#by:@andy-zone

[andy-zone]

"you wake up next to one of them"

[cartoonsbyandie]

This isn't even a real AU, this is just what happens when I feel like drawing Kaito's outfit while also still drawing the same old men I always do

[kiwipineappleparasol]

I hope they get crushed by a comedically large crate

[sunshine-jesse]

It wasn't okay.

Someone gave me the idea to write an analysis in the form of a fanfiction, so this is what I coughed up.

I haven't written a fanfiction in 10 years, so bear with me. There is also no smut here; sorry to disappoint. Maybe once I become more confident in my fanfic writing lmao

Ashley almost thought it'd be okay.

"Yeah, I'm dating Julia now."

Ashley thought she'd be able to handle it. But she knew better. She's always known better. And Andrew did, too. It's why he took so long to tell her. She's never been able to keep her fucking mouth shut, but why should she? He's the one who lets her down. He's the one who tries to distance himself from her! He tries and he tries and he tries but he fails, every time.

But now, she's not so sure.

"WE HAD AN AGREEMENT, ANDREW!"

Her words seem to fall on deaf ears, but his gaze never diverts from her eyes. She can see it plainly in his face- his anger, his exasperation, his frustration. She's always been so good at reading him, and now is no different.

"So why? Why do you keep doing this?! Why do you keep trying to distance yourself from me?! Am I not good enough?"

"Ashley…"

"I've always been the only one you can rely on, Andrew! The only one you can talk to! So why?! Why do you keep trying to find other people?! And why Julia, of all people?! Why her?!"

"Ashley."

"What is she giving you that I can't?! Why can't you just be happy with me?!"

"Ashley!"

"No, Andrew! Your excuses aren't good enough! Nothing I do is ever enough! You always want MORE!"

Ah, how close she was to being right, yet how distant she was from the reason.

He has to be dating her out of pity, right? Ever since __ died, Julia hasn't been able to keep that knife away from her arm. She wears arm-warmers now to hide them, but Ashley knows better. Everyone does. And maybe now, Andrew is trying to make it right.

"It's out of pity, isn't it? You feel guilty over what happened to that bitch, and-"

Andrew closes the gap between the two of them, his gaze growing significantly more dire. A lump appears in Ashley's throat. She doesn't know what it's from, and can't process just how much danger she's really in. She could read Andy just fine, but the Andrew that was starting to surface was a different story entirely. But Andrew stays his hand and walks away, never once breaking eye contact with her until he walks out of the door.

Ashley is left alone, confused and afraid. She thinks the fear is from the thought of Andrew leaving her for good, but it's not. All she knows is that she is afraid of getting hurt again, no matter what kind of hurt it is. It's all the same to her. But this fear doesn't get any better over time; it gets worse. As Andrew is out, the sinking feeling in Ashley's gut and the cold grasp she feels over her heart grows more and more profound. Her breathing grows labored. He's going to leave her for good, isn't he? No matter how much she breathes, she never feels satisfied. Every thought spurs her to gasp for more air:

Why is he doing this? Why is he dating her? Why can't she calm down? Why did he still seek comfort from Ashley in the dead of night this past week, despite having been dating Julia for that long? Why can't she calm down? Is there something Julia can do that Ashley can't? Why can't she calm down? Is it the fact that Julia can fuck him but Ashley can't? Why can't she calm down? Is it him trying to distance himself? Why can't she calm down? Is it him trying to be normal is it him trying to forget is it him trying to make up for Nina or is it him-

"WHY CAN'T I FUCKING BREATHE???"

The icy cold grip on her heart turns into a sharp pain in her chest, a stake being driven right through it. What little breath she had left was stolen from Ashley, her hands growing numb.

Her course of action becomes clear:

She has to break them apart. She HAS to.

Ashley runs towards the phone and goes to dial the number. If Julia knew the truth about Nina, if she knew what they did, there's no way she'd still like Andrew. There's no way they'd still be together. She'd have to break up with him, and then Andrew and Ashley would be stuck together forever. She goes to dial the number.

But she freezes.

She feels her throat close up, words unable to escape her mouth. She agreed to never speak of it to anyone else ever again, and that oath was being enforced. But by whom? Why did she feel like she was being watched? Her parents were gone, and so was Andrew. So who was watching her? Why were they watching her?

With every number she dialed, she feels weaker and weaker. She feels like she's going to pass out. And when she finally calls…

"J-Julia! I need to tell…-"

…luckily, they were still home. Every word Ashley spoke was punctuated by a desperate gasp of air. And at the last moment, rather than revealing the truth, she changes her mind. She needs her Andy back. But she needs to get him back without breaking her end of the agreement. After all, that's the least she could do, isn't it?

