#but that was 100% wrong and ill acknowledge that now!

[morphean42]

Falsettos unpopular opinions because two people asked for this and honestly I don’t give a fuck anymore. I want to state this isn’t in response to anyone in particular, though, and if you get offended by any of these think about why. For a good reason? Please tell me and I’d love to debate it, truly. For a petty reason? You’re simply part of the problem.

1. They are Jewish. End of story. If I see anything related to Christianity or Christmas or whatever the fuck with them… shut up. Yes Whizzer is half-Jewish, yes in the revival Cordelia isn’t Jewish (WHICH BRINGS ME TO ANOTHER POINT ILL GET INTO LATER), yes they are most likely secular as evidenced by Mendel’s “religions just a trap” and ‘Days Like This’, no this does not give you the right to ignore their ETHNICITY AND CULTURE.

2. It’s okay to like the revival more. It’s not okay to ignore the original just because you get blinded by conventionally attractive men. Going to my Cordelia point, she’s Jewish in the original, her line ‘Shiksa caterer’ is ‘Kosher caterer’. Again it’s fine if your headcanons and fanfics and fanarts are based on the revival, I love it too, but stop acting like it’s the only version.

3. Whizzer’s entire personality does not revolve around being gay. He’s not a sassy twink. He’s a full grown man with issues that need to be addressed. Again, I reiterate, he is not a twink. Stop. Drawing. Him. Skinny. And. Hairless. I don’t care if ‘ oh but but that’s just my art style!’ Shut up.

4. Correlated to the above point, here are things Whizzer is not: a prostitute, a drug addict, relying on Marvin for everything, a twink (saying that again to get it through peoples fucking skulls), innocent. I’m 100% positive if the people who had these headcanons watched the OBC version of the show they’d never continue to advocate for them… once more I’m begging you guys to look past Andy Randy’s beautiful face and actually use critical thinking skills when it comes to Whizzer.

5. Short but (not) sweet: don’t claim to understand Marvin if you haven’t watched In Trousers. Just don’t.

6. If you flat out hate any character in the show, you’re wrong. Yes I’m still mad about the Mendel thing; if you think any one character is worse than the rest and isn’t just a fully human person with flaws and nuance, you don’t understand the musical as well as you claim.

7. It’s not the ‘gay’ musical. If you like falsettos for Whizzvin and nothing else, please, just… I don’t even know. There’s so much more to it than ‘ooo boys kissing.’ Please grow up, this leads into a whole other point but fetishisation is never okay, no matter who does it.

8. So many people treat Trina as either a perfect angel or just the side character in the way of the gay people. She’s an entire person, an entire character with flaws and hardship and terrible actions done by her and to her. Treat my homophobic queen with the respect she deserves, and acknowledge her faults too. It’s more misogynistic to treat her as perfect when she has issues too than just saying ‘she’s never done anything wrong’.

9. Stop making AIDS jokes.

10. This next one is probably the most iffy on the list. I will never be one to police fandom and creation, you can engage with material in any fucking way you like it literally doesn’t matter to me… but I dislike AUs. Now, I’ll always enjoy a little fun, adding in a twist like lesbian Whizzvin, or enjoying a feel good college AU. But. Especially for Falsettos the canon events are so fucking important and cannot be disregarded as casually as some do. AIDS is an extremely important part of the story, as well as the fact that both Marvin and Whizzer are men. I’m trans myself, but I dislike making them so simply because everything about their characters, all the characters, are so highly specific and important to take these aspects away is to disrespect the message of the musical.

11. It’s very important Mendel is straight. I see some people headcanon him as bisexual or trans or so on, and this just feels so wrong to me. Trina and Mendel are straight and that’s why their acceptance and love for the others in the Tight Knit Family is so important, especially Trina struggles with moving away from the idea that these ‘homosexual tendencies’ are wrong. They are straight but they love Whizzvin and the lesbians just as much as anyone else.

12. This one is so petty and I accept that, but… HIS NAME IS NOT MARVIN GARDENS. GARDEN IS A JOKE CHRISTIAN BORLE MADE BASED ON MONOPOLY. Jesus guys please just stop it it’s so stupid, William Finn didn’t have a last name for Marvin on purpose, and though I can’t do more than theorise what that purpose was, Gardens is so stupid. It’s not even funny. Same goes for Cohen, which just is odd. The only name I could begin to accept is Falsetto, and even then… just work around the last name in your fics.

12 1/2. SIDE TANGENT Jason would never take Weisenbachfeld as his last name. As a child of divorce… no. He’ll never view Mendel as a true father over his own dad, especially after Falsettoland, and he wouldn’t take that name. Hell, I’d known my ex step-father since I was two and I’d never have taken his last name. So, please, I never want to see Jason Weisenbachfeld again. That’s just not how it works.

At the end of the day this is just me alone in my room bitching… I just hope these points resonate with others.

[opal-owl-flight]

A rousing victory on all fronts!!

You can hear the team chanting the Sploon1 victory theme from here.

This is the best outcome that 3 could ever have hoped for. A Splatfest they were allowed to fight in, AND theyre winning team? Its a dream come true.

And Team Past winning is a message that they had hoped to hear for reasons that hit close to home.

On the more personal side, they chose this team because they had one good memory, one good year, and that single point in their life is going to keep them going. Theyre going to work so they can make more of that experience for themself.

Theyre a nostalgic soul. They want things to be simple like when they first turned 14 and left home.

But thats not all.

They believe that there has to be a return to form between the nations that participated in this fest. Long ago, they were all in harmony until the waters rose. Now that the nations are together again, they want them to just think of the music, the art, the food, the culture they can share with each other instead of fighting all the time.

Team past winning could be a show of a similar sentiment. Bury the hatchet. Lets hold hands like how we did it back then. Fucks sake -- most of Inkadia isnt even aware of Octaria. They were kind of just forgotten.

Inkadia is willing to open their arms again. Octaria is still a lil skittish but itll get better. They have reason to be, anyway.

Thing abt the two nations is that -- for several years now, migrations and travel have been more or less commonplace. Lots of Octarians in Inkopolis now, thanks to the platoon's help. Most people have relations with an Octarian. Inkadia didnt notice it at first. When they did though, there was apprehension. Thats where 3s peace talks come in.

Beyond the powers that be, regular Inkadians saw no reason to fear the Octarians (unless theyre part of those idiot fringe groups similar to Cuttlefish before). Theyve known these guys for years now, theres no harm.

The grandfest is Inkadia finally shaking hands with Octaria officially. Now even Octavio feels safe in bringing the dome dwellers up. Only reason he was strict with travel in the first place was his fear of Inkadians being nasty to his people.

Admittedly...yes, they were nasty to his people for a while. There was this subconcious bias/expectation that the Octarians should act a certain way to be accepted. To leave behind what made them Octarian, to blend in, assimilate. More passionate Octarians were usually excluded. There have been movements to bring light to these issues, which the platoon also participates in, and slowly but surely things changed for the better. Its not 100% perfect yet but its still moving forward.

And then team past wins?? Its like Inkadia is saying "we fucked up. Were sorry. How can we make up for it?"

It wasnt about returning to the past, (though the past that these winners fight for is a past when the two nations were in harmony) its all about learning from their mistakes to make a better present and future.

The win meant that society is acknowledging that theyve made mistakes and are willing to make up for it.

Its the best result for 3, really. They want Inkadia to face the fucking facts while they make up for everything theyve done wrong. They are an agent that relies on previous experience to get better. They observe past actions, they look at previous mistakes bit too much Ill say and think of how to improve themself (and others.)

To get better, you have to study the past. This is true for battle, and also personal growth.

3 has so much hope for the future bc of this, and they never thought theyd ever hope again.

Knowing that Inkadians are willing to do that effort really makes them believe in their nation more.

