#chanbaek writer

[polarislex]

i guess i should add:

hi all, my name is alexis (i go by lex or lexie) and its been about...11? years since i first came onto tumblr? maybe longer, i can not remember when I actually created this ahaha

im 27 now (97, gemini, etc) and i definitely have no been as active as i used to be back from 2017-2020 id probably say.

i stan exo and nct dream mostly now, but also stan bts and got7. though, my kpop playlist is definitely a wild mix!

my biggest thing was making moodboards / aesthetics back in the day while i dabbled in writing, but not heavily! i definitely want to get back into! i will most likely be spam posting any moodboards i posted on twitter but not over here for the next little bit, but also writing my currrent fic and potenially one more!

Primarily though, I will be writing for EXO (Chanbaek) and NCT Dream (Nomin)! I might dabble or bring in members to fics, but those are my main two!

While I will be including Jongdae in fics, I will not be adding him to any sort of ship or anything of that matter! Im sure we all can respect why!

I also do include Luhan and Tao in fics and sometimes moodboards as well! Hopefully that is okay!

my masterlist pinned to my page is your best source!

if you are an old friend, hi, hello, hope all has been well! if you are new, i would love to get to know you (20+ tho please). drop me a message, send me an ask! would love to grow a platform again and get to know people!

sorry for the spam y'all - im so behind on updating things here and then vice versa to twitter too. i want to make sure everything lines up ahahah

please feel free leave a like, but other then that, ignore ahah

[starchild--27]

Make a new post with the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! Then, tag as many people as you have WIPs

I was tagged by my dearest @diamozi ✨️

writing:

One Song (my oldes wip, it's basically a story with 26 different povs, it's all people gathered at a bar with live music and each chapter is one pov from the same 4 minutes when a specific song is played, so it's just different people feeling different things about the same song. i haven't worked on that for like 6 years but i still love the concept and i want to return to it someday!)

music x art (chanbaek college au, where chanyeol is a music major and baekhyun is an art major and they become roommates and shenanigans ensue-)

romhyun and yeoliet (a chanbaek romeo + juliet au (without the dying lol bc i don't do main character death) @byuns-coco and i obsessed over in 2021 i think. it's based on the 1994 movie and exo's kokobop mv xD)

the lonely stargazer (which is about a dude (gn) who goes to the beach with their telescope to stargaze - bc they have heard you can hear the mermaids sing to the lonely people there - and they do feel very lonely. and they do hear the mermaids and they are singing about myths and stories about the constellations they see in the stars which are different from the constellatios human beings see bc they are a whole different species with a different culture and yeah. dude is male in my head bc i started it with chanyeol in mind, but that's not set in stone. i can imagine making it a story where the main characters gender is not revealed at all - if i ever write it xD)

ancient mansion (wlw love story between a writer moving into an huge-ass old mansion she inherited from her aunt and a interior designer who has been illegally working on the mansion and keeping it alive basically. they fall in love while renovating)

house of poets (my biggest wip, the concept is too long to to break it down here so feel free to ask me about them. all i'm going to say is ... super-tired all-knowing seer x antisocial jock werewolf. i love them. and i am sorry that i put them in these situations-) - technically it's connected to ancient mansion and 'house of poets' is the title of both stories. but... that's very messy to explain. but i wrote a song about them.

music:

moth song (i wrote that when a moth killed itself by flying straight into my pasta sauce that was literally still cooking on the stove-)

moth song pt 2 (i don't know what inspired that, one line i used there has been with me since 2021 i think, it was supposed to be a part of moth song but it became it's own thing and it's my favourite among my wips)

i am none of the things that you think i am (this one came to be after my grandpa came visit and things were said that made me upset)

rnb pop queen (this one i started when the new Mean Girls movie came out and Renee Rapp was everywhere and i had a crush on her)

theory logic consistency (this one started when i was frustrated with academia but academic is basically all i ever was good at so that was a crisis)

I tag... everyone who wants to share about their creative work? i am not sure at all anymore who of my moots have wips like that. i'll suspect @dontbotheraziraphale and @monwillica might have things to share? but no pressure at all ^-^

[theboytatu]

exo ask game : 1,2,5,6,7,8,11,13 14,18,30,34,35,,36,48,50

….u did say send a lot of number 🫣🫣

😭😭😭 thanks...

1. bias and why?

chanyeol and baekhyun because god wanted to play a bad joke on me by lumping me in with the most deranged type of people on exoplanet.... (and NO i don't ship chanbaek)

2. favorite line? (beagle line, maknae line, etc.)

chingu line forever and ever baby 🥰🥰🫶🫶 it's literally my biases + bias wreckers together

5. which exo member would you love to be best friends with?

ngl i feel like sehun and me would be very compatible like they say there's not a stronger bond than a hag and her fag

6. which exo member would you love to date?

obviously pcy since i'm actually delusional about him like sorry i just genuinely think he'd be a great boyfriend

7. which exo member do you think you’d actually dislike if you knew them in real life?

