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marblerose-rue · 7 months ago

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astarion (as a warrior cat)

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#my art #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate fanart #astarion #purrsonally . if he was a cat . i think hed be like a german rex or something #it makes sense to me #how would vampirism work in warrior cats.? who knows. how does anything work in warrior cats. how do they know how to perform surgery #OK SO I ACTUALLY DREW SHADOWHEART AS A WARRIOR CAT. RIGHT. some time ago. i never posted it publicly bc i drew her with my first tav right #both as warrior cats LMAO and i initially had a star marking on shadowheart but i think im gonna give it to the guy with Star in his name #ill put a moon or something there instead. probably makes more sense LOL

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boxheadpaint · 3 months ago

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ahhh I forgot about ableism. I forgot about that

#Saw a vid about tooth-in-eye surgery and thought waw that’s incredible so went to look up more info #As the vid was a 3D representation of the procedure and had the tooth lens cut out like a Lego piece #and I thought wouldn’t that be not good to have sharp angles in your eye.#Well the answer is they don’t do that! They actually use a quite big portion of the extracted tooth to make a smooth plate #which can be fitted comfortably over the eye #Unfortunately in looking this up you find a lot of people reacting to those who have had this procedure #Which allows them to see out of the toothed eye. Because they were blind in it before from clouding and that’s why they had the procedure #Incredibly recent comments full on describing these people as looking like monsters. Too horrifying to be seen even #Too fucking often online is some surgical procedure that greatly improves your quality of life but it looks different #So it becomes acceptable to mock you for being alive when looking like that. And of course this isn’t even like #Exclusive to people who have needed medical procedures if you just look different at all you get turned into some shock image or meme #Because existing is just a fucking joke. I don’t know

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thedreadvampy · 7 months ago

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sometimes I forget that my experience has been. um. not 'your experiences are not universal' vibes but more like 'your experiences are EXTREMELY atypical'

#red said #recent events have reminded me that my life has involved like. a LOT of other people's psychosis #like not in a way where i have been Beset By Terrifying Crazies bc that's not like. a thing.#but a lot of people in my life have had a lot of really severe psychotic episodes #and i FORGET sometimes. that actually that is an Unusual Amount Of Experience With Psychosis for someone who's not #for somebody who has not really personally ever had psychotic episodes (unless severe PTSD flashbacks count)#actually i tell a lie i have maybe had One psychotic episode but because it was very situational and i knew what was happening #i was able to ride it out. because i am literally only psychotic Inside Hospitals and so that's all fine #as long as i LITERALLY NEVER HAVE TO HAVE INPATIENT CARE. Very important to me to never ever ever require surgery i think.#i can handle the amount of psychosis i get from a 1-4 hour stopoff in hospital #as long as i know I'm leaving soon then i can just Cope with the fact that the walls are moving and reality is thin #ANYWAY that's not the point the point is i forget! that most ppl i know have experience of at most a handful of severe psychotic episodes #some people i know have experienced more for sure. especially if the episodes were mostly theirs.#but people really seem to expect me to be more freaked out by their symptoms of psychosis than i am #bc i don't think i really register it as frightening unless they're in actual danger or Currently Aggressing Actually At Me #like i WORRY about them bc it can super suck but it's not SHOCKING or WEIRD #there have definitely been times ive been frightened. one time i woke up in the night and my friend was standing over me with a knife #but also like he was still HIM he was just having a moment. and as soon as i got the knife off him he just came back and broke down.#and we were fine and he was safe and i learnt the valuable lesson that even when people seem like they wanna kill you they probably don't #tbf now I'm thinking about it it's honestly a tossup whether he was there to threaten or because he felt a need to guard us #like to be clear probably don't try and take a knife off someone having a psychotic break. i was 17 and it was 3am and i knew him very well #i probably did not make the smartest call but nobody got hurt is the point #anyway you know there's that kind of psychotic episode and my granny got very violently angry a few times. buuuut you know there's also #been plenty of other times I've been with somebody having an episode and it's been chill as hell.#my ex saw and heard monsters so much that eventually she just got sick of being scared. we used to watch TV with them #i would sometimes have to sit on a bit of sofa that wasn't haunted and we might not be able to watch certain things bc they didn't like it #most of the time she was hallucinating there was absolutely nothing to worry about we just had a few extra variables #honestly of everyone i know who's had psychotic episodes or schizophrenia the amount of times it's been a material risk #is like. low single figures? maybe low double if you include self harm but idk what the cause and effect is there.#idk why you would need to be frightened like 99.99% of the time it truly is usually just Oh No That Seems Distressing For You I'm Sorry

