#but yknow.. it shouldnt have to be like this
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it hit me what makes me the most miserable abt my work week is how it’s just school all over again. just hanging in there until the weekend. repeat. repeat. repeat
#5 outta 7 days im at work. 2 days of freedom#2 days to do chores n run errands n relax n sleep n draw n catch up w/ friends n go places#and if u gotta reschedule itll be weeks before ur available again#like for months now ive tried to get together w/ friends but our days off dont match n shit keeps coming up#not to mention im fucking tired! im exhausted! i want to sleep in and then draw the rest of the day!#i think the worst part is that back in school.. at least it didnt matter as much? because it all led to an end aka graduation?#like i didnt mind the wait for next weekend as much cuz it was temporary#like eventually ill graduate and then ill have freedom! (i thought? for some reason??)#but now its like.. the weeks are going by so fast this year is already almost over i turn 26 in 2 weeks#and this is.. the rest of my life? like youre kidding right? this cant be it?#i get off work n then i have to take care of the cats n chores n then eat dinner n then shower n then its late and i gotta sleep#before work the next day. i dont have time nor energy to rly do anything#and ill get that feeling of like. oh well at least it brings me closer to the next ‘weekend’#but i dont wanna live weekend to weekend#i mean im thankful to have a job n coworkers i love like i truly hate it there sometimes but i also am happy and thankful for it#but yknow.. it shouldnt have to be like this#i worded this so much better in the shower but im tired of feeling like school part 2 like what the fuck man#ive had work every single day since we came back from our trip n i just dont have time/energy for anything#i need to open commissions back up but i havent even gotten around to starting one a friend asked for#not to mention this years christmas card ive barely got the sketch done for#and again. my favourite holiday. halloween is on tuesday and while we did plan halloweeny stuff it just has not felt like halloween#i havent had any ideas/energy/time for any halloweeny art#+chores n errands etc lmao we havent even been to the grocery store yet (calling us out here)#it just. suuuuucks aaaaaass man the world is so beautiful life is a gift i dont wanna spend it like this
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OMG I JUST NOW REALISED IN YOUR POST "Dad dancing"
XELQUA USING THE MUMBO FOR MAYOR SHIIIIRT AGH
*Family Guy dead pose.*
yeah !! Xelqua occasionally wears Grian's clothes, they're big on him tho of course
#first time he reads the shirt hes like what is a mayo--rrrr#ask#kidxelqua#my art#sketching#his little.. adam sandler fit.......#he probably fell in mud or something and needed a bath and then grian realized he does not have extra kid clothes#<- tho in that case he shouldnt have the white shirt under but whatever#grian doesnt even wear shorts. those are the one pair he has. when he tried to wear shorts.#<- had to tie the strings for him tho#the shirt.... he was a bit thinner back then. struggling to yknow. exist.#its still big on xelqua but fits. when grian sees that hes like. was it that bad. why does that somewhat fit you
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I have freaking silly little guy disease...
After a full day of work (drawing them) I relax and draw for fun (drawing them)
ON GOD I am going to create and fuel my own fandom. If every post in the tag is mine so be it but it will not be empty. drink from my cup.
