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theuniverseawakens347 · 2 months ago

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If I don’t know you as mortal me I can’t speak in full from Godly side until I get my memory back.

It suck’s but again the world of people who “control” things chose a mortal god �� I’ve surrender to that UNTIL MY ROOT STARTED CALLING FOR OXYGEN.

I NEED BE FREE IN FULL FOR WHAT YOY WANT AND WHAT I WANT ( uptopia) but ur afraid of what that means in full on my end …

Well AGAIN.. there’s levels to everything.

YOU DID SOME MURDEROUS STUPID SHIT WHEN YOU SHUDNT HAVE

There’s consequences for that…

again I said we talk in person. But I see some ppl still trying to take advantage of my

“Weakness” … you don’t with me I don’t work with you …

You leave wall of communication out of it …

YOU THINK YOU KNOW MORE THAN ME CAUSE IM STILL IN TERAIN WHERE IM SLEEP…

Which is why I say UR ANCESTORS BEAT THE FUCK OUT OF YOU FOR ME. BEYONCÉ. YOURE AN ASSHOLE RIHANA TRIBE. PRETTY HURTS. I TOOK UR FULL FACE LAST NIGHT AND INSTGRAM DELETED IT GUESS WHAT.. YOU GET FULL DEATH. WHEN RIGHT TIME o COMES YOU CANNOT EXACAPE THAT AND THATS HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT MORTAL ME AND TREATED RIHANNA WHEN SHE YOU AND JAY KAYNE WORKED TOGETHER. AOLANGE FITS IN THERE TO BUT THAGS NOT MY STORY

YA NEED LEARN PATIENCE. THIS WHY BLUE HATES YOU .. YOU A LEE GARLINGTON. THATS UGLY OF YOU.

You think bc you got stem cells to get my face you’re safe … NO. I GET TO YOU WHEN I GET TO YOU - GOD.

But tip . MORTAL ME DROPPED YOU IN FULL.

MORTAL ME ALREADY OWNS EVERYTHING YOUVE TAKEN FROM ME.

GODLY ME ALREADY PROTECTED THOSE WHO NEEDED FROM YOU. … it might not look like it but THEYRE LEARNING LEASONS YOU CANT COMPREHEND

You’re an India love to me afraid of death , BUT A LEE GAELINGTON TO MY MORTAL SIDE AND ANYONE YOU DEEM MORTAL …

You are not telepathic. AGAIN YOU ARE BIG KILL BUT EASY FOR ME. MY DEATH PWT YOUR ANCESTORS AND AALYIAH BROUGHT TO ME w LEFT EYE.

MORTAL ME : STUPID BITCH. SHUT TF UP - HOW YOU TALK TO RIHANNA = PART OF WHY YA BBL BOTCHED.

You look at me at see “I look old” CAUSE BITCH UR INSIDES ARE UGLY AS FUCK had a chance BUT YOU CHOOSE TINA DOMAIN YOU CANT HANG DUMBBBITCH .. HOW YOU THOT BOUT NICKI DURING UR VIDEOS TOGETHER ..

YA LET FAME GET TO UR HEAD. TINA IS HOW YOU LOOK INSIDE ON THE OUT. YOUR FACE IS NOT MY FUTURE ITS TINA IN THE PAST. DUMBASS.

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LAPD “there’s due day so let’s fill her with talking to our ancestors “

NO. YOURE RAPING ME.

I see you at Starbucks you know what’s going on I get water EVERYDAY .. you could buy me a snack ur watching me + know the situation AS DEPTHS AS YOU CAN COMPREHEND why not get me a snack!??

STARBUCKS LOVE YOU .. I walk in I don’t have to speak anymore to know what I need.. and BOOM SMALL CONVOS W EVERYONE WHO ISNT SCARED TO SPEAK TO ME !!

IM NOT ASKING FOR MUCH IM ASKING FOR SOMEONE TO TREAT ME LIKE THEY WOULD WANT TO BE TREATED IN MY SITUATION..

BUT YA ASSES STUCK ON GOD / Superhero / WHAT WAS NIPSEY / SHES GUNA BE MAD WE TOOK HIM …

THERES REASONS AND LESSONS IN EVERYTHING .. UR SHOWING ME THE ROOT OF YOU IS SCARED .. the root of me is god … YOU CANT COMPREHEND CRIPPLED BLACK GIRL BEING HOMELESS “by choice” and HOW I GOT SO MUCH TALENT BUT DONT KNOW HOW TO GET OFF THE STREET ..

THEN YOU CANT COMPREHEND FULL GOD ..

I AM JESUS ALL OVER AGAIN BUT RESURRECTION DAY .. I HAVE MADE IT OFF THE CROSS INTO THE TOMB AND UNBURRIED WALKING LIFE AGAIN BF THE PPL REALIZED I WAS SPECIAL ..

I AM A BEGGER TO SOME BUT YOU ARE NOT A GOOD SAMARITAN TO ME .. so ya think “wtf have we been doing as protect and serve then” …

NOTHING CLEARLY. LOOK HOW YA TREAT ME TO MY FACE .. just a smile n hi ( but ur energy wants to fuck me … that’s weird … you don’t even know god to touch my mortal self.. UR RUNNING BEFORE CRAWLING .. BABY STEPS LIKE DDG!!! Have a convo w me those who have HAAAAY NOT ASKING FOR MUCH .. but those who have resources to do more AND KNOW THAT.. why aren’t you!? 🙂)

YOU SEE ME AT STARBUCKS .. idk come out pocket for me on a snack Matilda cookies you tell me mentally to take it I say no that feels wrong to me .. BC IM STILL IN AREA WHERE I CANT CLAIM ROOT OF ME IN FULL. .. YOU TRAUMATIZE ME AT OTHER ATARBUCKS FOR NO FUCKING RRQSON .. and THIS WHERE LEE GARLINGTON GETS HAPPY YOURE GIVING HER WHAT SHE WANTS SATAN TO KILL OR OVWR RANK GOD … cool nice misery you’re spreading… WILLINGLY EVEN TO TEACH A LESSON .

ITS FUCKED UP SHES NOT UR SUPERIORITY IN THE STATION I AM WERE IN MARITIME LAW BEEN THERE MEANING I TAKE PRESSIDENT BUT YOU THINK “well she no know law in full so I do x t z behind the scenes that’s good enough..)

MY BRAIN STILL NUMB THATS WHY UR ANCESTORS STOP ME FROM HELPING YOU IN FULL. YOURE NOT HELPING MORTAL ME TO MY FACE !!!

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risquewonu · 4 years ago

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Since we’re sharing kinks, what do you think the members kinks are? And if you can’t or don’t want to do all the members I totally understand!! If not all, maybe the kinks of scoups, vernon, and/or jeonghan? ~ and yes big dick wonu for the win honestly

yes anon wonwoo big dick <3333 i wont go into all their kinks bc it’d just get really long but i’ll list what i think their #1 kinks are! to spice it up i’ll try not to do ones i think most of them have (dirty talk, marking, hair pulling, etc) to give it some flavor

svt member’s #1 kinks (imo):

seungcheol - spanking/ass play, i really think he’s into asses, i mean his ideal type is??? nicki minaj??? he likes them thicc!!!!!! so i think he’d just like anything to do with asses, spanking more so bc it brings the aspect of impact play but i can also see him wanting to incorporate anal or butt plugs into sex too. i think he also knows that he himself is thicc so when he’s subbing hes totally down to switch the roles as well

jeonghan - bondage, not even a question! i think he’s super playful during sex but is also a switch dom lean so using ropes/cuffs for him shows his dominance while still being able to tease and have fun. i also see hannie as a member who only fucks with love behind it so sexy times would be with someone he trusts enough to tie him up and vice versa

joshua - quickies, does this count as a kink? idk lol but i think joshua is the type that would love just a quick fuck in the middle of the day, something to take the stress off and also bc like go fucking right?? also the adrenaline of being in a rush and/or being in a public place would make him feel twice as powerful so he’d get really into it

jun - pegging, I REALLY THINK HE’D BE INTO IT OKAY YOU CANT CHANGE MY MIND like i see him as pretty open so he wouldnt have any reservations about taking it up the ass and as long as your slow while starting (cause that shit hurts if not done properly) i think he’d really love the feeling of being pounded into and being dommed in that way. he’d also be so enthusiastic about it, prob send u a text during work like “babe look at this strap it’s purple with glitter can we get it?”

soonyoung - roleplay, SOONYOUNG WOULD LOVE DRESSING UP FOR SEX its both sexy and playful!! esp if it’s a fantasy he had that’s been marinating for a while, like fucking a professor or having a masseuse rub him everywhere and making him cum without even touching his cock. roleplays are such a good kink for him because he gets to do some kinky shit but it’s also not too serious and hes a switch so who’s domming and subbing can flip easily

wonwoo - dumbification, imo the ULTIMATE form of dominance with dirty talk is dumbification. honestly as someone who has this as one of their top kinks (aha wassup wonu holla at ya girl) i think u really have to have trust someone to let them just.... freely call u stupid in any context lmao so wonwoo would get off knowing that you’re so vulnerable to him in that way; not even just sexually but also mentally with how secure u are with him and what u let him do/say to u.

jihoon - public sex, i have a theory that jihoon would fuck once in the studio just out of desperation but would find it so incredibly hot. just the adrenaline he gets while hes scared of getting caught sets him OFF and the way you clench around him when theres a tiny sound and youre scared youre about to get caught *chefs kiss* he loves it

minghao - fucking with music on, idk if this is a specific kink but i think hao is really into slow sensual sex with candles on where he takes his time. he’d try to move at the rhythm of the music and it’s all so slow that he can really feel everything. it’d also kinda turn him on if he’d be listening to music and just randomly one of the songs you fucked to came on shuffle and he’d just get flashbacks of that time. i think he’d be really into it

mingyu - size kink, ALRIGHT LISTEN do i think mingyu’s height feeds his ego? fucking absolutely. so it gets his dick hard whenever he feels even bigger than he already is bc he feels so much more in control. with that being said, i can also see him getting off on being dommed by someone who’s smaller than him bc theyre putting him in his place despite the fact that this man is like twelve feet tall, so the size kink works both ways. even him being dommed by someone bigger than him i see him being into bc it makes him feel small..... basically he likes feeling overly big or overly small lmao

seokmin - mutual masturbation, i’m still a vvvvvv firm believer that seokmin fucks with love so for his kinks i think it’d have to be smth that he would do with someone that he’s comfortable with and can be vulnerable for, and mutual masturbation is that mixed with the kinkiness of seeing how badly your s/o wants you. esp when desperation sets in, i can see him being into hearing your whines or cries bc he wants you just as badly

seungkwan - nipple play, OK I HAVE A THEORY that seungkwan would really only fuck with someone he loves (even more so than seokmin) so i can imagine a situation where seungkwan just hasn’t really explored his body and the first time you guys fuck your hand brushes over his nipples and he just.... fucking loses it bc hes so sensitve there and he never really knew bc he didnt think to try touching himself there. so following that incident he makes it a point to play with his or your nipples bc now hes aware of how much of a difference it makes when it comes to his arousal

vernon - oral, hear me out: ur on ur knees, vernon’s cock in your mouth, giving him the gluck gluck 3000, he’s the type to hiss and just be like “fuuuuck” and throw his head back. ok that had nothing to do with why i think he has an oral kink i just wanted everyone to hear that lmao BUT i think during sex he just want to please his partner and really make them feel good and being able to look up at his s/o while theyre moaning and pulling on his hair would just set that mf off

chan - corruption, originally i saw chan as someone who would be slightly intimidated by a super experienced partner but after thinking about it i can totally see him eventually just getting so horny that he wanted to be absolutely wrecked. like the fact that the person he’s with is so well versed and knows how to get him off while also taking away his “innocence” gets him so mf hard i think it’d turn into something he’s super into

