#christopher diaz character study 911

[canonicallyobserving911]

Buck & Eddie: Eddie and Buck are co-parenting Christopher-Parallels

Eddie is Christopher’s biological father and Buck is his legal guardian/second dad.  Eddie and Buck have been co-parenting him for almost 5 years and Buck loves Christopher the same way Eddie does (related post).  They care for him, protect him, spend time with him, have important conversations with him and they’re always there for him whenever he needs them. Christopher knows that if he can’t talk to Eddie about something, he can always go talk to Buck (related post).  In 3x10 “Christmas Spirit”, Christopher asked Buck if he could spend Christmas with him since Eddie had to work (they both had to work).  Also he took Eddie’s cell phone, ordered an Uber after he got upset with Eddie in 4x8 “Breaking Point” and went to Buck’s loft so that he could talk to him and explain the way he felt about Eddie dating again and people leaving him.  That’s when Buck promised Christopher that he wasn’t going anywhere.  Buck, Eddie and Christopher are a family (related post) and once Buck realizes that Eddie and Christopher have been and are continuing to wait for him, then Buck will finally understand that his ‘secret to happiness’ is not a secret at all because they’ve been right in front of him the entire time.  They’re The Buckley-Diaz Family your honor!

GIF 2x4 “Stuck”

GIF 4x14 “Survivors”

GIF 3x2 “sink or Swim”

GIF 3x4 “Triggers”

GIF 3x18 “What’s Next?”

GIF 3x18 “What’s Next?”

GIF 3x12 “Fools”

GIF 4x8 “Breaking Point”

GIF 5x11 “Outside Looking In”

GIF 5x13 “Fear-O-Phobia”

GIF 2x4 “Stuck”

GIF 2x10 “Merry X-Mas”

GIF 3x1 “Kids Today”

GIF 3x9 “Fallout”

GIF 3x10 “Christmas Spirit”

GIF 4x3 “Future Tense���

GIF 5x14 “Dumb Luck”

GIF 6x1 “Let the Games Begin”

[fionaswhvre]

Buck always thought that not all parents are meant to love you unconditionally and that there must be something wrong with him because he never got that kind of love from his parents.

Until he met Christopher Diaz and he realized how easy unconditional love comes is supposed to come to you when you have a kid. And that there is no way it will ever happen that Chris will be out there somewhere and Buck wouldn't care about where he is or what he's doing.

Buck didn't know parents are supposed to love you unconditionally until he met Bobby Nash, who taught him to cook, to dress, to become a man, a person of his own. Who forgave Buck even when Buck unleashed his worst on him (re: the lawsuit). Who never looks at him with that hint of disappointment or with the suggestion that Buck has failed him.

Buck never grew up with the parental love he deserved until he met Bobby who taught him the real definition of being a parent and until he met Chris, who, Buck swore, will never feel unloved as long as him and Eddie are alive.

[yellingatthescreen]

Eddie’s gotta be thinking here about what he needed at thirteen, and what he couldn’t have talked to his dad about. What do we think it was?

Probably how he wished his dad was home more, and how overwhelmed he was being named “the man of the house.” How he had no idea how to do that, because his dad was rarely around to be an example, and how he felt crushed by the responsibility of figuring it out and executing it all on his own.

What else would he be struggling with at thirteen? That’s around the age he might be starting to get crushes or start dating. But I think they definitely didn’t have the kind of relationship where he felt like he could talk to Ramon about that sort of thing.

Struggles with school? Probably met with the blanket advice to buckle down, work harder, apply himself more (probably so he could get a good job and provide for his family.)

Maybe, MAYBE, he could talk to his dad about sports. He would probably also give similar advice, to work hard and practice more. But maybe he would actually talk details, and enjoy hearing about games and such.

What else would Eddie have not been able to talk to his dad about at this age? Thoughts?

9-1-1 (2018-) S07E10 🚒 All Fall Down

[becausebuckley]

michelle's buddie fic recs: week 38!

some more fics!! it’s been an excellent reading week!

this is a mix of fics with all ratings, so some include NSFW content. please take a look at both the ratings and the fic tags before reading!

if you come across something you like in this list, remember to show some love to the author by leaving kudos and a comment!

all you're giving me is friction | hammersmiths/@henswilsons | 7.9k | T

Eddie is new, and married, and Buck won’t stop flirting. 5+1. excellent team vibes and such a fun twist!!

family feud: first responders | Princessfbi/@princessfbi | 3.2k| G

The FireFam go on Family Feud. hilarious lovely fic that was so nice to read in 911 family feud week <3

ice cream before dinner | cloudydaisies | 58.6k | T

gerrard messes with the team's schedules and eddie 'i just drove my son to flee the state' diaz is the only option to watch mara and jee-yun after school on tuesdays, which, shouldn't be a problem at all, right? this made me cry. eddie and jee and mara <3

i'm here (i'm yours for the taking) | farfromthstars/@doeeyeseddie | 19.1k | T

at the winter wedding of an old friend, buck and eddie pretend to be married to each other. the plan has no weaknesses, obviously, not even mistletoe or anyone’s secret feelings… using this as a blanket rec for this author because i've been slowly making my way through all their fics and every single one of them hits the spot <3 but this one in particular has a lovely lovely pretend relationship and it's so good!!

invisible string (tying you to me) | bookinit/@bookinit02 | 5.3k | T

buck, eddie, and the intimacy of a properly-tied shoe. buck's acts of service <3 i love fics of buddie doing Totally Normal Friend Things hehe

i've only known you to keep your word | thisissirius/@thisissirius | 4.4k | M

buck's lonely and eddie knows. i love fics that go no no this man's not gonna be lonely anymore and this is exactly that <3

no thing defines a man (like love) | timeshareindestin/@timeshareindestin | 12.3k | T

the buckley parents are visiting LA for jee's 4th birthday. which is fine, except they don't know two things: 1. buck has hearing aids again, and 2. he's engaged to eddie. hard of hearing buck series my beloved <3 i love eddie's interactions with the buckley parents and the maddie convo!!

a reservoir in your eyes. | dylaesthetics | 7k | M

the Buddie roommates fic where Buck’s apartment burns down, Christopher teaches him Gen-Z slang, and Buck finally snaps. the buck and chris slang bit never fails to cheer me up!

