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wordfather · 2 years

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sorry i cant do that right now im having a year long moment

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eddiepeaches · 6 hours

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I absolutely blame ofmd for making me think I have a chance with my incredibly hot, talented, smart, kind, tattooed, leather-clad coworker 😭

#the levels of down bad are getting critical #every time I talk to her I want to keep talking to her forever #but like!!!! nothing can happen bc I'm moving back to the states soon and I need to get this crush in check #she's just sooooooooo!!!!!#and I just!!!!!!!#...I have this fantasy that we will reconnect at a film festival that both of us are maybe going to next year #and she'll fall in love with me and come home with me and. maybe marry me idk! just putting it out there idk idk

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spencerbegins · 1 year

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on losing a mother

#yelling #s.poem #mom tag #poetry #okay to reblog #it's officially been over a year since the last time i saw my mom.#her skin was translucent paper thin and she looked so fragile in tht hospital bed but she was supposed to be getting better #and she did. for about a month.#she went back into the hospital 3 days after my birthday.#she stayed there for like 2 weeks and then died about a week after she checked herself out.#the last time she ever texted me was on my birthday. i waited two days to text back. and i never heard back from her.#the next time i saw her she was a pile of grey ashes in a plastic urn. she sits on my shelf now. i haven't gotten her a new urn yet.#i try not to feel guilty. there wasn't much i could do from a thousand miles away #but i still feel the guilt every day itching under my skin and screaming at me in my mind that i should have done better #that i should have been there for her #her phone number has since been given to someone else. i deactivated her facebook account. i cleaned out her apartment & threw away almost #all of her belongings.#i took photo albums. i took some jewelry - including the ring she wore as she was cremated. it survived the fire. the funeral home put it #in the urn with her ashes. i wear it sometimes just to feel like there's still a part of her with me.#but she's gone and i don't believe in an afterlife and neither did she #there's some comfort in knowing she is no longer in pain that she is no longer suffering #but i still sit here and i think of all the things i never got to tell her and the new things i want to tell her every single day #i never got to come out to her. not really. i never got to tell her that i understood what she went thru with my dad because i lived it too #anyways. sorry for going off in the tags. i'm okay i promise. just feeling a lot of feelings right now.

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always-a-slut-4-ghouls · 5 months

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I just looked at the price on the back of a book I’ve had for a bit over a decade and it was four. fucking. dollars. Just four with no taxes. No extra 97cents or something before taxes. Just a round number that you would add taxes to.

I googled the price of a new edition and it was almost thirteen! Not an even thirteen, it was like 12.96 or something. Close enough that it’s basically thirteen but if you’re adding multiple items together to try and get the price on a purchase with more items it would add more confusion.

#emma posts #it was also a bit difficult to find a new copy on my phone #the edition I have was selling for wildly varying prices as a vintage book now #but that’s just a kids chapter book from a fairly large publisher #I know inflation happens and stuff but holy shit #buying things at the book fair makes so much more sense now #I bought that for 4$ plus taxes at the schoolastic book fair #it was maybe 12 years ago?#I could look at the publishing date for a better idea #the series had just switched publishers and the first few were being re-released at the time #before the new publisher and the author finished the series #four dollars though #I had to check the book because I know the current price of many paperbacks and I knew that series was still in print #but what lead to this was the price tag falling off an old brush I found from like. 2009 or 2010 #and the tag on this very large brush was seven dollars #which seemed cheap so I looked at current brush prices online but since the exact same brush isn’t being sold and brush prices vary more #it was a bit harder for me to get an idea of it. books though. books I know #I’ve even bought stuff from that publisher recently (they have a lot of novel and comic translations)#but it also struck me how the old price tag was an even four and an even seven dollars but all new ones had 97 or 98 cents #that ten dollars from helping out grandma wouldn’t have even gotten me one book with modern prices #but back then I could get TWO #even just seven could have gotten me a book and some fun school supplies back then #to have that experience now you would need to give your kid a 20$#I understand inflation okay? I am just taken off guard rn and having realizations #I’m going to add to this post again. when I say wildly varied vintage prices I mean WILDLY varied #one dude was trying to sell it on Amazon for 55$ but on eBay it was 4 to 5$#I bought the next three books in the series from that same print. signed. for 13$ together #I had older editions of those and wanted a full series of just the ones that were being re-released during my reading time

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camelspit · 10 months

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how am i supposed to raise my gpa if i keep getting the shittiest fucking teachers on earth oh my god. no more peace and love i hope they die.

