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i need to fucking go to bed nobody in the entire world or universe could ever ever ever ever ever understand how overwhelming my love for utdr is its been the most constant hyperfixation/special interest (BOTH!!!!!! AT THE SAME TIME!!!!!!!!!!!) since it came out i have literally not even once lost interest in it or been less fucking insane and like not to go full autistic 13 year old all over again but honest to god it doesnt feel like a single human being on earth could ever ever ever understand how i feel. like i know objectively thats not true but thats still how it feels. my insane batshit fucking autism feelings shouldnt be humanly possible its like ive been touched by the hand of the divine and it allowed me to feel more emotions than any normal human could ever survive. god god god god god god god god
#its too much its too muvh my eyes are gonna be sore and puffy as hell tomorrow caue i cant stop crying and shaking#NOT OUT OF SADNESS!!!!!!!!!! ITS JUST THE MOST INTENSE HYPERFIXATION FEELINGS IVE EXPERIENCED LIKE EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#god god god god god god god god#honest to god feels like im gonna throw up...............................#starting to wonder if i got avian flu from one of the many times ive messed around with dead birds without gloves or something#cause i legitimately feel like im dying#GOD. im sorry for being so fucking ugly cringe i cant help it i know i deserve to be killed with hammers for being so stupid insane#but its just how it is. god im going to gut myself
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happy life, happy wife | hugh jackman
an: âyou attract what you fearâ GUYS IM SO SCARED OF A 55 YEAR OLD AUSTRALIAN đ definitely thinking about making marvel actress!reader x hugh an actual series⌠i have ideas
marvel actress!reader
Deadpool & Wolverine Press tour - Hot Ones
Hugh felt like he was going to die. Each wing was getting hotter and hotter, but immediately when he heard his wifeâs name he forgot all about the spice.
âHugh, your wife is part of the Avengers, how does it feel having your wife be part of such a huge franchise? Have you two talked about a potential team up with the X-men and the Avengers?â Sean asked.
âMy wife . . . Oh god, I think Iâm crying-â
âI canât tell if youâre legitimately dying or completely in love with your wife.â Ryan told Hugh.
âWait . . I am completely in love with my wife and I would legitimately die for her.â Hugh gasped as he rearranged Ryanâs words.
âIs that in the contract she made you sign when you married her? âI vow to die for youâ. My contract said I had to give all my money to my kids and wife.â Ryan said.
âNo, sheâs amazing, um, if I start talking about her I think I might go on for hours,â he laughed. âOur kids do want to see their parents fighting the bad guys together. We would love to team up, maybe it could happen.â Hugh smiled.
âThe entire movie would be them making out and her beating the shit out of you. Iâd pay to see that.â Ryan added.
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Comic Con 2024
Like RDJ, your last Marvel movie had been Avengers: Endgame. After being in ten mcu films, it was time to say goodbye to your character.
But that was in 2019.
At this years comic con, you were back. The cast of Deadpool & Wolverine had taken the stage and showed their appreciation for the fans. After their panel, it was time to announce Marvelâs upcoming projects. Kevin Feige announced the Fantastic Four, Thunderbolts, Captain America 4, and finally the new Avengers movies, which everyone was extremely excited about.
After showing the title card for the upcoming Avengers film, Kevin turned to the audience.
âSomething people have been asking, as of late, is who the heck is going to direct these two movies?â The audience clapped.
From the side of the stage, you were nervous. What if the fans didnât like the idea of you directing the next two Avengers films? Your worrying caused Hugh to come to your rescue.
âHey, they loved you as an Avenger, they will love you even more.â Hugh kissed your forehead. âIf anyone says anything about this decision, they have me to deal with.â
You laughed at his words. âI really love you so much.â
âLove you too, bub.â Hugh was about to kiss you when Ryan cut in.
âI really love us too. I convinced half of the people here that weâre a throuple.â He said in the most serious tone ever.
Kevin announced you as the director. Your doubt of the fans not liking the announcement was proven wrong when you walked the stairs to the stage and stood next to Kevin. They cheered when they saw you were back.
As you said a few words, thanking Marvel, Kevin and the fans, you were being recorded by Hugh, who was being recorded by Ryan.
âThatâs my wife!â Hugh cheered from backstage, holding his phone in his hand.
âSheâs Marvel Jesus now, holy shit!â
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WIRED autocomplete interview
âIs Hugh Jackman married?â
âYes, to me, Y/n, probably to half the population,â Ryan answered. âHeâs Australiaâs biggest slut.â
âAll the times, I proposed.â Hugh laughed. âBut yes, I am married and I love my wife very much. Sheâs stuck with me forever.â He lifted his hand to show off the wedding band.
âFunny, because she texted me right now. Her and Blake are in the courthouse getting married. So Deadpool three was actually made so our wives could divorce us and marry each other.â
#hugh jackman#hugh jackman x reader#hugh jackman imagine#wolverine#marvel actress!reader#wolverine x reader#wolverine fanfiction#hugh jackman fanfic#hugh jackman one shot
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a rumored bastard and a proven, disinherited, legally illegitimate recognized bastard are not the same.
Rhaenyraâs sons are rumored bastards, i know the show has a lot of team green stans feeling bold but just as in the books, they are never legally considered bastards in the show either. they are speculated to be via their physical features and Laenorâs apparent sexuality, but since Laenor and the KING (btw Westeros is a absolute monarchy, meaning the king IS law) both claim all three boys as legitimate heirs, unless someone demands a medieval dna test, those kids are legally Laenorâs true sons.
this is apparently a very hard concept to understand for some, hell even Alicent in the show says something like âwe can all tellâ which fair point, but that is not proof enough. looks, accusations, and rumor are not the same as actual proof of adultery or bastardy.
someone i was having a âdiscussionâ with used Joffrey as an example to point out a flaw in my logic, but ultimately proved my point. Joffrey was a rumored bastard. Ned himself had no more proof than Alicent does, just hair color and a hunch, so Joffrey was never legally disinherited from the line of succession. I hate to defend either of these men but King Robert never publicly disowned him and called him bastard, which is why Joffrey ascended to the Iron Throne. now the rumors did hurt, and caused huge political issues leading to the War of 5 Kings, which is exactly why Alicent and Team Green is so insistent that Rhaenyraâs children are illegitimate, they know they cannot legally or physically prove her children are bastards, especially when Laenor and the King are claiming them are true born, but they can spread the rumor and call into question Rhaenyraâs honesty and morality. think episode 8 when team green takes their chance with Vaemond to attempt a coup of sorts for the Driftmark Throne, why would the succession of Driftmark need to be settled if Rhaenyraâs sons are true born? why would Alicent / Otto need to make this decision in place of the sick king and mia lord of tides who both had already been stating Luke would inherit for years. itâs all apart of the scheme to tarnish Rhaenyraâs reputation as Vaemond has no other proof either, and promptly loses his head (both metaphorically and literally) by calling the recognized heir to the throne a whore and her children bastards with no proof in front of the whole court.
it is a political scheme on both sides, Alicent cannot prove anything, and Rhaenyra cannot disprove the rumors no matter how many times they are claimed as true born sons. Rhaenyra has to live in the comfort the law gives her, as legally her sons are seen as legitimate, and thus legally they are protected. and from an unbiased pov with both in universe and historical references, those kids might be bastards in actually but not legally.
