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Sokka baulked. "I'm not getting on that." "That," said Zuko, "is my baby." Zuko's baby, a fifty foot dragon, huffed. Great white plumes of smoke issued out of his nostrils and buffeted around Sokka. "Play nice, Druk," said Zuko, laughing
for The Mercy of Magpies chapter 2!
as always written by thee wonderful showstopping incredible @ranilla-bean âš
chapter post || cover || map and characters
#id in alt text#fuuun fact this was the very first illustration i did for spacedilves!!#makes me sooo emotional to finally release her into the wild look at my baby gooo#LOOK AT THAT FULL BACKGROUND LITERALLY NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE DKFJGK#fr if theres One thing this project pused me to do is test the boundaries of my style and that involves backgrounds lmao#anywayy one of my fav chapters ever rana rlly outdid themselves with thiiisss#like zukka first date oN A ROMANTIC DRAGON RIDEE!! or is it... teheee#another thing that makes me emotional as fuck is that rana got this printed đ„čđ„čđ„čđ„čđ„čđ„č#it exists!!!#on a wall!#a3 format!!!!#sokka#zuko#zukka#spacedilves#my art
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âWhen I first heard it, from a dog trainer who knew her behavioral science, it was a stunning moment. I remember where I was standing, what block of Brooklynâs streets. It was like holding a piece of polished obsidian in the hand, feeling its weight and irreducibility. And its fathomless blackness. Punishment is reinforcing to the punisher. Of course. It fit the science, and it also fit the hidden memories stored in a deeply buried, rusty lockbox inside me. The people who walked down the street arbitrarily compressing their dogsâ tracheas, to which the poor beasts could only submit in uncomprehending misery; the parents who slapped their crying toddlers for the crime of being tired or hungry: These were not aberrantly malevolent villains. They were not doing what they did because they thought it was right, or even because it worked very well. They were simply caught in the same feedback loop in which all behavior is made. Their spasms of delivering small torments relieved their frustration and gave the impression of momentum toward a solution. Most potently, it immediately stopped the behavior. No matter that the effect probably wonât last: the reinforcerâthe silence or the cessation of the annoyanceâwas exquisitely timed. Now. Boy does that feel good.â
â Melissa Holbrook Pierson, The Secret History of Kindness (2015)
#dog books#this chapter was very sad reading#when you become aware of punishment#and its use and its prevalence#it's hard not to despair#again this is why positive reinforcement feels like absolution#maybe now my eyes are open I can make up for what I did#what I did because it's what everyone does#because it's more acceptable to punish than to do anything else#I've been having so many thoughts about punishment and society and justice#this book was very validating#another great validating moment in my jumbled thoughts#was listening to the You're Wrong About episode on justice#with Amanda Knox#it helped to ease the despair a little
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is... is that why he's dressed up like that...
#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd spoilers#bsd chapter 117#bsd 117#bungou stray dogs spoilers#bungou stray dogs 117#bungou stray dogs chapter 117#bsd chapter 117 spoilers#bsd 117 spoilers#bsd akutagawa#akutagawa#bsd aya#bsd atsushi#bsd season 5#bsd season 5 spoilers#bungou stray dogs season 5#anyway congratulations to akutagawa he experienced another man inside of him#oh and he's alive i guess
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you can also put in the tags how old you were, again im nosy lol
#my polls#polls#berryposting#I didn't include it in the options but one of my friends in highschool printed out fanfiction at school to bring home to read#like every week she would print out another chapter in our computer classroom#honestly an icon and a hero#also guess which option was my device of choice lol
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I think this lil guy reminds him of someone
ignore how messy it is, its like 5 am here n i needed 2 get this out of my system
#art#artists on tumblr#digital art#digital illustration#poppy playtime#poppy playtime 3#poppy playtime chapter 3#smiling critters#dogday#catnap#fun fact#i realized mid way through this that the lil guys were the merchable version of the big ones#i just thought they were another brand of toy or smth like that#maybe im just dumb#still love them tho#i need 2 buy them but im broke
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Zombie apocalypse AU hualian designs for my fanfic that I WILL finish.. for real guys...
