of energy within a simulation and yet all is just an illusion, except love.

— start enjoying watch people play with karma. Spoiled alert, karma always wins like an automatic computer program, it would find its ways to balance. It is how this simulation is based on.

8/18/2024

— the superstars of your choice, are selling you poison that they don’t take, and are presenting a facade that they do not live up to.

All it takes is a paycheck and a threatening master, and they are made into superstars of your dreams.

Human Life is somewhat inverted. You may see one day or you may not.

— money, fame, power, exploitation, and ego, will always corrupt innocent hearts.

— mirror mirror on the wall, who is going to be cancelled today of them all?

When fame meets a hate train, both sides would be blind, and be taken over by the energy.

8/19/2024

— Let go. Let love.

— the increasing corruption of decay would only lead to its own death, sooner or later.

— in the world all walks of life that you see. All of them are hardened by pain, healed by love, and softened by kindness and compassion.

8/20/2024

— when you start questioning everything in this reality, it is when you realize all is not what it seems yet all is by design.

The awakening. Little by little, each time a spoonful.

— you all are going to abandon your castles at some point, especially when your karma is knocking.

8/21/2024

— hatred is a temping energy. It draws attentions and gives a false feeling of satisfaction and Justice.

Yet on the hate train, no one would find genuine happiness and peace, especially energetically. It all leads to depression.

That is the price of hate.

— if what you are watching is depressing and fear mongering, simply change the channel to something happier.

Focus on what you want for you. Your choice. Your experience. Your life.

— elevate.

Forgive all and let go thoroughly, when you know that all is by design in this realm.

8/24/2024

— bad guys are written into stories to do bad things. Actors are to play bad guys to fulfill the experiences of stories to its audience.

It all serves a purpose.

8/26/2024

— these who speak, their influences, words, and actions touch on many, then you realize they all answer to someone in which further answer to the same masters of a small circle. There may be many layers and compartments in between but they all end up speaking and pushing the same outcomes.

Step back and you’d see. It is how this reality is designed.

— no matter what part you play in this simulated game, I pray for your wellness with love.

8/29/2024

— the bad in this reality would lead to its own death in a lower vibrational ways, so the new can begin but eventually it would become a vicious cycle.

It is made this way for its participants to experience therefore it just has to be.

If this is what is in store for you. May you learn from it, see the patterns.

8/30/2024

— if you keep feeling disappointed, stop chasing, instead find some clarity from where you are.

Life is telling you and teaching you something.

8/31/2024

— no one on earth is misery free. It is how well you can heal, but you also don’t have to.

Which one do you wish to experience? My love.

[cosmicangel888]

SET THE 5D BEDDING ~ INFINITE = INFINITE

Never settle

Never settle

Never settle

Set the foundations of your 5D BEDDING ~ GRACIOUS LOVE, GRACIOUS RESPECTFUL RELATIONSHIPS & ROLES

God, Creation is infinite God has removed, taken you, moved those out of your life that had 0 respect, honour and equally yoked sense of self

From here on out -

Being compassionate doesn't mean you tolerate abuse; mentally, emotionally, spiritually, or sexually, physically

Be compassionate, be certain, and know all is One ~ yes, but you are not to be the stepping matt for those that simply choose to not be accountable for their life, health, woundings, and how they wound others in choosing degrading lifestyle; all must be equal in vibration - all must seek within to choose who they are - 

You cannot do the work and inner clearing, inner self love, inner self realization of Oneness with God for any

You can only do this, practice 5D for yourself and none have any right, nor authority to continue the games of entitlement, selfish gain from you doing the work

CHOICE = REALITY ~ ALL MUST CHOOSE WHO THEY CHOOSE TO BE ~ follower or maker of new realities

The healing must be acknowledged and accounted for all actions, deeds, that which harmed you and took from you -

~ Ascension is an inner sacred journey

~ All must do the work

There is infinite portals for learning, seeking, reaching out - and offer those that have trouble detaching from you such community and online resources

* free online searches for online counselling, online groups for support moving through healing

* free community outreach for substance abuse, and outreach support groups -

* show - when you choose to make yourself first

- The Universe will bring you what you are worthy of - because you choose to see it, be it, live it within yourself

You deserve unconditional love You deserve unconditional respect and honour of you, your unique expression, your unique voice, and sense of being

Your unique sense of self is everything Your soul is everything Your ancestors, guides, teams, God, all is helping you ~ supporting you - you deserve to reach out and be more of you God and Creation is about expansion, evolution, exploration, expression

- this is CREATION

Therefore, Look at your life every day

Do the basics for ascension

* Daily self care, daily self love,

* identify and release toxic energies, patterns, habits, and create in self love, and release and make it very clear to those that test you, pull on you, play with your life like it is a game - standards of communication, rules of engagement so that all boundaries are respected and met - otherwise you can choose to seek other outlets for safety and protection to ensure your rights, spiritual and human are being respected

* release what is projecting, acting, behaving to make you feel small and unimportant - these are not friends and it is ok to love from a distance and send light, but your role and your path is you - not doing the work for those that choose to not do the work

without any accountability - there is little chance of healing and therefore you become the siphoning well for others that continue to take, steal, theive, deceptive ways of taking, making your life theirs

these are deep wounds of 'no sense of self' and to take life force from anyone in any way they can; people use orgies, sex, drama, gossip, chaos, games, schemes, underground games and pyramids, sacrificing and we must discern every energy exchange before us - all are responsible for their own God life, light, energy - and all are responsible for their own healing - and clearing their karma

you do not have to accept hidden agendas for abuse ~ covens, cults, masonic groups that agenda control, taking, scheming, taking over and above others - these are karmic cycles and energies ~ so discern the cycles and step out - and move away

Walk away and move on - have them faced their choices, and beliefs - accountability is the only way to bring forth change and that comes from pure of heart -

All must want to change to ignite change - ©

* Ascension is a choice

Choose to heal and transcend and transmute - all are loved unconditionally but know the deep toxic patterns, and darkness, black magic spiritual war-fare is the last ditch effort for those to pull you back into warped situations and karmic mess due to imbalance, inner sickness and no sense of self

- NEVER SETTLE

All must do the inner work

All have equal access to God

- Do you choose yourself

- Any manifestation is now moving into a 4D-5D level - and will not occur unless you harmonize within a multi-dimensional perspective and knowing

Magic is the being Godly

No one is worth sacrificing your heart, soul, spirit, values, and morals to what is respectful human treatment

- We are here to care, make, create and explore our expansiveness, and express it as uniquely genuine as we are with GOD

This is our birthright -

No longer will we be of the death of the Christ,

His message was 'never give your life away to dominance, control, degrading, devaluing and disrespecting of the Heavens and its unique loving spirited knowing of all life, unity with all life, and the light body that is our destiny of ascension'

Jesus's messages were for each of us - discrimination is the taking of what is rightfully our own for the benefit of others - be it double standards, the abuses of the elite, the abuses of power, energy, and information, and the people to fit false narratives and need for power, dominance over others - corruption is and all get to choose Release any and all that is fixated in control, fear-based tactics, and domination

