#calm the fuck down brain
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Every bit of me wants to do things that I know will just get me in trouble.
#personal#why#why do i want to do these things#i just want to have a conversation#and also wonder why my social media#is the way it is#and why i still be thinking#and wanting things#and also just like#calm the fuck down brain
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More than the anticipation and the anxiety of knowing you are existing in this general space somewhere, it's the frustration that every single one of everyone else is decidedly *not you* that gets me. The tiny part of my brain obsessing over knowledge and just HAS to know is infinitely irritated and quite frankly annoying. The Need to know is drowning out the part that initially thought, oh this is fun, I wonder where you are and am I going to recognise you when you show up.
I know at some point this impatience will go away, but can we at least get back to just allowing ourself to chill in this dump and not have to obsessively scour every guest to see if they are you? Coz I'm tired of getting disappointed looking at everyone under their masks and realise no, this is not the embodiment of beauty I am looking for. This is not them. THEY are beauty incarnate, not this second rate trying hard copycat. Rid this filth from my vision for I wish my eyes to not get sullied.
Please, if they show up, they will, and there's that. Obsess over them all you want but can we have peace for now. Alternatively, there's the route taken long time ago-- scouring the interwebs with a fine tooth comb just to catch a glimpse of them, with the repercussions of finding things that ought to be hidden. And that takes so much time and effort. I know, I know, they're worth all that, but isn't it so much more fun to just Wait and See?
Fucking somebody sedate me.
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#tsom#whistlecone#the sound of music#captain von trapp#georg von trapp#maria von trapp#georg x maria#captain and the governess#pinecone/whistle#my art#please don't repost#chewing on them like squeaky toys#listen. i have a problem#and my problem is christopher plummer and julie andrews#spinning them like rotisserie chickens in my brain#i am going mental#what am i gonna do oh my god#they need to fucking stop#“you don't look like a captain” “you don't look like a nun” hmmmm okay can we calm down#what if i drew them kissing what then
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One of the things I've realized is most of the reviewers of The Acolyte are...incredibly childish.
I've seen people complain about not understanding why Qimir's armor was shorting out the lightsabers.
They tell you about it in the next episode.
People complained about Sol not realizing it's Mae...and they explain why...in the next episode.
Take a minute...breathe...and maybe shut the hell up before you start tearing into an unfinished story.
#nuance is dead and instant gratification is apparently in for people who lack the brain capacity to fucking wait a second#the acolyte#the acolyte spoilers#I'm coming into this late#and watching episodes 1-6 together felt like watching a movie#i can see how the pacing might throw people off given that vibe#but...it's been 7 episodes and it's clear they do answer most things#if people would literally just calm down ffs
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#he wants that cookie so effing bad
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#dragon age the veilguard#dragon age veilguard#veilguard spoilers#da4 spoilers#dragon age#emmrook#emmrich x rook#rookrich#emmrich volkarin#dragon age veilguard spoilers#datv#dragon age gifs#dragon age edit#my gifs#THE WAY THEY LOOK AT EACH OTHER. IM SCRATCHING AT THE WALLS#'he want that cookie so effing bad' has become part of my daily vocabulary like i can't stop saying it#my roommate can attest to this <3#bless whoever animated all these Looks that rook and emmrich give each other#especially that first one???? good LORD they are so down bad for each other it's crazy#also i lose my SHIT every time i watch the scene where emmrich fucking climbs back into the coffin so they can fuck nasty again#like DAMN calm down peepaw rook's not going anywhere#truly ridiculous how much emmrook occupies my brain space
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bsd fandom has always mischaracterised kunikida to hell and back but the fact that i am seeing SO MUCH hate for his character right after his 'death' is insane
