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just-sg · 3 days ago

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"You're kidding. That's what you're upset about?"

"Wha'd'you mean, of course it is??? How am I not supposed to freak out when I can't even remember who I am!"

"Dude... You seriously think that face is 'you'?"

"What?"

"No, hey. I'm not saying it wasn't the OG, I'm not trying to spring any secret backstory on you or anything. Just... You're you, man, as much as I'm me."

"What are you talking about??"

"This is you. And the dog that stole my lunch yesterday was you. And the crow in these photos, and the harpy form you made for Halloween, and the mice you hide as every time your mom wants to drag you to a boring function. Yes I know about that, not the point right now. Like... It's always you, man. You're not the same as you were yesterday, or last year, or when we were 5, and neither am I. My body changes less than yours, but to be alive at all is to endlessly change."

"I... But..."

"I get it. I swear, even if it's not quite the same, I do. It's scary when you can't go back. When you'll never see that house again, never talk to those friends again, when you can't go back to before you got that injury or before you learned things you never wanted to know. You have to worry about what shape your bones are and whether or not you have scales today, and I've never had to think about that. I have to worry about my body scarring and breaking down, and you can always discard anything that doesn't suit you. It's different, but it comes from the same place. Everything changes, even us, and we have so little control, and that's scary."

"Huh... I guess so. But there's still... Everyone expects your changes, you know...?"

"Right... Yeah, that's fair... You've got me and your mom and a few people who know, but it's probably not safe to tell just everyone. Still... You don't have to become exactly what you were before. Let's take it slow, okay? I'll sit with you. Maybe you'll remember once you calm down and get some momentum, but if you don't, we'll take it one step at a time. We'll work out something close enough. Push comes to shove, we'll tell everyone you got plastic surgery or something."

"Not funny-"

"Sorry, sorry. But really. We'll figure something out. It might not be easy. Change rarely is, and sometimes it uproots our whole lives, and there's nothing we can really do but figure out how to live with it. But no matter how this plays out, I don't want to hear any worries about 'who you are'. I understand if you look 'too' different, it can have consequences, and those do matter. But despite that, no matter what you look like, you're still my best friend. Got it? You'll always still be you."

Your friend, a shapeshifter (a secret you've kept since childhood) hasn't answered your texts in days, so you head to their home. Upon arriving, you find that they're in the middle of an existential crisis; they can't remember how to turn back into their original, human form.

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lovelyshu · 2 days ago

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I ONLY TALK TO DOGS BECAUSE THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND ME — with Minho

001 DESCRIPTION — how minho deals with a crying teenager he cares about

002 TAGS — all platonic, gn reader, use of yn like once, very fluffy, a tiny bit of angst if you squint (reader doesn't trust parents with problems or anyone else tbh + like lots of crying), very self indulgent

003 COMMENTS — what does crying at least once a week in the middle of the night does to a person? It gives them ✨ideas✨. Also this was inspired by my brother even if I never told him much. He was the only person I allowed to see me cry.

004 TAGGING — @hannamoon143 @jisunggy

Minho doesn't remember exactly when did he got so close to you. And to be honest, neither did you.

But now you were someone very important to him, going as far as calling you his little sibling.

And that's also one of the reasons he accepted when you asked to sleep on his house that night.

The other reason being that he knew you weren't feeling so good these days. Even if you tried to hide it, your obvious reactions to which no one seemed to notice or care gave it away.

Well, that didn't mean he was expecting to her crying in the middle of the night.

It was 1:35 am. And Minho had no idea on to why were you still awake. He was still feeling sleepy and tired, but as soon as he heard the sob coming from the other room, his mind put to the side any sleepiness in his body.

Slowly, he walked to your room, standing right outside your door. Minho thought about knocking on it, but you would probably just ignore.

So that's why he just - slowly - opened it, to which made you freeze, trying to pretend to be asleep.

“yn? Are you alright?”

No response.

Sighing, he walked closer to you after closing the door, sitting on the edge of the bed.

Minho knew you had trouble with opening up to other people, even sympathizing with the feeling. Knowing that, he put a hand over your head, patting it softly.