#i am. so fucking done.#14 days left of the semester and i am on the verge of giving up #staring at the final in a week or two like.#girl. no one is passing that shit and it is your fault.#and then youre going to have the fucking audacity to lecture us about #how we're the problem because we dont study correctly #like you always fucking do #and its like no!#youve always been the fucking problem!!#go back to the school you fucking came from bc we were a lot better without you bitch #god im just. so angry.#like my team mate was honest to god unironically praying after we took the quiz #like girl !!!! people should not have to pray for good grades !!!#tell me how we still got a 72 with ALL OF US working together #AND DOUBLE CHECKING IT LIKE 5 TIMES #AND WE WERE LIKE THE HIGHEST GRADE IN THE CLASS ???#BE FR.#I HOPE YOU FALL IN A FUCKING PIT #and i probably wont be able to take spanish 4 next year because HE teaches upper level spanish now #and im so fucking pissed about that #like i want to learn spanish but im not doing that in this class. because he doesnt teach it.#i cant do this for another semester. i would rather die.#and next semester im taking art and #apparently i got the teacher who never gives hundreds because 'art isnt perfect'#girl WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU #IF I DID THE WORK GIVE ME THE 100 STOP MAKING THIS SOME MORAL BLATHER OR WHATEVER

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todayisafridaynight · 2 years

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you probably won't even care about yakuza by the time the plushies are out if we go by your track record

i cant even deny this cause my interests do tend to have a shelf life of one year and it'll be one year come june

#snap chats #i got back into rgg in june last year despite only really starting to make public fanart for it in july #i wouldnt say i wouldnt care wholly tho like im still hyped for DB stuff despite not drawing for it #like BT4 just got announced and im fuckin nutting to see gameplay of that #and i still keep up with the new jojo manga- even if i havent read 7 and 8 yet ☠️#wait can i say really quick my fucking computer auto updated to windows 11 and its fucking with me so bad #trying to grab that emoji made me want to die eveyrthing is so fucking SQUISHY #its not a matter of i wont care for it i just wont be so fixated on it #but who's to say it's hard for me to get into new things- like all the things i was recently into (db/kh/rgg)#they were all things i liked in the past that i figured id revisit during the pandemic #oh well. now im compelled to keep rgg posting for another year to spite this LMAO #i mean LAD8 is coming out next year not to mention gaiden #like i still very much have reasons to keep watching the series and the sort #who wants to find that fuckin. post i made mapping out my interests over time cause i needa check the data

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skinnypaleangryperson · 9 months

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Being in the same two fandoms for 4 years is the most humbling experience with human nature I've ever experienced

#we're blogging from a former mutual that I was an ass to before we stopped being friends who posted the creator of a previous toxic #parisocial relationship and then going into the kitchen and picking up the piece of candy #that the voice actor behind the character I've been in schizophrenia and psychosis with for the past 2 years and does commercials for #and then sitting back down next to a overpriced statue that I own related to the character from the other fandom that I have a psychotic #family with #moments before checking the same Reddit that almost got me arrested because of how toxic the fans are #HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH

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cybercanadian · 9 months

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just got stood up by a Grindr date 🙃

#sigh #we hooked up before Christmas and it was good #he joked see you next year so I messaged him when I got back #we were supposed to meet up tonight he said he’d keep me posted and nothing #I checked in at 10pm and ———#sad #but also…like not that big a deal I get it he told me he was going out with friends so they probably stayed out and whatever #but like at least let me know right #if he says sorry for not letting me know then I’ll be okay but if he doesn’t I probably won’t see him again 🙄#am I dramatic?#and if you read through this you’re a real one love you