Such a big fan I'm making their whole comic and then some
#like yknow what.#it's fine if other people arent doing analysis#or making art#or. idk making shitposts HAHA like#I'm having a freaking good time#I love them#my only fear is like#that people see me making stuff#and theyre like oh I dont have to#or god forbid#I SHOULDNT#like I'd be so so so worried someone would... idk it's silly#but I'm worried someone might see me making stuff and then worry that there's a way to make stuff wrong#there isnt!!! I promise!!!#I promise you can't do it wrong you can make aus you can make fan ocs you can do whatever!#its okay!!!#I just make a ton of stuff because I LOVE them#and I can't help it#theyre straight up my whole life#sorry to all my friends#I dont have much to talk about#other than the them
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some xianzhou portraits or smth
#fu xuan killed me... so many details that i got too caught up in#i shouldnt have gotten so swept up in the deets for her wehhh.. then i mightve had the energy for more of the girlies i wanted to get to#i did her way later tho so it wasnt the same groove i was in yknow 😔#jing yuan killed me bc he is oh so cute n i was squealing kicking my feet yesterday while sketching him (queer art club friends dont see t-#-his part ok yay ty)#honkai star rail#hsr#jing yuan#yanqing#hsr blade#dan heng#dan heng il#fu xuan#my art#jing yuans face kills me.... cutie patootie.. his mane so fluffy too like wuhfhhgh#jy dhil n fx my favs of this batch oki yay yippeeee
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some of the less nice thoughts about being aroace
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bonus: adios
#doodles#kingdom hearts#roxas#axel#olette#aromantic#asexual#aroace#do i tag pence. hes in the background of one panel#ehhhh sorry pence no tag for you#also not tagging soriku and namixi#i mean by the logic of 'theyre in one panel so i wont tag them' i also shouldnt tag axel but. he has dialogue so#anyways i have a very irrational love of olette whenever i need a random side character in a kh comic? olette#i think she uses webmd. anyways im done talking about olette#so let me clarify about this comic#im aroace. this is all just things ive thought before#im not saying in any way these thoughts are real. theyre just thoughts#thats why it ends with 'but there isnt. its just me.' there IS nothing wrong with being aroace. even if it feels like it sometimes#im not trying to send a message im just trying to express a feeling ive had for a while#anyways. the aroace community is super positive and i like that. but not everything i feel about it is that positive#sometimes it feels like im missing something yknow#this comic seems like its about roxas. but its about me. congrats youve been fooled#drafted something similar to this for aro week but didnt finish it in time so this is spiritually part of asaw 2024#btw sorry im not posting as many drawings lately#schools kinda stressful im pretty tired and busy most the time#i am throwing this drawing to you like a slab of meat to a pack of hungry dogs. take this meager ration in these trying times#alright i think thats it bye now
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'I wont cry for you, I wont crucify the things you do. I wont cry for you, see, when you're gone, I'll still be BLOODY MARY'
#cw blood#SUUUPER SCUFFED LIL WIP THATS BEEN RRRROTTING IN MY FOLDER. OUT!! GET OUT!!!#its almos 2 am and imm gettin high as hrothgar. spruced this up within an hour so i could be shared n eaten#its SUPPOsed to be part ofa bigger doodly page so ofc theres the chance this changes between now n then#fuuuuck shoulda made her dress sparkly. fuckit ill fix it laterrrrr. i havnt posted art in YWEARRS i needed to post something#also i uh. well you see i started losing followers on twitter bc im sooo inactive and i KNOW that shouldnt matter like it should be whateve#but. you see. i lkike when number go up and when it go down i get MMMADDD.we all get our dopamine from somewhere#ANYWAY so i actually havnt touched the suckening in so long. been workin on oc stuff.BUT WELL. ARTHUR AND MARY. STILL MAKE ME WEEP#THEYRE SO CUTE N TRAGIC...whadda fuck is it with grizzly n charlie characters being so in love and so doomed#kian and becky then arthur and his various exes like CMAHn.stop doing this to me#from what i remember of the episode.she seemed so.tired.disconnected.like she had been wandering a dream#and yet she seemed so positive.reasonably concerned and yet.content.she warmed up to arthur as soon as she recognized him#she speaks so gently and so sweetly and she keeps the conversation so light.even though shes dead and shes gone and she#is doomed to wander an odd limbo for the rest of time.and yet she seemed so at peace.i can see why arthur liked her.what happened?#what caused them to separate?arthur seems so jaded and so tired.marys company seems like such a gentle place to rest.#how did he squander such a blessing?was it a blessing?OHH what i would give to crack open their minds and peer inside.