#but thats not to say the stuff that was popular at the time wasnt also aight

[sonknuxadow]

my honest reaction

[thesulliedone]

Sometimes you gotta just drop the pretense and vibe to old late 00s/early 10s pop songs to reclaim the childhood musical impression you never got.

[velvetvexations]

hello velvet this is going to be a lot abt hate crimes in abstraction (by which i mean, not about an Actual Hate Crime That Happened) but i wanted to warn u in case that was too much for comfort <3

my partner is stealth transmasc, and when you say this i think a lot of people interpret it as "Passes All The Time, Every Time". of course that's not what "stealth" means (it means low/no disclosure... it's flexible bc it's slang, but "stealth" tends to imply intention, it's something you do on purpose for safety reasons). the misconception is irritating most of the time, but i also think its actively dangerous and contributes directly to the erasure of transmasculine oppression. like, i keep seeing people refuting the statement "being stealth is a hostage situation" with "well im stealth and im not scared of being outed" as if it has anything to do with personal sense of fear. youd think that would be obvious.

we live in a blue dot in deeply red state. the difference between our city and where my partner grew up, in the surrounding area, is stark. contrary to popular belief, this doesnt make us safe. he gets threatened with violence walking home alone, he gets called slurs by people that think theyve clocked him as any number of things. you walk fast and dont look behind you when stuff like that happens. none of my friends have been able to answer me when i ask "did they follow you home? do they know where you live?" transfem friends too! it's almost like we're more alike in experiencing transphobia than we are different. who'd've thought.

im thinking abt this bc we travel via greyhound and the last station we left was very very poorly maintained - arent they all? - and in the mens restroom, every door to every stall had a broken lock. my partner joked abt taking a "risky pee" lol, and if it wasnt for where we were, who we are, and the time we are living in, maybe the little icepick of fear wouldnt have gotten stuck in me and i wouldve laughed.

the thing that irritates me abt this discourse is that this type of white knight, tme-in-bio transmasc (or associate) does not at all seem to recognize the danger inherent to being stealth, to looking sort of like a man if the ppl around you are not violent transphobes looking for a fight. they are so consumed by this idea of trans-male privilege that they dont even recognize the danger they are in. often times i think its bc of their own individual privilege. maybe they live in a more trans-friendly region than i do. maybe theyve never met a transphobe, never been called slurs from a speeding car that almost hit you, maybe theyve never been loudly transvestigated in public. i really, sincerely hope they never do. but they take that and apply it to other transmascs far less fortunate and dont even recognize the erasure they are contributing to. bc everyone knows only transfems get hate crimed! who else ever would?

they think that no one has ever clocked them (how? are you a mindreader?), they think that if they look enough like a cis man, "other" cis men wont hurt them, cis women wont be Able to hurt them. they think thats true of every transmasc thats been a year+ on t. it's juvenile. it's icarian. it's misogyny dressed up as solidarity and chivalry. and it's not even fucking true. the vast majority of Any trans person who is trans in Any number of ways is going to face fear and anxiety and the potential for danger in a bathroom.

thank you for sharing anon <3

[rattotheimperialcheesegod]

RANT POST!!!!!

Girl the way I had to live after realizing my inner demons acronym was MID was like, man i know at the time it proubly didnt have its meaning yet since it was 2019 and no one was really thinking about the acronym at all but im not gonna lie...

it sorta set up its own legacy with it since it is kinda mediocre and also one of the most recent forgotten series that aphmau tried to make big like mystreet, and the only thing that reminds you of the series, is it still being on the channel to watch or that three of its popular characters showing up in the modern videos to kinda remind you they exist, but fr feels like even with that aphmau doesnt want to reference them any further like she does with mystreet all the time...

its kinda sad since really i think a lot of my inner demons flaws would of been fixed with just a few things like better pacing, more focus on the magic crisis and just a bigger episode count than 26, also the fact that it wouldnt be hard to reference it or bring it back for another season, since truely, lets be real guys

when people say my inner demons can't be referenced or be brought back for another season because it was too mature or for a different audience, now that aphmaus brand is very cocomelon core, are kinda throwing the bar alittle to high in the standard of how "mature" my inner demons was, even with its more vulgar humor or times the character curses, it wasn't like my inner demons were aimed for adults, it was aimed for tweens or teenagers like any of aphmaus normal rps, it just wanted to explore with what it would get away with, no matter how little they did with actually trying, since the characters geniunely barely curse, only being sorta heard in the background as to censor it or just saying the safe verison of it, really i dont think my inner demons even takes itself as seriously as it wants to be taken as, since its main plot to reel you into the story gets thrown away in favor for the stupid harem plot, only reminding the audience of the main plot again in tiny scenes you don't care for because the series doesn't care, really back on the topic I feel like my inner demons was a huge waste of great elements with horrible execusion as it so desperately wanted to be seen as serious and mature but just felt well...MID

thats generally why im actually using source material and my own stuff for my rewrite since there are good parts to the og series that could of been better if executed better...