“If there's anything bothering you, I'm more than happy to help you. You don't need to bottle up everything.”

As you stayed in silence, he continued.

“And I can also just listen, if you'd like. I won't tell anyone about this, unless you ask me to.”

The silence continued for a short moment, until he heard you speak, voice cracking slightly. A clear sign you were indeed crying.

“Not even my parents?”

“No. If you don't want them to know, I won't tell them.”

You slowly turned to face him, sitting up. Minho seeing this slowly puts your head on his shoulder, letting you take your time with talking.

“Minho... I'm sorry..”

“What are you sorry for?” - he spoke in such a soft and calm tone that made you get even more emotional than you were.

Trying to find the right words, more tears begun to found their way to your eyes as you tried your best to not let them fall.

“For everything. I'm a failure, I can't do anything right, my parents are alright but it seems like I can never make them proud. The only thing I give them is shame.”

Minho moved you a bit, enough so that you could hide your face on his shoulder as he wrapped an arm around you.

“Sometimes I just want to disappear.. I always ask myself if anyone would even care if I did...”

Hearing your words made Minho hug you tightly, mumbling in such a low voice that you might've missed if it wasn't for the silence.

“You're not a failure. If anything, you are the most talented and intelligent person I've ever met.”

Minho sighed as he noticed that you were crying even more, knowing those words might mean something way too big for your own heart to bear.

“And you don't even see it. If you ever disappeared, I'd go all around the world to find you.”

Slowly, he laid you down again, but now, laying down as well, still holding you.

After some long minutes, Minho noticed you were drifting off to sleep, which somehow, got him in peace enough to do the same.

Not until he whispered again.

“You're not alone. Don't forget that.”

Was the last thing you heard before closing your eyes, comfortably sleeping while cuddling no one other than Minho himself.

#೯⠀⁺ ⠀ 𖥻 single ⠀ᰋ #lee minho x reader #minho #minho x reader #lee know #lee know x reader #skz x reader #skz #stray kids x reader #stray kids #gn reader #kpop x reader #kpop

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astranauticus · 3 months ago

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soliloquy

(edit once again i drew something with my ipad screen brightness too high and now that i've posted it nothing is visible. sad!)

#orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #kim dokja #art i made #sort of a quick lighting study i suppose??????#can't really explain this one i just keep thinking about #i dont remember if i ever talked about it on here but for my theatre studies performance project last semester i set up the lights so like #for one scene me and my groupmate would have 2 spotlights on us and after his character dies his light goes out and then its just #me with the spotlight and i didnt realise how fucking dark the lecture theatre would be with no lights on and i swear to god #for like those 3 minutes it really felt like nothing else existed in the world except me and that spotlight #genuinely one of the most haunting emotional experiences i ever had. idk i think about it a lot #there was an old post i saw a while back about how theatre is the best medium for portraying loneliness and its like. i watched a recording #of the tempest a few years back and that last scene of prospero alone on stage addressing the audience? yeah #anyway. time for somethig more respectable (mizisua angst) (?????)

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disposal-blueeee · 7 months ago

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vargas by zarla-s ,

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pardonmydelays · 2 months ago

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tøp: mtv unplugged will always be so special to me because it actually shows how fucking talented those guys are

#you know how big of a fan i am and still they left me speechless #i still remember watching it for the first time ever #i was actually holding my breath the entire time because tyler was so nervous at the beginning and i was scared cause #what if something goes wrong #but nope #it was fucking perfect #one of their best performance ever and some of my favourite tyler's vocals and also singing josh and all those instruments and and and-#seriously guys it's just 40min long but it changed my fucking life #you may say twenty one pilots is not a good band (referring to my last anon)#i would say maybe their music is not your thing but you CAN'T say they are not good or not talented #just fucking watch it #it will change your mind #(also to those who think i only listen to tøp because tyler is hot)#(he's actually the most talented guy ever but oh well)#alright i am going to sleep i can barely even see anything i'm pretty sure i made at least one typo somewhere here i'm exhausted bye #twenty one pilots #i say whatever and whatever that i want*

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vampiricsheep · 7 months ago

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so since I may be free this summer after all, would anyone be interested in an RP event that's a potluck? I've been wanting to do it for ages but there's never any interest compared to other themes

for a discord rp, I would make a separate server explicitly for this purpose so you don't have to be in any guilds or anything! I would also delete the server (or at least channel, if people would like an event-planning server long-term) after a week - enough time for people to read over their stuff but not preserved forever and ever.

