#but there's much gay to be found in the angst as well so i'll surely be back next week

[mephistopheleswasrobbed]

Right so, I currently feel a very strong urge to cut open my stomach like Chef Hong, but let's put that aside for now and focus on all the new evidence that Peaceful Property is very much gay, actually:

(somehow in light of the end of this episode all of this feels so shallow but well, I got this far, I'm not giving up now)

1

Peach is wearing THE shirt. The infamous "more than friends less than lovers" shirt.

And as is usually the case when this shirt appears, it perfectly describes the current state of Peach and Home's relationship.

2

I'm not really attentive enough to analyse colours in these shows, but even I noticed that Home's shirt is pretty blue at the beginning of this episode

Looks like both of them are (not so) subtly expressing their feelings through their clothes this week

3

We didn't really get confirmation either way about Peach's relationship with Best. Though judging by this little interaction between them, if there was something between them, it was probably initiated by Best. He's full-body reaching more than half-way across the frame, trying to get Peach to fistbump him while Peach only half-heartedly raises his fist towards Best's a little. (I admit I might be somewhat biased against him because of Pangpang, but I almost get the vibe that he kinda tried to get close to Peach to siphon off some of Chef Hong's attention. So he was using him from the beginning, first for his cooking skills then for his exorcism skills. But tbf it might have also just been innocent excitement.)

Anyway look at Chef Hong frowning at their interaction. She knows this is not the right man for her son favourite student.

4

Home, deepely and sincerely, wants to help Peach.

As soon as he finds out about Peach's trauma his first priority becomes helping him, not selling the property and not exorcising the ghost.

He even goes all alone to meet the ghost of Chef Hong and asks her to help Peach.

This is kind of a parallel to the second episode where Home went to confront Rak alone (with Suradech and Kan) after Peach refused to help him anymore. Except this time he actually goes alone and instead of asking the ghost to leave so he can make some more money, he sincerely asks her to help Peach. Character growth. But also. Doing it for the guy he likes. And this is why he gets the mother in law approval and not Best.

But helping someone is not always easy, so:

This is the face of a man who's desperate to help the person he loves even if that person doesn't think he can be helped. And he's willing to play the bad guy to get him that help.

It so clearly hurts him to talk to Peach that way but he doesn't know what else to do.

And Peach is also hurt because he thought that he and Home had gotten close enough that Home would care about his wellbeing more than making money. And he's right, too because Home IS actually doing this FOR his wellbeing and NOT for money. Peach just doesn't know that, yet.

(Quick aside about Peach: Shouting at someone while clutching their shirt. That's 'I love you so please understand me' level of fighting)

Classic tragic romance shit (in preparation for later things to come?). Especially with their next conversation happening through a glass pane. (Star Trek anyone? and many more that I can't think of right now)

And Home gives him hope. Hope that maybe his mentor didn't kill herself, hat maybe he's not responsible for her death. And with that he gives him the strength to face his fear. Good (not yet) boyfriend.

5

It's love, your honor!

He litterally takes over the job of taking care of Peach from Peach's mother figure

and then holds him while he breaks down. And not only does he hold him, he PULLS HIM IN so Peach can cry into his shoulder.

And Peach lets himself fall apart in Home's embrace, to let out all of the grief and guilt he had been carrying mixed with the relief of realising it wasn't his fault she died, and she never blamed him for any of it.

(I know I've said it before but man, Tay and New are really blowing this out of the water. They're just so good. Everything about this show is just sooooooo good.)

6

Is that jealousy I smell, Peach?

Don't worry. Home has already admitted that he's flirting with Kan as a bit not with any real intention. The real is reserved for you.

7

He fully plans to give it to Peach, doesn't he? Simp.

8

Between all the real talk, raw emotions and vulnerability, they're right back to bickering and teasing each other.

9

Now there's a classic BL trope. (And also again a callback to Chef Hong taking care of Peach, making it even more meaningful.)

10

Its LOVE, your honor!!!

But seriously:

Peach has fully fallen in love with Home at this point. And how could he not, after Home fully proved his kindness and selflessness and care for Peach this week. Peach had already started to really trust and be comfortable around Home last episode, but with this he's fully brought down Peach's walls. (too bad it's going to end up hurting them both soon)

And Home knows it, too. Speaking it out while also giving the plausible deniability of a joke. And note how Peach denies on behalf of Kan but not of himself.

They're inching their way towards each other, neither of them willing to say it without beating around the bush but both of them fully aware of what's happening between them. (too bad there's a big storm coming for them that's going to wreck this puppy love bliss)

11

And this, ladies and gentlemen and everyone in between and beyond,

is the face of realisation that you did irreconcilable harm to the man you love and you didn't even know it. That the man you love just said a most sincere and heartfelt "Thank you" to his killer. To you. That all your newfound happieness is about to come crashing down around you and it's all your fault.

Seeing them be happy and flirty in the credit scene hurt. Because how long will they still have this? And either way, any blissful moment from now on is going to feel hollow for Home. And Kan knows, too. Will Pangpang find out before Peach? Will Home get to tell Peach himself or will Peach have to find out from someone else?

Major angst is incoming and honestly? That's pretty gay. Silver lining and all that, I guess.

Anyway I don't want to leave us off at a complete downer so have a quick

Lesbian Corner

The focus was very much on Peach this episode and Kan was mostly off doing her own thing so there's not much but there is this:

Pangpang felt quite betrayed when Kan didn't take her side against Home. She's clearly aware that they should hook team up seeing as the boys are busy with each other.

Don't worry girl, you'll get there eventually.

[shona22]

Sterek fic rec: October edition (2024) 🐺 ⚓

Each month, I'll be sharing some of my favorite fics (and I'll make sure to backup and download them for safekeeping). Please note that I have a soft spot for darker themes, so warnings and tags will be plentiful - reader discretion advised!

Want specific recs? Feel free to send me an ask with your preferred tropes or genres, and I'll do my best to find some from my bookmarks. 

Pay by the hour, but don't leave so soon by JettieBettie 

"This is the last time," he tells her, heading toward the door.

"That’s what you always say. But I end up wearing his face for you again and again.”

Note: an incredibly hot pwp. I won't spoil much, but it does have an amazing Stiles voice regardless of being so short. 

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Step towards me, step away by Areiton 

The truth is, he’s been more than a little bit in love with Derek Hale for a long time.

Note: A compelling exploration of an unconventional relationship. Complex characters, angst, and favourite tropes (Derek angsting over age gap, Kate comparisons) lead to a satisfying ending. Worth the read!

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I found you hidden in plain sight (why'd I take so long?) by Gorgeousgreymatter 

Stiles is pretty sure he’s hallucinating. He’s got to be. There’s no other plausible explanation, he thinks, as he sits on the sidelines of the lacrosse field and feels the cold, hard bench underneath him, the roar of the crowd at his back like the worst white noise machine in the world.

There’s no other reason why he sees it, the hulking, black figure of a wolf peering at him from the treeline behind the bleachers. Its eyes flare in the glaring glow of the stadium lights, but they’re the wrong color, he thinks: blood-moon red instead of cobalt blue, but the familiarity of it all makes his stomach roll and clench.

Note: Gods. Another one my favourite trope, where Derek gets his alpha spark back because of Stiles. The line, the one which had me gnawing my pillow at 3AM:

“Jesus, Stiles. You never stopped being mine, did you?”

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Somebody that I used to know by Percybyssheshelly

Stiles and Derek have been together for months.

The trouble is, they weren't yesterday.

Note: short, but packs a punch. If you're having a bad day and want some relatively short angst with happy ending fics, this one's for you. 

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We live (not as we wish to) as we can by Endrversed

“I’m not a closet case,” Derek repeats, teeth gritted.

“Oh, yeah?” Stiles taunts, daring Derek with his eyes. “You coulda fooled me.”

“I’m not – gay.”

Derek spits that word out. Stiles snorts, no humour in it.

“Sure. You’re totally straight, dude. You just get all up in my personal space every time we’re alone. Stare at my lips any time you think no one’s looking. Well, I’m looking, Derek, and I know what you want. I know what you really want is to bend me over and fuck me.”

Derek is a closeted frat boy, and Stiles gets under his skin. Enemies to fuckbuds to <3

Note: Heed the tags. After DBC, I've been craving closeted frat boy Derek with the perfect Stiles voice. This one delivers. Endversed's mastery seals the deal.

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UST (an unfortunate series of tropes) 

Stiles and Derek sitting in a tree, M-A-R-R-I-E-D.

Wait, what?

Or: Stiles thought he and Derek were finally getting to be bros, and then Deaton had to go and ruin everything with his stupid spell.

Note: Amazing Stiles voice + mature Derek. Re-read worthy! Accidental soul bonding and more - my ultimate tropes. 10/10, left craving more.

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Stronger in numbers by bloodwrites

Stiles doesn't want to be the Alpha's mate, he doesn't want to be locked up for his own protection, and he's damn sure he doesn't want to be dealing with blood and werewolf parts on a weekly basis, but somehow that's what his life has become.

That's not going to change, unless he can convince Derek to trust Scott and the hunters, because it's the only way they're going to chase the Alpha Pack out of town.

Of course, that only solves two out of three.

Note: please heed ALL the tags. Also, remember, Derek’s somewhat of a certified jerk in this. And yet, somehow, that's the fic’s appeal. It honestly has the feels of a classic 2010-2014 fics, and that makes me eat it up even more. Also, it's HOT. 

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Werewolf love songs, vol 1 by aggybird. 

Peter decides to use the power of Barry Manilow's music to make Stiles and Derek fall in love.

Meanwhile, there are monsters and stuff, and Stiles and Derek are stupid.

Note: amazing fic very close to my heart. I love meddling uncle Peter, and the gradual progression of their relationship. It's also such a classic early sterek fic, and like the other ones, I'm always starving for it. It's funny and incredible with Stiles’ voice. 

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Rapture, sweet rapture (won't you put your hands on me) by queerly_it_is

Somewhere in the stringy mesh of his overactive brain cells, Stiles is sure there must be memories of what it was like to not have a totally possessive creeper with a leather fixation for an adopted brother.