or if everything wasnt so focused on ava having to get fucking married to one of these jackasses because these five full grownmen are as dumb as rotting dirt firmented in cement, learn to wipe your own asses and put on your own clothes, these guys should know what a fucking toliet is and how to shower even without magic, we did not need a whole episode of ava teaching the guys how to BATHE, it isnt cute or hot--

THIS IS LITTARY LIKE WATCHING A GROWN ASS WOMEN WIPE FULL GROWN MENS ASSES LIKE THEY ARE BABIES--

GET MY GIRL OUTTA THERE

[windforestsso]

I still believe SSO should have rotating events instead of either having them same each time but leaving the players bored or try to one-up themselves to try to keep players interested but would mean the workers work on something that doesnt matter in the long run.

Having there be atleast two years between the same type could make players more excited. Like distance makes the heart grow fond or the like.

With the equestrian festival as exempel.

They could focus on four different riding styles: dressage, western, jumping and terrain. One for each Soul Rider.

Dressage would only have dressage, and not have Sabines races. Anne could have a quest where she teach the mc her routine she was supposed to do in the competition if she wasnt kidnapped (if the player havent saved Anne yet it could be Derek instead and he say something like "I dont know much about dressage but I would watch Anne practice and thought I should set this stuff up in her honor. I miss her") could also add some kind of rivaly with Jessica/jay as they where her villian in the old ssl games

Western would like wise only have western stuff and of players havent saved Lisa yet it could be her dad setting things up. This could be over done with camp western being a thing now. Could have a quest with Sabine. Scott buttergood can be included here with the farm animals running away.

Jumping would have Linda (who is she close to that can hold in stuff if shes still in the castle?) Linda didnt have anything against a dark rider in the ssl game so it could be Erissa. But as she comes to the game so late maybe its best if its mr Sands instead.

And Alex would have terrain. Her quest could go up against Katja. I thought it could be fun if this included outfits thats covered with mud.

If four different equestrian festivals is too much it can instead be split up to two. Like have one version with Dressage in jorvik stables and jumping in moorland. And another version with terrain in jorvik stables(or in greendale) and western in Moorland (could be in starshine ranch but to not have it too much like camp western its probably better for it to be in moorland)

With Halloween it could be that every other year Ydris can take over again to have his party, and those years would focus on the party aspect of halloween, with costumes and tales around fire pit.

And the other years it focus on the more scary part of Halloween, ghost and spiders. Have more tales about jorvikian history.

Dont know how to best split up winter event.

It can also be a complete flop of course.

With people getting mad or frustrated that the current years version of an event is less popular and need to wait about year to play the version they like.

[ganondoodle]

since seeing a post from a mutual yesterday i was thinking about how grateful i am that i can now, confidently say something like -im taking demise away from nintendo- or -hes MY character now- while knowing that the people following me will understand that thats not actually possible and also i dont mean that literally literally (duh)

bc (while i have mentioned it in the past and im not trying to fish for sympathy with this, the memories ... and trauma really does come back every now and then) there were people once that imagined i said that about a popular character in the fandom i was in when i was a teen and proceeded to try (and nearly succeeding bc i was already struggeling alot with depression, anxiety and undiagnosed autism) to bully me into killing myself; perhaps it wasnt their actual goal, but the shit they did (alot of them were adults too), was absolutely insane, but i've only been able to see that wayyyy after the fact

like even if im remembering wrong and i did word it wrong or weird or in a way that was easily misunderstood, i was a teen, with english not as my first language and it still was some fandom shit that ultimately did not matter and never in any scenario warrented that level of harrassment, i dont even think i ever told my parents bc i thought i had to deal with it alone since i 'caused' it too and since then just ... wanting to forget it ever happened

while i am much, much better now, and slowly learning to manage my mental health struggles too, i do wonder just .. how much of how i am today was shaped by that horrible experience, like the way i overly try to pre-apologize and put doubts on every thought i write out, or the panic i feel when something does go outside my usual range (mostly twitter really ..) was immensely worsened by that .. among stuff i probably dont even realize

funnily enough, i made my account on tumblr to try and flee from all that was happening to me (even if they did stalk me at first .. even here) and hey, im still here :D

i guess what im trying to say is, i am very happy to still be here, i am grateful to be able to be myself, even with its downsides, even with my problems, even if the things i do are passable at best, even if i will never "make it big", even if i am annoying at times, even if i do mistakes still, even if i am .... horribly bad at replying to the awesome people that message me-

there are, at least a few people, who enjoy, or even care, or heck, even think about what i draw and write, which is .. still mind boggling to me and i might never be able to truly believe its all real, there are people who are able to see beyond my flaws, forgive me if i do missstep or overreact, and just be aware that even with everything i share about me, there is lots you dont know that may inform why i feel a certain way about something, but thats okay, i am human, i am here, there are people who enjoy my brainworms, and perhaps even think i, as a person, am nice

i am so grateful for that

some things are good

[zuzu-fairys-tail]