#actually remembering to make this a week-long poll this time!#if you've never heard the term before: a potluck is an event where everyone brings a food they've made to share in a communal feast!#there is no skill floor for this - if you (your character in this case) only knows a simple cornbread recipe they follow by the book that's #-just as welcome as an elaborate roast #and I know people have brought things they bought instead of cooked (like a bakery pie)#the point isn't to show off your cooking skills as much as it is to come together as a community and share :)#its historical origins were a little more complex in function than that but I'm going with what I was raised with #but yeah. it's a theme I've wanted to do a while because it's so community #I AM upset that I won't be busy this summer (rejected from every internship I applied to and can't apply to ones that require a-#-drivers license which is uhh MOST OF THEM!#but my psych was saying it's probably good for me to have some rest and recovery time after this hell semeste #(it wasn't hell but two of my classes have really been fucking with my head)#I DID get to try out darting guns last week in my wildlife sampling/id classes though and I hit the target dead center both times!#and that was fun. but the writing assignments from those other classes are incomprehensible in rubric #OH RIGHT MY TAGS #gw2 open RP night #gw2 rp

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honey-skulls · 4 months ago

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HUGE VENT

I'm sorry but i need to get this out, just please don't worry too much or take anything personally/gen

My routine these last two weeeks has been:

-Wake up at my 10 am alarm and spend the whole day in bed, mentally and physically exhausted, brain fog and no motivation for anything, only getting up to eat, having to wait for the "food time" hours to roll around that my therapist gave me because I'm not allowed to eat outside of those hours and if I'm hungry but missed the last food time then too bad, struggling to stay awake because again I'm not allowed to sleep out of the "sleep hours" she gave me and that includes naps, excitedly waiting for 21h30/22h to roll around so i can finally sleep

-Spend the evening mentally screaming in my mind because, while my body is still just as physically exhausted, my mind is suddenly sharp and full of ideas and motivation, but i'm still too tired to get up and draw

-Then spend midnight and onward rolling around in bed, hot and bored out of my mind because my physical tiredness also vanished, but i'm not allowed to get up and draw because it's "sleep hours" and i need to reschedule my body, and end up falling asleep at around 5 am

I'm totally not slowly loosing my mind 😃👍

Edit: Oh also the constant noise in my ears has gotten worse, i don't know what silence is anymore

Silence is actually worse than loud rooms

It's driving me insane

It's so loud

#literaly so mentally exhausted to the point that i forgot to ask a bunch of really important stuff and tests at my last gyneco appointement #i can't remember which med I'm supposed to take at a specific hour and which one is whenever. so i just take them both at the same time #i can't remember if i have still boxes of meds in advance and which one i need to go refill #because they're stuff i need to constantly take and not suddenly stop with #but i keep forgetting to check #and i can't remember where i put the prescriptions anyway #and which one are the right one and which one are old #I'm so tired #and I'm so tired of being tired #and I'm SO so so tired of constantly fighting to have my health and struggles acknowledge #i kinda just gave up and now i'm just mindlessly sitting there at the appointments for only 10 minutes being being told that i can leave #I've just been run in circles for way too long #and i get aggresively criticised every time i use advice and seek for help on the Internet. by the same doctors who don't give me ANY advic #or help #and my head has been pounding for two days #and my verbal ticks have gotten so bad that it genuinely gets hard to breathe sometimes #with a therapist that just made me talk in circles and lowkey criticised me for two hours #(this was our first real therapy meeting and they're supposed to only be 1 hour and are NOT reimbursed because the autism center will NOT #fucking answer to ANYONE. medical professional or not. so i had to go private 😃👍)#and the only thing she gave me at the end of those 2 hours was this schedule that I'm not allowed to bend #I've been trying to daydream about my AUs and develope them as usual to try to feel better #but now that i have time to draw. i just get more and more drawing ideas that keep pilling up and tear me apart from the inside because i #can't draw any of them thanks to this damn fatigue #i literally only did 1 af revenge and still need to do 3 more. and i genuinely don't know if I'll manage to do that #i told two friends that ill draw something for them. but nothing. because too tired and everything keeps slipping from my mind #i will daydream about Dimentio for hours straight. then forget that i did. and panic that the fixation is slipping because i “haven't #thought about him in a while“. ”a while“ was 40 seconds ago. I'm not exaggerating this keeps happening #i also keep spending the night DRENCHED in sweat because i just can't sleep without my blanket on me anymore. so more struggles #vent #negative

