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highlight of this basement goes to @blastburnt! thanks for joining and till next week!
#blair witch project#a lot of cursed convos happening in chat that would be incomprehensible out of context#but this one is solid everywhere#ninas basement
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i wish i had more energy to draw and plot lately i NEED to make the insane daemoverse flowisk situationship real. i need you guys to see my vision
#they're the only ones that understand each other they're the only ones marred from the same mistakes#nobody else can understand the way save power changes you and they don't know how to live with it afterwards#but hell if they're not going to stick around each other to see what happens next#there's a chara shaped hole carved into both of their chests and they want it back they can't bear being alone again. but they have to#and so they cling to each other. because who else will understand?#and they are FREAKS!!!!!!!#a freak and a frea(s)k#also it's been like 12 years since the barrier broke. what does it mean to grow up after you spent so long stuck in stasis#what does it mean to Change and develop past the solidity of what you thought you were#also they're really stupid roommates frisk keeps eating raw ramen blocks to avoid doing the dishes#they have one of those mad detectives corkboard with the red string going everywhere which is almost impossible to walk through#because flowey handles it and he keeps ignoring the fact that he's 2ft tall while frisk. isn't. lol#also the corkboard is 70% investigation and 30% them bickering about stupid bullshit as commentary#the post it situation in the flat is insane#daemoverse#frisk#flowey
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thoughts on tgirl vriska ? sheâs real to me but ur like the #1 vriska enjoyer on my dash so I was wondering what u think
im gonna be real after going into the tag every day for the past 3+ years and seeing every possible take and headcanon my bar is so low that i'm just happy we're in agreement that vriska is a girl
tgirl vriska is a well-supported read of her character, but not the only valid one in my opinion. that being said, if you're a hardcore cis vriska truther, you do yourself a great disservice by ignoring her dysphoric characterization---whether you read that as early-transition transfem dysphoria, lesbian butch dysphoria, alternian caste dysphoria, or any combination of the above.
i do not, however, read her dysphoria as transmasculine in nature, and maintain that vriska's gender (girl/woman) is extremely important in understanding her role in the story, her relationships with other characters, and how the concepts of heroism, protagonism, justice, and strength impact her narrative. a transfem reading does not detract from this, nor does it particularly enhance anything to me, someone who already read vriska as a dysphoric lesbian & therefore already accounted for some form of Gender to be going on regardless of the hypothetical birth-assignment situation.
basically, my personal opinion is that her trans status is a nice garnish but irrelevant to what already is a fascinating, compelling, and well-rounded (dare i say, strong) female character. the fact that she's a female character is more important to me than the fact (or headcanon) that she is a trans character, because i regularly see and cope with the most asinine and blatantly incorrect headcanons and takes about her on this earth. you're asking a man dying of thirst whether a gallon of ice water or a gallon of merely cool water is better.
my bar for sexuality headcanons is likewise on the floor. y'all don't have to agree with me on the lesbian reading but as long as we concur that she's wlw then everything is a-okay by me. my final message 2 da world: never go into the tags of your favorite character.
#vriska serket#mod 8#daily vriska serket#vriska#daily vriska#homestuck#vriska homestuck#homestuck vriska#i cant like. talk about vrika hcs for too long i feel like a madman in a tower with nought but ravens for company.#ive been pondering these mysteries for Way Too Long and like every entrenched philosopher the moment i hear a theory that contradicts my ow#i start shrieking NO! and throwing parchments and inkwells everywhere and upending solid oak writing desks all over the place#genuinely those 3 weeks where i was purposely avoiding thinking about her were some of the most restful of my life#one day i will actually make that comprehensive vrika picrew and walk away from this forever.#til then all you casuals are stuck with a mad hermit in your midst squinting at yall with a big ol raven and a thick gnarled staff
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back at it folks
#smeared graphite EVERYWHERE#iâm gonna kill my tri tip eraser#i used a solid 50% of one of my four (4) charcoal sticks in one studio đđđ#but whatever#supplies are meant to be used#my art
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feeling a lot more stable about everything, i decided to forego keeping a bandaid on because my fucking skin cannot take the adhesives for that long omg itches so bad around them
I have a plan in place to replace the bandaids should i require not needing to see my elbow again about it, but i also wanted to see for myself how bad it was.
BOY HOWDY do I bruise purty. That shit is dark where it's not already going greenyellow. looks like I put a sharpie in a chokehold and barely managed to wrangle it into submission like damn.
#i am probably going to have us put on a replacement bandage over the bruising because it's honestly yeah a little distressing to see#but i no longer feel like it's going to explode open and spurt blood everywhere if i'm not careful and that's important#this would be easier if we were like one solid continuous consciousness but unfortunately we're not#and for anyone who wasn't there during the cause of the Visible Injury having a visible injury suddenly be a lot worse#than what you were anticipating based on what the last person who looked at it remembers (let alone was just expecting in general)#(because lets face it i've not bruised this badly after a poke before. i think the closest was the IV for sedation before i got my#wisdom teeth taken out) and if you're maybe significantly younger than most of the rest of the soup in the bowl at the time it can y'know#freak a guy out a little which is what happened yesterday/last night#i'm glad i'm not navigating this without the context of being several opossums in a trenchcoat because that would be i think even more#distressing than it already has been. it keeps embarrassment for uncharacteristic freakouts to a minimum at least#gonna try and let it breathe for a bit and just kind of chill out with the elbow exposed a little to hopefully help#both with like acclimation to the sight and also maybe the cool air will help it feel better.#but also like i just cannot do that much bandage adhesive on my skin for that long it is so itchy around where i was wearing them augh#doesn't help my upper arm where my vaccines went look like i got bit by the worlds largest skeeter like damn#miecz posting#garrett posting
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Mutantsona - Sky
#ROTTMNT#ROTTMNT Persona#Mutant Persona#Mutantsona#ROTTMNT Sky#ROTTMNT Oozequito#ROTTMNT Hueso#This abomination literally represents all my cats in one.#A calico#a solid gray#a brown and white tabby#a silver tabby#a white and orange tabby#a calico tabby#and three black and whites.#I also have a hoodie like this one#and a trench coat that I wear everywhere!#I don't drink#and never will cause health lol#but I thought it'd be funny.#Also#never wanna draw Hueso again
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RIP Joann, now what?
I wanted to make a post I could copy and paste and or link when I see folks asking where to buy fabrics when Joann is gone. I sew a lot, generally between 100-200 items a year and I don't do it on a big budget. Stores are not in a particular order.
Notions:
Wawak.com - start here, mostly stay here. Wawak is a supplier for professional sewing businesses and have the prices that show it. I will not pay for gutermann Mara 100 anywhere else. I buy buttons, tools, thread, and most elastic here.
Stitch Love Studio - this is where I buy lingerie supplies https://www.etsy.com/shop/StitchLoveStudio?ref=yr_purchases
Fabric:
Fabric Mart - this is one where you want to sign up for emails and never buy unless its on sale. They run different sales every day and they rotate. Mostly deadstock fabrics but I buy more from here than anywhere else. Fantastic customer service and if you watch you can get things like $6 wool suiting or $4 cotton jersey. https://fabricmartfabrics.com/
Fabrics-Store - again, buy the sales not the full price. Sign up for the emails but redirect them to a folder because it is TOO MANY. They stock linen or good but not amazing quality. https://www.fabrics-store.com/
Purple Seamstress - This is where I buy my solid cotton lycra jersey. They have other things, but the jersey is what I'm here for. Inexpensive and very good quality. If you ask she will mail you a swatch card for the solids. https://purpleseamstressfabric.com/
LA Finch - deadstock fabrics with a fantastic remnant selection https://lafinchfabrics.myshopify.com/
Califabrics - mix of deadstock and big brands, easy to navigate and always seem to have good denim in stock. https://califabrics.com/
Boho Fabrics - good variety, nice bundles. I have also gotten some really great trims from here. https://www.bohofabrics.com/
Firecracker Fabrics - garment and quilting fabrics, really nice selection and great sale section. I've bought $5 yard quilting cottons here several times. https://www.firecrackerfabrics.com/
Hancock's of Paducah - Quilting fabric and some limited garment fabric. AMAZING sale section. Do not sleep on the sale section. This is my first stop when buying quilting fabrics. Usually the last stop too. Not particularly speedy shipping. https://www.hancocks-paducah.com/
Itokri - This is something a little different. Itokri is an Indian business with incredible traditional fabrics. Shipping to the US is expensive, but the fabric is so inexpensive it evens out. I generally end up paying like $30 for shipping. Beautiful ikat and block prints. https://itokri.com/
Miss Matatabi - this is a little treat. This isn't where you go to save money, but there are so many beautiful things in this shop. Ships from Japan incredibly quickly. https://shop.missmatatabi.com/
Lucky Deluxe - Craft thrift store, always has an incredible selection and fantastic customer service. I need to close the tab fast because I never go to this website without finding something I need. https://www.luckydeluxefabrics.com/
Swanson's - the OG of online craft thrift stores, but I find their website harder to navigate. https://www.swansonsfabrics.com
Honorary Mentions: I haven't shopped at these places yet but I have had them recommended and likely will at some point.
