#but v likely i will b drawing her with short hair

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realized i never posted these so heres my jkeu designs!! (rachel design inspired by @sourscratched !!)

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[confused-pyramid]

Damage is Done

pairing: rafe cameron x pogue!reader

summary: You and Rafe hooked up when you first moved to the OBX, and he hasn't been able to get you out of his system ever since.

word count: 8.6k

warnings: SMUT, slight dub-con, p in v, fingering, overstimulation, oral (f!receiving and m!receiving), hair pulling, choking, dark!rafe, toxic relationship, drinking, vague discussions of mental health

The air feels hot and humid even as the sun sets on the first day of summer. The annual start of summer bonfire is just getting underway, and you can already feel yourself starting to perspire. Not even your bikini top and denim shorts are small enough to keep the heat away tonight.

"Where the hell is JJ with my beer?" you grumble as Kiara takes a seat on a log next to you. "I'm melting over here."

Kie, who hasn't even started to glisten, just laughs. "That's what you get for being from out of state. All of us locals are used to the heat by now."

You feign a laugh and shove her shoulder. "You're hilarious. I've been living in the OBX for two years now, when are you guys gonna stop giving me shit for being from Boston?"

"When you're no longer from Boston."

You look up to see JJ and Pope, the first of whom hands you a full cup of metallic beer. The first time you tasted beer from a keg, you spat it out after a single sip. Since then, you've grown to love the taste of metal.

By the time you down your cup, the party raging around you finally starts to get exciting. You spot John B dancing with some girl who's clearly here on vacation, and watch as Pope stares longingly at Kie...who is staring at JJ.

Shaking your head, you stifle a smile and head over to the keg to fill your cup again. When you arrive, the line seems to go on forever, so you turn around, looking for something different, or a bit stronger.

"Looking for something?" a voice calls from next to you. You turn your head to see a shirtless Rafe Cameron holding up a bottle of whiskey. "Hey, Boston. I'll pour you a finger if you ask nicely."

Perfect. Just who I need to see today.

"Just give it to me, Rafe," you grumble, reaching out to grab the bottle. Humor dances in his eyes and you gulp, hating the fact that you are still affected by his bare skin.

He pulls it away at the last second, making you stumble forward slightly. He's much taller than you, and you have to tilt your head back to meet his eye, but that's how he likes it.

"I said nicely," he grins, holding the bottle out again.

Rafe can see the anger growing behind your eyes, and it builds the excitement in his own. He's only seen you mad on a few occasions, but that was when you were the most fun.

You roll your eyes, tossing your empty cup at his feet and shaking your head. "Whatever, Cameron. I'm not playing this game with you."

You turn and start walking across the sand to your friends, when a hand grabs your wrist and spins you back around. "Rafe, what the fu-"

"We need to talk," he mutters under his breath as he leans in close - too close.

You take a step back and put on what you hope is your most menacing look. "We are never talking about what happened, okay? Ever."

This time when you storm off, he lets you, and you make your way back to your friends, hoping they didn't see any of what just occurred. When you sit back down on the log next to Kiara, JJ's spirited recounting of a time when he stole a six-pack lets you know that you're in the clear.

***

You are waiting for JJ to finish his shift at the docks when you see Rafe again. He is grabbing something from his yacht when he catches your eye, and you look around for a moment before deciding that making a break for it would draw too much attention.

He takes his sweet time walking over, and you squint against the bright sun as he finally stands in front of you.

"Finally stopped avoiding me?" he taunts, his voice low over the heavy breeze.

You laugh humorlessly. "I'm not here for you, Rafe."

"You're on my side of the island."

Of course that's how he would see it. The separation between Kooks and Pogues is something you still have a hard time wrapping your head around, but each interaction has made it clear that you may be the only one.

"I'm not doing this with you," you sigh loudly, turning to see if JJ has appeared yet. "Just go back to your fucking yacht and let me live in peace."

Your words are laced with malice, but he can sense the tension hidden under your tone. He gives you a once-over, taking in your skimpy tank and shorts, and frustration flares behind his eyes as he realizes just how much you have started to look like all the other Pogues you hang out with.

"So it's about the money," he says, his voice slowly ramping up as he speaks. "If the only reason you can find to hate me is my money...then maybe try a little fucking harder."

"I don't fucking care about your money, Rafe," you gape, appalled by the fact that he could boil it down to something so small. "You're not a good person. All you do is bring out the worst in people."

Something that looks like hurt crosses his face for a split second before it turns into a frightening air of pride. "Like I did with you?"

You blanche, glaring at him even as your face flushes with embarrassment. "I didn't hear you complaining."

He wipes the corner of his lips with his thumb, glancing behind you for a moment, before leaning down to your level. "My mouth was a little preoccupied."

Heat sizzles through your veins and you feel a gush of wetness as his breath tickles the shell of your ear. There's a ghost of a smirk on his face, but there's also a flare of irritation in his eyes that sets off a nervous excitement inside of you. You don't know what it says about you that you like the fact that he looks like he wants to tear you apart just to put you back together again.

Your eyes fall shut for a moment, before you regain your senses and shove him away. "Fuck off, Rafe."

"Leave her alone, Cameron!" JJ's voice suddenly calls from behind you.

Fuck. Of course he saw JJ, he's just trying to get a rise out of you in front of the Pogues.

You close your eyes for a beat, and when you open them again, Rafe is wearing an amused expression.

"See you around, Boston," he salutes before spinning on his heels and walking away.

You paste a smile on your face when JJ comes up behind you, and when he asks if Rafe was bothering you, you don't know why you end up saying 'no'.

***

Before you know it, the Midsummers party is around the corner. Kiara's family makes her go all out for the celebration, and John B has been sneaking off to meet up with Sarah Cameron, still pretending that they all don't already know what's been going on between them.

When John B finds out that Pope and JJ are both working at the event, he approaches you with a plan to get in, but you decide that simply asking Kie to be her plus one may be a simpler solution, for you at least.

When the evening of the party finally arrives, you find yourself in Kiara's room, getting ready for an event you have never seen the likes of before.

"What's with all the flowers and stars and shit?" you ask as she hands you a flower crown that looks like hers, but slightly smaller.

She shrugs, placing her crown over her hair. "Don't ask me. I've just been dragged to this party every year since I was 13."

You would never admit it, and especially not to Kie, but you're actually pretty excited for Midsummers. Ever since your family packed up and moved out to Kildare, you've only really gotten to experience the Pogue life, and while your friends were everything you wanted and more, a taste of Kiara's upbringing wasn't entirely unwelcome.

She may complain about the Kook life, but there was something to be said about having everything you needed at your fingertips...and that something spoke to you.

The country club is decorated beautifully when you arrive with Kiara and her family, and you take a moment to soak in the warmth of the torches and the scent of flowers that waft around you.

It smells...expensive, for lack of a better word. And you don't hate it.

Rafe notices you the moment you walk in. He doesn't even bother trying to tell himself that his eyes were just wandering, because ever since he found out the Carreras had added a plus one, he hadn't stopped looking for you. He half-expects you to turn your nose up at this event, just like Kiara always had, so he's taken by surprise when he sees the wistful expression that crosses your face.

You like it here. The thought brings a small smirk to his face and he takes a sip of champagne to hide his glee. He doesn't have to hide for long, because his expression immediately falls the moment your waiter friend comes by and pulls you into a spinning hug.

Rafe turns away from the scene and tunes back in to the conversation he was having with Topper and Kelce.

"I feel like Sarah's been avoiding me," Topper continues miserably, and Rafe resists the urge to roll his eyes.

Of course she's avoiding you. She can't handle being committed to anyone, let alone a spineless prick like you.

He has had just about enough of Top's complaining for tonight, so he downs his glass in a hefty gulp and walks out onto the dance floor to get some air.

That's when you notice him. His pale blue suit makes him look soft under the waning sunlight, but you know better. Even if you sometimes wish you didn't.

You watch as he grabs a champagne flute from a waiter's tray and takes a long swig. Memories of his lips trained somewhere else send a shot of heat through your abdomen, and you press your legs together under your dress.

His throat bobs as he swallows the bubbly liquid, and you don't realize you've been staring until Rafe's eyes meet yours.

Your eyes widen and you turn away immediately, but it's too late. You don't have to look to know that he's coming up to talk to you, and before you can formulate an escape plan, he is standing beside you.

Rafe can feel the tension wafting off of you, and while he does love to agitate you, he definitely doesn't want to cause a scene and embarrass his family.

He leans over by a fraction of an inch and his bicep glances against your shoulder. He is fully ready for you to shove him aside or start another outburst, so when you don't move, he can't help but lose his breath.

"I thought you were too cool to party with the kooks."

You scoff, looking at something out on the horizon. "I'm only here to keep Kiara company."

"You just keep telling yourself that."

He always did know how to say just the right thing to get a rise of you.

"What do you want from me, Rafe?" you ask, finally looking at him. "Just tell me what you want, so we can stop this asinine charade we've been playing for a year."

He almost doesn't know what to say now that you have finally addressed the growing tensions, but when the words form, he can't hold them in. "I want you to admit that you haven't stopped thinking about what happened that night...because I damn well know that I haven't."

It takes you a few moments to fully understand his words, but once you do, your body involuntarily takes a step back.

You would be lying if you said that you hadn't thought about what happened between you two. If you said you hadn't pictured his mouth when you slid your fingers between your thighs late at night.

Everything about that night had been a surprise, but nothing more than how Rafe Cameron had made you feel when you finally slipped under his sheets.

You can't even say you were drunk, because the expensive liquor had been too much for you and you hadn't touched your cup since arriving at the Camerons' end of summer house party.

It was your first summer on Kildare, and the Pogues had just accepted you into their ranks. You weren't sure if you would be able to fit into their tight-knit group, so you took a chance and went to a Kook party.

The drinks had been too heavy and the music too loud, but everyone was having fun, so you tried your best. However, if you had been honest with yourself, you would've known that you had come to this party for one reason. One person.

Instead, you pretended this was a way to explore the island, and when you needed a break from the party, you had gone up the stairs and sat in the first empty room you could find.

When Rafe found you there, sitting on his bed, he almost didn't seem surprised.

"I've seen you around," he had said, setting his cup on his desk, "hanging with those Pogues."

"What is with the fucking names around here," you had mumbled under your breath, until you heard his quiet chuckle. "I just don't get why you guys have divided the island like it's fucking Battleship or something."

"What's your name?" Rafe asked then, his eyes trained on yours like a hawk. "Where are you from?"

You weren't sure what you wanted out of tonight, so you stuck with a simple answer. "Boston."

He laughed again, shutting the door behind him and taking a seat on the chair opposite you. "What are you doing in my bedroom, Boston?"

You jolt out of the memory as Rafe's head dips down to look at you.

So yes, it would be a lie to say that you hadn't thought about him since. But lying to him was easy, especially when the truth had the power to tear your life apart.

"I can't," you whisper, leaning in like you have a secret. "I can't admit it, because it's not true."

His lips part with shock, and you take this second of confusion to rush down the stairs and onto the dance floor, where Kiara is waving you over.

"Was Rafe giving you trouble?" she asks as you take her hand and follow her out onto the lawn. "I would say I'll tell the guys, but my parents would kill me if I created a scene."

You laugh lightly, shaking your head. "No trouble. He was just asking what I was doing here."

She still looks concerned, so you pat her hand and cock your head over to where Pope is working with his dad. "Let's go say hi."

"I hate to say it, but the kooks really know how to throw an event," Pope muses when you approach him. "Don't tell JJ I said that."

Kie starts to laugh but it quickly turns to a cough when she points to the veranda off to the side of the party. "I guess John B found his way in."

You follow her line of sight to find John B pulling Sarah Cameron into a tight hug. When you look past her, you notice that Topper and Kelce are getting dangerously close to spotting them.

"Guys," you whisper-yell, getting their attention, "we need to buy him some time."

Kiara frowns. "I got Topper."

"I guess I got Kelce," Pope sighs as they disperse.

You glace around the party for a few moments before deciding that your efforts may be better spent inside. Pushing past all of the couples swaying on the dance floor, you walk into the country club, catching onto the railing when you stumble over your heels.

Other than a few stragglers and couples making out in the corner, the club is basically empty, most people favoring the festive pavilion. You're about to head back outside when a familiar voice calls to you from across the hall.

"If you want me to leave you alone, you gotta stop following me around everywhere."

You suck a breath in, spinning around to see Rafe sauntering over to you. "I'm starting to think you might be stalking me, Boston."

You make an undignified noise, your eyes taking in his tall form. His hair is falling into his face and you begrudgingly admit that he looks good - really good - but this isn't the time. You're supposed to be helping John B.

"Give me a break," you scoff. "Why would I be stalking you?"

Rafe shrugs, striding forward so he's a step away from being face to face with you. "That's what I'm trying to figure out, seeing as how you don't think about me."

He takes another step, his breath fanning over your temple. Your face burns as you try to avoid looking at him, but with his lips so close to yours, it's nearly impossible.

When you finally look up, his eyes are piercing, and your mouth dries up like the room has been turned up a 100 degrees.

"Now," he whispers, his eyes never leaving yours, "I'm gonna go back to the other kooks."

He takes a step around you, and you almost let him, before you remember what you're doing here in the first place: distracting him.

Running on pure instinct, you grab his arm and pull him back toward you until his lips meet yours.

Rafe can hardly believe what is going on, but your mouth is hot and sweet and he would be remiss to let you get away when he's finally gotten you back. You smell like gardenia and he takes a deep breath in as his hands grip onto your waist, pulling you closer to him under the dim light of the club.

You can taste the champagne bubbles on his tongue when he kisses you back, and you gasp against his mouth when his hands tighten on your waist and push you against the side wall, away from the view of the party.

Your back hits the wall with a thud and you almost laugh at the fact that he wants to hide this as much as you do, but it feels so good and it's been so long, that you allow yourself a second to stay in the moment. With him.

When his hands come up to tug your hair back, the sharp sting sends a shot of heat through your core and you bite down on his bottom lip for good measure.

Rafe pulls back with a wince, but he doesn't look mad. The opposite, if anything.

He presses his thumb against his lip and the sight of his blood sends you flying back to reality. Reaching forward to wipe a bit of your lip gloss off the corner of his mouth, you flash him a grin and stalk back into the party.

When your conscience comes back to haunt you later that night, you tell yourself it was all just to distract him.

***

After the party, Rafe screws his eyes shut as the girl kneeling in front of him takes him in her mouth, her lips gliding up and down his length at a maddening pace.