LMFAO this is such a funny question. based on nothing but my gut feeling definitely kai since he already drives me nuts sometimes. also probably minseok and/or junmyeon(?) idk i think we're just very different personality wise

8. which exo member is most like you?

baekhyun 100%. sorry

11. which exo album is your least favorite?

already answered hehe

13. describe your bias in three emojis

💪👂🍒

😈👄🐶

14. what song got you into exo?

oh god i don't even actually remember. like i'm drawing a blank here all i know is i got introduced to them through superm but i don't have a specific song that got me sucked in.. i guess i was floored when i watched the live acoustic set of lady luck so maybe that

18. studio albums or winter albums?

studio albums!

30. favorite vocalist?

jongdae ����

34. do you read exo fic? if yes, rec some works and some writers!

not really. i tried to but i swear no one actually knows who these men are the ao3 stuff i've browsed is just a bunch of fanon and government assigned personas

35. do you ship? name your ships if yes!

lmfao. xiubaek and chansoo are my faves. oh also i guess seho (and fuck kaisoo and chanbaek!!!!)

36. what would you tell your bias if you met them?

i don't ever wanna think about that like i'd be happy to see them in concert but omg i don't wanna meet them or talk to them.... never ever meet your favorite celebrities

that being said obviously if that happened i'd go with the "im your biggest fan" and thank them for the music they make. probably say "fuck SM we're still rooting for you!!" and that's it hdkdjkd

48. how does exo rank in comparison to other groups you like?

favorite group of all time forever like those men are my #1 boy

50. favorite title track?

tough tie between call me baby and tempo

[teenageengineernight-blog]

How reading Anna Karenina gaves me a Linguistic Existential Crisis Part. I

Since "We Have To Talk About Kevin" is a difficult read and I’d probably finish that book by the end of the year, I thought YouTube could help me gather information for my next read, and that’s when the worst thing ever happened. Aaron Taylor Johnson as Count Vronsky was brought to my FYP, and Keira Knightley infested my FYP with the most well-fitting edits of Young and Beautiful, Sad Girl, Million Dollar Man and Born to Die. I am a simple woman, and I was going through other people status on Instagram and I though that beautiful hand scene in Chloe Lukasiak’s status was everything I needed to start watching the movie. Joe Wright made an absolutely beautiful and engaging movie, that closed my 2024, and since I happened to have the book on my bookshelf, I decided I’d give it a try to Tolstói, another mistake I made.

4% into the book, I knew Anna Karenina was an absolutely beautiful written masterpiece who makes me realized how much I’ve abandoned my mother tongue. I’ve been raised all my life with Spanish as my first language, everything I used to read was in the language of my colonizers, and suddenly I fell in love with ChanBaek, and needed more quality fanfics (PWP, actually) and ended up losing the grasp of reality because at the old age of 23, I suddenly noticed I’ve been colonized a second time when I couldn’t grasp the meaning of the sentences in Spanish, and I have to open an eBook English edition to actually understand what was being said. I’m just 4% into the book, and I realized I can speak Spanish, but I am not able to understand it anymore. I felt disheartened, because on my journey of trying to perfectionate my English I lost my roots.

I couldn’t believe what was happening to me, because how the fuck could you lose your mother tongue when you speak it every day? And here comes the problem: I don’t like to talk, better yet, I don’t like to speak on a daily basis. I could be one of those girls who could pulled out a selective mutism phase, because I have a lot of things to speak about but at the same time I’m not interested to say it all. So I would rather not speak.

And my flawless vocabulary was ruined thanks to the Pandemic, because I was at home all the time, and my vocabulary was reduced to the most B2 level. I can communicate in Spanish but my C1/C2 Vocab was lost in the battle and replaced by slang thanks to TikTok, but not the cool slang, if not the worst kind, which is terrible. I can’t fucking read on my own language because I can’t grasp meaning, words are string together and formed sentences that are not coherent to my brain. EVEN WORST, I have an advance Spanish Vocabulary because I used to read National Geographic Magazines because I love them, and watch their documentaries because they were relaxing, and read very centric books written by Spanish Speaking Writers because they were cheaper than English speaking writers, but Pandemic happened, and they stopped selling the physical copies and I wasn’t very good at the internet downloading's thing for a while. And the class that could have helped my case, was just one day a week and because it was online, I would listen to my professor spoke while reading a fanfiction on the side. Now, I’m far behind on my native language situation because I made English my whole world.

The music I listen is in English, the reality shows I watch are in English, my thoughts are in English and I read the The New Yorker and listen to my Documentaries in English. English is so ingrained on my brain that I can’t comprehend my own grammar. Much worse than that, I need to study French in English because I can’t comprehend Grammar terms or explanation in Spanish, at least that it’s a very specific case. Reading Anna Karenina made me want to switch major to a focus on Spanish, and now, I decided 2025 would be the year this whole bullshit stop.

[essentyeol]

I’m currently looking for a chanbaek fanfic called “Wallpaper”, but the person has taken it down. Do you know if it has been uploaded under another name or just on another page?