- ABUSE, CORRUPTION, CRIME, VIOLENCE is not necessary

--> ALL IS HEALABLE --> understand ascension, understand healing, woundings, how to reclaim your sense of self, being, remaking of you

- we are no longer 3D - we are moving, shifting, awakening

- all is a new beginning

~ > let go and move on out of disrespect of your life

- * daily self loving connection, care with you and how life is your canvas

The only way through our daily challenges and triumphs, is truth, honouring your inner spirit, and soul

Self love is everything

Never settle for conformed abuses, and limitation of your purpose, destiny, and voice to make a difference

More on Creational Realities;

Paradigms Shifting of Consciousness ~

Perfection of the Divine Plan for all life;

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~ Email me at JoannaCosmicAngel@yahoo.com

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Blessings and light

Joanna

More on Creational Realities;

Paradigms Shifting of Consciousness ~

Perfection of the Divine Plan for all life;

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Email me at JoannaCosmicAngel@yahoo.com

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[xo-cuteplosion-xo]

Hello! I want to start by saying that I’m totally in love your BSD works. If it’s alright, I wanted to make a request~ I’d love to see a Kunikida x Reader (preferably she/her) angst fic 💔 with the prompt “Please... please don’t look at me with such hatred, I’m begging you.” (coming from the reader)

It might be something related to a case they work on that contains a controversial topic and the reader turns out to be morally grey about it, creating a contrast with Kunikida’s snow white, ideal morals and maybe triggering his past traumas. Or anything else that you think would create a beautiful angst with Kunikida, this was just an example! The ending is also up to you, you might just finish it in a dark, angsty mood or shift to fluff/comfort; I’d probably prefer the second ending but if you don’t feel like it, I’m alright with anything!

Oooo I don't get requests for Kunikida much, so this one made me super excited to write! I hope it lives up to your expectations. 

The gray between right and wrong |Kunikida x Female Reader|

Prompt|“Please... please don’t look at me with such hatred, I’m begging you.”|

Warnings| mentions of implied abuse ( the case being worked on)

Notes- there are she/her pronouns used. (third-person for a few paragraphs)

Words- 2163

~

Beneath what appears is always an underlying layer of difference. Between the right and the wrong, there is always a between. Separating black from white lay a thin sheet of gray. With every decision, there is indecision. No mortal can exempt themselves from these concepts. To be morally white is to ignore being human. To be perfect is to ignore your imperfections. Even those with the strongest of morals have moments of doubt and indecision. There is always the what if I was wrong. While a person's morals appear crystal clear and white to them, to another, to society, their morals may not be as clear as they say. While one may say that theft is gray, one may also argue theft is black. It can be gray because theft may lead to survival. While the counter-argument says it is black, as it takes what could have helped earn somebody a living without giving in return. As long as the person believes they are right, their morals can be completely white. Such a person does exist, a person who sees it all, every right and wrong choice, every counter and rebuttal, they do exist within the mundane world. Such people turn to their ideals as a way of living life. Such was the case with the agency’s Doppo Kunikida. A man whose life was completely planned out, a man who lived his day on a schedule created for his specific needs. His every movement a routine planned out without a second of hesitation. There was another within that agency who found her morals to be pure and untainted. To him, she was the ideal woman, level-headed and strong on her own. Somebody he could rely on, without worrying his schedule would suffer.

The case the two were working on was fairly simple, but involved complicated matters. Drama among the home was always complicated. While upfront one would say the situation was dreadfully obvious, another could notice something missing. These situations, especially involving abilities, can become a tangle of lies, deception, and cunning twists. This was one of the few cases one could rely on their moral sense of justice. These situations were the trickiest, lying within morally gray areas of different sizes and classifications. He looked at her walking while jotting small notes and thinking to herself. He wondered what was on her mind as they went on their way to investigate the crime. “Is there something bothering you?” he asked before looking down at his watch, it was alright to slow their pace. Arriving too early would disturb the latter of their day. Judging by their location and the remaining distance, they could half their current pace and still be thirty seconds early. Best not to risk it considering traffic and unforeseen issues could arise at any given moment. Slowing down just enough to talk would not hurt though, even if they came into a disturbance, they would be there on time.

Looking at him with e/c eyes, you shrugged. Closing your notebook and pocketing the pen you had been holding. If there was something on your mind, it would be the confusing state of this case. On one hand, there was black, murder, and on another hand, there was something else. It wasn’t white or gray, but closer to a blackening gray. Murder was wrong, no matter what, at least that was how Kunikida, your partner, would view it. To him, there was no doubt in his mind that this case was going to end in the pursuer being sent to jail, tried for the sin they committed. 

Then why, why was it that you found yourself morally gray with this case? You had never been so unsure of an answer before. An accidental murder, an act of defense, an act of pure hatred. Did these concepts change the black to gray? Murder stayed indifferent, it stayed wrong, but could it be justified? Surely Kunikida would agree that at times certain morals had to be bent, laws had to be made to accustom these morals. So you answered him honestly, for lying in itself was never the right decision, even in the event to spare another's feelings, you were honest and down to earth with your approach. “The case is bothering me, that’s all.” It was not a half-truth, simply not the full reason. He never asked why, just as you never pressured to why he had so many ideals written out in that notebook of his.

Stepping inside the warehouse where the case had originally started, one of the family members stood waiting. After your kind introduction, the woman, in her late twenties, answered little of what pressed on your mind. Though she did make one small flutter of anxiety run rampant over your heart. Like a stampede of gazelle rushing to escape a predator, your heart pounded under the force. While she covered her words with unsure and terrified stillness, her hands had trembled and her words contradicted with the smallest of minuscule details. It reminded you of a memory you had. So the question softly fell in the silence. Your words pin against the stone; an unpleasant ding to stir up the room. So morally confident that an accidental death inflicted by self-defense as an ability activated unconsciously for the first time was unpunishable. Sometimes, bad people get karma in unimaginable ways. The fault falls on the cruel ways of that person. “You're the wife, so you should be able to answer with honesty. Was he kind to you and your daughters? Did this man ever hurt them?” with a horror-stricken face, the woman leaped from the box she had fallen onto earlier. Her face contorted in rage and shock. For a moment, a fading bruise showed itself on her wrist.

With a confident stare, you met her quivering eyes. The smallest tear pooling out of the corner. With such tender lips, the woman looked to the blonde you cared so much for. When her eyes settle back onto yours, she held nothing but regret. “He would have killed her, my baby girl.” She whispered such words softly, and you nodded. Walking her out with shaking hands, you smiled. “Your child did nothing wrong. The fault lays within the attacker.” Was it those words that triggered the beloved blond? So focused on comforting the mother you had forgotten you had him with you. So overly confident in your decision, you did not realize how morally gray that sentence had been. No human, no matter how evil deserves death's punishment. For most that punishment is nothing but freedom from hell. That was something you had learned from another co-worker. The suicidal maniac had a thing for death and would say the harshest yet most delicate sentences that stuck with you.