His head falls back and he resists the urge to grip her hair and pound up into her, even though his body is begging for a release. He doesn't want to touch her or taste her or even open his eyes, because then he'll remember that she's not you, and that's exactly what he needs tonight.

You're what he needs every night, but when he saw your blond friend tuck his face into your hair as you left the party, he had seen red and needed an immediate reprieve.

His cock twitches in the girl's mouth and he allows himself a single moment to imagine it's you instead. To picture your soft lips and wide eyes and -

A groan tears through his throat and he spills into her willing mouth.

***

It doesn't take long for Sarah to insert herself into the Pogues, but once she and Kie figure out their shit, you find that you don't mind having another girl around.

She was fun to hang with at the Chateau, and she was a great surfing buddy, so when John B recruits the gang to break her out of her house late one night, you don't question it.

As usual, the plan is pretty much to go with the flow, but once you make it to the Cameron property, the risks of what you're about to do finally hit you all.

"Okay, fuck this," Kie sighs, holding her hands up. "We need an actual plan this time. I say John B and y/n sneak up to her room to get her, while JJ, Pope, and I create a distraction out back."

You nod, fist bumping John B and saluting the rest of the group. "Let's do this."

Once you find an open window at the back, the plan goes into motion, with Kiara and the guys lighting a pillow on fire while you and John B hide behind curtains on the first floor.

When Ward and Rose run out back, you both hightail it up the stairs before slowing to a tiptoe on the top floor.

"I'll get her from her room," John B whispers to you as he sneaks along the wall of the hallway, "you keep a look out."

He slinks off down the hall as you backtrack, being careful not to make any noise. You hear a few excited whispers from Sarah's room, but you don't notice anything else until a hand clamps over your mouth and pulls you back into a room off the hall.

You stop trying to scream when the door shuts and you realize you're in Rafe's bedroom. Peeling his hand away, you shove him off, glaring at him as he smirks back.

"Now I really think you're stalking me," he grins, pushing his hair back from his face. "What are you doing here, Boston?"

"That's none of your business," you spit, turning on your heels to leave.

You don't make it to the door before Rafe's hands spin you back around and push you against the wall. There's a small thud as your back makes contact, but no pain comes until he presses his hand to your throat, keeping you in place.

"Actually," he licks his teeth, "seeing as how it's my house, I think it is my business. Now spill it, Pogue."

"I can't say anything while you're choking me," you grit out, your voice just barely constricted by his hand.

He barks out a laugh, his hand tightening on your throat until it actually hurts. "You call that choking? When I'm really choking you, you'll know...because you'll be begging for more."

Against your every instinct, heat floods your core, and you know he's right. You know that whatever this is, whatever dark, animal urges he is running on, so are you.

He must notice the shift in your eyes, because his face dips down and your chin involuntarily tilts up to meet him halfway when a voice whisper-yells from the hall.

"Y/n!" Sarah calls out, "where are you?"

You use this moment of distraction to push him off and slip through the doorway before he can make himself seen.

You meet the group at the bottom of the stairs, where they are all waiting.

"Where the hell were you?" Pope asks, concern tinging his impatience.

You wave away his confusion, following them out of the house. "I thought I saw someone, so I hid in one of the spare rooms."

It's not the truth, but it's close enough that you allow yourself the omission. The part of you that wanted a person like Rafe; the part that was drawn to the darkness, instead of running from it...that part of you needed to stay hidden, even if it meant lying to the people you loved most.

***

Every Friday night, you guys would all have a 'Pogue party' at the chateau. This always consisted of drinking, smoking, and playing stupid games until everyone passed out for the night, and tonight was no different.

The air was sticky with heat and John B had left his door open to let whatever fresh air there may be in.

You're already a couple of shots in when JJ finishes his joint and starts to get paranoid, like he usually did.

"We need to figure out how we're gonna get back at the Kooks for what happened at Midsummers," he commands, his hands gesticulating wildly. "They can't get away with treating us like shit."

"I actually agree with him," Pope nods, taking a sip of his beer. "We need to retaliate so they know we won't take their shit lying down."

Kiara lets out a small laugh as she hops up to sit on the arm of the couch JJ is lying on. "What do you propose we do then? Set fire to their backyard? Already done."

You don't even register that it's you talking when you blurt out, "What if we just let it go."

You blink when the rest of them gape at you, only then realizing what you said. "That was a joke."

"Good," JJ squints, a small frown coloring the edges of his mouth. "So anyway..."

You stand up from your spot on the couch and head into John B's kitchen with some lame excuse about getting another drink. You have no idea where your comment came from, but if you had to guess, you think it may have something to do with the growing presence Rafe has had in your life recently.

You grab a bottle from the counter and take a long swig that burns your chest from the inside out. The flavor just reminds you of the whiskey on his tongue from the night you got together, and the bottle almost falls from your grasp.

It takes you almost an hour to get your bearings again, but when you head back into the living room, the rest of the gang is asleep.

Sighing, you lay down on one of the couches and close your eyes.

***

An hour later, you're no closer to falling asleep than you were when you first closed your eyes. Your mind keeps wandering to memories that you have kept locked away for a long time - too long.

The sound of a soft breeze hitting the wind chimes out front lulls you into a quiet trance and for once, you finally let yourself succumb to the memory.

"What are you doing in my bedroom, Boston?"

"I got lost," you said simply, shrugging. You both knew you were lying, but that's what made it more fun.

He had flashed you a sly smile and you had wanted so bad to just reach out and trace the seam of his lips with your fingertip. He looked so pretty under the soft moonlight, and you were the kind of girl who knew how to get what she wanted.

You knew that was probably why you had been so infatuated with Rafe since coming to the island. Because of the challenge. Because he's a Cameron, and you're practically a Pogue, and something about getting a taste of the darkness excited you more than you'd care to admit.

"Why don't I believe that?" he asked, his voice coming out like a breath. He leaned forward, his elbows resting on his thighs, and you had to exercise all of your self control to keep from staring at the way his biceps strained in his button-down. "I know about you, Boston. I've seen you watching me."

"Oh yeah?" you had smirked, pressing your feet into the ground and inching your legs apart. "What are you gonna do about it?"

Your eyes fly open and you sit upright, your breaths coming out in short spurts. This was too much to bear, even without the other Pogues sleeping all around you.

Taking a deep breath, you carefully step over JJ's sleeping form, making sure to avoid the creaky floorboards on the way to the door. You slip through the open doorway and out into the trees, feeling more and more reckless, the farther you get from the chateau.

It's a long walk to the Cameron mansion, but the fresh air doesn't help clear your thoughts. You're a long way from the girl you were when you first moved to the OBX, but Rafe keeps finding a way to prove that you still have the desire for pain and discomfort. For danger.

When you get to their front porch, you allow yourself one moment to pretend that you're here to get Sarah, but when Rafe pulls the door open, you can't deny it any longer.

He must be able to see it on your face, because his mouth curves up into a slow grin that makes your eyes dance with relief.

"Is Sarah home?" you ask, maybe somehow still hoping for one last chance at a reprieve.

He shakes his head. "She just snuck out."

You nod once, glancing behind him. "Can I come in?"

He leads you out to the back balcony that has a small patio setup and a beautiful view of the ocean. "I'm assuming you don't want anyone to know you're here, so this is the farthest we can get from the bedrooms."

You press your lips together, taking a seat on one of the couches. The wind brings a slight chill, and you shiver, prompting him to hand you his hoodie.

The waves are crashing quietly against the shore, and they look like black ink under the night sky. When Rafe takes a seat next to you, you glance over at him, watching his jaw twitch as his hair rustles in the breeze.

He looks almost wistful under the dim lighting, and your brow scrunches as you try to fathom how this boy could have fallen so far. 

"You hurt my friends," you whisper once the silence starts to become unbearable.

"I know."

You pause for a beat. 

"You hurt me."

His eyes flicker down. "I know that too."

You run a hand through your hair, your breath coming out like a scoff. "I don't understand what you're doing, Rafe. Please, just help me understand it all, because I feel like I'm losing my mind trying to come up with excuses for you."

That gets his attention. "I never asked you to make excuses for me."

Your face contorts and he closes his eyes for a long moment. "I don't deserve your forgiveness, Boston."

"Don't you think I know that?" you cry, before bringing your voice down again. "I've just never had the best judgment when it comes to you."

"What are you gonna do about it?"

Rafe stood up from his chair, his eyes impossibly dark in the dim light of his room. "You sure you know what you're getting into?"

You nodded, your tongue darting out to wet your lips. "Do your worst."

His eyes flashed and he pushed your knees further apart, sending you falling back onto the bed. You were prepared for him to lift your dress and tear your panties off without a warning, so when all you felt were his fingers trailing up your thighs, you were almost upset.

But then he ran his cool finger down your glistening slit and you gasped loudly, turning your face into the sheets bunched up around you.

"So wet for me," he mused, sticking his finger into his mouth. "Sweet too."

Without another word, he pushed two fingers into you, sinking all the way in as you squirmed over the covers. It took a second for you to get acclimated to the feeling, but once his mouth came down to join in, waves of heat had already begun spreading through you.

You practically whined when he lifted your ankles over his shoulders, diving back in to run his tongue over your sensitive clit. Your hands came down to grip onto his hair as he continued his pleasurable assault to your dripping cunt. The sharp tug made him groan, which only sent more vibrations up your abdomen.

"Fuck, I'm close," you moaned as he pressed his hands into your stomach to keep you from rising off the bed. "Don't stop!"

Instead, he did exactly that.

"Asshole," you spat as he grinned back at you, his chin glistening with your slick.

"We're not done yet," he said simply, lifting your legs off of him and pushing you back further on the bed.

Rafe began undoing the buttons on his shirt, so you lifted your dress off, chucking it onto the floor beside his clothes. You couldn't help but watch as he slowly pulled his pants down, his thick cock springing out of his boxers.

Saliva flooded your mouth and you instinctively reached forward, hoping for a taste, but he batted your hand away. Climbing over you, he grabbed a condom from his drawer and slid it on, pumping his dick a few times for good measure.

"It's not gonna fit," you whispered as he lined himself up with your cunt.

"I thought you said you could handle it."

His smug expression sent a flare of anger through your brain and you wrapped your legs around his waist, pushing him down and inside of you.

The stretch was a perfect mix of pain and pleasure and you both moaned in tandem, his low groan blending with your sharp gasps. He pushed a bit further until he was all the way in, before starting to move.

His thrusts began slow and shallow, allowing you a few moments to get used to his size, but the moment you began to squeeze around him, he changed his pace.

"Rafe, fuck, yes," you gasped, your hands lifting up to press into his back.

His thrusts sped up, hitting the same perfect spot inside of you as the coil in your stomach wound tighter and tighter. It only took a few more seconds for the coil to snap, and you cried out, digging your nails into his shoulder blades as you spasmed around him.

Once your orgasm had finally begun to abate, he pounded into you a few more times, before spilling into the condom and pulling out.

You were lying next to him, your breaths finally starting to slow, when you saw him turn to you out of the corner of your eye. "Wanna go again?"

The sounds of the water pulsing below is all you can hear for a long time. You're so focused on the sound that you almost don't hear it when Rafe speaks again.

"I don't have an answer for you," he murmurs, his voice carrying just barely above the breeze whistling by your ears. "You said you wanted to understand me, but I don't even know what's going on inside my head half the time."

Your brow furrows and you place your hand on the couch between you two. His movements seem unconscious as he slides his fingers over so that they press against yours.

"Do you regret it?"

"Regret what?" you ask, turning to look at him.

"That night," he says, stumbling over his words. "Our night."

It would be so easy to lie, just like at Midsummers, but this time feels different. Lying now feels like a betrayal, and even after everything he's done, you can't bring yourself to cross that line.

"No," you sigh, pressing your hand on top of his. "I don't regret it."

***

When you get back to the chateau, Sarah is sitting on the porch.

"There you are," she pouts, standing up and giving you a hug. "Everyone's asleep inside, and JJ's sprawled out over the whole floor, so there's nowhere to step."

You laugh lightly, hoping the night's exploits aren't written all over your face. "I was just out looking for you, actually."

"Huh, weird," she frowns. "You'd think I would have ran into you on the way here then."

You shrug, hoping she'll drop it, and walk past her to get the door. You haven't even reached the knob when she grabs your arm and pulls you back, somewhat forcefully.

"Y/n," she whispers, her voice low and warning, "why are you wearing Rafe's sweatshirt?"

Your eyes widen and you yank it over your head. "Sarah-"

"What have you gotten yourself into?" she asks, her voice sounding genuinely concerned.

You look at the hoodie for another second, before tearing your eyes away from it and handing it to her. "It was nothing. It was stupid, and it won't happen again."

She takes it and ties it around her waist before shooting you a sidelong glance. "This is different. I've seen you around guys you hooked up with. This isn't like that."

You open your mouth to speak but she lifts her hand up, cutting you off. "I won't tell Kie or the guys, but you need to figure out what the hell is going on in your head."

Tears flood your vision. "I'm sorry, Sarah. I can't even imagine what you must think of me."

"Hey, don't apologize to me," she whispers, taking your hand. "I mean, I still love him after everything...what does that say about me?"

You blink the tears away and let Sarah Cameron loop her arm through yours. Maybe everything would be okay again.

***

You don't see him again until he and Barry ambush your friends at the airplane hangar. The altercation turns violent too fast and before you know it, Pope and JJ are on the ground, throwing around punches faster than you can keep up.

When Barry goes for JJ, you rush into the action, but Rafe manages to snag your arm, shoving you out of the way. You stumble back, bumping your hip painfully into the boxes beside you.

Anger and hurt fills your vision and before you can understand what you're doing, your hand flies up to slap him across the face.

He barely flinches, his teeth gritting against the pain. "That the best you got?"

Tears sting your throat, but you refuse to give him the satisfaction. "I don't even know you anymore."

Your whispered words are harsh, but Rafe is having a hard time focusing on anything other than the fact that the stinging in his cheek means you're here. But your hair is disheveled, and you have a nearly feral look in your eyes, so when Barry comes flying out of nowhere, he rushes forward to grab you.

Wrapping an arm around your waist, he lifts you up easily, even as you claw at his back, before walking out of the hangar and throwing you onto the ground. 

Your palms hit the grass hard, and you smack the ground with an angry yell as Rafe rushes back inside. He knows you're going to hate him, and he knows he didn't have to be so harsh with you, but lately he hasn't been able to stop himself. 

"Stay down!" he orders as you clamber to your feet. "If you come back inside, I won't be so gentle."

He thought it was bad when he wasn't able to see you, but now that he has, it's somehow worse than ever. Every time you're within reach, he has to fight between the urges to rip you apart and crush you into himself, so you never leave.