Their peace talks with the powers that be and their efforts of helping Octarians integrate with the surface Inkadians have paid off at last,,

Bc Inkadians tjemselves said that they want to make things better than how things were before

Theyre not alone in that fight anymore.

The Grizzco raids that stole a billion eggs back from the corporation was the first sign...and this win confirms their hopes.

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THIS IS SUCH A LONG ONE BUT YEAH!! 3 IS UNBELIEVABLY HAPPY FOR ONCE!!!

[moghedien]

I’m like sooo curious about the Aylin and Isobel after all this because we know they’re going help Selunite enclaves or whatever and I don’t think they’re ever gonna turn away from Selune really but I do wonder if there’s like a twinge of something about their relationship with the goddess now

because again I don’t think they’re gonna turn from her, but they both have their issues and trauma now. Aylin’s is a bit more obvious but I can’t stop thinking about how the game basically tells you that Isobel came back wrong and then never acknowledges that again.

Obviously she didn’t come back as wrong as some of her kin, but the first time we see her she seems ill with something. You can kinda dismiss that as being related to the Shadow curse without full context. Even if you read her diary, you can kinda dismiss it until you understand she’s Ketheric’s dead daughter.

Her diary:

Like she clearly isnt being spurned by Selune completely as she still has cleric magic and can still protect Last Light, but the phrase “there are some things she would never accept in her devoted” is so ominous. Isobel clearly knows that Selune is having some problem with her and the fact that the problem isn’t as clear as being denied her magic makes it even more ominous. If not that, then what is happening that makes this clear to her?

Then there’s Aylin, who is literally the daughter of Selune, who was sent by her mother to the Thorms. And obviously there isn’t any regret there because of Isobel, but then the Isobel dies under vague circumstances that may or may not be Shar related based on cut content. Then the people that Selune sent Aylin to protect cage her and torture her and use her as a lab rat and organ donor and ritual sacrifice over and over again for the next 100 years.

Aylin was supposed to be an envoy of her mother and ended up being the instrument in which Shar made weapon after weapon. She’s unwillingly spreading the darkness she’s against and all because Selune sent her to these people. Literally 100 years where all she can do is die again and again until she can convince one Sharran to listen to her and not just kill her again.

And like, you can also take into account the possibility that Aylin is an oathbreaker now. I don’t personally buy the theory but I know a lot of people do suspect that her reaction to killing Lorrokan was due to it breaking her oath. I think it’s more likely a trauma response but we can look at this either way.

Because killing Lorrokan should have been the righteous move. He was trying to use and defile her, one of Selune’s children, for his own petty reasons. He was going to commit the same sins as Ketheric. And it wasn’t like Aylin was the only potential victim of him. We know he hurt Rolan, and no doubt many others. What would a man like that do with immortality?

But then killing him just makes her feel empty? She protected herself. Protected Selune’s sword and anyone else that might have been suffering under him. And it doesn’t fill her with the same righteous ecstasy that it should. Suddenly being the righteous paladin doesn’t feel good, it just feels empty.

And if you believe that it did break her oath, then what? She’s being punished by Selune for defending herself and others? She stopped Selune’s envoy from being used in the same profane ritual she just escaped from and gets rejected and punished for that? She’s the one accused of violating Selune?

Again, I don’t personally think the reaction was caused by breaking her oath, but I think it’s a compelling angle to look at, at least.

And all of this to say that again, I don’t think either of them are going to turn against Selune and I don’t think they have a very strong reason to. But I do wonder how their relationship with her has changed in the last 100 years while Aylin was being forced to die for Shar over and over again and Isobel was forced to live by Mrykul, completely unprotected by the moonmaiden they had both been absolutely devoted to.

I just wonder what was going through their heads when they talked to Shadowheart about her past and the fact that she has a choice now, that Selune would take her back after a life time of Sharran indoctrination and crimes committed in her name. Now she has a choice. I wonder if in that moment, there wasn’t even the smallest bit of bitterness toward Selune on their part.

[zeezelweazel]

can you do a h/c alexia fic with a fluffy ending? i don't really have a scenario but ill take anything. and i don't mind whether it's r comforting alexia or alexia comforting r

Alexia Putellas| Not like before|

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I loved this idea and honestly I think it's about time I wrote something other than smut lol

I'm not really proud of how this turned out

TW: Alexia's injury, hurt/comfort

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It's been a year and a few months since the day Alexia tore her ACL. She was doing better, both on and off the field, as you helped her through every step of her recovery. Or so you thought.

You can't remember exactly when you started noticing the signs but you know it's not just you. Mapi, Alba and even some of the staff members alongside some of your other teammates have started to notice a shift in the captain's behaviour. She was spacey and unfocused more often than not, even during training which is something the captain would never allow herself to do. She seemed to be especially nervous and fidgety days before matches, especially the important ones.

What got everyone really worried was her absence from training camp and the last few matches of the nation's league. The team wasn't nervous, they knew they could qualify for the Olympics anyway but Alexia leaving the camp a few hours after she arrived made everyone particularly worried.

You thought this was your chance to finally get to the bottom of this.

It seemed simple in your head but now, when you're standing in front of Alexia's bedroom door, your stomach is clenched tightly and uncomfortably. You gulp down your nerves and decide to finally knock on the door. A few seconds of silence go by and just as you're about to knock again you hear Alexia's voice.

"Come in." Alexia's voice was quiet and tired. You softly opened the door. Alexia was laying on the bed, mindlessly scrolling away on her iPad. She barely looked up from the screen to acknowledge you. Not really knowing how to approach her you sat down next to her. You took a peak at the screen to see a tweeter thread. That was really surprising given that the last thing Alexia likes to do on her free time is scroll on social media.

It's only when you read the comments that you finally understand.

'Alexia isn't playing again? It's probably her knee'

'It's sad how she'll never play at 100% again'

'I miss the old Alexia, she looks scared to play now'

'She used to be the greatest before her injury'

'She was in the peak of her career, now it's all over'

Your heart ached as the comments kept flooding the screen. You can't imagine how Alexia must feel as she reads through them. You don't know if she's noticed you or not but her eyes are glued on the screen. You finally decide to take action, Alexia is stunned when you grab the device out of her hands. She looks at you with an unreadable expression. You decide to place your hand on her back, Alexia doesn't move away but you know that the physical contact does very little to help.

"Ale please, you need to stop looking at these posts. You know how the internet is-"

You couldn't even finish your sentence, Alexia was already up from the bed and moving towards the bedroom door.

"Alexia."

You called out for her but the Catalan was already out of your shared room, leaving you alone and confused to ponder over what you said wrong.

You decide to call Mapi and tell her about what happened with Alexia. The blonde seemed to be very concerned for her best friend after you narrated the incident. Both of you tried to find a solution, a way to talk to Alexia. You have to help her, you can't bear seeing her like this. Not when just a year ago she was running on the pitch like an untamed wind, playing her favourite sport for her dream club and winning every possible trophy.

You knew better than everyone how this injury affected her. You naively thought that after the world cup win she'd immediately be back to her old self. Unfortunately that's not how ACL tears work. Your head is a mess, running at a hundred miles per hour as you desperately try to work a way around this mess.

You throw yourself in training the next few days, hoping that by doing so you'll be able to clear your head. If the rest of the girls have caught on on your distress they don't mention it.

After an exhausting three hour training session you move through the stadium, eager to reach the locker room and pack your stuff to go home. You hear faint sniffles just before you enter and you pause outside of the door. If someone is crying, then something serious must've happened. But then again, you don't know if the person crying wants company right now. Against your better judgement you decide to open the door anyway.

"Hey, wha- Alexia..?"

The blonde abruptly looks up and she hastily wipes the tears from her face, as if that would erase the image of her crying just a few seconds ago. Your heart breaks at the embarrassment that's evident in Alexia's face. She shouldn't feel embarrassed to cry, especially not in front of you. You take a careful step forward and when Alexia doesn't move you continue to approach her. You take her face in your hands and make her look up at you. Your heart breaks at the absolutely defeated look in her eyes.

