#cait my love 💞

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maddie …. are u still here .. i miss u x

ahhh yes lovely just have had writers block 🥲 BUT IVE MISSED YOU !!!

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cockwarming rafe while watching a movie n hes just teasing u the entire time but wont move until the end of the movie 😩

omg omg *contains smut mdni!*

“please,” you whine, shifting your weight from side to side, only achieving one thing, his cock somehow slipping further into you, nudging the tip against your cervix almost painfully

rafe chuckles, his hands slipping to your waist to hold you still, “stay still, till the end of the movie” he huffs, bucking his hips up from the couch. you moan and hang your head, staring down at your thighs on top of his muscly ones

you’ve seen this movie before, racking your brain to try and figure out how long of it is left gets you nowhere though as his fingers ghost over your hip and down to your dripping wet pussy

he plays with your clit, jumping from rubbing gentle, slow circles over the aching and pressing almost too hard, your breath hitching every time he does

“rafe, god,” you shudder, clenching your thighs together quickly, your nails digging into his skin. he groans behind you, his hands inching down between your legs

“not quite god but the next best thing,” he smirks, you can’t see it but you can hear it. he leans forward, his bare chest pressing into your back, “now, sit fucking still,”

he forces your thighs open, circling his hands around them, his fingers digging in enough to bruise. he lifts you up before settling back against the couch, dropping you back down the length of his cock as he does

you pinch your eyes shut and bite your lip to stifle a moan. laying back against him, your head tilts back against his shoulder, your attention turning to the ceiling instead of the movie

rafe stops his teasing, for five minutes, then his fingers continue their assault. one hand tickling up the inside of your spread thigh, fingers circling around where you’re stretched around him and up through your folds and to your clit

his other hand settles on your rib, almost sweetly brushing his thumb against your stretched skin. your eyes water and your hips shake slightly, though you hope he doesn’t notice.

a slap lands on your thigh and you jerk, he noticed. “shit” you hiss under your breath and force yourself to relax against him. the sweet brushing over your rib stops when his thumb catches your nipple

against your will, your walls tighten around his cock, tears slip down your cheeks and you sniffle. “nearly over now,” rafe mumbles against your neck, his lips peppering kisses over your skin, “doing so good for me”

you nod slightly, your words failing as your brain turns to mush. his fingers continue to dance over your skin, you wonder how such a sweet action can feel so degrading, the tips of his fingers feeling like fire.

rafe’s cock starts to throb inside you, rubbing against your walls. he fidgets underneath you, his hips rolling, thighs clenching and his abs bumping your back. your cunt drips from the actions and you know the movie will be finishing soon

slowly, you lean forward, planting your hands on his thighs to grind your hips slowly back against him, fucking yourself down on him, “rafe, please” you whine once more

as you do, the room fades to black, your head snaps up to the tv in time to see the credits rolling and you both still. you swallow thickly and then rafe’s fingers are tangling into your hair, pulling harshly until your back arches

“s’fucking tight,” he groans behind you, louder than the music over the credits. he starts to fuck up into you harshly, letting out the past ninety minutes of teasing and anticipation on your poor cunt

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some things I love about the companions 💞

Ada; is best girl. She's a cool ass robot who gives me glue and doesn't judge me. No, this is not my "transformers prime permanently rewired my brain" bias for robots. At risk of sounding like a 12 year old boy, Assaultatrons are just badass designs. And she's blue!

Cait; is a lot funnier than anyone gives her credit for. Also, weirdly educated? For example, she wonders if Raiders like tunnels as a "Freudian" thing. Few people she'd have met would known about Freud, so she'd have to have gone and read about it herself. Also also, is on Danse's level of romantic sweet talk. Girl makes me swoon.

Codsworth; somehow hates the wasteland more than X6. His wording and tone is very optimistic but you can tell that, underneath his chipper facade, Codsworth is so fucking grossed out by everything he sees. Also, the only two companions he doesn't trust to keep you safe, are Piper and MacCready. Make of that what you will.

Curie; X6-88 (like, 10 years old) calls her unqualified and she (200ish) basically tells him to get the fuck back in the play pen

Danse; Sending his eyebrows to space by showing the smallest amount of care and affection. I'm pretty sure this man would die if someone asked if he was okay.

Deacon; talks a big game about being a liar, and being very good about it, but if you don't read that 'recall code' ASAP, he bugs you about it constantly because he hates lying to you. It's not even that you're being naive, he genuinely hates that he's being trusted when you were supposed to question him.

Dogmeat; my favorite thing about Dogmeat is that I'll spend an hour scrapping all dog houses in Sanctuary, make him a little area in my backyard with a house, food bowl, toys, a rug, and classical music, and he thanks me by getting up on my countertops to sleep, using my antique pie collection as bedding.

Gage; Wears a fake eyepatch and throws hissy fits when my army of sexy chads curbstomps his furries, Nepo babies, and Joker stans. This is entirely wishful thinking and I get why this didn't happen, but I would have liked an option to convince him "Hey, I'm coming back with my army to wipe out all these raiders, but I'll give you a chance to join me or leave since you also seem to hate these chuckleheads." I appreciate his shady convict uncle vibes. I would let him teach Shaun how to cheat at cards.

Hancock; takes mentats to feel "intellectual" when he has the second highest INT of all the companions. Also, his puppy dog eyes. "IM FERAL NOW" as he gets his ass kicked by a legendary god roach

MacCready; dork man. he has more cliche stock line jokes than Deacon. I unironically vibe with his taste in trailers, fucking LOVE leopard print (fake bc we don't fuck with wasteful animal hunting like that). He's a very cozy companion to travel with, for lack of a better description. Like if a thermos of soup was a human.

Nick; Nick is what I imagine Mac would be like as he got older—just a laid-back weirdo who wants whats best for you and will insult you so you understand that. I love his tacky ass agency sign. I wish you could put him in other clothes, because I need him in a bathrobe wielding a cane against my enemies. Just really succumb to the grumpy uncle vibes.

Old Longfellow; reminds me strongly of my old neighbor, an elderly southern gentleman who was a sniper in the military, had a chunky rottie named Baby, and once watched me play Fallout and gave his opinions on the design of the weapons in game. That man is now in Thailand with his girlfriend. I've never traveled with Longfellow but I'm pretty sure its a 1 to 1.

Preston; if you don't take Preston to Quincy, I don't blame you, because oh man, does he not have a great time there! Preston sounds five seconds away from snapping his gun over his knee and going for strangulation in Quincy. King shit.

Piper; I was pretty harsh to Piper but I love her gaslight gatekeep girlboss approach to her life. She's like an adult Junie B Jones. Piper has never had her shit together and is self-medicating with sugar harder than Hancock and Cait do with drugs. She's a cringefail woman. If Bethesda was brave they would have gone with her pixie cut concept.

X6-88; a blank canvas for me to go wild on with the fanon. But I love how he's just an asshole 10 year old murderbot that's scared of heights, thinks Power Armor is so cool he privately fangirls over Danse, is scared of children, and gushes over how awesome the Survivor is to his courser buddies. What a babe.

[that-blue-vault-dweller]

Hi! I don’t know if you still doing reactions, if not - no problem!

Companions reaction if they see F!Sole being killed in front of them? Could you add Maxson’s reaction as well, please?

It’s awfully sad, but I would love to know their reaction

Goodness, this one was rough 🥺 I did my best, though, and hopefully it seems accurate! It's been a few since I've played with a couple of these companions, but I tried! 💗💗💗 Thank you so, so much for the request! 😊💞💞💞

TW: Chems and alcohol usage, violence, blood and gore, suicide

Cait - The Combat Zone was full of death and full of pain, but despite having seen death upon death, she still shuts down as soon as she sees her best friend lying there on the ground motionless.

She knows what it means. She has seen her fair share of death and murder, and given the fact that they had nailed her in the back of the head with a bullet destroyed any chances of survival.

However, her mind refuses to let her consciously realize the fact that it's death. That her savior has been shot down. The one person that believed in her and saved her from her own certain death despite Cait not being able to save her.

She blindly murders every last one of them, unable to think it through as she went through the motions. It then fully sets in upon her what precisely that this meant.

Cait feels like she's losing her breath, and the only thing she can think about is somehow trying to save her person. Cait staggers over to her, collapsing onto her knees as she crawls the rest of the way, her body not having the strength for anything else.

She holds her in her arms, begging her to come back to life as she looks down at her. F!Sole is the one standing between her and addiction. She's the one that keeps her on the straight and narrow and that inspired to be a better person in the first place.

Without her, Cait has nothing now. She is nothing now.

She quickly reverts to her old ways, no one there to stop her from abusing the chems. She does not see the use in trying to avoid killing herself now. There is no one left to live for.

Piper - Piper and Blue. The unbeatable team that had managed to keep up that streak for several months now.

Until today.

A loud scream rips itself out of her throat as soon as Blue is shot, her eyes going wide and her heart plummeting to her feet.

She puts a bullet in the heads of the people remaining before rushing over to her Blue, too worried about her best friend to worry about exacting revenge. Some part of her was hoping that she had made it. She had to.

This was her Blue. Her invincible Blue that had overcome all of the odds thrown at her. Her story couldn't end here. Not so soon. Not before it had played itself out and it had the happy ending that her Blue deserved.