Later, when he talks to his father about what he's been feeling inside of him, the response isn't what he wants or needs. When he finally admits that he may not be okay, that he doesn't think he can control the thoughts in his head anymore, Ward's instructions to "man up" go straight to his head, where nothing is truly safe anymore.

He thought he was obsessed with getting the gold, but when it was actually in reach, something still felt missing. The more he thinks about it, the more he finds himself fixating on one person.

***

"What happened earlier?" JJ asks you when the whole group returns to the chateau that night. "When Rafe carried you out?"

The question catches you off guard and you feel Sarah's apologetic gaze on you as you open your mouth to respond. "I have no idea."

JJ doesn't look convinced, and when Sarah tries to change the subject, he bulldozes over her. "I just don't get what's going on between you two. First, he's talking to you at the boardwalk, and then he's pulling you out of fights?"

It's not a question really, but the implication is startlingly clear. 

"What are you asking, JJ?" Pope warns, his eyes glancing between you two. "I don't think you're thinking this through. It's fucking Rafe we're talking about here. He's a monster, why would she have anything to do with him?"

His words ring through your ears like alarm bells and you can barely hear their argument over the noise. The sound gets louder and louder until you have to resist the urge to cover your ears.

"He's right."

It takes you a moment to realize those words came from you, but now that it's out, there's no going back.

Sarah says your name cautiously, but you shake your head, silencing her words.

"The guy I hooked up with my first summer on the island was Rafe," you say, your voice slowly growing in strength. "He's the guy I was talking about. And it wasn't just then."

Everyone except Sarah is looking at you like they've never seen you before. The shock and disgust on their faces mirrors what you felt the first time Rafe tried to hurt your friends, but with it being thrown back, you can't handle the pressure.

Tears blur your vision and you stalk out of the house, your feet taking you anywhere but here. The sound of voices yelling gets louder behind you, but you keep walking, your destination slowly becoming clearer the farther away you get.

Rafe is pulling into his driveway when you step onto the Cameron's property, and he throws his door open as soon as he notices you walking up.

"What's going on?" he asks as he slams the door shut and ushers you into the house. "Are you okay?"

You can't help but laugh, even as a few tears slip down your cheeks. "They know."

He knows what you're referring to without you having to explain, and he hesitantly steps forward, pulling you into a hug when you don't flinch. Your face presses into his hard chest and you glide your hands up his back, clutching the fabric of his tee shirt as you let out a small sob.

"They think I'm a monster," you whisper with a sniffle when you finally let go of him. 

He shakes his head, running a hand through his hair. "They're wrong. You have to know they're wrong."

"What if they aren't?"

He looks at you then, and that spark in your eyes starts to flicker again. "What are you trying to say, Boston?"

"I'm saying..." you start, dragging your words out, "that if they think I'm a monster, I might as well prove them right."

He frowns, following you into the living room. A large part of him is ready and willing for whatever piece of yourself you will give him, but a new, even larger part wants something else for you. Something better.

"Y/n," Rafe warns, his voice dangerously low, "I don't know if that's such a good idea."

Something akin to betrayal flashes across your eyes and your mouth presses into a line. "I thought you liked- I mean, I thought you-"

"I do," he states simply. "But you're so much better than me. You know that."

"I'm not," you shake your head, stepping forward. Your hands come up to rest on his chest and his breath hitches. "So shut up and fuck me."

He considers it for a moment but his mind makes the decision for him. His hands tangle into your hair and pull you forward, his lips attacking yours harshly.

He glides his tongue across the seam of your lips, but you pull back before he can go any further.

"Upstairs," you order, before pushing past him and heading up to his room.

You get to his bedroom right before he does, but when the door shuts behind you, he shoves you onto the bed, a snarl curling his lips. "You think you can order me around in my own house?"

You shrug as he climbs over you, his hands pressing into the bed beside your face. "Watch me."

Before he can lean down and kiss you again, you latch your legs around his waist and flip him over, so you're straddling him. He lets out a breathy chuckle that dies in his throat as soon as you begin grinding onto his lap. His cock has already started to harden, even with layers and layers of clothing between you two, and you use this momentary lapse in concentration to push him back onto the bed.

Before he can stop you, you undo the button on his pants and yank them down to his ankles. Reaching onto his bedside table, you grab one of the embroidered bracelets sitting on top and use it to pull your hair back into a ponytail.

His eyes darken with lust as you sink to your knees and take his cock in your hand, your fingers unconsciously gliding up and down the shaft.

You can't help but smile as you watch him lean back, his eyes already falling closed. "My turn."

His cock is sturdy in your hand, and you run your tongue up the shaft, taking your time now that you finally get to taste him. You loosen your fingers around him, swirling your tongue over the head, before slowly taking him into your mouth.

You can feel his eagerness as Rafe's hand runs over your hair, gathering it in his fist.

When he starts to push your head down, you lift your lips off his cock and shake your head. "Look who's impatient this time."

He snarls, tightening his grip on your hair. "Just fucking take me like a good girl."

"I thought you wanted me to be bad."

You slowly run your tongue up the thick vein on the underside of his cock, fluttering your eyelashes up at him, and he almost passes out from the sight. You look so innocent beneath him, and he wants to commit this image into his memory forever, but then you hollow your cheeks around him and every thought leaves his brain.

Your mouth is so warm and wet and he only opens his eyes again when he feels you moaning around him. Glancing down, he sees your hand disappear into your shorts, and he curses, his cock twitching between your lips.

He knows he won't last another minute like this, so he pulls back up, his hand letting go of your hair. He lifts you onto the bed, taking his time to take off your tank top and unbutton your shorts.

"You're beautiful," he states when you're finally bare in front of him, as though it's simply a fact.

His eyes meet yours in the darkness and you are suddenly struck with the desire to make this night last. You know this is the last time you will get to do this, and it doesn't escape you that he's been trying to savor each moment as well.

You take your time as you undo the buttons of his shirt, pushing it off his shoulders once you've reached the bottom and laying it gently on the floor.

Rafe leans you back down and grins as he presses a kiss to your jaw. "Aren't you sweet."

"Shut up," you snipe, running your teeth over his lip as he comes back up to steal a kiss.

"So that's how you want to play this," he smirks, sucking a bruise into your neck.

His fingers still feel soft and gentle against your skin, and you wish you could get it into his head that even though this is probably the last time you will get to have him like this, you don't want it to be sweet. You want it to hurt. 

"I thought I told you to fuck me."

He chuckles into your skin, before sliding his hand under your knee and lifting your leg off the bed. Without any warning, he thrusts into you, forcing you to grit your teeth to avoid making a sound.

"You're so ready for me," Rafe smirks, his calloused hands gripping your waist, "and I've barely even touched you."

You gasp, your head falling back as the pressure becomes almost too much. "It's been a while."

"No, that's not it," he taunts, his body leaning down as his lips find yours. "You just haven't been fucked right since last time."

You hate that he's right. You had tried to get your fix by hooking up with the tourists during the summers, but it had done nothing to assuage the growing frustration in your gut. Because the only person on this island who can make you feel good is the one who brings out the worst in you.

He continues thrusting into you with a pace much faster than you're used to, bottoming out each time. He reaches down to sling an arm under your waist, lifting you up off the bed to change the angle, and a sharp cry escapes your throat against your volition.

"You gotta be quiet," he grunts, lifting you further to press his forehead to yours, "or you don't stop finishing until I say so."

Your brow furrows in confusion, but then he uses his other hand to grab the headboard and starts thrusting into you even faster than before. You tilt your head up, pressing a harsh kiss to his mouth in an effort to quiet the noises trying to escape, but when your release slams into you, you can't help the gasp that flies out.

Your legs clamp around him and he uses his strength to hold you up as your body melts from the pleasure overcoming you.

Your aftershocks haven't even slowed before he spins you around, so you're straddling him, and starts pounding up into you again. Your sensitive cunt spasms helplessly around him, but he doesn't stop, even as you hiss between your teeth.

"Rafe, please, it's too much," you gasp as he holds you up so you don't back onto the bed. "I can't-"

"I told you to stay quiet," he teases, his voice growing darker as he ups his pace again. "You knew the consequences."

Even as the bed shakes from the force of his motions, the pain eventually turns to pleasure again, and you can feel your next release sneaking up on you.

He wraps your hair around his fist, giving it a quick tug for good measure, but the way your pussy squeezes around him makes him pause. "You like that, don't you?"

His grip tightens and you nod slowly, bringing your eyes back to his. His pupils darken and you feel another gush of wetness start to drip down your thighs. Your scalp stings, but you relish the pain, letting it mix in with the pleasure between your legs.

Rafe can already feel you tightening around him again, and he lifts his head to watch as your eyes screw shut, overcome by the feeling of his cock driving into you.

You look heavenly as you near the edge of the abyss, and he slides his hand down between your bodies, his thumb finding your clit. It only takes a few tweaks before you fly off the edge again, your mouth falling open with a silent scream.

Your body shakes from the force of the second orgasm and he can't hold off any longer. Pressing his face into the crook of your neck, he lets out a gasp as he finds his own seemingly never-ending release. All of the energy leaves his body as he watches you fall apart under him, and he finds that he can no longer lie to himself about how he feels.

Reality quickly comes crashing in, and you realize that you don't have any idea how to move forward. Whatever you feel for him will never be enough, no matter how hard you may try to convince yourself otherwise.

Rafe watches you get dressed, his eyes trailing over the bare expanses of your skin, as if committing it to memory. He wasn't raised like his siblings, and the voice in the back of his mind that tells him to never let you leave reminds him of a childhood he never quite managed to unlearn.

He never did learn how to do what was right, but if he is going to do right by one thing, that might as well be you.

[unexpectedbrickattack]

Compiling some Peppino-centric hcs i have bc i would like to have something to look back on as a point of reference 😌 (this is so long. SO fucking long. Im sorry)

- starting w the basics: hes a short king; 5’2 (157cm). Hes like late 40s-early 50s to me. Hes got brown eyes i never draw bc i like drawing him w dots lol. Hes particular about his appearance and grooms very consistently. Has literally no issues w balding (exposed to balding bears in his youth; thinks they are hot now 😌) and it helps that he can literally cave someones skull in if they speak ill of him. He does have a couple of comfy hats incase his hair decides to be unruly in bad weather.

- very bulky build; think of olympic strongmen/ highland games but short. Visibly muscular arms and broad shoulder, fat chest and stomach, smoother legs (fat layered over muscle; v thick thighs and calves). Hes got surgery scars on his lower back from a bullet wound (only entry/no exit point). Debated giving him a scar around his sternum from heart surgery or some other crazy injury he had but im not sure yet; the bullet extraction scar is definitely staying tho.

-does NOT work out; he used to wrestle in his late teens/early 20s but otherwise he was (still is) a man who did lots of physical labor around his childhood home and grandparents shop. Continued the cycle when he got his own home and his own restaurant; cheaper to do his own (extensive) repairs than call for specialists/contractors when u are Fucking Poor.

- he DOES exercise; he is fond of jogging. He does this alot postgame, usually in the early mornings before he opens, and at the beach on his days off. He had it drilled in v early in his life that he Needs to stay active, so he will roll out of bed and do this almost daily. On his days off he will have random people come and join him; usually pepperman or noisette. Its too tedious/boring of a task for gus and noise, and vigi is out cold until sunrise at minimum.

- he owns a HOUSE; he does not rent an apartment. This is bc i think it would be reasonable to assume that anyone who OWNS a restaurant was at some point, well off enough to own a house instead of renting. And i like the idea of him using this house as collateral; if the shop goes under, so does his home (more stress for him…). (Ive seen other people treat his shop like a duplex ie shop on the lobby level and an apartment/living space on the second floor. This is ALSO v good and coincides w my want to have his home tied to his restaurant)

- the house is small; two bedrooms, 2 1/2 baths, and a basement (where the 1/2 bath is located). BIG kitchen, small livingroom. It is surprisingly well furnished bc of his family donating things to him when he bought the house in his 30s. Lots of older wood based furniture. Hes not grossly messy (like food, bugs, etc) but he is disorganized beyond belief. Lives an ‘organized mess’ lifestyle bc of his high stress. Also extremely apathetic to his living conditions until postgame when his restaurant starts to take in profits again; less stress -> more positive time at home -> aware of the clutter as he spends more time at home.

- drives a beat up lookin car to and from work. Its his BABY; his ol reliable. He has to do lots of work to keep her intact and functioning. Eventually gets a newer car with his profits, but its rlly to help ease the strain on her so that he can take her out for drives occasionally.

-eldest of like 6 siblings; will not try to name them all just know that hes the only boy. Eldest daughter is only a year younger than him. Good relationship w all of them and his immediate family. Very matriarchal immediate family. Only a handful of uncles, his dad, and his grandpappy. Stubbornly cut off contact w everyone after the horrors (war) and refused to accept help w his failing restaurant (prideful). Eventually his (eldest) sister reaches out and he makes amends one at a time. (Gets an earful from his momma)

- works LONG hours. Awake by 4am, in noisettes cafe by 5am, in the shop by 6am. Preps and calls until opening at 9am. Closes at 9pm. Closes up FOR REAL at 10pm. Rinse n repeat. As the shop does better financially, he starts opening later and closing earlier (at the insistence of Gus). He still does his walks and his morning routine, just a little later, and he has enough time at home in the evening to cook for himself.

- on the topic of cooking, he is a good chef all around; pizza is just easier to market and consistently do Correct. Likes food alot. So much…..he isnt picky but he does go 😬 when eating something. Bad. And it happens Often.

- stress baked often. He felt bad about throwing out his food afterwards so he would give it away to his neighbors. No longer stress bakes but he will cook out of boredom which is not as bad but still not the best 😭 luckily he has so many freeloaders that will eat anything he makes (gus and noise)

- this is his second shop; the first one was in a larger city (think similar to pig city). Closed down due to insufficient payments, but reopened on the outskirts of the city (close to the forest) after putting up his house as collateral.

-first shop is where he first meets pizzahead. Hes offered a generous sum of cash to sell the business (which would then be converted into a ph brand shop). Obv declined. Later offered a position in pizzaheads business instead; nearly killed the man when scaring him out of his shop.

- Peppino is NOT some aggressive out of control beast (despite what pizzahead believes). He is vaguely neurotic and it is exacerbated by extreme stress and bouts of anxiety. So funny how removing the extreme stress and sources of anxiety makes him more Normal. (Somewhat encouraged by an official image i saw after i made this hc of peppinos attitude outside and inside the tower. He is relatively apathetic and inside the tower he is borderline manic. More hcs about that too)

- he is relatively fun to be with otherwise. He has some extremely dry humor. Hes incredibly sarcastic. He LIKES customer service…otherwise this would be impossible for him to endure. It helps that he Owns a shop, instead of only being a worker; he can yell at people who are rude and annoying to him and he knows (at least postgame) that he has loyal regulars.