You Ran Outside and Caught the Moon | yoddream/@yoddream | 47.8k | M

Eddie wants to tell him that it only happened yesterday, but then he thinks about quarantine, and when Shannon died, and when she left for LA after he was discharged, and when he found out Chris was diagnosed with cerebral palsy, and when Shannon told him she was pregnant, and when he was ten and his dad yelled at him for crashing his new truck because his mom was in labor and nobody was around to take her to the hospital. He thinks about how he wanted to disappear every time, wished for something to kill him so that he didn’t have to face his fears, deal with reality. It hits him like his dad’s truck hit the tree. mind the tags for this one but it's such a fantastic character study and exactly the fic i needed this week <3

[buddierecs]

hurt/comfort buddie fics

all mature rating!!! make sure to kudos/comment on these amazing works :)

leave the light on (i'll be coming home) - highly highly recommend this!!!!! by: HMSLusitania "an accident on a call leaves buck with custody of chris after eddie is... missing presumed. while they navigate their new family circumstances -- and fight to stay together, despite eddie's parents' best efforts -- a john doe wakes up in a coma ward with no memory of his own life beyond the knowledge he has a son named christopher and, somehow, he needs to get home." word count: 44k important tags: presumed dead, grief, mourning, angst, amnesia, getting together

peace in austin by: angalwithwingsoffire "the story of evan buckley, losing all hope in la after the lawsuit and moving to texas to join the 126." word count: 156k important tags post-lawsuit, 911 lone star characters, angst, evan buckely leaves the 118, depression, ptsd, emotional hurt

just to be with you by: woodchoc_magnum "in which eddie and ana are dating, buck is secretly in love with him, and christopher isn't handling it well." word count: 147k important tags: pining, angst, secret relationship, lack of communication, found family, jealously the evolution of buddie (series) by insanejuliann "over time, eddie starts to wonder if everyone might actually be right when they joke about him and buck being more than friends." word count: 171k important tags: pre-relationship, oblivious!eddie diaz, eddie diaz pov internalised homophobia, getting together, slice of life

heart of flowers/heart of gold by elvensorceress "after nearly losing each other, buck and eddie find their way to each other and their family’s happily ever after." word count: 144k important tags: season 4, friends to lovers, mutual pining, evan buckley takes care of eddie diaz, demisexual!eddie diaz, gun shot wounds

like when the sun came out by: spaceprincessem "buck can see ghost au" word count: 39k important tags: mentions of suicide, supernatural elements, getting together, first kiss, angst

if i said you could never touch me by: marviless "in which buck is avoiding having sex with eddie." word count: 15k important tags discussions of sex as self-harm, developing relationship, unhealthy coping mechanisms, character study, fluff

fireflies where my caution should be by: littlesnowpea "there are people on the porch,” eddie says, voice even. “saying they want to meet their grandchild.” word count: 13k important tags: fake marriage, self-esteem issues, protective!eddiediaz, angst, bobby nash and athena grant being evan buckley's parents

general audience rating hurt/comfort fics explicit rating hurt/comfort fics

[cranberrymoons]

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fic masterlist 🩷

look who's inside again 16,846 words | rated m | buckley-diaz family, chris character study, reconciliation, follow-up/prequel to i'm holding on (barely)

chris misses his dad. he misses his mom. he misses buck. he's still trying to figure out what it means that he misses them all in the same way.

close ain't close enough (til we cross the line) buddie | 9,884 words | rated e | infidelity, possessive sex

buck and eddie are not even approaching normal about each other; things escalate quickly (aka: the sexting fic, part 2)

don't slow this down buddie | rated e | 2,581 words | getting together, domesticity, intimacy, hand jobs

They’re twenty seven hours into ninety six off, three more days of nothing stretching out in front of them. Nothing but this, and Buck, and the early afternoon sun pouring in through the big loft windows. "I guess I don't have to go."

911

i'm holding on (barely) buddie + helena character study | 12,543 words | rated m

August comes, and with it comes Eddie. Eddie and that friend of his who was there back at the start of the summer, the one Christopher has talked so much about over the past few months. Buck this, and Buck that, and – All of it. Helena takes one look at them, and she knows. eddie and buck take christopher home to california; helena and ramon decide to follow

nothing wrong with me loving you buddie | 4,496 words | rated e | infidelity, sexting

He’s not thinking about it. He’s not. He’s definitely not. Buck leaves for the night, gets in his car and drives away like everything’s normal – normal because it is, it literally is, it’s the most normal night in the world, and Eddie is the most normal he’s ever been, and then maybe an hour later, he gets a text. buck and eddie watch red white and royal blue together; one thing leads to another (aka: the sexting fic)

breathe in, breathe through buddie | rated t | 1,045 words | 803 coda, pre-relationship, pining, bed sharing

Eddie blinks back at him, and Buck feels his heart give a lazy thump in his chest. “Long night,” he says after a moment. It’s the first thing either of them have said since they left the station, since they ended up here by silent agreement. Eddie nods, and Buck feels himself smile. “Did I tell you I got to steal a motorcycle?”

ring like silver, ring like gold buddie | rated e | 1,163 words | established relationship, car sex, being FREAKS about domesticity etc

“Did you see the way Parker’s mom was looking at you?” Gasps. Huffs against his neck where Eddie’s skin is flushed and hot, sticky from their mingled sweat and the flat expanse of Buck’s tongue. “Asking if you wanted to help chaperone the Spring Fling.” 

late night high (i'm floating) buddie | 1,649 words | rated e | drug use, self-realization, mustache burn 😌

eddie gets very very high and realizes several important things about himself; buck's just trying to follow along

an aching in my heart buddie | rated m | 1,154 words | first kiss, beach camping, poetry

It’s dark out here past the lights of the city, air crisp and fresh and new in a way that makes him feel like his lungs can finally fill up for the first time maybe ever in his whole life. No smoke. No smog. No haze of dust or ash hanging over everything and sneaking into the crevices. Just air and the salt spray of the sea and Eddie sitting next to him on the beach with their shoulders pressed together.

