#byeeee :))) <333 :DDD!!!!

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And now, it's time.

Day 5: Happy 5 Year Anniversary!

Wow. 5 years. I honestly can't believe that. Oh my GOSH that's long o.o. I went :O when I saw that when seeing advertising for the week.

I love this show so much (ignore me posting and editing to get it here before midnight for me lol). It's absolutely insane how long it's been. I started watching late in November, I believe, maaaaybe early December. We'd talked about getting Disney+, and I knew my family would find it silly but I was intrigued by a show called High School Musical: The Musical: The Series. A crazy title and a weird premise. I said I was just curious, fascinated by it, wondering what it would be like. So, one evening, my sister and I watched it.

We watched the first four episodes and laughed and made fun of it the whole time. But, miraculously, I found myself invested.

And the next episode.

In Season 1 Episode 5, they brought Seb and Carlos to us as a couple. I was shocked and happy, and honestly a little confused. I didn't know I was queer yet. I knew what queer was, had found out from my sibling surrounding some family stuff, but I'd never seen canon queer characters before. I guess I knew I was an ally, even if I didn't totally get why, but it was just so cool to see them. I honestly felt kind of weird because what did two gay high school boys mean to me, I was a straight girl!

Ha.

It wouldn't be for a couple more years that I would realize I was queer. I too fell victim to the "yeah, but I'm just an ally" trap lol. But I seriously fell in love with them. I remember my sibling and I loving how cute Carlos's little dance was, how excited he was. How devastated and in denial we were when Seb didn't show up. And how much we loved it when Carlos danced, and when Seb did show up :').

That solidified the show for me. That made me stay. They made me stay. They've meant the world to me ever since.

And since then, I have seen 33 amazing, wonderful episodes (just like the 5 before them lol). I've been angry, I've been sad, I've been in awe, I've been happy. I've seen myself represented not just in queer characters, but in theatre kids. In kids who are lonely and find family there. In kids who lived in a shadow, who were shy, who were thrust in and trusted by their teacher and director.

This show is silly. It does silly things, it has silly performances, it has silly jokes, silly unlikely things happen, and it's a silly premise. But I absolutely love it. I realized one day, after having seen someone mention "the One show that changed them forever", that mine was High School Musical The Musical The Series. Sounds silly, and I had to think about some of my more recent shows to figure it out. But it is. I remember scrolling through the tag, searching Seblos, before I even made a Tumblr account. Seeing things first after the finale of Season 1, deleted scenes pictures of Carlos giving Seb flowers. So many important moments for me were taken alongside step with HSMTMTS. Even though I barely post about it anymore (because so many interests catch my attention and I don't usually have much to say about it off the top of my head), it's still the 4th top "Posts a lot about" when you go to search on my blog. I think that says something. And I'm proud of it.

I haven't had a lot of interaction with the fandom during my time here, especially while the show was still running (and because I mainly stay in the Seblos tag, especially with remembering scrolling through all the Driver's License stuff before and when it first came out lol), but everyone means so much to me. Especially everyone still posting, still creating now. The fanfics, the art, the edits, and gifsets, everything is so important to me, and everything else. Thank you all <3. And thank you, when I did come, for being such an accepting place (at least the places I went to). Thank you guys for sticking around through this show, and even for just being here for a little while. Thanks for sticking with me, those that have :). And the friends I've made from this fandom and this show - you mean the world to me <3. Thank you all so much for everything you've done, everything that's made this show even more enjoyable :'). I love you all so much ❤️.

I love High School Musical: The Musical: The Series. And I'm proud and happy I do :).

Happy 5 Year Anniversary 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥰🥰🎊🎊🎉🎉🎂🎂🎂!!!!

[s33rofh3art]

I disappeared again, and I came with drawings!!!:-DDD (sketches...)

I hope you like it:-]]]

sketch and full picture:-)))

"What do I want to look like, Zhenya/Sasha"

"How do I look like"

farther...

me and my fanTrolls:-DDD

i love them

fartherrr

my friend's fankid, I drew this drawing out of boredom

That's it! and finally, my best friend in the form of my cat:-333

byeeee!!!!!!

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

That is the end of 9-1-1: Lone Star

That's it

It's over

I can't believe it 😭

I was seriously sobbing in that last scene xdd

Gosh, I'm so not okay y'all

Just, thank you for coming on this journey with me :')) I wouldn't have wanted to do it with anybody else <333

That was such an amazing episode, and I'm so glad everyone ended up with their happily ever after 😭🥺❤️🥰

Our babeys (I will for once acknowledge that's not how it's spelled, I just spell it that way when talking about blorbos usually lol) made it, and they're happy :'))

Our family is okay and happy <333

And I love them all so much 😭😭😭❤️❤️🥺

Thank you so much to all of the cast and crew for making this beautiful show possible <3 I will never forget it

You have made an impression on my heart, and it will always be there <3 :')

Thank you for everything, 9-1-1: Lone Star :'))

Goodbye <33

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YOOOO OPE THEY'RE ALIVE O.O

THAT'S HANDY TO KNOW xdd!!!

Guess it was the break up :o :D!!

Asteroid that is

Ohhh noo though this does not look good 😳

Oh crap 😭😭😭😬

Still scared for them xdd

Y'ALLLL

I feel better but also I still don't trust they'll all make it 😭 but maybe?? But maybe not 😭 idek know xd

RESCUE HI SURF GIRL I DO NOT CARE ABOUT YOU

I'm stressing y'all 😭 xd

Well, that's the last of my last thoughts! Now it's time for the. . .

REVIEW

I LOOOOOVED this episode!! It was so good! It was certainly A Lot with how much they decided to fit in, but it honestly wasn't bad and I liked seeing focus on everyone :'). I'm so sad we don't have more storylines to explore all of these cool arcs, but I'm glad we're at least getting to see them <33. Gosh, I am so not ready for this show to end 😭. And even amongst all of that, and of course the asteroid and all that 💀, the calls were still great :'). Okay guys, for the second to last time (😭😭😭😭🥺💔), let's do this :'). Now it's time for the individual parts!!

Marjan!! Her goodbye with Joe 😭😭🥺❤️💔. She's so right, they got so little time :'((. I mean they better be fine but still xD. For them it must be so rough and awful. Still, she was great this episode :'). I'm also just really glad we got to see their goodbye, and her playing with her ring on chain (🥺🥺🥺). We haven't gotten to see much of them and they only just got married, but there was so much going on that it makes sense we couldn't stay on that really. I'm just glad we got some of them since their wedding was last week/episode :')). Anyway, Marjan was amazing at her job as always <33. And just! GUYS! The shammie scene 😭😭😭😭🥺❤️. I might actually die, watching my family goof around one last time :'))? I'm so happy they found each other, and I love them so much <3. Plus Marjan was just being silly with that lol. I love her 🥰.

Judd (and by extension, Grace - no way am I leaving her out of these last few reviews)! I'm so glad that he seems to be doing better <33 :') 🥰. I think the time skip has been longer than it usually would between episodes, definitely longer than a week lol, and it's good to see him doing well <33. Grace definitely helped :'). And you can't make me believe she's not finishing things up so she can be on her way home right now <33. I am so excited for all the finale fix it fics where she shows up at the very end lol. I do wish that would happen, but I know it won't 😭😭. I can hope though 🥺💔❤️ xdd. Anyway, I LOVED seeing the Judd and TK scene 🥺🥺. Definitely something needed and it was so nice to get the reaffirmation of them being brothers :'DD. I love them so much <33. And he's so right too - just the next right thing :'). Judd was great at his job this week <33. Also him and Charlie 😭😭🥺. She's so cute <33. And she doesn't even know :'(( 😭😭. About the meteor I mean xd. Gosh </3. And of course he definitely called the rest of his family lol, you can't make me believe otherwise xD. I love him <33.

Owen! I CAN'T BELIEVE HE'S ACTUALLY LEAVING 😭😭🥺. He better not (I know he probably will) xd. And MY GUY!! WHAT HAPPENED TO TELLING TK FIRST XD. Gosh, some things are always the same /lh lol. I'm not too mad at him but I find it funny xD. Genuinely though, I see why he's doing it. We already saw the reasoning about those kids that look up to him, and I get it. It's a huge thing to be looked up to, heartwarming and sometimes stressful but amazing. And, ultimately, after everything, Owen Strand is a character who helps others. What he enjoys doing is helping others. From the very beginning, his motivation has been helping others. At his best, he is helping others. And it makes sense to see him making that choice one last time <33. HE JUST BETTER SURVIVE 😭😭 XD!! My gosh xdd. You have a kinda-grandchild (soon to be), you can't be going off and dying now xdd. Anyway, seeing him watch the family, his family, play around one last time 🥺🥺😭. I'm so not okay <333. They really are family, and I love that so much <333. No matter what happens, they will always have chosen to be each other's family, and that will last forever :'). Loved the ending speech/speeches <33. Also Owen scrolling by Gwyn's contact was INSANE 😭😭😭❤️❤️💔🥺. She really was his love :'(. Anyway, he did great at his job this episode <3. I love him :') ❤️.

Nancy!! I want to do everybody on their own since I have so far xdd. I totally see her not wanting to get married, very valid and happy for her <3 but it is definitely something that needs to be discussed lol. I love that she could tell Mateo wasn't satisfied with how that conversation ended and tried to get him to talk <33. I do get why he reacted that way though xd. I do think the marriage for green card (even if it doesn't really work like that in real life) is a real possibility, but I hope Nancy and their relationship stay the same no matter what (or at least, not bad changes) <333. Anyway, it's still amazing to see her being captain 😭🥺🥺🥰. Though of course there's baggage around that but xdd. I'm just so glad she's thriving <3. Nancy really has been through it during the course of the show and I'm so glad she's happy now :')). She deserves it so much <33. The fact that she was the only one who knows about Mateo's deportation 😭😭🥺💔. I'm glad he told her <33 but gosh that scene killed me 😭😭 xd :')). They really do love each other so much <33. And the mouthed I love you's under the truck 😭😭😭🥺 I'm not okay <3. Plus that final hug killed me xd. And of course, Nancy was great at her job this week :'). As always lol. I'm just so glad she's gotten to be happy and live this great life, even almost become a plant mom lol :'). No matter what happens, she was happy <33. And she better continue to be lol!! I love her <33 🥰.

Mateo! I totally get why he would assume they would get married, and why he would want that! I do hope they can come up with something they're both happy with though (lol imagine if they were permanently engaged xD), and that they're in the situation to do so 😭. I so wish he hadn't gotten into that argument with the jerk dude, but I see why he did xd. Not only was he emotional after the conversation with Nancy but the dude was awful lol >:( (partly serious partly like bro). I'm SO glad they listened to him and knew that guy was a jerk, but UAAGHHH!! I was suspicious as soon as he was like FBI? like "oh no are they ICE 😭". Aaand I was right xd. And in the current world that is o.o I suppose they could've guessed but really they couldn't have known and that's just wild xd. Certainly something that needs to be said and shown and acknowledged today. I just hope it ends happily :'(( <33. Although the "I'll love you in any country" bit destroyed me 😭😭🥺. And the fact that Nancy said he's her person? UOGH, so right <33. I'm so glad they've gotten this time to be happy, like I said for Nancy :')). Mateo has also seriously gone through it over the years (they all have honestly lol), and he's such a pure soul <3. I'm just so glad he got to be happy for so long :')). NOW THAT BETTER CONTINUE LOL!! Also seeing a little bit more of his and Owen's relationship, like with the telling/not telling each other thing, was great <33. They've always been there for each other, whether that's talking or not, and I love that <33. Mateo of course also did great at his job :'). I love him <33 ❤️🥰.

