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Why the hell, shit, you damned bastard son of a bitch
#personal#delete later#before you ask âwhy're you posting on reddit bix of course you're gonna get comments like thisâ#it's cuz it's really low stakes and easy to just throw your art on subs for visibility#and i legitimately love getting batshit insane comments like this because they always read like a copypasta#this isn't hatemail to me this is a reason to live laugh love#like we ALL know independent_lime4943 is misogynistic and racist we don't need to discuss it we can just laugh at him#thank you independent_lime4943 your comments were immediately deleted by moderators but i was lucky enough to#catch them as an email notification. damned bastard son of a bitch
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crows use tools and like to slide down snowy hills. today we saw a goose with a hurt foot who was kept safe by his flock - before taking off, they waited for him to catch up. there are colors only butterflies see. reindeer are matriarchical. cows have best friends and 4 stomachs and like jazz music. i watched a video recently of an octopus making himself a door out of a coconut shell.
i am a little soft, okay. but sometimes i can't talk either. the world is like fractal light to me, and passes through my skin in tendrils. i feel certain small things like a catapult; i skirt around the big things and somehow arrive in crisis without ever realizing i'm in pain.
in 5th grade we read The Curious Incident of the Dog In The Night-time, which is about a young autistic boy. it is how they introduced us to empathy about neurotypes, which was well-timed: around 10 years old was when i started having my life fully ruined by symptoms. people started noticing.
i wonder if birds can tell if another bird is odd. like the phrase odd duck. i have to believe that all odd ducks are still very much loved by the other normal ducks. i have to believe that, or i will cry.
i remember my 5th grade teacher holding the curious incident up, dazzled by the language written by someone who is neurotypical. my teacher said: "sometimes i want to cut open their mind to know exactly how autistics are thinking. it's just so different! they must see the world so strangely!" later, at 22, in my education classes, we were taught to say a person with autism or a person on the spectrum or neurodivergent. i actually personally kind of like person-first language - it implies the other person is trying to protect me from myself. i know they had to teach themselves that pattern of speech, is all, and it shows they're at least trying. and i was a person first, even if i wasn't good at it.
plants learn information. they must encode data somehow, but where would they store it? when you cut open a sapling, you cannot find the how they think - if they "think" at all. they learn, but do not think. i want to paint that process - i think it would be mostly purple and blue.
the book was not about me, it was about a young boy. his life was patterned into a different set of categories. he did not cry about the tag on his shirt. i remember reading it and saying to myself: i am wrong, and broken, but it isn't in this way. something else is wrong with me instead. later, in that same person-first education class, my teacher would bring up the curious incident and mention that it is now widely panned as being inaccurate and stereotypical. she frowned and said we might not know how a person with autism thinks, but it is unlikely to be expressed in that way. this book was written with the best intentions by a special-ed teacher, but there's some debate as to if somebody who was on the spectrum would be even able to write something like this.
we might not understand it, but crows and ravens have developed their own language. this is also true of whales, dolphins, and many other species. i do not know how a crow thinks, but we do know they can problem solve. (is "thinking" equal to "problem solving"? or is "thinking" data processing? data management?) i do not know how my dog thinks, either, but we "talk" all the same - i know what he is asking for, even if he only asks once.
i am not a dolphin or reindeer or a dog in the nighttime, but i am an odd duck. in the ugly duckling, she grows up and comes home and is beautiful and finds her soulmate. all that ugliness she experienced lives in downy feathers inside of her, staining everything a muted grey. she is beautiful eventually, though, so she is loved. they do not want to cut her open to see how she thinks.
a while ago i got into an argument with a classmate about that weird sia music video about autism. my classmate said she thought it was good to raise awareness. i told her they should have just hired someone else to do it. she said it's not fair to an autistic person to expect them to be able to handle that kind of a thing.
today i saw a goose, and he was limping. i want to be loved like a flock loves a wounded creature: the phrase taken under a wing. which is to say i have always known i am not normal. desperate, mewling - i want to be loved beyond words.
loved beyond thinking.