"Ale... what's wrong? You can talk to me."

Alexia pulls back and sits down on one of the benches. You take the invitation and sit down next to her. You're both quiet for a while but you understand that Alexia needs to collect her thoughts.

"It feels like I'll never play again." You look at Alexia when she finally breaks her silence and you let her continue." Every time I step on the training field it feels pointless, because when I look at the team sheet I'm not even on the bench. And when I do play, I either do horribly or my knee starts acting up immediately after. I'm going to be too old to play by the time I'm fully fit."

You wrapped your arms around Alexia after she finished her rant. To be honest, you didn't really know what to tell her, you were scared that you were going to fuck up but you had to try.

"You can't give up Alexia."

Short, plain, simple and incredibly basic. So basic that you're sure she's heard it a million times before. Still Alexia looks at you and her eyes seem just a little bit brighter.

"Plus you're la reina."

You press a quick kiss on her lips and your heart swells when she smiles.

"The best footballer in the world."

Another kiss.

"The biggest idol in women's football."

Another one.

"And of course, the best girlfriend ever."

Alexia is laughing now, full and happy, as she wraps her arms around you in a tight embrace. You feel like you haven't seen her laugh in forever, the sound bringing a warm feeling to your body.

"Thank you, mi amor."

You brush a stray strand of hair behind her ear and lean in to kiss her once more.

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[lookinthymirror]

an ode to zionist women

whenever anyone (especially gentiles) thinks of zionism, they think of, idk straight white men from europe (and the world needs and thrives on this view of zionism because it's their attempt of discrediting it and they think the perfect way to destroy zionism is by emphasizing the privileges of zionist jews, making it dangerously difficult and near impossible for jews who actually care about the injustices within the jewish community to acknowledge and lessen these disparities). i want to change that because 1) zionism is for ALL jews even when *some* jews perpetuated otherwise, 2) i won't allow misogyny to continue to succeed through this idea that zionism is a man's thing and 3) i want us to deal with these harmful misconceptions and get it out the way so we can properly stride towards an improved, fair future for us all. by letting these antisemitic ideas continue, we take steps backwards. zionist women deserve to be known. we have always been here and we always will be. if zionist women can be zionist knowing misogyny exists and will most likely eclipse their efforts, i don't know why people can't get over bad people who happen to be zionists because terrible people will always exist and anything can and will be weaponized; it's not the end of the world. (obligatory "anything and everything can be pretty harmful because nothing is perfect and humans are flawed"). if we deal with this now, we can also deal with all the misogyny directed towards zionist women from anti zionists etc!

ZIONIST WOMAN OF THE DAY: JESSIE SAMPTER

born in 1883, jessie sampter challenged zionist ideals of "strong, healthy bodies", being a disabled, queer, jewish woman (as a disabled woman myself, it is wrong that these ideals existed AND it makes sense that strong healthy bodies were championed considering the antisemitic world view of the jewish body as weak and unnatural...nuance!). the antisemitic belief that zionists all blindly supported israel/zionism/etc can quickly and easily be dismantled by actually looking at zionists, especially zionist women. no person is 100% supportive of anything so this is quite laughable. zionists have always been the leaders of criticism towards zionism (no one understands zionism more than zionists tbvh). zionists constantly argued amongst each other because they disagreed with each other's notions of zionism and each had their own specific interpretation that oftentimes clashed. she sometimes wrote negatively about zionist activity in the yishuv, highlighting how zionists have always been critical of zionism and other zionists.

jessie sampter was an defining educator, writer, poet and zionist pioneer and thinker. she encouraged jewish movement to mandatory palestine and considered herself "married to palestine". she wrote in both hebrew and english of a wide range of topics such as jewish nationalism, arab-jewish relations, life in the yishuv and her experiences which included same sex relationships and homoerotic desires. born into an assimilated jewish household, as an adult, she chose judaism and zionism after spending time in henrietta szold's home (important to note: before becoming friends with henrietta she was a part of the unitarian church). she had always cared about children all throughout her life, writing for magazines dedicated to children and as a zionist, writing for jewish children even up to her death.

at the time of her death in 1938, she had spent her entire life with russian zionist woman, leah berlin who had been living with her in kibbutz givat brenner, where sampter had established a vegetarian convalescent home. sampter fell ill and was hospitalized upon her arrival in jerusalem. yet she did not see herself as a drain on the zionist cause. rather, her essays framed her experience as a celebration of zionism for her english-speaking audiences: “to me it was almost worth the discomfort of a serious illness that I might spend several weeks as a patient, in the ranks of patients, in our own hadassah hospital in jerusalem—the rothschild hospital” (“bed number six").

JUST A FEW OF HER ACCOMPLISHMENTS:

she participated in organizing and fundraising for what would become the first school for the deaf in palestine. she also worked to ensure that education was available for yemenite jews in the yishuv. noticing that ashkenazi families excluded yemenite children from kindergartens and other schools, sampter helped create a kindergarten for yemenite children, a girl scout troop for yemenite girls, and an evening class for yemenite working girls. she would later adopt a yemenite jewish girl with whom she had developed a relationship during her visits to a jerusalem orphanage.

by 1914, sampter had become a key figure in hadassah. she served on the central committee, the organization’s main leadership council, alongside szold, lotta levensohn, nellie straus mochenson, alice seligsberg, and others. together, the women were effective organizers and fundraisers, though they did experience friction with the male-run zionist organization of america. the ZOA tried to bring hadassah under its own leadership structure, and often the men wanted the women’s support “but not their minds,” as henrietta szold wrote. sampter had no trouble using her mind for hadassah, however. she helmed the organization’s education department, served as a consultant for zionist education in baltimore, and ultimately published A Course in Zionism (1915), which brought together her investment in education with her zionism. she also published articles, pamphlets, and speeches in favor of zionism. “nationalism and universal brotherhood,” for example, argued for a principled position in favor of both internationalism and zionism: “as a jew I see that the idea of universal brotherhood is the crowning of jewish prophecy. and yet the jewish prophets were all nationalists.” she saw each nation (by which she meant something like people-group or culture, rather than nation-state) as contributing its own unique values and characteristics to the whole of humanity.

she edited a textbook with another zionist woman, alice seligsberg, wrote several books on philosophy and religion and published five poetry collections. below is one of her poems, titled "the light of exile":

tell me, what is exile’s light?

is it candles burning bright,

little candles in the night?

exile’s light is this old man.

ere the morning he began

israel’s holy page to scan.

and he teaches from this page

israel’s law in every age:

exile’s light is israel’s sage.

ending notes: jessie sampter and zionist women in general fought for the inclusivity of zionism to all jews and amplified the depth and complexities of zionism by continuously expanding its definition and creating their own version due to their love of human beings, their love of their fellow jews and their dedication to tikkun olam.

[thequeenofsastiel]

So while I don't love the idea of sharing my medical information like this, especially because the reason for my illness was pure stupidity on my part, I think what happened to me is so important for people to know, especially since cannabis(weed/pot/grass/marijuana etc) will almost certainly be legalized in the United States nationwide for recreational use in the next few years.

Now, let me preface this by saying that I 100% support legalization. Don't get it twisted. But there's a disease associated with cannabis use that I think is important to know about.

What happened to me was Cannabinoid Hyperemesis Syndrome. For people who don't want to click the link, essentially what happened is that my brain stopped processing THC(one of the active ingredients in cannabis which starts out as THCA but turns into THC when burned) in the same way that it normally does. They still don't completely understand why yet, though hopefully more research will be done to explain what exactly is happening in the brain and body. The symptoms are cyclical vomiting and intense abdominal pain. Because the disease isn't well known, people who get it usually end up consuming more and more because paradoxically cannabis treats what it causes. This can lead to a complete inability to even keep water down, which can result in kidney failure, killing the person who has it. This is almost what happened to me.