Note: please heed the warnings. It's pseudo-incest! 

[eden-3000]

Hey, I would like to ask you to write a comfort for Rosekiller. Or something like that.

Modern AU, Barty shows up at the door of Rosier Manor, at night, knowing that Evan's mother will be indifferent to his arrival and whether he will stay due to his father kicking him out of the house. Evan lets him in and they talk.

Too simple, bc this is my first request on tumblr<3. Have a nice day!

(Don't worry about it. This is my first request as well xD. It's also my first time writing these two, so I hope it isn't too ooc and you like it <3)

Tags: Active Homophbia, mentioms of parental alcohol abuse, light angst with much comfort

Wordcount: 506

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"What the fuck are you doing here?" The shock on Evan's face was more than obvious when he saw his boyfriend at the door, drenched and shivering from the rain.

"Sorry, I didn't call... Can I come in?" Evan simply nodded and moved to the side so Barty could escape the cold.

"What happened? You look like shit!" "Gee, thanks." "You do though... Come on." One hand on his shoulder, Evan led him through the house and up to his room. "Can I use your shower?" Once again Evan nodded, showing Barty the way to the bathroom. He understood that Bary needed a moment to warm up and calm down. "Thanks, Rosie." "Any time."

Evan started feeling useless after just a few moments and decided to make tea. In the kitchen, he found his mother with a can of beer. "Who was that at the door?" "Barty. I think he's staying around for a bit." "Alright, just don't be too loud. And stay away from the liquor cabinet." "Sure, mom." As if she'd notice.

He took the two mugs and a bag of chips upstairs to his room, grabbing a bottle of whiskey on his way, then knocked against the bathroom door. "Bee? I got you some fresh clothes. I'll just leave them here." "Cheers..." A few moments of silence, then. "Rosie?" "Yeah?" "Love you." "Love you too, you prick."

A couple of minutes later, Barty - now with dry clothes and not freezing his balls off - lay on Evan's bed, while the other boy opened the chip bag. "I wasn't sure what you wanted, so I got you something for the body and something for the soul." Barty took a deep swig from the bottle.

"You wanna tell me what's going on now?" Barty sighed. He lay down with his head on Evan´s lap, closing his eyes for a moment, letting the alcohol do it´s work.

"My dad threw me out." That explained a lot. "It's kinda hard to convince people to elect you for the next super-conservative-super-safe prime minister if you have an openly gay, leftist son. So he told me he wanted nothing to do with me. And honestly, I'm fine with that. It's not like I liked him or anything. Just sucks that I can't live there anymore, so now I need to find something else." "Ugly bastard. He´s just frustrated he can´t pull a guy as handsome as me." Barty softly huffed and opened his eyes, looking at him with pure adoration and thankfulness. "Probably."

"And you can stay here. At least for a while", Evan assured him, playing with his wet hair. He knew Barty liked it. Depending on how he did it, it either furiously turned him on or calmed him into an almost meditative state.

"Maybe we can get a house together. Or a flat. How much does stuff like that cost?" Evan just laughed and leaned down to him to press a kiss to his lips. "Guess we´ll have to go looking for something to figure it out."

[ms-moonlight-inn]

💥💥It’s the Wednesday Tag Game💥💥

Today’s tag game is about our wonderful fandom! Tagged by my lovelies @jrooc & @vintagelacerosette & @guinguin1984 & @blue-disco-lights & @mybrainismelted & @energievie & @doshiart

How did you get into the fandom? 

I started watching the show 'cause I was raised in the inner-city & heard that there was this new show that was doing this really good, honest depiction of inner-city life. Tell me the 'hood is being accurately depicted & neither romanticized, nor made into a caricature & I show up. Those first few seasons were so familiar to me in both comforting & repulsive ways.

And THEN there also happens to be a gay 'ship in this show?! 😱 I mean, there was no way I could escape the pull of Shameless.

So, it started with me binging back episodes, and it escalated to fanart. Then I tripped across some fanfic... I was a creepy creeper lurking in the background for a long time. Eventually, I struck up a conversation with @dancermk in her comment section. And it all snowballed from there. (Sorry, I just said snowballed –it's not meant to be used as a euphemism.)

What’s the first fandom channel you found? (Youtube, Reddit, Tumblr, Insta, Twitter, FB, other?)

Strangely enough, it was Pinterest, I think. It was some fanart or fanfic that was pinned & I followed the thread to AO3.

what’s your favourite now? 

Tumblr, but I find myself on Discord a lot lately. I used to spend my time on Twitter until musk took over.

Which mutual have you known the longest in the fandom?

The longest who is still in the fandom is @notherenewjersey. The longest who aren't in the fandom @dancermk & @stillbeatingheart

Which tumblerino’s did you have your first fandom crush(es) on and want to get to know?

😆 Anyone I've wanted to get to know has, unfortunately, been subjected to my extrovertedness. I don't think you can stop me from talking to people. 🫠 If I'm intrigued by someone's approach to Gallavich, I will interact & it's normally the response to my interaction that dictates how much I'll "harass" you.

First Gallavich fan fic you read (or that blew you away that you remember)

The first one that really drew me into the fandom & made me want to find other things to read was "As Long As The World Keeps Spinning," by @doodlevich. The whole Husbands and Shit series is so good.

First Fan art that blew your mind? 

So many, but the first one that really made my eyes pop out & my heart beat thump loudly in my chest was this one by @darthvaders-wife . It's so very representative of Mickey.

Fanfic trope that you were sure wasn’t for you but now you low key (or high key) love?

🤫🤫🤫 (but also any shade of monster fucking? though I always liked that. so, maybe praise kink, though I've always liked that, as well.)

ACTUALLY, now that I think about it, a lot of the fluff tags I thought would not be for me. And I wouldn't say that they are a high-key love of mind, because I do absolutely adore angst. But, I am much more tolerant of semi plotless domestic fluff than I ever thought I would be.

What surprised you most about this fandom?

The amount of good writing & art'ing we're privileged to have. There's just SO MUCH good here. 🥺🥰

Moment in the show (or YT vids if you’re one of those) that you fell in hyperfixation with Gallavich?

The scene at the docks. All of it. Before the kiss, during the kiss, after the kiss. 🫠

Ian or Mickey?

(I don't play this reindeer game)

Which Gallagher or Milkovich are you? 

Ugh. I wanna say Sandy, but I'm probably more of a Lip 😭

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Tagging @notherenewjersey

[foolsocracy]

Do you have any fic recommendations? I've just read the open road and other anesthetics, which was good, but I'd love more Noir content.

oh boy do i

Here are a few fics i have on hand! If I have time or stumble across more, I can make another post/add to this one. Heads up, the open road and other anesthetics is pretty light hearted and these probably will not be. so say vigilant LMAO (its noir, ya know?). If you wanted more spiderverse centric fics rather than noirverse let me know i'll see what i can pull together.

Burning Matches by HopelesslyLost (complete) 344,746 words

Cant have a Spider Noir fic rec list without the gospel itself. Definitely on the whumpier side, lots of "this guy can never catch a break huh" but very good! Takes the noirverse and makes it so so cool. I pull a lot from this fic. Great stuff Its a post ITSV setting and features a great deal of everyone but Pete is def the focus. The spider gang is trying to get back together, but when they get to Noir's world things don't go as planned. Heavy on the found family. Heavy on the angst. Love Noir's relationship w/ Miles' parents

The Wind Follows by HopelesslyLost (incomplete) 99,501 words

Goes along with Burning Matches as a side story of Pete infiltrating the KKK to get them tf out of NYC. Very heavy handed on the angst. Even whumpier than Burning Matches. Where it stands right now, it ends on an incredibly low note, very much like Eyes Without a Face. Peter's kicked while he's down & physically incapable of getting a win. But Peter does kick Nazi ass which is always nice to see If you like the noirverse HopelesslyLost writes this is very interesting! Gotta be my fave part of this fic. I love seeing Noir Cage, Daredevil, and Tony Stark. Plus the who "cursed" situation.. mwah

i'll go back to december by snapplebee (incomplete, recently updated) 14,503 words

This fic reminds me of the open road and other anesthetics, but if it was a little angstier w/ Noir. The spider gang is hanging out for the holidays, Noir doesn't know how to fuckn relax.

Catch a Tiger by the Tail by Gruoch (completed) 40,049 words

Just finished this one today! Was very fun. It's an MJ spider-man (her POV) and a Black Cat Peter. Gwen Stacy, a dancer at Felica Hardy's place, is found dead. Her fiancé, Peter Parker, is found dead soon after. Its very much a mystery! TBH i think i was out of it reading this because a twist got me that I'm almost positive was obvious from the beginning LMAO. Slight Peter/Johnny Storm as well

Between Midnight and Dawn by Gruoch (incomplete) 14,158 words

Prequel to the previous rec. I love this one and I'd do anything to see it update again. Shows you how Peter got to be the Black Cat, he has cool run ins with the Dare Devil and Stark, all the fun noir folks. Heads up on the dysfunctional found family tag, thats for sure Peter and Felicia. But they're strange in canon anyway so its not really much of a surprise.

He Sleeps in a Town of Darkness by luckystarsandgarters (complete) 21,278 words

This is the fic i mentioned a post or 2 ago about Johnny Storm being a drag performer. I really love the atmosphere of this fic, I thought it was pulling from an offical comic thats how well it got me. This one's Pete/Johnny Storm! They're cute. Lots of focus on the gay subculture of the 30s I think.

Trust by Ackerhardt (complete) 6,989

Peter & Jean De Wolfe vs the world. Quick read in the classic noirverse. Jean is fun we should talk about him more tbh. Peter/Jean actually! Just colleged aged guys taking on crime in the city.