Kunikida stared in shock, never had he imagined she’d speak such words. Somebody who had fit all his ideals, somebody whom he had connected with, was justifying the slaughter of a man. It didn’t matter whether this man had hurt others, you locked a criminal up, you did not murder them. Murder, no matter the reason was murder, there was no right or wrong when it came to murder. As he listened to those words, a memory peaked inside his head. There were reasons he believed in what he did. Criminals have families, mothers, and fathers. If you kill a murderer, then the amount of killers does not decrease. The world would never be peaceful if all justice did was kill. An even punishment was required for the crime. His eyes couldn’t leave you, even as they narrowed and his brows dipped. His head shook in both shock and resentment.

Your heart nearly dropped from its cage. The look on his face was never a look you had thought you would find pointed at yourself. You knew you were right about this. Though your mind knew the decision; the thought you had come to was wrong. That it wasn't morally right, but it wasn’t wrong either. In fact, it was that heavy gray spot so many people trapped themselves within. You denied it though, saying your decision was not gray, but white. The longer you stare, the more an image is painted into your head. A loved one looking at you with such hatred, even you loathe yourself. It had been Kunikida who pulled you from that spot and showed you the light of the world. He had been the one your morals aligned to. It went silent, like the moment just before the tsunami’s wave came crashing down. When the torment of peace faltered, your hands came up to your chest and your eyes fell silently shut. Shaking your head with a striking, stabbing feeling in your gut words parted through your lips. A muffled scream, a plea to not he was not so harsh with you. “Please... please don’t look at me with such hatred, I’m begging you.” those words seemed not to reach him at first. His voice lashing out as if your words had been the lightning to this storm.

Though his voice is not loud, his words stuck with a heavy weight. “How could you say something like that?” he hissed through confusion and disappointment. Though his anger was no longer purely directed at her. The memory stirred within his mind, pulling the feelings he had about this topic to rise. “No matter how you look at it, nobody deserves to be slaughtered. A loved one always ends up feeling the fault, blaming themselves and hurting.” There would never be an exception. Even the most hated, dangerous, and cruel criminals had people mourn their death. Yet, he could not look past that to see the suffering he was causing the woman who stuck by him.

The louder his words became, the more they echoed and tore at your heart. With every passing second, you became less sure of your morals. Unsure if what you believed was truly above the others. Were you destined to be alone and isolated forever, to morally set for others to care, but not enough for him? Your voice repeated the same line again, this time your eyes leaked water. Rain was adding itself to the storm. “Please... please don’t look at me with such hatred, I’m begging you.” The words escaped your lips again as the thunder sounding about stopped abruptly. The only sound came from the rain; your soft tears. The smallest hiccup of your voice, as you tried to explain your reasoning, to explain the memory that drove you to think in such ways. To explain the view of such a thing from a female's perspective. Sometimes violence was the only thing to keep yourself alive and safe. In extreme situations, accidentally killing somebody happened. Bashing one over the head to keep them from harming you was the easiest way. Sometimes, those actions went too hard, and instead of simply knocking them out, they bled to death from the inside out. So why, why did he have to look at you the way they always did? It wasn’t fair, being a woman in an abilities world. These accidental deaths happen more frequently, men and even at times other women who seem to think they can get away with things, become victims to an ability reacting on its own, something appearing for the first time.

Kunikida glanced at the time with conflicted thoughts. His mind trying to settle on what he should do. For as much as he hated pushing things back, he knew he had hurt you. He’d never meant to lash out like that, especially not against you. Everybody had reasons for believing what they did, surely you did as well. Watching your shaking form, his arms grabbed onto you and pulled your head to his chest. The waves fell to a calm, a single drop of water plummeting before they were no more. Shock taking over your body as he embraced your shaken form. He whispered a word he did not often use in his large vocabulary. For you, he could set aside pride and show you a softer, caring side. “I apologize for… lashing out like that.” He found it so difficult, apologizing despite the difference in your opinions regarding this matter. He owned you a celebration for solving the case, but he’d brought you to despair instead. Deep down guilt flooded him, and he held you closer until the sniffling of your nose had stopped, and your shaking had come to a close. With a light smile, you reached to his cheek.

“It’s alright…” you whispered watching as the blonde pulled away and lightly patted your back, before looking down at his notebook and schedule the rest of his day.

"Great because I planned a small relaxation for later," he grumbled, with a slight red to his cheeks. This was out of the ordinary, but he'd been free enough to add it.

[nancethepants]

ITS OVER I LOVED IT.

Things I want from Bulgasal, in no particular order:

More found family scenes. 🥰

OMG The last five minutes were GOLDEN. Siho and Doyun finally got their family in that crappy dilapidated house!!!

More found family committing crime together scenes. 🔪🥰

YESSSSSS stabbing and shooting and poisoning ... even if it didn't go to plan.

The explanation of how Ok Eul Tae & Hwal conspired against Bulgasalady to take her power 1,000 years ago, and how that led to the bloody mess 600 years ago. 🩸👀🩸

HWAL CURSED EVERYONE THAT BULGASALADY LOVED. AND THEN USED OK EUL TAE'S SOUL TO DIE AS A HUMAN SO HE COULD REINCARNATE AND TORTURE THEM. THIS FUCKING DRAMA LLAMA.

Hwal's ANGST when he discovers that he was the original idiot who started all this mess. 😱 👀

AND THEN HE DIED SOULLESS ON PURPOSE SO THAT THE TORTURE WOULD END. MY HEART.

(But it was probably actually Ok Eul Tae, lbr.) 😒

HWAL DIDN'T WANT TO BE A MONSTER, HE NEVER WANTED TO KILL BUGASALADY, HE JUST WANTED TO BE WITH HER AND OK EUL TAE WAS A BIG FAT LIAR I KNEW IT.

Si-ho randomly asking to hold everyone's hand FOR NO PARTICULAR REASON, JUST CHILL, EVERYTHING'S FINE, I'M NOT SNOOPING INTO YOUR PAST LIFE, GEEEZ. 🤝 👀

THANK YOU FOR USING HER POWER FINALLY. I also love that we never got an explanation, she was just powerful all on her own without the Bugasal connection.

Sunshine angel cupcake Bulgasalady HULKING THE FUCK OUT with righteous fury to protect her found family and also the 600-year-old boomer idiot she fell in love with, while stabbing him a few times to ensure he learned his goddamn lesson to end this ridiculous millennial-long bad karma cycle and throwing Ok Eul Tae in his eternal time out. 🔥❤️🔥🔪🔥❤️🔥

What. A. Waste. She deserved to have more revenging time. I don't care about her stupid promise not to hurt humans, she should have slapped that soul into Hwal, bitten the fuck out of Ok Eul Tae and then big spooned him into a double Bugasal heart stabbing.

Do-yoon becoming a big bro FINALLY AFTER 600 YEARS! 🥰

HE GOT HIS HAPPY FAMILY. I'm SO FUCKING HAPPY for him.