FT challenge

Natsu Dragneel

jiggle butt gang

mest gryder

Loke

328 ( last episode)

op. 9, Towa no Kizuna

ed. 15 kimi to kare to boku to kanojo to

arc of time

Zeref Dragneel

NaLu, GruVia, JeRza, GajEvy, ElfGreen, MiraXus and ofc my babies ZerVis (also most of the couples with cannonical evidence ig, emphasis on MOST cuz i dont mean stuff like mest and Wendy)

Happy

The Grand Magic Games

Daphne arc which is anime-only but canonical arcs ig sun village. theres nothing bad about it but i just didnt enjoy it as mush as the other arcs.

Max lol

Gemini

Edo Gajeel ( ill consider him canon cuz Mashima wanted to add him in the manga but coulnt due to lack of time), Nasha, Greige and Mystogan cuz i cant choose.

End of The battle of Fairy tail arc ( Fantasia parade), Laxus's goodbye.

ch 1 cuz the art makes me feel nostalgic

Lahar lol idk why but i really liked him. I would say Ultear bit ig she isnt technically dead? and i want Zeref and Mavis to live but ik theyre happier being dead.

the sad main theme (idk if it has a name) and also the one used in the Laxus vs Erza fight.

tbh idk but if i had to choose then ig Lisannas return? i really like her but shes lets be honest, shes carried by Mira and Elfman. Heck even Fricken MAX has more moments than her. i dont rly blame Mashima cuz she wasnt supposed to come back though. i think her being dead added more to Mira and Elfmans development ig.

tbh its so hard to choose cuz i find myself crying every other episode but ig its Zeref and Mavis's deaths and Natsu's goodbye to Zeref.

The whole of the changeling episode and only the guilds part of ep 50, watch out for the guy u like ( cuz NaLus part was cute).

Zeref Dragneel

Natsuuuu

Natsu vs the twin dragons, erza vs 100 monsters, Gray vs Rufus and Lucy vs tartaros. I cant choose.

Meredy

10/10 (1000000000000000000....../10)

I love the feels, emotional scenes, humor, plot twists, fights, character relationships, worldbuilding, female character representation and Happy the cat.

i was reading a random CBR 'top 10 funniest anime kisses' which my friend told me to read i dont remember y and i saw the Natsu and Happy kiss and idk i just found it cute and Fairy Tail is one of the most popular anime so i thought 'this looks fun' thats how.

[cat-autism-wizard]

the first time star realized she liked girls was when she met paulina sanchez. everyone's first love. at first she just wanted to play with her hair and do her make-up. it was normal stuff friends did. then star realized her eyes were lingering more on her lips. anytime paulina told her about her crush of the week star felt a grip in her heart. she was jealous. she liked paulina, she liked her so much. but she never acted on her feelings and somehow got over them when they were juniors.

the next time she had feelings for a girl was sam manson even though she would NEVER admit this to anyone. at least she wouldnt admit it willingly. star always admired sam in a way. she was always herself, unapologetically herself. star wanted to do that too but she couldnt. there were too much to lose in her eyes. she was scared to lose her friends. she knew realistically paulina wouldnt leave her but her mind was telling the opposite sometimes. but sam was herself even though she only had two people by her side. and still would be herself even if she didnt have anyone by her side. she was just like that. it amazed star. then she realized how loyal and caring she was. after ghost attacks sam would be the first one to run to check on the injured people. other than her best friends she always ran to help people. thats how star realized her feelings. after an attack she was injured on the leg, it wasnt necessarily bad but it did make walking much harder. sam ran to her and treated her wound best she could. even helped her to walk. sam talked with a smooth and soothing voice with star that day. star knew it was a habit to keep injured people calm but for star it felt something. she wanted to listen to her talk like that for hours. she liked sam. but she could never admit it nor could she confess it to the goth. eventually she moved on.

after graduating highschool and enrolling in a college of her choice she felt free. no expectations for her to act a certain way. dont get her wrong she loved her friends but the rules were stupid. why were there even rules? at first years it was more comfortable to play by the rules but as she grew up star realized how much of a shallow thinking it was to obey the rules of being popular. she grew to hate it. in college she was free from that. she was also free to explore herself. the part of her she knew but was too afraid to admit. star met a girl. she was beautiful and funny. they met at a party maybe it was the beer she was drinking but star wanted to make a move. they clicked right away and ended the night in the dorm rooms. thats how her first relationship with a girl started only to end with a heartbreak. star adored the girl, she was there though it all. when she fell sick and couldnt attend her classes, star was there with notes she bought and medicine that she will need. when her period cramps were too much, star was there to make her tea and chocolate for her cravings. star did everything to make her happy only for her to say it was something casual and that she wasnt even into girls that way. it broke star's heart into million pieces. she was inconsolable for a month. too much that paulina stayed with her for a week to make sure she was fine. star started to talk more with her old friends. she would call paulina almost everyday, would talk to valerie, kwan and dale times to times and sometimes would text dash. she was getting better even starting to go to parties again. she was over her.