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nexus-nebulae · 3 months ago

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another childhood bucket list item obtained: i finally have a snuggie

#and it's the real thing not even a knockoff #kinda surprised they still exist #but also not surprised bc Blanket. blanket is universal #i just remember a lot of those As Seen On Tv ads like. imploding within 5 years #they still do As Seen On Tv products like there are still boxes marked with that logo it almost feels wrong like an ancient relic #bc most like. ubiquitous 2000s brands from my childhood are just Gone or at least so fundamentally changed it's not the same thing #heard about like 50 more companies going bankrupt probably in the last year alone #anyway ive always wanted a snuggie it's one of those Always Wanted things that never go away #others include: staples easy button (obtained!); mini fridge (not); pillow pet (i had a knockoff once); power drill (not)#i spent a surprising amount of my childhood actually going out of my way to buy stuff i could use in my own apartment in the future #i grew up lower middle class and then just lower class #so like. i always Knew i couldn't just furnish the whole apartment at once i Knew I'd have to build stuff up over time #also bc when my sister got kicked out she had like. nothing. in her trailer. and i did not want to have nothing #i knew if dad was willing to just toss out my sister like that i would absolutely follow suit #and i did! two years younger than my sister when she was!#it just happened that my mom didn't want me homeless at FOURTEEN when i legally could not work for two more years #so she went with me and we lived with my grandma #so take that dad. turns out throwing family members out willy nilly makes the rest of your family not trust you or like you!#and now i get to rub it in his face that HE can't function in a house by himself and still needs to beg my mom to clean up after him #bc i spent so much of my childhood getting berated and called lazy for not doing chores #getting told stuff like 'you have to function by yourself your parents can't always pick up after you'#and then he's literally useless without his wife #he's not disabled and he's not neurodivergent he's never even had a serious health scare he just doesn't bother to learn how to clean #his excuse is that he doesn't know how to use the washer and dryer (it has been almost ten years fucker. learn)#or he doesn't know which cleaning products to use (you have google and a library card. LOOK IT UP)#he's the only person i get mad at for this behaviour bc he's a fucking hypocrite and a child abuser about it too #he is the exception to my rule of everyone needs to be given the space to get things done where they're able and deserve help when needed #and I'll bend over backwards to make excuses for other people so i DONT exclude them from my rule i will try to find every good reason first #he has no fucking excuse though he made two teenagers nearly homeless bc he thought we were too lazy and then he's even worse

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sysig · 7 months ago

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Tainted batch (Patreon)

#Doodles #Just Desserts #Villainsona #Fine nevermind >:(#It's so weird to be posting vent-adjacent stuff while I'm doing so well currently haha #I started this months ago and have significantly improved my mood since then pfft ♪ I'd hope!#There wasn't anything specific at the time anyway just a thought circling around that I figured Charm would be more affected by #Considering most things for her are heightened in comparison haha <3 She'll get therapy someday #She also deals a lot in sublimation through art! And sometimes that means literally taking the materials and using them elsewhere #Honestly it's pretty cool that she can reconstitute her art :0 Drawing is a little different haha #I hadn't realized it'd been as long as it's been since I last drew Cirrus :0 #Oh yeah Cherry Shortcake actually has a first name now lol #A few residents do! If you remember my mention of Aria from a while back - Marshmallow Fluff - I think those are the current three?#Still haven't really pinned down a naming convention haha...I've been thinking about three-letter last names for what feels like forever now #She was also an early contender for Digitally Rendered Resident huh... I could at least stand to name the others that have gotten that lol #So many things I wanna do with her - really want to finish her Biased Narrator fic sometime just dunno how to end it hrmngh #Anyway lol she gets a one-panel cameo and takes over the post pft no! Charm time!#Evil Time Charm time - kicked up her pulse as soon as she remembered #She kinda sorta remembers what happened but more than that remembers the Emotions - feeling Laughed At #And clearly it's [this specific thing]'s fault that she feels foolish! Avoid [this specific thing] and never feel foolish again Guaranteed!*#*Not actually even remotely close to a guarantee lol instead she's just avoiding something that at one point made her feel good #So easy to turn a positive memory into a negative one with just a change of framing huh?#I can't think of anyone in her life who would exploit that fun little feature in her outlook not even one!