Ok Eul Tae playing Solitaire in the well for all eternity, complaining that no one will play his boring-ass boardgames with him down there. 😟🃏😟

I guess he's been reincarnated as a fish or a bug or an idol who's not allowed to eat delicious things ever.

Things I am looking forward to creating as soon as Bulgasal ends:

The messed-up family tree I will piece together when we learn everyone's connections. ❓👩‍👩‍👦 🌳 👨‍👩‍👧‍👦 🌳 👨‍👩‍👦‍👦 🌳 👨‍👧‍👦❓

Oh, it's coming.

[lunarfly]

Honestly, you should check out this Dante Wood fella on Quora. He’s this multi potterhead ship hater who asks many rude and insulting questions on Romione, Harmione, Hinny and Dramione shippers. He’s literally become the bane of their existence. I almost would feel bad for them but then I realize these are the same users/shippers that ask insincere questions to the other ship/shipper. Guess karma is a bitch;)

Hello, thank you for the ask!

Yeah, I checked out his profile and I'm not so impressed. He's hateful and spiteful. But I must admit, he has got a very fair point. Before I talk about that though, I'll just bring up a few things:

Even though he often underlines very important issues with our fandom's "ship wars," his account still shouldn't exist. He's rude and he goes the wrong way about sending his messages. He keeps spitting venom out of his mouth when he should try to be logical and explain his points without any insults and attacks. But when do respectful people ever get anything, it's always the drama and over exaggeration that draws people's attention.

He's hypocritical. He says he hates the fact that shippers constantly generalize the other sides of the fandom but he also generalizes shippers himself. He calls out shippers collectively, as if we were all to blame for a few people's toxic behavior and generalizing tendencies. He generalizes us (the shippers) by saying we all generalize each other (the other shippers).

He hates on Harmione/Romione/Hinny/Dramione and only justifies his hatred by the shippers. But just hating it isn't bad at all, everyone's allowed to hate something. The thing is, he also claims that all of these ships "suck" and are all "garbage." He never presents any arguments or constructive criticism, he just says they're objectively bad ships because they have bad shippers. I'm pretty sure everyone can see the problem with this logic.

Now about his messages. I must say, I agree with him a whole lot. So many people in this fandom tend to generalize everyone. Examples of this?

"Harmione shippers haven't read the books! They only ship it because of the movies!"

"You only ship Hermione with ___ because you use her as a self-insert tool! You ___/Hermione shippers only want to project your own feelings onto her, you don't actually understand her character!"

"All Romione/Hinny shippers are toxic! None of them respect our ship!"

"All Harmione/Dramione shippers hate Ron and Ginny"

And much more.

While many of those claims do apply to many shippers, they don't apply to everyone. And generalizing a group of people while talking about them negatively is obviously wrong and harms both sides of the "war."

The ridiculous argument that "Harmony shippers haven't read the books" started (or gained popularity) in 2005 when J.K. Rowling said this in an interview:

JKR: Well I think anyone who is still shipping Harry/Hermione after this book –

ES: [whispered] Delusional!

JKR: Uh ’ no! But they need to go back and reread, I think.

That one simple comment still affects the H/Hr shipping community to this day, even after JKR admitted the possibility of H/Hr in 2014.. People are still calling us dumb and delusional, people still claim that we haven't read the books - and this argument has been expanded after people started noticing how the movies were sort of pushing a H/Hr narrative - people still make fun of us and many don't take us seriously. But people were shipping Harmione long before the release of the movies and they (including me) have written countless analyses pointing out moments from the books and reasons why Harry and Hermione would make a good couple but this ridiculous generalization, a kind of rumor, is still around and I don't think it's going to leave any time soon.

The Ron and Ginny bashing rumor is more understandable since a huge part of the H/Hr fandom absolutely hate the two gingers and will find anything to tear them down and make them seem as cartoonishly evil as possible. But we still shouldn't apply this to everyone. I, for one, love Ron and Ginny and know many Harmione shippers who feel the same way.

(In the following paragraphs I am talking about the HP fandom generally but obviously these things don't apply to every person individually.)

The majority of the Harry Potter fandom these days only truly accepts book lovers into discussions and their "main" fandom (people who solely make video edits or such are in a different kind of fandom). But everyone who's a book lover and doesn't ship Romione/Hinny or dislikes Ron/Ginny will slowly be forced to either liking these or leaving the fandom. Because, according to most of the fandom, if you don't like these characters/pairings, you haven't read the books, you're toxic and you're stupid. If you like Harmione, you're automatically labeled with "Movie Watcher," "Weasley Basher," "Toxic Garbage." People will start making assumptions about you and your work before they know you. Even if people learn that you're not any of those, these generalizations won't stop. No matter how much you do, no one will take you seriously, no one will care, no one will accept you, no one will explore your work. You will only be acknowledged in the book-loving fandom if you ship Romione and Hinny or if you're an extremely toxic person (that way you'll get mocked for every word that comes out of your mouth, but you'll deserve it if you're really a toxic person). This fandom also tends to misunderstand the words "toxic" and "bashing." Any sort of criticism is labeled with "bashing" and the author of that criticism is labeled with "toxic." Not that there aren't people who are toxic and hateful but our fandom tends to fail to see the difference between constructive criticism and hate.

And there are also those "big" accounts who are praised for every word they say. They can bash any ship or character they want to and the majority of the fandom (the book-loving, canon-ship-loving one that I explained) will agree with it and spread their words around. When they say something about one shipper, it will automatically be applied to everyone who ships that. If they say that any ship with Harry and Hermione that isn't Romione and Harmione suck, the majority of the fandom will accept it as objective truth and since they have most of the fandom supporting them they feel comfortable repeating and accepting these things. As a result of these things being accepted as common knowledge, the people who don't agree feel isolated from the fandom. For example, I do. I follow lots of people who ship Romione and Hinny or love Ron and Ginny because I also feel the same way about these characters and pairings. But I can't go a day without seeing at least one of them degrade Harmione and send hate to the ship + shippers. The more hate my ship gets, the more these rumors, labels and arguments spread around. And Harmione shippers get called stupid for loving a fictional pairing, so I constantly feel invalidated in this fandom, even if no one addresses me specifically. The ideas that Harmione is a horrible ship and its shippers are toxic and so on are so engrained in our fandom that they're seen as almost "rules" of the fandom and no single person can change that. I constantly feel like I'm invalid for liking Harmione and this isn't normal. Our fandom pushes the idea that the only intelligent people are those who support the canon pairings and disapprove of ships like Harmione, Fremione and etc. I understand the hatred against Dramione and every other toxic ship, but I can't for my life figure out why people feel the need to tear down every healthy fanon ship. But they do it anyway. They consider everyone who disagrees with them "stupid" and unintelligent. I feel like I don't belong every time I see comments like "Ugh, how can someone ship Harry and Hermione? They're like siblings, people! You clearly haven't read the books." or "Anyone who ships this doesn't have a brain, they're too strongly influenced by the movies. They clearly don't understand Harry and Hermione." Sometimes I see my own friends calling H/Hr "strange" and such and they clearly don't help me feel any better. I feel the need to go in Harmony-only spaces to recharge myself and regain the confidence and get the validation I need. Otherwise, I feel completely isolated and invalid.

