#cant wait to see where she goes now that shes given up on trying to stick to her persona

[new-hyperfixation-every-month]

smth abt the way lady ethel talked abt her flies had me picking up my pencil

@hellofromthehallowoods curse you for creating such a conflicting character

shes awful and deserves everything thats happening to her but URGH sometimes she hits a little too close to home

[clearnachopirate]

Terry and the batfam. Terry and the batfam. their dynamics have so much potential and i would LOVE to see it explored in any way at all

Terry and Dick: older brothers, trade stories of how they embarrass and get back at their younger brother(s), anger issue twins, "oh you were batman too??" "yeah, but its only bc one of my parents was murdered" "omg thats how i became robin no way"

Terry and Jason: the second most destructive duo, second only to terry and steph. not bc they fight or blow things up on patrol (thats tim and jasons thing) but bc anytime there a new gadget to try, terry will volunteer to use it, and jason will volunteer to 'spar' with terry to test it out. okay, maybe its bc they fight and blow stuff up, but its only ever in the batcave under supervision! "the tim from my dimension actually killed the joker" "no shit? did bruce stop me over there too?" "... about that--" sometimes they grab the others leather jacket by accident and both have given up on caring

Terry and Tim: terry "from the technological future" mcginnis and tim "designs loads of bat tech" drake talk shop, "my younger brother was made robin without my consent" club. tim listens to the works elcectro pop music ever and it just so happens to sound exactly like what they play at terrys favorite club. tim introduces him to (kon or bernard, take your pick) and they hit it off so well that they hang out without tim

Terry and Damian: ace the dog. terry invited damian to his AC island. both are bruce's bio kids and mamas boys. damian calling him "Terrance" and terry never recovering from it. terry knows damian from the future, kind of, and uses that knowledge to his advantage EVERY DAY

Terry and Duke: team "everyone thinks we're the normal one, they are wrong" they totally do movie marathons you cant tell me otherwise, their favorite thing to do is make bets abt the rest of the fam w cass. they never win against her. on any given day you can find them whispering about everyone else "duke, why the fuck were damian and tim staring each other down over breakfast" "hes mad dick said he can't poison him again" "what" "i know i thought they were over it by now"

Terry and Cass: cass sees him for the first time and sees that he rivals tim and dick in terms of being a mess and is determined to bond. terry hears about what she was trained for as a child and shrugs bc "i was supposed to be a second bruce, things change" cass will make him give her piggybacks when shes tired and terry has never dropped her

Terry and Stephanie: the most destructive duo. something happens to their braincells when they patrol together, buildings fall, bones break, civilians are crying, theres about ten minutes where everyone else thinks theyre both dead. they both are waiting at the cave for the others, terry is teching her how to make really shitty friendship bracelets (dana taught him, and stephanie is pretending she doesnt know how). they dont know why everyone else is so stressed "i texted you that we were fine, old man. steph and i just ran into black masks trafficing ring and took care of it-- why is dick crying?"

ALL of them have asked about the future before and the ONLY thing he ever reveals is out of context sayings and trends "yeah actually luigi and bowser have so much chemistry, well, i guess that movie isnt out yet huh" "???" (they think luigi and bowser are a cononical couple in the future and wonder where the world went so wrong) and (while interrogating smon) "watch out, you're not acting like the sigma you are, batman, try rizzing 'im up, then he'll talk."

him and bart meet (everyone tried to keep in from happening) and theyre from similar enough futures that when they talk, not a single person around them can follow it, they teach each other the different versions of different tik tok dances and terry goes back to the manor and teches them to steph, cass sees them do it once and has them memorized, duke thought it was funny, dick thought it was adorable (eventually they ALL know them, and it becomes an inside joke) tims prized possession is a video he got of damian doing the most dispassionate renegade the world has ever seen bc jon asked and he cant say no to him)

TL;DR:

terry mcginnis interacting w the other bat kids has a lot of potential for chaos and family bonding

[stevie-petey]

Do the girls fighting styles say anything about their personality and differences? How Nancy uses guns and long distance weapons for the most part, while bug uses knifes and close up and occasionally hand to hand combat. Do you think hopper would help bug with her technique and teach her how to fight more efficiently?

SUCH a good question !! short answer: yes.

long answer: its complicated.

omg and yes to hopper hed show her a few moves but bug wouldnt ever practice/want to know them lmao. a begrudging fight club so to speak

now onto nancy and bug:

nancy and bug are foils in a lot of ways, we see this starting from season 1 where bug is soft, vulnerable, selfless and has very little backbone. nancy is the opposite with her rigidity, drive, and passion. as the seasons progress, we see bug and nancy intertwine together yet never knot, they can never necessarily ever see eye to eye or really become one. fundamentally theyre too different, and yet theyre exactly the same, and this is shown in their fighting styles as you pointed out !!

ive been WAITING for someone to ask why bugs weapons are knives. i did sm research trying to find a weapon for her and i was so happy to end up with her dual knives. they represent a lot about her. when she receives them, shes told to use the weapon with love. this is the core of her character, she doesnt ever resort to violence unless someone she loves is in danger. we see in scenes where only shes in danger, she doesnt lash out or fight back. its only when its someone else do we see bug fight. as for her having two knives: bug has a hard time accepting that she cant do everything on her own. its her fatal flaw - she will die protecting everyone if given the chance. so when the old man who gives her the knives tells her that two is better than one, its a reminder to bug to accept help. that strength comes from numbers, from others around you.

now another reason why she uses knives IS because theyre intimate, close combat. shes definitely atheletic, ive hinted at this before. she jogs to ease her anxiety, she played soccer when she was younger, she can wrestle with dustin without breaking a sweat. so knives seemed fitting. she already doesnt like violence, so if shes going to save someone, chances are shes already by their side before the attack even happens. its what she does, she nurtures.

now onto nancy and bug fighting differences: nancy uses guns because its the opposite of whats expected from her, and to an extent its the same for bug. no one would expect them to ever know how to use weapons, let alone carry them wherever they go. nancys gun is loud, its from afar, its a bold, defensive move that leaves no room to miss. one shot and its over. its everything nancy is. she doesnt take no for an answer, she doesnt let anyone near her or the ones she loves, she always goes for the defense in such a forceful and stunning way.

bug has always been softer, and the knives show it. theyre quiet, harder to see coming. it takes more to take down someone with a knife, its personal. everything bug does is personal whereas nancy doesnt let anything become personal. bug protects the ones she loves in a way that doesnt draw attention, minimal damage is her priority. she wouldnt risk a gun misfiring or accidentally shooting someone else. knives are quick, theyre better at getting the upperhand quickly and disarming someone. she doesnt want to hurt anyone, ever. she considers the consequences of what happens after all the violence is done. nancy doesnt, once again reflecting how selfless bug is and how damaging it can be (nancy is arguably the better leader, bug gets blinded too easily by protecting everyone, even if it means losing)

[smallidarityfan]

hiii i pinky promise i voted for smallidarity in the ship things both against bdubs and cleo (i had already done that) and against scarian (while looking through your blog just now) but i want to be anon so i cant prove it. anyways if it is okay instead of art i would like u to make a ship chart of whatever your favorite ships and relationship status headcanons are among the hermitcraft/empires/life series gang, like otp and divorced and qpr and whatever. no pressure to do this though i know its not exactly something you offered but given that you like smallidarity and scar/pearl i am very curious what else you like

Thank you for asking!!! i shouldve done this with or without need to rig the trafficshipping polls, so thanks for insigating me to make it anyways!!! :D

I'll try summarize the preferences I have that I feel dont make much sense?

shipping rant belooww....

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Firstly I can't really describe well why I like Pearl x Scar, but I'll try:

Life series

Scar POV about Pearl: 'Caring motherly and honest person who's smile lights up the room is just the person who I need in my life full of people I can't trust. Oh, she's traumatized? for losing all the people she loves and as a result developed abandonment issues? .... oh..... oh she just like me fr.'

Pearl POV about Scar: 'this guy is kinda wacko tbh but... now I know what he goes through, and I want to be there for him. We're in this together or some shi i guess. and his abs are kinda hot. wait who said that'

(to quote the part in Secret Life where Scar talks about not trusting alliances and Pearl saying "you're growing on me, Scar.")