A Thrifty Notion - https://athriftynotion.com/
Creative Closeouts - https://creativecloseoutsfabric.com/ being rebranded to sewsnip.com on March 1 - quilting deadstock
Hawthorne Supply Co. - I just got this rec and I think I need to not look too closely or I'm going to slip with my debit card. https://www.hawthornesupplyco.com/
This is not an exhaustive list of everywhere you can buy fabric, or even a full list of where I shop. There are SO many options out there in the world. You also need to think outside the fabric store box. I thrift men's shirt fabrics for quilts and sheets for backing fabric. I don't do a ton of in person thrifting and my local stores don't get a lot of craft materials but every thrift store is its own universe and reflects the community it is in. Go out and find something cool.
Oh and final note: Don't shop at Hobby Lobby.
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...uncured resin???????
Who says taking inventory has to be boring?
#Essential oils getting everywhere when the storage totes get jostled around? Practically tradition#Something plastic getting brittle and shattering? To be expected#The bottles of resin and hardener that have apparently been spending the past year leaking through their box and combining just enough#to fill the groves of the tote with tacky but solid resin but staying liquid enough to full soak through the baking soda beneath#and to cast a shell of everything surrounding it that's not porous? That's a new one!
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man it sucks so many people on here have absolutely convinced themselves that entire categories of consumer goods like perfume are bougie. you are depriving yourself of little treats by just assuming you cant ever afford anything! this isnt an avocado toast post either im not saying 'just save up and buy it lol', i would never say that, what im saying is perfume (that is: scents in liquid, paste, oil or solid form intended to be worn as a personal adornment) as a commodity starts at "free" and gradually increases in price from there. my favorite perfumes are priced everywhere between $0 and $300. one of the most lauded amber scents in the world (regrettably JUST discontinued), "Amber Paste" by Kuumba Made, is one of those little hippie oils you get at Whole Foods and it cost $10.
and im not telling you to wear perfume, obviously people have allergies and shit, or just dont care for it, im talking to the people who WANT to own fragrances. im saying they aren't all going to cost $150.
you can also get unlimited (unlimited over a long enough timeline, they limit you to a couple or three per visit) free samples at a lot of sephoras and nordstroms if you live somewhere that has those stores (this depends on the location and a lot of other organic factors, you'll have to check ahead of time or just try it if you're nearby, it's sort of random). if you're actually buying something at sephora (and they have a lot of stuff that isn't a million dollars as well, despite their branding) ask for every free sample at checkout that they have. they will often load you up, and not just with perfume. secondhand outlets like Value Village and Goodwill also do huge business in perfume because people are ALWAYS donating it.
sephora also does perfume refills. if you actually do buy a full size bottle, they can refill it for much less than buying a whole new bottle of the stuff. i don't know exactly how much it costs because i havent used this service myself. and idk how careful yiou have to be about reeceipts either, but look into it if you bought a full size and its running out
idk it just bums me out there are all these people who actually want perfume and seem to think it's out of their price range. the really basement-tier dupes of popular brand scents are so good these days it's often worth dropping the $10 at Walmart or Rite Aid too.
some of my favorite ever perfumes were some weird crap i got in a crystal wizard store, or a drug store, or a goodwill, or whatever. if you want perfume you can get it
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Bleach Episode 217 pitting two femme queens against each other like that is homophobia. Yumichika and Chuhlhourne should be having a different sort of sword fight.
#am joke#i know. it's a product of it's time yadda yadda.#i don't actually care#I'm just watching it going wow. these are the gayest gays in this show. and they hate one another.#in real life they'd be sucking each other silly in the bathroom of the gay bar#but homophobia is alive and well so we have to make the fags hate one another#a loss for homos everywhere -_-#i am also a solid 15 years late watching this huh?#like. i remember this arc being in shonen jump in like 2007
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I'm in a roll....
The 141 in grey sweatpants. đ„”
You're in a roll? Me too. A brioche roll. Or maybe a Hawaiian roll. Or rolled inside one of Price's many cigars. Kidding (not really). I knew what you meant.
And grey sweatpants...yes please! I am salivating over here. Literally drooling. And it's only grey sweatpants. No shirts. No shoes. Just sweatpants and muscle. (my god I need to go touch grass).
These are...spicy. How could they not be? It's our favorite men in nothing but grey sweatpants.
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Task Force 141 x Reader
Content & Warnings (per the warnings MDNI): established relationship, suggestive themes, swearing, invitations for sex, dirty thoughts, sexual situations, married life, fade to black
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John Price
âItâs bedtime. Bath. Pajamas. Teeth.â
âBut Dad! Lucy and Iââ
âBed.â You grin into your glass as John ushers the children out of the living room. âCome on you two. I want to kiss your mother.â
âEw. Gross!â the kids screech in unison.
The trio disappears down the hallway. You hear water running and the laughter of your children. John eventually emerges thirty minutes later. He runs his hand over the top of his head, sighing heavily.
When he enters the living room and notices you, he grins mischievously. His body is on full display. Broad chest with a lovely dusting of dark hair that trails downward to disappear beneath the band of his grey sweatpants. John is all thick muscle. A wall of strength. Youâve always loved that about him. How he seems to take up so much space or the way he crushes you with his body when he goes in for a snuggle.
John plops down on the sofa beside you. The moment his ass hits the cushion, John grabs for you. You giggle, playfully pushing at your husband as his weight tips you back, pinning you to the sofa.
âThe kids,â you protest with a whisper.
âTheyâre sleeping,â he replies just as softly, keeping you pressed beneath him.
John goes in for a kiss. It is sweet. Slow. Deep. Completely indulgent. There is so much of him. And his scent is everywhere. It fills your lungs. Makes you weak.
Your lips part and John slips his tongue inside. You start to soften, to lean into his kisses. Each is salt-laced passion. A tease for later. He might have you pinned against the couch, and his tongue down your throat, but John will move this behind a locked door.
As John goes in for another kiss, the sound of a door unlatching comes from the hall. John freezes and you go still beneath him.
âFucking hell,â he mutters.
Pushing up to a more seated position, John addresses the offender with a raised voice. âYou best be in bed.â
Thereâs a gentle squeak, and then a door closing.
John sinks back down, resting his forehead against yours. He sighs heavily, and you give him a quick kiss. He returns it, and then snakes an arm under your back. He hauls you up and into his lap. You straddle him, hands pressed against his firm chest.
Through the sweatpants, you can feel his hardness pressing against your thigh. Johnâs hands roam downward to cup your buttocks, squeezing.
âReady to take this elsewhere?â he asks, grinding his hips upward.
You have to stifle a moan.
âPlease, John.â
With a light slap to your ass, he lifts you off his lap and onto your feet. The ground is solid. Steady. But then Johnâs hands return, and then youâre away, being guided down the hall to your bedroom.
Kyle "Gaz" Garrick
You snuggle into the couch and crack open your paperback book.
Everything is in order. You have a glass of wine, a bowl of snacks, the tableside lamp on, and a cozy blanket. Itâs late, but itâs officially the weekend. There will be plenty of time to relax.
âReading out here?â
You glance up, and find Kyle in the entrance of the hallway, leaning against the wall. Heâs shirtless. Without shoes. Just him, his freshly showered skin, and a pair of grey sweatpants. Kyle absently scratches at his chiseled stomach, head slightly tilted as he waits for your answer.
You canât help but focus in on every line of muscle.
âBabe,â he prompts, laughing.
