#covid 19 is killing my brain

[disasterhimbo]

Unfollow me if you’re unwilling to wear a mask to protect yourselves and others

[simple-sheep]

I can't remember who posted these, but it was a while ago on Twitter from a trusted Covid-19 source I followed for a long time before Twitter went to shit. My dad and I personally use Betadine Cold Defense (with a N95 mask, of course).

Here are all the research links:

Nitric Oxide Nasal Spray (Enovid, Sanotize, Virx)

Carrageenan Nasal Spray (Nasitrol, Salinex, Agovirax, Betadine Cold Defense)

Xylitol Nasal Spray (Xlear)

Hypromellose Nasal Spray (Taffix)

These are not nearly as effective or safe as a good fitting respirator or N95 or KN95 grade (or higher), but they personally make me feel a little better when I have to take my mask off at the dentist or doctor. I follow the instructions and give a little spray whenever I have to take my mask off or put it back on. We also use them when we get back home for the next few days, too.

I also use CPC mouthwash as soon as I get home to kill anything stuck in my mouth and gargle it super well (I use TheraBreath Healthy Gums that has CPC in it).

With that said, the world would be much safer if people would actually, you know.... mask up and consider other people. The whole issue I find with people like OP is that they think they aren't affecting others. But if they are asymptomatic and spread it, being vaccinated won't help someone unlucky enough to get it and they might spread it to someone that will die from the illness. When wearing a mask in the first place would have prevented that! But that requires thinking about other people outside of their immediate contact.

But yeah sure wearing a mask is just oh-so-difficult and those of us that have stayed inside for four whole years trying to protect ourselves and our families are the selfish ones for wanting someone to wear a mask in public!! To, I don't know, protect others!!

I can't go to the doctor or dentist without people coughing and hacking all around me, spreading gd knows what into the air and putting my high risk father and myself at risk!!

But I guess its too hard to expect people to care about their communities, because doing so would mean the discomfort of -checks notes- wearing a mask for a short amount of time in public...

Anyway, sorry for the rant in your notes, Vaspider!! I feel your frustration, dad and I have been in our house 99.99% of the time for the past four years, too, thanks to people like OP making the world unsafe.

If anyone can find any comfort in the nasal sprays and can safely take them then I'm happy--but don't forget the best protection is a mask (and if everyone were to mask again then that would be better than anything, but... well.... see OP there) and avoiding crowds right now, especially as we enter the holiday season.

there has to be some kind of safe and sane middle ground between "wearing masks is oppression" and "I'm going to morally condemn you for no longer wearing a mask 3 years in, despite your being vaccinated 6 times, and you're not currently physically ill, and the city in which you live has a vaccination rate well above 80%" like I feel as though we lost the thread at some point...

i feel as though there's a portion of people on here who are no longer seeing what's always been the most effective way to keep people safe (getting vaccinated, which is not physically visible) and are relying morally instead on publicly visible indicators of compliance as evidence that someone is in the right. and it just feels very misguided and not reflective of where the vast majority of people are at right now

[covid-safer-hotties]

Living with Long COVID: What it’s Like to be Diagnosed with the Debilitating Disease - Published Sept 3, 2024

By: Nicole Pajer

Even mild cases of COVID-19 are linked to potential long-term repercussions — some of them deadly serious

Chrissy Bernal has caught COVID-19 three times, most recently in ­October 2023. “My symptoms were always pretty mild,” she says. But after her third round of the virus, she ­developed extreme allergies to foods she used to eat all the time: oats, dairy, gluten, sesame seeds and peanuts.

“I literally have some level of anaphylaxis every single day,” she says. In May, Bernal, 46, a public relations professional in Houston, went into anaphylactic shock during a virtual meeting. “I had to inject myself with an Epi while everyone watched in horror on Zoom,” she says.

Natalie Nichols, 53, has been struggling with debilitating asthma and severe food allergies since she first caught COVID more than three years ago. “Last fall, I spent ­two-and-a-half months confined to bed, ­motionless, because moving, including holding a cellphone, made me too short of breath,” she says.

She’s also experienced brain fog, high blood pressure, hyper­glycemia, fatigue and gastrointestinal symptoms. Nichols, the founder of a nonprofit in Nacogdoches, Texas, recently underwent surgery to repair joint damage caused by COVID-induced inflammation.

Lorraine W., of Clarence Center, New York, was looking forward to an active retirement when she was diagnosed with COVID in March 2020. “I’ve never returned to my pre-COVID self,” says Lorraine, 65.

She’s on medication to treat small blood vessel damage to her heart and continues to battle a lingering cough, fatigue and breathlessness, as well as kidney disease. Neurological changes have made her legs unsteady when she walks, requiring her to use balance poles. “None of these conditions were present before COVID,” Lorraine says.

In June, the National Academies of ­Sciences, Engineering, and Medicine released a comprehensive definition of long COVID: “an infection-­associated chronic condition that occurs after COVID-19 infection and is present for at least three months as a continuous, relapsing and remitting, or progressive disease state that affects one or more organ systems.” According to that definition, 18 million Americans have experienced long COVID; currently, more than 1 in 20 of us are living with its symptoms. Researchers have begun to link long-term COVID with another recent phenomenon: our shrinking life expectancy.

The disease we’re forgetting COVID doesn’t seem that scary anymore. More than 98 percent of the U.S. population has some degree of immunity — from vaccination, prior infection or both — and Paxlovid and other medications are available to counteract acute symptoms. For many of us, contracting COVID is like having a bad ­upper respiratory infection.

But “COVID isn’t gone,” says Ryan Hurt, M.D., director of the Long COVID Research and Clinical Program at the Mayo Clinic. The World Health Organization (WHO) estimates that COVID still kills at least 1,000 people every week around the globe — but “we only have data from about 40 countries,” says Maria Van Kerkhove, M.D., director of WHO’s Department of Epidemic and Pandemic Preparedness and Prevention.

Older adults and those with preexisting conditions remain among the most at-risk populations for severe, acute COVID. ­People 65 and older accounted for 63 percent of COVID-related hospitalizations and 88 percent of in-hospital deaths during the first seven months of 2023, according to CDC data.

Although the dangers of acute COVID ­infection may have ebbed for many, the ­reality of long COVID is coming into view. Of those who contracted COVID-19 within the past four years, 10 to 20 percent have experienced long COVID.

“With every new case of acute COVID [the initial phase of infection when diagnosed or symptoms first appear], there is risk for developing long COVID,” says Caitlin McAuley, D.O., a family physician at the Keck COVID Recovery Clinic in Los Angeles. She’s had patients who developed long COVID fully recover, get reinfected several times with no lingering effects, then develop another case that leads to a new bout of long COVID. She’s also seen patients who got COVID twice with no lingering effects, and the third time they ended up with prolonged symptoms.