Paul! My GOSH I loved his storyline this episode!!! In that very first episode Owen said "Somewhere in this town right now is a kid who's just like you were - still scared, hopeless. I'd like you to show him, her, or they, it's okay to be who you are." And UAGHH that was such a BEAUTIFUL moment, and to see it FINALLY come full circle here was just amazing. Also we love to see Paul's detective skills coming in handy!! It's just a small thing but searching through Jax's videos and picking out what was important definitely showed that. And I just- gosh. I get it. I mean, I don't get it get it, I'm not trans, but I've grown up queer in a not so progressive area for a long time. I've seen my friends shoved into the closet by the school system, or eye rolls and scoffs and pronouns and identities. Having to deal with that personally, and in Texas no less (of course Texas can be progressive but is usually rather conservative)? I totally see why Jax is doing the things they are. I so hope they get some better friends 😭🥺. They don't have to totally abandon the ones they have now or anything, but you need friends that are better for you. I'm just so glad Paul was there to talk to them 😭🥺🥺 <3. He waited there because he knows what it's like, how much it hurts, how dangerous it is :'(. And you can tell just how desperate he is to help Jax. And Jax not believing him that he gets it 😭 xD, understandable lol, but it's kind of funny since he does :'). Paul understands, and he's there for you :')) 🥺🥺🥺😭❤️. GOSH I'm just so not okay, the scene in the hospital was so amazing. And it was so realistic that after that, Jax still left with their friends :'((. It's hard to let go of the one thing you have. Also, random side note, I love how Judd immediately accepted once he understood what they meant with the pronouns :')). Obviously he's not transphobic it's just great to see from an ally <3. And I will say, at first I thought the clear statement was about heavy handed TV show wise lol, but it made much more sense when I realized that was a focus and not just a quick call :). Anyway, I'm SO GLAD Jax showed up at the 126 at the next 🥺🥺❤️. I was hoping they would and thinking they might :')). The 126 has got them, and I hope after all of this they can continue to hang around there <33. Keep adopting random people 126 :'D LOL. But the fact that they (Jax) knew they could trust them and it was the best place to be <3 GOSH I'm not okay <3. Obviously, Paul was amazing at his job this episode :'D (as always). Iconic as lieutenant once again <3. And again, it's just so wonderful to see his character arc come full circle like this. I wish we'd gotten more of it earlier on, but I'm so happy to get this :'). It's the big reason (besides money lol) that convinced Paul to start working at the 126 in the first place - helping kids like him. And I'm so glad he can do that <3. In the future if he started up like a community center or something I would absolutely love that :')). But for now, he's doing great where he is <3. I love him ❤️🥰.

Carlos! Him reassuring TK with the setting up for the social worker's visit was 🥺🥺. TK seriously was spinning out, and it was funny xD (Carlos definitely also thought so lol), but in the end Carlos always knows how to help him calm down <333 :'). Guys, I'm so not ready to let them go xdd 😭🥺. Anyway xd. Him just working on the shelf the whole time was great lol. And the KISSS 😭 stop I'm not okay <333. Also, Carlos Reyes knows nothing if not grab TK's head or neck lol xDD. Anyway, they're the best :')). Carlos talking about his family in the interview 🥺🥺😭❤️. I think it was a great way to describe all the complicated stuff of their relationship/what they went through, but I'm so glad he made sure she knew that both of his parents loved him and he had a good relationship with them (every relationship is complicated at some point, in some way, after all <3). Still hurt though :')). Just acknowledging all of that and thinking about Gabriel again :'(( <3. And UAGHHH GOSH Carlos defending TK and his sobriety 😭😭🥺 it's the best thing. He barely even needed defending, it sucks but those are questions that make sense (especially societally), but Carlos absolutely would <33. And also stop when TK asked, which is almost even better lol :'). I just love how much he's immediately willing to jump TK protect him <3. But UAGH why did you have to talk about the most dangerous parts of being a Texas Ranger!! SIR WHY!!! anyway, this better get sorted out somehow 😭😭. I know most likely it'll be one of them quitting, and probably TK, but I just don't want it to end up like that xd. Still, I'll love them no matter what <3. They just better get Jonah, because Carlos is so right, they are so ready to love him (and already do of course) 😭😭🥺❤️. Also Carlos's arc as a dad is just <333 I wish we got to see more of it but him honoring his dad through it as well (though obviously he wants to besides that) is just 😭🥺. And of course, "Hi baby" UAAAGHHHH 😭😭😭😭. Y'all I didn't even fully register it while watching but you were SO RIGHT it was just so UAGH, the defeat the emotion the love the resignation the emotionsss in two words 😭😭 so good <333. But everything better be fine xdd xD. I love him <33.

TK! TK spinning out was hilarious xDD. Like bro you are not offering Jonah your bedroom 💀 no xD. Once again, I love how Carlos can just so easily get through to him, help him to calm down and realize all the good and the facts :')). We've seen it time and time again and it is still just so beautiful <3. And again, the KISSSS!! It was so soft and sweet :')). I just love them so much guys <33 😭. The talking about families once again got me with TK xd. Though interesting new TK lore that it was a bike crash that started his addiction!! Good to know for fics for all of us lol :)) (though of course everybody can keep doing whatever they want lol). But I love that he talked about how much his parents loved him (and even each other honestly but yk) instead of just the divorce <33. Because truly, ultimately, in the end, they did. And that was the most important thing :'). That could reunite them from anything <33. And he is so ready to do/be that for Jonah 😭😭🥺❤️ (but a little more stable lol). But WHY DID YOU TALK ABOUT THE MOST DANGEROUS PARTS OF YOUR JOB!! NO 😭😭😭 XD. TELL ABOUT THE TIMES YOU WRAP SOMEONE'S ARM AFTER A CAR ACCIDENT AND THEN DRIVE TO THE HOSPITAL WITH NO LIGHTS OR SIRENS ON BRO!! Anyway xD. Carlos is a little more excusable but dude she did not need to know how dangerous your way of being a paramedic is 😭 xD. And GOSH y'all I just will not live if they cannot adopt Jonah xdd. I'm sure it'll work out but uuoaaghh 😭😭 xd. And I know TK is probably the most likely to quit his job but I hope he doesn't 😭🥺. A I still need my 126 family, and at the 126 xD, but B I just love being a paramedic for him. Of course sacrifices have to happen for parenthood but I hope it isn't this for them :'((. Anyway, his talk with Judd was amazing 😭😭😭🥺❤️ I absolutely loved it, and I loved them supporting each other and referencing the program <33 :'). TK's reaction was perfect too, surprised but immediately understanding and supportive <3. Also, I love how much TK cares about Jonah, about this, adopting him. Obviously he does, Jonah is his brother, but he went from someone who didn't care about anything at the beginning of the show, to someone who can stress about a toddler bed!! Obviously it still sucks but he has this <3 he has these feelings, he cares, and nothing can take that away from him <3. It's not just gray anymore :'). It's filled with colors <33. And I love that for him :')) 😭😭❤️🥰. Of course, he was great at his job this week as always <3. I love him <3 🥰❤️.

Tommy! Of course, you know I had to save her for last. I won't make this super long right now, but I just have to say her storyline was amazing. I so wish it wasn't ending like this, and she BETTER be okay next episode 😭, but I'm not sure (especially giving how Gina talked about how she wasn't too happy with how it went down). But dang it, she gave it her all - the character in universe and Gina as an actress. Her scenes were so hauntingly beautiful - like, those sobs 😭😭😭💔? Absolutely destroyed me. The cough turned sob, too, just- wow. She has fought so hard and she absolutely deserves to rest <3. I just hope she gets to do that in her home with her babies for another 40 years 😭 xd. But, bringing Charles back was amazing. I so agree that he was her love, and she absolutely deserves to see him again <33 - as did we, as an audience. And him caring for her, welcoming her in 😭 that was so perfect for them <33. And if it truly was the end, I'm glad she got to lay down peacefully, with a smile <33. It absolutely RUINED me cinematically, that whole thing, like the ticking stopping and stuff 😭 but it was beautiful <33. She just better be okay xd. And not to get sappy about character arcs (like I haven't been doing that this whole time), but she's been through so much crap. And so much of it she's done for her kids, for her family. In the end, she did one more thing for them (even if they probably wouldn't appreciate it as much as she thinks :'(() :'((. And she also got a moment of peace, to herself <3. If this is the end, Rest in Peace Tommy Vega <33 ❤️❤️🥰💔😭😭. But it better not be xd. She was great at her job of just, her life. I love her <333 ❤️❤️❤️🥰❤️.

Overall, I really enjoyed this episode :'). It was so great to see everyone's focus and their storylines, seeing their journey wrap up. And of course, watching them be a family <33. The calls were great, the tension and the ending, final atmosphere were great (if obliterating to me not just them 😭), and it was all in all just such a good episode. I'm so not ready to let this show go :'). After everything, after having it be a comfort and focus for me when things were awful, after meeting so many wonderful people and enjoying these episodes together :'), after writing what I think was around 7 fics (not all posted) and having it be the first fandom to reach 3 published works of mine on AO3 :'). I love this show so much, and I'm so glad I got to experience it with you all <33. This episode and the emotions with it were so amazing, and even though it will be devastating I'm sure the next episode will be amazing 😭🥺❤️. No matter what, it will be worth it :'). I love these characters so much and I'm glad they've gotten such a cool ending, even if I wish it was farther down the line <3. It was an amazing episode :)), with a ton of good moments.

So yeah! I loved the episode, I thought it was really great. All the emotions were on point and the tense atmosphere was so perfect. I'm scared but excited for the next one! This has been my review of. . .

9-1-1: Lone Star, Season 5, Episode 11: Impact

It was so amazing! I really enjoyed it. I'm not ready to let them all go, but I'm still so excited for the next episode and to see how it will go. I'll be here next week for my review of. . .

9-1-1: Lone Star, Season 5, Episode 12: Homecoming

See you next week!

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

Ignore that this is a day late (and I'll probably backdate it later) but!

Happy HSMTMTS Appreciation Week :DD!!

Day 1 - Favorite Character

I love them all that I really would be hard pressed to rank them. But, admittedly, Carlos and Seb are at the top lol. Them I couldn't choose between.

However, I currently have walking pneumonia, and while it may keep me walking, it does not keep me able to make posts easily xD. So, I'm going to share a bit of a WIP I started over a year ago and never finished. I wanted to at least start a Seblos fic before season 4 started, as I'd always meant to but never gotten around to it. Both of their characters are immensely important to me, together and separate. I know this seems more fitting for ship day but also consider: I don't care :p. Also, quickly, I'll share a few things a love or relate to about some of the characters.

