#college magick

[ladyiristheenchantress]

Magic for the college witch

In honor of finding out I am set to graduate in December with my associates in science I have decided to celebrate with you all by sharing my tips and tricks I used to help pass some of my classes! Each tip will be sorted into circumstances as to where they may be applicable. Please enjoy, and congrats to all my future grads!

Reminder: In dorms and such you wont have access to many tools, but if your living in an apartment things are less strict. every time you see candles and such if you live in a dorm replace it with either electric candles or even colored stones you can rub together or place in a grid!

Registering for classes

Often times we try to register for classes as soon as possible, especially when you are an incoming freshman. When it comes to getting accepted and starting the process congrats your here.

Set up registering appointments on lucky number days, during the new moon, or on Mondays and Thursdays because those times represent readiness and preparation

Manifest getting good classes and teachers by sending off a prayer out to the universe

Do divination when registering opens to see if a teacher is a good fit or not (Also check out rate my professor)

If you are having trouble establishing classes, or just cant seem to get that *one* class you need, light a blue candle and put mint at the base of it to promote an opening

If your facing a situation where you are trying to get into an exclusive class (this also works if your presenting a thesis) put a sugar packet under your tongue to sweeten your words and make you more convincing

Getting to class on time

The commute anywhere can be a really hard thing to do, whether your commuting from a dorm to a classroom or city to campus it can be hard to be on time or find the motivation to show up to class

To motivate yourself to go to class keep a carnelian under your pillow to help you rise in the morning

Keep a consistent schedule, not only is this helpful psychologically but magically consistency helps build up magical energy towards motivation

enchant your walking shoes (or get heelies) to put pep in your step and always be on time when walking. You can optionally put a sigil in your shoe

enchant cars to avoid red lights by charging your keys in full moon light

Light a green candle before important days to make sure your morning commute runs smoothly

Setting up magical space in the dorms

Most dorms don't allow things like candles or flames, heaters, strip lights, etc. With this in mind people assume it must be hard to create a magical space without some of the key items, but we do have solutions!

Instead of regular candles, use electric ones as votives on deity altars

Instead of incense use MILD essential oil diffusers like lava stones in the corners, or a defuser. Bonus points if you use a dehumidifier

Chances are you wont have a lot of space, so opt for small placements on desks via mini figures and small stones

Set up sachets around your space and put them in clothing areas, not only do they smell good and keep moths away, they act as magical protection

Start working on energy based practices like meditation or enchantments with only your body

Navigating relationships

College can be a hard time, your adjusting to life without the friends you grew up with, most people start their dating life, and friends begin to come and go as you go through classes. Don't restrict what you experience

When you brush your teeth, enchant it to represent you 'speaking your truth' and 'biting back' so your protected from people who have bad intentions or are deceptive

When at parties and such put a sigil of protection on your left thigh, this represents protection from people looking to harm you

blow cinnamon at your door, or use a light cinnamon essential oil wash to invite new people and opportunities

Keep amber under your pillow or by photos to maintain friendships and help you let go of ones that no longer serve you

wear silver to repel energy vampires or people who are looking to use you

Studying success

Studying and how effective it is will depend on you and how you like to study, there are hundreds of posts online that look at how to find your study style, this more focuses on magic you can do for memory retention

Chew mint gum during studying AND during your test for memory recall

Draw sigils on your physical flash cards to make the information easier to retain

On the third of each month save that day to brush up on all information from the class, not only does this prep you for the final but this day is Athenas ritual day

Study the most on Wednesdays as they represent wisdom

Use a shungite worry stone during studying and testing to help keep your mind focused and stress free before tests

Test taking

Test taking can be a really hard part of college, I know it was for me. We do a lot of things to help prepare but what can we do during a test?

Create a sigil of good luck on top of your exam

Wear green on exam days

Eat and drink something enchanted (I swear by a snickers and a red bull) before a test for good luck

Create a superstition like a lucky shirt or pair of socks after your first good exam grade

Wear gold accessories to enhance your test taking skills, and speed up your test (Great when you are being timed)

Mental Health

Your mental health in college is very important, it can be hard being separated from your home town or family and just know that it does get better. College is a mix of emotions, from the loneliest point in your life, to the most social. You will be navigating new challenges, new feats, and its important to take care of yourself. Seek out the college mental health resources available to you like counseling as needed. you matter!

