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cas had texted and said he’d be back at the bunker that night, and dean had stayed up until almost 3am waiting for the angel. when cas hadn’t walked through the bunker door, dean had to drag himself to bed before he passed out on the war table.
he didn’t sleep for long though, waking up just after 6am to check his phone. no messages from cas. was it too soon to start worrying?
making his way to the kitchen for a very strong cup of black coffee, dean shuffled past the bag in hallway while he rubbed blearily at his eyes. it took several long seconds before dean realized he’d almost tripped over cas’ overnight bag and he quickly backtracked and made a beeline for cas’ room.
the room was empty, no sign of cas’ current trenchcoat or of the angel anywhere.
frowning, dean wandered the hallways, searching for any signs of cas. but there was nothing. the bunker was quiet. empty. not even sam was awake yet.
convincing himself that the overnight bag had always been there and he’d just forgotten because he was tired, dean trudged back towards the kitchen by cutting through the library.
and he froze, mid-step.
slumped, lying curled up between two of the chairs at the table, was a sleeping angel using his trenchcoat as a pillow against the hard wooden seats.
a sleeping angel who was bundled up under dean’s old hoodie; the clothing item which usually held a permanent place in the backseat of the impala. the same hoodie that had gone missing a week ago.
dean’s heart stuttered in his chest.
his feet carried him gently across the library and he found himself reaching out and brushing a lock of hair off of cas’ forehead. the hood of the jacket was tucked up under cas’ chin, almost as if the angel had been burying his face in the cotton material, but the rest of it was slipping off and threatening to fall onto the floor.
breath catching in his throat, dean softly readjusted the hoodie and wrapped it around cas’ shoulders. cas let out a content sigh in his sleep, and dean suddenly felt weak in the knees.
cas had taken dean’s jacket with him when he’d left the bunker last week. and now, cas was using his hoodie as a blanket. a concept that years ago dean would’ve sworn up and down that cas would never understand because angels didn’t have feelings. yet, here cas was, carrying around dean’s old clothes, wearing his heart on dean’s worn sleeves.
smiling to himself, dean quietly made his way back to the kitchen to make honey tea for cas and a pot of coffee. he was going to need the caffeine courage to show cas that this was mutual.
as the coffee brewed and the tea steeped, dean snuck back into cas’ room and collected the one thing he was missing. wrapping one of cas’ old trenchcoats around his shoulders, dean was finally ready to put his own heart onto cas’ sleeve.
#destiel#dean winchester#castiel#spn#supernatural#deancas#bex writing#this ended up being way longer than I anticipated#i just love this idea#dean finding cas with his old hoodie. piecing together that cas took it with him for comfort and reassurance#for cas to wear and have something that smelt like dean. something that felt like home#that sudden epiphany that dean realizes this is cas’ love language#and dean can reciprocate it#I’ve had this concept in my head for agesss and I’m so glad I could finally write it for yall#clothes sharing is just too good. especially when it comes to old hoodies and trenchcoats
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so ik i’ve seen a lot of hcs for what the batfam would listen to in the bat mobile and for tim a lot of people say that he listens to podcasts. which like yes i can see that but i also think if he is like podcasted out(bc i get that way so i think he does too) he listens to like cunty, trashy music in it. like they are on their way to a drug bust and tim is on aux and all the sudden you hear like ayesha erotica playing. and the goons are like “oh shit it’s spoiler!!! ,,,,, is that red robin????” so here is a list of artists/songs i think tim fucks w/ hard core when he is on patrol.(to preface he avoids pop-punk on patrol if he knows people will hear his music bc tim drake-wayne is known for enjoying it in my head so red robin is when he lets out the more suprising side of his music taste)
ayesha erotica(as stated)
kesha
mindless self indulgence
6arelyhuman
ppcocaine
slayyyter
conceited by flo milli
tia tamara by doja cat
lady gaga
kim petras
it girl- sped up ver by aliyah’s interlude