[hornystiel]

fics about bruce and harvey? 👀 i am so very intrigued, please tell me more

ok SO. (sorry i'm still excited so this can be long) i read the comics ones (while devouring the gist about them in different comics through tumblr osmosis and memes and relying on my previous dc knowledge) aand they are..very interesting. the thing about them is that they are bitter exes (who may or may not really hooked up in the past but were very close and now are definitely divorced) but who still care about each other. well bruce def still cares about harvey and two face. harvey is...reluctant (the whole thing with harvey not thinking he deserves to be saved, yes). and his dark side mostly hates both bruce and batman and doesn't trust them. which is another interesting thing about them and their 'other sides'. there are basically FOUR different relationships going. batman, two-face (harvey's criminal side and his personality), harvey and bruce. because in half the cases two face doesn't know batman's identity. and all of them have beef and tension. both the angry one and sexual. so it's really interesting how they can coexist and do shit with/to each other. one of the tags i saw was Romantic Face Punching and yeah. yeah.

ALSO there's one fic where bruce is undercover as another criminal dude named matches (i'm a bit all over the place with the comics) and basically hires himself to help harvey in his criminal activities to check on harvey from time to time. and like!! basically bruce isn't either truly himself or batman and harvey, who's instantly figured him out, is like huh. i have angst with bruce and rage with batman but he's neither rn. sure i'll bite. and they communicate by PRETENDING they don't know who they are. and two face is..mostly quieter when matches!bruce is around and harvey is like ??? and this is so good because all the layers of pretending and not being themselves is so them. and harvey doesn't use a coin when deciding things about bruce! twice! also harvey is so vulnerable when he strips for the first time in front of him help

the fic if you're interested

the other fics (i read only explicit fics sorry) were like 'ok we hook up ONCE and it's not PERSONAL' and then well :) it's angsty and too personal anyway

also this happened

two face was like 'if harvey can't say he has a thing for choking and gay thoughts about batman i may very well do him a service while said batman tries to choke me in an alley'. harvey once he's in charge: 'god fucking dammint'. sorry i know it's evil but it was funny gdgdh

anyway i didn't read much (i was doing it at work rip) but they are so unwell and also sad drama queen puppies

i was never interested in other batman ships except for batcat so i think i've finally found my niche thank you misha collins and jackles. again. the first thing i saw with twobats where i thought 'hmm very fruity' was a cartoon with jensen voicing bruce and him and harvey being very cozy with each other <3 when they still worked together and harvey didn't know who batman was

ANYWAy thank you for coming to my insane rambling ted talk i will probably be insane about them in the foreseeable future

[ivy-saurs]

20 fic questions

i was tagged by @mutxnts ! thank you so much for the tag ash, i had a lot of fun answering these questions 💜

1. how many works do you have on Ao3?

i have 3 posted and i'm hoping to publish more this year! i have a few wips in the pipeline :)

2. what's your total ao3 word count?

40,769 words (haha 69 nice)

3. what fandoms do you write for?

ace attorney and the simon snow/carry on series

4. what are your top five fics by kudos?

a snowy christmas (simon snow) one of us is lying (simon snow) carpool (ace attorney)

5. do you respond to comments?

yes! comments give me so much serotonin hehe

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

none of the fics i've written really have angsty endings haha, they have angst in the middle/towards the end but then i like to end on a happy note. if i had to go with one, maybe it would be one of us is lying?

7. what’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

i would go with carpool because even though the ending is open, there wasn't any angst in that fic and it was a pretty short and happy fic

8. do you get hate on fics?

thankfully i haven't so far 😅

9. do you write smut? if so, what kind?

i don't at the moment but i would never say never...

10. do you write crossovers? what’s the craziest one you’ve written?

i've never written one but there are some very cool crossovers out there!

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

thankfully not (at least not that i know of)

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

no i haven't!

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

i haven't but it's definitely something i would be open to doing! in primary school, my best friend and i would often co-write stories together and it was so fun!

14. what’s your all time favorite ship?

either narumitsu or snowbaz

15. what’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

i'm worried that i'll never actually finish the AU i've come up with where edgeworth owns a gay bar and suddenly he's losing customers because a rival gay bar opens next door - and it just so happens to be owned by a cute guy called phoenix wright...

16. what are your writing strengths?

i think i'm fairly decent at writing dialogue and writing concisely!

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

stealing ash's answer for this one lol i'm also not the best at writing prose and i struggle with using flowery/poetic language and vocabulary

18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

i don't think i've ever done it before and if i did i would only do it for very well-known phrases in other languages like "te amo"

19. first fandom you wrote for?

technically pokemon when i was a kid, although i never published it, so if we're talking published works, then it's the simon snow fandom

20. favorite fic you’ve written?

one of us is lying! i worked so hard on it and i took a long break from writing it, to the point where i wasn't sure if i would ever finish it. but i did and it was SO worth it. i recently found my notes from when the fic was in its infancy and it made me so proud to see how much the fic changed and grew while i was writing it! it's my longest fic and i really wanted to post it all in one go - it took so much willpower to only post one chapter a week even though all of it was already written haha

i'm not sure who to tag but please feel free to do this if you want to and say that i tagged you in it, i always love reading people's answers to these questions!

[providing-leverage]

Fic in Review 2023

This looks fun, thanks to @writer-and-thrasher for the tag

Total Number of Completed Stories: 16, which is great because my goal was 12 (one a month, which didn't happen, but oh well)

Total Word Count: 77,440! Again, I had a goal and surpassed it (getting to 300k on my account) and it feels really good.

Fandoms Written In: So much Ted Lasso, which I discovered after Sunflowers came out and was trending. I saw canon gay characters and went sign me up even if I don't normally like comedy stuff. I'm super glad I did because I've not written so much for a fandom so fast since my Shadowhunters hyperfixation years ago. Other than those 12, I did some PJO, Supernatural, and Batman, and Teen Wolf.

Looking back did you expect to write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you’d expect: so much less! Ted Lasso brainworms truly won this year

What’s your own favorite story of the year, personally?: I'm super proud of myself for finishing Past and Present Now Embrace, one of my few non Ted Lasso fics. Bianca was a very interesting character and the Percy Jackson universe it a great sandbox to play in.

Did you take any writing risks this year?: I think my trend towards gen stuff, because obviously romantic stuff gets more hits a lot of the time so I've trained myself to sprinkle it in even when it doesn't really need to be there. But with Ted Lasso I really felt like I could embrace the platonic stuff and when I did write romance it was because I wanted to.

Do you have any fanfic goals for the New Year?: I want to write a multichapter, and I'm hoping that multichapter will be either Stranger Ranger or Guard Your Heart. I've also been watching to rework the second and third parts of SSA Sam Singer.

Best story of the year: personally I'm really proud of the Fundamentals of Love and Lying, which is so self indulgent

Most popular story of the year: Get It Off Your Chest for sure, and I think that's all to do with the blurb I used in the summary

Most personal story of the year: Oh for sure it's a rather touching notion which is also probably the one I wrote the quickest. An aroace character figuring out who they are, feeling outside of so many social interactions because they lack romantic and sexual attraction? Pure projection. Also The A Team because yay autism.

Funniest story of the year: While the summary for Get it Off Your Chest is funny, Colin's reasons for picking up lesbians is deeply sad so I can't really say that. Eliza's exasperation with Jamie in Flowers for Dani is pretty funny though.

Story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion: Fundamentals took a lot of work but it's also a rarepair I invented the tag for and narrated by a character that is basically an OC, so I understand why it's not everyone's cup of tea.

Most fun story to write: Holy Novelty Socks Batman is pure fluffy crack and made me smile a lot

Story with the sexiest moment: none of them really. Fundamentals and some of the other TL fics have some sex allusion though.

Sweetest story of the year: I'll say Shake It Out, a teen wolf fic from early this year that I'd completely forgotten about. What's sweeter than breaking into your school at night for a date?

“Holy crap that’s wrong even for you!” story: dito on not doing scandalous, but for angst then maybe this fic where I give Dani my caffeine sickness

Hardest story to write: Past and Present Now Embrace, for sure took the longest, with me working on it for over a year. I wanted to get it up before the Sun and the Star came out but that didn't happen.

Biggest disappointment: Not any published fic in particular but I have a lot of drafts I wish had been able to see the light of day this year

Biggest surprise: the community I feel like I've found this year, especially within Ted Lasso. Doing these tag games, trading asks and ideas with other writers, is something I've never gotten to do before and I feel so lucky and grateful for my mutuals.

Speaking of... @orbitalpirate @mearpsdyke @manwholovescabins sorry if any of you have already been tagged

[subzeromoron]

drop your rinniki fic reccs king

Okay so I'm not actually on ao3 very much (browser + social app time limits) but I'll indulge occasionally when I'm on my pc None of them are nsfw because I don't like smut!!! *asexual flag waves aggressively*

I put the links under the cut and I can edit it if finding them is difficult!

I will always, always, always love sickfics. I found this fic in my bookmarks (I had to read it again because I'm done and won't write notes about why I saved it) It feeds my "both Rinne and Niki are housewives" thing but I'm also pretty sure that's just cannon?? It has a teeny bit of angst but it's brief so nothing to worry about. I also think it's written by one of the artists for the daily rinniki tumblr blog?

This one is actually supposed to be HiMERU-centric but it's so tender.... And I'm such a sucker for tender rinniki augh,,, Gosh I love Crazy:B and the tags are a riot

This one is longer (hanahaki!) I don't remember it too well but its so well written... I thoroughly enjoyed it...mmm, angst... Be warned, it's hanahaki so emetophobia warning and all that. And apparently it's written by the same person who wrote the sickfic. Interesting, I hadn't noticed Another sickfic (are you sensing the pattern yet???) but Rinne's the one who's sick this time. It's so silly. I love silly gay people.