Use words of affirmations when you wake up and before you sleep to remind yourself you matter, my favorite is from the help "You is smart, you is kind, you is important"

Carry rose quartz and carnelian on you for self love and energy

Before bed drink lavander tea for rest and revitalization

Pray over your food to nourish your spirit as you go through college

Write down letters and petition to the universe for stability and how you feel.

I hope you all have enjoyed! Again, congrats to all my future grads, and I hope you all can come with me as I journey to getting my bachelors

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[wild-magick-child]

THIS! I have been looking for information on Candle Magick for College Kids. Because most dorms do not allow the use of candles/incense. This is gold!

Flameless Candles in Witchcraft

Witches can’t always use flames to do their rituals, whether it be because they’re in the broom-closet, they live in a dorm room, they have asthma, or some other reasons. But you don’t always need live flames to practice your craft!! Here is the magick of using flameless candles!

For some types of candle magick, flames are necessary for burning things, but this is not always the case. Sometimes the light is secondary, like when you are trying to meditate o simply create the right mood to help you get into the mindset of your work. 

Batteries are still Magick

Batteries are a form of energy like any other, they are just more concentrated than some other forms of energy. Electricity flows through everything just as energy does; even through inanimate objects. It may not be as aesthetically charming as a real flame, however if the light is strong it can create a similar atmosphere and, just like any other object, batteries can be cleansed and used as something more ritualistic than perhaps it was intended for. They can be safely charged with oils or by placing it in moon or sunlight like any other object, and (given you’re careful about the cracks) they can be sprinkled with enchanted waters like holy water, moonwater, rainwater, etc.

When can you use them?

They can be used in place of flames for safety reasons, convenience, or something more! 

They can safely be used in alters with the permission of the deity being worshipped

They can be used as all-night candles and you can leave them unattended/unwatched safely for any amount of time

As previously mentioned, they can be used as mood lighting for meditation or any ritual/practice

They can be used respectfully in vigils 

They can be sued in low or tight spaces and around animals and children, given the animals and children mentioned won’t eat/chew on it

They can be used near flammable objects such as herbs, leaves, flowers papers, and wooden objects

They can be safely used outdoors no matter the weather (again, given you’re careful about the machinery of it. Some of these are waterproof, but a lot have little cracks water can seep into, which ruins the candle, so simply be careful and aware of the risks when using it in harsher weather like rain)

They can be found in every elemental color if you search around for them, as well as many other shapes and sizes. There are also LED candles that change color with a remote!

LED oil diffusers can be used ijn place of a flameless candle with the added bonus of having a combination of scent and color 

They can also help you practice spells before doing it fir real with a real candle if you’re unsure of whether or not you’re ready/comfortable to commit to the spellwork

As long as intent is there, use what is most convenient for you!!! :)

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[magickkate]

Good Evening! 🌙✨ Are you ready to infuse a dash of magic into your daily culinary adventures? Welcome to the whimsical world of Kitchen Witchery—a delightful blend of spell work, herbalism, and culinary enchantment! 🌿🧙‍♀️✨

🍲 Basic Ingredients for Your Magical Pantry:

Herbs: Rosemary for protection, basil for love, and mint for healing. Experiment with your favorites!

Spices: Cinnamon for prosperity, ginger for energy, and nutmeg for luck. Let your taste buds guide your magical choices!

Crystals: Place a few on your kitchen windowsill for added energy. Clear quartz, amethyst, and rose quartz are popular choices.

🌈 Setting Up Your Kitchen Altar:

Choose a Sacred Space: Designate a corner of your kitchen for magical workings. A windowsill, shelf, or small table works wonders!

Magical Tools: Incorporate a cauldron, candles, and small bowls for herbs and crystals. Personalize it with items close to your heart.

🕯️ Candle Magic in the Kitchen:

Color Magic: Choose candle colors aligning with your intentions. Green for abundance, white for purification, and red for passion.

Enchant While Cooking: Stir your intentions into soups, sauces, and stews. Feel the magic in every motion!

🍵 Brewing Magical Teas:

Create Tea Blends: Mix herbs like chamomile, lavender, and mint for relaxation or energy. Sip with intention and let the magic steep into your soul.

🌕 Harvesting Moon Energies:

Full Moon Feasts: Plan magical meals during the full moon for amplifying energy. Charge crystals and herbs under the moonlight for added potency.