- he is a bit of an asshole; he make snide remarks he shouldnt and hes been in his own fair share of fights bc of it. Has mellowed out drastically as he got a better grip on his emotions postgame. Only the most tolerant could really deal w him prior to postgame (gus) in part due to his anger (response to exacerbated neurosis and ptsd)

- also autistic. Extra stress bc of this. Easily overstimulated and the response to this is anger. Completely undiagnosed lmao but hes like late 40s; he just learned how to deal with it.

-common stress responses: bites on anything, usually his hand (Tried stopping this bc people would TOUCH him if he did that in front of others and that just made shit worse). Grinds his teeth. Jaw clenching. Making A Fist So Tight You Accidentally Cut Urself. Flappy hands, usually w hands balled up into a fist (specifically eyes closed; jaw clenched; head ducked, flappy hands over his ducked head). It looks ‘worse’ than biting but at least the excessive movement deters people from touching him.

- on a more positive note; knows quite a bit of magic tricks. Sleight of hand stuff is his forte. It is good for the anxiety and it keeps his hands busy. He is will consistently say that he is not good w kids but he loves entertaining them; they say the funniest shit and he likes being a bad influence on them 😈. Also teaching them tricks and letting them see behind the curtain is so fun for him; like they are so excited about silly tricks and it makes him feel a little cool….

- he is the kind of person whos like (dad voice) ‘not gettin a damn cat in my house’ and then has blackmail of him passed the fuck out with a cat on his stomach. He feeds the local strays by his shop and he cant help but feed the strays that end up by his house. He doesnt feel confident enough to take care of another animal when its so hard for him to remember to take care of himself so for now he just feeds them. But maybe soon he will take them inside…he also baby talks cats but if u caught him doing that he would kill u i think. (Pov u are the noise)

- silly hc that he has a real last name but he keeps it as spaghetti bc its funny to fuck around w people who ask him. No i dont know what his last name would be but i think it would be funny to have him ‘change’ it for branding and have people believe it. Also i think its funny to think of peppino saying this to ph somehow and he completely runs with it as gospel. Like ‘granny did u KNOW his last name is fucking spaghetti??’

- wrt young peppino, i say that w him being 20-23 in mind. Worked in his grandparents shop during this time. Worked as a line cook for some other restaurants as well (and saved up money to buy his own home while he lived w his parents and sisters). He was generally a sweetheart, just a bit odd (the Autsim and Anxiety), but that was (and still is) his charm point lol

- (SUGGESTIVE) cannot stop thinking of him as a little otter that hung out w older bears in the leather scene. He prob had his best years w them before he had to focus on other shit. He still keeps in contact w some of the peeps that were around his age postgame, and they meet up sometimes to hang along w vigilante. Now that hes older it is a bit surreal to now be the bear he used to look up to in his younger years. But its a bit flattering. Noise and Pepperman are younger than him and they both regard him w the same kind of wonder he used to give older bears. He thinks its cute lol (pepperman bc thats his muse and he sees his body type as PEAK human form, and noise bc i hc him as a bit sheltered despite the fame)

- (STILL SUGGESTIVE BUT THATS IT I SWEAR) adjacent to this; its weird for him to come back to this side of him bc hes been living in survival mode for over a decade. Got his house in his early 30s -> WAR -> comes back traumatized -> leaves family to cope -> dumps money into a restaurant to cope w leaving family. So he kinda missed it alot. Its fun to explore it w gus heehee and sometimes noise when he behaves.

-other things i wanted to mention but didnt know where to fit it. Peppino is a decent artist; he drew the logo for his shop and in general he is good at caricatures (another thing he can do to entertain a crowd; helps w anxiety to know how to not be awkward).

- Peppino is a bit of a mechanic (aka he learned bc he was broke and didnt want to call them for minor problems). Hes not a tinkerer but he likes the joy of creating sm and will make little. Creations. every once in a while. One of these creations is Peshino! He is a wooden windup toy made as a prototype for a more mechanical, mass produced version. He was intended to be sold as a cute little toy to help cement the branding for Peppinos shop but he never got the time or money for it, so peshino is collecting a bit of dust in his basement. Postgame, he takes peshino out and cleans him up; he feels a bit guilty about him….and the Big Peshino found in the tower plays music in Peppinos shop :) He also takes the time to clean him up and keep him functional.

Okay i think thats all i got for now byebye

[ejzah]

In Miss Blye’s Class, Part 19

***

“Before we do anything else, I should probably put on real clothes,” Deeks said, ruefully attempting to flatten his bed head.

“Oh, I don’t mind,” Kensi assured him. True, it wasn’t his neatest look ever, but there was something very appealing about his mussed appearance. It felt…intimate.

Feeling mischievous, Kensi leaned across the table and kissed Deeks quickly. It was more than worth it for the surprised “o” of Deeks’ parted lips. He grinned then, a teasing little twist of his lips.

“Yeah, but if I don’t get changed, we can’t go for a walk on the beach,” he said with a wink. “Or get fish tacos.”

“Ooh, those were really good. Ok, go shower, and I’ll clean this up,” Kensi decided, and started pushing the wrappers and napkins from their breakfast into a pile in the middle of the table.

As she gathered it up in a ball, she realized Deeks was watching her, his expression no longer teasing.

“What?” She checked her shirt for stray bagel crumbs or toothpaste.

“This is nice.” Deeks shrugged, continuing to regard her fondly. “It’s been a long time since I’ve had a moment like this. With another person. For so long, it’s just been me and Caleb. I mean, Caleb’s amazing, but it’s not the same as this.”

“You just appreciate my cleaning services,” Kensi joked. He snorted at that, downing the rest of his coffee in a single gulp.

“Right. That’s what I’ve been looking for all this time: a housekeeper.” Standing up, dropped a kiss on Kensi’s temple, which somehow seemed more intimate than if he’d kissed her full on the lips. “Besides, I’ve seen your place.”

“Hey!” Kensi protested, lightly smacking his arm.

“What I mean is, I didn’t realize how much I missed this kind of companionship and conversation,” Deeks explained. “I haven’t felt or wanted that from anyone in a really long time.”

Since Monica, Kensi filled in silently. A confession like that should scare her, but it didn’t. Deeks filled a void she hadn’t even realized was there. One that Jack certainly never had, if she was being completely honest with herself.

That seemed like just a little too much honesty for this early in the day. She focused on the table in front of her, methodically gathering crumbs in the center, rather than facing Deeks’ affection.

“You’re right, you better shower so we can get out there before all the tacos are gone.”

“Ok.” She heard the confusion in Deeks’ voice, but thankfully he didn’t press her on it. “I’ll be ready in about 20 minutes,” he said, slipping out of the kitchen.

Sighing, Kensi sat down at the table again, dropping her head into her hands.

“Kensi, you’re such an idiot,” she muttered to herself.

***

Deeks emerged a short time later as promised, hair damp and still clinging to his cheeks and temples, pajamas now swapped out for jeans and a black v-neck Tee.

“Alright, I no longer smell like Caleb’s late night snack and I’m not in danger of getting picked up for vagrancy,” he joked, instantly putting Kensi at ease.

“You seem really concerned about that possibility. Is there something I should know about?” Kensi asked, following him out to his truck.

“Deeks rolled his eyes, leaning against the driver’s door. “In law school and at my last job, it was a running joke because I didn’t exactly fit the expected look for a lawyer. Some even called me “Shaggy”.

“That’s rude.”

“Eh, it was said fondly.” He cocked his head, and amended, “Mostly. I never ever really meshed with a couple guys.”

“Well, they sound like jerks,” Kensi decided, drawing a laugh from Deeks.

He opened the door and slid in while Kensi went around to the passenger side. As she got in, she carefully moved a stray goldfish and Junior B. Jones book off the seat. Otherwise, the interior was spotless, and she decided it was a good thing they hadn’t taken her car. At least not until she got a chance to vacuum it.

“I appreciate your support, but you get pretty thick-skinned at an early age when you decide to grow your hair this length,” Deeks continued once they were both buckled in. “Plus, I’m pretty good at holding my own when I feel the need.”

“That explains why you walked away from your encounter with Sam Hanna alive. You never did tell me the entirety of your conversation.”

“Oh, I was very impressive.” Deeks pulled out of the driveway, pausing to wink at Kensi. “And I will tell you all about it, but first we have tacos.”

***

They ended up taking a long walk along the pier again while they waited for the food truck to finish setting up. Every the social butterfly, Deeks paused three separate times to greet passersby he apparently met during his runs. He probably had acquired more acquaintances in just a few months of living in LA full time than she had her entire time here.

It was just about noon when they made there way back around to the row of food vendors, and joined a small line in front of the taco truck.

“Do you ever regret making the move here?” Kensi asked as they leisurely walked over to a bench and sat down. Deeks contemplated her question with half a taco suspended in mid-air.

“At first I thought I’d made a huge mistake,” he admitted. “Even though I spent so much time in LA as a kid, it’s not the same as living and working her, and working with celebrities is almost crazier sometimes than what I did before, danger aside.” He paused and scanned the horizon, settling with his gaze on the ocean. “But I needed a change, Caleb’s thriving here, and,” now he turned to her with one of his crooked smiles. “We never would have met you if we stayed in Iowa. So no, not a single regret so far.”

Kensi ducked her head, flushing at the implied compliment. “My life hasn’t been so bad since I met you either,” she said. “Definitely a lot less quiet, but I suppose my life was getting kind of boring.”

“You mean 20-some kindergarteners don’t fill every day with unique and unexpected experiences?”

“Of for sure. Yesterday, I had to tell three different children not to like their pain daubers. They don’t wreak havoc with their flirty smiles though and way too tight pants every day.”

“Oh, my pants are too tight? I can go up a size—”

“No, I’m not complaining,” Kensi clarified quickly. “I’m just concerned about the other teachers.”

“Sure.” Deeks grinned again, like it made perfect sense. “So what I’m hearing is that I’m too attractive for my own good.”

“That is not what I said.”

“What exactly do they say about me? The other teachers.”

“Things that make me very jealous. Happy now?”

He didn’t say anything his smug little smile as finished the last bite of his taco and brushed his hands off over the sand saying everything Kensi needed to know. Shaking her head, Kensi muttered under her breath, ignoring Deeks when he nudged her shoulder.

“Hey, you know I’m only joking, right? I only have eyes for one teacher.”

Kensi glared at him through narrowed eyes. Standing up, Deeks held out his hand, and after a moment, let him tug her to her feet. He slipped a hand around her waist, using the other to support her back, and swung her back in a deep dip. He held her there for a moment, then kissed her soundly.

She couldn’t contain a surprised laugh that bubbled up, and clasped her arms around Deeks’ neck as he gently pulled her upright again.

“I guess you’re off he hook this time,” she decided, brushing her nose against his. “But I’m keeping my eye on you, Mr. Deeks.

***

A/N: Don’t worry, Caleb shall return soon. Sometimes you do need a little adult time to yourself. The Kensi/Deeks day will continue in the next chapter.

As always, I can’t thank everyone enough for your love and support for this story.

[neighborlywelcome]

i am a 5'5 - 5'6 18 year old kinda maybe girl ( lol im still figuring that stuff out :> ) i identify as a demigirl and use she/it pronouns.

looks wise i have brownish greenish bluish eyes ( im told lmao ?) and long curly brown hair. i'm a bit what i call pudgy as i love to eat like alote pfffft, and style wise i adore alternative kinda wismy looks, my fashion is mixed but i give off a sorta angelcore etheral vibe on my best days :D other days ( most days lol ) i rock the pj look like all the time. mostly my fave pair

Hiya!! i hope you are having a lovely day <3

i'm here for a tadc matchup if you please ! :>

my pronouns are it/she ( lol ichee ) my gender identity is like girl but not? i'm still figuring myself out tbh

i'm still questioning my sexuality but ik i'd be comfy with any character except kinger ( still love em but platonically like a silly dad/grandpa figure lol )

personality wise i am a bit 💫quirky💫 lmaO i try my best to be kind and understanding of others but if someone disrespects me iv been through enough to b like ok f i g h t m e GVBFVVFG jkjk , alas i am to squishy for that and will just seeth, i love talking and listening abt anything really but as an introvert i go quiet at times and go b by maself for a little while, i am a w k w a r d at first as i get a lil shy and junk but i open up pretty quickly tbh, anyways ummmm interests yeah ! i love any cartoon really-my favorites are arcane, mlp , and rwby along with collecting do dads like lil figurines and such, i enjoy learning abt the universe and just how things work to!

Now as for my type and favorite date ideaa- i kinda go for my opposites tbh those i compliment well , its also a big plus if there protective tbh gvhfbfbgh, i'd love to just have a quiet day together watching movies and snaking as a date or maybe going for a walk with ma s/o and talkin abt evreything and nothing :)))

hmmmm now just the extras ! my zodiac sign is leo, i am a bit short, i l o v e pink like id say honestly anything pink is my aesthetic lol-well pink cybercore + etheralcore really but yeah !

And lastly heres

anywaysssssss !!-byeeeee ✌️

Thank you for the request, I hope you're having a lovely day too! I think your ask got a bit mixed up in the shuffle, but it's no trouble!

YOUR MATCHUP IS...

RAGATHA!!!

I think you and Ragatha would be a perfect pairing! You balance each other out since Ragatha is a bit more extroverted than you and you’re more shy. But both of you are sweethearts and that kind/compassionate energy draws you to one another!

Ragatha loves the fact that the two of you could talk all night and all day about anything together. She’s a great listener for whenever you want to say something and likewise is not afraid to give her two cents whenever she’d like to ramble.

Besides your endless conversations about anything and everything, Ragatha would love the fact you get shy and she is very gentle and patient with you, especially on your more quiet days.

She’s nothing but attentive to your needs and happily indulges you in your hobbies like watching cartoons and movies. Ragatha is a pretty chill person and doesn’t mind going on relaxing dates between the excitement of the adventures and whatnot.

Of course, she’s also super protective and reliable. Spending eternity with Jax has made her tough and her only real fear is centipedes so if you ever need her to step in, she wouldn’t hesitate to.

And she thinks all the pink you wear is adorable! She likes everything about your looks, especially that you’re on the shorter side so she can pick you up and carry you around easily (if you want her to)!