I don't have many bookmarks with the rinniki tags and a lot of them aren't rinniki heavy so I didn't include them but thanks for asking me about them :D they are silly to me and I hope you enjoy

[longeyelashedtragedy]

griezmann for the ask! griezmann for the ask!

oh shit! thank you for this one!

i'll be honest--i don't think about the Renaisance Twink as often as i once did, but he was like, my first Favorite Footballer once i started watching football (he's one of the reasons i saw the light--but that's a whoooole nother story) and the first footballer i ever wrote fic about! so, i have a lot of fondness for him in my heart.

favorite thing about them: i like his sunshiney puppy-like vibes and everything he'd done with his hair over the years (until he came back from barça...) Good Wag, erika has good vibes. transformative music taste (see below). also, he has some fun goals, as long as he isn't scoring against croatia :/

least favorite thing about them: uhhh, he plays for france nt...HE GOT RID OF HIS LONG BARÇA CURLS. i think of all the Hair Sins footballers have committed, this is the most offensive. that hair was gorgeous it was peak it was everything.

favorite line: uhhh? i can't think of anything quotable--just things from my fanfics (“Well I’m not asking fucking Simeone.  He did this to me without asking.  That’s probably illegal.” ohhhh the potential of my vampireverse lol) but irl? i'm not sure

brotp: hmmmm...giroud? i liked his interactions with his NT teammates, idk anymore lol

notp: definitely with messi lol

otp: ok i uhhhh....because he was Around during my wild west shipping days...griezmanu endgame also i invented the "ivantoine" ship and then 100% convinced myself that flirty puppy grizi/gay self-discovery angst were a thing!!! i'm fond of those fics and there's one i still kind of want to write, which might be ridiculous. now neither of them is at barça, lol.

also--grizi and Daddy Simeone, obviiiiii.

random headcanon: uhhh...he probably voted in the most recent french presidential election? (this headcanon is largely for FGSB but she's not really active on here) i don't really have headcanons about footballers for the most part, i just pay attention to their lives? hmmmm

unpopular opinion: HIS BARÇA HAIR WAS HIS BEST HAIR AND I DO NOT KNOW WHY PEOPLE HATE!!! my bff Understands

song i associate with them: here we goooooooo! around the time i got into him spotify published a playlist he made, and he was also posting good stuff on his insta stories, and i found SO much good french music from it, and some good spanish music as well (music in spanish i mean--none of it was from spain.) because of him i found nekfeu, whose "les étoiles vagabondes" album is one of my favorites to this day. i honestly listen to a lot of those songs still. i don't think any random person's playlist has ever influenced me as much as that one 😂

favorite picture of them: well. there are so many pictures of him that i like, but i think i have to go with my fav football photo like, ever:

[hms-tardimpala]

For FFWF, I'm sending a question bomb back to you, friend <3 Soooo how is it going along with breaking in that ship tag? Care to tell us about them, like what sort of characters they are and what their dynamic is?

Or if you would rather talk about your experience with rarepair ships in general I would be interested in that too <3

I'm so happy to get this ask! Heads-up: it might get long.

So I'm not breaking in a ship tag, what I said yesterday was that I was writing for a small ship and, as a reader, I had found no fics for some pairings I were looking for. Your ask might change that however, but I'll say more about this a little lower...

I can tell you about the small ship I'm writing for currently! I'm entering Know No Shame mode so here it is: it's Alan Grant/Billy Brennan from Jurassic Park 3.

Yes, of all things. I'm the first who's surprised. This time around I'm seeing something in them that I want to explore. I think you of all my writer friends can appreciate a teacher/student dynamic best. They're two brilliant scientists (Billy has to be to be Grant's dig site manager) in the hot Montana badlands, they act sort of like a married couple in the movie (they're a package deal), Grant has a history of dating younger paleontologists and Billy is his very devoted easygoing assistant that acts as an intermediary for his misanthropic professor.

There's potential for: hero worship, We Shouldn't Do This™ angst, establishing a healthy relationship despite status and age gap, and I've never written a student character, especially one who has to finish a PhD after he's been traumatized by the animals he was studying, so that's interesting.

Like, the movie isn't much, but it gives me just enough to want to write a study of their relationship during and post-canon.

And now I realize that both fics I'm currently writing are about fixing an established relationship after a big falling-out (partly, at least). Well, well.

Now, for my experience of rarepairs. I mostly read (and write, so far) in big to huge fandoms and I'm generally into the main ship (which is why I see Billy/Alan as a rarepair, although you might think that with 181 fics, they're not in this category). But sometimes (often, actually) I get interested in a media that has a very small fandom and I happen to ship characters that very few people seem to be interested in.

When that happens, I end up reading as many fics about that ship as I can find, and I really make sure to kudo and comment to thank the author. Fandom is never more a community than when it comes to rarepairs.

As a writer, so far I'm enjoying the experience. I feel more free because virtually nobody is watching and I can really write the thing for me, and me only. That's such a pleasure! It's really just me and my notepad, that feels great. I feel like a kid!

And about breaking in a ship tag... One of the ships I failed to find fics for the other day is Juan Borgia/Christoforo Castanea, or really Juan Borgia/any man for the show Borgia. Christoforo in himself is a tiny and unimportant character, but I'm seeing some gay subtext around Juan Borgia, and I can't believe I'm the only one! There's something about the desperate way he kisses men on the mouth especially his brother that I want studied!

Your ask inspired me, and I now have a couple of interesting ideas to explore the character's possible homosexuality/bisexuality in a fic. That would include writing about him and Christoforo and him and his brother, so I would functionally be breaking in two ship tags: Juan Borgia/Christoforo Castanea and Juan Borgia/Cesare Borgia (because Juan is an ugly duckling but he deserves to be invited to the sibling fuckfest).

Thank you so much for asking me this, Nara, I loved talking about it. And thank you for the inspiration, I'm now going to let these ideas simmer. I love you <3

[cringelordofchaos]

I had been summoned.

Im not great with explaining.

Im not sure if I wanna give away spoilers in case this person wants to watch it?

But basically, it's a Gacha webseries about the protagonist called Jake, who's been bullied in the past for his passions and interest. For years he had to act like someone he wasn't in order to please his closest friends because in reality they were all he had and he couldn't bear the thought of losing them at the time. He and his friends would bully the schools music club and Jake would do it alongside them because of peer pressure. That is until one day, he sings an edgy song on the schools rooftop and his crush catches him singing, and tells him to join the club. He then impulsively agrees with it and decides to join the club because he can't say no to his crush. He tells his friends that he's doing it just for his crush, and that he's going to leave the club once he sings in the competition, but his friends (ok only one of them who's gay for him) is sceptical of it.

As he joins the music club, he finds himself free to be himself, be passionate and happy around them and not having to hide who he is around them (sorta). He feels like home with them and even calls them his family. However one of his friends that used to peer pressure him into bullying the music club is definitely not happy about it, as he would spend more time with the club than the jomies (Jake + his homies). This also causes Jake feeling anxiety and feeling like he has to choose sides or sumth.

The series contains humor, angst, romance, friendship, rivalry, and more. While some of the characters don't get the exact treatment they deserve, all of them feel well rounded to me, and the shows writing is just good imo. There are also plenty of parallels between different characters and pairings I love to be with obsessed over (I really really like parallels in writing sometimes I accidentally try analyzing parallels in real life bc of it ). The relationship and the character's all feel imperfect and natural to me which feels like one of the shows greater strengths. The show also uses a lot of copyright-free music I wouldn't have found out existed otherwise.

Even when certain characters MIGHT feel shallow, there are plenty of headcanons and background information to make up for it, and random details and actions to base your theories on (which is why I luv Sean and random background/side characters so much).

I'll try summarizing characters in my own words as quickly as possible (this does not do justice for them btw)

Liam - vampire who has a thing for Stacy's mom. he's cool. and surprisingly emotionally mature imo??

Henry - a weird anime obsessed guy with a weird lettuce fetish of some sort lmao. canonically did lettuce-chan (fictional character in this universe) cosplays in the past. He has a meme bank and also probably jokes as a coping mechanism. simps for lia

Lia - at first seems like a pretty cliche mean girl, she literally either just agrees with whatever Zoey (nother cliche mean girl) has to say, and occasionally flirts with Jake. In reality she also suffers from peer pressure to fit in and she changed who she was in order to make friends with da popular kids IG. She left Hailey (music club member) for Zoey smh. But like the queen she is she gets a redemption arc and leaves Zoey behind cuz she doesn't need er

Zoey - cliche popular blonde mean girl who calls herself a girlboss. she's dating a college student and a gay teen her age for money and money exclusively. There's a theory that her family situation is actually pretty poor and that's why she's so desperate for money. she also mightttt have attachment issues though that's just me. She bullies milly

Milly - chaotic gremlin with anger issues who's been bullied a lot like almost everyone in this show. Canonically a multishipper. Physical embodiment of adhd

Jake - pretty insecure guy who lies often. but he does act pretty cocky often prolly to Maks lmao. prone to peer pressure and impulsive decisions. Good at flirting with everyone but his actual crush who he's incapable of having a normal conversation with

Daisy - Jakes crush. She practically seems perfect. But in reality she has to deal with a ton of pressure of extracurricular activities and her moms don't seem interested in her letting her have freedom at all. she gets embarrassed by crying in public. This girl needs freedom. She has stated it herself that she just wants something fun and free. Also she gets really excited and happy when it comes to the music club performing. Which is why in my essay I'll explain why she's a perfect fit for the music club-

Drew - Jakes jealous friend eho probably has attachment issues. And he definitely has anger issues too. Kinda manipulative but thinks HES the one being manipulated which is kinda true?? (It's complicated). He constantly tries to impress others mainly Jake with how rich his dad is and stuff. As the series goes on his mental health deteriorates more and more. Until it becomes a total breakdown. Anyway even thigh he's dating Zoey he's totally gay for Jake

Hailey - perfectionist with (social) anxiety and stage fright caused by her being bullied in the past. Passionate about music. Kinda sassy ig

Sean - chill guy who's usually in the background. Mature and relaxed and takes his time understanding others. Patient and really kind. Especially calm for someone who has parents who argue a lot. He feels like his parents aren't paying much attention to him cuz they argue so much, which is why he's probably so attentive to everyone and how they're feeling? Like idk that's just me

Luke -

Zander - anger, trust and (bio) father issues. gay AND European.