Kourtney: Love seeing representation of anxiety, especially surrounding college stuff - that's so relatable 😭. And I love that it while it was ongoing, she did eventually find what she wanted (and stuff that helped her anxiety) - even if it took a few tries.

Ashlyn: Absolutely loved seeing her queer journey. As a bi person myself, it was amazing :'). And seeing Carlos welcome her into the community was just <3. Also, I love seeing her confidence grow throughout the show!

EJ: Love that he wasn't the villain forever! I adore EJ, and I'm glad they showed that redemption is totally possible

Gina: So happy to see different lights on her ambition - sometimes bad, sometimes good, but never forget those who are important to you <3. Love that.

Big Red: Another bi realization!! Not happy with how it happened (and I will stay in denial about how it was genuinely accidental or a cheek kiss or something until the day I die), but glad it did, and that he and Ashlyn stayed together for a while after it happened - bi doesn't mean you immediately leave your partner to be gay. Also, Big Red is a really great friend and I love that :').

Ricky: Love seeing the outsider to theatre perspective! Same goes for Big Red. It's such a crazy thing to be thrust into lol. But also, seeing how entrenched and happy he becomes in it and its traditions by the end of the show is :').

Nini: I love that she knows her own worth, and also has to take a minute to find what's best for her. Arts school? Nah, not at the moment. East High? For a bit, and then things changed. Music on her own? Yeah, maybe :'). I do wish she could've been there at the end but in my mind she was <3.

Seb: I honestly love that he gets to be the innocent one and that's okay. As a long-time innocent one (even if I do actually know things just don't talk about/do them lol), it's nice to see him being accepted :'). And of course, the queer representation <3. I'll talk more about that during favorite ship, but especially seeing Seb play with gender presentation is so amazing ❤️.

Carlos: I'm so glad they explicitly said he was bullied, because while I agree that HSMTMTS is overall a positive show and don't want it to be bogged down all the time by negative stuff like that, it's so important to acknowledge. And that going from that, he found his family in theatre :'). Even though he worried that they wouldn't accept him, even though he might've participated before (a common headcanon) and just didn't have it as much, he found it. And again with the ambition - it's not a bad thing to be ambitious :). And, like I've said, the queer representation <33.

Maddox: Not an OG but I don't care :). Once again, love the queer representation, but I also just totally relate to the "too much, too loud" worry. You have great moments with people and then it's "yeah! Cool. . See you next time :')". I'm so glad she found her family <3.

Jet: Also not an OG but again, I don't care :). Another point for redemption, but also that stuff is complicated. He hurt Maddox, even if he didn't intend to, and that's just how it is sometimes. You have to try and do better, and he does :'). Although she also does have to readjust some things, which I love <3. Also just his mistrust of the theatre family - so real, but I'm glad they stick together :').

Emmy: Again not an OG, but I don't care :). I love her silliness and creepiness lol. But also, I so relate to that "younger siblings" energy. And the "I'm trying to hold it together for everyone", especially "I'm trying to hold it together but I'm the young one and I shouldn't have to do this". I've been putting my soul into theatre for years, through some rough times, and I just totally feel her <3.

Mr. Mazzara: Another point for redemption! Also I'm glad he acknowledges later on that he shouldn't have let his personal stuff influence stuff he did or said (in a bad way). It happens to the best of us and it sucks but I love that he acknowledges it :').

Miss Jenn: Feeling lost. My gosh, feeling lost. So relatable. It's terrifying because you have a dream and you want so badly to achieve it, but you also know that you can "fail" and get sent on a totally different path. And that's terrifying. But I'm glad that, after everything, she's happy :'). I so love to see that she doesn't need her big dreams, realizes that while she didn't fail, she's happy just where she is :'). That's okay <3.

Okay those got longer than I thought I'd be up for but yay!! Lastly, I just love that it's about theatre. That they're all involved, some way, with theatre. I know I didn't include side characters but trust me I love them all <3. And I love seeing the different ways everyone is involved in theatre, their different roles and niches and experience levels. It's so great to see, and to see my process, our process, that I'm so familiar with reflected on screen is honestly really important to me :').

Anyway :'D! An excerpt from that fic, now :).

For context, the prompt I was given by my sibling for this fic was something about Seb and a tractor (maybe they specified a broken arm or tractor crash, I really don't remember lol. It was like, exactly a year ago sldkgs). I'm honestly still really proud of these chat sections lol.

Without further ado, enjoy!

~

seb <3: it’s broken

carlos <3: AND YOU’RE PROBABLY OKAY???

carlos <3: seb oh my gosh 😭

carlos <3: are you okay??

seb <3: my arm’s broken lol

carlos <3: you know what I mean sebastian

seb <3: out here full naming me while I’m down

carlos <3: I say it with love

seb <3: not this time 🤨

carlos <3: okay I’m sorry but seb please 😭

seb <3: okay okay

seb <3: I feel fine right now they gave me meds before casting it

seb <3: which is on for 6 weeks

seb <3: and ironically on these meds I can’t operate heavy machinery lol

carlos <3: oh my gosh seb 😭 I’m so sorry

seb <3: it’s fine but thank you love :)

seb <3: we’re gonna need another pianist for rehearsal though

carlos <3: ashlyn plays we’ll be fine

seb <3: ashlyn’s in it though??

carlos <3: so are you???

seb <3: right

seb <3: not only am I not allowed to drive I am also confusion 😌

carlos <3: seb this is not funny 😭

seb <3: it kinda is though

~

In case you're wondering about the timeline, it's vague and in a hypothetical season 4, I believe lol. So, if I were wanting to keep it canon compliant, it would probably be the spring show after HSM 3 xD.

I hope you enjoyed!

See you "tomorrow" (today) for Day 2!!

Happy HSMTMTS Appreciation Week everybody :D!!

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Pausing in my catching up on my liveblog just to say: THAT WAS SO FREAKING GOOD 😭😭😭😭🥺🥺❤️❤️🥰

Slightly salty TK wasn't at the hospital but xD

I'm so glad we got that final scene of the beginning of some closure for Carlos, and UAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH:

THEY'RE GONNA BE D A D S S S S 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️🥰🥰🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺!!!! YOU DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND THEY'RE GONNA BE F A T H E R S!!!!

I recorded my reaction to the last minute or so because I was freaking out but wanted to fully watch instead of liveblogging and just :')) gosh. Anyway I was saying that (they're gonna be dad's) and the end as they walked away :')))

Anyway, I'm so glad Carlos realized this didn't bring him closure, but he makes that choice <333 and that PICTUREEEE Y'ALLLL-

And he said "But you're more than that" and I said "YOU'RE A FATHER!!!!" BECAUSE CARLOS IS GOING TO DO THAT TOO 😭😭😭

But I'm glad he waited for a minute because it makes it seem less like that's why he's doing it yk?

Anyway his smile even though the tears about how he's about to go tell TK he's ready :')) I wish we could've seen TK's reaction but gosh <3333

And I think he knew :') not totally, but he probably knew a little bit

Gosh. Wow.

ALSO JUDD BETTER BE OKAY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭🥺🥺

I love them and I love this show so freaking much. I'm not ready for it to end but I'm so glad that it seems to end happily - ALTHOUGH WHAT THE FREAK WAS THAT PROMO UHHH??!?!!?

Is it seriously gonna turn into an apocalypse like my mom joked 💀💀

Anyway, I'm stressing but eh, if it ends badly we can just pretend the last three episodes never happened xD

I do think it's gonna be good though :'))

Anyway :'D! Back to my liveblog

I loved that so much

I love this show so much <33

I love this FANDOM so much, I love y'all!! Thank you for everything :'))

And I'll see y'all later <333 🥰

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

Okay, promo time 😬 :D!

Oop? OOP O.O

Uhh ohhh

Love Tommy and Nancy taking but-

WHAAAATTT-

Y'all I'm so not okay 😭😭😬

HONEYYYY

She better be fiiiine

It better be a false alarm or she'll do it like treatment

TOMMY. BETTER. NOT. DIE. 😭😭

What the freak

Ope o.o

Lol the he might die xD

Uhh ohhh

Yeah Owen you're holding on to a lot of dark stuff :((

Always waking up in the middle of the night distressed at the fire house

Everyone not just Owen but specifically him lol

Oooope

A fire flashback- NOPE A CURRENT FIRE O.O

Or a nightmare but O.O

UHH OHHH

Gosh y'all O.O 😭 I'm stressing xdd 😬😭

That's the last of my last thoughts, so now it's time for the. . .

REVIEW

I LOOOOOOOOOVED this episode!!!! It was so so good :'D. I'm so glad we finally got a deeper explanation of Tarlos and how they're doing, and Carlos's obsession. It was just great <3. Also, the calls were fun (if sad 😭) and the storyline with Thunder/Thunderstruck was 🥺🥺🥺💔❤️. I hope Owen's got this 😬!

Individual parts later, I promise lol!

It was so amazing! I absolutely loved it, such an iconic Tarlos episode for this season. I really enjoyed everything. I'm excited for the next one! This has been my review of. . .

9-1-1: Lone Star, Season 5, Episode 5: Thunderstruck

I loved it so much! It hurt but was such a fun watch. I'm stressed for the next episode, but I think it's gonna be really great! I'll be back next time for my review of. . .

9-1-1: Lone Star, Season 5, Episode 6: Naked Truth

See you then!

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

AAAAHHHHHH my babeys :DDD!!!

OH CRAP THEY'RE IN COUPLES COUNSELING

OHHHHH NO

I mean I'm glad they are but THIS IS GOING TO KILL ME

UAAAAAAGHHHH NOT THE DIFFERENT ANSWERS O.O

"We're doing great" "We've been better" AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH- 😭😭😭😭💔❤️

I mean. You have also been worse xD 👀

Not the point I know but xD

Y'all I'm STRESSED. I'm TENSE. My CHEST Y'ALL 😭 XD

UH OHHHH

Carlos's face :(((

There it is, the word obsessed 😬😬

Ohhh gosh guys

This is not good xd

Somebody will have to stop me from writing a Carlos obsession fic based on my experiences of intrusive thoughts lol

Y'alllll 😭😭😭 I'm so not okay over them

Again chest literally hurts xd

OH GOSH this poor lady o.o

That's the last of my last thoughts! Now it's time for the. . .

REVIEW

I really enjoyed this episode! I LOVED the focus on Paul, seeing him struggle with accepting parts of his role but ultimately slaying :). Also I'm so glad that everything worked out with the ex wife, that he wasn't actually trying to poison anyone xD, but that ended was rough :'(((. Poor Tommy and Trevor 😭. And Melody, too :(. Anyway, the calls were super fun (and I'm so glad that lady survived 😭🥺❤️), and it was a great time all around :).

Now it's time for the individual parts!

Wyatt! We didn't see too much of him but he was great :D. I love his response and the way he talked to the robot/auto call lol. He was great at his job, as always (and thank goodness - we need that from 911 operators and we luckily get that with the 911 shows <3). I love him ❤️ <3.

