#chest pain tw

[fletcherwilbury]

@whumptober Day 23: Alt Prompt 12: Broken

Warning for Hospital setting, surgery, past medical trauma, dizziness, chest pain, vomiting, chronic pain, broken bones, past physical abuse

[barghest-land]

today the juice of the rotten pomegranate looked almost black on the granite chopping board

[crow-with-a-pencil]

Hi @naffeclipse I'm very normal about your fic. Have some frantic midnight sketches as extra kudos along with some tag rambling :)

[purkiz]

jieun ♡ memeM (220406)

[persephoneflouwers]

I’m home.

It was a strange day and in some ways it was worse than yesterday.

I slept barely 4 hours, was awake at 4 am and just waited for my alarm to ring for 1 hour and 50 minutes staring at the dark ceiling.

I also slept in my sisters bed, because yesterday night when I read Louis’ post on IG I felt an intense chest pain, that I only felt the night my grandma died. I was scared and couldn’t sleep alone.

I went to work in a total black outfit, was there awfully early. I didn’t speak. My colleague didn’t speak because he’s apparently very good at the reading the room.

I couldn’t even bother to wear my scrubs. I kept my black clothes. My black trousers, my black loafers, my black socks, my black cardigan. I even kept down my black hair.

It simply was a black heart day.

I barely spoke, only to expose clinical cases to my tutor doctor.

I was running down a fever at some point, because I was hot and then cold and then my eyes burnd and my voice was cracked and I felt so much pain in my muscles, I wanted to just go home and lay down.

I almost forgot I had blood tests to check. I went there saying “my veins are difficult, just take this [showed my radial vein on my pulse], I dont want to waste your time*. He didn’t even hear me probably, I don’t know. What I know is he tried for another vein and failed.

I was looking at his earrings. They were semicircular rings with sharp endings. He was a cool middle age man. I should have said something, commented on how cool his earrings were. I didn’t.

I wore my FFP2 mask and kept sniffing my nose. I didn’t feel pain, I just wanted to go home.

He took my distal radial vein after all.

I thanked him and I said I’m sorry my veins are like this, I tried to bump them and even drank coffee to raise my blood pressure but it is that it is.

I went back to the doctors office. There were so many people, I was uncomfortable. I hated that I couldn’t be showing how upset I was.

I hated they asked me “total black today huh?” I didn’t want them to know about my emotional state.

I looked for patterns. Stripes, circles, matching colours in people’s clothes. It calmed me down.

I met crush guy too. It was awful, i didn’t match his energy at all. I asked him to leave me alone because it was a rough day. He texted me later to say they were worried. I didn’t want them to know how I am. They don’t understand.

I took an ABG sample on the cutest old man today. I asked him if I had hurt him and he smiled and said I was a delicate angel in his cute accent. I failed the test, by the way. I had to ask someone else to do it for me. I didn’t want to needle this person again.

I asked my colleague, probably the only one who knows what is going on, if she needed any help and she said yes. I helped her out with some clinical reports for the weekend.

Everything and everyone were so loud today. I wanted to play my day on mute. I didn’t listen to any music in my car on my way home. It was just silence.

There was a rainbow in the sky at 5ish. I said “hi liam” and it was heartwarming.

I love rainbows. They’re silent, innocent, light. I hope to see the rainbows again.

[eternalergo]

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[blisked-starkhalis]

Epic do be asking the important questions haha

Epic belongs to yugogeer012 Cross belongs to jakei95

[mushramoo]

being stoned fixes everything actually

[himbo-in-limbo]

Tw man boobies!! and gender dysphoria!!

It started out as a cute drawing thingy but then I made it personal for my cat oc….

I just know being in a poly ship with fronnie would be the most wholesome thing…

[nut-house]

dude my razors dull already and ive only been using it for like 2 days what the flip (i have gotten water on it and the only cvts i did were deep styro and i did A LOT of multiswiping...uhm maybe this is my fault)

[plasmodiumpyrexia]

Thinking about a really specific thing: Characters putting their hands on their chest.

Like after a coughing fit (that already sounds painful), caretaker looks over to see whumpee with their hand on their chest, giving it a lil rub...

Or if their heart skips a beat and they automatically reach to their chest. And if their heart is racing, feeling each beat pound away under their hand.

And when they're struggling to catch their breath. One hand is on their heaving chest and the other is braced on the wall, lungs burning and dark spots dancing in their vision as they gasp for air.

Maybe it's the only outward sign of their inner turmoil. Unease building, making it feel like the air is being sucked out of the room, a hand on their tight chest.

Or maybe, it simply hurts.

And the gesture just looks concerning, like even if whumpee isn't fully clutching their chest, they still seem uncomfortable. Something's up and it's probably not good.

[cyanidelover666]

thereisaknifeinmychest *sad noises*

[muckyschmuck]

warm up. good mornidgn. ugh

[rottingcheng]

not to be a weh weh baby about things but having bpd is crazy in the sense that my feelings are so magnified and intense i actively fear things that can induce strong emotions. i avoid media that isn't mind numbing a lot even though i want to read/watch good stuff bc i get so emotionally invested and if something emotional happens i will feel like my chest was holed out and that's scary.

[battling-my-demons]

It really seems like I can't keep faking I'm fine anymore. My chest hurts so much these days. I can't breathe.My anxiety is so so bad. I can barely function anymore. I feel like the walls are closing in on me. I have no one to talk to. I barely had " friends " and I am seriously debating finally cutting them off once and for all. 10 years of friendship. I am feeling even more alone than I've felt in so long. I feel like I'm loosing everything. I feel so empty and so much pain at the same time. I really think I'm about to lose it. I've never had a full breakdown. I've had so many mini silent ones , but I feel like my chest is about to explode. It hurts. It hurts more than just my normal pain. I don't know what to do. I can't handle this by myself anymore, but I literally have no one. I can't keep doing this !!!!!!

[sappho-favourite-pupil]

Me: I'd really like to take a deep breath now.

My body: okay, go ahead.

My body:

Also my body: the price for that deep breath will be excruciating pain, you know that, right?