#cause im hella interested but everything i know about it

[zabala0z]

Hi I’m back! I think we all know what I’m going to talk about; “s4 of TMA and OH MY GOD JARED HOPWORTH STATEMENT”

MAG 130: Meat

Lucia Wright has the same last name as James Wright who ran the institute from ‘73-‘96 until he passed. I don’t know if there’s any relation but just in case. There’s that pit. There’s a lot of pits that’s related to The Flesh (MAG 49, MAG 80, MAG 97, I think, and MAG 130) so. Yay. Also Tom Hann appearance once again (MAG 30, MAG 72). Love the mention of the Carlisle boy which I think is Tony Carlisle from MAG 18, the neighbor with all that meat. Gertrude also mentions Dekker which is probably Adelard Dekker who I still need to see more of to fully develop my opinion on him.

Also what’s with all the recent cobwebs??? There’s been so many mentions of them around the institute, is The Web planning something?

MAG 131: Flesh

fucking hell, Jon. I think this man just decides to do shit without running it by anyone. Also yay Melanie! I feel like really bad for her. Again, I can’t even blame her much for her reactions cause one, there was The Slaughter and two, surgery is like hella invasive even when it’s run by the person so waking up to someone performing an impromptu surgery on you would linger with me as well.

Helen is back. Bit scared of her but she sounds much better then Michael (then again, The Spiral lies like constantly). Now onto the main guy: Jared Hopworth.

Um. I had no idea what his voice was going to sound like. My expectation wasn’t high, just “unhinged” and my god did Jared Hopworth deliver. (Also heard he’s also Martins voice actor???? WHAT??) he didn’t give much new information but lemme tell you, hearing the squelching of meat and shifting of bones made me want to throw up so congratulations Jared! You’re are in the top 3 of TMA voices that make me feel intense horror!

MAG 132: Entombed

Jesus. Okay so. Daisy. Not much lore in this ep for me to connect to anything, just a lot of sad stuff like I was speechless. I can’t remember if I mentioned on here that I thought Daisy was related to The Hunt but I did suspect and I’m not surprised! Also, the shirt thing, that’s crazy oh my god, I thought it was interesting she asked about his shirt out of all things.

MAG 133: Dead Horse

The Everchase. Why does every entity have such a cool sounding ritual name??? Anyways, pretty interesting.

“You know what my least favorite part of a case was?”

“The police brutality lawsuit” Im literally dying.

Also, Basira, man. I think she’s so interesting. I can’t put it into words but god she’s just such an interesting character to me. An ex-cop, one of the only ones who like logic’s her way out of The Unknowing, trying to keep everything together at the institute, I don’t know, I just like her a lot.

But god FORBID a character gets replaced OR SACRIFICES THEMSELF.

I need to see something from Martin, I’m worried about him. Maybe Peter Lukas. Actually, I kinda wanna see Nathaniel Lukas? Like he exists too, he has his own shit going on. I don’t wanna see Elias.

Okay I think that’s everything! I wish I could continue my notes, I low key miss sitting at my computer after listening to the eps and typing out every single detail, it was kinda calming.

[whispering-coffee]

I’ve been holding this off for a while mainly cause I was afraid of doing it but I finally pulled through and now I have a story to share with ya’ll explaining what happened during my hold at the mall!

I went dressed in black leggings and a sweater, bummer that it wouldn’t show I know but i was nervous! I had drank some before leaving my house so by the time I had arrived at the mall i was already feeling the need.

To make sure I was going to suffer (I know i know im a masochist bite me) i drank an entire water bottle i brought with me in the car before actually heading into the mall. So yada yada time passes and im trying to figure out what to do at the mall and I go get myself a drink at the food court then i head off to look around the stores.

About an hour in the mall and its starting to feel pretty urgent but not bursting so i decided hey, why not play a game with myself, and got into a bathroom line. However once i actually went into a stall i just sat there fully clothed not doing anything, still holding it in then shortly after left. Trust me i was getting pretty bored here to have to do that.

I got another drink and finally after finishing it I was getting antsy, crossing my legs and shuffling my feet while i sat at a table.

HEY IF YOU’RE SKIPPING THROUGH THE POST TO FIND THE INTERESTING PARTS ITS OVER HERE

So i go back to looking around stores, feeling my bladder ache each time i take a step and now im actually like, nervous because like its dawning on me that Im really doing this in a public place. Let me say its pretty crowded, its not like the mall barely has anyone in it. So here i am standing around in the corner of a store thinking to myself if I really wanna do it, i was thinking for like a good 5-10 minutes walking back and fourth till i decided i was gonna pull through, after all i made a promise that i would post something interesting and different ;p

I leave the store and about another hour passed and im pretty desperate, like constantly moving around wanna put my hands between my legs desperate. But since it was a public place i couldnt really just do that unless i had to go REALLY bad (foreshadowing haha).

Did i mention it was really cold in the mall, only made everything worse xD

Anyways so Im pretty desperate, i take a seat at the food court again and get ONE MORE drink, and as im sipping on it im squirming in my seat cross legged, im sure anyone who’s into omo would immediately catch on if they saw me.

Just a little bit later im scrolling through my phone with my other hand on top of my lap (not between my legs just yet)

Now Im REALLY anxious because its getting to the point where I know im going to have an accident soon so i get up and just start walking around with my chest aching from nervousness. I even stared at the bathroom in contemplation before walking away.

A couple minutes of aimless walking and i end up having to sneeze.. needless to say a little bit escaped but i stopped it albeit i looked a little silly. My heart dropped during it too.

About ten or twenty so minutes and i have to go REAAALLY bad and im super anxious, i even entered a bathroom line thinking i didnt want to actually wet myself but after a couple minutes of waiting in line i felt another leak which automatically prompted a hand to crotch response, you can imagine my embarrassment.

After the leak I was honestly horrified but also having a LOT of fun, i was close to having an accident so I decided to try to find a secluded area in the mall to hang around in for when i lose control. Each step i took was agony to take but i kept movin, slightly bent over too.

Eventually i found an area where not alot of people were, there were still some but it wasnt as crowded as the other areas. It was like this dead end section with nothing of interest other than a few benches and stores.

I stayed here for about a couple minutes, mild panicking, hella anxious, and kiiiind of excited. Thats when i started losing control. I was kind of in a little corner where a protrusion of wall was blocking me but if you’d still be able to see me if you walked closer to the dead end.

It was a mix of terrified excitement when i tried to stop the flow but couldnt. The sounds of my pee hitting the floor wasnt helping. I dont think anyone actually noticed plus since I was wearing black leggings it wasnt super noticeable. I promptly rushed my way out of the mall keeping my head down leaving behind that puddle.

When i got back to my car i put out the towel i had stored in my trunk over my driver seat so i wouldnt ruin my car seats and kind of just sat in the car thinking about what happened. At the end i actually found the experience really enjoyable and might do it again ;)

[rulerzreachf4n7]

(If you're just trying to find some cute ship art for like lumity or huntlow and you find this I'm sorry I just want this to get some recognition cause I'm new to the Tumblr community 😭😭)

Hello there and welcome to me rating different TOH ships!

It'll be in a format like a iceberg chart, the more well known ships at the top and more unknown and obscure ships in the middle and below

Also know this is my opinion and I have given reasons why I don't like and ship the ones I'm going to list, don't get mad at me cause I don't ship whatever the fuck you like

And with that let's go!

The surface

1. Lumity 9/10

Actually a really good ship, I don't know why people keep on saying it's a toxic/unhealthy ship, the only reasons they say is that they lie to each other,Amity somehow "hurts" Luz and never gives her a proper apology...? Im sorry but it's fucking stupid, there's other reasons but I don't remember them, I gave it a 9/10 because it's okay, nothing astonishing or amazing, just good wlw rep and that's all that matters

2. Huntlow 100000/10

WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW MUCH I FUCKING LOVE THIS SHIP OMG!!!! I wish it could have gotten confirmed or more hints throughout the show (I personally think it would have been a cool idea that after kings tide Hunter and Willow started dating and it would be shown in TTT) it's just a really cute ship to me and I love everything about it >_<!!!