Rhaenyra goes through hell to keep her children legally protected, not only for their sake but for hers because should the truth come out both her and Laenor would be seriously punished, i wouldnât go as far as executed but that would depend on if Viserys was old and bed ridden or dead. which is why im making this incredibly long post repeating myself in every point. you can argue all day about Rhaenyraâs children and their parentage but i am making this to make it clear that her children are not *legally* bastards by Westeros law. in order for Jace, Luke, and Joffrey to be illegitimate bastards Laenor, Rhaenyra, Harwin, and/or Viserys would have to publicly acknowledge them as such and disinherit them. no, Laenor and Viserys dying do not magically make Rhaenyraâs children legal bastards either. they would, again, need to be claimed and proven as such and disinherited.
and at the end of it all, true or not true, the rumors made a lasting impact on the story. so much so this fandom is still debating this topic, and frankly i am dreading the season 2 release when all the bad takes and bad faith arguments start up again.
anyway other famous rumored bastards are in Targ history are:
Maegor
Daeron II
#asoiaf#fire and blood#pro rhaenyra targaryen#show rhaenyra#hotd rhaenyra#book rhaenyra#rhaenyra targeryan#pro rhaenyra#queen rhaenyra#rhaenyra targaryen#princess rhaenyra#jacaerys velaryon#jacaerys targaryen#hotd jacaerys#prince jacaerys#jacaerys strong#pro lucerys velaryon#lucerys velaryon#lucerys targaryen#lucerys valeryon#prince lucerys#hotd lucerys#lucerys strong#lucerys and arrax#joffery velaryon#joffrey velaryon#joffrey targaryen#team black#hotd#house of the dragon
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Watching a video of the "fight Solas" ending and I find myself really disliking the fact that Rook declares that the Veil must be tied to the life of an elven god. It is treated like a fitting punishment for Solas, and even in the redemption ending, Rook all but orders Solas to sacrifice himself to maintain the Veil (or the status quo). I also can't help but feel that Solas, the last of the elven gods, is being sacrificed to maintain the Veil that he, alone, is somehow expected to magically maintain, allowing everyone else to go on their merry way. The implication here is that the elves are losing the last of their history, or pantheon, and this is a GOOD thing, and now we can all move forward and live peacefully. Am I overthinking this? 'Cause if this was the intention it does sound kind of bad.
yeah. i do agree and i dont think you're overthinking. and even if you were, im about to overthink way harder so don't worry. forgive me for getting on my legal philosophy soapbox but thats my whole brand at this point so here we go: it is a very retributive view of punishment and desert (deserved-ness) that i morally disagree with and feels outdated in the political landscape of 2024 to me PERSONALLY!! the foundation of retributive justice is:
(1) that those who commit certain kinds of wrongful acts, paradigmatically serious crimes, morally deserve to suffer a proportionate punishment; (2) that it is intrinsically morally goodâgood without reference to any other goods that might ariseâif some legitimate punisher gives them the punishment they deserve;
obviously this is how much of the western world conceives of punishment and western media is consequently saturated with narratives that espouse this. most of the time, restorative justice is seen as mutually exclusive with retributive justice, though there are some people who say they can be used in tandem. i disagree anyway.
i think solas's endings grapple with these ideas in a way that is... messy. its confusing because we dont actually know if he is truly imprisoned, in the sense that he cannot leave. we know he is in A prison, though its unclear whether its the new regret prison that rook was in, or the black city (epler refused to clarify this during the AMA because of "spoilers", while trick said the implication is he is "going back to the prison", the epilogue slides imply he is in the black/golden city, as does his quest to heal the blight which only exists in the black city). we also do not know what capacity he has to leave. with lavellan or after being "redeemed" by willingly binding himself to the veil, he does not have the lyrium dagger but he does have the capacity to free himself from his regrets (if hes in the regret prison) or heal the blight (if he's in the black city), exemplified by his golden epilogue slides. if he is tricked or fought, he is not in a mental space to overcome his regrets and does not swear to atone by healing the blight, but he does have the lyrium dagger with him, so we can assume he can just use it to leave, the way we literally see him do earlier in the game lol. whatever message they are trying to send with his "punishment", i think it is muddied by the vagueness of what actually happens to him in the end and where he goes.
if the message truly is that he "deserves" to be imprisoned in the fade for his long list of crimes, i find that lazy and nonsensical. first of all, he loves the fade and has been dying to return to it so thats not really a gotcha, but more importantly, which crime warrants this punishment? and is his punishment proportional? this is impossible to answer because we do not know what the punishment truly is. we also dont really even know what crime he's being imprisoned for. taking down the veil? he didnt actually get to do that. are we punishing him for something he didn't do yet? is it for killing varric? sure, i guess that one works. its the strongest of the options we have, but the game is also pretty clear that its not what varric would want. what about all of the other people he has killed? the spirits he sacrifced in that siege on elgar'nans temple? the mages who summoned and corrupted wisdom which he incinerates alive? flemythal and felassan? do they deserve retribution via solas's imprisonment? would they want that? would they find it just and satisfying? the game does not ask these questions. so we dont know. does he deserve to be imprisoned for for what he did to the titans? ok, maybe. this is stronger than the others at least. but in the trick/fight endings he doesnt vow to heal the blight, so what does his imprisonment do for the dwarves and the titans spirits? this is what i mean when i say his imprisonment is retributive, but it is not even thoroughly retributive. it does not think deeply about what solas deserves for his crimes and the proportionality of such a punishment, but it is clear that we are supposed to that he deserves to be in prison, it is morally good that he is receiving "justice", and rook is a hero for imprisoning him. his punishment is presented as a moral good because he deserves it. unfortunately for veilguard, i dont think i would ever be convinced by this message in any narrative anywhere, even if it was better written, because this is not a moral philosophy that i subscribe to.
his redemption endings feel so much better and more satisfying because his vow to use his immortality and knowledge to heal the blight that he created is restorative and has a direct correlation to his crime of creating the blight by tranquilizing the titans in the first place. his imprisonment achieves nothing outside of removing him as a "threat", which is ruined by the fact that he has the dagger and can just leave lol. devoting the next significant portion of his life to alleviating the titans suffering is not just reparative remedy that directly affects the people and creatures he has harmed, it also actively makes the world of thedas a better place. to be clear, im not saying solas is innocent. he is guilty. of a lot of things. he bears responsibility for a lot of things. he would qualify as a war criminal. but i do not believe in retributive justice. veilguard having solas kill varric because trespasser made me sympathize with him "too much" is not going to make me believe in retributive justice. for the non-atonement imprisonment endings to feel satisfying you have to subscribe to this ideology of moral desert and punishment and a lot of people do. the entire american carceral system is founded on it. so is christianity. and bioware clearly subscribes to it as well. you might disagree with me and subscribe to it yourself. thats fine. but i believe it has caused a lot of harm to our world and continues to do so. seeing it manifested in media is always disappointing to me.