i'm a cliché (who cares) buddie | 7,326 words | rated e

“You okay?” Buck asks, and Eddie blinks, lets out the breath that had gotten caught in his throat. “Yeah,” he says, even though – no, not really. “Sorry, just – a surprise, I guess. Hearing from him.” Which is weird, come to think of it, because they used to be close. Closer than anything, as close as – well, as close as him and Buck, but in a different way. In a way that felt frantic and clinging and desperate, something to hold onto while they were being shot at. Eddie hears from an old army buddy; it brings a few things to the surface.

let me put my lips to something buddie | 2,524 words | rated e | blood kink, possessive sex

It’s a rush, having sex with Buck. And he thinks part of it is probably down to this, the fact that it’s something that finally feels right-sized after a lifetime of not. That’s a big part of it, but another part of it is that it’s him. Him. Everything. The way it feels like they could consume each other like fire and it still wouldn’t be enough.

we all fall down pre-buddie | 1,634 words | rated m | infidelity/angst

Buck hates that he was here for this. He hates that he was here for this, Eddie and his girlfriend and the fucked up thing with the woman who’s not Shannon, and Buck just standing there in the middle of it, the four of them trapped together in Eddie’s living room on a random Thursday night like something out of a soap opera because they all happened to converge at once. when the metaphorical house burns down, you don't want to be the only one left standing in it

closer than my hands have been buddie | 4,578 words, rated M

Eddie never feels easy. Tommy feels easy, but Eddie – he doesn’t. He doesn’t feel easy now, and he didn’t feel easy last night, and he didn’t feel easy the night before that or before that or before that. Well, except for the parts where he did, when everything felt easy and loose and uncomplicated. Free. He misses that feeling. buck and tommy are together, and eddie's fine with that. it's fine. it is.

i feel a change in the weather (i feel a change in me) buddie | 2,133 words | rated M

It all comes to a head on the hot dusty path up to the top of Runyon Canyon. It feels inevitable, feels like something they’ve maybe been inching toward in fits and starts ever since they met. Feels right and easy and lived-in already, like a favorite shirt that’s been folded in the back of the closet for years, just waiting to be picked up and put on. buck and eddie go for a hike, kiss in the sunlight, and fall in love, not necessarily in that order.

you and tequila make me crazy buddie | 1,533 words | rated M

His arm is still draped over Eddie’s shoulders, hand still holding the other side of his head, and he shifts so that his fingers push up into the hair at the back of his neck, thumb slotting up against his ear. And he’s so close. Half an inch closer and he’d be able to feel Eddie’s heartbeat under his tongue, solid and sure and alive, and – “Hey,” says a voice above them, sharp enough to cut straight through the fog that’s settled over them. “There you guys are.” in which buck and eddie lose chimney because they're drunk and horny

for the rest of mine buddie | 644 words | rated M

It happens on a Tuesday night, with the soft whirl of the dishwasher running in the kitchen and ESPN on low in the background and Chris’s homework left laying out on the coffee table when he went to bed about an hour ago. 

heart in throat (am i dreaming?) buddie | 1,227 words | rated T

I kissed someone, he imagines himself saying eventually, when he’s ready. I think I really like him. Just like that. No big announcement, no declaration, but just – just letting it sit there and breathe between them.

already standing on the ground buddie | 1,195 words | rated T

Buck lets out a laugh, one hand coming up to scratch at the back of his neck. Laughing like he’s relieved, like he can’t quite believe the words coming out of his own mouth. “We were on a date.” And – Eddie blinks. “Oh.”

such a sweet thing (i wanna do everything) bucktommy | 5,582 words | rated e

Buck doesn’t want to take it slow. He doesn’t want Tommy to ease him in or treat him gently. What he wants is to suck a dick.

stranger things

here you come again stommy | 16,172 words | rated e

Steve and Tommy haven't talked in nearly three years. After everything, maybe the best way forward is back.

so fondly today steddie | 8,267 words | rated E processing trauma, getting together | tumblr post

Eddie's hair is pulled up on top of his head, and there’s a piece of it falling down to frame his face, and Steve’s sleep-deprived brain sends a shock of want rushing through him. Want: he wants to touch? Wants to look? He’s looking. Wants to… something? He feels electricity crackle at the backs of his teeth and he blinks, wanting. Wanting so badly that something aches inside his chest. (it's been a few months since everything, and steve is beginning to realize some things about himself)

get it off your chest steddie | 7,415 words | rated E rough sex, spanking, read the ao3 tags! | tumblr post

“You think this is me taking you apart?” Eddie asks. He lets go of Steve’s hair and plants a hand in the center of his chest, then gives him a shove toward the bed. “That’s adorable, Steve. Seriously.” (or, steve and eddie have life-affirmingly good sex) aka my Consent Is Sexy manifesto

dressed up to the eyes steddie | 8,737 words | rated E rough sex, spanking, read the ao3 tags! | tumblr post

Steve almost didn’t come out tonight. It’s been a long day, and he kind of just wants to be at home in his sweatpants, curled up on the couch with takeout and an old movie, but – But he’d agreed to be social tonight – if nothing else, in Robin’s honor since she was supposed to have a date tonight but is trapped in bed with the flu – and so… here he is. Being social. Ish. Socialish. Steve and Eddie are strangers in a bar... or are they?

something so pretty steddie | 3,087 words | rated M | tumblr post

Eddie raises Steve's hand to brush a kiss over his knuckles, then catches him around the waist again, swaying them back and forth to the rhythm of a Bangles song coming from the radio. “I said you look pretty, and I meant it. Deal with it.” Steve feels a reluctant smile pull at the corners of his mouth. “Really?” (the girls paint steve's nails and it causes him to feel several enormous feelings)

can't start a fire steddie | 3,831 words | rated T | tumblr post

“Are you sure this is okay?” Steve asks in an undertone once everyone has arrived that first night. He looks genuinely nervous, which is… insane; he’s a bat-wielding, bat-biting jock who saved the world, and Eddie’s just – “I don’t think your friends like me very much.” Eddie feels the corners of his mouth draw down as he follows Steve’s eyeline to where the others are huddled in the corner talking amongst themselves. (steve doesn't need people taking care of him. except, maybe he kind of likes it when they do)

the sweetest thing steddie | 14,022 words | rated E

It had started out simple enough between them, Eddie making some off-hand comment about Steve not being able to hold out for a whole month and Steve, ever unable to back down from a challenge, rising to the bait. “Whatever,” he’d said, rolling his eyes. “A month? Please.” He could do a month. Easy. He just hadn't counted on Eddie being – well. Himself. eddie goads steve into a No Nut November challenge; he never said anything about taking it easy on him

the seas be ours (steddie pirates au) (2 works, 10,943 words, rated E)