The least Ashley could do was stay committed. That's all she has going for her. Her love, her dedication, her commitment. If she couldn't at least offer that, does she even deserve Andrew, no matter how much she feels she needs him?

She wouldn't, because that's all she thought she could offer him: Herself. But now, she was starting to wonder whether even that was enough.

"Andy. I think-… I'm having…"

She forces out her last few words…

"…a heart attack."

Before collapsing on the ground, a loud THUMP echoing on the other side of the phone.

It doesn't take long for her beloved Andy to come home after that. He looks terrified, but Ashley smiles, and grabs the bump on her head.

"Took you long enough, asshole."

Andy was less than pleased, but at least she knows that he still cared for her. It calms her down so quickly and abruptly that it looks like she was faking it. She even thought she might've been. But as long as her Andy was back, everything was okay. As long as she knew she could do something for him, everything was fine.

Andrew still slept in Ashley's bed that night, despite what happened. He still sought her comfort, no matter what. Julia wasn't good enough for him. She'd never be good enough. And yet as long as she still existed, Ashley would forever feel herself growing distant from Andy. Andy was lying to himself. He had to have been. There's no way he could want to be away from Ashley while still seeking so much from her, right? Julia had to be dealt with, she had to be taken out of the picture. It didn't much matter how. And so, the next morning, when Andy is away, she picks up the phone, dials Julia's number, and-…

… …

It feels like it's been so long since then.

So distant from the way things are now, that you feel like an entirely different person; like you're watching a performance.

When the dream ends, you shoot up in panic. You look down to your side, and see Andrew, sleeping. You look upon his back, and see your scratch marks still there, and you can't help but smirk. Ah, you really got into it, didn't you? You never saw yourself as that kind of person, but it makes sense, now that you're so much less afraid of losing him.

You know you're awake now, and in a time and place where things are much better, and yet, some of your past still lingers. You can't help but still feel afraid that he'll leave, just like everyone else has. And worse, you fear it'll be your fault. But now everyone is finally honest with themselves and what they want. Now things can finally heal. Now things can finally get better.

Now you can finally dream. Now you can finally hate what you see.

Now you are finally the one who needs to be held at night.

[last-of-the-independents]

Andrew Robinson as President John F. Kennedy in The Twilight Zone - S1.E20a (Profile in Silver, 1986)

[silversword7000]

No one can make a bass HIT like Andy Rourke

[likeadeuce]

WIP Wednesday, Challengers 'DC, Open' continued

“Seems like you two have a good shot at winning doubles.” Patrick keeps his smile amiable. “Which is great since you’re planning to just show up tomorrow and tank it and collect your check because you couldn’t possibly be on the level of Andy fucking Roddick.”

“I didn’t mean I’m not going to try. But I know what a good tournament is for me, and I’ve already had it.” Art shrugged. “He’s the top seed for a reason.”

“Yeah, he’s a servebot.” Patrick crosses his arms and leans against the locker. “You’ve got more tools than that, you always have.”

“In theory. But if I can’t deal with his serve, that’s half the games. Sort of how tennis works.”

“No,” Patrick says. “No, I don’t buy it. You’ve never been scared of a big serve. It’s the rest of it that’s got you dazzled. The face all big on the tournament poster, the Sports Center bits, the hot girlfriend.” This isn’t exactly how he’d meant to bring it up, but why not? He leans close. “It’s not like you can’t compete. Where’s your hot girlfriend?”

Art stares at Patrick like he can’t believe what he’s hearing. “Beijing, if it’s any of your business.”

Patrick has to admit, that is not the answer he expected. “What?”

“Her dad’s from Lisbon. She swims for Portugal.” Now Patrick really feels like he’s entered the Twilight Zone. “Why?” Art continues. “Do you have a compulsion to try and fuck every woman I’m interested in or. . .is this actually your weird way of asking about Tashi Duncan?”

None of this makes sense. ‘Tashi Duncan,’ like she’s someone they knew in grade school, someone Art hasn’t thought about in years. He should just stop talking but he’s never been good at that. “You and Tashi broke up?” he blurts.

“Tashi and I never dated. I don’t even know what you’re -- Jesus Christ.” Art puts a palm over his face, takes a few short, measured breaths, then looks at Patrick again. “I cannot believe you’re been giving the silent treatment. For a year. Because you think I stole your girlfriend?” And just like that, he heads for the door. “Have a good life, Patrick. Leave me out of it.”

