#but then stuff happened that made her lose her confidence i think and she moved abroad and met that guy

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hi! i was wondering if you could write how HL characters would act when they are jealous

Yes! Also, I'll add how these characters wind up confessing to their crush! 👍

Characters: Sebastian, Garreth, Ominis, Poppy, & Leander

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Sebastian Sallow

Let's be fr..this guy gets jealous INSANELY easily in canon, even when platonically speaking.

It's hard to pinpoint where he exactly started catching feelings for you, but he certainly fell for you fast after your adventure into the library's restricted section.

Unfortunately, because of your growing reputation as a "hero" around Hogwarts, Hogsmede, and other hamlets...you've have strangers and students alike often come up to you and interrupt your conversations with Sebastian.

They mean well, only showing up to compliment you or thank you for some favor you've done for them.

But still it puts him in an sour mood, especially if he's unable to do anything about it without coming off as a prissy Slytherin.

During classes, he feels 10x worse if he's not partnered with you and instead sees you with classmates he views as "competition"...like Garreth, Leander, or even Amit, scowling at them in envy and unable to focus unless the professor specifically calls him out on it.

The only exception is Ominis, since he's a trusted friend and damn well knew his crush on you (he has certainly used this as blackmail to stop him from doing stupid stuff) but Sebastian will still huff about how "close" you two are growing.

Sometimes his jealousy gets so bad he needs to go blow off some steam in the Undercroft, casting damage spells on whatever poor dummy, pillar, or knight armor happened to be in his way.

It's nothing that Repairo couldn't fix.

While your assistance in his quest to find a cure for Anne was extremely important to him, that's not the only reason he brings you along for the ride.

He genuinely enjoys your company, and it's his chance to actually be alone with you and talk without any rude interruptions.

Well...there's trolls, rankrok's loyalists, spiders, ashwinders, Inferi, etc....but none of them are annoying students who try to hog all your attention just to spite him.

Aside from Ominis, Anne keeps encouraging her twin brother to make some move if he's that jealous (which Sebastian repeatedly denies).

Sooner or later...he may lose that chance, and he fears this. But he never knew when the moment would come..

Then one night, you were both fighting poachers and their leader, an Animagus, insulted him so horribly that it made his confident expression drop for a moment--as did his Protego shield.

You didn't hear what she said exactly, but his devastated face told you enough and you were pissed.

So you rained down a torrent of ancient magic lightning before she can even think of transforming.

Sebastian could only watch as you smite her like some furious god unleashing your wrath on the world, finding you both badass and ethereal.

When it's all over, you rushed to his side and ask if he's okay--but he just kisses you right there and then, silencing you.

He's so sick of waiting.

Garreth Weasley

His jealousy is nowhere near as bad as Sebastian's...but it's still there. Just subtle.

He pouts a lot when somebody steals your attention away, and he tries way too hard to impress you with whatever brilliant potion concept he drafted up (and definitely didn't have approval to brew in class under any circumstances).

Speaking of which, you're his usual partner in potions class, so he'll be highly disappointed if Professor Sharp decides to pair you with somebody else that day.

Garreth feels this sting in his heart if he overhears you praising them for their perfect brew, while he stares into his bubbling cauldron and sulks, wondering what he could've done differently.

He didn't know how you truly felt about him, so he got the genius idea to cook up a love potion the day you had a substitute for class (he sat at the furthest station and had secretly gathered the ingredients beforehand).

Just as you were about to try it for yourself, he accidentally knocked an incompatible ingredient into the pot and caused its contents to explode, staining both of your robes in pink.

While everybody laughed, the sub made the stains vanish with some magic and decided to dismiss class early, making you two stay behind to clean up the mess.

Luckily only house points were deducted due to your actions, so you won't be getting detention for this.

Still...Garreth was quite upset and you could tell.

You reassure him you're not mad in the slightest, and that you knew exactly what he was trying to do (followed by a small wink before continuing your cleanup).

His face turned as red as a maxima potion, and when he returns to the Gryffindor common room for the night, he gets confused stares from his fellow housemates as they wonder what's gotten into him.

But he can't stop thinking about you.

Maybe you ingested droplets of the love potion after it exploded, since you did seem particularly flirtatious with him in that moment and knew his intentions.

Looks like he got his wish after all.

Now to ask you out properly..

Ominis Gaunt

He's not an easily jealous guy. He'll never get angry at other people for simply wanting to spend time with you or if you're partners with them in class.

You've made a name for yourself at Hogwarts, and while he doesn't always agree with the dangerous stuff you get involved with, he only expects people to look up to you and pull your attention away from him.

Though deep down, it kinda hurts...especially since quite a handful of students from other houses perceive him as someone you shouldn't be around (some Gryffindors with "holier than thou" personalities even had the guts to say you're better off without him when he's standing right there).

Being a Gaunt + a Slytherin had that effect, unfortunately...

But he's sick of hearing that all the time.

Anyone else would've snapped at whoever criticized them based on blood status or rudely interrupted a conversation they're clearly having with you.

Yet when he does it..suddenly he's the bad guy?

It never made sense.

So any jealous feelings Ominis has stem from his own insecurities, and they grow even worse the more he realizes he's in love with you..

Like Sebastian, he'd probably storm off to the Undercroft to calm down if he's feeling heavily upset.

Fortunately, you're quick to defend him and decline other people's advances, saying you'd much rather hang out with him.

When you nearly got into a wand duel/fistfight over something insulting they said about him, that's when he realizes you cared about him as more than a friend...

Though he wanted to test the waters, so to speak, before hyping himself up to confess to you.

So throughout the week, Ominis expressed subtle desires to be in closer proximity to you (which you were fine with despite being initially confused at his sudden change in behavior)

These are, but not limited to, linking arms while walking in the hallways, napping beside you while you were reading or petting a random cat, "accidentally" falling asleep on your shoulder in History of Magic, and letting you guide him through assignments in herbology and potions class so he took the correct measurements (his grades improved, which is always a plus).

It takes a little bit of encouragement from Sebastian, but by the week's end, he courts you in one of his favorite spots outside the castle, gathering flowers, candles, and everything.

You truly made him feel loved..and he was going to do his best to reciprocate that.

How he wishes he could see the looks on those Gryffindor preps' faces when they realize the "hero of Hogwarts" is his date.

Poppy Sweeting

Considering how little she spoke to other students, even ones from her own house, this Hufflepuff found it difficult to get close to you at first.

You being hailed as a "hero" made it especially challenging, as you seemed constantly busy and people were bugging you for attention/advice/help....all while Poppy was standing in the background, forcing a smile.

Of course, you always made time to help her rescue beasts. It became your passion, and she was happy about that. Your adventures together allowed you to connect on an emotional level.

The moment she knew she was in love was the night when you both observed a Mooncalf dance, trying to make sense of the pattern those sweet big-eyed creatures left behind.

No matter how many times you've seen them, their dances are spectacular--ever captivating.

But when Poppy asked for your opinion on the pattern she drew out, she stops after seeing your breathtaking smile, eyes practically sparkling in the glow of the moonlight..

And suddenly that's all she could focus on.

Suddenly that was the most beautiful thing in the world.

Since then, her jealousy around other students has increased tenfold...especially when one jerk who disrespected beasts bragged about their poacher parents and invited you to visit their camp.

You've never seen a girl Depulso another student so fast in your life, but Poppy acts like nothing ever happened.

Similar to Sebastian, her jealousy manifests in the form of glares and general scorn towards anyone trying to ask you out on a date (which you, fortunately, decline).

She 100% rambles to the beasts about you.

If Highwing and Lord of the Shore could talk, they'd tell her to just stfu and confess to you already bc the tension is killing them.

It only (finally) happens when you invite her to the Vivarium for the first time, and they both nudge you two together, not backing down until you finally kiss.

If any of yall know that scene in Pokémon Scarlet/Violet where the box legendary pushes Arven towards his friends...that's this exact situation.

Leander Prewett

There's not doubt that this Gryffindor was going to grow jealous of your rising popularity in Summoner's Court and Crossed Wands.

He's a sore loser, while you have generally good sportsmanship..but he secretly appreciates you encouraging him to keep practicing. He only keeps going because of your words alone.

Outside of classes and competitions, he tries to hang out with you but oftentimes your attention goes to other people--whether it's professors keeping you after class to go over extra assignments or a friend sending you an owl with an urgent request.

You don't mean to keep ditching him, but to him it feels like you're always "too busy" for him.

Leander just scowls at the owls while they stare back at him like "hey, don't shoot the messenger".

Yet even when you do manage to spend time together, he only ever asks about your recent escapades....and then refuses to believe them despite you explaining them in great detail.

To this day, he still isn't convinced you possess ancient magic.

But the truth is that he wants to believe you. He admires your bravery and is insanely in love with that aspect of you....though he doesn't know how to express that.

He wishes he can relate and have cool stories to tell, but when people bring up his name they only ever talk about his constant failures.

He doesn't feel any better when others rush to defend your acts of heroism, thinking he's being a jerk.

The truth is you actually loved him and his company despite your frequent banter, but believed him to be way out of your league.

At least until the day Professor Kogawa assigned you to help him after flying class, citing the lack of respect he's been showing to his broom and your good influence on classmates.

He saw this as his chance to impress you...and failed miserably as he was unable to focus and snapped at his broom in frustration, causing it to whack him in the face just as a group of Slytherins passed by.

They laughed and teased him relentlessly, but after scaring them off with a chomping cabbage...you realized Leander had disappeared.

But he didn't go far as you discover him sulking near the lake, hiding himself with the Disillusionment charm (which you cancelled with Revelio).

It's there he finally talks about his true feelings towards you, and you see a more vulnerable side to the typically uptight Gryffindor.

In the end, you decide to give him a chance.

[lustrousims]

🌇👨‍👨‍👧‍👦 Save File Progress - Newcrest

Newcrest is almost done! Here's some of the current households:

 1. The Greene Family: It's always 'wheres da DILF' and never 'how's the DILF.' smh. Marco is quite the ladies man, and while attention is nice, everyone treats his beloved wife Margaret less than ideal. Everyone thinks Marco should be with someone 'his own speed' and not an 'old hag' like Margaret. Marco does not stand for any kind of verbal abuse towards his wife, who gave him three wonderful children and a beautiful home. Marco adores Margaret, and anyone chasing after his heart can go look elsewhere; his heart belongs with her!