Hermitcraft

Scar POV about Pearl: 'This lady creates the most gorgeous landscapes..... ohh now she wants to fix my unhealthy chest monster habits.... and she also helps me out when I need it even if i give her minimum wage..... and she also has a cute smile. wait who said that'

Pearl POV about Scar: 'Silly goof :3 also why doesn't he take care of himself well? Anyways, cleaning lady time'

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I could talk about Zedango and XBralis but basically they call each other pet names and roleplay gay people just like Smallidarity but with no instance of the "doomed narrative" or "slow-burn in denial" that they have. Otherwise, Ethubs is self-explanatory.

Speaking of doomed narrative, i dont think ive heard much talk about how doomed scott x pearl is..... They were in a trio group in last-life with Cleo, fought in an honourable 4-way battle with treebark, Scott won, they're now soulmates through unpleasant means, Scott leaves with Cleo, leaving Pearl alone and hurt, they had to work with each other despite the saltiness and eventually resulted in Scott sacrificing himself in honour, for her to win. The bitterness lasted in Lim!Life with the enchanting table shtick, then in Secret Life with the whole "We have unfinished business from Double Life, Scott!!!" from Pearl. (you could also count the doggy alliance with Cleo ig)

Do you see it?!! Do you see it?!?!?!?!?!?!

I could also write about Scottyn but it's relatively the same concept of how Scott prioritizes honour against the watchers' encouragement of chaos, and Martyn listener lore ykyk. (also in Lim!Life with Martyn betraying honour, opposite of Scott yk?!)

Now to Scarian........ I love desert duo a lot. They are in fact my favourite duo overall, I just— can't picture them in a relationship? Like yeah, they tick all the marks of a great narrative pairing and they also love each other, but I personally don't think they two are the type to whisper softly 'i love you' in bed to each other with eyes of passion and romance, nor the types to get flustered over romantic gestures by the other. They are, however, each other's comfort character and would hug and cheek-kiss each other just to be a little silly. I do see the appeal of Scarian though! just not with the version of the two that's in my head...!

Joe x Cleo are cute. They just give me the QPR vibes yk. (even though i might not fully get what a QPR means)

Now to disliking Mumdoc.... I only know of their dynamic through HC8 and 9.... and I really only ever got sour vibes from their dynamic....... they then kissing just irks me ig...... (but yk ive only watched a summative 50 episodes from each of them so i dont know the full idea of who they are to each other)

Honorable mention to Stresskall who doesn't receive the attention they deserve... they're so cute.........

Otherwise, yeah that's it !!! the others I mostly dont get, but are all valid nonetheless👍👍

[nagdabbit]

This isn't a prompt or a request, but hear me out Dags. What if you remixed Lamp Bright Rind but made it wrestlefic? Who would you cast, what would you change, what would you keep? Consider it a thought experiment

don't do this to me, don't you dare do this to me. shit. fuck. balls

like. for those not coming from the st fandom, i once enjoyed the show and fandom and wrote a massive harringrove fic where billy was a disgraced chef trying to reinvent himself, and steve was a corporate lawyer trying to get out from under his family's shadow and do as much good as he could. they live across from each other, they can see into each others kitchen windows, steve cant cook and shows up unannounced to get cooking lessons, and it's cute as shit from there. there's misunderstandings, there's mistaken identities, there's healing from trauma and growing up and not realizing that their entire friend group is a circle. im proud of it

now like. fuck. shit. thought experiment my ass. this is gonna consume me.  fuck you man

my first instinct, bryan the chef. not disgraced, not exactly, but tired. thinks he has nothing left to make, but is determined to start a new restaurant and do something different. yuta as his neighbor, starving, stressed college student who would eat more vegetables if he knew how to cook them. renee is his restaurant partner, and her husband mox is his best friend who is there to give him shit and pep talks and shitty peptalks. bryan doesn't like jons friend eddie, who tags along when they go out, but eddie sometimes make him get out of his wallowing. and sometimes bryan has to get eddie out of his own wallowing about his on again-off again relationship with claudio, bryans foh manager. bryan already feels weird falling in love with the college student he's teaching how to cook, but then he finds out yuta is like renee and moxs adopted son he'd never met before, because he's always so busy with school

but i have an instinct i like more, actually. remix my remix.

renee the chef. shes always had a great gig on food shows and writing cookbooks, she's beloved. but she's never had her own restaurant before, and she's shit scared about how it's gonna go. her business partner, bryan, knows she's gonna kill it, but also he's an asshole, sometimes, and doesn't know how to give a proper inspirational talk. but he is good at interfacing with their investor while she goes crazy trying to finalize the menu. hell, she doesn't even know who their investor is. they hire yuta in the kitchen, and he's young and adorable and eager and even if he doesn't have the training that they do, she likes him more than anyone else who applied. his mortal enemy, daniel, got hired to the wait staff tho, and no one can tell if they're gonna fuck or fight at any given time. claudio just has good foh manager/host energy, he's personable, what else can i say. eddie is the bartender slash woodworker slash handyman who solves their problem of needing a bartender, needing someone to fix the place they chose, and needing a custom bar installed. also he's funny and he pisses bryan off and makes claudio blush. then there's mox, the burly, rough and tumble famous ufc fighter and window neighbor in the apartment building next to renees. he can't cook for shit, renee has a running tally of the number of times she's seen him throw the windows open to let out smoke. and one night, bored and tired of trying to work on the menu, she takes pity on him and carts a box of ingredients to the building next door, hunts down his apartment and offers to teach him how to cook. then there's the matter of who their investor is, and who the mysterious man all her friends are trying to set her up with is, and the inconvenient fact that she thinks mox is kinda cute and is starting to fall for him

i think that's the one i would write. less trauma this time around, more softness.

also, consider: gruff famous chef ruby, bumbling neighbor ang. up and coming chef hook, weird cabaret neighbor dan(housen). world renowned chef regal quietly trying to start a diner, boring vegan neighbor bryan who only makes salad and it makes regal sad. revolutionary vegan chef sami, and his overworked vet neighbor kevin. chef swerve and poofy haired cowboy hangman next door that he hates, he promises. actually i like that one a lot, too. chef orange, king of simple ingredients and big flavors, and his goofy streamer neighbor chuck. chef willow, trying to make a name for herself, and her weird neighbor kris who thinks she's an alien but we're not quite sure about that or not. 

so many combinations... shit. balls. fuck.

[loverofallthingssmart]

PLEASE UNLEASH your hadestown demons!!!!!

unleash my hadestown demons is right this is a BEAST thank you very much ive satisfied the brain worms by dumping all my thoughts under the cut

first off. the beauty of live theatre allows for so much nuance and beauty to demonstrated so i cant even begin to cover all the things that could make me insane its so wonderful i love live theatre everyone should watch at least one live theatre production i believe it will solve at least one problem they have

the tragedy of it all!! its a sad song but we sing it anyway, in hopes that we hope that orpheus doesn't turn. but he will. bc he loves eurydice so much so he went down to the underworld to save her.

guys. the repeated, cyclical nature of everything. its an old tale from way back when and its a sad song but they sing it anyway. the point of hadestown is the HOPE of it all wait theres an article (https://www.standard.co.uk/culture/theatre/anais-mitchell-hadestown-west-end-broadway-b1134613.html) regarding mitchell's thoughts on orpheus that make me insane im gonna paste a quote here:

"If Hadestown has a moral, she says, then it’s “you have to try, you have to have hope, not because success is a given – it’s not. Orpheus fails. We heroicise” – here she breaks off to apologise that jet lag has led to her making up words – “we heroicise Orpheus not because he succeeds but because he tries, and that endeavour alone is worthwhile. How to live, and not merely survive, is to believe things could change.” ARE U KIDDING ME OURGHH

which brings me to the topics of like. climate change and capitalism that the play discusses its so good. the fact that there's no spring or fall, only summers and winter because of persephone's absences, how "is it true" is just a song abt labor protests red carnations are a symbol of love and passion yes, but in germany theyre a symbol of the working class protest. its SO important hades has just created an industrial revolution, has built a wall, has workers work forever, "why we build the wall" is soooo incredible "hey little songbird" "chant" all the songs that take place IN hadestown itself are sooo gritty so despondent in a way its insane.