[nepokisses]

im   nayeon.     she / her.     cis   woman.      ›spotted   at   the   met   steps   ,   dasom   ‘summer’   lee   ,   most   likely   listening   to   cozy   by   beyonce   with   their   airpods   pro   .   the  twenty-eight   year   old   gained   quite   a   reputation   ,   known   to   be   -naive   yet   +confident   to   anyone   who   knows   them   .   you'll   easily   spot   them   when   you   hear   about  sweet,   bunny   like   smiles,   the   sound   of   high   heels   clicking   on   marble   floors,   and   pink   diamond   studded   microphones   ,   followed   by  daisy   love   eau   so   sweet   by   marc   jacobs   .   latest   nepoupdates   article   talks   about   latest   the   pop   princess   having   to   postpone   her   upcoming   tour   ,   but   i   guess   any   reputation   is   good   reputation   .   (   tj   ,   21   ,   they / them   ,   est   ,   no triggers   .   )

B A S I C S 

full name: lee dasom. nicknames: summer. gender:  cis woman. pronouns:  she/her. sexuality:  pansexual. age:  28. date of birth:  june 27, 1994. zodiac sign:  cancer. birthplace: manhattan, new york ( lived until age 13 ). current location: manhattan, new york. residence:  she lives in a luxury townhouse on east 64th street. occupation:  former k-pop idol / current singer-songwriter, actress & model. languages spoken: english, korean, japanese, conversational spanish and brazilian portuguese to communicate with south american fans ( one of her largest fanbases ).

A P P E A R A N C E

faceclaim:  im nayeon. height:  5’3. build:  slim. eyes:  brown. hair:  naturally dark brunette, but dyes it different colors, mostly different variations of brown. piercings:  belly button, standard earlobe piercings.  tattoos:  three small hearts behind her ear, cherries on her right ankle, a kiss mark on her right inner wrist, her parents' birthdates in roman numerals on her shoulder, matching tattoo with best friend on left ankle, butterflies going up her spine. other distinguishing features:  gummy smile, bunny teeth. style:  hyper-feminine. likes to wear bright colors, dresses and skirts. can be seen wearing heels the majority of the time, no matter the occasion, mostly due to her short height. 

P E R S O N A L I T Y

traits:  (+) confident, spontaneous, friendly/social, detail-oriented. (-) naive, sensitive, impulsive, anxious.  mental health:  anxiety disorder, depression; medicated for both.  physical health:  good, average. likes:  sweets, playing music loudly and singing along, karaoke, fashion, art, horror movies, amusement parks, dance clubs, smoking marijuana.  dislikes:  arrogance, confrontation, people with no sympathy or empathy for others, stan culture, being babied, being controlled, being manipulated.  fears:  losing her career, the passing of friends or loved ones, the dark.  phobias:  insects, drowning, heights. hobbies:  karaoke, late night drives, drawing, painting. skills:  roller skating, cooking, art, songwriting, singing, dancing, acting, modeling. quirks:  standing on top of things to be taller, subconsciously standing on her toes to be taller, humming under her breath, singing at random times, twirling her hair.

F A V O R I T E S

ice cream flavour:  strawberry.  time of the day / night:  late night / very early morning, between 11pm and 3am.  weather:  fall weather.  breakfast food:  pancakes, bacon, bagels, danishes.  dinner food:  anything seafood, tteokbokki, ramen, beef. colours:  lots of red and pink.  music: mariah carey, beyoncé, britney spears, ailee, taeyeon, bibi, raveena, fka twigs, rihanna, lady gaga, HER, ari lennox, lizzo, zayn, lil nas x. 

M I S C E L A N E O U S

a cherished item:  trinkets gifted to her by loved ones, a picture of her and her parents on a trip to disney when she was 10, a locket given to her by her first significant other, gifts given to her by fans. first love ( celeb crush ):  lenny kravitz usual mood:  upbeat, happy. 1 thing they want to do / experience before they die:  go on a year long vacation with friends and explore the world.  character inspo: blossom ( powerpuff girls ), alice cullen ( twilight saga ), luna lovegood ( harry potter series ), elle woods ( legally blonde ).

B A C K G R O U N D

childhood: dasom was born in manhattan, new york to a record producer father and vocal coach / former broadway star mother, so music has always been apart of her life. she's the eldest of three children, two girls including herself and a younger brother. she spent her childhood in elite private schools and being vocally trained by her own mother. when she reached the age of twelve, she was scouted by a korean music label that wanted her to be a trainee for them. with her parents' support, she moved to south korea at the age of thirteen and started training. while living in seoul, she stayed with her mother's parents until moving into the idol dorms.

adolescence: dasom debuted at the young, ripe age of fifteen; though she wasn't the youngest in her group. despite her young age, she was one of two main vocalists, apart of the group's dance line, and the center/face of the group. her group quickly gained success and notoriety, not just in south korea, but in asia as a whole ( think girls' generation type vibes ), and with their rising popularity, dasom's personal popularity with the general public grew even more. by the time she was seventeen, her face was plastered on billboards in both south korea and japan ( the country with their second largest fanbase ). but with her popularity, came a lot of hate and negativity as well. there's never any good without bad, and she was experiencing that firsthand.

early twenties: her group was at the height of their career, and then it all went to shit when dasom was twenty years old. she went through a pretty rough break up with her first significant other, and in their anger, they leaked nude photos of her to netizens and the scandal took south korea by a storm. she went from being a national sweetheart to public enemy number one. and the worst part about it was that she was being blamed for it, and her ex didn't get nearly as much hate as she did. although they weren't in the public eye as much as her, they were still known because they were apart of an extremely wealthy family. she just assumed that their wealth and family's influence helped them get off scot-free. meanwhile, her career as a k-pop idol was practically ruined. her company dropped her before the group could suffer anymore than it already had, leaving her jobless.

but she was still determined to continue making music, despite being virtually blacklisted in the k-pop industry. she hopped on a plane back to the states and used connections through her parents in order to secure herself a record deal. on her twenty first birthday the following year in 2015, she released her first solo album. that was also the year that she began her acting career. although she doesn't dabble in it too much, it is something that she enjoys doing every so often.

from that point onwards, it seemed as though everything that dasom, now known as summer, touched turned to gold. she was becoming a household name due to her music, and she loved that people seemed to enjoy her so much. however, what she didn't love, was the negativity that came along with it. being the positive, upbeat and slightly naive, woman that she is, it was easy for her to fall into the trap of consuming online comments and allow it to affect her mental health and stability. and while she tries to keep her positive mindset, it does get overwhelming for her at times. more often than not, actually.

currently: now at the age of twenty-eight, she's still making music, acting and apart of the elite world. it's still taking a toll on her mental health wise, but she's been going to therapy and taking medications for her anxiety and depression, which helps keeps her on the right path - most of the time. she has her days where she falls into a slump and doesn't want to face the world. that's when she dives headfirst into her music and pours her all into her art.

C O N N E C T I O N S

friend / relative of her ex that leaked her nudes: self explanatory.

ex ( multiple ): dasom is a lover through and through, so it's not surprising that she's had a few relationships here and there. some lasting longer than others.

fwb ( multiple ): a girl's got needs, and this person never fails to fulfill them whenever she calls on them and vice versa.

inspo: dasom's written songs about / for this person before.

past / future music collaborators: self explanatory.

best friend / platonic soulmate: the peanut butter to dasom's jelly. the patrick to dasom's spongebob. the milk to dasom's cereal.

bad influence: self explanatory.

backbone builder: this person is responsible for helping build up dasom's backbone and help her be less averse to confrontation and stand up for herself more.

tug-of-war: these two go back and forth. one minute they're going on outings and dates and are all cuddled up, then the next they're arguing and fussing. a hot and cold type of relationship that dasom can't seem to get out of. they care for each other, but whenever they try to be anything more than friends, it falls apart.

practically roommates ( multiple ): dasom has a large townhouse in the city, but she hates being by herself. with that being the case, she's always inviting this person over to spend time with her so she won't be alone.

music confidant ( multiple ): someone that dasom works on music with / shares demos of songs she's recorded. she gets ideas from them for her unfinished songs, and she's always willing to give them a helping hand with music when they hit rough spots with their creativity too.

C A R E E R

music ( albums ): yours truly ( 2015 ), my everything ( 2017 ), dangerous woman ( 2020 ), sweetener ( 2022 ).

music ( singles ): the way ; baby i ( 2015 ), right there [ album: yours truly ]; problem ( 2016 ), break free ; bang bang ( 2017 ), love me harder ; one last time [ album: my everything ] ( 2018 ), focus [ non-album single ] ; dangerous woman ( 2019 ), into you ; side to side ( 2020 ) ; everyday [ album: dangerous woman ] ( 2021 ), no tears left to cry ( 2022 ), breathin [ album: sweetner ] ( 2023 ) upcoming: god is a woman ( unknown date, 2023 ).

acting ( television ): scream queens as sonya / chanel #2 ( 2015 ), hairspray live! as penny ( 2016 ).

acting ( movies ): underdogs as laura, voice role ; zoolander 2 as latex bdsm ( 2016 ), don't look up as riley bina ( 2021 ), wicked: part 1 as glinda ( 2024, filming ), wicked: part 2 as glinda ( 2025, filming ).

ambassadorships: versace, givenchy, chanel, tiffany & co.

[no-more-tales-tavern]

Anon sent: "Some like it rough V.2 - 2B: Bellatrix thought it had to be a fluke, when the blonde paladin managed to undo her dread form, leaving her vulnerable and weakened. Jaune on the other hand, was less impressed with his combat feat and more focused on how the Warlock's true form, made him draw his second sword."

Some Like it Rough V2: 2B

“Y-you~! Ah~! You b-bastard~!!” Bellatrix swore between panting gasps—the ripple of pleasure running through her with every smack of paladin’s hips against her ass. Gritting her teeth, she glanced over her shoulder back at him, her face pressed against the cool crypt stone floor. “S-stop this at on—ohhh~!!”

She outcry was cut short as she felt the paladin’s knuckles crack across her cheek, making her suddenly moan out. “Not gonna happen, bitch~!” Jaune groaned out, jackhammering roughly down into her. “Not when you have this fat ass made for fucking~! Fuck~! This is the only punishment you deserve~!!”

Bellatrix could only cry and moan in reply, her body wracked with pleasure from every thrust down into her. This wasn’t how this was supposed to go! This knight was supposed to be the one down on his knees, cowering in fear, horrified by her power and might. Instead,she…she…

A sudden sharp smack to her ass forced another moan to fall from her lips, and her eyes rolled back. The knight smirked at her moans and tangled his fingers firmly in her hair, jerking her head off the floor to growl into her ear. “You know, I think I like the way you moan like that~ you’ll be leaving this crypt with me, bitch~”

Bellatrix shuddered at his words, but a lewd smile slowly spread across her face, and she arched back towards him. “Fuck you~ you big-dicked basta-ahhhh~!” She moaned out again as her words earned her another firm slap, and being shoved down into the floor as he resumed ruthlessly fucking her.

She was losing herself…and she loved it~

[the-tigr0u]

【𝑪𝒊𝒂𝒓𝒂 𝑪𝒐𝒄𝒂𝒏𝒐𝒗𝒂𝒄𝒄𝒊】

♔〘IƊƐƝƬIƬƳ   RҼƇƠRƊ〙♔

F U L L  N A M E

-Ciara Livia Cocanovacci-

N I C K N A M E S

-Sevin (Cutie)-

-Pup yayo (Little bird)-

-Tsawl nari (Big eyes)-

N A T I O N A L I T Y

-French-Italian-

G E N D E R

-Woman-

S P E C I E S

-Human-

A G E

-29 y.o.-

B I R T H D A Y

-23 of August-

A S T R O L O G I C A L  S I G N

-♍︎ Virgo ♍︎-

F A M I L Y

-Franco Cocanovacci (Father♱)-

-Elise Cocanovacci (Mother♱)-

-Patience Aurora Cocanovacci (Little sister)-

R E L A T I O N S H I P  S T A T U T

-Single-

-Moderately easy to have in a relationship, as she’s very shy and reserved-

-She never had anyone in her life before-

P R O F E S S I O N A L  S T A T U T

-Paleontologist and Archaeologist, as well as Cryptozoologist-

-Study the fauna of Pandora and the culture Na'vi’s people-

-Was once part of a group of scientists, but deserted when the knew that her research would serve the army in their offensives against the Na'vi-

-Is now part of an anti-military group in the snowy mountains to help the Snow Na'vi-

-Her status may change depending on the context-

"  W i l l  y o u  s t i l l  l o v e  m e  w h e n  I  g o t  n o t h i n g  b u t  m y  a c h i n g  s o u l  ?  "

♔〘  lƠƠƘՏ 〙♔

H A I R

-Naturally dark brown-

-Short plunging square haircut with a bang-

-Colored in gradient at the tips, from dark blue to turquoise, or from magenta to turquoise-

-Can still tie up her hair-

E Y E S

-Brown-

-Big, bright and curious gaze-

-Wears round glasses-

S K I N

-Porcelain and soft-

H E I G H T

-1m62  (5,3 ft.)-

W E I G H T

-///-

C O R P U L E N C E

-Chubby-

-Generous curves-

-Relatively small and discreet-

S C A R S / M A R K S

-On the right hip-

-On the right ankle-

-A burn on the left scapula-

T A T O O S

-None-

P I E R C I N G S

-Lobe from both sides-

C L O T H I N G  S T Y L E-Loose and comfortable clothes-

-Loose and comfortable clothes-

-Often clothes with wide sleeves-

-Is very fond of the Pin-Up style-

-Loves cute or quirky jewelry-

-Wear a lot of poncho, fake fur, scarves, and gloves when she has to go out in the mountains or when it's colder than usual-

" -  I f  y o u  d a n c e ,  I ' l l  d a n c e  -

-  A n d  i f  y o u  d o n ' t ,  I ' l l  d a n c e  a n y w a y  -

-  G i v e  p e a c e  a  c h a n c e  -

-  L e t  t h e  f e a r  y o u  h a v e  f a l l  a w a y  - "

♔〘ƤՏƳƇӇƠlƠƓƳ〙♔

S E X U A L I T Y

-Pansexual-

P E R S O N A L I T Y

-Shy, modest and reserved-

-Introverted, often lonely-

-Sometimes clumsy-

-Whimsical and dreamy-

-Rather fragile and sensitive in appearance-

-Studious and curious, she likes to learn-

-Very smart and clever-

-Sweet, generous and warm once open to others-

-Adorable and always ready to help-

F E A R S

-Apiphobia (Fear of bees and any other insect of the same kind)-

-Thalassophobia (Fear of the seabed, the abyss)-

-Nyctophobia (Fear of the dark)-

-Claustrophobia (Fear of tiny spaces)-

P A S S I O N S

-History-

-Literature-

-Science-

-Saxophone-

-Art-

L I K E S

- Music - Reading - Writing - Learning - Playing Saxophone - Painting and drawing - Traveling - Nature walks - Roses - Winter and snow - Tea and hot chocolate - Fireworks - Admiring anything and everything about Pandora - Learning about Na’vi’s culture -

D I S L I K E

-Bees/wasps/bumblebees/etc. - Heat - Conflicts - Feeling forced or constrained - Loud noises - Onions and honey - The smell of cigarette - To swim - The army

C I G A R E T T E

-No-

D R U G S

-No-

A L C O H O L

-Rarely-

-Can’t handle much of it-

" -  I t  d o e s n ' t  h u r t  m e  -

-  D o  y o u  w a n t  t o  f e e l  h o w  i t  f e e l s  ?  -

-  D o  y o u  w a n t  t o  k n o w ,  k n o w  t h a t  i t  d o e s n ' t  h u r t  m e  ?  - "

♔〘ƠƬӇҼRՏ〙♔

E X T R A S

-She speaks several different languages, including Na'vi fluently-

-She was supposed to have an Avatar but the latter is defective, and she left the RDA before her Avatar arrived. So the Avatar can be brought later or depending of the context.

