#cathartic venting
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for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of
also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut
the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)
#hs#homestuck#dirk strider#eye strain#probably? if you think i should tag something else let me know!!#anyway hooray its time for rambling in the tags#so uhhh heres the teæ i've been sick for like a week and you know how it is when suddenly your throat becomes the main gunk warehouse#and you can't breathe lol. wish i could just pull it out. anywaaayy this is basically a vent piece for me being sick lol#also i could draw remotively the same thing with kris deltarune. oh how easy it is to project having a cold#though i have been also experiencing troubles with feelings recently as well....how fitting for dirk#speaking of the man himself (enough of me) his relationship with his own Heart...is peculiar to say the least#the thing i love about alphakids is that despite being so feral they were. so relatable. i cannot stress this enough how unwell they are an#and how they represented being a teen so well. yeah being 15 years old makes that to you#imagine being an emotional mess and trying to fit the 'norm' and act normal about your friends so youre not offputting#and then you fall in love with you friend and your ai clone falls in love with him too looool noone makes out of this one alive#uhh literally. godtiering stuff and dying remember#and speaking of it. tw for suicidal talk for the rest of tags#do you ever think dirk was suicidal. of course the part of when he teleports his head to jake was totally planned and he knew he would ->#wake up as dreamself but. don't you think the moment he cut his head off was sort of. cathartic. how much did he hate his own guts#beheading himself not only for the plan...but also because he thought he 'deserved' it#also wow he is a Prince and was literally beheaded don't you think its funny hahaa#sigh poor thing#this has ended on a not the very pleasant note hm#also fckkkkkk i didn't draw anything with rose/mary for the lesbian visabilty week#(putting the slash because tumblr search system has a dumb gag with showing you posts that contain the tag inside the other tag.#and i don't want this post to show up for the ros/mary fans because it's not!!!! its rose's father emotional crisis post!!!!)#update YOOOO WHAT THE HELL THE GIF HAS EVEN LESS PIXELS THEN I PLANNED fantastic#this your breakfast now tumblr. enjoy your crunchy flakes of dirks meltdown. mwah
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TW: Gross stuff..? I dunno, but it ain't pretty
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My own enemy
weight lifted
#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#f!leo#future leo#future leonardo#bad future rottmnt#wrong fabricated time branch#vent art#real life is kinda gross sometimes...sorry leo :|#i just...really had to be messy and draw this..#gah this is feeling cathartic whew boy..#:)
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Personal hell
#sherlock and co#sherlock & co#This is vent art#I see a character with PTSD and I make things worse for them#very cathartic draw even though it flopped on Twitter#I guess that’s also my cue to mention I am back on Twitter through a new account#Because after cultivating an audience I got scared and abandoned my account so I want to start fresh
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can’t sleep. here’s doodles for an animatic I’ll never post. ✌️
#today has just been really hard#im trying very hard to stay positive but#ugh#drawing isa has always been cathartic for me I’m glad that hasn’t changed :)#anyway. rn I’m sketching another animatic that hopefully I actually WILL post but those sketches are even messier than these so#for now y’all get these#I am proud of them :)#phineas and ferb#isabella garcia shapiro#phinabella#phinbella#pnf#vent art#cadence rambles
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When i started disco elysium i thought, well, obviously Kim is normal and regular (I would later be proven wrong), so his clothes must be what regular cops wear in disco elysium world. But then we see other cops and they’re wearing like... black suits. Uniforms. And THEN it turns out that what Kim is actually doing is closet-cosplaying as a pilot of an airforce that doesn’t exist anymore. This is like if someone came to work in complete Civil War reenactment costume. Why does he do this? Because he just wants to i Guess
#that's why i think people overshoot a bit when they portray kim as the Ultimate Professional. he goes to work in cosplay#there's that one dialogue option where harry's like wait if cops wear uniforms why isn't kim in uniform#and the skills tell you ''he's in plainclothes VOLUNTARILY not because he lost his uniform like YOU IDIOT'' and like...#why actually did kim feel it prudent to turn up to the case in his little pilot outfit? is his cup of caring just THAT empty by that point?#is he actually deep down sorta starting to burn out on being in the rcm so he's just not bothering with the dresscode anymore?#more of my disco elysium impressions#posts by me#i mean we all Know the pilot cosplay represents his broken dreams and/or the little ways he vents his rebellious side#it's like listening to speedfreaks. it's these completely harmless little acts of nonconformism that don't ever actually bother anyone#so he gets to feel the cathartic thrill of being a little bit narsty without actually like... rebelling. (bit sad innit)#but this post isn't ABOUT that it's about him GOING TO WORK IN COSPLAY
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But in the end, When it's your turn to be judged, You'll get what you fucking deserve, YOU SON OF A BITCH!