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neonvqmpire · 1 month

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im seeing blink tomorrow and the day after??? i have such massive fomo i feel like i missed so much on blinkblr the last month because i was too busy/sick to keep up with everything. all i know is that they polycule truthed on stage last night and seemingly brought a very *interesting* energy to europe. ((if theres anything that happend that i should know would be cool if anyone can fill me in lol)).

i'll try my best to record the banter and some songs (dont think i can stream while im there because i'll need mobile data for when i go to denmark next week). be warned i have shit seats both nights but they were all i could find. the venue has week wifi so i might pop on tumblr every now and then to give updates. <33

ready to see those old men

#im very excited i just lowkey wished there was less going on atm and my mind was less busy #uni hasnt even started but im helping to run events for new students #and then theres also the fact that i'll go on a plane for the 1st time in 4 years next week. which would suck less as a concept if i hadnt #been waiting for 3 weeks to hear back from immigration services. im too scared to check if they fixed the issue without telling me.#i hate being on a plane but im doing it all to see dan and phil so its worth it for me.#i guess the concerts are a good distraction #sage posting #blink 182

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famewolf · 11 months

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my brain has been really out of whack recently (I think it's the time change among other things) so I'm going to try out some things to see if they help

I might not be on social media a whole lot in the next week or two, but if you're mutuals and want my discord, send me a message

#[static]#I cleared out my queue so I don't feel like I need to keep it going #I'm trying to limit my time on my phone since I've noticed that I've been getting sucked back into it for Hours every day which I *hate*#it's this weird paradox of wanting to keep up with my friends but also knowing that I get sucked into checking the rest of the app -#- that I need to figure out #tumblr is one of the few social medias that I don't get that sucked into but i do like to keep up to date with #for news and friends reasons #but im gonna basically not be using my phone at all except for music for the next while until my brain feels better #it's also the busiest week of the year in my line of work so i want to be sure im taking care of myself #my brain fog has been suuuper bad and being on my phone makes it worse #i wish we all lived closer so that i could just go hang out with ppl instead of being attached to my dumb phone #using phone = less time to do things i like too which also makes me mad when I do it #i dont even like my phone bro ... but tiktok gets me tbh i'll sit on my phone for like 2 hours straight just watching funny little videos

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collecting--stardust · 11 months

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Cele and the Piedmont flag

#i think in styria he carried the piedmont flag too?#i dont remember need to check back but piedmont is really his home #basically org perantau yg x pernah lupa kampung asal dia ah kira #tapi tulah aq biar ah duduk negeri lain more than half of my life tapi x leh beat the comfort that kampung gives #ah anyway that aside LOOK AT THE SHOULDER WIGGLE ON THE FIRST GIF #so important to me LIKE THATS SO CUTEEEEEEE #he always gets taken care of like his crew will always placed the dunlop cap on his head at parc ferme or lift him up #and like this one helps him with the flag.. i think him being the youngest in the academy for so long may be one of the factors why #ktm better treat him well or ill throw pitchforks at their garage next year #celestino vietti #mine 🫶🏻

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whoblewboobear · 2 months

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The way I had every intention to be productive this weekend and did none of it bc I know I’m in for some shit the minute I walk into that stupid office

#I finished the t-shirt design for HR lady right and she came in twice about it (could’ve been an email truly)#then when she DID said an email she just forgot that we fully did discuss putting the gross 75th anni. Logo on it #so her email was just that #and I did forget to respond to the email- like I skimmed it and then went ‘we talked about this’ but I’m not allowed to be a smart ass over #email anymore because when sales reps were being especially rude and disrespectful to my coworker and I #I’d waste no time to put them in their place #it took two fucking years of complaining for them to not treat us like shit and to give us deadline that aren’t same day/next day #like two years of me forcing my bosses hand to actually stand up for us for him to tell them to back off #I stopped dealing with it #my coworker does now bc I can’t be bothered to argue with assholes anymore #anyway yeah I- I truly do not check my email often so by the time EOD rolled around I wasn’t checking #but I know HR lady will be in my inbox bright and early :/#but on the bright side I’ll have the art room to myself Monday+Tuesday bc my coworker is leaving~~~~~#so I’m gonna try and be productive Monday so I can rest and relax at my desk Tuesday #then pretend I’ve been productive when I meet with my gross awful boss Wednesday morning #ugh #I need a new job bad #I hate this one #it’s fine but god is it boring and not creative at all #I love graphic design I do I really do but when it’s just sign making with pre-made templates it’s soooo fucking boring #So this weekend I just got high and yesterday a lil tipsy to feel a lil crossfade #I truly haven’t done shit bc if I think about Monday I’ll scream #personal