charlie xcx
#red robin#unhinged tim drake#batfam#batfamily shitposts#crack post#idk i just have thoughts and need to spew them somewhere#tim drake#i think the rest of the fam are like shocked the first time they give him the aux#steph is delighted tho bc i also feel like she would enjoy this kinda music#idk why but i think it’s extra hilarious if like damien needed a ride while on patrol and he’s just like :O the whole time#bc he listens to like classical music in my head#i also think cas would rock with it bc i think she’d like the faster electronic noises#dick would be flabbergasted and proud at the same time#bc as older brothers tend to do tim is like 12 in dicks head so he should not be listening to that kinda music but also it slays#so he feels like he can’t be too mad#bruce wants him to go back to the podcasts#he’s traumatized#jason only likes it bc it traumatized bruce#he asked tim for the playlist just so he could start playing it anytime bruce annoys him on patrol
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Hello, Dean
#THIS. THIS ACTUALLY TOOK ME WAY MORE THAN IT SHOULD HAVE PLEASE WATCH THIS#I migh or might not have also edited a bit the ending because fuck my life I can't see that tiktok-cut scene it just kills me. also fuck all#that yellow#i have mo regrets but please watch it#i tried my best it's now 4 am i have again. been possesed by the Destiel of November 5th#basically. basically 4 years ago i figured out that castiel always says Hello Dean#and . and just Once. Just once Goodbye Dean#honestly. i wish i could. eat god#anyway. i jave yes indeed edited the ending too because OT WAS ALREADY TWO AM WHAT SHOULD I HAVE DOEN??? STOPPED THEREEEE??? WHAT FOR????#so yeha. whatever fuck me fuck you fuck the cw and fuck everything we deserved at least a GOO d edited ending.#at least that#fuck fuck fuck#no but really you know#i understand everything and it's okay#but at least if you have to spit on my face one last time. at least make it count. make it worth it. make me FEEL LIKE YOU CARED#we deserved better. at least a good editing. at least that#but yeah happy nov 5h#nov 5th#nov 5 2024#spn#supernatural#destiel#dean winchester#castiel#deancas#:(#the internet is so lucky I'm not unemployed anymore. so. lucky#also it's so sad that Cas doesn't say Hello dean after season 11(12 if u wanna be precise) and all the others are just fake cas trying to#trick dean :((( i miss you cas i miss youuu
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oh nuts. a life experience has given me a new layer of perspective on Cas's homosexual declaration of love to Dean.
recently I had occasion to tell a person I had feelings for them knowing full well they didn't feel even a twinge of the same thing for me. while the whole thing was a decidedly unpleasant experience, I kept laughing at myself internally bc I didn't want to say "the happiness is just in saying it" like fucking Castiel over here. (we don't need to talk about it, it's fine.) (I am happier having said it and it's kind of bullshit, but I digress.)
because the thing is, the happiness isn't in just saying it, right? the happiness is in the having. I made a whole TikTok "proving" that the Empty didn't come for Cas when he confessed his love, but rather when he realized Dean loved him back. even for Cas, the happiness was in the having, not in the saying, however brief it was.
and I've always been one of those people who rolled their eyes at the whole concept. why would the happiness be in just being, in just saying it, if it's right there in front of you to have. and then it hit me like a tonne of bricks (as I was washing my kitchen counters).
Cas really didn't think he could have Dean.
at all. in any capacity. he really, truly, and honestly felt to the depths of himself that Dean did not have any twinge of similar feelings, that this really was a Hail Mary shot-in-the-dark. and I think me, personally, really didn't understand that about Cas. that his belief in his love being unrequited was that unshakable.
something else I've been pondering is how audiences have so much more empathy for fictional characters who share traits that IRL they find objectionable and unappealing. but the thing is about fictional characters is that we follow them around in their most private, vulnerable moments. we see Dean mourning Cas when he dies, literally killing himself because he can't live without him, but it's so easy to forget that we're the omniscient ones here.
Cas never knew.