Oblivions Peak - Knocked Loose
#cw: blood#cw: eyestrain#the link is the song btw :D#also since its a handcore band it is VERY loud so a warning for that#me being on the autism spectrum and having a aversion to loud noises (proceeds to listen to hardcore punk): :)#i lied. there is no selfship art. listen to knocked loose. theyre really good and this song is awesome#also the song is dedicated to the lgbtq+ community so its based#(unintentional btw. i didnt find out until i finished it but still)#listening to the song and drawing this was very cathartic. i genuinely love it. it was like a really vent good session you know?#my art#proships dni#reblogs > likes :D#f/o blog#tfc heavy#classic heavy#screenshot redraw#tf2 fanart#tf2#team fortress 2#tf2 comics#the naked and the dead#knocked loose#artists on tumblr#⛓️🦏
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SET TO DETONATE AND RESONATE !
#alloyart#doctor n gin#n gin#dr n gin#crash bandicoot#eyestrain maybe /#this was very cathartic to draw. almost vent but not quite? just playing with shapes and style in ways i dont usually#not really caring if it looks messy or weird because well. so is he#anyway listen to human rocket by DEVO . its my n.gin song
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hiiii haha. hello. exceptionally awkward introduction bc idrk how to start something like this so let's just jump right in. im taking a break from this account for a bit. i know i said i wanted taob out before halloween and currently im fine sticking with that deadline, but if i decide i need longer away then i will take longer away. every time ive reassured people that id never abandon a fic and updates will always come eventually i never once considered that my writing and ability to feel safe and comfortable on this site would be actively taken from me, so im not even going to apologise. i dont want this either and more importantly i dont fucking deserve it. i dont know what it is in the past year, if ive hit a certain amount of followers or 'popularity' that's made it so the natural ratio of positive to negative interactions must in turn go up, but there's been a serious uptick in weird asks for me. the annoying part is that a very small amount of them are actually objectively mean and hateful, the rest are just weird and invasive from people who seemingly dont realise that's what they're being. ive reached a point where i dont care if the intentions are good. it's not my job as a 20 year old tumblr user of all things to defend the morality of someone who couldnt even bother to come off anon. unfortunately, after blocking only one or two anons, the weird asks have decreased substantially, which says all you need to know about the fascinating and exhilarating lives led by these people, but ive also gone on to turn anon asks off entirely. this is something i actively fought against doing and had to be pushed into by my mutuals (who have been the coolest people on planet earth during this entire thing). turning off anon was a big deal to me even if it sounds silly. i felt betrayed and like id been backed into a corner because it was so vehmently something i DIDNT WANT that to feel like i had to do it anyway for my own mental health??? that sucks. so even though ive 'fixed' the problem, im still kind of reeling and uncomfortable every time i come on tumblr. i hope it's just something i need time to ease because i'll truly be devastated if this becomes 'ruined' for me. tumblr exists as the only place in the world where i am honestly every facet of myself without shame or hesitation; losing that would be insanely harmful to me. and to the people who cant appeal to the actual human behind the post, let me put that in words you can understand: we wouldn't get any more writing 😦😦😦 riots and fires and sirens, i know. so yeah. to anyone who has sent me an anon ask and you're now wondering if you were part of the problem, im firmly of the belief that you'll know if you are. when i say 'weird asks' i dont mean 'you sent me a para about your personal life just to vent or ask for advice' or 'you sent me a really deep emotional compliment about the impact me and/or my writing has had on you' - i love asks like that, so much that i put off taking a break and turning off anon solely for the joy they bring me. im sorry that it might feel like you're being punished too bc of the actions of what in reality is a HANDFUL of weird people, but this is what i feel like i have to do to feel safe and not go insane every time i log in. love you guys, hopefully ill see you soon x