Eddie The Dread Pirate Munson captures the Harrington heir with the intent of ransoming him back to his family for an easy payout. He really could not have guessed what he was getting himself into.

back in the new york groove (26,823 words, rated E) summer 1999 | tumblr post | ch 6/? rockstar eddie/middle school teacher steve, soft dom steve

“Ha!” Eddie says, jabbing a finger into Steve's chest. “I have a publicist. That automatically makes me cooler than you.” “Oh yeah? Well I have about eighty twelve year olds back in Santa Monica who think I’m the coolest guy on the planet.” (new york isn't home, but it's the next best thing) Steve and Eddie chaotically parenting their gen-z toddler in the late 90s (part of the future fic series)

future fic series (23 works, 64,995 words, rated G-E)

a love letter to the idea of home or, the happily-ever-after future in which Eddie is a rockstar and Steve is a middle school teacher and they have a bunch of kids and live by the ocean (rockstar eddie + middle school teacher steve)

a love to last past saturday night (3,550 words, rated T for now but will go up in later chapters) | ch 1/? coffee shop au

There’s a little cafe at the end of Steve’s block that he’s only ever been in once.  It’s called Corroded Coffee and it’s dark in there and maybe a little pretentious, but not pretentious as in… people reading classic novels or having discussions about French Cinema. Pretentious in the sense that there’s an intimidating collection of vinyl records taking up half an entire wall and they use single origin arabica beans and the scary baristas look at you sideways if you order regular milk in your latte.

misc. series:

kinktober 2023 (14 works, 39,566 words, rated T-E, stranger things)

a collection of fics written for kinktober 2023 and eddie month 2023 prompts – works can also be found on tumblr under the "kinktober 2023" tag

steddie microfic (16 works, 6,502 words, rated G-E, stranger things)

a collection of microfic written for the monthly steddiemicrofic challenges – works can also be found on tumblr under the "steddiemicrofic" tag

discord drabbles (16 works, 8,479 words, rated G-E, stranger things)

a collection of drabbles/microfics written for daily discord prompts – works can also be found on tumblr under the "discord drabble" tag

steddie holiday drabbles (29 works, 21,715 words, rated T-E, stranger things)

the 2023 fic advent calendar! a collection of fics between 300-1,000 words each, written for steddieholidaydrabbles' prompts and warm-up rounds – works can also be found on tumblr under the "steddieholidaydrabbles" tag

[fwtxl]

okay but Buck saying yes to being a their sperm donor is so him. This season for him is finding what he wants and who he is, and sure that’s what Buck begins was all about but with that he was looking for a place that he fit. People grow and change and as scary as that is no one stays the same they can feel the same on the inside, but things are always gonna change and with everything that’s gone on with Eddie and Taylor (him finally being the one who leaves first) he’s looking to do things for HIMSELF he needs to really find who he is now and not the him he was 4-5 years ago. if the writers do this all correctly and not mess it up it could honestly be a better story arc then him just being for spare parts because he’s so much more than that. This also really gives him a chance to REALLY see things (himself) the way others do because sure people can tell you your good, kind etc. but you don’t really fully believe it until you look hard enough at yourself. This becoming possibly a full circle moment for him and realizing he already has had a family and people who love him without conditions (him thinking he’s expandable when he not is prof no.1 that to him love and people caring needs to have conditions). This also just continues to leading back to the will and shooting Buck and Eddie might finally talk about it and how Buck as always been a dad to Chris and that’s how it plays into the interview that Oliver did when he said Buck steps more into a co parent more this season. Buck is finally gonna be able to see how amazing he is, but first he needs to figure out who is NOW and not who he was before.

- a little something I tweeted + and expansion of my thoughts

[kitkatpancakestack]

This post by @yramesoruniverse really got me thinking about Eddie's self-image.

I mean, we talk about Buck having self-worth issues, but Eddie? Good God. It's tragic in an entirely different way. I am not discounting Buck's character at all, let me be clear, and I have written metas about how beautiful and important it is, but Eddie's deserves a little love, too.

Buck is able to be a bit more loud with his insecurities, a bit more obvious. Eddie gets to hide behind his son. He gets to smile and talk about how much he loves his kid and rock the whole single dad thing and completely distract from the fact that none of this love is directed inward. Christopher is the mediating variable of Eddie's worth. In Eddie's eyes, Christopher confers a value on his life that wouldn't otherwise exist. Eddie is only palatable to the world by extension of his son, and so we have thus far seen all of his major plotlines circle around Christopher. I'm not saying this is bad, because he's a single parent and that's a huge part of his character's identity, I'm just saying it reveals a lot about him.

There have been god-tier metas out there about Eddie's relationship to his body, which I think also plays a huge role in this. His clinical approach to physical maintenance is driven by necessity. Keep himself in shape enough to be there for his son, to provide for his son, to not let his son down. None of it is self-care. None of it is selfish. None of it is for him.

I don't know where they plan to take Eddie's character, but at least from what I've seen during season 4 (especially the end), it feels like a shift inward. I can't think of a better story for Eddie than him allowing himself to exist in the world as a person who can ask for things. Who can need things, for himself, separate from his son. Who can reflect on his family and think what does Chris want? and then follow it up with What do I want? Something about him and Buck and the will scene just drips with insinuation. I think granting Buck permanency in his life was a huge, telling step in this road for doing things for himself. He held that information for a year, yes because he didn't want to burden Buck, but also because it was a purely selfish action he did for himself, one that was so unaligned with his existing perception of himself, and he probably needed the series of events from mid-S3 to the S4 finale to come to terms with it.