âSorry?â you reply, blinking.
Kyle laughs again, the sound sweet. He strides forward, coming to a stop beside the sofa. He taps the side of his mouth. âGot some drool.â
âOh, fuck off,â you giggle, checking with a quick wipe with the back of your hand.
Kyleâs smile is infectious. You canât help but match it.
âCan I join you?â he asks, already lifting the blanket.
âYouâre not going out with the boys?â
Kyle shakes his head. With one hand he lifts the blanket, and with the other he grabs your legs and lifts. He slides in, and drapes your legs over his lap before returning the blanket to drape over your body. Keeping one hand under the blanket, Kyle rests his hand on your inner thigh. It stirs heat in your core.
âTomorrow,â he yawns. âSimon has a sick kid.â
âBummer.â
Kyle shrugs, draping his over arm over the back of the couch. His hand on your thigh is a brand, and itâs only made worse when he starts massaging.
âIs it a spicy one?â asks Kyle, nodding toward your book.
Yes.
âMaybe,â you say slowly.
Kyle smirks, and then the book is out of your hand.
âKyle!â You reach for it, but he twists, blocking your forward momentum.
He examines the pages in front of him. Heat rushes into your cheeks. As he reads, his eyes widen.
Kyleâs mouth drops open.
âWhat?â you prompt. You try to snag the book but he blocks you.
He glances at you. âAre you aware of where heâs putting that gun?â
âItâs fictional.â
âWhen you ask me to recreate thingsââ
âKyleââ
ââis this what youâre talking about?â His gaze goes from you to the book and then to you again. âIâm down for a lot of things, love, but Iâm not sure Iâm down for that.â
Pushing off from the couch, you snatch the book out of Kyleâs hands. He surrenders it easily, a smile on his perfect face. The blanket is a crumbled mess beside him, but thatâs not what youâre focused on.
The grey sweatpants have shifted, exposing more of the deep v of his pelvis. But itâs not just that. Kyle is hard. That is very clear.
He leans against the back of the couch, throwing both arms out to rest over the top. Flexing his hips, Kyle puts himself on display.
âIâve got something else I can put inside you.â
John "Soap" MacTavish
A delighted shriek comes from the kitchen.
Johnny emerges, completely unbothered even with the two children in his arms. He has the oldest child, who just turned five, sideways and tucked under one arm. The boy has a wicked smile of his face even as he wiggles, trying to free himself from his fatherâs grasp. Itâs fruitless.
The other child, a boy of three, keeps shrieking with delight even as Johnny lifts him into the air by his ankle. He is upside down, arms flailing, his brown hair hanging below him.
Johnny doesnât even blink. Doesnât even break a sweat. He carries the two of them like itâs nothing.
Heâs almost completely naked except for a pair of grey sweatpants that hang low on his hips. They show off the deep v of his pelvis, and the dusting of dark hair that spreads over his chest and descends downward. Youâve touched that chest so many times. You know it as well as you know yourself.
Johnnyâs gaze is on the television, watching the football match. The kids still shriek and playfully claw at him. But he remains unbothered.
Sitting there on the sofa, you consider that a third kid might not be so bad. Youâd give him a small army if he asked.
Johnny glances away from the television, and when his gaze lands on you, it is entirely knowing. Heat curls in your belly, and his smile widens.
âFound these gremlins digging in the pantry,â he says, indicating the kids by hoisting the three-year old higher into the air and squeezing the other tighter against him.
Both kids giggle manically.
âAfter brushing their teeth.â Johnny tuts. âWhatâs to be done?â
Both children continue to giggle, not answering their father.
âSounds like itâs time for bed,â you muse.
The children groan.
âBut Iâm not tired,â moans the five-year old.
âToo bad,â laughs Johnny. âCome on.â
He doesnât put them down. He carries them like that all the way to their bedroom. Even from your spot on the sofa, you can hear their manic giggling. After a while, it quiets down, and Johnny emerges from the hall.
Instead of sitting down on the couch next to you, he grabs the remote and shuts off the television.
âNot interested in the game?â you ask.
âNope. Want something else.â
His sultry smile tells you enough.
Slowly, he approaches, coming to a stop in front of you. He offers his hand, and you take it. With little effort, Johnny brings you to your feet, and hauls you close. Your free hand immediately rises, pressing against his chiseled stomach.
âWhat is it that you want?â you murmur, already knowing the answer.
His hardness presses against your belly, his voice going low and gravelly as he speaks. âIâd like to spend some time between those gorgeous thighs.â
âDoing what?â
âWhatever I very well please.â
Simon "Ghost" Riley
This is agony. A terrible joke.
Simon is right there. Sweaty. Shirtless. In nothing but a pair of grey sweatpants.
Heâs completely in the zone. Heavy metal blares through the stereoâs speakers, drowning out the sound of his gloved fists striking the punching bag. Morning light pours in from the open window, giving Simon an ethereal glow.
You watch from the doorway, chewing on your bottom lip, wanting nothing more than to pounce on him. Simon is all muscle, and not in a gym rat way. He is thick everywhere. You want to lick the sweat from his skin, to drop to your knees before him, and tug those grey sweatpants down.
You know what youâd find. And it sounds delicious.
But he is in the zone. And you wonât disturb him.
Pushing down the naughty thoughts, you start to turn away, to return to the kitchen and find something to eat for breakfast.
The music abruptly cuts off.
âSee something you like, love?â
Simonâs raspy voice draws you back to the room. With one hand on the doorframe, you meet his gaze, and promptly melt into the floor. He has a cocky grin on his face, and his shoulders heave slightly from exhaustion.
You lick your lips. âAlways,â you reply, fingers digging into the wood.
Simonâs gaze scans you. You feel exposed, like he can see through your clothes. Itâs knowing. Amused.
âWhat is it?â you prompt, staring just as hard as he is.
Simon removes one glove and then the other. He tosses them to the side, never taking his eyes off you.
âCome here,â he says.
You donât move.
Simon arches a single eyebrow. Instead of repeating himself, he gestures with one finger, indicating that he wants you to come to him.
Heat rushes from your cheeks down to your toes. Slowly, you peel yourself away from the door, heading for him. Simonâs natural swagger is alluring, and those sweatpants sit so low.
Just one tug. Thatâs all it would take. And youâd be able to take him in your mouth.
As you approach, Simon reaches out, grabbing your waist, tugging you close to him. You instinctually hook your finger in the waistband of his grey sweatpants.
Simon smirks.
You inhale deeply, savoring the manly musk of him.
âHungry?â he asks.
âNot for breakfast,â you sigh.
âFor something else then?â
You nod.
Simon leans in but doesnât kiss you. He holds back slightly, lips curved into a hint of a smile. âWant to hear what I have in mind?â
âYes,â you breathe.
Simon presses his thumb on your bottom lip. âI can fill that mouth.â His thumb drops away from your lips, and trails over your chin before brushing over your stomach. âAnd belly.â
His gaze stays on you. âWhat do you think of that, love?â
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you know what actually I love the idea of my characters existing in multiple ways and having a well of possibilities to explore
#like thereâs a solid canon still#but why canât all these other iterations exist too??#I donât have to be done with these characters just because this one story ended#like an everything everywhere sort of thing#or a Barbie (The Doll) thing#anyway
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"Jesus fucking christ...okay, just one more-- one more try--"
Kento leaned round the door to the bedroom, loosening his tie, to find the bedroom covered in...confetti. Boxer confetti. Boxers, everywhere, like some awful boxer party that he hadn't been invited to, with boxers old and new and forgotten and uncomfortable and his favourite and those joke ones he'd 'won' at the work raffle and--
"My love," Kento said, his voice tight, because why, why is this happening, why, "I hesitate to ask, but...why?"
"Ugh!" You roared, stripping another pair down your thick thighs, and slapping them onto the floor. Kento looked down, peevish. He looked at his boxer drawer. He raised one fine, work-weary eyebrow.
"Why do I not get to enjoy the sexy delight of wearing your boxers? Why, Kento?" Kento was silent still, his eyebrows gradually lowering, as you continued, frustrated to near-tears, "Apparently it's because my arse is so fat--"
"--I beg your pardon--"
"--and my hips are so disgustingly fucking wide--"
"--beautiful, gorgeous, stunning--"
"--that I can't wear a single pair of your boxers. Not one. Not...not even the ones that are too big for you." You finished weakly, breathless. You pursed your lips against the tears. Kento simply watched you, sighing softly through his nose.