Carlos! We only got to see him in the nightmare, but I'm glad we saw him at all :). I miss him ty <33. I'm sure he was doing great at his job somewhere in the real world lol. I love him ❤️.

Mateo and Marjan! The sillies your honor <33. They did great at their jobs today, and I'm so glad they were so supportive of Paul 🥰. Also congrats to Mateo once again on not being the probie anymore 🥳. I know he hasn't been for a while but he was still the most junior/most recent one xD. I love them <3.

Judd! It's rough that he has to be a probie instead of going back to where he was (not a lieutenant necessarily but a full firefighter), but it is a cool layer :)). It's great to see that he's doing well with it, though (though Judd you need to take care of yourself!! Not always just canned beans please <33), and is humble and knows his place :). Like, not in a mean way, or that he shouldn't be respected, but he's not getting uppity about it and even specifically trying to do those jobs so I appreciate it <3. I love him so much 🥰❤️.

Nancy and TK! They're so SILLYYY!! These gossips are too crazy for their own (or anyone else's, specifically Tommy's here lol) good xD. But I love them so much lol <3 ❤️. I'm glad they assured Tommy that she wasn't crazy, but they were pretty immediately jumping to the conclusion(s) of crime lol. Maybe don't do that as much in the future xD. Nonetheless, they were being icons, and they were also great at their jobs this episode :D (as they always are, of course). They were being a little silly sometimes but I vibe with it lol, I love them <3.

Owen! I really appreciated him trusting Paul and letting him figure it out, but also giving him advice. Also of course he was a lieutenant early lol 🙄 xD. He's so silly sldkdjs. Also his fist pump into the air after the compliment sandwich thing xD icon. Anyway, I'm glad he gave Paul a chance to explain and didn't just totally go off at him <3. I know he knows Paul's got this but I'm just so glad he gave him a push and a chance, because Paul really does have this, and I believe in him so much <3. Also, the whole coffee thing at the beginning was hilarious xD. Poor Owen and Judd lol. I love him <3.

Tommy (and Trevor)! The whole thing with the possible poisoning was craazyyy o.o. Again, I'm glad it wasn't actually the ex wife (although she was absolutely being shady, and she shouldn't have so obviously - or at all - blamed Tommy, but whatever 😑 xD), but it sucks that it was Melody :((. And poor girl 😭😭🥺. I feel so bad :(. Obviously I wish she wasn't poisoning people, and I wish she could/wanted to stay for everyone's sake, but this is what's best for her :(. And of course, I'm glad Trevor would go with her - she deserves that. But that scene at the end :(( 😭😭😭💔. It sucks that Tommy and Trevor have to break up for that <333 💔💔. Neither of them deserve that, but I'm glad they're putting their kids first :'(. I did definitely think it was a possibility for Tommy to go at the end of the season, especially since it's the last season (easier to split people up, because no repercussions lol), but I'm glad she's staying <3. It just sucks :((( D: 😭. And that scene at the end 😭😭😭 GOSH, I don't deserve this guys <33. They loved each other so much, and they deserved each other and to be happy <3. But sometimes that just doesn't work out :((. I'm glad they could be civil about their breakup though, that it wasn't for a crazy reason. I love them <33 </33 💔❤️❤️.

Paul! He was so awesome this episode :D. I was TERRIFIED with the nightmare and the knowledge that he'd probably be hurt in some way from the promo, that his heart condition would be causing issues, but thankfully that wasn't it 😭😭❤️. At least not now xdd. I do think it would be more interesting (and who knows if it's this or not) if him having a nightmare was specifically because of his condition, just a symptom despite treatment (and less common now). Anyway! That nightmare sucks 😭. And is also so real to how nightmares be xD. I'm just so glad he was able to talk it out, and get his back fixed by Owen lol!! That was hilarious, and so fair xD. It would be Owen who could do that lol. Also, I'm so happy that lady and her baby were okay <33 😭❤️. I don't think I or Paul could've lived with it if she died because of him hiding his injury xdd. Also the rats thing was crazy o.o. But yeah - I really appreciate that Paul is trying to be reasonable and not abuse his rank (not that he ever would for serious reasons, maybe not even joking - unless someone ate his pudding cup lol), and now also starting to find balance with being able to be in charge and get people to do things as well :). It's really cool to see, and I totally get it personally - it's a hard line to walk sometimes, but if they're really your friends, it'll work out in the end <3. Also, Paul pretending to be fine, and especially doubling down and ignoring people's comments when he was injured - I just felt that so hard. I never want to give up or admit I can't do something, especially when people point it out. Even if I can't. As a disabled person, that just hit really hard (especially since Paul has a disability, even if it hasn't been brought up or seemed to have been affecting him recently). I love how it was portrayed <3. Brian was absolutely perfect at that, and everything this episode. Anyway, I'm also just so glad that at the end they were all like hey :) I love you :) you're still absolutely invited to game night, you're our family <3 and good job at being lieutenant ;). Love that for them, and Paul absolutely needed to hear it - so glad he got to <3 😭🥺. I love him so much <333 ❤️🥰🥰.

Overall, I really liked this episode! I had a great time with the calls and the various storylines, even if they were stressful, and I'm glad everything worked out in the end (except for Tommy - sorry, Tommy xd). Also, I just love my little fire family so much :). They're perfect <3. I know they aren't, and it was shown this episode (and every episode) and seems to be shown again next episode lol, but I don't care xD <3. I just really loved everyone supporting each other this episode, even if it was in kinda gossipy or sometimes harsher ways (as was called for). I love them all so much <3.

So, yeah! I really enjoyed this episode, I thought it was amazing. Stressful, but amazing. I'm so excited for the next one! This has been my review of. . .

9-1-1: Lone Star, Season 4, Episode 4: My Way

It was great! I'm really excited for the next episode, but I'm also so stressed. It's gonna be a wild one. I'll be back next week with my review of. . .

9-1-1: Lone Star, Season 4, Episode 5: Thunderstruck

See you then!

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

Uh oh O.O Chlorine gas 😬

The WHAT

IN THE HISTORY OF TEXAS O.O?

UHHHH TKKK??!?!!!

UHHH OHHHHH

So excited for that angst though >:)

Okay gosh right 3 episodes o.o

Oh gosh they running o.o

SLFKFHDK Owen what are you doing??

A horse o.o??

YOO Judd coming back :D?

Or ready for something :)))!

Lol Marjan and Paul again xD

Oop yeah!

YEAHH they will be ready :D

AUAAGHHHH that was soo good, I'm so excited for the next episode and the rest of the season :D!!

Gosh, I'm stressed, but so excited :))

That's the last of my last thoughts, so now it's time for the. . .

REVIEW

I LOOOVED this episode!! It was so good. There was a great focus all around, on everybody, and there were a bunch of really great moments. Funny, emotional, sweet, cool, and dramatic :D. Also, though I of course miss Grace and the show won't be the same without Sierra, I'm happy with the way they wrote her out <3. And frankly I'm just so glad she's alive and doing something she loves xdd. She's still doing good, and that's the most Grace thing there is :'). Anyway, there was some angst, like with Carlos, and poor Judd :( (not to mention the friendship drama between Marjan and Paul), but there were a bunch of silly and sweet moments as well, and I just loved it all around :). The calls were also great! Really great, interesting but can still go up from, calls for the beginning of the season :) 🥰.

Now it's time for the individual parts!

Nancy and Mateo!! We didn't see too much focused on them, but they had some great moments and were amazing on calls :)! The race with both of them timing was hilarious xD, and Mateo forgetting to stop the timer was so real and perfect lol. Also, I only saw it when I ventured into the tag earlier lol, but Mateo going "That's my girl! Platonically!" at a look from Nancy was hilarious LOL xD. But seriously, they're sweet and I'm glad they're still doing good <3. And once again, they both did great with their jobs :). I love them <333 🥰.

Tommy! I'm so glad she brought Owen to the grief group :). Even if it might've been a bit of a dragging situation lol, it was good for him. And it was probably bonding a bit as well <3. And of course she knew Tyler was the T in TK :')) she would <33. Anyway, she was iconic this episode, as always, and I'm so glad she brought up the tensions to Owen lol. Goodness knows he probably wouldn't have noticed/done anything about it xD. And of course, she absolutely ate it up on the job today :)). Amazing job girly <33. I love her so much ❤️🥰.

Paul and Marjan! My lovelies <33. I'm so glad that at least at first, and at first in each conversation it seemed lol, they were chill and not worrying about the competition <3. They've been friends for long enough that they're good at that :). But, I can also see how they would be competitive - they're both great, and capable of/accomplish some incredible feats. And especially with the pressure from everyone else, they both want the job. But I think Owen's worries won't come to fruition. Whoever gets it, they'll get over it eventually - though I'd like neither of them to get it and have Judd come back xD. I think they'd be satisfied with that too honestly - they weren't particularly gunning for it before. They were all happy with how things were going :). Anyway, I just hope everything ends up working out between them ❤️. They were both iconic on calls today though! Besides the water with the hose one of course lol. But thinking of the bullet hole, finding it, getting in so quickly, Marjan grabbing onto the truck and getting in, and Paul jumping into that grease trap - they both did amazing in a bunch of different situations :D. If Judd doesn't become the lieutenant, I hope it's both of them. I was just thinking with them breaking into the truck, they work better together than apart. Plus, then no one disappointed xd - besides the betting pool lol xD. Anyway, I love them <333.

Owen! Poor Owen :((. He really has been going through it. I get it - sometimes things just happen and they knock you down/back for a while, hard some of those times (as in knock you back hard). Especially when there's a string of things, because maybe you could've weathered one, but the perfect combination of.multiple just gets you. I know it's rough, but I'm glad he's still working, engaging with people and that he went to that grief group. It's a good step <3. I hope his main story this season will be about dealing with that grief, and just grief better in general (over anything, but especially all the personal loss he's had in his life). It could be really good, and I want to see him come back to life a bit again <3. But still, he's not as low as he's sometimes been before, and I think that's a good sign :). I just hope he can improve even more <3. Anyway, hopefully he sees that Judd wants back or just decides to let him know he wants him back - Judd needs to hear it, and I don't think he's going to ask xd. Maybe he will as an eventual succession of his pride, but I don't know lol. Anyway, I just hope he ends up okay :) 🥰❤️. Also, he did great on calls today too :D. As always, of course, but he was a great leader and got things done himself as well :). Also, poor guy getting soaked by Paul and Marjan's fighting lol. I love him <3.

