#can I turn off my feelings please?
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au where alan uses vr to get into the desktop and like nothing goes wrong until he realizes that he's feeling way too many phantom sensations for it to be normal for vr and a few of them shouldn't even be possible (feeling them even though he didn't see the touch) and when he tries to take off the headset it doesn't come off
#and he starts freaking out#and he manages to turn it off but he still can't actually take it off so hes just blond until he turns it back on#and he doesn't know what to do#and now the sticks are freaking out#and now he can actually FEEL HIS VR AVATAR OH GOD ITS LIKE AN ACTUAL BODY OH GOD HELP#he would say that i feel#anyways. if you have something to say PLEASE SAY IT I'LL DO ANYTHING#stick!alan#stick alan#ava alan becker#ava#animator vs animation#alan becker#my stuff
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Considering it's a popular headcanon... does Peri have any disabilities of his own in the Nature AU? Might help him better help out Dev with his problems.
I headcanon that he has weak joints, probably something like Joint Hypermobility Syndrome or Hypermobile EDS? Something that causes the connective tissue of his joints to just, not be that good.
His joints hurt often and physical exertion is a lot more taxing on him than it is for most other people or fairies.
#fop nature au#there were a few times I considered having him make comments that would impy this like the drawing where hes carrying Dev#but since I draw Dev chubby I didnt want it to come off as some kind of weight joke so I decided against it#But he should absolutely not be carrying heavy things#I also wanted to make a gag out of him regretting turning into Devs cane because like. BRO you can barely take your own weight most days#this was obviously an awful idea what were you thinking#And minor disclaimer while I do try to do my research into these things before I say them this is not a condition I have irl#so please please do not take anything I say as medical fact and do your own research into these conditions if you feel so inclined!
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FUCK THE KARKAT VANTAS PLUSH THEY CUT ME OFF FOR FUCKING REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
I WAS GOING TO MAKE A KARKAT VANTAS PLUSH AND SELL IT TO THE PEOPLE!! I WAS GOING TO DO THAT!!! I HAD A MARKETABLE PLUSHIE DESIGN AND EVERYTHING!!!! DO YOU SEE THIS FUCKER??? DO YOU SEE HIM??? DO YOU FUCKING SEE HIM?
I SAID IT TO ALL MY FREINDS!! TO MY FAMILY!! 'gonna make a marketable plushie out of this dog hes sellable as fuck' FUCK!!!! THEY FUCKING GOT TO IT BEFORE ME AND THEIR DESIGN ISNT EVEN GOOD!!! WHY IS THE HAIR LIKE THAT ITS FUCKING makeship THEY CAN MAKE SOME PRETTY QUALITY WORK!! ITS GOING TO COST 30 DOLLARS YOU DIDNT FUCKING NEED TO skIMP ON THE HAIR!!!!! PROMISE!!! WHAT IS THIS A FUCKING FNAF PLUSH??? ARE YOU JOKING??? WHO DID YOU COMMISSION TO MAKE THIS PLUSH DEISNGNNNNN WHY IS THE HAIR FLATTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
I WAS GOING TO DO THAT!!! IT WAS HALF THE REASON I MADE THIS STINKIN COMIC AND NOW I HAVE 60 MORE PAGES I WANT TO FINISH NOOOOO FUCKKKKKKKKKK NOW I HAVE OFFICIAL COMPETITIONNN WHYYYY
its fine. im fine im. FIIIIIINEEEEEEEE. its on me for not working on aphids... f in the fucking chat (this post is not very serious)
#genuinely was going to try and do some kind of makeship plush of my karkat design#also did not think the makeship plush was real. i mean. its kind of bad#like i want to get it but also it's bad. you feel??? you fucking feel? hes my favorite little guy but there has been way better plushies#made than this#a lot of worse ones two but fuckit#dont take this seriously at all please#im just whining#i have been talking about turning aphids karkat into a plush for months before like the whole life went off the rails thing and i stopped#updating aphids for a while#BUT I WILL FINISH IT#tbh when its done id like to try and do a plush still but we'll fucking see LOL if theres an audience for it#definetly a bummer homestuck official got there before me but i dont like their plush design. like its just woof. rough#its a 30 dollar plush you can afford hair and arms. promise
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I think my ultimate thoughts re; Kipperlilly is that I wish we got a scene where a character was allowed to show her... sympathy. I know there's a tone you wanna hit with a victorious season finale, and a somber note of a teenager falling into a deep well of rage doesnt match that tone but it would've been nice to see.