But she knew in the back of her mind that there was no surviving a hit like that. Railroad spikes to the chest were almost a certain death sentence.

Piper grips her face, too scared to feel for a pulse as she looks at her best friend in the entire world. She shakes her, pats her face, does anything she can to try to search for that beautiful life that always animated her every move.

Piper slowly lowers her head to her Blue's whispering, begging to the Heavens to please bring her back. Please just let her come back.

But she was gone. And it's just Piper. Just as lonely, terrified, and devastated as she had been that night her father had been killed.

A week or so later, tears streaming down her face and making it nearly impossible to write, she labors over an article that she puts in the paper. It is titled "The Vault Dweller: Inside the Hero of the Commonwealth." It's a longer title than she normally goes with, and while she has had few words since it happened, her article has so many written words that it is pages and pages long. When Blue died, so did Piper's voice. At least for now.

Curie - This was not fear. It was pure terror.

Curie lets out a horrified screech, her training as a medic forgone completely.

Thankfully, F!Sole had managed to deal a fatal blow to the guy, so she does not have to worry about clearing anyone out. She almost falls in the process of her scrambling over to get a look at her, and she examines F!Sole's wounds carefully. They were definitely fatal ones, but accepting that meant accepting losing the one person that saved her and the one person that loved her enough to give her an entire life.

Curie desperately searches for any stimpaks she has in her bag, stabbing them repeatedly into F!Sole over and over as desperation increasingly tightens its clutches. She's supposed to be able to fix these things.

She is a doctor, and she's supposed to be able to save people. If she can't save the most important person in the world to her, does she really deserve to have the ability to pursue any manner of medical field?

Once she has used all of the stimpaks in her bag, she takes the ones from F!Sole's, going over and over again as her vision becomes more and more blurry.

When she at last runs out of them, she allows herself to burst into sobs, collapsing on the woman as she presses her forehead against her chest on the opposite side that the wound had gone into. She closes her eyes, a flood of tears staining the now-reddened vault-suit.

She had lost everyone that ever cared about her, and worst of all, she had been worried about herself being injured. She now regretted not worrying more for the protector that she had perceived as being so invulnerable.

She cries for weeks but she continues in her medical work. However, despite the weakness of the tears, she now carries her protector's large, modded combat shotgun strapped on her back. She will never let anyone she cares about die again on her watch.

MacCready - Her shot had downed the last guy, but as the man was collapsing, he managed to get one last good hit on her.

His hit had just been luckier than hers.

It had been a headshot, and she instantly fell, hitting the ground with a sickening thud and a new, shining bullet hole in her forehead.

He almost lets out something akin to a scream, but he contains himself, and he stumbles over to her. His jaw feels unhinged from the rest of his face and he just looks down at her as he falls to his knees.

He is just staring down at her, and his jaw is slackened even still. He feels like it has never fully shut since he saw her.

He does not know what to feel. He does not know how to react, and all he can think of is how alone he feels now. He supposes that a few tears fall down his cheeks, but he cannot even really feel them given how he just looks down at her in horror, unable to help the curse that slips from between his lips despite his best efforts.

After what feels like an eternity of just staring at her, he takes off his hat and sits it on her head. She was always trying to playfully steal it while they were on the road, and he thinks of those moments now as he gives it to her to have forever. It's funny the thoughts that one has in times like these.

He gets up then, knowing he has nowhere else to go but home.

He goes back to his son, numb inside. But as his boy comes running over to him, excited to see his father, he collapses on his knees and hugs him. He holds him for what feels like forever and surprisingly, Duncan stays in his arms without protest.

MacCready allows himself to really cry, the comforting warmth of the last living person he cares about coaxing it out of him. He keeps the tears silent, but they nevertheless fall.

Deacon - If this was some sick joke, Deacon was definitely not loving the punchline.

His heart in his throat from the moment she fell, he rushed to her and dragged her away as best he could. He only stopped when they were in safety and he had lost them.

He collapsed to his knees, praying it was just a lie. He had told so many lies in his life that surely reality could somehow start turning into one big lie, too.

But as he tried to make jokes and tried to somehow wake her up from this, he was quickly realizing that this was about to be one of the harshest, realest truths that he had ever faced.

And as he realized that, the jokes fell from his tongue along with the tears from his eyes, every lie he had ever dared tell her resurfaced in his mind, and regrets overwhelmed his every sense.

Lies were who he was and came second-nature, but how could he have ever told her a lie? The one person that was truthfully and honestly the only person he fully trusted without question or a single doubt.

The one person that trusted him without question or a single doubt...

As time passes, he withdraws more than ever before, and his lies become even more ludicrous until no one really knows the truth about he himself anymore. He cannot afford for anyone to get that close again.

Codsworth - Codsworth feels as if he is shutting down when he sees his Mistress lying there on the ground.

He saws through and lasers the rest of the enemies, and he comes to her, hovering over her as he looks down at her. He calls her name a few times, grabbing her arm gently with his pincer, but she does not reply.

He finally brings himself to scan her despite his fears, and to his horror, his worries were confirmed. He just stares down at her as he keeps her arm in his grasp, processing and unable to come to a solid solution.

Finally, the poor robot's programming ultimately cannot handle the trauma of it all.

First sir, then young Shaun, and now Mum? He cannot deal with this. It can't possibly be true!

So he carries her to their old home in Sanctuary, continuing to treat her like his mistress. She just says a little less now and does not eat like she should, but she's still his mistress. He sets her at the table and puts her in bed, helping her as much as he can. She is not as mobile as she used to be, but he guesses that it must have been because of that terrible accident from before.

"Mum, you are looking quite skeletal! Here! Eat up! You don't want young Shaun and Sir to see you in this state!"

Hancock - He was hoping that this was one of those bad trips. The ones where crap happened and then he was back on his couch at the state house like nothing happened, Fahrenheit looking down at him as she prodded him to get up and have something to eat.

But it wasn't.

Turns out, he was sober. She really did fall there in front of him. She really did take that hit to the chest. And she really was looking like she was stone cold dead.

He shook himself from the shock, going into action as he quickly killed the remaining goons. He then stopped next to her, talking to her quickly and determinedly. She could not be dead for real. It was too surreal. It could not possibly be right or true.

But she is.

She's there in his arms dead and he can't do a thing about it.

So he just holds her, tears sliding down his irradiated cheeks as he shakily speaks to her, addressing her softly as he tells her all of the things that he wishes he had said while she was still alive and able to look at him with that beautiful, fond gaze that she always turned upon him or any of her found family.

Eventually, he brings her back to Goodneighbor once he has cried his tears, conjuring the strength and the words to give a speech for the hero of the Commonwealth. Goodneighbor would give her a proper send-off. The one that someone as amazing as her deserved.

Danse - It never failed to amaze him and terrify him with how things could go wrong so quickly.

As soon as he so much as saw her hit the ground, he was freaking out. It was controlled on the outside, but to anyone that knew him, they could have easily seen the uncharacteristic manner of how his firing became more rapid and less focused.

He made his way over to the woman, stopping in front of her as his power armor blocked the view of any potentially remaining enemies. A few bullets bounced off of the back of his armor, and he kept his head ducked, extending his hands to her as he desperately grabbed her, trying to see if there were any signs of breathing.

There is so much blood and so little movement. She does not appear to be breathing and he cannot even properly check her pulse because he has not left his power armor.

He spins around, throwing a few calculated shots and blasting any remaining enemies before quickly exiting the power armor.

He brings her into his arms, feeling for a pulse as his breathing is getting increasingly out of control. Try as he might, there is none and he cannot even try to see if she could be breathing still because tears are blocking his vision.

He had just lost yet another best friend.

If this is after Blind Betrayal, he finds it harder and harder to have a reason to live, and he eventually decides he does not need to live anymore. He can't be in a world without her.

Preston - One minute, he is shooting down the bad guys with the General and the next moment, he realizes that the only lasers he sees are coming from his own musket.

He quickly spots her, but not where he expects her to be. She is lying on the ground, and he instantly feels his heart in his throat.

He fires a few more lasers, doing his best to land hits to enemies' chests, and he rushes over to her, skidding to a stop on his knees next to her. The movement is cushioned by his armor, and he comes to a stop as he tries to wake her up, his entire being utterly panicking. He grabs her shoulders, pulling away anything covering her neck, and he feels for a pulse.

There is not a single thing that he can feel and he feels his heart dropping. He quickly moves to her wrists, ripping off the Pip-Boy and any armor in the way, and he feels for a pulse on both. Still, there is nothing.

Preston tries his best not to cry, knowing that it will do no good at this point. Besides, he had lost a general before. He had lost people before.

But she is different. She is his final hope. She is the Minutemen as the Commonwealth knows them now. Her bright smile, those hopeful eyes, and that steadfast nature is what inspires people to be better. It is the face of the Minutemen now and the person that brings his childhood dreams of heroes to life.

She is not only that, but also his friend. She cares for him like few others ever did. She is truly like family or the closest thing he has to one now.

But she is gone. He breaks down as he truly accepts the fact that he has lost his General and the last true hope of the Minutemen.

He eventually goes on to try to lead the Minutemen himself despite his reservations. He knows that he does not quite have her undeniable charm, but he knows she would have wanted the Minutemen to keep thriving despite her death. So he keeps trudging on.