I tried to look for it but it seems like the writer’s livejournal account has been deleted :( I am not sure whether it’s been uploaded under a different name. Sorry!

[devertiwrites]

Recently on the discord I was asked if I'd ever write Larry, and I said no. So they asked me if it is because I didn't want to write rpf, but that really isnt a problem to me. I wouldn't want to write Larry bc I don't think that they have such... interesting dynamic, I dont see that much appeal in them, and I don't think that there is anything interesting going on between them (tho plenty of writers make them work).

But it just made me think about the rpf pairings I would be willing to write about, and I realized that I didnt see the appeal in plenty of popular pairings, such as:

(Heavily exo-based list as I'm an exo fan)

Kaisoo. I honestly dont think that they work together at all, I dont see it. They are too different and not in a complimentary way. I think it is just that Jongin adores Kyungsoo, and that's the only basis for this pairing. Imo, the reason why Kai adores him is bc he is so insecure, and so he latches onto Kyungsoo, needing this stable and mature hyung, but I don't think that Jongin sees Kyungsoo all that well from beyond that, he only sees Kyungsoo's calmness, but doesn't see other aspects of Kyungsoo's character (his playfulness, his drive that comes from his competitiveness) and I think that Kyungsoo feels that Jongin is placing too much weight on him, and kind of tries to diffuse that misplaced adoration. They honestly have this common for introvert+extrovert thing in which the extrovert views introvert's calmness as some kind of higher plane existence, and tries to make a guru out of a person who just likes some quiet.

Hunhan. Most older brother-younger brother dynamic ever. And not in a sexy way.

Chanbaek. First, I just find Baekhyun annoying, but second oh wow two beagles together, how is it sexy? Like these two are friends, regular schmegular friends with barely anything interesting going on for them (some friendships are interesting and have lots going on, but this is not the case)

Xiuhan. They're just cute (individually), they have no chemistry beyond that (except for the fact that they are mature, certainly more mature than they seem, but like, they are working, you can tell, it is two adults who were given an assignment to sell this pairing and they sell it, but like they're co-workers, who, hell, even respect each other bc they're surrounded by kids, but thats it for them irl), mb luhan is latching a but more, but I think that he is just friendly like that, he gets attached more easily.

So I think that in terms of popular ships, you get this idea that they are just manufactured, and they are shoved into fan base's throat, but in true they don't really work, these are not people who would be attracted to each other. I think that's the reason why so often they're just visual/most popular member+, like they are made in a lab, and it is a botched hurried job.

That being said there are some rpf pairings I like, and mb could write them sometime:

SuHan. But really, their relationship was captured so beautifully by curledupkitten in "Rust and Stardust" that I feel like there's nothing else to do here. They do have this slightly pedophilic angle to them, like you definitely get the sense that Junmyeon raised Sehun, and yet this only adds the guilt to the attraction, tensing everything.

SuChen. Kind person+kind person is undervalued sort of pairing imo. It is interesting and it is touching, and yet those two are different enough that its not like they're mirrors, or that there is no place for miscommunication or misunderstanding between them, its not like they would be able to read another, they both kind of can dismiss the care from another as like - well, he is kind, but irl u def get the sense that they look after each other, recognise the goodness in one another. Junmyeon who is responsible and anxious needs to have people in his care, and Jongdae is secure enough that he would allow this without guilt or shame, plus he is slightly reckless, so he does need someone to help him with the fine details in life. And Junmyeon definitely needs some laughter and fun in his life. Plus I think they're both deeper than they seem (a usual case with kind people), like Jongdae is that religious bc he looks out into the world, sees pain in it, and decided that he would then be very kind to everyone, it's not just the matter of his good-hearted nature, so I think that he'd be able to meet Junmyeon's angst.

Mino/Jinwoo from Winner. Honestly, they're IT for me in terms of rpf couples. They have imo most interesting dynamic ever. Like there is dangerous bad boy Mino who is so gentle with sensitive sensitive Jinwoo. And Jinwoo, who seemingly is so paralyzingly insecure has some bite to him, like he isn't above manipulation, and he knows exactly what his strength/weaknesses are and how to play them (like how he weaponizes his face card, how he stayed in YG for so long), so you get this sense that the reason why Jinwoo is so often protected by Mino, isnt just Mino extending his shield towards him, but rather that Jinwoo wants it that way, he wants Mino near him, he barely lets other Winner members protect him like that, immediately puts distance even tho, all his Winner mates are half in love with the beautiful hyung, and are all protective of him (less on Taehyun part, but that's bc they have the greatest age gap), Jinwoo isn't above playing this weaker character that needs protection. And also, how Mino, despite his persona, is such a goofy and kind person, but, let's be real, not that gullible at all not to see through Jinwoo's mask, but remaining willing to play along. And so they have this external almost heteronormative performance with them (Mino the tough protective man, Jinwoo the beautiful sensitive woman), but if u dig a bit deeper, then you sense how much Jinwoo is willing to put up a performance of him playing this feminine role all to calm Mino down - like hey, you're the man here, so its not gay right, I'm prettier than girls, don't you think it is natural then for you to think I'm pretty, and to protect me, and considering this manipulation, you realize that Jinwoo is less passive in this thing than you think, mb even less helpless, that in fact he might be more dangerous than Mino, but I think that this inverted power play might actually be arousing+interesting for Mino, bc Mino is all about power, and in true he might be interested not only in that performative play, but also is fascinated by the deeper, hidden power play he and Jinwoo play.