when star went back to amity park on her summer break of her third year she felt weird. everything was the same but also so different at the same time. the park they used to go had more benches and people were having picnics like she used to do with her friends. she smiled at the memories. as she was driving to her house she got a call from paulina asking if she arrived. she let her know there would be a part at dash's house just like highschool days but it was more of a little gethering than a party. they both knew it was a lie. when dash held parties it was never little or quiet. she decided to go just to see her friends. when she got there most of the people had already arrived. she took herself some beer and searched for her friends. she saw dale with a beautiful girl, he introduced her as his girlfriend. she was a really sweet girl. dale was telling her about his days in highschool. star joined just to embarrass dale a little and she really liked reminiscing her highschool days. after a little time kwan and paulina joined them. to no one's surprise paulina get along with dale's girlfriend very well quickly. it was like her super power. star smiled at them and excuse herself. she needed some fresh air. the garden was too crowded so she went to the balcony in the second floor. thats where she saw sam all those years later. she had a beer in her hand, sitting on the rails, enjoying herself. sam looked beautiful. she dyed the back of her hair purple and wore a beautiful black dress that looked like a bat. a bold eyeliner with red and purple eyeshadow with almost black red lipstick. she was beautifully and unapologetically herself. when she saw star, she couldve swear that sam checked her out. sam smiled at her and pat next to her for star to sit. they talked about how years went by. sam looked happy, star wouldve lied if she said she didnt envy her. they talked for hours while drinking their beers. star thanked and cursed the boost of beer when she accidentally told sam about her crush on her when reminiscing the highschool days. it caught sam off guard. at first there was an awkward silence until sam broke it with a laugh. sam told her how it felt unreal to learn one of the most beautiful girl in highschool had a crush on her. star adored that laugh and joined her embarrassed. when their laughs died down sam looked at her in the eyes. star wanted to blame it on the alcohol that she wanted to kiss her. when her eyes fell to sam's lips, she grinned. sam kissed her. it was a sweet but passionate kiss like both of the girls wanted this for a long time. after the kiss sam gave her her number and get inside the house again leaving star as a blushing mess.

[x1702x]

1, 7, and 16 for the violence ask game!

1.The character everyone gets wrong

Now, this is a basic answer, but it's Gehrman. Now I know I know, this has been repeated to utter HELL but let's be fair, if it wasnt this common I wouldn't be talking about it. I just HAATEEE when people water him down to some pervert old guy. He's very complex!! Ughhh ily peepaw,,

7.What character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because how the fandom acts about them?

I wouldn't say hate at all, I dont hate any BB chars to be fair, although I am tired of how some people act about Laurence. Its either hatred or woobification 😭 I dont hate him in the slightest, yet he can be vile in my own headcanon.

16.You can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

FINALLY I CAN TALK ABOUT THIS OHHHHH.

LAURENCE OVERFEMINIZATION, FETISHIZATION OR TSUNDEREIFICATION. I AM SO TIRED!! SO EXHAUSTED!!

I dont know how popular it is on a broader extent but I've seen it quite a lot myself. Not just in fanart but in fanfiction. Wherever it be making him submissive yet defiant, or anything of the like.

We have to remember what Laurence is, he is the head of a CHURCH, a religious institution. He is a graduate (assuming), a researcher... He is a public figure, someone yharnamites have put their trust and respect on. Im not forcing everyone to be time-period accurate but lets be honest. If Laurence was any of the latter he wouldn't be respected in the slightest.

I am tired of Laurence being the "uwu bottom but angy boi!! Dont touch meh tail!" Kinda mf. Especially when its with a nasty intent. It feels shallow to put this character in specific on such light.

Im not name-dropping yet Ive seen someone with very odd Laurence art, aswell as characterization. He looks rather femenine and childish yet he is supposed to be taken as serious. Ugghhh I dont want to go off on a long rant. But it just bothers me how some people portray him as some "Horny anime girl" just like one of my mutuals mentioned. This man is a VICAR!!

Im NOT saying you cant make him slightly femenine or andorgynous like, have you seen my Laurence? He fits that description and I dont mind! Just dont be nasty and use that feminization as a gateway to fetishize and make nasty stuff.

This is Bloodborne, if you want that, make an oc im begging. You can write as much nasty smut you want with it, just dont use the Bloodborne branding especially if it's going to be so far from canon that if you changed names it could perfectly be oc content.

I also hate the oversexualization of the doll n stuff aswell as other things but my mutuals have taken the words off my mouth fr!!