#yknow wat im runnign out of room i think so ill add a last thought here at the bottom of my tags. I AM MORE CORRECT ABT ARHTURS UGLY LOOK#I WANT THAT MAN TO BE BEASTLY AND GROSS AND STRANGE AND SCARY AND EEWWW I SEE THINGS SQUIRMING IN THE DARK.ther are bugs#LETTING HIM HAVE HOT HOT ABBS AND STUFF WAS A COP OUUTTTT LET HIS WHOLE FORM BE DISTORTED OR UR NOT A FUCKING 0 APPEARANCE BITCH#THE BONES SHIFTED BENEATH AS IF TRYING TO HATCH. MANY OTHER THINGS HATCHED ASWELL. THE DEAD IMMORTAL FLESH SOURED#TOO GRAND TO ROT BUT TOO CORRUPTED TO KEEP CLASSIC FORM. MMMONSTER MONSTER MONSTER MONSTER#oka y im not going to bed but im gonna go. uh. do miore drugs or something. maybe ill work on more jrwi stuff. or oc stuff.#i hope ur day goes swimmingly thankyou for reading my tags i love you so so so so so much
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"Angry robin" "violent robin" "misbehaving robin" shut up and accept my alternative; spunky Robin. Determined and head strong, can out-stubborn the Batman, has a strong moral-backbone and does what he thinks is right regardless of what anybody else says, Robin. Jason who was sassy and quippy and made crude jokes with a smile on his face. Jason who hid in Bruce's cape and whispered gossip to him. Jason who, if Bruce refused him something, could keep bothering endlessly until Bruce caved. And also dramatic Jason. If Bruce tells him no, it becomes a whole theatrical show; a monologue, a narration, embellishments, and falling onto the floor in his grief upon the fact his cruel father has denied him once again.
(Jason who has suffered through abuse and homelessness and poverty and starvation, who is the Fight out of Fight or Flight, who's built up defenses and walls and when pushed and triggered responds with the thing that's always protected him; anger. He's sweet and kind and funny, and when he sees a pimp hitting a prostitute he gets furious and responds with violence.)
#my dc posting#dc#jason todd#jaybin#im having so many thoughts abt jaybin and he is so important to me#in one fic he went on a hunger strike bc alfred didnt eat w them and did it for so long they had to compromise#i love a jaybin 100% willing to menace and bother batman until the man folds. as is his right#the thing abt jason's backstory is that it shows him unwilling to suffer for a home#ma gunn's is bad; he gets beat up and she tries to get him to help rob a place. so he leaves! and rats the whole thing out to batman#and shows up himself cus he didnt think he had been believed#and lets not forget the fact he hit batman with a tire iron and called him a 'big boob'!#the boy's got moxie!! let jaybin be crass and angry and sassy and flawed and traumatized without reducing him to 2d caricature of a 'troubl#d kid'#i dont like a jason who did nothing but use excessive violence and disobey orders and be cocky and all that shit#i like a jason who was. oh yknow. a complex person!! a child/teen who has been fucking abused!!!#you shouldnt erase the fact that jason's reaction/response to stressful situations and triggers IS anger#it's not an indication that he was always gonna become a criminal/red hood or whatever. get outta here w that shit#but like. let us not go so far in the other direction we forget to have him react and be affected by the abuse he's suffered#anyway. if anyone should be a drama-queen it should be jaybin. once he becomes truly comfortable w bruce he should dial it up to 11#a lot of red hood's appeal (to me&many others) is that he is an 'imperfect' victim. meaning he is angry and flawed and doesnt suffer quietl#but is loud and obvious abt it#so when i see jaybin written as the opposite its like. man whats that about#anyway. jaybin is good and cares and wants to help and protect people. and by god if i ever see anybody writing#him having arguments with bruce about the no kill rule WHILE robin again im gonna throw hands istg-#my tags are like a hidden treasure box. most of what i say is in here lmao
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his children make him apologize SO MUCH. say sorry king
#there's like 40 members on the island#that 41th subscriber is the code#cucurcho isnt subscribed to anyone but jaiden#it used to be subbed to roier but not anymore#qsmp#grimmdappyMD is dapper making a reference to his dad's career and his sister's nickname and his own scientist interests#because hes silyyyy#the cellbit and roier videos are supposed to say 'it's so over...' and 'WE'RE SO BACK' but i trusted google translate so B) we'll see#baghera's vid is 'WE SHOULDNT TRUST THE FEDERATION' and yknow what#she's right#but no yeah#badboyhalo has like#a Series of apology videos he's put out at this point#dapper stops talking to him until he's got it down#he COULD have a prerecorded rendition of 'you are my sunshine' but he makes a new cover for it every time for every vid#shape draws
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tumblr user magowolor posts magolor art (CHEERING AND CLAPPIN) yup yuup mhm thats right