Dean's whole thing was pushing him away, keeping him at arm's length, making it seem like whatever heroic thing he does for Cas he'd do for anyone. he downplays how important it is for Dean to share the Deancave with him, to show him his favourite movies, share his favourite songs. he acts like the things Cas does for him don't mean that much to hide how much they do mean. he uses "we" whenever he even gets in the vicinity of expressing a feeling. "We were worried." "We're glad you're back." "We needed a win." "You're our brother." The audience knew the difference. We saw how he'd clench his jaw or swallow hard or make a face that said "God, I'm being such an idiot". Because we saw him in those little moments. We got to see the cracks in the mask.
but Cas never knew.
the self-hating angel of Thursday was never going to think it was all a way for Dean to protect himself. obviously, that's the delicious tragedy of it all, but what I think I realized at the end of all that is Cas confessing his love to a Dean who didn't love him back wouldn't have worked. Because the happiness really is in the having. If happiness was just in saying it, then The Empty would have come before Cas even finished getting the words out of his mouth.
so Cas's plan wouldn't have worked if Dean didn't love him back.
this is just me yapping on about my own nonsense, but I do think it's really interesting. there's contentment in "just saying it". there's freedom and relief and an unburdening. I think one can argue that it makes being happy in the being easier. there is certainly some joy in telling a person you think that highly of them. but true happiness?
nah.
true happiness is always going to only be in the having. Cas didn't understand the difference until he experienced it, and by then, it was too late.
#beautiful and poignant messages in the 2005 CW cult classic dark fantasy show supernatural that they did by accident#like they literally showed how wrong cas was to believe that happiness ISN'T in the having aaaand qed dean loved him back#spn meta#destiel meta#castiel meta#mine.txt#destiel#supernatural meta#spn#supernatural#meta#messy thoughts#lol sorry for the tmi but i needed the lead up okay#i'm fine i knew#i was very much cas in this situation no hope of any other outcome#only he was wrong lmao#I think the way Cas scrunches up his face after Dean's 'don't do this Cas' is almost like that bittersweet regret.#that 'oh. if only we had known this sooner. if only it wasn't too late now.'#AND IT'S A LOT YOU GUYS#i do wonder if cas wouldn't made a different plan with different information#personally i don't think he'd've gone out like that if he understood that dean loved him too#like he saw the love in his eyes. but part of me thinks it was relief that this didn't make dean hate him.#but sometimes it's just bad writing and we can't ascribe conscious thought to an out of character decision lol#but i think after everything cas would've fought for the thing he never thought he could have#which is why in my fix it fic wip that i'll finish someday cas is like okay well. gotta get outta here now and kiss my mute coconut lol#i love them so much
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he's too hot to be called greg. you gotta call him gregory
#tbh i have never paid one ounce of attention to the werewolves why did no one tell me greg's human form was a large old man in a suit#i assumed he was just some boring looking young adult in a flannel#we could have all been writing steamy vladgreg fanfiction this whole#i thought i could makeover his werewolf form too. hubris describes a personality quality of extr#i was like i can't believe there's literally no alpha werewolf horror cc that makes them look actually scary how have we not done this#like ohhhhhhh i see they're literally unfixable got it never mind#ts4#ts4 cas#the sims 4#townie makeover#does he have a tag?? what would it even be hashtag greg
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My brain has completely forgotten almost everything about Supernatural seasons 9 and 12-15. I remember bits and pieces, but I cannot for the life of me tell you what the overarching plot was for any of those seasons. Here’s what I know about each of those seasons:
