#can you tell im aroace

[nerves-nebula]

wait so is dinnie like...into kraang??? romantically or sexually???

Donnie’s sexual orientation is a bunch of question marks for a reason lmao. he just like me fr.

Like is the body sharing romantic? Not traditionally, and though it involves an extreme level of intimacy and trust, I wouldn’t say either of them feels particularly romanced by it. But they feel close and affectionate, and their lives are intertwined.

a lot of the stuff they do and the ways they interact have weird sexual undertones, but like, is the attraction to the person or the novelty of the situation. if they are attracted to each other, neither one feels particularly inspired to call what they're doing dating or anything. and they'd both be fine if the other one never wanted to attempt anything sexual or overtly romantic again. the commitment to each other is the most important part of the relationship.

but they both enjoy the body horror & the novelty of kinky alien sex so like sometimes that just happens too.

[mybrainsrottingwithmcd]

“Aroaces can still date/have sex” do you non-aspecs actually understand and respect that or do you just want an excuse to ship canonically aroace characters?

[sifloopboning]

braindumping here. come into my study and sit down by the fire withbme. ill be busting my actual load under readmore preemptively bc i know im a wordy mf

also prefacing by lettin u know i dont know much about like. 24/7 Bee-DSMV dynamics / rules / established lore / meta decks etc. however i do think this makes me qualified to talk abt siffedloop in one because you know good and damn well they dont know shit OR fuck either. actually they prolly know even less. anyways

siffedloop can have little a 24/7 ds rship with a dynamic that makes both of them feel way more secure, reassured, and loved. as a treat. tbh kind of like an expansion pack to my Poasts from yday where i talkd abt loop claiming ownership of sif's body and soul in a fun and sexy way? i think it'd be good for loop, who lost everything they had inlcuding the person they used to be and their physical body.

like listen. we'll have to do a character analysis before we get to suckenfucken. edit this is 95% chara analysis i think i actually didnt even say a single sexy thing. ANYWAYS. i have locked the doors and windows listen to me. listen. loop has NOTHING. they lost everything they had, everything they were, all of their relationships, even the clothes off of their back that they've had for as far as they can remember. loop didnt get to keep anything they care about once they made the wish that made them into what they are now and created the current siffrin. the current siffrin who they helped escape the timeloop that destroyed them, even as they had to watch him get further than they couldve ever dreamed of, even as siffrin got everything that loop suffered for. died for. wished and destroyed themselves for. loop gave everything they had and were, and they got NOTHING for it!

so! the headspace situation vis a vis the Dynamic is that methinks it would give loop a good sense of security, satisfaction, and safety to get to Have / "own" something that is undeniably Theirs. that they have an indisputable right to have on all levels. since again, the current siffrin was made specifically to fulfill loop's wish. his body was created by the universe either using loop's own, or in loop's image at the very least. so!

and that's before getting into the fact that siffrin, as they themselves state, only managed to get out of the timeloop thanks to loop. he would have given up far before managing to get to where they needed to be without loop at best, and gotten frozen while being tormented by the manifestation of their Agonies for eternity in act 5 at worst. sif owes it all to loop and they very much know it! even more than loop does!

so! loop may not have their their cloak, hat, body, or old rship w their friends anymore, but they do have siffrin! not just that, but they have a right to siffrin, which would be soothing in on itself to loopie methinks.

on the siffrin side i think it would provide them frankly insane amount of comfort and security to be "owned" by someone who knows him inside and out (the canon selfcest enjoyerrrrrrrr). like they forced themselves to keep an iron grip on their emotions, reactions, and body during the loops for so long, under what they felt like was the threat of smth worse than death (perceived abandonment / disappointment). having someone who they love and trust, who thinks in a way that is very compatible w how he thinks (& whose thinking process does take into consideration 99% of the things he feels are relevant) that makes the decisions at the end of the day would be like heroine to that gay little neurotic prey animal i think.

like! i think just the knowledge that they dont have to make every decision, or control their behavior to Make Himself Palatable/Not Fuck Up Everything Irreversibly would be immensely relaxing and anxiety-easing to him. if loop owns their body, soul, and life (as is their right) then siffrin doesnt have to constantly be Alert and doing 486374 mental calculations at once to make the Right Decisions. (from actual decisions to super minor stuff like socializing bc keep in mind this is the guy who happily says he can just Kermit to redo a social interaction they think they Failed in like. act 2.)