📚 Witchy Wisdom:

Start a Grimoire: Record your magical experiences, recipes, and discoveries. It’s your personal book of kitchen enchantments!

Experiment & Trust Intuition: There are no strict rules in kitchen witchery. Trust your instincts, and let your intuition guide your magical creations.

🌻 Infusing Love into Every Bite:

Cook Mindfully: Turn cooking into a meditation. Infuse your dishes with gratitude, love, and positive energy.

Share the Magic: Share your enchanted meals with loved ones. The joy of kitchen witchery multiplies when shared!

🌿 Nature’s Bounty:

Grow Your Own: Cultivate a small herb garden or keep potted plants in your kitchen. Nothing beats the magic of using homegrown herbs!

Remember, dear beginner kitchen witch, your journey is as unique as the flavors you create. Embrace the magic in simplicity, trust your instincts, and let the cauldron of your heart stir up spells of nourishment and enchantment! 🌈🌟💖 ✨🌿🔮

[psychics4unet]

Grow Your Career with This Secret Ancient Spell! ✨📈🌿🔮🤫

This powerful spell has roots in ancient traditions where words held immense power. Hidden from the public eye, this secret chant has been passed down through generations, believed to summon energies and invoke the forces of nature to manifest desires. By repeating this spell, you tap into this timeless wisdom, harnessing the energy of intention and manifestation. 🌌✨

The Spell:

Find a Quiet Space: Choose a calm place where you can focus without distractions.

Set Your Intention: Take a moment to think about what you want to achieve in your career. Visualize your goal clearly.

Chant the Spell: Repeat the following chant three times, with conviction and focus: "Opportunities flow my way, Success and growth, I claim today. Recognition comes, my skills shine bright, In my career, I reach new heights."

Visualize Your Success: As you chant, imagine yourself in a fulfilling career, experiencing all the success and happiness you desire.

Close the Spell: After chanting, take a deep breath and feel gratitude for the opportunities coming your way. Trust that your intentions are manifesting.

As you chant, you're not just speaking words - you're connecting with the universe and ancient practices that have helped countless people achieve their goals. So, take a moment, focus your energy, and watch as new opportunities unfold before you! 🌟🌈💼🌺

Disclaimer: Results may vary; this spell should be used as a source of inspiration and focus, not a guarantee.

[magicaloxford]

Magdalen College, where the famous occultist, Simon Forman, studied 🌠 After a long practice as a medical magician, Forman died suddenly while in a boat crossing the Thames – on the date he had predicted for his death.

[maeviuslynn]

Are you new to Thelema?

Are you new to Thelema and looking for good beginner resources? Here is helpful list of beginner friendly books, podcasts, YouTube channels, and other online resources. They are listed in no particular order. Beginner Thelema book recommendations: Easier Crowley texts to start with: * Magick in Theory and Practice by Aleister Crowley * Magick without Tears by Aleister Crowley * The Law is for All by Aleister Crowley Other great intro books to start with: * Living Thelema by David Shoemaker * The Magick of Aleister Crowley by Lon Milo Duquette * The Chicken Qabalah by Lon Milo Duquette * The Weiser Concise Guide to Aleister Crowley by Richard Kaczynski * Perdurabo by Richard Kaczynski * Abrahadabra: Understanding Aleister Crowley's Thelemic Magic by Rodney Orpheus * Thelema: An Introduction to the Life, Work & Philosophy of Aleister Crowley by Colin D. Campbell

Thelema resources online: YouTube channels: * Maevius Lynn: https://www.youtube.com/c/MaeviusLynn * O.T.O. USA: https://www.youtube.com/@OrdoTempliOrientisUSA * Blazing Star O.T.O.: https://www.youtube.com/@BlazingStarOTO * Horizon O.T.O.: https://www.youtube.com/@horizon-oto * Sekhet Maat O.T.O.: https://www.youtube.com/@sekhetmaat5987 * Dionysius Rogers: https://www.youtube.com/@dionysiusrogers3548 * Living Thelema with David Shoemaker: https://www.youtube.com/@livingthelema5221 * Temple of the Silver Star: https://youtube.com/c/TempleoftheSilverStar * Speech in Silence: https://www.youtube.com/user/speechinthesilence * Entelecheia: https://www.youtube.com/@entelecheia * Lon Milo DuQuette - Arcanum Luminarium: https://www.youtube.com/@Arcanumluminarium * Sword and Serpent Oasis Learning Library https://www.youtube.com/@swordandserpentoasislearni8589 Podcasts: * Living Thelema on Apple podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/living-thelema/id935174735 * Thelema Now: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/thelema-now-crowley-ritual-magick/id325185715 * Speech in Silence: https://www.speechinthesilence.com/