“We still have a number of individuals who had the first wave of COVID who are suffering from long COVID symptoms now, several of them many years out,” says Jerrold Kaplan, M.D., medical director of the COVID Rehabilitation and Recovery Program at Gaylord Specialty Healthcare in New York.

Having escaped long COVID previously doesn’t mean you won’t face it in the future. Indeed, some research has suggested that catching multiple COVID-19 strains puts you at increased risk. A study published in 2022 found that reinfection can increase the risk of complications in major organ systems, and these risks persist at least six months beyond the initial infection.

We don’t yet know the true impact of catching COVID. “Many chronic disease processes, such as cardiovascular disease, dementia and cancer, take years to develop. And whether acute COVID-19 puts people at risk for some of these issues? Time will tell,” Hurt says. What doctors do know is that patients are flocking to their offices complaining of symptoms they never had before COVID.

Is long COVID boosting our death rate? In July, COVID accounted for less than 1 ­percent of all deaths in the U.S. Life expectancy in the U.S. is 77.5 years, reflecting an uptick over the past two years but still lower than prepandemic levels. Many factors contribute to that statistic, but it’s clear that the long-term effects of COVID have played a role.

For example, a study in the journal Nature Medicine found that those hospitalized with COVID had a 29 percent greater risk of death in the three years after their infection.

“But what was also alarming is that in people who weren’t hospitalized, there was also an increased risk of a variety of medical issues,” says John Baratta, founder and codirector of the COVID Recovery Clinic at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill. Even patients who’d had mild bouts of COVID-19 had an increased risk of respiratory, cardiovascular, metabolic and neurological issues lingering for three years after the initial infection. Long COVID patients had a significantly increased risk of severe health issues affecting the brain, lungs and heart.

We have long known that an acute case of COVID can compromise heart health: Compared with those who didn’t contract COVID, people who caught the virus were 81 percent more likely to die of a cardiovascular complication in the ensuing three weeks, according to a study of 160,000 patients published by the European Society of Cardiology. But the risk lingers long after the symptoms abate. Those who caught the virus were five times more likely to die from cardiovascular disease as long as 18 months after infection, the same study found. Heart disease deaths, which had been on a downward trend for decades, began to spike in 2020 and remained high through 2022, the last year for which data is available.

Stroke, blood clots in the legs leading to clots in the lungs, abnormal heart rhythm (arrhythmia) and inflammation of the heart are among the challenges COVID poses, says Mohanakrishnan Sathyamoorthy, M.D., professor and chair of internal medicine at the Burnett School of Medicine in Fort Worth, Texas. In long COVID, this collection of cardiovascular disruptions can present as postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome (POTS), in which patients’ heart rates increase abnormally when they go from sitting or ­lying down to standing up.

One theory to explain COVID’s long-term effect on the heart — and the body in general — centers on inflammation. “Every time you get infected with COVID, there is a possible increased risk of long COVID, and some cardiac disorders can occur — especially if you have a history of heart disease, including stroke, heart disease and heart attacks,” says Pragna Patel, M.D., senior adviser for long COVID at the CDC. All of these problems can be exacerbated by the virus entering coronary tissue and triggering inflammatory responses that can damage the heart.

Researchers say COVID may also alter the gut microbiome, a primary controller of inflammation, thereby triggering the immune system to rev up the condition. “There is no single agreed-upon mechanism that’s causing the issues,” Baratta says. “An individual may have multiple factors going on in their body, and not everyone will have the same underlying mechanism causing their symptoms,” which increases the complexity of both research and treatment.

One factor that seems to matter: vaccination status. “Several studies show that vaccination can decrease the risk of developing long COVID,” Patel says. Vaccination rates tend to increase with age, with people 75 and older being the most well vaccinated — hence the most well protected from long COVID, Patel theorizes. That may explain why long COVID most commonly affects people ages 35 to 64; the risk seems to drop for those 65-plus, according to CDC data.

From long covid diagnosis to treatment No single test can determine whether a ­person has long COVID. Doctors typically diagnose long COVID by reviewing the ­patient’s health history and current symptoms and trying to rule out other causes. A positive COVID test is not required, as someone could have been infected without knowing it, then experience strange symptoms later, Patel says.

Though there are many ongoing clinical trials on long COVID, there is no umbrella treatment. Primary care physicians address what they can, then call in specialists — such as a cardiologist to handle arrhythmia or a therapist to treat anxiety — for more targeted care. There are long COVID centers around the country where teams of professionals work to help patients through their unique symptoms.

“Because the effects of COVID are so wide throughout the body and mind, there will not be a single treatment for all long COVID issues,” Baratta says. “This is ­going to be treated by many different types of providers and specialists, and it will be treated, often, symptom by symptom.”

Long COVID is recognized as a disability under the Americans with Disabilities Act if it substantially limits one or more major life activities. About 200 symptoms fall ­under that umbrella, Patel says. Here are some of the conditions we’re learning can linger months and, in some cases, years beyond an acute COVID infection. If these or other health changes seem familiar, consult your primary care physician.

1. Extreme fatigue It’s common to experience fatigue when your body is busy fighting off an illness. But some people still struggle with fatigue long after their initial COVID infection. In fact, a lack of energy is the number one symptom reported by long COVID patients. In some, this can be diagnosed as chronic fatigue syndrome, which has been on the rise since the start of the pandemic, Baratta says. He defines this as “a disabling level of fatigue that severely limits daily activities.”

This lingering fatigue may be due to limited production of energy within the muscles caused by damage to the mitochondria from a COVID infection. It can happen to anyone — no matter their level of fitness before infection. “I’ve treated patients who have been triathletes and now may only be able to do 15 or 20 minutes of exercise a day, when they’re used to running and swimming miles at a time,” Kaplan says.

He recommends starting slow and pacing yourself with everything you do around the house, “doing shorter intervals several times throughout the day, rather than trying to do everything at once.” Whether it gets better depends on the individual. Some people’s symptoms clear, and some people may battle them indefinitely.

2. Shortness of breath An analysis of chest CT scans from 144 patients ages 27 to 80 found that more than one-third of people hospitalized with a previous COVID infection had lung scarring and thickening two years after coming into contact with the virus. Even patients with milder cases who walked away without scarring can experience changes in their breathing.

“Some research shows that people ­after COVID start to take shorter, shallower breaths,” Baratta says. “This essentially causes a type of hyperventilation they are doing without even recognizing it, not getting good fresh air deep into the lungs, and [this] can lead to shortness of breath.” ​

Doctors have found success using respiratory exercises to help patients relearn slow, deep breathing.