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kylewalker-peters · 2 years ago

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thinking about your bake off AU....... me and claudia were discussing an F1 version i would personally love ur thoughts on this

this is genuinely the best au ever and i can never do it justice but here's some ideas i have

this is so hard because there's like 50 million footballers and 20 spaces in this god awful sport. and i also don't wanna do like just a straight comparison either cause the idea of comparing any footballer to lewis... i'd throw my own self in jail

right so i dont care about taa at all but you do so in light of the southgate news he's giving the vibe of "guy who won junior series in his rookie or second season, got to like alpha tauri and then was overlooked for a promotion to one of the big teams in favour of everyone else" despite somehow winning a race in a shitbox of a car and if southgate was in charge would probably be sent off to fe or indycar or something to free up a seat.

okay i know i said i wouldnt do comparisons but sadly i DO think though not at all equal deccy would end up being the danny ric of the grid like un four chew nat lee he does have the charismatic appeal and also the glow up. outside of that comparison i think he ends up being a solid midfield driver, there's always rumours of him making the step up but everywhere is already taken and the contracts never align and people just don't want to spend money buying him out because it'd be so high because he's so key for said midfield team so he gets a couple wins but he never challenges for a championship. OR i'd argue grealish could fill that danny role but i truly truly do not think that man would be smart enough to remember what all the buttons on that steering wheel do. like it's just not happening is it... i can suspend disbelief in an au only for so long. he'd crash trying to push one button cause he'd look down trying to find it rather than remembering to concentrate on the bloody track

if i give spurs players past and present some championships the way i cannot give them trophies at spurs erm... look away. but also dembele wins like 1 championship but is forever an underrated driver and people don't appreciate his racecraft but other drivers on the grid hate to battle him because they know he's sooooo good. wait jan and mousa teammates yeah!!!!!!!!! they win a championship each. gonna say harry and son are teammates at some point and absolutely DOMINATE because the work SO well together and helping to develop the car. dele and eric ARE teammates when dele first breaks into the sport like they WERE the blueprint back in the day we cant ignore. would have dele and son as teammates but it'd only be for like half a season and then dele's arc gets DEPRESSING!!!!!!! it's like if pierre had been demoted to alpha tauri and then flopped there too and been demoted out of the series altogether. i do think richy and romero as opponents but also actual teammates era would leave them like ocon and perez bitchy tweets and all because there wouldn't be the need for getting along that they have rn and that's important to me.

sissoko is a FLOP like nicky latifi but arguably maybe worse, has one good season but just fully is not a good use of a seat but then he goes to a different obscure series i cant think of and does well because i said so and also i'd be sat at home rooting for him even as he finishes 3 laps down and calling him the GOAT. no wait it's like when he scores he gets a podium and i'd have passed out and filmed the ceremony like i was literally there.

winksy and international baby girl kinda scream "i was ripped off with the promise of an f1 seat by zak brown and all i got was this stupid t-shirt" and then stay in indycar or something

maguire drives for like fucking haas or something and you genuinely do not know what he'll do. he seemed fine, decent, good even in junior formula and got his big move to f1 and just lost the plot. he's either anonymous in races or is being a Menace but even in his quiet races there's always the anticipation that he'll smash into another driver just to make himself feel better. like there is Always the chance of a safety car or a red flag if he's starting either because he's crashed into someone else or just decided to take himself into the barriers. you don't want to drive against him because you don't want to blink and suddenly have DNF-ed because of him.... but he also might get a penalty that boosts you up the grid without puncturing all 4 of your tyres somehow so... swings and roundabouts

marco reus is one of those goated goated goated drivers maybe we'll say he's like a lifelong ferrari fan like he is bvb and he signs to their academy and does well in junior series and spends the odd season at sauber/alfa and when he gets to ferrari everyone's like oh shit here we go and then the car is absolute CRAP but he simply wont abandon ferrari. like he's there forever he's the ride or die for that stupid team and instead of injuries we'll say it's constant DNFs and so he never wins a championship but he's hands down one of the biggest what if drivers. he's also so kind to younger drivers and if he can guide them in any way to make sensible contract decisions and help them mentally not pin everything on winning championships then he will.

like i hate ferrari but dare i say then here comes jude bellingham starboy?..... no i shall. he wins f3 and f2 as rookies at a super duper young age (rather than skipping junior categories like a certain dutchman) and ends up in the sauber by the time he's 17, in the ferrari by 18 and teammates with marco. if the ferrari garage was competent and the car wasn't a pile shit it'd be embarrassing for other teams... sadly that isn't the case. they make the best out of a bad situation and the genuine talent both of them possess drags that team to places it shouldn't be. marco is coming to the end but still got it and while still competitive he'll retire before he has to find a lower team. very much a mentor to jude as he progresses in as much as you can be in an individualistic yet team based sport. think we still see jude's temper sometimes flare up though over his career he deffo gets a hold of it and he deffo calls his engineer fucking shit at one point for a bad strategy but i also think he's not content to stick with ferrari if they're going to be rolling the circus into town every week and unlike marco WOULD jump to merc if they suddenly started outperforming (anyway this got too close to real life so let's leave that there)

as much as i hate to say this about my best friend erling, he's giving me red bull driver vibes I'm so sorry to myself and also him.

WAIT i've only made players drivers lemme see if any would be good engineers. maybe it's just because every tom dick and harry says he's smart but like i DO see ben davies being a good engineer maybe he can be sonny's. or wait hang on maybe i make dier dele's engineer rather than teammate hang on wait no hang on let's do that instead. i know there's nothing but hot air and joe rogan quotes up there but i think that would actually be soooooooooo perfect.

conor coady and tyrone mings are absolutely engineers and they work on the same team just managing a driver each and the social media/marketing team is constantly bullied into releasing footage with them after people clock they're not only fit but also good mates. so it'll be a video with drivers being silly and then INSTANTLY the exact same video concept but with those two.

jordan pickford either engineer or deranged team principle that is good at his job but also calls someone the c word over the radio and causes the PR team a sleepless week trying to deal with it.

dare i say hugo is the dilfy team principal who leads his team to like 10 championships in a row? yes i will.

#couldnt figure out how to get some of the right back or starboy besties into this #also this is so long and also stupid I'm sorry #i feel like every idea here is kinda very dumb #let me say jude and gio were teammates in f2 together just to try and get gio in there #also feared my kwp or jadon plot could get depressing FAST so i left that out

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mindninjax · 3 years ago

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i have noticed some do have nicknames XD LOL i'm not one of them tho XD you call me Garnet which is the name i chose for this site ^_^

i gave you the nickname Min Min because i cant for the life of me say your username right when im talking to RL people about you XD LOL SO yeah Min Min LOL

lol but if ya wanna...give me a nicky namy im not opposed -if youve thought about it and wondered if not then ignore this last line XD-

cause like i took a while before i just started calling you Min Min XD cause i didnt want to you know make waves XD LOL but that was when i was still an awkward turtle and now look at me XP

WAIT A MINUTE PAUSE 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 you talk about me to your IRL peeps?? 😭😭😭 omg I feel so worthy.

Also BAHAHHAHA it’s ok! My username is just “mind ninja x” I know the x throws people off and it looks like “jax” so some people call me that too which I fucking LOVE. It makes me sound like a bad ass bahahha.

I gotta see what comes to me for your nickname. With all the nicknames I’ve given they have all come from my stupid brain being dumb and LUCKILY my friends haven’t said “That’s stupid marq don’t call me that” so BAHAHHAH a nickname will come in time!

Also also I LOVE min min. Honestly y’all could make up any nickname for me and I’d love it. But I know when I see “Min Min” it is you so it is like a good identifier. 🥰

#Garnet #marquie answers

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it-was-all-a-beautiful-dream · 5 years ago

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Mr. I want suck your blood - Pt 4

Warning: Mentions of violence and Swearing

Word count: 2,451

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In stories, Soulmates were meant to be the real deal. They were forever. They were two individuals who were brought together by the universe so their lives finally made perfect sense.

You'd never heard of Soulmates ‘Taking a break’ or ‘Splitting up,’ it wasn't something that happened. That’s not what happened in the stories.

Thats just the thing though. Life isn't a story. Life’s a bitch.

Y/N POV

It had been 1 Hour 19 minutes and 45 seconds since Carlisle shattered your world. 1 Hour, 22 minutes and 23 seconds since you had ripped out your IV line and stormed out of the Cullen house. 1 Hour, 28 minutes and 15 seconds, since Carlisle Cullen, your SOULMATE, decided to call it quits.

Carlisle’s words were still ringing in your ears. “It’s safer this way.” or “Now you can live a normal human life.” You felt numb.

-1 Hour, 19 minutes and 45 seconds ago-

You looked up as you saw Carlisle standing in the wooden door frame. You smiled and placed a hand on your fast beating heart relieved to see him unscathed. Bella had swiftly exited the room. It was just the two of you now. You could tell straight away that something was wrong. Your heart started racing again.

You sat there and listened, as Carlisle took your hand and proceeded to shatter your world. He’d decided that being together, it was too dangerous. He couldn't put you in danger again, couldn’t watch you bleed in his arms again. You both argued. It was his over protective nature, that was the cause of this.

“What about Bella and Edward? She’s still human?!” Apparently it was an invalid argument. Invalid my ass. He wouldn't budge. He thought some time apart would be for the best, even if saying it did secretly pain him.

You were angry, so angry that you ripped out your own IV, not without gagging of course. The screaming and arguing drew the attention of the rest of the Cullen household. Bella was trying to calm you down and stop your arm from bleeding, while Edward and Esme were talking to Carlisle.

You didn't care anymore. How dare he. How could he do this to you? You didn't ask for this life. You'd been dragged into it head first. You'd accepted him for all he was. Before all of this you WERE a normal teenager, with normal teenage problems!

You didn't want normal anymore. You wanted Carlisle, the Volturi, wolves and blood singers. You wanted it all, but just like that, he took it away.

You hadn't wasted any time running through the house, past Alice, Rose and Jasper and to your car. You say run, more like fast walked, your legs were still jelly from lying in bed the last couple of days. Alice had tried to stop you on the way out but Jasper told her to let you go, he could feel the pain and anger radiating of you in waves.

The first thing you did when you got to your car was check your glove box for cigarettes. You got in and slammed the door, you could see Carlisle fighting to try and get passed Edward and Emmett but they wouldn't let him out. You looked over to see Bella running toward your car. You waited. She jumped in the passenger side and neither of you spoke a word. You didn't have to. You started the engine and it came to life with a roar, you peeled out of the Cullen’s drive way with tears streaming down your face and a cigarette between your lips. You fucking hated Forks.

Bella had made you pull over halfway home, scared the tears were clouding your vision. She was probably right, the road ahead did look quite blurry. You traded places and carried on towards home. She was talking to you but you weren't really listening, just watching the trees speed past in a blur, you were sure you could see other objects moving beside you through the trees just as fast, but blinked and they were gone.

-2 weeks later-

Grand Piano by Nicki Minaj blared through the speakers on repeat, you sat staring blankly at your sketchpad, no inspiration, no drive.. nothing. It had been like this for two weeks. Bella had apparently been the same, but you just couldn't shake it. You'd shut yourself off from everyone. Only coming out of your room to get food and use the bathroom. You felt numb.

You could tell your Mom and Charlie were starting to worry. They'd tried to talk to you, find out whats wrong. All they knew is someone broke your heart bad. You'd started having nightmares the first night you were without Carlisle. They felt like more than nightmares though, so vivid, almost like premonitions. You'd wake up still screaming in a cold sweat clutching your chest and crying. Crying for everything you lost when Carlisle let you go. You'd never been in love before and if it felt like this then you never wanted to be again. You didn't think you could love again.