#spilled ink#writeblr#personal#please don't ask me to talk on my experience on the spectrum lol. i hate how ppl talk to me about it#i really try not to write so specifically about it#bc inevitably someone talks to me like im a child#i think this is the first time i've ever openly identified with it but i've been hinting for years#i might delete this. feels big.#the thing is that being on the spectrum actually IS a spectrum#and if u say ur autistic#inevitably someone makes an assumption about ur needs/symptoms#please do not treat me differently than u usually would. like.... we can tell when you do#and like i mention. i do appreciate the effort. i do truly appreciate the effort.#but it still feels like...#when i was blind. sometimes people kind of did the same-ish thing.#they'd find out i was blind and start talking really loudly?#and while i KNOW they're just trying to help. it would be like. i'd be trying to find#the right way into a building (sometimes only 1 door is unlocked and i couldn't see the signs posted about where to go)#and ppl would be like ''OH UR BLIND? YES SO THIS IS A DOOR. IT OPENS INTO THE BUILDING. IT IS LOCKED NOW."#''A DOOR CAN BE FOUND IN MANY LOCATIONS.''#and it feels like. when i admit to being autistic#someone comes screeching into my life being like THIS IS A DOOR.
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shut up I'm on my drawing kisses arc
#hey person in my inbox who asked for more tsundere Joel in exchange for voting smallidarity on a poll this is for you#I deleted your ask like an idiot. And then I pressured myself into drawing this as a consequence as if to say sorry for deleting your ask#Ive been feeling daring lately can you tell. fuck drawing kisses but I need more kiss art it makes me feel alive#<- projections of an asexual yet unfortunately deeply romantic single person#smallidarity#Ive talked at lengths about my smallidarity thoughts before but. Yeah Joel wanting something with Jimmy that isn't just a joke but#he doesn't know how to handle or initiate that cause he's very closeted -> lots of gay panic#trafficshipping#tubby art
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#xmen#avengers#xmen comics#avengers comics#wanda maximoff#scarlet witch#francesca the cat#ORGANIC FRANCESCA POSTING FROM SNAP ??more likely than you think..#snap sketches#did i doodle this just so i could rant in my tags. maybe.#i will talk about this doodle first tho ... cause i still like to ramble bout my own stuff....#uhhh i just wanted to draw wanda :) and fran :) yeah thats it jvAELKJEKLAJ#thought itd be cutesy ... they can be friends ... if mags will be apprehensive about the cat wanda will be the exact opposite#its only natural ..... ok Unrelated Vent/Ramble Time#i was very mad when i started drawing this but ive mellowed out considerably... still i love complaining..#ill delete my venty ranty tags in the morn .. for now i need my piece read .. or at least out there for my sanity ..#anyways tldr we all know i hate my mom and i very much do not like using 'hate' so lightly when i hate I Hate#like you know the hate speech from I Have No Mouth yeah literally me. literally me about my mom#most days i tolerate her because she barely exists in the same room as i for more than thirty seconds#but tonight. Ugh. note to self remember to never ask her for anything again. as is what ive said for years..#what a fool i was to think that would ever change. THAT in of itself is whatever yk her being irritating when it comes to. Being A Parent#but then she had the gall to start talking about my dad like oh my god see NOW im getting mad again#nothing makes me angrier than her talking about my dad like. UGH ill cap it there so i dont catch on fire somehow#also ill feel compelled to drop three novel's worth of lore and i dont have tags for that. also this is just supposed to be a cute doodlejV#i had plans to draw something else that was cutesy but then i got mad and couldnt focus on it#so now we're here... in any case bye bye. ill try to continue that other idea..#then i wanna focus on another thing.... if i make any progress on That afterwards it'll be a miracle
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THIS IS FOR THE PERSON THAT ASKED IF I CAN DRAW ESTONIA!! ^^
#hetalia#hetalia fanart#fanart#art#aph estonia#estonia#im sorry that i forgot who asked if i can draw him#i accidently deleted the post#sobs
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I had an epiphany about ships today.