About six years ago I developed the disease. Like most people, I had no idea what was wrong so I kept smoking more and more. I lost all of my body fat, my muscles got eaten away to the point where I couldn't walk or even feed myself. I eventually had to go to the hospital for a kidney infection. I went to five doctors before I got to one who knew about CHS and was able to diagnose me. So I stopped smoking cannabis, and recovered eventually. And I would be remiss to not acknowledge that the only reason I survived was because my girlfriend and her husband(I'm poly) insisted that I move in with them so they could take care of me. They hand fed me, held me up in the shower, took me to doctors, and even allowed me to bring my cat to their house despite the fact that husband was allergic. I owe them my life.

For over a year, I couldn't even be in the same room as someone smoking cannabis. But slowly it got to the point where I could. And because cannabis is addictive(yes, it is addictive, don't listen to anyone who tries to tell you otherwise), I started smoking periodically. But I couldn't do it too often or my symptoms came back. CHS is a lifelong condition, as far as we're currently aware.

A few weeks back my roommate went out of town and asked me to care for their cat, saying I could have as much of their weed as I wanted. Because I was addicted and also stupid I smoked for a week straight. Then they came back and I stopped. I knew I'd probably pay for it, but I had no idea how much.

About a week and a half ago, I woke up around 2 AM needing to use the restroom. But I was massively dizzy and couldn't walk straight, and kept crashing into walls on my way there. I managed to go and make it back to my bed, and spent a couple of hours slowly getting dizzier and dizzier and more and more panicked. I finally decided that I couldn't handle it alone, so I reluctantly woke up my roommate. They sat with me on the couch while I got worse and worse(and berated me for not waking them up sooner, god I love my roommate).

After about an hour we realized we had no choice but to go to the hospital. We were planning on taking their car, but I eventually crumpled to the ground and was only barely responsive, so they called an ambulance. They had to strap me to a chair to carry me down two flights of stairs(we live on the third floor).

Once I got to the hospital, the doctors ran every test imaginable and they couldn't find anything wrong with me, likely because they've yet to develop tests for CHS. Since we couldn't find anything wrong with me, we had to assume that it was my CHS recurring. But it was worse this time.

The last time I had CHS, I never collapsed and became non responsive. I just lost more and more weight and had abdominal pain so severe that I could barely bring myself to breathe. So I had no way of anticipating what would happen. None of the research done on it so far indicates that this could be a result.

The result wasn't just nausea. I couldn't walk. Which made no sense. My leg muscles were fine. I didn't have any physical injuries. But I couldn't walk. So I was sent to a physical rehab facility. After a few days I finally had a physical therapist who is familiar with CHS and also has extensive knowledge of how the brain works. She said that what probably happened was that cannabis scrambled the neurons in my brain which damaged my ability to process external information in the way needed to be able to balance enough to walk. There's no guarantee that that's exactly what happened, but it makes the most sense to me. So they needed to work with me while my brain recovered. Which it did. I'm fine now. Though I still need anti nausea meds, but that probably won't be for much longer; my stomach appears to be recovering.

That's what happened to me. I don't like sharing how stupid I was, but I think it's important that people know that this is a potential side effect of cannabis use. Please either reblog this, make your own post about it, and/or tell people in your life that this can happen. Because this disease kills. I feel lucky to be alive after this. Though I will likely owe thousands of dollars to the hospital even with insurance. I don't know how much yet, and I'm not looking forward to the bill. Yay to the American healthcare system.

Sidenote, a fascinating side effect happened. I can no longer remember what it feels like to be high. Like intellectually I could tell you what it felt like, but the feeling is no longer there. The urge is no longer there. That's why I've been using past tense when I say I was addicted to it. The desire is simply gone for the first time in ten years. I think my brain is protecting itself. Refusing to allow me to want it so this never happens again. It's incredible what trauma can do to the brain. And may I just say. Thank fucking goodness.

[duchessofostergotlands]

To be honest I haven't liked the things Catherine has been saying about mental health lately. First that talking therapy doesn't help everyone, now this. For a royal to say a short sentence or two about mental health... it can easily come across the wrong way & doesn't show nuance. Yes, talking therapy doesn't help everyone, but her saying this could discourage people from trying it out. Not everyone who feels anxious has a medical condition and needs medication, but some of us do!

Let's look at what she said (and buckle up, it's a long one):

Quote number 1: At an art therapy charity. Someone said writing music had been an easier way to get their feelings out than talking in a clinical space. Kate responded: "Talking therapies don’t work for some people, they’re not for everybody. It’s so important to have a range of therapies." She then followed it up by talking about how many people won't respond to talking therapies because of their own preconceptions about clinical spaces and so it's important to let those people know that there are safe alternative spaces like this charity where they can come for help in a way that works for them.

Unless you're asserting talking therapy does work for everyone and alternative therapies shouldn't be offered, I can't see what the issue is. It's 100% truthful. An analysis by the Child Outcomes Research Consortium found that only a third of children had recovered (i.e. they were no longer above the clinical threshold) by the end of therapy. About 40% responded they'd experienced no change at all. For adults it's slightly better but NHS Digital report only 50% of adults who access therapy have recovered by the time it's over. That's before we even get into the fact that talking therapies were built by and for predominantly white westerners and so large chunks of the population find them completely unhelpful, even actively damaging. There's an article here on that. So it's accurate to state that they don't work for everyone - for a variety of reasons - and alternatives need to be accessible for those who have reason to not trust professional services, or who had therapy and haven't recovered. In fact, this is a big problem in therapy because people often go into it thinking it'll fix things and then ending treatment without being "cured" is extremely difficult for them. And that issue is caused by precisely this unwillingness from the public and some professionals to be honest and acknowledge that talking therapies won't work for everyone.

Quote number 2: I can't find the full quote but essentially she said that normal anxieties should not be over-medicalised.

I wrote a whole thing about this, read that. I'm going to illustrate with an example from Drag Race. A few years ago there was a contestant who wasn't popular, I can't really remember why, but in their sob story episode they opened up about their clinical depression. And the reaction all over social media was "who cares? Everyone has depression!" But the thing is... they don't. In the US, where it was filmed, 2/3 of people don't have depression in their lifetime. We have created an environment where instead of normalising mental illness so those who have it feel accepted, we've overcorrected. And now it's cool and trendy to make stress into Anxiety Disorder, to making lying into gaslighting, to make your dick of an ex boyfriend's behaviour a Personality Disorder. All of which means that people who genuinely do have mental illnesses are taken less seriously and for conditions like mine (I have BPD) stigma is worse than it's been at any point since I was diagnosed 8 ish years ago. And that's not to mention medications for mental illnesses can be heavy duty. She was at an event for children and it's perfectly reasonable to question whether a doctor giving a child meds after a five minute appointment because the child said they were anxious is a sensible and healthy choice. It's there in the name - over medicalising. It's like any medical procedure. No one is saying you shouldn't cut someone's arm off if they have a serious infection and it's needed. But you shouldn't cut their arm off just because they got a paper cut. PS something slightly outside the scope of this because Kate can't be partisan but we talk about this a lot at work, the link between over-medicalising and poverty. A good article on that here.

I understand what you're saying about the fact that sometimes quotes are clipped out of context and royals need to think about what the headline will be but even taken out of context, all of her statements are accurate. And actually in my view it's the first time I've ever seen her be nuanced! I've always found her mental health work patchy because I feel like she unintentionally contributed to a lot of the issues I've outlined above but she's finally talking about things that are not talked about as much, even amongst professionals. I get your perspective because I was there a few years ago. When someone first mentioned the concept of over-medicalising to me I thought it was denying mental illness is real etc. But then I realised that knee jerk reaction was coming from my insecurities about my illness and my past experiences of struggling to get care, it wasn't actually about the concept itself.