Idk man. Idk. I just love this stupid man so much. What a character. S5 better treat him well.

[fruitydiaz]

911 character studies ✯ Eddie Diaz

I spent my whole life trying not to be like you. All these years I, uh, I tried to...set a good example for you. Maybe...maybe it was the wrong one, I don't know. But I never understood why you were so angry with me. I—I...why it always felt like you were punishing me. Think I was punishing myself more. But I'm tired of being that guy. I'm going to be better. For Christopher. Mm. For myself.

[Image description: 8 gifs of Eddie Diaz from 9-1-1. Gif 1: Eddie struggles not to cry as he tells Buck how he pulled four people out of the helicopter crash in Afghanistan, but he didn’t save them. Gif 2: A close up of Eddie’s bloody hand shakily holding his St. Christopher medal up. Gif 3: A full length shot of Eddie as he faces away from the camera, slowly turning to face Buck off camera. Gif 4: Eddie walks in slow motion and pulls his firefighter’s helmet off after the dispatch fire. Gif 5: After Christopher tells Eddie he could be dead next year, Eddie looks up slowly, stricken. Gif 6: A close up of the note that Shannon wrote to Eddie when she left. The outside has his name written on it. The inside says, I need some time too. Gif 7: Eddie lies on the road, his head resting in a pool of his own blood as he reaches forward slowly, after being shot. Gif 8: The camera pans around Eddie, framed in bright orange-yellow light, as he holds his arms up in victory after winning a fight. /end ID.]

[stagefoureddiediaz]

11 Questions

Tagged by @theladyyavilee thank you 😎

Rules: Answer the following 11 questions and then ask 11 of your own and tag people

1. What is a topic that you like to research just for fun and have more than just average amounts of knowledge about? (not like something you studied, just something that really interests you)

Ok so this is pretty random, and technically it’s related to my job, but it’s a side project I work on for fun! My specialist subject is 17th century English Silk armour, but my research into it has lead me to the Mughal Empire and Akbar, (which has become another fascination for me because he’s such an interesting character!) and to Japan and the Edo dynasty!

2. What’s your love language, but instead of the normal list, you use this one?

Ooh a tough choice but I think eating together is going to win because it’s a time when you can be in each other’s presence and enjoy something as simple or fancy as you choose!

3. do you like the time right before sunrise, right as the sun is rising, right as the sun is going down or right after sunset best?

Hmmmm as the sun is going down I think, I’m a night owl so it’s the time of day when I feel most alive. And there is no greater joy in life than sitting on a cliff watching the sun descend into the ocean - it’s magical and spiritual!

4. What is your favorite type of cake?

Give me all the red velvet cake with cream cheese frosting 😋

5. What is a line from a movie/tv show or a book or a fanfic that has stuck with you for a really long time?

I have two

‘The Prince has read utopia’ from ever after is a line that randomly pops into my brain on a regular basis - it’s one of my favourite films - I had it on vhs as a child and watched it so many times I wore the tape out (how my asd and adhd didn’t get diagnosed until I was an adult is beyond me 🤦🏻‍♀️) and as a result I read utopia at the grand old age of 13!!

The other is ‘in vain I have struggled, it will not do’

From my beloved pride and prejudice- it’s a line I quote all the time because it’s so relatable - only that section (although I’ve read the book so many times I think I could probably recite it backwards by now!!) because I find so many things a struggle that quoting that line makes me smile and makes things seem a little less infuriating!!

6. Do you have like a go-to recipe you cook when cooking for other people, because you know you are good at making it?

I am Eddie - I cannot cook!! I’m not sure how I’ve survived these last few years of living on my own! But I can make exactly 1 meal - toad in the hole with cauliflower cheese, vegetables and gravy! It’s my ultimate comfort food!

7. if you had to live in isolation for one month with one of the 911 characters (preferably without murdering each other xD) which one would it be and why?

Eddie my beloved you’re gonna be stuck with me for a month and I’m going to pry open your brain and make you deal with your repression and trauma so when we’re free you are in a place to talk to Buck and Christopher and finish building the Buckley-Diaz family you’ve been working on since the day you joined the 118!!! (He may very well want to murder me by the time we were freed! 🤣)

8. what is one song that you like to listen to when you are in a really good mood? (think dancing in the kitchen, singing along at the top of your lungs with the windows open kinda good mood xD)

The Chariot by The Cat Empire - they’ve been my favourite band for nearly 20years their music has got me through some dark times and this song never fails to make me jump around and sing at the top of my lungs. If I’m feeling a bit down this is the song that will get me out of my funk.

9. if you could spend one day in the world of any of your favorite childhood stories, which would you choose

See this is such a good question, but also so hard because I’d love to visit the faraway tree, but I’d also really like to go to the haven and hang out with the fairies (from Artemis fowl!) not to mention discworld, but I think Narnia is always going to be the place I want to visit the most because I spent so much of my childhood checking every wardrobe to see if I could get to Narnia. (Fun story - growing up I had a playroom that I shared with my sister- it was next to my bedroom and because the wall was only a partition and I had a lockable old gentleman’s wardrobe, my mum cut a hole in the wall and took the back off the wardrobe so I could climb through into the playroom which mum painted to look like lantern waste - we even had a lamppost in the room!!

10. as a concept for magic in a fantasy book do you prefer emotion/intent/focus-based, spell/writing/words-based or potion/ingredient/material-based? or another concept alltogether?

Spell/writing/words based - I love when magic is shown as using ancient languages - Merlin did it really well - all the spells were from ancient English and Celtic languages (I learnt some ancient English as a result of Merlin 🤣🤣🤣)

11. If you had to chose one of these fanfic tropes to be the only one you got to read from now on, which one would it be: friends to lovers, mutual pining, hurt/comfort, found family (yes I know, these work best TOGETHER, that’s what makes this a hard question, because you only get fanfics that include NONE of the other tropes xD)

This is just mean!!! I’m going friends to lovers because it’s the one I relate to most as a Demi person!!

Ok here are my 11 questions!