3. Raeda 10/10

It's a really cool ship, but I was confused on the whole is Eda bisexual or pansexual thing cause she's confirmed bisexual but Raines non binary...and now supposedly bisexual people can be attracted to non binary people??? It's just hella confusing to me, but that's a topic on it's own for a different time, I really like how they developed and definitely TTBK was and is one of my favorite episodes

4. Veesha 8/10

It's actually canon that Vee has a crush on Masha and thats all I need to know...GAHHH IT'S SUCH A CUTE SHIP!! Really cool thing how Dana is adding some much non binary characters in the show (NOT including the collector cause he's demiboy NOT non binary, there's a huge ass difference) wish there could have been some development/hints in the WAD, sadly not, but that doesn't mean it won't be confirmed!

5. Gustholomule 8/10

By far one of my ships but sadly not on the top 3,yet again, needed more hints, especially in s2a cause Gus and Matty had more screen time and interactions together,and I love how the fandom just agreed Matty was gay, and not to mention the friendship with Matty and Amity

6. Belpaw 10000/10

this is a joke ship between Belos and springtrap/William Afton from fnaf but it's absolutely fucking hilarious to me and I love it

Now, time to go under the surface, here are some ships that some people know/ship but not much people do, and the further I go we'll get to the more...problematic ships, yet again, don't get mad at me for my opinions

1. Lunter -100/10

Please block this account immediately if you ship lunter I CANNOT STAND THIS SHIP!!! Sure, they had some pretty decent chemistry and interactions with each other, but it just won't work! There's no use in shipping a character with a canon love interest/already dating someone and just choosing to ignore it and ship them anyway, PLUS FOR THOSE SHIPPERS WHO ACTUALLY GOT FUCKING MAD CAUSE IT DIDN'T BECOME CANON I'M ACTUALLY SHITTING BRICKS ON HOW FUCKING STUPID THAT WAS 💀💀💀💀 plus Willows a canon love interest to Hunter, Zeno, HUNTERS VA, literally changed his name to Hunter noceda, and no it's not wlw erasure, but if you acknowledge the fact that lumity is canon, if you acknowledge the fact Dana put her hardwork and effort trying to get a same sex couple in a kid's show which literally got it CANCELLED, and still ship it, disrespectfully shut the fuck up, lunter would be canon if FUCKING NETFLIX MADE TOH 😭😭😭

2. Huntric/Huntmira -100000/10

I. Hate. This. Ship. I put them together cause I didn't want to make seperate sections for it, now you're gonna read me rant on how much I fucking despise this ship, number one, EDRIC IS FUCKING DATING SOMEONE, no interactions (only one with Edric but none with Emira) the mfs literally degraded him in labyrinth runners, no chemistry whatsoever, its overall just not worth your time, and I'm not a toxic huntlow stan, no I won't force the ship on you, however I will block you because I don't want that shit on my feed, same goes for lunter and the other ships I'm gonna mention

3. Luz x Willow, Amity, or all of them together 5/10

Ngl, it's not that bad of a ship, actually really cute, but I couldn't see it happening in the show given that lumity is already canon, plus we should normalize healthy friendships between two girls, not everyone needs to be shipped and the toh community has a huge fucking problem with that, plus this also goes for Amity x Willow as well

4. Camila x Eda (i dunno the official ship name 😭😭😭) 5/10

It's mid, I SAID IT I SAID IT!!! *hides in bed* I'm sorry the ship is mid, raeda is canon already and they didn't have any dialogue, interactions,chemistry together only other than people want Camila to date/marry someone,and the only part when they actually meet is in WAD and that one picture of Eda showing Camila the Apple blood, other than that it's meh, eh, mid

5. Boscha x literally anyone -1000/10

Disrespectfully shut the fuck up if you ship boschlow, boschmity, or boschluz, THESE ARE EXTREMELY TOXIC SHIPS AND YOU'VE PROBABLY NEVER EVEN WATCHED WING IT LIKE WITCHES OR THE ENTIRE FIRST SEASON OF TOH, YOU MUST HAVE SEVERE BRAIN DAMAGE IF YOU THOUGHT THIS WAS OKAY, Boscha is literally their bully, IT'S NOT THE ENEMIES TO LOVERS STORY YOU WANT POOKIE, the only one that isn't as severe is boschmity, that one, unlike the other ships isn't as bad cause boscha genuinely likes Amity and if you watched FTF you'd know why, plus boscha must had have the fattest crush on Amity, but the only boscha ship good is Boschbria (Boscha x Bria)

6. Veenter 10-/10

No...why must I have come to this...NOOO!!! okay, first off, ima just put this in the most direct, black and white, simple way, it fucking sucks, no interactions that support the ship, no chemistry, like I said, I'm a raging Huntlow stan, this ship is unacceptable, plus I like found...a potential r34 comic of them BUT WE DON'T NEED TO KNOW THAT HAHAH....oh fucking god...

The pit, here lays all the problematic ships, also uhm TW maybe??? I am gonna use words like p3dph1l1a, @buse, Child @buse,and pr0sh1p alot, so if it makes you uncomfy just a warning, and with that, lets go...

1. Camphip -infinity/10

I HAVE A RAGING HATE FOR THIS SHIP OH MY FUCKING TITAN, okay, I know Camila is an adult and belos is...well he's an old fucking geezer,but the age gap gives me the ick, but let's just start, it's @busive, Camila literally said she wanted to beat him up in the beginning of FTF, AND I DUNNO, DO YOU THINK A 400+ GENOCIDAL EMPEROR WHO @BUSED 50+ GRIMWALKERS WHO COULD HAVE POSSIBLY BE KIDS (and by kids they'd be at least 11/12-16, still pretty younge though)MANIPULATED MILLIONS OF WITCHES AND DEMONS, AND KILLED HIS BROTHER IS A GOOD HUSBAND/BOYFRIEND MATERIAL? disrespectfully shut the fuck up, given the fact of think Luz, Vee, and Hunter are all Camila's children (or at least that's what I headcanon) DO YOU THINK THEY'D BE HAPPY TO KNOW THAT THEIR MOTHER IS DATING THE PERSON WHO CAUSED THEM SO MUCH FUCKING PAIN AND ABUSE????ESPECIALLY HUNTER, BELOS FUCKING SAID HE DIDN'T EVEN GIVE A SHIT ABOUT HUNTER IN HOLLOW MIND, CLOUDS ABOVE THE HORIZON,AND IN THANKS TO THEM, HE LITERALLY TRIED TO K1LL HIM, THIS SHIP WOULD ONLY BE FINE IF IT WAS IN A GOOD BELOS AU, THE ONLY WAY, I will immediately block you if you ship Belos x Camila, I hate it HATE IT AND I'M DEAD FUCKING SERIOUS

2. Amity x Gus or Hunter -infinity/10

You're lesbianphobic, go fuck yourself if you ship Amity with any male characters

3. Empgold/Huntlos -infinity/10

It's pr0ship, p3d0philia, and @buse, Hunter is 16 and Belos is 400+ years old, you can't ship a character with someone's who dead so it wouldn't matter if you ship them after the time skip when Hunters 20, Belos @bused Hunter, the scar on his cheek and the whole fucking possession scene in TTT might give you a hint, Belos never cared for Hunter and only saw him as a tool, he tried to k1ll him in Hollow Mind, and in Thanks to them, if you ship them, I am blocking you, and I say this proudly

4. Guster -infinity/10

I. Hate. This. Ship, AND FUCK YOU GUSTER BUBBLE BATH YOU FUCKING MADE ME HATE IT EVEN MORE (please don't question what the guster bubble bath is, DO NOT SEARCH IT UP IT IS AN R34 COMIC...unless you wanna get traumatized, but it's cool baby girl) I hate this ship, there's plenty of interactions, but they give off a more sibling energy,and that's a reason why I don't ship it, I see them as siblings, I get they could somehow date cause of cosmic frontier but it's more of a similarity than a romantic aspect just like with Amity and Luz with the good witch Azura,its also uhm *COUGH COUGH* p3d0philia if you ship their time skip versions (Hunter is 20 and Gus is 16), the reason why I put it so low is because I feel like it's not as well know but not as obscure (plus I did this all rushed so I had no fucking time)

And ladies, bros, non binary folks, that's the end! You've endured all my criticism so take a damn break, you deserve it

And special credits to ships I didn't include!