-She learned to shoot and maintain firearms because of her uncle who forced her to when she was young-

-She learned archery and tomahawk throwing with the Snow Na'vis tribes-

-She learned self-defense, although she’s not very comfortable, she's still learning how to fight-

-She loves the cold but gets sick very easily-

-She has a talent for singing-

-Her scars are from a car accident during her childhood-

-Her burn on her collarbone is from a childhood cigarette burn-

-Her voice : Lauren Paley-

P O S S I B L E  S C E N A R I O S

-Ciara may end up in the forest areas or ocean areas of the first two films, depending of the context-

-Can welcome newcomers to the anti-military group-

-It is also possible to establish a context while she was still part of the scientists linked to the army, before she joined the anti-military group-

-It is possible that Klaro is part of the RP, the two arrived together on Pandora and are very close-

C R U S H S

-Miles Rick Quaritch-

O T H E R  P O S S I B L E  R E L A T I O N S H I P S

-Jake Sully-

-Good friends, protection-

-Neytiri -

-Close friend, confidante, protection-

-Neteyam-

-They know each others, but not very close-

-Lo'ak-

-Good friends, confident-

-Kiri & Tuk'tirey-

-Good friends, protection, playmates-

P L A Y L I S T

F U L L  P L A Y L I S T  H E R E

[zaffylazystufflmao]

Heyyy :3 ☆

I've changed plans of 'saturn'

Sorry for no postin' I've been really busy these days and I've been very hesitant about drawing Krovf. Yes, her calling would be Krovf (I was also running out of ideas for callings xdd)

I will be spoiling (because I am a tremendous son of a bitch XD) about Krovf as her separation tape (or whatever the hell you say) and some things about her.

Separation tape:

It's a little bigger that I thought-

Things about her:

Rarely she sometimes feels a little twinge in her heart (it is not known why :v) Krovf prefers the cold more than summer. Why? Because she is allergic to the sun, her skin is very sensitive when coming into contact with sunlight.

Katerina Pestrova, 33 years old, born in Komi, Russia. Known as 'Krovf' or 'Bravo 4-8', she has studied English for 3 years since she was little, since she rarely speaks fluent English, but her Russian accent betrays her. She is a muscular woman (not so much) and tall, she is 6'3ft tall. A sniper of A-B range and Ensign military range. She has short brown hair, with a streak painted with the Russian flag. If her favorite style of killing is with knives or any melee weapon (like a crowbar and yes... she always carries it) Her past is somewhat... gloomy to say, as a child she would have seen undesirable scenes for others. She has anger issues but, after years trying to control it, at her 25 years she could finally control it.

That will be all for now. Sorry for spoiling because I don't like inactive set

[atrillies]

a part 2 to this

[heartshapedbubble]

HELLO! I too am an Andrew and Eli enjoyer! if you can, what’re your h/c’s for one or both of them? B) (and do u have favourite skins for them B) )

Hope u have a great day / evening! :D

TASTE!! i love andrew's upcoming logic path and my favs for eli are night owl/recluse ! have a good day too🙏

andrew kreiss & eli clark random/general hcs🕸🦉

andrew kreiss🕸

179cm (around 5'11), thin and muscular, his posture ain't the best either but hey it's what comes with his profession

has a bunch of scars similar to the ones on his face on his body, most of them caused by him accidentally hitting himself with the shovel

he prefers lurking to joining in the crowd during events, could also stalk someone he wants to be friends with but with no ill intent he's just v shy

he's german and his accent often kicks in when he speaks. he mostly speaks quietly but his voice is soft

has this feeling that he doesn't belong here in the manor and often wishes he could fit in easily - although, as time passes, he ends up fitting in and realizing the other survivors enjoy his company

best friends with emma and melly! they garden together in the manor's garden and they share their love for various flowers!

has a vast knowledge of flowers too, he learned what each of them mean by heart

kind of out-of-touch with modern humor and slang that the other survivors use,,, actually nvm he's out of touch with almost everything. he likes to learn though

used to be in the church choir growing up and often hums to himself while working

has a daily routine that he strictly follows

he tries to keep his cool and not panic when he's in matches but his anger often takes over, especially when the weaker survivors get tunneled

...like slamming mary with a pallet really hard to the point her head rolls over to the corner of the map

talks to himself while he's about to rescue or go for a save/escape - it helps him cope with his anxiety and fear of disappointing others

"come on andrew, if you manage to get tracy off the chair, you'll get a draw since you still didn't use up your tide! come on, andrew! you can do this!"

worries a lot - he's always asking the rescued person if the hunter hit them too hard, if they're okay or if they took a rest before the match

he's not literate so he draws on post-it notes instead of writing on them

eli clark🦉

literally the most sweetest person you could stumble upon in the manor

he's always welcoming newbies and showing them the rooms and the garden

he's 175cm tall (5'9) and a bit chubby, has pretty good posture and will often remind you to stand up straight (caringly)

has chubby cheeks and if you squish them he's gonna be blushing for the remaining 15 minutes

shares his meals with brooke rose

his voice is deep but he's soft spoken and gentle

he can't see without his owl so he often runs into walls or shelves if she isn't on his shoulder

he's pretty touchy in a caring way - like coming up behind you and massaging you if he sees that you're stressed or running his fingers through your hair

loves hugs and will use every opportunity he gets to either give you one or get one. wholesome bastard smh

he has the same variations of his original robe but with different patterns,, like a pale blue variation with stars on it that he uses as pyjamas it's kind of funny

remember his christmas b tier robes? violetta made them out of an old festive tablecloth

has no fear of the hunter side of the manor - he knows they hate his guts and that they ban him in almost every match but he's still very polite and nice towards them

^ actually goes over there casually just to pet ann's cat and give it food

secretly organizes most of the fun events at the manor but he's too humble to say that it's him

since he can see the future and the inevitable doom, he often feels depressed because he deeply cares for everyone in the manor

that's why he made his duty to make everyone's time here more enjoyable - he wants everyone to be able to experience a happy life, at least for a short time

[ryosmne]

Three brats??

Dad!Sukuna x f!reader

So this is basically a comfort fic, featuring dad! Sukuna because the brainrot was too much. Ok so, the reader and Sukuna have a son together, yes their son is Yuuji, I know this is usually the single father Sukuna trope, but I wanted to give it a go, feedback is always appreciated. Thanks for brainrotting with me @likeab-o-s-s cause this is the reason this exists. That's all from me enjoy reading.

Warnings: none really, just family, heartwarming fluff.

The air was crisp and fresh, unusually refreshing for the beginning of summer. Parents were already gathered outside the daycare, Yuuji, y/n's and Sukuna's son attended, patiently waiting for their kids to run in their arms again.

Sukuna arrived a couple of minutes before the final bell on his motorcycle, he took off his helmet, leaned back on his bike and waited for the familiar little pink head of hair to come wobling to him.

The three mothers next to him, scooted a bit closer to him to get a better look nothing he's unfamiliar with and no one can blame them, Sukuna is a sight for sore eyes. Leather jacket with the sleeves rolled up, extenuating his board shoulders, exposing his tattoo covered skin, v neck white t shirt, allowing his toned chest and even more of his tattoos to show and a simple black pair of pants hugging his muscular thighs in the best of ways.

In the past some of the bolder ones had mustered the courage and asked him if he was a single father since they had never seen his son's mother, but with a laugh Sukuna brushed them off telling them how his lovely wife was a working parent and her schedule just didn't match the daycares. Maybe the very unconventional wedding rings they got weren't the best idea in this situation, even though they were extremely beautiful and unique.

"I really admire the work you put in the little guy" Sukuna's gaze met a woman who attempted to strike a conversation, oblivious to what she had meant by her statement he replied, maybe these three minutes would pass faster talking about normal things and not stressing about work.

"Don't we all put work on our kids?" He spoke calmly with a slight smile that he always wore when talking about Yuuji.

"Yeah, we do, but it still must be hard I can't imagine what you're going through" Sukuna's mind went to the worst scenario. Was Yuuji a trouble maker at school? He is a very well behaved child, both him and y/n made sure to teach him proper manners and how to be polite, that couldn't be it right?

The bell rung, and kids made their way out of the daycare, Yuuji in the blink of an eye was hugging his father's leg, exited to see him after the hours he was gone. In a swift motion Sukuna put Yuuji's little backpack on his own back and scooped the boy up in his arm.

"Yuuji's a pretty good kid, hes never been difficult" Sukuna smilled again resuming in the short conversation with the woman next to him. "Single father's like you don't get the credit they deserve". She spoke again smiling sadly down to the little pink haired boy who seemed too fixated on the earrings his father was wearing.

Sukuna finally understanding what this whole thing was about, chuckled, this had happened before after all, he should've known.

"I'm not a single parent, speaking of that your mom said she has a big surprise for you after dinner" he said directing his attention to his son again, the woman next to him quickly fumbled an apology for missundertanding, to which Sukuna replied to with a simple 'dont worry about it'. He placed Yuuji on his bike, put on both his and his boys helmet and drove off.

Y/n was still stuck at work, thankfully her husband would cook dinner tonight cause overtime was killing both her and her mood, good thing she finally had a day off tomorrow.

Y/n checked her phone to see how close she was to going home only to find a text that Yuuji's teacher had send her that was obviously meant for her husband.

Hello Mr Itadori, this is Mrs Laura from the day care. I was wondering if you wanted to get launch with me after school tomorrow, you can bring little Yuuji too, I'm awaiting your response, have a nice night.

What the hell was that? Well y/n's number was in Yuuji's contact information, she chuckled at the words displayed on her screen but she couldn't really blame the teach, Sukuna was a walking temptation, she knew that first hand, hell she fell head over heels for the dangerous looking guy who hid a heart of gold under his hard exterior, but the teacher could at least check who the number belonged to.

Y/n run her last errands and made sure to pick up Yuuji's surprise before heading home, she even tipped Sukuna off so their son wouldn't know what hit him.

Y/n made her way inside the family house, tossing her keys somewhere on the living room couch.

Yuuji immediately after hearing her car in the driveway came rushing down the stairs, jumping around her like he always did when she came home.

"Mom, mom you're home." The happiness was evident in the boys face, his smile was wide when y/n dropped to his level to pick him up and spin him around

"Yes I am little devil, did you give your father hell like we agreed?" She spoke in the happiest of tones with Yuuji still in her arms. Another set of arms engulfed her frame making her halt on spinning the little boy.

"So you're telling him to be a little brat now huh?" Sukuna's breath tickled the side of her neck and ear as he rested his head on her shoulder and wrapped his strong arms around her waist. "Welcome home love" he spoke again giving her jaw a ghost of a kiss.

"Daddy is the food ready" Yuuji spoke from y/n's arms, Sukuna only laughed at his son's appetite, and directed both him and y/n to the kitchen where he had already set everything up.

"Mommy, what is a single dad?" Yuuji asked in the middle of dinner in typical fashion of his, any question he had from something he heard through the day would always come up during dinner.

"Well Yuuji, single fathers are the fathers who raise their kids alone." The young boy seemed to think about his mother's words before speaking again. "So its just a daddy ?" Yuuji asked again with his eyes growing a bit sadder, his mother nodded, and Yuuji's eyes started to water.

"Baby what's wrong?" y/n asked. "Hey buddy what's going on?" Sukuna was growing quite concerned too. Yuuji burst in tears leaving his seat, climbing up his dad and hugging him tightly. Sukuna was rubbing his back to comfort the young boy and y/n's hand was stroking the kids hair in an effort to calm him down. "B-but why did that lady c-call you that, is m-mommy l-leaving?" Everything seemed to click for Sukuna, y/n was still confused but in the calmest sweetest voice said "Yuuji, baby look at me, I'm not going anywhere ok?" And the boy left his father's arms and clung on to her like his life depended on it.

Sukuna cracked a few jokes and lightened Yuuji's mood so he could enjoy the rest of his dinner, which went pretty well, he was his smiling adorable self very soon after his parents reassured him that none of them were ever leaving his side and the boy was now drawing with crayons in the living room. He seemed to have completely forgotten about the surprise his father mentioned when he picked him up.

Y/n and Sukuna were doing the dishes in the kitchen, each one talking about their day, Sukuna explained the awkward conversation he had at the daycare that sparked Yuuji's sadness, y/n took a turn in talking about how her son's teacher, basically asked Sukuna out on a date but messed up and texted her. "How about you set up a date and you show up? I mean it's you she texted right?" Sukuna joked "Babe, that's cruel" y/n chuckled at her husband's mischievous nature.

"So you've got everything ready?" Sukuna asked. "yeah who'll bring him over?"

"You do it I'll keep Yuuji busy."

Sukuna joined Yuuji on the couch. "What are you drawing little brat?" Y/n heard him ask their boy in the usual sweet tone he had with him. She made her way down the basement, where she kept the surprise since she came home. Yuuji was going to love this, Sukuna was too, she knew she was already in love as well.

Y/n climbed the stairs quickly, and snuck up behind her son, who was occupied by his dad, she gently tapped the boys shoulder.