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bunn-iiii · 3 months

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so many things happening in my life in the next couple months and it feels like my life is turning around compared to how I felt this time last year which was complete and utter dread and burn out in every sense of the word

#ME WHEN I GIVE MYSELF MORE SPACE AND TIME TO HEAL AND BE OKAY AFTER A SCHOOL YEAR #there are several factors as to why i don't feel like the human-ish equivalent of the swamp monster #mostly though it's because I'm going into homeschooling so the overwhelming fear of the next school year and all the expectations and #running around and will i get a good teacher and do i have to change my schedule and oh god am i gonna be able to get my 504 in check and #are my teachers even going to follow it and all of that isn't present #I'm gonna meet my teacher here soon and i she's a special ed teacher and i won't have to run between classes #or worry about my principal suddenly making a rule that we can't go to the bathrooms during class hours #and everything else that comes with going to school i did #and also the reason i don't feel like shit is i haven't done much this summer!!! literally everything was fighting for my time and attention #last summer and i felt like i barely had a moment to breathe #one moment I'm in Tennessee with my aunt and the next I'm back in Oklahoma running a convention #and then less than a week later I'm at counselor in training camp for two weeks (would've been three but i got sick due to overworking #myself while at the camp)#and then as soon as all of that was done i had only about a week before school started again #this year i only went to one convention instead of working at one and I'm going to two camps #one was at the start which was a day camp that i work at #and the second one is like next weekend (not this one but the next) and it's an overnight but again only a weekend instead of two weeks #and I'm a camper at that second camp since it's meant for lgbtq+ teens :3 #and that's it!!!!#then i have school and in October i have the dan and phil terrible influence tour in Colorado #which means i get to visit my aunt and uncle and my cousin #and i have my nurse gerard costume for halloween #and then at the end of January i have my first furry convention which I'm making a fursuit for currently!!!!!

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mqonlighting · 8 months

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real talk in the tags for a second because i have a crush on a girl and i. a hehe. ahehehe.