2. The Li Family: After losing her husband to old age, Chu-Hua was living alone with her cat, Bao. Sue-Ann asked her mother to move in with her so she can care for her as she gets older. Chu-Hua doesnt expect much, but Sue spoils her to no end! All she wants are grandkids, but Sue doesn't know if she's ready for that yet, She's so focused on her careers that she hardly ever thinks about dating. Chu-Hua is confident, however, and has even begun knitting baby clothes in hopes she gets a grandchild before she passes

3. College Buds: Alina + Dee [bottom row] started dating their senior year of college. After graduation, they decided to move in together and have Alina's other friends Dustin and Liv join them to help offset living costs. Things have been going pretty well so far, except for some of Dee's recent behavior. Alina has been finding her way too jealous and controlling, and now she's started constantly writing stuff in a little notebook that's quite off putting...

 4. The Puente Family: My boyfriend made this family and now I feel obligated to keep them bc he spent hours on them... I promised him they'd live a great life so please be nice to them if you run into them, thank u.

 5. The Chamberlain Family: Katy never thought she'd be a grandmother at this age, but her teen daughter Bella got pregnant too soon. Katy was furious and upset, but what could she do? Kick her daughter out and risk something happening to her? That wasnt an option. Bella already hates herself, her body and her life enough, Katy doesn't need to add onto it. Bella is attending school, working, and is soon going to start taking college classes. She needs Katy's support now more than ever, and while Katy still can't look at the baby in the eyes yet, she's sure she'll come around soon enough... She just feels like she failed her teenage daughter.

 6. The Fraziers: Rumor has it that Famous Musician Nathanial and his wife Julianne were going to get divorced, but that got put on hold when she showed up with a positive pregnancy test. Nathanial never had a father growing up, and he sure as hell wasnt going to put his baby through the same thing. Against his better judgement, he decided to try and work on his marriage with Julianne, for the baby's sake. although, people are starting to get suspicious of her 'conveniently timed' pregnancy...

[cod-dump]

Just had a teen!141 Au thought after reading all your stuff on teen!simon and married couple Nil and Price

I was a bit confused at first but then realized this was all before Gaz showed up

then I thought… well okay how would Gaz feel about how close Nil Price and Simon are- they got him specifically a puppy. They just invited Farah to stay (for all the right reasons ) - is his lonely?? Is he middle child???

I can picture in my brain like either Gaz confiding in Price (let’s face it price is the easiest dad to talk to) or maybe Laswell??? Like him going to her and being like

Gaz: Nik got him a dog and now with Farah.. I don’t know. I feel -

Laswell: *mom smile and like holds his hand with a squeeze* left out. You love Simon, you love Farah but.. what about you?

…just a thought

Kyle is the baby of the family, fifteen years old. Simon is sixteen going on seventeen and Farah is eighteen. Simon and Farah were good friends before Kyle was adopted, afterwards Farah ended up moving away.

Simon and Kyle are close. They tease and taunt each other, but they’re brothers, they’re best friends. Before Kyle made friends with Johnny or Hong-Jin he was practically attached at Simon’s hip. They were inseparable before Kyle got more comfortable and was able to do things without Simon.

Simon was the one wanting a dog, begging for one. Kyle didn’t exactly want one but who doesn’t lose it over a puppy? Simon is the one who will be cleaning up after Riley and paying for his needs and training him. Kyle gets to be the fun uncle and gets to play with a puppy whenever he wants. Kyle was the one who suggested what breed to get because he knows Simon the best (given he didn’t think the puppy would show up so soon after he made the suggestion).

Kyle did feel jealousy, worried when Farah moved in because she and Simon were so close. It felt like her arrival meant he would be pushed to the side and forgotten. He wasn’t. Farah quickly became his big sister and Simon never left him out of anything they did.

He’s the baby, Price frets over him constantly. Nik takes him out to do things with him, some of things may or may not give Price a heart attack by a mere mention. Simon is closer with Price and Nik, they helped him overcome some serious trauma and they’re both constantly worrying about him. But they don’t look over Kyle. Kyle has his own issues and is still being helped through that.

Kyle has his life outside of his family. He has friends, a boyfriend, he’s the cute nerd guy at school. He’s Simon’s baby brother, Price’s baby boy, Nik’s apprentice in mayhem, Alex K. Laswell’s dashing boyfriend, the sane best friend of Johnny MacTavish and Kim Hong-Jin. He’s very happy with his life. He feels lonely some nights, but his brother all but kicking in his door to freak out over something that happened in his TV show makes that go away.

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

One day I’m going to finish that essay or whatever it was in my drafts that’s about the themes of womanhood/relationships/thirtysomething stuff and TTPD but since part of this discussion has been revived on the dash but also it’s Saturday so this won’t ruffle as many feathers, I think one thing that sometimes gets lost in the shuffle in the conversation about the muses and stories in the lyrics is just why the recurring theme of the broken dreams pops up all over the album, and why they permeate the discussion of both muses, if not *all* the muses in the album.

Not to project things on Taylor, but it feels pretty clear to me* that the dreams she’s talking about specifically are about having a family, and that is the through line in the album, and why the successive blows devastated her. (*I don’t want to presume that anyone else feels this way and this is just my interpretation etc.)

The suburban gothic allegory in Fortnight depicting a miserable, lonely marriage. The ring on the ring finger in TTPD making her explode with joy because it was a shorthand for lifelong commitment. “He saw forever so he smashed it up” in My Boy. “I’m pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free” and dying on the sacrificial altar in So Long London. Marrying her wild boy in But Daddy. “Get the matches, toss the ashes off the ledge” in Fresh Out the Slammer (as in, she burned her life down). “You shit-talked me under the table talking rings and talking cradles” in loml. “The deflation of our dreaming leaving me bereft and reeling” in How Did It End. “Promises ocean deep and never to keep” in Peter. The allusion in The Manuscript that the man in question made her think he was in it for the potential of a serious commitment only for her to feel used when he moved on. And there are probably more examples I’m not thinking of off the top of my head here.

But what I’m trying to get at delicately is that from what she’s put down in TTPD, as well as what she’s put down in previous albums (“give you my wild, give you my child,” Paper Rings, Lover, renegade, YLM, etc.) building a life and a family with this person (Joe) was not only something she wanted, but seemingly deliberately planning and working towards. So in the death throes of the relationship, her grief was not just about things like losing someone she once loved, the breakdown of this relationship that was once comforting to her, what she gave up to make their life work, etc. but about this important thing she had dreamed of and what she seemed to feel was on the horizon. What I think I’m trying to say is that it had likely shifted at some point (even just based on the album pipeline) from a hypothetical “one day we’ll have ten kids and teach them how to dream” thing you wonder about with a partner to something that felt a lot more… tangible. (Again trying to be sensitive in my word choice/not project or assume things etc.)

I don’t want to make any accusations or assumptions on main, but I think those kind of life plans feeling within reach not only makes it understandable as to why someone would stay in a relationship whose cracks were turning into fault lines, but on the flip side why giving up on something that felt like it was on their doorstep would be so wholly devastating.

But it’s also why what happened in the two successive relationships *was* so devastating in the songs on the album, and why the Matty thing specifically was so twisted. He’d reentered her life and he’d insinuated himself back into her circle and gained her confidence which in turn led her to confide things in him (the “hostile takeovers” of it all, the whole bridge of The Smallest Man with its honey pot spy mission imagery in which like a mark he sweet talked her into sharing her most vulnerable, compromising “secrets” only to then turn it around to use her and ghost her like a trained operative). And given the way the family thing appears in both presumed storylines, it’s again because Muse #2 used the info gleaned about the life with Muse #1 to sell her a con about an alternate path to what she was mourning so deeply. (And why it’s such an unconscionable act because it’s manipulation, at least going by her own words about her experience of it. It’s as cavalier as the organ donor line in The Manuscript, with the same effect.)

The shittalking about rings and cradles is both of them (if not all of them) because in all cases, they ended up raising her hopes only to not plan on following through. One because he maybe couldn’t commit, one because maybe he was never serious about it. (And the one who did it first who was both 🥴.)

If I had to guess (because I am not Taylor so I will obviously never know any of this for sure besides picking up context clues), the dream was like a carrot dangling in her mind, feeling like this is what the “agony” to quote another one of her songs was for — like, things may be hard, but life is hard, and at least they were building towards *something* she felt they both wanted. And as that dream slipped through her fingers, it created a cascading series of events that crippled her emotionally for a time. So when she mourns that life in her songs, it’s almost like it’s the same dream, just in shifting contexts. The conman selling her dream back to her is comforting at first, but hits doubly hard and leaves her broke when it disappears.

The story throughout the muses on the album isn’t “she jumps to the person who promises her these things,” it’s that it’s a whole life she’s built that crumbles under the weight of reality knocking at the door and a foundation that shifts until it disintegrates. And losing that foundation and the dreams built upon it leaves her searching for answers in the wreckage — and looking elsewhere for clarity for a time. And it’s why it’s so hard to remove one muse from the other (or again, all of them), because that central driving force is used by each of them in different ways to build her up and take her down. And why working through the pain of one situation bleeds into that of another.

It’s hard to delve into this more without crossing boundaries or whatever, but it’s just such a palpable open wound in the album, but also why working through the pain in different contexts on TTPD brings to light all these different kinds of hurt but also the emotions that go along with them.

Anyway. That other essay will write itself at some point idk.

[fnich-enthusiast]

Let's talk Olympics AU Javid because they are my FAVOURITE

It's 2016, Davey's attending his 3rd Olympics in Rio, Jack is attending his first

At this point Davey's an accomplished olympic diver, having won silver for men's 10m and bronze for mixed synchro (3m springboard) at London 2012. He's v much the US diving golden boy, and makes the decision to come out publicly in Rio by pinning a pride flag to his opening ceremony outfit, so while the games are happening he's facing a media storm and is under Intense scrutiny from the media, both from left wing media making him a gay icon and right wing media deciding he's a national embarrassment.