#posted some designs for this au FOUR YEARS AGO#which is how long I've been working on that damn fanned fiction#but I like having a creative pursuit i can take my time on#the urge to start posting chapters is so strong but i wanna finish it/almost finish before i do that#bc the last thing i want is another creative project with stressful deadlines yippee#but either way i enjoyed looking up that old art and comparing my growth!!!#tgcf#hualian#xie lian#hua cheng#my art#heaven official's blessing#tgcf au#tian guan ci fu
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here are all the pics i took of him in the 1st chapter because this man has got me in a fucking GRIP
#IM NOT OKAY#because what do you mean i have to wait AGAIN for another chapter#love and deepspace#love and deepspace sylus#l&ds#l&ds sylus#lads#lads sylus#lnds#lnds sylus#sylus#â she speaketh
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This is so funny to me. Reducing them down to their simplest attributes. Turning them into symbols.
#this is some bouba kiki shit#also!! i said this in the tags of another post but i've finally gotten to the point in my op reread where i've hit the moment#when i stopped reading op back in like 2014#that's almost ten years ago holy shit!!!! wild#i know a lot of what happens in later arcs bc i've been keeping up with the op fandom online#but it's weird to be reading chapters that i've never read before... new and fresh op content#(i stopped reading around chapter 750 btw)#(and this is from the sbs at the end of chapter 757)#one piece#zosan#kk talks about stuff#kk talks about op
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redraw of a redraw of a redraw of a redraw...?! (2024 version)
#original is from 2017. it's been just about 7 years. and mha is ending in 5 chapters.#time is not real#not sure if i'll make another redraw after this .. this entirely depends on if i'm still into mha at that point#my god. the end of an era for ME too#bnha#mha#midoriya izuku#bakugou katsuki#bakudeku#bkdk#fan art#becki draws stuff n stuff#rendered
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Needed to see this man beaten and bruised, but in pink this time
(Also hey I actually have free time again)
#call of duty modern warfare 2#cod mw2#cod ghost#simon ghost riley#cod fanart#call of duty fanart#call of duty modern warfare#this shouldve taken like. 2 days but I was busy finished literally all of my projects for this year#but im done now!!!#so expect to see more of me >:)#also uhh something something framing the so-called feminine color pink in a violent way#this was supposed to be like... subtly homoerotic#i think it ended up being about as subtle as a brick to the face haha#aaaanyway ive also been working on another chapter of rev au side stories#so that will probably be the next thing i post
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Yall need to interact with fanfiction author's more.
So. After the ddos attack on ao3.
I was encouraged to write more comments and make my love known to fanfic writers.
I dont really like commenting. Because im a bit shy and soooo lazy.
Now though. I am writing more comments. And dude. This is so heartwarming. Ya'll need to treat writers better. They are doing the lord's work.
Take for an example, couple of days prior, i was searching for something interesting to read, and found an oneshot quite compelling.
I read it. At the end of it, i was blown away by how good it was. It promised me something and it went beyond my expectations. But then i saw a crime, zero fucking comments!
At that moment, i wasn't feeling up to writing a comment. Because, normally i like to write huge paragraphs. But because im lazy i decided to be brief.
Next day, the author answered that the comment lift their mood for the whole day.
That warmed my heart.
Duuuuuuuude! Write comments! Suport the writers of the fics you like! No need to be something super elaborate. Just give your thoughts. Freak out. Ramble. Ask something. Make theories. Compliment. Make a joke about how you wished to give kudos every chapter but ao3 sucks(not true bby) and won't let you.
Truly. Just. Comment. It can make someone's day. And that is part of the apeal of writing fics. Interacting with people.
Just give love to fanfic writers yall. They deserve this and so much more.