"I won't accept the way you speak about yourself. I won't endorse it. I don't condone it," Kento rumbled, gentle, and threw his suit jacket aside to step over to you. His hands found your waist, and travelled down to trace the dimples of your thighs. You cringed, pushing his hands away.
"Don't-- they're horrible--"
"They're not," Kento whispered against your neck, "they can't be, because I left them with my fingertips."
"Don't be ridiculous--"
Kento silenced you with as cold a look as he could give you; he could tolerate you denying your own beauty, but he would not tolerate you trying to steal it from him.
"Enough, for tonight," Kento hummed, eyeing the mess of boxers, "I'll tidy up. And you'll wear my sweatpants, so I can look at you."
"...respectfully?"
"Disrespectfully."
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Kento had disappeared for an hour, every evening, for a solid month. It wasn't unusual; he would often bring his paperwork home, in an effort to be near you if he must work.
Still-- a full month of nightly overtime was rough. You imagined his pen and keyboard, cracking under the pressure as Kento typed with blue flame engulfed hands, his tie around his fist, and murder in his eyes.
You forgave it; you knew it would never be his first choice. You arrived home a week later, your self-loathing all but forgotten, to hear measured, repeated grunts from the office. The door-- usually closed-- was open. You tiptoed closer, pushing it wider, and frowned.
"Kento, are you...doing squats?"
"Yes," he grunted, straightening up with an impossible weight upon his shoulders. You watched him for a full minute; his thighs looked thicker, his ass bigger.
"I...don't get it. Why?"
"Need...need bigger boxers," Kento answered. As if it were the simplest thing in the world. Because, to him, it was. You found yourself blinking back tears for the second time that month.
"...oh."
Kento huffed, a bead of sweat curving round a crooked half-smile, "Oh, indeed."
You sniffled, swallowing around the lump in your throat. You sat in the doorway, rueful as you peered up at him.
"Can I...watch?"
"Respectfully?"
"Disrespectfully."
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đđđąđ«đąđ§đ | Azriel x Fem Archeron!Reader
đđźđŠđŠđđ«đČ | After surviving the Cauldronâs brutal transformation, you struggle to reconcile the person you once were, all while grappling with an unexplainable pull toward Azriel.
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đđđ«đ§đąđ§đ đŹ | Nightmares, Emotional hurt/comfort, Training, Angsty mating bond things, Unhealthy sister dynamics, Protective sisters Nesta and Feyre, Good friend Rhys, Kisses.Â
đđźđđĄđšđ«'đŹ đđšđđ | Hereâs the promised part two of To Keep You From Breaking. It is a long one so grab a snack and buckle up!
masterlist | part one
The water was everywhere.
It filled your lungs, choking you as cold, unrelenting talons dragged you beneath the surface. You thrashed and kicked, but it didnât matter. Your limbs were useless against the force pulling you deeper and deeper and deeper. The water seemed to whisper to you, taunt you with your weakness, curling around your ears like a loverâs breath, soft and cruel.Â
You tried to scream, but the sound drowned in the inky black water. Your body burned; you could feel everything changing, shifting despite your inner pleas for it to stop. Bones stretched, skin seared, and something inside you broke, cracking like fragile glass.Â
I never wanted this!
Your thoughts spiraled, desperate and wild, even as the Cauldronâs magic seeped through your veins. It poured into the hollow spaces of your mortal heart, reshaping you into something elseâsomething eternal.
You were sinking.
Down, down, downâuntil the surface above was gone. Nothing but shadow.
And then you saw it.Â
A clawed hand, pale as snow, reaching its talons from the depths, curling towards your ankleâ
You shot up in bed, gasping down greedy breaths of air. The room was quiet; too quiet, you could hear your heart beating against your ribs. Your hands trembled as you wiped the sweat from your brow. Your chest rising and falling in rapid, dizzying bursts.
The embers in the hearth glowed just faintly, not enough to warm your frigid skin. Stiff fingers fisted the blanket in your lap, gripping it tightly as you tried to shake the remnants of your nightmare.Â
The Cauldronâs water still seemed to surround you. Flowing up through your nose each time you took in a shaky breath. Trying to dispel the leaden water from your lungs was almost always impossible.Â
Almost impossible if it weren't forâ
A soft knock sliced through the silence.
You couldnât help it as you flinched at the sound, turning towards the door. You already knew who it was. Seconds after your mind had conjured the thought of himâŠyou knew.Â
âAzriel?â Your voice wavered even with your attempt to mask the anxiety in it.
The door creaked open, and there he stood on the threshold. Shadowed and still, large wings looming behind him. He looked so familiar standing in your doorway. Like he belonged here, anywhere you were really. Ever since the moment you shared with him in this very space when he offered you the first solid comfort you experienced sinceâŠeverything.Â
He didnât speak right away. His eyes scanned the room like he could feel the traces of terror from your nightmare. One of his shadows slipped around his shoulder, darting forward.
It brushed along your cheek in a soothing manner that made you want to lean into it. You could see Azrielâs readiness to call it back if you so wished, could see his hope that you wouldnât just as well. You wouldnât, and he knew that, but in the weeks of your growing friendship, he had promised to uphold all limits you set forth.Â
Truthfully though, it was rather hard to keep his shadows at bay around you. Their odd behavior had coaxed many laughs from you in the last few weeks. The Shadowsinger had become increasingly more irritated with his sentient companions. It was almost as if he thought they were doing it on purpose.Â
âIâm sorry I woke you.â You spoke the apology as the shadow weaved itself between each of your fingers.Â
âYou didnât.â Azriel said, his voice rich and seeping with warmth. âThey did.â He gestured to his shadows as he stepped inside the room. The door whispered shut behind him, as soft as his voice.Â
âThey felt your fear.â He explained upon seeing your confused expression. The way he spoke the words sounded so natural, so right. As if the pieces of himselfâhis shadows, his quiet presenceâbelonged to you as much as they did to him.
You didnât know how to respond to that yet. This odd pull between you and Azriel was something you still couldnât wrap your head around. And he offered no explanation to any of the strangeness.Â
He crossed the room with the same silent grace he always carried. His shadows didnât hover close to him. Instead they lingered at the edge of the bed, rolling over the mattress, like mist reaching for the sun. He knelt by the bed rather than sit on it, his wings folded at his back. A few wisps of shadows curled up your arm, gentle and slow as they offered their comfort.Â
âDo you want me to stay with you?â Azriel asked, his voice sonorous, but hesitant.
Your throat tightened at the softness in his tone. He wasnât pressing, never. He would leave if you asked him. If you insisted you were fine.Â
But you werenât.Â
And he knew that.
âYesâŠâ The word felt as fragile as you did.Â
It took him a single heartbeat, and then he stood. Settling himself beside you in the bed as you moved over an inch or so. His back rested against the headboard, and his wings shifted, dark and broad, as he curved them slightly around you both.Â
His shadows trailed lazily along the bed, blanketing the mattress as they floated towards you. As if craving the closeness. Azriel didnât call them back either. As if he wanted to siphon off some of the proximity to you for himself. The thought filled your mind with a fuzzy, silly notion.
For a while, neither of you spoke.
The quietness wasnât unbearable with him. You both often sat in silence with each other, content enough to just have one another for a moment. But blame it on your nightmare; something about it tonight left you restless. You shifted a bit, your hand brushing his for a split second.Â
You froze when he whipped his head to face you. His fingers grabbed hold of yours. It was the most forward he had been with you so far.
âMother! Your skin is like ice.â He exclaimed, thumb ghosting over the back of your hand. âIs it always like this for you?â Something in his voice had shifted, taking on a more rougher tone.
You swallowed, willing your hand not to tremble in his grasp. âIâI guess.â
Azriel studied you for a long moment, some emotions he wouldnât let you see long enough to decipher, stirring faintly in his expression.Â
âCome here.â He murmured at last, the words soft but edged with steady resolve. âPlease.â
You hesitated, but whether it was his plea or his hand already curling tighter around yours, you allowed him to pull you to him. He wrapped an arm around your shoulders, guiding you to lean into him until your head rested lightly against his chest. His wings curved slightly, draping like a shield against the cold air.