In my dream world, we get an extra epilogue scene where Riz goes to see Jawbone to go and talk to him, and brings up the thing he mentioned about "seeing Kipperlilly in himself" -- relating that to what Jawbone said at the beginning of the year, and wanting to talk about that deeply set in need for control, and the latent anger he has, and all the ways he is like Kipperlilly, and doesn't want to be.
And in response, Jawbone is able to address the ways in which he failed Kipperlilly, and let her down. That she needed more help than he could provide, that she needed someone who wasn't too afraid of their own biases to shut down her anger, someone who could maybe have given her a support system to turn to instead of Porter. Someone external to the school and the social dynamics within it. Just an acknowledgement from, as far as we know, the only adult in Kipperlilly's life who earnestly tried -- and earnestly failed -- to help her find a better path than her rage.
Just a small moment of acknowledgement that Kipperlilly was a child, an angry, scared, biased and deeply insecure child who was looking for help when she first walked into Jawbone's office, and because of all the adults who failed her, she was turned into something unrecognisable by the time she was 17.
#fhjy spoilers#fhjy#kipperlilly copperkettle#dimension 20#i feel like i need to clarify that i dont think she did nothing wrong#i understand that her anger when she was a kid was unreasonable and biased and terrible#but she was also a thirteen year old who didnt know anything about the world#and she was going to see jawbone frequently#so its not like she wasnt doing anything about it#and i feel so deeply upset about how much she was let down by both well- and ill- intentioned adults throughout her short high school caree#but jawbone was the one who first brought up the similarities between her and riz#like he said that kNOWING she goes into his office and talks about how much she wants to kill kristen applebees and hates riz's guts#so!!! please show me that he cares. that he can see despite everything kipperlilly is a kid#i dont need her revived. i just need her acknowledged that her anger issues were turned into a weapon#i dont CARE that she did it willingly. porter offered her something no other adult could i dont blame her for accepting#in my actual dream world we get a clip of riz offering her a hand and helping her up post-revivify#but that dream world is far off </3
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I just wanna thank the tumblr pals for minimizing/ceasing the spread of all the hurricane rumor stuff, I think my sanity is returning, I no longer wish to hurl the entire internet (or myself) into the sun. Bless you.
#i know it's still out there but it has died off considerably and i am seriously breathing such a sigh of relief#i don't like being confrontational on people's posts or with people i love#i think a lot of people have started (hoping praying) looking into stuff and thinking critically#and i applaud that bless you and thank you please continue#my cousin is in boone helping rn so prayers for him too#(he went with a relief organization so he can actually do good and not get turned away for adding to the chaos ;) )#ragamusings#we are back to our regularly scheduled fangirling#more or less#also if i irritated anybody over that whole thing pls feel free to tell me about it#i get....fighty about stuff#but ilyasm
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help im trying to concentrate on writing an essay but my brain wont stop thinking about an In Stars And Time AU where after everything the color red just... stuck around?? like, the world isn't ending anymore but its still there for some reason and all of a sudden some things are red, or what they would call 'the color'. like they wouldn't notice at first cause you don't find it in the sky but they pass by an unpainted brick house or something and its just.. red? and the person who owns it or has noticed first is just like 'yeah it happened a little bit after we all got unfrozen and it just stayed like that.'
imagining the introduction of a weird shade on a whole set of people and how it would influence things, vanguard add bits of red to everything cause its cool and new and i just have to wonder how the group would take it cause on one hand it could be a little triggering but on the other hand its cool when it doesn't mean the world is ending.