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skunkes · 3 months ago

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the bad: i have been raised without much warmth from my parents in childhood, but also pressured to conform to familial authority, doubt myself always, and value familial connections above all else (<- failed at this, and feel guilt about it.)

but also in experiencing this i have been so isolated from the entire rest of the world and others, that it will be nearly impossible to create my own "family" -> find safety and comfort in anybody else once my family is Gone. despite dis i find it really difficult to break away from the familiar, disobey and disappoint, because, well, why are my wishes more important than anybody else's. why would I cause upset and distress in anybody, and exert so much effort into my doubt filled half decisions, for my meaningless little Wishes. being away would also mean less time with these people who I'll never see again once they're gone. being raised this way is definitely paying off for those who did so.

the good: yaaaay adjacent inspiration for writing talon lore

#talkys #my dad scaring me but also giving me no advice on what to do instead only saying if i do this it will be the wrong choice leading #to more wrong choices well yep you got me i am scared. i am inept. i fear regret and punishment for wrong decisions.#i struggle to make decisions because i cant go back on them.#''ill never have savings again'' and ''you cant value friends over family they'll abandon you''#and ''living here is only a problem for you because you dont communicate. there is a way to work things out''#i wish i could work it out and stay i dont know why i cant work it out ! and what do i want #to leave so badly for... to continue to never have stable housing #never have savings again? be alone and in danger?#to be able to wear whatever i want and...buy things? really? that doesnt seem very worth it #nothing seems very worth it #im miserable here but maybe i'd be more miserable away...it is true #well at least the chances to leave are very slim. and will continue to get slimmer the more time passes.#but maybe its fine i dont want to ruin my life or be even more of a burden or reason for distress in someone else's #moving out wouldnt fix anything. wherever you go there you are.#my friend said i have to be a little selfish (positive) to push myself to leave. bt i dont want to be selfish. im ashamed of that as a trai #delete later #even now i feel immense guilt and stress when my dad does things that hurt or bother me bc i know ill miss him when he's gone.#(and ill have nobody after all of that. due to the being kept in a cage)#that sucks. why does everyone else always win. why am i always the weakest pliable one. i wish i had no emotions #my surgery is the only decision in my life ive been 100% sure on for years #and even then my parent's words had me crying and rapidly changing emotions daily until the day came #im not strong enough or sure enough about anything else to withstand More of that #<- and i know that tomorrow im gonna be like actually you know what who cares lets try to leave #and the next day ill be resigned to staying here forever #and the next day ill be like actually you know what who cares l

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dovedrangeas · 1 year ago

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it’s cool that trans men are always shoved aside in favor of cis women when it comes to people mocking our bodies. it’s so cool when specifically transmasc bodies are being degraded and someone says “and what about cis women who have had a mastectomy!!!” like it only matters that the cruel words could hurt some random woman and not that they’re hurting transmascs already. it’s so cool that i can just be scrolling and see graphic surgery imagery because people are trying to make a point that our bodies are mutilated and not caring that all surgeries look nasty. it’s so cool i love the world we live in

#transandrophobia #transphobia //#tired of insults towards trans men only mattering when they could also affect cis women LOL #like yes it sucks that a cancer patient who had a mastectomy might see transphobes calling transmascs with top surgery scars zippertits and #mutilated and ruined but it’s not about this hypothetical woman it’s about us #they think we’re ruined women and therefore we’re disgusting #it’s about us! stop making it about them! it’s not!#you can admit that transmascs are actually targeted by transphobia it wont kill you!!!