theres another article that discusses sm of it AND discusses like portrayals of persephone that i REALLY like. im gonna paste it here PLEASE read it it has so much good stuff from a classics person regarding it and OURGH too good

orpheus's "to the world we dream about" but then also "the one we live in now" like oh.okay. im NORMAL….

if u noted every single lalala in hadestown it would be 6 min long. the leitmotif oh i am so normal actually.

okay im not rlly a music person i call myself music adjacent bc my two closest friends r music ppl LMAOJDHJS but like. the first time u hear eurydice say "i do" i.e what you say to seal a marriage is after she tells orpheus she signed the papers. she does not say "i do" in the entireity of wedding song, where they talk abt their nuptials. she says "i do" in informing orpheus she cant come up with him. that she chose this life (or death i guess) of her own doing. isnt that vile….

in wedding song she goes "is he always like this" and hermes responds but then in "a gathering storm" she asks the same question to no response.. idk what's there but something is there.

hermes being the narrator thats involved in the play is SOOOO delicious for my brain, the way he switches between a character involved in orpheus and eurydice getting together, invested in their relationship to a all-knowing narrator who knows the end bc he sees this every time.

there's this sense that only orpheus and eurydice do not know they r in a repeated play. which heightens their love at first sight, the "i feel like i know u but ive just met you" OHHHHH my god.

the original nytw script having orpheus say "ur early. i missed u." directly paralleling hades and persephone but in a different context because OHHHHMYGOD and not even that but the fact that mitchell took it out bc she believed it engaged the brain when the moment should only directly engage the heart. so she had the lovers say each other's name. one last time. im soooo normal

also this is bc one time i was thinking abt hadestown and mitski's remember my name played so . just that song in the context of hadestown is SOOOO bc like. like. how eurydice couldn't rmbr herself when she became a worker but orpheus went down to save her and she remembered.

when he turns back and says.

"it's you" "it's me"

^ are you fucking kidding me. the sort of disbelief the happiness the love the incoming grief im inconsolable.

when orpheus turns back, eurydice says his name w so much joy SO MUCH JOY she is not upset at him. "what was there to complain of, except that she'd been loved?" <- quote from metamorphoses

like yes we wish orpheus doesnt turn around but at the end of the day, orpheus is still the trusting guy he was in the beginning. EURYDICE on the other hand KNOWS how cruel the world is and chooses to trust orpheus anyway. but. "it's a tragedy" and doubt creeps in. part of the tragedy lies in the fact that eurydice, "all ive ever known is to hold my own" eurydice runs after him w open arms, chooses to trust him, chooses to follow the trial, and he still turns around. BECAUSE he loves her ohhhmygod im so normal

obligatory mention to the fact that orpheus could never finish the song he was working on because it was a duet. like okay lol. im fine im normal hahahahaha are u fucking kidding me.

hades and orpheus are mirrors, there r two relationships in the musical obviously and it is clear theyre mirrors of each other even w/o the original script line but like.

hades gives orpheus the test that he himself goes through every spring. hades is the villain of the story yes but he is not evil. he gives orpheus the same trial, sees that if orpheus can judge him for losing faith in his wife through the course of their relationship, let's put his romantic nature to the test. let's see if he can feel the absence of his love and keep going. and he cant. bc orpheus has never had to learn how to fend for himself. so when u take away his support system, when u take anyone's support system, how is he, how r we supposed to succeed?

just. the song "how long" encapsulates hades and persephone's relationship SO WELL. "the girl means nothing to me." "i know. but she means EVERYTHING to him" the fact that this is the first time we persephone REFUSE a drink bc shes had enough oh were SOMBER somber the way the whole song just parallels itself and every verse GOD.

the love was there. the hope was there. its a sad song. its a love song.

every single time before they leave. every time they're on stage, eurydice is in front of orpheus. he trusts that she is before him and she never doubts that he is there. it is when their positions change, him in front and her behind that he bends. it is then that doubt comes in.

those r just the like the thoughst of the music and themes itself we can talk abt the ppl and the live play now:

so first. can we talk abt this we need to talk abt for reeve carney's last show the original orpheus his last show he didnt turn back. he and eurydice lived they passed the trial. sorry that makes me so insane bc like. imagine u play orpheus. doomed to a lifetime of looking back at ur lover and your final show, u finally get to stay. oh im very normal i just love the nuances of live theatre!!! what a send off!!!!

THEN we can talk abt how eva and solea play PERFECT eurydices, full of grit and used to the cruel nature of the world. and how lola tung i feel is a DECENT singer but shes not a eurydice shes so light and soft but idk. who am i to say.

also the soundtrack is just SO incredible so is the set design there's not a single ounce of stage space that is wasted like there are so many nuances like i cant even talk abt all that there is my FAVORITE musical for SOOO many reasons ough.

yeah i think that's it. this took me MULTIPLE hours and i feel drained abt talking abt all this. WOW i love hadestown not normal amounts. i can't die before i see this live its one of my goals i just need to see it live on broadway.

[imjustabeanie]

uhh i may have to organize this or else im gonna ramble lol-

can i have a matchup for hazbin hotel and helluva boss pls :>

pronouns: she/her

sexuality: demisexual/demiromantic

Star sign (if that helps-): Leo

Personality type: INFP

Ambivert

I use emoticons a lot as you'll see :>

Favorite colors: Purple and black especially since they work so well together

Very much a night owl :)

Personality: I'm a kind of a fun and laid back person but I do like do cause chaos every now and then. I tend to hyperfixate a lot on random things that i tend to find. At first im very quiet but can get more chaotic as time goes on. I can tend to get hot headed at times or be somewhat irrational every now and then and it takes time for me to calm down. Other times im very hyper. Also i have a slight caffeine addiction so that might be why :D

Moral alignment: true nuetral

Aesthetic: Dark academia-ish along with some glitch core because i just really like the look of both

Hobbies: I play the violin, read, write, draw, and i love listening to music a lot. Probably one of my favorite things to do honestly. I also love chilling and watching tv and binge watching stuff. I also have a habit of just analyzing shit for the fun of it because why not. I also really like learning about greek mythology and i like a few musicals. I also watch horror quite a bit and mysteries because I just think that they're fun. I'm also learning spanish as of currently-

Pet peeves: people who cant take a hint... like at all, or they take the hint and just dont care. it annoys the shit out of me. also really stuck up people who think theyre better than everyone else, like we get it youre a child who never grew up. move on. mouth noises are also just the most annoying thing ever.

Appearance: tan skin with dark brown eyes and hair. i wear glasses sometimes but dont usually because theyre not fit properly and i keep trying to get them fir but it never works so ive just given up-. honestly i mostly wear softer clothing such as sweatpants, leggings, or sweaters/sweatshirts. but sometimes i wear jeans and actually style myself although i usually just keep it casual.

Hi! Thank you for your patience I am sorry for being so slow to answer to this trade. I was very sick last week.

Without further wait...your Helluva match is...Stolas!

Stolas was a pretty obvious choice for you to be honest. Your interests and aesthetics click and just like you he’s chill but then pulls out the most chaotic actions out of nowhere.

You two met at night at one of those libraries you only see on pinterest. He honestly just came in cuz he was bored and wished to seek a recent human astronomy book. He found you peacefully reading a mythology book in the corner and was gonna leave you alone till he couldn’t help himself but comment on it. You were so laidback and easy going that you two had a nice conversation where he taught you a few things about mythology (given his age and position he does have an interest in those subjects). It was nice and you two decided to do it every month, then every two weeks and you see where it is going. Stolas just likes coming to you to cool off with no repercussions. It’s what made him fall for you. He confessed after inviting you to watch the stars or a movie he thinks you’d like (high chance you already watched it before but shhh). He confess and also tell you real quick about his marriage situation in case you want out.

