#but they werent 🙃

[soupinaboot]

Do you think Batman ever just casually drops the most insane lore to people at random like it's nothing? Cause I do.

[theygender]

Apparently my job incorrectly changed my state on my W4 without my knowledge or consent last year and now I owe a LOT of money in unpaid state taxes since they weren't withholding them from my paycheck like they were supposed to 😭

[mathlann]

Having a surprise "i love museums" morning before my "i fucking hate museums" evening

[altruistic-meme]

hey ouhhh does anyone have knowledge about trans binding tape that they could impart on me

[lichtecht]

PART 20

of the dfk 2023 audiobook translation

@cnka

Narrator (audiobook): Robert puts another piece of wood on the trunk and swings the axe.

Bökh: „And you never wanted to get in touch?"

The Nichtraucher picks up a piece of wood.

Silence.

Nichtraucher: „Why should I? We didn’t see each other for the past ten years either.“

He rips the piece of wood apart with his bare hands. While holding eye contact with Justus.

Silence.

Justus lowers his head.

Jo: „Uh.. weren’t you-" Martina, quietly: „Jo, leave it. Lets go.“

Martina, louder: „We need to go! We still have something to do.“

The kids leave. Jo and Martina are holding hands as they walk away.

Bökh: „Yeah… Thank you, kids.“

Jo, whispering as they walk away: "What was that just now?!"

Robert picks up the chopped wood and walks back to his wagon. Justus looks after him.

Narrator (audiobook): If the two friends will find back together? Matze isn’t so sure of that.

Matze, sarcastically: „Well, that was a great success!“ Jo: „Yeah, so much for friendship between Internals and Externs.“

Narrator (audiobook): At least Robert granted Herr Bökh access to his wagon. He looks around lost in thought more or less, while Robert washes the dishes.

Dishes clatter. There is silence otherwise.

Justus stares wistfully at Robert while he washes the dishes.

Justus takes his eyes off Robert and starts looking around while Robert continues to ignore him.

Bökh: „I thought you were living in London.“ Nichtraucher: (silence) Bökh: „It's nice here.“ Nichtraucher: (silence)

Justus starts walking around.

Bökh: „I told the kids about our friendship.“ Nichtraucher: „As a cautionary tale?“ Bökh: (chuckles/scoffs) „No. Of course not.“

Narrator (audiobook): Bökh spots the poster of „the Bandits“, the same one hanging in his apartment.

Bökh: „The 'Wild Dog' that we always played in is still there.“

Nichtraucher: (silence)

Bökh: „Should we meet there sometime? For a beer?“

Robert looks up.

He lets out a small huff, almost like an incredulous laugh or a scoff.

He dries his hands on a towel and folds it.

Nichtraucher: (silence) Nichtraucher: „I don’t know what we would have to say to each other.“

Bökh: „Hm. Well. A lot of time has passed.“

Narrator (audiobook): Robert sits down at the table and lights himself a cigarette.

Justus turns as well and starts looking around again.

Nichtraucher: „Why didn’t you come to Marie’s funeral back then?“

Nichtraucher: „You didn’t even get in touch.“

[„You didn't even get in touch“ -> parallels to „And you never wanted to get in touch?“]

Justus is silent. He starts fiddling with his jacket and pulls it off his shoulder. He lets out a deep, shaky sigh and is silent for another few moments.

Bökh: „…I don’t know, you met her and… and suddenly you were gone.“

[Parallels to „suddenly your closest loved ones are gone“]

Bökh: „As if everything -our friendship, the band- as if that had all just been a dream.“

Justus turns around and looks at Robert.

Bökh: „Wir zwei. Wir hatten doch Pläne.“

Bökh: „That really hurt me.“ Nichtraucher: „It hurt you.“

Silence. Just the music.

Bökh: „Yes. Very much back then.“

The Nichtraucher lets out a soft incredulous laugh again, almost like a scoff.

Nichtraucher: „I see.“

Long silence. Justus stares out the window. Finally, he turns and walks to the door.

Bökh: „You know where to find me.“

Justus leaves the wagon. Robert nods to himself silently.

Narrator (audiobook): And with these words, Herr Bökh leaves his friend’s train wagon. If the two will ever see each other again?

[teresiel]

More Raven. Can't get enough of drawing her!

[geraskier]

one of the many issues with how dismissive people are of undiagnosed chronic pain: i've had years to get used to the idea that it'll hurt every day for the rest of my life, to varying degrees. and i've been able to appreciate my existence anyway. people (my family) who have spent that entire time telling me i was being dramatic, that if i made the right choices i could fix myself; they haven't grappled with what it means to have intractable pain.

so now i've got OBSERVABLE PROOF of my back pain; proof that implies it's incurable and degenerative--but i already knew that, and therefore, diagnosis is positive for me. i suspect my family will be hung up on gawking over how much pain is associated with vertebral deformation for a while. here's something harsh:

i don't want their sympathy. i have no use for it. i grieved my loss of ability and function by myself *while* everyone around me told me it was my fault i wasn't better.

everyone else can deal with how they feel about *my* condition on their own time. i'm not gonna coach someone on how to feel okay about the amount of distress i'm in.

[stevethehairington]

hahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahaa gonna go throw myself off of a cliff i just stumbled upon a pre-existing fic that is the EXACT same as my bb fic, which i am now 21k deep into 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

[barrymccaulkinem]

when i reasserted to my mother that if you go to a dry well you'll pull up an empty bucket she threatened to conserve me. rather than ever once see that she has done this to me just as much as my doctors have.

but she has a hammer, so this looks like a nail

anyway be on the lookout for that bc if i come on here saying she's gonna i actually will need train tickets and to be put up somewhere and actually helped. that one's not gonna end up being a false alarm

she wants to squeeze money out of me to spend on makeup and give to a landlord who doesnt reinvest ANYTHING into this place

[guardian-angle22]

So just throwing this other point for why it doesn't make sense from a story telling point to kill off Gabriel. He's also law enforcement and they can bring him out for plot points they want to explore that don't make sense for Carlos and then not have to spend time finding another actor to cast as a Texas ranger. And if I remember right Tim justified killing off Gwyn and Charles because he didn't know what to do with them. I have no idea what this tragedy is but hopefully it isn't something that makes zero narrative sense like killing off Gabriel or cruel like giving Tk huntingtons disease

[follow up to this post]

Hmmm that is a very good point!

Mark this under The Dreaded Thing is Not Happening column, thank you for your contribution!

[possum-tooth]

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[icantalk710]

Most likely going to Fire Island tomorrow, first trip there all summer to go meet some friends who are staying there for the weekend, going to be interesting getting the entire way on my own and back since I'm usually in a group outing lol (going to try and still make an express LIRR but let's see...)

[shinylights]

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[theshebinator]

Feels like I'm gonna have a day or two to fixate on Invader Zim again so let's make the most of it!

I binged all of "Forced Perspective" last night and if you ever thought "man, I wonder if ZADF could be in character" you have come to the RIGHT PLACE

[lempippeli]

i wamna be severus for halloween but i have no idea how to straighten this wig. or comb through it. it is a messsss! (also wigs are super uncomfortable.)

[mx-paint]

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