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keeps-ache · 8 months ago

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oops‎‎‎, i, ‎did it again - i overcheesed the spaghetteh,

#just me hi #WWhhhyyyyY #my catastrophic cheese issues continue hfhshd #went 'oh noooooo' and looked up at my mom and she already Knew lmaoo #that's how often these things happen !#i'm also not allowed to make macaroni anymore btw ://#/oh also i discovered some time ago that the seasoned pecans they sell at costco are AWESOME with sharp cheddar cheese #it's GREAT i highly recommend !! :D #my siblings keep going 'ewh that's gross' and then trying it and being enlightened to the way of the cheese-nut lolll :3 #it's also apparently a grave crime to take off like a fourth of the cheese block and just nibble on that for some hours #joke's on those jokers i forget i actually have to eat anything for at least four more hours after doing that Hfbshd #//but anyway in other news !!#what is up with colours? i have no idea. neither does anybody else! peace and love on the celestial meatball we all adore #/octopus are neat i like octopus :>#so are crabs but i think they're a bit scarier for some reason so !#octopus are just kinda more gross but i can appreciate their squiggyness #octopusses... octopie.... is this the 'plural platypus' thing again hfbsh #/i have Gottt to finish these refs before june or i'm going to do what i did last year which was NOT fun loll #i rushed like 5 refs in two weeks ! did i enjoy it? naauh hbhfs :')#/also thinking of opening comms next year ? maybeeeee #it's definitely under consideration though ~!~#/also made a new yt cuz i changed my email lol :>#RIP the old one. you'll be remembered o7 and iiiiiiiiiiiiiii will always remember yyyouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu #//think that's all though ~!~#<- doin that cuz i can't have my wiggly exclamation point lol :)#but it's summer again which means i'm going to ddddiiiiiieeeeeeeee #that one guy who wanted to set fire to the sun had a real idea goin there..#//anyway toodles :33 perhaps i shall return. oo bYe ~+

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eggmeralda · 10 months ago

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I may have lost all hope

#it's a weird feeling?#like since late 2022 it's been kind of like. bad vibes consistently #and i tried to stay somewhat positive throughout it #but idk there's this very distinct feeling now of like. i can't describe it but it's completely gone #like I've actually got nothing to live for #nothing I've done or wanted to do since i was 14 has ever really like amounted to anything #all the friends i made i never feel like i can talk to #once again in that state of 'only alive so my family don't get sad'#like even when i wanted to just stop existing when i was 21 there was this tiny bit of hope still there a little bit #like i remember for that whole summer i kept getting quick thoughts about suicide but I'd always push them out of my mind instantly #but there was one day where i let the thought stay in my mind for a little bit and like properly considered how i would do it #and then after a bit i was like FUCK and then went and walked like an hour away from my house to try and forget it #and then after that day i slowly got better. and it was annoying bc it meant now i had to walk a whole hour back to my house #but even if those 2 months there was still this feeling of this isn't gonna last #bc i knew i was back at uni in a few months and at least i had music to listen to #and all the other times I've been in that state there was still this sort of feeling that it'll get better bc I've got things to get me #through it #but it doesn't feel like that now. like no job no friends no hyperfixation and now i can't even enjoy any music #anything i create is pointless bc only i care about it #all my friends are busy doing other stuff I'm like not even second best I'm the most forgettable person anyone might know #the only thing that would fix me is getting a random train to like some place I've never been #just to see a new thing i guess #but anyway #ramble #suicide mention