Elliot - random soft flower femboy who has a crush on Milly who likes him back. prolly autistic

Anyway there's characters I missed in kinda tired rn but yeah. ask me anything if needed

what's tmf ???

tmf stands for the music freaks:3 it's a gacha voice acted/musical series that you can watch here!! the animation gets better throughout the series imo

oh and also. @astromilo @cringelordofchaos help me out for a more in depth explanation on tmf and it's synopsis or smth 😭

[stormblessed95]

Hi!!! It’s me again. I hope your having a great day. As our resident BTSpedia I’m hoping you can tell me where to look cause I’ve been on YouTube and it didn’t help. Also this isn’t Jikook related.

I became army after the HYYH period. Everyone is extremely excited and I’m happy to be able to see it for myself. My confusion is why do they say it’s gay and they hope Yoonkook have a happy ending? I’ve watched what I can on YouTube to try and tie the moments and videos together, but I may be missing some things.

Do you happen to know why they call it this and where I may be able to get a full picture? Thank you!!!!

This is, in part, asking the impossible. Because you will likely get a different interpretation of the story with every person you ask. Plus there is so much and it's confusing no matter what. Lol So like everything else, it's best to dive into it all and draw your own conclusions. So I'll do a general overview of it all and then I'll get into why a lot of people, but especially the queer community, thinks it's gay. This is going to be an incredibly long post probably, so I apologize in advance lol. But I know I have a lot of baby armys on this blog too, so if yall are interested, hopefully this helps!

To start, it's always important to remind people that this is fictional. None of their relationships within this storyline or the things that they've gone through/did is an accurate portrayal of their real lives. Even if some things link up (like them all loving each other lots etc) they are playing characters, characters with their own names, but characters still. If we want to relate it to real life at all, the only thing we could do is possibly have an interesting discussion over the homoromantic themes BH included in this storyline full of trauma, angst, love and friendship and why they did that. Lol the general overall theme of this storyline though seems to be that SeokJin time travels in his efforts to save the other members, from outside forces and/or from themselves. As well as the overarching themes of the importance of friendships, etc.

So basically I'm going to go ahead and start this post off with a list of the videos, notes, webtoons, etc included in the hyyh BU storyline that you would need to watch/read in to get the best understanding of the story. As well as go ahead and tell you that the pairings are worth paying attention to. Which would be yoonkook, taejoon, jihope and then Jin is our main character basically. So yes, if you were just watching the videos, you definitely missed major chunks of the storyline. Also worth noting, the storyline can contain trigger warnings for violence, mental and physical abuse, suicide, suicidal thoughts, substance abuse, homicide, and parental neglect. So just make sure you are good with all that before really digging into it.

The list, including links, in order of release:

BTS Begins Concert VCR

I Need U (original 19+ MV)

HYYH On Stage Prologue Video

Run MV

I Need U Japan MV

Run Japan MV

Epilogue Young Forever MV

Short Films 1 - 7 (Begin, Lie, Stigma, First Love, Reflection, Mama, Awake)

Blood Sweat and Tears MV

Blood Sweat and Tears Japan MV

The Wings Concept Book

Testesso "Smeraldo" Flower Shop Blog

Love Yourself Poster Translations

HYYH the Notes: Seokjin Translation

Highlight Reel: '起承轉結'

HYYH the Notes: Her

Euphoria: Theme of LY Wonder

HYYH the Notes: Jungkook Translation

Fake Love Teaser 1

Fake Love Extended Edition MV

HYYH the Notes: Tear

HYYH the Notes: Seokjin Translation

Comeback Trailer: Epiphany

HYYH the Notes: Answer

Smeraldo Books Twitter Account

Save Me Webtoon (15 episodes)

HYYH the Notes Book 1

HYYH the Notes: Persona

Game Concept Trailer

HYYH the Notes: 7

HYYH the Notes Book 2

BTS Universe Story Game

Some extra context, for the Testesso Smeraldo flower shop blog, this was started and found by ARMY after Seokjin tweeted out a photo with Smeraldo Flowers a couple days before the Love Yourself Era was introduced in 2017. It's a naver blog that is run by the owner of the fictional smeraldo flower shop that Jin encounters in the storyline. The blog basically describes the history of the flower leading up to the shops opening. None of the BU characters are named in the blog, but there are lots of hints pointing towards Seokjin being the customer that is described in multiple posts. The blog also has only been active and updating recently whenever BTS is having a comeback and starting a new era. The mentioned dates of the flower shop alleged openings have always been at the same time as BTS ends up announcing for their comeback. And the Smeraldo Books Twitter account was first opened with the introduction of the Save Me Webtoon Tweet. And has since posted notes for books 1 and 2, which contained all previous notes as well as unseen and updated ones too. And something to keep in mind as you read the notes too, each album seems to be a new timeline taking place and time leaps happening. So pay attention to the dates at the top of each of the notes.

There are many many many theories out there over wtf is even happening in this storyline. But there are a few key plot points that are "canon" and the theories are built around those. Basically the story starts with the boys all meeting and becoming friends in high-school, in the fictional world year 19. We see them meet in BTS Begins VCR, they got in trouble for being late and punished by needing to clean up an old storage classroom. They ended up becoming friends and using this classroom as a hideout and that is the start of the story. They fall apart a bit as adults.

A really good general story overview and theory of the storyline is done by Xceleste, which you can watch here if you want too

So since Celeste does a good job at talking about overall story plots and theories as well as pointing out things that are confirmed facts, etc. I'll just assume we all understand what's happening in the story and just talk about what things made some people think it's gay. In particular with yoonkook. Yoongi in the BU has some pretty severe attachment issues stemming from trauma. He does not want to be emotionally attached to anyone again. We see this in the notes when he is watching JK cry while playing the paino. JK himself having issues with fear of abandonment, self harm and suicide attempts (or successes depending on what timeline you are in). JK wanted someone to love him throughout his life while Yoongi was afraid of loving someone. He thought he wouldn't be able to protect Jungkook.

"I didn't want to be important for someone. I wasn't sure I could protect that someone till the end. I wasn't confident I could stand by that someone till the end. I didn't want to hurt that someone. I didn't want to get hurt" - Yoongi, The Notes, after finding JK playing the piano.

They often ended up meeting in this storage room to play piano and create music. Yoongi sharing that part of himself with JK. Despite him not wanting to care, it's clear he does when he steps in to protect JK from a teacher when they get caught in the storage room. Yoongi ends up expelled from the school and disappears. Yoonkook don't see each other again for like another 2 years. When I say this is angsty and traumatic 😭 its giving first love you never get over vibes

Begin short film had many things burning (which is a Yoongi connection), it starts off with JK calling Hyung and has him holding a painted portrait of Yoongi as well. In Yoongis First Love short film, we see him break into a shop to play the piano again for the first time in a long time, since giving up music after he got expelled. The piano ends up burning.. In the notes, Yoongi hears his song and runs finding JK who had broken into the shop to play the piano. Them meeting again for the first time in 2 years. We see the car speed past Yoongi in First Love, and in the notes we know that it's JK playing the piano he heard before the car almost hits him in an alternate timeline.

From the Save Me Webtoon, we can assume that this meeting again after he finds JK at the piano didn't go well. Yoongi rejects JK, telling him to just go. Which ended up with Yoongi in bed alone, horribly sad and running his hand over the empty spot in bed next to him. Missing someone. Missing JK? JKs shirt is also left with Yoongi in the motel room. And in making films, Yoongi talks about how for acting in this scene, he is sad from a break up.

In other timelines both yoonkook have attempted (and in the failed timelines, they succeed) suicides. Yoongi tries to commit suicide by fire, similar to his mother. After multiple attempts to save him, Seokjin realizes that just like Yoongi was the only one who could save Jungkook from jumping off the roof, JK is the only one who can save Yoongi.

"My last sight of this world was this dirty, isolated room, the red-hot flames and rolling heat, and JK's twisted face." - Yoongi, the notes, after he sets fire to his room and JK saves him

In the highlight reels after JKs car accident, he seems to make a friend to help him through his recovery in another girl at the hospital, but thinks of Yoongi often. Yoongi seems to have tried moving on, but not very well. He is either in a relationship with or good friends with another girl, but never seems super happy there. His breaking point being when he got a text about JK being in an accident but couldn't bring himself to go into his hospital room. Hoesok even bringing up that he should go see JK, "don't you know what you mean to him?" Being the exact quote he used that we see in the notes. Yoongi struggling to go see him because he felt that anyone close to him was bound to be hurt. When the girl Yoongi was with ends up playing at the hospital, JK recognized the music as the song he used to play with Yoongi in the storage room, and his lighter with Yoongi's initials hanging on her guitar. All his flashbacks were the softest scenes, honestly. And JK seemed to think of them so fondly. And in the behind the scenes that was filmed for those flashbacks, they were very awkward talking about the scenes they filmed and kept reiterating that it's not them in real life. Lmao which really lends to the theory they were playing boyfriends and knew the romantic undertones in these scenes playing out and what it looked like. "Complaining that they had to act like good friends" yes editors, "good friends." 🤣😅 The clip here:

Essentially with yoonkook, it was a lot of moments interlaced within their story and the way they talked to each other/about each other that really made it clear they were VERY important to each other, more so than the relationships they had within the group setting, which those were clearly important enough to time travel for. Lol the way their story interconnects in so many little ways with romantic undertones through all the interactions. A lot of people theorized that the piano in some ways represented JK in this storyline for Yoongi, making JK his first love as well along with music. The piano played when JK is around and stopped when he got into his accident. Yoongi getting up early with JK at the sea before everyone else to sit with arms around each other, smiling and gazing out to sea. JK giving Yoongi flowers in the Euphoria timeline video. They fight in Run over Yoongi breaking a promise to JK, theorized that the promise was to live. Resulting in Yoongi smashing a mirror with Blue Roses in its reflection, which is a flower that symbolizes unattainable love.