Luz x Anne/Marcy (Amphibia)

Hunter x Sasha (Amphibia)

Gus x Willow

Gus x Bria

Luz x Marco (svtfoe)

Gus x Vee

Luz x viney

Edric x Emira

Eda x Belos

Eda x Darius

Amity x Marcy (amphibia)

Belos x Luz

The Collector x King, any member of the hexsquad

Amity x Odalia

Eda x Dana

Darius x Raine

Belos x Kikimora

Kikimora x Puss in boots (oh god yes that's exists)

Aaand....

Lilith x Belos/Hooty/Steve/Eda!!!

I hope someone at least read this cause I made this in a damn hurry!!!

[qquicksllver]

i just need to rant 🙃

my mental health this past like month has been so bad and its getting worse. my self esteem is so low I genuinely don't feel like anyone cares about me. communicating with my friends in the group chat is hard because I feel alienated and the app is glitchy as fuck so I miss so much and I can't talk about negative stuff or work because they'll get mad so now I just bottle everything up, I can't afford therapy I only work part time but I do not wanna work full time at my current job because its food service and it sucks most days. I crave interaction with people it makes me feel validated but unfortunately I am annoying so no one (talking about twitter) interacts with me, social media makes me feel like shit and yet I just can't stay away from it. I feel like a horrible person and a horrible friend like my irl friends don't even wanna hang out with me. They constantly make plans that don't include me and then try to say that everything they do together I'm always invited too but I can't be invited to something I don't even know exists. It's been bugging me for years lmfao I'm trying to stop caring about it because it's whatever. All I do is sit and home, and then go to work. I have no friends in the city I live in I'm basically a hermit. Everytime I try to do something my anxiety gets so bad I get hella nauseous and then I don't wanna do it anymore. But what am I doing to fix these things? Absolutely nothing because I'm a piece of shit lmfao. I'm literally doing nothing about it. I don't even know where to start. I'm at this point where I'm just like passively suicidal like if I get hit by a car don't even try to save me at this point. I don't even care. I have no desire to live but I'm not gonna do anything about it. so don't be concerned. I just wish I had friends I could talk about my interests with who don't think im annoying, people I can hang out with irl whenever 😔 if u actually read this then ily cause I don't expect anyone too I just needed to get this out

[spookysprings]

HELLO!!! This is an introduction to my account!!! PLEASE READ IT!!!

What to call me by?

Spring is fine! But you can also refer to me within the seasons!! For example

Summer for summer

Autumn for fall

Winter for winter

And spring for spring!!

(You can call me spooks too, I don’t mind! 🫶)

❤︎︎My interests❤︎︎

(Btw, I may not talk about many of the things I’m interested in but that’s because im hella hyper-fixated on spooky month TwT)

• SPOOKY MONTH!!

• Legend of Zelda: Breath of the wild

• FNAF

• Poppy playtime

• Bendy and the ink machine

• Undertale (and a lil bit of deltarune)

• Batman

• Family guy (lawl)

• Welcome Home

• Good omens

• Steven Universe

• Flamingo

• Horror in general

• CoryxKenshin

• Markiplier

(That’s about all I’ll name hehe, there’s more tho! Pretty sure…)

🚨🚨🚨DNI!!!!🚨🚨🚨

My dni is basically like any other dni

No maps/pedos.

No incestors or incest ew yucky

No pro-shitters.

No problematic people, like at all.

No people who fetishize/sexualize age regression.

No one over 21.

No holyfire (I despise that ship will everything in my body)

just shoo if you are bad

🪻🪻🪻🪻BYI!!!🪻🪻🪻🪻

When stress comes by (I just really stressed out easily) I start to understand less of what’s going on, which leads me to be confused and stuff, so please be patient with me

I have anxiety which causes me to overthink, it effects my friendships a lot and I’m trying to fix it 🫶

I have depression as well but I am getting therapy for both!! (My therapist is nice)

I do age regress a lil bit

I have ADHD and dyslexia

I tend to try and avoid conflict and stuff

If I do anything wrong I would like you to come me about it, it’s most likely that I wasn’t aware. I would like to know so I can correct myself and apologize 🫶

I’m weird (obviously)

I can post highly suggestive stuff or slightly suggestive stuff, but no NSFW since I’m a minor and this is a public area!!

I am catgender, bunnygender, Demi girl, and Bisexual :3

MY ASK INBOX IS OPEN AND YOU GUYS CAN REQUEST ANYTHING! LIKE DRAWINGS AND STUFF!! ILL BE HAPPY TO DRAW FOR YOU!!!

SOCIALS

I will add more if I remember something or need to add!!

[insufferable-homestuck]

not quite spot on cause i was bein lazy but hell yeah. mage of space real.

if you do want to get into more nitty gritty, i am: - really really forgiving. a man of second chances and hella tolerant. many friends have said im a nice dude and i think im pretty chill. - can absolutely carry a convo by finding a mutual interest or by listening to your interests. will talk to you like a bestie from day 1 (hence this dump after a single post) - despite the previous point, very much introverted. accustomed to talking online. good at DMs, hesitant but very social in voice chats, horrendous in person. - people say im funny, while hard to tell in the moment i retroactively laugh at my own posts. ranges from well thought jokes to moderate absurdity.

you kinda hit the nail on the head with space and using "creating" as your point because i effectively walked into the costco of talents and took all the free samples. (my version of jack of all trades master of none) i am constantly bouncing between art and music and video editing to make dumb memes.

need to like brush up on my classes and aspects at some point cause its been a hot second and i dont really know much abt em. would totally analyse how mage does/doesnt fit me if i knew what it meant lmfao

also was very tempted to send this non-anonymously but i like being a little cryptic creature and hiding in the shadows. this may or may not help with the classpecting, but its definitely a thing i do. not so much the cryptic part but i love lurking anonymously just to leave people guessing about who i am.

and now im thinking about how cool it would be an heir of void so im gonna go think about that n ill see u whenever i decide to lurk in your anon box again

i WANTED to make you an heir of void, but these damn definitions of the actual classpect are so different from the nice one in my head.

since both mage of space, my initial thought, and heir of void are classpects rooted in CREATION and VAGUENESS ( you piece of shit ) i give myself a nice pat on the back for getting that

"heir of nothing, heir of everything" a quote that i place in your hands since you are a TALENT COLLECTOR and CREATOR

void players, depending on class, cast void and throw things into mystery, YOU do that with people who have wronged you, you forgiving dickhead, you make the bad things fade and forgive the person where they stand

3rd trait listed can be associated with equius, our beloved HoV

your NITTY PICKY classpect houses in the Heir class and Void aspect, welcome horse boy!

[xplrvibes]

alright im half way thru and here are my thoughts so far:

1. I truthfully don’t know any of the controversy around joe rogan, i just know he’s hella popular for being controversial and he’s someone i’d be on edge to have a convo with bc what i have seen is he questions everything and he isn’t afraid to let you know he doesn’t agree. but snc seem to really like him and vibe with him and it does seem super out of the blue for joe to want ghost hunters to come investigate his place (I hope this isnt a set up). either way, sounds interesting.

2. that contract from o-park mall is challenge worthy. they spelt colbys name entirely wrong (misspelt his last name and used his nickname and not his legal name) making it null and void from my understanding. i would also say the same abt sam as they used a nickname not a legal name. A good lawyer could wiggle them out of that if they cared.

3. loved hearing colbys take on religion. im the same, i’m not so much religious as i have a relationship with God. i think thats way more important than being in a religious community. and i also feel the same way about just knowing there’s something else out there. also interesting he was the only one on the table who doesn’t have dreams of dying. chop that up to trusting in God and not being afraid bc he knows God has the perfect plan and everything is in control, or just generally not afraid to die for other reasons, who knows. definitely fascinating, either way.

alright i’ll be back in 1.5hr hours with part 2 comments. I probably missed a bunch of stuff i could’ve commented on but these are my standout comments.

- aussie anon

I finished the podcast late last night and then immediately went to bed without really doing a deep dive into my thoughts on the whole thing (aside from a few choice areas that stuck in my brain and had to be discussed in dm's last night lol), so I'm going to use your reviews to sort of start my own review, and then will probably finish up with an additional post later on side thoughts - cause I have a lot lol.