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kelpiemomma · 1 year ago

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Sometimes I think things are good and then I remember I can't recall the last time I felt genuine excitement about doing something in my future

#Idk I think I'm a little broken anymore #I can't remember the last time I was excited to do something. I can't remember the last time something made me indescribably happy.#All it seems I can hope for anymore is contentment that I'm not overly stressing about one bill or another #Told a friend today too that I don't feel as strongly about animals after losing Simon #I sympathize or empathize for those who lose them but I. Kind of don't care also?#Something inside me is broken and I don't know how to fix it

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gamebunny-advance · 2 years ago

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#tumblrtop10 #long post #i doubt i'm gonna post anything that'll break these numbers before the end of the year so i might as well do this now #gbunny draws #not a bad year i suppose #though i can't really think of anything i was particularly proud of this year #nothing really went viral but at least my most popular post wasn't a shit post #so i'm gonna consider that improvement #i can't find my post from last year #i know i made one because i remember commenting that i was surprised that laser piss was from that year #so i only have 2020 to compare to #and yeah compared to that year this is pitiful #but still not bad #i'm surprised that something from just a month ago is in my top 10 #but i do like those drawings of kliff/may/tati so i'm happy with that #oddloop 10/10 didn't do nearly as well as i'd hoped for the amount of time i sunk into it #but it just be that way sometimes~#i do wonder if the notes combined from both XIO posts would have elevated it about the malt shop series though #i had to repost that one since it wasn't showing up in the tags #but the version that's up there is the one where i'm basically begging people to reblog it ;3;#i guess that means begging works but i don't like guilt tripping y'all into doing that #i believe that if you like it you'll reblog it on your own accord #ah. i decided to look up my posts from last year #and the most notes i got (that wasn't a shit post) had 244 hits (for my cheery cherry cardigan)#i guess 245 is about the best i can do when i'm not getting a meme boost~

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ryeonah · 2 years ago

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tag dump

#✖plotted starter║with a candle through time i could still see your ghost but i can't close my eyes for it is there where you haunt me most #✖mobile post║& i sat in regret of all the things i've done for all that i've blessed & all that i've wronged #✖psa║a reaper's guarantee of responsibility #✖music║again this evening ancient rain is singing the same ancient song #✖saved║those painful memories are what help us make it to tomorrow & become stronger #✖wishlist║you don't have to be a ghost here amongst the living #✖open starter║how can i blame the cherry blossoms for rejecting this floating world & drifting away as the wind calls them?#✖dash games║i liked the bittersweet taste of danger touching my lips #✖dash commentary║so how do i apologize & put the tears back in your eyes?#✖meta║the glass of my intentions turns to sand & shatters in my hand #✖character study║the last person I have to save is me & in the end we are the only ones who can save ourselves #✖headcanon║death & i have been scandalously intimate for some time now #✖hae dae-soo║there’s a black bird perched outside my window he burns me with his eyes of gold to embers he sees all my sins he reads my sou #✖gop-dan║others may forget you but i am haunted by your beautiful ghost #✖the jade emperor║there was something beautiful & tragic in the way that she waged war #✖lim ryung-gu║i know the pain that you hide behind the smile on your face #✖park joong-gil║solace lies in the ritual of remembering the dead & yet he cannot find solace in his rotted ribcage made of anger & grief #✖choi joon-woong║does it make me unique to hold hands with the grim reaper rather than go to the angel?#✖koo ryeon║how many nights does it take to count the stars? that's the time it would take to fix my heart

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kuromi-hoemie · 1 year ago

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i can't believe i used all my tags on this. i have MORE TO SAY. honorable mentions i will not elaborate on: pikmin, runescape, OG animal crossing.

the reason for all my tags is because there's a difference between "most fun" and "most important" and feel like if they're important u should at least say why :3