Stolas is a caring and passionate lover. His love language is mostly affection and quality time but I believe he’ll wait till you’re ready if you catch my drift. He LOVES spoiling you with numerous gifts and dates. He’d be pretty upset (pouty) if he’s not your go to contact when you need help. He wants to be someone you can rely on, a safe space for you just like you are for him. His gifts range from cinema/concert tickets and your favorite snacks (he doesn’t consider any food as a gift) to actual mythological pieces and priceless violons. Sometimes they even come from his personal collection.

Stolas lives for your chaotic moments! He highly encourages them which results in weekly trouble for both of you (you’re always safe dw but he did get you two banned from a few places). When your hot headed side comes out he’s here to calm you down or get angrier on your behalf. There is no in between cuz your couple is pretty much in sinc. It means you either calm the other down or join them.

Despite his extraverted self, Stolas enjoys some home time. Especially with you. He actually purchases a house in the human world and spends most of his time there now. He wants (begs) you to move in with him. This house has a huge library, two studies, a music room and a very much needed coffee corner. Yeah with those machines you see on tiktok with all the material. Stolas isn’t a morning person at all so he needs his daily coffee and only accepts premium quality. He invested in a home cinema and loves binge watching with you. Those are all things he didn’t get to do often so discovering them with you is a priceless experience in his eyes. Horror doesn’t bother him at all and he can show you much better horror tbh. Stolas also likes analyzing things with you (he listens and chimes in) and actually keeps up with your fixations really well. His favorite thing to do at home is to stay glued to your side.

Stolas often drags you to dance with him in the music room. He is attentive to your tastes and shows you his favorite pieces too! In general he is an attentive lover who adapts to your needs without being overbearing. If you accept his flaws your relation will be…stellar.

Your hazbin match is...Husk!

I did hesitate between a few characters (mainly Vaggie) but in the end Husk won. He’s chill but knows how to have fun. And he’s loyal.

You were at the hotel when you got to know Husk. He was being his usual snarky self but after a few nights (and talks) he slowly became friendlier. He even cracked jokes with you! Music definitely got the two of you to bond. You became someone he felt at ease with. The moment Husk considered sharing some of his problems with you he knew he fell, and fell hard. He started being more attentive to your needs and lost in your voice during your conversations. Everyone knew he was in love so one night they somehow managed to leave the two alone for the night. That’s when he confessed, knowing he couldn’t hold it in any longer.

As mentioned beforehand, Husk is a very attentive boyfriend. His love language is mostly acts of service and some quality time. He makes you your favorite drinks and will even learn the ways of a coffee barista for you. He’s proud of the way he makes you smile and feel loved as well as being your shoulder to vent to. Husk knows he has a way with words and people to make them feel at ease, he’d say it’s a positive trait of his that’s why he wants you to be included in it. Plus he gives good advices for someone with so many bad decisions. Husk likes going on weekly dates with you (besides dinner together every night that he cooks) to watch new movies. He’s mostly a domestic guy so going out in public is something he’d only do for you.

Husk calm demeanor is really helpful when you start getting irrational. He always help you keep a head on your shoulders and is the rational voice. Doesn’t mean he won’t encourage you to go ape shit when someone deserves it. While he prefers the calm, Husk still enjoys your occasional chaotic moments. He knows you try to lessen them for him but isn’t fully opposed to them as long as you’re safe. Low chance he’ll join you but some nagging will work. People are surprised that he’s with someone way more energetic than him but he just shoots some lovey dovey comment and they shut it. Angel is probably your biggest cheerleader in the relationship, he gives a lot of (sometimes helpful) advices to Husk.

While your hobbies differ greatly, I can see Husk appreciating them a lot. Especially your artistic side that he fully encouraged. He’s always there when you practice, even when you get frustrated or have an art block. Husk will become your hype man and do his best to motivate you. He probably got the binge watching habit from you much to Alastor dismay and he actually gets into soap operas….it’s funny to watch. Husk likes listening to you analyze or talk about greek mythology. He’s not great at that but tries to participate (he likes listening to your voice).

Husk will lessen his drinking habits with you. He wants to be the best version of himself for you just like you are for him. He’s really trying and it’s commendable. His gambling is another issue and he needs another fixation for him to stop. I guess with you it could become watching tv as it takes up a lot of his time (not saying that in a negative way but you see what I mean). Aesthetically talking, you two also fit together if we judge by clothing type and your personal aesthetic. Overall he might not be the best guy but he’s willing to change for his love.

[onewomancitadel]

i cant wait to see what they do with jaune next episode because i have a sneaking suspicion the neo and ruby stuff will be held off until 10. any thoughts or predictions? (it made me feel warm and fuzzy when jaune demanded the cat take them to ruby AND when he tried to protect neo from them even though she's the enemy. he's so dad coded.)

There are two episodes left, and the things we need to follow on through are 1. Defeat, overwhelm, outsmart the Curious Cat, 2. Save Ruby, 3. Save Jaune, 4. Get out.

I really don't expect them to hold off on Ruby and Neo until Episode 10, just because it seems like they've abandoned the style where storylines are held up between episodes for weeks, and given the ten episodes this season it would probably be a mistake in terms of narrative space.

It's very likely that you can pair together Ruby and Jaune (e.g. if he goes after her - there's some sort of repair required to the friendship/leadership duo there) and fix those quickly, and it will probably be that we learn what 'ascension' really is through them. Then if they're equipped with that, and effectively armed with 'knowledge' that can be a way to handle the Curious Cat. I'm just thinking about how these thematic ideas link together, and how I still don't think the Tree is the way out. That the Tree is a way back 'in' to defeat the Curious Cat kind of works. I still really don't know how they're going to play it - there's been sympathy afforded to Neo with what little space we're given, and that's pretty major, and the Cat wants to know why the creators of Ever After have left.

This episode, I thought the sequence with Neo was going to take up more space, and her friends weren't going to find her sooner. They did find her, but she disappeared again and they were 'too late'. There was a lot of ground covered, so I'm reserving doubt as to how quickly this is sorted out - because Ruby 'leaving' is still the hanging plot thread.

The more and more I think about it, Raven's return really does make sense, because it's basically the only way to make the exit possible at the end of this volume with the space they've got left to the develop. I think it would be more interesting as well as economic, especially with the mounting villain perspective we're developing. I do allow that I could very well be wrong on this front for sure.

That being said: yes, I did like that with Jaune, he still very much deeply cares, which is good portents (I'm not sure I would call this the dad-coding, mostly because he's not picking up any baby-sized creatures and telling them to be careful, in my books this is more the healer who bats his eyelashes at the evil lady to make her fall in love with him). He can recognise what happens to Neo is wrong which is also similarly good portents for what's happened with Cinder and the Grimm arm (that feels... like curious set-up now I think about it), and that he's willing to extend sympathy to the ostensible bad guy is really interesting. The problem with him is that he keeps trying to pull the fucking saintly martyr thing, and that's why I think there is set-up right now for him going after Ruby, as well as him actually discovering the truth of what the tree is. From a practical perspective I don't want to see him lose this current development.

It's too easy for him to give up his experience and memories to the Tree to save Ruby. He's suffering. They all think he's crazy. So I don't know how the exchange works or if the exchange works the way we think it does.

There's too much ambiguity there, anyway, so my speculation feels really fraught. I really think they need to pull something hopeful out of the bag, though.

[blvvdcursd]

--— loading student files for ASTORIA GREENGRASS, please hold !! alright, i think i've got it now.. you're twenty two years old and in your fifth year, SPECIALISING IN POTIONMAKING ?? i can't wait to see where that takes you. bear with me, dear, i just need to confirm some more information with you. pureblood, slytherin house, ciswoman, she/her, and member of competitive dueling club, care of magical creatures club, and photographer for aurelius tribune are all correct ?? perfect.