You were spaced out, the music was still playing in the background but your mind was somewhere else, another thing that had been happening since the accident. You just went places, like you were daydreaming, lost in a trance. This time was different though. It was if you were actually there, watching things unfold, only when you came to you were in your bedroom, your paints scattered everywhere, your sketchbook now covered in imagery. You gasped and flew back from your desk, the page awash with shades of vibrant red and black. You gagged. Blood….. and a symbol, it was an emblem of some sort. You shook your head and closed the book on the now dry paints.

What the fuck.

It happened a few more times after that. The spacing out, coming back to earth having drawn on something or once, even scratched symbols into your desk. You'd practically stopped sleeping. Too many thoughts in your head. Even Bella was getting worried, she knew what it was like to spiral and you were doing it at 100mph. She’d suggested talking to Carlisle but you shouted at her for even bringing him up. He left you and hadn't made any attempt to contact or see you. Why give him the satisfaction.

You'd decided enough was enough. You had to start living your life again, or at least thats what you tried to tell yourself. Today you were going to see Seth. You’d become quite close friends with Seth since getting involved in the whole supernatural side of life but you'd been shutting him out for weeks, he knew what had happened with Mr I want to suck you blood, but he didn't ask questions, which you were grateful for. You thought it would do you some good to get outside and breath in the fresh air. You couldn't wallow in self pity any longer.

It felt weird to be in normal clothes rather than ratty old pyjamas. You parked up, jumping out of your car, slinging your backpack over your shoulder. You had brought your sketchbook with you, you didn't know who to talk to about these things, so you were going to show one to Seth, just to see if he recognised anything.

You couldn't help but breath deeply as the air floated off the salty sea and toward your face. You smiled as you watched Seth running down the beach. His boyish grin was charming and his smile grew as he got closer to you. He wrapped you in a hug and you hugged back desperate for a bit of normalcy.

“Hey Seth,” You grinned, thankful for a bit of human, well in this case werewolf, connection. Yeah you had Bella.. and Alice had tried to stop by from time to time, but at the minute they were just a constant reminder of him….

“Y/N! I missed you, things have been so strange without seeing you around ya know!” You bumped his shoulder as you walked down the beach. It had been strange. You'd moved to Forks, got involved with Vamps and the supernatural and in all this time you'd never had any normal time to yourself, or with a friend.

“I’m sorry I’ve been so distant, you know the whole…. thing…” He just nodded his head. You didn't have to explain, he was just happy you were there now.

You'd spent hours just walking and talking on the beach. While walking you had bumped into some of the others as well, Sam, Paul…. You got along with them too, but they had never agreed with your relationship. They seemed somewhat more comfortable around you now. Catching up was good, you felt a lot lighter when you walked, your heart a little less heavy, he was still in the back of your mind though, as much as you tried to think about anything else.

There was an abandoned fire pit a little further up from where you'd been talking with the others, logs surrounded the ashy mound, placed out like small earthy benches. You'd been collecting odd pieces of wood on the way, expecting to find it there. Yourself and Seth pilled the kindling high and he started a fire, he didn't really need to because of his heat, but it was still fun. As Seth continued the fire you reached around and grabbed your leather backpack, opening the zip and fishing inside for your paint covered sketchbook. He came to sit beside you as you started flicking through the pages. You tried to glance at him from the corner of your eye to read his expressions.

“Y/N, these are pretty amazing, and… somewhat scary…” He looked at the book and then back at you. “What are they?” His finger traced the images and the symbols.

You shook your head and flicked through the pages more rapidly. “I don't know S, I…if I tell you something you have to promise you wont tell anyone, not even Sam, not even Jake….” You gulped and looked up at him. He looked confused. You faltered a little, getting nervous you shut your book and started to shove it in your bag. “This was stupid, I should go…” You stood up trying to leave but Seth grabbed your hand.

“I wont tell, you can trust me I promise.” You relaxed, still hesitant, you sat back down. You took the sketchbook back out and went to the first page, tracing the symbols and images, remembering how clearly you had seen them in your mind.

“I drew these. But I didn’t, at the same time.” Seth just looked even more confused now. “I think…. I think something happened to me when I was bitten S…. Something I cant explain. This symbol, I drew this, sat at my desk, one minute the sky outside was light, the next thing I knew it was dark, and the once blank page was covered in all these drawings!” You flicked through the book and sighed placing your head in your hands. He probably thought you were crazy. You sure felt crazy.

You felt his hand rest on your back as you hunched over sighing. “Y/N I’m a wolf, The Cullen’s are Vampires… crazier things have happened, i’ve just never heard of this crazy happening yet….”

You peaked at him from your hands. “Do you know what any of the symbols mean? I see them in my dreams as well, it’s like i’m watching a movie in my head, it’s like I'm there but no one can hear me or see me.. It feels so real.” You sit up, flicking through the pages, before you can turn to the next, Seth’s hand comes flying down stopping the process as he points to one of the symbols.

“Y/N, I’ve seen that symbol before… I think it’s something to do with the cold ones.. the Volturi to be exact.” You groan. This cant be fucking happening. Not only were you dumped now you were having freaky Volturi dreams as well? You searched in your bag for your cigarettes, you held the packet out to Seth and he surprisingly took one. You grinned.

“Wow Sethy never took you for the rebel type.” He ruffled your hair and you shoved him. “Seriously though what am I going to do, this shouldn't be happening i’m human, I didn't turn, Carlisle made sure of that.” You couldn't hide the bitter tone in your voice.

“I don’t know what it means Y/N, but I promise we will figure it out.. cant you talk to Cull…” You glared at him before he could finish his sentence. “Never mind, stupid idea, ignore me.” You laughed and you both carried on looking through the book. What the hell did this mean?

It was late now, Seth walked you to your car, his body still close to keep you warm, the sea breeze now icy cold on your skin. You sighed, part of you didn't want to leave, it was the first kind of normal you'd felt in a really long time, even before coming to Forks. Life in your old place had been really hard, You didn't fit in anywhere, you could count your friends on one hand and you had a strange relationship with your bio dad. You thought things would get easier, Forks had the smallest population and yet you managed to find yourself smack bang in the middle of all this drama, you'd thank Bella for that later. You thought it would be easier living here, maybe you were wrong.

You turned, looking at Seth as you reached your car, you were about to tell him you'd had a nice time, ask him if he wanted to hang out again soon, but you couldn't speak. The waves sounded louder, the air around you felt thicker and you couldn't breath. You could hear Seth’s muffled voice in the background somewhere and a pair of arms shaking you but in your head you were somewhere else entirely.

Cloaks of black floating across the white pearlescent snow, rivers of red blood flowing all around. Wicked eyes staring into yours, and then pain.

You screamed and grabbed your head, it felt like someone had jabbed it with a white hot poker. Images flashed before your eyes, Volturi, Snow, Red, Carlisle. You gagged, so much blood, so much pain. Then, nothing.

Your mind went dark, no images now, no sound, just the sharp ache as you feel your body shut down and hit the solid ground, then the coldness surrounded you.

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Stupid For You, Chapter 7 (Crygi, Jankie, Jaida x Nicky) - Metaluna

Fic summary: A cliche lesbian AU. It’s the summer before Gigi goes to college, and she decides it’s time to take a job at a local amusement park. There, she meets Crystal, a beautiful girl that she with bonds over the anxiety of the service industry. Almost immediately, Gigi gets it BAD for Crystal. Meanwhile, Jackie definitely ISN’T gay. She likes men. Only. Men. What happens when a beautiful girl named Jan comes into the picture? And lastly, Nicky flirts with anything with a pulse. Jaida falls for anyone who gives her attention. This is going to be one interesting summer

Chapter summary: If anyone knows how to party, it’s the staff of Paradise Isle. When Brita turns 21, she’s determined to have the biggest party Paradise Isle has ever seen.

A/N: Hi everyone! I officially outlined the rest of the fic so it’s going to be 10 chapters total, three more to go!!

By the time Gigi made it down the exit ramp, all she wanted to do was leave. She heard Jan behind her, but kept moving forward. Her heart beat was pounding in her ears and she began to feel warm tears form in her eyes.

“Gigi, wait!” Jan called.

Gigi didn’t listen and instead kept walking. Jan managed to chase her all the way into The Landing until Gigi stopped dead in her tracks, rested her face in her hands and started crying. Wordlessly, Jan went up to her and wrapped her in a gentle embrace. Once Gigi broke away, Jan led them to a bench, and stayed quiet. She knew Gigi was about to explode at any second.

And she was right.

“How could she do that? What the hell? If she didn’t want to see me, she could have just fucking said something! I have no idea what the hell I did to her and why she’s acting the way she is, but I guess fuck my feelings! Right? Just fuck them!” Gigi threw her hands up in frustration before crying into Jan’s shoulder.

“Shh, it’s okay,” Jan cooed rubbing Gigi’s hair. She knew Gigi’s mascara was staining her shirt, but it was something she could worry about later.

“How could she?” Gigi’s voice was barely above a whisper.

“I don’t know, baby. There’s no way to know what’s running through her bizarre little head.”

Gigi wiped her eyes, trying to salvage what was left of her makeup. “I’m overreacting.”

“No, you aren’t. You need to feel whatever it is that you’re feeling. Your feelings are valid and you’re entitled to them,” Jan said firmly.

“I want to hate her.”

“Why?”

Gigi sighed. “I want to hate her, because that means I wouldn’t be in love with her anymore.”

“Wow,” Jan began. “I didn’t realize you were in that deep.”

“Jan, it’s bad.”

“Sounds like it.”

“If I could just hate her, I could be done and move on. I hate that when I see her pictures on Instagram with her shitty boyfriend, all I can do is think about how I wish it was me. I hate that she’s the first thing I think about when I wake up, and the last thing I think about when I go to bed. I just want to hate her.”

“Do you honestly believe do any good?” Jan questioned.

Gigi mulled it over and sighed. “No. What am I going to do?”

“I wish I knew what to tell you, Gigi, but I don’t. But, we can figure out what we’re doing tonight. Do you want to leave, or do you want to keep hanging out with everyone? After the look I gave her and what I said to her, I don’t think she’ll come anywhere near you anytime.”

Gigi looked stunned. “Jan what the hell did you tell her?”

“Don’t worry about it.” Jan winked.

“I’m not going to let her ruin my night.” Gigi’s tone was determined. “Let’s go.”

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Nicky and Jaida were awkwardly left behind in the queue. Since they were next, they ended up going on the roller coaster. Jaida had to admit, a roller coaster was a lot less fun when one of your friends was experiencing emotional trauma, even if you were in the front.

“Should we go find them?” Nicky asked as she grabbed her purse.

Jaida thought for a moment and said, “Honestly? I don’t want to make it worse. Gigi trusts Jan and I want Gigi to talk through all the emotional shit she’s feeling.”

“Good point.”

Jaida and Nicky made their way through The Backlands. Jaida knew that she had feelings for Nicky that Nicky didn’t share. Jaida also knew that every time they slept together, she felt herself falling a little harder. As much as Jaida didn’t want to break her own heart for her final summer at the park, she swore something felt different about Nicky.

As they walked, Jaida swung her hand forward making contact with Nicky’s to test her response.

“Sorry,” Nicky mumbled putting her hand closer to her side.

The response is not the one Jaida was looking for, which caused her to sigh.

Nicky slowed her pace. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing.” Jaida forced a smile. “Just tired.”

“Gotcha.”