9. Sam is possessed by an angel? Dean dies in the end and becomes a demon idk
12. Peak Destiel vibes, Mary’s back, Cas is killed?
13. Widower arc, Jack is there
14. Jack kills Mary at some point idk
15. Lets kill God, divorce arc, “You changed me, Dean”, worst finale ever
#? means I’m not sure if it happened in that season#idk means I know it happened I just don’t know why or how#late seasons supernatural is a fever dream#why do I remember seasons 10-11 but not 9?#there's some apocalypse world plot I have no memory of at all that I think might be the entire plot of season 13/14#Also apparently arently Dean was possessed by Michael at some point but I could not tell you when or why that happens or what he does#i honestly don’t remember too much about season 8 either#but like I know enough that I could put it together#Sam hit a dog and forgot about Kevin and Dean was in purgatory having gay storylines with Benny and Cas#and then Sam is becoming pure but I don’t remember how they transition from one storyline to the other#spn#supernatural fandom#dean winchester#supernatural#castiel#destiel#sam winchester#spn rewatch#deancas#dean x cas#spn season 9#spn season 12#spn season 13#spn season 14#spn season 15
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i am once again thinking about the time cas wanted to smite dean
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"I'm working on a Ph.D," Sam says.
Sam's lie about himself was so interesting in terms of how he sees himself. (I wish it had made it into the episode.)
Instead of defaulting to, "I'm working on a personal research project," or "I'm taking some classes at a local community," Sam says, PHD!
(And I get it. At my age, I wanna say that I'm working on a Masters' or a Ph.D, too. Not that I, "never made it," even though I was, "considered so low-budget genius and backwoods bright.")
From the 14x13 script Dean draws back-- huh? He and Sam swap a confused glance. SAM: What-- who do you think we are? ELIOT: I-- survivalist bigfoot hitmen? Sam and Dean trade a look. SAM: No-- we're-- my brother is a mechanic and I-- I'm working on a PHD-- (exasperated) Just tell us what you saw.
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I recall, very fondly, this scene with Rowena in 12x02 Mamma Mia:
INTERIOR: INSIDE A RESTAURANT. ROWENA IS SITTING AT A TABLE WITH A MAN. ROWENA: Sent me to the grandest boarding schools, but I was a wee imp and ran away for a life in the arts. Mother didn't speak to me until I became a star. BEN: A star? Of? ROWENA: Uh, do you follow the Royal Ballet? BEN SHAKES HIS HEAD. BEN: Not a bit. ROWENA: The Royal Ballet. BEN: You know, it reminds me a lot of my story. I left school to work in a steel mill. I rose up through the ranks, and now I own half a dozen. ROWENA: You're not serious? FOOTSTEP’S APPROACH AND A WAITER COMES UP WITH A BOTTLE OF WINE.
NOTE: Ben turns out to be a cad and a fraud, but there's something so interesting about how Rowena wants to portray her class background. We know from 11x10 that Rowena, "was (before magic) nothing but Rowena, the tanner's daughter... a pale, scared little girl, who smelled of filth and death."
It's a brilliant thing about Samwena. They get each other, at least as far as this is concerned.
From 15x06 Golden Time:
SAM: Rowena got it. I mean, she didn't know all the details, but she knew the game was rigged. So this... Magic. This is how she kept control.
#i feel like i could say some stuff about dean and cas too and how they both seem to embrace low-brow entertainment and food#cas himself is royal-family adjacent something like a lower military prince that chose to leave his status behind#and the macleods are struggling so hard to rise above but no matter how high they get it's like ppl can smell it on them#sam + social mobility#rowena + posh background#spn + class#samwena#and the thing is...the game IS rigged#social mobility is a little overstated in many cases esp during rowena's human life#a portion of sam's freak feelings come from feeling like a prince among thieves he wants to divorce himself from his lower class muck#because academia and high life DO look at his kind with a certain air of disdain you know?#and sam doesn't want that disdain aimed at him#he'll struggle with this his entire life most likely
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If you're not nice to Nyon Specter, we can't be friends, I'm sorry.