Meanwhile, it's Jack's first olympics. At this point he knows that he's bi but has pretty much made up his mind that he's only going to act on his attraction to women and be, in his mind "functionally straight." Dude's on a rugby team, he's going through it lol.

They meet at the opening ceremony where they're both shitting bricks for different reasons and Jack notices Davey's pin and v quietly tells Davey that he likes it.

Davey takes one look at this bi disaster and goes ok cool so he's deeply closeted

Throughout the games they get closer, but Davey also very consciously keeps them hanging out in public spaces super platonically because he's waking up every day to more invasive and homophobic headlines and messages and comments and he doesn't want Jack to get caught up in the crossfire. Him and Sarah both have to switch comments off on their instagram, and their parents and Les have to go private and remove all identifying information from theirs, it's not good

Meanwhile Jack's reconsidering his "only women" rule

Davey and Sarah win silver at the mixed event, Sarah posts about how proud she is of her brother for competing under the pressure of the media storm, and US diving finally acknowledges everything by reposting her, including the #lovewins caption

I think it's this that gives Jack the courage to come out to Davey, it's not his sport but a US sporting body has officially come out in support of Davey (even if subtly). He tells Davey how he's in awe of how strong he's been in the face of everything and how he doesn't even seem scared, and Davey confides in him how Terrified he's been the entire games. It's very obvious to Davey that Jack has a thing for him, and that it's reciprocated, but he doesn't say anything about it because honestly, Jack needs time

In the absolute cuntiest move ever, Davey wins gold in the men's individual 10m, and captions it one of the homophobic headlines.

I can just see Davey pulling a Simone Biles level petty post with him biting both a silver and gold medal captioned something like "David Jacobs' woke agenda is an embarrassment to Team USA"

Jack is so deeply in love lol

It's after Jack's team loses in the quarterfinals that he decides that he just absolutely needs to tell Davey he likes him because girls would be easier but he Cannot lose Davey. They both live in NYC so decide to try but date in secret because Jack's not ready to come out yet, and Davey's not ready for more media attention

By Tokyo 2020 (or 2021 really lol) it's a pretty open secret that they're together. Davey gets more attention than Jack bc lbr some random American rugby sevens players would not be dealing with too much media attention outside of the olympics but Davey is like the American Tom Daley. Jack becomes the captain of the men's sevens team and makes it clear to management from the get go that he's dating a man and will be joining a team supportive of that or he won't play at all. They've not made a statement about being together by the start of the games, but they are openly going to each other's events wearing customised tshirts and stuff so it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out that they're very in love

Jack once again doesn't medal, but Davey medals in both men's individual 10m (silver) and mixed 3m springboard (gold). They make their official "statement" after the games, which is really just a video Jack takes of Davey adding his medals to his display case when they get home which Jack captions something along the lines of "the only reason I haven't medaled yet is that my boyfriend's hogging all the space in the display case"

They get married in 2022 and go into the 2024 and are So Openly each other's biggest fan. Jack's team wins a silver medal and the cameras cut from the team celebrations to Davey openly ugly crying in the stands and making little heart hands at Jack. Jack posts a photo with some cheesy caption like “only the second best thing I’ve won at the Olympics <3” and Davey gets to go from a scared kid being ruthlessly attacked for being gay to posting a photo of himself kissing his husband in front of the Olympic rings

I love them your honour

OG post and bestie credits here

[catras-breakup-song]

Since you seem to debunk some stuff about catradora I'll give you one (if you wan to)

Apparently some people critise catra in the final scene between her and adora when she said "Please just this once stay" and say that she has not changed and still thinks adora left her

Your take on this?

ha lol, i'm not sure i want to be known as the person who debunks anti arguments because that sets up a lot of discourse to be invited to my door and i don't feel confident about debating very much, so i try not to bring it up on my own that often.

but anyway, that plea isn't about adora leaving catra as much as adora leaving life. we can see that catra has in fact changed & grown, because even if they don't have a future to share together, that doesn't mean adora doesn't deserve to live and be happy anymore. an earlier villainous catra from the earlier seasons who was out to make adora hurt probably would have left her to deal with the weight of the world on her shoulders by herself (although to be fair, we've never had an event during that period when adora was on the verge of death and catra genuinely believed she wasn't going to make it out just fine); this reformed current catra will do everything she can within her power to save adora from destruction, even if it costs another successful sacrifice of her own survival.

i once saw someone say in an analysis video a while back that the journey to the heart allowed catra to learn to love freely without expecting it to be given back. this person was, of course without surprise, five by five takes in their "why catra matters" video at the timestamp 18:08 - 18:31, which quotes:

and finally, with no guarantee of reciprocation, she stays with adora, and tells her that she is loved ─ it's love that catra doesn't believe is reciprocated, and she doesn't need it to be. when she lets go of expectations, she's able to give love freely, and when it's given freely, adora is able to accept it, and so they traverse the biggest gulf in their separate arcs.

if adora was to survive the failsafe, she would accept that a romance might not be in the cards afterwards. perhaps they weren't meant to be together, and that would hurt like hell, and she would struggle to move on just as she did the first time, but that doesn't mean she won't be there for her now when it counts and uphold her end of the promise ─ hence this scene:

i can't lose her again, okay? i promised her a long time ago that i'd look out for her. it's time i made good on that.

and this one too:

no. i'm not leaving. whatever happens, i am staying with you.

if this was about whether or not adora was going to remain loyal to their relationship, then why did she insist on doing the same thing herself anyway?

it wasn't requested, but it's implied to be tied into all of this, so in order to address what happened at the end of "failsafe" beforehand, i think it needs to be understood that selfishness is not inherently a bad thing, which was adora's side of that coin in terms of learning an important lesson and closing their character arcs. if catra needed to be selfless, then adora needed to be selfish. that's exactly what catra was trying to convey here:

why are you like this? why do you always have to sacrifice everything for everyone else? when do you get to choose? what do you want, adora?

but of course, we know that was a failed attempt of convincing. since adora is going to insist on martyrdom, catra is going to relapse back into her old ways out of grief. you can't help someone who isn't willing to save themself, as she should know from past experience, so she figured it wouldn't matter if she was present for such a traumatizing event (the violent death of your closest friend would absolutely affect you to witness) or not. i can't say if this was the right or wrong decision because it's quite complicated, as many topics in this show are, but i hope anyone could at least understand her perspective.

regardless though, obviously she changes her mind and remembers to pay off the debt she was willing to owe since childhood. she course-corrects and even confidently confronts her abuser (whom she'd feared for the longest time) out of desperation to protect someone who matters to her above all else. this is what matters. this is where/when we see her strength shine through. this is how she's become a better person. you'd be hard-pressed to find an individual who makes a perfectly smooth transition, because it's not easy to improve and it's certainly not something that happens overnight. sometimes we fall back into old habits, but we continue to push through and put in that overall effort to make a difference at the end of the day.

so, no, if nothing else, there wasn't any bitter connotation or petty grudge being held in those words begging adora to come back one last time. it was an urge to keep living & loving so that her remaining time on etheria wouldn't be wasted away as a memory. it was a desperate plea for her to realize she is loved before she passes away, and still has so much to give & be given.

also, @g-hostbody added the brilliant detail that it’s almost like catra was subtly saying “i know why you couldn’t stay before, but please do it now, because you have to fight this and get a happy ending!”

if that somehow gets twisted into "this was a manipulative endeavor to avoid losing a co-dependent connection to someone she can't live without", i think i'm just going to go insane and do something similar to this in order to relieve myself from all the pain & suffering (half-joking...):

[themanifestingbrat]

I manifested a new job!

But not just any job, this manifestation is pretty much life changing for me as I get to work in my desired city, make lots more money, and also live there for a discount!

✭ How it started✭ Obstacles✭ How I used my Imagination ✭ How it manifested

✭ How it started

So I already was tired of the job I was currently at and I needed a change. I had a difficult manager, annoying clients, and I wanted to move to another city.

I occasionally checked my company's website for new positions and kept my options open for a good month. During this month, I was still deciding between what I wanted but once I figured that out, a new opportunity was posted. It was literally calling my name! It was my desired location and a brand new building. So I immediately told my manager for her approval and applied.

✭ Obstacles

I didn't hear anything for two weeks and in those two weeks, I started feeling anxious because I got a random thought that I would be fired from my current job. It was totally random and it gave me a really bad feeling but instead of fighting it, I decided to flip it and affirm that I got hired at the new job.

After weeks of not hearing anything, I checked back to my work email (that I never use) and saw that they denied me because they couldn't get a hold of me! I almost freaked out but remembered who I was and stayed calm. I reached out to the manager to apologize and ask for a interview and she said YES!

My co-workers, although very supportive, kept putting negative thoughts into my head of how my manager would react to me wanting to transfer because she's so strict and needy. I didn't take it personal and I would affirm to myself that my manager adores me and supports me.

After my first interview with the new manager, she said she would reach out the next day for a second interview with another higher up. I didn't hear back for another two weeks but instead of assuming the worst, I returned to the state of someone who got the second interview scheduled. I even chose a day that she would email me back and when I would have the interview and it manifested in a week!

✭ How I used my Imagination

Now, I didn't do this to get anything or see results, I naturally did it to fulfill myself and also for fun.

I used affirmations here and there. No, I didn't track how long or when I would affirm. If I caught myself falling out of state, I would just shift back and maybe affirm once or a few times until I felt confident.

I imagined before bed of me working at the new job. This is something I naturally did because I love visualizing exciting possibilites before bed (sometims too exciting and I wouldn't fall asleep haha). I imagined what the office would look like, what my new coworkers could look like, what I would wear, etc. I created different scenarios that could happen.

After a few weeks, it did feel natural. I was bragging to my family that I would get the job. I even made a pinterest board of all the new outfits I needed to buy, I chose a new hairstyle and nails, basically thinking from.

✭ How it manifested

Regardless of what the 3D showed, I had the mindset I already had the job, cause "how can I lose if I'm already chose?" lmfao. After basically going through 3 interviews in a span of three months, the new manager called to offer me the position! I also forget to mention I wanted to manifest higher pay and the pay ended up being a few dollars over (hourly) than what I was okay with!