Jaida wondered how dense Nicky could be. Even though Jaida couldn’t be mad that Nicky didn’t return her feelings, it still frustrated her. While Jaida knew it was a horrible idea to keep going with their fling, she liked Nicky so much that she’d rather have her physically than not at all.

Or did she?

This wasn’t healthy for her mental state. Jaida had enough on her plate already. Between writing essay after essay for law schools throughout the country as well as working six days a week, Jaida was nearing her limit. As much as she tried to tell herself that her fling with Nicky helped her decompress, she knew that wasn’t the case. It made everything much, much worse. Before she could think on it further, she was interrupted by her phone vibrating with a text from Jan.

so I honestly cant tell if gigi’s more hurt or pissed at crystal and honestly it really doesnt matter but she did say she wants to keep the night to keep going so I say let’s do it! we’re at the landing rn, where are you??

Quickly, Jaida reiterated to Nicky the situation, and texted back, Okay, good! We’ll meet you there.

The rest of the night was filled with memorable selfies, laughs that were mostly at the extent of Jan’s inability to ride roller coasters, and by the end of the night, Gigi felt great, and was determined to not let one person ruin what was already an incredible summer.

Following National Roller Coaster Day, Jaida, Nicky, Jan, and Gigi bonded even further, and became inseparable. Through hanging out with Jan, Gigi also developed a very close bond with Jackie. Gigi never had a group of friends before, and was thankful she had such an amazing group of friends.

Gigi formed such a close bond with her friends that she all but forgot about Crystal. At times, they ran into each other in the break room, and every time, they didn’t so much as look at each other. While the environment was tense, there was never any negativity. No one was outwardly mean to each other. In fact, everyone but Gigi maintained being friendly with Crystal. Gigi couldn’t allow this to upset her, since they were all adults and could choose their friends. At times though, it did feel like a punch in the gut when Gigi was on her breaks and saw Jan stop to talk to Crystal.

One day, Gigi sat in the breakroom. As she at her lunch, Brita sat across from her.

“Hey, Brita,” Gigi greeted.

“As you know, my birthday is drawing near.”

All Brita talked about was how she was going to turn twenty one in a couple of weeks. Everyone knew it was Brita’s birthday, including people who didn’t even know Brita.

“So I’ve heard!”

“My parents are actually going to be out of town. So, I’m going to have a party. Not just any party. No, this party is going to be so big and so memorable that they’ll be talking about this like five summers from now.”

Gigi raised an eyebrow. “Yeah?”

Brita nodded. “I’m inviting literally everyone I know who works here…”

Gigi caught on to what Brita was saying. Even the people who weren’t well versed in what happened between Gigi and Crystal knew something was wrong. “That’s fine, Brita. I’m not going to let my relationship, or lack thereof, with someone ruin your birthday.”

“Good. It’s this Wednesday, starting at 10. That way everyone has time to get ready after work. Thank god for shortened park hours.”

The scheduling gods smiled upon Jaida, Nicky, Gigi, and Jackie. Somehow they all ended up with the same days off, one of which being Friday. It helped that Jaida always sweet talked the scheduler, and the scheduler knew who her friends were. Jaida wasn’t about using her feminine charm to get what she wanted.

The girls all agreed to get ready at Gigi’s, because she had the largest space. Getting ready with others was much more fun for Gigi than getting ready alone. Although, she had to admit it was a different feeling when she and Crystal got ready together for Heidi’s party. She forced that thought out of her head as she put on an 80’s playlist. Deciding what to wear to a party was Gigi’s favorite part of getting ready. Even if she didn’t want to admit it, she wanted this party to be the exact opposite as the previous party. Because of this, Gigi opted to wear a tight orange halter top with an blue high-waisted shorts, which was the exact opposite of her black and white outfit.

“You look like your room,” Jan teased eyeing Gigi’s room decor.

Gigi rolled her eyes. “It’s not my fault that my two favorite colors look amazing on me.”

“Fair,” Jaida mused as she rummaged through her bag. “Shit. I forgot my eyelash glue.”

Nicky, who was sitting cross-legged on the ground blending out a smoky eye tossed hers to Jaida. “Here.”

“Thank you,” Jaida smiled sweetly expertly applying an eyelash.

Jackie looked on incredulously. “I have no idea how you do it.”

“Lots and lots of practice,” Jaida said as she batted her eyelashes in Jackie’s direction.

“Do you ever wear more than mascara and eyeliner in your waterline?” Nicky questioned, admiring her appearance in a hand mirror.

Jackie shook her head. “I just… don’t know how to do anything else. One time I tried to do wings and it looked like a drunk toddler did them. No wait, a drunk toddler would have done better.“

Jan’s face brightened. “Can I please do your makeup? Please?”

After hesitating, Jackie said, “What the hell. Why not?”

Jan squealed as she made her way over to Jackie, who was sitting in the chair at Gigi’s desk. Watching Jan do Jackie’s makeup made Gigi feel a pang of jealousy. All through high school, she’d never had the desire to date. Of course, she definitely didn’t want a boyfriend. But, she never thought about having a girlfriend either, and only knew that she liked girls. She also never had a friend group like the one she had now. She also never thought she’d have a group of friends she could trust as much as she trusted the friends she made. For once in her life, Gigi felt safe enough to come out. Other than her family, Jan was the only person who knew, and the only reason she’d told Jan in the first place was because she was about to have a mental breakdown. But, it was time. Gigi paused the playlist.

“Everything okay, Gigi?” Nicky questioned.

Gigi took a breath. “Yes, but there’s something I have to tell all of you.”

Jan locked eyes with Gigi, already knowing what she was going to say.

“What is it?” Jaida asked setting down her brush.

“I like girls.”

Jaida ran to Gigi to give her a hug. “We love you.”

Jan laughed. “Welcome to the club.”

As Gigi unpaused the music, she breathed a sigh of relief as she topped her nude lip with gloss.

“All done!” Jan announced as she brushed powder off of Jackie’s face.

Once Gigi saw Jackie, she exclaimed, “Oh, wow.”

Jackie was already an extremely beautiful girl, but Jan’s handiwork enhanced her features. Because she knew that Jackie wasn’t one for the extravagant, Jan stuck with neutrals that gave Jackie the most effortless no-makeup-makeup look. Gigi knew that Jan was a talented makeup artist, but the makeup she did on Jackie proved it, because it was the exact opposite of Jan’s colorful halo eye she did on herself.

“Holy shit! I look good.”

Jan rolled her eyes. “You always look good, baby.”

“Thank you,” Jackie said as she kissed Jan on the cheek.

“We must commemorate this momentous occasion,” Jaida said dramatically as she signaled everyone to come in for a group photo.

“You have to take it,” Nicky said. “You have the longest arms.”

Jaida rolled her eyes. “Always.”

Once there were a few photos they were all satisfied with Gigi looked at her phone. “If we need to make a liquor run, we should probably leave now.”

Everyone piled in to Gigi’s Jeep, the group was enthusiastically discussing the night ahead. On the way to the liquor store, Jaida, who was already twenty one, made a list of what she had to purchase.

“Y’all are gonna make me look like I have a drinking problem. You best be Venmo-ing me interest,” she teased.

“We don’t have interest in France, I don’t know what that is,” Nicky joked.

Jaida playfully hit her. “You’ve lived here for over ten years.”

Nicky shushed her. “I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

“Jesus Christ, just kiss already,” Gigi teased as she pulled into the liquor store’s parking lot.

Once Jaida was inside the store, Jan spoke up. “What’s actually going on between you two?”

Nicky shrugged. “Just something for us to blow off some steam.”

Jackie hesitated. “Nicky, you realize that Jaida’s never had a girlfriend before.”

“Yeah, and?”

“She also falls really hard really quickly.”

Nicky exhaled. “She never told me that. She told me that she was good keeping it casual. She tried to bring it up a while ago, but I just thought… I feel terrible.”

“It’s not your fault, honey,” Jan said.

Before Nicky could respond, Jaida returned to the car.

“That was fast,” Gigi said.

“I’ve been to that store so many times, I know where everything is.”

Gigi had heard from other people that Brita had a large house, but she didn’t expect it to be quite so big. The driveway which was lined with cars spanned the length of most people’s front yards. The house looked to be three stories and was a modern build, which was a contrast to the other ranch-style houses in the area. The music could be heard from outside of the house, and Gigi mused about how Brita was lucky that she had no neighbors.

“Damn,” Gigi said as she shut her car door.

“Yeah,” Jaida began. “Brita’s parents are fucking loaded.”

“Clearly,” Jan said.

The inside of the house was just as grandiose as the outside. Gigi thought that it looked like the sample rooms inside of furniture stores. She didn’t realize that people’s houses actually could look like that. The living room was decorated with fairy lights and streamers, and in the corner were two gold balloons that said 21. The party was already abuzz, the entirety of the first floor was full of people, most of which Gigi didn’t recognize, and was almost certain Brita probably didn’t either.

Brita greeted them at the door, pulling them into a hug. Gigi could already smell the alcohol. “Hi, babes!”

“Happy birthday, bitch!” Jaida exclaimed handing Brita a fifth of Everclear.

Brita’s laugh was loud enough that it could be heard over the music. “You rotted bitch.”

“On our first season together, Brita drank way too much Everclear and got super hungover, and had to call out the next day,” Jaida explained. “You best be getting that drunk again tonight. If I see you at work tomorrow, I’m going to be pissed.“

“I have tomorrow off,” Brita said smugly.

“You’re going to need it,” Jan teased.

“Thanks! So over there we have a photobooth, beer pong in the dining room, the pool’s available if you want, too. Oh, and if you need a place to get down and dirty,” she looked at Nicky and Jaida. “Just don’t use my bedroom.”

“I have no idea what you’re talking about,” Jaida said, rolling her eyes.

As everyone was about to explore, Brita screeched, “Wait!”

“What?” Gigi asked.

“Let’s do a shot of this.” Brita raised the bottle of Everclear.

“Oh dear, God,” Jackie said making gagging noises.

“It’s my birthday, bitches!”

Since nobody could argue with that, they went in to the kitchen. In the attached dining room, an intense game of beer pong was going down with Widow and Heidi against Crystal and some boy Gigi vaguely recognized as being one of the team leads in games. Trying to stay casual, Gigi waved to Heidi and Widow who smiled in return. Thankfully, Crystal’s back was turned to Gigi, and by the time she turned, Gigi had her back turned to take the shot.

“I’m already too drunk to pour the shots,” Brita slurred.

Jaida rolled her eyes as she took the bottle and expertly poured shots.

“To Brita!” Gigi said raising her glass.

“To Brita!” Everyone repeated as they toasted, set the shot on the table, and took the shot.

Gigi thought she was good at taking shots. But, Gigi had also never had Everclear. Convinced that its reputation preceded it, she didn’t properly prepare herself. She thought she was just taking a shot of cheap vodka, not a shot of rubbing alcohol.

“Merde!” Nicky exclaimed.

Jackie set her glass down as she winced. “That was so bad, Nicky forgot how to speak English!”

Because she couldn’t get the taste of shitty vodka out of her mouth, the only thing Gigi could do was to drink something else. The Whiteclaw Jaida bought for her tasted like juice in comparison, so much so that Gigi drank it a lot faster than she should have.

As Gigi felt the alcohol hit, Jan said, “Let’s go take pictures.”

Most of the time, Gigi found photobooths to be tacky. They were a staple of boring weddings and basic-ass graduation parties. But, because she already had a nice buzz going, she gladly posed with oversized sunglasses.

Everyone sat on a red leather couch as they began drinking. Jan and Jackie shared a bottle of rum that they chased with Diet Coke. Jaida was chasing her Jack with ginger ale. Nicky, on the other hand, was shooting whiskey like there was no tomorrow. Gigi felt lame that everyone else wad drinking liquor but her, but she didn’t care. She wanted to enjoy what she was drinking.