#seriously another shout out to my mutuals#id particularly like to say thank you to boom who's always right there for me no matter what's happening or how insane im being#and also everyone in our little discord that wound up having to make a whole new channel for venting#bc i was there so often like 'today's weird ask isssss.... telling me about my cupsize!! rip them to shreds!!!'#hannah and theo especially being there and pushing me to finally turn off anon. war is truly over#and of course rori bc the shamelessness u show when hating on my anon asks has been genuinely really cathartic#sometimes u really do just need a rottweiler mutual to tell random people online to kill themselves 😭#okay weird oscar acceptance speechcore gratitude over. i do just rlly love my mutuals#like i went three years not telling anyone about the worse side of internet popularity for fear of looking spoiled and ungrateful#so for the first time to open up about it and be met with outrage on my behalf and people saying in fact it's MORE fucked up#than i initially realised bc ive grown desensitised to it is. yeah cathartic i guess#they are singlehandedly reassuring me of the good this cursed app still holds#so everyone thank them and send them flowers NOW#okay im done i think. see you guys soon. i truly do want to come back asap bc like i said i NEVER EVEN WANTED TO FUCKING LEAVE#SOME ASSHOLES JUST HAD TO PUT GRENADES ON WHAT I ASSUMED WERE VERY UNIVERSAL AND OBVIOUS BOUNDARIES#if you're reading this like 'ohhh fuck i defo sent something invasive lately. i thought it was a joke/we were friends'#then 1) we arent friends if you're on anon. it immediately creates a power imbalance where you know me and any necessary context#but i have no idea who you are or how much you know about me. that's already a fucked dynamic#and 2) I HOPE YOU FEEL BAD. LIKE GENUINELY I HOPE YOU FEEL AWFUL AND HAVE A GOOD LONG LOOK AT YOURSELF#okay i think that's all. ta-ra lads??? how tf do u end something like this#ive queued this to reblog a couple more times throughout the day
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you should draw more splatoons attacking eachother with their teeths
i've always enjoyed the idea of inkfish getting feral when pissed off.
#not art#splatoon#sure they resemble humans and have intelligence#However#i think it would be funny and silly if whenever extremely pissed off they Fight#like fistfights but Biting is there too#and claws#they're shapeshifters they can give themselves claws cuz i said so#also like drawing the art is cathartic to me#yall never had that one player that pissed you off so much you wanted to obliterate them? in man to man combat?#This Is How I Vent
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hi here’s more medical trauma / deconstruction stuff
#sorry if it’s a smidge on the nose lol#they’re corny but they’re cathartic 🫡#vent art#collage#medical#stitches#needles#idk what to tag for sorry#this is probably the last of these for a while anyway#bug.psd#vent
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Bleeding Heart
#jess's digital odyssey#personal art#vent art#apologies for posting extremely personal and vulnerable art on here like some kind of teen girl's diary.#but I can also do what I want with this blog. so I hope you enjoy it regardless#bleeding hearts are my favorite flower. I feel like they suit me.#I think drawing these was cathartic; there's something about drawing through difficult emotions that helps me think things through
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No I’m not projecting my horrific period cramps onto transmasc Leo whaaaat that would be crazyyyyyy…
#/s#it’s vent art it’s not gonna be very good.#but I find it cathartic to make characters hurt and these have genuinely been some of the worst cramps I’ve ever had so#:)#menstruation tw#menstruation cw#period cramps#transmasc leo#rottmnt leo#wip#art wip#pastels art tag
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I hate this fucking thing in my brain. I don’t care anymore. I’ve literally lost everything to this god damn worthless piece of shit disorder. Mother fucking parasitic cesspool disease.
I push everyone in my life away. I use people to make myself feel better. To appease OCD. My reassurance seeking is unmanageable. I feel like my blood is going to explode out of my body constantly because I can’t get reassurance anymore. So, I make whatever these bullshit posts are so that I can stop waking up at night in panic wanting to vomit every second.