#once he claws his way ouy of hell after definantly learning his lesson(not true) He and i will have a summer wedding#lol idk. maybe he did learn smthn but not necessarily the lesson he should have#like to him it was probably just ok MAYBE he shouldnt try n bite off more than he can chew n get carried away#and then he finds some other way to garner attention and make his impression on othars#esp w kirby hes reeely trying to overcompensate for his past misdeeds like hehe yah im suuuuuperr nice now trust ^-^#but maybe just MAYBE theres a slight shift were hes like ok well what if i didnt want to be good just to be convincing#only Bc his past motivation and actions were all built off one lie after another. he cant even tell if these thoughts are genuine#sooo maybe his curiosity gets th better of him and he figures the only way to find out and also maybe possibly b able to form actual bonds#this time around is by commiting to actually intentionally being good and stuff#like hes not suddenly gonna try an be a complete goody two shoes and be perfect bc hes still a mischevious guy yknow but uhm. yeah. yknow#^^^oh BROTHER we got a real yapper over here -_-#kirby#magolor#krtdldx#myart
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hi his outfit is a fucking MESS rn but <3 bedi alter for your thoughts
#aaart#bedivere fgo#my sillyyyy <333#i have . notes about him in my brain#bc i think one of bedi's best attributes is his loyalty#but his loyalty isn't him yesmanning yknow? like he's WILLING to say this is wrong you shouldnt be doing this to arthur if needbe#but bedialter is that loyalty with the morality dial broken off#he does not give a shit if his master/whoever he's aligned with is evil or bad he is loyal to them over even his own sense of right and wro#also the misconception of bedi using dark magic is a real thing and VERY recent as far as i know#ive seen a lot of people claim very specifically that bedivere used dark magic or was a sorcerer and there was a story where he almost got#burned at the stake for it but arthur swooped in and saved him#but i can say with a good bit of certainty that there's no basis for that in the 'original' arthurian 'canon' bc i've never found anything#about it with a source#i may be wrong tho i'm autistic not a medievalist so .#anyway back on track. my pookie bedialter#mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah i wike him#his hair goes dark at the ends like that bc its another riot specific deep cut in that. his voice actor also acts for another white haired#character in another anime i like (konoha from mekakucity actors) and (spoilers for that ig) his character gets possessed and color swapped#so when he's possessed and getting sillay he's got dark hair and i thought it looked cute on bedi idk#i like him i might make changes here n there (and figure out his outfit more) but. im posting him now bc i think he's hot
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met a really cool queer stranger today that i thought was just so fucking neat i wanted to talk but if we were playing tennis they were, with the most gentle and earnest voice ive ever heard, shoving the tennis racket down my throat. every compliment or joke i made was turned away but in the sweetest way possible that made me sound like an absolute asshole lunatic. it was so scary.
#i tried so hard to be funny and nice but the way they replied to each thing i said made me feel like a scumbag LOL#ive never had that happen before. im very polite when i talk to strangers and i was being very polite then too!#i dont think they even saw it happening in realtime bc they were so calm and even keeled about it#but my god. still thinking about it. absolutely rattled me.#'ur so cool' 'oh its not the olympics. everyones cool. ur cool too' 'haha ur right yet ur still winning' 'hm. its not a competition.'#i was trying to make you laugh im sORRY i was being goofy when i said that i promise i did not say it straight#'you have so many cool tattoos' 'oh ive got a couple tattoo artist friends' 'oh thats so cool. maybe i could get a foot in the door'#like obviously as a joke but they replied gently 'you shouldnt seek friends out just to get something from them.'#NO I KNOW I KNOW IM SORRY IT HAPPENS TO ME CONSTANTLY I KNOW TRUST ME#i panicked and was like 'oh haha no i wasnt serious dont worry. im an artist so i know the feeling.' but i guess it came across as like#yknow. bc they just went 'hm.' and pulled out their phone#FUMBLED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so embarrassed#the worst part was id been talking to someone in the back who makes familiar plushies and shed set a few out#so i was talking to them while i was trying to pull up her insta to look up more info about one of the familiars#bc it looked SO FUCKING COOL and i stood there saying that to my husband right in front of them after this legendary fumble#finally pulled up the insta post for it and. they own that one. its theirs. they dressed it like that. i was so fucking embarrassed skdjfks#i wanted to look at the pricetag bc i assumed it was there bc she HADNT sold it yet#god. legendarily embarrassed.
