#but those goblins are me

[neurodivergentbraingoblins]

Okay, I need advice or information or something because I'm very confused right now.

So the name "Neurodivergent Brain Goblins" comes from these bits of myself that I've named and given an identity to in order to help other people understand my brain.

I've had neuropsych testing done (4.5 hrs of testing, surveys, and forms). They agreed that I have C-PTSD and dissociative symptoms with a somatoform disorder, but they don't agree that I have DID because I don't lose time and don't have other personalities that take over/replace mine.

My brain goblins are their own people but also are just me. Mini little parts of me that sometimes control more of my life than I often do.

Reynold is my logic. He is my assistant manager who definitely wasn't given enough training and is more of a glorified babysitter than anything else 😅 I honor the amount of shit he puts up with every day. He is second in command and acts as a buffer to all the other brain goblins.

Then there is Jeff 🫠 I call him my ADHD goblin. Jeff loves buttons. He loves pushing them and watching them light up and hearing them make noise. Jeff also loves running around, jumping, making ridiculous noises, and seeing how many times he can do the same exact thing in a row before it pisses everyone else off 🤣 sometimes Reynold will give Jeff a tennis ball to go bounce against the wall for a while just so he can get some real work done.

(I'm not done drawing Jeff, but this is him so far 😊 he is a very mischievous little shit lol)

I also have Frank my OCD Goblin. He carries around an abacus instead of a calculator because 1. He is obsessed with numbers and 2. Physically moving the pieces to count calms his anxiety 😅. Frank loves simple repetitive tasks that he can do on repeat so he can count them over and over again. He often teams up with Jeff because of this and then they bug Reynold all day. Kind of a "hey! Hey! Hey check this out! Look what we can do! Hey!"

Bobby is my Autism Goblin 🤣 I love him so much but like sometimes I just.. he tries so hard and his effort is absolutely beautiful, but he just isn't good at any of it 🙃 he is the director of communication, so anytime I socialize Bobby shows up to help navigate talking. But like he just REALLY isn't good at it 🤣 the heart and soul he puts into it though is why he is still the communications director 🥰

I also have Manic Manny, Depression Dave, Sensory Sally. Though they like to work from behind the scenes. Their control is really strong but everything they do is by sneaking up and whispering in Reynolds ear and *poof* disappearing. He can't ever see them, but the weird creepy crawly feeling they give him makes him act on what they said every single time.

There are lots of other Goblins that work in this factory, but they are more like background characters? Like, everyone has a job, but most are just quiet office workers that help to keep the lights on 😅

If you have read this far thank you so much!! My question now is, what are my brain goblins? Is this DID or is it something else?? Tbh I don't really care what it is because these are my Brain Goblins and I love them no matter how much they annoy me 😅 but I also like learning information because sometimes it can really help me with managing life lol

[dnncats]

slaying while slaying 🔪🩸

still + alt color:

[bacchuschucklefuck]

one thing I really really appreciate abt riz gukgak as a character is that he is un-self-aware to the max. he inhabits his body so completely. the arc that would usually be run as "I'm different and unable to connect with my friends in this way that everyone seems to be able to do and so something's wrong with me and I don't like myself" when it comes to riz is actually like no! I have literally no problems or praises for myself personally. I don't stand outside of my own self and judge it. it's phrased as "other people will eventually find someone more important to them than you" rather than centering it on his self-perception. he doesn't know why he doesn't have the best social life on earth even though he's not afraid at all to talk to other people. every time he sees himself in someone else's actions or behaviour he gets startled by it. his latest epilogue is realizing seemingly for the first time that he's not just an agent of causes but an actual character. he's my hero and I want to be him when I grow up

[keylimeart]

scott im so obsessed with your ex

[inkskinned]

it is all chaos and entropy. the thing is that the chaos and entropy make it beautiful and lovely.

yes, it's true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is terrifying. i have lived through some of the unfairness - i got born like this, with my body caving into itself, with this ironic love of dance when i sometimes can't stand up for longer than 15 minutes. i am a poet with hands that are slowly shutting down - i can't hold a pen some days. recently i found a dead bird on our front porch. she had no visible injuries. she had just died, the way things die sometimes.

it is also true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is wonderful. the sheer happenstance that makes rain turn into a rainbow. the impossible coincidence of finding your best friend. i have made so many mistakes and i have let myself down and i have harmed other people by accident. nature moves anyway. on the worst day of my life she delivers me an orange juice sunset, as if she is saying try again tomorrow.

how vast and unknowing the universe! how small we are! isn't that lovely. the universe has given us flowers and harp strings and the shape of clouds. how massive our lives are in comparison to a grasshopper. the world so bright, still undiscovered. even after 30 years of being on this earth, i learned about a new type of animal today: the dhole.

chance echoing in my life like a harmony between two people talking. do you think you and i, living in different worlds but connected through the internet - do you think we've ever seen the same butterfly? they migrate thousands of miles. it's possible, right?

how beautiful the ways we fill the vastness of space. i love that when large amounts of people are applauding in a room, they all start clapping at the same time. i love that the ocean reminds us of our mother's heartbeat. i love that out of all the colors, chlorophyll chose green. i love the coincidences. i love the places where science says i don't know, but it just happens.