I don’t want to be negative on tumblr all the time, and I like spreading awareness about mental health. It’s important to me, even if only a few people see it. But I used to come here as an escape and for fun. Fiction is the only place where I feel like I belong. Connecting with other people who love the same things I do. Creating things that make me feel something, screaming into the void and knowing someone else gets it. Whatever.
I can’t even do that anymore (right now) even though I deeply care about it. I put too much importance on it. OCD loves important things. I get intrusive thoughts about the things I create that torture me every damn day. I overthink everything to the point it doesn’t make sense anymore. I feel like I don’t deserve to interact with other creators because of my disorder. Magical thinking doesn’t let me do shit. I have to check my socials and re-read everything I write to make sure I didn’t accidentally post something inappropriate or in the wrong app. Re-read it again one hundred fucking times until it feels right. There is not one single thing I don’t get stuck on.
I don’t know what’s real anymore. I can’t tell if I’m spiraling into a severe mental breakdown or if I’m in psychosis (OCD does not usually cause psychosis but it can make you question if you’re in it). My medicine doesn’t work for like another 2-3 weeks. If it even helps (for the record, if anyone reads this: medicine does help a lot of people I just have an extreme case).
I don’t know what to do anymore. I want to ask for help, but I’m scared to because I don’t know what that will look like or what happens when I let go.
#This has been cathartic but I really wish I could delete it#I’m really sorry my anxiety greatly dismisses when I make these posts#ocd#actually ocd#obsessive-compulsive disorder#obsessive compulsive disorder#intrusive thoughts#tw intrusive thoughts#tw ocd#compulsions#tw compulsions#vent post#actually mentally ill#mental health awareness#neurodivergent#anxiety
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I should probably be going to bed but I was thinking a lil abt recovery arc Clem and how he has a bit of an identity crisis due to the fact that his depression was a huge part of his personality/identity and in a weird way he found comfort in the misery and now that he’s bettering his mental health that sort of fog/misery funk he’s been in has been clearing up and now Clem is struggling a bit to figure out who he is/wants to be
#idk if I worded it right but I hope u guys understand what I mean#after he abandoned the cheerleader/sporty/jock persona he barely had any long lasting hobbies or interests#he was mostly just trying to survive so to speak#and never truly lived#he was also super anti recovery#like he felt like he wouldn’t recover or be happy ever#and was stuck in a cycle of being emotionally numb or angry/sad#now that he’s starting to feel happy it’s a bit scary and overwhelming#i personally don’t think he’d really return to the jock persona he had at camp but he does work out/excerise with Crystal often#I also think he gets into art#particularly drawing and writing#both bc it’s partially a nod to better off dead and also I just think it’s a good outlet for him#esp drawing more darker/disturbing stuff#it’s kinda cathartic for him to just vent out all his frustrations in a drawing#cosmic chatz#psychonauts#clem foote
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Redesigned a plushie dreadful for some catharsis
#digital art#illustration#cathartic#vent#masking#cptsd#ptsd#plushie dreadfuls#redesign#interpretation#flashbacks
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something that had always been really frustrating for me when i was still in math classes in school was trying to watch the teacher actually work the problem out on the board and still not understanding wtf was happening. for some context, i heavily suspect that i have some form of dyscalculia because math and numbers literally do not compute properly in my brain. it'd be too long to explain the full extent of my possible dyscalculia here but math literally does the mental equivalent of maxing out the CPU power and memory of a computer to the point where it freezes and lags to my brain.
math class was always stressful for me because no matter what i did and how much progress i made, there was always a lack of understanding i had when it came to trying to work any math problem out long term and remembering anything. it felt like there was always something i was missing, so when the time came for the teacher to explain and go through a math problem step-by-step on the whiteboard, i made sure i paid as much attention to it as humanly possible as child-to-teenager me could muster and even then i still did not understand how the fuck they solved it, all because of one thing: the teacher pulling a random number completely out of their ass that happened to be the key to solving the problem.