[honeymouthedtales]

not nct or markhyuck related but... what are your exo ships miss cla 👀

chanbaek, sexiu, sebaek, baksoo, kaisoo, sekai, sechen, idk you name it and i will probably ship it? but i mainly wrote chanbaek as an exo writer.

[7or7]

HELP REBLOG!

hi there!! my friend, Nesthyne/Nestine, (a markjin and chanbaek writer) is finally releasing her first book ever!! and it’s a poetry book!! pls help me increase her sales by reblogging this or buying a copy of her book :> trust me she’s a great writer!! you can check her fics here and here. i’ve been a fan of her since 2014 and this is just one way to thank her for writing such beautiful pieces.

here’s the preview of her book:

“Until We Meet Again will transport you in various places, in altered times - of first loves, broken promises, a hopeful future, and a challenging present. It will lead you back to your moments of uncalculated decisions and unforeseeable scenarios but will sprinkle a promising tomorrow.

This is a collection of originally written poems about love, family, depression, and the little things in life - hoping to touch people's hearts.”

Price: 300 PHP / 5-6 USD Shipping (PH): 69-179 PHP Shipping (Overseas): Please message her on Twitter for more details.

Accepting orders until December 1, 2017 Payment until December 2, 2017 Book shipment starts December 18, 2017

[fierydaybreak]

chanyeol, the best of all reapers was tasked to assassinate the long secret heir of the number one business tycoon.

but how will he fulfill his oath to his boss if the one he's tasked to kill was his first love?

[polarislex]

im sorry for my young love - a chanbaek fic, prologue out here

Baekhyun never asked for any of this. To be different. To never live up to his fathers expectations. To have hurt so many people.

Chanyeol just wanted to make his mother proud. To figure out how to control his abilities. To maybe uncover why he never could quite fit in.

Neither realized the series of events that would start the second they laid eyes on the other on the grounds of Vespera Academy and as their story intertwines, it can't help but lead to the question.

Would all of this be worth it in the end? The passion between friends - between lovers, the heart-wrenching vulnerability, the burden of secrets left unsaid.

Does love truly triumph all? Or is there a much steeper price to pay as an unknown consequence?

[abalynevil]

╰ Secret Santa - Chanbaek au

╰ Summary:

Baekhyun and Chanyeol were teachers at the same school and were part of the same group of friends, but everyone knew they didn't like each other at all. Hatred might not be the right word to describe how they felt about each other. Moved by the Christmas spirit, their friends decide to set up a Secret Santa. A Secret Santa that would completely change the relationship between the two professors.

[citizen-l]

04. Sign

Chanyeol woke up disoriented, hearing weird noises that he usually didn’t hear in the morning. Junmyeon was always very quiet. But he wasn’t in his own apartment, and the sounds weren’t made by Junmyeon.

Chanyeol remembered awkwardly coming into Baekhyun’s apartment again. He had thought Sehun’s room would be his for the night, only to realize it was locked. Sehun hadn’t even given Chanyeol his keys this time, just banished him from his own home to spend quality time with Junmyeon. Chanyeol was going to have a talk with Sehun soon, this was getting out of hand.

He sighed and contemplated putting his shirt back on again, but he needed a shower first. 

Last night, when it was clear that Chanyeol wouldn’t have access to Sehun’s room, or his bed, or his clothes, Baekhyun insisted on making the couch as comfortable as possible. Which was actually pretty nice to sleep on. But he also helpfully provided a pair of pajamas and a night shirt, both of which were a tad bit undersized for Chanyeol. So, once Baekhyun was off to sleep in his own room, Chanyeol opted to sleep without the night shirt, it was the best option. Now though, as he heard cutlery and plates in the kitchen, he mildly felt uncomfortable. 

Not that he was all that self-conscious about his body. But mostly, it was Baekhyun, and Baekhyun was...Baekhyun. A very beautiful guy whose opinion of Chanyeol shouldn’t matter but Chanyeol knew it probably would. At least a little bit. He decided to use the comforter to hide his naked torso instead.

“Oh hey, you’re up!” Baekhyun said cheerfully, but then his face fell. “Wait, shit, did I wake you?”

“Nah, it’s fine,” Chanyeol said. He stopped from saying much else, his throat was too dry and he needed to drink some water first.

“Well, I’m sorry anyway,” Baekhyun said while chaotically moving around the kitchen. “I have a show today, so I have to hurry. But don’t worry, you can rest up, take a shower or stay if you want. There’s a spare key over there, just lock the door when you leave. Alright? I have to go now.”

And before Chanyeol knew it, Baekhyun had planted a kiss on his cheek and was out the door in the blink of an eye.