3. Cognitive changes Difficulty concentrating, spaciness and forgetfulness are just a few of the brain challenges COVID can bring on. These can last for weeks or months or — in some with long COVID — become an everyday occurrence that lasts indefinitely. COVID may linger in a person’s gut long after an infection, altering their microbiome and hindering the body’s ability to produce serotonin, leading to cognitive disturbances.

COVID may also disrupt the blood-brain barrier, allowing chemicals or molecules in the rest of the body to enter the brain blood circulation and potentially lead to brain fog, Baratta says.

One study found that 30 days after testing positive for COVID-19, people were at greater risk for cognitive decline, as well as for mental health disorders including anxiety, depression and stress. Another study found inflammation in the brains of people with mild to moderate COVID-19 was similar to the effects of seven years of aging. Doctors are leading neurologically affected patients through cognitive rehabilitation exercises that show promise in reducing symptoms.

4. Depression and anxiety “Mood-related disorders are one of the top five issues that happen to people after COVID,” Baratta says. There may be a direct relationship between the virus’s effect on the brain and mood issues. A 2021 review of eight studies found that 12 weeks after a COVID infection, 11 to 28 ­percent of people had depression symptoms, and 3 to 12 percent of those individuals reported their symptoms as severe. If you’re feeling more stressed or down after catching COVID, tell your primary care physician, who can refer you to a therapist. Or visit the American Psychological Association’s search tool at locator.apa.org to find a qualified therapist in your area.

5. Sleep disturbances Nearly 40 percent of people with long COVID have reported major changes to their sleep patterns. One study looked at 1,056 COVID-19 patients who did not have a severe enough infection to require hospitalization. Of that population, 76.1 percent reported having insomnia and 22.8 percent severe insomnia. Sleep ­apnea may also appear post-COVID, another way the disease affects the respiratory system.

Talk to your doctor if you’re having sleep issues. A CPAP (continuous positive airway pressure) machine can help with sleep ­apnea. Lifestyle habits that prioritize healthy sleep, such as keeping consistent sleep and wake times and avoiding large meals before bed, may also help. “Post-COVID sleep has literally been a nightmare! We saw a 23 percent increase in sleeping-pill prescription during and post-COVID,” says Michael Breus, a clinical psychologist and clinical sleep specialist in Los Angeles.

6. Digestive upset Diarrhea, constipation, abdominal pain, bloating and gas: These symptoms of irritable bowel syndrome can be by-products of an encounter with COVID. A survey of 729 COVID survivors found that 29 percent experienced at least one new chronic GI symptom six months after their infection. “There is evidence that parts of the COVID virus linger in the GI tract for many months after the initial illness, and it’s been suggested that the presence of these ongoing viral fragments causes dysfunction or problems with the GI tract, leading to mostly symptoms of diarrhea and gastric distress and discomfort,” Baratta says.

Talk to your doctor about any new digestive symptoms or seek help from a gastro­enterologist. You can keep a food journal and note if your condition flares after eating certain foods. Try cutting out those foods, then reintroducing them one by one to see what you react to, Kaplan advises.

7. New or worsened allergies Some people who develop COVID experience allergies they never had before. One study found the risk of ­developing allergic diseases, such as asthma and allergic rhinitis, rose significantly within the first 30 days after a COVID diagnosis. This may be because one’s immune system stays hypervigilant after fighting the virus, McAuley says.

In severe cases, like Chrissy Bernal’s, this can lead to mast cell activation syndrome (MCAS), a disease that can behave like a series of severe allergies: The body’s cells become hypersensitive, causing strong ­reactions to everything from food and pollen to even a hot shower or exercise. Antihistamines and other medications may help, so talk to your doctor if you experience skin itching, a rapid pulse, wheezing or gastro­intestinal symptoms.

8. Pain Some COVID survivors battle chronic pain, everything from aching joints to testicular pain. There is a higher risk of inflammatory arthritis, and women are at higher risk than men. One review of studies estimated that 10 percent of people who contracted COVID experienced musculo­skeletal pain at some point during the first year after infection.

Reducing stress, eating a healthy diet and exercising may ease some post-COVID ­discomfort. Massage therapy, movement therapy, acupuncture and over-the-counter pain medications may also offer relief. Your doctor can refer you to a specialist, such as a rheumatologist, who can help manage symptoms including joint pain.

Fast-moving research means new hope If your symptoms last after a bout of COVID, start with your primary care physician, who can help treat your symptoms or refer you to a specialist. Despite previous dismissals, long COVID is more recognized these days, Patel says, and the CDC is doing its part to educate both patients and providers. And initiatives such as the National Institutes of Health’s Recover program are researching treatment options.

“In a year, things will look different, because research is moving so quickly,” says Sara F. Martin, M.D., medical director of the Adult Post-Acute COVID Clinic at Vanderbilt University Medical Center. The CDC, for instance, is funding a series of clinical trials that the NIH has in the works. This new information, Martin says, may guide doctors, including herself, who treat long COVID ­patients to better ease their symptoms.

[olderthannetfic]

I wasn't an anti but I logged back into tumblr after a few years of not using it (2018-19 exodus), and that's when I first heard about the anti vs proship deal. When I was a teen I often read incest/underage/gore/abuse/rpf whatever category of things that are supposed to be brain rotting for you and I never thought twice about it. I never felt guilty, I didn't think it was wrong, and it never crossed my mind to think "this royed fic is depraved and the author a sicko". But when I logged back in, I started reading arguments from both sides.

While going through my blog, to my horror I discovered I had long ago reblogged some rick and morty ship fanart, the grandpa/son messed up relationship version. I thought what if someone finds this blog and connects it to me irl? How would I explain this? Why do I even like this? I thought they would think I was a pedophile. I quickly deleted all of it that I could find.

I also came across a bunch of kylux fanart. I had recently been seeing posts about how that was racist because of course some background white dude with two lines is in a more popular ship then the leads of color, right? Racism. I deleted those, too.

And now I feel so stupid for getting caught up in it. I never outwardly expressed any of this but it was an internal I have to be careful about what I reblog, what art I appreciate, and what I write. I chalk it up to being a year into covid and being isolated, wishing I could be physically in my uni classes, and being incredibly burnt out. I thought what people filled their heads with was really important- because so many people were not wearing masks and covid was overloading hospitals. I was incredibly worried about killing my immunocompromised coworker by giving them covid and resented everyone who wasn't following distancing guidelines (which was a lot of fellow students, my roommate, the public). And I thought if people considered more about what information they shared, and realised their capacity to harm, then this wouldn't be happening.

Plucking the potentially "harmful" things from my life felt like I was helping something. Though I'm not acting like I was operating selflessly. A lot of it was fear of how others would judge me.