#isat#in stars and time#in stars and time spoilers#isat spoilers#i dont think its actually spoilers but just in case#hopefully writing this out will get it out of my brain#I JUST WANT TO INTRODUCE THIS WORLD TO COLOR GOSH DARN IT#i love rainbows so much its so sad no one can see them#and on one hand im thinking itd mostly be an aestetic au like#putting cool accents on characters clothing#but on the other hand it gives me a starting off point to think of the gang after everything#idk what to name it#isat red au#isat color au#?#i hope other people like this idea i think its just so cool#please if anyone likes this idea feel free to steal it i just want more isat out there#imaginging them waiting for the leafs to turn gray in the fall and they just turn a weird shade like wtf#aaah i gotta stop indulging myself i have to pay attention and work aaaahhhh
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for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health
✨ turning fanweek ✨
day 5 marriage | making out as a distraction | priest yuder
open for better quality | no reposts
#keilusa la orr#rosa faria la orr#keirosa#turning novel#터닝#fanart#myart#doodle#idk if this makes sense but the premise behind this was the quiet moments in a happy marriage#smth about how love doesn't need to be constantly grand or intense but can manifest in the way partners support each other#also it was really funny but i was checking the novel for visual descriptions and realized this scene is actually in the novel#not intentional i swear#but anyway. for personal reasons keirosa is very dear to me#i'm going based off of crumbs for now but i feel that i will become less normal about them as i progress in the novel#shoutout to a certain someone in turning server who mentioned wanting keirosa for the fanweek in passing#please accept my humble offering#turning fanweek
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patreon keeps hounding me with new, increasingly obnoxious ways to harass my followers into subscribing and I'm just. stop it. I refuse to be part of the system making the modern day internet completely insufferable. leave me and my followers alone they'll subscribe if they want to and if they don't it's none of my business. god.
#they just threatened/offered to automatically send out messages to free subscribers begging them to upgrade#if you ever get any sort of begging/promotional bullshit from me#just know it happened by accident and I will feel terrible when I realize#(please tell me though so I can find out how to turn it off)#I make my weird niche shit and it will find its audience on its own eventually I have always operated this way and refuse to stop#ngl you guys are already subsidizing like half my monthly groceries which is already insane considering I produce nothing but free cc
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My belly has gotten to the point where it rests on top of my fupa when I’m standing and that makes for a very horny Friday for me 🥵
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ohhhh god oh my goddddddddd oh my goddD!!!!! oh wow okay oh my god?
every inch of you is so plump and grabbable EVERY INCH.
#submission#it’s almost becoming a problem#I can’t stop getting turned on from the feeling of my gut bouncing off my fupa when I walk#or even slightly bend over#<- submitters tags#bro that’s fuckin hot ok#can you come over and we’ll smoke and eat snacks and play video games please
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Who's gonna get whacked by the snowstorm? It's supposed to get me the next two days and I'm kinda excited tbh 👀
ARE Y'ALL PREPARED?!
#my animals all should be okay#im just a bit worried about the half wild chickens who wont let me put them in the coop#or even the garage#i know theyll be ok with the cold im just worried about how deep the snow will be#ill have to keep up on making paths for them#other than that#i have enough animal and people food to last awhile and i have extra straw in case someone needs more#also got ten gallons each of diesel and gas#lots of blankets medical supplies board games#oh dang i should make sure my portable phone charger is charged#i really need to get a solar charger#the thing im worried about most is if the power goes out#we have a generator but if we can keep the house warm during the day we might turn it off at night#and i know its stupid but i have anxiety and nighttime is really hard for me#especially in pitch black silence#i dont like the way my fear and anxiety makes my heart feel#anyway#ill stop rambling now#yall are in my prayers#please pray for us
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You know what I just realized? Jason Todd is the Dabi/Todoroki Touya of the Batman fandom