BASICS

name: astoria isobel greengrass nickname/s: no doubt daphne has dumb nicknames for her, but she usually goes by Tori - a classmate tried to call her asta once and she promptly hit them. age: 22 birth date: april 10, 2001 zodiac: aries languages spoken: english, latin, is trying to learn french sexuality: bisexual

FAMILY

parents: desmond greengrass (father), aemma greengrass (mother) siblings: daphne greengrass ( sister; older) children: no thank you pets: a black cat named artemis

PERSONALITY

positive traits: ambitious, flirtatious, witty, charismatic negative traits: stubborn, impulsive, deceiving, self-destructive hobbies: photography, reading, dueling, arguing for the sake of it, reading up on blood curses to find a cure, has a vested and personal interest in poisons and hexes, is weirdly good at herbology health: has a blood curse that will eventually be her demise. one day. hopefully when she's old but probably not - despite astoria's pure-blood ties and learning proper etiquette as a child, she gives off a carefree and lighthearted outlook on life; which if you knew her personally, would know it's just a facade. she's down to earth, witty and incredibly stubborn, especially when it comes to what people try and tell her she can and can't do. - she's incredibly angry at the world and the cards she's been given, but astoria's well practiced smile wouldn't give anything away. - is probably looked down on by other prejudiced pure-blood families due to how friendly astoria can be to others, but at the moment her parents are just letting her do what they want because ngl they feel bad about the whole blood curse thing oops - will try to fight people just because. but she's tiny so it's reminiscent of a chihuahua trying to square up

MAGIC

blood status: pure-blood wand: elm wood, dragon heart-string, 11" & unyielding boggart: to be added i cant think of something sad enough yet patronus: a peacock region + school: southwest, odalric house + year: slytherin & fifth year specialization: potion making extra curricular: photographer for aurelius tribune, dueling club, care of magical creatures club

BIO ( tw: mentions of illness )

It wasn’t love and admiration that struck Astoria’s mother when she found out she was pregnant, but fear and desperation - there had been no happy endings written for the second born greengrass in generations; a blood curse ending their lives sometimes before it could even truly begin.

For the better part of Astoria’s childhood she had been watched over like a hawk, her fun had been in the family library watching her older sister play in the garden with their friends - Astoria was made to always be the watcher, but never the dancer. Never the girl who was allowed to do anything that required a lot of physical effort in fear her body would not cope.

Even still, Astoria's childhood was littered with happy moments, especially when it came to her Aunt Lysa on her father's side. The two had a special bond as being the second born greengrass inflicted with the blood curse, which comforted and made Astoria sad.

She remembers her parents arguing with each other about Astoria's schooling - where she would go, who would teach her - as soon as homeschooling was mentioned, Astoria had put her foot down for perhaps the first time in her life - surprising herself and her parents. Astoria was a girl who wanted to live life while she could, before she wasn't able to. Her parents had soon enrolled her into odalric when she was old enough, and no one spoke of homeschooling again.

The Greengrass family has been part of the sacred 28 since the beginning, and while they are quiet with their hatred, behind closed doors is a different story. Astoria, however, remains oblivious/refuses to acknowledge her parents prejudice, because she's in her live laugh love era; nothing can disturb that.

In oldaric Astoria was definitely having the time of her life, definitely got up to shenanigans that almost got her expelled a few times, but with a bat of her eyelids and a mere mention of her impending doom via her blood curse, the faculty usually took pity on her and would give her detentions instead.

When it was time to attend Aurelius like her sister, parents and generations of Greengrass' before her, it was no surprise that she had been sorted into slytherin. her fiery temper and deceiving nature far outweighed her passionate and charismatic charm. Astoria decided to keep her blood curse a secret; wanting a fresh start where people her age didn’t see her as a fragile, weak girl who wouldn’t be able to handle herself, because the truth was Tori was well capable of taking care of herself.

Despite the fact that she originally wanted to specialise in curse-breaking, her parents had ultimately refused and threatened to pull her out before she even began, so as a compromise had promised to seek out potion-making as a career instead.

While Astoria wants to succeed as much as she can, she knows it’s only a matter of time before the blood curse put on her family line starts to take a toll on her; which she is starting to feel already. It’s starting with the fatigue after using an excessive amount of magic, bouts of snappiness and exhaustion if not keeping up with her diet and routine, migraines if staring at her screen for too long - it comes and goes, but whenever it happens it strikes fear into her heart. at the moment astoria does have daily potions she takes which minimizes the effects.

CONNECTIONS - also open to plotting from scratch !! these are just general ideas

childhood besties: whether or not they drifted when they grew up and attended different schools (or maybe they stayed close and attended the same sjdjkd) these two have prob known each other !!! since birth !!! i'd imagine their parents are lowkey besties and would often have dinners/gatherings out. bonus points if for some, whatever reason they now hate each other skdfkf slytherin gang: i think this speaks for itself sjfkf just close house friendships, late night bonding, petty arguments and make ups 20 mins later. light bullying with love enemies: astoria's carefree attitude towards life can rub some people the wrong way and that's definitely okay !! these two butt heads like no other and are always out for their throats. (also lowkey love drunk bonding only to wake up sober hating each other again) exes: pls astoria has lots of love to give even if it makes her insecure. she probably broke it off but completely fine if she got her heart broken too will they/wont they: sjddsk longing gazes when the other isn't looking, petty comments at parties and drunk hook ups when they think no ones watching.

[wanderrlust0]

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it ties into the female attention & peaking his interest even if its by the slightest. idk, like i said, this happened almost 3yrs ago when we were in a tough spot unfortunately and ive put it all behind me and weve been moving forward. i know how he feels about me & we would hate to ever lose each other. its just after hearing about this new news to me, i feel like it triggered my brain into thinking about how he can maybe feel things easily towards people. also, hes already apologized to me about the stuff in the past so i dont really feel any more of the frustrations that i felt bc at first he was not seeing my side of things and i was feeling so annoyed by that. luckily, thats all over now. i still get a little attentive when it comes to his classmates & any other girl i hear about bc then i start thinking, well is she pretty, does she like him, does he like her, how much do they talk, etc. which is just a normal girl thing..i think lol. im not totally insecure but it is easy to feel some type of way. so, i think i expressed everything i wanted to. i replied to the other guys msg and i honestly feel kinda bad for him but i hope they can work things out..

edit 7/29: not to add More things to this but.. i hung out with him today & i could tell that he felt terrible about himself for that happening & he felt like i was letting him off too easy. like, just not getting mad or lashing out i guess. im too shy to do that to him tho but i did say how i did think about it a lot & that you two were honestly stupid for doing that. also, how i did feel bad for her husband. i didnt say much more than that but if i did i just wouldve said like, you two knew it would ruin the friendship. even tho it didnt right away, look at it now. just bc you two couldnt put your sexual thoughts aside. but you know what, it just goes to show that it was always ever so slightly present since the beginning of the friendship. they both have had thoughts of fucking already & they finally caved. so he was given the chance to sleep with her & he took it bc 1, it benefited him and 2, hes been secretly wanting to do that. IM STILL NOT OVER THE WHOLE BREAK THING (kinda am) BUT I CANT DWELL ON IT. i just asgdjflk. like broT-T ..made me believe that we were just not gonna talk as much, yet still be friends. it was both of our first time trying out a break. he made me believe that wed be back together once things chilled out & we could hang out normally since it was covid year (honestly was torture & i was in one of my lowest moments). He made me be under the impression that he just needed some spaceeee. I didnt think it was to the point where he felt like he was single, ready to mingle!!! like dude didnt even wait that long to find a whatever rebound, then had the guts to cry to me about stuff i didnt understand at the time but then later found out it was over some other girl!!T-T posting a fricken poem on his story & telling me a lie. turning off his location. taking longer & longer to reply, then not replying for almost a day. But yeah sure, telling me we’d still talk during this time, just not as romantic. sending me snaps of his dealer writing a little “cute” ass note w a heart on it. whyy would your dealer even do that. like she obviouslyyy wouldnt do that for just anyone. posting on your story about something that had to do w him being available & wanting to date. until finally he starts talking to me like he used to bc oh yeah, he wants me back. meanwhile, i havent even thought of myself being single or looking to find a new romantic partner. idk, that all messed w my head soo much. AAND that stupid poem was hung up on his wall for literallyyy monthsD; i couldnt even loook at that wall while we were being intimate bc it turned me off so much & didnt have the guts to mention it. he finally replaced it w something i gave him & when i saw it i was like about time & i showed it to my friend. i got sidetracked but that was important to let out. back to his friend..me knowing that hes been cheated on & how much it has affected him, i would think that he wouldnt enable someone else to do it to their partner the way his ex did it to him?! that was another thing i wouldve told him. i guess i just didnt feel like hurting him more than he already felt about himself.. but to wrap it up, i think were done with it. he kept complimenting me all day. he feels like he should unfollow her off everything now. they honestly havent really talked in a long time & they havent been close like they used to be so its not like they talk. he just doesnt wanna be involved with her & her hubby at all after this. he said i should unfollow also. tbh, i sort of dont want to? is that weird.. i feel like i should be hating her more but i also dont feel enough hate to remove her from ig. idk..he also might ask her how her husband found out. idk its like a sticky situation bc i wouldnt describe my feelings as hurt towards everything. i felt shocked, but not completely surprised. i felt old feelings that i felt when i first found out he hooked up w people during our break & now there was more to uncover. i felt like my suspicions were proven.