Everything felt so right. Correct in a way that you didnât know existed. His warmth bleeds into you, slow and all-consuming. Azrielâs hand slid over your arm, careful as his thumb brushed absently against your skinâsoft, reassuring, as if grounding you to this moment.Â
As your breathing evened out, and the claws of your nightmare drifted, you felt that all too familiar tugging upon your heart. Something picked at the thread in your chest, making you shudder. The ache that always followed its arrival settled, causing you to question once more what it was that hummed between you.
â
âWhat are you doing?â
The deep male voice behind you sent a jolt of surprise through your body. You gasped, stepping back slightly, placing a hand to your heart in an attempt to steady it as you spun aroundâonly to find Azriel standing there.
You were momentarily surprised that you hadnât heard him approach or that his shadows hadnât raced away from him to greet you first like they often did.Â
Azrielâs lips parted slightly, his hazel eyes flickering with a small amount of amusement. âIâm sorry,â he said after a pause. âI didnât mean to scare you.â
âItâs alright,â you murmured, forcing a small, sheepish smile.
You turned away from him, shifting your focus back to the training yard below. Feyre and Cassian moved in fluid, practiced strikes, their sparring a dance of strength and precision. It was mesmerizingâthe way your sister met Cassianâs blows with calculated ease, her newfound power woven into every step, every block.Â
Your sister was back from the Spring Court, having dismantled it from the inside, exposing Tamlinâs allegiance to Hybern for the betrayal it was. It was good to see her again, truly. You think you would have been used to Feyre leaving and coming back by now. But you found yourself still missing her each time. Her stay in the faerie lands the first time around had left you missing her, even when Nesta told you not to because she wasnât coming back. And now, even with you all back together again, she was still High Lady, still someone with a world on her shoulders.
You had missed her.
You missed all of them even if Nesta and Elain were still in the same house as you.Â
You really did love your sisters, all three of them, even if it didnât come across that way sometimes. Things between the four of you had beenâŠtense to say the least. Even before everything had changed. Nesta and Elain, like you, were still coming to terms with what had happened to you all. And Feyre playing her role as High Lady of the Night Court left her with a never-ending list of duties.
Even with your sisters always surrounding you, you felt alone so often. Alone and weak. It had been months since the Cauldron remade you, but there were still days, too many days, when you felt like you were dying and being reborn all over again. Still days when you looked at your hands and barely recognized them, when your own body felt like something borrowed rather than something yours.
It was pathetic.
Nesta had her anger and icy resolve to help her through. Elain had her quiet grace and subtle strength. And Feyre hadâŠwell Feyre seemed like she had everything. You were happy for her; she deserved nothing less than the happiness she found here in the Night Court.
But youâŠyou had nothing it seemed.Â
A booming laugh sounded from below as Cassian guffawed at Feyre managing to sweep his feet out from under him. Graceful and quick and powerful.Â
Your fingers curled over the balcony railing. You wanted that. The skill, the confidence, the ability to protect yourself. You didnât want to fight, just to know how if you ever found yourself in the position of having to defend yourself or your sisters again.
Azrielâs voice broke through your thoughts. âYou want to train.â It wasnât a question. It was a knowing statement, one spoken as if he had reached inside you and plucked the truth from your mind.
You swallowed, keeping your eyes on the yard below. âYes,â you relented. âBut I donât ever want to have to fight someoneâŠhurt them. So it would be useless for me to learn.â
He was silent for a long moment, and you felt the weight of his gaze settle over you like a second skin. His shadows curled at the edges of your vision, shifting restlessly, as if they had something to say on the matter. Finally, he spoke. âKnowing how to protect yourself isnât the same as wanting to fight.â
You glanced at him, at the way the wind tousled strands of his dark hair, at the flickering torchlight casting golden glows against the sharp angles of his face. His expression was leading, like he was coaxing you to the decision he knew you wanted to make. And his voiceâhis voiceâwas nothing but gentleness and patience.Â
âI know,â you admitted, looking away. âI justâŠI've already changed so much.â
Azriel exhaled softly, the sound barely audible over the howl of wind and the distant grunts below. He came to stand beside you, close enough that his wings brushed your shoulders and his warmth seeped into you as his scent of night-chilled wind and cedar wrapped around you.Â
âI canât begin to understand what youâve been through,â he said quietly. âBut we are likely going to war soon.â His wings shifted slightly, a sure sign of some internal debate, and his fingers flexed against the stone railing. Then, carefullyâhesitantlyâhe spoke. âI would feel better if you at least learned the basics of defense.â
Your breath caught slightly.
When he looked at you, there was something attentive in his eyes. Measured, as if he was weighing every word as he said them. There was no demand or expectation in his voice. Just gentle concern, wrapped in a layer of caution, as if he wasnât sure how youâd take it.Â
You paused, not because you disagreed, but because the idea of itâthe idea of war, of needing to know how to fightâmade your stomach tighten.
âI donât know if I can,â you confessed, voice softer now. âIâI donât want to hurt anyone, Azriel.â
His expression shifted, not to pity like you would expect from anyone else, but to a kind of hushed anguish. Like he was pained by the thought of you being forced into yet another thing you didnât want.Â
âYou wonât,â he said, and though his voice was still careful, there was something firm beneath it. âItâs just to be sure no one can hurt you.â He went silent again, only for a single beat this time, before something resolute took root in his eyes. âItâs about making sure I donât lose you before you ever get the chance to see how strong you really are.â
Your heart stuttered, and for a moment, you could do nothing but look at him.Â
Azriel, who barely knew you, not really, not yet. Azriel, who kept his distance unless you gave him explicit permission to come closer, who treaded so lightly around you like he was afraid of pushing too hard. Azriel, who had just admittedâhowever indirectlyâthat the thought of something happening to you was something he thought about.
You swallowed thickly, glancing away. Grimacing as that pull in your chest flared again. If his words hadnât stolen your breath away, the tugging around your heart would have.Â
âOkay,â you whispered at last. âYouâll be training me, though, right?
His shoulders seemed to relax. He allowed his lips to turn up just a bit at the corners in a ghost of a smile. âI wouldnât trust anyone else to teach you,â he said. âWeâll start tomorrow.â And even though his voice was as steady as ever, you could hear something else beneath it.
Relief.
â
You werenât sure what to expect the next morning when you met Azriel in the training yard. He was already there when you arrived, the sky just barely touched with the first hints of the sunrise. He stood at the center of the ring, wings tucked in but still imposing in the most alluring way, his cobalt siphons catching the pale morning light. He didnât say anything as you approached, but his shadows stretched out towards you in greeting.
âTo start, I need to see what youâre capable of.â He was all business today, apparently. His voice held an air of detachment in it that you hadnât heard from him yet. But there was something about the way he watched you, the way his shoulders remained a little too stiff. His shadows curling more instinctively around your wrists, your anklesâlike they werenât entirely convinced this was a good idea.
Both them and their master seemedâŠnervous.
Azriel started towards you, closing the distance between you to catch your wrist in his tight grip. âLesson one,â he murmured. âTry to pull away.â
Your breath hitched slightly, but you kept your face neutral, your heart hammering as you looked up at him. His eyes were unreadable, but the warmth of his skin, even through his fingerless leather gloves, was startling against your own.
âTry to pull away,â he demanded again.Â
You jerked your arm back, not surprised when nothing happened. He didnât tighten his hold, he didnât need toâhe simply absorbed the force like you weighed nothing.
You huffed in mild frustration. This was going to be a long morning.Â
Azrielâs mouth twitched, like he was fighting back a smile. âAgain.â
You did as he instructed, yanking, pulling, and jerkering against his grip on your wrist. It did nothing. After your fourth failed attempt, you scowled. âThis seems unfair.â
His brows lifted, but he didnât let you go, didnât even loosen his hold. âMost things in a fight are.â
You exhaled sharply, shifting on your feet. You hated feeling weak. Hated how easy it was for him to hold you in place, to remind you just how little control you had over your own body.
He must have sensed your frustration because his voice softened slightly. âYouâre thinking about it the wrong way. Strength alone wonât get you out of this.â
You glanced up at him. âThen what will?â
He finally let go, stepping back just enough to give you space to breathe. âLeverage.â He reached for your wrist again, this time slower, and you let him take it.