"A PUPPY" Yuuji announced exited making sure his voice was still soft not to scare the eager dog that his mom brought to his arms. Yuuji gently held the puppy that was licking his face as he was in a fit of laughter and excitement. Sukuna was as exited as his son and y/n had a huge smile on her face too. Their son had begged and begged for a dog ever since his best friend, Megumi got a black German shepherd puppy. Of course y/n and Sukuna wanted to comply to Yuuji's request right away, but they took time to teach little Yuuji everything there was about the responsibility of owning a dog. They took him to dog cafes and shelters, so he would be the perfect little dog owner, they taught him patience and responsibility beforehand. Sukuna visited the local shelter and decided with y/n on a white Shepard puppy that Yuuji always pointed out in your visits because 'he looks like Megumi's puppy they can be friends like we are' who can say no to that little adorable devil?

The puppy momentarily left Yuuji's arms to lick Sukuna's face. "Now we've got two little brats and a big one in our house." He laughed, enjoying the moment.

Y/n was admiring her son and husband as well as the newest member of the family with a smile plastered wide on her face, life was indeed beautiful.

The next day, both Sukuna and y/n were waiting for Yuuji to finish school, since y/n had the day off. Sukuna had his arm protectively around her because this time, others were staring at what was his, but he was proud to show her off to everyone, even in a place as mundane as his son's daycare.

[proserpina-magnus]

If you do nsfw alphabets, can you do one for marlene (if not that’s completely okay!)

Hi! Sure you can, I hope you like it (it’s not the best but oh well). Mwah.

Marlene Mckinnon NSFW Alphabet

Reader: described as fem (or with female genitialia) since Marlene is hc’d as a lesbian in this.

Warning; pure smut Headcanons. oh and this isnt checked for spelling.

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Shes prettty sweet, definitly helps you out of any bounds or restraints if they were used during sex, she likes to play with your hair (or style it). She would possibly read you a chapter of your favourite book or tell you the latest gossip. She will most definitely run you a bath (and that would probably lead to another round), and she would even wash your hair or draw little shapes on your shoulder blade.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Her favourite body part on herself if her shoulders, she’s always been a bit insecure about them (since they are a bit bigger) but once she began playing quidditch she really started to like them.

Her favourite body part on you is probably just your entire body, she enjoys running her hands almost every wear and gripping the flesh (bonus points if you have doughy and bigger potions, eg hips, thighs, stomach).

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

She loves pussy eating for this very reason of getting to watch and taste you, it’s basically her favourite activity and she’s always fantasizing about it.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Her first time was with Mary in fifth year, it wasn’t even supposed to go that far. They began kissing just to try and you know the rest. There weren't any romantic feelings between them and they agreed to never talk about it again. But she sometimes really wishes it would become a regular thing.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

She’s pretty experienced with her own body, so she uses her own knowledge and applies it to you. She asked quite a lot the first few times, what you liked and didn’t. But now she’s an expert at pleasing you.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Most likely when you’re on top, especially because she gets to lay back and watch you (which is her favourite thing to do). She loves to hold your hips, guiding your pace and smiling if you get frustrated.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

It depends, she definitely makes more teasing comments but they aren’t really funny (well atleast not to you). Sometimes though, something just happens (either “embarrassing” like a sound or movement) and you both just kinda burst out laughing. Your first times together was more light hearted, but as you go on it get more serious.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

She is pretty well groomed, she trims it more often than goes completely bare, for friction reasons. She just prefers to be well kept, but she doesn’t care if you are or not.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

She’s very caring sometimes, even if she’s teasing. She’s always shushing you gently with a grin, and she loves to stroke your hair when you’re just about to cum. She doesn’t really realize how intimate she is.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

She loves it, obviously she enjoys sexual moments with you but she also likes time to herself and loves exploring new things (like toys). She doesn’t do it as often when you both get together, but she still does it occasionally.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

She has many, but she doesn’t always do them at the same time. She likes to branch out and try new things. Definitely dom and sub roles is a huge part (she’s a switch, but probably prefers dom). She loves hair pulling and spanking, along with dress up ( she fucking loves lacy lingerie sets or when you wear her clothes).

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

Her dorm, though she prefers in the shower or bath. She really likes those quick fucks in a closet, or in the locker rooms.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

Short skirts or whenever you give her fuck eyes, she loves it when people look completely vulnerable sexually. She especially get motivated whenever she teases you and you go bright red (or at least flustered, like mumbled stuttering).

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

She won’t do anal, she’s never really been a fan of it (except for spanking, she loves that shit). But she will never do anal play, it actually sorta freaks her out.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

She prefers if she’s given it, especially when she gets to sit on your face and sorta just completely suffocates you. She doesn’t mind going on you, she enjoys it, but she much rather be the one receiving it.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

She’s a mix of all, it depends on her mood. She typically can go fast and sensual, even though she likes to take her time. It’s an odd combination, but that’s what works for her. Can you imagine fast and rough

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

Absolutely, she loves ‘before games’ quickies in the dorms or changing rooms. Or between class fucks, she will take it anytime she gets.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? Do they take risks? etc.)

She is really risky and will most definitely do it anytime and anywhere, but she prefers places she used too. She is constantly wanting to try new toys or new positions. Her middle name is experiment, of course she would only do things that aren’t crossing your boundaries.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

It depends, she can get bored of the same stuff so it depends if you guys have time to explore new things. She can go a good few, like 4, since she is athletic and has good stamina, but she definitely needs a break in between.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

She owns many variations from dildos to vibrators. She uses them quite a lot, since it’s easier. She’ll use them on herself and you, but of course she will wash them and properly take care of them. She’s quite skillful with and without them, so whether you both use them or not, you’re definitely having the time of your life.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

She’s always a tease, whether it's leading her hand up your thigh in class, wearing short skirts or no bra, whispering dirty things, it happens on a daily basis. She gives you yearning looks during class, smirking. It’s 50% sex and 50% taunts and teases.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

She’s not that loud, she swears more often than actually groaning. She sometimes does those small whimpers if you’re leading (which only happens in a blue moon), but she isn’t actually quiet; she talks to you.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

She would definitely want Lily or Mary to join, or she would love to go to one of this girls sleepover party’s and it ends up being a sex-a-thon orgy. She isn’t into men, so if ahy threesome’s where to go down it would be with girls.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

She has perky breasts, they're small but she likes them and her confidence makes you like them as well. Her strap is around 7 inches, but it’s more girthy.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Pretty high, she can go any time and where. She’s always thinking about sex but she is never actually horny most times, when she is horny she can go for hours on end.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

She actually has a very high stamina due to quidditch, so she has built up a tolerance to stay awake after a ‘workout’. There for, she can stay up for hours after sex and will probably spend her time taking care of you.

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[theprettiestlamb]

Welcome Home, Soldier [Part 2]

Pairing: 40s!Bucky Barnes x Plus Size SE Asian F!OC

Word Count: 2015

Description: Amelie's trip down memory lane leads her to the right place.

Author’s Note: First time I've ever written Bucky smut. I know this one sucks, but the next will be better (at least I hope). Unbeta'd, lightly edited. All mistakes are mine.

Warnings: angst, fluff, pet names (doll, baby doll, good girl); SMUT (18+ only) - protected sex, sneaky sex, p in v, loss of virginity; cursing, brief mention of blood, self-hate, body insecurities, racism, colorism, shitty family

Tags: @mysoftboybensolo, @maria-chwan, @lokiskitten, @caffeinated-fan

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“We’re like a couple of school kids,” Amelie teased, regarding their ongoing written correspondence.

Bucky stood closer to her.

Feeling heat radiating from his body and up her cheeks, the nurse dropped her gaze shyly.

To quell her racing heart, she focused on the name tag on his uniform. A short, white thread hung from the stitching.

His index finger curled under her chin and tipped her head back.

“Well, we’re definitely a couple,” he smirked.

“A-Are we?” her eyes widened a little, mesmerized by the way he looked at her.

They hadn’t exactly made it ‘official’, whatever that entailed.

“God, you’re so cute,” he chuckled at her naivety and leaned his forehead on hers. “Can I kiss you?”

Her mind was still reeling from the ‘couple’ part. She almost hadn’t realized she was leaving him hanging. When she met his eyes, she saw he had backed away. Their heads weren’t touching anymore and his hand dropped back to his side.

His body remained close, though.

She didn’t know how to kiss, but boy did she want him to teach her.

“Yes, Bucky.”

That dashing side-smirk returned and, this time, he placed the same hand gently upon her cheek and captured her lips with his.

Warmth and fuzziness permeated Amelie’s chest and tummy at the memory.

Now able to read the S.S. Samaria on the side of the boat, she recounted one of her last memories of Bucky.

“Oh, fuck…” she hissed as she dug a tan leg around his waist.

“God, you’re beautiful,” he whispered into her hairline, punctuating his declaration with a soft kiss.

In contrast, the thrusting of his hips sped up, making her gasp audibly.

He put his pointer finger to his nose and mouth, signaling her to be quiet. With the same hand, he cupped her cheek and pressed his lips against hers.

She pulled her bottom lip between her teeth to stifle her moans as he continued his barrage of kisses all over her face and neck.

Her pussy got wetter, tighter around him. “B-Bucky…”

“Cum for me, baby doll,” he pulled her to his chest while she rubbed her clit. “Fuck, I needta feel it.”

Her breath from chanting his name fanned against his bare chest, right below where the chain of his dog tags draped over his collarbone.

The blanket covering where they connected partly fell onto the floor with the force of his thrusts.

He moaned and froze between her legs when her upper body jerked back, mouth agape in a silent scream. Red fingernails clawed into his biceps, marking his flesh. Her heel drove into the bottom of his spine as she rode out her high.

Amelie curled back into his embrace, her whole body convulsing with ecstasy.

Bucky wet his lips with his tongue and began moving again, this time not as fast.

“That’s a good girl,” he brushed a few strands of stray locks from her face and kissed her sweetly.

Her hand flew to the back of his neck, fingers in his hair as he sped up again.

“Oh, Bucky…” she purred and moved her hips in time with his.

He anchored her thigh onto his with his strong hand.

“Amelie, I’m gonna—“ he groaned and gave one final push, drawing a soft ‘mh!” from his partner.

His body went stiff as he spilled his load into the condom inside her.

While they caught their breaths, their grips on each other relaxed.

Upon meeting his eyes, Amelie could make out a look of pure adoration on Bucky’s face, despite the moonlight from outside highlighting only his back and shoulders.

“So is it all that it’s cracked up to be?” he smirked.

She smiled into his neck, remembering the day she told him that she was a virgin. People act like it’s the best thing ever while some have told her it ‘wasn’t all that it’s cracked up to be’, she said. Whichever one it was, Amelie wished to find out for herself, but only with the right person. She asked him to be the one, but being the gentleman he was, he wanted to wait until she was truly ready.

She didn’t expect it to be this night. In an abandoned building-turned-aid station where other nurses slept some few feet away on the other side of a curtain partition.

After much thought, she tipped her head back to see his eyes and smiled. “With you, it was.”

He breathed a sigh of relief and chuckled.

Her heart fell when, after pulling out of her and removing the condom, he propped himself up with his arm against the cold floor, his dog tags dropping back over his ribcage. She knew their moment together couldn’t last, but it pained her nonetheless.

“I gotta go, doll,” he buttoned up his uniform and kissed her head and lips.

“That’s one hell of a piss, Sarge,” she joked as he picked his rifle up.

He seemed confused for a split second, but the excuse he gave the men in his foxhole came back to him.

“I’ll just say it turned into a shit,” he shrugged nonchalantly.

Amelie had to turn her face into her upper arm to stifle her laugh.

“You go do that,” she brought her curled fingers down, the knuckles brushing her lips.

“Doll, stop bein’ cute or I’m never gonna leave,” he swung the gun over his shoulder blade and went to climb out the window, but a tug of his hand stopped him.

She knew he had to rejoin his squad so she made it quick:

“I love you, Bucky.”

He spun around, taking a step closer to her just enough to be able to level her hand to his lips.

“I love you too, Amelie. So much.”

A bell rang at the pier, causing her to jolt back to the present.

With the ship docked, the crowd gathered around and cheered when the servicemen started filing out.

People waved and called out the names of their husbands, sons, sweethearts.

A bittersweet smile formed on Amelie’s face as she witnessed several unions unfold before her.

It’s what the men deserved after all the fighting they’d done on the other side of the world.

She thought back to when her hands were caked with blood, some from men who wouldn’t see this day.

But everyone who’s here today at least knew their loved one escaped death and didn’t dread leaving the Harbor with nothing but sorrowful hearts, she reassured herself.

That much she was happy for.

She hoped to at least see Steve. Even if Bucky had died, she would want to hear it from him.

That was, unless he was also killed in action.

The number of passengers going down the ramp was dwindling.

Amelie blinked rapidly to stave off saltwater lining her tear ducts and stood up. She tucked the letters back into her bag and counted what little cash she had before standing up.

I’ll stay somewhere for the night and go see Tita Sue in the morning. Tell her it was too late to travel by the time I got back to the States, she pondered, still looking at the open door of the cabin.

She’ll probably call me a failure for that, too. “You couldn’t even make it here on time? Your cousins already got home. Edgar got the Distinguished Service Star. Maribel met a sailor and they just announced their engagement. What did you do there? Did you meet someone? Of course not. Men at home don’t even like you. Maybe if you used that skin cream I bought, you would have half a chance.”

It took everything within her to not cry. Her aunt was the only family she had in America. And she didn’t even act like it.

Two men came from the once-empty hall and stepped out onto the deck, sacks slung over their backs.

She didn’t recognize one. But the other?

His dark brown hair peaked out over the back of his neck from under an olive drab cap.

Was it…? It couldn’t.

Her feet guided her through the crowd.

Staring straight ahead, her vision focused on the man’s face. Light blue eyes, now with a hint of dark circles underneath, and the smile that never failed to make her weak as he laughed at something his friend said.

A laugh that reignited pure bliss inside her.

“Bucky?” she finally called out in question.

The man she had her eyes on turned his head mid-conversation, his lips parted and he stood still.

Her heart beat wildly, a lump in her throat formed, and her eyesight was getting foggy.

It was, without a doubt, him.

“Amelie!”

It was his voice.

She didn’t get a chance to move, or even think about moving. A pair of arms pulled her onto the lapels of a warm wool coat.

Tears fell down her cheeks as she hugged him around the waist. He was tall enough to rest his chin atop her head, which was exactly what he did after kissing her temple.

“How?” she whispered, the side of her head pressed against his chest.

She held on tighter as if she’d lose him again. And in a way, she was afraid she would.

“Steve told me—“ she gasped and shot her head back to look at him. “Where is Steve? He told me you were alive and—“

Bucky simply smiled and cut her rambling short. “He’s fine. He’s tying up some loose ends with Agent Carter.”