I can't blame only one side of the fandom though. The shippers have been divided for decades now and they have been throwing insults at each other ever since. It's a never-ending war. The bad side of this today is that the book-loving fandom (the "main" fandom) has merged with the canon ships fandom and now these are inseparable. If you like the HP books, you must also like the canon pairings and dislike most of the others, otherwise you're never going to feel like you belong. So now anyone who ships Harmione won't be able to properly interact with the "main" fandom because nobody thinks their opinions that Harry and Hermione are a better match than Ron and Hermione are valid. Same thing with Dramione shippers. Do you see how Dramiones and Harmonians don't really engage in discussions or just don't interact with the "main" fandom in general (unless they're defending their ship)? They have created their own spaces, separated from the "main" fandom and that's where they are most of the time. That's where I go when I need more positivity and validation. I have the discord server and the Harmione subreddit to go to. That's the only place I'm really comfortable in. If I go to a more "general" part of the fandom like the main HP subreddit or some of the biggest HP books fan accounts, it will affect me negatively because I will mostly see Romione and Hinny be glorified and Harmione treated like trash. Not only my ship but also the shippers. Which is probably the main reason I find the fandom toxic. All of this just ties into the stupid generalization and name-calling that causes the rift between OBHWF and Harmione shippers which leads me to seeing both sides of the fandom be attacked and bombarded depending on which space I choose to spend my time in.

I'm not going to pretend that the Harmione fandom is full of angels who are oppressed by Romione shippers. Because whenever I go to a Harmione-oriented space, I will find anti-Ron/Romione/Hinny/Ginny (and their stans) posts. Harmonians will often call Romiones toxic and hateful and will basically do everything in order to insult them. And they return the favor excellently. This happens with the majority of the fandoms so both of the sides just think every shipper is like the toxic shippers they interacted with, causing generalization and all of the problems I talked about above. And that forms a toxic environment.

I generally just talked about my experiences with generalization and insulting but there are many more things wrong with the fandom, so I definitely agree with Dante Wood in that aspect. But again, I don't think every single shipper is toxic and hateful and I most certainly don't think that Romione, Harmione and Hinny are trash (Dramione just might be). I pointed out all of my reasons for disliking his account at the beginning of my post. I just wish he fixed those problems with his account, then he would have such a great one.

I almost would feel bad for them but then I realize these are the same users/shippers that ask insincere questions to the other ship/shipper. Guess karma is a bitch;)

Here's where I get confused. Why did you send me this message? I am not one of those people who go and attack a part of the fandom I disagree with. I don't constantly attack Romione and Hinny, nor their shippers. I actually love those ships. I might criticize Dramione and other toxic ships but I'm not the one at war with them. I know I wrote a post basically calling Dramiones brainless once and I regret that. I think I'm a better person now. No matter how much I hate this ship I won't send hate to its shippers (P*dophilic ships are a different deal though, those ships are even more serious). So how exactly is this a consequence for what I've done when I've done basically nothing? And even if I did, how is Dante Wood's account supposed to affect me? He talks about the toxicity of shippers while being toxic and hateful himself. Am I supposed to take that seriously? He calls us hypocritical and proceeds to do the same himself. That's not the kind of person I take criticism seriously from (ignoring the fact that many of his posts aren't even criticism, it's just hate).

Anyway, thank you for taking your time to send me that message! Sharing my thoughts on Dante Wood's thoughts and account was fun! :)

[filmmakerdreamst]

‘Boy Meets World’ Re-watch (as an Adult)

‘Girl Meets World’ doesn’t count as a sequel. Not because of the writing/tonal choices but because in the original show - despite continuity issues - the characters felt like real people e.g. the way they spoke/acted/dressed was the way people behaved in the 90s where as in the spin off, they were Disney characters e.g. hyper versions of themselves especially Cory and Eric. And the transition between both shows didn’t come naturally. It’s not an objectivity badly written show but it was pretty much a re-do of the old show with the same storylines/tropes without continuing the story. (I say the same thing about ‘The Incredibles’. vs ‘Incredibles 2’.) Also there were too many cooks in the kitchen pushing one way or another. You could see Micheal Jacobs style, all the aspects were there, but he was also creating a ‘DISNEY’ show at the same time. I don’t know about you but the one message I took from the original show was ‘finding out that life cannot be packenged into a lovely little present ’ which kind of contradicts everything that the new show is. If anything GMW is an AU universe (and it really felt like that, rewatching it right after BMW e.g. it felt flipped) almost like Disney’s version of ‘what happened next?’ The primal difference between both shows is BMW is portraying what is real and GMW is based on what is real.

Going off my point, I will however be always thankful that it exists because I probably wouldn’t of found out about ‘Boy Meets World’ otherwise. Although saying that, I never thought that the original show needed a continuation of any kind (a lot of things make sense about the spin off if you acknowledge that Disney requested it - I think it would of been much better off on its original platform) ‘Boy Meets World’ was very much a product of its time i.e. when tv shows were still relevetivley new and had no rules - like there is stuff in there that not even adult shows today have. Plus there was something about it that felt very personal (such as the characters and setting) as if the creator based it on his own childhood growing up and I think that was part of its charm and why it had such a big effect on pop culture - I’m not so sure you can repeat that.

BMW is big on meta I’ll tell you that. I love how it’s so aware of itself. The amount of depth that it has never ceases to amaze me. It’s whole universe is so dense and huge. Every quote/storyline is so unique it sticks in your brain forever. (I swear the humour got more and more deranged every season). The show was also incredibly queer and progressive.  It didn’t give a crap about sexuality. Much more than I remember. Proof to never use ‘but it was made in the 90s’ excuse.        

I loved how the show kept reinventing itself every season as Cory grew up so you really felt you were growing up with him and all the characters. The Character Development on this show was so natural/authentic. Every single character got a chance to shine. No one changed their look in one episode and no one had an intervention every time someone had an identity crisis (GMW) My favourite development was Shawn Hunter. He went from a cool kid to a ladies man to a poetic soul. It was so satisfying to watch.

I realised that Cory Matthews is actually my favourite character (before it was Eric or Shawn) I already have a special soft spot for ‘annoying’ characters because they tend to be the most memorable/real. For example, Karma Ashcroft from ‘Faking it’ was my babe while everyone was hating on her. I really related to his anxiety/self hatred about being average and I loved that he constantly made mistakes. It was very refreshing. He’s also incredibly queer-coded. I found that alot of his mannerisms make sense if you see him with extreme compulsory heterosexuality (because identity’s such as bisexual or gay couldn’t exist normally in the 90s) There are moments in the show where he literally mimics his best friend’s behaviour around girls e.g. when the class pretty much gets brainwashed by the sex ed video in ‘Boy Meets Girl’ Shawn gets asked out by a girl, making Cory jealous - which pushes him to ask out Topanga.