#ts4#sims 4#nyon specter#nervous subject#nyon's entire existence is fix-it-fic and for once i am HERE for it#i don't like most of sims 4's tweaks and retcons to existing townies#dirk dreamer my boy what did they do to you in get famous#but nyon was a good move#the whole beaker story was unnecessarily sinister even for sims 2#how do you f up a guy's life so bad that his only redeeming quality is being too shy to say the rude thing he's thinking#and knowing never to skip leg day#i used to move him in with a better household age him down and have them teach him better character values#just so he could have a chance at a normal life#and like now we have nyon at a point in life where we can stop his trauma before it starts#also does mans have a faint vitiligo patch on his forehead or am i tripping and that's just a natural part of the tone used?#i'm leaning on the latter bc i can't find it in any skin details categories#ALSO WHERE TF ARE HIS MAIN BOOTS I HAVE EVERY PACK LIKE THE WHALE I AM BUT I CANT FIND THEM IN CAS I WANT TO USE THEM ON OTHER SIMS SO BAD#I TOGGLED FEMALE AND UNISEX CLOTHING AND OTHER FASHION TYPES AND EVERYTHING#kurage's ramblings
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i’ve been ogling this man in cas for the past half hour
#ts4#sims 4#the sims 4#s4#simblr#ts4 cas#ts4 simblr#he’s so fine i could cry right now#also that’s my favorite sade song 😛#wait it might be is it a crime..#i feel like his favorite would be on the promise album too#my other sims
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Awsten Knight Hair (Two different files)
I started with showing Red & Black first as it's the latest but I made 17 swatches. I think I covered every significant color, skipping most Greatest Hits hairs as those are a pain okay, I am but a single person with GIMP. I did do the scene hair but I would like to some day do it on another mesh. I sorted and organized all my pictures of Awsten, over 400 btw, by hair color, to help me figure out the best examples of each, and to figure out which ones were just faded versions of the others, a few swatches are 'faded' colors, and which looked distinct enough to make swatches for. Green seems most consistent, I have the most pics of blue. Greatest Hits tricolor and red & black are my favorites. The blue is the first color that shows up on the swatches so the thumbnail shows blue hair to make finding it easy. I tried to mimic that the two distinct reds were not exactly the same. I've gotten way too fucking good at telling when a picture came from even if the color is gone from it. None of these are what hair my Awsten Sim normally has tho.
This is. I made this a couple years ago and never changed it from most outfits as it just makes him stand out and it took hours to make, I wanted to get the most out of it. Just one swatch here. Both of these are base game mesh recolors, so nothing else is needed. Standalone files. Also I went out of my way to grab werewolfy poses and emotions because I think it's adorable, okay. He's the least intimidating werewolf, but still my favorite. Forgive Jack's face and body and everything being in frame a lot I am playing as him.
Hair 1
Hair 2
#sims 4#sims 4 cc#the sims 4#ts4 cc#the sims cc#ts4#sims 4 cas#ts4 cas#cas#awsten knight#waterparks#hair#sims 4 hair#I got sick of Alex so I swapped to play as Jack so I could use him for jewellery stuff as I felt that pack fits Spellcaster aesthetics#But his apartment has no room for that shit so I set it up at his parents' house and they are a pain but they are spellcasters too#Anyway finding rocks is harder than I thought but I made a lot of jewellery for Awsten because LUNAR hahaha werewolf#But when visiting Awsten the first time also hoping he'd bite Jack from a new mod I got#Jack is dumb and he kept playing with Awsten's pet rat instead and LONG STORY SHORT he got himself bit by the dumb rat#Got sick and had like no fucking money and no quick way to earn it so I kept pickpocketing random sims to get some#Just enough that he could get the antidote and NOT DIE he almost fucking died#I tried messing with his bitchy neighbor when he was contagious but yeah other stuff happened with her instead#Anyway he is now barred from playing with rats as he is too dumb to live#Yeah I made hair for Awsten but I have nothing to say about him as a Sim#He's a dog that's all there is to it#Okay that is his house tho i built it when the Werewolves pack was new and I got him moved away from an apartment into Moonwood Mill#And got him turned into a werewolf#He has 7 cats btw#I made green hair for him first way back when before all that but this is a new version of it#I'm not a big fan of the purple
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fucked in the head in a way that if cas could kiss another man i’d be cheering and clapping but if dean got to i’d buy thousands of harvester ants and set them free in the writers room
#in my defense too many people act like cas could never show any interest in anyone other than dean and that bothers me#in my non-defense i’m a bitter casgirl through and through year 3 let’s GOOOOO
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not to be insane but Stephanie Brown is so underrated and i really do hate to say its misogyny but. well. It is.