#fanfiction writer#fanfic#ao3#ramble#it was a naruto fanfic#a narusasusaku fic#also had another thing#i commented on my fav fic that hasnt been updated for a while#i didnt pressured the author to write#because you dont fucking do that >:(#but#just freaked out and talked about how much i loved their writing and the fic#two days later they updated the fic#and then told me i inspired them to finish the chapter#and that's what you're supposed to do!#interact with the author#the fic!#no need to pressure them into writing!#sometimes just words of love and support is enough!#be nice to your writers!#or im gonna smash some sense into yall#rambles
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That Scene from âOf Saints and Sinnersâ by @morningstarwrites from the last chapter
#radioapple#osas#this is my first time trying to draw shadows so donât laugh at me#working on another comic from the chapter but i had to get this outta my system
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Yea...I ..hm
Mistakes on mistakes until.. Until I scratch a hole in my tablet because I can't stop drawing themđ
#maccadam#transformers#Jazz#Prowl#JazzProwl#I âŠâŠ.Iâm on the chapter 7 and I honestly not so sure If I can tag Ricochet as Jazz anymoreâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠ#who needs sleep anyway#the amount of serotonin this fic gives me is kinda insane#The amount of knowledge also lol#I learned the whole lot of new words haha#I'm stopping myself from spamming art#Ahahajfkfk#fic fanart#Upd: This was sitting in my drafts for half a day I'm on chapter 12 now#Ricochet is Jazz and I will die on that hill#I don't even have any evidence#I just feel it in my soul#*13#I#sigh#I mixed the numbers with another fic#bruh#it's chapter 13#momu fanart
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insatiable clora and (barely) resisting seb from my latest chapđĄïžđ
#delivering the dom clora and subastian contentđ if he aint pining and pleading and whimpering then i dont WANT HIM#i drew another one where clora is even more dom and was gonna post them together but#will be posting it separately now since my boss gave me work again (BLEHH) and i wont be able to draw new stuff as fast#hogwarts legacy#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x mc#sebastian sallow x oc#hogwarts legacy fanart#sebastian sallow fanart#sebastian x mc#clora clemons#in the actual scene in my fic they arent in their school uniforms i know but IGNORE THAT#its cuz both dom pics i drew are separate scenes from my fic and theyre chapters apart but i just paired them together as a set#reality is mine to bend!!!!!#also i will be drawing a spicy continuation of these events later onđđđ¶ïžneed to torture seb MORE
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Steve Harrington was wearing a Hellfire t-shirt.
It was far too tight on him, the name of the club stretched wide over his chest. The sleeves dug into his biceps, making them pop even more than they usually did, and that was before he crossed his arms.Â
Worse?
It was short.
Which meant the damn shirt was constantly riding up to give everyone a nice show of the smattering of hair that trailed down past the band of Harrington's jeans.Â
The same hair that Eddie was determinedly not looking at.Â
âHenderson, a moment?â He crooked a finger, a smile on his face that was more feral than welcoming.Â
Rather than cower or even acknowledge that Eddie was two seconds away from murder, Dustin just gave him a gummy grin, all too pleased with himself and his scheme.Â
âSure Eddie. Steve, don't just stand there, go help set the booth up!â Dustin gestured to Hellfireâs sad little table, crammed all the way in the back of the gym.Â
Jeff and Gareth both reacted to the suggestion like a rabid squirrel had been set upon them, nervously inching towards the other side of the booth as Harrington sighed and--shockingly--did as he was told.
âWhat,â Eddie thought angrily, âin the everloving fuck.â
âDo you guys mind if I set this down on the table?â Eddie heard Harrington ask as he stormed away, Dustin on his heel.Â
They wandered just around the corner, out of sight and hopefully, out of the fallen kingâs hearing range.
Eddie wasn't sure if Harrington would try and white knight the very much deserved dressing down he was about to give.Â
Didnât want to chance it, considering the downright weird relationship he had with Hellfire's freshmen.
(While heâd heard many a tale at his table regarding King Steve since the newest recruits had joined Hellfire, most of them dissolved into arguments without ever really going anywhere.
 Best anyone could figure out was that Dustin and Lucas had a bad case of hero worship, while Mike owned a begrudging amount of respect that hailed from a series of misadventures.Â
The very same misadventures that, despite all protests to the contrary, was clearly some sort of babysitting gig for Harrington.)Â
Either way, plenty of the Kingâs court would have loved to take this opportunity to fuck with Hellfire.
Given that Henderson was absolutely too old to require a babysitter at fourteen, Eddie would bet his lunch money that was what Steve was here to do.
Something the club couldnât afford since they were forever and always two seconds away from being stripped of club status and banned from school grounds.Â
âI would love to know what went through that all Aâs brain of yours when I said,â Eddie whirled on Dustin when they were firmly in the clear, voice low and furious. âno Henderson, do not invite King Steve to help, he is an invading force and would ruin our peaceful kingdom!?â
He clasped his hands behind his back before leaning into Dustinâs face. âBecause clearly whatever you heard wasnât that.âÂ
To Eddieâs continued frustration and confusion, Dustin did not treat this like the threat it was.Â
None of the freshmen had ever truly treated Eddie like a threat--had somehow skipped that part of the usual onboarding ritual entirely.