#batman#dc comics#my hero academia#mha#boku no hero academia#bnha#jason todd#red hood#todoroki touya#dabi#Canon: not a good person#does not care about/actively hurts his siblings to get back at his dad and teach him a lesson#a villain/anti-hero#Fanon: did bad things but he was traumatized so that makes it okay and everyone forgives and loves him#is a good older brother who secretly cares about his siblings even if they don't know it#has a good relationship with his dad#just needs someone to listen to him so he can erase all the effects of his trauma and turn into the perfect hero that everyone loves#this is very specifically about jason when he was in his villain arc not later DON'T ATTACK ME PLS#Am i comparing Bruce and Endeavour?#NO!#do i think that Dabi and Jason are a little similar?#kinda#do I think their respective fandoms treat them in very similar ways that are high key disrespectful to their character and erase a bunch of#what makes them a compelling character?#yes#do i love them anyways?#also yes#I'm still reading the comics#please don't attack me if my understanding of Jason's character is off#this is just how i feel about what I've seen so far
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Me normally: Let people love what they love
Me, after a Test Match Special commentator expresses their belief that the new All Creatures Great and Small is somehow "better" than the 1978 version: This is pure insanity and TMS can no longer be trusted on anything, how can they even be trusted to know about cricket, do they have no TASTE
#Look it's fine that this show exists and people will watch it and like it and that's ok maybe it's just not for me#But that was like a statement purely designed to piss me off#There were lots of issues with the 1978 adaptation! I still vastly preferred the books any day!#And I actually initially had high hopes for the new one because they at least cast a Scot (albeit a Highlander not a Clydesider) as James#And the actors at least looked a little bit younger than Christopher Timothy and Robert Hardy#And thank god Helen actually sounds like she's a farmer's daughter and doesn't speak RP!#But from the half hour I've seen of it I've had to write off this new adaptation#For two major reasons#First of all there's Siegfried#Siegfried is one of the key central aspects of the vibe of the books and therefore key to any adaptation#Robert Hardy was too short and too old for the part but he lived and breathed the character#The twinkle in the eye bouncing off the walls and in and out of rooms followed by half a dozen dogs utterly full of life even when angry#But this new Siegfried is just sort of... Eeyore-esque; he comes into a room and you can see the flowers droop and the set turn grey#Siegfried was angry Siegfried was happy and the historical character he was based on was no stranger to melancholy#Since Donald Sinclair did commit suicide or rather self-euthanasia after Alf Wight and his own wife Audrey died#But this slow grumbly figure in the new adaptation is not Siegfried Farnon- the book character didn't grumble more often he exploded#And why did the adaptation give him a dead wife that's so weird? What could that possibly add to the source material?#And this brings me onto my second problem which is to do with women and age#Firstly I have no idea why they aged down Mrs Hall or at least made her look younger than a woman her age would have back then#But what really drove me mad was when Heriot goes out to see some old woman hill farmer in the episode I saw#And this woman is far too clean and young-looking and you can see that she's wearing 'natural' look make-up#And a perfect set of clothes that looked like they were straight out of the House of Bruar autumn collection catalogue#Say what you like about the 1978 adaptation but old women looked like old women regardless of whether or not they wore make-up#It may be that the better quality of television screens means that the 'natural look' shows up on screen more clearly than it would have#But natural look make-up was not really a thing in the 1930s and for old women Yorkshire hill farmers I doubt they'd have much on at all#They just don't seem to be capable of allowing people to look old and wrinkled and real or have bad teeth or unattractive clothes#And everything is far too tidy- everybody looks far too perfectly country and quaint#Anyway the moral of this story is of course that I always recommend reading the books because they're much better#than any tv adaptation; but if forced to choose at least the 1970s one felt real and yet didn't have to be grim either#Ok that's my rant over please do feel free to enjoy the show I just got annoyed because the opinion was expressed on TMS
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I did it I... finished my hair mashup... HOOGH... I'll post it later when I can get an image done for it ;v;
I had to rebuild it entirely from the start cos I borked the normals the first time but this time... this time I fucking fixed it.. and even better... Viera ears dont float TT_TT
It's gonna be called Insomniac because of the character it's based on uwu (Its Eve Mayari from Eaternal Nocturnal)
#Day-2-Day#Packing this took longer than making the damn thing twice It feels like#This goes out to my sleepless homies and my homies who study and my homies who just want their hair out of their face#I think you can colorset the metal but I'd rather catch fire than try to do edited colorsets rn so that's gonna be up to the end user#Also it's not for MRoe or either Hroth OR Miqo with ears because.... I got so tired just porting the races I did TT_TT#Please don't perceive elf chuus floating earrings I was changing her race to test stuff and didn't turn off her customize#The preview image will be nicer
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“Journey to the Center of the Mind,” Moon Knight (Vol. 9/2021), #27.
