#clothing overload

[fatedwithmbc]

Back at it again. I didn’t do a lot today. I felt off. I still feel off. When do you feel “on” after feeling off?

I physically got into my closet today and came up with a bag of donations. I have empty hangars. This is peanuts though. I have tons of blue IKEA bags around my room and in the basement. Some have wonderfully washed and clean lavender smelling clothes. Some have clothes yet to be washed that require donation afterward.

I realized when I was in the beginning of my diagnosis, I stopped caring for myself. I stopped eating. I stopped doing chores. I stopped functioning. If I needed clean clothes, I bought them. And that’s why I’m in the predicament I am in now. As well the fact that I haven’t worn anything in my closet from prior to the pandemic and the transition to work from home. Since that timeframe, I’ve lost weight, so most of the clothes from pre-pandemic and pre-working from home don’t even fit me anymore. This goal has been my therapy “chore” or goal. Get to a place where I’m not swimming along in a sea of blue IKEA bags.

I always feel like I’m just shuffling things from one place to the next while I complete this task.

Dirty is in a bag, it gets run through the washer and dryer.

It turns from Dirty to Clean.

Clean gets folded and placed back in the bag.

If the Clean is lucky, they get a place in the dresser.

Otherwise, they take their place in the bag and wait for the closet clean out to continue.

I also have two totes to separate the “winter/fall” from the “summer/spring”. One could see how this just feels like a lot of shuffling after explaining my process. I, half the time, think it would be easiest to just throw everything from my closet into the donation pile. However, I’ve got sentimental attachments to my clothes. I can’t be the only one this happens to; but I feel like I attach sentiment to everything.

Sentiment is attached to anything worth a memory - wristbands, ticket stubs, receipts, random pieces of paper, a napkin with a restaurant name on it. Let’s see, there’s also calendars from previous years, planners from previous years — I think I have 10 years worth of mini-Marilyn Monroe calendars that I used to hang in my cubicle from my in-office days.

Don’t ask my why I’m the kid who decided everything had sentimental value. I mean, even my stuffed animals had feelings. Inanimate objects could feel “left out” or hurt if they didn’t get similar attention as my favorite items.

THIS, all of THIS is why I have a hard time letting go. Maybe this is where I’ve gotten this uneasy feeling from while I’ve been completing this therapy “chore”/goal. Thankfully, I’ve had accountability with my therapist. I give her an update each session to show my progress. And I’m nearing the end of this journey. I mostly only have “winter/fall” left to get through (enter totes).

Speaking of getting through things, I’m on day two of being off my A.I. (aromatase inhibitor). Seeing as this is the medication that eliminates any estrogen that my body is managing in to produce, and since the estrogen is feeding the protein that causes my cancer, I can’t imagine that I’d be allowed to be without an A.I.. I have a list of questions for my oncologist on Tuesday. I also have a TON of feelings regarding the fact that I’m coming up on ONE YEAR since my diagnosis. It feels surreal, scary and unbelievable all at once. What comes after the one year mark? Do I just keep floating along with the same treatment plan? Do I need another mammogram, more scans, more biopsies, more medication? It’s a lot of “What-If’s”.

However, “What-If” does no one good. I could sit here every night until I die speculating about when and how it would happen relating to my cancer only to find I might die for reasons that have nothing to do with my cancer. Scary, right?

I’m scared. I’m always scared. There hasn’t been a day without fear since September 17th, 2022. I think I just manage the fear better now. How do I know? Because I’ve been able to do the hard work, like cleaning out my closet and sorting through years and seasons’ worth of clothing. Who knew a pile of clothes could tell all of that about one person.

El Fin.

[squeeblub]

trying to bake 4 ur bf but he came back from the infirmary early and now he wont leave u alone 💔

will is soft and fluffy like milk bread and nico is crunchy on the outside but jelly on the inside like one of those asmr crystal candies

[15-lizards]

The sequel to this: ASOIAF clothing styles!

The Westerlands and The Reach def have similar styles bc they’re so close to each other and have similar climates. Like with their hair, they love showing off their wealth and opulence, so gowns are made from the finest fabrics and are heavily detailed with embroidery, puffed sleeves, and short bodices

The North is so big that what a person wears definitely influenced by location (near the wall, near the vale, or near the riverlands) but in general, there are a lot of high necked, tight fitting gowns for practicality. Made of thick, heavy fabrics but with wide sleeves and lots of embroidery to make it look pretty!

Dorne is full of colors to offset the beige of the desert. They use a lot of long, loose, airy fabrics so that they can have detailed and intricate outfits but still be covered from the sun and not be overheated. Location determines how covered up they are because of the heat. Detailing is VERY big, especially golden embroidery and lining.

I think in the Stormlands, clothing is more durable than anything else, no wispy fabrics here.They’re fairly similar to the north, with thick and sturdy fabrics, high collars, and long sleeves to keep out the constant rain. However I think they love metal accessories and jewelry on their gowns, and put it everywhere

And the Riverlands have a much more “casual” silhouette than the Reach or the Vale, with a drop waist or a loose dress than only gives you figure when you wear a belt. Low necklines and long sleeves I think, because the weather is not freezing but not Dornish either. I think a lot of soft fabrics too, for those who can afford velvet and such

[okaydays22]

[valve3nthusiast]

I don't think I'm mean enough to Ratchet. Tying his ass down to the cuck chair while Pharma and Drift fuck sloppy style in sexy nurses outfits

I think they would put 100% effort into teasing Ratchet, going nice and slow with running their hands over each other and exploring under short dresses... imagine Drift crawling on top of Pharma with his cute little aft presented to Ratchet, so he can get a perfect visual of Pharma's fingers playing with Drift's needy, dripping slit under his skirt

Maybe there's some roleplay in there too, sexy nurses asking Ratchet if they're performing their duties properly, making the doctor give them suggestions on what they should try next. Should Drift lick Pharma's valve clean, or stuff him full of Drift's transfluid to make him more messy, what does the doctor think?

Not sure whether I want Ratchet tied up so he can try and struggle against the ropes/cuffs/whatever, or if its some sort of medical override to completely immobilize him...

But I definitely imagine his panels are open. So every part of his array can burn with charge, twitching and leaking as he's forced to spend hours watching Drift and Pharma frag in any conceivable position they can think of

Oh, and Ratchet should cum all over himself with his spike completely untouched. Obviously. Multiple times, even

[navii-blaze]

@boundforfreedomsonsal Day 3: Fashion

Going more with the theme of 'change', the two are adorned in an attire more regal than their usual, preferred style. Sally adapts easily, used to being dolled up for political formalities. Sonic is just trying to get through the night.

[totallyseiso]

And I still haven't gotten all the endings

[menwhomakemehard]

Just mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.......

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Autism & Colors

Lil Penguin Studios/Autism Happy Place

[grecoromanyaoi]

good god u all r so annoying. why do my posts attract ppl who apparently cannot read at all

[miosonozaki]

Simply a girl in the world with her Sanrio shirt and her hello kitty brand juice…! It even says Angel…

@miosonozaki

[suspiciousvivi]

NEEDY GIRL OVERDOSE x PUYO PUYO

(Played a bit of Needy Streamer Overload on Steam, so I felt like I needed to draw these two with clotheswap xd)

[vocalaar]

roblox stuff

[ssahotchnerr]

there is no harder task than hanging up clothes from the ‘clothes chair’

[a-chihuahua-named-poopoo]

Someone made BanChi a sweater and he loves it!

[moltenzephyr]

Happy Hanukkah from the Mini Keshet Band!

Please welcome Hester Park on vocals, Princess Lila on drums, and Kit Signature on the guitar!