Eddie, town freak and drug dealer, who had cultivated his looks and craziness to such a degree that most everyone steered clear, wasnât used to it.Â
Everyone had been afraid of him at some point in this shitty school. Jeff, Gareth, hell even half the staff--and that the dorky trio of fourteen year old's clearly thought this all was play-acting made his eye twitch.
Even if it was--maybe, sometimes--welcome.Â
âI know what you said, but Iâm telling you Iâm right.â Dustin argued immediately, and oh God, he was using that tone again.Â
A hand went up into the space between them and Eddie groaned aloud, knowing what was coming.
âFirst,â Dustin ticked a finger up, âHellfire really needs the money. Even thirty dollars would get us new figures, but more than that, if we donât fundraise, we canât go to Gen Con!âÂ
Dustin's eyes bored into Eddieâs, full of fire and conviction
âYes,â Eddie said through gritted teeth, âbut--â
âSecond!â Dustin cut him off, and God the little shit even threw him a look while he did it, like Eddie was the one being ridiculous here!
âWe had to fight just to get our table! Principal Higgins was in algebra today practically begging the mathletes to show up, but then tried to tell us we couldn't be here? Thatâs messed up!âÂ
As if denying them a spot to fundraise was the worst thing that asshole had ever done.
Eddie sighed, breath blasting out of his mouth like a dragonâs.Â
âBecause people think weâre freaks and satanists, Henderson. You donât typically invite freaks and satanists to the schoolâs annual Holiday Bazaar. Especially not when all the local moms are paying to hawk their bullshit crafts and tupperware!âÂ
It was more than that of course. The Hawkins High Holiday Bazaar was a tradition spanning several years now. Starting in the gym and spilling clear into the parking lot, everyone from local artists to even some local shops came to host a small table for the day, thus growing the event from a small school fundraiser to a Hawkins' âmust-do.âÂ
Half the fucking town was here to sell, and the other half was here to shop, which meant Principle Higgins had wanted Hellfire banned from the fucking premise.Â
Eddie had been forced to pull out one of his trump cards heâd been saving--blackmail on Higgins that related to the manâs not--so--legal addiction to Percocet that he relied on Reefer Rick for.Â
(And bless Rick, that hadnât been the only tidbit heâd shared with Eddie about Higgins. That information, however, Eddie needed just so the asshat wouldnât give him the boot from school entirely.)Â
The only reason Eddie had pulled it out to secure their rightful spot, was because of Gen Con.Â
It was Hellfire's White Whale, their grand adventure, and this was going to be his year to take his friends on one last epic quest to make memories of a lifetime surrounded by people who understood them.
Come hell or high water, Eddie was going to Gen Con--but being able to fundraise by selling wares and baked goods at the stupid Holiday Bazaar would go a long way to help.
Even if he had to listen to the band repeatedly play ear-bleeding renditions of Christmas songs.
âAll the clubs get to have a table, and weâre a club!â Dustin continued, like it was that simple. âBut you know, I get it. We look scary.âÂ
He gestured down to his own Hellfire shirt, before gesturing towards Eddieâs entire outfit.
Like Eddie didn't know what he looked like, let alone that he'd made this outfit specifically to scare people away from him.
(And maybe add some rockstar flair to this dinky little hick town.)
âYou know who doesnât look scary?â
Dustin held out his hands and swiveled his body like he was presenting a prize instead of gesturing in the vague direction of;Â
âSteve!â
Eddieâs left eye twitched.
âYou can't kill him, you need his character for the campaign.â He told himself firmly, even if he envisioned strangling Dustin like a chicken.
Cartoon squawking and all.Â
âThe King isnât going to help us fundraise, Dustin.â Eddie said, in an effort to break down why Harrington couldn't be here. âHe's just going to cause us problems that we canât afford to have.âÂ
So many problems, half of which Eddie couldn't think of because if he did, he'd start spiraling.
âReally? Because as you keep saying, Steve used to be the King. People love him, Eddie! Momâs love him.â
Eddie had pulled himself back up to his proper height a while ago, and now rocked back on his heels while he ran a hand down his face.
There was no getting through to Henderson when he was like this.Â
Not unless Eddie really lost it, and it was practically club lore that he only lost it when someone missed an important game.Â
One cannot keep a herd of sheep if their flock is terrified of them, after all.Â
(âPerhaps youâre just a giant fucking softie.â Tiff, one of Hellfireâs graduating members, told him once. âHonestly dude, I bet you throw up stuffing.â
âShut up Tiffany, your choker is on backwards again.â He'd spat back, completely offended and not at all trying to distract from how true that was.)Â
âWe canât be satanic if Steveâs the one selling cookies!â Dustin finished doggedly.Â
âWeâre not even selling cookies--thatâs not the point!ââ Eddie shook his head, hair flying. He was not going to be sidetracked, he wasnât!