1, The thing with Joe Rogan is that he kind of plays both sides of the fence, in terms of not just politics, but pretty much anything going on (he will have on conservatives and liberals, will have on atheists and people like snc, will have on scientists and then people who believe in UFOs, etc) and so he tends to be very controversial because of that. I don't listen to him, his viewpoints on certain things aren't really my cup of tea and he has in the past said some stuff in his pursuit of riding the fence that was not good and gross and everything, so this is not me defending him or whatever - but at the end of the day, he has the most listened to podcast on earth and love him or hate him, is a household name. Them being invited on his podcast, being treated very well by him, and then him keeping in touch with them and inviting them out to his comedy club is objectively a big deal for them and their visibility and they aren't going to turn that down because twitter - who has pretty much made it clear they lowkey hate snc anyway lol - have an issue with the collab.

I actually found that part of the conversation interesting, because the whole thing came about because his daughter was a fan of theirs, which I just find kind of hilarious and random. Imagine how many people of notoriety and fame they meet or could potentially meet because those peoples' teenage children are fans.

2, I don't think they would actually get arrested for showing up at that mall at this point in their careers, anyway - most malls do not have the uumph to take shit like that truly seriously, and both S & C have made it public that they've been back in there since (one time right after the release of their book, Colby went into their Barnes and Noble with his mom and illegally signed a few of the books on the shelf and posted about it all over his instagram lol). But it is objectively kind of hilarious that they are "banned" from entering the mall and yet they've had consumer products in three of their stores (B&N, Hot Topic and Zumiez), and have had their faces on the store fronts of two of those three.

3, I strangely found that interesting as well, and I normally tend to zone right the fuck out when people talk religion (sorry, all). I was raised Catholic but am not religious these days in my own life, although I certainly do believe that something else has to be going on, hence all the ghosts and stuff. But for whatever reason, hearing others talk about religion always makes me feel wildly uncomfortable - I think it's just feeling like that's something personal and so different from person to person and I just don't like feeling like I'm intruding on their privacy by hearing it (even if they are offering it up freely), if that makes sense? I don't know, I'm just weird about those conversations in general.

But I find it interesting when these two talk religion, firstly because of the content they make and how it would tie back into their own personal belief system, but also just how interesting it is that this is one of those areas where they kind of balance each other on opposite sides of the scale, and yet somehow come together perfectly at the end. It's an interesting phenomenon with them.

Also, all of them talking about dying in their dreams and Colby just piping in with "I've never died in my dreams 😃" like go off, you sweet little just happy to be there king.

[phoebosacerales]

hello! im always looking with respect at traditional astrologers, and the art feels super refreshing after years of thinking the only astrology there is is the popular stuff. im kind of interested in learning? but im also kind of unsure about how deterministic the aspects of it are?

one thing i enjoy about modern astrology is the ability to look at difficult houses and see the possibility of transformation within them. my 12th house north node and part of fortune are not things i consider curses. im overall hella fascinated by humans ability to evolve and heal. (though thats SO fucking rare even who people who try to. i know potential doesnt equal result) im thinking that traditional astrology might be the way it is because at the time people just truly had no way to become better in any way. if someone now is born poor they can work on my relationship with finances and eventually create a beautiful stable life for themselves, they can heal the relationship wounds caused by abusive families etc etc

what do you think? is it worth learning about traditional astrology if im going to have this type of approach?

Not all traditional astrologers are super deterministic. If you go to the medieval astrologers you'll see they were also dealing with magic, so they're examples of traditional astrologers who definitely weren't fully deterministic as well. I don't like determimism either and I've talked a little about this here. I'm more on a middle ground. A lot of the ancient hellenistic astrologers were stoics and believed in a very closed kind of fate, so they thought every little thing could be predicted, but this is not an inherent characteristic of the art, it was their own beliefs projected on it. Studying someone's techniques doesn't really require you to subscribe to their beliefs. A level of predictability also doesn't imply hard determinism. Otherwise all of us would be that, after all modern astrologers are also predicting by looking at the birth chart and telling what a person's life has been like.

Some idea of fate is still there in modern astrology even if the content on the internet will try to tell you it isn't, I believe some modern astrologers have too many contradictory beliefs because of this. And of course, it actually gets even more difficult to sell astrology and keep a following if you're going to tell people some disappointing stuff, so obviously modern evolutionary astrology is popular also because it's so "optimistic". And even if not done in bad faith, they're selling the idea that their service will be fundamental for you to get out of a bad situation, and that's a little scammy.

I don't believe your 12th house north node and part of fortune are curses either.* I myself have a 12th house Moon and north node, which is actually an eclipse, I have 5 out of 7 planets in bad houses that don't see the Asc, 2 of them also combust, everything in squares. The other 2 are Saturn, my malefic out of sect and Jupiter in fall in a cadent house ruling my finances. But still, considering the family I was born in, I'm in a very good situation compared to all of them. Despite difficulties, I'm one of the less than 1% of the brazillian population that is attending a public University (which is extremely competitive to get into, and they have the highest demand because of their quality), I have a high chance of actually finishing it and not dropping out. And that poor eclipsed Moon in the 12th with a malefic fixed star and the north node is the one ruling my 9th house and holding this up for me. I've seriously never seen an uggliest chart than mine, so I could never be the kind of astrologer who looks at a 12th house planet and already imagines the worse case scenario. And I've actually seen charts that looked kinda okay, but they were charts of people with very troubling lives.

I don't agree that today in general people have more oportunities to get out of poverty, because meritocracy is a monstrous lie. Life is difficult, some lives are more difficult than others and some people have more of a feeling of control than others. And there's an issue if you're telling everyone that they can do anything they put their mind to, when context actually makes things impossible, if that's just wishful thinking and simply not true. This does put pressure and blame on people to tell them that if they haven't achieved something that's because they didn't do enough "work". Some things you can't change, sometimes there isn't even enough time to understand and try to change things, so all you can offer is an ear. But I do also have an issue with the deterministic idea that tells people there's no way around things, that they should accept things the way that they are because that's the destiny their soul chose or whatever.

But the point is that you will fry your brain over the issue of fate vs free will forever and no type of astrology you study will give you an answer. This is an ages old dilemma in philosophy and any astrologer who tells you they found the answer by themselves through astrology is just mistaken and probably being a little arrogant.

*Just an observation: the nodes aren't really all that important in "western" astrology, much less their house placement. Modern astrology puts a lot of importance on them after appropriating from Vedic and the way this is done is really not good.

[hakuna-my-ass]

Call me a bitch one more time

Maybe ill believe you

Call me a whore again

Maybe ill conceive you

Call me a slut to my face

Maybe ill believe you

Cause the way

I wade through the dirt

Is a pain

You cant see through

Call me your mom, call me your baby, call me your daughter

Call me whatever you want

I thank god im not your father

I would beat you, mistreat you, just like mine did

I wouldnt eat you, id leave you

To rot in your sins

Not here to please you, just deal you with the cards of your kin

Calling me your queen wont work cause bitch im a goddess

On the scene when i twerk

Cant help it im flawless

Tell me again how youre gonna cum all over my face

Show me again the way i feel pain

Tell me again about my ass and my titties

Like my uterus wasnt enough to give a buck fifty

Ya'll niggas iffy, filthy... long john? miss me!

Your bullshit squishy

According to the stars and the cards im a bull, hard headed

According to my pops, he's a dog, im hot headed

If i listened to any of you bitches id be mal tempered

I guess this is why rap was invented

Telling me i got legs for days when i got bills to pay dont distract me with your petty bullshit

I got brains for decades dont trash me ill behead you

Asking me for head? Youd rather be dead

Spitting on your grave, does that count?

Illy for years, been down south

Been in cuffs but i was rough before they tried to put me down

Like i cant fight, dont have might, i wear my horns like a fucking crown

Cause just like a bull i see red

But as a taurian i get paid diamonds, no respect

So tell me again how horny you are and how i make you

Show me again how you cum

And i may believe you

Born in May so its easy to distinguish sun from rain

All ya'll bitches run when you see me in pain

Cause my limit is about where my choker is

You helped me reach it so lets not forget i know how to choke a bitch

Like i said call me a bitch one more time

Call me dumb, ill show you whats mine

Cause none y'all have the stripes im covered in

Chinese eyes, my chinese sign starts roarin in this bitch

Y'all came straight outta hell

I came from something even lower

Learned and broke yall spells STOP FUCKING CALLING ME BROKEN

THIS BITCH IS BAD NO MAGICIAN COULD CLONE HER

They tried and failed not even the universe could own her

Put her in a ditch, shell make a pie and make you eat

Youll attempt to take everything

Fucking fakes nothing more than leeches

Got poems so old, damn i should start preachin

Cant say ive never been to church

The bible aint a secret

Y'all preaching to the choir

So i brought a choir just to sing this

Bring me down to the ground

I might believe you

Silencing me

Wicho irritating sounds

Yous a nuisance

Thinking yous all that?