[callistosposts]

skitters into ur inbox to talk about Earth. hi

I agree with a lot of your points on Earth !! I think he's a very well written character, and his arc was really well done ! Solarballs wrote his character really good as well, as you mentioned; They showed how mental illness can affect the individual themselves and the others around them! and that was a very clear point made in Solarballs.

Earth isn't a good person but neither is he bad, he wasn't trying to hurt anyone—when he did, it was out of insecurity and him trying to protect himself, albeit, not in a very good well. He's very much in the gray line, and I think people should acknowledge that a little more. Even if he's trying his best to become a better planet; there's still things he did wrong and need to improve - which he's doing!

Again, about how Solarballs written him; I think they genuinely did such a good job. They showed both sides of Mental Illness and the way it affects those with mental illnesses. And personally, as a mentally ill person myself I found myself relating to Earth a lot. Earth is very much mentally ill, and that's not necessarily a bad thing! They wrote his character really well and did a good job on representing mental illness!! I'm sure I'm repeating myself at some points but I'm just really happy about solarballs writing mental illness properly lol

completly valid little thing here :)) dont feel bad for talking passionately about something haha

i 100% agree with you, ive stated it all before, I think earths a greatly written character and he cant distinctly be pointed out as good or bad, I imagine he is really relatable for a lot of people

Mars was personally the person i related with the most in the grand scheme of the situation, i think theres quite a few people who villanize him now because he was harsh when confronting Earth

but that harsh-ness and straightfoward-ness was what Earth NEEDED to hear so that he would understand what he was doing wrong, Mars was 100% in the right and has never been a bad guy when dealing with such situations, im glad they didnt make Mars out like he was a bad guy who hated Earth, just another thing i applause in solarballs writing

[the-light-finds-its-way]

Ya Titan is strong! Powerful!! Brave!! Enough so to realize when he needs to get help and assistance!! :)

I am physically disabled. The pain I feel in my legs and have felt all day every day awake and asleep since I was 11 years old, is finally becoming too much for me. I can still "walk" (read: limp). I can still stand. I can't do either very well or for very long, just a few minutes at a time, a few times a day. I can barely use stairs, and it's only gotten worse over the years.

So, I've decided to get an electric wheelchair. And that is great.

There are days where I can do workouts, walk 4 miles, and be completely fine. Then, there are days like today, where I have to call out of work because I'm in so much pain that I can't get out of bed, let alone move anything at all, without wanting to cry.

Just because I have good days, doesn't mean I can't have bad ones, too, and that those bad days can't be made easier. And a wheelchair is going to make things FAR better and easier for myself, and my poorly body.

I don't remember what it's like to walk, only what it's like to limp. I've never been pain free, but I manage the pain by sitting down. I haven't run since I was 9 years old, and now, I'm in my mid 20s.

When I was born, my parents were told I'd have a 1/100 chance to survive my heart and organ conditions, and that if I did, I'd be disabled and likely pass on early in life. For a brief few years, I could run, I could walk. Things were normal. I don't remember those days much, but there was one day where I ran, and began coughing profusely. I choked. That was... strange. Maybe I was sick? I got bronchitis frequently (3-4x a year), so maybe it was that?

In gym class, I continued trying to run. Every time, I'd start coughing uncontrollably, and struggle to breathe. I chose to stop running, and that didn't sit well with my teachers. At all.

Shortly thereafter, I began to get cramps in my legs. Kind of like growing pains, but not exactly... And then, months later, I hadn't grown one bit. But the pain stayed. Everyone around me was growing! But I stayed the same height, 4ft11in tall. Others reached well past 6ft. Their pains went away, but I knew this was something more, especially when, after 2 years, I was stuck at that height, and still in pain.

I resorted to limping everywhere, my legs aching constantly in random places, never consistent or in any pattern. My parents continued to tell me, for another 3 years, I was just growing. I'd grow out of the pain.

By 14, even my mom knew something was wrong because the pain was still there, and I still hadn't grown, and I still couldn't run without coughing. She went ahead, called a specialist, and brought me to him. I got blood work done, and when he looked over it, he said I was too young for lupus or arthritis, so he passed it off as an unknown illness, and sent me on my way without anything else.

My mom was livid. For another 2 years, she sought doctors to help me, with no success. By a miracle, my grandfather went to the hospital for pneumonia, and his nurse was a doctor who helped tremendously. Somehow, my mom convinced this doctor to take me on, despite the fact that I was 2 years too young for her practice, and when the doctor heard about my problems, she immediately sent me for more blood testing, called me in the moment results came, and diagnosed me with arthritis and lupus. She sent me to an asthma specialist, who diagnosed me with athletically induced asthma, and allergy asthma after several tests. I got an inhaler, and finally, I could work out without coughing!

But I still couldn't run without severe pain. I was still limping. And I was told, that pain will never go away. It will never get better, only worse. And I have no choice but to live with it forever.

And ever since, I've gone on, suffering, limping, never going very far. I can't go shopping without leaning on a cart, or cane. I can't go up a single flight of 5 stairs. And so, I acknowledged at long last that I need a wheelchair, and it's ok. This isn't a failure. This isn't giving up. Just like I have to get therapy and meds for my PTSD, and other mental illnesses, I have to get a mobility aid for my physical well-being.

I learned, when I was diagnosed with my mental illnesses, and reached my breaking point, I had to get help, and that there is nothing wrong with that, and there's no shame in it. It shows how strong I am because it proves I know when I need to rely on others since I've done all I can alone, and that has inherent strength in and of itself because accepting help is a step toward being more powerful by yourself.

And getting a mobility aid, I realized, is no different. It's accepting help so I can be more powerful on my own.

My father made me believe for years that accepting any help is a sign of weakness, and shows you're broken. He taught me that wheelchairs are exclusively for those who cannot walk at all, who are paralyzed or deformed or don't have legs.

But I've met a few specific people who, they've shown me otherwise. They're like me: they can walk, but it's hard and it hurts. And they taught me, I don't have to suffer by pretending to be able bodied. I don't have to mask as abled just to please my father, or society, or whoever. Just as I stopped masking my autism, I'm going to stop masking my physical disabilities.

And my old teacher, who supported me in every way throughout high school when almost everyone else made fun of me, said I'd amount to nothing, and wouldn't make it as a creative, she messaged me last night saying she has a wheelchair she's looking to get rid of, that it takes up room, and she'd love to help me out by selling it to me for whatever I think it's worth.

So, happy holidays to me. :) I'm buying a wheelchair, and I'm regaining my freedom. The pain may never get better, but my life as a whole can. And damn. My 2024 is looking great. Concerts, LARPs, 2 or more Renaissance festivals, a trip to Disney with my friends, another trip to the Poconos with the same people just weeks later, and finishing off the year with the Texas Viking Festival. I've quit college to work full time and save up for my own place. And I know, finally, it's going to be ok. For the first time in my life, I'm going to be ok. :)

[religion-is-a-mental-illness]

Miriam Grossman: There is no consensus among professionals and experts. There is a debate, but Washington is not acknowledging the voices that are on the other side.

Kids are in the driver's seat. Whatever identity that they have chosen, their parents, their teachers, their doctors, their therapist, is required to accept that.

These professionals have the arrogance to tell parents that they don't know their child, they know better? And the parents better get with the program? Because they're the ones that are going to harm their child? Now, that's pretty traumatic for parents to hear.

In no other field of medicine would we put the child in a position of making medical decisions.

The transgender path is a difficult path. Once you are on puberty blockers, there's a close to 100% chance you will go on to cross-sex hormones. We want to try and put children on a path in which they will have less doctors appointments.

I know too much to not do anything about this.

I know that 13 year old girls are having their breasts removed, minor boys are being castrated. We can't accept it and we can't be complicit in the lie by staying silent.