[lexa-griffins]

Do you have anymore headcanons of Madi warming up to her new mothers in Bedwarmer au?

As I've said before, Madi warms up to Lexa quickly. She's the person Madi immediately sees as a safe port, and she becomes very attached to Lexa. And Lexa loves Madi the moment she meets her. She's Clarke's daughter, and she is under their care, and having helped raise so many of the nightblood, raising another one comes very naturally to Lexa.

And Madi is scared, I mean, her nomon dropped her here, barely any goodbye and she has just turned two-year-old, she's small, she's a baby who up until now lived with her nomon and only her and now has come to live with the other mother she doesnt know. But Heda.... Heda is Heda, she knows about her, from stories and tales. And Lexa... she feels safe. She is not overly warm or affectionate towards Madi at first, but for a small toddler, the way Lexa talks to her gently and clearly, how she holds her confidently and doesn't push her to talk or to be anywhere she doesnt know alone immediately creates a link between them, to the point where Madi needs to be with Lexa at any given time and when she cant shell cry or hide in a corner waiting for her to come back.

Which really brings us to Clarke, who is trying so hard to connect and have her daughter warm up to her, but Madi keeps pushing her away. There's no way to make a two year old understand the circumstances of Clarke working at a brothel, how her nomon was her client and how she was very clear when she told Clarke she was pregnant and that this baby would never know her mom is a coward and a whore. How does Clarke tell a little girl that she didn't know when she was born, if she was well, nothing, all Clarke knew was that she existed and not much more and that honestly, Madi was probably better off with her. But Madi can't be attatched to Lexa at all times and so Clarke needs to be with her and take care of her and for that to happen Madi needs to at least ler Clarke pick her up without screaming bloody murder.

Those first three to four months are the worst, really. Clarke is starting to retreat into herself just as much as Madi is, Lexa is either off to her duties or spending time with Madi, which doesn't leave much time for Lexa and Clarke to be alone and talk about Madi and whats going to happen here in out, how are they going to handle parenting, etc. And Clarke is more aware than ever that she needs to create a connection with her daughter. She just doesnt know how.

Until one day. Both are sitted on the floor, in different corners of the room (Clarke is too frustrated to see the similarities between them both right now). Madi is playing around with this soft ball, moving it around enough that it ends up on Clarke's side. The ball hits her feet and catches her attention. From the other side of the room, Madi is looking at her, expecting her to throw it back. So she does and goes back to her drawing. Soon after, the ball is back at her feet. This time, Madi seems less timid, a little smile on her baby face. So, Clarke puts her stuff fown and angles herself better, throwing the ball in Madi's direction. She waits a bit, watching her daughter play with it for a minute before sending it back her way. Clarke doesn't say much during their little play time, other than a little huff when Madi throws it too far from her or a little smile accompanied by a "good job" that makes Madi smile big.

This is how Lexa finds them. Closer now, the ball being passed between them with ease until Madi realizes she's here and yells out, "nomon!!!" Before getting up and running towards her. It's so nice to see Madi happy and talking about how her and Clarke were playing ball with each other and see a smile play on Clarke's lips as she agrees with Madi about how fun it was. Lexa feels so warm looking at the way Clarke is looking at her daughter, like she can finally feel a connection forming and its so 🥹

A small little step, but at least Madi is looking at her mom like someone she knows and likes instead of a scary adult she would rather not be close to!

[tlc-bookmarks]

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by anons

Video 1: Saturday adventure

Did we wait till the last minute? yes.

We are trying to get the Argentina jersey, it's not happening. I usually travel with my shirt, but this time I was overspent so I decided not to. and now it is a chaos to get the Argentinian jersey in San Juan Puerto Rico.

Fabiola: a failure

Mariana: a complete failure.

We called Adidas, they don't have any and they aren't getting any. And when they do, they already have a wait list. And the world cup is starting.

Fabiola: We need it for yesterday.

Mariana: anyone know, anyone have any information on where to get a jersey, 2 Argentinian Jerseys, it doesn't matter if they are xl and goes down to our ankles.

Fabiola: for sleeping.

Video 2: Update on the search for Argentina jerseys

We are checking and I'm seeing your ideas, lot of people said to send it here and this was an second option but like I said we had a bit of delay with this now we have to get them. It turns out we went to places that said yes we have it, but it was replicas that were so bad that it makes me embarrassed, I just saw one that had a sun that I cant say it was an Argentina jersey with this sun...Its disrespect

Fabi: The sun was ugly, horrible

Mari: A shame, that wasn't my sun

We've given up and we're going to go home to watch the world cup with the Argentinian flag.

Fabiola: It's not worth it searching for a shirt

Mariana: We'll wear the flag proudly and a mate in hand

Fabiola: Maybe next week we can get lucky

Mariana: Adidas if you're seeing this, we want to be on the wait list.

Comments

💬 Cuuuute, I was thinking to myself last week if Mari was going to make Fabi wear and root for Argentina :lol: Cant wait to see it hope someone gifts them 💬 Da. Fabi became an instant Argentina fan. :lol: They're so cute :ragee:

💬 What does you mean by “sun”? I don’t know anything about futbol thx 💬 It's the sun in Argentina flag

She posted pic of the ugly sun with a cute bunny sticker but she deleted it

[solardick]

What i like about wearing a vidible crusifix, in this evil dominant country. Is the look on peoples faces when they intantly recognize that they’re beign sinful.

Or you got thenpther people whom take pride in being cuntz. Is the loathing on their faces. Well y’all like your vedio games and your phones. You can thank god for that. And the “patriarchy” which inverntes technology.

I can go on a big long rant about femmes and thr moon. But i wont. Cause you know im tight.

Or sum bs. Hooky tomorow. Aint risking it.

Hope this ass thing they engennered on me. Goes away. Wonder whats next.

Tried rubbing one out with this feeling. Came instantly. No relax, no chill, no pleasure. Go see a third. Wonder if im going to be able to underdatnd what they’re saying this time. But, theres no need for comunication. So they’ll definatally will speak my tongue. Fuckem jamie the worst ine of the family. Spychotic tard. Womder if he’s tried to kill

Anyone recently.

Fuck theyre a bunch if fucktards. Fucken children. Wish i like fucking with people too. Maybe i can fallow them home and stalk them from outside the widow till i catch them doing somethingembarassig. And then rub it in the next day. Like they do. Why sid they wait so long before getting lazy in fucking with me? Not even original. Its the same bs my family sis to me all therouhh childhood. The same shit thwy did to me in school. I just report facts. Its like im 8 again. Or just learning to walk. With inparwnting death traps left laying around. Where the same treatment for all the positive stuff? Oh yeah. Its diesnt happen that way. Peiple only care about the negatives.

Well time to go check the mailbox and donate atleast 200$ to charity today. Will i get rewarded for that? No. Everything ive ever cared about has been being murdered since childhood. By stuid gfucktards playninh stupid. So they font have to try very hard. At least pudgy batman showed me an once of resistance when i first got there. So he has some measure of a soul. Grateful for that. But save for talking about hay shit the other day whole making a noose and raising it above his head to be as visible as possible. But after 30 years if this shit. Its imposible to keep down. But nate. Is peobably the noggist peive of shit there. So much so that god interveen and warned me about him. But, because im such a good person. I gave him a try anyway. Several chances but, all he fid was fuck around. So now. Im just going to tell him to shut the fuck up or to fuck off. Everytime i see him.