Judd and Grace!! And Wyatt! Yes I'm counting Grace and I can do whatever I want 😌. Anyway, seeing Judd reveal the house to Wyatt and his girlfriend (I can't remember her name right now 😬 I remember their son's name is Liam though!! Cute name 🥰) was so sweet 🥺 :')). I'm so glad they get a comfortable and functional place to live, not a lot of disabled people have that <3. Also, love that we have another disabled character on the show now :DD!! Physically speaking, there's Paul's heart condition, but that hasn't come up much, so I'm glad to get this :). And also because Wyatt is an icon - I love that he's looking out for his dad, especially while Grace is away <3. I said earlier, in my liveblog and review of the Season 4 Finale actually, that Grace is Judd's grounded, and calms him and brings him back down to earth, and I was RIGHT!! Confirmed by the man himself xDD. Anyway, I'm so happy Wyatt has a family he loves, a house he can love, and a job he loves, and is making a difference in :'). That's so important, and also, so many people with disabilities don't get that, so I'm happy for him <33. Anyway, thank goodness he's there to tell Judd to get some sense in him and be a firefighter again xD. I'm just glad he's watching out for him :')). And Charlie is the most adorable kid ever <333 love her :) 🥰. I'm so glad Grace is doing something she loves, something that helps people, even if we had to lose her <3. It sucks, but at least they gave her a good reason for leaving her family - to help others find one, or just those who don't have one. It's worth it <3. And though I wish she wasn't gone, it'll all work out, and I'm sure she'll be home soon (obviously not that we'll see, but xd). Anyway, JUDD JUST GOSH DARN TALK ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS 😭😭!! If he would just talk to Owen - and Owen to him, too, don't get me wrong - we wouldn't be in this situation xd xD. Agh, gosh, these two idiot best friends lol. Also Carlos and Wyatt interacting was amazing <33. And go off on the job today Wyatt :D! He did great :). And Judd did too, as a father <3. Anyway, I'm glad the whole Ryder clan is doing okay, even if Judd might have some struggles soon <33. I love them all 🥰 <33.

TK and Carlos!! AAAAHHHHHHHHH THEY'RE MARRIED Y'ALL YOU DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND :'DDD!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️🥺🥺🥰🥰🥰🥳🥳!!! I do wish we got a little bit more of happy Tarlos this episode, but alas, at least we got them xD. Besides, there's been one premiere out of five seasons where they were happy lol, so I'll take what I can get - which is just them xD. Genuinely though, I LOVED their scenes this episode, together and individually. They both absolutely ate it up, slayed, at their jobs this episode <33. TK intubating that guy and taking care of those patients, and Carlos solving the armored truck robberies case (with help from Campbell, I suppose 🙄 lol). Also, I love that TK helped Carlos with his case just by existing :D xD. I love how he's a great sounding board for Carlos - he doesn't even have to do anything just be there :). They're the best your honor <3. All they need is to just be close to each other <3 :'). Now, when I ventured into the tag for a little bit earlier I saw a bunch of people talking about the food symbolism with Carlos, and while I didn't really get that far into thinking myself, I absolutely agree 😭😭💔❤️🥺. Carlos has always had moments and storylines revolving around food (not that the storylines themselves revolve around the food necessarily, but it's an important component). Making dinner for TK, eating 6 meals a day (even in the aftermath of the events in 3x11), putting food in the oven for TK in 3x13 versus only making himself some when he was mad, going to weekly dinners with his family even when their relationship was a bit fragile in places. Food has always been very important to Carlos and his storyline, and hearing that he of all people is eating out of vending machines for dinner is heartbreaking 😭💔❤️. I gotta say though, TK knowing and not being happy about it but knowing that's where Carlos is right know, that this is part of his process, and being there for him in every way he can is just amazing <333. Having said that. CARLOS THAT IS NOT HEALTHY 😭😭😭💔. LET TK BRING YOU HOME. ACCEPT HIS MENTION OF YOU ON THE NEWS AND GO HOME 😭😭💔❤️. Gosh, I hope this is a less often situation, and more often than not he's home xd. I doubt it, but I can hope xD 😭. I gotta say, though, I can't wait for it all to break lol. Plus hopefully Carlos can find some more peace after all's said and done xD. Anyway! I love them so much <333.

Overall, I really enjoyed this episode! There were a bunch of great moments, and I'm excited for the next episode based on the bits we saw in this one. I'm a little stressed for how everything will work out, but that's how you know it's good 🥰. Also the sweet moments this episode were on point <3. Definitely a great premiere and I'm really feeling the vibe :D! It was so good :).

So, yeah! I really loved this episode, I thought it was great. It's so good to have my lovelies back again, and I can't wait to see more of them. I'm so excited for the next episode! This has been my review of. . .

9-1-1: Lone Star, Season 5, Episode 1: Both Sides, Now

It was so good! I'm really looking forward to seeing how this train thing happens, it looks like it's going to be great. I'm so excited! I'll be here next time with my review of. . .

9-1-1: Lone Star, Season 5, Episode 2: Trainwrecks

See you next week!

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

I finally did it. I finally rewatched the finale. I'm not ready for the next (and last) season y'all 😭😭

But AAAAHHHHHHHHH THEY'RE MARRIED!!!!

You don't even understand guys :'D they're married :')

Well, that's the last of my last thoughts, so now it's time for the. . .

REVIEW

I LOOOOOOOOVED this episode SO SO SO MUCH!!! Well, these episodes, I suppose. They were both so good, though very sad 😭😭💔. Gabriel will always be missed :((. But seriously, the ending was pretty happy with the sad parts thrown in to give it ✨flavor✨, and the wedding was just freaking beautiful <3. It was everything we've been waiting for :'), and more <3.

Now, onto the individual parts!

Marjan, Paul, Mateo, and Nancy!! We didn't see too much of these guys this episode, but they were so great :'DD. I just love how happy they are for their friends in the wedding too :'). Also they all looked AMAZING!! Serving fr 🥰. love them all so much <33.

Tommy (and Trevor)! They were amazing :')). They're so sweet <3. And oop, do I smell another wedding/or at least plans/talk of one 👀👀? That would be cool :D. And Tommy does deserve it, if that's what she wants :'). As does Trevor! Also, TOMMY ABSOLUTELY A T E WITH BEING ALIVE 😭😭😭💔🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️!!! It was so beautiful <3 such a great song, and the perfect ending for the season. It honestly would've been an amazing end for the series, but I'm glad we'll be getting more to see how things work out for the others more xD. I love them so much <3.

Owen!! Poor Owen man :'((. Everything with Robert was just rough. I'm glad Robert got to go out on his own terms but gosh :((. Also, I am SO GLAD Owen got Carlos to back down 😭😭. I know it wasn't just him but gosh am I happy he went after him xdd. Those are his boys, and Carlos especially needs him now (though of course he'll never replace Gabriel) :'((. Gosh, it just sucks xddd. But yeah, I'm so glad he was there for him, and TK, and everything worked out <33. Also him as best man and seeing Gwyn at the wedding was just beautiful :')). And also again xD, that haunted/haunting look at the end in silence as Robert died/had just died, then calling 9-1-1 o.o. Wow, amazing <3. I love him <3.

Judd and Grace! The BESTIESSSS!! And when I say besties I mean the ones who are the best <33. I do wish Judd was being a bit more patient with Wyatt, but I get it :'(. It's hard to see someone you love like that, especially when Judd sacrificed so much for him and is a very push through it guy. But he learned, and he got better, and Wyatt did a little bit too :'). He's improving, and I'm so happy for him <3. For both of them :')). Also, Grace!! Our girl!! Being an icon as always <333. As I said in my liveblog, she's just perfect for Judd (as he is for her), always managing to bring him back down to earth and calm him down - when they don't need that fire of course lol, in either of them. But seriously, they're just amazing for each other, and they were so sweet this episode <33. Also Charlie is adorable as always 🥰🥰. I love them <33.

And finally. . .

TK and Carlos!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THEY'RE FINALLY MARRIED!!!! MY BOYS ARE FINALLY MARRIED :'DDDD!!! And they deserve it so much <333 🥰. They had to go through so much to get here, especially Carlos this episode/these past two episodes 😭. But they did it <333. Seeing TK support Carlos through everything was amazing, especially since we've seen the other way around. And just seeing Carlos lose it. Seeing him be unhinged. Seeing him out everything on the line because of his emotions, his grief, his need for justice, and almost losing it. But he didn't <3. He had TK to be worried about him, and Owen and What's His Face and the Texas Rangers Guy to stop him and pull him back from the edge. All because TK knew him, and wouldn't let him do that to himself. And I'm so glad it all worked out okay <333. Carlos's scene with Owen, and the tribute to Gabriel, was beautiful <33 and his re-proposal to TK was beautiful for a whole different reason :'D. As was TK being there with him both times he was up, and when he watched the video of Baby Carlos <33. And gosh, that wedding- so beautiful. Just perfect. Their vows are literally the most beautiful vows ever, my gosh 😭. Sorry to everyone else (fictional characters mainly) xD. But seriously, the emotions, for them and for me and all of us, they were just amazing :')). And the dancing!!! They're so silly and lovely your honor :'DD. And of course, the song <33. The way they cling to each other, and draw comfort from each other, especially regarding those missing <33 - it was amazing. And the way they included Andrea, checking on her and being with her and comforting her <3. And how TK asked Tommy to, for his husband :'))). And of course, just how much they love each other <33. You've been alive together for a long time, but now you will be being alive as a married couple :')) it's forever, now, and that's just amazing 🥺😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️. Also, AAAAHHHHHHH THEY'RE ON THEIR HONEYMOON!!!! :DDD We only got a brief glimpse of it but they look great and they look so happy 🥰🥰 I'm so happy for them lol <3. They've through so much, enough, thank goodness they finally just got there xD. Anyway. They are the best ever, and I will never get over them, ever <333. I love them so much 🥰🥰❤️ <3333.

Overall, this episode was absolutely amazing, a perfect wedding episode (well, besides having quite that level of sadness lol), and a wonderful finale :'). I love this show so much y'all. And, real talk here, I'm not ready for it to end. But I will do my absolute best to, while acknowledging the final milestones and appreciating things extra since it's the last time, not get stuck in the sadness and just enjoy this next season <33. This season was amazing, and I'm so excited for the next one :'))). Also once again they all looked amazing at the wedding and them just dancing around and being cute and sweet and silly was amazing xD :')). I love them all so much <3333.

So, yeah! This has been my review of. . .

9-1-1: Lone Star, Season 4, Episode 18: In Sickness and In Health

It was absolutely amazing. I'm so glad everything worked out in the end, pretty much, and I just loved it. I'm so excited for the next season!

I'll be here next time with my review of. . .

9-1-1: Lone Star, Season 5

I'm so excited. This season was amazing, and I can't wait to see what they do with the next one! I'm sure it'll be even bigger and better, and I'll love it.

See you next season!!

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH THEY'RE DANCINGGGG :'DDDD

STOPPPP THEY'RE SO SWEEEET 😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️

Everyone looks so sweet and happy :')))

Awww hi Judd <33

It's okay honey, it's rough :'((

Yeahh honey I know, that's rough 😭😭❤️🥺

Exactly, you don't know anything yet <3

Grace is so perfect, and great at getting him back in it and keeping him grounded <33 I love her and him and them so much <3333

Yeah lol, calm down a bit on the towel business Judd xD

Just dance :'))

His suit is still very iconic btw

And Grace's hair is beautiful 🥰

Awww hey y'all :D

Lol, sillies 🥰🥰

Nope he means wedding :OO

OOP DANG O.O

YEP LOL

The way he said it was very blunt xD like the tone

Awww spin :'))

Oop?

LOL

Do it guys lol, go for it xD!

