#could-transition-save-him

[number1villainstan]

It's funny that I found this poll while searching this blog because I wrote a historical/medieval fantasy AU oneshot, with a teenaged Eri, about this exact thing. (I do have a rewrite under construction but I think this version is still worth checking out.)

A shame the poll is closed, though, cuz I'm torn between "It would save him" and "It would make him worse (affectionately)".

Eri from My Hero Academia

Reasoning: It wouldn't necessarily save him per se but I'd like to think it would give him some comfort

[kiyomitakada]

impromptu meta at 2 — oh wait 1 in the morning thank you daylight saving time

the thing about light yagami is that we all know he is repression incarnate. and we also know that kira was born out of his desperate need to justify sort-of-accidentally killing two people. and so therefore kira isn't what light's repressing, not at the outset; kira is an extension of his repression.

and the death note and his need to hide it very quickly takes over light's life. so it's easy to say that light is light yagami on the outside and kira on the inside, and maybe light feels that way. but. kira is just as much a persona as light yagami. a more hidden persona, but still not the real him, whoever that is.

and the thing is that no one sees past that. ever. most people obviously fall for the charming boy act, but even the detectives — L, near, mello — god, even ryuk stops at part two. i think a lot about how L set up the mock execution because he thought that kira would have killed his own father if necessary. can you see light doing that? eighteen-year-old light yagami who said "if anything happens to you, dad — i'll see that kira gets the death penalty. i swear it."? remember when ryuk laughs at how good an actor he is afterwards and light doesn't look at him?

light never thinks kira is evil. even in yotsuba arc he acknowledges that they think very similarly, just that kira has gone too far. (ha, ha.) for all of death note light yagami is light yagami, who says if kira wins then kira is good, who has convinced himself he is doing the right thing. he gets frustrated when other people don't perceive him the same way — lind l tailor, misa killing police chiefs while pretending to be kira — but the anger has nowhere to go other than murdering more people.

light yagami is kira is light yagami. but L, ryuk, everyone doesn't manage to see through kira in the end.

and after L dies, well. no one will ever measure up to L, in light's eyes. he almost idolizes him in the weirdest way possible. so maybe, he thinks, if the only person in the world who could ever possibly see all of him (this isn't true, it's just what light believes) thought he was just a murderer, then maybe —

i think he hollows himself out in the second arc. in the anime he seriously considers killing sayu; in the manga he never does that but justifies his unwillingness to himself by saying that this way soichiro and light won't come under suspicion (they weren't going to in the first place). light doesn't really have a sense of self. L said he was evil and of course L is wrong — was wrong — will always be wrong — but isn't it easy to play into that stereotypically evil image of himself? especially after soichiro, his last moral compass, dies: isn't it easy to nullify misa's memories, to say she's not intelligent enough to be my partner, to kill kiyomi in the most painful way possible?

("light would have done the same things in the first arc!" sure. but not with that much callousness.)

it's just. it's tragic, you know? light has always pretended to be nicer than he is but he isn't the cold any-means-necessary person they thought kira was either. he is constantly playing someone he thinks he is but he can never escape being light, in the end.

does this make any sense do i sound insane

[couldtransitionsavehim]

Could transition have saved him?

Propaganda: just the whole "I don't know what kind of girl i am" quote hit a little too close to home

[saintverse]

the other day i was explaining to my bf how i don't mind "genderbent" merlin art if it's not annoyingly heterosexual because she's transfem to me but "genderbent" arthur art just feels so very unrealistic. if he was born a girl he would just transition to be honest... people will try to do genderbending but "trans positive" by just saying it's lesbian merthur but then they're both conventionally feminine cis women and truly i don't think that works with their characters... merlin who defies every boundary and societal norm? arthur pendragon? arthur would never be a cis woman he would just transition sorry...

actually hold on. arthur is assumed to be a "tomboy" crossdresser and he pretty much only takes on the role of a princess when his father expects it. considered a harmless fancy. gets to the point where everyone even his knights call him prince arthur but as a "joke" because of how masculine he is. merlin gets assigned as the princess' maidservant and eventually arthur is like Merlin... you must understand... this isn't playing dress up, to me. this is who i am. and merlin's like Ohhh Okay. Lol. Me Too it's okay i get it. and then she walks away and it takes arthur days to realize that merlin was implying she's transfem

there's your yuri merthur if it was awesome and transgender. butch transmasc he/him lesbian arthur and genderfluid trans girl merlin. love wins!

[lyn1catz]

girlvain propaganda

[mechagic]

Flatland moment

[couldtransitionsaveher]

ETHAN "THAT ONE FAGGY ASS ELEPHANT" from ICE AGE: CONTINENTAL DRIFT

JUSTIFICATION:

"said that you a lesbian girl me too" - Anonymous

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[adhdo5]

Once again malding about how there's two guys in MDZS who character relevantly kind of resemble their moms and out of them ONE of them is constantly drawn in makeup and vaguely to extremely femininely styled and for some reason it's NOT THE ONE WHO IS WORSE AT APPEARING SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE AND INTENTIONALLY STYLES HIMSELF AFTER HIS MOM

[holocene-sims]

i missed him 💚🤍

[megahorous]

Birthday present from sister!

[Ryu turns into Chun Li]

[could-transition-save-him]

Deryn Sharp/Dylan Sharp from The Levithian Trilogy

Reasoning: Literally Deryn hates all the expectations of womanhood and joins the army disguised as a boy. (Dylan Sharp) Specifically joined the army so he could fly in airships like his father did with him before he died in an accident. it’s very trans to me. Literally a quote from the first chapter with Deryn is “Do I pass as a Dylan?”

[kiddokori]

trans woman yjh isnt even a headcannon to me thats my beautiful wife

[bulletbilltime]

Looking at hetero ships and male characters and thinking "what if they were gay and girls. this is a normal cisgender thought to have"

[couldtransitionsavehim]

Could transition have saved him?

Propaganda: Look. Nobodys gonna say it was remotely intentional. But George wants to be a boy, hates being called a girl, loves being "mistaken" for a boy, it's not a reach. Made me transgender.

[wormchaser]

i remember being a child and looking at myself in the tiny bathroom mirror, with my hair reaching my shoulders, acne dotting my skin, and understanding that i looked fucking disgusting. ugly is the word i used, but written it does not appreciate the intensity of the word when it was used in that moment.

[multishipper-baby]

Random thoughts about gender headcanons.