Valentine - It was always supposed to be him.

He was an old, grisly detective and a synth on top of that. Not even one of the pretty synths either. He was nothing but a copy and paste of some dead man's memories put into a ramshackle body. He was never meant to go on this long.

But here he was, F!Sole lying dead on the ground and him standing there not knowing what to even start to do.

She was so full of life, vibrancy, and beauty despite everything that had happened to her. She had hope. Hope to find her son and hope to make a positive difference in the Commonwealth.

Nick came over to her, and he knew that if he were capable, he would be sobbing right now. He knelt down beside her, his good hand caressing her bloodstained cheek as he softly moved to close her eyes. His heart was so deeply aching right now despite not even having one in the literal sense.

He would need a few minutes. Or a few years... to even begin to push past this one.

He is never quite the same after that and it takes every bit of his strength to keep doing detective work. It is the first time in his career that he truly considered retiring. But he oushes on because he knows she would've wanted him to keep helping people and doing good out there. Just like she did.

X6-88 - Coursers are meant to be fast, effective, and practically invincible. However, humans, despite how formidable some can be, are indeed not.

She falls just as he wipes out the one that knocked her down. He was milliseconds away from saving her from what was doubtlessly a fatal hit.

He moves over to her quickly, something irrational in him compelling him to check her even though he knows the truth.

Sure enough, her lifeless form remains there on the ground, the shotgun wound having mangled her face so terribly that she was almost unrecognizable.

X6 almost feels like throwing up, and he is shocked at himself on multiple accounts.

How could he have failed so badly and allowed this to happen? He is literally made to accomplish a mission quickly and efficiently and his mission is her. He is supposed to always protect her. He owes that much to her after she had cared for him and seen him as something more than his basic purpose.

Even though he had always been reluctant at best about her attempts to make him human, the feelings he is experiencing now are undoubtedly something different than what his programming originally intended.

He keeps his sunglasses on, terrified of the tears that are slipping down his cheeks and terrified of removing the glasses to wipe them away because it will be admitting to himself that she had always been right. It will be admitting to himself that he is not empty and unfazed by her death.

It will be admitting that his entire purpose is gone now.

He eventually returns to Sanctuary after the funeral takes place, having no idea what to do now. He ends up finding more solace in going out on his own and eradicating the filth of the Commonwealth than by staying in one place for too long. He's maintaining her legacy somehow.

Dogmeat - It all happened so fast.

His human was fighting for one minute and then she was on the ground, lying there still as could be. He instantly turns his attentions to who had hurt her, and he attacks, ripping out their throat mercilessly as he takes on anyone else who was around.

When he finally is finished, he comes limping over to his human, coming to check on her. She still has not gotten up. He sniffs her hand, licking it softly as he snuffles at her fingers. He leans toward her face, offering her another lick to try to wake her up.

All he can smell is blood and it is overwhelming his senses. He also smells something else... It smells like those bad men when they fall and don't get up after his human shoots them with the fire sticks.

Is she... Never going to get up?

He waits for a long time, hoping that she will prove him wrong, but he slowly realizes that she is going to be just like those bad men.

They hit her with the fire stick and now she is not going to get up.

He woefully howls, pain in his heart.

He had let her down. He was a bad dog.

But he stays by her, refusing to eat, drink, or do anything as he waits for her in hopes that maybe she'll wake up. One particularly cold night, he suddenly feels warmth and her special whistle for him. He looks up, his tail wagging as he spots her.

She looks different. She seems younger and seems less troubled, but it is definitively her. Dogmeat excitedly gets up and bounds toward her, and she gets down on one knee, wrapping him in her arms as she buries her nose in his fur. He happily licks her ear since it is the only thing he can reach.

She got up. He knew she would.

Strong - He is shocked but quickly very angry.

He quickly crushes a few skulls before stepping over to her to see if she is truly dead.

To his utter fury, she is gone.

He also feels a twinge of something else that he can't quite explain. His eyes are leaking and he doesn't understand why. It distorts his vision and he hates it.

Fury fueling him, he yells and growls, but as much as he wants to stomp on her or throw her or take out his anger somehow on her since she's the reason he's feeling whatever way that he is now, something stops him. Amazingly, he doesn't even feel like eating her like he feels like eating most dead things they come across since they have no other use.

He just watches her for a long moment before deciding to yell one last thing.

"Tiny human lied!!!! Tiny human didn't take Strong to milk of human kindness!!!"

He leaves her there where she fell and heads out. He will find the milk by himself.

Maxson - They were out with an entire group of soldiers, but he had commanded her to take point.

And when she hits the ground, she falls directly at his feet.

In a rare moment of questioning his own decisions, he stares at her in disbelief. But he quickly comes to life, ripping through the remaining enemies with his gatling gun. He spends a little extra time on the one that downed her, but he tries not to make that fact obvious.

He kneels down beside her, feeling for any manner of a pulse, and one of the scribes they brought with them begins the effort in attempting to resuscitate her.

But after a short time, he knows it is no use, and he commands the scribe to stand down. He looks over her, silently and wordlessly takes in her loss as well as he can with watchful eyes of his soldiers all around him.

She was one of the best, and despite having lost quite a few that he cared for-- Danse being among them-- he had not lost most of them with them being shot down right in front of him.

He does not cry, the callouses of war and battle preventing him from breaking down in front of the group that they had brought out with them. He had to be a strong leader.

However, once they bring her body back and make plans for a funeral with all of the honors that she deserves, he locks himself in his quarters and lets the tears fall. She is someone that he will not soon forget.

[p-redux]

Hi P, I know your blog focuses mostly on source info and Sam's love life but do you watch the show? I'm assuming you became part of the Outlander fandom because of the books or the show. Have you watched the first two episodes of Season 7?

I understand if you don't want to talk about that on your blog but I'm just curious if you did watch and your thoughts. I'm really pleased with this season so far.

Hi, Anon, I do watch Outlander and have read most of the books. I love the show. But I have to be in the right headspace to watch it, since it's so emotional and intense.

I used to post recaps of the episodes or just my off the cuff reactions. Here's a sample of one of my PAST posts of an episode from a previous Outlander season. 👇

As for SEASON 7, yes, I've watched the first two episodes. If you don't want SPOILERS, stop reading here.

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EPISODE 1: all I gotta say is top knotch acting by everyone involved.

Cait as Claire breaks my heart every time. So exceptional.

Mark Lewis Jones as Tom Christie is such a powerhouse of subtle acting at its best.

As for Sam...I won't say Sam AS Jamie...because Sam IS Jamie. He doesn't play Jamie Fraser; he literally IS Jamie Fraser. Say what you want about Sam's other acting roles, but no one can deny he was born to play James Alexander Malcolm Mackenzie Fraser and he embodies him to PERFECTION.

The last scene, where he's sitting there unblinkingly fixating his gaze on Brown and then icily deadpanning "And I'm also a violent man," I literally jumped up and started clapping. That episode was an incredible start to what looks to be an amazing season.

As for EPISODE 2, I just finished watching it. I'll summarize it in emojis:

✝️ ✝️ 😲😳😠😢 🏹 🤛🙂��👨‍👩‍👧‍👦👵🧑‍🦲🫀💔❤️‍🩹 😊🫡👨‍👩‍👧‍👦🗿🥹😢😭😭😭👏✈️💞😍😭😲😠💥😱

ALL. THE. FEELS.

I can't wait for Episode 3! Maybe I'll do a post for each episode. We'll see if I feel up to it. Thanks, Anon!

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Deacon

My interpretation of Deacon is very much in the camp of, “every good lie has a seed of truth”. Got no idea if that what makes a good lie, but I think it’s a fun story telling device so idc. I never want to take away from him being a liar because it feels like it’d be a disservice to his character, but from his dialogue it feels like there’s always that grain of truth. Rather than just flat out lies, he twists the truth. The only time it ever feels flat out is when you’re supposed to doubt him, (like that he’s been to Greenland or played cards with Mr. House). It’s wacky, outlandish, and he plays it straight because that’s apart of the joke.

Because at his heart he’s a goofball! I think that Deacon shows more of who he truly is than he realizes by the mere fact that he doesn’t really know who that is anymore. If you spend sometime time as the lie, when does it become the truth?

He’s so edgy in own head, but I think that his true colors show from his actions which are usually spent either a) protecting the people he loves, or b) keeping their spirits high. He may be cynical, but he doesn’t want to be. He admires optimism and hope and surrounds himself in it, and I think some of it rubs off on him when he isn’t looking.

How can he not? The way that I can hear his voice SPARKLE after you blow up the Institute… Like the whole world has just taken on a new brighter shade. But also the way that he fights, and he fights, and he fights even in the darkest hours of the Railroad. At times I think he feels beaten down and broken, like he couldn’t get up again, but then he looks at these beacons of hope like Dez, Glory, and everyone else and he can’t help it! While he definitely has the “man loses last bit hope he didn’t know he had” moment, he doesn’t stay in the darkness. He’s magnetized to the light. Something something a lantern in the dark hehe.

Piper

I’ve fallen in love a little bit with almost all of the Fallout 4 companions, and Piper is the latest 💞. I made a conscious effort to spend more time with her on my survival play through and she’s just so charming. Bethesda knew what they were doing and they got my pansexual ass hook, line, and sinker. She’s sweet, and awkward, and passionate, and quirky, and goofy, and driven. What’s there not love?