Website resources: * Internet Sacred Text Archive: https://www.sacred-texts.com/ * Hermetic Library: https://hermetic.com/ * Thelemapedia: https://www.thelemapedia.org/ * O.T.O. Online library: https://lib.oto-usa.org/ * Ra-Hoor-Khuit Network's Magickal Library: https://www.rahoorkhuit.net/library/ceremonial/ * Zero Equals Two: http://zeroequalstwo.net/ * Qabalah resource: https://nofaithinthehumanrace.com/ * From the Mouth of the Beast. Introductory Thelemic texts: http://lapis-mercurii.org/motb/ * Occult meaning of colors and high res art: https://keepsilence.org/colors/ * Scans from the Equinox: https://keepsilence.org/the-equinox/ Thelemic Organizations: * Ordo Templi Orientis (O.T.O.): https://oto.org/ * Typhonian Order (T.O.): http://www.starfirepublishing.co.uk/ * A∴A∴: * https://onestarinsight.org/ * https://outercol.org/ * https://www.thelema.org/aa/ * Temple of the Silver Star: https://totss.org/ * College of Thelema: https://www.thelema.org/college_of_thelema/

[wild-magick-child]

Pop Culture Entities: OCs

Wanna know what a real power move is? Using your Original Characters as Pop Culture Entities. There is a lot of power in creating Servitors that will obey you and help you manifest your intent. If you have the talent, you can create an OC that is tailor-made to exactly what you need.

For example: this is one of my Skyrim OCs, Vandrylok. He is a Breton Wizard-Bard.

He has 100 in Illusion, Alchemy, Enchanting, & Speech. That means he is an expert at influencing others & creating things through artistic expression. He is a Bard with a special interest in Poetry, Painting/Drawing, & Sculpting, so he helps in creative pursuits. His power level is on par with a Dragon because he is Dragonborn. He is an Adventurer and his Mana, Health, & Stamina is off the charts, so he can handle pretty much any quest. He is the Archmage of the College of Winterhold so he is well studied and holds away over teachers. Perfect for students! Having done several loot quests, being in the Trading business, and having 100 in Speech, he is excellent in terms of making & growing money.

That being said, I am using his energies to help me get into college & get money for school. It's a process so I needed a character that could aid through the entire process.

All this to say, yes, you can 100% use OCs in PCM & PCP. As this post shows up on dashboards and is viewed, my OC will grow in power. Likes & reblogs will charge my OC to give him more energy to exist in this world. So Mote It Be /|\

[meerawrites]

Surviving midterms!

For my Canada based witches, here’s where I get most of witchy stuff.

the Etsy version of their shop.

[study-with-ves]

I have finally unpacked and moved into my room -I just finished last night- and today I went to the estate agents and did some research to put into my grimoire -also I just saw a cat

[diamondagent26]

I would love to become someone that posts everyday whether it be for an audience, or for myself. Tumbler seems to be a good source for this as I feel I will be less judged for what I love to do. I am simply a lesbian, vegan, nonbinary, rockin, sustainable witch with a lot to share and learn. I want a community where I can share spiritual and revolutionary ideas with more than anything in the world.

Maybe I'll try posting once a day to give it a go. :)

[the-martyrfication-of-the-matron]

Sheesh, Elven school? What's that like? Is academics harsh there? Crazy elven teachers? We need all the details. Does Zoey had eyes for anyone in the Elven academy?

Since Elves are nearly immortal (illness prevents them from living their lives as fully as they could) they have a whole lot of information that they’ve collected over time.

They’re usually in elven academies until they’re in their 20s, but some students (like Zoey), manage to graduate sooner due to incredible skill and intellect.

It’s equal parts STEM-based as it is based in the arts, as well as a lot of agricultural stuff as they’re a nature-based society. They’re all for progression and everything, so they mostly just spend the education teaching the students on how to progress their own skills and knowledge, informing them how to do efficient research and how to find things out if they can’t easily find the answer. Students choose the subjects they wish to focus on, and whilst they do learn of other subjects as well in a way that benefits the studies they’ve selected, they’re also given the freedom to change their studies at will. Because the style of education is very centres on individual learning, there’s no issues with swapping over. It’s actually encouraged to look into a broad variety of topics if you’re not able to decide what you do what to do.