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newtness532 · 1 month ago

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oh btw i had a dream last night that i was with some friends from middle school at a dan and phill exhibition and for some reason we were cosplaying as some of the mutuals?? ( @geolato and @aluminia are the only ones i remember)

#we didnt stay long bc my friend was having a heart attack #and also i had a heart surgery scheduled for the following monday??#and then sth was happening with my family and there was a newborn and i was like oh my aunt (who is actually pregnant irl) gave birth #but now that i think about it her brother was holding the baby out on the balcony #anyway none of it made any sense but it included the mutuals so i had to share lol #jo says stuff #personal ramblings

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cryptvokeeper · 2 months ago

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anyway I’ve continued to cope with everything by thinking abt the secret Saturdays today and have decided I love the idea of trans Drew Saturday and all the silly things that could come with that headcanon

#“But how could they have Zak if-“ easy Doc is also Trans #Or maybe he’s not they’re friends with a bunch of scientists that study wormholes and clones #You think there wasn’t a secret scientist who could trans your gender? Fool.#One of the secret scientsts they lost raiding argost’s house developed super HRT and magic surgery so Drew could get pregnant case closed #Extra fuckin funny with the existence of Doyle #Dude barely remembers he had a sibling at all so he doesn’t even question it he’s just like “oh I actually had a sister? my b”#Nobody tells him until drew shows him a picture of her as a kid or something and suddenly he’s like ‘?????’#Wait no better idea #he discovers a picture or old records with Drew’s deadname on his own and comes to the conclusion that she lied abt being family #But instead of angst he’s already been family for so long that he’s just like #“She may have lied abt being related but she helped me get revenge on the guy who killed my family and her family genuinely loves me”#“Fuck it found family I guess”#the secret saturdays

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dono-cho · 3 months ago

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drew a Felix body headcannon like, quite some time back with a friend and realised I didn't do one with Cyber (I'm...SO sorry Mr.Cyber you're not wearing muscle Ts for me you big nerd 😔)

#donodoodle #bomb rush cyberfunk #brc faux #brc felix #I made Felix big but he's like actually rather muscular and agile to me #Compared to a certain someone who canonically travels around in a bug pod even in his shitty boss battles #🤨🤨#I have more Cyber arm headcannons but basically I feel like he had to grow up with prosthetics #One day as a kid his classmate accidentally popped it off and no one knew how to put it back so he was like armless for the day #And he swore to never have that feeling of utter humiliation again #So as an adult he'll look into permentantly shoving an arm into his body but doctors obviously don't recommend it #So he went to Flesh Prince but he was too picky with the poor kid's options so he went to make his own prosthetic #But eventually I feel like he'll strip away all the good looking parts because of its weight #And get really upset that nothing is working--he actually just mourns for normal human arms back #So out of frustration and embarrassment he just bolts those metal sticks into his shoulders and--well #Has to be carted out by one of Futurism because he butchered his own surgery

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lornasaurusrex · 9 months ago

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I miss you Lorna… this is such a mess

This is an old message and I had several other similar messages, but I miss you guys and hope you’re all doing well!! I’m sorry to see nothing has improved.

I saw I was kindly mentioned by @awesomefringey and some other commenters the other day, so just wanted to log in and say hello and log back out for a few more months. 💕

Sending so so much love to all of you. Take care of yourselves and each other, please.

The video is still on YT.

#Anywayyyyy #The fandom added a whole lot more C to my C-PTSD #So a nice random message every few months instead of a freshly posted death wish is LOVELY.#Don’t fret. On meds and therapied but fresh tf out of money from it so @ L and H… lornasaurusrexx at g*ail is the PayPal if ur bored 🙃#I hate to be like this but protect your hearts. They’ll never be able to look out for you guys and they feed these trolls ammo for snacks #and it seems to have only gotten worse. Gotta keep them hets hetbaited for their money whilst actively encouraging them to bully yall? Why?#STILL!? At this point it feels like they’ve both chosen that path deliberately now and I find it quite gross. but I’m also very far removed #So don’t worry about my opinions. Keep trusting your own intuition!!! You all see it. I love you guys and your beautiful hearts and empathy #But I hope they can sleep at night knowing the absolute fucking genuine WRECKAGE they left across the Big Gay War generation/era of Larries #Don’t worry guys I’m just as dramatic as ever. None of this has anything to do with them coming out or anything. Just how we were treated.#But trust I fuckin mean that shit from the deepest darkest pit of my Demon Larrie™️ heart. They encouraged this. 🤷🏼‍♀️#Anyone who cares about my actual life updates: I’m a school nurse now and will be working at a bougie summer camp over break #Had a surgery I needed. Got new tattoos and piercings. In a happy and healthy relationship with the best dude for almost a year now.#OH and I went to New Zealand last year with Prettytruthsandlies!!!! We made a pact back in our Big Gay War/college days to go. And we DID!!#I got overstimulated and overfed and puked in Hobbiton. 🤣 (It was the best time of my LIFE GENUINELY🥰🥰🥰🥰🥹🥹🥹)#Okay BYE LOVE YOU GUYS #There are better and more humane ways to maintain a closet ..like literally STFU entirely. Ignoring it and not exploiting a kid is FREE #🇵🇸