This is already insanely long, the main or most obvious "couple" in the BU was clearly yoonkook, but I think that there is a good argument to be made that Jihope and TaeJoon were also or had the potential to be more than just friends. Yoonkook is canon though, argue with the wall 😂

In high-school, Hoseok would walk Jimin home all the time, even though it was a really long way out of his way. They would dance together. We see videos of Jimin filming Hobi with the fondest smile on his face while he dances. He filmed Hobis dance partner too, which we learn is because Jimin wanted to be the perfect dance partner for Hoseok one day. Hoseok was also the one who took Jimin to the hospital the first time after his seizure before they didn't see each other again for 2 years. When they were both in the hospital, Hoseok slipped on the stairs and Jimin saves him. In both their short story films (Lie and Mama) we see similar situations and connections between the hospitals. We see Jimin continually look to the bed next to him, where Hoseok used to be, missing him. We see in Euphoria how Hoseok brings everyone together to help encourage Jimin to leave with them, to save Jimin from himself. Taking Jimin back home to stay at his house too. We even get in the behind the scenes for some of this footage of them in the hospital, when pretending to be in character during the scene where Jimin saves Jhope on the stairs, he calls Jhope "honey."

Plus we are getting quotes like during Hoseoks efforts to help Jimin in the hospital and help him escape.

"He reached for my hand..."

"Jimin, I'll come back for you"

"Hoseok said he would carry you on his back if he could"

And while Hoseok was watching Jimin dancing, he said "mistakes I saw during the practice approached me differently now. The small mistakes and amateurishness actually gave a unique wave. Jimin was different from me but he had his own timing, his own style of expressing. Jimin was shining and dancing in a way that moves people's hearts."

I'm just saying, they were very "I love you, let's live for each other" type of vibes.

Hyyh TaeJoon were basically the "be gay do crime" definition. Lol the tension in that loaded look between them as they got arrested. Like WOW okay. Plus, when Tae needed help, Namjoon was the first and only person he called. And always continues to think to call him first whenever he is in trouble. Literally placing all his faith and trust into Namjoon for a lot of things. Tae seemed to be one of the first to split off on his own. He found a new criminal friend, Namjoon seemed to have an interest in another girl for a while, but a lot seemed to stem from finding similarities of himself in her. They reconnected again in jail or in regards to being arrested (be gay do crime) later in the various timelines and quickly seem to be close again. We see similarities in their short Films as well, with the phone connections. Things or places or themselves being locked up/unreachable. We also see a lot of mirrored images through the MVs of moments that Taejoon were in together, to Tae being in alone. Alluding to feelings of lose and loneliness as well. Always again, saving each other. Looking out for each other, spending time together.

And we get quotes like this from Namjoon about Tae:

"And I asked myself: Do I believe Taehyung? And the answer was always the same."

"I feel like I'm losing my mind whenever I see him smile like that"

And from Tae about Namjoon:

"Can I stay here with you?"

"He held out his hand. I just kept looking up at him. His hand was warm."

Plus then we have the behinds where they say the scene they are filming is romantic and they are on a date, with Joon laying on Tae's arm 😅😂 idk what else to say about that. Lmfao

Basically HYYH BU is angsty trauma filled depression, queer youth found family with pillow fights, all the elements, and lots of flannel. And trauma. Trauma should be in this list 8 times. So much yearning and angst and hurt and trauma 😭 and now with Yet to Come being tagged "the most beautiful moment in life" aka HYYH, people are speculating that maybe we will finally get a conclusion to the BU storyline and everyone just wants a happy ending please. Lol there is honestly a lot more we could dig into to talk about symbolism and different motifs used. And all the potential queer coding happening, intentional or accidental. I know I definitely focused mostly on yoonkook here, but they really had the most going on. Like for real and the most angsty yearning codependency while being avoidant tendencies. Lol

Again, this is ALL FICTIONAL. THEY ARE ACTING AND PLAYING CHARACTERS. Lol please don't take any of this and translate it into real life relationships or scenarios. And again, this is mostly all theory too. So you can also go through and read all the stories (the notes books are still available for purchase on weverse) and decide for yourself what you think is happening. And it's okay to be confused. I'm still a little confused honestly too. Lol thanks for the ask. Sorry this is a whole ass essay and it took me so long! 💜

[seidenbros]

I See Your True Colours Ch. 2

Requests are open | prompt lists for inspiration | Stranger Things Masterlist

Summary:“Is that… my shirt?” Eddie asked, a little confused. With Eddie awake now, everyone is a little more at ease. Still, Steve can't find sleep in his own home, not when he's alone. He still has to make sure that Eddie is alive, that he'd breathing, and so he does what he's done the last couple of weeks, and spends the night in Eddie's room. He's there when Eddie wakes from his first nightmare Who else than Wayne Munson is the one to ask Eddie about what is going on between him and Steve? Pairing: Eddie Munson x Steve Harrington - Steddie Word count: 3213 Warning/Tags: fluff, angst, canon divergence, everybody lives, nightmares,bisexual Steve Harrington, gay Eddie Munson, supportive Wayne Munson, end of and after S4 (let me know if I missed anything) Author’s note: Second chapter in 2 days, but I'll take more time with the others. I just thought this was necessary to get a better glimpse of where this is going - and I love the interaction between Eddie and Wayne Read on AO3 Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7

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It's hard to take courage

“You look like shit,” Dustin remarked as soon as they were in Eddie’s room, trying his best to not let the emotions overwhelm him, but they did. And so, Eddie found himself beneath Dustin, who’d all but thrown himself at the older one.

“Easy there, my body is a mess.” Eddie chuckled, but he endured the pain, because having Dustin in his arms, seeing that he was doing alright, made the pain ease a little bit.

“Yeah, they tore you apart, but the doctors say that you’re healing well.” Slowly, Dustin got up again and pulled a chair close so that he could sit down. Steve stood next to him, wearing a shirt that looked way too familiar.

“Is that… my shirt?” Eddie asked, a little confused. It wasn’t Steve’s usual style, and he highly doubted that Harrington was listening to Iron Maiden.

“Yeah Steve needed a shower and a new shirt, so we gave him one of yours.”

“Hope that’s alright…” Steve looked a little sheepish, because he actually enjoyed wearing Eddie’s clothes. They fit well, and they made him feel close to Eddie even when he wasn’t here in the hospital. It was a weird feeling, but a nice one as well.

“Yeah. It looks good on you. A little unusual but good.” There was a moment of silence between them until Eddie cleared his throat, thinking back on what Dustin had just said. “Wait, what are my clothes doing at your house?”

They hadn’t been able to break the news to him so far, and it looked like Wayne hadn’t talked about it as well while Steve had been gone. Dustin and Steve exchanged glances, but then Dustin explained it to him.

“You’re staying with me. Wayne and you. Your trailer… it was torn apart.” He gave Eddie a moment to digest the fact that he’d lost the place he’d been calling his home for the last ten years. While it hadn’t been a traditional home for most people it was the only real home Eddie had known. “Wayne got everything out that was still intact. Your clothes, tapes, some of his mugs.”

“And your guitar,” Steve added, because he knew that it was Eddie’s most prized possession.

“Oh thank God.” Relief washed over Eddie, and he was able to breathe again. Yes, losing his home was bad, but there were just some things that he couldn’t lose that held value for him, and while the guitar wasn’t a cheap one, it meant so much to him, because Wayne had gotten it for him as a present.

“Thank you, Dustin.” For letting them stay with him even though Eddie was still here. But they’d given Wayne a place to live, people to be around, and that meant a lot.

“My Mum agreed straight away. She knows that you protected me, and she actually likes having Wayne around. One more person to fuss over.” Dustin couldn’t help but grin. It was nice to see his Mum this happy, see her get out a bit. She enjoyed making food for more than just the two of them, and Wayne was always so grateful and polite, that Dustin’s mother even got a little flustered here and there.

“Thanks for taking care of him.” Because as much as Wayne Munson was doing fine on his own, always had, it was good for him to have someone around, who would make sure that he ate enough and got enough sleep. He was pretty sure that Mrs Henderson was doing a fine job of that.

Dustin nodded with a smile. He knew that both adults were helping each other, and he wasn’t the only one his mother kept an eye on. Having Wayne around actually gave him a little bit of leeway, and he didn’t have his mother’s eyes on him twenty-four/seven. “How long do you have to stay here?”

“Depends.” Eddie scratched the back of his neck, wanting to get out of here as soon as possible. They were taking great care of him, so he couldn’t complain, but he wanted to get out, get some fresh air, wear his own clothes again. Be himself. “They want to do some more tests tomorrow, and when I pass them all, I’ll be able to leave in two days. Just need to get my bandages changed every day until I won’t need them anymore.”

“So you have to come back here for that?” Dustin scrunched up his nose. He’d rather take Eddie home right now, get him out of here, but that seemed to be out of the question.

“I could help with that.” Steve looked at both of them and shrugged his shoulders when they gave him a questioning look. “I’ve got experience with these kinds of injuries.” Injuries that matched Eddie’s but were smaller. He’d taken care of them himself, because he’d acquired the knowledge a long time ago. It wasn’t the first time that he’d had to patch himself up. “Only if you want though.” He didn’t want to impose on Eddie, just offer his help.

“Are you kidding?” Eddie started grinning, even if it strained the healing skin on his jaw. “I’d rather let you do that instead of coming back here every day.” The sooner he could say goodbye to the hospital the better, and he wasn’t keen on coming back. He knew that he’d have to come in for a general check-up, but that would only be due in a week or two, he didn’t know yet.

“Then you can tell them that you’ll have your personal nurse.”

“OH, so you’re gonna wear a nice outfit as well?”

“In your dreams, Munson.”

While they were joking, and it felt good to see Eddie slowly becoming himself again, Steve couldn’t deny that his heart was beating faster again because of the way Eddie looked at him. That glint in his eyes, that mischievous grin… it made Steve smile to himself.

They stayed until Eddie was served his dinner, then they said their goodbyes, because Dustin was supposed to be home for dinner as well - and Steve was invited along with him, so that he got some real food. Wayne had talked to Claudia about him, so they’d made sure to have him around as much as possible, when he wasn’t spending time with Eddie in the hospital.