After reading what you specifically had to say about kylux I realized how stupid I was being. Because the whole appeal of them is hot kylo ren and the BDSM villains fucking each other in leather. There is no other ship combo in the prequels that delivers that as naturally. It really is super lamentable that m/m juggernaut pairs trend white but it really is 1. lack of nonwhite main characters in popular media in the first place, and 2. lack of nonwhite woobies and characters that fit into that shippable mold. And these things being controlled by the profit margins of hollywood. I thank you for pointing these things out, and snapping me out of being an idiot.

A lot of people my age seem to believe you can change the world by sharing an infographic on instagram. Or here. I don't want to be too harsh on people for clinging so hard to the power of the internet for positive change!! during the most isolated moments of this pandemic, but I really recommend 1. killing the cop in your head and 2. seeing what sort connection you can make with the people in your area. I love logging off and being around people, and I love logging on to read my favs banging with tags that would make a priest infarct.

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That feeling of impotence during a time of ongoing stress is exactly what gets people reaching for the fake activism. They've got to do something, and all the actually productive things are out of reach so...

Emotionally, it's just how we're built, I'm afraid.

[im-adrienne]

We're Kind of Doomed...Just a Little

Tonight while I was playing PVE DayZ, I came across a large gas canister that I didn't need. I typed out in the chat that I had a large gas canister that I didn't need and if anyone needs it then it's theirs. I would even leave it where they could find it later if need be. Someone responded with, "We can buy that at the Trader." This didn't exactly break my brain yet it started me thinking. Capitalism is a certain kind of brain rot that goes so deep into the psyche of a person that they impose its rigidity on a fucking video game.

I say this because that person and many other people on the server:

Believe that there should be no "hand outs".

Believe that community is not about sharing as much as it is about making a profit from others and expect rewards.

Find it foreign/baffling when a person doesn't want a reward or payment for something.

Get mean & aggressive when you want to share items with others. (Ex. "WHY ARE YOU DOING THAT?!?!? THAT'S WORTH X-AMOUNT YOU C*NT!")

Cannot comprehend bartering or mutual aid.

What baffles me is that DayZ is about surviving a zombie apocalypse. Keyword being "surviving". Just because there are traders it does not mean that the survival aspect must be capitalistic. Helping people and building a communal aspect in a post-apocalyptic environment where you could be mauled to death by zombies, bears, wolves, etc at any time is the best survival option and not where one must depend on having enough cash on hand to buy every little thing.

The more I think about a zombie/post-apocalypse type scenario happening in a place like the United States or United Kingdom (or any hyper-nationalist capitalist state) the more I think we're kind of fucking doomed. Like just a little fucking doomed. Mainly because of the individualist, "pick yourself up by your bootstraps" mentality that has gotten only the 1% farther in life yet brainwashed billions into thinking they are millionaires in-waiting while they get paid unfairly. Too many do not understand mutual aid...yet they set up GoFundMe accounts so they can pay off their medical bills. It's disturbing how around-the-facts people can go and for how long.

Even in a fucking survival video game where you loot to survive in a post-apocalyptic world full of stuff that wants to kill you there are people that put a price on everything and hold currency over necessity. If you've ever been in a WoW Guild it can also be this way too.

We all saw and were impacted by the Pandemic. We all saw what people did with hoarding supplies and buying up supplies so they could sell them online at a markup...during a global pandemic. The world is still recovering from that greed (and Covid-19 has not gone away at all). Supply chains are still fucked. Imagine if the Pandemic was worse. Imagine if The Last of Us came to pass. I don't even want to think about it not because of the clickers. No. I don't want to think of it because of the ultra-individualism of too many people that would become a faction of rabid capitalists without a world bank or a stable currency.

Just a little fucking doomed.

[antihumanism]

the recent rumblings about the covid-19 vaccine are all true, of course, i myself have experienced it, after i received my second booster i grew these, these, uh, orange glowing tentacles that emerged from my nose, first, and grew across my, uh, my entire face, and, AND i have a CR of 8 now, which i didn't use to have, i never had a CR beofre, people who defeat me now, they get experience points now, which didn't use to happen when people defeated me before i got the vaccine, when i went to the hospital they told me it was all in my head, that this was all just psychosomatic, but i, uh, i got a second opinion from him when i, uh, i, uh, i used, uh i used my Mind Blast special ability which, which, it, um, it stuns people for 3d4 rounds in a sixty foot cone in front of me, i didn't used to do that, i didn't used to be able to do that, i don't think i could anyway, and, then, i, then, uh, i, well, i ate his brains using the, the, uh tentacles that extend from my face now, and using his mind, which, it is in our mind now, we're like, we now, he's in here with me, it is kind of weird, but, uh, we were able to tell that i had become an illithid, from the, uh, from the 3.5 edition Monster Manual, which is just like in the documentary "Baldur's Gate 3 -- What if we return to Bladur's Gate together?" that you can find on youtube, although, my elder brain says that, uh, that we're not supposed to say "illithid," that we should prefer to be called Flayers of Minds, but i think the elder brain is just fucking with me, just, you know, hahaha make fun of the new girl, tell her lies, uh, my elder brain is kind of a dick really, not really a fan, kinda wish i wasn't part of this hive mind, i think i heard someone say you could, uh, after two years you could join another hive mind, so, like maybe i can do that, but, uh, the Mind Blast, the Mind Blast is pretty cool, though, i like being able to Mind Blast once per round, i don't really know how to feel about the rest of this, because, um, like, um, now that i am an inescapable part of the transhuman future destined to rule the entire galaxy and extinguish the sun and whatever, i'd kind of prefer not to have to kill, like, uh, i'd like not to have to kill everybody, so i think people should just, uh, get their COVID-19 vaccine boosters, please

[dgdraws]

mARTch Days 18 and 19, small and danger

This is rather different from my usual work, a very personal piece.

Late last year we thought for a few days my dad had a tumor in his brain. The biopsy found it was an abscess instead, caused by a common bacteria, Nocardia. It's pretty wimpy though and a healthy immune system can easily kill it, which is why these infections occur most commonly in people with HIV.

Or, now, people who have had their immune system compromised by COVID and find themselves on steroid medications to overcome respiratory infections. Like my dad. We were lucky that he had symptoms that brought him to the ER when they did. Before the Nocardia ate more holes in his brain.

Such a small thing. A weak thing, even. And yet, it represents danger on a life or death scale.

[ncruuk]

Writing and Life update

So, I've nearly finished the Seven/Janeway centric post Picard epic that my brain decided was exactly what it needed to preoccupy itself with while juggling a medium sized health crisis and moving 120 miles (translation for US readers - in UK terms I have moved 3 states over and yes, the admin is MONSTROUS and everyone looks at me like I'm an alien).