 âHarrington is going to end up siding with all the moms about how weâre all wasting time with D&D, if he even spends the whole time at the table. Is that what you want?âÂ
He stuck out a ringed finger, poking at Dustinâs chest.
âEvery single person who comes by our table has to be convinced D&D is a writing and math based game. Good for the mind and souls of growing, impressionable children. A game that got a bad rep because of a few silly images.âÂ
A pitch he and Tiff had come up with during the third or fourth time they had to convince an adult that no, just because their shirts had a dragon on it, didnât mean they were summoning demons in the drama room.Â
âHarrington canât do that because Harrington doesnât even know how to play!âÂ
This Eddie punctuated by throwing his hands in the air.Â
Given the startled look of the mother-daughter duo passing him by, clearly was louder than heâd intended--but screw it!
He was right!
Hellfire was in a precarious position to both fundraise and do a little damage control among the slightly smarter members of this shithole small town, and Harrington rolling his eyes and gossiping about how stupid it was would hinder that.
âOkay, first of all, Steveâs played D&D with me and he didnât even kill his character.â Dustin said it like he was unveiling a smoking gun and not lying through his ass--which Eddie would absolutely be calling him on the second he was done talking.Â
Because King Steve? Play D&D?
'Ha!'
âAnd heâs not gonna say shit because we--me, and Lucas and even Mike!--asked him to help, and he helps when its serious. I know you have some weird grudge with him, but Iâm telling you Eddie heâs our golden ticket to Gen Con!âÂ
âYouâre killing me. You are standing here, acting as a friend, when you are bringing a-- a dark force into the midst our of mission--â Eddie hissed, because he was losing the fucking fight and he knew it.
Dustin Henderson was not a man easily swayed.Â
Had never been, even when the odds were stacked against him (and Grant and Gareth were howling in his ear.)Â
The set of his shoulders and the glint of the little shitheadâs eye meant Eddie wouldnât be able to use him to oust Harrington--if he even could get him out without the dick causing a massive scene anyway.Â
As always when outgunned, Eddie flipped to dramatics.
âBetrayed! By my own chosen heir no less!â He moaned, pressing the back of his hand over his eyes as Dustin scoffed.
"Donât be so dramatic! Steve will help, I promise! Just donât be a dick to him.âÂ
 Conversation apparently over, Dustin turned around to head back to the table
Snidely, he added over his shoulder: âPlus weâve all caught on to the heir thing Eddie. You tell everyone that so they do what you want.âÂ
The dick.
âYouâre too fucking smart for your own good. Iâm gonna start feeding you paint chips to bring that IQ down.â Eddie muttered angrily as Dustin went back to their little table.
He gave himself a moment to get his shit together and stomp a foot like a child when Dustin was around the corner and thus couldnât witness it, before following his wayward sheep back.
Could only pray to any deity listening that Hendersonâs meddling didnât blow up in Hellfireâs face.
#Door Prize#Alt S4#pre steddie#when is it not lmao#Holiday fic#well this is more of a warm up but it has another part#Ive just given up the WIPS are running my life#this is brought to you by a local high schools massive holiday bazaar I went too that had cute band kids running around#could not play music though bless them#I did FINALLY get re employed so things are slowing down but Im hoping to post one more chapter of SOMETHING before the end of dec#and probably the other half of this warm up shes short#steven harrington#eddie munson#baking#special appearance by Adopt a Jocks Tiff#Robin pops up in this in the other half#Dustin Henderson#and his scheming#Steve can bake#0o0 fanfics#stranger things#stranger things fanfic#steddie
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Kara has always dreaded the day sheâd meet her soulmate.Â
Thereâs relief in knowing she has one, of course. The person meant for her didnât die with Krypton. Thatâs something! Even still, itâs hard to feel excited for the moment they meet, because thatâs the moment Kara will hurt them. Sheâs had their exclamation of pain inked into her skin for as long as sheâs been on Earth. In some ways itâs better. Most people have phrases like âgood morningâ or âhold the door pleaseâ as their soulmateâs first words. They have to endure hundreds of almosts, breath held just in case that stranger really is the one. Kara wonât have to do that. Her words are far too distinct.