will be burying this in reblogs and never touching on it again

#so random disclaimer this girl is like a year older than me and in high school it’s like a nono for older and younger batch to like be #a thing so i know i generally have no chance but i like to live in my own insanity and the progression of my crush on her has been absolute #ly cuckoo bananas. so like it started out as ‘i wanna be your friend’ and progressed into ‘shit they’re really pretty’ to ‘wow ur so??’ to #‘fuck i like them’ and then it died down and then by all golly it came back but more of a hallway crush now which is bearable bc i’m #not really a part of their life?? like we know each other but we don’t wave and shit and we don’t like ever interact that much so i was lik #ok this is fine bc they literally never think of me so i’m just admiring from afar. and the FIRST inciting incident was i request them onig #and i expect to not get accepted because according to their friends they onyl accept close friends and i’m like k this is a bad idea probs #but the worst that could happen is i get left in their follow requests right?? RIGHT?? but then within like two hours of reqing. lord.#i got. ACCEPTED. and they requested back. and suddenly it’s +1 tangibility like ok?? maybe we’re not as strangers as i thought we were #i later discovered i was not that special for this but also?? cool?? anyways for a while it kind of laid dead and we never spoke at all eve #tho i was in their acc now (at this time they barely posted but whenever they did it was so?? funny like they would slap the randomest shit #on that acc) and it was still a hallway crush altho my friends r awful (/pos) people who would always make me pass their hallway and i #would run into them so often but at this point we only ever like exchanged glances and they would walk right past me like i wasnt even ther #but THEN the second incident happened which was basically we had to play instruments for this christmas event thing and bc they’re literall #y amazing they played for it and i was roped into it and. i was so gay the whole time. bc who wears a leather jacket to school and gets the #prettiest haircut ever right on the last day before a long break?? and the worst part is whenevr something confusing happened they would #turn to me and this one other person and we’d b laughing together. like we r friends. and they’re so fucking nice they were checking up on #us the whole time i was literally dying i kept dropping my pick and stealing looks AURURUGH and they’re so gen funny and interesting i just #and the first few days of holiday break i just couldn’t stop thinking abt them it was so bad? like that was the moment where i was genuinel #like is this more than a hallway crush… eventually it died back down until the next event we had to play together where they were being SO #SO much more comf w me? like exchanging knowing looks when smt funny happens and that stuff.. at this point i didnt even know what to like #think of my crush on them so i just let it be yk. atp they’re not even waving at me in the hallways at all still so maybe they’re just bein #nice! BUT NO. THAT IS UNTIL I AUDITIONED FOR A BAND (theyr in charge of accepting) AND THEY ACCEPTED ME WHICH COOL BUT LIKE A DAY LATER I #HEARD FROM OUR MUTUAL FRIEND THAT THEY SAID ‘yeaa im so happy i got (my name)’ AS IN IN THE BAND. LIKE. HELLO?? HI U THIUGHT ABT ME?? and #during the first band mtg where everyone’s all awk they kept making eye contact w me and asking if i was good and making sure i got to say #smt before anyone made a decision and it. murdered. me. i’m sorry maybe it’s the fanfic writer in me or this shit is literally nothing and #think they’re just nice to everyone but who cares bc it means they’re nice to ME too. and then last week happened. which was like the nail #in the coffin. INTERACTION ACTIVITY. I IMPULSIVELY ASK IF THEY WANNA B GROUPMATES AND THEY SAY YES. THEY ONLY TALK TO ME AND THEIR FRIENDS.#I ACT STUPID. THEY ALUGH AND TOUCH MY SHOULDER. I ASK ABT THEIR CAMERA AND THEY GO ON A LONG-ISH (cute) RANT ABT SMTH. THEY ASK WHY I HAVE #BIG ASS STACK OF POST ITS. WE TALK. THEY LAUGH AT MY JOKES. SUDDENLY. THEY SAY A FULL HELLO IN THE HALLS. THEY WAVE AT ME A DAY LATER. FUCK

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barkingangelbaby · 4 months

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the cat made biscuits on my tummy for a few seconds n i could cry.. it was so lovely and the pressure felt so nice

#she moved to be next to me instead of on top but it was still very sweet #i love my little goblin of a cat. wish i could hold her like the cats i grew up with but she's taught me rly good pet boundaries over the #years lol. oh jeez i just realized we've had her since like.. 2017? i think? ill have to check with N in the morning #what do u mean she's probably 8/9 years old!!! time is so strange #anyway im not gonna be sad about time related things back to being glad she's purring n making biscuits on my leg now #god i hope she lays on my tummy tonight tho the pressure would feel incredible #rAMbles

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#me for forever: i probably have ocd. that would make a lot of sense. psychologist: u seem to meet the diagnostic criteria for ocd. me: >:-O #so yeah. i officially have ocd. shocking. i know. its only exactly as i suspected #i did not expect to get so much investigation into bipolar tho. checked a lot of boxes on a bipolar checklist sheet #and like yeah this issue probably goes back to hs but like its not that obstructive. i mean. it is but like. its not that bad #and yes. the fact that i had a fucked up reaction to Lexapro may support that diagnosis. but like i dont really remember what happened that #well. it could just b how ocd and anxiety along with whatever spectrum problems i have manifest. it could just b pmdd #i do have recorded spells of high energy outside the expected phases of my cycle. but like ya kno #it would just truely truely shock me if i was bipolar #but what i described was apparently fucked up enough that my counselor was like hm have u looked at a physical medical issue?#and im like. ive not been to a doctor in 6 years. so i have a doctors appointment next week lol #yeah. so interesting so far. this does mean exposure therapy which im gonna hate but i mean #its the thing that works with ocd and i wanna get better so lets fucking go i guess #unrelated

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