Medium sized health crisis is now a more manageable significant health issue so my brain is therefore starting to multitask despite the whole moving into new place is not the same as finished moving (unpacking, admin etc) and deciding that it's probably forgiven NCIS Hawaii for the last two episodes of s2 making a muddle of my Kate backstory headcanon stories I was merrily writing before everything went sideways for Kate in the s2 final eps and me in RL. I am hoping to resume writing that (already 8+ chapters deep into it) in the next month or so once I've finished my Seven/Janeway detour.

And for those that wonder about my Station 19 puppy series....

...the really good news is I have managed, due to all of the above, to completely forget about all post-pandemic show canon and am therefore feeling it safe to reread my own fic without immediately hating everything about it. [Despite writing one baby fic for them, I'm really not a baby!fic storyline person for any pairing - it's the reason I never progressed beyond episode one of the original L Word (the first line of dialogue had me wanting to turn off, but like an obedient under-represented minority I bought the DVD anyway so the show wasn't cancelled due to lack of interest inside the first 10 minutes...oh those sweet, innocent mid 2000s...)].

And for those who have got this far going yes, but what about Kate and Osgood? Good news is I have had my interest piqued by the 60th anniversary trailer release and haven't been alienated by silly 'let's kill off UNIT' plots anymore. Hopefully, assuming we can get to 2024 without me being reminded of the nightmares a 10 year old me had after reading Z for Zachariah (yes, seriously, I had adult post-apocalyptic sci-fi on my school reading list that summer, and I'm sure it doesn't take too much analysis to work out why I have a hot/cold relationship with sci-fi ever since and really didn't do well in the first part of the COVID pandemic which is why I stopped writing my light-hearted 'aliens regularly try to end humanity but UNIT stops them with paperwork and science then), I will get back to Kate, Osgood and their global adventures too.

Promise :-)

[And apologies for not replying to asks here and comments on AO3 - the aforementioned health hiccups rather did a number on my humaning skills]

[atopcat]

“100% fake” you cannot be that stupid🤣

Seriously stfu you war mongering, apartheid supporting racist. You see, unlike yourself I’m lacking the smooth brain energy to blindly obey everything I’m told to believe is the truth. I don’t trust Zionist news sources, even ones that claim to be “neutral” are uttering 24/7 bullshit, so yes they are 100% fake news.

Don’t be a coward anon, defend your apartheid loving ass in person because I really want to if my predictions about your blog are correct:

A scatter of conspiracy theories about Cultural Marxism

Pro Israel posts, but only the ones where they don’t apologise for killing Palestinian children

MAGA nut who still thinks Biden stole the election

Covid 19 is a hoax

A royalist but only after 2017 because for some unbeknownst reason you just don’t like Meghan Markle

Trad wife posts about “traditional women”

Transphobia

Anti abortion

Climate hoax

Anything else? Because I’m pretty sure I’ve just summed up 99% of your blog’s content 👍🏾

[anotherdayforchaosfay]

I'm in a people mood, but can't people.

We're in the middle of a massive covid wave few people are protecting against, and my husband ended up bringing it home. We wear masks, but it's only half the protection if those around us aren't wearing one. Then there's the issue of folks not getting the latest vaccine. If you haven't received a covid19 vaccination after September 2023, you need to correct that now. Unless there's a medical reason you cannot get vaccinated, you have zero excuse. Yes, that includes religious. If your god(s) tell you not to protect yourself from dangerous diseases, they're not worthy of your time. Get vaccinated. You will save not only your own life, but the lives of others, lives your god(s) clearly don't give a single flying fuck about.

Remember, the covid19 vaccines don't make you 100% immune. This disease is very different as are the vaccines and boosters. These make you more likely to survive, have fewer complications, a shorter infection, and your chances of developing long covid are vastly reduced. Covid19 is not a bad case of the flu. The flu kills around 30k/year and it's a respiratory/sinus disease. Covid19 impacts every system of the body, and does more damage than HIV. You can look that up for yourself, I ain't doing the work for you.

Currently, it's day three negative for us after we started meds five days ago. He's gone back to work, both of us are feeling significantly improved. You need to start the meds within the first five days of symptoms. I had to stop taking a couple of my meds so I can take this one, so be prepared to hear you may need to do the same. I had covid19 in 2022, but the medication was out-of-stock, and I was sick from the last week of August to the middle of November. I had brain fog for nearly an entire year (had a fever of 103 F for two days, 101 F for a week while on Tylenol; my brain got cooked), I exhaust easily, my low heat tolerance is significantly worse, there's a very real chance I have POTS but couldn't do the week-long heart monitoring required for a diagnosis because I'm allergic to the adhesives on the sticky pads (yes, even the hypoallergenic), and I have chronic eustachan tube dysfunction (no known treatment). We have no idea what long-term fuckery awaits those who've had covid19; it could be something like the way chicken pox produces shingles later.

Here's a link to places that can test and treat you:

Here's a link with info on how to acquire the medication free of charge:

Excerpt from the article:

Look for pharmacies particpating in Test to Treat. An existing government program for COVID-19 called Test to Treat will continue to dispense Paxlovid and Lagevrio (a slightly less effective antiviral made by Merck) for free at participating pharmacies and community health centers if they have supplies on hand. If you need testing, a vaccine, or have a prescription for Paxlovid or Lagevrio, use this online locator or call 1-800-232-0233 to locate free appointments. 

[milo-is-rambling]

Milo sex brain issues timeline :

Age 11 - my laptop gets taken away from me (by my mom) bc I was looking at porn and self harm instagram accounts

Age 12 - wattpad ao3 fucked up fanfic ruined my brain. Also got catfished by a grown man and my mom found out (thru reading my texts) before I did. Then we never dealt with any of the shame or guilt it just festered in me forever. I see the catfisher threatened suicide before my mom takes my phone away from me completely for like a month.

Age 13 - had a girlfriend and we fucked regularly. Sometimes when I didn’t want to. I thought it was fine bc at least I was wanted.

Age 14 - I break up with girlfriend and she threatens suicide. I spiral. She doesn’t kill herself. Instead becomes friends with all of my friends (except Millie ❤️) and I end up isolated as fuck and hating myself

Age 15 - more depression spiral. Back to fucked up fanfic. This time writing it. Also porn is back but more violent and kinky.

Age 16 - Covid times. Full spiral mental breakdown just bc of existing. Drops out of high school.

Age 17 - move to Florida. Have to sort and pack up all of the shit from my past including everything my ex girlfriend had ever given me.