like. i don't think i can illustrate how frustrating and isolating this was to experience with words alone. here i was, paying as much attention as i physically could, trying my damned hardest to memorise each individual step and calculation in order to understand how to get from point A to point B. everything made perfect sense up until the teacher suddenly stops for a second and writes a seemingly completely unrelated number there with no context as to why it's there in the first place, and then, in that singular moment, everything immediately comes crumbling down and i'm left completely confused. and somehow, everyone else around me perfectly understands it except me. like. imagine sitting there, giving the teacher all the attention you possibly could, literally watching and studying their hand movements just to understand every single step, only to be even more confused than your classmates, who you're pretty sure were half-asleep during the explanation, who also say they understand how the teacher came to that conclusion. what. the actual fuck.
when i try to explain how infinitely confusing and irritating this was for me, i'm reminded of a quote from that video Patricia Taxxon made about DHMIS: "The rug is pulled again ... There was never any hope of following the thread, understanding is impossible.". even when i was literally trying my best to possibly follow anything that was happening, the rug still gets pulled out from under my feet and i'm sent all the way back to square one of not understanding a single thing and being confused again. all because the teacher didn't explicitly explain how they got that random number that was apparently singlehandedly necessary for solving the equation and where they got it from, apart from that place being from literally fucking nowhere.
it's really no wonder that i eventually stopped giving a shit about paying attention in math class, because even when i was, it was still daunting and incomprehensible as always. why bother trying anymore when trying still gets you nowhere? trying to ask the teacher where they got that number from was an impossible to understand task as well, as their either snapped back with a "well you should have been paying attention" (even though i WAS but whatever) or they do explain that they added the first two numbers from the equation together or something, but now i'm wondering why they didn't just explain that in the first place like they did with everything else instead of seemingly just assuming everyone would know to do that.
by the way, if i had to give an estimate, my math ability is probably still at like. a 5th grader's level at best. so uh. yeah it's not good. still, it is kinda funny to me though, not only because i do find a bit of humour in the situation, but also because some people are often so quick to judge someone's intelligence purely based on their mathematical abilities alone. like. the idea of someone calling me dumb for still needing to do addition with my fingers despite the fact that my reading and language levels are considered above average is really funny to me lmaooo
#dyscalculia#math anxiety#i was NOT having fun in math class when i was still in school loollll#to this day i still don't know all my times tables#i just know the essential ones like my 2s 5s and 10s#the others i only really partially remember but i still can't actually do beyond multiples of 12#like i partially know what they are but i can't actually DO them in my head without needing to sit there for a minute or two#i can't do quick maths. i just can't do that. there are too many numbers to keep track of and count at once to do quickly.#like i can't just conjure up a number like a fucken genie like other people seem to do. i need to like. actually count first#i hate quick maths games so much dude. it's so stressful. i physically cannot keep up with it and it's really frustrating and unfun#it's the same when people tell me to do an equation really quickly. like first of all fuck you#and second of all my brain WILL short circuit#anyway yeah this is a vent#making this not rebloggable for that reason..... sorry fellas#i'm still hoping other people with dyscalculia may find this relatable or cathartic#god how that particia taxxon quote strikes my very soul so so much.....#the entire video is really good but that quote specifically. holy shit#understanding is impossible. that is how i feel. that perfectly explains how i feel about math. understanding is impossible. wow.#i feel like data repeating ''i am not less perfect than lore'' to himself about that quote. understanding is impossible.#that is how i have felt about math for such a long fucking time oh my god#understanding anything to do with math and numbers feels impossibly incomprehensible for me.#basic concepts make sense. i understand how the four basic operations work. i just can't understand much else from that.#too many numbers overflow my brain#it takes literal actual power to be able to do one sheet of equations for me#i might not even finish it just because it's so difficult and uninteresting for me#i'm rambling again auahgh. the basic point of this post is that i don't understand math and math teachers don't understand how to make-#-any basic fucking sense. apparently. anyway yeah official steakout dyscalculia coming out post (i probably have it)#(i'm not diagnosed yet but i'm 80% sure i have it)#(the other 20% is me gaslighting myself) (augh)
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