#dinostar#lab partners#darius bowman#soyona santos#brooklynn#jwcc#jwct#chaos theory#camp cretaceous#kenlynn is fine but he still came on to her at the start for the whole rich and famous thing#HE GREW I GET THAT#she felt normal around him!#but there was always that special aspect of Dinostar with that first gyrosphere ride#where he has no idea who she is doesn't put her on a pedestal and is just trying to share interesting facts#like...he never knew her superstar side and just wanted her to cheer up like anyone else#meanwhile the extent of Soyona's recognition of her limb difference is to USE THE WORDS âLIMB DIFFERENCEâ#and politely ask in exchange for a note about her own uncle#it's genuine curiosity#an icebreaker#and then she never mentions it again#and you can tell from brooklynn's behavior and dialogue that this is the FIRST TIME#she probably had to spend half a deleted episode proving herself to Earnest and the DPN#but Soyona is then tossing keys at her and having her drive and carry stuff#both of them found her fascinating
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the 2nd half of death note should've just gone full comedy complete with a laugh track and had these two dissing each other the whole time
#THE GIRLS ARE FIGHTIIIIIING#death note#light yagami#near#nate river#death note fanart#anime#manga#digital art#moonriver#tagging that too idc#elle draws#they'd never get shit done if they were trying to solve the kira case together#they'd be too busy talking shit about each other it'd be so funny#I just know seeing that kira finger puppet alone would have light's blood BOILING#guys remember in that deleted scene where kira kills a large portion of the SPK and near calls light just to give him the silent treatment#they're soooo fucking funny#you've heard of real lovers well how about real HATERS#imagine near untying light's shoelaces while he's sitting on the floor#I can imagine them doing the thing where you don't wanna talk to the other person so you say it to someone else asking them to relay it#even though the other person is literally Standing Right There like âgevanni please tell light that his idea will never workâ#âyou can tell me yourself near I'm literally right hereâ âand gevanni please also tell him that we're not paying for his lunch todayâ#I'll be here all day folks
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Yeah sorry picrew has a limited number of options you can upload so I couldnât include a fat body type or different face shapes or a skin tone darker than tan or dark blonde hair options or dark brown hair options or more than two curly hair options or the most common glasses shape or monolid eyes or more than three different shirt colors or different chest size. Hope youâll enjoy the two pages of piercing options, 37 types of blush, and vast array of animal ears though!
#if youâre gonna go for fantasy over realism can you at least lean into it and add blue skin or purple eyes or something#mine#random#shitpost#discourse#ask to tag#delete later?
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Newsflash lads. You can like and defend fictional characters without sharing any of their beliefs irl.
Yes Iâm talking about FĂŤanorian antis who think itâs a moral obligation to dislike them. Specifically the ones who go out of their way to hate on the writers of pro-FĂŤanorian posts and demand explanations.
I know some people disagree, you donât need to be so loud about it, the post isnât for you. And you certainly donât have a right to know why I think what I do.
You keep your opinion and let me keep mine, k?
#if you are curious you can ask without being demanding or rude about it?#fgs have some decency thatâs a real human youâre talking to#as always if you really hate a take make a new post!#without tagging the person who inspired it#Iâm not even fully pro FĂŤanorian and Iâve had a couple of comments like this#several of which I deleted because itâs purely antagonistic and not worth my time#silmarillion#Silm#silm headcanons#feanor#Maedhros#Maglor#feanorians#feanorions#house of feanor
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wear headphones :)
Wasn't expecting another one of these so soon huh.
Transcript and context under the cut
Transcription: Fuck. Goddammit. K-Ugh. *whimper* Come on...
Context: An inside joke between some people on twitter resulted in them commissioning artists to draw gabe failing at pottery and it became a trend for a bit. This is him voicing that specific scenario
Audio source (Yeah I edited it a little to make it worse. I will not apologize.)
Link to a thread of the pottery fan art. This isn't all of it but this is the only collection I can find to link to. -> Link
If anyone has more that wasn't included here feel free to drop a link in the replies :0
#ultrakill#gabriel ultrakill#thank you anon for naming this one#that 'come on' okay. bottom.#eat up u animals (is also an animal myself)#im gonna delete the posts from earlier about naming it#ill leave the asks though to confuse anyone who stops by later >:)#why does he do this for the most random ass requests#its not nearly as bad if u listen to the og one im just insane and made it worse#sadly very short but with YOUR HELP you can accidentally create more :) (threat)#voice post
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trying something very radical and weird with one of the pony redesigns as a villain. can anyone guess who this is supposed to be?
#personal#ask you#delete later#i need to get a read on if anyone can still see her#because i wanna have a non-magical human villain too#so i going âĄď¸âĄď¸âĄď¸ alakazam you are now a villain#also for those who are wishing for more prohibition mafia shit in this 1920s-themed au. boom there you go. she's a bootlegger
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Got an ask about my feelings on Cass being Bruce's favourite that I accidentally deleted so I'm gonna answer here.