regardless of the technicalities of his imprisonment, his binding to the veil is the one thing that happens regardless of his ending, and i agree that it is icky for similar reasons. the veil is his responsibility, as is the blight which he will be keeping contained with his life, so i guess you can interpret it as proportional? but again, what crime is he paying for with binding his life to the veil? is he not paying for a crime at all? is binding his life to the veil even part of his punishment? or is it just something he has to do because he's the only person alive that can do it? if that is the case, that it has to be him because he is the only proper sacrifice, and not that he deserves it, then what does it say about rook that they sacrifice someone undeserving? if he is deserving, why exactly? if he wasn't the only elven god left alive, would he still be deserving of such a fate? if the answer is no, then he does not deserve to be bound. what gives rook the right to make this call? based on the convo they have before the ending where they plan to bind him to the veil, its not clear if rook binds him because they think he deserves to be bound to one of his greatest regrets, or because he's quite literally the only option. either way, i think there is an argument for it being cruel, and unearned coming from someone like rook, who really has barely been a victim of solas's sins outside of a 2 week time-out. literally harding binding him would've been far more satisfying. or imagine if fragment mythal went rogue and did it, or morrigythal did. mythal would not be justified either but at least it would be fucking banger and evil and interesting of her. anyway.
i think your point about what it means for the elves to lose their final living god, outside of mythal who is [redacted] ? is a fantastic point. through solas's binding, they also lose the veil-less future he represented that was promised to be a better world for them. would it really have been? probably not. solas clearly thinks so. but we will never know lol. the failure of the story to grapple with the dissolution of the elves entire belief system is one of its most egregious ones, and i think this is a symptom of it. dragon age's elven lore got itself into a weird spot by veilguard and i think they just abandoned it rather than attempting to write themselves out of it. i love stories that grapple with the average person's culpability as complacent in imperialism. this is part of why fullmetal alchemist is my fav story of all time and you should watch it (fullmetal alchemist:brotherhood on hulu please im begging. but you have to watch the "brotherhood" one not the other one. its complicated dont ask). veilguard seemed to want to do something like this, but they got themselves into weird spot with the elves because their evil, slavery-based empire is a thing of the distant past, and in the present they are systemically oppressed and have no social or political power.
usually in these sorts of stories, someone currently living in an imperialist society who is directly benefiting from that imperialism is confronted with their complacency and asked to rise to the occasion of standing up for what is right, despite their material best interest. they often sacrifice their privilege as a benefactor of imperialism in the present to attempt to make up for the evils that system has inflicted on others. fmab does a wonderful job of this. there is at once both an acknowledgement that no, this is not literally YOUR FAULT, you did not order a genocide or press the nuke button, but you have benefited from it and/or participated every day of your life, whether that is through the stolen land you live on, the fact that you have never seen war in your home country, the way you can buy whatever fruit you want at the grocery store any time of year, or the way your tax dollars fund the bombs being dropped on children thousands of miles away, and you do have a moral obligation to do whatever you can to fight back. i believe this is a very important lesson for the average american (and canadian since we are talking about bioware), and anyone that lives in an imperialist country, that a lot of people have not yet learned ... lol.
this feels along the lines of what veilguard was going for (or maybe they werent and this was accidental, idk which is worse), but it fails because the elves are not currently benefiting from their past empire, like at all. actually, they live in squalor and at risk of constant violence from human empires. they have experienced centuries of genocide, violence and slavery at this point in modern thedas. the imperialistic success of the elvhen empire has absolutely no bearing on their current lives, it provides them with no privilege, and it gives them no culpability in its evils. they are thousands of years removed from it. and its not like "oh the british empire was dissolved 50 years ago so imperialism is over" no. because britain's wealth and power are a direct result of that imperialism, thus they do still benefit from it presently, even if the "official empire" is dissolved. this is true for most empires. but with the elves of thedas, they have none of the power or privilege that the elvhen empire accrued through its evils. if anything, it is tevinter that benefits most from the lost elven empire considering how much of their society is founded on its technology, and the fact that. you know. they are currently, modernly, presently an empire based on slavery. OF ELVES. so why, then, does veilguard present the elves as culpable? why does the angry titan harding creature say they are "thriving" at the titans expense? why does bellara take personal responsibility for the evils that elgar'nan and ghilan'nain commit when she had nothing to do with them? the messaging with this is so strange. it would make sense if elves were still the ruling class but... they're not. the only remnants of the empire that they have access to is their own bodies... which are systemically, bought, sold, and mutilated. though the game does erase much of the racism they face in what i can only assume was an attempt to make this work.
the combo of this + solas's trick/fight endings for what is fundamentally, according to this game itself, a desire for a better world for elves and spirits, no matter if it is misled or his methods are violent, is a depressing, bleak message that i find to be irresponsible to be sending in 2024 and considering the real world groups of people that elves are based on, most notably of the dalish as indigenous north americans. veilguard sees elves lose not just their understanding of their past, dissolving their entire worldview, their conception of their cultural identity, and their relationship to their religion, all without sufficient (or any) exploration of how devastating such a process would be, but by imprisoning solas, erasing his followers and supporters from existence, and binding him to the veil, it also robs them of the possibility of a more just future... while asking you to cheer because he deserved it. dont try to make the world a better place unless you do it the right way. work with the world as it is. your attachment to the past (when you werent being genocided regularly) is a disease. you deserve to go to jail because you tried to change the world in a way that that was too disruptive. get over it! move on! rot in jail!
#thanks for prompting this anon xoxo#didnt expect to write today but it came out of me like it always does#veilguard critical#character analysis#mine.txt
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came across this screenshot of a tweet on pinterest and i couldnât help but headcanon making it through the twd apocalypse because of a painfully obvious crush on daryl.
twd headcanon: obviously crushing on an oblivious daryl dixon.
giggling in the distance while daryl dixon is in the middle of killing walkers, âugh heâs so cute when he does thatâ
kicking your feet sitting up in a tree going âhiiiii daryllllll! <3 whatcha doinnnâ and heâs like â???â cause youâre legitimately surrounded by now dead walkers and covered in blood
very sunshine x grumpy coded
whispering to maggie âoh my god do you think he was checking me out?â in the middle of a battle
âdoes this top look cute on me?â âwhat do you think is his type?â âshould i maybe start smoking so we can go on smoke breaks togetherâ
reminding yourself youâre a grown woman with composure and dignity when you find yourself wanting to scream into your pillow, because this daryl crush is so frustrating and heâs just so hot and his arms are so perfect and the way his voice makes you want to climb him right then and there-
wanting to be all mysterious and cool around him but itâs like the spirit of your teenage self possesses you whenever heâs around
subtly standing riiigghhhtttt behind him so rick pairs you together for supply runs then fist-pumping to yourself when it works
rick pretends not to notice. he pairs both of you up on purpose everytime
if he helps you up, you hold on to his hand for longer than you need to, in what you think is a subtle way but everyone notices
while almost dying, âfuck, can someone make sure my hair looks good before daryl sees me? rosita PLEASE im your FRIEND stop messing with my wound and fix my HAIRhdhwhrjueâ
âmaggie if i pass out can you please do me a favour and make sure daryl is the one who carries me? <3 oooh do you think he knows how to do cpr-â
*in the middle of killing walkers* wow daryl!!! *slash* that was *stab* a great shot!