Edward Drass: Today, I loudly speak out against all forms of chemical and surgical cross-sex therapy. It appears that we're dealing with an unprecedented epidemic of mental illness in adolescent females. This demographic comprises the bulk of the 4400% rise in new cases of gender dysphoria seen in the past few years.

So, I ask you physicians: for what other disease do we allow an adolescent patient to make his own diagnosis and then demand a preferred treatment?

What standards of care have been established for this treatment? What is a satisfactory outcome?

I think other countries and judicial systems are well ahead of the United States in making this determination. The NHS has reversed course in its transition treatment advice. A summary review of transgender medical research concludes there's no support for medical intervention for gender confused minors, medical transition procedures do not reduce youth suicide, child gender dysphoria usually dissipates by adulthood, and the dramatic increase in gender dysphoria in the recent past is likely driven by social factors.

My recommendation to the Rules Committee is that cross-sex medical and surgical treatment should not be supported by organized medicine, the board of medicine, the legislature, or insurance companies.

==

Here's the thing: almost nobody is being diagnosed with gender dysphoria, which is a specific clinical diagnosis, requiring much more than just a walk into Planned Parenthood for a testosterone prescription.

To quote Aaron Kimberly from Gender Dysphoria Alliance: "Being insecure isn't gender dysphoria. Being lonely isn't gender dysphoria. Liking Queer Theory isn't gender dysphoria. Wanting a new life isn't gender dysphoria. Social anxiety isn't gender dysphoria. Gender Dysphoria is a specific clinical condition, not an identity."

The HRC, Stonewall and pretty much every former-gay rights organization has redefined "trans" to remove gender dysphoria entirely.

HRC:

Transgender | An umbrella term for people whose gender identity and/or expression is different from cultural expectations based on the sex they were assigned at birth.

Stonewall:

Trans An umbrella term to describe people whose gender is not the same as, or does not sit comfortably with, the sex they were assigned at birth.

GLAAD:

Transgender An adjective to describe people whose gender identity differs from the sex they were assigned at birth.

As Aaron Terrell noted: "I kind of got wind of the social justice element, and like, transitioning to be trans process around 2017. And when I encountered that in 2017, the people I encountered it from were already acting like I was a weirdo for not realizing that, of course you transition to be trans, and of course it's wrong to be cis, and so in 2017 it was already - I was already weird for not knowing that." The point of transitioning is to not be "cis," to let you be part of the "trans" club. "Trans" are the oppressed glitter-saints, "cis" are the evil "cisheteropatriarchy" oppressors.

One of "Katy" Montgomerie's little friends: "People should be allowed to be trans just because they want to be, regardless of whether they 'biologically' are." To which "Katy" responds: "I am very opposed to a biological test for transness."

Egale Canada's "Trans 101": "A trans person's identity isn't defined by the way they do, or do not transition. So, if someone doesn't feel transitioning is for them, that's totally cool too. [..] Like transitioning, having dysphoria doesn't make someone more, or less, trans. And is not something all trans people experience." Which might explain things if you've ever been screeched at by a purple-haired "they/them" who is unambiguously a man or woman.

Even the American Psychological Association regards that "it’s not a psych's job to assess who’s trans, but to believe them when they say what their gender is, and to assist them in 'achieving their embodiment goals.'"

Which makes "gender affirming care" just cosmetic (sex-attribute modification) procedures, not "healthcare." For what purpose? "Gender identity." Being less girly than Barbie, or less manly than G.I. Joe.

Don't get me wrong: kids are anxious, distressed, depressed, have body issues, self-hatred, disorders such as OCD and autism, and so on. Many of them are very important issues to address. But with very few exceptions, it's not "gender dysphoria." If only because almost nobody's diagnosing for it, because doing so would be failing to "affirm." And as soon as gender is raised, everything else gets put away.

As Ritchie Herron found, "I was essentially told that everything is all related to trans. There’s no possible way that it’s related to anything else. I brought up the concept of my obsessive thoughts - I’ve been diagnosed with OCD since before I entered the clinic - the possibility of autism, and I was told at the very beginning that, no, you can be trans and have OCD."

"Gender dysphoria" is something you self-diagnose from Tumblr without any mental health training, and "trans" is something you "self ID".

And this is the reason we're drugging and cutting up kids.

[sophieinwonderland]

Why are you pretending to have autism you fucking useless stain on society

I'm not saying that I'm 100% certain I know who you are... but I am saying that it's really curious how I got the anon immediately before three comments from...

Not to mention that this anon from a few days ago calling me a freak is pretty clearly using the same language as another comment.

Yeah, I'm pretty sure these are the same...

Trust me, @vel0uria, nobody thinks you're quirky.

But... maybe you, personally, are a bit of a joke.

You're a bully who hurts people you can't understand, making accusations of ableism while yourself using ableist language and calling people delusional as an insult. That feels very much like a joke, even if not a very funny one.

Now, I could go into the whole spiel about how identities are weird. How there are people with BIID who feel like they're physically wrong for not being disabled in some way. And that, while not really focused on much in psychiatry, it makes logical sense that there would be mental equivalents to BIID where people feel dysphoria for not having certain mental disorders.

It doesn't have to always make rational sense.

I could also point out that most transautistics I've spoken to acknowledge that it's different from actual autism.

I could talk about my own experiences after becoming self-aware when I felt our brain was dumb, slower than I knew my mind should be. It's not just idly wanting to be smarter. It's the fact that I was more knowledgeable in my source, that answers came quicker to me, and the slowness felt wrong on a fundamental level when I was operating on our host's brain.

So I can empathize with people who feel the opposite at a stronger level. Who feel like their brains are wrong because they don't have a mental illness they feel they should.

But I feel like that might be falling on deaf ears with you.

So instead I'll just say this: You could be doing anything.

There are so many ways you could be helping to better the autistic community, to put light into people's lives, to fight back against actual ableism that affects us all.

Instead, you chose to bully a person diagnosed with autism for having a different view of our own disorder than you do. (Because yes, we are actually autistic and have a diagnosis.) You chose to hurt people, blindly hurling out ableist insults.

You need to seriously start asking yourself if this is the type of person you want to be.

[its-a-me-mango]

(Two Cents Anon) Glad to see we got a response about the workplace allegations! Imo it seemed pretty solid and I kiiiinnda understand why he remained quiet for awhile.

HOWEVER, I still find it odd that Kevin or Luke haven't said anything about the whole situation with Celeste, which, iirc, was what started all of this. I hope they speak up about that soon- I just want her to get a real solid apology :( Also, speaking of the Celeste situation, it really does feel like the result of just. Assuming and jumping to conclusions. Still makes me feel... weird in regards to watching SMG4/Glitch Productions, so I'll continue abstaining from it.

Oh god hi anon so sorry for taking forever to answer, I've been mega busy the past week so everything's been slow as hell </3 I was also waiting at first to see if anything else will happen but things seemed to have quiet down a bit so I'll say something now.

I agree, Kevin's response was a pretty solid one, acknowledging what Glitch's current working situation is like while also acknowledging how it was in the pass definitely show some growth and change since then. I feel that a more dishonest approach would be to completely deny everything and worse yet, not address it at all. I do think the past criticisms are valid and shouldn't be disregarded now, but having a more even distribution between good and bad experiences really helps balance things out.

However I do agree though, the lack of a response to Celeste is definitely disappointing, I get the main focus of Kevin's response was to address the working conditions allegations, but this would've been the perfect time to say something. I mentioned before that Celestes' situation is probably more of a private matter unfortunately, in that any conversations are going to be between Celeste and Glitch privately.

It'll be up to them if they wish to share it publicly again, if they do or don't is up to them, I can only hope that Celeste gets a proper apology and some kind of closure privately at least, it's kinda one of those things that is more personal and therefore doesn't have to be shared publicly. I'm just glad she doesn't hold any ill will towards Lottie, as we know she's innocent in all this, I'll respect any decision that they make in regards to who keeps voicing Tari.