This job offers an opportunity to live onsite at a discount and it's a brand new luxury property! Now I am going to manifest living there at my desired rent, move in date, and all the other stuff that come with getting a new place!

[princess-of-the-corner]

Relating to the Tiger-Bee stuff from yesterday but I am just imagining the anarchy of all this and then the the classes perspective, cos like.

OK, so Chloe & Juleka are being super heroes and having a great time in their new personas/identities that are "Completely" or near completely divorced from their civilian selves. & have enough free time to hang out 'a lot' in hero form; Queen Bee's particularly avid as this is literally the healthiest relationship she has.

There's definitely some flirting, but despite some genuine mutual interest, Tigress has someone she's pursuing in civilian guise and QB steps back. Juleka's boost in confidence gets her to finally shoot her shot with Rose but oops, Ali is here so that burns out.

Which circles into a nit of comfort turned flirting, turned QB making her move cos Chloe has zero chill when she likes someone and no grasp of what a healthy relationship looks like. So being a "Rebound" doesn't even register, besides Tigress already said she liked her, just that she'd been pursuing someone as a civilian for longer. Obviously with time, QB's exceptional-ness will surpass this nameless scrub.

Or to quote an 80s song:

The Stingers - Perfect Match Someone wonderful as you, needs someone as wonderful as me Lady can't you see, we're a perfect match, perfect match Side by side unified we make an ideal pair Where else can you find someone, so good, so right, so theeere! No one's half as good for you and no one is ever gonna be Together we would be a perfect a match

So that's happening and is very public, but it also kind of serves as spark for Rose to make her move at last. (Ali was a celebrity crush) Which oh boy, Juleka's apparently somehow found someone else but also can't introduce or explain them and then disappeared in a room with no means of leaving unless someone can jump ten stories to avoid the awkward conversation?

Weird.

Tigress explains to QB who after some strange facial contortions is like "This is fine, our civilian lives and hero lives are different people entirely. You said yourself how different you are. Its not cheating if we're different people." & like, Tigress isn't 'sure' it works that way, but her sense of self while not as skewed as Chloe's is definitely divided enough for it to logically work.

So she tries to explain this to Rose & well, yeah its not hard to put together who Juleka is now is it? But Rose is seemingly OK with it (Cos she finds Tigress a little bracing and isn't sure how to process that side of Juleka & has been shipping Tiger-Bee since minute one).

So all's well that ends well right?

Well not quite as this isn't exactly a well structured poly relationship put together by three people who know what they're doing. But its hanging together- Until Chloe's ID is discovered by them.

Chloe: So then you have been two timing? Juleka: What!? Chloe: If you see my personas as the same person despite everything then the same is true for you no?

Juleka: Dammit... Now I feel like a heel too. Rose: Well I didn't do anything so I think- Chloe: You did worse than nothing, you kept Juleka on standby until you thought you might lose her, how is that fair? She's a person not some mint condition collectible!

Juleka: Hey that's not fair! Rose: No I... I kind of did always just rely on the fact you'd be there. Chloe: Seems like I'm the one with the moral high ground.

Rose & Juleka: That is not remotely true and you know it.

The entire Class & Madame Bustier: (OO)

Cos like, from their perspective this is just rapid fire:

Juleka made her move, but on no it didn't pan out! Now she's seeing someone else? But she won't introduce them, so they might be fake! Now she's apparently dating two people!? What, how Juleka's a heartthrob?! & both girls somehow didn't know who the other is, but do know they exist? How does this work!? Wait, one of those girls she's seeing is Chloe!? How!? Chloe!? What!? How!?

Cue the trio realizing they have an audience and just fucking bailing.

So class is confusion, Tiger-Bee has marked their relationship publicly as "Complicated" and wow, so weird that drama is happening at the same time as Rose/Juleka/Chloe explosion.

Strange timing!

Anyway, I actually imagine that like, some shirt gets worked through, clumsily and fumbling, with a sort of "OK, maybe we all rushed into this & need to work on some stuff" attitude prevailing. All in time for season 2, with parental and medical drama ahoy! Also maybe some new heroes too!?

Juleka jumping out a 10 story building to avoid an awkward conversation is a Mood™

[eddygoldarm]

Headcanon about the undead trio because I think this could make a cool story :

Mortis used to be a normal human like you and I, but he was always fascinated by death, probably because he lost a close one very suddently. He was considered as "the weird" cousin by his family, but he was liked enough (He mayyyybe was part of the Start family? He has the same haircut as Belle and Colt lol).

He studied death for many years, it wasn't a morbid obsession, but more of scientific one, he wanted to understand every facet of it. His knowledge and familiarity with death lead him to become a mortician. Unfortunately (or fortunately?), during one of his graveyard expeditions, he fell in a hole, and almost died. By chance, there were gems in that hole, and these allowed him to resurrect, but also to mutate.

Mortis became a vampire, well, not A VAMPIRE, but something really close. His body was more adapted to live at night, and he had a small control on the undead, but most importantly, he became immortal. This was probably one of the first cases of gem mutation ever recorded. Because of his mutation, his family started to reject him even more, but he didn't really care, with he newfound powers, he could now understand what it's like to be undead. He could possibly find the key to resurrection.

A few dozen years pass, Mortis lives as a hermit in the graveyard, slowly outliving all of his family members. While he is included in, he's losing all the ones he was close to, and the younger generations are too scared of him to approach him. Because of his loneliness, Mortis lost a lot of his flair, and went on full creepy vampire uncle-mode.

It's during this period that he manages to ressurect his first person, thus creating Frank. I'm not sure if Frank is a Frankenstein monster, or if he's just a regular zombie that happens to mook like it. He wasn't totally successfull though, as Frank can't speak and has difficulty with basic dexterity. It didn't matter to Mortis, for the first time in his life, he had a real friend. In reality, Frank couldn't stand Mortis because he almost treated him like a pet (Frank is limited, but not dumb.).

A little while later he also bonded very closely with his great-great niece (EMZ), she was also a bit of a weird girl (but in a cool way not like Mortis), and though having an undead goth uncle was awesome. As he watched her grow up, he regained his happiness, as well as his pride, completely endorsing his character as a cool dramatic vampire. He also started to treat Frank like a real person, and to really care about him.

Sadly, EMZ passed away very early, Mortis was devastated, and instead of moving on, he tried to resurrect her, and this time, it worked perfectly. Well, not really, while she could think, speak, and move around perfectly, EMZ's body had already started to decompose. She looked like a moving corpse.

This made her life miserable, as her schoolmates were mocking her constantly. She was also terrified of immortality, as she realized she was going to outlive all of her loved ones like her uncle did. EMZ started to resent him for what he did. She became some kind of a bully, she acted like a litteral monster to scare away people.

Mortis couldn't fix his mistake, but with the help of Frank, he managed to make her regain her confidence in herself (idk specifically how though). He promised he wasn't going to resurrect anyone anymore, and that he's gonna be there for her forever no matter what. And so EMZ, similarly to Mortis years ago, completely endorsed her role, becoming the goth emo zombie bad bitch we all know and love today.

Today they're all chill with each other, they all live together at the cemetary. Mortis is still a mortician, he's still dramatic but he calmed down with the necromancy stuff. Frank is an amateur DJ and EMZ is a popular beauty influencer, and she's now inspiring a lot of girls to embrace their differences and to show their true colors to everyone. Frank and EMZ roll their eyes at Mortis' bullshit but they still love him

Maybe it's a bit too sad.

[awkwardgtace]

Is Indoors Really Safe?

heey for gt july day 5 we have caught I decided to continue the prompt I got from @da3dm the first part is here

I did also remember someone had said they'd hope I do more so I hope you don't mind the tag @skmayor

Again since I'm kinda new to actually taggin people i'll add again y'all are welcome to ask me to start tagging you in stuff <3 I am anxious and awkward so worry about the actual act of doing that usually

Alessia has been living with the humans for a month, but she's still not sure they're trustworthy...

Is Indoors Really Safe?

Alessia wasn’t sure she made the right choice to go back with a human. All her things had been brought along, he even gave her a different rope to use with her hook. He said he wanted to make sure she wouldn’t lose a memory of her parents. It was weird. This human was weird. She kind of liked how weird Vitus was.

Then there was his wife. That human had her anxious. They only met once, but the woman tried to grab her. If Vitus wasn’t there she had no idea what would have happened. She might have wound up just like her parents. Although… the woman apologized and gave her an entire human room to live in. She didn’t trust that one though, Dabria was to stay far away.

The youngest of the three had her the most on edge. Every time she saw him he looked angry. Vitus mentioned there had been some arguments before he found her. Something about a fight that the younger human wouldn’t explain. She could see the fatigue on the older man’s face when he talked. She heard the younger one arguing in his room sometimes. He sounded angry, he’d thrown something once when she spied on him. Alessia would be staying far away from Felix.

Other than the humans, the new home Vitus took her to was nice. He kept his word, giving her freedom. Apparently they did put her near one of those vent things. She didn’t fully understand, but it went all through the house. Dabria called it central air. Alessia thought that was a dumb name. Air was central to, well, everything. It was in the middle of every place ever. At least the stupid name gave her nice paths.

Vitus would bring food and sit in the room to talk to her. She didn’t trust it, but when he brought that red liquid she would sit in the open. He called it tomato soup, she didn’t know what tomatoes were but she liked soup. Her mom had made soup a few times when she was young, she called it mixed herb surprise. The surprise was usually some acorns.

She’d been thinking about her parents more since moving to the human house. The times they would tell her stories and play games. The food they ate and how often it was just herbs with nothing else. Humans had so much and these ones shared with her. Vitus didn’t let Dabria in the room and both hid her from Felix. Her parents would never believe it.

In reality she couldn’t believe it. There was a part of her that thought it was a lie. That she’d be better off on her own still. It could be possible for her to find some other borrowers in the world. She’d work on leaving those thoughts behind once she was confident in the humans. Once she’d seen what was hidden from her.