He guided your free hand up to press against his own, showing you where to aim. âIf someone grabs you like this, donât pull back. Use their grip against them.â He tightened his hold slightly. âStep in, twist your armâlike thisâand push against the thumb.â
You hesitated but followed his instructions, stepping into his space and twisting just as heâd shown you. To your shock, his grip broke. You stumbled back a step, blinking. âIââ
He nodded in approval. âAgain.â
You swallowed and let him take your wrist once more, forcing yourself to ignore how effortlessly he handled you. This time, you moved faster, following his guidance until you wrenched free in a smooth motion.
A slow smileâreal this timeâcurled at the edge of his lips. âGood.â
Something warm flickered in your chest.Â
He stepped back and lifted a hand. âNow, try to hit me.â
You froze. âWhat?â
Azrielâs expression remained calm, but there was something knowing in his eyes. âYou wonât hurt me.â That wasnât what you were worried about.
You hesitated, flexing your fingers. âIâve never hit anyone before.â You paused. âWell, unless I could count that time when I was ten and I punched a boy for picking on Elain.â
His brows arched in barely concealed amusement. âDid it work?â
You scrunch your nose in distaste. âNot really. I mean, he cried, but Nesta had to handle the rest.â
His lips twitched again, but he didnât let the moment linger for too long. He lifted his hands, palms open in a silent invitation. âConsider this your first fight then.â
Your stomach twisted, but despite that, you lifted your hands in an awkward stance.
Azriel studied you, his gaze flicking over your posture, assessing. You braced yourself for some harsh critique, for him to tell you that you werenât ready, that you werenât strong enoughâ
But he only nodded. âRelax your shoulders. Keep your weight balanced.â
You did as he said, exhaling slowly as you adjusted your footing.
âGood,â he murmured. âNow, hit me.â
You hesitated, biting your lip. âYou want me to punch you?â
A glimmer of challenge crossed his features. âI want to see what youâre capable of.â
You scowled, but before you could talk yourself out of it, you threw a punch. He dodged it effortlessly.
Your fist cut through the empty space where he had been a heartbeat ago, and thenâbefore you could reactâhis hand caught your wrist and twisted gently behind your back, guiding you into a hold you had no hope of escaping.
Your breath caught as his chest brushed against your shoulder, his wings shifting behind you. He didnât press too hard, didnât restrain you in a way that felt overwhelming, butâMother above, he was close.
âToo slow,â he whispered against your ear, his voice a low rasp.
You barely heard him over the roaring in your own head. The same warmth that always flickered to life when you were with himâthe same inexplicable pullâtightened in your chest like a thread being wound too taut. And he tensed behind you just for a moment, but it was there you were sure of it. Like he felt it as well.Â
You felt like you were overheating. Wherever his body pressed against yours was blazing like a wildfire, even with the thick leathers separating you both. You couldnât speak, but it wasnât like the way your throat closed up when the Cauldronâs waters drowned you over and over again. It was because your very soul seemed to thrill at his touch, and if one word was spoken, it would shatter this marvelous moment.
The only thing you could think was yes! This is right. You and him. This closeâŠsharing the same breath.Â
âWhat is going on?â Nestaâs sharp voice cut through the air like a blade.
Azriel had moved before you could even register the sound of your sisterâs voice. One second, his warmth was pressed against your back, his breath feathering against your ear, his hands carefully but firmly locking you in place. The next there was nothing.
A rush of cool air filled the space he had occupied, and you barely had time to blink before you turned and found him standing a few paces away, his expression once again unreadable, his shadows curling tightly around his shoulders as if heâd reined them in at the last second.
Nestaâs piercing gaze swept between the two of you, her arms crossed, suspicion and scrutiny written all over her face. âI thought you said he was training you,â she drawled, arching a brow.
You swallowed, willing your pulse to slow as you turned to face her fully. âHe is.â
âAnd that is what training looks like to you?â She snapped, her voice like a whip. Her eyes went to Azriel, hard as tempered steel. âI suppose you told her it was all alright.â
Your face flamed, but before you could say anything, Azriel spoke up. âNothing untoward was happening.â
Nesta scoffed, taking a step closer, her expression twisting. âOh, Iâm sure. Iâm sure you painted a grand picture of bravery and glory all so you could sink your hooks into her,â she hissed. âYou fae males are all the same. You think I donât see the way you follow her around with that love sick puppy routine, how your shadows are always twisting and curling around her. She doesnât need to train like some warrior; she needs you to leave her be!â
âStop it!â You shouted, unable to bear hearing her further degrade Azriel and his intentions. âAzriel told me I could train, yes, but I asked him to be the one to do it.â You took a deep breath as Nesta surprisingly kept silent. âAnd heâs been a wonderful teacher so far,â you continued. âI want to do this, Nes. I have to, for myself most of all. I cannot feel weak anymore; I wonât.â
Your sister simply blinked at you, her eyes showing no recognition or understanding of your emotions. âYouâre throwing yourself into something you donât understand.â Without another glance at either of you, she left.Â
You could only stare after her, her last words ringing through your head. You couldnât help but feel like she was right in some way. You didnât understand. Not this new world you had to call home, not this body that didnât truly feel like yours anymore, and certainly not whatever was between you and Azriel.Â
You didnât understand the way his presence soothed you. Didnât understand the way his shadows wrapped around you with a possessiveness they didnât show to others. Didnât understand why you felt like you needed him close, like your very bones ached in his absence.
And he hadnât explained it either. Almost like he refused to.Â
The silence that lingered after Nesta left was heavier than a thousand bricks, pressing against your ribs, weighing down your breath. Azriel stood beside you, unmoving, his shadows curling at the edges of the ring like they werenât sure if they should reach for you or retreat entirely. His face was carefully neutral, but there was something dark flickering in his hazel eyes. Something he wasnât saying. And you had seen that expression of his before.
Your throat tightened. You should have let it go. Should have taken a deep breath, squared your shoulders, and moved on. But you couldnât.
Not when your sisterâs words still rang in your head. Not when doubt curled in your gut like a living thing. Not when that pullâthat strange, unrelenting tether between you and himâhad been thrumming inside you since the moment his hands had touched you.Â
You turned to face him fully, lifting your chin. âWhy didnât you tell her she was wrong?â
Azrielâs gaze flickered, but his expression remained guarded. âWould it have made a difference?â
You clenched your jaw. âThatâs not the point.â
His wings shifted. âThen what is the point?â
You exhaled sharply. âThat she thinks you have some ulterior motive. That youâre manipulating me intoââ
âIâm not,â he cut in, his voice quiet but firm.Â
You swallowed, something hot crawling up your throat. âI know that.â But that wasnât what you were really asking. And from the way his shadows coiled tighter, from the way his gaze searched yours as if trying to decide how much to sayâhe knew it too. Your heart pounded, but you forced yourself to take a step closer. âThereâs something youâre not telling me.â
Everything around you went still.Â
You met his eyes, searching his face. âI donât know what this is,â you admitted, voice bordering on pained. âWhy do you feel so⊠familiar to me? Why is it easier to breathe when you're around? Why are you able to comfort me more than my own sisters?â
Azrielâs throat bobbed, but he didnât say anything.
âWhy?â You cried.
His breath came slow and measured, but you werenât imagining the tension in his shoulders, the way his hands twitched at his sides like he wanted to reach for you but was forcing himself not to.
You took another step forward, desperate now. âAzrielââ
âI canât,â he murmured.
The words hit you like a slap as your stomach twisted. âYou canât?â You asked. âYou canât what?â
His lips parted slightly, as if he wanted to take the words back. But he didnât. He only exhaled sharply and took a step away. The space between you was small, but it felt like a chasm. âI need to go,â he said, his voice barely more than a whisper of despair.Â
Something in your chest cracked. You could feel it opening up like a split in the earth. Before you could say anything, before you could ask, beg, or pleadâhe was gone, shadows swallowing him whole. And you were left standing there, fists clenched, your heart aching with a truth you couldnât grapple with.
â
Azriel
The past days had been unbearable. Every hour without youâwithout your voice, without your presenceâfelt like something had been carved out of him, leaving only raw, open space where you should be.
And yet, he had stayed away; he had made himself stay away.
Because if he got too close, if he let himself give in to the pull of the bondâthe bond you didnât know aboutâhe knew he wouldnât be able to stop himself. Wouldnât be able to keep the truth from spilling from his lips. And he had convinced himself that you werenât ready for that truth. He had convinced himself that he was doing the right thing.