It's agony, thinking about how their meeting will go. She spends years imagining every possible scenario, each one more painful than the last, yet the day it happens she barely even registers it. The words wash right over her, drowned out by the loud crack as her hand makes sudden contact with a stranger's face. The telltale crunch of contact shocks her. She hadn't registered anyone was there during her dramatic retelling, otherwise she would have kept her gestures small. She wouldn't have flung her hand out with such force.
The woman she's hit is hunched over, clutching at her face. She gasped loud and sharp when it hit, and now she's just wheezily breathing in shock. Kara can see blood starting to drip down her wrist.
âDid you," the woman gasps, and her voice sounds wet. "Did you just break my nose?â Kara wants to die.
âIâm so sorry! Are you okay? I am so sorry!â
People are looking at them and the woman keeps cursing under her breath and Kara really, really doesnât know what to do. Her hands hover uselessly over the hunched figure, desperate to soothe but scared to touch in a moment like this. âI didnât mean to â I was telling a story and I got too excited with my hands I guess, I didnât see you there. Are you- can I-â
She looks to Alex for guidance, but sheâs just staring at the interaction with a wide-eyed wonder. Typically her sister knows what to do in a scary situation, but now sheâs looking just as clueless. Theyâre both barely awake at this point â itâs six in the morning and theyâve been at this airport terminal since midnight, miserably watching their red eye flight push into a mid-day departure. Theyâre both half-delirious, which is fun when youâre goofing off but less so when youâve just broken a strangerâs nose.Â
And then it hits her. The words sheâs carried on her arm for so many years are tingling, she realizes, and theyâve been tingling from the second her skin met the girlâs.Â
Did you did you just break my nose?
âOh wow,â Kara says, dumbfounded. âItâs you.â The woman falls silent. She must be realizing too Kara thinks as she fumbles with her sleeve, pushing it up enough to show her inked arm. The woman's eyes drop to the tattoo that's brought such shame to Kara for so long. She feels her eyes like a touch. âI â Iâm so happy to meet you! Iâm so sorry it happened like this.â She laughs and it sounds strained. Her hands are shaking. The woman doesn't look up from her arm.
Even hunched over in pain, it's clear the woman is beautiful. Important, even, considering how she's dressed. She's dressed like she's en route to lead a business conference, her tight black skirt and matching blazer scream business professional. Though the effects are tampered a bit by the splattering of blood thatâs dripped down her white blouse. Kara wonders how old she is to be dressed like that. She must be older to look like that. At nearly nineteen, Kara has never had anything more than a graduation to dress nicely for, and even then she wore her stained dress pants. This woman - her soulmate - must be much older than her, which feels strange to think. She looks Kara's age, maybe even younger. If not for how clearly tailored to her body her clothes are, she'd almost look like she was playing dress up.
Kara feels self-conscious then, sharply aware of how she must look to her soulmate. As smart as it felt to come to the airport in pajamas for her all-night flight, standing in rubber duck pajama pants while trying to have a conversation with her goddess of a soulmate did little for Kara's confidence.
When Karaâs eyes finally track back up to her face, she finds sharp green ones staring back. They're the prettiest eyes she's ever seen, and they don't seem interested in looking away. That's fine with her - she's more than content to stare right back.
It's only the soft plop of blood hitting tile that draws her attention back to her crime, and she can see the way the woman's hands have become covered in blood. "Oh gosh, here - let meâŠâ  Kara fumbles in her backpack for a moment with no clear plan. All she knows is she has to do something to fix this. She fumbles about before pulling out a clean t-shirt. âHere. For the-â She holds it out to the girl and gestures at her own face. Slowly, like sheâs scared Kara might grab her or something, the woman takes the offered shirt. She wipes the blood from her face and hands, dabbing beneath her nose. The bleeding seems to have stopped, at least, and the shirt helps contain what's escaped. Watching a stranger wipe blood on her high school band t-shirt shouldnât thrill Kara as much as it does, and yet.