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saw a post last night complaining that the sound of music film and its popularity contribute to the "universalization of the holocaust" and that by depicting an austrian catholic gentile family's opposition to the nazi regime instead of being about jews, it paints some kind of false picture of who the nazis' real targets were. and i'm sorry but that is such a narrow minded, externally motivated reading of the film/musical. and i say this as a jew who broadly agrees that holocaust universalization and the sidelining of "the jewish problem" (as it was known in that era) in film and media is a genuine and pervasive problem. the sound of music...that is really not the right target for your ire, my friend
#sasha speaks#like yeah it is annoying when people spam reblog that gif of georg ripping up the nazi flag right after posting antisemitism#that sucks and i wish it wasn't do prevalent. i also wish antisemitism in general were not so prevalent but yknow.#baby steps or whatever.#but anyway it's not the sound of music's fault that people are using that gif a bunch but misunderstanding nazism#and its specific primary targeting of jews (and romani)#A. i actually don't think it's invalid or bad to show stories about gentiles being threatened by/opposing nazism.#that Was a real thing that happened. the trapp family were in fact real people even if their story is somewhat fictionalized#in the musical#it takes place in 1938. therefore before the holocaust proper had begun#(not that persecution of jews wasn't already a huge thing. the november pogrom was the same year of course.)#but even while racial hatred of jews and romani Was the primary characteristic of nazism and should be recognized and depicted as such#it is not misleading or distracting to also depict the real experience of white gentiles who were threatened by nazism#like. one drop in the bucket. two cakes. whateved#also. and this feels so blatantly obvious to me i shouldnt need to spell it out but.#B. the sound of music was written by two jews in the late 1950s.#it's...it's just not. it's not an example. of a bad faith depiction of wwii/its lead up#sometimes stories are about other things. even when the authors could have made it about more personal subjects to themselves#and the era in which it was created had a very different attitude towards and contrxt for depictions of wwii (& preceding) in media#if you want to get mad at people misinterpreting a musical about the rise of nazism go look on twitter or tiktok for cabaret discourse...#now that's an audience that knows how to miss the gddamn point
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if yall would like to hear my weird lil flimsyass theory ive been sitting on that makes sense in my head but certainly not upon further scrutinization, based on nothing but the slightest bits of evidence that have nothing to do with each other cause whatever tf is happening on the server is being revealed at a snails pace (if even at all) and my weird lil brain that wants Some kind of lore explanation for the slowly changing format of the eps is that its slowly going from improv smp rules to scripted smp ones (in-universe cause its a staged smp no matter what lol)
wtf do i mean by this? am i saying that the chars went from improv smp content to scripted smp content? no, because we're seeing the (unstable) universe through the eyes of characters who dont even know the universe has rules at all cause thats just Life for them, there is no c/cc distinction cause wemmbu the mcytber is the exact same person as wemmbu the cubito
then what Do i mean? i have difficulty explaining it in any detail beyond *vibes* and *formatting* but basically have yall ever compared the differences between improv and scripted content? along with the difference between how the story plays out between them? thats not to say the rules will ever be Completely similar to more scripted smps like thats just not happening i dont think, but like. i think the closest thing i can compare it to rn off the top of my head is like. what happened to the storytelling style in the dsmp lmao, granted this can just be a natural consequence of a series where one of the main purposes is to experiment with and improve the storytelling styles of the main povs along with a story thatll only get more and moer serious and dramatic as the plot progresses
this doesnt Exactly refer to editorial tricks?? cause like earlier episodes had a lot more wide shots than later episodes did, im talking like. ''flavor text'' i suppose -- idk all i'll say is that the further down the list of episodes you go, the more cinematic videos get while their more... lets say "meta" gameplay traits (tab list, f3, etc.) become less prominent