But aint got time to prove it

GOD MADE ME BLIND BUT I SEE RIGHT THROUGH IT

The grass is greener where i smoke it

The waist got leaner

Now they tryna poach it

Taking credit for my successes, my strength, my will and why im the bestest

But i didnt see NONE of yall when I was in duress, hella stressed, just tryna make it out w me n mine

Yet over time i realised its just me and im mine

To make things CLEAR

Im not here to fall into your sextraps

Sextrolling while im rolling

Youre fucked cause i got strapped

Youve never seen a gem like me?

Thats common knowledge.

Oeh im so different?

Caught me yawning

Turned up the degrees to see where youre boiling

Dashed so fast couldnt even keep it a hunnid

Annoying. Disgusting.

As a vegetarian i dont eat meat

Why dfq do u think id wanna see yours when i open my feed

Yall aint got nothin better to do than to focus

On fucking

I got better shit and poo so i focus on commas

The only zeros im interested in are the ones on my bankaccount

I like danger and dangerous numbers that make me moan and shout

Not yo itty bitty dick wrapped up in clout

Next time you see me dont ask me how im doing cause good girls do it bad and bad girls do it badder and im the worst

Your sins cant make it better

ON GOD

Scratch that

Royal Deity

The unholiest chick with the most purity

Chique, fine and thick

But you wouldnt know bout nunna that

Intelligent, since we keepin it straight facts

Sharp shooter, never miss my aim

Even if i fail, still winnin this game

S/o to all the gamers, the players, the fakers

Addressin y'all as my main haters

Slapping my insecurities in my face

Like i might do somethin w it

Undress, heaving chest, make a mess in the kitchen

Callin me gay just cause yall aint got a pot to piss in

Mad pissed, yall blocked, try to mess with this bitch

On all fours like a horse come too close ill stomp ya face in

Insulting me vagée, she's not an animal, yall the pussies

Saying put it on my face

Like you got the right or earned it

Yall demands undeserving

High on supply i dont follow commands

Baby your stressed let me help you with that

Bitch please take a seat id rather do a handstand

Know your place before its too late and yo ass gets jabbed

Call me baby one more time i might believe it

Call me sweet once mlre and ill know youre deceivin

Call me your love, your honey, babycakes, babygirl

Havent been a baby since i entered this world

Tell me that you love me one more time and ill bust out my edges, limited edition blade collection

Jessica rabbit blasian

Blazing stages

Saying you wanna fuck

So i did

Sorry not sorry i fucked you up instead

Mustve been a slice of miscommunication

Over time i developed a bullshit translator

Not sick in the head, just sick of y'all

Planning me demise and downfall

Ik ben een lijdende leider, een overlevende strijder

Thats why i give myself errything i be wantin

Preparin myself for these scheming ass bitches that be hauntin

Mightve gotten startled in the past

But im badder and better so issa wrap

[mmesutozill]

Hiiiii. I hope you would still continue your personality traits gifset 😔 what do you think about potentially see more kinn and porsche and the possibility of a s2?

hellooo and thank youu. ugh i have been the worst and haven’t really gone back to ps since i had a phase of making kp gifsets and my kinn personality traits gifset is halfway done and….remains that way. but thank you and i hope i’ll get motivation to finish it soon as well! 😌

with kp s2…boy…i have spoken to a couple of friends about it…and long answer short i honestly don’t know and if it happens it’s not gonna be any time soon and definitely not this year. <pls be warned about the incoming word vomit>

i know a lot of people esp on twitter are hella depressed after the final concerts over the weekend with it seeming like a goodbye to the characters and this chapter in their lives and also cause boc seemed to have maintained from the end of s1 that s2 was intended (with how they ended s1 and what was said unofficially by some cast members and pond). and we have never got any official confirmation whether it is happening or not. so i get that that’s kinda confusing cause i know i did strongly believe s2 was coming but to be really honest idk about that now.

i think it’s primarily got to do with rights issue (with the original novel writers leaving daemi house and us not knowing what rights boc has over the story and characters). I don’t think boc will (and should) adapt a s2 unless they’re able to take liberties with the storytelling just cause the source material is truly a hot mess. but with the original writers gone i don’t know what kinda tricky situation boc would have to deal with with respect to that. and also throw in the whole build scandal and i don’t think they wanna touch on kp again with the scandal so recent and social media would turn into a war zone with whatever they choose to do with pete whether it’s to recast or write him off. so they may wanna stay away from kp and by extension the scandal or anything build related until things calm down. and to a lesser extent I think crew availability and possibly funding could be possible reasons. i did initially feel like the 2023 projects were also green lit first to give visibility to the main pairings of kp and keep interest while a s2 is being written. and also the profits from the shows to help fund s2 without them having to rely on mile money.

i wish we had more clarity on what’s going on and where they stand with it. it does seem like they don’t wanna commit and say it’s not gonna happen but at the same time they also don’t wanna commit and confirm it is. so it’s hard to straddle in the middle and sort of string fans along. personally, I think when and if s2 drops, i’ll rejoice at that and tune in to watch. but i don’t think we should have too much hope on it but just focus on what projects the actors are gonna be focusing on next. just cause there is a possibility it may never happen. which sucks. but it is what it is and im sure it’s as hard to swallow for boc as it is for us. ideally, i would have hoped for them to definitively wrap if it’s really done and have a grand send off to the characters and maybe even a special ep as a love letter to the characters. but i do think leading up this weekend some people suspected it was over and this was it, and some people still had hope. i am just gonna look forward to the trailers of their upcoming projects and i will very likely check out the mileapo movie in theatres when it drops. but as for everything else, we just gotta wait and see im afraid 💕

[darkbloodmoon]

hi I was just searching stuff on tumblr and came across an old anon ask you answered about sooha, you mentioned you didn't know much about wattpad!sooha, so I just came here to say it's the most amazing version of her, she's not a pick me at all, like the in the very beginning the AUTHORS make sure to emphasize she's different, and even so they don't even make it seem like she's better than others bc of that, she's just different and that's it, but anyways, I guess this is why some people might say she is a pick me, but that's not how she sees herself, she honestly just wishes to be "normal" like everyone else

and for real, i love wattpad!sooha so much, she helps the boys a lot and doesn't depends on them that much, she punched heli once on accident and also saved solon from some bad vampires, she's sassy in a good way and she's so so so cool, pls read the wattpad version if you can (if you cant pay for it there's people sharing it on twitter) it's totally worth it I promise, everything its so more developed there, the story doesn't even focus on sooha that much, it's really interesting to see it, like she's still the main reason why a lot of things happen, but the boys also have their own highlights in it yk?? and you get to see so much of their relationship with each other, you can really see they're brothers aaa

anyways sorry for the long text, hope you have a good day

hello! yes i did read the wattpad (on twitter cause im not gonna pay for it--) and she is hella cool!! i... really need to reread from, maybe chapter 40(?) cause i kinda forgot what happened there.

i like both versions of sooha and i like how their childhoods kinda line up with how different they are -- webtoon!sooha was always ostracized as a kid which made her a little more shy (but it seems like she's more comfy with the boys which i love to see <33), but wattpad!sooha seems like she's always been confident.

[pesterloglog]

Roxy Lalonde, Rose Lalonde, Kanaya Maryam, Dave Strider

Act 6, page 7493-7496

ROXY: haha im sorry

ROSE: Sorry about what?

ROXY: for stammering an all being an agog grinning idiot

ROXY: i just cannot....

ROXY: actually believe u are real and here and alive and not dying and so am i!

ROXY: here with u i mean + sharin all those mentioned attributes

ROSE: I can't believe it either!

ROXY: i have so much to say...

