#but those goblins are me
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Okay, I need advice or information or something because I'm very confused right now.
So the name "Neurodivergent Brain Goblins" comes from these bits of myself that I've named and given an identity to in order to help other people understand my brain.
I've had neuropsych testing done (4.5 hrs of testing, surveys, and forms). They agreed that I have C-PTSD and dissociative symptoms with a somatoform disorder, but they don't agree that I have DID because I don't lose time and don't have other personalities that take over/replace mine.
My brain goblins are their own people but also are just me. Mini little parts of me that sometimes control more of my life than I often do.
Reynold is my logic. He is my assistant manager who definitely wasn't given enough training and is more of a glorified babysitter than anything else 😅 I honor the amount of shit he puts up with every day. He is second in command and acts as a buffer to all the other brain goblins.
Then there is Jeff 🫠 I call him my ADHD goblin. Jeff loves buttons. He loves pushing them and watching them light up and hearing them make noise. Jeff also loves running around, jumping, making ridiculous noises, and seeing how many times he can do the same exact thing in a row before it pisses everyone else off 🤣 sometimes Reynold will give Jeff a tennis ball to go bounce against the wall for a while just so he can get some real work done.
(I'm not done drawing Jeff, but this is him so far 😊 he is a very mischievous little shit lol)
I also have Frank my OCD Goblin. He carries around an abacus instead of a calculator because 1. He is obsessed with numbers and 2. Physically moving the pieces to count calms his anxiety 😅. Frank loves simple repetitive tasks that he can do on repeat so he can count them over and over again. He often teams up with Jeff because of this and then they bug Reynold all day. Kind of a "hey! Hey! Hey check this out! Look what we can do! Hey!"
Bobby is my Autism Goblin 🤣 I love him so much but like sometimes I just.. he tries so hard and his effort is absolutely beautiful, but he just isn't good at any of it 🙃 he is the director of communication, so anytime I socialize Bobby shows up to help navigate talking. But like he just REALLY isn't good at it 🤣 the heart and soul he puts into it though is why he is still the communications director 🥰
I also have Manic Manny, Depression Dave, Sensory Sally. Though they like to work from behind the scenes. Their control is really strong but everything they do is by sneaking up and whispering in Reynolds ear and *poof* disappearing. He can't ever see them, but the weird creepy crawly feeling they give him makes him act on what they said every single time.
There are lots of other Goblins that work in this factory, but they are more like background characters? Like, everyone has a job, but most are just quiet office workers that help to keep the lights on 😅
If you have read this far thank you so much!! My question now is, what are my brain goblins? Is this DID or is it something else?? Tbh I don't really care what it is because these are my Brain Goblins and I love them no matter how much they annoy me 😅 but I also like learning information because sometimes it can really help me with managing life lol
#did osdd#did system#dissociative identity disorder#im so confused#they are goblins that live in my head#but those goblins are me#brain goblins#neurodivergent brain goblins#did
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slaying while slaying 🔪🩸
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#art#dnncats#astarion#my beloved#baldurs gate 3#bg3#astarion art#havent been active w art but big news this man has me in a GRIP#going 2 ramble in the tags a bit for those who Care!!!#the brain has been rotting ovr bg3 for like. 2 months now#ive done 2 playthrus (1 current) so far and bro ive only ever romanced this fucking guy its so over 4 me.......i cant deny him#i love him so much my chaotic neutral bf wife#ive gotten my ass beat by abdirak in the goblin camp every time for his approval#its actually so serious LMFAOO#anw more astarion art 2 come hopefully hehehe <3
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one thing I really really appreciate abt riz gukgak as a character is that he is un-self-aware to the max. he inhabits his body so completely. the arc that would usually be run as "I'm different and unable to connect with my friends in this way that everyone seems to be able to do and so something's wrong with me and I don't like myself" when it comes to riz is actually like no! I have literally no problems or praises for myself personally. I don't stand outside of my own self and judge it. it's phrased as "other people will eventually find someone more important to them than you" rather than centering it on his self-perception. he doesn't know why he doesn't have the best social life on earth even though he's not afraid at all to talk to other people. every time he sees himself in someone else's actions or behaviour he gets startled by it. his latest epilogue is realizing seemingly for the first time that he's not just an agent of causes but an actual character. he's my hero and I want to be him when I grow up
#not art#fantasy high#this trait with him is kinda why I don't really ascribe any prominent trans narrative to him. even though hes very gender#I think I said once like bc he didn't just walk into the girls bathroom I don't think he finds himself on that axis in general#bc if he's any less attached to his gender he would 100% have done it lmao#and the great thing is the more he gets comfortable with his friends the less self aware he becomes#saying shit like ''chop his head off so he doesn't revive'' fully uncaring for the optics. I love him#its honestly great esp. with the Living While Goblin stuff going on too. no inner conflict with that dude#he's fully great! he's awesome he's all gucci. the world is just fucked and that's why shit sucks for him#(this makes me doing something model-minority-adjacent for bard!riz a bit harrowing shdjsh I dont wanna lose this)#(he's dictated by fear but it doesn't mean he reflects those fears back onto himself as a person lol. at least kid got better)
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scott im so obsessed with your ex
#maddies got those hips got those lips life of every party#most redeeming part of 97 so far tbh#like 97 looks so good but i HATE the writing#its all rushed and dont get me started on Rogue#art#fanart#myart#digital art#marvel#marvel fanart#xmen#x men#xmen 97#x men 97#xmen fanart#jean grey#madelyne pryor#goblin queen#wouldnt mind goblin that queen amirite fellas
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it is all chaos and entropy. the thing is that the chaos and entropy make it beautiful and lovely.