Well.

Chanyeol sighed in frustration and flopped back down into the couch. Another kiss to think about. Was this another sign?

When he went back to his own apartment, which was after he decided to visit a friend about a project and have lunch, it was well into the afternoon. He thought it would be best to let the lovebirds have the morning, he did not want to see Sehun at his apartment, or talk to him yet. Chanyeol was angry, and waiting to see how long Sehun would be doing this without realizing how much of an asshole he was being.

He was mad at Junmyeon too, but there was nothing much to do about that, Junmyeon was his roommate after all.

Thankfully, no one was at the apartment when Chanyeol arrived. And enough air fresheners were used that Chanyeol almost didn’t think about what might have happened last night. Everything was clean and well put together as well. At least Junmyeon was sorry.

That was one of the things that Chanyeol really liked about his roommate, Junmyeon knew when his actions were wrong or even problematic to someone else. And he did things to make up for it. Things like cleaning, rearranging, doing chores. He refrained from cooking because he was a disaster in the kitchen, but he did other things like this instead. Even Chanyeol had taken to cooking meals to apologize to Junmyeon when he overstepped. And that was fine, it was a healthy way of living with someone, Chanyeol thought. Even if they didn’t always say sorry outright, they still did something to acknowledge their wrongdoings and tried to appease the other.

Sehun, on the other hand, just took what he wanted and didn’t think about anything or anyone else. Which was so unlike him! Chanyeol had been friends with him for over a decade, and this was the first time Sehun had gone on so long being a brat. 

Chanyeol really hoped he wasn’t going to be kicked out tonight, he would start shouting, maybe even throw a fist if that happened. It wasn't as if Junmyeon and Sehun were the only two people on the planet who were going out, or whatever it was they were calling it. They should be mindful not to become an inconvenience for others, especially Chanyeol. He was suffering. 

It took him the better part of the evening to catch up on his homework, writing papers was the bane of his existence. And it felt worse doing them now in a hurry because he could have completed them long ago if he had access to his room the previous few nights. 

Chanyeol was taking a break, pulling up his audio mixer application and listening to his latest unfinished work. Might as well try and make something new to show his professor soon. That was when a text from Baekhyun chimed on his phone. 

Chanyeol tried to ignore the text, he tried harder to ignore his reaction to the knowledge that Baekhyun was texting him out of the blue. It was a normal thing people did, Chanyeol told himself. No need to drop everything to find out what the pretty boy wrote, Chanyeol wasn't a teenager. 

But Baekhyun's text was as insistent as the memory of Baekhyun's kisses. Chanyeol couldn't stop hearing that chime even though it never rang again after that one time. He was going crazy, hallucinating. He should probably be worried, but all he could do was reach out and grab his phone. 

"Roses are red, violets are blue, my show went well, and I remembered you."

Well. What was Chanyeol supposed to do now? Because being chill about this just went out the window. 

Why was Baekhyun so straightforward? He probably didn't mean anything by it, this was probably just how he usually was with every friend. Casual, flirty, cheeky. 

Chanyeol tried to make himself believe it, it was nothing serious. 

"I'm glad your show went well, you seemed tense in the morning. Are you celebrating?"

Chanyeol meant to only congratulate him. His fingers apparently didn't want that, his mind wondering what Baekhyun was doing now. Was he back home? Out with his friends at that bar? Maybe still at some auditorium backstage, taking off his costume… 

Chanyeol stopped himself. Very abruptly, but surely. No need to wonder that far. Too soon. 

Too soon? 

Chanyeol needed to stop daydreaming. He needed to finish his homework, get some sleep, and get ready for a week of lectures and work. 

Another text chimed, a picture this time. Chanyeol's fingers moved quicker than his brain and he stared at a black haired Baekhyun holding up beer, he was out drinking. But Chanyeol only saw the black hair, the wink, the slight blush on Baekhyun’s cheeks, the tip of his tongue peaking out at the corner of his mouth. 

"Minseok says I should have invited you," another text read. "I was panicking in the morning so it slipped my mind. Plus I didn't know if you'd be free."

"Maybe next time," Chanyeol replied without thinking much. 

"You'll get bored, it's all very fake and dramatic."

Chanyeol didn't mind, he'd just stare at Baekhyun anyway. He felt his cheeks warm in embarrassment even as he sat alone in his empty room, it was the truth. Black hair on Baekhyun was...it was just as beautiful as his pink hair, if not more. In a different way. But it made it hard for Chanyeol not to stare at the picture. 

"What are you up to, Apollo?" Baekhyun's text came again. 

"I was catching up on schoolwork. Apollo?"

"You make music, like Apollo," Baekhyun wrote. "Ignore me. The play is rubbing off on me. A Greek tragedy."

It was physically difficult for Chanyeol to ignore him anymore. But he really did need to finish his studies for the night. Which is what he told Baekhyun, because Chanyeol was strictly against leaving someone hanging, even if it was only in texts. 

"Ah, please don't put off your work, I'm on my way home anyway. I might just fall face first on the floor as soon as I go home, and stay there. I'm too tired."