ROXY: i think???

ROXY: even though i cant think of the stuff atm

ROSE: I know what you mean.

ROXY: i hope its ok if i just sit near u not bein 'specially articulate for a bit

ROSE: That is more than ok.

ROSE: As long as you are willing to similarly excuse the spectacular demise of my capacity for artful self-expression.

ROXY: omg!!!!

ROXY: ahahah youre dirk!

ROXY: wow wow i just caught it wow wow wow!

ROXY: you sound SO much like him oh my GOD thats too perf and cute :3

ROSE: Dirk?

ROXY: hahah i cant get over it now i cant unhear it...

ROXY: even your voice sounds kinda like his but its just... girl dirk

ROXY: lmao wow yes <3

ROSE: He sounds like a hell of a guy.

ROXY: ohh u have noo idea

ROSE: Well, I'm told he should be arriving here in a little while.

ROSE: If he's anything like Dave's late older brother, and if he's anything like me, which he apparently is, then this is when I'm guessing the real party will begin.

ROXY: im redy <|:)

ROSE: I want to know things about him.

ROSE: Such as, if he shares his elder counterpart's avarice for soft puppet ass.

ROSE: And if that, combined with his myriad, vaguely unsettling psychological peculiarities, could occupy a dedicated team of therapists for years.

ROXY: the answer is yes and yes

ROSE: Hmm.

ROSE: Knowing this amuses me, for some reason.

ROSE: But mainly, there are things I want to know about you.

ROSE: I presume there will be plenty of time later to hound my biological father for the dirt on his proclivities.

ROXY: whatta ya wanna know about me?

ROSE: Everything!

ROSE: I think the main difficulty in deciding what to ask is in sifting questions I would have for my mother, that is to say, the woman who raised me, from the questions I have for you.

ROXY: well i didnt raise u or anything but i can sincerely take a crack at both kindsa questions

ROSE: Ok.

ROSE: Do...

ROSE: You really like wizards?

ROXY: rose

ROSE: Yes?

ROXY: rose

ROXY: rooose

ROSE: ...

ROXY: i fucken

ROXY: LOVE

ROXY: wizzards

ROSE: I see.

ROSE: As odd as it sounds, that actually does go pretty far in letting me know something about both of you.

ROXY: oh?

ROSE: My relationship with her was complicated.

ROSE: But I've come to see that as mostly my fault. I was too young to understand her.

ROXY: i never even got the chance to misunderstand my mom

ROXY: or grownup you

ROXY: or... i mean i didnt get to misunderstand her IN PERSON

ROXY: more like as a legendary figure

ROXY: cause i grew up 400 years after she died

ROSE: Ah, right.

ROSE: I think I'm going to have to call the contest early. Yours is the more interesting biography, by quite a lot.

ROXY: not really!

ROXY: not to me at least... i was lonely

ROXY: i thought about her a lot to pass the time

ROXY: she was p amazing at least according to history

ROXY: she wrote hella books about wizards and rode a genocidal fat man down a waterfall of blood

ROSE: She wrote hella books about wizards?

ROXY: yeh!

ROXY: they were famous n good and everything

ROSE: It sounds like I fumbled into the wrong line of work.

ROSE: There's no money in this Sburb business.

ROSE: Well, there is. It just comes in incredibly stupid denominations, which are not particularly useful.

KANAYA: Do You Have Copies Of These Books

ROXY: ummmm yes!

ROXY: yes i do there are copies back on my planet

ROXY: assuming john didnt retcon them away like a book thiefin sneak!

KANAYA: I Would Really Love To Read Them Some Time If You Wouldnt Mind

ROXY: no not at all!

ROSE: By the way, this is Kanaya.

ROSE: Sorry for the combination of bad manners and general dumbfoundedness which precluded a more timely introduction.

KANAYA: Hello

ROXY: hey!

ROXY: thats a nice name and also ur pretty

KANAYA: Thank You

KANAYA: I Admire The Aesthetics Of Your Name And Appearance As Well And In No Small Part Due To Their Respective Similarity To Your Daughters

ROXY: wow man that was somehow both a convoluted thing to say yet smooth as hell

ROXY: m impressed

ROSE: Welcome to Maryam City, population, a whole lot of great remarks like that.

ROXY: but yes ill get u those books!

ROXY: theyre great they made me wanna write my own wizard books

ROSE: Did you?

ROXY: errr

ROXY: yeah sorta :\

ROSE: Could I read them?

ROXY: ummmm

ROSE: Hey, you got to read mine!

ROXY: yeah but u were like an old pro when u wrote yours!

ROXY: they are freaking MASTERPIECE WIZARDFICS!!!

ROXY: they won pulizters and shit

ROSE: Did they really??

ROXY: um idk probably?

ROSE: Oh.

ROXY: i dunno they are just vry vry good

ROXY: so the ancient prize scholars im sure were like, dude these wizards

ROXY: are vry vry fucking good

ROXY: give them all the awards, then shut down the awards, but not cuz of the looming apocalypse, just cuz u literally cannot do better than these wizards

ROSE: I can live with that.

ROSE: It's always been one of my professional goals to write tales of magical men so provocative, they would cause the permanent and unceremonious dissolution of at least one prestigious award.

ROXY: so yeah i dunno i guess u can see

ROXY: but its a pale ghost of a story compared to ur stuff and its also um kinda weird?

ROSE: I like weird!

ROXY: yeah

ROXY: just... your opinion means a lot to me & im nervous u might think it sucks!

ROSE: But I never even wrote the masterpieces you read.

ROSE: I think you may have a view of my abilities which I haven't earned yet.

ROSE: Really, I'm not that good.

ROSE: I have my own story drafts which you can read if you like.

ROSE: They're nothing special, frankly.

ROXY: o really??

ROXY: aw man ok then that sounds fun! :)

KANAYA: If During Your Manuscript Exchange You Need Someone To Read Over Your Shoulder

KANAYA: Say

KANAYA: To Proofread

KANAYA: Or

KANAYA: To Purge Each Sentence Of Punctuation And Capitalize The First Letter Of Every Word

KANAYA: Id Be Happy To Volunteer

KANAYA: Strictly Professionally Of Course And Not Because I Really Want To Read Your Wizard Things Too

KANAYA: (I Really Want To Read Your Wizard Things Too I Hope Thats Okay)

ROXY: hahaha yeah sure its ok!

ROXY: kanaya sorry me and rose are babbling away here to each other we dont mean to be excluding you

KANAYA: Its Fine I Am Thoroughly Enjoying My Role As A Spectator

KANAYA: I Know That Rose Has Been Looking Forward To This A Lot

KANAYA: And That She Received Similarly Vicarious And Politely Passive Enjoyment From The Interactions I Had With My Ancestor

KANAYA: So Now I Will Just Resume The Politely Passive Part Of It Ha Ha

ROXY: u dont gotta!

ROXY: jump in whenever you feelin it! :D

ROXY: i love meeting new trolls

ROXY: well at least when theyre not evil or somethin

ROXY: love them not evil trolls

ROXY: like the cranky one over there in rad ruby shades

KANAYA: Terezi

ROXY: yeah shes a boss

KANAYA: Thats A Pretty Fair Way To Describe The Attitude Of Anyone Higher Than Me On The Hemospectrum

KANAYA: But Yes You Are Right

ROXY: oh also

ROXY: lest we forget dear fefeta

KANAYA: Fefeta

KANAYA: Do You Mean

KANAYA: Feferi?

ROXY: no fefeta!!!

ROXY: she was a dear precious soul

KANAYA: Hmm

ROXY: she was my sprite

ROXY: guess she never happened in this version of stuff though?

ROXY: dang

ROXY: thats sad but maybe not quite as sad as her existing then exploding?

ROXY: im confuse

ROXY: wonder what even else is different...

ROSE: Well, you died too.

ROXY: i did?

ROSE: Yes, while pushing me out of the way of a fork.

ROSE: So, thank you for that, retroactively. And... to a different version of you.

ROXY: jeez

ROXY: yeah i... had a really similar thing happen in my timeline...

ROXY: also involving a fork

ROXY: and even tho youre ok now its still almost too sad to even talk about

ROSE: Yeah.

ROSE: We didn't get to exchange even a single word before you were gone.