Kara laughs again, the sound nervous and high-pitched, before taking a step towards her. Her soulmateâs eyes go wide, tracking her movements, and Kara's heart clenches when she steps away. The rapid race of her soulmate's heart beats into Kara's ear - she can literally hear her fear. She holds her hands up in surrender, stepping back to where sheâd been before. The last thing she wants is for her to be afraid. âDoes it hurt?â she asks, and her soulmate shakes her head no. âThatâs good. Thatâs good. I- uh." She has nothing more to say, and her soulmate's certainly not contributing. Karaâs palms are sweating. She hasnât sweat since she was thirteen, but one look from this person has her rubbing her hands on her pajama pants like a middle schooler at a dance.
The woman finishes wiping up and lets her arms fall, blessing Kara with her first real look at her face. Bloodied and skittish, sheâs beautiful in a way Kara can hardly comprehend, in a way she could never imagine. Kara's pretty sure she's blushing now for some reason, and she has to flex her toes to be sure sheâs still touching the ground. âMy nameâs Kara,â she says, and then gestures over her shoulder. âThatâs my sister Alex. Weâre flying home for winter break. Midvale - Midvale is home for us. Where- where are you flying to?â
The woman stares and stares, and Kara's starting to panic thinking she'd given her soulmate a head injury that's muted her somehow, when at last the woman speaks just barely above a whisper.
âHome,â she says. It feels like her heart might burst just from hearing that one stilted word. Kara wants to hear a thousand more, wants to hear nothing else for the rest of her life.
âThatâs awesome. W-whereâs home for you?â The woman's lip trembles as she opens her mouth, closes it, and then opens it again.
 âIâm sorry,â she says, and then throws the t-shirt at Karaâs face.Â
Kara fumbles catching it, distracted by the shock and gross factor of having a blood-soaked shirt hurled at her face, and it takes her far too many precious seconds to realize her soulmate is gone. Bewildered, Kara looks around before just catching sight of her vanishing around the corner, high heels and racing heart clattering away. She looks at Alex. Alex waves at her, frantic. âGo!â Alex yells, and Kara takes off.
Pretending to be a human has never been harder than it is while chasing after her soulmate. Normal human pace - especially what's acceptable at an airport - is not fast enough for this, not when the woman has already gotten so far ahead. Kara must look ridiculous, bursting into sprints only to trip suddenly into a walk over and over again, her ears locked on to the thudding heartbeat and faint whispers of her soulmate mumbling, âcrap crap crap crap,â ahead.
Karaâs thankful theyâre in an airport, at least. Her soulmate canât just run outside, and Kara is fine embracing the romcom trope of following her love onto the plane. Her soulmate stops moving ahead and Kara speeds up, nearly wiping out twice tripping over luggage and small children. Her heart is in her throat as she clears the corner her soulmate is behind and pushes her way into the door she's passed through. All the wind knocks out of her lungs then when she sees her again. The woman looks up at her in shock, as if she didn't think Kara would chase her. As if Kara would just let her go. With a visible gulp, her soulmate flees around a corner and disappears out of sight. Kara manages a single step forward before a body blocks her way, and she looks up to see a massive security guard staring down at her.
âMembership card, please.â
Kara tries to peer around him. He steps in her way, cutting her vision off. Her soulmate led her into some private place you can't just walk into, she realizes, glancing around at the sleek appearance and exclusive atmosphere. âI- uh, left my card in my other bag,â she says, gesturing back over her shoulder. She can hear her soulmateâs breathing and it's all she can focus on. Sheâs right there. Just out of sight. Kara is so close. âIâm afraid you need your card to enter the fly lounge,â he says sternly. He starts pushing gently at her, trying to nudge her back out of the sliding glass door sheâs come in. Kara almost forgets to let him move her. âI- Iâm sorry, someone I need to talk to just went in there and I-â She stops in the doorway, hand firm on the wall. She can hear the way the guard huffs against her solid pressure. Sheâs not acting very human right now and she knows it.
âIâm gonna have to ask you to leave, maâam," he says, pushing more forcefully against her. Forceful enough that she knows she has to move even as all her instincts war against it. âCan- can I buy a membership? Like a day pass or something?â
The guard looks over at the front desk, making eye contact with a woman who looks like she would rather watch Kara be flayed alive than allowed another step inside.
âA day membership is $189 plus tax,â she whines out in a nasally voice, tone making clear she already knows Kara wonât be affording that. Which is accurate. Kara barely has enough to buy a meal.Â
Looks like her soulmate is rich, then.
The man nudges her back again and a flash of panic echoes through her chest. For a moment, she envisions herself throwing him out the open door, tossing aside anything or anyone that tries to keep her from her future. But sheâs already scared her soulmate enough for one day, so she smiles with forced bashfulness and allows herself to be walked back out of the lounge.