I think my Piper is definitely a reflection of what I’m feeling like in my early twenties, except a more fantasized “country girl in the big apple vibes” version. Life is an adventure, and oh fuck being an adult with responsibility is difficult. I care so much about my community yet feel so isolated for one reason or the other. She’s fighting for justice but doesn’t have it all together yet. She trips, stumbles, and is learning.

I think the biggest roadblock for loving her character had been the contradiction of being ostensibly pro-synth but also lambasting McDonough for being a synth publicly. However, when I took a look at that as a character arc I really began to appreciate her!

Piper’s point was never to promote synth hate, and I’m so compelled by her grappling and dealing with the fact that she did. That her constant strive to deliver the unabashed truth, along with her (rightful) disdain of McDonough as a person meant that she helped the paranoia. That she made synths the bad guys rather than the Institute at large. Her seeing the toll of a full out war with propaganda from all sides, and developing another layer to her belief system. An awareness of her words and how they effect people.

Cait

I know that for some character arcs it’s about learning to be okay in your own body, on your own, but it’s SO important to me that Cait ends her story with someone absolutely smitten for her. It doesn’t matter the gender (although I’m personally partial to a girlfriend for her), she needs someone to hold her. To be patient with her. To call her out on her shit when she’s being dumb, and stand by her through the roughest parts of her journey. I want her to feel warm, and safe, and held and to be surrounded by people who love and appreciate her.

Also want her to have a complicated relationship with drugs that isn’t easy, but that she feels like she has agency and choice over. That she doesn’t need to feel ashamed for her drug use! That sure she’s got baggage but she’s so worth carrying it. I want Cait to live an easy breezy life where she’s surrounded by laughter.

(Man I guess this was less meta and more me wanting to give Cait nice things lmao).

In such a bad mood after reading something that I won’t say more about because I don’t care for engaging in internet discourse! So instead I wanna post something positive! These are just some thoughts on a couple of the companions. Definitely not the full breadth of my thoughts, but I’m kinda just not in the mood to be critical right now. Just need something good to cheer me up. Hope it can do the same for you!

My interpretations generally tend towards the sweeter more optimistic end, and I’m aware of that. But I stand by them none-the-less. I want the wasteland to become a softer place, not a harder one, and I think that while characters start out in dark places they can be lifted out of that. Fallout already spends so much time really showing off the depths of the horrors of humanity and I think that it needs to foster hope. Hope and growth give meaning to the struggle. The violence may be pointless but then we can choose to be different. Idk y’all it’s nearly two in the morning and I just want some feel goods after being absolutely STEAMED.

If you wanna join in on the fun and add your own thoughts I’d love to hear them. About these guys or any others. I just picked a random three myself. It can be angsty! I just ask to keep things respectful and compassionate in how you talk about it.

[slmcreative]

💞✅💖💥🥺✖️✨

Howdy howdy!

💞Who’s your comfort character?

Lately Johnny, my Courier, and my Sole Survivor, and if I get deep enough into Fallout 4 I'll probably start obsessing over Cait and Preston again. I also like Tommy Shelby a lot. If I'm bored I'll just make him in a video game where he doesn't belong, like Fallout 76 or Dead by Daylight, hoping someone who sees me in-game gets the reference and has a giggle.

✅ What’s something that appears in your fics over and over and over again, even if you don’t mean to?

I have a lot of characters with some form of mental trauma that they're recovering from, be it war, injury, drugs, abuse, or otherwise. Physical problems like illness, chronic conditions, disabilities, and traumatic injuries show up a lot too. And then a lot of anti-war / anti-authority stuff, but most of that is very much intentional.

💖 What made you start writing?

When I was a kid, manga and Lord of the Rings. As an adult, Penny Dreadful and Peaky Blinders made me miss writing stuff, so I started doing that here and there back in 2020. Recently some really good classic anti-war novels like All Quiet on the Western Front and Slaughterhouse Five have made me want to start writing again.

💥 How do you feel about criticism?

I love love love constructive criticism, especially when it points out things I'd never have caught otherwise.

🥺 Is there a certain type of moment or common interaction between your characters that never fails to put you in your feels?

A traumatized character learning to trust someone who is warm and loving to them.

❌ What’s a trope you will never write?

IDK if this is a trope so much as a genre, but...the fics with real entertainers and celebs...nah, it's not for me.

✨ Give you and your writing a compliment. Go on now. You know you deserve it. 😉

I was reading over the first few chapters of my fic recently and I did notice that, I think, I HOPE, for the most part, the characters seem pretty distinct from each other, which is something I worry about since this fic has so many damn characters. I have a feeling I'm going to have to make a War & Peace style character cheat sheet for this fic at some point. 😭

[princesscatherinearts]

Domestic AU headcanons from yours truly 💞

1. To start off, Dio is VERY secretive about his intimacy with Caitlin. He prefers to keep it this way because he has a serious reputation to uphold, he can’t be seen in public kissing/cuddling his wife in front of his peers and enemies, that would make him look soft and weak.

2. That being said, he and Caitlin are absolutely obsessed with each other. In private, they can’t keep their hands off of each other, and Dio is always the one starting things. He’s very grabby. 

3. Dio’s nicknames for Caitlin include: Princess, Darling, Sweetheart, and Beloved. Caitlin’s nicknames for Dio include: Dear, Sweetheart, Honey, my Lord (only used during role-plays), and Big Man. 

4. Because of their 6 year age gap, Caitlin teases Dio about being an old man, which annoys him to no end since he fears aging. 

5. Of course both of them have jobs to support each other and their home. Caitlin works as a veterinary technician while Dio works as a lawyer.

They work long hours and get home late. 

6. Caitlin got Dio to watch Breaking Bad because she thought it would be funny. 

7. Dio’s favorite parts of Caitlin’s body are her neck and tummy. 

8. One thing that made Dio fall for Caitlin was her weird yet intriguing personality, despite her introverted nature she was funny and had a lot of insight on prehistory. 

9. At first, Dio thought Caitlin’s interest in paleontology was childish and silly, but over time he grew fascinated by how much she knew about dinosaurs and extinct life. For a date, they binge watched paleo documentaries like Walking With Dinosaurs and Prehistoric Planet. 

10. DIO LOVES HEARING CAITLIN TALK ABOUT HER INTERESTS!!!!!! 

11. The blonde is extremely possessive over Caitlin, he gets easily jealous whenever another man tries to get close to her. Even Jonathan isn’t safe from Dio’s jealousy. 

12. After they got married, Dio thought about raising a family with Caitlin, but she wasn’t 100% on board at the time because she wasn’t ready for such a huge responsibility, much to Dio’s dismay. 

13. He never EVER infantilizes her or treats her like a child because of her disability, and will scold anyone who mistreats her. Dio is always patient with her and makes sure to avoid triggering her. 

14. He has anger issues, but he tries to control himself so that he doesn’t upset or hurt his wife. 

Keyword is *tries*

There are days where he ends up yelling and ranting about his problems at work, but his anger never stems from Caitlin. 

15. One time he came home cursing and ranting about how awful his day was at work, which frightened Caitlin. She tried to calm him down but he wouldn't stop yelling and complaining about his clients and coworkers. Later, he apologized to her and gave her a big hug. 

16. He 100% spoils her with gifts and affection and she relishes it. 

17. He loves hugging her from behind, spooning is his favorite cuddling position. 

18. He’s a big teaser, there’s just something amusing about seeing her face turn red by pushing the right buttons.

“Could you leave? I’m changing here.

“Oh, I’m sorry, I didn’t realize it was a crime to stare at an angel for too long.” 

Insert Caitlin blushing intensely 

19. He hates hearing her degrade and say untrue things about herself :((((

20. Dio has photos of him and Cait on his desk for motivation and comfort. 

21. He’s definitely a better cook than her lol. 

22. Cait is the one who sends funny memes and videos to Dio just because. 

23. On mother’s day, Dio would take Cait to visit his mother’s grave to send their respects.

24. Cait will steal some of Dio’s shirts to cuddle and wear, she loves his blue sweater vest the most.

[elixirfromthestars]

Oh, Cait, I so desperately needed some comfort after getting my wisdom teeth removed and this was exactly what I needed 🤭💗💗 Will definitely give it a reread when it’s that time of the month because wow 🫠❤️❤️

First off, I love how you always build a perfect little world and background to the whole fic 🥹❤️ The set up of everything is something I always love to read before it gets down to the smutty part 🤭❤️❤️

So to start off, if Natasha offered to get me a panda plushie while on my period I would cry lol 😭��� I’m such a crybaby on my period so that would’ve made me feel so loved 🥺

The fact that he hasn’t been to Coney Island since the forties because he’s scared of the change I— 🥺😭🥺

That cramp that has you doubling over in pain omg I felt that one 🥲 And this man is on thin ice suggesting EXERCISE and mansplaining like excuse me no☝️🤨

Okay, but maybe after bringing that Italian food he’s forgiven especially with the apology and the massage 😗🫶🏼 I just know that massage felt really good 🤭💞💞

He extends one of the bags to you with his big, blue puppy dog eyes. You take it from him, opening the door further as an invitation to enter your bedroom.