ALSO siffrin tends to convince himself that theyre manipulating / forcing people into liking then or giving him what he wants (affection, friendship, touch, etc) and well. being in a rship dynamic where their partner has all the power and chooses if/when touch happens and to what extent would greatly reduce that anxiety for them. & loop as this partner knows sif's boundaries, wants and needs pretty well, along with being able to read them so well sif thought they might be able to read his mind.

lastly (for now) due to the sheer amount of trust this requires on both ends, imo the only person either of them would feel comfortable having this kind of rship dynamic with would be each other. THANK YOU FOR COMING (hheh) TO MY TED TALK

[crystalpallette]

happy valentine's day! here's the suzuran gang here to tell you sometimes you don't need a romantic partner, being with your friends is just fine :)

[mischief-causes-mayhem]

I think any Earth ship is immediately better when made queerplatonic

Marth? Cool! Queerplatonic Marth? HELL YEAH!!

Vearth? Awesome! Queerplatonic Vearth? ABSOLUTELY!!

Earthcury? Neat! Queerplatonic Earthcury? OF COURSE!!

[xbittersweet-nostalgiax]

Aphobia in the form of amatonormativity hurts so much more when it comes from someone you actually like & respect....

[variousqueerthings]

also interesting because I just watched a video doing a rundown on the history of queerness in doctor who, which naturally had a lot dedicated to aro and/or ace reads of the doctor, which at one point discussed that ofc reading the alien character specifically as such can be alienating (not... that as an aroace person my own reads would be attempting to alienate... myself... although also here insert other discussion about how the aliens often are just the blank slate upon which non-normative behaviours are placed, so it makes sense to see the neurodivergent/disabled/queer/otherwise othered body reflected from them, while also understanding that this means the world views you as inherently alien, while also being like "sure, yeah, I always have done," while also knowing that's dehumanisation, while also...)

but, when it's consciously done, when does this alien being (whatever narrative we're looking at) resonate through the lens of xyz because we're interested in how social structures built Not on today's earth human constructs could end up in wildly interesting different spaces in which what is non-normative to us is presented as normative to them (thus making an argument of stop being such freaks against trans kids, for example), and also when do we read those characters as incongruent with their own societies (I think also here of star trek's the outcast and rejoined, which blend queerness as we recognise it in our societies with characters who break alien normative structures as expressions of an alien queerness, and then there's ofc left hand of darkness in which gender-and-sexuality is at the centre of the political narrative and it's queer on multiple in-universe and out-of-universe levels)

for example, the doctor isn't really an outsider timelord if we look at them through the lens of genderbending regeneration -- that's normalised in that society in canon, and the interesting thing there is usually how that interacts with human social constructs and politics of gender and as a scifi way of deconstructing and dissembling real life consturcts... but they are clearly an outsider in terms of many other things they do, for example seeming neurodivergent if looked at through a human lens and a timelord lens

so where do aromantic and asexual reads fit in there?

well to start with aro!doctor -- I am into the science-fiction ability to create societies with completely different expressions of "connection" that eschew simple human monogamous ideas and histories, but if we were to take that second lens as well of "what if the doctor is aromantic as an identity and not simply as an alien," the doctor continuously (with the exception of romana and the master) creates deep connections with beings that don't have a particularly long lifespan/aren't timelords, especially considering they're near-immortal. and with romana and the master there seems to be a different set of rules happening there than anything one might describe as uncomplicatedly romantic, bitter exes vibe of the doctor/the master acknowledged

the doctor interests me from the lens of "aromantic as non-normative/queer from the pov from both our and timelord society" because they seem to continuously struggle with people not accepting the connections that they're offering them. the doctor's way of having a relationship is often not "enough", isn't easy to describe/vague, and people get jealous or angry or feel betrayed for reasons that isn't the doctor's fault, because there simply seems to be a lack of language to properly describe it in easy digestible terms

that is... a very aromantic experience

and then sometimes the doctor will just have little non-romantic connections that work, like donna -- and, despite not being my favourite seasons, the bits where the doctor simply lives with/drops in on the ponds is very sweet. and the tardis of course. am a "doctor-and-the-tardis are a matching pair and one without the other is wrong, but it's not romantic" person at heart, beyond anything else

(I am interested in how this will play once my rewatch gets me back to 13 and I can watch until the end, because I know yaz confesses that she's in love with the doctor near the end, and the doctor has an interesting reaction from what I understand)