But yeah thats kinda my whole rant😭😭 ty for asking crow!!

[daftpatience]

hiya anon who looks at your shop a lot to a point it's on their recommended pages here

i was just wondering whether you plan on having a preorder for the dunmeshi charms you're planning before or after the end of November because I want at least one tvdint charm but I'd like to make one large order instead of several small ones :3 I won't be angry at all if you say it will be later I just like to plan stuff before I do them because of my 'tism

im gonna be real here the preorder isn't going amazingly well so it's likely it will be extended into december along with the addition of the dungeon meshi charms! im still working on them but there are also gonna be like 50 or so characters to pick from ouoiuogiukjhg

(yes, they're all the same height and thats gonna bother me forever but having them all on the same base is the compromise im making for being able to afford to produce 50+ characters a set 😤 )

i kinda figured tvdint alone wasnt gonna be hugely popular (im still pleasantly surprised by the interest it is getting!!!) and had hoped to launch it alongside more stuff in the first place but i've always got not enough time to do what i want lol

[ninesdb]

Olympian Bucky AU

Okay, a few people said they would love to hear more about my AU, so here we go! @btwxsixesandsevens @realmamabear79 @milady-elessar

Ill start with saying that i did archery as a teenager, but i had a bare horse bow. So it was just 1 piece and didn't have any sights or stabalisers or whatever. I did have my lessons with people that did have those, so i do know a little about it, and all the other technical stuff is from the 'net. So if you know more about (recurve) archery than i do, please let me in on all the insider knowledge!

For those not familiar with archery, this is a recurve bow. Its the one used at the olympics.

And here is a picture with all the technical terms that i will use from time to time:

The compound bow is from my research the most common in the USA (it has a lot of power and is good for hunting), its also allowed on the paralympics. Bucky will be using the recurve tho.

Now to my ideas:

Bucky was born in Shelbyville, Indiana in 1987. The oldest of four, Rebecca (1989), Ruth (1991) and Esther (1999).

While they live there he just did some boring sports popular in the USA. Kinda switching between things if thats a thing over there, but none really stick.

Then they move to NYC in 1999 when Bucky was 12 years old because of his parents' work. One of his new classmates in NYC did archery and Bucky was invited to tag along to a class once.

And for the first time in his life he actually loved a sport. He loved the silence and accuracy that it required. He also loved that it was an ididivual sport so he wasnt dependent on a teams skill. Just his own.

So he asked his parents if he could join too who after some doubt allowed him to start. They didnt have a lot of money to spare, but he could use a bow from the club and the lessons didnt cost too much. It did help that Rebecca waw more into art and drawing so her hobby was pretty cheap. Bucky is extatic that he can start and he goes to lessons every week and practised his technique and strength whenever he could. He didn’t have money for his own bow and the first competitions he actually used one of the club’s bows that he always used during the lessons. He actually came second out of many kids on his first competition.

Meanwhile he was doing small jobs in the neighbourhood to earn enough money to buy himself a decent bow with sight and stabilisers. It cost him 400 USD to buy it all, because secondhand left handed bows were hard to come by so he had to buy it new, and it wasn’t the best quality, but it was so worth it. He could actually practise everything even better at home even without a target to actually practise at in their apartment.

When he started going to competitions more frequently it was often his coach driving him, because of his parents busy schedule and the fact that there were three little sisters at home too.

At 14, Bucky already competed at the national youth championships. By now he’d been able to upgrade his bow to a better and heavier bow (draw strength) and also a bigger one because his pull length had increased a lot with how much taller he’d gotten over the last few years.

But now i have an appointment so be back later with more!

[corvidcall]

Fascinated by your sarah z hate- would love to hear more about this if you’d like to share. My experience of her is just that mediocre Homestuck vid or something she made.

lmao yeah sure i guess i can expound on it

i should preface this by saying that i dont think shes like. a bad person. and i dont have some secret knowledge of problematique things shes done that we should all Cancel her for.

tl;dr i just think her videos are really bad. she keeps making videos about stuff that i was there for and then being wrong about them, and it drives me crazy. on top of that, it just rubs me the wrong way to make your whole brand "the lady who talks about tumblr"

like, i think her homestuck video sucks (and i think its very funny that she admitted that she only spent a week making it, but ALSO got really defensive when people said she was wrong about stuff. like, i think the way whatpumpkin and andrew hussie responded to her video was Bad but also that doesnt retroactively defend the original video from being poorly researched and, in my opinion, in bad taste. it was weird to make a video where you talk about all the controversy about hs^2 not that long after the whole project got cancelled because too many of the trans women working on it were receiving daily death threats)

and i think the mcelroys video sucks (that was the last one i watched before i gave up entirely. its really long and very boring, and basically is just her listing a bunch of stuff they did that people had problems with, which essentially puts "travis was annoying on twitch" on the same level of seriousness as "taz: graduation used a lot of harmful native american stereotypes". i genuinely am not sure what the point of this video was supposed to be, because it feels like its her reading a tumblr callout post. also she was wrong about taz: amnesty. the ending WAS foreshadowed, it did NOT come out of nowhere, she just wasnt paying attention.)