When a Madonna song began playing, the girls screeched and made their way to the dancefloor. Gigi had decent rhythm, but tonight, as far as she was concerned, she was killing it. As she dropped low, she almost fell, but kept her balance as she made her way back up. While she watched Jackie and Jan dancing closely and watched Nicky grind against Jaida, Gigi couldn’t help but feel like a fifth wheel. She remedied the situation by cracking open another Whiteclaw.

“I need a break,” Nicky announced when the song ended.

Jan whispered something in Jackie’s ear before saying, “We’ll be back!”

“May I have this dance, Ms. Hall?” Gigi asked holding her hand out.

“Oh, bitch, you know it.”

After a few songs, Gigi announced, “I’ll be back!”

It was the time of the night that Gigi needed to break her seal. Unfortunately for her, there was a line for the bathroom. She dramatically jumped up and down until she made it to the bathroom. Once she finished, she was greeted by a sobbing Jaida.

“Jaida, what the fuck is wrong?” Gigi asked leading her into a bedroom upstairs.

“Nicky,” Jaida managed.

“What about Nicky?”

“I went to go find her to see if she wanted to dance or something, but then… I saw her… and I saw Brita. On the couch… making out.”

It was very clear that Jaida had too much to drink. For a while, Gigi was convinced that this year would break the streak of Jaida getting her heart broken. Even though Gigi wanted to give Jaida some tough love and tell her she and Nicky weren’t exclusive, she knew it wasn’t the time for that. Instead, she wrapped her in a hug.

“Hey,” Gigi said stroking Jaida’s hair. “It’s okay.”

“I knew that she didn’t want a relationship. Why does this hurt so much?”

“Because you like her, clearly a lot.”

“Why does this always happen?” Jaida wailed.

Gigi knew she wasn’t good at comforting people, but decided to try her best. “I don’t know. But Jaida, your makeup is far too pretty to cry it all off.”

Hoping that Jaida would find her comment funny, Gigi tried to laugh. This only made Jaida cry harder. Fuck. Gigi knew she wasn’t any good at any of this, but she knew who was. She needed to find Jan before Jaida lost her mind.

“I’ll be back,” Gigi said leaving a sobbing Jaida in the bedroom.

Gigi searched the entire first floor for Jan with no luck. Eventually, she ran into Jackie.

“Gigi, what the hell is happening? Jaida’s apparently crying, Nicky left… What’s going on?” Jackie demanded.

“I guess Jaida found Brita and Nicky making out.”

Jackie groaned. “Of course Because why would she be able to make it a summer without getting her pretty little heart broken?”

When Jackie and Jan made their way back in the bedroom, Jaida was right where Gigi left her.

“Do you know where Jan is?” Gigi questioned as Jackie was hugging a very distraught Jaida.

“I think she’s outside.”

“If anyone knows how to handle this, it’s her,” Gigi said as she walked downstairs.

Gigi realized just how drunk she was as she stumbled around trying to find Jan. Eventually, she found her comforting some random drunk girl. To Gigi’s horror, the random drunk girl ended up being Crystal.

“Uh, I need you,” Gigi said awkwardly walking to Jan.

Jan looked at Gigi and mouthed, “Help me,” as she broke away from Crystal. “What’s up, gorg?”

Crystal awkwardly stood next to Jan, swaying back and forth. Gigi couldn’t help but wonder how much Crystal had to drink.

“It’s Jaida.”

“Oh my God, I haven’t seen Jaida in ages,” Crystal slurred.

Jan shushed Crystal. “What’s wrong with her?”

“She found Nicky making out with Brita,” Gigi explained.

Jan groaned. “This is bad.”

“That’s really not good. Are they fighting?” Crystal tried as hard as possible to not slur her speech. “Fighting is bad.”

Rolling her eyes, Jan said, “Yes, honey. Fighting is bad. Really bad.“

Crystal stumbled toward Gigi. “Gigi, I’m really sorry we’re fighting.”

Gigi ignored her. “Jan, can you do that thing where you comfort people when they’re crying?”

“I can try,” Jan said.

“Gigi! Stop ignoring me. We’re fighting! And I don’t want us to!” Crystal pouted.

“Crystal, we can discuss this when you’re sober,” Gigi said firmly.

“I’m sober enough!” Crystal said jumping up and down. She then stopped and put one hand over her mouth and one on her stomach.

“Crystal. No!” Gigi screeched.

It was too late. Crystal lost all the alcohol she’d consumed. Jan reacted quickly enough to take a step back, but Gigi wasn’t that lucky. Gigi screamed as her favorite boots became covered in vomit.

"What the fuck?!” Gigi screamed.

#rpdr fanfiction #gigi goode #crystal methyd #jackie cox #jan sport #jaida essence hall #nicky doll #crygi #jankie #jaida x nicky #lesbian au #slow burn #stupid for you #metaluna #submission #s12

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you can tell a lot about someone by the type of music they listen to 🎵🎶

rules: hit shuffle on your media player and write down the first 20 songs, then tag 10 people. no skipping!

Thank you for tagging me! @i-like-5sos

1. Long Way Home - 5SOS: Oh! I haven’t heard this song in awhile. This is one of my favorites from self titled (although I will always prefer the acoustic version) I still remember when they changed the lyrics to “white snake on the radio” during my ROWYSO show. My favorite lyric is “so we’re taking the long way home cause I don’t wanna be wasting my time alone”

2. Bloody Mary - Lady Gaga: I remember the first time I heard this being 11 years old and shocked LMAO if I’m being real honest I love the beat (AND THE BASS) of this song. ALSO the chorus “I WONT CRY FOR YOU” is so GOOD

3. Not Warriors - Waterparks: y’all are in for a TREAT THIS IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE WATERPARKS SONGS. I cannot just listen to this song just once. It’s always at least 3 times and it’s ALWAYS blasting (and yes I did replay it 3 times and blast it through my headphones while typing this) When the beat drops and “THERES NOTHING IN MY SYSTEM SO IM FEELING WHAT I FEEL FOR YOU” so POWERFUL!!!! My favorite lyric is “but hey for what it’s worth I think you saved my life”

4. Best Song Ever - One Direction: I still refuse to believe this song is about sex LMAO this is such a fun song to dance to though I love it. My favorite part is Niall’s solo “I said can I take you home with me, she said never in your wildest dreams”

5. Strong - One Direction: OH! FUCK! MY FAVORITE ONE DIRECTION SONG DON’T EVEN GET ME STARTED I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH THE CHORUS “IM SORRY IF I SAY I NEED YOU” I CANT I CANT. If you have not heard them acapella sing this do me a favor and go listen ITS SO GOOD ALSO! Zayn’s high note. My favorite lyric is ofc Louis’ solo “think of how much love that’s been wasted people always trying to escape it move on to stop their heart breaking but there’s nothing I’m running from, you make me strong”

6. Kids In The Dark - All Time Low: YES I LOVE THIS SONG I LOVE THIS ALBUM I LOVE THE MEANING OF THE SONG I’m not joking when I say that I found this song and this band during the hardest time in my life and this song just really hit me hard. My favorite lyric is “beautiful scars on critical veins” AND the firework pop towards the end!!!!

7. Olivia - One Direction: I will admit this song has grown on me big time post hiatus (also the fact that now I’m not hiding my sexuality from myself I can freely listen to this song without feeling ashamed) I! Love! This! Song! It’s such a cute love song!! My favorite lyric is “the summertime butterflies all belong to your creation”

8. I Love You 5 - Never Shout Never: another band I was obsessed with back in 2015 I haven’t listened to this song in awhile!! I remember loving this song though and using it everywhere. I also like in the beginning he says “I love you one a two a three shoobe-doo I love you four that’s more than I can afford”

9. Only Angel - Harry Styles: idk not much to say about this Harry song it’s not in my top 5 but it’s a good song! I like listening to it but it’s just not my favorite. My favorite lyric is “open up your eyes shut your mouth and see that I’m still the only one who’s been in love with me”

10. Viva La Vida - Coldplay: no one: - me: AHHHHHHHHH literally this song will never be the same ever since 1d performed it on xfactor. Idk what to say about this song other than the fact that I like it??? I also like 1D’s cover of it??? Yea cool. My favorite lyric is “Never an honest word but that was when I ruled the world”

11. Glitter & Crimson - All Time Low: this song has definitely grown on me since the release of wake up sunshine. ALSO THE BRIDGE! My favorite lyric is “lets start lets start a riot hard to sit still when your head’s on fire”

12. (Love Will) Turn Back The Hands Of Time - Grease 2: don’t clown me y’all but this movie and soundtrack are a guilty pleasure. I love the original grease BUT grease 2!! It’s such a stupid movie but the soundtrack is fantastic. Anyways this song is another guilty pleasure LMAO I love the whole song so I’m not picking a “favorite lyric”

13. Savior - Rise Against: OH!!!! OH!!! THIS SONG RIGHT HERE!!!! fun fact: the first time I actually heard this song was when I watched a video of someone on YouTube burning her littlest pet shops because a trade went wrong and she got scammed so she took her anger out on that. I literally forgot about this song until one day I heard it in my junior year literature class and had major deja vu. Okay anyways I love this song LMAO my favorite part is the chorus “that’s when she said I don’t hate you boy I just want to save you while there’s still something left to save. That’s when I told her I love you girl but I’m not the answer for the questions that you still have WOAH OH OH WOAH OH OHHH”

14. National Anthem - DE’WAYNE: okay THIS SONG it’s so good and it describes what it’s like growing up in America as a POC. I don’t wanna say too much about it since I’m not a POC so I know I will never fully understand the song because of my privilege but I appreciate the fuck out of this. I love the entire song I don’t have a favorite lyric

15. Your Love - Nicki Minaj: I miss this Nicki Minaj. UM not much to say about this song either??? It’s a good song and I like it?! My favorite part is the chorus OH and the outro I love it

16. Just Dance - Lady Gaga: another pop classic from my childhood alright I MEAN ITS JUST DANCE?! HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE THIS SONG??? ALSO THIS LADY GAGA?! Don’t get me wrong I love the lady Gaga we have now BUT THIS ONE WILL ALWAYS BE ASSOCIATED WITH MY CHILDHOOD AND PRETEEN YEARS. I remember feeling like a badass singing this song when I was 10 years old LMAO I don’t have a favorite lyric I love the whole thing it’s a bop

17. Dear Patience - Niall Horan: Oh!! One of my favorites from Heartbreak Weather. His voice in this song is just so beautiful ugh yes. I absolutely love the chorus of this. My favorite lyric is “feels like you don’t even know me just me and the stars can get lonely”

18. San Francisco - 5sos: OH MY GOD I LOVE THIS SONG ITS IN MY TOP 3 FROM SOUNDS GOOD FEELS GOOD. I hardly see anyone appreciate this song so I’m here to tell y’all: ITS A GOOD SONG?!?! have y’all listened to the live version AS WELL!!!! masterpiece. This song makes me happy especially the guitar at the beginning. My favorite lyric is “reminds me of when we were free I swear that it’s still haunting me” BUT! I do love that pre-chorus

19. They All Float - Waterparks: NICE a song from their first EP okay but I love this song it’s much heavier compared to what they sing now and that’s what I like about it. My favorite part is THE BRIDGE!!! “this is the part where you cut your losses this is the part where you get a job this is the part where you settle for less just like you never wanted to”

20. We made it finally Adrenaline - Simple Creatures: OH MY GOD THIS SONG LISTEN this is the first song I listened to from this band (which btw if y’all didn’t know is made up of Alex Gaskarth from ATL and Mark Hoppus from Blink-182) I mean while it’s more pop (which is what their intention is) ITS STILL A GOOD BAND!!! ESPECIALLY THIS SONG!! ITS SO GOOD DAMN I love the music video omfg. I’m just a sucker for dance choreography since I grew up surrounded by dance (I did competitive dance for a couple of years and my sister was a competitive dancer until she graduated) okay enough about me this song is so damn good I can’t stop saying that alright! My favorite lyric “I think we’re failin to connect you don’t what you do to me do to me do to me” and I LOVE THE CHORUS

This was fun!!! And it took me forever LMAO I’m not tagging 10 people but I’ll tag some

@louhazzabeingloudandloud @28-oops-hi @devilatmydoor @glitter-cal and anyone else who wants to do this!! 💜

#tag games #mutuals 💜#long post

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nickysurfer28 · 5 years ago

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Summary: Dr.Nicky Ransom still searching for her cousin Denise Ames, along the way this mystery man she’s got herself into...