#1. metroid prime trilogy: my first dive into metroidvania games and to this day it is probably my favorite genre next to soulsborne.#also as a space nerd egg “wow she's so cool i wish i could be like her” lmaooooo buddy..#2. eternal darkness sanity's requiem: REALLY great unique game. graphics r a bit dated but i think it otherwise holds up rly well.#great spellcasting system with a rock beats scissors beats paper type of thing between different uh. “types” of magic? sourced #from different gods that seem to exist outside of time. idk what bar it raised exactly but it made a strong impression on me #and I've been wishing i had something like it ever since. the sequel has been started multiple times but i don't think it's ever #gonna happen 😔 nintendo has some surprisingly GREAT rated R games.#3. fallout new vegas/skyrim: having enjoyed these so much I've had them on every system i think getting them for PC was a literal #game changer. i played vanilla then ultimate editions and Thought i played them to death but once i got console access on PC??#it kinda served as my entry point to using mods and recently I've even made my own mod for elden ring and dark souls 3 (⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)#not that I really needed or used mods with those games - but just kinda being Aware™ that being on PC means u have access #to the game's underlying functionality that you don't get on console. making bat scripts for skyrim/fonv made for some #HILARIOUS gameplay 😭#4. Sonic adventure 2 battle: rly just the sonic games in general but this one FUCKS. Songs r bangers. love the characters.#u low-key kidnap the president for a bit?? more like u break into his car to talk with him nonchalantly lol but still 💀#i listen to the OST to this day!!! when i think of a favorite GameCube game this is one of the first to come to mind.#and the chaos 🥺🥺🥺 and Rogue hey queen (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠)#5. hard to pick a Last One here.. I'm sure there are a lot of games that could be a stand-in choice but RE4/Dead Space Trilogy:#these were some GREAT horror survival games with a good plot and engaging gameplay. Dead Space especially was one me and #all my friends played and took turns playing (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠❤ just the time spent together alone was good but just rly solidifying that #u can have horror a good plot And good gameplay all in one. i love survival horror as a genre to this day (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠) wish i could #remember others i played but i can't?? speaks to how iconic they were at the time though.#6. (honorable mention) the mass effect trilogy: u wanna talk about great plot and engaging gameplay?? these games were SO #fucking good omg 😭 i LOVE the lil class system and the different abilities u get to use i loved that u could carry ur character and #decisions across games. and the fucking TRAGEDY of ur faves not making it thru the ending of ME2 (⁠〒⁠﹏⁠〒⁠) I fr #Went Back so i could try again and again till i at LEAST saved Jack but also saved everyone.#i think the emotional payoff for all ur characters ur invested in r pretty good when u make it to the third since it's p cinematic?#kinda want to play it again. ick do i want to touch the origin launcher though is the real question (⁠´⁠-⁠﹏⁠-⁠`⁠；⁠) i bought it in a bundle #on steam and immediately asked for a refund when i realized i couldn't just play it through the steam launcher (⁠ノ⁠｀⁠⌒⁠´⁠)⁠ノ⁠┫⁠：⁠・⁠┻⁠┻#anyways. lots of time spent there too and another addition to the “you can have fun gameplay AND a great plot” pile.

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foragings · 2 months ago

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true blue by boygenius is literally so everything. like yeah that's love

#the line that's like 'you've never done me wrong except that one time that we don't talk about / but it doesn't matter anymore'#i found texts from over a year ago when my partner said something accidentally hurtful and i was asking my friends for advice #and i had like genuinely totally forgotten about it. like not in a bad way just like yeah idk it happens sometimes you're careless #and you'd think bc it is such a rare occurrence that we fight or like conflict in any way i'd remember it #but those moments always pass by so fast and get worked through so easily #idk... i've definitely like emotionally stabilized in the last year #this time last year i was extremely anxious abt our relationship like near-constantly and i just sooo dont feel that anymore #it was (relatively) new and felt scary and felt very high-stakes and uncertain for no reason but now im just like we ball #'it feels good to be known so well / i can't hide from you like i hide from myself'#idk i feel like we've made something very beautiful and very simple but also very intricate . love is nice #i feel so cringe writing all this but whatever my blog is cringe #note to come back to this when i write an anniversary card

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