(I guess at this point asexuality is another post)

but yeah. I think I'm not saying anything new with regards to the writing of aliens (and android and otherwise non-human characters), in that obviously one would like to imagine some interest in exploring these forms of non-normativity outside of "well that's an alien" (she's an alien and he's gay) but also there's reasons we're all so into aliens

genderbending genderfluid regenerating aliens is all well and good, but it only becomes really interesting in this case when we see trans/non-binary/genderfluid/genderbending humans (as is coming up soon! and I hope we see many more actors of the trans and gender non-conforming persuasion on this show!) similarly -- while I do think we have had more than a taste (donna my heart and soul honestly) of that non-alloromantic queerplatonic vibes doctor-companion dynamic -- I'd be fascinated in what a consciously aro (and maybe ace also) companion opposite the doctor would be like, how that would restructure their relationship with the doctor, compared to others who had expectations that the doctor couldn't ever hope to fulfill, like rose, martha (although they did let down martha in many ways that had nothing to do with romance), amy, possibly yaz, (here the confession that I never did get much of what was going on with clara but maybe this watch will clarify for me), possibly sarah-jane, possibly river song although she seems to have just kind of gone with it I guess, possibly romana... heck, possibly the master (I guess possibly that american woman from the movie, I forget her name... I cannot remember rn if other companions ever expressed an interest like that in them, but if so, then them too)

also I just want to rub moffat's face in it if I'm being honest. writing snide commentary about what was described as "asexual" doctor pre-nu!who, in a way that very much encompassed aroness (because romance-and-sex has so often been and still is put under one header), and totally misunderstanding why fans were into it or why it's interesting, and then being obsessed ever since with his weird little crusade of making doctor who "sexier" and alloromantic and imo utterly failing, despite it all

[smallearthboundfindings]

(Headcanon post)

By the way, I'm a day late because tired, but this International Ace Day, we stan our aroace prince ignoring every single girl.

How he's so popular and seems to mind none of them.

Inspirational.

[error-dark]

Technically SAMS spoilers...

Sun is canonically straight... Technically, a straight ally??? STRAIGHT ALLY?!?! AM I HEARING THIS RIGHT, CHAT??? AM I???

If so, then HELL YES! Honestly, I accept Sun no matter what sexuality he is. Even if his sexuality changes in future lore, I still accept him. I love straight ally characters as much as I love LGBTQ+ characters. I doubt I need to explain myself.

[berryblu-soda]

hello i would like to formally announce i´m completely normal abt 1 (one) ship! <- timebomb

[phiatheox]

okay so I understand that "if wishes were horses" could be a difficult episode for #bashirnation because if you take fake! Jadzia at face value then he becomes insufferable. but as someone who is unable to take off my queer-tinted glasses at any time I would like to put forward the interpretation that it serves as a strong case study for Julian suffering from comphet.

now, it's been a while since I've watched the episode so I cannot provide an extremely detailed analysis, but I remember that in the scene where fake! Jadzia is first introduced Julian's initial reaction was to reject her (yes this can be seen as just responding to context clues and being polite but we're having a gay time here), and it's only after she asks him why he's fighting this that he thinks *you're right, society says I SHOULD want this*, and starts kissing her back.

afterwards, when he learns that she's just a manifestation of his thoughts, he responds to her propositions with embarrassment at best and outright repulsion at worst, as if the idea of a version of Jadzia that reciprocates his feelings fills Julian with discomfort. at one point, the alien even says something along the lines of "why would mine create a woman to reject her?" and that's the thing, because to me this episode confirms that Julian doesn't actually like Jadzia: he's just chosen her as the one to safely project his desire to fit into cishetero patriarchal norms onto because she's never actually going to like him back, which is why when faced with a version of her that does, he completely loses interest.

[pumpkinwastaken]

Happy ace week everyone

wasnt sure what to do for it but i think drawing Charlie being smug about being aroace is prolly very fitting for me.

[twicethetrouble]

Mass effect 1 is giving me trouble, but not in the way you'd expect.

[raeofgayshine]

I wish I could go back and tell younger me that I would in fact find that place one day full of people that I adore deeply and who I know love me in return. Who make me feel wanted and cared for and appreciated in a way I never thought would be possible. And none of it required hiding, or forcing myself to be a person I’m not. And I still have that space even though I’m aroace.

For the first time ever, I see a future where I’m not alone. And I wish I could go back and tell my younger self it would happen. It’s possible to not be constantly lonely.

[zer0expektation]

ITS ARTFIGHT SEASON !!!!

some of my fellas:

Orphea and Eudosia:

James and Bow:

Judas:

Finnley:

Axel:

Emery:

FIGHT ME BABEEYEYYYEYYYYYY

[jiabeewrites]

𝐫𝐞𝐪·𝐮𝐢·𝐞𝐦 || 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝟐

noun · an act or token of remembrance

“she wrote the requiem as a way to let go. as a way to remember how it would be if she ever told her. guess it didn't really work, though, because she just fell deeper in love”

(an aromantic love letter to my best friend)

𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐚 𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐈𝐭 𝐦𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐬𝐞𝐞𝐦 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞 𝐇𝐨𝐰 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐮𝐧𝐠𝐬? 𝐀𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐢𝐧 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐧? '𝐂𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐞 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐰𝐡𝐲 𝐈 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐚 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐚 𝐭𝐫𝐲?