1. If you could play one musical instrument and be really good at it, what would it be and why and what would you use this talent for??

2. If you could do one thing over, without affecting the space time continuum, what would you do and why?

3. If you got to appear in an episode of 911, which one would you be in and what would be your storyline?

4. What is the stupidest thing you’ve done I want to know all the gory details

5. What is your earliest memory?

6. What is the best compliment you’ve ever received? (Give us the context for it as well!)

7. What was the last lie you told and why did you feel the need to lie?

8. If money was no object, what will you be buying and why?

9. What is your favourite possession?

10. What does your name mean and why was it given to you (if you don’t want to reveal you real name, then tell me about your username 😎)

11. What’s the most unusual thing on your bucket list?

I’m tagging @reindeerbuckaroo @djdangerlove @lovecolibri @moniquekatie @outrunningthedark @reallysmartladymariecurie and @leothil

Don’t feel obliged to join in or tag anyone, and if anyone else would like to join in the fun please do!

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Buck & Eddie: Domestic dads and husbands

When Eddie let himself into Buck’s loft in 3x1 “Kids Today”, it was the first time the audience saw them together inside of one of their residences in CANON. Eddie being inside of the apartment where Buck was living in 2x4 “Stuck”, under the impression that he would be helping Maddie move, doesn’t count as one of those times because that wasn’t Buck’s place.  According to Eddie, it was his invisible girlfriend’s place which means Buck was just dwelling there until he finally left in 2x7 “Haunted”.

Eddie entering Buck’s loft with his own key without calling first and going upstairs to Buck’s bedroom should have alerted the audience to three things. First, it was obvious that it wasn’t the first time Eddie has let himself in without calling. Second, Eddie feels comfortable whenever he’s at Buck’s place, so comfortable in fact that he walks around like he’s at home whenever he’s there. Third, Buck is ok with Eddie being there and treating his place like it’s his own because he didn’t wake up after Eddie let himself in.  Buck lives in a loft which is a huge open space and the only rooms that have doors on them are the two bathrooms; therefore he should have woken up when Eddie opened the door but he didn’t. Also Buck is a firefighter and he’s trained to listen for noises while he sleeps which further confirms the first and second points of it not being the first time Eddie’s let himself in and that Eddie feels completely comfortable there.

They were being very domestic and it seemed like they were two dads sharing custody of their son.  One dad brought their son to spend time with his second dad because the first dad was tired of the second dad moping around after he quit his job, so he brought their son over to cheer him up.  Eddie took Christopher into the living room before he went upstairs and he didn’t tell Buck that Christopher was there.  After Eddie told Buck he had his whole life ahead of him and Buck prepared to go back upstairs, that’s when Christopher said, “Hey Buck!”.  Buck’s whole demeanor changed when he saw Christopher sitting on his couch; therefore Eddie knew Buck spending time with their son would be a good thing.  He didn’t ask Buck to watch Christopher, he just told him that’s what he would be doing for the day and after he said he had to go to work and told Buck to take Christopher out and have some fun, he left.

Eddie and Buck acted the same way HUSBANDS/SPOUSES act when they are sharing custody of their child.  They didn’t argue, they just had a discussion about the way Buck needed to get out of the house.  Buck’s already Christopher’s second dad and he loves and cares for him the same way Eddie does.  They’re a family and they have been for a long time.  Will there be more domestic Buck, Eddie and Christopher scenes in 6B? Only the showrunners, writers and producers know the answer to that question.

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Buck & Eddie: Chris’ conversations with his two dads

Christopher has conversations with Eddie and Buck all the time and some of the things he said to them were parallels.  He’s encouraged, consoled and even joked with them. They’re a family and they are always there for each other.  

1. GIF 5x6 “Brawl in Cell Block 9-1-1″ When Eddie made it home after the hostage situation was over, he went to check on Chris.  Chris woke up and said, “You’re weird dad” after Eddie told him that he was glad he was his kid.

2. GIF 6x1 “Let the Games Begin” Chris told Buck “It’s weird” when Buck asked him what him not having a couch had to do with him being fire captain.

3. GIF 3x2 “Sink or Swim” Chris told Buck right before the Tsunami hit, “You’re going to be ok kid” since Buck was sad about not being able to go back to work.

4. GIF 5x18 “Starting Over” Chris told Eddie, “Remember, talking about it makes it less scary” after Eddie reminded him that he had an appointment later that day which meant Carla would pick him up from school.

5. GIF 3x12 “Fools” When Eddie asked Chris if he knew what he couldn’t do, Chris said, “Cook” and they both laughed.

6. GIF 5x11 “Outside Looking In” After Eddie said, “All this time everybody thought I was a bad cook.” Christopher said, “You were”.

7. GIF 4x14 “Survivors” Chris consoled and comforted Buck when he said, “It’s going to be ok Buck” after Eddie had been shot.

8. GIF 5x14 “Dumb Luck” Chris noticed how quiet Eddie was being while he was preparing their dinner and after Chris asked him if he was ok, he then said, “You seem sad”.

9. GIF 5x11 “Outside Looking In” Chris asked Eddie why he quit firefighting and after he responded, “I thought you wanted me to quit”, Chris said, “I never said that”.

10. GIF 4x8 “Breaking Point” After Buck ended his call with Eddie, he said, “So I heard about you blowing up at your dad” but Christopher responded, “I don’t want to talk about it”.

11. GIF 3x10 “Christmas Spirit” Chris asked Buck if he could spend Christmas with him but when Buck had to tell him that he had to work like Eddie did, Christopher then said, “Stupid work”.

12. GIF 5x14 “Dumb Luck” Christopher asked the Equine Therapy tour guide when he could ride one of the horses and she explained to him there were a lot of things they would do first so the horses would learn to trust him, Christopher said, “That sounds like work”.

13. GIF 4x3 “Future Tense” Christopher asked Buck if they could go to his house and play video games but after Buck saw the look on Eddie’s face, he responded they would have to play it old school for a while and Chris asked him, “What’s old school?”

14. GIF 6x4 “Animal Instincts” Chris told Eddie that he bought the wrong brand of mayo and Eddie told him it was on sale.  Chris then said, “You know dad, sometimes you get what you pay for”.