Vitus would spend time in a room that she couldn’t enter. The vents didn’t give her an opening and he kept the door shut at all times. It didn’t have room for her to sneak in over or under the door itself. A perfectly sealed place. She would find a way. It held the truth of these humans, the truth of what she’d walked into. A truth she had to learn.

Alessia came up with what she deemed a perfect plan. She hid in the vent on the floor a few feet from the room’s door. She waited for him to enter, he did every day around the same time. Her goal was to climb up to the top of the door and swing in once he opened it again later.. It was easy. She climbed trees all the time. Plus she hid from humans and animals all the time. At least it was going to be until steps that shouldn’t have been around knocked her from the bit she’d climbed towards the handle of the door.

Dabria wasn’t home and Felix wasn’t supposed to come to this floor. They said he always stayed on the lower one. It was a lie, she knew humans lied. Of course Vitus lied. Felix ran towards her, she wasn’t in place, she wasn’t hidden yet. She was lying on her back on the floor staring at the massive human. He was shorter than Vitus, but heavier. Would he be the human to kill her?

“How did you get here?” he hissed. Was it a hiss? The human’s voice was low, it could have been a whisper. The fingers that found her were softer than Vitus’s but it made her more terrified. This one could hurt her without knowing it. She watched him stare at the shut door for a second. “We need to get you out of here before my dad finds you.”

Alessia’s eyes widened. Vitus was the safe one, wasn’t he? He nursed her back to health, saved her from a storm. Unless it was a trick. That he knew she’d been on his shoe. Known she was hiding and lured her. In that room he might be planning something awful. A way to torture her before she winds up like her parents.

Felix started talking, but her mind wouldn’t process his words. She was going to die. She never should have trusted a human. Her vision started to darken as her breathing became hard. The fingers around her were firm, they weren’t changing as the human carried her. It wouldn’t be long before they would tighten. Until her body was crushed and thrown away. As her consciousness faded she was grateful she wouldn’t be awake to face her death.

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“You just grabbed her!?” someone said. Alessia’s head was hurting. She didn’t expect to still be alive. She didn’t know why someone would be upset she was grabbed either. They had to be another human. Felix probably planned to give her to someone else or give the other human the fun of crushing her.

“She was outside my dad’s workshop and you two said he can’t know about anyone like you,” Felix was quieter than when he found her. Maybe not even next to her. Alessia gasped when the words sunk in. He said two. There were two more humans near her.

Snapping her eyes open she expected three towering figures surrounding her. Instead she saw Felix far enough he would need to take a few steps to reach her. Another borrower stood with his arms crossed and glaring up at the human. She wanted to take the chance to escape, but another borrower appeared in front of her. She yelped and drew the attention of the others in the room.

“Ah that’s a relief, you’re awake,” the black haired, silver eyed borrower said. Alessia slowly pushed herself up. She was on a pillow, kind of like when Vitus had taken her in. That reminded her of the danger he has to pose. Two of her kind don’t want him around them. She has to get away. “Call me Ryder, would you care to tell us your name?”

Felix came closer. They were all trapped with this human now. She was trapped with humans. Trusting them was a mistake. Except he didn’t grab her or this Ryder person. He set a hand out and the other borrower hopped off. Salmon hair and pink eyes still glaring at him.

“Are you ok? This guy looks scary, but he’s not like other humans,” the pink eyed one said. He walked up and held out a hand. “I’m Rhys.”

“What happens next?” she whispered. This time there wasn’t a plan. She didn’t even have her hook to get away. All the things from her parents were hidden away from sight. She’d never see them again. Tears fell from her eyes. She wanted the rope back at least, she needed that back. The heavy sigh that blew past her made this worse. The human was annoyed.

“I know I scared you, but my dad doesn’t watch where he’s walking. He might have hurt you, he doesn’t know people like you exist. You can leave once you’re ready,” it sounded like earlier. He had been whispering. She couldn’t believe it. Borrowers didn’t trust the human who saved her. She was in too much danger around any of these people. She wanted to go home, she didn’t even know how to get home.

Vitus only brought her here a month ago. If she had her bag and hook maybe she could get home. It… it was probably something possible. Her parents had told her how they traveled away from humans before. A bedtime story she loved hearing. It was the last one she’d heard before they were gone.

“Don’t worry we live nearby,” Rhys said. 

Ryder helped her to her feet. She couldn’t just run away. She had things, they’d look for her. That child had searched for her dad when he ran. Vitus would hunt her down. Even if she made it back he knew where she lived. This human knew where these two lived. There was no telling if this was a test either. Would she run given the chance?

“This is why we said don’t grab one of us if you find them!” Rhys shouted at Felix. Alessia flinched, yelling at a human would end in-

“You’re the one who said not to tell my dad,” Felix growled. Alessia shrank away, but Rhys stepped forward. Ryder even approached the angry human. “He’s barely talking to me still. I wouldn’t have grabbed her if he wasn’t about to find her!”

“You mean well, but our kind do not trust humans. Grabbing any of us would only make you more likely to be considered a threat. You could have spoken to her,” Ryder had stepped between Rhys and Felix. She stared in awe, he was explaining it to a human. A human who’s golden eyes were on fire, but he hadn’t made a move.

“You’ve said my dad can’t know. You said if he finds anyone like you they’d be in trouble. My dad would have opened that door and sent her flying. I didn��t have a choice,” Felix had his arms folded. Rhys and Ryder stayed firm against him. They were unbelievable. “Blame me all you want, but I did what I promised.”

“Promised?” she whispered. Rhys softened and looked at her.

“Yeah, Felix here promised not to tell anyone about us after he saved us.”

“Wait… he saved you?”

“Yes!” Ryder actually had a bright smile.The bristle of Felix’s anger was dying too. He looked away. “He fought another human so as to stop them from hurting us.”

“Why are you still here?” 

Felix seemed to deflate. The burn in his eyes died completely, his posture drooped. Under other circumstances she may have thought she hurt him. Ryder walked right up to Felix holding a hand up towards him. The human didn’t move. 

“He’s our friend that’s why!” The anger in Rhys’s voice made her jump. “Other humans always wanted to hurt us. Felix could have and he didn’t. His dad is still mad at him and he could just tell him about us, but he doesn’t because we’re friends!”

“A good human…” she muttered. Felix moved again, crouching down in front of her. She stumbled back and even managed to see past him. To see the wide open door, the tall stoic man watching them. His presence made her more terrified. Would she witness humans fighting?

“You don’t have to trust me or like me. They don’t trust my dad so I got you out of there. Decide where to go. I’ll leave so you don’t have some awful human bothering you,” Felix said. The way he acted had her worried. She didn’t usually worry about humans, but he… he was like Vitus. They weren’t bad.

“Why are you afraid of his dad?” 

Her question stopped Felix. What she could see of Vitus barely shifted. No one else was noticing the much taller human. He wasn’t doing anything either. She noticed a point where he seemed to meet her eyes. He offered her a sad smile, like he knew too. What didn’t she know?

“Wouldn’t you be?” Ryder said. His voice was different, the dramatic tone falling away. “You must have seen him if you were up there. He glares at everything, even his steps are a lot.”

“You can trust him,” Felix’s voice was quiet enough she would have thought Rhys or Ryder whispered it.

“You said that, but you don’t know! The last adult who saw us wanted to kill us!” Rhys shouted. 

Unfortunately that reached Vitus and Alessia noticed the man shifting. He wasn’t quiet, at least not quiet enough for the other borrowers not to notice. This time she stayed somewhat calm while the other two froze. If… if this human… If Felix wasn’t bad then Vitus wasn’t bad and she hadn’t set herself up to die. 

Vitus had mentioned the fight, that it had been almost a year. A whole year the two hadn’t been speaking. A year of two borrowers choosing to come and go with a human knowing. She… she was always going to be afraid, but these ones she could try to trust. The truth was she was more terrified she’d be left alone again than they’d hurt her. She was scared of what could make humans be taken from her.

“Guess I’ve been caught,” his voice was gravelly. It was nothing like that usually. He cleared his throat and she jumped along with the other two borrowers. Felix jumped up with his back facing her and the others. He stepped forward and glared up at his dad. At Vitus. “Felix-”

“Dad, what happened to always knocking?” Felix said. He sounded angry. Rhys and Ryder ran up to her and grabbed her arms. They started to drag her away, towards the spot she’d seen Rhys arguing with Felix at first.

“Go, I’ll stay here just in case,” Ryder whispered. He let go pushing Rhys and Alessia forward. She stumbled, but Rhys tugged her along. Rhys was crying, the tears fell from his face to her arm.

“Hurry, we have to run!” Rhys’s voice was hoarse. Alessia knew that pain. Rhys expected Ryder to die.

“Wait,” the words started before her mind caught up, “he’s not dangerous. He brought me here after we met… I live here in a human room.”

Rhys tripped over his feet when she spoke. Ryder stared at her with wide eyes. Felix and Vitus didn’t notice the words they shared. She was able to watch as Felix shifted to keep Vitus from entering the room. Ryder ran up to the two as the humans continued to face each other. Vitus looked over at them, he looked almost happy they weren’t running.

“I found Alessia’s hook and got worried. I was going to check the kitchen when I heard you talking. That I don’t watch where I’m walking,” Vitus smirked. It was like when he spoke to her. An attempt to calm the situation.

“Alessia?” Felix asked. He tilted his head, the hand behind his back was waving. Telling them to run… He was keeping them safe. “Who is that?”

Alessia saw the small change in Vitus’s expression. Widened eyes that flashed concern only to switch to pride. Vitus set a hand on Felix’s shoulder. The younger human braced, Rhys and Ryder grabbed her and backed up. No one knew what the taller man would do, Alessia had a guess. If her guess was right then these were humans she’d try to trust. If she was wrong they would all run.

“I’m proud of you,” Vitus said as he pulled Felix into a hug. All of them seemed to relax once that happened. “I was sure there was something you’d been hiding. I had no idea what to do if I was wrong about the reason you wouldn’t tell us what caused the fight. That it was like that man said.”

“Dad I…” Felix tried. It was clear that this had caused a change. Rhys and Ryder looked at each other before stepping forward. Alessia watched the two reach the edge of the table. The edge where they could never run to safety in time. 