Age 18 - nsfw twitter account made. Rocking the self hatred and god complex simultaneously. Makes a discord group with other nsfw twt mutuals. My dad dies suddenly. I have to drive to his funeral in Maine. On the road I meet and fuck one of my twt mutuals. The whole friend group falls apart before I’m even back to Florida. Spiral.

Age 19 - fucks a 41 year old man without protection and he cums in me without any warning. Have to take plan b for the first time. Also my first time with a cis guy irl. Not a fan.

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

I dont think anyone else has noticed this tho im sure you have (namely the people acting like clowns in the titanic tag, not you) but the 19yr old did not want to go on that sub, he was terrified and only did it to make his dad happy..idk.. it is very tragic and upsetting and even more so that people seem to ignore this and keep going on their weird jokes about the entire thing, saying how they all wanted to go when no, the 19yr old did not want to at all. I think going down was totally uncalled for, I think stock rush got four people killed and he is terrible for that and deserved what happened to him, i think it is sick he turned a mass grave site into a tourist attraction for bored rich people..but I think people just heard the word rich for these other four and just right away assumed they deserved to die when idk...I did some reading on each of them and they, aside from the obvious ick of being rich, seemed like decent people who made a very very poor choice and trusted the wrong person which led to them dying. the paul guy was (correct me if im wrong) a well respected titanic researcher for over 30yrs, the british man was trying to make flying more sustainable for the planet and such (again correct me if wrong) and the dad and son seemed to do a lot of charity work and were overall kind people..but yeah they seemed like far better people then most celebs people love so the entire thing rubs me wrongly, two things can coexist, the entire thing was wrong and not ok and stock was sick for what he did and his death was justified, but I also have a hard time believing the other four truly deserved to die (Sorry this is random just wanted to hear your thoughts!) :)

ive written the reply to this about five times now because i also struggle with my feelings based around what happened.

on one hand, i do genuinely feel for them, especially suleman dawood who was a 19-year-old kid. i think youd have to lack a heart to not feel for him.

on the other, i fully understand where people are coming from when they dont give a shit about them. two of them were billionaires and the other two were multi-millionaires. i come from a working class background and a single-parent family so it is difficult to feel bad for someone with that much money dying because of a decision they made.

but that doesnt mean i dont feel bad for them, because i do. five human beings died and i just naturally feel for them even though my conscious brain struggles to keep up with that emotion.

and as youve said, some of them seemed to genuinely do good things.

sulemans father shahzada funded mental healthcare for pakistani citizens during covid-19 and was looking into renewable energy.

paul-henri nargeolet had been involved in underwater searches for rms carpathia as well as a flight recorded from a plane that crashed though both were unsuccessful. hed also found a roman wreck as well as an aircraft that had crashed in 1979, giving some closure to the families of those who had perished. he has done a lot of important research on the titanic.

iirc hamish hardings company action aviation has helped the indian government and a namibian cheetah conservation company to reintroduce cheetahs to india, which is objectively a very good thing.

its difficult to parse through how you feel about the disaster because people are messy, and they do both good and bad things.

i dont think i know enough about any of the four adults aboard to say whether the good theyve done outweighed the bad, and whether other people even care about that when it comes to their feelings about this.

the one i know for sure that i dont feel bad for is stockton rush because this was entirely his fault.

im not gonna get into the weeds as to why exactly titan was badly designed, but to save money and for "simplicity", he employed some experimental techniques like the use of carbon fibre and the pressure pod (i hope i have the right word here) being cylindrical. he ignored regulations and laws, he used expire carbon fibre, and he turned a mass gravesite into a tourist spot.

and i hate him even more for how he designed oceangate. the way they work is that each dive would technically be research-based, but to fund it (even though rush is a multi-millionaire), they would allow people to buy tickets to come along. and i hate this more than if it was just tourism because the way hes tied them together has made it harder to criticise the dives because they have done important research.

i definitely he misled people because if you dont know about this sort of vessel, youre likely to defer to someone who helped to develop it.

however, i would err on the side of both harding and nargeolet knowing how unsafe it was. nargeolet had done countless dives just like it and he was in this world where people were saying this isnt safe. we also know that harding knew because his friend victor vescovo, who found the deepest shipwreck in the world (the samuel b roberts), told him that it was unsafe, but harding went anyway.

ive kinda just been rambling in my reply because i do feel torn about it. people died and i struggle not to feel for them, even if my logical brain is arguing with that. i think many people struggle to believe anyone deserves to die because were humans and we are meant to care about each other. its how we survived as a species for so long. but there are people in this world where if they died, the world would objectively be a better place.

at the end of the day, im not the authority on how anyone feels about this and i dont begrudge anyone for their feelings. the world is not black and white, and so much exists in the morally grey area.

youre entitled to feel however you do, anon. dont let others make you feel bad about it.

[striving-to-be]

a review: queer content i’ve consumed on the way to acceptance

1. How to get away with murder: the very first. the one that started it all. i reccommend, but also i watched this during covid when i was in HS and really all my brain took away was ‘if you no like that u gay --> you end up sad and depressed and given up and gloomy like annalise without eve’ so. 

2. Killing Eve: it was ok. obsessed at the time but looking back, i don’t even remember. probably cus: too much tv during the dark days (quarantine)

Edit: ok I came back to rewatch jt and I must say. My memory lied it was AMAZNG. it had everything I wanted; enemies to lovers, forbidden romance, a focus on the wlw ship… I just think Sandra Oh could’ve been written better/given more screen time it’s a little annoying how, once again, she was overshadowed by her white co-star.

3. The 100: clexa. obssessed always. will never lose the AO3 addiction for the rest of my life. love azgeda!clarke and general!clarke fics in particular. send them my way. also in my unhinged way, i’ve probably read everything there is on Ao3. or i will eventually. 

4. Person of Interest: Shaw and Root <3

5. Motherland: Fort Salem. just finished this afternoon. loved so many things. almost got outed watching it. because Raelle and Scylla. lots of thoughts but no time. Later. 

6. Supergirl. All i will say is Alex Danvers. Do i want to be her or fuck her? We will never know. But Agentcorp, I am a fan. 

7. Captain Marvel. Carol and Maria. I look forward to more angsty fics. I’m holding back from watching the sequel because I just know it’s gonna destroy me if they go the ‘carol fucked off never to come back and now Maria is dead and her kid has powers’ route which is what I’ve heard they did so.

8. The Wilds. Just. where are all the fics????????

9. Station 19: Haven’t watched it. Not gonna. Just binged all their scenes together. Not really a fan of Maya, but i disgress. gay is gay. 

10. Legends of Tomorrow: Yes. Avalance. gonna miss it. 

11. Black Panther: I really thought Shuri and Riri were gonna happen. but ok. also, i want to be riri. her garage = who i thought i’d become when i got into engineering. 