It’s funny how a few years of life experience can change perspectives completely because when I was sixteen (aka the same age as Cory and Topanga) watching BMW for the first time, I was mad at Amy for ‘not understanding that they were in love’ (in ‘A Walk to Pittsburg’) but now that I’m older I’m actually agreeing with her. Yeah, what do they know about love? Because all season long they were acting quite superficially.

Cory and Topanga became somewhat of a toxic couple in seasons 5 -7. Reminded me of my parents relationship because my mum gave up her chosen university to be closer to my dad and they aren’t together any more. Topanga’s love for Cory was very conditional and Cory cheated on her multiple times/openly begged for sex  (Again like my parents) And you should never be in a relationship with someone who makes you say “You make me think not so very much of myself” There are arguably much more signs of emotional abuse than love in their relationship especially from Topanga’s side. Plus their story was altered so many times to give it more basis (they retconned Shawn and Cory’s friendship to do this) I could write an essay on how Kevin and Winnie’s love story on ‘The Wonder Years’ is much more believable because it actually addresses how toxic it was and they grow apart in the end. If GMW was a realistic continuation, they would be divorced with a little girl - leave them in the 90s where they belong.

Alan and Amy were couple goals! Cory and Topanga wish that they could have what they have. Literally the definition of ‘a healthy relationship on tv that keeps thriving and over coming obstacles without big drama’. Best TV parents ever.

I loved the Matthews family; how they all had individual arcs and developments of their own. One of my favourite arcs was in season 5, when Eric and Cory were both jealous of what they ‘didn’t have’ with their dad, so Alan made an effort to give them both that they needed. Honestly, I had never seen so much healthy communication on TV before. Alan is the best father around. His whole personal arc of giving up managing a supermarket because he wasn’t passsionate about it anymore and buying a mountain store was so inspired. I found it funny that the family had more of a relationship with Shawn than Topanga.

Shawn Hunter never caught a break. It got a bit tiring. He was never allowed to be happy for five minutes. Every time he laughed or smiled, 5 years were added onto my lifespan. Why didn’t Johnathan Turner adopt him? I loved their dynamic. Why did he let him go back to his abusive father who just dumped him anyway?

Jack and Shawn’s complicated dynamic was possibly the most unique/interesting arc of the entire show and no one talks about it. I don’t care what y’all say - despite them being very different, Jack was the only one who fully took care of Shawn without second thoughts (Turner and the Matthews family had doubts)

I liked Shawn and Angela. I thought they were much better suited than Cory and Topanga. I honestly wouldn’t of minded if they ended up together even though I always had a feeling they wouldn’t. (Like I’m glad she went with her dad in the end) And considering how important they were as a interracial couple in the 90s, GMW handled that very poorly.

Shawn and Cory should of ended up together. And before you come at me with ‘it’s important to have m/m friendships without toxic masculinity’ (which is an important arguement to have) - yeah no shit there’s an entire Industry based around that/pitting women against each other. While it is important to have those friendships between men that are close and even intimate (take Chandler and Joey, Schmidt and Nick, Isak and Jonas and Jake and Charles for example) there was also another layer to their relationship which the narrative played off sometimes as them “going out” or “in love”.  I actually recently found out that a writer - who came into the show in season 3 - confirmed that she wrote gay undertones into their relationship on purpose ‘In my opinion as a writer, they thought they were “straight”, they both didn’t realise or understand their feelings for eachother’ but couldn’t deliever because the producers wanted to keep the show “kid friendly”. Kind of like Xena and Gabby. I know people prefer Jack & Eric (I love them as well) but everything got ruined for me as soon as they introduced the ‘love triangle’ and I always tend to prefer emotional tension over sexual. They were just so unconditional with each other/ their friendship was so good and healthy and now I’m so bitter that it never happened.

I never understood why Shawn and Cory had to stop being best friends after he got married. He’s not Topanga’s property. I always hated how Topanga tried to interrupt/interfere with their dynamic — although now I realise it was because the two of them purposely left her out. Looking back at it, If it really was just a intimate friendship then why would she get so easily jealous if she didn’t sense there was something else deeper going on? You should never marry someone who puts you second.

I didn’t like Topanga when she was with Cory (or vice versa) Especially after they got married. She was a great character on her own. Feminist before her time. Hermione Granger before her time. I always felt she deserved a lot better than him in a way e.g. if someone I considered a friend speard a rumour around high school that we slept together - I would never speak to that person again. SHE SHOULD OF GONE TO YALE GOD DAMN IT. And as someone pointed out the other day, if the roles were reversed some of the stuff she does or says to Cory would be considered domestic violence. ‘She’s always blaming Cory on shit that isn't even his fault or makes him feel bad or shuts down his emotions and turns it around so he's comforting her instead.’ There was even a moment in GMW (not that I consider that show a continuation) where she locks him out the house for a few days after he insulted her chicken, and his son Auggie had to bring him spaghetti. If Cory was a woman, that would not be played off as a joke - that would be considered abuse. They were however a better couple in GMW ironically.

Angela Moore is now one of my favourite characters on BMW. She was beautiful. Her friendship with Rachel (and Topanga) was the best. And I frickin’ loved her and Cory’s friendship development - when they could of easily not played into that. I hate that she got villiaized in GMW.

My favourite seasons are 4, 5 & 1. My least favourites are 3 & 2 & 7. And even then the show was still pretty darn good.

The back and fourth clash between Turner and Mr Feeny in season 2 was very entertaining.

Mr Feeny and Eric are my favourite relationship on ‘Boy Meets World’. I love how Eric was the only person that Feeny directly told that he loved him. Also, why didn’t Eric become the new Mr Feeny? He showed more traits of becoming a teacher in the show than Cory did.

Eric and Tommy was probably the most heartbreaking plot line in season 6. (That season was an emotional train wreck) I cried for a fourth time. The world doesn’t deserve him.

I loved the development of Shawn and Topanga’s friendship. Even though there was a silent competition over Cory, they eventually became good friends. I found out that the song ‘She will be loved’ was inspired by them which is awesome but it’s also proof that people ship for less if it’s an m/f dynamic - just sayin’. I however see a more convincing potiental romance with the two of them than Cory and Topanga sometimes.

On Cory and Topanga again - they weren’t a bad couple overall. I liked them in s1 - 3. They had some great moments. But upon my rewatch (getting out of that 90s idealised headspace) I found them to be too similar at times - chafing as another person put it - to the point where they cancel each other out. A lot of people pointed out that Riley and Maya paralleled them and I was thinking “That’s not nesserily a good thing.”

‘Dream. Try. Do good.’ is on my mantelpiece.

[shnuggletea]

Sorry I didn't update this weekend! With some childish drama going on in the fandom, I just wasn't feeling up for it. Not this fandom, you guys are awesome.