"That might hurt. At least get to the couch."

It was Chanyeol's subconscious, it had to be. Maybe his mind knew what his fingers were typing but he realized a little too late what a trap he set up for himself. 

"It would smell like you...

"Unless Sehun rubbed his ass on it, that is... 

"Don't mind me, I might be slightly drunk."

One after another, the feelings those texts instigated left Chanyeol a bit breathless, agitated; God knew what was happening to him. He chose to focus on the most concerning topic. 

"Are you driving home? Catch a cab."

"Don't worry, giant. Soyeon will give me a ride, she's sober as a button. I know that's not the saying but roll with it."

"You feeling okay?" Chanyeol couldn't help asking. There was something in those texts that nagged him a little. 

"Yeah, don't worry, just tired after all that. Been preparing for this show for weeks. Finally done. Kinda feels like my life is over, like I don't have anything to look forward to anymore. But I know it's just the tiredness and probably the third celebratory beer talking. It's alright, I'll be cheerful again soon enough. Maybe I'll dye my hair some other obnoxiously peppy color. Blueberry blue, maybe. What do you say?"

Chanyeol waited, read and reread the long text. He was now fully worried. But he also felt guilty. He was still somewhat a stranger, he probably had no right to worry so much about Baekhyun, who seemed fully capable of taking care of himself. Well, almost. As long as there wasn't any blood involved. And there probably wasn't this time around. 

"Dye your hair whatever color you want to, as long as you like it. You look great with the black hair. Bubblegum pink suited you really well too. Blueberry blue just might bring out the color of your eyes."

Chanyeol tried to lighten the mood. And it seemed to have worked. 

"I laughed so hard I almost choked. Jongin is not happy, I accidentally spilled beer on him just now."

"Tell him I'm sorry." Chanyeol wasn't, he was very happy with himself, mostly because he made Baekhyun laugh. He wished he was there with him to see him laugh. 

Chanyeol tried not to think too much about what he just wished. 

"Well, time to go home, giant. Hopefully the couch is left untouched. Later, Yeol."

Chanyeol wanted to say he left things at that, but that would be a lie. He wrote a paper for his music theory, replaying Baekhyun's short poem in his head like a song. He thought about all the weird things that happened in the last two days with Baekhyun and made a whole composition track with strings. 

Talk about inspiration. 

He felt kind of guilty for the morning. He did try to fold everything neatly, place the pillows and comforter on one side and made sure there was no dirt or dust on the couch or rug. But he could only do so much. He couldn't wash the night clothes Baekhyun lent him, he didn't know where everything was, and it felt like he was invading someone's home. So he left the clothes neatly folded on the couch as well. 

Chanyeol should have brought the shirt and pajamas to his apartment, washed them, and then returned them to Baekhyun. But it never crossed his mind at that time. Baekhyun would probably think him uncouth. That couldn't be more far off. He was too much of a neat freak sometimes, Junmyeon would attest to that. 

It was just that Baekhyun threw Chanyeol off, even when he was not in the room. It was somewhat worrisome. Last time Chanyeol had felt anything close to this, things had been so bad that he still tried to avoid thinking about all that ever happening.

Maybe he needed to be a bit more protective of himself. Be on guard. Baekhyun was one of those people who was so charming and cheerful that nobody could help but be engaged with him. Everyone was intrigued with him, both in a positive and negative way. Chanyeol was just like everyone else, a bit too intrigued. But it was because he was getting to know Baekhyun up close for the first time now. It'll pass, he told himself. 

He lied to himself when he wrote a song, telling himself it was for his songwriting course, that it wasn't about Baekhyun. He was lying to himself, it definitely was. 

Junmyeon returned to their apartment while Chanyeol was almost done cooking dinner. Chicken stew, the easiest dish his mom had taught him to cook. He wasn't feeling too energetic to put together anything more. Put everything in the pot and boil, that was all the effort he was willing to give tonight. 

"Hey," Junmyeon left his bag and books aside and sat on the stool opposite the kitchen island that doubled as their dining table. 

"Sehun not coming over?" Chanyeol asked. He tried to leave out the irritation from his voice, but it didn't work. 

"No," Jun sighed. "Listen, Chanyeol, I'm sorry, about yesterday. And the day before."

Chanyeol was a little surprised, no, a lot. He never expected an outright apology. Especially from Junmyeon. Jun even looked actually sincere. This wasn't just for show. 

"Why are you apologizing?"

"For kicking you out like that," Jun laughed sadly. "This is your home as much as mine. And it was wrong of me to just do that to you. Whatever you might think of me, I do consider you a friend. And I shouldn't have done that to a friend."

"Well, you sound more like my friend than Sehun," Chanyeol was being sarcastic, but the look on Jun's face sobered him up. "It's fine, you apologized. And cleaned up. I'll take it. You want some stew?"

"Thanks," Jun still looked sad, even though he smiled. "Did you guys talk?"

"No, not after his text last night," Chanyeol sat down opposite Jun. 