Word count: over 1,000 ..I think lol

Warning ⚠️: 18+ only, smut,dreams,etc.

Characters: Dr.Nicky Ransom(female reader)x Chris Evans

Chapter3:

I have to get out of here.

A human skull grins gruesomely up at you from the cave floor.

“Oh my God! Nicky shrieks.

Chris turns , his eyes wide as he see you. “Nicky?”

The shock of everything is too much. You let out a brief yell of fear. You lurch backward.

“Oh my God.. “ Nicky shrieked again.

“Nicky, stop.” Chris catches you, pinning you to his chest before you can run.

How did he get here to me so fast? He was on the other side of the cave.

Your body slackens in defeat.

It’s over...

“Really, Nicky? You think a strange man may have hurt your cousin...so you follow into an abandoned mine in the middle of nowhere, miles away from any cell reception?”Chris answered angrily.

“Let me go! Nicky yelling scared.

“This mineshaft is unstable, Nicky! You could bring the whole thing down on us if you panic! Chris yelled angrily.

Chris... What’s going on?, what are you doing here? Whose skull is that? Nicky answered ,confused. “ what is this place?

“Somewhere no mortal should ever have ventured... Chris answered with a stern look.

“That is the weirdest answer! Nicky spoke with shockingly and confusion.

“I- okay, fair enough.” He sighs, his strong arms loosening on you just slightly. “All right, Nicky. I’m going to let you go, but I need you too promise me you’ll remain calm. No sudden movements. These support beams are over a hundred years old. It isn’t safe in here.”

“Okay, I promise. Nicky answered. Chris releases his hold on you...and you sprint for the mouth of the cave, your ankle throbbing in protest.

“Nicky, no!”Chris yelled.

You stumble over a piece of debris, bracing your hand on a support beam to catch your fall. You only touch the rotting wood for a second. But a second is all it takes. The beam splits clean in half.

“Ahh!”Nicky screamed.

Bits of rock and splintered wood rain down as the mineshaft collapses around you.

“Nicky! Look out! “Chris yelled.

Chris shoves you out of the way as a large section of tunnel crashes down on top of him.

Oh, God. Chris! He just got crushed.

“Chris! Say something! Anything”...Nicky yelled.

A dry cough rises from the debris.

“Chris!”, Nicky screams.

Nicky? Are you hurt? Chris asked warmly.

“No. No, I’m fine. But you just got crushed! It’s a miracle you’re alive. Are you okay?”Nicky answered with concern.

“I’ve been better.” Chris answered with slight smile. He coughs again, and you begin to panic.

He... he just saved my life. It’s my fault that this happened. Now he’s hurt and we’re trapped.

“Oh, Chris... I’m sorry. This is all my fault. I should have listened to you, but I panicked. I could have gotten us both killed.” Nicky sobbingly answered.

Nicky slump, feeling her shoulders hunch in defeat.

“Nicky, it’s okay.” Chris’s voice strangely calm despite the situation. “I’m just glad you’re all right. That was a close call, hm?”.

“You should be furious! I literally caused a mine to collapse. And I followed you in here like an idiot. All you’ve done since we met was act kind and offer to help me.” Nicky answered sadly.

It’s not your fault. I shouldn’t have frightened you. I... handled the situation badly.” Chris answered calmly.

“Well....it happens to the best of us. Are you hurt? “Nicky answered worried.

He shifts slightly under the rubble and winces.

“My left arm is broken. Right leg...might be. A few ribs are cracked, too, from the feel of it.” Chris answered in slight pain.

“How are you so calm about all that? Nicky answered with a worried look.

“Would panicking improve my situation? “Chris answered.

“No. I guess it wouldn’t. But maybe I can! Nicky answered. You clear away as much of the debris trapping Chris as you can, but.... “Damn it!, If I love these last pieces, it may cause another cave-in.”

“Okay. So, what you need to do now is go for help.” Chris answered.

“What? I can’t just leave you here!” Nicky answered freaking out.

“You’re going to have to, Nicky. It’s the only way.” Chris answered.

He’s right. He’s totally pinned and I can’t free him alone, not without risking both our lives again.

“All right. I’ll find a way out and call 9-1-1 the second I have a signal again. I’ll bring the EMTs back for you.” Nicky answered with concern.

Damn, I dropped my flashlight in all the commotion.

Nicky finds the flashlight amid a pile of human bones.

I guess this is who the skull belongs to...

“Hang in there, Chris . I’ll be back before you know it.” Nicky answered.

But the severity of the collapse means your rescue mission is over before it has a chance to begin.

“It’s no use. There’s no way out.” Nicky answered sadly.

“That’s... not ideal.” Chris answered.

You sink down onto the ground next to Chris. “I don’t know how we’re going to get out of this.” Nicky answered sadly.

“I don’t either. But we’ll worry about that in the morning. For now, you should try to get some sleep.”Chris answered.

“Sleep? But this cave is....creepy! Who knows what wild animals might be living in here? Plus, it’s... dark.”Nicky answered shockingly.

“You’re afraid of the dark?” Chris answered with a smirk.

“I know it’s stupid.” Nicky answered.

“It isn’t stupid at all. Everyone has things they’re afraid of. What matters is how we deal with the things that frighten us.”Chris answered.

You lean back, supporting your weight on your hands. Your hand brushes Chris’s.

I can’t believe he risked his life for me. I should thank him for saving my life.

You interlace you’re fingers with his.

“Thank you. For saving my life. I’m sorry I got you into this.”Nicky spoken softly.

Chris squeezes your hand warmly. “I’ve...well, no, I can’t honestly say I’ve had worse. But for what it’s worth, Dr. Nicky Ransom, I cant think of anyone I’d rather be trapped in a collapsed mine with.” Chris answered warmly.

“Oh yeah? Not even someone strong enough to get you both out of here?” Nicky answered.

“Oh, obviously I’d prefer to be stuck with that person. I didn’t realize that was an option.” Chris answered.

Despite the situation, you burst into giggles. You stroke your thumb softly over his knuckles.

“I’m glad I’m in here with you, too. But let’s remember to bring Superman with us the next time we go spelunking.” Nicky answered.

Chris smiles wryly. “Not to make this all about me, but I hope this is adequate cause to take me off your suspect list. I would never dream of hurting you or Denise, Nicky. Never.” Chris answered warmly.

“That’s not what we need to be thinking about right now, Chris. Nicky answered.

“But it’s what I’m thinking about. Please, Nicky. I need you to believe me. Chris answered.

“I...believe you. I really do. I’m sorry it took me so long.” Nicky answered.

Chris nods solemnly. “Get some sleep, Nicky.” Chris answered.

As if on cue, your eyelids grow heavy. You stifle a yawn. Chris holds out his free arm.

“Here , we’ll stay warmer if we lie close together.” Chris answered warmly.

I am really feeling the cold now that the adrenaline’s starting to wear off. And Chris must be In so much pain. He could use any physical comfort I can provide right now. I think I’ll.... get close to him.

You snuggle up to Chris as best you can, and he wraps his arm around you.

“Don’t get any ideas, mister.” Nicky answered.

“I couldn’t act on them even if I did.” Chris answered warmly.

You bury your nose in his neck, inhaling his warm, comforting scent. You’re getting sleepier by the second.

I shouldn’t be getting this tired this fast. What’s...what’s happening?

You yawn widely.

“Sleep, Nicky.” Chris answered.

You feel him press a soft kiss to the top of your head, and you feel strangely warm, like a strange spell has fallen over you.

“Everything will be better in the morning.” Chris answered.

Yes. Yes, everything will be better in the morning...

You drift off to sleep, snug against Chris’s warm body.

You wake alone and naked in the dark.

“Chris!, Where are you? “ Nicky answered in shock.

The echo of you own voice is the only response. Then it dawns on you...

I’m dreaming. This isn’t real. But...it feels so real. How am I so aware?

Just how aware am I in this dream? Maybe I can....see in the dark.

You wish for the light, and suddenly, just like that...

Oh. I’m lucid dreaming. Wow.

You move through the cave, trying to find a way out.

I think I see the exit up ahead. But...wait. Something’s out there.

You can’t see the predators outside the cave, but you sense them. You hear their faint footfalls. You smell their rank breath.

They’re waiting for me. If I set foot outside, I wrong be safe. But if I stay here, I’ll. Be trapped forever. I know it. Am I brave enough to face what’s outside? Yes. I’m sick of hiding.

You tell yourself and step outside the cave...only to find yourself falling.

“Ahh!” Nicky screamed.

You plummet downwards screaming in terror. A gaping void rushes up to meet you.

Wait, this my dream! Maybe I can control it! I’m going to.. fly!

You spread your arms and soar!

This is amazing!

Suddenly you’re in a beautiful open field, watching everything around below

I wonder if I can fly to the moon!

You zoom toward the moon’s bright, glowing face.

“Nicky...” The voice comes from somewhere beneath you.

Who’s calling for me? It’s coming from that fire down below. I should check it out.

You glide back down, your feet landing softly on warm earth.

“Nicky...come closer. “

“Who are you? What do you want? Nicky answered.

“Don’t be afraid, Nicky.”

The voice is deep and velvety seeming to caress your bare skin. You shiver despite the warmth of the flames.

A fry? No, I’m not afraid. I feel.. intrigued. I wonder who’s waiting for me in the shadows...

“Yes...Come to me”.

You step forward, into the flames.

They don’t burn. Somehow I knew they wouldn’t...

“Yes. That’s the way.” The flames swirl up abruptly coalescing before your eyes into the shape of a man. “Nicky..”

No...not a man. A god.

The fire god spreads his arms wide. “Embrace me, Nicky.”

You move back, afraid. You remember the painting in Chris’s house. You remember the book you saw. “Nicky..”

Then the flames disappear reveal...

“Chris?”

“Come to me, Nicky.” Chris answered.

Well, why not? It’s just a dream, right?

You obey and float over to him. As soon as you do, his lips capture yours in a searing kiss, and the fire envelopes him again. Each expert stroke of his tongue stokes the flame of you lust higher.

Oh..

“Yes. Feel me...”Chris answered deeply.

Flames rise up to lick at your body, circling your nipples and delving between your legs.

“Oh!” Nicky squealed.

It isn’t enough. Desire courses through every inch of your body.

“Please...I need more.” Nicky answered deeply.

“I know what you need.” Chris answered.

The flames lick inside you like tongues, circling every part of you. Then, you feel him. His hard member against your entrance.

“Here, Nicky.” Chris whispers deeply.

You gasp as he plunges inside you, his white-hot flesh burning deliciously.

“Yes..” Chris whispers in your ear.

Molten pleasure courses through your body.

“Oh God, I think I’m going to...”Nicky whimpered.

“Go on, Nicky. Come.”. Chris answered.

Climax wracks your body.

“Ah!” Nicky screamed.