#'kunikida is a boring character' 'dazai doesnt even like kunikida' 'kunikida has never suffered through trauma' DO U HEAR YOURSELF...#on one hand yeah studio bones butchering ln1 so bad will always be a main source of the misinterpretations#but EVEN THENNN you dont HAVE to read ln1 to get it. you just need to use your brain!!!!!#i dont care if you dislike kunikida or dislike knkdz or whatever. you can have your own opinion#but dont make up bullshit reasons for why you dont like them??????#and also ship wars are so stupid if i see ONE MORE POST comparing skk and knkdz's partnerships#which while have some good parallels#are ultimately not the same#then i will FIND YOU#skk and knkdz involve dazai in two very different stages of his life and you cant compare them#'oh this is healthier. oh this is more interesting. oh this partnership carries more weight. oh--' SHUT THE FUCK UP FOR FIVE SECONDS#LET PEOPLE LIVEEEEE#sorry for being petty but ive gone seven years without a knkdz manga interaction and so many skk shippers still wanna whine about how their#ship is better or whatever. like you already own so much content. so much of the fandom is skk tunnel visioned#why are you threatened by other shippers just having fun. calm the fuck DOWN#and also STOP PUTTING YOUR BASELESS HATE IN THE KNKDZ TAG I DONT WANNA SEE ITTTT#tag it as anti or whatever but dont shove your hate into the ship tag lol thats just basic etiquette#ok sorry im done now goodbye#this went from being annoyed at bad knkd takes to stupid knkdz hate but. those always seem to come together#smiles through the pain#bsd spoilers#sorry forgor to tag that
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ᴍɪᴋᴇʟᴀɴɢᴇʟᴏ ʟᴏᴄᴏɴᴛᴇ 🌟 'ᴛᴀᴛᴏᴜᴇ-ᴍᴏɪ' ᴍᴀᴋɪɴɢ-ᴏꜰ [ᴍᴏᴢᴀʀᴛ ʟ'ᴏᴘᴇʀᴀ ʀᴏᴄᴋ]
#mozart l'opera rock#mozart l'opéra rock#mor#mlor#wolfgang amadeus mozart#mikelangelo loconte#tatoue-moi#tatoue-moi making-of#i love how mikele rubs his chest#this gif goes straight into my autistic brain and calms me down#also the last one#this fucking smile...#gif#erdenstuff
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while i understand the complaints about the tone of DA:V (especially because the game suffers a lot from those EA/bioware writing team cullings and three different development cycles) , i think it’s a kind of “in-canon” acceptable explanation for a lack of things like elf/dwarf/qunari racism, slavery in tevinter, mage bigotry is just the rush the characters are in to solve this crisis. your team is simply not interacting enough with other people for long enough to get to know their complexities. it’s not the most satisfying explanation—but i think it explains a lot.
like the other games are on similar time frames (except DA2) BUT with the constant idea that no one really believes that the world is ending. however, after the events of inquisition, the entire world has been forced to deal with the ramifications of solas’ shit and the literal veil tear across the sky that was seen across the world. and the southern chantry (the only one with real power) has been gone for 10 years, meaning the EVERYDAY pressures to hate mages have gone, especially after people realized free mages don’t just randomly turn into demons all the time. the game literally starts with the Magisterium exploding half of the world’s largest city, the blight rising in the south, and the antaam invading the east (predicating on the fact that Seheron has fallen into chaos). like in origins, i think there’s an uneasy alliance between everyone right now regardless of magic or not.
racism and slavery are poorly addressed, regardless of an explanation, but semi-reasonably we can also conclude that this is because your rook/companions is not literally traveling through the world like the previous MCs were (given eluvian travel), and you spend little time in each area to interact with people who aren’t literally your contacts (who you know aren’t racist/magephobes) or your enemies (a given). now, a lack of all the previous conflicts between races mentioned even in passing, or between NPCs, and a complete lack of moral grayness of the companions regarding the issues magic/race, is just bad. but, of course, i think that this is a result of the writers’ working conditions. EA doesn’t want a game with complex, interwoven storylines that deal with horrible topics that you may or may not come to terms with—they want money. so the DA writing team doesn’t get the time they need to add these layers, and are instead made to focus solely on the complexities of the Evanuris and their history.