Writer: Jed MacKay; Penciler and Inker: Federico Sabbatini; Colorist: Rachelle Rosenberg; Letterer: Cory Petit
#Marvel#Marvel comics#Marvel 616#Moon Knight vol. 9#Moon Knight 2021#Moon Knight comics#latest release#Moon Knight#Marc Spector#Steven Grant#Jake Lockley#Hunter’s Moon#Yehya Badr#first things first getting powers based off of nuclear material + falling into the San Andreas Fault of all places is so delightfully#silver age comic book I love it#and next…this is so wonderfully simply bittersweet#because you can feel that parallel that it could have just as easily been Marc resurrected by something even more#sinister than Khonshu and turned to villainy#but I appreciate so much Marc’s very literal reaching out to the spark of good in someone who is presented as an#archetypal comic book villain and helping him to stand up for himself#Marc wasn’t just dragging someone to justice he offered the encouragement that allowed Alton to make his own choice to do the right thing#it’s about the quintessential struggle of man versus himself and grappling with the good and bad that is within all of us#and if anyone has gone 10 rounds with himself being his own worst enemy and still chooses to claw his way to doing good it’s Marc#anyway it’s late by my biological clock so please don’t mind me waxing near-philosophical in the tags hahaah
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I’ve been thinking a lot about how Spider felt when he hit puberty and started growing facial hair, making him even more different to the Na’vi. I wonder if he hated it.
Also the inherent tenderness of a boy trusting someone else enough to help him shave for the first time… something about it makes my chest hurt. I really tried to capture it in Foreign Body but there’s so much more that I wish I’d left space for.
#is this me admitting that i might go back and add even more content to my already published and completed fic? perhaps.#spider socorro#jake sully#avatar 2#idk why im posting this im just feeling so soft for spider growing up and battling with his… foreign body (ba-dum tss. i am boo’d off stage#but fr the way he tries and tries and tries to assimilate and his inescapable humanness is a constant reminder of his incongruity with#pandora… like he cant be truly na’vi and growing up he is presented more and more evidence that he will never be#im still turning the Spider as an allegory for second generation immigrants thing in my head… the draft post is getting a bit too long tbh#but i just cant shake the feeling that he struggles with this foreignness a lot- ESPECIALLY knowing his parentage (father)#anyway here are a couple of drawins from the pages and pages of spiders i have in my sketchbook#for me and and maybe 1 other person who thinks about this stuff 🙃 come get yall juice (cricket sounds)#theyre not very good but im really enjoying being nobody out here#so i can post my bad drawings and run away 😌#i'm trying to learn to draw please be kind <3#kid’s post
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you guys ever get tired of friends who only talk about themselves? how do you respectfully tell them off?
#personal#like i love them but also im sick and tired of hearing them talk about themselves#every conversation feels like im interviewing them bc i leep asking them questions and they just answer#but there's no turning the convo back to me#it's like 'hey how r u?' and they're like 'oh im not doing so well like life sucks'#and I'll be sympathetic and ask them why and then they start ranting about 70 different things#AND IT'S ALWAYS A VAGUE RESPONSE SO I HAVE TO KEEP ASKING QUESTIONS#and they act like they dont want the attention but it's obvious they want it#and even once they're done with their storytelling they dont even bother to ask me how i am or anything#and it's pissing me off these days bc i feel like i dont even matter to them; im just some person they can talk to about themselves#it's like they don't give a shit about me at all#if i ask them what their fav colour is theyre gonna tell me it's purple and then move on from that topic#at least ask me what my fav colour is!! instead of not even caring...am i even ur friend or what#im so sorry for the rant guys but... if anyone knows to politely tell these kind of people off please lmk#i need to tell them respectfully before i lose my mind and start yelling at them
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