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petyou · 2 months ago

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realizing my situation is fr like probably the most niche thing fucking ever and i don’t think ill ever have someone like truly understand it or how im feeling and ive felt alone before but never like this idk

#like WHO gets told they have cancer but they actually didn’t but their tumor WAS 20 fucking pounds???#like i truly 100% believed for 2+ weeks that i have cancer touching every organ in my body and i just completely shut down #i don’t remember like any of it anymore either! it all just is a huge blur now and everything in my life is melding together #during this i also had pneumonia and a fever of 104 for a whole night #i just feel nuts now like truly #and idk how i could go to therapy #what am i supposed to say…….#what can they even do #i dont know how to cope with it all i guess and it feels so just weird #they diagnosed me with medical ptsd and i just am so like. still shocked and it’s been months since my surgery and since they told me #it’s not cancer!#i am fine!#but i feel so like not #at all #i feel like i am regressing so much emotionally and i fr have no support whatsoever

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realbeefman · 1 year ago

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rewatching community why is jeff winger so transgender. “you lost the right [to talk about women’s bodies] the moment you decided to grow a wang!” from 2x21 the entire little indian girl story from crit film studies HELLOOOOO

#*folding my hands* welcome to my presentation on what jeff wingers genitals would look like #actually i have specific opinions on all the community characters genitals in general but nobody wants to hear that #anyways i think he hasn’t had bottom surgery but was planning to before he got fired from lawyer fraud #and he has like a 4 inch t dick. does not shave but keeps himself well trimmed and used to wax #also his parents were supportive when he came out at likeee 16 (alr suspected somewhat)#they were somewhat not understanding just bc it was the 90s and people arent perfect #but his transness plays into his disconnect from them #bc he feels a lot of shame about it. well FELT past tense bc the greendale crew all know he’s trans and accept it #even pierce who jeff expected to constantly bring it up and harass him #was oddly supportive in a ‘doesnt totallh understand whats up but whatever’#which helped him be a lot more Himself and get over some of that bc. here’s this group of all types of ppl #who donf care! who love and accept him and never question it!#community tv #jeff winger

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thirteens-earring · 3 months ago

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i could say so much about the homeschooled ballerina to tradwife pipeline

#people really don’t realize serious dancers don’t like. get an education #this is about the queen bee of my childhood studio who’s had multiple chiropractor induced hip surgeries and had to retire from dance #after getting her Mrs degree to stay at home with three kids. shes only a year older than me #I was always so much worse at dance than I could’ve been bc I was actually going to school and I hated that at the time #but god. 20/20 hindsight

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chronicillnesscaneffoffplease · 8 months ago

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Peak hEDS with comorbid POTS moment: clenching your butt as a counter-manoeuvre to help your pre-syncope, and clenching so hard you crack something back into place in your back with a loud pop. This condition truely is the gift that keeps on giving 🙃

#as my sister said- only you lol #the ups and downs of chronic illness #pots #hEDS #ehlers danlos syndrome #also happy may to those who celebrate #kinda toying with the idea of doing the awareness blogging prompts here #I do have some problems with the EDS society and things like zebra strong but part of me loves it bc zebras were my childhood favourite #animal so I’ve had a bunch of zebra stuff for years which is funny #like my first and dearest zebra plushie is the one that comes to my hospital trips/surgery with me #even before I found out about my EDS #that tickles me pink a bit #also toying with the idea of putting something up on my old people #actually linked to my identity social media but idk #bit scary but also like #awareness important