ROSE: All I could think was, "How can this be happening again?"

ROSE: Luckily the sense of misery was short lived, though.

ROSE: It wasn't long before I was informed the incident was part of something bigger taking shape.

ROSE: And that John was on his way with a different version of you.

ROSE: I had no idea what "a different version" actually entailed, but I wasn't about to quibble.

ROSE: I was so relieved.

ROXY: same

ROXY: altho...

ROXY: instead of waiting for you to come back i had to jump thru all these hoops with john

ROXY: and went through some uh

ROXY: different stuff

ROXY: i uh

ROXY: i MAY have thrown an impromptu funeral for your alt-u dead body :o

ROSE: You did?

ROXY: yup

ROXY: sorry if that sounds weird

ROXY: and i knew i was comin to meet a new version of you

ROXY: but

ROXY: it helped me

ROXY: with like

ROXY: feelings about people i left behind

ROSE: A funeral...

ROSE: Wow, that,

ROXY: ?

ROSE: Sorry for this, if it comes off as odd, but,

ROSE: That is so "mom" of you.

ROXY: oh yea?

ROSE: M-hm.

ROXY: hehe

ROXY: i like your mom!

ROSE: Me too.

ROSE: I don't mean to be too analytical about getting to know you, really.

ROSE: I guess comparisons are little hard for me to avoid, since the adult version of you played such a significant role in my life.

ROSE: So I can't help seeing the similarities when they are there.

ROSE: But also you are so clearly your own person, shaped by your own experiences, and that is the person I would prefer to get to know, rather than a young avatar for the memory of a departed parent.

ROSE: Yet this is the context which somewhat inescapably colors my perception of what you reveal.

ROSE: So while some observations are in the vein of predictable, charmingly so, mind you...

ROSE: Others I regard as surprising.

ROXY: what about me is surprising?

ROSE: Well.

ROSE: You aren't,

ROSE: You don't quite seem like a person who...

ROSE: Er.

ROXY: .....?

ROSE: I don't want to ask anything that would sound rude to you, or spiteful to her.

ROSE: Because I don't feel that conflicted about this anymore.

ROSE: Particularly since I had my own troubles with it. So it would be pretty hypocritical.

ROXY: conflicted about what?

ROSE: Let me back up a little.

ROSE: It was a long ride on that meteor.

ROSE: One experiences things over a few years, given a lot of time to think. Changes and such.

ROSE: About half way through, I started thinking more...

ROSE: About mom. And about you.

ROSE: Knowing that I'd probably meet you, and. I don't know. Live up to the experience?

ROSE: It's silly, but I'm guessing you understand what I mean.

ROXY: :)

ROSE: Basically, I was just nervous.

ROSE: And it was all mixed up with feelings of conflict and remorse over my mother.

ROSE: Who, to my hazy preteen recollection, never wasted a day in my life on sobriety.

ROSE: She and her habit put all those days to quite effective use, actually.

ROSE: And I don't even quite remember the thought process that led to this, but,

ROSE: I sort of ran with it too?

ROSE: The habit, I mean. For a while at least.

ROSE: I was still distraught about losing her. And wanted to understand her.

ROSE: To connect with her, in some way. And I guess that was the only idea I had.

ROSE: And on some level, I think connecting with her was also a way of preparing myself to meet you...

ROSE: Even though that probably makes no sense.

ROSE: Since you aren't literally her, and don't share all her...

ROSE: I guess I shouldn't speak for you, though.

ROXY: so youre sayin

ROXY: youre surprised im unlike her in that way cause i dont seem like someone whod get drunk off her ass all the time?

ROSE: Um-

ROXY: hahahaha

ROXY: well i guess i should be flattered if u rly think so buttttt

ROXY: wrong

ROSE: So... you,

ROXY: my storys kind of like yours!

ROXY: i had a mom i never knew and wanted to feel close to her however i could

ROXY: i grew up MOSTLY unsupervised in her old old house

ROXY: and it had all this old stuff in it plus some old booze squirrelled away here and there

ROXY: aaand i just uhhh started up even tho i was WAY too young for shit like that WHOOPS....

ROXY: and like i said it was a bit lite on discipline round then, its not like a buncha silly pumpkin eaters were gonna stop me

ROSE: Pumpkin eaters?

ROXY: chess guys

ROXY: loads of them

ROSE: !

ROXY: but yeah i wanted to be like her and do what she did but mostly just made a hot catastrophe of myself

ROXY: i doubt that is what she wanted

ROXY: at the time it seemed like a cool thing a real intellectual an mysterious book celebrity would do while also leading a badass and secretly subversive life in opposition of tyranny

ROXY: but

ROXY: i think what is more likely is

ROXY: she knew the whole world would end and everyone would die no matter what she did

ROXY: which was probly hard to live with

ROXY: idk if i can blame the old lady for wantin to get a WEE bit sauced after a couple of rapping clowns won a presidential election

ROSE: Yeah, I...

ROSE: Wait, what?

ROSE: Clowns?

ROXY: long story

ROXY: bad story

ROXY: plz continue

ROSE: Ok. Yes, I'm sure my mother knew the end was coming too.

ROSE: Knowing that helped put a lot of her behavior in context for me. I was always too young to understand.

ROXY: poor moms :(

ROXY: poor poor adult dead sexy lady us :( :(

ROSE: Truth.

ROXY: but anyway

ROXY: back to... us!

ROXY: kid alive sexy lady us

ROSE: Yes.

ROSE: It sounds like your Rose had an incredible career, but all things considered, I prefer being kid alive sexy lady me.

ROXY: agree

ROXY: i know what you mean about being nervous

ROXY: about meeting you i mean

ROXY: maybe nervous isnt quite right but

ROXY: when i started thinking about meeting u is when i started thinkin...

ROXY: i should try being not QUIIITE such a mess

ROXY: so i started takin the idea of cleaning up my act more seriously

ROSE: Ultimately, I concluded the same thing.

ROSE: I decided it wouldn't be a very dignified way to make an entrance.

ROSE: Or for that matter, a very constructive way to help out in a struggle to preserve reality.

ROSE: Luckily, I was able to cut it out a while ago. I admit, it wasn't easy.

ROSE: But it helped a lot to have people around looking out for me.

ROSE: *Poke.*

KANAYA: ...

KANAYA: *Sits Poked*

ROXY: yeah i had friends help me too!

ROXY: i couldnta done it w/o them either

ROSE: I never had "IRL" friends before this trip.

ROSE: It's interesting to observe the various ways they apply themselves to your benefit.

ROSE: Some people are around to make you feel like you're worth sticking with, even when you fuck up.

ROSE: And some people are around to kick your ass to make sure you don't.

ROXY: haha

ROXY: i think i had to play the latter role to my friends a lot

ROXY: and also to myself i guess

ROXY: who kicked your ass

ROXY: was it the yelly guy over there?

ROSE: No, Karkat was mostly preoccupied with his own... shenanigans.

ROSE: The yelling is deceptive. He's a rather private person.

ROSE: Vriska, however.

ROSE: She really is quite an extravagant bitch.

ROXY: lmao

ROSE: But it turns out people like that tend to have some convenient assets.

ROSE: Such as, the sheer force of personality to keep a bunch of idiots from falling apart.

ROSE: Don't get me wrong. It's quite annoying.

ROSE: But... useful.

ROXY: yeaaah

ROXY: i probably should have been more of a bitch to all my peeps

ROXY: maybe we wouldnt have gone to jail and died

ROSE: Let it be a lesson to us all.

ROXY: seriously tho

ROXY: is so nice hearin ur stories

ROXY: especially the similarities of stuff we experienced

ROXY: wizards and writing and mom stuff and even bad things we went through

ROXY: and obviously were similar by dna and all

ROXY: but even so

ROXY: it still feels comforting

ROXY: that even if u flip the universe upside down and change it all around

ROXY: pull us apart by centuries, kill humans off, flood the world

ROXY: were still connected to each other

ROXY: in a mysterious way that goes beyond genes and circumstance

ROXY: and that i think is some tight frickin noise to consider

ROSE: I'm considering it right now, and yes.

ROSE: That noise... it is SO tight.

ROXY: :')

ROSE: :')

KANAYA: :')

DAVE: hey what are we all talking about over here

ROSE: Damn it, Dave.