“He saved us!” Rhys shouted. Vitus let Felix go to stare at them. Another gaze at Alessia from the man. “We… I fell in his bag Ryder followed to try and get me out. The teacher found us and wanted to… to do really bad things. Felix fought him to get us away.”

“Rhys speaks the truth,” Ryder said as he pressed a hand to his heart. “We owe Felix our lives. He hid the truth for us, we have had many poor meetings with adult humans. There is a reason it is merely the two of us now.”

“I see.” Vitus stepped forward. Alessia stepped up to hold a hand of each of them. Vitus was terrifying to face. The man stopped away from them and crouched down. All three borrowers face to face with a human who could crush them in an instant. “Well, we have room. The two of you are free to stay here, just like Alessia. Speaking of which, Alessia, I have been working on something for you.”

“F-for me?” she asked. He nodded standing up straight and offering her his hand. She was scared, but stepped forward. She crawled into the palm, a smile from the human a welcome response.

“Why don’t I show all four of you?” She looked back at Rhys and Ryder. They were clearly nervous, but Vitus didn’t actually wait for them. He stepped back pulling his hand up to his chest. He paused in front of Felix. “We’re in the extra room at the end of the hall.”

Alessia was taken with him. He held her close to his chest. Each step shook through her spine, but that fear Felix gave her had melted. A month in and he hadn’t done anything. He even made Dabria stay away and hid her from Felix. She couldn’t help wondering if he was mad at her. That Felix caught her, that she expected so little.

“You could have asked about the room, I would have let you in,” he said. It made her jump. “It’s locked up tight because I make things in there. It’s a lot of wood dust, that’s bad to breathe in. I try to keep the dust inside so I can clean it up when I’m done working.”

 “Oh…” she said. It made sense, humans did a lot of weird things. They knew a lot too. Words that he still had to explain. Like windows, those things were weird. So was glass. A finger poked her and made her look up. He had a soft look on his face.

“I know you’ll be scared and have doubts, Alessia.” The voice was quiet and reassuring. “It’s a big move to risk living here. Take your time, we’ll all be here when you’re ready.”

“...really? Isn’t that bad? You… I agreed to come here.”

“Take the time you need to trust us. You’ve taken a risk trusting just me. You don’t have to move faster than you’re ready for.”

Alessia wrapped her arms around the finger that had poked her, “Thank you.”

“Wait until you see what I’ve been working on to say that.”

Vitus kept walking, it was clear to her he moved slower to give the others time to decide. It could have been giving him time to speak with her. Either way she appreciated it. She stared at the doors they passed, worrying when they walked by the one they gave her. That was where she would still get to stay right?

Vitus walked for a little longer. He stopped at a door that almost blended in with the wall. She wanted to ask, but saw he’d already started to push open the door. The room itself was normal. At least the normal she’d learned about. It looked kind of like the room they gave her without the bed. Just shelves, one of the table things, and what she lived under. There was nothing different.

He walked into the room and up to the thing she lived under. She tried to remember the word, dresser maybe. He stopped there and turned to the door. There she saw Felix with Rhys and Ryder sitting on his shoulders. If others like her could do that they couldn’t be bad humans. Vitus turned back to the dresser thing and crouched down.

“It’s not quite done yet, but it’s enough to show you. I thought you deserved a place we couldn’t just appear without warning,” he said.

Alessia stared in awe as he turned the dresser thing. The inner part was completely gone, but it looked kind of like the house the humans had. Even inside there was one of the beds Vitus said she could use if she wanted, but her size. A room with stuff she’d never seen before and things she’d seen around the house. One she was pretty sure Dabria called a couch when she was spying.

“Woah,” Rhys said. She looked away from the amazing dresser thing to stare up. Felix was leaning over to see them. “It looks like a house, but for someone like us.”

Vitus laughed a bit. His laugh made her smile, it was infectious. She wanted to feel comfortable with humans. At least these humans, they weren’t like the one in her past. They weren’t going to hurt her or those her size.

“That’s my goal,” he smiled. “There’s a lot more work to be done on it. I’m looking into some plumbing and wiring I can set up. I want to give you a place that’s more like the home that’s around you, but that you can use. Of course if you two would like to stay I’ll be making this project a bit bigger.”

“You’re really gonna try and put a shower and stuff here?” Rhys sounded excited. “And wiring? Like lights and-and all the other stuff?”

“I would like to, but I never really worked with it.”

“Rhys knows a lot about it,” Ryder said. Alessia turned around to face them more comfortably. Rhys looked like he was vibrating on Felix’s shoulder. The human cupped a hand around the borrower to keep him from falling.

“Oh?” She could hear the laugh in his voice. He’d spoken like that to her. To encourage her. Vitus… Vitus was a good person. He’d be so much easier to keep trusting if he were a borrower. “Would you mind helping me? It would have to be once all the wood work is done. I don’t think I have protection for someone your size and wouldn’t want any of you getting sick.”

“Can I really help?!” Rhys had climbed up leaning over Felix’s fingers. Alessia thought he was foolish. He’d fall and die if Felix moved. Vitus nodded, she noticed the look Rhys sent to Ryder. The subtle nod of the other. “We’ll stay to help with this at least. We can’t leave you to take care of another borrower when you don’t know anything anyway.”

“Rhys!” Ryder smiled when Felix cried out. “Can’t you just admit you want an excuse to play with electronics?”

“Don’t tell him that!”

“I believe he’d already noticed. You aren’t subtle.”

Alessia watched Rhys disappear behind the hand blocking him from falling. The smiles on the other two told her this was normal. This might work out. She might really have a good home with safe people here. Plus she wasn’t alone, other borrowers. Others who could teach her things her parents were taken too soon to. This might even turn into a family for her.

[mystargirl-interlude]

𝐀&𝐖

Track Two. American Whore. Pairing: Billy Hargrove X OC

word count: 806

part two:

Being put in the spotlight from an extremely young age ruins your life in the long run.

I was born and raised in Ryazan Russia and When I was four I saw those gorgeous girls on tv gliding across the ice doing jumps and twirls with an Olympic symbol in the back and that's when my love for ice skating started.

My first televised competition was when I was 13.

That adrenaline rush of winning a competition became addicting and I never gave up until I won. Winning is first place, everything else is losing.

watching teenage diary of a girl, wondering what went wrong

By the time I was 15 I had made a name for myself and broke numerous world records and was better than olympic gold medalists. But it all comes to an end when you have to move across the globe to live with your aunt because I needed an education but that isn't even the worst part, the worst part is that it wasn't New York or California it was a small town inside of Indiana where you wouldn't even know existed if it weren't for the street signs. I dont even think this would be any better for my education.

Thankfully I was already very fluent in English and French so I won't have any trouble there but apparently I wasn't the only new person here

As I arrive at the small house I take a look at my surroundings becoming aware of everything around me. Seeing little kids stare at me like they have never seen life outside of Hawkins. 

     Location: Hawkins high school. 

Driving up to the school was the most humiliating thing a human can experience, being one of the two new people in a small town where no doubtingly nothing happens so its no secret everyone is going to be in your business. The other new person is much more interesting than be so the attention wasn't on me for long. I look up hearing a loud engine getting closer and closer and seeing a gorgeous blue Camaro come into view. Now that is the most interesting that has happened in this town.

time skip

Finally I get to the office and am getting my name down when a man with dirty blonde hair and denim on denim walks in. Im not going to deny the fact that he was attractive but it was the fact that he knew he was and he was way too  confident. Thats why I kept my distance. I acknowledged his presence and went back to doing what I was doing.

Billy Hargrove:

Now I was new to this town. I didn't know anyone and I didn't need to. i'm from fucking California for fucks sake. Im not going to say moving to this small town didn't mean shit because it did but I was clearly the most modern person there, I mean ( chuckles). I had everyone here wrapped around my finger and I needed to do was to show up.

As  I walk into the office I see another girl in here clearly very different from everyone else around here. She didn't have goofy fried hair like everyone else; she had long and I mean long hair, it was red and not the ginger red, it was a true red color but obviously dyed. she had a slightly round face, she was thin but had a lot of muscle but not to the point where she looked bulky. But the thing that really got me was she barley even spared a second glance at me when I walked in.

And I'm standing over here wondering where this girl comes from because it clearly isn't from around here (Indiana). I Watched her as the front desk lady, I think her name was Betty or some stupid shit like that, it doesn't matter, checked her in. when she asked for her name thats when I really started listening, but was quickly caught off guard when I heard her heavy accent as she spoke, now very clearly not around here speaking about this country. Her name was Alexandra Trusova, it sounded familiar but I quickly brushed it off. As soon as she was finished and started getting her stuff together I started to fix my hair and adjust my jacket, getting ready to pull my usual lines on her. she started walking towards me and I knew I had this in the bag but as she got closer I could barley get out two words before she brushed past me giving me a dirty look like I just interrupted her day, And I'm standing here thinking to myself who the fuck does this girl think she is?

[cyandreamsinwords]

Cut and Run — Pt 6 (BoaWT AU)

Again, none of this is cannon to the main fic, I just like to self indulge. (2.1k)

Now also on Ao3

Link to the main fic here

A/N: I'm finally wrapping this AU up! There will be one more part after this, and that should be later this week.

Pt 1 Pt 2 Pt 3 Pt 4 Pt 5 • Pt 7

Perhaps the most unexpected result of bringing Harry back with him was how it had brought out his daughter’s voice. Lyra had been a fairly quiet child since Sirius had gone to retrieve her, but after the few days it took for Harry to settle into a routine with them, that borderline concerning silence was gone, and he realized she was capable of great amounts of noise and trouble.

As the two kids loudly chased after one another, playing the world’s smallest circle of tag, Sirius and Remus watched over them with a smile. “I think,” Sirius said with some amusement, “when the heat has died down, we will need to get on finding these two a proper backyard in which they can run and scream to their hearts content. Maybe a farm with a pen we could corral them into.”

“I think that should be sooner rather than later,” Remus agreed, a smile playing at his lips. “Maybe then each round of this game of theirs wouldn’t be over every few seconds.” Though, it didn’t seem to bother them, as their enthusiasm did not die each time one of them caught the other.  