15. GIF 3x1 “Kids Today” During Buck’s welcome back to the 118 party, Christopher gave him a card that he made for him and when Buck said, “Wow this is great” Chris responded, “It’s you and me”.

16. GIF 6x5 “Home Invasion” After Hoover the dog made a mess in the kitchen, Chris called for Eddie and after Eddie said, “I thought Hen was exaggerating” Chris said, “I don’t think he likes being alone. Maybe he has separation anxiety”.

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Buck’s loft is NOT his home because Eddie's house is where he belongs.

It appears 9-1-1 hinted at the way Buck's loft has "never fit" into the life he wants for himself, i.e., a spouse, a child and/or children, and a house.  He really wants a family to come home to instead of him going back to his empty loft after working a long grueling shift at the firehouse.  It would have been better if he or someone else would have been allowed to just say that during 6A but it seems like that would have been too easy. His loft has mainly been shown as just a place where he dwells but he was depressed after the ladder truck explosion and his embolism, he experienced two breakups inside of those walls (the first one in 2x18 “This Life We Choose when girlfriend #2 broke up with him and the last one in 5x18 “Starting Over” when he broke up with girlfriend #3) and Maddie told him their parents were coming to visit in 4x4 “9-1-1 What’s Your Grievance?” as they sat on his couch; therefore the loft holds a few bad memories for him.

All of the memories he’s had while living there haven’t been bad because he’s had some good experiences there too including 3x3 “The Searchers” when Eddie brought Christopher back to him after the Tsunami and told him “There’s nobody in this world I trust with my son more than you”.

In 3x9 “Fallout” when he apologized to Eddie after the lawsuit for the second time and he played video games with Eddie and Christopher. The time he spent with them was fantastic in 6x1 “Let the Games Begin” when he cooked a perfect 6-cheese lasagna for his Diaz boys.

One issue is Buck has never really considered the loft to be his home because in 3x11 “Seize the Day” he told Maddie “This is Eddie’s house, I’m not really a guest” which could mean he’s always known that he wanted to build a family, a life and a forever with Eddie.

More than once during 6A his loft was shown to "not fit" the type of life he so desperately wants for himself and even though he told Connor and Kameron in 6x4 “Animal Instincts” that he doesn’t know what he wants, it seems like that was a LIE because Buck’s facial expressions have shown who and what he wants many times like he did in 4x14 “Survivors” while he gazed at Eddie and Christopher from Eddie’s front door after Eddie was discharged from the hospital and Buck drove him home.

In 6x1 he hadn't replaced his couch after he broke up with TK which means his "family" didn’t have anywhere to sit together in his living room like they did in 3x9 while they ate pizza and played video games.  Christopher told Buck it was weird that he didn’t have a couch while Buck was still cooking their dinner but Buck was happy and smiling the whole time Eddie and Christopher were there with him.

In 6x4 before Connor arrived to further manipulate him into being their sperm donor, Buck looked both solemn and sad while he was getting ready to pour himself a cup of coffee/tea. When Connor and Kameron went to his loft so that he could tell them if he was going to be their sperm donor, he told them that he didn't know what he wanted for himself (he lied) but he still agreed to be their donor in the end without considering how it would affect him in the long run.

In 6x5 “Home Invasion” Buck was enjoying having Hoover the dog there with him but when he started barking, his landlord knocked on his door and reminded him that he wasn't supposed to have a dog. Only cats are allowed in the loft.

In 6x8 “9-1-1 What’s Your Fantasy?” while he was babysitting Jee-Yun, when she tried to go upstairs, he panicked because stairs aren't for babies.

In 6x9 “Red Flag” he was finally able to fall asleep because he was settling to have a piece of himself included in a family even if the end results in them having a child with his DNA won’t make him happy.  He did the same thing in 5x7 “Ghost Stories”, after TK invaded his loft way before he ever asked her to move in, he clung to and settled for a relationship with her even though he was unhappy.  He accepted it because he believed that was all he could have so he went to sleep and left her awake while she sat there worrying about her dad’s upcoming parole hearing. Now he thinks Kameron being pregnant is going to fix his feelings of loneliness but it won't because if the baby Kameron is carrying is the result of his sperm donation, then the baby STILL won’t be his. Therefore he’s continuing to settle for whatever he thinks will fill the hole he’s had in his heart for years.

Buck's loft only has one bedroom and it's upstairs; he still doesn't have a couch and every time he goes home after work, it seems like he doesn't want to be there. In 5x3 “Desperate Measures” it was clear that he wanted someone to be there waiting for him especially after he plopped on his bed and said, "Hi honey, I'm home". Eddie's house is THE ONLY PLACE THAT BUCK HAS EVER SAID HE'S NOT A GUEST and that illustrated the way he's always known where his home is and who his family is too.  He’s never said that about Maddie’s place even though he lived with her in season 2 after Chimney kicked him out of his apartment which happened not long after he left his first girlfriend’s apartment in 2x7 “Haunted”.

Also Buck’s loft is not fit for a baby and the show clearly illustrated that while he was babysitting Jee-Yun in 6x8. There’s nowhere for him to put a crib and there’s no second bedroom for a child to sleep in.  Buck’s loft may have initially been a good fit for him six years ago because he was younger but now that he’s older, his mindset needs to change and he has to start thinking about the things he really wants in life in order to change his surroundings.  His couch is waiting for him at Eddie’s house but he has to admit the family he chose to build with Eddie and Christopher is what he wants.

Eddie and Christopher have been waiting for Buck to realize they are his family but it seems like Buck and Eddie are too scared to admit what they both want and need from each other.  The first half of season 6 ended with Eddie being frustrated and abruptly disconnecting from the four-way call he was on with Buck, Hen and Chimney after Buck made his announcement.  It also ended with Buck seeming to be a bit delusional about the baby since he bought an LAFD onesie that may or may not be a gift he was planning to give to Connor and Kameron. Therefore it will be interesting to see if any of Buck’s and Eddie’s problems are addressed in 6B.  There are several other things they still need to talk about including The Shooting so will they finally be allowed to discuss their shared traumas so that Buck will FINALLY understand the family he so desperately wants has been waiting for him this whole time? Only the showrunners, writers and producers know the answer to that question.