It's sad to think this whole situation started from poor communication, we can all sit here and say how easy this was to avoid because in all honesty, it was very easy to avoid. We can only hope that Glitch learns from this, but it sucks that this comes at the expense of loosing one of their first VA's, and subsequently all the others who quit too. I still genuinely wish all of them the best and that they can move onto greater things.

I do think Jasmine's apology is all we'll get unfortunately, but it's at least something.

I get what you mean about still not feeling comfortable watching Glitch, I'm still not entirely comfortable with it, but for me personally I'm probably gonna go back to watching them soon, even if this never gets fully resolved. Don't get me wrong, I'm still upset and disappointed with Glitch over this, but I do genuinely believe they can improve from this, I'm willing to give them another chance basically.

Part of my reasons to stop watching was because of the workplace conditions, I was under the assumption every single employee was horrifically overworked and underpaid, and I would take no comfort in watching something I knew was made under those conditions. But now that we have clarified that those claims are not entirely true (again maybe for in the past but definitely not as much now), I can take some comfort in that.

I will still 100% keep myself and everyone else here updated incase any new developments happen, but I do genuinely think this is all we're going to get unfortunately. Wether you can continue to watch Glitch or not is entirely up to you and as I've always said, I hold no judgement towards anyone, if you're not satisfied enough to keep watching them, thats fine and understandable.

I don't want anyone to think I'll be forgetting about this just because I'm gonna go back to watching and making content soon, and neither should anyone else forget about this, I just genuinely think Glitch can improve and change from this and I'm willing to give them a chance. Obviously if something like this happens again then I'm done, but I've seen enough accountability this time around (albeit kinda weak) to keep watching them for now.

That's all I'll say for now, I'm still happy to keep hearing from people about this, I don't want this to become "old drama", it's literally 2/3 weeks old now that's not old, I'm old, my back aches.

[papirouge]

Like.... If you actually care about the war crime thing:

Civilian causalities might be war crimes depending on context.

Intentionally targeting a purely civilian area? 100% a war crime.

Collateral damage from a valid military target? Not a war crime....maybe.

The wording specifically is "......which would be clearly excessive in relation to the concrete and direct overall military advantage anticipated"

So the question is.... are the civilian deaths "excessive" in relation to the military targets, or occurring in a place with no military targets? (N.B.: I am not justifying or condoning any civilian deaths, nor am I defending Israel's actions. I am clarifying the definition of a War Crime in this context).

I have not heard anyone saying that the music festival was a valid military target, or most of the other places hit on oct 7(please correct me if I am wrong). Therefore, All civ. deaths associated, would be considered war crimes (according to the above definition at least. You could argue that it is not a war, in which case I believe other rules would apply, but that is off topic)

Israel claims all civilian deaths were proportional and collateral to valid military targets, which would make them not war crimes. Provided that you believe them.

(note, this is theoretical, and there are other actions that have been taken that fall under war crime, but not this one. i.e. the bombing of the WCK trucks is a war crime, but not under the heading of 'civilians' rather under the heading of 'humanitarian assistance' )

Of course there is also the issue of the definition of 'excessive in relation....' which is..... ill defined at best.

But yeah, if you were curious how civilian deaths could be not a war crime, now you know.

(again, just responding to the comment you posted on the screenshot, not defending Israel. A single dead innocent is one too many)

I'm not reading all that but here's the thing anon : I'm not gonna debate whether killing civilians is good or bad depending on situations.

While I'm typing this I can see your last sentence that says "one dead innocent is one too many" which is really confusing bc that's precisely the point of my initial post, so why did it bother you to the point of making this ask?

No one in their right mind would debate whether bombing New York is aKtcHualLy good or bad and say oohhhh that's just war, tee-hehe!! so why are you comfortable doing it for Palestinians? ah yes, 💓racism & dehumanization 💓

But we all know the typical Israeli government excuse for carpet bombing ENTIRE PALESTINIAN CITIES that is Hamas allegedly having tunnels down there somewhere.... (and we have to trust their words obviously) so I guess it makes is ok to nuke anyone around here even if they don't have the mean to properly evacuate ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

....You know how dumb and demonic all of that sounds? Exactly like your ask.

The fact your typed all this shit because you got bothered about a post basically saying "killing civilians is bad - no matter what" proves there's something deeply wrong with you and I refuse to acknowledge one single thing you have said. Your entire opinion is bogus.

You know, many Zionists these days have been seething against the left for having unchecked "antisemitism", but if anything, you guys need a solid reality check and ask yourselves for one second if people weaponizing their Jewishness to make the vilest most ghoulish takes ever may have something do to with the growing anti jewish resentment (that's not exclusive to the left btw but considering hiw HARD you're going against the LEFT antisemitism, it's almost like you were cool with antisemitism when it's not from leftists). After all, you guys have no problem with collective punishment when it comes to Palestians, so it sure shouldn't be an issue when it comes to Jews, right? 🙃

[ihatepolice1234]

the mistreatment of people with personality disorders is so infuriating. why does no one love me. why was i the toxic one in the relationship when my partner was literally transphobic and ableist and racist. literally was friends with nazis. literally im trans and disabled and jewish. literally made me uncomfortable despite me telling him to stop. literally told me it was my fault and its not okay if i am vocal about the fact im uncomfortable. why do you hate me. why are my mood swings the end of the world.

"youre acting weird" -him "i havent been doing so good lately" -me "this behavior is making me uncomfortable and it concerns me" -him

literallyyy he said women are the "greatest thieves of a man's energy". literallyyy called his mexican friend a tacoslave. literallyyyy said to a THIRTEEN/FOURTEEN YEAR OLD "this is why your mother abuses you". literallyy told me this when he found out that 13/14 yr old was an ISTP "i cannot trust ISTPs they will attempt to hurt or destroy me" in which i said "??? (name) is like 12". "leftists are really closed off and judgmental" youu got 100% judgment for MBTI (saying this since you used MBTI to dictate all of your thoughts) and you admitted to being really closed off. called a leftist version of a nazi we knew and that im ignorant and i dont listen to other beliefs. when the conversation was either 1) unrelated to politics or 2) about people dying. "instead of hating muslims you hate christians" i think every religion is cultish.. i used to be a christian.. he had no reason to say this except for the fact i stated i was either atheistic or satanist.. "instead of hating black people you hate white people" im literally white.. i dont hate white people.. i just acknowledge that white people are oppressors.. and that racism exists.. and that white supremacy isnt good.. "you want to genocide those of differing ideologies and races" ??? where did this come from?? 'differing ideologies and races' WHO????? who and what are you referring to???????????? "you get your beliefs from jreg and sources that shouldnt be taken seriously" my interest in politics came from jreg.. sure.. but i KNOW he shouldnt be taken seriously.. thats why i dont take him serious.. thats why i spend my time learning about politics.. from actual good sources.. "why should i have to listen to you when you shut me down whenever i wish to add something" when did i do this??? maybe you were just wrong.. and saying some racist or ableist bullshit.. maybe that should be recognized as wrong by you.. but it isnt.. you make jokes about being schizophrenic, you dont care about my mental illness and how it affects me, you blame me for it like its my fault ??? like come on bru.. you misgender me after i stop talking to you.. as soon as you found out i was trans (which was NEVER supposed to happen) you called me my deadname.. "i think i understand, you dont dislike me, youre just out of control of your own emotions and need to become a better person" so close.. but so far.. "i cant separate myself from my mental illness as well as you can" -me. AND THEN HE LAUGHING EMOJI REACTS ME??? WHAT??? "i cant do the same things you can" -me "skill issue" -him. LIKE WHAT "not a lot of people understand me only (name) does" you told me you wanted to kiss me and have a future with me. you told me you wanted to go places with me and hug me and be with me forever. and then you proceeded to make fun of that person behind her back??? are you kidding? and then when she found out you told her it wasnt true?? and just a joke??? and now she isnt friends with you, because now you make fun of her, and you basically left her for someone else who even called you explosive and scary.