yes, it's true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is terrifying. i have lived through some of the unfairness - i got born like this, with my body caving into itself, with this ironic love of dance when i sometimes can't stand up for longer than 15 minutes. i am a poet with hands that are slowly shutting down - i can't hold a pen some days. recently i found a dead bird on our front porch. she had no visible injuries. she had just died, the way things die sometimes.
it is also true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is wonderful. the sheer happenstance that makes rain turn into a rainbow. the impossible coincidence of finding your best friend. i have made so many mistakes and i have let myself down and i have harmed other people by accident. nature moves anyway. on the worst day of my life she delivers me an orange juice sunset, as if she is saying try again tomorrow.
how vast and unknowing the universe! how small we are! isn't that lovely. the universe has given us flowers and harp strings and the shape of clouds. how massive our lives are in comparison to a grasshopper. the world so bright, still undiscovered. even after 30 years of being on this earth, i learned about a new type of animal today: the dhole.
chance echoing in my life like a harmony between two people talking. do you think you and i, living in different worlds but connected through the internet - do you think we've ever seen the same butterfly? they migrate thousands of miles. it's possible, right?
how beautiful the ways we fill the vastness of space. i love that when large amounts of people are applauding in a room, they all start clapping at the same time. i love that the ocean reminds us of our mother's heartbeat. i love that out of all the colors, chlorophyll chose green. i love the coincidences. i love the places where science says i don't know, but it just happens.
"the universe doesn't care about you!" oh, i know. that's okay. i care about the universe. i will put my big stupid heart out into it and watch the universe feast on it. it is not painful. it is strange - the more love you pour into the unfeeling world, the more it feels the world loves you in return. i know it's confirmation bias. i think i'm okay if my proof of kindness is just my own body and my own spirit.
i buried the bird from our porch deep in the woods. that same day, an old friend reaches out to me and says i miss you. wherever you go, no matter how bad it gets - you try to do good.
#writeblr#warm up#i can't write rn but i have SO much words in here bc im reading the chorus of dragons books#(just started book 4)#and this woman's writing is just LIVING in my brain. let me out!!!#(i read roughly like 2-4 books a week usually bc i go on long walks with my dog but when a book is REALLY good like. it eats my life. )#anyway ...... so like here's a story that idk i've tried to explain to other people as being wild#but maybe im the only one who thinks it is wild???#so i play pokemon go (i just started in jan) bc i love pokemon and as i have mentioned i walk goblin for like an hour in the morning#and i don't like a lot of fitness trackers due to the fact it makes me .sad. but i also wanted the little digital rewards. enter pokemon go#anyway so they make you make friends to complete quests. so i used a reddit thread. i do not usually use reddit. i don't have an acct#i lurked. i just googled like ''pokemon go reddit '' and randomly added a bunch of numbers#i was on that page for all of 15 minutes. there are THOUSANDS of responses on that page.#here's what's wild: in that group of people. even though i am not on reddit and it was one random event once#it turns out one of those people lives in the town i live in. or at least very close. i only know this because#when we send each other gifts. it's from the same freaking area.#i can't ask them to meet up bc pokemon go doesn't have a messaging app lol but like . what are the fucking chances that#a random person posts in a random reddit thread and HAPPENS to get added by someone ELSE from their SAME TOWN#who by pure fucking CHANCE is ALSO playing pokemon go and looking for friends#i googled it there's only 42000 people in my broad region. the .......... smallness ! of the world!!!