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Buck & Eddie: Total number of scenes in 5A vs. 6A

During the first half of season 6, some viewers debated about the number of scenes Buck and Eddie had in 5A when compared with the one scene they had together in 6A.  There were some who said 6A was just like 5A because Buck and Eddie were separated then too, but after each season is compared, it’s easy to see how that assumption was not correct.  In the first 9 episodes of 5A (episode 10 was not included because the 10th episode for season 6 won’t air until March), Buck and Eddie had a total of 6 scenes together that allowed them to be by themselves so they could have a private conversation. They even had a scene together in 5x6 “Brawl in Cell Block 9-1-1” where they were able to have a private conversation while they were being held hostage by two escaped convicts. The total count for the scenes they had together in 5A doesn’t include any scenes they had together with other people or members of the 118.  For example, when they were riding inside of the firetruck in 5x2 “Desperate Times”, they were sitting right next to each other but Hen, Bobby, Chimney and whoever was driving the engine were also present; therefore scenes like that weren’t included in the final count.  When those 6 scenes are compared with the only scene they had together in 6A, it becomes easier to see there is a difference and it is GLARING.

Their scene with Christopher in 6x1 “Let the Games Begin” was the only scene in 6A where they were together to have a private conversation.  The scene they had in 6x2 “Crash and Learn” doesn’t count because they were talking about getting Hen a pillow while she was asleep in the firetruck.  Will the number of scenes Buck and Eddie have together increase during 6B?  Only the showrunners, writers and producers know the answer to that question.

GIF 5x1 “Panic”-Buck wanted Eddie to tell him why he had to see a cardiologist.

GIF 5x2 “Desperate Times”-Buck told Eddie to breakup with his girlfriend since he wasn’t all in with her.

GIF 5x3 “Desperate Measures”-Eddie said he didn’t know what he was going to say to his girlfriend once he made it home.

GIF 5x4 “Home and Away”-Eddie told Buck he was the guy who always likes to fix things.

GIF 5x6 “Brawl in Cell Block 9-1-1″-They discussed reasons why Mitchell and Dom were holding them hostage.

GIF 5x8 “Defend in Place”-Buck told Eddie he should pack it away so they could save the next one.

GIF 6x1 “Let the Games Begin”-Buck asked Eddie if it bothered him that Bobby didn’t pick either of them to be interim captain.

GIF 6x1 “Let the Games Begin”-Buck explained how his first two couches came with girlfriends and Eddie told him he could have replaced his couch because it had been four months since he broke up with his last girlfriend.

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Buck & Eddie: The Buckley-Diaz Family in season 6

Starting 2023 off with the only Buckley-Diaz Family scene that was included in 6A.

Buck, Eddie and Christopher only had ONE scene together as a family during 6A.  Two dads having dinner with their son in 6x1 “Let the Games Begin” was FANTASTIC and it was reminiscent of the way they spent time together in 3x9 “Fallout” and 4x3 “Future Tense”.  Buck cooking a 6-cheese lasagna for his boys was so domestic and very family oriented.  He said it took him three tries to get the recipe just right and it wasn’t until his fourth try that it was cooked to perfection. The fourth try was specifically for Eddie and Christopher; therefore Buck’s last attempt at it illustrated the way he had spent several hours in his kitchen making those lasagnas over and over again so that the one he cooked for his family would be perfect and didn’t include any mistakes.  In addition to the lasagnas, their discussion about Buck’s missing couch made it seem like they were all ready to move forward as the family they’ve always been but after their dinner, the three of them didn’t spend any more time together ONSCREEN as a family for the remainder of 6A. 

The reason there weren’t any additional Buckley-Diaz Family scenes in 6A couldn’t have been due to a lack of opportunities because there were plenty of those in at least 6 of the other 8 episodes.  Buck’s and Eddie’s and Buckley-Diaz Family scenes were practically eliminated but they could have been shown together when Eddie took Hoover the dog to Buck’s loft in 6x5 “Home Invasion”.  Eddie and Christopher could have attended the Renaissance Faire with Buck, Hen and Denny in 6x8 “9-1-1 What’s Your Fantasy? because apparently it was just friends hanging out with each other which means there shouldn’t have been a problem with them attending it too especially since Christopher and Denny are friends.  And most importantly, Buck should have been right alongside Eddie to help him get Christopher ready for his first school dance in 6x8 as well.  The new year is here and with 6B set to start airing in March, here’s to hoping that more Buckley-Diaz Family moments will be included for the remainder of the season.

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Buck & Eddie: The Buckley-Diaz Family at Equine Therapy

Ending 2022 with a Buckley-Diaz family scene from 5B

Buck arranged a family outing for him, Eddie and Christopher to Equine Therapy in 5x14 “Dumb Luck”.  Upon their arrival, Buck asked Christopher what he thought about the place and Christopher responded, “They’re really tall”.  After Eddie said if it was too scary, they could leave; Christopher then asked when he would get to ride one.  Buck smiled and chuckled at Christopher’s response and then Eddie said, “Ok, maybe not that scary”.  That’s when the tour guide explained everything they would be doing before Christopher could ride one of the horses and when she was finished, Christopher spoke up and said, “That sounds like work”.  

Eddie is Christopher’s biological father and Buck is his legal guardian but Christopher looks like Buck with his blonde/brown curly hair and his blue eyes and Christopher also exhibits some of Buck’s mannerisms.  The time they spent at Equine therapy was two dads with their son during a family outing.  It wasn’t the first time the three of them have gone somewhere as a family and it probably won’t be the last.  Once Eddie and Buck finally become a CANON couple, it’s likely they will have even more family outings together and those would be in addition to the zoo trips Buck and Christopher have taken over the years.

9-1-1 has continuously shown Buck, Eddie and Christopher as a family that’s separate from their 118 found family the same way they have always done with the Grant-Nash, Buckley-Han and Wilson families.  They are a family and have been one for years.  Hopefully 6B will be like 5B and include a lot more Buckley-Diaz Family moments similar to the one from 5x14.