(tossing a bouquet)

Awww Owen :'(( :')

Ahhh, looking at TK and Carlos but then to Robert and his wife as well, and their daughters :'))

Awww <3

Lol :')

Earlier I saw her and was like huh xD oh right they're kinda dating lol

Aww glad she's checking up on him ,|

LOL YMCA XDDD

Realll though my at dances xD

Gotta save it for the line dances, and take breaks during the slow dances lol

Oh of course, no other way to do it xD well there is but yk lol

Like landing a plane XDDD

Yeah, they are :'))

Oop o.o

Ohh nooo :'((( ❤️❤️❤️💔😭

It sucks but I do see why :(( 😭 <33

Awww <333

It is a pretty great memory though :'))

AYYY yeah this is a good song for dances :D

I wanna go to a wedding 😌

They seem so fun lol

AWWWW look at them all :'D

LOL Iris and TK :')) twirling around <333 they're gonna be such good besties

That guy int he white suit is eating it up xD

Awww Carlos and Andrea 🥰🥰❤️❤️😭 :')))

Awwww 😭❤️❤️❤️

Awww she's good :'))) that's good <3333 I'm so glad

AAAAHHHHHH yes literally 😭😭❤️🥰👏👏 the best night of his life :'))

Oop :o :D

LOL Paul yelling "TOMMYY" xD

TK joining Carlos 🥰

"By a certain paramedic *TK*" DANG girl did not even hesitate 💀 XDD

Lol his little throwing up of his hand xD :')

AWWW him cuddling Carlos's arm 😭 stoppp I'm not okay, they better be so clingy during and after this (the wedding) x'D

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AWWW W H A T 😭😭😭😭😭😭💔🥺🥺🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️❤️

Awwww everyone's faces :'(( :') 😭😭😭😭😭😭🥺🥺🥺💔❤️

"This is from your husband" AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :'DDDD 😭😭😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🥰🥰🥰🥺🥺🥺

GUYS THEY'RE ACTUALLY MARRIED :')))

:OOOO B E I N G A L I V E????!!?!?

. . . this song was on glee-

XDD that's just a thing I say lol

But I also distinctly remember thinking that, if not in the humourous way I tend to say it, when I first saw this lol

Anyway, back to pretending I haven't seen it xD

Awww TK already looking so emotional 😭

GOSH this song is so perfect for them <333

And they DESERVED such a dramatic and beautiful song honestly <3333

Tarlos, but everyone and the whole show, really <333.

:'OO! Tommy's voice is BEAUTIFUL by the way <333

Eat that UPPP girl :'))

:'o Awww taking them to the airport :')) :'(

That pervasive sadness in Owen :'(( it's rough <3

That kiss, and the hug with his girls, is emotional and they don't even know why 😭😭💔❤️🥺 <333

This is gonna hurt them, even if he believes he's sparing them from whatever xd it will be a different kind

Awww look at them all :')))

Nancy and Mateo <3333 so cute

Awww Paul and Asha :'DDD they're so beautiful <333

Also Carlos's sisters and their husbands (who don't get seats or faces lol /lh), it must be so sweet for them to see :')) like Carlos getting married I mean

AAHHHH my boysss 😭😭 <333

Clinging to each other :')) 😭🥺❤️

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH THEIR HONEYMOONNNN :'DDDD

THEY'RE ON THEIR HONEYMOON Y'ALL 😭😭😭😭🥺🥺❤️❤️🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰!!!! FINALLYYYY!!!

YOU DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND :'DDDD 😭😭😭😭❤️🥰🥰🥰🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥰🥰!!! THEY FINALLY MADE IT X'D :'DDD!!! WHOOOO YEAHH YAYY :'DD :'))

They're so cute 😭😭😭❤️ <333

I love them so much 🥰

Happy for them :'))

AWWW putting Charlie next to Wyatt :'))

Lol and they both have their blocks <33

Ahh but see the TV as a compromise :'))

Maybe not on purpose meaning that but TK me <33

Robert's family <333

And tarlos still clinging to each other :'))

And Marjan and her man (Yusuf is it? I believe :'D) :')) <333 adorableee

And Owen :')) ❤️

Tommy is EATINGGG this by the way ❤️😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️🥺💔🥰

Such a good song <33

It would be Gwyn's favorite :')) she has good taste <33

AWWW them 😭😭🥺💔

Gosh :'((( :')

Yeah, at least they got to know each other a bit <3333

It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all <3

Yeah, definitely not ready xdd

"Big brother" :'(( no one should have to bury their younger sibling

It just sucks :'(( D':

AWWW themmm :')) 🥺

Holding Andrea's hand 😭😭😭🥺❤️💔

And TK and Carlos are in it together <333 even if Carlos is the one holding her hand :') they both mean it <3

Awwww Tommy looking at Trevor :'D

Tommy's so beautiful :'))

It's rough but I'm so glad they're all happy <333

As happy as they can be in this life :')))

AWW AAHH AYYYY Wyatt stacking blocks :'DDD good for him <333

It also probably helps that they have a little more of a purpose, being with Charlie :'))

Awww they look so happy 🥰🥰 they are :'D I'm so happy for him and them <333

Oh no 😭😭💔 :'((

Gosh <333

Goodbye, Robert :'((

TK'S TEARS 😭😭🥺❤️❤️❤️

Owen taking the mask off 😭😭 :'(

Tommy you absolutely ate that up :'))) she did such an amazing job <333

Especially as TK's second mother 😭😭😭😭🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️❤️🥰

Awww :'))

Thank you Tommy <33

Oof :(

That's just so rough

I'm so sorry Owen <333

And for his family :'(((

Goodbye, Robert ❤️

The sun coming up :'((

And the silence 😭😭😭

Gosh that's awful

So poignant

OUAGH AND ENDING WITH CALLING 9-1-1

GOSH THAT WAS PERFECT 😭😭😭😭😭🥺🥺🥺💔💔💔❤️❤️🥰

Such an amazing end to the season <333

Typed series for a second there lol

But because I was thinking, even though I would want so much more and I'm glad we get at least a bit more, this would be a really amazing ending to the series <333

It's just dramatic and beautiful and emotional enough that it'll be hard to top, and is an iconic moment of the series :') xD

But I'm sure they will <3

Wow. I'm so glad I did this.

It's such an amazing and beautiful episode <333

I'm so glad they're married :'))

And I'm so glad that, in the end, everyone ended up kind of okay :'))

Not perfect, not really even okay, but happy in this crazy world we and they live in

And that's enough :'))

I'm so happy for them <33

And I'm so especially happy for TK and Carlos :'DDD 🥰🥰🥰🥰❤️

HAPPY 0TH/1ST ANNIVERSARY BOYS 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥰🥰🥰❤️❤️❤��� :'DDD X'D

Gosh I love them so much :')))

They finally did it <33 they made it :')

All roads lead to the wedding

And they did :')

Hallelujah <3 xD

Thank goodness lol

Gosh

Wow. Amazing

I love this show so much <333.

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

UAGHH TEN YEARS LATER!!!

I was hoping for one of those

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH :'DDDD

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH CHIEF OF SURGERY :'DDD WHOOO AS HE SHOULD :')))

UAAHHHHHH IS THIS LIKE A DEDICATION TO GLASSMAN OR SOMETHING 😭😭😭🥺🥺🥺❤️

AWWWWW them riding the carousel together :'DDD

AUAAGHHHH YEAHH ONE LAST (FOR THE SERIES) I LOVE YOU FOR THEM :'DDD

UAAGAHHHHHHHHH NOOO THAT WAS ILLEGALLLL 😭😭😭😭💔💔❤️

Yeahh I bet this is for a dedication like a wing or something :'))

Wait is this in the future or now Lim xdd

Either way that's amazing :'DD

I'm so happy for you honey 😭😭😭

AAHHHH MY GIRLL :'))

AUWWWWWW AAAHHHHHHH GROWN UP A BIT STEVE, AND THEY'RE ON THE CAROUSEL TOGETHER 😭😭😭😭❤️❤️🥰

AND LEA'S PREGNANT!!! AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH YAYY :'DD

AYYYY JORDAN AND DANNY :'DDDD

I'm glad he's okay, and I'm so happy for them :'))

AYYY MORGAN AND PARK :'DDDDD

Is this slightly in the future or way in the future and this is another kid xdd

AYYYYY THE ADOPTION CERTIFICATE :'DDDD

Okay so that's probably Eden lol

Congrats my lovelies 😭😭😭🥺❤️❤️🥰 love you honeys ::))

Now where's Jerome y'all

Where's Jerome

xD

AYYY aww that's amazing I'm so happy for you Dom :'DDD

WHOOO GO OFF CHARLIE :'DDD

She's so pretty 🥰🥰

Aww look at her leading :')) I bet she is a great surgeon <33 like she knew she could be :'D

UAAAGHHHHHHHH THEY HAVE ANOTHER KIDDDDD :'DDDD!!! A DAUGHTERRRRR 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️🥰 Y'ALL DON'T UNDERSTANDDD I'M NOT OKAY :')))

Oop? Going to that talk thing I bet?

Yeah I think so :'D

AWWW

Oop stoping in Claire :'o :'DD

I was like we better see her x'D

Yeah, him and Dr. Glassman <33

AAAHHHHHHHH CLAIREE :DDD!!

STOPPPP HER AND JARED HAVE A KID TOGETHER :'OOOO :'DDD 😭😭🥰🥰🥰🥰!!! I'M SO HAPPY FOR THEMMM :')))

My babies :')))

Aww y'all :')

Yeah, all your saves count as his as well <33

And that's a lot of saves 😭 :') xdd

Where's Jerome guys xdd. . .

Or Andrews too xd 😭

Aww yeah those are all good things :'))

AUAGH a quote book 😭😭🥺❤️

Y'ALLLL I'M NOT OKAYY 😭😭😭🥺❤️

He really was so wise :'DD

AAHHHH that's a bit of Jerome I see :'DD

Hi Jerome 🥰🥰!!