Guess i kust have to keep going u til they tire out and semd someone new.

Cant afford to give up

My only source of authentic communication. Even if its only this. The only thing thats kept me going these last 8-10 years. Windernif the have another desease to give me. At least im still obstinate. While being aexually harrased by fuck e retards. Come swith losing tour virginity in childhood and doing something stupid with it. While being chemically imbalanced with the onset of puberty. And environemntal violence, bad idols and unmonitored “subpervission” which is the whole point have havign a fucken baby. Oh well and sharing a bedroom with a spychotic older brother with murderous rage. And an alchoholic drug addled other brother. Who kept trying to convince you tondo stupid things. While given cigareets and drugs to a teenager. In fact if you combine nate and pudgy batman you have an exact replica of my fatger and his parenting. Nothign but curses and swearing and that narcisist holier than thou bs that bate gives. Well add in a little bit of my brother jamie in there. My korher wanted a girl so bad that she named her next two sons woth girl names. I literally dont know anythign better.

At least by doing this i have some sense of control o er other people fucking with me. But it be nice to have a pet or something a cat or as art bird. Save that someone will

Probably kill it like every pet ive had. But its bad enough tgat im not alloed having a coherent conversation with a doctor. But ohh well.

Ca t wait till i grt a couple boyfriends and spend the rest of my life in pure bliss. A gay gouole lookign for a queer.

Personally. Authletes arent worth that much money. Insyead of multiple millions a year. How about they make. Maybe a hundred grand a year. And all the other profit goes straight to infastucture or health care. But., nope. Some asshole gets paid too kuch money.

Unfortunatly. I could t find the last 50$ bill on my floor somewhere. Proabbaly undwr all that trash. So the children. Will have to make die with a 150$ today.

Anyway i lwanred that a mytual reception between jupiter and uranus in awua and sag means criminal imderworld.

Crows just told me they are toaking smack about me at work right now. I even asked them. And they got

More vocal

There we go. Got a receit and everything.

Yesterday nate was like hey man. And i was like fuck off. And he was like hahhahahah. Comes back later. Are you bored? Fucknoff nate. Hahahahahah laughs again. Stands theres. What the fuck did i just say?! And he was like, Fuck off. And leaves. It was great. While they were teying to piss me off with keagan being absent half the day and then tony comes up to rub it in.hwy wheres tour partner? They all suck. I dont know how people live like that. I was raiswd by those eople and i syill dont get it.

I y’all stalk ny profile and knownits me and use it agaisnt me. Then why show any respect or sparebyour names? Im getting fucked either way.

Yeah… it gets too much fir me too. Want to close it all down again. Notjing to do. And the i have zero social energy going into anything.

Well its time to go see what cruel and unusual punishment they have for me today. Do what they always do elevate the pressure of my responsibities at the same time they elevate the pressure in social relations. Stress me out as much as possible while playing another side game. Abuse me into another state of belligerence and then try Nd make me feel likes its my fault even though i don’t know whats going on. Righy now its what they are doing slowly adding in has much bs as they can while blaming it on an outside factor in which i should be routing for. Or some shit. Or maybe another girl to harrase me and ehen i ask her to stop in the my friendly esy possible i get framed for harrasment. Or some shit.

Teying to find an actuall himan being on this life line i was given. Seems an imposibility. 39 years later the world is still a threat to me. Womder what lifenis like. Noy being victimized.in a world that preaches peace, love and security. I have still left without experiencing any of it. Only its opposite. Nothing but threats.

Iys just like childhood and school. Singled out serrounded by assholes. Criminals, bigots, druggies, alcoholics, and pervs.

I guess ill never know who i am without all these fucken cockskrs ruinign ymmlife.

Bathan alm ost went to the hospital. Today. Inatigation.. ive never seen red before.

God was right. Always is. At keast ingave bc donethin in to be gratefu l for. Q

I almost pulled a jamie. Went full psychotic with a a hand held weapon. But, i cant be any more jamie than that fucktard. Playign stupid everyday. Isnt that draining? Jesus.

Promised myself i would never hurt another hum a being. But y’all

Make that very difficult. And indotn eant to be there anymore anyway. And have to be subjected to all that stupid bs. Wveryday.

Moral of that story. Dont eat ten bags of low fat popcorn over a period of three days.

[underscorecc]

2.

ive reached another time where i feel like i need to vomit out all the shit thats been churning in my psyche. you know that feeling where you dont want to go to sleep because of this subtle sensation in your stomach? I think its dissatisfaction, both with myself and with the people around me.

the girl that i broke up with turned out to just be a hoe. She played w my heart and told me i was " the right guy at the wrong time" and that "she needed time to be single" and then immediately hopped onto some mid ass white dude LOL. anyways i fucking hate her guts. not cause she doesnt like me anymore, but because shes a damn liar. on a positive note it just means that little plot threat in my life has just been tied up, and now all i have to do is reconcile with the distrust for people that ive already been harboring, so nbd.

the ppl in my life kinda got me fucked up tho. right now i feel like theres no one genuinely there for me. I have a therapist, but you cant rlly get the level of intimacy with a therapist in the way youd have with family or friends. so right now i feel like i have nobody. my friends all suddenly seem extremely disinterested in talking to me. someone who i consider my best friend barely texts me and brushes off making plans and never reaches out. and my other friends just dont seem to really care or respond to me anymore. I get replies, but im not having conversations. it also seems like my mom is tired of me. shes even said it herself. she gets annoyed at a bunch of little things that i do. so i dont think id be wrong to assume ive become a nuisance rather than a valued family member.

it totally could be me. it totally could be them. it also totally could just be a series of unfortunate circumstances so ive been kinda torn trying to figure it out. I know im partially to blame. i can be overbearing and i dont know when to shut the fuck up. its hard for me to do genuine real talk anymore. I say "real talk" and then give advice to friends (probably unsolicited). but i never rlly talk about stuff that goes beyond skin deep. I talk about terrible moments in my life, like when i was sa'd or like something fucked up ive done, but its water under the bridge and doesnt rlly affect me anymore. i dont know, i just get the feeling that people will be repulsed if they see the real me. the me that is insecure and struggling and tired and angry. god im fucking angry, but im also so goddamn complacent, which is infinitely worse.

i am in the process of changing my life in a drastic way, which is needed. wont say how but it should shake things up in a good way. unfortunately its also partially a waiting game. so im stuck here in this in-between where i am given the privilege and honor of being alone with all of my thoughts!!!

i think i am having an identity crisis. I dont know what defines me anymore and i dont know who i want to be. ive thought about changing my name. im already changing what i wear (slightly). and weirdly enough even though i am a straight, cis dude, i occasionally have very very slight doubts about my sexuality and gender. its probably normal tho who knows.

I think this stems from a lack of masculinity in my life. having high free testosterone does not make me a man. being aggressive or stoic does not make me a man. but theres this concept of a real man in my head as something to aspire to be, but its an extremely vague and loose concept ive formed. despite being 20, i dont really see myself as a man. but im not a boy either. not to say im non binary. im just in this awkward in-between period. I wish i had a genuine masculine figure in my life who i could look up do. my dad is more like reddit atheist ben shapiro who debatelords me when he doesnt like me doing something. i dont live with him anymore so those problems are in the past, but the lack of a male role model is catching up to me, and its on me to define my own masculinity, but like fuckkkkkk i dont think ur supposed to do this by urself.

i been feeling mad weak. i always was a pussy on leg day and its showing now that i havent been to the gym for months. it really makes me feel pathetic. that 15% increase in struggle for things that i used to pick up with ease is really shameful, or embarrassing, or idk. it just fucking sucks. I want to be a strong person who cannot be surmounted, like a legendary dragon. But at the same time i dont know if these desires are my own or some responsibility i put onto myself as a means to gain social acceptance. its probably something i should put thought into when im eating enough and actually going to the gym, but i think ive been holding off because i feel so pathetic.

its a brutal cycle too. I feel pathetic from prior experiences where ive been demeaned (so a lot) -> i feel i dont have the grit or willpower to do something -> i try something thinking ill fail or just avoid it outright -> i feel pathetic. shit sucks ass.

anyways word vomit over thats p much it

[fictionfixations]

Stiles & Other Stiles Dream Sequence

disclaimer: i have never seen teen wolf. all my knowledge comes from fanfiction. also spoilers

been having brainrot over this. ive been thinking about this since yesterday but like 'no. im not gonna write it'

..but now ive folded because i cant stop thinking about this conversation. maybe some of the dialogue feels weird. but thats because the first convo i came up with that probably ran a lot smoother i cannot remember. and i never wrote it down

[where the sheriff is dead]

the sheriff dies

stiles is all sad like '..i never got to tell him the truth.'

dream, where theres two stiles (would be void, but. idfk where in the timeline this would be and if that wouldve happened. well not void void but like. teh stiles that 'was' void. the thing of void that remained even when the actual thing left)

Other Stiles: You know what I think you feel? Relief.