yes. this is copium—to the nth degree—but i refuse to be a pussy bitch who whines that this game shouldn’t be canon at all. that’s stupid, and be real. all of the games, even in the last DLC of origins, have been absolutely hated at first. no one likes the way the writers go with anything, because they have to choose a single path in the twisted, complex world we all have grown to know. there are parts of this game that i would rather just imagine didn’t happen (taash’s story being handled so amateurishly for one, the whitewashing of the crows, etc.), but the ultimate story is not bad—and it doesn’t “undo” nearly as much lore as many people have claimed it does. Solas either is made to, or chooses to, undo mistakes that set the modern Thedas into motion thousands of years ago. he rids the world of the artificial doomsday he created, to bring it back into a state it was before them (potentially bringing back titans in some way), for the next game to face the ancient evils that existed in their world BEFORE what we knew to be true.
the games have always been leading up to this. Mythal as flemeth is a classic example of—you think you know, but you do not. The evanuris didn’t know what ancient forces they were messing with and still were brought to their knees by themselves—which is literally the plot of Origins.
#sorry need to get autistic focus out of brain by writing words down#also i think everyone on reddit (and half of tumblr) needs to calm down. i know bioware fans hate their favorite games but jesus#veilguard was a fun game man. not the best written but you know the fuck what? dragon age 2 sucked ass too ❤️ and i love it#and you all hated inquisition when it came out don’t let me catch you saying it was sooo good#dragon age#veilguard spoilers#dragon age veilguard#also unrelated but i saw someone say that the missive that says the south was badly blighted is a “slap in the face to true fans”?? grow up#you are not fereldan. they were acting like everything is destroyed forever. bitch it’s a note about bad things happening you’ll be fine#and they complained about them not touching on the south at all like the complaint for 2 straight games has been tevinter is ignored
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Having to remind myself constantly that being able to balance bith a job and college at the same time is actually a pretty impressive feat for people like me (disabled both physically and mentally). And that I shouldn't push myself to be perfect all the time because the fact that I'm here at all is impressive
#we stay positive we stay positive we stay positive (pealse fuck im trying so hard)#anyway ive been struggling recently with school and work#and i need to like .... calm down or something#i also need sleep but my brain said no#its to the point where i question if its stress caused or just my own reluctance#its probably both#crunchy rants#my tags are more a rant than my actual post but whatev#this is a message to all those with disabilities: im proud of you for making it this far
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the body.. he's keeping the score
#i feel so fucked up.#my brain is finally calming down but my body is like. completely busted.#izzy.txt
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when I was hardcore into Mass Effect I once had a nightmare that the Reapers actually invaded Earth and all I could do was to watch them destroy everything
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#I always get the most horrifying world ending nightmares djfnsbrjgj#why can't I dream about nice things#there was also this one nightmare in which the moon was colliding with earth#and everyone was awfully calm which drove dream me crazy#I woke up before that thing destroyed everything#just recently I had a nightmare about nuclear war#and was trying to calm down a group of children dying of radiation sickness#raaaahhh I want nice dreams#they're always so realistic too my brain is fucked beyond repair#chatter
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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍
#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man#thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking#mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they#dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done#listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life#i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this#once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i#dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this#ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be#i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about#how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being#given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out#entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please#its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have#to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once#and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general#feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this#but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is#i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired#i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if#i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore#i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr#and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning#my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better#it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood#my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it#cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen#.vent#ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.