To late into the episode for that 😭 like rude xdd

AWWW back to the beginning again 😭🥺 :'))

Lol yeah hit the table x'D

That is how you show it :')) of course x'D :'D

Is he gonna hit the desk xD :'D

Who's that man sitting next to you Jerome

. . . better just be some random guy

XD I'm fiiiine guys (I am not at all fine in any way shape or form about anything)

AUGHHHH y'all I'm gonna lose it 😭😭😭❤️❤️

This talk is so good y'all :')))

ARE THEY HOLDING HANDS

Idek what you're talking about that's just some guy 😤😤😤

Okay without me being bitter for a second xdd: Jeromeee I'm so happy he's happy :'DD I'm just so glad he's doing okay 😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️🥰 <333

Anyway back to my life pretending Asher's fine and just out of frame 😌😌😌🥰

Ayy Dalisay and Hawke :'DD!!! Or is it Fawkes. . I don't remember sorry girl xdd anyway Nice to see them :')) 🥰🥰🥰

I LOVE YOUUU GUYSS

:'D I'm glad they're doing okay <333

LOL the don't be an a xD

SLFKGHKDS AND HITS THE TABLE ON THAT XDD ICON :'DDD

Lol love that xDD

Awww :'))

:'OO WAITT STOPPPP

STOPPPP THAT'S SO AMAZING 😭😭😭😭❤️❤️🥺🥺🥺🥰 THAT'S WHAT WE'RE DEDICATING :')))

AND THE FACT THAT IT WAS HIM AND CLAIRE 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️🥺🥰

Y'ALLLLL STOPP I'M NOT OKAY :'))) :'DD

YEEEEAHHHHH WHOOOOO :'DDD 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🎊🎊🎉🎉🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰❤️

I genuinely clapped in real life :'D

Awww y'all I'm so happy for you <3

And that's an amazing program 😭😭❤️, in a bunch of places :'))) ❤️🥰

AWWWWWWW STOPPPP ALL THEM COMING DOWN THE STAIRSSS :'DDD 😭😭😭

AUAAAWGHHHHHHHH AND THE CALLBACK VOICEOVER OF WHAT SHAUN WANTED TO DO 😭😭😭😭😭🥺🥺❤️🥰

STOPPP I'M NOT OKAY :'DDD

AAAHHHH AWWWWW ALL THEM HUGGINGGGG 🥺🥺🥺🥺❤️❤️😭😭😭😭🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

Y'ALLLLL I'M SO NOT OKAY 😭😭😭🥰❤️❤️❤️🥺❤️

That beard on Kalu is wild xD looks good though eat it up sir slfkfjsdk

I know I usually call him Jared just had to call him Kalu one last time xD

But yeah Jared is slaying :'))

AAAAAHHHHHHHHH YOU D O O O HAVE A FAMILYYYYY 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥰🥰😭😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

AAAAHHHHHHHH THEIR LITTLE FAMILY (THOUGH A MOMENT AGO I WAS INCLUDING EVERYONE ELSE TOO) :'DDDDD 🥰🥺😭😭❤️❤️❤️

Y'ALLLL I'M SO NOT OKAY

SDLFKFJSKHGS "And now I have two TVs." STOPPPPP THAT'S AMAZING :'DDD 😭😭😭😭🥰🥰❤️❤️❤️❤️🥺🥺🥰

Look at them :')))

I'm so proud of them, and of all of them <333

They're happy :'))

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

And that's it 😭🥺❤️💔🥰 :'))

Also WAIT SLFKFHKDS THAT WAS HIS LAST LINE XDDD??

I hadn't really processed that it was and then my dad walked in from the next room and was like "That was his last line of the show?" and I was like "YUP SLFJHDKS" LOL stop that's hilarious xD amazing, iconic <333

I love him so much :')))

Also go off on having two TVs Shaun 😌😌

I love them all so much <3333

Well, that's it

This is the last episode

That was. . .

The end of The Good Doctor

. . . wow

It was absolutely amazing <333

I loved it :')

I love you all so much <333 ❤️

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

Aww hi guys :'))

LOL checked if she was owl xDD

AWW y'all 🥰🥰

Good for them :'))

Lol the lights :'D xD

XDD Jay lol

Sam SLFKJGS

"Good for them" AYY SLFKDS THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I SAID

Legitimately out loud I said "good for them" lol

My dad also asked if the lights flickered when they got emotional and I'm like nah it's just his thing lol

Luckily as I was explaining it the promo came on which even mentioned ghost powers so that helped me explain it xD

Which by the way AAAHHHHHH WHAAAT??!? PETE CAN LEAVE THE PROPERTY :OOO?!??

And he looks so scared help 😭😭🥺 xDD poor guy lol :( <33

Anyway :) back to the end of the episode slfjds

Awww that was cute <33

Aww the suicide message at the end :'(( ❤️❤️🥺😭💔 it always gets me when shows have something like that after a serious topic <33

AAGH that episode was so good :'DD 😭😭🥺💔❤️ glad I watched this one live :))

It was absolutely WILD but amazing :)) post coming later!!

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

NOPE

NOPE

NOPE. NOPE :)

NOPE

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Sadder than I have ever been

Okay that's exaggerating but

With a tv show one of the saddest xd

A MEMORIALLLLLL 😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

I AM NOT OKAY

I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU SHAUN

I'M SORRY I LOVE YOU BUT I DO NOT CARE

Okay okay I can calm down

About that at least

I swear Shaun if you focus on other stuff even to avoid your pain I will die

Yeah I get it Lea :'(( that sucks

And yeah I am sorry Shaun xd

Yeah

Ope???

WHAT THE HECK DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS

OH GOSH that's awful o.o

Lim????

Uhhh not this time xdd 😭😭💔

Oh noooo :'(((

Bro he literally can't operate xd

Oh gosh this is all so chaotic 😭😭💔 not good stuff xd

Not gonna lie kinda angry that we have a big event to be focusing on when Asher literally just died but maybe it'll help distract me xd

Well

The Good news is

The Rookie couldn't possible go worse

Knock on wood

I'm just sitting here in silence

My gosh

Huh

Wow

Gosh xd

Okay, that's the last my last thoughts, now it's time for the. . .

REVIEW

. . .

I really loved this episode!! I don't think I can ever watch it again xdd

sigh

I want to do this while my emotions are fresh (and it'll distract me) but also I don't know if I can bear to

Especially sitting here (not literally) in the emotions of it all

Maybe a quick one

Idk

He deserves better than that though also xd

Maybe quick with a longer one later?

. . . I want to just go forget about it

But I think I need to process it

Because I'm still shocked and denial

I genuinely did enjoy this episode. I thought it was really well done, and I really liked the storylines in it. And, even though I am absolutely heartbroken, I'm glad Asher at least had good final moments, and the drama his death deserved.

Here's what I'll say about what I knew.

This morning, I woke up and saw and article along the lines of "'The Good Doctor' kills of lead. . ." or something along those lines. I quickly swiped it out of the way and stressed xd. Later, another one came (and here's the surprising part that I did not mention earlier, I believe in my review of last episode) that said something similar, "'The Good Doctor' kills of. . ." (something along those lines) and then, under that, something like "Related to: Jerome Martel". Genuinely, the most likely thing I expected was for Jerome to die. I later saw another article that I quickly avoided sight wise, then covered as I scrolled by down to swipe the notification away. And I glimpsed a picture and Asher and Jerome. I really thought Jerome might die.

I'm glad he survived xd.

But I also believe I thought to myself "I'd rather anyone else. I mean, not Asher, or" and then basically thought of "okay I don't want anyone to die" xd.

Hh.

It's been 25 minutes since I finished the episode xd.

Gosh

Okay, a few quick things about other people

So, I guess,

Onto the individual parts

Dom! Missed you today buddy ❤️. Sure you're slaying, see you again soon :).

Shaun and Lea! Oof on the what's-it-called-ing Steve xd. It's rough and I think they may want to let up sometimes but hopefully it helps them <3. I also hope the complaint doesn't affect Shaun too much, but at the same time, he has been treating Charlie unfairly. Anyway, love them.

Charlie! Segway xd. I feel bad for her. She genuinely was doing really good, and she just made a mistake at the wrong moment. I think Shaun should've been calmed, but I do think she needed to learn that that was not the moment to ask. It sucks, I hate the feeling of being told that I need to stop because someone's trying to focus and I just made a mistake. But she needed to, and I think this is an iffy thing to push her over the edge and make a report. At least I hope the report is on other things, not that specific event. She had some good moments this episode though, love her.

Park! Not too much going on, but he slayed on the case :). It sucks the way it turned out for the patients :(. Also, him at the wedding was sweet :')). Love him <3.

Morgan! Again, not too much, though her conversation with Lim was hilarious lol. Poor Lim in that conversation xD. Of course Morgan's hears all the tea though lol. I also like that she defended Charlie sharing her story :). Anyway, she slayed <3. Love her.

Kalu! He slayed today too :)). Glad that he too- well, not really defended Charlie, but was kinda on her side sometimes. Like they said, they're looking out for the interns :')). I really liked the bit where he quickly explained and she was cool with that - I think it just shows that she can be worked with, if you put in the effort and listen and be patient. Anyway, love him <3.

Glassman and Lim! I'm glad they worked everything out in the end, and that it did help Lim with her mom :'). I'm thinking this was mainly for that, and also so Glassman can have someone to be with in the last season. I still think it was a funky thing to do xd, but I'm glad they're happy lol. And I think it's good what he told Lim, that she can start getting closer with her mom :')). And I'm so sorry for Lim, that she and Clay broke up :((. Her line about being alone nearly broke me (though don't worry, I just had to wait for later for that) 😭❤️. I'm glad it's hopefully going to get better <3. Love them :).

Jordan! Didn't notice till she showed up that she hadn't been there, but I'm really bad at noticing that xd. I thought it was a cool way, a good scene and stuff, of working her in :). And her advice to and conversation with Asher was so good :'DD. I do wish she was here, considering what the episode was and how close and Asher are, but I'm glad we got to focus on his relationship with Jerome. And that at least she was still here ❤️. Love her <3.

So. It's time. I'm going to talk about the rest of the episode first, and then say a little bit. Then, I'm going to go cry a bit more probably, maybe have emo thoughts, and distract myself before I go to bed xd.

Asher and Jerome!! Y'allll I loved the content we got for them this episode :'DD. I mean I hate a fight but, hey, I love angst too lol 👀 xD. Still, I love any screen time for them <3. I certainly didn't agree with Asher's wildin opinions in the beginning xD, but I was still having a fun time. And I'm glad everything worked out (regarding the fight and that stuff). Asher helping with the wedding was so sweet 😭😭😭💔❤️❤️🥺🥰. And the talk he had with the rabbi :'DD :')). I loved that, I know that feeling <3. Also AAAHHHHH their kiss after the wedding 😭😭🥺❤️. I'm not okay <3. At least they got a kiss at a wedding :')). Where the arch thing was and everything xd. Random note that I mentioned in the liveblog, I love that they cook together so much. Anyway, AAAHHHHHH JEROME WAS GOING TO PROPOSE!! HE WAS HIDING THE RING!!! AAAAAHHHHHH :DDDD WHOO 🥳🥳🥳🎊🎉🎂🎂🎂🎂!! Asher found it too 🥰🥰🥰. He was stressing, aww poor babey <33 :'(, but I'm glad he finally made peace with it and made his decision :')). Also, regarding. . . everything, I'm glad that he knew <3. Also, Asher immediately going to get Jerome a bandaid was so good <3. Loved it :')). They were seriously so good this episode, it was great :'D. I love them so much <333.

Now.

The stuff xd

I was freaking out at the end. Until that yelling (even for a half second into it), I thought it would be Jerome. I was honestly terrified as well that it was a mislead and it still would be. But even more scared for Asher.

I like that he came full circle. I think he deserved that. Deserves.

I read a few articles after finishing the episode, and one, I think something from a writer, said "His last line is "I am a Jew. A gay one, too, and I'm calling the cops" " (or something like that). That he finally truly accept both parts of himself. I'm really proud of him for that, and I'm glad that's how it ended for him <33. It also makes me think of how his literal first line was about that very thing. He grew up Hasidic, before he decided that "if there was a God, He was nothing but a cruel being that I held nothing but contempt for". Then he says "That's when I started going to medical school. And also dating men". Or, something along those lines for all of that. I like the symmetry.