12. So many more, will add 

[kyndaris]

The Start of Something New

Following on from my last trip overseas to Taiwan, it took another three years for me to finally venture past my country’s borders as the COVID-19 pandemic subsided. True, the disease is still out there and still has the potential to cause catastrophic harm but people no longer consider it with the same amount of fear as they did before. Regardless, my first destination after so long was to head to Egypt - a land steeped in history and mythology. For a connoisseur of the mystic arts, such as myself, and after taking Ancient History in high school, going to Egypt was like a dream come true! For the first, and possibly only time, I would be walking past the pyramids, come face to face with statues of the gods and the pharaohs of old! 

Suffice it to say, such a would would be exciting, if not exhilarating for one such as I.

The start of the trip was not the most auspicious of days. It was a Tuesday and I had to climb out of bed at 3AM in the morning to make the 6AM flight. Not very fun, I assure you. Despite that, we managed to check-in with time to spare, although we were not able to upgrade to business class like my mother wanted. 

In my opinion, it was for the best. Who wants to fork out an extra $3000 for a few minor luxuries?

Ah, that’s right. I ought to explain the plural ‘we’ that I’ve used in the last few paragraphs. On this first trip overseas since COVID, I was travelling with my Grandma. Meet Popo! And we were going with a tour group. This was no solo wing-it trip. Oh no! Our tour group was about about thirty people strong and we had exchanged pleasantries as we checked in, although I didn’t know anybody.

Fun fact, I was the youngest person on the trip by about 12 years! Whereas Popo was the oldest, sitting comfortably at the ripe old age of 85!

Now, when it comes to travelling with Emirates, there are no direct flights to Cairo from Sydney. Rather, we had to transit through. Which, in and itself, was a 14 hour flight. Coupled with an additional 4 hours as well as the transit time, that was approximately 20-ish hours!

Some might consider that an overly long time. And it was plenty long to be sitting in an uncomfortable airplane chair, waiting for the forming nitrogen bubbles in my joints to enter my brain and kill me, but it also gave me time to peruse what entertainment Emirates had on offer!

On my bucket list of things to watch, I knocked out the Harry Potter 20th Year Anniversay - Robbie Coltrane, may you rest in peace - and watched the Julia Roberts and George Clooney comedy film: Ticket to Paradise.

Now, it should be known that the main reason why I would watch such a film was not to keep up to date with old Hollywood heartthrobs. The main reason why I would watch a vapid film about a girl marrying a guy she’d met about 30 days ago was really because I wanted to see Kaitlyn Dever’s performance in it. And let’s just say she nailed the part of playing the daughter to two famous movie stairs. 

The film also starred Billie Lourd, reprising the role she kinda had in Booksmart. Honestly, when seeing her work on American Horror Story and comparing it to the party girl typecast that she seems to be thrust in when it comes to major blockbuster titles or Hollywood films, it seems such a waste to me.

And because I still had almost 10 more hours to go on the flight, I decided to binge watch the entirety of Season 2 of Why Women Kill, starring of course, my favourite Evil Queen: Lana Parrilla from Once Upon a Time.

By the time the flight landed in Dubai International Airport, I was on the edge of my seat, wondering how the season of Why Women Kill would end. Of course, by then, we had to disembark and go through another security check. An ordeal that took quite a while although none of the security cared if we had more than 100ml of water with us when it came to connecting flights. 

Unfortunately for me, my grandmother was eligible for wheelchair and priority access. Getting on the cart that arrived, she was whisked away by airport staff to an unknown location and I was left to walk to the gate as there simply wasn’t enough seats on the golf cart for additional passengers.

But despite me taking the long way to the gate, by the time I arrived, there was no sign of Popo. Even talking to the staff manning the gate, he was unable to tell me where my grandmother was! And they were already making the final boarding call for the connecting flight to Cairo!

What in the world could I do? 

Ought I stay behind in Dubai as the rest of our tour group boarded? Could I try calling my grandmother instead?

Long story short, the cart pulled up with a few moments to spare, although I very nearly had to suffer through a panic attack. Popo and I boarded the connecting flight and I managed to finish off the second season of Why Women Kill before we arrived in Cairo.

After a late dinner at a Chinese restaurant - the food was average at best - we arrived at our hotel: St Regis Almasa to rest after a trying day of flights, catastrophising and watching a once mousy understanding woman let go of her moral sensibilities all to join an elite gardening club.

[hergan416]

I posted 4,299 times in 2022

That's 1,437 more posts than 2021!

108 posts created (3%)

4,191 posts reblogged (97%)

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I tagged 2,148 of my posts in 2022

Only 50% of my posts had no tags

#ygo - 522 posts

#op - 296 posts

#art rec - 293 posts

#seto kaiba - 196 posts

#one piece - 179 posts

#trafalgar law - 139 posts

#hergie rps - 110 posts

#zoro - 89 posts

#p.i.c. - 88 posts

#atem - 87 posts

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#sometimes doctors are lazy or take shortcuts or are biased but sometimes they are kind people who help you through stressful terrible stuff

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Further feeling like my initial thoughts about fandom culture and especially the pro/anti debate were not unfounded.

Haven't even gotten to the uncensored manuscript and I'm already seeing parallels.

This is one of the critical responses quoted in the forward to the published version of the book:

Why go grabbing in muck-heaps? The world is fair, and the proportion of healthy-minded men and women to those that are foul, fallen, or unnatural is great. Mr. Oscar Wilde has again been writing stuff that were better unwritten; and while The Picture of Dorian Gray, which he contributes to Lippincott's, is ingenious, interesting, full of cleverness, plainly the work of a man of letters, it is false art--for its interest is medico-legal; it is false to human nature--for its hero is a devil; it is false to morality--for it is not made sufficiently clear that the writer does not prefer a course of unnatural iniquity to a life of cleanliness, health, and sanity. The story--which deals with matters only fitted for the Criminal Investigation Department or a hearing in camera [out of public scrutiny]--is discreditable alike to author and editor. Mr. Wilde has brains, and art, and style; but if he can write for none but outlawed noblemen and perverted telegraph boys, the sooner he takes to tailoring (or some other decent trade) the better for his own reputation and the public morals.

-Unsigned notice of The Picture of Dorian Gray, Scots Observer, July 5, 1890; rpt. in Oscar Wilde: The Critical Heritage, ed. Beckson, pp. 68-69.

Why do people, then and now, lack so much nuance?

Dorian Gray starts out relatable. But Wilde ensures that by the end he has done worse than what most readers would imagine themselves capable. Even if we were to live in a society in which it was ok to simply do whatever we wanted with no consequences, most of us would not want to kill, or to cheat, or to lie, or drive another to suicide with our words, or descend into the kind of self-destructive paranoia that consumes Dorian Gray.