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will our paths converge 'neath the sun
#honkai star rail#hsr#robin hsr#sunday hsr#penacony#hsr fanart#nez art bucket#its insane that i did a fanart of those two before KAFKA OR BOOTHILL LIKE WHAT#and i dont care that much about neither sunday nor robin kxfixfxfdgi#im just a sucker for doomed siblings and it awakes the goblin that craves blood sacrifice (dramatic piece of art)#oh also had i not seen the sun makes me so fckn emotional its permanently stuck in my head
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look language is ever evolving and colloquial definitions are valid etc. but if you're going to describe something as banal as a 3 am trip to the grocery store as "feral" don't act shocked when i'm on all fours in the parking lot, shredding a rabbit's jugular with my canines
#i'm sorry if i see one more cooking video described as Chaotic i'm throwing my phone in the river#only people i've seen who have truly earned the phrase Goblin Mode are those sewer racers#*ravers#that's feral to me#they made me the Princess of Language yesterday don't worry#it was on the news
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What could he have meant by this
#pop art mash up…..#LICHTENSTEIN??#girl that’s like 30 years too late#60s pop art vs 30s noir OH BROTHER#spider noir#the dog speaks#those monsters better be goblin and.. vulture I guess#even tho vultures like a fucked up guy#not exactly a monster in the sense that I’m getting from this tweet#me when I hear a mutual talking about the fantastic and monsterous aspects they could add to noir: 😄😁🙂↕️🙂↕️#me when I hear the same thing from a studio: 🙁😟#I DONT TRUST THEMMM#I read the article linked too that’s quite literally all he says abt noir
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Halloween Special w/ David Dastmalchian & Leah Kilpatrick | Ep 05 | Right Now Podcast
#david dastmalchian#leah kilpatrick#sorry leah :(#this was a trip#it's really nice to have an unusual wacky interview that doesn't repeat every question that have been asked before#his (lack of) makeup looks beautiful#can't wait for those short shorts david 🥵#also i need motivational tapes narrated by david oh my god that part where he's teaching the goblin made me crazy#interview gif set
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Armand and Louis really could’ve had it all if everyone was 60% less traumatized and mentally ill. Imagine being Louis, taking in the exquisite romantic beauty of 1940s Paris. Heartbroken and feeling lost. When out of nowhere, a beautiful angel with a boyish face materializes out of the shadows and sweeps you off your feet. You spend nights walking around the city together. Paris is bubbling over with life and culture and you have a personal tour guide to give you it’s entire history. What does it mean to be a black gay vampire in this world? You’ve never really had a chance to take a breath, look in the mirror, and ask yourself “What do I want for myself?” You decide you want to be dominant in the bedroom because being in control makes you feel safe and you have someone completely willing to give you submission. For Armand, he could experience a dynamic where his submission isn’t used as a tool to harm and break him. The more they learn about each other the more they understand about themselves.
Maybe Armand was never going to be THE biggest love of Louis’ life but their love could’ve been PASSIONATE and REAL and HEALING. For both of them! Even if they eventually parted ways. It would be an experience they could look back fondly on. Or maybe even revisit sporadically over the decades! Imagine having that type of intense friendship and intimate connection with someone! A relationship not bogged down by a twisted sense of ownership or obligation or desperation. Only CHOOSING to come together whenever it feels right for both of them. Whether strictly platonic or something more. No matter how long or far apart, choosing to be a safe place for one another.
Unfortunately Armand has more mental illnesses than exist in the DSM 5 :/. Also the coven :/. Also he doesn’t really love or respect himself :/ Also the ghost of Lestat hovered over both of them like a foreboding cloud:/
#iwtv#armand#louis de pointe du lac#loumand#it’s never loumandover#Armand de fucking loser sheesh#I’m poly if you couldn’t tell by how I talk about the ships on this show🥸#louis I’m so fucking sorry#don’t get me wrong. I love that Armand is a freak goblin but maybe in another universe…..#those pre trial Loumand scenes hit like crack ngl
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fav line in the movie is laura’s “you were always the wrong guy— until you weren’t” like omg I genuinely got emotional that’s really who he is
bonus fav scene: laura and logan yucking it up at the dinner table they looked so happy I wanted to explode
#last deadpool wolverine post otd#i prommy#those old men call to me like the green goblin mask#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool 3#deadpool#wolverine#logan howlett#laura kinney#deadpool spoilers#spoilers#dpaw
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I may be stupid and you might already have one but if not have you considered making a WEBTOON about the 2 best doggos as a story about their weird and wonderful lives would be great
Not stupid at all! I've definitely thought about it a lot, but comic making is hard work, it's extremely time consuming (either that or my method of drawing is just absurdly inefficient. Probably both). I don't think it's something I could just pick up and realistically fit into my daily life, at least not at the moment. I'm just one person with very limited time and resources. Sorry!