I do appreciate the commentary of it being a hate crime. We as queer people, and Jewish people (though I am not Jewish) are still facing so much bigotry. But I do kinda of wish that I didn't have to see it in the show as well. Sometimes I like it, sometimes I like to just feel that catharsis, and sometimes I just want to see the good sides. That it's not a tragedy.

Like I've already said though, I do appreciate that it got the drama it deserved. Asher went out fighting for what's right, accepting himself, and standing up for people. That's kind of what he's always been about :'). He also went out with an episode that focused largely on him and his journey, along with his relationship, and he got a good music moment at the end lol. Not to mention the angst of it all. And, of course, in the next episode his funeral. Though I do wish there wasn't a huge emergency as well. But (especially with the description specifically saying they'll all be dealing with their personal tragedy as well), it should be interesting to see at least. And again, it'll distract me and then xd. I just think it would also be interesting to see them trying to go through their normal lives as if this huge thing didn't just happen.

Also, something more lighthearted lol, imagine being at a funeral and then half the guests get up and leave 💀. Even knowing they're doctors it's awkward xD, especially since they're some of the people who cared the most about him (😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔❤️❤️❤️❤️). But it's like, that's what happens when you're a doctor xD. I just find it kind of funny lol.

Anyway. I think, if he had to die, Asher went out the best way he could here. At least he was fighting for something, unlike the tragedy of Melendez's pointless death. It's still absolutely heartbreaking, but that does bring some comfort <3.

Also, in those articles, I saw that the reason Asher was killed off is apparently because Noah Galvin wanted to move on from the show.

I love you sir but I am kinda angry xD.

Nah but for real, I do understand it, and I'm happy he gets/got to go back home and stuff, but I am like ". . . it's the last season" xD. Maybe he asked before it was cancelled lol, I don't know. If that's the case that kinda upset some more, because he might have been willing to stay for just like 5-19 more episodes xd. Anyway, slightly salty about that lol (how could you do this to me Mr. Galvin <33 😭😭😭😭💔💔❤️❤️ :')) :'(( ), but I am happy for him. And he's had a great run on this show, as has Asher <33.

. .

I want to say a little bit.

I know I've said a lot xd, but something specific.

I wish Asher was still alive.

I know that's obvious, and it makes sense, but there's layers to it xd. Yes, he was my favorite characters (nearly said one of lol - he is, but my favorite in the show). Is, that is. Yeah, correcting the opposite way of what you'd expect there lol. Anyway. Yes, he was my favorite, and I absolutely wanted him and Jerome to get married. It was something I was sad about missing with the cancellation, but apparently we could have had it (which I did think of earlier xd). Or at least the engagement xd. We really tried on that one lol - we were so close xd. But, I also just wanted him to live. And I wanted to continue seeing him xd :(((. I still do.

But beyond all that, Asher means something to me. Every character in anything I love does, but he is a very specific character.

He's a character I don't have anywhere else.

We are not exactly the same. But I don't think I can express the importance to me of a queer religious character. Even though he scorned religion, even though he was no longer practicing, it meant something to me. I said a lot, especially in this episode, that I understand it. I do. I understand questioning if you can live your life in your religion and be queer. I understand doing more research than most cishet people ever have to do, finding the scriptures that cry your acceptance and not your punishment. I have watched my religious community on Tumblr receive disgusting death threats because of what we believe. I have heard my religion made fun of my friends. I have fought to defend myself and my culture and my beliefs at every turn, from queer people and religious people and people in between. I have hidden and kept quiet because I was scared.

I am very proud of Asher for what he did.

And I hope that, if I were in the same situation, I wouldn't hesitate.

But especially after an episode where I was starting to see a character that I could maybe relate to even more. A queer character who wanted to keep religion in his life, who was going to maybe re-explore it. After that, I mourn him even more.

There will never be another character that can replace Asher for me. And that, at least, is an honor to him.

Thank you Noah Galvin for giving us this beautiful, wonderful character over all these years. About 3 or 4 now, gosh xd. I truly appreciate it, more than you could ever know.

And I thank you to the writers and everyone else on The Good Doctor. Even if I am not happy with Asher's death, I have been given storylines of him for 4 seasons. I miss him already, but at least I have the time we had <333.

Asher is a passionate, strong-willed, brave, often inexperienced, and caring character. All of that is a part of him, and all of it is important to me. I love him so much 😭😭😭💔❤️ <3. And there is truly not another character like him :'). I will truly miss him, so, so much <33.

Overall, I really enjoyed this episode. I also despised it with my entire being and will not be able to rewatch that horrific ending for years xd. But I'm glad he got what he did, plot wise and drama wise. I know I've already said it a thousand times, but Asher deserves that. He deserves drama, horrific, even if I do want him to have nothing but happiness. He deserves that, he deserves to live, but he deserves to go out with the importance that he had, and I'm glad he did <3. I understand losing someone close, and I am absolutely devastated for everyone else as well :'((. I'm scared and kind of excited (for the angst and the catharsis lol) to see how everyone reacts and copes next episode. If they show me the immediate aftermath I will die, but I will love it. I will also despise it, so I'm glad that I don't think they will xd. Loves everyone this episode, I hope the Shaun and Charlie stuff gets worked out soon, and I'm glad the Lim and Glassman stuff started getting sorted out <33. And you know what? I'll say it. Asher and Jerome got engaged :')). I'm so happy for them <3. AAAHHHHH YAYY WHOOOO 🥳🥳🥳🎊🎂🎂🎂🥰😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️🥺🥺🥺❤️🥰🥰. Because I can celebrate their love if I dang want to. I'm gonna miss them so much <333 😭😭😭😭🥺💔💔💔💔💔❤️❤️❤️. Nonetheless, it was a really good episode. I really loved Asher planning the wedding and the conversion ceremony, it was just so sweet of him to do that :'). And seeing him connect with his roots was great <3. I'm glad the ending- no autocorrect. no. . . lol. I'm glad the wedding worked out :). Everyone was great this episode <3.

So yeah! I absolutely loved this episode, it was so amazing. I also hate it and will never forgive it and them lol. Still, I'm hanging onto that engagement! I am so devastated and excited for the next episode. This has been my review of. . .

The Good Doctor, Season 7, Episode 5: Who at Peace

It was so beautiful. The next episode looks super interesting, and emotional, so I am excited to see it! I think it'll be really good. I'll be back here next week with my review of. . .

The Good Doctor, Season 7, Episode 6: M. C. E.

See you next week!

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

Hey guys! Forgot to make a post about it, but I wasn't able to liveblog The Rookie and The Good Doctor tonight. I glimpsed the description of The Good Doctor and it looked SO GOOD MY GOSH- I'm now stressing about it so I'm going to forget I ever read anything lol. And the promo I saw for The Rookie 👀👀. I was on a road trip today, but I'm really excited to catch up with these new episodes!!

See you later!

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

Ayyy honeymoon :D!!

Ooh vlog style :o

Ope o.o

Uhhh xd nah something sus is going on lol

Um o.o

Nope y'all nahh xd

UH OH UM

Nah creepy masks a i n ' t i t .

Aww ay hey guys :D love them :)

Ooh backup 👀👀

We love getting to see some of the others as well :DD

Uh oh guys this is not good o.o

YOO they're actually gonna come yess :DD

OHH GOSH

Y'all cannot just have one normal thing can you xD

Poor babies 😭 they goin through it as always xd

At least it wasn't some terrible big scheme on their wedding itself lol

Just random stuff and a small bad thing xD

OPE GUYS O.O

Okay, that's the last of my promo thoughts, now it's time for the. . .

REVIEW

Not quite as fancy as my 911 or tgd ones lol, more like the normal ones, just with the end of a liveblog as well :).

I made a post about this before coming back to this one, but happy 100th episode all!! Lowkey forgot this was the 100th anniversary lol. But it makes so much sense and it was a GREAT 100th episode :D.

I love that everyone had their little moment (at least): James with the music, Wesley with Oscar, Luna with her college classes, etc :). And just Randy, Chastity, Oscar, and Henry BEING there lol. Though to clarify Oscar was not at the wedding xD. But seriously, I really loved all the cameos and little character moments this episode :)).

Also CHENFORD AAAHHHH!!! Their MOMENTS this episode y'all I was losing it xD. I do kinda wish it hadn't been that Tim isn't supporting her despite thinking he is, though? Because the vibes last episode were just really on Tim's side, I guess, and now they're just tossing him into "bad guy" a bit. But, I think it'll work out in the end. I'm also glad Chastity brought up that Lucy could also be scared! I think that's a real possibility :). Anyway, they were ABSOLUTELY ADORABLE and whether it was the first time in universe or not, WHOOO FIRST I LOVE YOU!! And it was so cute :'D. Also the dance 😭😭😭❤️ stop I'm not okay :').

BAILEY AND JOHN ARE MARRIED!!! WHOOOOOO :'DDDD!!!! 🥳🥳🥳🥳🎊🎉🥂🎂🥂🥰❤️❤️🥰. I'm so happy for them :'DD

They might not be my favorite couple on the show but I still love them and this has been a long time coming. I'm also glad that despite all the issues they still had the wedding and everything was okay and beautiful 🥰🥰. Thank goodness they actually had it and we saw it lol (looking at you Wopez - still mad at the writers for that). Also I'm SO EXCITED for the next episode with their honeymoon :D.

I felt so bad for Celina and Aaron this episode 😭. Aaron because poor boy is going through it and misreading signals/situations xd, and Celina because she's trying to be there for him and do what's best and she as also, you know, kidnapped and beat up xD. But, I think they'll make it through it :).

Really though Aaron you need to talk to your therapist 😭. It's dangerous going out when you know you're not healing :(. Hope he learns it soon D':.

I loved all the togetherness moments this episode!! The bachelor and bachelorette parties (y'all I can't articulate it beyond loving individual characters and them all hanging out but oUAGH chomping on it)/last minute preparations xD were SO GOOD!! And the wedding, especially the dancing :'D. AUOGH, I love them <333. And of course the final mission at the end - they slay together :DD. Also, I'm glad Celina's okay :')).

Don't even get me started on the Wopez/Wesley angst. Y'all I'm about to have so many thoughts about them moving forward (even more than usual/always xD). Like! AUGH! OSCAR!! SITTING ACROSS FROM HIM!! DO YOU KNOW HOW LONG I'VE WAITED FOR THIS

Where's the panic attack Rookie <33

Where's the panic attack writers 🥰🥰 where is it :))

I'm kidding xD kind of lol. But seriously, the angst thoughts are turning (the wheels are turning) :DD. And don't forget about Angela either lol

Anyway! Everybody slayed this episode and I REALLY enjoyed it :D. I'm SOO excited for the next one :)). Also, again (mentioned it in the liveblog or just before), I don't know that I've ever gotten to watch it live before, so this was the perfect episode to get to do it :D.

Loved the episode!!!

Happy 100th Episode guys 🥂🥰🥰. I love this show and you all so much :DD.

See you next time!!