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eddis-not-eeddis · 8 months ago

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#just saw another video of a korean woman who got her eyes “fixed” because she had an “ugly” face #and i just want to rip and tear and bite everyone in the plastic surgery business over there because NOOOOOOOOO #noooooooo #she was so beautiful #her eyes were gorgeous #she didn't need to “fix” anything to look pretty #she was already such a beautiful woman #my heart actually hurts every time a korean woman tells me she's not pretty yet because she still hasn't fixed her eyes or her nose #i'm literally sitting here gnashing my teeth #korean faces are so beautiful #korean woman are lovely to the point that i am actually probably sinfully covetous of their natural eyes and noses #why do we live in a world where beautiful people mutilate themselves to match such a completely arbitrary standard #if you think plastic surgery culture is bad in the u.s....it is #but this entire problem is on STEROIDS in south korea

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varjopeura · 2 months ago

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#oh hey i just caught myself harboring Unnecessary Nightmare Scenarios #that last post made me think about how the only thing stopping me from getting another dog is money #like i could afford having a friend for savu. it would be no problem #BUT in a situation where i lost my partner and had to provide for the dogs by myself and they'd both get sick i'd be in deep trouble #which has sounded like a completely rational thing to be aware of. a completely valid reason for not getting another dog #except that is quite a few things that need to go wrong before the deep trouble would actually hit #and is that really the way i want to live my life? waiting for this relationship to end? accepting that eventually i will be left alone?#that my current life is nothing but a brief respite from a continuous struggle with both finances and illness? a glitch that will soon pass #it actually doesn't sound valid at all when i write it out like this #i have a partner who brings another stable paycheck into this household. i have no reason to believe this would change anytime soon #i have a wonderful dog that would probably benefit from having a friend #shelties are not super prone to any major lifelong diseases or such so it's unlikely the new dog would need constant expensive treatments #i think this thought pattern got a hold of me when savu got sick last spring #it was scary and unpleasant and i still feel raw around the edges after experiencing all of it #(the dog is fine by the way! definitely better these days and i'm super happy we got the surgery. we have many good years ahead of us still #but like. i'd like if my brain accepted 'this summer was scary and i'm not sure if i'm ready to possibly experience it with another dog'#instead of feeding me lies about a future where i'm all alone and desperately poor #but hey i've never caught this one before! now i know this thought pattern exists and can do something about it #sussitalk

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rivilu · 16 days ago

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I started making Ellu in the dav cc for fun and. Tell me why I'm tempted to actually play him.

#it would only count as half of a gag character he's just Like That. This Would happen to him #he Would land here somehow #the only downsides would be- 1: id need to play with no sound because im sorry his og voice set is too important to me #2: no romance. sighh #also I'd need to chose a faction other than warden </3 #i can't justify him having the blight he's quite literally a plant #then again. ... wait would the wound and the abyss energy etc count as a universe equivalent 😭#wHY AM I ANALYSING THIS #edit: its actually fascinating as a concept like. how would this idiot interact with taash.#his relationship with gender is too scrambled for what the game has to offer fnsndj not its fault btw #i mean the concept in his wotr iteration is the original elf was afab but by the time he died and came back via wild hunt dhhdjs #didn't look it at all. so add on to that the loss of memory post death i don't think he's even aware of it #so literally what do you count for that as 😭#don't even get me started on the sexuality thing we don't have time to unpack all of that #edit edit: further context since im in the scar segment of the cc and remembered to talk about it #the only ones that are 'permanent' on him /aka function like normal scars are those made w cold iron (see the one on his face)#(also why post trickster situation i don't always draw them. he can hide those and does)#thinking about the pre fey situation though is pretty funny bc the original elf lived a (????) amount of time back in the past 😭#ofc in settings like this one time does not really move as it does in history (see dae having the most 1700's staple coat ive ever seen-#but one of his endings being lobotomy. a 1930s procedure)#thus who fucking knows maybe the og elf could've had top surgery instead of a more magic related situation 😭 who knows #sometimes i give ellu the scars sometimes i don't it's as ambivalent as his alignment

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