#stephanie brown#batman#spoiler#this WILL get me shot but. steph is everything fanon tim wishes he was#i think i could write a whole dissertation on how if steph was a guy people would love him#like. obviously Some Men In Comics will not be happy with any female characters that aren't background wives or daughters#but this is so apparent with fandom that its kinda. boggling#know i shouldnt read too deep into it bc duke and cas get done dirty as well#(duke and cas are whole other rants. i love them both dearly and i DO think Cas should be Batmans heir bc she is literally the Ideal Fit#while WFA is great but has also reduced peoples perception of Duke to a reader insert that is still learning the ropes instead of like.#the robin gang leader who has been studying since birth to defeat the riddler. who has powers.#duke and cas are kinda insane and deserve that recognition is all so i dont go into another rant)#the way that people are so happy to have the batboys be complicated people (even when they reduce them down to core traits) but not steph#she's always the fun one#her struggle with being a completely average teenager fighting to be recognized and her struggles with self worth gets put to the side#oh for what? waffle jokes? yeah okay#ppl would be dickriding her so hard if she had an actual dick i KNOW it#ppl would be making tiktok mitski edits of her
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heh.. i guess you could say im a GAMER
#i got gifted like 2/3 of them pleek.. im not crazy#unrelated but im still SO mad ea moved from origin to the ea app#because the real ones remember the ORIGINAL ea app back in 2010#ea download manager. GOAT#anyway i had the ts3 teaser back then and later on i got sims 3 pets demo and they removed it from my library once origin came to be.#ts3 CAS too. i hate electronic arts#and like. is the ts3 teaser lost media nowadays? because i see NO ONE talking about it and i cant find any download link online. lol#they had some really cool features that only got implemented on later expansions. like robots (ambitions) and protests (university life!!!!#<- the third to last ts3 expansion!!)#i remember you could only play it for 60 minutes (?) but my computer took like. 20 minutes to load the game and it ran TERRIBLY#so id make lots of accounts so i could play it again and again
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I just think he's neat :3 blank version included so you can draw yourself with him too if you want ^w^! I recently thought that if i were an animal i'd be a deer, and then it kind of spiraled and the thought of wolfman alan actually got me to draw. This was my first time fully drawing him!
#i'm actually not too fond of how this turned out ^^''#i don't like how my persona looks and wish i'd put them at more of an angle so we could see a little bit of their face#but i don't wanna redraw it lol#either way Alan is cute and that's the important part 😌✨#I love his floofy hair it's really fun to draw :3#my art#digital art#it me!#cas#Alan#my dear hatchet man#mdhm alan fanart
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Random Togami Headcanon 13
TL;DR - Byakuya's bettered himself but he still has a long road of healing. Also, heads up. This one's not happy like most of the others. Gets a bit hopeful at the end but there's still a lot of sad topics here. Viewer discretion is advised. Now that he feels more empathy for others and possesses some capability for putting himself in another's shoes, thoughts he used to have about the lower class make him feel... off. Perhaps guilt or discomfort with himself. It doesn't help though looking at his classmates every school day and being reminded of the mindset he was raised with. It especially doesn't help when he looks at Makoto who helped him. Makoto being the commoner of all commoner's also hurts. He appreciates what Makoto's done to help him but it unintentionally stabs him hard within his chest that he needed someone's help to get to this point and the someone being a commoner he once wrote off. Next, with this empathy, the heir feels better with his life and happiness but fundamentally worse. It's as if he deteriorated though, logically, he knows it's not the case. He knows that the illogical side of his brain covers itself in the hides of reason and rationale. Essentially, Byakuya ends up having a grueling struggle with dealing with these emotions that, for the majority of his life, he buried and repressed. Emotions that both make him feel more fulfilled in life but that tear him apart inside. Bouts where he feels either extremely content with how he's turned out or that dread and despair that he's slipping