Can we not read this book like a tragedy? Why must we assume the protagonist is a hero? Why is it we expect morality to be spoonfed to us in literature? Why must a book contain a moral lesson at all? Why can't a book exist for the artistry? The way it makes you think? The way it makes you reexamine yourself and your place in the world?

I'm sad we haven't changed in hundreds of years. But, I suppose, I'm not surprised.

18 notes - Posted September 9, 2022

#4

Now that authors are revealed, here's the obligatory "I wrote it!" post.

I participated in the Dark Pride of Dimensions discord server's "Dark Valentines of Dimensions" Gift Exchange this year, and got to write for the fantastic @kaibacorpintern.

Title: Heartsick

Rated: G

Tags: Prideshipping (Yami Yugi/Atem | Seto Kaiba), Seto Kaiba, Atem, Isono, Sugoroku Muto, Mokuba Kaiba, Post-Dark Side of Dimensions, COVID-19, phone calls & telephones, anxiety, work skin

Summary: It's 2021, and Seto Kaiba finally returned from a ten year voyage through spacetime with his longtime rival in his arms. His trip to Aaru was a success.

However, there's no time to celebrate in a world that has changed so drastically in the time since he left.

Excerpt

“Kaiba.”

There was static on the other line, as the caller hesitated to speak. Kaiba thumbed towards the end call button, but stopped when a familiar voice greeted him.

"Mr. Kaiba, this is Sugoroku Muto.” Seto blinked. “Atem, the uh Pharaoh, knocked on my door today with your number in his…” Sugoroku hesitated for a second before settling on “pocket.”

...

“May I speak to him?” Seto interrupted. He’d been able to communicate then. Maybe he could continue to do so now.

“Sure,” Sugoroku said. There was a shuffling sound as the phone was passed to Atem.

“Hello.” Atem’s voice sounded in Kaiba’s ear, and Kaiba confirmed that whatever language Atem spoke, he could understand him. Other than that, his thoughts had gone blank, and his chest clenched in anticipation.

“Hello,” he replied dumbly in Ancient Egyptian. “How are you doing?” 

Read it on AO3.

21 notes - Posted February 16, 2022

#3

So I'm rewatching One Piece with my friend. We are watching the fumimation dub because of accessibility reasons, which is a new experience for me because my initial watch through was the sub (is? Obviously it's ongoing)

Anyway we just finished Arlong Park and I'm having thoughts about many things, but especially Sanji and also zosan as a ship.

I forgot how much of an actual dipshit Sanji is verbally to Zeff and the cooks and everyone. It's sort of easy to gloss over in the subs, but the swearing in the dub is way more jarring. But Sanji undoubtedly cares about them still. Immensely.

I remember making an offhand comment when Sanji gets so distracted worried about Zoro's wounds from Mihawk that he takes a hard punch in his fight against the guy he's facing (I forget his name, forgive me): something like "remember when Sanji cared about Zoro?"

[To be fair, Sanji takes big risks for everyone but Usopp during that fight, so it's not just Zoro, and I don't think his actions are intended to be read shippy (Usopp is elsewhere, so he has no reason to help him.) I think this is meant to further establish Sanji's kindness and specific morality, which is narratively both his strength and his weakness, just like Zoro getting lost or Nami with money.]

But then later Sanji is biting at Zoro, and maybe it's the English helping me out, because I know calls Zoro a shitty swordsman in both, but it seems WAY more endearing, way more like how Sanji is with Zeff than being openly hostile as I had initially interpreted it?

I guess I just find it interesting, an aspect of the ship I hadn't thought about before? Like zosan always felt like one of those ships I like because of the fandom. There is a lot of good content for it, but a lot of it feels truly transformative, breathing a different life into the characters than I see on the screen. That's not bad! I honestly like fandom Sanji better than canon Sanji most days, and zosan is part of that.

I'm super curious about what the translation will be like when we get to Sanji's experience during the timeskip. Maybe it's me projecting or reading in too far or wishful thinking because I want Sanji to not be Like That.

Anyway makes me want to write and explore Sanji's character (again). But like, don't expect anything I'm busy af 😂

37 notes - Posted July 1, 2022

#2

Who the fuck bandaged Zoro like that? Why is he with Sanji?

Law fucking had him. They disappeared and now Zoro is bandaged like a fucking cross and Sanji has him.

Did Law treat him like that and then give him to Sanji? Or did he just dump him on Sanji and call it a fucking day and Sanji did...whatever?

One thing we do know...Law ships zosan.

92 notes - Posted September 25, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

So I have gotten to a part in The Picture of Dorian Gray where the neighborhood Picadilly is mentioned. I am also doing Dracula Daily, and so the fact that there is a foot note regarding Picadilly is interesting to me. Because well...*motions at the burglary at the Picadilly House*

Apparently, this is a preeminent street, filled with fashion and high members of society, which all tracks with the difficulties the Dracula guys face entering it and sealing away the soil in the boxes.

....but also, Picadilly is apparently famous for male prostitutes.

Dracula would have been much different if this knowledge were available to our protags, I think.

151 notes - Posted October 7, 2022

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Canada: Euthanasia on demand; doctors licensed to kill - anyone that has followed my substack for a while now know that I have said many times that abortion was never about a woman’s rights or women’s health but it has always been about depopulation and an assault against Christianity. It has been about desensitizing people to the sanctity of life so they could get us to the point that we would accept the murder of what they consider “useless eaters.” The day is coming that these useless eaters will be denied health care and when life gets too bad for them they will be offered assisted suicide and I also believe a day will come when it will be mandatory. Sound crazy? Never happen? Well how many times have you said “oh this could never happen in America” only to see that very issue become a reality? Did you ever think the day would come when a woman would fight for the right to kill her unborn child? Or to see young children having healthy body parts removed? Canada is the testing ground. They already put out figures to the public of how much it costs the taxpayer to care for the sick and disabled. ARTICLE

Organ Harvesting and the Brain Death Fallacy - this is unbelievable but sadly true - 5 min. VIDEO

Pfizer’s ‘Crimes Against Humanity’ — and Legacy Media’s Failure to Report on Them - CHD interview with Dr. Naomi Wolf - ARTICLE

BOMBSHELL: Iranian Hackers Broke Into State’s Voter Roll Database – Used Names, SS and Driver’s License #’s to Fill Out UOCAVA Registrations – Shared Video of Their Actions Online! - ARTICLE/VIDEO (43 min.)

Bill Gates Ordered to Stand Trial Over COVID-19 Vaccines | The Daily Dose - and for the first time Gates donated $50 million to a Presidential campaign and it was not to the Trump campaign - Gee, I wonder why - ARTICLE