But now, standing in the town house library, facing Rhysandâs scrutinizing stare, Azriel was beginning to wonder if he had been wrong.
Very, very wrong.
Rhys leaned back in his chair, arms crossed loosely over his chest, one brow arching in a way that said he had already figured out why Azriel was here before he even opened his mouth. âYou look like hell.â
He didnât bother denying it.
Rhys exhaled through his nose, shaking his head. âLet me guessâitâs due to you and a certain pretty Archeron sister still avoiding each other? Iâm sure itâs been nothing short of agony for you.â
His jaw tightened. âItâs not just me.â
Rhysâs expression softened slightly. âI know.â
A shift in the air made Azriel glance toward the doorwayâjust as Feyre stepped inside, her gaze not unkind but determined. His stomach twisted; of course she was here. You were her sister after all.Â
âFeyre, darling.â Rhys cautioned his mate.Â
She didnât spare him a second glance as she settled her gaze on Azriel. âSheâs in pain.â She said directly, crossing her arms over her chest.
He looked down in shame, unable to find the right words to say.Â
Feyre sighed, her voice more subdued but no less forceful. "I wonât say anything about it to her, Az. Itâs not my place, but sheâs my sister, and sheâs hurting. You have the power to stop that, so stop it.â
The words hit him like a blade to the chest. Because he knew. He knew you were hurting. Knew you were confused and aching and searching for answers that only he could give you. But still, he waited, shied away from telling you the truth. That you were his mate, the one made for him just as he was made for you. The one who he would move mountains and oceans and cities for.
Rhys watched him carefully, his violet eyes sharp with understanding. âYouâre afraid she wonât accept it.â
Azriel clenched his jaw. He wouldnâtâcouldnâtâadmit it, but the truth was written all over his face.
Feyre exhaled, shaking her head as she moved closer, her expression shifting from stern to something gentler. âItâs alright to be scared.â She hesitated, then softer, âI know what itâs like to have a bond dropped on you before youâre ready. But sheâs already suffering trying to figure out whatâs happening between you two. You canât keep avoiding her.â
Rhys studied him from where he sat, his fingers steepled beneath his chin. âYou know sheâs going to figure it out eventually.â
Azriel nodded along. âShe shouldnât have to figure it out on her own.â
âThen tell her.â His brother said simply.
He turned away, tension rolling off him in waves. âShe just got thrown into this world. Weâre on the brink of war. Sheâs still trying to find her footing. How am I supposed to burden her with this?â
Feyre scoffed, exasperation flashing across her face. âDo you hear yourself? The only thing burdening her is not knowing why she feels the way she does around you. I see it, Az. She looks for you everywhere. And when youâre not there, she just looksâŠlost.â
Azriel squeezed his eyes shut, guilt lancing through his chest like a dagger.
âYouâre making this harder than it needs to be,â Rhys added.
He turned, frustration sharpening his voice. âWhat if she doesnât want it? What if she doesnât want me?â You were still reeling from everything, from the Cauldron, from the war that loomed over them all. What if adding this to your plate made you resent him for keeping it from you?
Feyre softened slightly. âShe already trusts you more than anyone.â
He swallowed hard.
Rhys sighed. âLook, weâre not telling you to confess your undying love for her, but at least tell her what this is. What you are to her. Let her decide what to do with that.â
He dragged a hand through his hair, battling with himself on what he should do.
Rhys leaned back again. âOr, you could keep avoiding her, letting her think sheâs losing her mind over something she doesnât understand.â He arched a brow. âYour choice.â
Azriel glared at him. But he knew the longer he waited, the more he risked losing you. And that thoughtâlosing you before he even had the chance to tryâwas something he didnât think he could bear.
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The window seat in your room seemed to be your favorite place in moments of personal crises. You couldnât draw yourself away from the pane of glass; there wasnât even anything interesting to look at out of it. But your body remained rooted in place, your nails picking and pulling at your cuticles on their own accord.
When a knock sounded at the door, you felt a sense of deja vu come over you. But you werenât foolish enough to believe it was him again. Not when heâd been running away from you so intensely. You had spent the past few days in a haze, going through the motions, trying to shove down the ache that had settled in your chest. The absence of Azriel had been practically unbearable. You hadn't even realized how much of your world he had become until he was gone.
You had searched for him everywhere. Looked for him in the training yard, in the halls of the House of Wind, in the shadows that used to brush against your skin as if they missed you, too. But he had been avoiding you.
And it hurts.
You swallowed, your throat tight as you stared at the door. You didnât want to get your hopes up that it was him. But maybeâŠ"Come in," you murmured, your voice quieter than you meant it to be.
The door opened slowly, and your heart felt like it might give out. But then Azriel stepped inside, shutting the door behind him with a gentleness that felt deliberate. His wings were tucked in tightly, his shadows curling and shifting at his feet, restless and uneasy. He looked⊠exhausted. Tiredness lined his hazel eyes, his jaw taut as if he had spent days grinding his teeth.
You sat up a little straighter on the window seat, hands clenched in your lap. Neither of you spoke for a long moment. Finally, you couldnât take it anymore.Â
âYouâve been gone.â You said, hating how fragile your voice sounded. âWhy?â
His gaze flickered, something pained flashing through his eyes before he schooled his features into neutrality. He stepped further into the room, but not close enough to touch. Not close enough to give you the answers you so desperately wanted. âI thought it was for the best,â he said quietly.Â
You let out a soft, bitter laugh. âFor who?â
He flinched, just barely. You saw it in the way his fingers twitched, in the way his wings tensed ever so slightly. âFor you,â he admitted, his voice rough. âBecause Iââ He exhaled sharply. âBecause thereâs something I need to tell you, and I didnât know how.â
Your heart pounded, that strange pull tightening in your chest like an invisible thread being drawn taut. âTell me now,â you said, the words coming out more like a plea than you intended.
Azriel stared at you, searching your face, his expression unreadable. And then, as if coming to some silent decision, he moved. He crossed the room in two strides, sinking to his knees in front of you. The sight of him like thatâkneelingâstole the breath from your lungs. His hand lifted, hovering inches from yours, as if he wanted to take it but wasnât sure if he had the right to.
"You've felt it," he murmured. "Haven't you?"
Your breath hitched. Felt what? The way his presence soothed you like no one else could? The way your body seemed to recognize him before your mind even had the chance to? The way your soul ached in his absence? "Azriel," you whispered.
His eyes were burning embers as he finallyâfinallyâtook your hand. His thumb brushed along your skin, a barely-there touch that sent shivers up your spine. âThere is a bond between us,â he said at last, his voice hoarse. âA mating bond.â
The words hit you like a physical force, knocking the air from your lungs. You stared at him, your heart slamming against your ribs, your mind reeling. A mating bond.
You were Azrielâs mate.
The world tilted. Everythingâevery stolen glance, every lingering touch, every unspoken wordâsuddenly made sense. You felt like a fool for not putting the pieces together before. âYou knew,â you whispered. It wasnât a question.
Azriel closed his eyes briefly, his grip on your hand tightening. âYes.â
You inhaled sharply, a storm of emotions swirling inside you. âFor how long?â
His throat bobbed. âSince the moment I had to watch them toss you into that cauldron, not being able to stop it.â
You sucked in a breath, your hands trembling in his. A sharp breath rattled out of you, and suddenly, the room felt smallerâtoo small. The walls pressing in, the air too thick. Memories surged forward, slamming into you with the force of a tidal wave. You had tried so hard to bury them, to pretend they were nothing but fading nightmares, but at his words, the dam broke.
You saw it all.
The dark, swirling water.
Nestaâs screams.
Elainâs hand torn from yours.
The hands shoving you forward, forcing you down, down, down.
But you also remembered through the haze of terror there was him. Heâd been lying on the ground; you remembered him crying out in pain. His body and wings were wrecked from whatever injuries had been inflicted upon him. You hadnât registered it at the time, but now in your memories you swore youâd seen him try to crawl to you. You had been too lost in your own fear, too overwhelmed by what was going on.Â
âThat long,â you whispered, your voice shaking.