"vin my not understand tone as well as you do and the thing about online arguments is that theres no way to tell tone besides tone tags. i dont think he was coming off as rude (nor was he trying to, as stated by him), just different" -my friend

"ok, well some people being slow and incapable of processing social ques doesnt enable them to be cocky and belittling. there is a way to show tone, you can read it in someone's speech patterns, and if youre incapable of picking up on those tones then you simply have a bad intuition and understanding of people and how they work." -him

why are you a hater

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Robooty Reviews: Royal Servant (3/10)

Read this way back in middle school... shared mangago lists with one of my friends and recognized this one and decided to reread. Lord. Who Likes This. The story is about Kyon and his master Lucaon and theres like some plot bullshit since in this world theres these guys who are royals and got these powers that they never fuckin use and live longer too and are strong n all that. and the only way to kill one tho is to give them this special poison that is completely undetectable and the only way to cure it is if the person who administered it fixes that shit. But yeah Lucaon hates servants and Kyon is a servant and Lucaon is a classic stoic scum gong and falls in love with Kyon but only starts being nice to him once Kyon literally spends 20 chapters on the brink of death lol bro got a fever and slit his wrists and fell into an ice pond and then got a fever again and pneumonia and Lucaon went "..... ok ill be nice to you now"

the art is good for this story dont get me wrong but its really really really stiff expression wise. maybe i'm just a little stupid and i need to see a huge cartoon tear drop to tell a character is sad but for realsies I do think that the art is pretty, but the expressions when bitches are fucking dying and shit could be a little more extreme. its okay to sacrifice their pretty boy looks for one pannel trust me..

The romance itself is just like whatevs. I will admit I am a fan of how kyon will just take anything like bro does not give a fuck okay cuz hes madly in love with Lucaon and doesnt care what he does to him. Im pretty sure in one chapter Kyon is just walking in the halls and Lucaon lunges at him and bites him until he bleeds and kyon passes the fuck out from the attack and its just like ok lol. LUCAON DOESNT GIVE A FUCK HES SO MEAN TO KYON UNTIL HES SUDDENLY NOT BECAUSE HE HAD HIS SCUM GONG REALIZATION WHEN KYON TRIES TO LEAVE HIM 15 MILLION TIMES AND ALMOST DIES IN EVERY INSTANCE OF TRYING TO LEAVE. the upside to kyon is that hes a simp and a pussy and he is a bit of a little bitch but he isnt a whiny bitch about it. like lucaon is his tormentor and he finds out that THERES A POSSIBILITY that he could be the cause of Lucaon's demise and immediately is like okay ill kill myself i need to get out of here and thats why he almost dies 10 million times trying to leave bc he only tries to leave bc lucaon's blonde ass brother is like dude. you might cause Lucaon to die since you're a secret spy with your memories wiped. AND ITS KINDA FUNNY BECAUSE HE STRAIGHT UP SEES KYON ALMOST DEAD IN BED AND GOES "GOD I WISH THIS BITCH WOULD JUST DIE ALREADY" LOL!!

When i was younger i was a fan of the pink haired guy (lucaons other brother) and his servant who is his boyfriend and treated as an equal and yeah younger me was right tbh kind wish the story focused on them instead. but ngl i hate the entire family drama thing bc like its the plot and all that but im like WHO GIVE A FUCK? this manhwa is just mid. mid as fuck. I'll admit when i was younger i re read the 20 chapters where kyon is on the brink of death like 50000 times over and over again because i loveeee suicide and i lovee when kyon tries to kill himself a million jillion times and Lucaon is like FUCKING STOP. theres like idk tiny hints of goodness. I can enjoy a good scum gong alright and I do like when Lucaon is like "brah... ive seen you cry more times than smile..... thats kinda fucked" MMMMMMM YES. FEEL BAD. FEEL REMORSE. but its just not worf it okay the manhwa sucks and its 100 chapters or some shit like that bruh moment. I also do like how at the end Kyon acknowledges that hes going to die before Lucaon and Lucaon needs to learn how to love other people than him because he doesn't want Lucaon to be stuck on him forever and ever. I think it was a nice bittersweet thing. In short. just not my thing. mid. equivalent to eating spoonfuls of peanut butter for dinner. Like you can... wont be very satisfying tho

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“Not a happy story”?????????

I was already really worried the last time you said the last chapter was going to be so full of angst. Now I’m just really really worried at the possible sequel.

Forgot to say hi first lol. Hi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Though I suppose overall for me who is a “life sucks so much already I’m not reading angst in my spare time”, rreereading your story so many times has sort of trained(?) me for it, because I kind of know that sitting through the pain only gave me such sweet intimacy later.

Or maybe we just have different understanding of angst? Because for me once they have established the foundation of trust that “no matter what happens we are going to be here for each other, for the championships, the pregnancies, the parenting, the long-distance relationship and the so sweet life together” , then is just growing into themselves, growing up, and growing stronger. Not to mention even if said foundation was not acknowledged out loud (yet?) they are still actually actively trying to baby trap each other hahahaha.

So I was just sort of doing rereads and calmly waiting for the next chapters, now you say the sequel(if it happens) is going to be not happy?????? They have a baby! That’s grounds for a happy story(in fiction) right???? Right??

Haha in truth I’m just ready for anything you decide really.

Hopefully your projects are coming along better, I studied finance and maths which were in no way as stressful as architecture, and I still jumped between “if they want my (tuition) money they would let me graduate right?” “What was I thinking picking this subject my brain is not built for this” and “just let me die” most of the time. Of course you would pull through!!!!!!

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Hahha helloooo!! i love that my askbox is known to be a place to say hi now dkdfjdfkjdjk dear random person somewhere in the world we are at the same stoplight and i am waving at you from my car <3 This got super long so ill put a cut line

Hmm so I think maybe angst was the wrong word then! its not gonna be a happy story in the sense that the plot wont be 'max and charles live happily ever after with a baby', theres still going to be some shit going on. Ur 100% right that there's always sweetness scattered in within that, it's not just angst for the sake of angst, and they'll at least be able to outright support each other in the sequel without like jumping through hoops to quantify what they are to each other or whatever. So in that sense maybe what i mean is more that it won't be a fun fairytale epilogue kind of vibe, there will still be stuff they need to figure out?

also this is going to sound so pretentious im so sorry but the first two fics are heavily heavily written around the idea of gender. if you cut max and charles out of the entire rest of it it's just a story about two equals who love each other and are trying to find a common language to communicate that, but once you add in gender roles and expectations and judgement it all becomes this huge fucking mess even though the core of it is something so simple. the sequel is probably going to be kind of similar, but more along the lines of defining what a family is to them outside of their own expectations or trauma. so ya sorry to summarize theres room for intimacy and happiness and love and all that but there's also a heaviness if that makes sense. Kinda like what we have now

they also have just basic issues honestly. newborns cant really fly so max cant travel with charles for a lot of the beginning of the season. charles wants to be home as much as he can but he's kinda torn between his family and his job. they miss each other! the baby misses her mom!! kinda screws with everyones head a little, especially max who grew up without a mother! they try their best but its just hard sometimes my friend

and thank youuuuu honestly that's where i'm at with school rn!! we had 3 more hours of presentations yesterday (had to do the project over the weekend) and literally as soon as the last group was done we got assigned 3 versions of a 5 floor apartment building which we have to present tomorrow? this on top of the essay due today, the other one due thursday and the third one due next tuesday??? me and my friends just looked at each other in silence and apparently we were all fantasizing about dropping out djfkdfkjdfj they're trying to weed out our class rn though and im sorry but if admin want me gone theyre going to have to kill me

anyway thank you so much my dear!!! im sorry this is one big long ramble but hopefully it answered your questions!!