"I'm sorry, he's a little…out of it lately. Maybe."

"He's infatuated with you," Chanyeol said honestly. He regretted it a moment later when Jun stopped eating. "Hey, look, it's not your fault. He's being irrational about things, and full of himself like always."

"Can I tell you something?" Jun said quietly. He waited until Chanyeol nodded. "Lately, we haven't...I can't remember the last time we sat down and talked, had an actual conversation. It feels like he's only interested in me for…yeah. I feel like I shouldn't have started this."

"Last I remember, he was the one running after you," Chanyeol said. 

"But I said yes," Jun stirred his stew in the bowl but didn't eat. 

"Look, he'll come around. Maybe. I don't even know anymore, honestly. I haven't seen him be like this before. But then again, he didn't have any relationships before you so I can't say what his usual boyfriend mode is like."

"He's not my boyfriend," Jun said. "That was perfectly clear from the beginning."

"Okay…" Chanyeol didn't know what to say. "Well. Whatever happens with you two, don't throw me out like that again. Give me a warning long beforehand so I can prepare, make arrangements."

"Don't worry, I'm not letting that happen again, if I can help it," Jun smiled. 

"Did you… break up, or... "

"No, I just said no to that. No more kicking people out so we could bang. That's rude."

Chanyeol couldn't help but laugh at the way Jun said it. 

"What about you, where did you stay the last two nights?"

Chanyeol suddenly coughed, almost choking on a piece of chicken. Junmyeon raised a curious brow but Chanyeol just focused on drinking water and clearing his throat. 

"At a friend's," Chanyeol said. 

"Oh, Kyungsoo's?"

"No."

"One of your bandmates'?"

"Mmmh," Chanyeol didn't know what sound he made, affirmative or negative, and judging by Junmyeon's creased brows, he didn't know either. But Jun didn't push, and Chanyeol was glad. It felt wrong to make Baekhyun just Sehun's flatmate. He was Chanyeol's friend now. 

Well. A friend who kissed him, pecked him on the cheek, took him to a dinner party to meet his friends and wrote him an amateur poem. A friend whom he wrote a song about. 

I want to hear the truth, now now now,

Why do you keep beating around the bush, round round round

Even if you act like it’s not, already, already, I can see through it all

Like sand, the tighter I hold on the more you scatter away.

Our gazes missing each other,

Doubts spreading in a way we can’t stop

Hiding a secret, your sign sign sign,

Now stop it, don’t lie lie lie

It might set off a firework that will burn it all down

The words you said to me without a thought, I know,

It’s all a sign sign sign

Air trapped in the silence. I’m anxious, like walking on ice

Stop this endless nightmare, before it’s too late

You already know the answer I’m waiting for

Don’t even think of trying to act like it’s nothing,

Just push me away instead

Our gazes missing each other,

Doubts spreading in a way we can’t stop

Hiding a secret, your sign sign sign,

Now stop it, don’t lie lie lie

It might set off a firework that will burn it all down

The words you said to me without a thought, I know,

It’s all a sign sign sign...

It wasn’t complete, far from it. But at least he was confident about the first and second verses, and the chorus. He might need to ask for his friend Kenzie’s help to produce it, add a bridge, come up with some great tunes to bind it all together. Right now he had mellow tunes that he could strum on his acoustic, but he didn’t want this to be mellow, this wasn’t a slow ballad song. This needed to be powerful.

[sinisterchristmastree]

"I'm not a murderer! I swear!"

"Your browser history says otherwise"

[pab0panda]

Reasons why I'm not writing #1:

Writer's block hit me like a truck.

(So sorry for not updating)

[dramaqueen90sworld]

Frost&Thunder Part 1

Fandom: Exo (of course)

Pairing: XiuChen - side ChanBaek

Genre: Light Romance, Super Power AU, Friendship

Language: English

Completed (Two Shot)

Description:

Xiumin never liked Thunderstorm, especially when he's alone in the room.

Jongdae never liked anything cold, especially when there isn't anyone to cuddle.

Maybe if they met, something can change. But it's okay to trust?

Story:

Chapter 1/2 - Fear&Trust

Xiumin never liked thunderstorm.

Especially when he's alone.

It's too loud. Too much lightning all of sudden.

Too much everything.

Mostly he is calm, understanding and friendly.

Now he's scared.

And angry too - why have the thunderstorm to be now? Why couldn't it wait until tomorrow?

Tomorrow Baekhyun is here.

Baekhyun his best friend since forever. Baekhyun who is Light.

And that's literally.

Beautiful warm light. Light who calms him down.

Xiumin doesn't understand why, but Light as a Power is so so much better than his own.

Frost.

Okay addmitely, he never gets cold. Not in the hardest winter. If he would want it, he could go in shorts without everything else.

Not that he would do it. Of course not.

Snowflakes and Ice Flowers.

Xiumin really likes them. Maybe they're one of the best things of his power.

But now he's the only one in his room. On his bed.

And yes, call it clichee but he is under is blanket. And he doesn't want to see anythin.

Doesn't want to HEAR anything.