daryl being ultimately clueless about your flirting and genuinely just thinks youâre being friendly
carol having to tell him âdaryl sheâs in love with you itâs so obviousâ
and he denies it ânah she acts that way towards everyoneâ even if he secretly wishes it was true
carol wanting to smack him on the head because everyone knows youâre head over heels for daryl dixon except for daryl dixon
when youâre caught in a herd, you force yourself to keep going because thereâs no way in hell youâre going to die surrounded by walkers. in your dazed state youâre thinking âfuck this shit im tracking dixon down and im gonna use my last breath to tell him i love himâ
and maybe dying in his arms sounds better than being ripped apart by reanimated corpses so you keep pushing yourself
when you make it home you basically just throw yourself at the gates and everyone rushes over to get you to the infirmary
you couldâve sworn you heard maggie yell at daryl to carry you but youâre too out of it to process the thought
bleeding out and feeling yourself fading but then you hear darylâs voice
âcome on, y/n, youâre a fighter. you gotta make it through this. i know you can. please, you have to.â
itâs a miracle how instantly that makes you open your eyes when you were seconds away from death just before that
bringing you flowers and random little gifts while youâre healing up in bed but only putting them next to you when youâre asleep because heâs too shy
him not used to the days being so quiet without you being two steps behind him
finding himself missing your ridiculous quips when heâs on a supply run killing walkers and having to fill the silence with your voice in his head, recalling all the things you regularly say to him, because it feels too weird without you
being so attentive to your needs when you feel good enough to be out and about
daryl feeling much, much better when youâre back to being yourself and the days feel normal again with you going âhiiiiii darryyylllll <3â
carol: sheâs in love with you.
daryl: she ainât. stop it.
carol: fine! but you canât deny youâre in love with her
whole thing is very reminiscent of a high school crush; innocent, bashful, endearing. everyoneâs so entertained by The Daryl and Y/N Show
they have a bet going on to see who asks who out first
daryl asking maggie if what carol tells him is true, trying and failing to be casual about it
very shrill âhe WHAT?!?â scream heard from your room, just minutes after the exchange
âTELLMEEVERYTHINGHESAID-â
#the walking dead#the walking dead imagines#daryl dixon x reader#the walking dead headcanons#carol peletier#maggie rhee#rosita espinosa#rick grimes#in my head this is during alexandria era#divider by cafekitsune
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alternatively i might turn off gate karma requirements JUST to get into pebbles and shelter and immediately turn it off LOL
underhang going so bad that im actually considering going all the way to chimney canopy instead
#feels so icky. like i DO want to do this legitimately#but ive spent like 2 hours in this One small area at this point. and half the times im dying arent even my fault#because the bomb jump input is fuckin scuffed#text#fish plays rw#maybe ill do the gate thing. and then later ill come back to underhang and do it for real. like from the other side or something#cause i DO want to do it but im so sick of being stuck here
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I think I'm actually going clinically insane over the reverse "you wear fine things well" scene because 1) if Ed looked at me Like That it would be game over I would literally do anything he asked me up to and including throwing myself overboard I literally do not know how Stede didn't legitimately spontaneously combust the second Ed turned those eyes on him 2) GNOSSIENNE NO.5 FINALLY BEING USED THIS SEASON AS A JOYOUS MARKER OF ED AND STEDE'S LOVE FOR EACH OTHER AS GOD INTENDED THIS IS NOT A DRILL HOLY SHIT 3) THEIR FUCKIN!!!!!!!! COY TEENAGER SHY LITTLE SHUFFLE TOWARDS EACH OTHER RIGHT BEFORE THEY KISS!!!!!! THE WAY STEDE EVEN LOOKS AWAY FOR A SECOND BEFORE LOOKING BACK AT ED AND ED'S TINIEST LITTLE SMIRK BEFORE THEY BOTH LEAN IN WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 4) the way they grab each other's arm during the initial kiss I'm so sick to my stomach 5) THE MOON Y'ALL!!!!!!!!!!!! IT'S NORMAL!!!!!!!!!!! BECAUSE THIS ISN'T A MOONLIGHT FANTASY OR AN INFATUATION THAT FEELS LARGER THAN LIFE BUT BURNS OUT QUICKLY!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS REAL AND IT'S RAW AND IT'S VULNERABLE AND IT'S GONNA LAST BECAUSE THIS NEW CHAPTER OF THEIR RELATIONSHIP IS BEING FOUNDED ON DOING EVERYTHING THEY CAN TO NOT LET THIS PRECIOUS THING THEY'VE FOUND WITH EACH OTHER TURN INTO ANOTHER WHIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM LITERALLY GOING TO START FEROCIOUSLY CLIMBING THE WALLS 6) hoooooooly fuck the way stede inhales and grasps Ed's neck like he's a man lost at sea dying of dehydration and Ed is the first sip of cool clean water he's had in months im ill im so so so so ill 7) ED'S LITTLE SHUFFLE AFTER ASKING STEDE TO TAKE IT SLOW SIR IM BEGGING YOU TO STOP BEING SO ADORABLE it's causing me to develop a heart condition 8) stede's quiet "huh, okay đ" after Ed busts out his fish wanting to get caught metaphor he's literally so charmed by Ed it seeps into everything he does 9) WEHN THYE!!!!!!!! HOODL AHNDS!!!!!!!!!!! HAND TOCUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 10) the way Ed is staring stede DIRECTLY in the eyes as he says "this? perfect" my vision is going black 11) SHUT IP SHUT UP SHUT UPPPPPPP THEIR SILLY LITTLE HAND HOLDING GAME AND STEDE WHUSPERING "you won đĽ°" AND ED'S BLUSHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SMILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AS HE LOOKS AWAY AND PATS STEDE'S HANDS BEFORE TELLING HIM A COOL FACT HE LEARNED TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY! ARE! LITERALLY! TEENAGERS! FALLING! IN! LOVE! FOR! THE! FIRST! TIME! EVER! oh I am in desperate need of medical attention after this one fellas I can tell this is going to have extremely long lasting and far reaching effects on my already severely compromised psyche
#ofmd#our flag means death#blackbonnet#gentlebeard#ofmd s2#edward teach#stede bonnet#ofmd s2 spoilers
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hi itâs degen anon
cai has been too much i swear, im currently getting divorced from my husband childe itâs a lot 𼚠but hope you like!!!
childe really doesnât understand like women thinking theyâre better than him? like heâs not a messy gymnast or whatever you call it but he just feels like he better than most people women included, i mean his bloodlust started when he would get his ass handed to him by skirk. but thatâs besides the point he loves strong women but the best thing about strong women is making them weak. psychologically, mentally emotionally he is versed i all forms of battle so no matter what era or even area he loves to find strong women and take them down a peg.