Stiles: What?

Other Stiles: I think you felt relief. There's no one you would have to lie to anymore now that he's gone. No more tough conversations, no more facing his disappointment-- Just you and yourself. And now you can do whatever you want without worries of consequences.

Stiles: (..It didn't even occur to me..) No! That's not..!

Other Stiles: But isn't it? This isn't livable, y'know. Sneaking out every other day, researching till exhaustion hits you so bad you black out. He thought you did drugs. Ending up in the wrong sort of crowd. And no matter how much he grounded you, made you do chores, lectured-- it didn't work. And he probably thought, 'what am I doing wrong?' 

Stiles: ...

Other Stiles: And you know what? Love can so easily turn into hate. Resentment. You know how he gets when he goes into one of his drunk stupors. Remember?

Stiles: No...

Other Stiles: When mom died. Remember what he said? 

Stiles: Stop it!

Other Stiles: You killed her.

Stiles: Shut up! Shut up shut up shut up!

Other Stiles: No matter how much you tell me to shut up, it doesn't change the fact that I'm correct. You want to know what he thought of you?

Stiles: No!

Other Stiles: You already know. After all, he tried everything! He gave you space, he tried to be there, and you just didn't budge. Because no, you were just too stubborn. Just like mom. You know, she didn't even tell dad about her diagnosis until months passed because she knew he'd be crushed. And you know what? He feared that you were doing the same thing. That one day he would find you dead in a ditch. And everyone would see you as just another drug addict who got a little too high and fucked up, and would spit on your name. Or you know what? Not even give a crap.

Stiles: Stop it...

Other Stiles: So if he wasn't the one doing anything wrong, then it was you. You were wrong.

Stiles: No...

Other Stiles: You were messed up and he had no idea how to fix you. What was the point of hiding anyway? Oh wait, I know! Because dear old dad loved you, but he didn't trust you. No, you broke it. And it was too late.

Stiles: I know that. I know that it was too late... I..

Other Stiles: Hell, maybe if you sprouted crap about werewolves and hunters, he would've given up right then and there. Because you were delusional, weren't you? And who knows, maybe if you told him at first, maybe he would've believed you. Or maybe he would've thought you were lying. Maybe he would've gotten mad. Like, who the hell are you to try to reason real life murder cases with fantasy, right? *laugh*

Stiles: ...

Other Stiles: No, how dare you? This isn't time for fun and games, Stiles! You think he would've said that? Maybe he would've been disgusted by you and your blasé attitude towards such a tragedy. Such a loss of life. 

Stiles: ..That's not..

Other Stiles: You think you could've gotten proof? Everyone knows Scotty'll follow you. So what if he backs you up? Doesn't mean a thing. Besides, he was chasing after a girl, you really think he would've dropped it to prove to your dad, 'hey, I'm a monster!' And you know Derek would never have been up for it. No point in trying.

So all that's left is you and your words. Does he trust you? Does he trust you enough to believe what you're saying? 

Stiles: ..Just stop it already.

Other Stiles: You know the answer. He wouldn't have believed you. Maybe he even hates you for having such a shitty son. Can't do anything right. Remember Jackson? Never would've thought it was in you to pull such a 'prank'. I thought I taught you better. Y'know?

Stiles: ..You're such a liar. I didn't feel relief. I never did. So what if there were hard times!? He was my dad! And I didn't make it any easier for him.. We still loved each other..

Other Stiles: Did he?

Stiles: Just! I don't need this right now. I don't need you trying to undermine everything and--

Other Stiles: Am I wrong?

Stiles: Just shut up! Just shut up for one second. I don't know who you are, why you're me, where these thoughts are coming from, I just-!

"Stiles?"

He opened his eyes.

The teen shuddered, feeling all sweaty and gross. 

"Wha..?"

inspired by the dream part of this: (sheriff being dead came from me starting a diff fic where he dies. and then i went to bed.)

[alacrity9]

21.022024 Wednesday

Irritating customer care calls

Now - a - days its becoming very normal and easy for organization of various fields to do a phone call to people and advertise their product or scheme or plan. Today we are bound to give our phone no at every place we buy products .. We can't even ask them from where they got our number because they will not answer that.. (talking about the places we dont give our phone no directly).. At every shop we purchase something the first thing they ask is give your phone no.. It is generally understood that its for safety purposes or to avoid any fraud .. Is the purpose really fulfilled?? Aren't we still afraid of cyber theft and cyber scam?? And coming to my phone call topic.. Its becoming very easy for companies to hire young age girls and boys, make them sit with a phone and make calls to customers...I really pitty on those boys and girls who cant find a job and do anything with their life and end up working in those call centres whose purpose is to only irritate the citizens.. Big to small every level of organizations are upto this marketing strategy..The salon(brands n general) where we go for our services they also call and advertise again again ... Poor banks and finance agencies to sell a credit card.. Etc

Aapko call karna inka janm sidhha adhikar hai... And many times they also dont stop themselves from showing their frustration if they are not treated well by you... Aise jatayenge jaise aapke upar daya kar rahe hain... Yes if we have given any where a query or searching something on internet we give our phone no and wait for a call, but these unnecessary calls.???.. Yes we can take some calls if we are free or in a mood to hear something ... But not always... In online shopping world also.... Once you shop and then they start to send you flurry of SMSes after the shopping ,delivering all finished also.. I will end my piece with a story recently happened to me.. It goes.... And we while fulfilling the duty of being a supportive wife end up answering all the nonsense... Pata nehi sabke husband kya karte hain lekin mere husband toh aise hi karte hain.. Aur he doesn't even spend time on internet to find where to stop the calls even after my highest level of anger.. This post may help me n persuade my husband to do that help to me...

Before couple of days in the evening I got a call from an unknown number... There was a girl that side and started saying mam I am calling from so and so jewellery shop from janpath, Bhubaneswar... I then asked her 'you have called from that jewellery shop?? Why you have called me?' She replied 'mam there is sale going on in our store.. Come and do purchases' I said 'there is sale going on in your shop so you have called me!! I will talk to you but dear will you please tell me from where you got my phone no?? Because as far as I know I have not given my number anywhere asking that I want to buy jewellery.. If you tell me the source we will never give our no at those places.. '' she then got irked as I have mentioned earlier and told 'my manager gave me the number, if you are not interested you can hang up.. " I said ' if I am not interested u r saying.. You have already called me talking to me, I am giving you my time, now you are saying if I am not interested!! Call your manager I will ask the source from where he got my number .. " She was reluctant.. Then very nicely I told her "being a responsible citizen I asked you this question... Try to understand, I know you are doing your job and in your personal life also you may be facing these problems, so please convey this message to your manager that one madam told me these things.. You are not even the shops where we have given our number not even a national level jewellery chain.. Your advertisements are coming daily on tv.. Seeing those we can go and purchase. why are you calling us personally.. If every jewellery shop, grocery shop, hardware shop start calling on our phone numbers jeena toh duswar ho jayega... please cheer up and understand what I am telling.. Be a responsible citizen.." 😊 Then she hung up.