I told you that I was aromantic. I told all of you, and you were the only one who took me seriously. And I'm starting to think that you're ace, too, like me. And you gave me that ring, the one that matched with yours. And you're the only one who understands when I'm being a nerd, and the only one that understood how I felt when our friends were simping over slightly concerning guys.

𝐎𝐡, 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐞 𝐬𝐨 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐀𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐞? 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐞𝐞, 𝐈'𝐦 𝐭𝐫𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐞𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐒𝐨 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞

They all know, I think, that I favor you over them. And every time they mention it, you just giggle. You giggle and it's the cutest thing but obviously...I can't say that. Because then what would you think of me? But I can't be upset. Because my kind of love is different. Because you'd never take it seriously, because you're probably straight, because you'd never talk to me the same way again. Because I love you too much to let you see how much you're hurting me. And it's not even your fault.

𝐈 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐢𝐭'𝐬 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐟𝐚𝐢𝐫 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞'𝐬 𝐠𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐚 𝐛𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐛𝐮𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 (𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐚 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐞?) '𝐂𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐈 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐞𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐒𝐨 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐞

I wanna let you in. I wanna figure all this out with you. I want you to be there to help me through it, I want you to be happy, I don't want to lose you. And that's why I could never tell you. Because I don't want to lose seven years of friendship, because I don't want to throw away what we already have, because if I told you...you'd never see me the same way again. So I'll keep it in.

𝐋𝐞𝐭'𝐬 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐚 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 𝐁𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐘𝐨𝐮'𝐯𝐞 𝐠𝐨𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐣𝐨𝐢𝐧 𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐩𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐀𝐭 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐎𝐡, 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐬? 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞? 𝐋𝐞𝐭'𝐬 𝐬𝐰𝐚𝐩 𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐬 𝐭𝐨𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐦𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐩 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐞

And I think it's easier, because unlike you-know-who I won't blush every single time you complement me. We'll go to her wedding in sweats, like we'd jokingly planned. I'll keep everything in. I think it'll be easier, because it's not romantic. Because I don't want to kiss you. I don't want to do all the things couples do in the dark. I want to hug you, I want to tell you how much I love you, I want you to know that kind of love I have for you even though it might not be the love they'd all expect.

𝐎𝐡, 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐞 𝐬𝐨 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐀𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐞? 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐞𝐞, 𝐈'𝐦 𝐭𝐫𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐞𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐒𝐨 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞

Which is why I wish he didn't have to do that. Didn't have to remember you. Didn't have to make me regret not telling you.

I'm fine. I'm definitely fine. Because a guy decided he liked you, and hey, I don't like you the way he does. Because the way I like you is different, and yes, I've kept it in for all this time. But I've dealt with heartbreak before. I'll be fine.

𝐈 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐢𝐭'𝐬 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐟𝐚𝐢𝐫 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞'𝐬 𝐠𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐚 𝐛𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐛𝐮𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 (𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐚 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐞?) '𝐂𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐈 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐞𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐒𝐨 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐞

God, if he turns out to be a creep, or a jerk, or possessive...I don't know what I'll do. Because I love you too much to not let you end up with him. I'll hate myself. Every moment that you might share with him, every single possibility breaks my heart a little bit more.

𝐎𝐡, 𝐝𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐚 𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐂𝐚𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐞 𝐚 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞? 𝐃𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐚 𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐂𝐚𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐞 𝐚 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞? 𝐃𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐚 𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐂𝐚𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐞 𝐚 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞? 𝐃𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐚 𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐮𝐫

Because you make me feel safe. Because you make me happy. Because I love you, so so much. So I'll listen when you talk about that guy who's mom set you two up. I'll be there to punch the idiots who make you uncomfortble. I'll hug you when you're sad, laugh when you're happy, smile when you decide that we should get into crazy shenanigans together.

𝐎𝐡, 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐞 𝐬𝐨 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐀𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐞? 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐞𝐞, 𝐈'𝐦 𝐭𝐫𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐞𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐒𝐨 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞

I'll do this because I love you. I'll move on because you're my best friend.

𝐈 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐢𝐭'𝐬 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐟𝐚𝐢𝐫 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞'𝐬 𝐠𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐚 𝐛𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐛𝐮𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 (𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐚 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐞?) '𝐂𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐈 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐞𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐒𝐨 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡

And who knows? Maybe I'll get over you. Maybe I'll tell you one day in the very distant future. Maybe I'll punch the guy who asked you out in the face. I don't know.

𝐎𝐡 𝐈 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐞𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐒𝐨 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐞

But god, do I wish that it was me instead of him.