Firstly I'm in the 'Dick is canonically Bruce's fav' camp (see fantastic-nonsense's post here), but I do believe Bruce has a special bond with Cass. So I don't think 'Cass being Bruce's fav' comes out of nowhere, especially since she is the closest to having his moral code, and he is definitely not normal about her.
However, this is the kind of statement where who is saying it matters. Comic fans can say Cass is Bruce's favourite because it's grounded in a genuine understanding of their dynamic. But when people who haven't engaged with comics say it, particularly as a rebuttal to one of the Batboys being Bruce's fav, it comes off like Cass is some 'other' option. She's allowed to be the fav because they don't see her as a real character, or because they view her as some paragon of perfection. This is where I really dislike the headcanon.
Because Cass being Bruce's favourite should be a bad thing. Bruce doesn't adopt her until 2008, and for me it's largely because it takes him that long to see her as a person. Early Bruce-Cass, where most of the 'Cass being Bruce's fav' moments come from, is marked by Bruce seeing Cass as an extension of himself. She is his model minority and there are racist undertones in him calling her perfect. His love gets less toxic over time, but this corresponds with his disillusionment over her (see him firing her in Batgirl #48; Cass, in the same issue, is becoming disillusioned with him).
The arc in Bruce and Cass' relationship is them recognising and deconstructing the pedestals they've put each other on. So when people say Cass is Bruce's favourite without context, it misses all the complexity in that dynamic. Personally I prefer what should be their endpoint: where Cass knows she doesn't need to be his favourite to be loved.
#cassandra cain#bruce wayne#batgirl#batman#ask#whoever asked this i am SO sorry for deleting the ask idk what happened#bruce and cass is absolutely a unique dynamic and the early days are filled with rich and complex interactions#but i don't get why there's such a big desire for his love for cass to be extremely unique or special#cass being bruce's special favourite girl is not that different from her being david's special favourite girl#you can say 'cass is bruce's fav' as long as you know it's toxic#like. dick being bruce's fav is not even a good thing#why do some people think cass being the fav would make things all sunshine and rainbows#anyway horrocks Bruce-Cass best Bruce-Cass
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"You could recite their lines perfectly for them" yeah? Well they can, too
Continuation of this.
#isat#in stars and time#siffrin isat#loop isat#art#fanart#kitscribbles#i had a whole lot of tags for this but forgot One image and panicked and deleted the whole thing lmao#the sound of hysterical laughter from people(person plural) who spend too much time laughing at their own jokes and also miss their familie#they are all suffering from Sif's desperation-fueled decisions#this feels like an idiot plot. youve heard of that surely#best explanation i can come up with is that each siffrin is a little bit different from the previous. make different decisions#not that anyone knows what to do#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#alternate universe shenanigans? or just timeline-altering wish shenanigans? idk whats gonna happen to all these loops when resolution comes#youve heard of sifloop now get a load of this. Loooop#tfw the loops all ask sif who he thinks they are and he's like. well youre definitely not my family#and theyre. kind of hurt when he puts it like that actually. ow?#isat full cast au
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what should i draw this weekend
#me asking my primarily zukka following: hm should i draw zukka..? lmao#i always delay the comics bc i wanna do smaller things i can finish quick...#but that means i never work on the comics akfjkdk#so mainly posting this to hold myself guilty. i mean accountable#so im gonna try to do Comics Jam this weekend#i also want to get to everyone's asks that they sent recently. but now that they're deleted from my inbox they're so hard to find#because for some reason in my email they're not in chronological order? high key frustrating the hell outta me it's hard to find them#anyway#delete later
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icon!
#hii can you tell i dont. know how to draw clothes at all. giggles#but hes here nevertheless#daily basil#omori#omori basil#basil omori#basil#omori game#omori sunflower#its yaoi because theres a bunny and a cat in there. do you see them. do you . theyre inlove#mod vivisection#<- hii thats me. crazy#tthis#was an ask but i posted it early instead of queuing it and then i had to delete it and so the og ask went poof#(<has been using tumblr for over a year and still doesnt know how it works)#im like your lame dad who cant comprehend all this new-fashioned tech. what happened to good old âclick that button and see if it worksâ??#anyways#request#art
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It's getting really old seeing you answering the same dumbass anons every day, please ignore them, you are literally feeding the trolls and it's getting annoying
oh god how funny would it be if I ignored this
#Lol I get it dude#But at the same time you can block the Teablart tag I do tag those asks#That said for my own sanity I'll probably just start deleting them#Or turn anon off#Teablart
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