Anyway, this one is a bit short and if you guys are really sweet and ask nicely, I might update again this week. As it stands, I won't be updating this weekend. Going out of town and my kid starts school. Super nervous about the latter.

Thank you all for the support and love sent my way for this fic! I'm going to start posting the sequel to Bad Karma and the new fic The Shogan's Daughter (since you all voted for it) soon. I also have datelines coming up though so the updates for those and this fic might get a bit off schedule. So be prepared for that!!

Enjoy and happy Monday!

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Chapter Twelve

Leading her by the hand, Inuyasha walked her to the infirmary. The guards weren't even there so they turned around. He had given her a pair of pants to go with his shirt and if the bright red color wasn't enough for everyone to know they weren't her clothes, the fact that they were falling off her at every turn was.

"Where are we going now?"

"To get your fucking keys back."

She didn't know how he knew where they were. Maybe he smelled them? But once they were standing before a cell, Koga and a few of his men inside, Kagome understood all too well what was going on.

"Give me the Doctor's keys now Wolf boy."

Koga looked between the two of them, his eyes lingering on their hands knitted together, and then back to Inuyasha with a forced grin. "Let's say I know what the fuck you're talking about. Why should I?"

"Because if you don't, I'm going to tear you to pieces."

"Inuyasha…" She begged, not up for seeing Inuyasha against five guys.

"Scratch that, I'm going to beat the shit out of you anyway…"

"Inuyasha please…"

He yanked on her, wanting her quiet while she glared back at him. "What was your plan exactly? Have her gang-raped so she came crawling to you for protection?"

Kagome had to swallow her vomit. She was pretty sure Inuyasha still smelled it, squeezing her hand hard to comfort both of them. Koga frowned while his men chuckled softly. "What's it matter? Didn't work now did it?"

"Of course, it didn't fucking work. Kagome isn't stupid!"

Her heart swelled a little from the compliment and Inuyasha's eyes flicked her way for less than a heartbeat. Koga was starting to growl. "She must be. She's with you now."

"Inuyasha is my friend! He earned my trust! Something you could have done from the start but instead, you took the cowardly way! You disgust me, Koga."

The place went quiet, the men inside shuffling uncomfortably while Inuyasha rubbed the back of her hand with his thumb. A few seconds of awkwardness passed and Koga held her keys out for them. Dropping his hold, Inuyasha left her in the hallway, entering and swiping the keys. So fast, she couldn't even see it, Inuyasha hit Koga. He was grabbing his cheek and blood was gushing out through his fingers.

"To remind you. Stay the fuck away from my Mate. Or next time it'll be your throat."

Kagome was shocked because no one moved. Not to stop them or to 'payback' Inuyasha. Maybe they were just as shocked as she was? Inuyasha had to pull her away from the opening of the cell where she stood, frozen. With the runes, the marks Inuyasha put on Koga's face would scar for sure. Even with all he had done and tried to do to her, Kagome still felt bad for the wolf, scarred for life right on his face.

Moving fast and making her stumble most of the way, Inuyasha practically dragged her back to the infirmary, unlocked the door, and pulled/tossed her inside. He was leaning against the door when she got a hold of herself. And anger swelled in her at the man.

"You didn't have to do that."

His face went slack with hurt and confusion. "Do what?!"

"Mark up Koga's face like that!"

Switching quickly, Inuyasha was grinning wickedly now. "Nothing you say will convince me that he didn't deserve it so save your breath." She was silent like he recommended but that only made him fidget. "What if he had done it to someone else? Would you feel the same way? I promise you, Kagome, you weren't the first or the last that he'll pull that shit with. You were just… lucky."

He was smirking and she felt compelled to knock him down a few pegs. "Lucky? According to you, I'm cursed. That anyone around you is!"

Arms crossed, she thought of him as a curse for the first time. Because no matter how mad she was at him, he was still damn attractive and his thick arms on display weren't helping her rage. "With you running to my cell, naked, we don't have any choice now. Do we?"

It hadn't occurred to her, basically forcing Inuyasha into some kind of relationship with her now. "I'm sorry."

His head popped towards her, looking at her with bright wide eyes. "Don't be."

A comfortable silence fell over them. But she needed to change and they needed to get breakfast before it ended. "I have something for you."

"Wha...really? For me?"

She couldn't help but giggle at his obvious excitement as it mingled with his confusion. Just like a little boy, a smile tripping on his lips while his eyes searched around for what it could possibly be.

Moving quickly before he started tearing the place apart in search, she used her keys again, opening the small locker that also held her clothes. Handing over the small package, she let him tear it up while he let her rustle a bra under her shirt.

"Uh… thanks!" She swallowed her laugh as he clearly didn't know what it was. "Do I… what do I do with this?"

Her own pants on, she still had his shirt on, swallowing her up as she came to his side and took the gift from his fingers. "I know it looks rough but it's the best I could do. Merry Christmas!"

"I thought the cranes were my gift?"

Taken aback, she stared up at him and tilted her head to the side. "No, that was just nice." It pained her, how Inuyasha had either forgotten or never knew what it was like to have someone do something for him just to be nice. "You wear this."

Holding up the necklace, it was different from the ones she made the others. Four teeth that were separated by black beads, she quickly tied the string tight while he held his hair out of the way.

"It's for protection. I read once that if you combine demonic energy with my energy it can create a powerful protection binding. I'm not sure if it'll work, the teeth are a bit of a long shot…"

He cut her off, wrapping his arms around her tight. The teeth were in her face so she twisted until she was deep in his shirt instead. "Thank you."

"It's nothing really…"

"Thank you, Kagome."

"You're welcome."

"I don't have your gift on me," he said, stroking her back and the ends of her hair, "it's not something I can just carry around with me…"

"You made me something?"

"Feh, well I thought the cranes were a gift. And I didn't want to be a jerk and not return the gesture…"

"You made me something…" She teased.

"Shuddaup or I'll take it back!"

"You can't take it back! You made it!"

It was nice, finally having something on Inuyasha. She smirked while he blushed. It made her heart race which was worse by the fact that she was still very close to him. But he had made it pretty clear last night that although he was attracted to her, he didn't want a relationship with her.

Of course, he'd been turned on last night. She was naked and he had been locked up for several years now. And with everyone gunning for him, he couldn't exactly have a girlfriend.

So when she said "I understand", Kagome meant she knew it was the situation and nothing more.

She gave his chest and the necklace, now in place, a pat and turned from him. She didn't check but she was pretty sure Inuyasha wasn't looking at her. And even if he was, he had seen her in a towel last night. There was little left for him to see of her, stripping off his shirt and pulling on one of her own.

Back in white and clothes that fit, she folded his and held them out to him. Inuyasha was staring at her hard as if questioning her existence. "Kagome… about.. last night…"

"Thank you." He looked confused. "You're a good man, Inuyasha. I'm lucky to have you as a friend."

oOo

Now that Kagome and Inuyasha were friends, it made what she had to do harder. Mainly because she was barely alone.