But both men could see problems arising sooner or later with this set up of theirs. They were content for the moment, but what about a month from now? Or a year? Sirius loved to see his daughter's confidence grow, but with that may come discontent with their current situation. When the children weren’t chasing one another, they could be found peering out the window, making stories up of what they saw in the distance. What happened when they wanted to go see what was there for themselves? When they were older and bold enough to open the door themselves? Sirius wouldn’t even be able to blame them, this was torture for him as well. 

Remus leaned onto his elbows, slouching over the table and staring off thoughtfully. He looked so much older now than when they had graduated, like he was an entirely new man, yet oddly the same. The bags under his eyes didn’t seem to be weighing him down anymore and that worry he often expressed to him didn’t show as prominently on his face as it had when he first turned up. Sirius was so lost in the thought of just how much his friend had changed in their years apart, and then again in the short span of their reunion that what he said at first didn’t register with him, and he had to hum a request for him to repeat himself. 

“I said, I think I found a place,” Remus repeated. “I've been out scouting. There are areas not looked in on by the ministry or any wizarding agency over in the west. They’re remote, even by muggle standards. The area I found doesn’t get much in terms of typical muggle news, let alone our sort’s stuff, so there’s potential we could actually interact with the people there. To an extent.” 

“Someplace warm?”

“At times. Someplace safe and private—“

“And there’s nowhere safe and private that is warm all the time?” 

Remus leveled him with an unamused look that he did not back down from. “You are not in a position to be picky, Sirius.” As he rolled his eyes, Remus sighed heavily. “It doesn’t have to be forever. It would probably be smart to move around a few times if this doesn’t resolve itself any time soon. I’m working on it, so this would just be a start. But I think it’s safe enough now to move, and this place I found, you wouldn’t have to learn a new language—”

“So America—“

“Which means you’d stick out less than you would elsewhere. It’d be an easier transition—“

“I speak multiple languages, you know this Moony—“

“But Lyra and Harry don’t.”

He ran his tongue over his teeth, feeling his wants losing to rationality. “….where is it?”

They made the move not long after that, on the darkest night of the month, without the moon in the sky to guide them. Remus had gone on ahead to scout the area one last time and move their stuff in (the entirety of their life here fit in one singular trunk) and leaving only the kid’s stuffed animals to carry. One of them had just momentarily posed the question if those too should be packed and shipped away, but was quickly met with heavy opposition by the youngest of them. Harry had grown quite protective over his brand-new stuffed deer Remus had picked up for him, and Lyra, out of solidarity, had begun to cry and cling to Jumper the frog, pleading they get to keep them. It was an overly melodramatic event. 

“You’ll like it there,” Sirius told Harry as he buttoned up Lyra’s little jacket before they went. The little boy was the most curious about their move, as he was about most things it seemed. Never made a complaint, but always questioning. He’d too settled into a far more lively child then when he first arrived, and interacted easily with both him and Remus after watching Lyra lead the way. “Moony says there’s two rooms and a loft, and lots and lots of outdoor space for the two of you to play in. It’ll be very nice for the lot of us.”

“Is it big?”

“Remus says it’s bigger than here. You’re short though, so I’m sure it’ll be massive to you.”

“Do we get our own beds?”

“Eventually. You’ll probably still spend a few nights tucked into one, but the plan is to get you both your own in the next week or so.”

“Did you find a house with a dragon in it?” Lyra excitedly asked, referring to an earlier conversation about her own housing requirements. 

“No, I got you a Harry,” he pointed at the boy, who’s mouth had dropped open and eyes went wide at the idea.

“Harry doesn’t breathe fire!”

“Just you wait till he hits puberty.” The two shared a confused look, unfamiliar with the word.

“It’s okay if you couldn’t find one,” Lyra comforted sweetly, patting his hand. 

Sirius smiled as he took the sides of her coat to shake her wildly, making her giggle with delight. “Oh, you think so, is that it? Maybe I couldn’t hire one who thought they could handle such a sassy little girl! If I don’t get my tropical beach house, you don’t get your dragon!” Harry smiled even wider too as she laughed louder and louder, and held out the edges of his coat to Sirius to button and shake him as well. 

It wasn’t snowing in England when they left the run-down shack they’d called home these last few months, but as they arrived at the new hideout Remus had picked for them it was. The crunch of it beneath their boots could be heard as each man stumbled carefully through the dark towards the door, a child in each of their arms. The blanket of it was laid thick, and trudging through it was the best workout Sirius had received in an age. They’d found themselves deep in the woods, large trees towering above them, only the twinkle of far off stars as lights above. It was so dark, the frame of the house was barely visible at all and only became real once they put they stepped foot on the porch. 

“You just had to have us move during a blizzard, didn’t you?” Sirius grumbled as Remus unlocked the door and let them all in. “Had to be sure I’d be properly miserable getting here.”

“The snow will cover our tracks,” Remus argued. 

“Why not try and beat the storm then? Would have still covered them!”

“Well I had to be sure you’d be properly miserable, didn’t I?” He placed Harry on one end of the couch, pointing his wand toward the fireplace to light it, illuminating the place. Harry jumped at the suddenness of it, mesmerized and in awe. 

Sirius walked the perimeter, running his hand over the slanted walls, taking in the A shape of the house. “Did you pick a place that’s all roof, Moony?” Lyra’s little hand reached out too, and he shifted her closer so she could touch as well.

“The slant of the roof makes the snow fall off it,” he grumbled, adding a few more logs to the fire before walking towards the back. 

Sirius groaned. “There’s specialized roofs for that? You chose the snowiest place on earth, didn’t you!” Lyra began to pat his back, the way he would for her when she gets upset. 

“Kitchen and the living room down here in the main area. One bedroom here—and here.” Remus swung both doors open to reveal each in turn. He circled back out, reaching up to grab a rung of the stairs up to the second level. “Loft above us. It gets a tad restrictive up there, just as a heads up.”

“Good thing we have short kids,” Sirius murmured, taking a look again.

“I figured I could take it. Since I spend the least amount of time here.”

“Do you really want to be ducking all the time? You spend half your time with us anyway.”

“Which is half as much as you all. Besides, these stairs are too steep and have gaps, the kids can’t climb these.”

“I can!” Harry claimed, rushing toward them to prove himself. 

Remus smiled, coming to stand, hands out as he climbed. “Yeah, now try that when you’re tired, which you apparently aren’t.”

Sirius let the subject of their sleeping arrangements go as he wasn’t sure where he was going with what he was trying to say anyway. “Well, I think this should do. I guess.” Lyra’s head rested against his shoulder, and he could feel her sagging heavily in his arms. “How about we get these two to bed and unpack a little.”

“I’m not tired,” Harry said excitedly, kicking his feet from the top of the stairs. “Can I unpack with you?”

“How about you go check out the rooms and pick out which one you and Lyra are staying in,” Remus said, lifting him back down. “Then you can get your stuffies settled in and by then you’ll be tired enough to sleep.” 

Lyra didn’t rush off after him as he ran toward the back, darting between both to pick which one, and was absolutely no help in pulling out bedding or setting the room up for the night. 

Harry ran back out after some time, holding his hands out to Lyra. “I can put Jumper to bed now! It’s ready!”

She grumbled and groaned, already mostly asleep in his arms, but still unwilling to part with her stuffed animal. “Go get in your pajamas and I’ll put the both of them to bed,” he told Harry, ruffling his hair. 

With unreasonable amounts of energy, Harry ran off to grab his pjs, while Sirius grabbed Lyra’s, and pulled the ragdoll into them. When he finally laid her down, she was fully asleep and out of it. 

Harry came running back in, jumping on the bed with a wide and excited smile. “Careful,” Remus warned. “Don’t wake Lyra.”

“This place is so cool!” he said excitedly, bobbing up and down. “There’s so much room to play!”

“Yeah, and even better—” Sirius in. “There’s even more outside. We can go check it out tomorrow.”

Harry’s eyes were about as wide as his smile. “I’m so glad we moved here,” he gasped.

With both kids now settled under the covers, and Harry’s eyes finally starting to droop, the two adults left the room, turning off the light and half shutting the door. A knot of anxiety being separated by walls and doors from his kid started to settle in Sirius, having only slept and existed in the same room together since their reunion.

“They’ll be okay,” Remus assured him, hand on his shoulder. “This is how it’s supposed to be.”

That sad part of Sirius thought mournfully this isn’t how it’s supposed to be. James and Lily are supposed to be here, we’re not meant to be in hiding. They should be safe, but instead I’m going to sit up and worry that someone may crawl through the window and steal it all away from me again.

Yet, James and Lily weren’t here, and they were in hiding, and none of them were really safe. But they were together, and that was a better position than they were in at the beginning of the year. And now in an actual house with walls and space to grow, and that was even better than just yesterday. 

“Yeah,” he said, clearing his throat, easing away the uncomfortable ache. “Everything will be alright.”

[shadowmaat]

Life is pain

I didn't want to derail the Padme body horror post making the rounds. It mentions how excruciatingly uncomfortable the costumes were for Kiera Knightly and has an addendum from another person about details from the Queen's Peril that added in some of the agonizing periods she experienced. Which got the pinball in my head rolling. lol.

According to Sources Palpatine has been grooming Padme since childhood. He manipulated her parents into angling her for queendom, "mentored" her as she grew up, and of course convinced her of the whole Vote of No Confidence thing.

Let's take it an additional step and say he formed some kind of one-sided parasitic bond with her. Or at the very least, he was able to feed off her suffering, so made sure she suffered as much as possible. Painful fashion, incompetent doctors/gynecologists, whatever. She grows up thinking this is normal and her handmaidens just sort of roll with it (we'll assume they've tried to help and she shrugged it off as "this is just normal for me.")

Along comes Anakin. Their romance begins. Anakin, who rarely notices anything that doesn't directly affect him and his interests, takes Padme at her word that all her pain is "just normal" and doesn't think twice about it. Sure, he'd spare her if he could because she's his, but if this is what happens to all women, well, he can't fix that.