^ And combined with the puppy eyes, oh he’s so forgiven 😚💖💖💖

"Do you think I can't hear you using this from across the hallway late at night?" He grins smugly. "That I can't hear your little whimpers when you think everyone's asleep?"

^ EXCUSE MEEEEEEE I WOULD’VE DIED HERE!!!!! PASSED OUT COMPLETELY OMG 😳❤️✨❤️✨❤️✨❤️✨❤️✨❤️

"You know how I told you to tell me if I do something you don't like?" He asks as he pushes the head of the wand directly down on your clit with the perfect amount of pressure.

"Yeah," you answer - it comes out like a moan that you'd hear in a porno.

"Good girl," he praises. "Remember that."

^ Oh, girl you cannot do this to me 🥵💗 Caring + praise are a killer combo, you’re trying to kill me here!!!! 🫠❤️❤️❤️❤️

Omg you ended it so perfectly with the date suggestion 🥺💗 I just know their time at Coney Island was great 🥹💖💖 This was such a lovely read, thank you so much for writing this!! ❤️

it's nice to have a friend

summary: you're having the worst period you've had in a long time. bucky is determined to help you feel better.

author's note: this is a silly and smutty piece that i felt compelled to write when i got my period a few days ago!

warnings/tags: smutty, reader has a period, langauge, use of a vibrator, nipple stimulation, no use of y/n, use of a cbd gummy lol

word count: 3.2k

Approximately every twenty-eight days, you curse the fact that you were born with a uterus and vagina. 

This month, however, you were cursing that fact a bit earlier than expected. Cycle day twenty three, to be exact. 

Your periods never start this early, but as soon as you opened your eyes at six o'clock this morning, you knew what had occured while you were asleep. You could feel the moisture that soaked through your underwear and pajama pants before you could turn on the light to see that your white sheets had been dyed bright crimson beneath where you'd been laying. 

One load of laundry with extra stain remover and as much Pamprin max strength as one can safely take later, you are curled up on the couch of the compound's living room with a cup of coffee and a heating pad turned up so high that you risk first degree burns. 

“Are you sure you don't want me to stay with you today? We can go to Coney Island another time,” Natasha tries to reason with you once again. 

“I promise I'll be okay here,” you assure her. “These cramps are killing me, I won't be any fun to hang out with today. Go, enjoy yourself. When is the next time that you'll all have a free day and weather this perfect?” You gesture towards the sunshine streaming through the living room windows. 

“If you're sure,” she caves after a few moments of hesitation. “Promise I’ll win you that stuffed panda that you wanted so badly last time.” 

“I am going to hold you to that,” you tell her in a faux-serious tone. 

After Natasha and the rest of your friends have left for their day of riding rollercoasters and eating hotdogs on the boardwalk, you turn on your comfort show and settle in for an unexciting and uncomfortable day by yourself. 

A few hours later, you decide you've sat in the same position for long enough - you can practically feel your body morphing to the sofa. You're walking to the kitchen to refill your water bottle and find something to snack on when you collide with what feels like a brick wall. 

A brick wall that happens to smell really, really fucking good. 

You step back, finding that the brick wall is staring at you with a confused look on his face. 

"What are you doing here?” Bucky asks as he glances you over from head to toe, taking in your choice of apparel - baggy sweats that are about two sizes too big for you, a cropped tank, and fuzzy slippers. You resist the urge to cross your arms over your stomach - you didn't think anyone else would be here today and the tank top you're wearing doesn't exactly conceal the period bloat you're currently experiencing. 

"I live here,” you snap, a bit harsher than necessary. “What are you doing here?” 

“I also live here,” he says, returning your attitude. You roll your eyes, maneuvering your way around where he blocks the doorway. 

“What I mean,” he continues as he turns around, following you into the kitchen. “Is why aren't you with everyone at Coney Island?” 

“I could ask you the same question,” you challenge, pouring some more ice into your cup. “Steve never shuts up about the glory days, all the time the two of you spent at Coney Island. I'm surprised you're not there with him right now.” 

He huffs a laugh, pulling out one of the barstools at the kitchen's giant island and taking a seat. “We did spend a ridiculous amount of time at Coney Island,” he admits, his voice almost wistful. He hesitates before continuing, staring down at his hands as he traces a metal crevice on his left palm.

"But I haven't been to Coney Island since the forties. Guess I'm kinda scared it won't live up to my memories of it. Plus, I had a lot of laundry to catch up on, so..” he shrugs, trailing off. 

You're taken aback by the honesty of his explanation. “Yeah, well,” you start awkwardly, turning away from him to search through a cabinet for something to eat. “I can't say that I know what it was like in the forties, but it's one of my favorite places, present day.” 

“Then why are you hanging out by yourself while all of your friends are at one of your favorite places?” 

Damn it, you curse internally. He's really not going to drop this. What should I say, that my uterine lining is falling out in clumps? 

You grab a bag of freeze-dried fruit from the cabinet before turning back to face him, trying to come up with an excuse. 

“I just didn't sleep great–” you come to an abrupt stop in the middle of your sentence as a blinding pain shoots through your lower abdomen. The bag of fruit falls to the floor as you steady yourself on the ledge of the counter with one hand, clutching your stomach with the other. 

Bucky rises from his seat in an instant, closing the several feet of distance between the two of you in one big step. 

"Are you okay? What’s going on?” His hands are both extended to you in an offer of help. 

“I'm fine,” you say through a sharp intake of breath. “It’s.. it’s just cramps. Bad cramps,” you force the words out, propping your elbows up on the countertop to relax your body weight. 

“Oh,” he says as realization dawns on him. He bends down to grab the bag of fruit that lays next to your feet, and then places it on the table in front of you. “I guess that answers my question, then,” he adds, referring to why you didn't go to Coney Island. 

“Ya think?” You stand back upright, grabbing your snack and water bottle off of the counter. “Now, if you don’t mind, I have a busy day of bed-rotting ahead of me.” 

“Some exercise would help,” he calls when you're about to exit the kitchen. “Laying in bed won't do much for you. A little bit of light exercise to release some beta-endorphins, maybe an abdominal massage–” 

“Are you really man-splaining menstrual cycle pain management to me right now?” You ask, slowly turning to face him with an incredulous look on your face. “I wasn't aware that you had a medical license or that I asked for your opinion.” 

“Just trying to help, sweetheart,” he shrugs with a mischievous grin. 

“If you want to help, you can go get the Italian food that I'm craving and give me an abdominal massage yourself,” you practically spit at him. “Otherwise, keep the unsolicited advice to yourself and fuck off.” 

You turn back around and all but run out of the room before you can process the shocked, albeit pleased look on his face.  

After you've closed your bedroom door behind you (with perhaps a bit more force than necessary), you sink into the fresh sheets on your bed and shove several pieces of apricot into your mouth. 

Rationally, you knew that Bucky's advice was solid, and that he was just trying to get a reaction out of you. That's just the kind of friendship that the two of you have. Sarcastic, teasing and occasionally… tension-filled. 

You definitely didn't help the matter by telling him to massage your abdomen, but what does he expect when he suggests something as horrible as exercising during a time that you simply want nothing more than to melt into your mattress? 

Your cell phone chimes from the pocket of your sweatpants. You dig it out and look at the text displayed across your lock screen. 

Bucky Barnes: What kind of Italian food, specifically? 

You would never admit it to him, but the corners of your mouth tug upwards into a smirk as you read his message. 

You type: Don't you have a lot of laundry to catch up on? and press send. The message is marked as “read” right away. 

He types. And types. And types some more – until those three dots indicating a message in progress disappear. 

Whatever. You click your phone off and toss it somewhere in the covers around you. 

The next couple hours are spent sitting under the near scalding stream of your shower, and then reading on your Kindle in the dark. As jealous as you are that your friends are undoubtedly having a blast today, you honestly don't mind your current situation - aside from feeling like your organs are being pulled out of your vagina, you hardly ever have days with zero obligations other than to just relax in whatever way you see fit. 

A strong knock on your door causes you to lose your place on the page. 

"You didn't give me a legitimate answer so I hope you like gnocchi, or eggplant parmesan, or traditional lasagna, or extra breadsticks..” 

“You know, it's not funny to joke about carbs to someone when they are–” 

You come to a stop in the middle of your sentence when you swing your door open to see him holding several plastic bags. An aroma of garlic and herbs hits you in the face. 

Oh. Not a joke, then. 

He extends one of the bags to you with his big, blue puppy dog eyes. You take it from him, opening the door further as an invitation to enter your bedroom. 

"Consider this a peace offering,” he says, placing the other bags of food on your bed and perching awkwardly on the edge of your mattress. You close the door behind you, walking back to where you had previously been lounging on the bed. 

“I'm sorry for being a smartass,” he adds more genuinely. “I just.. didn't like seeing you in pain. That's all.” 

“This is far from my first period,” you shrug, not meeting his stare. “You get used to it after a while. But consider yourself forgiven.” 

He gives you a small smile when you finally look up at him. He grabs a smaller bag that you hadn't noticed him carrying, one that is visibly less full than the others. He reaches inside, pulling out a small jar that he hands over to you. 

Your brows furrow as you inspect it closely. “CBD gummies?” You ask, your brows now raising quizzically. You open the jar, popping one of the pink, cube-shaped gummies into your mouth. “Watermelon flavored CBD gummies?” 