"the universe doesn't care about you!" oh, i know. that's okay. i care about the universe. i will put my big stupid heart out into it and watch the universe feast on it. it is not painful. it is strange - the more love you pour into the unfeeling world, the more it feels the world loves you in return. i know it's confirmation bias. i think i'm okay if my proof of kindness is just my own body and my own spirit.

i buried the bird from our porch deep in the woods. that same day, an old friend reaches out to me and says i miss you. wherever you go, no matter how bad it gets - you try to do good.

[nezierf]

will our paths converge 'neath the sun

[podcastwizard]

look language is ever evolving and colloquial definitions are valid etc. but if you're going to describe something as banal as a 3 am trip to the grocery store as "feral" don't act shocked when i'm on all fours in the parking lot, shredding a rabbit's jugular with my canines

[foolsocracy]

What could he have meant by this

[polkadotjohnson]

Halloween Special w/ David Dastmalchian & Leah Kilpatrick | Ep 05 | Right Now Podcast

[gimpwithoutorgans]

Armand and Louis really could’ve had it all if everyone was 60% less traumatized and mentally ill. Imagine being Louis, taking in the exquisite romantic beauty of 1940s Paris. Heartbroken and feeling lost. When out of nowhere, a beautiful angel with a boyish face materializes out of the shadows and sweeps you off your feet. You spend nights walking around the city together. Paris is bubbling over with life and culture and you have a personal tour guide to give you it’s entire history. What does it mean to be a black gay vampire in this world? You’ve never really had a chance to take a breath, look in the mirror, and ask yourself “What do I want for myself?” You decide you want to be dominant in the bedroom because being in control makes you feel safe and you have someone completely willing to give you submission. For Armand, he could experience a dynamic where his submission isn’t used as a tool to harm and break him. The more they learn about each other the more they understand about themselves.

Maybe Armand was never going to be THE biggest love of Louis’ life but their love could’ve been PASSIONATE and REAL and HEALING. For both of them! Even if they eventually parted ways. It would be an experience they could look back fondly on. Or maybe even revisit sporadically over the decades! Imagine having that type of intense friendship and intimate connection with someone! A relationship not bogged down by a twisted sense of ownership or obligation or desperation. Only CHOOSING to come together whenever it feels right for both of them. Whether strictly platonic or something more. No matter how long or far apart, choosing to be a safe place for one another.

Unfortunately Armand has more mental illnesses than exist in the DSM 5 :/. Also the coven :/. Also he doesn’t really love or respect himself :/ Also the ghost of Lestat hovered over both of them like a foreboding cloud:/

[shitpostdotjpg]

fav line in the movie is laura’s “you were always the wrong guy— until you weren’t” like omg I genuinely got emotional that’s really who he is

bonus fav scene: laura and logan yucking it up at the dinner table they looked so happy I wanted to explode

[canisalbus]

I may be stupid and you might already have one but if not have you considered making a WEBTOON about the 2 best doggos as a story about their weird and wonderful lives would be great

Not stupid at all! I've definitely thought about it a lot, but comic making is hard work, it's extremely time consuming (either that or my method of drawing is just absurdly inefficient. Probably both). I don't think it's something I could just pick up and realistically fit into my daily life, at least not at the moment. I'm just one person with very limited time and resources. Sorry!

[flashthescalesian-art]

Fox is a dog person while Thorn is a cat person, I don’t make the rules.

[bacchuschucklefuck]

I don't think I've seen you mention it, but for your class!swap au, do you have any idea of what you'd turn the other Bad Kids into?

genuinely love the way this ask is worded first of all. I am like a great magician ur right and the bad kids are my victim. I am like their joker if you will. anyways I do! I've definitely brought this up on this blog before (in nonrebloggable untagged text posts so I don't blame you for not seeing them lol (I don't blame you regardless of that tbh bc that's a weird thing to do)) but the rundown is: kristen -> sorcerer, gorgug -> cleric, fig -> barbarian, adaine -> artificer, fabian -> rogue

[thatweirdocryptid]

Context bellow ↓

I was talking to my dad about how I made

my background on my phone, this is the photo that I was talking about.

Oh and the background (I used Pinterest EXCEPT the photo of the deer skull, said deer skull is mine.)

I love this vibe so much.

[frogs-and-books]

idk what you expected when your first and only post was telling the fandom they can’t do whatever they want forever and treating it as some sort of psyop misinformation campaign + putting one identity above all others. grow up! word of god is not real!

watching all these people in your asks jerk you off is honestly embarrassing

I literally said that multiple times, you can have whatever headcanons you want. All I said was that Riz isn't canonically Aromantic, which is a fact. I saw some people saying he was canonically aromantic, and I was trying to clear up misinformation. The word of God thing is also just your opinion. I think that word of God statements are canon, and you don't. That's just a difference in perspective.

I don't care what you do as long as you respect others. Please read my posts again. I say over and over and over that all interpretations people have are valid and that I completely support people reading him as Aromantic. The only thing I said is that there is more than one interpretation to the character.

I'm sick of people saying i'm a bad person or an aphobe because I said to respect other people's headcanons.