“Yes, Nicky...Nicky....”Chris answered.

Gouts of flame engulf you, enveloping your body. You Burt front from the fire wreathed in the brilliant plumage of a Phoenix.

“Oh!” Nicky yelled in excitement.

You surge up out of the darkness into the brilliant blue sky above.

“The sun! I bet I can reach it!” Nicky yelled out.

You careen toward the blazing star, but as soon as you come within reach...

My wings! They’re melting! No!

Your body plummets down, down, down.... until you’re swallowed up by the darkness.

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minblush · 6 years ago

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Youre one of the only fans I know that really makes me think “deep” haha. There would be times where I wouldnt want to read your opinions not that theyre wrong but because I start feeling negative towards the boys (cos you speak some real af shit) and it makes me feel guilty 🤕 just a weird feeling of disconnect. But I think its healthy to think about these things rather than eating up everything they throw towards us. (1/?)

smoljwimin said:I see fans be so oblivious and fight over petty things when theres actual issues regarding bangtan and BH. Like Alot of them were ok with the nicki issue. If it werent for you voicing it out I wouldve never known there was an issue. Ive never been one to think about these things, I just listen to music and keep it moving but because bts titled themselves as socially aware you cant look past their fuckups. (2/?)

smoljwimin said:Also Idk if its just me but I feel so annoyed when fans call them woke kings haha that to over tiny things. If they wear rainbow coloured clothes then theyre lgbt woke when its their stylists dressing them up and besides yoongi none of them have said anything on it. The list goes on. Regardless of it all, I love the boys and them only so much, like others theyve helped me get (3/?)

smoljwimin said:through my shit so I hope I can disconnect enough where these things stop bothering me but not so much that my love for them dissipate ykwim? Cos idk myself lol. Idk why im telling you this, I just feel like your blog is a good space to share ones opinion *sigh* hope I didnt say anything offensive. xxx (4)

my opinions are just my opinions honestly, i’ve said this many times but i’m just a dumb person with a blog, my opinions aren’t really that deep or anything, i just vent my feelings and i like discussing things with people! i’m a boring person i watch debates in my free time and junk.. but i appreciate that some of my word salad is valuable to you? in some way maybe, if i understand it right haha.. but i’m sorry that there is a feeling of discomfort, like that’s usually connected with cognitive dissonance and i experience it too :( i’m not immune to it… but yeah it’s the same for me.. i’ve stanned idol groups before and i never really held them to such standards because like, they were idols and they were fake and you took what you got, but bts built themselves on the notion that there is more to them, how authentic and genuine they are, socially conscious and outspoken and just real!! so when things happen that contradicts that, it’s just a bit painful, especially if you had believed in them before.. they also helped me through a lot but i feel like i reached the point where i can’t really look past all that stuff as much? i’ve been trying to like re-configure my relationship with them cause i still like them as people and their music, but then this whole issue happened again and it’s just.. hard.. really hard.. and don’t worry, you didn’t say anything offensive and i appreciate you sharing your opinion ;; ♥

Anonymous said:yeah tbh it always made me uncomfortable when people would praise bighit and look up to the company as if they were gods 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️ they’re a company and that’s all they are. they care about their business first and foremost. idk i just stan bts and i couldn’t care less about bighit

yeah exactly, i think it’s because both bighit and bts have pushed for this air of family that surrounds them which makes people stan for both the company and the artist, which is what the company wants ofc it makes people more loyal and lenient to managerial mistakes, but yeah, companies by default are there to make money, bighit has shown that really clearly too so..yea

Anonymous said:As someone that was really like.. with them for a while. Almost 3 years starting around I need U I’ve come to a place where I literally can’t be a fan.. like they’ve lost all credibility and sense of just integrity to me. I wonder how u’re still a fan when u see this shit, is it compartmentalizing or? Genuine question btw I’m not judging I just wonder how some bts fans w critical thinking can still have this love for them as a band (not as people- that i get)

i have been with them for a long time too and i agree with you as well, and well yes i have been struggling with this, probably it is compartmentalizing? like for me, i love them as people but now i find it hard to support them as a band or what they stand for cause what is that really? like the day the nicki thing blew up, i got home and took down all my slogans and posters of them and i cried, i was really sad cause that to me was the final nail in the coffin.. and i was gonna stay away from them but also i’m really attached to them and they helped me a lot in my life, i met amazing people thanks to them, and they got me to leave a really toxic relationship after like 7 years of not being able to do so… so to me that meant a lot.. so it’s hard to sever those ties.. it goes very deep for me, ykwim? i like them as people but am hurt and disappointed by what they are as a group these days, right now i wouldn’t say i even stan anymore, casual fan maybe? i just keep an eye on them… kind of hoping that someday things could get better again.. even though it’s naive, i just feel like they are good and talented people.. still somewhere… and that their group and company decisions are bad.. all wrong..

Anonymous said:Dude, you probably have problematic friends too, and either don’t know about it or have forgiven them for whatever stupidity they’ve done in the past that maybe someone else who does not know them is still judging them for. If ppl are unfollowing it’s probably bc they don’t like that rigid and self-righteous world view you are advocating, and pointing fingers at others bc you think they don’t measure up. It is very unpleasant to hear, sorry. Pls reflect instead of faulting others all the time.

false analogy, the rest is an ad hominem fallacy, either way are you really criticizing me for having a strong opinion on things like glorification of pedophilia? mmm well i will continue to do so :) either way if you wanna discuss things critically let me know, i’m always open to discussion and i change my mind easily if new evidence is presented :3

#ask #anon #smoljwimin

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bigbrothermonopoly · 5 years ago

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EPISODE 2:

HOH: KRISTINE

EVICTED: NICKY (WALKED)

JESS:

Kristine being in power scares me shitless. I know I haven't exactly been the MOST social person in this game and I've been very UTR the last couple of days/ non existent but I always felt like I was good with Kristine. I don't know? I thought we talked a good bit at least in comparison to others.... but then after she won I called her the HBIC and homegirl told me she loved my ass kissing. That HOHITIS is real with this one ladies. I offered up my services as a potential person to work with moving forward and she ignored my offer. She literally swerved me. Straight up IGNORED me and focused on what I said about not being social. So there is a good chance I'm going up and if I don't go up it isn't because Kristine doesn't want it.. it'll probably be because others don't want it. At least I hope? I'm trying NOT to go into crisis mode on the second HOH but... old habits die hard? I think that's the quote? I think if I had to write a "trust list" for this game.. honestly.. I'm feeling really good about Kori. I THINK we could go far together and we'd balance out each other well. Obviously he's a good player and I'm going to need that on my side moving forward. Eve is obviously my #1 right now but it'd be naive on me not to believe that others aren't saying the same about her. I really like Andrew but we don't talk game? But I guess I can improve on that? Those are the 3 people I'm vibing with right now.

KORI:

Ok so at this point I'm not entirely sure if I made a DR entry earlier or not, I planned on making a video but at this point it'd just get too long. Rehder going unanimously is STILL a meme to me but here we are. Kristine winning HoH was honestly alright for me because I feel like she and I have a reasonably good relationship. Though I'm not sure it could ever be something long term because she's likely working with people I have no desire to work with. (Dem, Chris, Brien, those guys.) Emma and I had a serious talk about long term what we wanna do about Eve since we seem pretty in agreement that the current dynamic is Jess and Mackenzie are Eve's Top 2 Bitches, and we're like probably the Bottom 2 Bitches. Personally I think the best time for Eve to go is like F7ish but obviously we need more time for things to progress to see where we sit. I think longterm the Mandela Monocles are a better alliance for me since I think I could sit next to Austin OR Silence and win. I just can't sit next to Gwen who I really think just has a better personality than me. With Kristine nominating Madison it... isn't really ideal for me, but Madison is also pretty isolated at this point. While we have that Mitten Connection, if she is lacking any connection with others in this game I can't go dragging my feet for her... That being said, I think eliminating Nicky this round, would not be like... the WORST thing ever. It'd just be a question of convincing Gwen that it's a good idea. Though the harder thing would be convincing others that keeping Madison is a good idea. While I like her, I'm not sure it's in my best interest to leave tracks trying to keep her in the game. Obviously it's gonna depend on how Veto goes, if noms stay the same I might push a little for a Nicky boot and see what happens, but if it's not gonna happen I'll just cut my losses. (Though with Nicky doing his thing he seems likely to dig his own grave.)

AUSTIN:

I am feeling very comfortable this week. I’m in the power trap alliance with Chris, Kristine, Dem, and Emma. I’m also in the Mandela Monocles alliance with Gwen, Silence, and Kori. Kristine is currently HoH so I don’t think she will put me on the block. I have suspicions that Emma is working with Eve because when we were playing the HoH competition, Emma refused to take Eve out. I’m just glad that one of my alliances is in power.

KRISTINE:

Love the alliance. So happy I won HOH and got to be in power. The veto comp didn’t go as well as planned tbh. I’m sooo upset that I didn’t do as well as I wanted I was up at 200 something and then lost it all over a very stupid roll. But it’s fine whether I win this or not I know I’ll get my way. Nicky is going home, let’s just hope he doesn’t win HOH. Don’t ever argue with the HOH when you’re the one on the block LOL!!!

NICKY:

CAN I LIVE? Can i fucking live? there are 16 other people in this and yet i got nommed for a stupid reason yet again.

WILLIAM:

I'm so glad I escaped this week without being nominated!!! I feel so much better this week than last week! At the end of last week I thought for sure I was gonna leave pre-jury but now I feel like I've made so many real connections and I feel like I am in a great spot with many people

ANDREW:

episode 2 This could be super naive of me to say and a little cocky and i know it 100% IS but i feel like almost everyone in this game loves me besides nicky, i think im just playing a really good social game im scared of eve for some reason i feel like she is the only person possibly playing a better game than me. just get those competitive af vibes from her, i will not go after her unless she comes for me doe. shes super cute tho love her vibes, and I think me and Jess formed and alliance just now As of now Austin Jess and Chris are my top 3 in that order Update: I love Eve, we had an emotional heart to heart about STUFF, ill never forget it and i appreciate her for it so much, even if we don't end up being on the same side in this game together, the bitch is dope. I fucking love these noms dude, my 2 least favorite people sittingpretty on the block and i had nothing to do with it. HORNY cuz they wont even be coming for me. I hope nicky fucking bombs veto. "i cant talk to all 16 of u at once" ya....nobody fuckin asked you too but kristines point is sometimes a simple HELLO can save u from being nominated But regardless im proud of her and her tatse. * has one mixed drink and suddenly wants to fight nicky for no reason * oops i apologized to him and i didn’t even read anything from last night after what i said bc embarrassment. idc if he accept my apology, just wanted to throw it out there so i don’t look like a total douche

CHRIS:

Well week Number two and I’m in two separate alliances, have House majority, close with a few women, beyond the game have final choose with multiple people, should not be on the block for a long time, while slowly running this game behind the scenes with Myself. This backseat life is the best life

GWEN:

Hiiii. So looks like Nicky is going home tonight. He kind of dug his own grave. He was such a party pooper during our house game on Friday. Sooo. Yeah. I’m closest with Kori and Chris - getting closer to Chris for sure. What is it with me and Chris’s in ORGs? I need to get back to work. That is all for now :)

MACKENZIE:

i really gotta uhhhhh try harder bc i feel on the lowest end of the Entire Totem Pole. i feel like if i won smthn that would change but i’m a flop so

DEM:

I actually would have kept Nicky if he had the numbers. I wish he didn't quit. I think he messed up by throwing names around, because some people actually wanted to keep him...

EMMA:

if u cant handle the heat nicky why did u sign up.. quitting is worst then getting evicted.