#I'd need a clone#a paint goblin if you will#that would just draw day in day out and make the thing for me#it's sad but I think my best bet is trying to make super short one shots with a very limited number of pages#or just a handful of panels even#I have a whole bunch of those in progress but again who knows when I'll be able to finish any of them#answered#m0notropa-uniflora#If I were to make a proper serious long comic#I'd have to finally grit my teeth and git gud at backgrounds and that just doesn't sound like fun time in the slightest if I'm being honest
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Fox is a dog person while Thorn is a cat person, I don’t make the rules.
#To be clear I just mean I think they PREFER those pets#I am not saying either of them hate dogs or cats#Fox seems like he needs something that loves him unconditionally and wants attention and snuggles#While Thorn is okay if his pet is temperamental or causes chaos on the daily because he thinks it’s funny#Yes this is prompted partly by me giving Thorn a Loth cat in my WIP#the cat is named Pickles and he’s a grouchy dumpster goblin but Thorn loves him anyway#Fox doesn’t really understand but as long as his twin is happy he doesn’t mind the cat#commander fox#commander thorn#star wars#the clone wars#clone trooper#coruscant guard#corrie guard
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I don't think I've seen you mention it, but for your class!swap au, do you have any idea of what you'd turn the other Bad Kids into?
genuinely love the way this ask is worded first of all. I am like a great magician ur right and the bad kids are my victim. I am like their joker if you will. anyways I do! I've definitely brought this up on this blog before (in nonrebloggable untagged text posts so I don't blame you for not seeing them lol (I don't blame you regardless of that tbh bc that's a weird thing to do)) but the rundown is: kristen -> sorcerer, gorgug -> cleric, fig -> barbarian, adaine -> artificer, fabian -> rogue
#not art#with chances of any of them multiclassing going along#I think adaine would multiclass fighter coming into junior year... kristen might pick up paladin perhaps. those are the two things#that jump out to me. actually I can also see fig going insano style again too esp. after sophomore year when she learns things don't#disappear the moment she takes her hands off them and that she can trust some things she never has to fight for#gorgug might pick up some levels in artificer too I still think that's a really fun way to bond with his parents for him#esp. bc they'd be trying And fumbling it so hard while he's deprogramming. having this fresh way to connect again would be#something gorgug would consciously initiate I think#fabian I think ranger if he multiclasses. he's already the ghost of seacaster manor might as well make it anor londo out here#riz is the only one I don't think would multiclass ever just bc the boy has tunnel vision#everyone's like learning tools to navigate life as adventurer n shit. riz isn't. he's a triple A game studio passion dev#(he has troubles even thinking abt doing things he isn't good at. bc Living While Goblin) (junior year here I come!!!!!! fuck!!!!!!!!!)#lmao I have once again said too much in tags... hello is anyone here. hi
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idk what you expected when your first and only post was telling the fandom they can’t do whatever they want forever and treating it as some sort of psyop misinformation campaign + putting one identity above all others. grow up! word of god is not real!
watching all these people in your asks jerk you off is honestly embarrassing
I literally said that multiple times, you can have whatever headcanons you want. All I said was that Riz isn't canonically Aromantic, which is a fact. I saw some people saying he was canonically aromantic, and I was trying to clear up misinformation. The word of God thing is also just your opinion. I think that word of God statements are canon, and you don't. That's just a difference in perspective.
I don't care what you do as long as you respect others. Please read my posts again. I say over and over and over that all interpretations people have are valid and that I completely support people reading him as Aromantic. The only thing I said is that there is more than one interpretation to the character.
I'm sick of people saying i'm a bad person or an aphobe because I said to respect other people's headcanons.
#and people saying that theyre sorry that people are harassing me is jerking me off???#I dont know about anyone else but I dont think people deserve harassment#especially not for saying that a funky sherlock homes goblin from a dnd game could be demiromantic#thats a stupid thing to get upset about#I cant believe I didnt expect to be harassed when I made post that explicitly said all headcanons are valid#because I mentioned that one of those headcanons wasnt canon#riz gukgak#dimension 20
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I was talking to my dad about how I made
my background on my phone, this is the photo that I was talking about.
Oh and the background (I used Pinterest EXCEPT the photo of the deer skull, said deer skull is mine.)
I love this vibe so much.
#cryptid rants#cryptid talks#cryptidcore#cryptid#eldritchcore#goblin vibes#Cryptid vibes#tw bones#tw dead animal#cw bones#vulture culture#Huagghhh I hope this gets to my moot's dash including others who don't fukin know me#“oh cool a Vulture culture guy! Follow them!” BOOM daycare attendant on their dash#dca community#dca fandom#fnaf dca#dca#Tagging those tags cause just#For people that read tags! That's it
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