But how could you ignore a thunderstorm and thunder?

Nice try.

"Tomorrow morning it's over, just try to sleep", he mutters.

As if he could.

Jongdae never liked Frost.

Especially when he's out. Like now.

It's too cold. A lot too much cold. Too much frozen.

Too much everything.

And it didn't has snow yet.

Why did he yesterday suggest to buy breakfast? He must be drunk.

Okay, addmitly - he was truely drunk.

But since he was together with friends he didn't want the party pooper.

That's not him. He's cheerful and bright.

Sharp like lightning. But friendly and understanding too everyone.

Okay maybe he can't understand this guy.

Messy white hair, white like snow and lightly blue eyes.

And gods, did Jongdae mention this beautiful smile?

Suddenly there isn't any cold what he feels.

"Good Morning", Jongdae greets the guy.

"Good Morning", the guy answered and still smiled.

This eyes. They are like a cat ones.

Jongdae never has seen this before.

The night has passed. And Xiumin survived the thunderstorm.

As everytime before. And he knew it of course.

But it's really hard to think properly if your full of fear.

So, for celebrate that he still lives. He want to buy breakfast.

And so he did go to the usual bakery in his street.

And there he saw the most beautiful men ever.

Xiumin can't help but smiled.

"Good Morning", he said to Xiumin.

Xiumin still smiled.

Maybe he looked like a creep.

But it's not important.

Not now.

"Good Morning", Xiumin who still smiled too.

He can't help. He just do it right away.

Like he is forced to.

"Aren't you cold?"

Never tell anyone who want's know your Power.

Never. It only gets worse. Except it's Byun Baekhyun.

"I am not cold", Xiumin said to him.

I'm Frost.

Jongdae thinks it's weird.

This guy is weird.

"I am not cold", he had said.

Jongdae can't believe it.

He himself, had a scarf, gloves and a warm coat.

And he still feels frozen.

But this man is going around as if he was in summer!

T Shirt, Jeans that's all.

But again his lovely eyes, and did he mention this so kissable lips?

"You're beautiful"

Oh shit.

Had he said it out loud?

The stranger smiled again.

Jongdae thinks, maybe he is a bit red now.

But this might be the cold weather.

"Thank you"

Where is the cliff he can jump off?

Wait!

Did he say thank you?

"You're nice"

"And you're new here in this place", Jongdae said.

Yes, Xiumin is new.

Of course he is.

"I am", he said. "It's three days now for me"

Why did he say this?

He doesen't know.

But what he does know, is that this guy is nice.

Never tell anyone who want's know your Power.

Never. It only gets worse. Except it's Byun Baekhyun.

It was his mother who said it to him.

To protect him.

He knows it. He really do.

And Ice, Frost is dangerous.

He knows  that too.

Not all people understand.

Only Baekhyun.

It's ironic that Baekhyuns Boyfriend is Fire.

Fire Chanyeol.

But Xiumin never get's warm.

"By the way - I'm lightning"

I really need to go.

It's sad after all.

But lightning is still the worst for Xiumin.

And since lightning comes with thunder.

He still can't trust it.

Even if he want to.

"By the way - I'm lightning"

Jongdae really doesn't know why he had said it.

It's not that this is a reference.

It just like that. He want to say it.

But the man in front of him, looked sadly.

Jongdae is sure he had a power too.

But about Jongdae is sure too is:

This man will not tell him everything.

And that's a shame.

"I really need to go", the man said.

It's more like a whisper.

And Jongdae really really don't want him to go.

"You can trust me, I promise."

And he mean it with his whole heart.

"Please stay with me. We can have breakfast together."

Jongdae only have to find a explanation for his friends.

"Please stay with me. We can have breakfast together."

Xiumin must be imagine things. Seriously.

It can't be.

This man in front of him, can't have said something like that.

But Xiumin want to say yes.

So badly.

"By the way, I'm Jongdae", the man said. "And your name is ..."

"Xiumin"

"Oh..."

Xiumin frowns.

Could Jongdae have heard about him?

About the last time, when Xiumins Power got out of Control.

"Your Name is so beautiful!"

Okay, Xiumin doesn't expect something like this.

He smiled.

This kitten lips, this messy hair, this sparkling eyes.

Xiumin had never thought that he could've be like this to a person.

It's like he was paralyzed.

Stop. It still can be.

Xiumin don't know much about lightning.

Except Baekhyuns Power.

But this is different.

But maybe it's okay to trust.

This guy seems nice. Very nice.

Maybe he can change something.

Maybe he can trust if he tried.

Maybe he can try.

Xiumin want to try.

He really want it.

You can find it this fanfiction too on:

Asianfanfics.org: https://www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/1416379/1/fear-trust

ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/20496137/chapters/48639470

[hyunbaekah]

I'm thinking about writing a bonus chap for both Just to Practice and Creeping in your Heart since they both got featured on AFF but hmpffff where's the inspiration?! 🤔😭

I also still need to upload CIYH on ao3 sjsjsj OOF I'm lazy someone scold me