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Didn't felt like mentioning it immediately but shoutout to my sick and twisted brain for getting so triggered by an unexpected Christmas parade that I ended up havin the absolute worst panic attack of my entire life (potentially the only real one? I've had a couple other episodes I thought of as panic attacks but they were not even close to that so who knows) to the point where I spent the very last day of my 30th year on this earth in the ER, good times, good times 😊
#that was 10 days ago and i honestly was fine immediately after it ended so don't worry for me <3#but yeah this shit was crazy holy hell#like i knew intellectually that 'feeling like you're dying' is a symptom of a panic attack but *actually* feeling it is another thing...#and even at the worst i was like 'ok i'm clearly having a panic attack it's not nice but it's gonna be ok'#but there was a piece of my brain that was like 'ok but what if your mom or grandma had told themselves that...'#'when they were having heart attack? They would have died and so will you 😊'#and i was like shit can't argue with that better get my ass to the hospital before i die#spoiler alert: i didn't died#ironically enough the revolting state of our healthcare system is lowkey what helped me calmed the fuck down#because i was tiny but i do remember when my mom had her heart attack and they sure as hell didn't let her wait for 7h+#so when i realized that this is what was gonna happen after i spent a brief moment with a nurse i was just like...oh i'm fine actually lol#and then i had to go take the bus in my fake crocs that i usually never wear outside of the house smh#interestingly enough my phobia of hospital seems to have competely disappear! which makes me believe that it was more a trauma response#than an actual phobia#not that the name changes that much but still interesting development#also no i'm not wearing a mask because nobody gave me one#that's actually one of the thing that made me leave lmao#oh and btw the christmas parade is true but also a bit more complex than that#basically i had a full sleepless night and i was mad so i decided to go buy myself some weed#turned out that there was a huge christmas parade 5 minutes away from the weed store so i hade to find another way#and then i got lost on the way back#and saw no less than 3 big fights between different homeless people#including one man randomly kicking another man's dog (which kinda really messed with me tbh)#and then i smoked a big joint (first one in like 10 days) with 0 sleep and zero food in my body#and then i took the bus#and then the bus driver yelled at an elderly man for not waiting at the right place#and then i took a sip of water and for some truly strange reason my brain decided that the water had gone in my lungs#and that i was actively drowning#and the rational part of me was like...girl that's not what drowning feels like what are you even talking about??#and then my brain went 'well if we're not drowning than we're having a heart attack'
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People talk about fast metabolisms like it's all fun and games and eating whatever you want but they fail to remember that it also means your body is Incredibly Stupid and decides that you become deficient in everything in a couple or so days where it takes most others a week. Or months compared to "oops you forgot to photosynthesize sufficiently :( no i don't care that it has been freezing and overcast for the past week, you didn't absorb enough sun. Perish Badly."
Or at least it would be if i didn't like citrus fruits so much, probably
#glaring at whatever secret brain section is in control of my body resource management. why am i iron deficient again. it has been 2½ days.#and all that has been spent mostly SLEEPING because GUESS WHAT ALSO DOESN'T WORK RIGHT BECAUSE OF METABOLISM.#SLEEP AIDS. LIKE MELATONIN#i have to take a double dose if i want these fucking dumb ass gummies to do anything. otherwise they don't do shit unless I'm already asleep#but guess what? i can't get to sleep :) because another thing in the list of Patch Problems is chronic insomnia. and i can't sleep#so the melatonin does ✨️NOTHING✨️#same goes for pain meds and local anesthetics because my metabolism is so so good at it's job :) when it does not need to be#like bbg we are not poisoned we are at the dentist CALM THE FUCK DOWN??? SO I DON'T FEEL THE DAMN DRILL IN MY TOOTH?????#hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhg#i do not need so many issues stacked on top of eachother#istg i would not have survived in any century before this one. what do you mean i get sickly deficient in things in less time than Normal™️#i can't even drink plain water or it makes me nauseated. body why are you Stupid#patchy rambles#is this slightly incomprehensible? probably#but it is 1 in the morning and i am pissed at my own body for hating me so much and this is My Blog so i put My Problems on it#rgrgrgrgr
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LEIF IF YOU DO MAKE THE KLAPOLLO PLUSHIES WILL YOU PUT LITTLE MAGNETS IN THEIR HANDS??
Of course I will who do you take me for
#I know my brain is in like over ambitious planning mode bc I’m already making plans to make a bunch of different characters#and then possibly sending them to friends#girl calm down we haven’t even made one yet#the thing I struggle most w humanoid plushies is hair#it always turns out fucked up and weird#anon#asks#this ask was too silly for me not to answer it and I’m in plushie brain mode rn so why not
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agent florida/mark temple crackship, call that a flemple
#red vs blue#rvb#i dunno what brought this upon my brain#i think they'd have the energy of that one post thats like#i couldn't fix him but i could fuck him. maybe that'll calm him down#i dunno
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