Good Timeline:

We'll say Anakin and Aayla are on some mission together or just sparring or whatever. Aayla is unusually snappish and apologizes by explaining that it's just the twi'lek equivalent of PMS. Anakin tells her how lucky she is not to be human because it's SO MUCH WORSE for human women.

Aayla, who knows a few things about alien biology, is perplexed and asks for clarification. Anakin blithely mentions that Pad- uh, Senator Amidala is laid up for days because of the pain.

Aayla tells him that isn't normal. Anakin assures her it absolutely is. They argue. Nothing is decided, but Aayla is determined to investigate. She asks Master Che about it. Vokara might not be human, but she's a Master Healer who has worked on countless humans and has access to vast medical databases. Vokara tells her that debilitating periods are absolutely NOT normal for humans. Padme is hauled into the Temple for a thorough checkup, which leads to a bigger investigation, several Nubian doctors and fashion designers losing their licenses/jobs, and a bit of relief for poor Padme, who isn't sure how to handle a life without pain. We'll say that Palpatine's role in things isn't discovered, but he of course expresses sympathy for the poor young thing while mentally moving up his timeline to compensate.

Bad Timeline:

Anakin and Aayla never discuss feminine health. Palpatine arranges for Anakin to have the parasitic bond, which isn't hard to do given Anakin's unhealthy obsession with Padme.

Anakin goes through the war while rarely experiencing any serious injuries. Padme, however, has frequent illnesses and periods of weakness/low energy. Since her corrupt doctors are still in place, she's reassured that not only is this stuff normal for her, but her concern might indicate some degree of hypochondria or other attention-seeking gambit that makes them question if she needs a therapist. That'll back her right off, since she can't be seen as "mentally weak" or whatever nonsense.

Anyway, this route sets the stage for that fanon idea that Padme died because her life force was drained in order to save Anakin.

I think I had more to say but I've been interrupted five times and lost whatever train of thought I was on. Ah well. lol

edit: oh right, I think there was a "worst timeline" idea that involved Anakin killing Padme during one of his tantrums and then somehow reanimating her while he desperately tried to pretend everything was normal and nothing bad had happened.

[blahbeble]

Posting this as well to before the new episode aires because he’s all I think about but just thoughts/theories on ???%

???% is a form of dissociation that Mob’s mind created when he was young to help his developing mind cope with overwhelming trauma and emotions he experienced when he accidentally hurt Ritsu and truly realized what power his powers held. He was unable to process it on its on so it creates something to help dissociate from them and the memories that come with it. I think that's what's kinda happening here. In general I think his existence is something to protect Mob from both “himself” and others.

The way he activates is I think out of a need for absolute survival since he always activated when Mob was on the verge of dying (Teru choking him, Mogami fight, the car) The only exepction is the first time but I think it makes sense considering he was younger and the stakes felt higher to him on top of his emotions not being repressed back then so it's easier for his powers to go berserk/That was when ???% was birthed. It’s also something that protects him from “himself “ as mob is very much afraid of losing himself and hurting those around him and I think a lot of those what if's he's feared we've seen glimpses of. it’s essentially a being made of the darkest depths of his emotions but also I feel it’s also how he views those emotions. Terrifying and uncontrollable, a walking mindless weapon perhaps. I think I can point a lot to things that happened in season 2 that gives me this idea.

???% is definitely a part of Mob and idk I think its funny but I also like seeing how Broccoli arc Mob imagined himself as a gigachad but I think that's also going on here where he imagines himself as a horrible creature only capable of being a weapon. It's what he really thinks he is deep down. Considering that he's also treated a different person somewhat and while they're very much the same person I like to think its a manifestation of a different lens Mob's view this darkness. Because its something that is supposed to protect him I think some part of his mind sees it as someone to rely upon for help as because early Mob definitely relied on others a lot/a push over/a bit of a people pleaser in some ways so seeing all the dark parts of him that is also a manifestation of something his mind created to help protect him as another person he can “turn to for help” would be very interesting and I love seeing stories do this stuff. While he's grown a lot I think Mob definitely still struggles with confidence issues, self loathing issues, and also controlling his emotions and that's normal to deal with! He's grown up with it! When you supress your emotions it's normal for you to have trouble expressing yourself as well as understanding what those emotions are

that's why I kinda love how he doesnt understand why he likes Tsubomi. imo I think its a combination of him clinging onto an attachment and childhood crush he had when he was younger because of how lonely he grew up because that's when things were so much more normal/She was one of the first things that made him second guess what his powers mean to him by growing bored of them/his love for her is a feeling he feels like he can understand and actually express without hurting anyone.

Which is why its so important for Mob to face this side of himself and come to peace with it because it's how he views himself deep inside and he's wrong about that. It's why it's also gonna be so important to see Ritsu and Teru see this side of him again and still treat him like they always have and be very caring towards him and Reigen to see it and be super accepting. Mob needs to "forgive" himself to.

I wanna talk about how how mob psycho goes about the idea of forgiveness one day because instead of treating it as a bad person/person who did bad things atoning I feel like they make it more about improving yourself and more about the person hurt by those bad actions being able to move on and let go despite the pain and I think that idea is very nuanced and appreciated since I think the actual definition of forgiveness gets twisted a lot to something mroe shallow then it actually is and both these ideas tie super well to Mob's arc and he goes through both hence he needs to forgive himself

[northadawn]

NorthaDawn's Feb 2024 Update

Hello everyone, NorthaDawn here, and it's February here, I hope that your 2024 has been going great so far! Mine has been decent so far, and I wanted to write this important journal to give you some in-depth news into the latest happenings that I've been doing that I feel all of you deserve to know about!

1) PERSONAL HAPPENINGS

I'll get the elephant in the room out of the way first; on the health side of things, I've been doing much better and physically, this is the healthiest I've been in ages. Mentally? Let's just say that I've had to cut off someone really toxic from the community; they've caused a lot of trouble for me and my dear friends for months. I don't want to dive further into what happened to keep my friends safe, but I do want to say this: be there for your friends and stand up for them when they need you around.

Apart from that, I have been changing up things here and there and handling stuff in my university and in my family, but I do have some things cooking up for you guys that I'll share with you here later! But first, I want to go over my announcement from a handful of days back to clarify a few things.

2) THAT SPECIAL ANNOUNCEMENT

You've probably already read my post where I announced my decision to continue making Titanic content in the future instead of retiring, but I think I should also explain why I contemplated retiring (again). To be honest with you, ever since my heart attack ages ago, things have gone poorly for me here; a partnership that wasn't meant to be, my ever-increasing workload in university, losing momentum and motivation for Titanic art in general, and feeling like a stranger here again has been a few reasons as to why I decided to quit once 2023 turns into 2024. However, a new partnership with smolnoodlekitty that soon turned into "Team Heartslash" (which includes people such as Matlock26th, caitlin._.art, Lacoeurdelamer, NWArtOfficial), getting more lovely people to voice act my characters, and the support from the newest batch of talented artists in the community made me rethink my decision to step away from doing Titanic art. That's why I decided to stay on! Unironically, I wouldn't still be here today without your support, so thank you all for continuing to support me even though I barely upload at all these days. I'm trying to work on that, I promise.

Speaking of characters...

3) MY FIRST OC: MASAKO HONDA

I finally made an actual original character that isn't a gijinka of some sort! I got the confidence to finally make a character that isn't limited to being a gijinka, and I'm happy with what I have. You've probably already seen her if you checked out my Twitter, but here she is: Masako Honda!

Masako Honda is a hyperactive, ADHD-ridden Japanese-Filipino girl who moved to the Philippines at the age of 10. Despite being a self-proclaimed nerd who is very geeky and hyperactive to the point where she can't stay still for 5 minutes, she is a very attractive girl who is way out of most guys' league. However, she doesn't have a boyfriend since birth. She took up the Game Development course in her university because of her self-taught ability in Unity and in C#. Just don't call her a Java developer.

That's a brief introduction of her, she'll soon have her place in my gallery, and I hope you'll be excited for that day to come as much as I am! The early reception I got from both my Discord server and my classmates has been insane and I couldn't be more thankful for the response I got for her!

4) SOCIAL MEDIAS (DISCORD SERVER + DA GROUP)

I've been going around and trying to update my social media pages and stuff, and I understand that there's a lot of links to keep up with, so I compiled them all in one page so you can quickly go to my profiles in certain sites! You can check them out right now through my Linktree here: https://linktr.ee/NorthaDawn

Speaking of updates, I've also been doing a little rebrand, which is why I've transitioned away from my old theme to the one I've had right now, I hope you like the new look!

I've also decided to take on a new tagline that I feel would represent not only me, but also all of you guys as a whole well. It's a simple line, yet it's a very motivational one, at least for me, and I hope it'll be motivational for you too. The tagline? "THERE IS STILL A VOYAGE TO EMBARK ON."

As a final reminder, I do have a Discord server up that also serves as a server for smolnoodlekitty and caitlin._.art! You can join through this link here: https://discord.gg/gsxGMPMPNb

5) VOICE ACTRESS ANNOUNCEMENT

Of course, I'd save the best for last. I'll keep it short and sweet...

RMS Olympic (Olyvia McLoughlin) - caitlin._.art

You probably know her as my Titanic's voice for a bit now, but she'll now be primarily voicing the Old Reliable now! She also did the absolutely gorgeous art for this announcement! As for who'll take her spot as Titanic?

RMS Titanic (Emily McLoughlin) - Lacoeurdelamer

She's the nice girl who'll play the Queen of the Ocean! If you've been around my Discord server, you know her as Maxine, and the amount of similarities she has to my Titanic is quite insane, which is why she's the perfect fit!

Masako Honda - moonglower.art + smolnoodlekitty

A 2-for-1! Weren't expecting that, were you? Either way, they're sharing duties to be the voice of the hyperactive college girl!

I hope you'll be looking forward to hearing them bring my characters to life!

FINAL REMARKS

Thanks for your continued support, and I hope that this has been a nice update so you're up to speed with what's going on in my end of things. Please do leave a comment, I'd like to know what you think! Also, go support every artist mentioned in this journal, they deserve it too! Have a wonderful day!

-Northa

THERE IS STILL A VOYAGE TO EMBARK ON