#mine.txt#idk i just really like meta headcanons and uu seemed like the kinda place for that at first#considering the yknow original premise being about a weirdass server that combines exploits that shouldnt happen together#but as it is theres not really much to theorize about meta-wise aside from things like the join order and stuff like that lol#idk ig im trying to say they became less concerned about mimicking actual gameplay and mlre concerned with telling a compelling story#which is perfectly fine lol just nawt the direction i thought it was headed in#but honestly shoukd have foreseen cause thats just how it goes lol#uu
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#lol i love seeing just straight up bullying on tiktok(/s)#someone(im guessing) went into a discord server for proshipping#and then posted their face reveals on tiktok!?!??!?!#basically saying: look how ugly and weird they look#like what the fuck#just bcs you dont agree with someones opinion ON SHIPPING#doesnt mean you should blast them on socmed?#they posted those pics in a trusted space :(#why are people so cruel and vindictive nowadays#people who make it their whole personalities to shit on pros OR antis are so embarrassing#just keep to yourself and keep your personal moral highground you know?#like they go low we go higher etc#cause on tiktok people will post very bait proshipper tiktoks#to the point where i honestly think they're 100% antis who just wanna sow discourse and disgust#like when i see those people im like just ignore them???#just dont engage man. you end up encouraging people to do worse and worse just to cause drama#but yeah antis in return will make all their posts 'correcting' these obv bait posts#like both of you get a life and just do things that make you happy. not things that obv upset you#idk it kinda sickens me how much time people devote to activities that clearly doesn't make them happy#even if youre pleased about dunking on people you morally disagree w +#wouldnt you feel happier engaging with content that yknow. fills you with genuine enjoyment?#not enjoyment fueled by disgust or morally superiority#idk some people feel like children so i shouldnt care too deeply. but the amnt of toxic behavior is so disturbing to me#the posting of faces got on my nerves badly. no matter if you disagree with someone#you shouldnt just straight up expose their face on your big acct BECAUSE OF DIFFERENCES IN SHIPPING OPINION#and the fact that the point is to imply they're all ugly. so fucking childish and disgusting#i reported but idk if that'd do anything. i wish i could have an honest dialog w people like that tbh#catie.rambling.txt
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if you arnte playing scrimp music i dont wanna HEAR it.
#im normalest girl ever. i jsut yknow. whne max left the diner he left sonething behind i think and it was a little cgocolate candy#and i thought oh ill rturn it to him smiling emoji but i realized it was a FERN candy.#... so i ate it because im NERVOUS baout talking to women who i love so much and will DIE if i hurt#prollby shouldnt have done it#i feel like my head is too full#i should call her#no i shouldnt#man i fumbled a bad bitch :(#which 1? yeah#oh waiy shoot#b*tch#if it helps 2 know all my friend son tumblr dot com im home laying on the floor in my bedroom.#mom made me taquitos#Youtube
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i cant help but roll my eyes when people say that the no mercy route is garbage writing and game design because “it jabs at the player for doing it, which means toby didnt want you to play it, which means he wants you to die and fuck off for playing his game!” bc like. if toby didnt want anyone playing no mercy or snowgrave or whatever then he wouldnt have included super boss fights and important lore and character moments in those routes?
#the only reason the characters get pissed at the player is because the game is a meta narrative deconstructing rpg grinding#and in that case the self aware characters know theres a player making someone murder their families and friends… what are you expecting?#it feels like its coming from ppl who think video games shouldnt have complicated narratives and they cant be art#which is such a demeaning and exhausting view to have of video games imo#like…. yes there are guilt trippy elements but itd be weird if the meta game DIDNT get mad at you for all that yknow?#id argue that playing or watching the route is necessary for understanding more of the game like floweys character#like you expect me to believe that toby programmed undyne the undying and did her theme and was like ‘’ill kms if ppl fight her’’#echoed voice
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