âYes.â His voice was barely more than a whisper now, filled with something jagged, something broken. "I had to watch them take you, hear you scream, and I didnât know why it tore me apart. And then I felt the bond snap into place as you were dragged from the waters.â
You sucked in a breath, your hands trembling in his. The thought of him going through that all on his own. Injured, in pain, and then discovering his mate had just been brutalized. You couldnât imagine how he felt. But still, he kept it from you. âYou didnât tell me.â
âI was afraid,â he admitted, his voice cracking around the words. âAfraid it would be too much for you. Afraid you wouldnât want it.â
Tears burned in your eyes, but not from sadness or angerâfrom the sheer weight of it all. âI thought I was going crazy,â you choked out. âI didnât understand why I felt this way, why I needed you and hated being away from you. Why Iââ You broke off, shaking your head. âYou should have told me.â
âI know.â His voice broke. âI know, and Iâm soââ He exhaled sharply, looking away. âI thought I was protecting you.â
You swallowed thickly, staring at himâthe feared Shadowsinger of the Night Court, on his knees before you, looking every bit like the man who had spent centuries breaking and putting himself back together again. And now you understood why it had always felt like you were breaking with him.
Azriel lifted his gaze to yours, and the raw vulnerability in his hazel eyes nearly undid you. âSay something,â he whispered. âPlease.â
You could barely breathe, barely think. So instead, you did the only thing that made sense. You surged forward, capturing his face in your hands, and kissed him.
He froze, his body going rigid, as if he couldnât quite believe what was happening. But then he moved, his hands grasping your waist, pulling you against him like he had been starving for this. His lips were soft but urgent, reverent but desperate, and you met him with equal fervor. Because you had been starving. Starving for this, for him, for the truth neither of you had spoken aloud. Azriel made a low sound in the back of his throat, his shadows curling around you both like a cocoon, like they wanted to keep you like this forever.Â
The bond between you flared, roaredâa golden tether that snapped into place, no longer quiet, no longer hidden. And you felt it. All of it.
Tears burned in your eyes as you parted. A single tear slipped down your cheek. âYouâre my mate.â
âAnd youâre mine.â His voice was raw as his grip on your waist tightened. He kissed you again, again, againâlike he needed to memorize every part of you, like he needed to prove to himself that this was actually happening.
Your tears ran down your cheeks, falling to your lips, making the kiss taste salty. But you didnât care because for the first time since that Cauldron had stolen your mortal life, you didnât feel lost.
You felt found.
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During a patrol in Gotham one night, Red Robin comes across a strange sight.
A young woman stands over a crumpled body with a sling shot primed and ready, aimed a man with a rather large hand gun. Itâs clear sheâs protecting the woman who looks like sheâs been hit over the head and had her bag nabbed, as itâs ripped and contents are spilled everywhere.
The girl sits shaking, she isnât scared at all, standing strong with a shard of glass aimed at the manâs crotch.
Tim jumps down and disarms the man smoothly before turning to the young girl, who upon closer inspection seems to be around thirteen years old.
âAre you hurt?â
She shakes her head and stares at him for a moment with awe in his eyes before her eyes widen and she turns to the person behind her, âBut she is! That guy was cornering her and I tried to help but he hit her and-â
âAlright, I understand. Would you like to help me get her to the ER a few blocks away?â
The girl nods with a determination Tim remembers seeing in Dick and Jason in their Robin days and he smiles.
He doesnât ask her what her name is because side he knows heâll follow up and find something to feel guilty about, but the girl seems to have her own plans.
She shows up a couple of days later, standing on a tall building with a cheap Robin outfit on.
Tim is confused before he drops down and she gives a big grin and mock salute, âHow can I help?â
Tim smiled a little before shaking his head, âTaking the title of Robin, are you?â
She nods, now more bashful, âWell, I want to help people. I donât want to fight exactly, but⊠well, sometimes you bats are too busy with the villains to notice the little guy and- bro to say youâre a bad hero-â
âYouâre right, itâs okay. We can only do so much and sometimes preventing more damage being done saves more lives, but there will always be a cost.â
She smiles, bright orange, and impressively curly, hair getting in her eyes and sticking to the poor quality glue of her fake domino.
âI want to help. I⊠can help, please.â
Tim answers after a solid minute of silence, âWhat is your name?â
She frowns, âArenât I supposed to have a secret identity?â
He smiles in answer, âYes, but I know what you look like and I can find out, Iâm asking out of politeness.â
The girl looks like she could pout and Tim feels strangely old at the sight, even if heâs still got a few months before he can even legally drink.
âCarrie. Caroline to be specific.â
Tim smiles, âWell, Carrie, hereâs the deal. I will meet you here or somewhere like here every night and until, and only until, you can land a hit on me will I agree to let you help.â
While Carrie doesnât look pleased she nods, a clear sense of hope in her eyes even as she looks nervous.
She looses the first fight, and the second and third and fourth, but she gets better and better.
Tim doesnât tell anyone about Carrie Kelly, nor does he tell her that he does end up doing a back ground check and finds two dead beat parents more focused on weed than their incredibly skilled daughter.
When she proves to be relentless in her desire to save lives he sends her to a teacher to help her stay hidden and safe. Heâs not like Bruce, he doesnât send her overseas to some dangerous people, but close by and to someone he trust to not hurt her nor tell anyone else about the strange young girl whose managed to give him a taste of his own medicine.
Selina Kyle is more than happy to take in the girl when she watches her sling shot fire crackers at muggers.
When Carrie comes back and meets Tim on a rooftop, she not only manages to hit him but knocks him off his feet.
Tim grins at her, pride filling his mind and making him understand Bruce just a little more.
But unlike Bruce, he isnât throwing her into the fight at all.
Tim Drake is the one who pays for her school pills while her yippie parents refuse to work or spend money on her, and sends her real time footage of medical lectures in various collages across the country.
Carrie doesnât become Robin, nor did she even wear that suit after the second night and he gave her a basic training outfit that properly covered her eyes and hair, but she does become something else.
She becomes Cardinal, the vigilante that swoops in to save civilians and provide the medical care that saves hundreds of people and allows the ambulances and hospitals to have a chance.
When she makes her debut the other bats worry about a new kid making bad choices, probably inspired by them, but Tim ignores it if only because heâs actually proud of her and trust her in a way he hasnât trusted teammates in years.
After a year of this, a young girl asks for a meeting with Mister Tim Drake at his company and, purely so he wouldnât have to do more pointless numbers, he lets her in after she passes the security check.
The girl who comes into his office is barely ten, cute little clips in her dark bob hair and a big book bag almost half her size behind her.
Tim recognised her instantly once he sees the bright yellow shoes sheâs wearing.
This little girl, name Mia Mizoguchi, has been stalking him and Carrie for a few months now.
After he enrolled Carrie at Gotham Academy, the young girl nicknamed âMapsâ had been asking Carrie a lot of questions. Carrie had been good at avoiding incriminating answers, but had fallen for the younger girls clever trap as she casually spoke out infomation that could help with cases and Carrie delivered it back to Tim.
As soon as he realised that Maps had done exactly what he had done and figured out who Carrie was he was impressed. Because even if Carrie was new to the game, she had a skill for tricking people into looking away from her and had done well to stay low.
Maps had made the connection back to Tim, apparently.
Luckily, unlike Bruce, he wasnât ignorant to their little stalker and actually knew her family from a few galas and charities. To be fair, Tim also wasnât clouded by grief, but as he lets the girl explain how she totally doesnât know who Red Robin is but if she did know who he was she would want him to know that a new drug trade route was actually being covered by a cotton candy company and she has over sixty pages worth of proof.
When he shows up to The Nest (named by Carrie) with Maps behind him, he finds Cardinal waiting with an excited gleam in her eyes.
Due to her being so young, Tim doesnât allow Maps to go into the field until sheâs the same age as both he and Carrie were, but sheâs quick to show her worth taking over coms and doing an insanely detailed level of detective work that Tim canât help but be a little jealous of.
Just like Carrie, who has been trying with Selina about only becoming Catgirl if Catwoman stops being a criminal for a few weeks now, he sends her to someone else for mentor ship.
Maps is a sweet girl, but she loves to talk and has a lot of friends who have most of the same interest, so he sends her to the one bat member he trust most.
Cassandra Cain immediately tells Tim that he has to adopt both of them and canât quite understand why them both having living parents matters.
Itâs Cass who gives Maps her vigilante name, Sparrow.
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