21st century girlboss business woman? did you mean barefoot wife with 6 kids? sick ass sword wielding hero whose slain dragons? you mean that witch who is now in the safe hands of childe her husband? he really has done it all, but once he does it itâs boring? but you were different.
itâs not like you really had anything going for yourself, a broke college student who works to barely make enough to stay on campus. he never thought of you for a second until he spoke to you. he wasnât even trying but as you rung his cigarettes through the register you were very nervous and anxious but that could be normal. he obviously knows heâs attractive but the fact that you wouldnât make eye contact was surprising, you passed him the bag and looked away immediately. so cute. itâs almost like you wanted him to get to know you (heâs delusional.)
he had a plan for you but it was going to be way easier, well it wouldâve been if you just admitted you liked him. he works at your school because he knows your daddy issues leave you with no parental figures to tell you not to trust him. youâre obviously not the smartest cause your you use a very similar email to your school one for your little sites. heâs practically giving what you want on a silver platter but here you are actually doing schoolwork? (if you fail his class you have to do another year.) he sees you come into his office after hours thinking youâre going to give him favours under the desk for a passing grade, but youâre just here to ask about something on the exam??? he thinks that maybe heâs looking to much into it, itâs been months and he legitimately got a teaching degree for this but what if you just liked to read some taboo things online.
but one day you were very cocky, you posted on a site with little to know information about yourself but a picture of yourself in a skirt. you explained that you would be on a bus around 11pm coming back from work and if someone assaulted you youâd let them. well thats not fun because he likes a fight then he realizes that everyone has a limit.
you left the bus with a sigh thinking that no one saw your message. you felt a breeze but then it was just someone passing by. maybe the website didnât have that many people in your area? you walk past two building and in between them someone emerged, it was dark but they were also wearing black. almost instantly you felt their chest press up against your back, you let out the air from your lungs as the happiness turned sour as you felt a knife against your neck. itâs almost 12 now and you two were the only people on the street so him dragging you to the alley went unnoticed. cold sweat down you body as you felt exhilarated at the feeling, his large hands roamed your body as they traveled down to your panties. you had specific information about what youâd be wearing, including panties with an opening. you heard the man behind you sigh as he spoke your name. all the hairs on your body stood up as he tsked you and said he had a seminar about internet safety that you shouldâve been paying attention if you didnât sleep during the class.
he knows what youâre thinking now, his crime psych class really did talk prominently about one time attacks. most times if you knew anything about your attacker, youâre dying. no matter how small, even the colour of their hair. but here you are, you were in his office last week so you know everything. itâs almost winter but your body was cold. the entire time he was inside you it really warmed him up with how your cunt felt. hours passed and he finished for a third time on your thighs, he enjoyed cumming inside but the first two loads left nothing left to cum inside.
your scared look, the small whispered moans were all worth it but what was the best was the silence after. he fixed himself as he really didnât take off any of your clothes, he gives you props for easy access but the moment his hands left your body he was shocked. you grabbed at him, tears in your eyes he almost felt an emotion but what really did it for him is what you said. âmore.â he thought it was just lust but that wasnât it, the shame in your eyes, the way your thighs squeezed together. he couldnât believe it, sure the women he did this to, made them understand how little they were to him was more demoralizing for him but for you it only fuelled you. he couldnât believe after he left you the next day you were completely normal but your search history was just filled with ginger professor assaults college girl, like he just assaulted you? why not ask? (you have social anxiety and canât even ask for extra dips at mcdonaldâs.) you were like a pandora for him and thatâs what made him stay with you for a while.
(this devolved way to much at the end lmao, i think of myself most of the time i write these. he could literally be inside me one day and iâd still be nervous to talk to him đđ)
me when i put on my glasses to read it (i'm quite literally incel taru irl) and degen anon you sound like the cutest little victim on earth i'm going to eat you whole.
i need him so much i need him to make me into his housewife & take away all thinking privileges & make my permanent job being his toy.
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(Go2 spoilers)
THE LAST EPISODE? opinions about the episode?
SPOILERS BELOW THE CUT!!! Mildly incoherent keyboard smashing below
OH MY GOD!!!
I AM HEARTBROKEN!!! I was crying during the entire end scene!!!! Legitimately sobbing sitting on the edge of my, mouth hanging open in shock!
But it's like a good heartbroken? Okay so first of all I fucking love angst. I think that's pretty obvious here lol. So watching all the angst between the two of them in last few minutes was a delicious kind of heartbreaking! And I fully plan on making gifs especially of Aziraphale's angsty face. Cause god its beautiful.
And David Tennant and Michael Sheen are just so so amazing at their jobs and their acting during that scene was PHENOMENAL. They had me on the edge of my seat, crying like a heartbroken teenager. It takes a lot to get me to react like that to a show especially lately but David and Michael destroyed me.
And I personally think this is AMAZING writing/plotting. Of course this will on depend on Amazon giving us season 3 so everyone better watch the crap out of this season okay! Because season 2 focused a lot on Crowley and his realizations of feelings so I'm expecting season 3 will see Aziraphale let go of this picture of Heaven = Good and Hell = Bad thing and realize he loves Crowley and wants to be with him forever and the teo of them will talk and apologize and work things out and end up in the cottage in South Downs. That's the ending I'm sure we'll get. But we need to get there and there was bound to be angst on the way. This kind of angst feels so in character to me and feels right. Not all things are happy all the time and sometimes angst is good for plot development. This is GOOD ANGST! This will further the plot, create a viable route for character development that will inevitably give us our happy ending!
I know a lot of people are upset by it in like an angry why kind of way but I LOVE IT! I LOVE IT A LOT!
And a few random thoughts:
I never pictured Crowley being the first to make a move and I was so proud of him for putting himself out there and asking Aziraphale to stay with him and they can just be an us and then going further and showing his feelings by kissing him! It was beautiful and deep and scary and wonderful and I DIED! And his face and body language after Aziraphale did the thing was SO HEARTBREAKING! DAVID AND MICHAEL ARE SO GOOD AT THEIR JOBS!
And Aziraphale! Oh my god this angel is killing me! All he wants is to be with Crowley! He didn't give a shit about the Metatrons offer until he said Aziraphale could make Crowley an angel again and they could be together. Look at his smile in that scene! That made him so happy! He could be with Crowley and they could go home and be good angels again! In his head thats the perfect ending! They would be home together, doing good work and Crowley could make things again and ask his questions without fear of retaliation. Aziraphale remembers how happy Crowley was at the beginning, making his stars and galaxies, and believes Crowley wants that again. He also always believed in Crowley's goodness AND Aziraphale is still stuck in the belief of Heaven and angels being inherently good and the good guys while Hell and Demons are inherently evil and the bad guys. So he still believes that they should both be up in Heaven.
But Crowley knows the truth! Crowley sees that both sides are toxic and that for the two of them to be happy they need to be just the two of them like they have been these past few years. And they were happy! So he tries to get that through Aziraphale but Aziraphale isn't ready to hear that.
THEN THE KISS HAPPENS AND AZIRAPHALE ISN'T READY FOR IT AND HE ENDS UP BREAKING CROWLEYS HEART EVEN THOUGH AZIRAPHALE DOES LOVE HIM AND YOU CAN SEE HIS HEARTBROKEN CONFUSED AND IN LOVE FACE AFTER CROWLEY LEAVES AND AZIRAPHALE TOUCHES HIS OWN LIPS!!!