You notice the faintest trace of blush bloom across his cheeks. “I take them sometimes to help me sleep,” he starts, fiddling with some of the beading on your comforter. “But they can help with all different kinds of pain too, so I just thought you might like some.” 

You close the jar, placing it on your bedside table before reaching over and grabbing his flesh hand in yours. “Thank you, Bucky,” you say, giving his hand a squeeze and then releasing it. “Really. I appreciate all of this.” You try to ignore the jolt of electricity that buzzes through you when your skin comes in contact with his. His hand is both softer and warmer than you would have imagined. It brings you back to the last words that you spewed at him in the kitchen earlier. 

"A shit ton of pasta and CBD gummies,” you snort a laugh. “Would I be pushing my luck if I asked for that abdominal massage too?” You say it in a way that sounds halfway serious, halfway joking. 

“If that's what you want,” he says lowly, turning to angle his body towards you on the bed. “Then just say the word.” 

The air in your room suddenly feels suffocating. 

It is what you want - but you're at a loss for words. So instead of a verbal response, you scoot over to the middle of the bed, closer to where he sits on the opposite side. You lay down so that your back is flat against the mattress, your head propped up by a single pillow. 

Bucky's eyes widen in surprise, but he quickly wipes the look of astonishment from his features. He moves so that he's sitting directly next to your legs, giving him a proper angle to put his hands on your lower stomach. 

You're wearing the same sweatpants and tank top from earlier, having thrown the outfit back on after your shower. The loose sweatpants hang low enough to expose your hip bones and the edge of your underwear. 

The intimacy of the entire situation hits you the second that his hands make contact with your skin. 

“Tell me if you want me to stop,” he murmurs, perhaps sensing your nerves. “Or if I do anything that doesn't feel good.” 

Your eyes shut instinctively at the polar opposite sensations of his flesh and vibranium hands. Skin and metal, fire and ice.

“I will,” you assure him. Your words come out breathier than intended. 

There's an immediate relief in your lower stomach as he rubs languid circles across your midriff. It's a feeling beyond pleasure as the cramps fade the more he touches you. 

His vibranium pinky dances along the waistband of your underwear, causing goosebumps to spread across your skin. You try to focus on the relief he's bringing you - not the fact that you're wearing a thin tank top that leaves so much of your skin on display, giving him a clear view of the goosebumps that he's caused. 

He continues with the precise motions until the pain in your abdomen has faded nearly entirely - you feel so good that you can't stop yourself from letting out the smallest moan when his flesh hand applies just the right amount of pressure near your pelvis. 

You know he heard it - there's no way he didn't. Just as you know there's no way that he doesn't notice your fully hardened nipples through the thin fabric of your tank top. 

You keep your eyes closed, terrified to meet his gaze in this state. You dread the moment that you feel his hands pull away from your skin. 

"You know,” he starts, his voice possessing a strained edge. “I don't think this is good enough for you.” 

Your eyes shoot open, looking at him in a nervous confusion. There's a glimmer in his eyes that you can't quite pinpoint - his stare trailing to your bedside table on the opposite side of you. “But I think I do know what could make you feel much better.” 

“What are you talking about?” Your voice quivers as you follow his stare. You're not sure what he's looking at - all that sits on your nightstand is the CBD gummies he had just given you, your Kindle, a few books, a bottle of lotion, and the Himalayan salt lamp that paints you both in an orange glow. 

He smirks before leaning across you - keeping his vibranium hand pressed firmly on your belly as he uses his flesh hand to pull open the drawer of the small table. 

“Hey! What are you–” but he retrieves the object he’s looking for before you can finish questioning him. You freeze at what he's holding in his hand. 

Your vibrator. Your glittery, lavender colored vibrator. 

“How the fuck did you–” 

“Do you think I can't hear you using this from across the hallway late at night?” He grins smugly. “That I can't hear your little whimpers when you think everyone's asleep?” 

Your face heats up a hundred degrees. You don't know whether to be infuriated or massively turned on. 

Both. You're definitely feeling a mix of both. 

He clicks the power button, turning on the device to its lowest setting. He watches you for a moment, giving you ample time to tell him to fuck off.

Instead, you once again relax against the pillow, your body going limp for him. You spread your legs the slightest bit. 

He takes this as his signal to proceed. Not taking his eyes off of your face, he trails the head of the wand from your lower stomach and over the fabric of your sweatpants until he reaches the apex of your thighs. Your nipples pucker once again, your thighs clenching around the tip of the vibrator. 

Bucky moves the device in a circular motion, making your back arch off the bed and your head tip back. 

How is it that it feels better when he massages you with it through your fucking pants than it does when you use it on your bare pussy? 

You hear the clicking of a button again, and the force of the vibration over your clothed cunt increases. You grind down on the device, desperate for friction. 

Bucky watches you with something akin to pride on his face. 

“You know how I told you to tell me if I do something you don't like?” He asks as he pushes the head of the wand directly down on your clit with the perfect amount of pressure. 

“Yeah,” you answer - it comes out like a moan that you'd hear in a porno.

“Good girl,” he praises. “Remember that.” 

Before you can clear your head enough to wonder what he means, he's tugging up the cotton fabric of your tank top and exposing your breasts. 

You gasp at the sensation of the cool air blowing from the AC coming in contact with your already hard nipples. Bucky leans forward, keeping the vibrator on your core, and captures one of your nipples in his mouth. 

Your hand immediately goes to his hair, tugging the soft brown locks in your fingers to keep him in place. His free hand grasps your other breast, rolling your nipple between his fingers. 

The combination of pleasure radiating from your pussy and his hand and mouth on you is fucking perfect. Fucking perfect, and all too much. 

You clench your thighs together, riding against the vibrator until you feel warmth spreading through your lower belly. 

“Oh my god, Bucky,” you moan - he groans when you say his name, the vibration sending you tumbling over the edge. You come hard, possibly harder than any other orgasm you've had in your life, thoroughly soaking your panties. 

When you've finished writhing beneath him, Bucky pulls back, removing both his mouth and the vibrator. He clicks the device off, tossing it towards the foot of your bed. 

You're panting, staring up at the ceiling, trying to process what the fuck just happened when you hear Bucky let out a low chuckle. 

Your eyes snap to him, finding that he looks thoroughly pleased with himself. 

"Can't say that's how I expected the day to go when I decided to sit this Coney Island trip out,” he sighs. 

“You can say that again.” You sit upright, bending your legs and crossing them at the ankles. You lean forward, tugging your shirt back into place before pulling one of the bags of food to you. 

"We should go sometime soon. Together,” you add, somewhat nervously. You aren't sure why - the guy just gave you the best orgasm of your life (and barely even touched you). 

“Are you asking me on a date?” that sly smile reappears. 

You shrug. “Yeah, I suppose I am.” 

"Then my answer is yes. But only if you share some of this food with me.” 

♡♡♡♡♡

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thanks so much for reading!!! can anyone tell that i really fucking love food by how often i incorporate it into my writing? 😅

[leclerced]

hi cait : ))) how was the sprint ?? i woke up at midnight to watch lando’s yoga thing cause i love yoga and doing it at 12am seemed appealing but my alarm just died and hhsjsih 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️ thank you i love you 💞💞🙂

-☃️

hi frosty!! i think it was alright, disappointed lando had a dnf but the lestappen 1-2 makes it a good one for me. hoping for another tomorrow with lots of fighting between them.

i was gonna watch it but i went on an early morning hike instead /: the gifs though… incredible.

love you too 🫶🏻🫶🏻

[theflowerofthecommonwealth]

Female companions (+ Ellie) reacting to an F!Sole asking them to help manage her long hair (cutting it or helping to put it in a braid, bun, etc. — your choice)?

This one is so incredibly sweet and a perfect one for me to write!!! 💞💞💞 As someone with longer hair, I find it very relaxing when my hair gets done by someone else. I hope you don’t mind, but I ended up adding the boys as well. Just couldn't help myself, it was too cute to pass up!!!

Sole had always taken great pride and care for her extremely long and luscious hair. After the bombs fell, she decided against chopping it short wasteland style. Instead she chose to wear it proudly, coming up with alternate ways to keep it out of her way while working or in combat. After a long day out in the Commonwealth, Sole fluffed up the now jungle of her hair with a frown. She turned to her companion and asked for their help in getting it back under control.

The Girls:

Piper Wright: Goes over the moon with excitement. She’s helped Nat with her hair hundreds of times and has been dying to touch Soles extravagantly long hair. Piper is very coordinated when brushing out Soles hair, knowing all the tricks to get out any stubborn knots by alternating between a comb and her fingers. They both agree to put up Soles hair in a swirled half bun with a lovely little bow, letting the rest flow charmingly over her shoulders.

Curie: Very enthusiastic about helping Sole, although she doesn’t have much experience as her own hair is cut very short. She is very delicate in her work, taking extra time to properly moisturize and brush out Soles beautiful hair in sections. Her touch is so light and feathery that Sole barely feels her working from behind. Curies final French braids are a little messy and uneven in some areas, but it adds a little extra appeal to the whole hairstyle.