[bitter69uk]

“She had a face that was so striking you had the choice of whether to call her beautiful or ugly. I happened to love the way she looked, and I was impressed by all the references she kept dropping to literature and politics. She talked constantly and she had the most tiresome voice I’d ever heard – it was incredible to me that one woman’s voice could convey so much tedium … We all loved Viva; we’d never seen anything like her, and from then on, it was just taken for granted that she’d be in whatever movie we did. She was funny, stylish and photogenic and she gave great interviews … And if a good way to get around the censors was to confuse them, then Viva was perfect for the times, because when she took her clothes off, there was always the question of whether her bony body was a turn-on or -off – the “prurience” was really in question there.”

/ Andy Warhol reminiscing about his leading lady Viva in his 1980 memoirs POPism: The Warhol Sixties /

Born on this day 86 years ago: superbly deadpan, often naked Warhol Superstar and long-term denizen of New York’s bohemian Chelsea Hotel (she now resides in Palm Springs) - Viva (née Janet Susan Mary Hoffmann, 23 August 1938)! I vividly recall watching her in Warhol’s perverse 1968 underground Western Lonesome Cowboys (pictured) at The Scala Cinema in the early nineties. (At the beginning, the theatre was full. By the bitter end, there was only a hardcore of us left!). Outside of Warhol’s films, Viva impressed me as the heavily pregnant groupie Kris Kristofferson picks up in Cisco Pike (1972) and I particularly treasure Viva’s cameo appearance in 1982 cult oddity Forbidden Zone, in which she delivers with peerless nonchalance the killer line, “See you guys later – I need to change a Tampax.”

[andyillustrasjon]

Last week of Inktober ++

Nosferatu

Furiosa

Aftersun

Stalker

Men

Syk pike

Viskingar och rop

The Zone of Interest

La sociedad de la nieve

Kwaidan

[andrewisdoing]

“The Obsolete Man”

The Twilight Zone; S2 Ep:29

[ruinedholograms]

(2020-2024)

• The Smile - A Light For Attracting Attention

• Flying Lotus - Flamagra (Instrumentals)

• Yaeji - With A Hammer

• Kaitlyn Aurelia Smith - The Mosaic Of Transformation

• Andy Stott - Never The Right Time

• Tame Impala - The Slow Rush

• Shygirl - Nymph

• Heavee - Unleash

• HAAi - Baby, We’re Ascending

• Tirzah + Mica Levi - trip9love…

• Discovery Zone - Quantum Web

• Satomimagae - Hanazono

• Spencer Doran - Season: A Letter To The Future

• Khotin - Release Spirit

• Kate NV - Room For The Moon

• Daniel Rossen - You Belong There

• Fever Ray - Radical Romantics

• Oneohtrix Point Never - Again

• Flying Lotus - Yasuke

• Michael Giacchino - The Batman

• Shygirl - Nymph_o

• Jessy Lanza - All The Time

• Julie Byrne - The Greater Wings

• Jessy Lanza - Love Hallucination

• Grouper - Shade

[vesselofmanythings]

The gang are heading to Grandfest!! Keep up, Eight!!

[doafp]

thinking about how bold it was for Bex to reach out to Jonah Beck in the first episode. I want to know how that interaction went. How did she find him? "hey Jonah - i don't know you but my younger sister really wants to learn ultimate frisbee and I hear you're a pretty famous frisbeeteer* in shadyside. can you teach her some tricks right now immediately?" and he agreed? not just agreed, but he was pumped. look how excited he is

& then bex was like "i got you a lesson!!" which makes me wonder - did she pay him? is jonah a little hustler with his own teaching business? good for him, if so. get that bag kid. but how lucrative is it to teach ultimate frisbee? one has to wonder.

anyway i guess i'm mostly thinking about how, were it not for Bex's meddling, Andi might've never become friends with Jonah. Andi was mortified when she found out what Bex did, but it was such a small insignificant thing compared to the wonderful friendship they got out of it. Bex coming back into her daughter's life was so good for her. Andi learned to do it scared (but by god, do it!!) at the perfect time in her life, and look at all how much her life changed in 3 seasons :') im so happy for her, i love this lil show :''')

*doesn't know the word for dischead. understandably.

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[last-of-the-independents]

Andrew Robinson as President John F. Kennedy in The Twilight Zone - S1.E20a (Profile in Silver, 1986)

Part 4

[oxventurequotes]

thinking abt oxventure × curse of strahd nobody text