I AM FUCKING DYING NONNY!!! I'M DYING!!! IM LOSOMG MY MIND AND I KNOW THERE ARE OTHERS THINGS I WANTED TO TALK ABOUT. IT I CANNOT THINK STRAIGHT!!!
#good omens spoilers#good omens#good omens season 2#mod post#ask#my thoughts#ace rambles about her favs
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Extended rant about being poor and disabled under the cut, not really worth reading I just needed to get it out.
Hope everyoneâs having a decent day
Listen Iâm disabled unemployable massively in debt and have exactly $0 in liquid funds and no sizable assets. Unless you count physical assets. Like I could sell my body I guess. Ugh. Anyway throwback to that one time like an hour ago when I at least had a iPad to use. It was from 2013 so I knew this day would come. Canât believe it lasted this long. And I know I should be extremely grateful to even have a smartphone, but I cannot use my phone as a computer the way most people do. I cannot hold onto my phone that long. I canât look at such a tiny screen that long. I canât crane my neck down for that long. I can hold it up level to my eyes but I canât hold my arm up that long either. Itâs not practical or sustainable. Plus my smart phone wonât last forever. Then what will I do? Without access to the internet? Yeah yeah touch grass nobody had internet for millennia blah blah blah okay but now we do. Now itâs a basic necessity. You need internet to do pretty much anything adults need to do nowadays in order to be an active part of society. I agree itâs fucked up but itâs real. I cannot get to a library. I donât have friends in walking distance (or any distance for that matter) I have no access to using the internet for more than a couple minutes at a time. Im writing this post in segments over the course of a whole day. I keep coming back to it because I canât think about anything else. I legitimately donât know how to remedy this situation.
Not that this is a remedy but I want to inflict suffering onto anyone thatâs ever said money only causes problems or doesnât buy happiness or the best things in life are free or any of that classist bullshit. Two hundred dollars is pocket change to so many people but a little refurbished tablet would change my life right now. I hope every billionaire lives long but suffers endlessly and unfathomably until they die.
Also I hope my dad and his wife are really enjoying their fully refurbished three story three bedroom two bathroom home complete with a sunroom a heated deck/screen porch (yes different from the sunroom) heated floors in every room a garage big enough for their two brand new cars a little Vespa & a whole workshop plus a cute little stone patio with a fucking water feature pond fountain thing that they donât even see that much what with their practically monthly elaborate getaways and international vacations every year. Fuck I hope they are really fucking enjoying themselves. Meanwhile I have to decide if I want to cut back on food and medicine for a while to save up for a device I can access the internet on.
Anyway. Ignore this Iâm just really fucking tired, sooooooo unbelievably fucking tired, of being poor and disabled. Big fucking deal I know Iâm so far from the only one. I know I still have so much that some people donât have. And Iâm grateful. ButâŚfucking hell. Poor and healthy would be fine. Poor and disabled but still employable would be fine. Disabled but financially stable would be fine. Disabled with adequate support systems would be fine. My piece of shit grandfather finally fucking off and dying and leaving me something to live on would be cool. Iâd kill for any of these. But poor and disabled just feels like someone is beating the fuck out of me and every few minutes they stop for just long enough to help me up and let ms pull myself together and thereâs a momentary glimmer of hope until they go right back to beating the fuck out of me. I feel like eventually I wonât be able to get up or pull myself together anymore. I donât fucking know.
Anyway at least I have a place to stay!! At least I have something to eat!! I can make tea if I want!! My eyesight is going slowly enough that my glasses are still usable!! The fact that I even have glasses in the first place!! The fact that I have any clean water at all, even if it only stays hot for three minutes. I can still take a shower. I have books to read. There a lot of ways in which my body and mind have not yet let me down. Honestly how dare I complain about anything I guess??? I donât fucking know how Iâm supposed to feel
#rants & reflections#delete later#disability vent#disability rant#executive dysfunction#audhd problems#physical disability#neurological disability#autistic borderline#bpd mood#disability culture
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i wanted to ask stuff about your rottmnt celestial au and idk if i'm doing it right (im new to tumblr), but uh apologies in advance i thought of a lot of questions
so since Leo feels pain when one of the stars die, does Mikey also feel pain when a comet dies? what about the things they overlook but don't embody (other moons, other suns, all the other zippity things)? do they still feel physical pain for those things?
2. are Raph and Donnie literally the sun/moon? bcuz you said what happens for eclipses , but like- is the sun literally a giant turtle and are donnie and raph just stuck in orbit? if they wanted to travel to a different part of space, would the sun/moon just disappear?
3. is each individual star, zippity thing, moon, and sun, embodied by a creature thing like the turtles? you said that they consider the planets good friends, so are the planets creatures? and is earth literally whatever creature they are with people living on it?
4. you said that raph is the oldest even though leo would technically be oldest, but i like to imagine leo is the oldest, he just did something really dumb centuries ago and "got his oldest sibling rights revoked." he complains about it sometimes but was compensated with getting to be twins with donnie (this wasn't really a question lol)
5. do the siblings ever feel inferior to each other? like does donnie get upset that he always has to orbit something and does raph get upset he embodies something leo already kinda does? is this angst potential?
6. if the turtles are just floating around in space, does NASA not have any pictures of them? cause satellites? what do they think about satellites and the humans trying to go to space?
7. if the earth's sun/moon died, would raph/donnie also die, or do all of the suns/moons have to die? what about mikey? is it just the comets dying that would kill him or does it have to be everything?
8. is any of the siblings more powerful than the other, or all they all balanced out somehow?
9. what do they do in their free time? it seems like they would get bored a lot
10. what do they think about humans worshipping the sun and stuff? do they even know about that?
11. not a question, but this au seems really cool and i really love the designs C:
Oh boy this is a lot, SO IN ORDER
Yes they do! It's just no where neat as prevalent as leo, since there are LOTS and LOTS of stars up in space.
Ah, that's kinda thinking too deep about it â they make an eclipse bc it's a "sun and moon thing" to do, but it's not like they're literally stuck to one spot and can't move. This is just a silly au with fun ideas, no need to limit ourselves to what legitimately happens up in space ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ [and even then, I almost think of the celestial turts more as concepts than physical beings â maybe only having a physical form to talk to april hehe].
Nope! The planets and such are just there doing their own thing. It's like how maybe you pass a tree every day on you way to work, and overtime you say hi to the tree, maybe sit by it, talk to it â that's about the turt's relationship with the planets [and other celestial things], except i like to think there a bit of a legitimate connection there hehe.
[Skipping down to 5] Mmm I don't think so đ¤ maybe as a sibling rivalry thing Leo reminds raph that he's "so much better" than him XD. But they all love their rolls and what they look over.
NASA doesn't have any pics, like I saod I think of the space turts more as concepts than physical beings. Donnie js suoer into eath tech tho â S.H.E.L.D.O.N. is actually made of lost human space tech, and the turts love that the human want to see space so bad.
Donnie and Raph a little different than Leo and Mikey â at least in my head. Donnie and Raph SPECIFICALLY embody earth's moon and sun, so if either Donnie or Raph die, then earth's sun/moon dies. Mikey is the embodiment of ALL the comets, and Leo is the embodiment of ALL the stars. So if Leo were to die, then all the stars would go out, and same kind of thing for Mikey and his comets.