Cait: Ask if Sole is absolutely sure that she wants her to be doing her hair, as Cait isn’t really an expert on any kind of hair care. Her own Mother wasn’t all that careful when brushing her younger self's hair, often being overly rough and grumbly to get it over with. That poor mistreatment had left small bald patches in her hair, partly why she doesn’t put much effort into it. Despite that, she is very gentle in pulling the comb through Soles long hair. With lots of guidance, Cait is able to do it into a messy high bun running into little to no trouble. (Other than the fact that her finger somehow got tied in there at one point)

Ellie Perkins: Also flies over the moon with excitement and practically shoves Sole into her office chair so they can begin right away. She herself takes great pride in maintaining her own head of hair, so she is more than happy to give Soles rare kept locks such treatment. Ellie beautifully brushes and sculpts her hair into an elegant swirl on top of her head, finishing it off with a shinning star pin. Once she is done, Ellie hopes that Sole will return the favor by helping her with her own hair that sometimes goes out of wack.

Da Bois: (That’s how I’m spelling it, you can’t stop me)

Nick Valentine: Smiles warmly at Sole, gladly accepting the request. He already has experience with helping Ellie do her hair and memories of the old Nick watching Jenny practice doing her hairstyle for their wedding. First he makes sure that his exposed metal hand is covered by a glove so there isn’t a chance that her hair gets caught in it. (Would be a huge pain to untangle) Once they both are settled, Nick brushes then diligently works Soles hair into a graceful braided bun. He even brings out a flowered hairpin that he kept stored in his desk, gifting it to Sole to use in her new style.

Codsworth: More than happy to help Sole with managing her long hair, stating that it’s a nightmare whenever he gets a look at unkempt hair. Codsworth first trims off the dead ends and gives her a full spa hair wash, insisting that it’s necessary to give such a rare sight a fine treatment. He then moisturizes and wraps Soles hair into delicate curls like the prewar women often did, finishing it off with a ribbon headband. The poor sweet Mr Handy gets a little emotional at the end result, saying she reminds him of the more simpler times before the war.

Preston Garvey: He has helped other settlers and fellow Minutemen manage their longer hair, but this was Sole, his General and close friend who took great pride in maintaining her hair. He is shaky during the first part of brushing, constantly asking if he’s pulling anything too hard or if he is straining her neck. After Sole assured him it’s alright and he gets a little more comfortable and relaxed. Preston finds the gesture to be more relaxing. He settles on doing Soles hair into twin braids, nothing overly fancy but still sweet and charming.

Deacon: Dude grins a smile bigger than his confidence at Soles asking. He immediately has her sit in a chair away from any mirrors or reflections, saying that the final product will be a “surprise” and she must not peek. (Oh no) Sole just has to sit there will Deacon gently brushes her hair and occasionally snickers from behind her. She can feel that he is piling up her hair on top of her head, He finally brings out a handle held mirror, telling Sole to “behold” his creation. She looks into the mirror and bursts into hysterical laughter, her hair now up into a hornets nest complete with little paper hornets sitting around it.

Danse: Gets a bit of a lost puppy face when Sole asks for his help, but he accepts nonetheless. His entire face reads, I-don’t-know-what-I’m-doing-send-help-plz for the entire duration of the brushing period. The fear of pulling too hard or getting the comb tangled in Soles beautiful hair is a threatening presence over his head and he wants to avoid that at all cost. So every move he makes with his hands for the comb is delicate and perfectly planned. He swoops it up into the standard military bun, a little disappointed he couldn’t do something different for her. But Sole is still delighted and she thanks him so genuinely that it puts him at ease.

Hancock: He shrugs and snatches a brush, claiming that he will give it his best shot. Hancock hasn’t had to deal with hair for a long time, but he hasn’t forgotten how painful it is when tugged on too harshly. So he keeps his strokes on Soles hair light and slow with constant questioning if she is still with him and if he isn’t pulling Soles brains out. Twin ponytails is what he ends up doing after much debate, draping them over Soles shoulders before stepping back to admire his good work. Not gonna be great in combat, but for now she can enjoy the lovely look and feel of it.

MacCready: He is quick to jump aboard, having helped Lucy with her own hair so he knows what to do and what not to do. Not that he isn’t a little nervous, it’s been awhile so it does take a moment for him to remember how it goes. The trick of pinching sections of the hair while brushing comes back first, followed by everything else. MacCready brushes and gathers all of Soles hair into a high ponytail, making sure the rubber band isn’t squeezing the life out of her roots before securing it. The ponytail ends up being a little lopsided and it bothers him enough that he redoes it completely despite Sole insisting it was alright.

X6: Recoils a bit at Soles request, pushing back all facial emotions of shock. He’s a courser and a trained killer, not a barber. So why would she want or trust him to do her hair that she valued so deeply? After Soles insistence, he reluctantly agrees and picks up a brush. X6 has no idea what to exactly do or how to even start, but he catches on pretty quick just from memory of Sole doing her hair. He decides that a military bun would be the best style tactically and he achieves it almost flawlessly with a few loose flyaways. Although, Sole would look pretty nice with all her long silky hair down…

Strong: Stares Sole down for a long while with much thought on his face. Then factually tells her to rip it all off so it doesn’t get in her way in battle ever again. He's even nice enough to throw down a bloodied machete for her to use for this occasion. (Please don’t ask Strong for beauty advice)

Dogmeat: Borks happily and buried his wet nose in Soles hair, doing his best to flair it up into something nice for his favorite human. (My boy is really trying, give him credit)

Moral Of The Story: Long hair would be a nightmare in the post war Commonwealth, literally. You’d probably be walking around looking like Medusa 75% of the time, scaring everything in your path.

[libertybri]

✨🌸ahhh! I saw that requests are still open! So I have another when you have the time!✨🌸

🌸✨how would romanced fallout 4 companions react to s/o waking them up with kisses?✨🌸

✨🌸it would be sooo cute! Plus I’m a sucker for soft Hancock and mr mac lol✨🌸

✨🌸Anyways thanks for you’re time love!✨🌸

✨🌸i hope you’re doing fantastic! And please take care!!✨🌸

-☆☾𝒽𝑜𝓃𝑒𝓎 🍯

your requests always make my day!! they’re always so cute & I really enjoy writing them ☺️💞

tldr; Sole wakes them up with kisses!

Companions-

Cait

She groans and turns the other way, avoiding being woken up at all costs. However if Sole is persistent, she will succumb to the morning call and pull Sole into her arms. “At least ye gave me somethin’ good to wake up ta.”

Synth!Codsworth

“Good morning, love!” He cheerfully wakes immediately and accepts the love display graciously.

Curie

She wakes quickly and looks almost surprised, but a smile soon takes its place among her features as she returns a peck to Sole’s cheek. “Good morning, beautiful/handsome~”

Danse

“Mm, you’re up early~” He doesn’t mind being woken up, especially in this way. Depending on the time Sole has woken up, he is more than willing to waste some minutes cuddling before taking on the day.

Deacon

“You really shouldn’t wake someone when they haven’t gotten enough sleep, you know?” Assuming he is scolding them for waking him up, Sole turns away from Deacon in a huff. As their back is turned to him, he takes the chance to pull them back on top of himself. “It causes them to become… very needy~” Things could easily get heated from this point forward.

Gage

Although he doesn’t like being woken up, he can’t help but to smirk at the feeling of Sole waking him up in this fashion. His eyes adjust to the morning light as he looks at his lover with a goofy grin. “You’re somethin’ else, y’know that, boss?”

Hancock

Being a very light sleeper, he is woken up almost immediately, but pretends to continue snoozing much to Sole’s annoyance. He allows the game to go on a little longer before pulling them in for a heated kiss. “A guy could get used to waking up like that, sunshine. Heh heh.”

MacCready

“Stooop…” He whines and attempts to bury himself into the pillow, being cranky as ever if being woken up. At Sole’s persistence he will eventually blink awake and his features will soften upon seeing them smile and kiss him again. “Mm, good morning to you~”

Nick

He doesn’t really need to sleep but will occasionally zone out when in deep thought. Sole sneaks up on him and pecks his cheek quickly, instantly bringing him out of his brooding state. “Heh, didn’t see you there, lover.”

Piper

“Oh, Blue~” She hums aloud and turns to them with her sleepy eyes still closed, lazily tossing an arm over their frame and pulling them closer to herself. “Can’t we sleep a little longer?”

Preston

“Hm, how did I ever get so lucky?” He focuses on them as soon as he fully wakes up and finds himself entranced with their morning beauty, simply admiring them.

X6-88

“Good morning, ma’am/sir/xir.” He ever so casually wakes up to greet them in turn. “Would you like me to return this display, or shall we get ready for the day.”

Extra NPCs-

Desdemona

She isn’t too keen on being woken up, but seeing Sole’s smile changes her tone quickly. “Hello there, gorgeous~”

Edward Deegan

He wakes slowly and props an arm behind his head as he admires Sole. “A ghoul could get used to this.”

Glory

“Five more minutes…” She begs lazily, ignoring Sole’s antics completely until they become persistent and peck her lips. By this point she becomes half-aware and smiles into the kiss. “Fine, fine. I’m awake, you goof.”

Jack Cabot

“You are ever so sweet and gentle in these early hours, my dear.” He coos to them and pecks their lips in return.

Magnolia

“Oh, good morning, lover~” She sings happily, returning their kisses rather quickly.