[noturaverageceleste]

Writing Class Thoughts

Really had to listen to poems about sports. This class is too long. I want food. I've been so mindlessly hungry lately. I think I'm just bored. I need to channel this energy into getting job interviews. The scheduling has me fucked up though. I'm going home in less than a week. But just to visit. I do have my class schedule planned out for next semester so I guess I could apply for that scedule and wait for a job next semester. I think that would do. I gotta ask my parents about it. I'm out of money now. I only have a month and a half left for this semester but I have no income and my bank acounts are pretty much dry. I need to find another way to make it through this next month and a half before going home for the holidays and working for 3 weeks. So much on my mind. I'm having issues being present recently. It's just not fun right now. I'm glad I got everything out of the way and don't have much work left here. But damn, I just eating my boredom away and just playing sims. I am acting like I'm on break but i'm not. I need to get back to reality.

My god this class is bleak. These poems are so boring. sorry to the class but these poems don't make sense. So far, only one was great but I couldn't say anything cause I would just be repeating everyone else. It was that good!

This bitch is such an INCEL! Asexual queen I guess. This school need more expereince. How did I end up n a school full of socially awkward horny nerds? Was this my energy in high school? the way i was out here hooking up with dudes in the basement of the school says otherwise. wtf?

I LOVE THIS KID! HE'S SO THEATRICAL! Go off king! read ya own poem to the class! I know he knows he ate! He should voice the new hunger games film good lord! Voice acting skills on point! Read me to sleep on audible king! Only nerdy kid at this school i respect! not true. I respect them all. But still! Go off king!

The way my professor didn't know what his poem was about bahahahahaha. Man poured his heart out in this damn poem and he says "yea i had to google that" bahahahahahaha I love this class.

THIS MAN ON HIS WEEB SHIT IM DEAD! THIS SHIT ABOUT A DAMN VIDEO GAME! GO OFF KING! I SEE YOU!

I can't focus on this shit. Like I really can't. I think this class is just not working for me. These people annoy me. Not even everyone just a select view. Their energy is so low vibrational. These people need healing.

Interesting how asexual people exist. But there is a difference etween asexual and a-romantic. It's funny how people tend to put the two together. I think that asexual people can have romantic love but just don't know how to have that because society makes us think that all romance is sexual. It's not. Love is love and can be expressed in so many ways. I hope that girl in my class finds that. Someone she can love romantically but not have to be sexual with. That's almost every girls dream I feel. Not mine though. Give me the sexual experience!

"Sexual heallinnggg"

Is this about someone on their period??

Bitch you are a body huh? I bet a man wrote this.

This actually a good poem. damn. I spoke too soon. That's the thing with poetry. I need to read it multiple times in a row in order to get it.

I think I know who's poem this is. She over there smiling and twirling her hair. She's nice. Despite how annoying she is, she's very smart and bright and has a sharp mind. She notices more than she says too. I just know it. Very introspective. But damn she can talk ya ear off and be hella annoying. Oversharing queen.

wow! leaving class early once again. This class chill. I take back all my negative thoughts. Sike! All feelings are valid!

I fucking knew it was her!

Damn did this asexual bitch take a nap somewhere? good lord! these kids just out here sleeping in the library. Ghetto! go shower queen.

Wow I need to chill. Bout to get my free bread tho heheheheh

yea, this poem was cool. She should do more art. She's way better at it than she thinks. She said she get's told she's a great writer and then she says 'yea i know" go off bitch! Excited to see her presentation tomorrow in our other class.

I always gotta pee the most in these bodycon dresses. Gotta get naked just to pee like why?

[emi-re]

But I need to rant about a good few things so let’s get to it;

1. I’m tired of trying to hard for the attention of guys: lemme explain: usually when I think I start liking someone I tend to like with ny whole heart sometimes and I try hard to get this person to like me, talk to me, message me BUT recently I feel like I’ve been going by the affirmation “I don’t CHASE I ATTRACT” cause tbh I feel like in my country or for my friends and I at least the guys that we are interested in or are interested in us are always either too shy or would never make the first move and I’m fed up of it…they can grow some balls and make the first move. And I have to try my best to do that cause I’m not going to try anything with this guy I this is attractive (there I said it). If it goes no where then it wasn’t meant to be lmao. ✌🏽

2. Friendships: I feel like friends come and go and sometimes I feel like you know when ppl aren’t good for you. Im in a hella competitive field and I feel like there’s ppl who like to make everything a competition due to feel like they do more etc and I fucking hate that…tf you have to make it a competition.

Also along this topic…I feel like if a friend is struggling and openly says something I feel like yo I should try to help them not ghost them. I feel like yes the other party can be struggling with things as well but I feel like you can still talk to each other just so you can get it all out cause for me opening up to you to hear you say “me too” I feel like my therapist friend mode is turned in to help the other friend than to help myself.

Anyway this is all I’m gonna say for now but I’ll be back to rant more

[bemoremuse]

jeremy's cousins with nato from the black suits. roughly 1-2 years apart they find solidarity in being ‘Weird Kids’ (even if jeremy doesnt necessarily like being the Weird Kid). they’re related on his moms side and used to see each other a lot during holidays and family gatherings. but after jeremy’s mom left and went back to long island with her prom king they saw each other less thru the years. they still have each others phone number so they text sssooometimes. nato told jeremy about the battle of the bands so he and michael went to go see them perform. jeremy bought a sticker with their logo and it now sits on his laptop (tho he probably also bought other merch if available cause hes like Yeah!!! The black suits rock!!! i wanna support them!!!). jeremy michael and nato, and prob the rest of the band, have definitely all gotten high together and sang Amphibian at least once. 

[kinnsporsche]

where i’ve been: an explanation

some of y’all might have noticed my activity on this site has been dwindling over the last few weeks and i’ve only really been posting from a queue, i’ll be putting a proper explanation on things under the cut for people who are interested but the tldr is that uh

my uncle was murdered under very suspicious circumstances

none of my family have seen my uncle for years, and i haven’t seen him since i was a little kid - we only know he’d died because my mum was listed as his next of kin which is weird considering that they hadn’t spoken in years and also that uh. most of her brothers (not the uncle in question) beat the shit out of her when she was a kid.

they found his body in the desert in arizona, we think somewhere in pinal county (we weren’t given specifics 🙄) which is, in itself, hella sus. we have no family in america, and they told us that he wasn’t a US citizen, which means he was either a tourist or maybe an illegal immigrant? they didn’t tell us who found him, all they told us is that he was found sitting under a tree somewhere deep enough in the desert that it would have been impossible to walk to given the death date and rate of decomposition, and all he had on him was his passport (how they found my mom) and a ticket to universal. there were no signs of cars around and no abandoned vechicles anywhere in the vicinity. 

we got the coroner’s report back recently and he had no drugs or alcohol in his system, no visible trauma, the rate of decomposition was elevated and his skin was like leather so they listed his cause of death as undetermined and told us that their best guess was that he dehydrated and died. which all just. makes no sense. they told us his body was in an area deep enough he couldn’t walk to, so how did he even get there let alone dead under a tree? 

so now, where we’re at, is that they want us to deal with his body, and to get a body sent back to the UK costs like £4000 which is impossible (my mum’s brothers already said they’re not helping lmao), or the option to bury him in what we would call a paupers grave i guess? so he’d probably be listed as an unclaimed body, but then we lose access to everything - to his body, to information, to closure. so we’re stuck at a standstill pretty much, and it’s just back and forth between my mom and the consulate they assigned to us.

obviously all of this has been really hard on my mum, especially because he was her youngest brother, he was the baby of the family and the thought that he died somewhere out in the middle of the desert alone and afraid is heartbreaking for her and it destroys her whenever she thinks about it too much, so im mostly just taking care of her at the moment. 

all we have now is more questions than answers, and every explanation we come up with just gives us more questions. it’s unlikely we’ll ever find out what happened to him, pinal county seems content to let it go unanswered despite the fact it’s suspicious as hell and there’s hardly anything we can do because we’re in a whole different country (UK) and can’t keep pushing as easily. we really want to know when he entered the country so we can figure out what he was doing there but, at the moment, we literally dont know a thing about him. if we find out, i will keep updated.

whatever happened to him, i hope he’s found some semblance of peace. 😔