She nodded, then Bucky cupped her cheeks in his hands and kissed her with passion.

Her hands rested on his upper arms as she sunk into the taste of cigarettes and milk chocolate.

She hummed, now content that this wasn’t a dream.

In need of oxygen, he drew his lips back.

“I’ll explain everything else,” he reassured, followed by a clench of his jaw.

Through a partial grin, he put his hand on the small of her back. “How ‘bout I take you home?“

Her face lit up, wanting to just cuddle with him, but then she remembered they wouldn’t be alone. He was already leading her towards the curb, where a line of cabs idled for the families on the docks. But she didn’t move.

“What if your family doesn’t like me?”

He stopped beside her, smile fallen.

It hurt knowing it was from her words, but she also didn’t want to face humiliation. Or worse, him feeling ashamed of being with her.

“What? Why wouldn’t they, doll? You’re beautiful and kind and sweet…”

“Bucky, you know what I mean,” she laughed a little and fanned her hands out, gesturing to her appearance.

Despite being in her own uniform, her presence attracted dirty looks and hateful whispers. Nothing she did mattered when the first thing people saw was her skin and body.

He gave her a sympathetic look and brushed a loose curl off her cheek.

“They don’t care about any of that. Well, my dad does… a little,” he looked away for a minute, mouth in a straight line. “But my mom can convince him of anything. And judging by what she wrote me, she wants to meet you.”

Amelie put her hands over the lower half of her face, the edges of her lips pulling back to her pink cheeks. “You talked about me?”

He chuckled. “Can you blame me? I was so crazy for you. Still am.”

“So they know I’m not skinny or white?” she gulped. “‘Cus I don’t want them to be surprised and hate me.”

He kissed her again, his hand moving slightly so her ear was between his index finger and thumb.

Once he pulled away, he gave her the most love-struck look she’s ever seen on a man. Only this time, it wasn’t aimed at a friend.

“Like I said, I told them everything. They won’t care about any of that once they see how amazing you are.”

“Oh, Bucky…” she giggled, feeling tears creep up her waterline again.

He pecked her lips and held her hand. “Let’s go home.”

[maddiewritesstucky]

wearing those gray sweatpants. young people think it's hot and i think silver steve would b v confused about why bucky is gagging for his comfy pants

YES BABY NOW WE’RE TALKIN! 😍

This would confuse the hell out of Steve. His grey sweats are his ‘I don’t have to leave the house today and probably have a few chores to accomplish, too’ pants. They definitely have a grass stain on one knee because they’re also his yard work pants when the weather is too cool for shorts.

But when Steve slips them on one lazy Sunday morning to go make pancakes for himself and Bucky after a sleep in, and Bucky’s eyes go all wide?

“Oof, you been holding out on me, old man!” Bucky full on sits up in bed to drag his eyes over Steve’s body, very blatantly staring (thirsting) at the sweatpants

Steve looks a little embarrassed, kinda waves Bucky off because he thinks Bucky is teasing him, because who in their right mind would genuinely find grass-stained sweatpants attractive? “Yeah yeah, I know, they’re a sight. I promise these aren’t what I’m wearing out today.”

“Oh, you gravely misunderstand me, Steven,” Bucky grins, prowling down to the end of the bed and kneeling on the mattress; hooking a finger into Steve’s waistband to drag him closer. “I cannot believe you’ve owned a pair of dick pants this whole time, and I’m only just now learning about this!”

Steve blinks a few times, looking at Bucky and then down at his sweats, and back up again.

“...A pair of what, now?”

Bucky’s running his hands up Steve’s thighs and feeling up his ass, and he looks so weirdly happy about these damn pants??

“Grey sweats are dick pants, Steve! This is common knowledge!”

“But...I see women wearing them, too?”

Steve’s confusion only grows as Bucky’s amusement does, as Bucky presses his face against Steve’s bare stomach and huffs a soft laugh against his skin

“Yes, Steve, women wear them too, but it’s kinda a thing when guys wear them...they don’t always leave so much to the imagination.”

Bucky draws a fingertip down over the soft line of Steve’s dick inside his sweats and Steve feels his cheeks pink up as he gapes down at himself

How many times has he been out in the front yard wearing these, mowing the lawn or tending to the garden, in full view of the neighbours?? Waving to kids as they walk past on their way home from school? And shit, that time he wore them over to sweet old Mrs Meyers house across the road when she unexpectedly called for help with her computer? Had he left nothing to her unsuspecting octogenarian imagination??

“Oh my god...” He’s on the verge of a low level panic, but Bucky laughs bright and throws his arms around his neck and kisses him square on the nose, shaking his head

“Relax, your inner crisis is showing,” he grins, “these ones are fine, you can’t really see anything good...unfortunately.”

Steve’s shoulders drop from where they’d been creeping up around his ears and he heaves a relieved sigh, circling his arms around Bucky’s waist

“Jeez kid, you had me thinking I’ve been traumatising the whole neighbourhood,” he swats Bucky gently on the ass, feeling himself relax back into his easy former mood. “Why are you so damn happy about them then, if these ones aren’t showing anything ‘good’?”

It’s Bucky’s turn to blush now, dropping his gaze from Steve’s eyes as he toys absently with the hair at the nape of Steve’s neck

“I dunno, you look like you’re about to, like...go to the gym and spend two hours smacking a heavy bag around, or something...”

...Now that’s an interesting development, Steve thinks. He hums a vague sound of understanding and kisses Bucky on the forehead, shrugging a ‘guess this is a young person thing’ before turning the question back to what’s really important here - whether Bucky wants chocolate chips in his pancakes or not

But after Bucky leaves later that afternoon, Steve heads straight out to the garage and gets out the old heavy bag he’s had sitting in there forever, and gets it set up hanging from the rafters down one end of the patio

He figures maybe he should start up training again. For fitness reasons.

...And if he just so happens to be out there in his grey sweats having at it the next time Bucky comes over? Total coincidence

[retroellie]

Ellie Williams NSFW alphabet

Summary: Alphabet NSFW with Ellie Williams 

A/N: This is not my original idea, so credit for who ever made the NSFW Alphabet lol. I know this has already been done with her but i wanted to do one myself, i also got some inspo from the one that was already done for her so enjoy<3 

Warnings: NSFW, sex toys, mentions of mommy kink, knife play and talks about blood/periods 

Word count: 2K

A= Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

She’s  a big softie after. Afterwards when y’all are out of breath and all sweaty, She will pull up into her arms and give you soft kisses, telling you how good you were. She will always ask if you're okay, it doesn't matter the pace she will just check in. 

She doesn’t mind being dirty after, she will just lay there all sweaty with you until you both pass out. But if you really want to get cleaned up she will get a bath ready for the two of you. She will always take care of you after and do whatever you need, just say it and she will do it. 

B= Body part (Their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s) 

Her favorite part of her body is her arms, especially the one with the tattoo. She knows you find it so hot but she feels so bad ass with it. It also reminds her of Joel so that’s a plus. 

Her favorite part of your body is your thighs and belly. She loves how soft they are. Big, small, flat or round she loves them. She likes running her hands down your thigh just to see you blush and she loves kissing down your belly. 

C= Cum (anything to do with cum basically) 

She likes to make you cum with her fingers, it gives her a high when she knows she did all of that with just her fingers. She has the most angelic orgasm face ever, like you love seeing it. She gets all embarrassed about it cause you're just staring at her like she’s an angel so she tries to cover it up. Your main goal every time is to pleasure her to the point she has no choice but to make that same face. 

D= Dirty Secret 

She likes blood, she obviously doesn’t want to hurt you but when you're all bloodied up from assignments she can’t handle it. She likes period sex too, like if you on your period or she is on hers. She gets really horny on her period so she’s always on top of you when she’s on it. She doesn’t expect you to agree to period sex but when you do she doesn’t hold back. 

E= Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?) 

She’s not very experienced, she had some past lovers but you were the first one she went all the way with. It takes her a few times to know what she’s doing, she was nervous the first time but now she’s very dominant and knows what to do and how to do it. 

F= Favorite Position 

She loves bending you over a flat surface and sticking her hand down the front of your pants. She will even snake her hand up your shirt, grabbing at your boobs. She just loves watching you come undone like that, it makes it easier for when your legs shake and you can’t stand. But any position where you're comfortable and feeling the best she can make you is good enough for her. 

G= Goofy (Are they serious in the moment or are they humorous?) 

She’s so goofy in bed and any other time, she’s serious about getting you off of course but she will pop a few jokes here and there. She’ll joke around about you being needy or the toys you guys decide to use, she’s just a big goofball. When she’s in her dom mode she will be more serious, not making many jokes and focusing on pleasing you. 

H= Hair (How groomed are they down there?)

She honestly does not care, like there's bigger things to worry about. She doesn’t expect you to do so either, like she genuinely doesn’t care.

I= Intimacy 

She’s not big on romance but she loves intimacy. She always wants to be close to you and she will caress your body no matter the pace. She will hold your hand while her other hand is between your thighs or brush your hair back while you're riding her thigh. 

J=Jack off (Masturbation headcannon) 

She masturbates when you can’t be there but you’re her go to when she needs to get off. She can’t get herself off like you do so when she’s horny she will walk over to your house or drag you over to hers just so yall can smash. She definitely thinks of you when she masturbates like she can’t get off if she doesn’t. 

K= Kinks 

She has a mommy kink, like she likes when you call her mommy especially around the farmhouse era. It’s weird the first time but once you say it she will want you to say it more. She finds some kinda power with you saying that and it’s such a turn on for her. 

She likes using knives in bed too, she will never actually cut you (unless you want to be) but just holding it up to your neck while she fucks you. You trust her completely too so that just urges her on more, you know she would never intentionally hurt you so you put your entire trust in her. 

L= Location (favorite places to do it) 

She likes to do it in her own house but she doesn’t mind doing it in public areas. She wants to make sure you guys won’t actually get caught or even get hurt. She likes to keep it in the walls of Jackson but sometimes it goes outside of it, like in the lookouts or one of the houses y’all just cleared. But that’s only when she gets worked up enough. Again she wants you to be safe so she will always triple check the area beforehand. 

M= Motivation (What turns them on?)

Everything you do is a turn on but when you look all cute and needy, it just makes her weak. When you dance around in only her big shirts or when you look all small and cuddly in her bed, you being all innocent just does something to her. You being domestic is also such a turn on, she loves just coming up behind you and kissing your neck, maybe running her hand up your shirt. 

N= NO (something they wouldn’t do/ turn offs)

She’s into experimenting but she will not do anything with bodily fluids, like blood she can handle but like other than that she can’t. Spitting, peeing ect. is a big no for her. She doesn’t like degradation either especially when it’s used towards her. She doesn’t mind using degrading names towards you, only if you like it, but making you feel small and putting you down just doesn't feel right to her. She would much rather boost you up instead of putting you down, and honestly she wouldn’t know how to without being too mean about it. You using degrading words towards her like even names effects her self-esteem so you just don’t do it towards her. 

O= Oral (Giving or receiving, skill ect.) 

She loves to give but receiving is also nice. She loves to lead you when you go down on her, pulling at your hair and making you go deeper and faster. She’s again not very skilled but she has grown to be able to pleasure you and only you. The first couple times she needed you to tell her what to do but now she’s a pro and never fails to make you come undone on her tongue. 

P= Pace (Are they fast or rough? Slow and sensual?) 

She’s very rough but she’s super slow when during foreplay, she’ll tease you and make you want it before unloading it all on you at once. When she’s mad or jealous she’s only fast and rough, she’ll fuck you roughly for hours. If you are in a mood or just wanting to take it slow she will, she’s not very good at it but she’ll try for you. 

Q= Quickie (Their opinions on quickies) 

She loves them, they are very convenient especially when y’all are in a hurry .They are useful when you guys need to get off quickly in public or on assignments, desperately fucking each other before having to go out into the dance again. She would much rather pleasure you on her own time, she loves to draw it out but when she needs you, she needs you. 

R= Risk (Are they okay experimenting? Do they take risks?)

She takes risks but to a certain extent. If it is too risky like you could die or get hurt, then no but if it’s something that won’t get you hurt then she’s all for it. She loves the adrenaline of risky things, it adds on to the pleasure. For so long risks were always deadly and could end up with her getting hurt so it’s nice for risks to just be the right amount of risk. She’s all for experimenting in bed too, it keeps her on her toes and it’s exciting 

S= Stamina (How many rounds can they go for? How long do they last?)

3-4 rounds is the most she can do, she would be okay with 1 drawn out round she would actually prefer it. The build up to the climax is her favorite part so one round of just the build up and then the release, it’s heaven. She likes short and fast rounds too, they help her get her frustration out but they're a little bit less pleasurable. She can last a while if she needs to but if you press the right buttons and hit the right places she comes undone fast. 

T= Toys (Do they have toys and who do they use them on?) 

She definitely has toys. Her hands and mouth are good but she likes to mix it up a bit sometimes. Nothing crazy though, Strap-on, vibrator, even some rope here and there. She’s not the kinkiest person but she loves to pleasure you in any way she can 

U= Unfair (How much do they tease?)

She teases you big time. She will run a hand up your thigh when you're talking to Joel or make dirty comments towards you in front of your friends, she’s an asshole and she knows it. It always leads to you dragging her to a private place and desperately trying to get her to touch you, that always leads to more teasing. 

V= Volume (How loud are they?)

She can be pretty loud like when you're on top, she can be heard all around town. She’s usually quiet, making soft moans and cursing under her breath here and there. She likes dirty talk, nothing too much though just enough to push you off the edge. 

W- Wild Card (Random headcannon) 

She sometimes brings home lingerie she found out on assignments, she likes the way your body looks in lace and bows. She will have you model it on for her and just run her fingers over your body, admiring you. If you feel insecure or you feel you don’t look right in it she will tell you how hot you are and follow it up with everything she wants to do with you.

X= X-ray (What’s going on in their pants) 

I mean it’s a vagina??? I honestly don’t know what to put here lmao 

Y= Yearning (How high is their sex drive)

She’s always horny, when you're ready to go she’s ready. She will constantly be touching you in some kind of way because she always wants to jump on you. Of course if you're not in the mood or you put her down when she tries, she respects that and stops. 

Z= ZZZ (How quickly do they fall asleep after?) 

She falls asleep pretty quickly afterwards, after she has got you settled in and cleaned up she will pass out immediately. She puts a lot of energy into pleasing you so after she’s exhausted. If you want to clean up she will help you but she’s completely fine with passing out and not cleaning up. 

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