It’s actually quite chill because of how it favours personal growth (the successful growth of the person benefits society more than the attempted growth of the whole, is the idea they run off of) and student socialisation is encouraged as there is no more natural exchange of information than casual word of mouth.

Zoey did have a romantic partner in the academy, but it wasn’t a great relationship and she had to step away from it.

[divinationtools]

Revitalize your Home's Energy

Tips for Creating a Peaceful Living Space

Our homes are not only physical structures, but they also hold an energetic presence that can influence our thoughts, emotions, and overall well-being. To maintain a harmonious environment, it’s essential to clear any negative energies that may linger. In this article, we will discuss various ways to cleanse your home of any unwanted energy, leaving you with a peaceful and uplifting space. READ MORE

[magickkate]

🤍a simple personal cleansing spell 🤍🎧

Feeling a bit weighed down by negative vibes lately? It's time to treat yourself to a personal cleansing spell that'll leave you feeling refreshed and renewed from the inside out. Here's a gentle ritual to get you started:

🌸 Set the Scene: Find a quiet, peaceful space where you can be alone with your thoughts. Light a candle or some incense to create a soothing atmosphere. Take a few deep breaths to center yourself and let go of any tension.

🔮 Connect with Your Intentions: Close your eyes and focus on what you want to release from your life—whether it's stress, self-doubt, or anything else holding you back. Visualize these negative energies as dark clouds surrounding you.

✨ Embrace the Power of Water: Fill a bowl with warm water and add a handful of sea salt or a few drops of your favorite cleansing essential oil. This mixture symbolizes purification and renewal.

🌊 Cleanse Away Negativity: Dip your fingertips into the water and gently splash it over your face, allowing the purifying energy to wash away any negativity or stagnant energy. As you do this, repeat a simple affirmation like, "I release what no longer serves me and welcome in positivity and light."

🌿 Ground and Reconnect: After cleansing, take a moment to ground yourself by placing your hands on the earth or simply feeling the support of the ground beneath you. Visualize roots growing from your feet, anchoring you firmly to the earth's energy.

❤️ Seal in Positivity: Finish your ritual by anointing yourself with a few drops of cleansing oil or moisturizer, focusing on areas like your wrists, temples, and heart. As you do this, affirm your commitment to self-love and inner peace.

💫 Express Gratitude: Take a moment to thank yourself for taking the time to nurture your mind, body, and spirit. Feel gratitude for the cleansing energy that now surrounds you.

Remember, personal cleansing spells are all about honoring your own journey and intuition. Trust yourself and let the magic flow! 💖🔮

[psychics4unet]

🛡️🔮 Protect Yourself: The Ultimate Spell Against Enemies! 💪✨

Here’s a powerful spell for protection against enemies, focused on chants and requiring no tools! 🕯️✨

Protection Spell Chant

Stand in a quiet space where you feel safe. Take a deep breath and ground yourself. Repeat the following chant three times, visualizing a protective barrier around you:

"Guardians of light, hear my plea, Protect my heart, my soul, my being. From harm and strife, I call to thee, Shield me now, set my spirit free." 🌈💖

As you chant, imagine a bright light surrounding you, forming a shield that repels negativity and harm. 🌟✨

Ending the Spell

To close the spell, say:

"With this chant, my will is clear, Enemies falter, I have no fear. So mote it be, as I decree, Safe and sound, I will always be." 🙏🔒

Repeat this chant whenever you need extra protection! 🛡️💫✨

Disclaimer: Results may vary; this spell should be used as a source of inspiration and focus, not a guarantee.

[zoeisabelladaily]

The Carcerix

Continue…

Today brought a whirlwind of revelations and mysteries that left me with more questions than answers. As I journey through the labyrinth of secrets that shroud Ebonvale, I find myself grappling with uncertainty and intrigue at every turn.

My day began with a visit to the library, where I hoped to uncover the truth behind the elusive door I had stumbled upon yesterday. To my surprise, Albert was already there, waiting patiently amidst the towering shelves of books. As I approached the spot where I had seen the mysterious door, my heart pounded with anticipation, but to my dismay, there was nothing there but solid wall.