And that was what he did after dinner. Eating properly hadn’t been easy for him the first days, but ever since Claudia has asked him to stay or come over for breakfast, dinner, whatever, he’d gotten some proper meals, and now that Eddie was awake, Steve had even developed an appetite again. Still, sleeping was the other problem, which was why he’d been driving around town for some time, before he’d driven to the hospital again.

It was close to midnight by now, when he found himself in the parking lot. It was different now that Eddie was awake, and Steve knew that he was doing alright. Still, he needed to make sure that nothing would happen, because he wouldn’t be able to sleep otherwise.

He gave a little wave to the night nurse, who only smiled at him. She knew that Steve wouldn’t cause a racket here in the middle of the night, so she let him through. He’d behaved so well all these weeks, that she really didn’t have to throw him out.

As quietly as possible, Steve opened the door, slipped inside, and closed the door again. The room was only illuminated by the small lights close to the floor that were turned on for safety reasons. Eddie was sleeping in his bed, dark curls framing his face. He was here, he was okay, and he’d be able to go home soon. All that put Steve’s mind at ease, but he still stayed. Because he knew that he wouldn’t be able to fall asleep at home in his own bed anyway. It was too quiet, too dark, too lonely, so that all the memories came flooding back, no matter if he was awake or asleep. Taking care of someone else, watching out for them gave him something to do.

His attention was drawn towards Eddie again, when he heard the bedsheets rustle. Eddie began tossing in his sleep, his face contorted, but Steve couldn’t make out what he was mumbling to himself, so he stepped closer.

“Steve… Dustin… no!” quiet words that came over Eddie’s lips. His hands grabbed the sheet beneath him and it looked like he was in pain. Nightmares, Steve realised, because he went through the same again and again.

He leaned over Eddie, gently put one hand over Eddie’s, placed the other on his forehead. He felt a little hot,  but maybe that was just Steve’s imagination. He was hoping that his touch would calm Eddie down a little bit, and it worked for a few seconds, but then he started again, whispering nonono over and over again, and Steve couldn’t bear it.

“Eddie you’re safe,” he said quietly, trying to calm Eddie down. He gently shook the other one’s shoulders, trying to wake him up, because when he couldn’t calm him in his sleep, he needed to stop the nightmare in a different way. “Eddie, wake up! It’s alright. You’re safe here!”

Eddie’s eyes opened with a start, his hand grabbed ahold of Steve’s and for a moment, he simply stared up at him in panic.

“Steve,” he whispered before he sat up and wrapped his arms around Steve’s neck, pulling him close. For a moment, Steve remained unmoving, but then he carefully put his own hands on Eddie’s back. “I thought you…” Eddie couldn’t finish the sentence, but he didn’t need to.

“I’m right here. Nothing happened to me.” Steve ran his hands over the back of Eddie’s head, through his hair, down his back, repeated that movement, until he felt Eddie relax in his arms.

Slowly, he pulled back a little bit, but reached for Eddie’s hands so that he could hold them, show him that he was still there and not a figment of Eddie’s imagination. Steve had needed that as well, when he’d woken up here. Then he’d walked up to the bed and touched his fingertips to Eddie’s hand, making sure that he was really lying there.

“I’m… sorry, I just…” Eddie tried to explain, but shook his head, not finding the right words.

“Nightmares,” Steve provided, nodding his head. So far, Eddie hadn’t had to deal with this, but now that he’d woken up, all these pictures were there. Maybe, he hadn’t been bothered by them because he’d been in the world of Tolkien, because Steve had read to him.

“I have them as well.” Steve swallowed hard, looked down at their joined hands. Eddie gave him a gentle squeeze.

“I didn’t have them when I was…” Eddie let go of one of Steve’s hands and made a gesture, not even wanting to finish that sentence, because all of it felt so surreal. “I was in the Shire… Because you read to me. You guided me in my dreams.”

Eddie felt his own heart pick up its pace at that moment. Steve had really done so much for him without even knowing it. Something in the air shifted when Steve’s lips curled up into a smile, and Eddie found himself staring at them. Steve had been on his mind even before he’d woken up again, had left quite the impression, but now even more so, and it made his skin start to tingle from where their hands were touching.

“Yeah, they told us that you might hear us, and since I wanted to read the books anyway, I thought I could read them to you. Dustin said they’re your favourite books and I thought maybe they’d help.”

“They did. More than you know.” A soft smile was playing on Eddie’s lips when Steve looked back at him. For a moment, there was silence between them, but it wasn’t an awkward silence. No, they both rather enjoyed it. Eddie couldn’t keep his hands still though, and started rubbing circles with his thumb into the back of Steve’s hand, who didn’t pull away. It was a nice feeling, he had to admit, but he wasn’t here to hold hands with Eddie Munson, was he?

“You need some sleep, Eddie.” he eventually said, still not breaking away from Eddie, from the bed. Instead, he kept his hand interlaced with Eddie’s and reached for the book with the other hand. “I’ll read you some more, as long as you promise not to laugh.”

“Promise!” As if Eddie would ever laugh at Steve in a situation like this. Maybe he’d mock Harrington a little once they were out of the hospital, but all in good fun. Right now, he was rather happy that Steve was staying here, reading to him. Because with Steve by his side, he felt a lot more at ease and was able to fall asleep in no time, Steve’s voice in his ear, still holding his hand. He felt safe, loved.

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When Wayne Munson went to the hospital the next morning to have breakfast with his nephew before he could hopefully take him home, he found Steve Harrington there again. Not in a chair across the room this time, but right next to Eddie’s bed. Their hands were intertwined and Steve’s head was lying on Eddie’s thigh, the book right next to him. He must have fallen asleep reading to Eddie again.

“Hey…” Eddie whispered quietly, when he realised that he wasn’t alone with Steve anymore. He’d been awake for half an hour maybe, but he’d stayed as quiet as possible because he didn’t want to wake Steve. He looked so peaceful, just a little uncomfortable maybe.

“I see he read to you again.” Wayne couldn’t help but smile at the picture before him. He’d had a lot of time to talk to Steve, and he was glad to see him here. He was always welcome at the Henderson house, and if he was here, that meant that he was at least not alone. Wayne didn’t know Steve’s parents, and he hoped that he’d never meet them. They were probably not bad people, but they’d screwed up their relationship with their son and continued to do so.

“Yeah… helped me fall asleep.”

“He’s a good one.”

“He really is,” Eddie admitted. He’d said it before to Steve, when he’d hardly believed it himself, because Steve always seemed like he had it all, so of course, he had to be a douche. But he wasn’t. In the time they’d spent together - even if it had been really eventful and full of hiding Eddie from everyone else - he’d come to realise just what a good person Steve was. He was always there for his friends, put their well-being first, made sure nothing happened to them as best as he could. As much as he complained about being some kind of babysitter, he filled his role perfectly and took such great care of everyone around him, but didn’t really have anyone to look out for him. Eddie admired him for that, for the love and compassion he showed to the kids especially, but Steve also made him want to wrap him in a blanket and take care of him for a change.

“Let’s give him a few more minutes.”

And while Eddie wanted to grant him that, Steve woke up, slowly raised his head, and needed a moment to realise where he was. While he sat up straight, he let go of Eddie’s hand, rubbed both of his hands across his face.

“Mornin’,” he croaked, looking from Eddie up to Wayne. “Sorry… Must’ve fallen asleep.”

“No need to apologise, son.” Wayne patted his shoulder. “You know you’re always welcome.”

Eddie's heart warmed at seeing the interaction, the soft smile that appeared on Steve’s lips because of Wayne’s words.

“I should probably get going anyway.” Steve got up from his chair, but left it right there to offer it to Wayne.

“But you’ll come over for dinner, right? Claudia insists.” She’d reminded Wayne before he’d left for the hospital.

“Of course. Wouldn’t miss it for the world.” His eyes landed on Eddie again, a chaste smile on his lips. “See you later, Munson.” After all, he was sure that Eddie would get out today, which was all the more reason not to miss out on dinner with them.

“Yeah… see you,” Eddie called after him, but the door was already closed. He let out a sigh, reached for the book and closed it, put it aside to the other two Steve had already read to him.

“So…” Wayne said, sitting down next to Eddie’s bed. “What’s that between you two?”

For a moment, Eddie was at a loss for words. Wayne knew him too well, to not have picked up on the way Eddie had looked at Steve. Then again, Wayne was the one person Eddie had always talked to, so it was probably only natural that he’d realised how Eddie felt.

Years ago, Eddie had been so confused, so scared to talk about how he felt, whom he felt drawn to, but in the end, he’d opened up to Wayne. He was the only real father figure, he knew, and he hadn’t wanted to lose him, hadn’t wanted Wayne to kick him out if he knew, because that was what his real parents would’ve done. Not Wayne Munson, though, no, he’d always supported Eddie, and when he’d told Wayne that he liked guys, he’d simply opened his arms for Eddie and had told him that it was okay. There would always be people out there, who didn’t understand him, who didn’t even try to do so, who’d hate him for whom he loved, but Wayne wasn’t one of them. It’s okay, son, he’d said to Eddie and he’d immediately believed his uncle.

After opening up to Wayne, it had been easier. Some people knew, like his bandmates or Dustin, but not everyone. When someone asked him, he gave an honest answer, because by now, he wasn’t afraid anymore, but he doubted that Steve knew.

“Honestly… I don’t know,” Eddie answered with a sigh. “I have no idea what he feels or thinks, just…” He shrugged his shoulders, a little confused right now. There had been moments between them. Looks that lingered a little too long, the hand holding last night, gentle touches here and there… But maybe, that was just his imagination.

“What about you?”

“Do you really have to ask?” Eddie quirked an eyebrow at his uncle which was followed by a long, drawn-out sigh. Opening his heart for someone had never been easy for Eddie. Wayne was the first person who’d shown him love without wanting anything in return. In his life, he’d had one short-lived relationship, but apart from that, nothing serious. He was longing for it, to love and be loved in return, but letting that guard down was hard. Steve had managed to tear his walls down in a matter of days - leaving out the three weeks he hadn’t been conscious. It scared him on the one hand, but on the other, he simply enjoyed being in Steve’s presence.