but the onceler fandom video is honestly the absolute pits. i am still friends with a lot of the people that i was in the onceler fandom with, and i genuinely havent met a single former onceslut who thought her video was good, or the least bit accurate. her thesis basically boils down to that the onceler fandom was just a bunch of young teen girls projecting fantasies onto a nonthreating decently attractive fictional guy, which isnt that weird and people are only making a big thing about it because they hate teenage girls. and her conclusions arent WRONG, per say, since people DO hate teen girls and this is a thing theyre known to do... its just. thats literally not what the onceler fandom was at all?? first off, when i got into it i was 17 and i was the youngest person i knew by far. almost everyone i saw in the fandom were in their 20s, and a lot of them were not girls at all. and as far as any of US remember, the thing sustained the fandom wasnt 13 year old girls exploring their nascent sexualities, it was people using the barest pretense to make OCs, and then craft stories with and about their friends OCs. it was a really cool unique experience because it was a fandom for the things the fandom built. a lot of the people i knew had never watched the movie The Lorax at all, or didnt really care about it one way or another, but DID get really invested in the dynamic between Swag and One, or got really invested in the two big AUs the fandom had. By the time i got there, most people had kinda moved away from the canon onceler anyway, and were focused almost exclusively on the AUs (there was a high school AU and a zombie apocalypse AU, and then during the summer the high school AU blogs would do a child summer camp AU. i liked the zombie one best because i love melodrama, but the high school one was most popular). i know she was IN the onceler fandom (allegedly...) but as far as i can tell, she was just there at the very start, because it changed WILDLY even just a few months after its inception. and there's no way anyone who saw the fandom that I was actually in would make the sweeping statements about it that she did.

broadly, her videos are too unfocused and not really well-written. her one on Oppa Homeless Style was a genuinely good video!! I know she CAN do good videos!! But so many of her more fandom-focused videos dont really seem to have a thesis beyond "this happened" or maybe even "this was kinda weird right?". like what is the viewer supposed to take away from the video about the mcleroys? that they made a podcast that was really popular and then got less popular? why did that take you TWO HOURS to say? and even when she does have a strong thesis, its always muddied by the fact that she feels compelled to add in really long, boring digressions. I think the video about All or Nothing was good, and made an interesting point about how pan and ace people are really starved for meaningful rep, but i dont understand why she felt compelled to recount the entire plot of the webseries someone made? what did that contribute to the thesis? its like shes reading a wikipedia page, and not like. an actual ESSAY. that someone structured to convey a POINT.

but overall i just take umbrage with her whole "tumblr historian" shtick. i think its kind of gross to put really niche (generally woman-dominated) subcultures on display so people can come gawk at the freaks. ive heard the defense that "she IS a fandom person!! these videos are FOR fandom people!!" but 1. if its supposedly supposed to be for me and NOT an audience of people unfamiliar with the thing shes talking about, then there would be no need to spend so long explaining what everything is, and 2. i can at least say, in my own subjective experience, that i said basically all this to my sister, who told me that thats why she likes sarah z at all, because the videos let her come gawk at all the fandom freaks on tumblr. so its cool that sarah z is giving the person who bullied me my whole life (specifically because the way i engaged with media was too cringe) more reasons to bully me for being cringe. big preesh sarah. glad youre making money off of the free content all of us put out, and even more glad that youre profiting by taking all that free content and presenting it to a largely hostile and judgemental audience who already thinks im a fucking idiot. why dont you make a video about my popular hamlet post next, since you seem to make videos exclusively about things i did.

anyway if i want to watch video essays about fandom, i'll watch princess weekes, whose videos are substantive and not... idk very juvenile. not that i think there cant be more than one youtuber talking about fandom!!! its just that sarah z's videos are mid at best and actively bad at worst, so im not gonna bother.

(all that being said, i occasionally look at her blog and reblog stuff. while shes working down in the tumblr mines looking for content to steal, she does frequently find some decent posts to reblog)

[a-court-of-moonlight-and-ire]

So, I usually read acotar on the bus and during class and then I come home and write these posts but I had a Certified Mental Health Moment and couldnt go for the entirety of last week and I didnt feel like reading during that time, so yeah

Anyway, Ive made it through chapter 30 I think (sry i forgor and i dont feel like taking the book out of my bag rn to check) so Ive just gotten to the point where Feyre arrived UTM through that weird interdimensional (?) shortcut and then a hand grabs her and then the chapter ends. That means Ive finally had my proper introduction to my literary mortal enemy, the man, the myth, the legend, Rhysand Nolastname, and also Feyre's sisters as actual characters instead of the weird caricatures they were previously