However, my disappointment was short-lived as Albert revealed a book titled “The Dead Beans,” which held the key to unlocking another layer of the enigma surrounding Ebonvale. Within its pages lay the names of prisoners confined within a place known as “Carcerix,” a prison shrouded in mystery and dread. It is said that once a person enters Carcerix, escape becomes an impossibility, their fate sealed within its impenetrable walls.

Albert and I were perplexed by the revelation, for if Carcerix was truly inescapable, how did Bumble Grumbletoe manage to send letters from within its confines? The puzzle deepened as we searched the book for any mention of Grumbletoe, but his name remained elusive, leaving us with more questions than answers.

Amidst our investigation, one name stood out to me like a beacon in the darkness: “Mahendra Raj.” Though I knew not why, I felt a strange connection to this name, a gnawing curiosity that refused to be ignored.

Our exploration was cut short as Albert received word that Lilith required his assistance in preparing for the upcoming Magus Meet. With a heavy heart, I bid Albert farewell and made my way back to Terravale Hall, my mind buzzing with thoughts and questions.

At dinner, I chose to remain in solitude, seeking solace in the quiet confines of my chamber. However, my solitude was interrupted by the arrival of Lilith’s fiery salamander, Flara, bearing news of a gathering in the Great Hall. With a sense of trepidation, I ventured forth to join Lilith and her companions, where we shared a meal and words of comfort.

As we dined, Lilith confided in us about her father’s imprisonment, her pain palpable in the flickering light of the torches. We offered her our support and reassurance, promising to stand by her side through the trials that lay ahead.

Later, as I made my way back to Terravale Hall, I was intercepted by Mr. Servius, who escorted me to the Headmistress’s office. There, I was presented with an unexpected invitation to the Magus Meet, though not as a participant, but as a guest. The reason for my invitation remains a mystery, leaving me to ponder the implications of my presence at such a prestigious gathering.

As I retire to my chamber for the night, I am filled with a sense of foreboding and anticipation. The days ahead promise to be fraught with intrigue and uncertainty, but I am determined to unravel the mysteries that lie hidden within the shadowy corridors of Ebonvale.

Yours in curiosity and apprehension, Zoe

[queenofallwitches]

2009: alchemical vandalism and chaos magick exploration of introduction liber null and Psychonaut as a teenager

INTRO: PSYCHOTIC BITCH

 this is scribed out of my teenage diary when I first acquired the book Liber Null and Psychonaut as a high schooler with a rebel spirit and petulant for chaos, destruction and lack of any consequence (and a high tendency for psychic events but I had atheist parts who programmed me to disbelieve in my spiritism roots).:

*** If you read, you'll judge. 

SO FUCK OFF.     22/2/09   Incessant, consistent bordering temperamental, unpredictable A BLUR: If I have to choose a collection of adjectives to describe the onset of this year, those would be my chosen few.   CHAOS.   Regardless of the rollercoaster worthy joy start + my chin is well above the ground and my heart is still beating heavily.    I DEFY ALL SCIENCE.   I SHOULDN'T BE ALIVE.   If I rewound the tick-tock clock and set it to playback the events of the past seven months, plus add a vile and disruptive little monster who cunningly asks the -7 month ago me whether she'd picture her circumstance to be drawn the way it is at current, I would of honestly told that rude and intrusive little monster that I would be a world away from here.    DEAD.    Regardless, I'm glad of the insipid destination which I've landed in.    I spent the first 44 days of this year off my head on drugs.   EMPLOYED TO SELF-DESTRUCT AT ANY AND ALL COSTS. Even while I study and work.    You want to know the truth though?   I feel like I've been reborn.    Despite my "oh-so-obvious" junkie quota being fulfilled, I am more mentally stable than I've been in a very long time.    Lie out my tarot cards and offer me a million dollars to reveal my future and I'll still tell you to fuck off. Fate isn't real. Nothing can be predetermined.    Time is interchangeable and a flexible masterpiece.    Anything is possible, this rollercoaster ride is becoming more wild by the macro-second.   The tunnel we're lurching through is poisoned with pitch-black inevitability.    I am my own god, don't try and bring me down with a kingdom of deceit.   This isn't real This isn't real This isn't REAL This isn't REAL.   ASHAMED.   Time goes to waste

Ashamed is something that I've scrunched up and thrown away into the past.

****

accidental recovery arose from this period of intentional self-annihilation. 

From the intentional 'dark night of the soul' induced psychotic to a psychonaut via the process of psycho-alchemy.