I mean, none of them have powers or anything đ¤ they don't exactly "control" everything that goes on in space, they're just uo there kind of vibing, hehe.
They talk to each other, they tend to what they look over, and they observe the life on earthâ seems boring to us, but they love each and every thing up and space, and they love the life on earth so much <3
Mm, I honestly have no idea what they would think about that XD. I feel that maybe they'd be flattered, aha.
And thank you, I'm happy you like the au <3
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THE WAY YOU BACKTRACK no its just a conspiracy people seeing antisemitism with their own eyes? abby get a grip, you apologize and then you reblog a "actually its just a conspiracy to discredit palestine" like these theories havent been around for millenia
i at no point have backtracked???? you guys have to calm down and like either read the words iâm typing or accept youâre just dying to scold me for some reason and to stop engaging. like i know a disconcerting amount of you are zionists hanging around to just randomly accuse me of antisemitism (thereâs a reason i havenât been publishing those over the last few weeks lmao) but if someone comes to me and says âwhat is your reaction to this stuff iâve been seeingâ and i say âidk i havenât been seeing any of that, here is my reaction to what i HAVE been seeingâ and i get like six more people saying âno actually we have been seeing this stuff and if you donât more obviously say you donât Love Osama Bin Laden then weâre going to assume you love antisemtism!!!â then obviously my first reaction is going to be like. well damn i didnât realize you guys were seeing this, i better get rid of an upsetting response i made off the cuff based on different information, and apologize for upsetting anyone by the disconnect.
but then the most recent post i recently reblogged is about the VERY SPECIFIC PHENOMENON weâre all currently discussing, where overnight, a prominent grifter twitter journalist wrote about a âviralâ tiktok trend where the youth are apparently âpraisingâ a terrorist which again. from the beginning, i have said i have not seen evidence of myself (which is true!!). and if you take a second to step back and ask yourself why on earth this would happen out of nowhere and be reported on like itâs a sweeping trend taking hold of americaâs youth (after like 24 hours), on a platform that for weeks i have seen literally only videos from/by young palestinians and young jewish people educating their peers and othersâŚ. then maybe those videos are not truthful and organic thoughts from real people.
idk why itâs easier to believe that a platform that has been a huge source of information for the palestinian cause in a way that zionists and other invested groups cannot control is, i cannot emphasize this enough, OVERNIGHT filled with kids who have decided after reading one letter (that has been PULLED by the website citing this specific trend!!) that they love the thoughts of osama bin ladenâŚ. rather than accepting that our disdain for both tiktok as a resource and young people as a general group makes us accept that insane idea much more easily than we normally would!!!
i think that young people are capable of rational thought! i also know that writing about tiktok as a breeding ground for concerning trends/incomprehensible viral videos is a sure fire way to get everyone up in arms in a way that i donât accept as reality! i also know that this whole thing has probably been very concerning for jewish people who donât want to see antisemitic bigoted hateful vile people given a platform. but what iâm saying and what that post is saying is that insofar as these videos of kids apparently being âon boardâ with osama exist and are being spread (again. i personally have not seen a single one, so my original post is deleted was not reacting to this type of video) are very likely being created/spread with the intent to discredit tiktok as a platform and bury legitimately educational content.
if all you take from this is that i â¤ď¸ antisemitic conspiracies then fine, i feel like iâve been clear and at this point engaging further feels like adding fuel to a fire i donât have any interest in spreading. if anyone feels like im being ignorant and wants to talk to me about it im obviously always open but this particular line of questioning? ive made myself clear and im not buying into the hysteria. young people are, in larger numbers than i have ever seen in my lifetime, mobilizing in their schools and cities and local government to make their voices heard and pressure their politicians for change, every day i see extremely brave people on my tiktok both spreading information and doing their best to get educated responsibly, and my attention and energy is with those kids, not with a likely manufactured hysteria over terrorist lovers that i havenât seen myself at any point.
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I need parents, good ones, loving ones, ones that donât make me feel like a black whole ruining their lives, ones that donât make me feel helpless and scared, ones that donât make me wanna end it all because i feel like a fucking failure, ones that donât expect nothing from me literally nothing, i know im 21 but let me tell you life has me fucked up enough that even though im dying to get the fuck out of here i know im not capable of working rn or ever for that matter, not in a 9-17h, but even other ways I canât cause i can barely get out of fucking bed, and the worst part is living with my mom just makes it worse, having to sue my father just makes it worse, and no fucking adult legitimately giving a fuck and stepping in for me when i could never stepped up makes me feel like maybe i deserved it all
#toxic household#toxic parents#parents issues#please someone anyone#i mean im not in danger physically but holy fuck that isnât something that should be the bar
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Iâm 29 now. My lifeâs not gotten much better. 2 boyfriends, 19 jobs, crippling alcoholism, copious amounts of unprotected random sex with strange men, lost 3 best friends, picked up a meth addiction again after 10 or whatever the fuck years now Iâve got a group of tiny dick little bitch psychopaths who are fucking putting child porn hidden in photos because they have nothing better to do than try to ruin my life and Iâm pretty sure I fucked around and ended up at the like main operations base but it doesnât fucking matter none of it does because even after all these years and legitimately just trying to be a nice genuine person to everyone Iâm still perpetually hated and always made to be left alone holding everyoneâs baggage while they run off and live laugh love the new lifeâs they get.
Sometimes I just really donât care I wish I wish I could be the fuck all bitch who hurts people steals and honestly I wish I could be a shitty person because I could cause so much damage with a matchbook.
But the true presence of balance is being able to hold the lit matchbook to dry forest and not letting the wind pull a flame.
I found Iâm a witch I guess I was living with some cult coven thing where they worship dick Iâm not gonna try to spell the other word they used. Thatâs cool I guess my life sucks but the people who fuck me over get huge karmic lessons. If they pull through I guess karma dropped. One dude flipped his car, one dude idek he just poof disappeared. I can control flames occasionally and hear peopleâs thoughts.
Donât ask me itâs a lot of fucked up shit I never asked for and Iâm not 100% convinced I���m not in a coma from when my ex threw me down a flight of stairs.
What do you get when you give hope a chest and iron, an impossible task because everyone will continue to throw their demons at it hoping they will not have to deal with the darkness.
Im still on the fence over my suicide honestly now that Iâm back on meth I figure it will end up killing me firstly thatâs always kinda been my plan or the people who continue to call me a pedophile when theyâre the only oneâs looking it up to hid it in my pictures to get me in trouble for god knows what they can try I guess but the karma thing.