The stuff with Nesta and Elain is honestly baffling to me, like was there not an editor to suggest maybe adjusting those first few chapters when she decided to flesh them out more? One of the acotar critiques I watched before reading was this one by a podcast called Unresolved Textual Tension and one of the hosts kept remarking that sjm "couldnt go back to change things" in reference to her constant retconning of characters with very little elaboration, but like, why? First of all, I dont think thats literally true; to my knowledge (which is admittedly limited so feel free to correct me here) sjm had her start on fiction press with the first throne of glass book, posted serially chapter by chapter, which got really popular and was then traditionally published in 2012, but every book after that was always intended to be published as a whole work went through the whole traditional publishing pipeline with editors and whatnot. So the issues with ACOTAR cant come from it being a serialized story that wasnt properly planned out and then wasnt fixed up in editing, right? And the only other thing I can think of is that she just didnt have an editor (or atleast not a very thorough one) which, people say that a lot of her more recent work (CC series, ACOSF) feel unedited because of how they drag and how often the prose seems to repeat itself and by this point shes popular and influential enough that Im pretty willing to believe that, but was she that popular back in 2015 from TOG alone? Idk if anyone can tell me anything about this I would appreciate it

I already have a lot of thoughts about Rhysand (spoiler alert: none of them are positive) but I think I'll save those for when we get to Those Scenes UTM. For now, I just wanted to ask all the Feylin girlies who read this book before ACOMAF came out or who went into the series without spoilers: didnt it feel incredibly weird that Rhysands beautifulness was so emphasized when, as far as you were aware, Feyre and Tamlin were meant to be endgame? Like, I think Feylin is cute and all but Im not really too invested in it because I dont find either of them on their own or their dynamic together that interesting, but it still felt a little disrespectful if thats the right word. Like, I know love triangles are a Thing in YA and I know they tend to be incredibly clear-cut and its usually very obvious whos gonna get the girl from the getgo, but in those cases the protagonist generally has some kind of actual relationship with The Bad Boy to justify a weird attraction to an obviously dangerous guy, in ACOTAR Rhysand has talked to Feyre exactly one time and then he sent over a head on a spike and here she is, talking about how indescribably beautiful he is while hes making her friend and the man she will claim to love in the next chapter go down on their knees to beg for her safety. Idk man it just feels so weird

[doctorwhoisadhd]

i dobnt know anything about doctor who or musical theory other than how to literally play an instrument but i am LIVING for ur commentary abt the devils chord. if you have time cld you plz explain more about historically inaccurate musical instruments and intervals ?

i mean idk how much i could really cover because my area of knowledge is really mostly the flute but ill give it a shot

the idea that the tritone was banned is a myth, really what happened is the tritone is 1) a difficult interval to sing if you havent heard it enough to audiate it (which medieval people would not have) because its a fairly wide interval and its not commonly used, because 2) medieval composers didnt use dissonances

a key aspect of music theory that people tend to forget is that it describes the general IDEA of what was happening in a specific type of music in a specific time period. like there arent rules until AFTER the fact, mozart wasnt looking at a big list and going okay so i have to make sure there arent parallel fifths and i can only resolve sevenths down etc etc etc, he was just writing what sounded right to him

there is an exception to that and its stuff like. Shostakovich. russian composers in that era werent allowed to write stuff that was too complex or dissonant or "sexual" because of the people in power. also a lot of composers worked off of commissions and stuff, so you write what people will pay you to write

but yeah like when i talk about music theory im talking about western music theory, which is western music. thai music has its own set of characteristics, as does indian music, as does hawaiian music, as does iranian music, as does cameroonian music etc etc etc etc etc.

(theres also a distinction to be made between different styles within a single overarching culture or genre. for example theres classical vs vernacular, which basically that makes the distinction between "high class" and "low class" music. vernacular is the popular everyday stuff such as pop or folk music. But then theres also different styles in each, so taking jazz as an example theres swing, bebop, hard bop, cool jazz, free jazz, 3rd stream, fusion, etc etc etc etc etc etc.)

in terms of the area of knowledge that i am the most acquainted with, well suffice it to say that the western concert c flute has pretty much been the same since 1847 when theobald boehm patented his modern system of keywork (the mechanism for how the keys. well. work). there have only been very negligible changes since then, and even before then as early as the 1820s at least there are similar instruments.

so really youd have to go back quite a ways for me to see a regular modern concert c flute and be like 🤨🤨🤨 Thats Not Historically Accurate. itd have to be late 1700s and earlier for my alarm bells to go off. alternatively, say anything about a concert C piccolo in JP Sousa's military band and i might have to call you on that as well but, you know, thats a little bit more niche

[autismsupersoldier]

as upset as i am over deleting my prev account, it has been incredible joy to see how many people reblogged my stuff with "ive reblogged this before and its still amazing" or even people who are seeing my art for the first time. its so lovely, thank you all :-) 🧡🧡🧡 i feel a lot calmer about this whole ordeal.