Let me know if you want to be tagged for the Promises-series, Eddie x Reader stuff in general or Steddie-fics 💚 

[dribs-and-drabbles]

reveal your watch & rewatch drama list

I got tagged by the wonderful @jemmo so thank you my lovely!

Currently watching (in order of enjoyment):

The Eclipse: It's only been one ep so far but what a good first ep! As @jemmo said: "confident rebel gay meets uptight golden-boy gay panic in a enemies to lovers plot shrouded in supernatural mystery and system oppression. sign me the fuck up." It hooked me and reeled me in and now has me in a chokehold already. First, Khaotung, Neo and Louis...my heart can't take it. Well, it can and it's gonna. I'm not saying it could reach BB levels of brain rot fever...but it might come close.

Love Mechanics: Oh I just love my messy gays/bis. Oh the angst. Oh the pining. Oh just everything. (Yes, there are some elements of the storyline that I could do without but I'm turning a blind eye because I love the rest). This show is like bathing in a tub of lemon sorbet on a freaking hot day - it feels damn good, it might even taste amazing, but it's gonna leave a mess, and might end up in places where sorbet perhaps shouldn't be.

Vice Versa: This show has moved through one of the storylines quicker than I expected, so now it feels a bit 'plotless' since they're not making as much of the alternative universe element as they probably could have...but I just adore Jimmy and Sea (and we get Neo again!) and all the others, and I'm hoping this will continue to be as good as it's been so far. I'm also doing a colour analysis of each ep, hoping that they might have been attaching meaning to some colours, but I think they're just using them creatively in their design - I still love the detailing though!

My Secret Love: I love the ost. Love it. I wish the show could be as good as the ost. But the show itself isn't bad...just, it could have been better. The actors are fine, the couple dynamics are sweet, but I could have done without the 'I will sacrifice our love to make sure you don't sacrifice your career and in the process break your heart as well as mine' break-up - they could have just talked about it and found a resolution without the pain...but whatever. It's the last ep on Saturday, so I'm sure we'll get a HEA for all.

21 Days Theory: I started this because some people were gushing about it but I'm not really into it. I don't like the foundation of the couple - the way one started off by bullying and teasing the other like the outdated 'if a boy pulls your pigtails it means he likes you' bullcrap. Right now, I don't think Q should end up with X. I don't think X deserves to have Q fall for him. Even with my rose tinted bl glasses on, I don't think this is romance...but if it's really only four episodes then I'll finish watching to see if it gets better.

Coffee Melody: I watched the first two eps and then I haven't really gotten around to watching anymore. It's quite slow and, dare I say it, a bit boring. I want to like it, and maybe I will continue at some point, but it didn't grab me and I don't have much time at the moment, so I'd rather use that time in other ways.

Starting soon:

I might try out My Only 12%...and isn't there a MAME one starting on Friday? (just shows how much time I have to pay attention!)...but other than that I don't think there's anything else on the horizon.

I've tagged a lot of people recently in stuff so I'll keep this short... @athousandbyeol @shortpplfedup @tipsyjaehyun @tachineko if you wanna do it, if not, no worries!

[the-golden-comet]

Thank you for tagging me, @gioiaalbanoart, @addicted2coke-theothercoke , and @wyked-ao3 !! Always wonderful to see you and interact with you two, and I’ll take you up on that drink offer. Cheers, mate! 🍻🍻🍻 💛✨

Going to put my answers below the cut for condensing 💫

1. Is writing a hobby or way of life?

A little of both. I write as a hobby, which has given me lots of time to do my other fun activities and keeps my motivation high 💖✨

2. A journal full of writing notes or a complete manuscript?

Writing notes 1000%. If you’ve seen my planning docs you’d think red-string-theory is at play 😂

3. Who (or what) is your writing inspiration?

Disney animated classics. I love the “Disney but adult” approach for my entire style ✨

4.Which is worse: someone you "idolize" reading your first draft or listening to you sing?

Singing, hands down 🤣

5. Has writing from someone else's POV ever changed your own perspective?

Changed? I’m not sure. But it’s given me more a well-rounded approach to my writing 💛✨

6. Tumblr, AO3, LiveJournal, or FFN?

AO3. That’s how I got acquainted with all of my mutuals and their stories. It’s a wonderful community ✨

7. AO3 wordcount, and are you satisfied with it?

I believe I was approaching 300k last I checked, but it doesn’t matter because I have three stories on there. I write novels 🤣

8. What movie/book/fic gripped you irrevocably?

God, that’s a tough one. I love all the Disney films, but one that has shaped my style has got to be The Emperor’s New Groove.

Fics: so many to mention. So, so many. As well as @gioiaalbanoart ‘a Lights and shadows on a golden road and @wyked-ao3 ‘s Tuesday event or is it , I made a list here of authors whose works have really wowed me 💛✨

9. What’s the highest compliment you’ve ever been given, and have you been given it?

Anything from @gioiaalbanoart , @alinacapellabooks , @sunglasses-in-the-bentley , and @wyked-ao3 on my AO3 and Goodreads has been phenomenal and have made me tear up on more than one occasion. A few examples of their kind words:

“I would invent a whole new language for the sole purpose to expressing how much I loved this story, because this one doesn't have enough words for me to.

I rode the highs and lows like I was there.

I cheered on the heroes and booed the villains.

I cried at the tragedies and grinned at the triumphs.

I really, really, really, really, really, cannot say enough about this.

If I could stand in front of you right now, I'd hug you until the world ended.

This was a transformative experience.” —Jay aka @sunglasses-in-the-bentley

I have loved every part of this even the heartbreaking parts. Your fics are always a blast to read. :)”—Wyked aka @wyked-ao3

“The highlight of the book for me was by far the focus on the bonds between the crewmen of The Golden Phoenix. The book had a big cast, but all of the characters had unique personalities which shined through, and no one felt unnecessary or out of place. I especially liked Benji, and I always found myself either laughing at him or pitying him in his attempts to survive at sea among his captors. He was such a cutie pie and I wanted nothing but the best for him ^o^”—Alina aka @alinacapellabooks

“I miss them already 😭😭😭😭😭

No way I'll read Peter Hart just once”—Gioia aka @gioiaalbanoart

I have a whole plethora of amazing comments stored in my phone from my readers, and I appreciate each and every single one of them 💛✨

10. What defines your writing style?

Comedy, romance, absurdism, dialogue, action, fluff/angst/smut, fantasy adventures, high and low fantasies, and Big Gay Love Stories ✨

Thank you so much again! I will tag (very gently, no pressure): @fortunatetragedy , @autism-purgatory , @jev-urisk , @honeybewrites , @writeahurricane , @drchenquill , @agirlandherquill , @paeliae-occasionally , @nczaversnick , @mysticstarlightduck , @ominous-feychild , @noxxytocin , @justabigoldnerd , @pippinoftheshire , @astramachina , @sableglass , @cowboybrunch , @saturnine-saturneight , @words-after-midnight , @coffeewritesfiction , @houseplantblank , @billybatsonmylove , @madi-konrad , @brigidfromthecelts , @avaseofpeonies , @fractured-shield , @theink-stainedfolk , @willtheweaver , @glasshouses-and-stones , @willowseed , @sentfromwolves , @finickyfelix , @kaylinalexanderbooks , @katenewmanwrites , @dyrewrites , +open tag ✨

20 Questions for 20 Writers

Tagged by: @howtodrawyourdragon. Thank you!

1. Is writing a hobby or way of life?

100% a way of life. It kind of has been since I was a child. I was sick all the time and had story ideas, so I started writing them down when I was too sick to go to school. I got bored of just reading and wanted to make my own.

2. A journal full of writing notes or a clean, completed manuscript?

Well, currently I have folders upon folders of notes for my fantasy novel, but obviously I would like a clean, completed manuscript at some point. The entire work is 28k words at the moment.

3. Who (or what) is your writing inspiration?

My special interests for sure. Obviously How to Train Your Dragon, but when I get into something, I really get into it. Lol, one could say autism is my writing inspiration.

4.Which is worse: someone you "idolize" reading your first draft or listening to you sing?

Probably someone I idolize reading my first draft. I'm getting a lot better at receiving rejection and critique but it's still very hard for me. I had a good singing voice before I had covid. (The band teacher and the chorus teacher in high school would fight over who got to have me. I chose band.) Covid has absolutely wrecked my singing voice, but I think I can get it back with practice. So yeah, I'll take someone listening to me sing over reading my first draft.

5. Has writing from someone else's POV ever changed your own perspective?

I don't think so, no.

6. Tumblr, AO3, LiveJournal, or FFN?

Ao3. One time ao3 logged me out and I was like: "What are you doing? I live here!" I do have fics on tumblr that have over 100 notes and I have no clue how that happened, especially when I look at interaction now. Interaction and fandom as a community are just dying on this website. Oh, and fanfiction.net was so horrible that I deleted all my stories from there and never looked back.

7. AO3 wordcount, and are you satisfied with it?

3,125,805. I'm more than satisfied. I'm stunned. And for some reason self conscious? I've had people call me crazy for writing so much fanfic, especially for the same fandom, and it just hurts, because this is my passion. What did you think I was going to do? Hit 1 million words and stop writing? No fucking way.

8. What movie/book/fic gripped you irrevocably?

Movies and shows: How to Train Your Dragon, Good Omens, Teen Wolf

Books: Hard to say because I only really recently got back into reading. I haven't written fanfic for a book since I wrote a single Captive Prince fic. Oh man, Captive Prince was so good. Thank you pro censorship people for recommending it! (People got so mad about it and the themes in it that I decided I had to read it. So worth it.)

Fics: I'm so, so gripped by @lifblogs Bad Batch fic: Brother, Hold Me Up. That thing is an absolute work of art.

9. What's the highest compliment you could ever be given, and have you been given it?

I think the highest compliment I got was someone reading Infernal Fascination of all things with their book club. Like, this person would give me updates about what was said during meetings and they just devoured it. It was awesome.

10. What defines your writing style?

Visceral description and poetic prose. I like to think.

Tagging @wyked-ao3 @the-bar-sinister