So if the cops come for me yes Iâm killing myself because I donât feel like dying in jail over false charges or getting my dick chopped off um but if my life just randomly decides to start looking up then maybe I might stick around but again bro I didnât want to live in 2017 itâs 2024 like fuck me man lol I donât really think a man needs much more convincing to yeet the fuck in front of a train.
lol
Fuck it. âđť
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#this is super depressing do u rly wanna check on me#rant in the tags#According to all known laws of aviation there is no way that a bee should be able to fly.#Its wings are too small to get its fat little body off the ground. The bee of course flies anyways. #Because bees don't care what humans think is impossible.#soph don't look#i think i might legitimately be dying. i think i'm legitimately going to die#i cannot have a single coherent thought and my attention span is just gone. its just gone. i cant focus on anything and i keep fainting#my heart won't stop hurting and i dont know what day we are. i oversleep and can barely have the strength to get up#its great#my mental and physical health indicate i might seriously be in danger#i guess that's just in the hands of God now#eh. i might end up dying i guess. if thats how He wants it then there's no fighting it. i've had a good run#im not scared of death anyhow#i cannot go to the hospital or doc cause its full. completely full and dedicated to covid 19 so like#all i can do is sit there and feel exhausted and pained out of my mind while not knowing whatever is going on at all#its a wonder i can even hold conversations#i want to cry but im too weak to#shrugs. we'll see if im still alive in a few weeks. if not sucks to be me i guess i'll just be gone#i dont wanna worry my friends so i'll post it here. if any of my homies are reading this : dont fucking worry all we can do is wait anyhow#and i mean. im tired. im so tired...#my mental health is getting worse and worse and at this rate im going to have my impulse control wear off#im trying to vibe! i am! but everything hurts and my will to live is getting thinner by the second....... im actually.#im actually wondering if it wouldnt be better for everyone involved if i died...... im not gonna try anything but#it might be better you know#have the menace gone#suicide tw#i guess??
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I hope this isn't too rude or assuming, but I also wanted to know, if u had any favorite moments in any media u've liked that you're okay with sharing? (just asking since this also appears to be a fandom(??) / anime(??) blog and if u're ok with answering something really offtopic)
ANON IâM IN LOVE WITH YOUâŚ. I WOULD LOVE TO INFODUMP ABT MY INTERESTS. PLS. sadly yes iâm mostly a fandom/interests blog, mostly cnovels and manhua, so this ask is pretty on-topic for my blog. obligatory disclaimer a lot of these things have Problems and Issues so this isnât me saying i am an uncritical fan of the media this is just a list of scenes that make me incredibly hhghgnnneennn. some of them made me cry in the chicken feed aisle in a Tractorâs Supply once and im still upset abt that one. a lot of these have spoilers for various cnovels so i put it under a cut :)
additional warning that um. there's a lot of mentioned death/suicide. most of these are characters dying honestly
so, Media Of All Time favourite scenes:
(tgcf) legitimately every scene with qi rong im not joking i go crazy over him. notable mention of that scene in the Final Battle with gu ziâŚâŚâŚ.. iâm insane
(liu yao) um. i donât remember the main characterâs name. but yeah him dying <3 jiayou! that one drives me insane i read it like once a week
(nan chan) mr human magikarp fucking dying and jin ling justâŚ.. losing it
(nan chan) jin lingâs subsequent imprisonment and isolation :)
(nan chan) JIN LING MURDER SPREE!!!!!!!
(huang jin tai) yan xiaohan getting drugged and immediately going to stab himself so that he doesnât âbetrayâ fu shen
(qian qiu) yan wushi hiding shen qiao in that buddha statue and running off to die
(teio) THE FUCKING EARTHWORM CRYING. GOD
(teio) everything with bai ruoyao. i love him im so homophobic
(mo du) fei du suffering for five entire books straight
(mo du) that scene near the end where he has to grasp the trigger handhold and his Immense Certified Trauma kicks in
(mo du) luo wenzhou NOT pokemon evolving into a big red flag the second he got one glimpse past fei duâs walls. Like that man saw Fei Du: Genuinely Unwell Extraordinaire, and not only did he not jab fd with a horse tranq, he just went and made the man dinner. what the fuck
(twwtadsl) the betrayal scene <3
(tsomd) sui zhou almost dying for tang fan like 2302984 times but notable mention of the First Time when he tried to die for tang fan in the fight against the tomb guardian
(missing sect leader) wei jiangyue going âI JUST CANT STAND IT WHEN HEâS NOT ALRIGHTâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚ..â
(missing sect leader) wei jiangyue making a bet with ye you that hinges the fate of the world or whatever and his terms for if he wins. instead of using the chance to ask for something large. he asks yy to just tell him something. anything at all. just tell him something
(missing sect leader) wei jiangyue telling ye you he will die for him to repent for his fatherâs mistake but hiding the fact that his willingness to die for yy comes from his love for him, not his guilt
(missing sect leader) that scene where yy reveals his identity and wjy realises that no matter what he has to leave yy alone and cannot even approach him again. and just sinking in shame and regret to spend his entire lifetime in pain from the fact that his presence causes yy pain
(missing sect leader) in front of the entire jianghu. wei jiangyue giving himself up to the threat of being brutally killed be ye you if it meant yy was given some sort of closure. jesus christ i donât even like this book this much and yy/wjy isnât even canon why do they have so much on this list
(tong qian kan shi) the insect cave scene <3
(tqks) xuanmin closing his eyes as he is put through incredible pain and torture, being literally killed, in order for xue xian to enact his revenge against the great priest
(tqks) the great priest forcing xx to recognize that his revenge will also kill xuanmin as collateral, xx not recognising xuanmin, and xuanmin just. closing his eyes and accepting his death
(tqks) xuanmin using his last dying action to dig out his own bones and bury them under the mountains to free xue xian.
(tqks) xuanmin making his way over to the unconscious xue xian, kneeling in front of him (really falling lmao), and dying while never looking away from his face :)
(tqks) xx regaining his memories, remembering xuanmin, and looking up to see xuanmin laying dead in his arms. then feeling fear for the first time in his life. man. man. ok
(qqgk) ���MY DEAR, IF I LEFT MYSELF BY YOUR EAR, WOULD YOU BE ABLE TO HEAR ME? MAY WE MEET AGAIN IN A WORLD WHERE THE SMOKE IS GONEâ THIS QUOTE MAKES ME INSANE. IM INSANE. JESUS CHRIST
(qqgk) the recurring imagery of snow. the snow. its about. itâs about. The devotion. oh god
(hsav) xiao yuan trying to die like. 6 times for yan heqing. also xya being tortured to save yhq. and then him trying to kill himself earlier . and then him killing himself for real later to make life easier for yhq
(tgcf) just. everything honestly. the âi am godâ scene. the getting demolished by a ridiculous amount of swords scene.
(wushuang) cui buqu in the maze trying to die for feng xiao
(wushuang) feng xiao in the maze trying to die for cui buqu
(zhongji lanyin) su qing almost dying under the cave-in
(zhongji lanyin) hu bugui protecting su qing from the thorns
(č°ĺ¨äşćç骨ç°ĺ) jiang xichu seeing chen man kill herself and not being able to do anything about it. literally the only scene i care abt from that book i ate that shit up
okay typing this out made me realise there is a very noticeable theme here. well. i really like tragedy so honestly i don't know know what i expected from this. if i re-read all my favourite books i would probably be able to give you a list of scenes i loved that have legitimate literary importance, value, and beauty, but sadly i have the memory of a goldfish and cannot remember most plots unless im Actively Looking At Them. so instead here is a list of scenes that are all candidates for making me cry during my next visit to a Tractor's Supply. thank you sm for the ask im in love with you
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