back into his old ways. In fact, at times, it becomes overwhelming for him to handle which he especially hates. Being overwhelmed is yet another thing he once viewed as a weakness and, to some extent, he still does. Sometimes, to cope, jokes to himself on whether existing itself is something he feels is a weakness. However, though he has a lot of emotions and thoughts that upset him now as a bettered person, one big thing that pains him is that he has the capability and the intelligence to notice all of this. It's the acknowledgment that stings. The heir notices that he has a problem, that he probably needs help, maybe even therapy, but then he spirals more because of that realization. Why should HE need HELP for these problems of his?! He's an independent person! He should logically be able to handle this himself. He's always handled his problems on his own! Why should he now need someone or just a support system of people to aid in his path of healing? He feels gross for that support system being the classmates who he once adamantly despised with such vitriol. With the added empathy, he also feels shame as he doesn't want to hurt any more people in his life now. He has the hindsight to know this now. He questions himself. Is the situation he's in even that big of a deal and should he keep searching for answers on the "why" and "how"? Is it worth it? Comparisons to the peasants he used to once adamantly demonize also do not escape him. He feels worse because, while he's breaking at the seams, countless of other commoners have similar thoughts too. He's not unique and a bit of that stings his lingering superiority. Then, there is the fact that Byakuya feels even worse about this BECAUSE commoners can handle stuff like this and yet, he keeps saying that he can't due to his mental spirals. Either that or the older thoughts of hating commoners bites back by making him feel like he's "acting like one". He knows by this point that he's actively tearing himself down and that he needs to escape this cycle of mental abuse. He feels shame in himself though. He feels humiliated. Pathetic. Overly emotional in ways he's never felt before. He still has that hope though. The hope that he can get through his. The heir's already delt with so much whether canon, non-despair, or an au of some kind. He's continued on despite it all. And, though long ago, he would have pushed some of this hope off for it being too optimistic, he's grown to care less about that sort of thought anymore. Byakuya can do this.
#danganronpa#danganronpa headcanons#danganronpa byakuya#byakuya togami#togami headcanon series#text sector#basically he's in a state where he knows he can get better but it takes a toll on him at times cus he's hard on himself#knowing that it's okay to rely on others and reaching out is hard just in general and it's def the case for him cus he usually relies on hi#he has to basically get out of a mindset he's had all his life which is a difficult thing to do because it can take so many years#which is why it pains him cus he kinda wishes the could just get it fixed right away but he knows it's impossible#hope this wasn't too vent-y and it's okay if one cannot get through all of this as it's quite a lot to handle#i find this aspect of his character interesting though#one can question how he'd handle this change of his over time and if it takes a toll in some regards due to this being different for him#he's been wired with a certain way of thinking both in terms of viewing the lower class badly and trying to be as smart as he can#also does not help that he's still young but has acted like he's an adult his whole life or at least the expectation of what adults are#loosening up from that stress and pressure he has on himself both due to the environment he was born in and his own standards is hard#he hates it being “hard” though#he's the togami heir so having things be “difficult” for him “isn't supposed to happen”#also stings cus he thinks so highly of himself and what he's meant to achieve or what he's expected to achieve#just another one of my interpretations of his character though#i could/would have added more but there's a word limit i think??? might have missed stuff i wanted to talk about too#there's a lot to say and dive into and it's especially the case for me cus i care a lot about his character and analyzing him the best i ca#if i found a way to write more without it saying that it can't save my draft i would not have so many of these tags T-T#dunno if it's cus i use my computer to type these or if it's just the site or if i'd have to pay for something???#not sure ;-;
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