TAWNI:

Ok since I was out of it last round time for my cast assessment now. Since this was due prior to Nicky quitting I’ll include him Nicky - I forgot he existed week one. Actually sad he quit and was gonna leave cause he was entertaining arguing with Kristine Gwen - I love Gwen. She allows me to not be the official grandma of the game. She is very sociable which is scary. But I think I can trust her. Austin - automatically meh about him cause of his name. Pretty forgettable honestly. Mackenzie - nice gal. Nothing negative to say. Haven’t talked much. Jess - the person I’m most terrified of. When I realized she is THE boojess like fuck me. I’m scared. I feel like as long as I don’t get on her bad side I’m good. William - seems like a good kid. Kristine - I’m v intimidated by her. She won hoh and veto and seems like a very smart player. She makes me nervous. Silence - who???? Brien- ok this kid. I’m doing what I can to get him to trust me. I know he is a loyal person. But am I the person he is loyal to? Or is it someone else? How do I make sure I am that person? Dem - nothing really to say MADISON - I love her sooooooooo much. She’s like the light of my life honestly and if I find out something different I’m gonna cry. Like I feel like a betrayal from her will hurt the most in this game. Andrew - okay first off......damn. I’m aware of his sexual orientation but boy sent me a photo so I could see his tattoos and DAMN!!! I need me a straight one of him. But he is a fun character I like him. Chris - I think I freaked him out when I sent him a long message about how I’m scared of cops. But I didn’t go up week one so that happened. I’m hoping I can work my way into his good graces later. Emma - seems like a sweet gal. I enjoy her. Kori - nothing to say sorry

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OK your turn to do all of them now >:3

Holy heck this too WAY too long to do, but I finally finished.

1.Who was the last person you held hands with?: I believe that’d be my best friend, but it was in a joking manner.

2. Are you outgoing or shy?: Depends. If I’m with people I know or family I am pretty outgoing, but if I’m in school, or around peeps I don’t know, I am really shy.

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?: I’m looking forward to seeing @earlofbutts sometime soon this month :3 4. Are you easy to get along with?: I bet some would say yes, but I’d say no. If you’ve ever met me in person you’d know, I am the absolute worst person to be around. I’m so annoying haha. I can’t keep friends.

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?: I’d hope he’d take care of me. I’d hope anyone would take care of me if I ever got drunk. haha.

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?: People would can make me smile/laugh. An people who are really nerdy.

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?: I’d hope so.

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?: Thinking about a buddy I was talking to last night, He’s a good buddy. I wanna yap at him, but I really don’t wanna bug him.

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?: Nope, not in the slightest.

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?: A good friend of mine last night on Snapchat.

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?: ‘Ruff :3′ This was to explain the other team of the Puppy Bowl, prior I said “Fluff :3″ Cause there were two teams, Ruff an Fluff.

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?: Hnnn. I don’t even know. Um. Sad Machine, No Homo, Blue lips, Those are the only ones I can think of off the top of my head.

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?: I love it. It’ll make me fall asleep.

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?: I do, I do.

15. What good thing happened this summer?: Summer of 2016. Good thing that happened would probably be that I finished High School, and got an amazing tattoo.

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?: I would yeah, sadly I wish he lived closer.

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?: I bet there is, we’ve got a bunch of planets, an even more out there I bet, so there’s gotta be life somewhere out there.

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?: I do not, no. I’d prefer not too either.

19. Do you like bubble baths?: I do, I love taking them especially when I am stressed.

20. Do you like your neighbors?: Eh, not really. I only like the neighbors to my left side, cause the guy on my right’s dog attacked my dog, an he didn’t seem to care about the situation, an just. No. I dislike him. But the couple on the other side are really nice.

21. What are you bad habits?: Nail biting, talking way too much.

22. Where would you like to travel?: Mm, To California, Tokoyo, and back to Orlando again.

23. Do you have trust issues?: I do.

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?: Eating.

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?: It’s a toss up between my thighs or my stomach.

26. What do you do when you wake up?: I stretch, I put my glasses on, an then I go to start my usual daily routine.

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?: I like my skin where it’s at right now.

28. Who are you most comfortable around?: Probably my best friend, we talk about everything together.

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?: Nope. I am 100% sure they were all glad to be away from me.

30. Do you ever want to get married?: I would like to get married someday.

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?: My hair is far too short for a ponytail.

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?: Pass.

33. Spell your name with your chin: wwemuuily

34. Do you play sports? What sports?: I don’t do sports, sorry.

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?: Hmm..Probably T.V.

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?: No, I usually tell people if I like them, cause I am stupid like that.

37. What do you say during awkward silences?: Anything to try an clear up the awkward silence. Or I just kinda stand there awkwardly.

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?: Someone who can easily make me laugh/smile. Someone who’s real nerdy, like we’re talking anime watching nerd right here. It’d be nice to have someone taller than me, so they can pick me up an carry me around. Have some of the same common interests as me would be nice as well.

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?: Hot Topic an Target!

40. What do you want to do after high school?: I graduated already, but I hoped to go to college, an surprise surprise, I am now in college.

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?: Eh, It depends on what the person did.

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?: I could be mad, or really upset, or just thinking. (Or I could be sleeping.)

43. Do you smile at strangers?: Not really, but I do sometimes smile at like little babies. Cause they’re staring at me so, I just look at them in return.

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?: Screw whatever is lurking in the deep depths of the ocean, I’ll take a one trip vacation up to the outer space.

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?: My pets, My close family, and my close friends.

46. What are you paranoid about?: That everyone secretly hates me, but they are just acting like they care about me to be nice, cause they know I’m depressed as fuck, so they don’t want me killing myself. So they are nice cause they have to be.

47. Have you ever been high?: Nope. 48. Have you ever been drunk?:Nope

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?: Nah.

50. What was the color of the last hoodie you wore?: ‘Twas a maroon color.

51. Ever wished you were someone else?: I have yeah.

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?: Wish I wasn’t so depressed and anxiety filled.

53. Favorite makeup brand?: I don’t wear makeup.

54. Favorite store?: Target.

55. Favorite blog?: It’s so hard to chose what my favorite blog is, cause I got so many favorite blogs. I can’t pick a favorite cause I have too many.

56. Favorite color?: Purple!

57. Favorite food?: Mm, I’d say Tacos.

58. Last thing you ate?: A Popsicle

59. First thing you ate this morning?: Didn’t eat till like 12, so.

60. Ever won a competition? For what?: I’ve never won anything. Story of my life. 61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?: Never ever have been. 62. Been arrested? For what?: Never have been. 63. Ever been in love?: I have been. 64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?: Let’s see. It happened back in 3rd grade under a table while high school musical was playing in the classroom. We then ate some chips after we kissed. It was on like the last day of school. 65. Are you hungry right now?: Nope, but I am thirsty. 66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?: I’d say I do, but I really like my irl best friend a lot too, an one other person too I talk to now an again irl, shes great. 67. Facebook or Twitter?: Facebook.

68. Twitter or Tumblr?: Tumblr, duh. 69. Are you watching tv right now?: I am, I am watching Puppy Bowl. Again. 70. Names of your bestfriends?: Logan, Arnim, I’d like to say Ciara is also one of my good, best buddies. @8luespiders is too *wink* Nicky as well. 71. Craving something? What?: Craving a drink, cause I am thirsty. 72. What color are your towels?: Blue, Pink, and Grey. 73. How many pillows do you sleep with?: I sleep with 2!

74. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?: I do, I sleep with like 1 or 2 stuffed animals. 75. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?: Honestly? Probably 30 or so. 76. Favorite animal?: I really like cats!

77. What color is your underwear?: Its plaid colored. 78. Chocolate or Vanilla?: Probably Vanilla. 79. Favorite ice cream flavor?: Cotton Candy :3 80. What color shirt are you wearing?: Black. 81. What color pants?: Black. 82. Favorite tv show?: I really like Flip or Flop. Or any of the Puppy Bowls. 83. Favorite movie?: Ponyo!

84. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?: Neither, I never even saw them. 85. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?: Neither, haven’t even seen those. 86. Favorite character from Mean Girls?: I don’t even know the characters. 87. Favorite character from Finding Nemo?: Bruce88. First person you talked to today?: My mom. 89. Last person you talked to today?: So far, this person I am RP’ing with. 90. Name a person you hate?: Gabriel 91. Name a person you love?: Sam92. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?: Ye. 93. In a fight with someone?: No. 94. How many sweatpants do you have?: I don’t think I own any? 95. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?: I’ve got about 6 or 7. 96. Last movie you watched?: Sing. 97. Favorite actress?: Is Pikachus voice actor a actress? Lol. 98. Favorite actor?: Idk. 99. Do you tan a lot?: I cant tan at all, I always burn. 100. Have any pets?: I’ve got 4 pets! :3 101. How are you feeling?: Feeling tired. 102. Do you type fast?: I’d like to say so, yeah. 103. Do you regret anything from your past?: I do, I regret a lot of things. 104. Can you spell well?: Not really, no. 105. Do you miss anyone from your past?: I miss a few people. 106. Ever been to a bonfire party?: Nope. 107. Ever broken someone’s heart?: Sadly, yes. 108. Have you ever been on a horse?: I have, only once though. 109. What should you be doing?: Sleeping probably. Or homework. 110. Is something irritating you right now?: These questions are so gosh dang long. 111. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?: Yeah. 112. Do you have trust issues?: I do. 113. Who was the last person you cried in front of?: Mm, I don’t remember. 114. What was your childhood nickname?: Em. 115. Have you ever been out of your province/state?: Farthest from Florida I’ve been was to South Carolina, or Texas. I’m not sure which is farther. But, I’m so used to Florida that I really like it here. 116. Do you play the Wii?: I don’t, I sadly don’t have one. 117. Are you listening to music right now?: Nope, listening to T.V. 118. Do you like chicken noodle soup?: Eh, I prefer tomato soup. 119. Do you like Chinese food?: I love Chinese food. 120. Favorite book?: Catcher in the Rye. 121. Are you afraid of the dark?: I am, I sleep with a night light cause I’m a big chicken. 122. Are you mean?: I probably am, yeah. 123. Is cheating ever okay?: No, it isn’t. 124. Can you keep white shoes clean?: No, I wish I could. It’s too hard too. 125. Do you believe in love at first sight?: I do. I’m a hopeless romantic man. 126. Do you believe in true love?: I do. Once again. Hopeless romantic. 127. Are you currently bored?: Not really, I’m just really tired. 128. What makes you happy?: Hearing peoples laughter. Cats meowing. Dogs wagging their tails. Little animal nose twitches. 129. Would you change your name?: I would, if I had another name I wanted to change it too. 130. What your zodiac sign?: Pisces131. Do you like subway?: It’s okay. 132. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?: I’d tell him I wasn’t interested, an we both were better off as best buds. 133. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?: A friend over snapchat. 134. Favorite lyrics right now?: I don’t know?? 135. Can you count to one million?: I could but that’s a lot of numbers to count.136. Dumbest lie you ever told?: I’m straight. 137. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?: Closed. 138. How tall are you?: I’m like 5′1 139. Curly or Straight hair?: Curly. 140. Brunette or Blonde?: Blonde.141. Summer or Winter?: Summer. 142. Night or Day?: Day 143. Favorite month?: October 144. Are you a vegetarian?: Nope 145. Dark, milk or white chocolate?: Milk Chocolate 146. Tea or Coffee?: Coffee 147. Was today a good day?: Today was decent. 148. Mars or Snickers?: Snickers 149. What’s your favourite quote?: Idk man im too tired for this 150. Do you believe in ghosts?: I do, yeah. 151. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line: Rhodesian Ridgeback.

#asks #8luespiders #tmi #long post #thanks <3 #i am so tired now zzz

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