Mags Black

“A lady needs her beauty rest, you know?” She jokes in her sleepy state, attempting to wake herself to Sole’s level and return their affection.

Mason

It doesn’t matter how many times Sole kisses him, he continues snoring on. It’s not until they whisper a sweet word into his ear that he then perks up, opening one eye and smirking at them. “You tryin’ to get me excited this early on purpose?”

Maxson

“You’re awake before me?” He is more concerned with that fact rather than Sole waking him up in the first place. Usually the roles would be reversed, so he has no issue with waking instantly and returning Sole’s kisses.

Nisha

“Stop that.” She scolds through her half-asleep state, turning over. At Sole’s persistence she will groan and shove them into the bed, planting herself firmly above them and connecting her lips to theirs. “Settled?”

Sturges

“Heh heh, mornin’, doll face.” He wraps a strong arm around their frame and buried his face into their chest, simply taking in the moment.

Tinker Tom

He continues snoring on for a moment before suddenly jolting awake and staring at Sole with wide eyes. After a second he calms himself and lets out a nervous laugh, kissing their cheek quickly. “Wasn’t expecting that…”

Travis Miles

“Mm, do we have to get up now?” He furrows his brows as he tries to reason with Sole’s wake up call. At their persistence he’ll emit a small smile and peck their lips. “Okaaay, I’m up.”

William Black

“C’mere you~” He immediately drapes an arm over Sole and pulls them in closer. They could deal with staying in bed a bit longer.

[s0rinsleeps]

I hope you know how much I love your Caitvi fanart❤ And I want you to know that the way you draw Caitlyn's already cute tooth gap is absolutely ADORABLE😍

Your latest picture of Caitlyn and Vi (super sweet) made me wonder, will you ever draw a scene of Caitlyn introducing Vi to her parents? On one hand I'm really curious as to how that would go down. Will they like Vi? My guess is 50/50, I mean they probably would prefer someone closer to their status? But Caitlyn is happy, so... Would they object much?

And on the other hand since you've drawn Powder, Ekko, Mylo, Claggor and Vander already I'm super interested in how would you draw Cassandra and Tobias😁

But maybe you haven't thought about all this stuff and I'm probably bothering you😅 So, again I love your Caitvi A LOT. I love your style and I wish I could draw like you do. Thank you for such heartwarming drawings💞

I will introduce them at some point! And with the way I want to portray Caitlyn’s mom is gonna be a bit more on the “meaner” side just for drama sake but yeah it might change depending how I feel. Tobias on the other hand is just happy if caits happy lmfao😭

OH GOD HAHA it’ll be a struggle, I’m not used to drawing older adults so hopefully they don’t look too baby-fied in my style, it’s the same with Vander I’ll defo have to struggle abit before I get it right.

ALSO ITS NO WORRIES!! I love asks like these because it gets me thinking 💖 y’all r never bothersome!! Asks are one of the things I always look forward to!

AND AHH TYSM!! 🥹🥹

[sw1mmingfoolz]

✨500 follower event✨

AAAA FIRST OF ALL: THANK YOU ALL FOR 500 FOLLOWERS!!! I WILL NOW PROCEED TO CRY

this blog continues at an exponential rate despite me having a very irregular schedule (blame the narcolepsy lol) and i am ever appreciative! i've met so many lovely people and being back writing has honestly been a happiness i didn't really think i'd ever have again so, i'm pretty sentimental to say the least :')

to celebrate i decided i wanted to do a follower event! however i am incredibly uncreative so... if this is a dry event i sincerely apologize hahahaha

i feel like cute little fluff drabbles are kind of a staple of my blog by this point but they are usually ones i come up with on the spot based on my experiences, so i'm opening them up and turning them to you guys now! so for this event I will be doing more customised drabbles/blurbs!

you can be on or off anon for this!

the rules are pretty simple;

♡ pick a member! of course! it can be anyone from nct, skz or svt, but choose only one! :)

♡ tell me what you want me to write about, something as simple as possible. a detail they love about you (or hate, if you're into that), an inconsequential seeming time spent together that certainly felt significant enough, a general mood, etc. examples include my evening drive drabble with felix, my sleep attack drabble with chan, and 'in his eyes' with minghao - you can be as detailed as you please or as broad as you'd like but i particularly enjoy writing about the seemingly mundane or insignificant, as love often brings those out to feel rather big!

♡ specify if you want fluff or angst! if you don't i will probably write fluff because i am a massive sap lmao

♡ specify the relationship if you do not want an established romantic one! crushes, best friends, even rivals with hidden feelings; there are different kinds of love and i enjoy writing them all! however if you do not specify i will default to an existing romantic relationship :)

request examples!

~~ for your 500 follower event, could i get a fluff drabble with husband!jun about how much he loves the reader's smile?

~~ for the event, could i please get a blurb with seungmin about a chill summer night where everyone is gathered and you're just talking off to the side in your own little world? something fluffy and relaxed :) (a/n: might just write this for myself honestly lmao)

~~ hi! for the follower event could i request a fluff drabble with best friend!renjun about how he realises he's falling in love?

and so on and so forth! allow me to write about the everyday, or hell be super imaginative and give me a fantasy au i'm malleable 😌 check my masterlist for timestamps and drabbles for examples of the kind of writing i am talking about! and if you have any questions go ahead and ask! i love interacting with you all :)

again, thank you all sm! coming onto this blog every day and sharing my writing is a consistent source of joy and i am forever thankful (*＾3＾)/～♡ this event will run until a) i hit 550 or b) i get enough requests, whichever comes first 💞 i will be working on these tonight! these are different to usual requests because i'll actually do them ;)

~ cait 🌼

[simplyhale]

when wifey makes an insta you just have to follow it asap !!!

only just realised i told y’all i made an insta for this account and didn’t tell you guys the user lolll

mine was taken >:( so it’s @/tinyluvsss if any of y’all wanna follow me n we can be pals :)) i’m just use it like a priv insta if i’m honest so constant shenanigans

[radioactivereactions]

Do you play stardew by any chance?? If so who would you match with each of the fo4 companions ?? As in personality, who they'd get along with etc etc... thankyou am 🥺💞💕💞

B I T CH I LOVE STARDEW

Elliott..... is... my husband... 😔👉👈 I might've.... made a ZEPETO for him... so I could pretend I could hug him... because I'm hella lonely 🤧🤧🤧 and I.... love him..... too much....

Cait, Abigail

Adventurous and brave to a fault. A rebel in her own world looking for answers and defending her own authority. Cait respects the fuck out of that. And a woman as kick ass as Cait who is in complete control over her life and doesn't let anyone talk shit?? You had Abigail at 'woman'

Codsworth, Jodie

Two hardworkers, thriving off of the approval of the people they love, and putting their family above everything else. Codsworth would grant Jodi breaks whenever she needs it, and gives her conversations she can actually participate in

Curie, Harvey

Another doctor! And a human one at that can provide so many insightful ideas, interpreting them in ways Curie is simply unable to. While Harvey is completely astonished on everything about Curie from her exceptional mind to her synthetic ... yet so realistic body

Danse, Kent

A man of authority, who has experienced terrors no man wishes, one of the only men Danse would take a knee for and honour as a true soldier among men. They would both showcase their weapons and talk tactics, while also being a major support in helping their own inner demons no one else is able to comprehend.

Deacon, Sam

Chaotic duo has never been a more appropriate saying when referring to these two. Sam would teach Deacon to skate nd in return Decon would give him a killer set of shades which they both rock out. A total bromance which would cause town-wide headaches

Dogmeat, Dusty

Another dog! Another friend! What fun! They'd run round the valley, chasing squirrels, digging through the trash cans and of course getting lots of cuddles from the townsfolk

Hancock, Shane

They can share a drink and chat their jaws lose throughout the night, being support for one another while the other shows their fear of becoming undone and just giving up. Though Shane won't part take in chems when Hancock offers, seeing his ghoulification as the line he wouldn't risk crossing

MacCready, Alex

Two people who has gone through loss of a magnitude scale, wanting to become famous and known across he world as someone to look up to, providing for the ones they love.

Nick, Penny

An avid reader and a century old detective, how could you not see this coming. Penny would listen intensely while Nick yammers on about his past cases, asking endless questions that are sparked from the smallest details Nick is able to relay. Penny then tours him through the library, showing her favourite crime novels to which they both read together.

Piper, Elliott

Two writers lost in their own world, called delusional and living in a daydream but not caring a single bit. They'd introduce new techniques, sharing their contrasted life, Elliott as a hermit and Piper as a city dweller. Both getting an inspiration overload that they carry with them forever.

Preston, Robin

Two estranged individuals looking to forget the past. Robin inspired Preston to turn to art as a form of escape from reality, letting lose his inner thoughts into one abstract form that only he could understand. This new ability sparks something deep within Preston, and he's forever grateful for Robin introducing him.

Strong, Maru

Such a massive creature being produced by unnatural means? Maru is completely enchanted in testing on Strong with his approval, which is easy enough with the enticement of fresh strawberries and milk, which she is clueless on why he's so fascinated on.

X6-88, Sebastian

Sebastians interest in coding and all things technical would make him gravitate to X6, along with the signature black attire. X6 would find it interesting on how a human could have so much distaste with it's own kind, while agreeing in the short run.