ok thats the short version of my musings, bit of a ramble below

it was never really about losing my followers for me, or anything like that. though that is also a reasonable thing to be upset over if youre for example trying to sell your art (or for any other reason, actually), but since that wasnt my intention, im fine with rebuilding my followerbase again. i have also noticed that, simply put, it really isn't very much about how many followers you have - what plays more of a role is whether you make fanart that resonates or not. most of my popular posts had more notes than i have followers - hence why i assume this to be true. but all that is to say, the real thing that caused me distress is a lack of archival. i have real bad memory issues, so a big thing for me is being able to archive my comings and goings on the interwebs, so that i always have a bit of a thread linking me to my past self. when a thread like that is lost, its terrifying - i know i am losing months, or even in some cases, YEARS of my past life, that i most likely won't be able to remember at all (yes, it can be that bad). but i think maybe im trying to live with it? yknow... things fall out, more things get put in. its not a good system by any means but its what i was given and i can work with it. i can learn to, at least. theres a reason i even developed such bad memory issues, and that was to keep me safe and well during my Survival Years, shall we put it. so i am not mad at myself, i should not be. maybe its fine to sometimes lose big chunks of your life. who says it has to be terrifying? my brain is just making space for more memories as it can feel our storage running out of GBs, so to speak. im still just trying to make my way through life yknow. im good. sometimes I'll forget. and people will tell me a funny story about myself that i had no idea about at all, ever. and I'll laugh just like them because it's still funny, even if its the first time i hear about it. i dunno. theres obviously bad parts of it and im not going to portray it in an Only positive light, but... im livin with it, n whatnot.

[goobie-goo]

thats all of the mcu interactions :[ (i have a lil blurb written from a tiktok trend based off the undertale “despite everything, its still you” thing, if youd also like to see that. it has dallas’ death in it ahahhaha *hides /j*)

i have a main thing for the MCU-DSU which is the ones where all the interactions take place but theres also a timeline where dallas entered the MCU and was immediately captured by HYDRA. he wasnt made into a winter soldier, they just experimented on him. it went on for around a year to three maybe before dallas finally sees an escape when the avengers are attacking the base. however the avengers enter and dallas has already killed all the scientists and soldiers in there (not many bc it was research and not military) and is just sitting, waiting for them. its obvious that dallas was a prisoner bc of the health condition and how he looks (also bc mental health. this is a slight relapse of a bad time. depression was worse for him and such). however over time, dallas heals and turns into the dallas into the interactions. (<- which is why i cant decide if its a main MCU-DSU thing or just a side au for my own entertainment. i like angst mk?)

oh and dally is a “hero” (he prefers not to be called a hero. vigilante is fine). he goes by his title Striker as a call back to his youth. he has magic bc of the Eye thing— mostly uses a limited amount of his magic so he doesnt get sent to the Raft or people target him. mostly soemthing similar to strings like spidey’s webbing (but not sticky obvi) (but he could copy it if he tweaked a few things), yelan’s skill/burst in genshin, and the metaphor strings used for dream in that one sad-ist animation. he also surprised the avengers and vigilantes w his expert use of weapons and firearms. his name striker was literally bc he has a good aim— he strikes like a snake (also a copperhead ref). he also,, idk,, FOUGHT IN A WAR??? skip made sure all of the crew knew how to defend themselves so… (its sad that 12yo had to learn how to use knives and guns, not for hunting, but for self-defense— aiming to kill.)

the string examples (magic. idk what else to call it man 😭) -> yelan elemental burst

https://images-ext-1.discordapp.net/external/xOQJ-vsJUv8RbyVdfwuluSN4WiMDg2UlLqGZf0f0QMY/https/media.tenor.com/XUisj6flMgUAAAPo/yelan-genshin-yelan.mp4

above is a scene from yelan’s demo which really helps set it out. copy n paste into a browser (i used safari) and if it asks to download, press view instead. gif should play. :] this one is the closest to what i have in mind!!

the dream string metaphor used (strings for puppeteer for manipulation.) (probably popular opinion: i dont like c!dream. as a villain ehh idk if i can personally say if i like how hes written bc i dont. i dont like it. and i also dont like cc!dream so (shrug emote that i dont wanna paste rn)

YAAAAAA mcu time!!

i think dallas being taken by hydra could work as an au or as the main thing (timelines splitting happened in marvel, right? i havent watched loki in forever LMAO)! but honestly both are super duper cool :0

dude dallas is such a badass (forced to be a child soldier and learn how to fight for himself 🥰)

I LOVE THE DREAM STRINGS!!!! i should go back and rewatch sad-ist their stuff is so cool… (dw i dont rlly like c!dream or cc!dream either LMAO its all good) ¯\_(ツ)_/¯