The night after she spent practically naked next to him was a new moon. So, Inuyasha spent it with her in the infirmary. That was expected, what wasn't expected was his gift. He had told her he made her something but it was far more than she imagined. She ran her hands over the present now, thick, soft, and smelling of Inuyasha.

"Here," he said gruffly, still in his Hanyou form, "Merry Christmas."

He didn't look at her as she took the confusing item. It was red like his scrubs and for a moment, she thought he was just giving her clothes. But then she unfolded it.

Holding it up, Inuyasha only seemed to get more nervous. "It's a… coat?"

Inuyasha had ripped and sewn several of his scrubs together, making a patchwork, long sleeve coat that was thick. "Tired of watching you shiver during free period."

She was breathless, speechless. This was why Inuyasha had not been outside in weeks? He had been working on this? For someone with no sewing skills, it would take a very long time especially done by hand. He had to have used his crawls and teeth to cut the cloth. Looking closer, she found the white stitches, not even at all but still accomplished.

"How did you… the thread and needle?"

"The shitty blankets they give us here are nothing but threads and I'm a demon. It was nothing to take a fork, break off a piece, and shape it to a point."

He was flexing his hand as he spoke, showing her the motion in which he used his bare hand to make his own needle. Before saying anything else, she pulled on the coat. It was warm and soft and wrapped her in comfort that was mostly Inuyasha's scent as it washed over her completely. He had taken his own scrubs to make this, ones he had worn for a while. She probably should be grossed or freaked out by that but she wasn't. Not in the least.

The sunset and she watched Inuyasha change before her, the lights going out soon after. He stepped up to her just before everything went dark, so she knew it was him, grabbing and touching the collar of her new coat.

"You'll smell like me but everyone knows we're together now anyway." Her heart tripped at his words, her brain reminding her of the situation but it still skipped. She was just glad he couldn't hear it right now. "And even though it's red, everyone in here should be afraid of you," his fingers grazed her jaw, gingerly pressing her chin up with a feather touch, "cause you are far more than White, Mate."

The angle she kept, looking up while seeing nothing in the dark, forced her to swallow hard. Kagome considered herself strong and experienced, in life, medicine, and men. But something about Inuyasha made her feel like an awkward teenager again. Probably had something to do with how ridiculously beautiful he was. Is. No matter what form, Inuyasha was attractive and she was a moth to his sexy flame.

She focused on his aura, loving the color it was when he was human as much as a Hanyou. The golden color it had normally faded to a silvery-white, the same color of his hair on a normal day. Around his heart, it was still gold, making her wonder if he always had the heart of a demon.

Kagome continued to watch as it flashed with each beat deep under his skin, it was a nice distraction. "You should really stop calling me that."

"Does it bother you?"

She shrugged, cause it didn't. "It's just confusing."

"Why?"

"Because we're not cellmates or roommates or anything…"

He lifted her chin again at that and she both cursed and praised the darkness that kept his face from her. But his aura was bright and flickering. "Regardless, you're my Mate. No one else's."

She couldn't help but giggle at him. "Possessive much?"

"Yes."

"I take it you never shared your toys well as a child?"

His aura flashed brightly for a second and she wished she knew what it meant. If she went off him, she would say it was anger or irritation, turning her harshly and helping her to bed. "You're not a fucking toy."

Her hands found the gurney and she climbed in. "I'm a human in a big room full of demons. Pretty sure the only reason I'm alive is that everyone's been playing with me this entire time."

The gurney squeaked loudly, covering her own squeak when Inuyasha planted his hands hard next to her head on either side, his face inches from hers and now clear as day. "I haven't been playing with you. Do you want me to start?"

Kagome was 100% sure, her heart couldn't handle Inuyasha playing with her, no matter how much her body wanted him too. Again she was so thankful he was human, he would have heard, smelled, and probably tasted her feelings on the subject.

He chuckled softly, pulling away and going to his bed. "Relax, Mate. I told you, that's not what I want for us."

He left it at that and barely left her alone since. Kagome loved it; Inuyasha around far more than he used to be? If he wasn't with her, someone else was. Miroku, Kagura, Shippo all surrounded her so not a second of her time was spent with anyone else. She truly enjoyed all of their company but she needed a few moments alone to take care of something. A promise she was ready to fulfill the only way she could.

Waiting until Kagura was busy with Sesshomaru, she pulled slowly from Inuyasha's hold, his hands on her nearly all the time now, protecting her and keeping up the rouse that they were a couple. "Where the fuck are you going?"

Inuyasha didn't hide his irritation, probably from all the ups and downs spending time with her was. She tried to give him a break, spending as much time with Kagura or Shippo and Miroku so he didn't have to put on a show. But they were best friends and he must have wanted some time with her today, grabbing hold of the back of her coat, where his hand had been resting, as soon as she shifted slightly.

"Bathroom."

He sighed and started to get to his feet as well but she stopped him. "And heading to the infirmary. I'll use the one in there so no worries."

She hated lying to him and it was obvious he didn't believe her. "What are you up to, Doctor?"

"I just…" if she continued to lie, he would know so she settled for a half-truth, "want some time to myself."

He pouted and she patted his cheek, quickly rising for her freedom. It was why she now stood before the Warden's office again. Inuyasha had been right, coming to Onigumi for Christmas decorations would have been foolish. But for Kagura and her baby? She had no choice or regrets.

Vile of blood in her hand, she knocked with the other, ushered in soon after. She didn't even have to wait, taken straight to the man in charge. "Doctor, to what do I owe the pleasure?" She said nothing, stepping up and setting the vial on his desk before him. "I didn't order any new blood, did I?"

He looked to his guards with him for confirmation. She took a deep breath and calmly said her practiced words. "You're looking for a cure to death?" He didn't even flinch at the knowledge she had, a grin spreading across his face. "Well, it's in that vial. And that blood will cure anything and everything."

"And just who's blood is it?"

She shook her head at him and he grimaced. "I want Kagura released."

Now he laughed as did his guards, a second after he started as if given permission. "And I want you naked in my bed. But mine is far more likely."

She swallowed her vomit and continued, pointing at the vial filled with her blood. "That's just a taste. Have it sent to your people and you'll see, it's what you've been looking for. Once you have your proof, we can talk conditions. Good day, Warden."

She turned and he laughed again, the guards grabbing her up off the floor. "What's to stop me from getting a name from you? Forcing it out?"

This was expected so she didn't quiver in the slightest. "There's nothing you can do to me to get me to spill and I can die. It will die with me if need be."

Onigumi grimaced and flicked his head. Dropped, she went for the door again without struggle. "I could just go after your friends instead…"

"You could. But even they would support my silence. And they have no clue who the blood is from. Your only choice is to listen to my demands."

He had the vial in his hands and her nerves pricked up as he examined it closely. "You had better be right about this blood, Doctor."

"And you had better be ready to pay, Warden."

Anyone else think Kagome is a little too trusting? Yeah, a bit. A bit.

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