The frosted glass door marked High Flyers Club Lounge shuts her out mockingly. But itâs fine! Eventually her soulmateâs flight time will be here and sheâll have no choice but to come out and face her. Kara just has to be patient. (Kara hates being patient.)
She takes a seat against the wall across from the lounge entrance. Her glasses rest low on her nose as she stares her soulmate, soaking in every inch of her as she paces in the luxurious lounge. Her heart is racing, she seems on the edge of a panic attack, and Kara wants desperately to be in there with her talking her down. But she canât, so sheâs left to watch â at least until the girl steps into the private restroom. She stops watching after that. Instead, she settles down to listen to the comforting beat of her soulmateâs heart, closer now than itâs ever been.
Her mind wanders as she waits, mentally reviewing every moment of their interaction. Considering where she failed, where she succeeded. Making lists about what to say to her next. She never got her name, for one thing, and she still doesnât know where her home is. Thereâs so much for her to learn.
Her mental meandering is so consuming that it takes her a bit to realize the heartbeat has moved farther away. At first she thinks her soulmate is just moving around the club, but no- sheâs moving away from the airport.  A quick glance through walls shows her that her soulmate isnât in the club anymore. The heartbeat is elevating, she realizes, and Kara runs to the glass wall just in time to see the plane - small, private, with an apparent access point from within the lounge â take off.Â
Horror and confusion overwhelm her, bringing tears to her eyes. This doesn't make sense. Why would she just leave without saying a word? Why would her soulmate do that? It's almost unbearable, the pain of it. She doesnât know how long she stands there, face pressed to the glass, listening as the heartbeat grows quieter and quieter before vanishing all together.
Kara learns a lot about grief after that.Â
She knew a lot already â far more than any one person should ever know â but that grief carried a different weight. The loss of her people wasn't a choice by them. They didn't want to die. The loss of her soulmate is its own beast, sharp and cruel in her heart, because this time the person she mourns chose to abandon her. Her soulmate chose to leave. She saw Kara that morning and decided that one look was enough, that Kara wasn't worth any more of her time. She left her there with nothing but a bloody t-shirt and a thousand questions. Kara never even learned her name.
She goes through the stages â she feels her anger burning out in her eyes, feels the sorrow take hold. She denies it, she bargains with everyone, anyone. She calls the Flyerâs Club, tries calling the FAA. She tracks flight logs and makes cold calls and still finds nothing at all. She writes about it on soulmate websites and Medium articles, casting a wide net so that someday when â if, her mind reminds her. if if if - her soulmate ever looks sheâll be able to find her. Â
Time dulls the sharpness, though, and the years shift that rejected feeling into a more muted anger. Kara doesn't care about the love lost. She doesn't care if the person is her other half. All she cares about is the anger. Finding her feels more like a hunt than a quest for love â sheâs got a lot to say to the other woman when they finally meet again. She just wants one more meeting, thatâs all. Just enough time to tell her exactly where she can go. Kara doesnât need a soulmate, after all. Her life is full of love and joy and adventure, and she doesnât need another person to complete her. She graduates college with a degree in English, minor in Journalism â her attempts to track down her soulmate really ignite the journalistic bug in her, and with Clarkâs constant encouragement it feels inevitable. She moves to a big city despite her small-town fears and she gets a job almost no one survives. Kara is thriving.
It almost shocks her, then, the way her heart trips over itself when she sees her again.
Theyâre watching the trial, her and Alex, and Alex is halfway through a lecture on how sheâd always known Lex Luthor was evil by the way he wore his pants â (âGood guys donât wear their pants that high, Kara, itâs common sense.â) â when Kara's nerves jolt like a lightning bolt has rushed through her. Her gasp is so sharp Alex screams almost in sympathy.Â
âWhat? What is it?â Alex yells at her, looking around for some danger lurking nearby. Kara tumbles to the floor practically crawling to the television screen. Someone new has taken the stand, someone she'd recognize anywhere.
âAlex,â she says, jamming her finger against the somewhat grainy image projected on her television. âIt's her.â âWhat!â âMy soulmate!" Kara knows it like she knows herself, even after all this time. She looks different. Six years of struggle sit clear in her hard gaze, her mouth twisted into solemn resignation. She looks almost casual on the stand, sitting comfortably despite the eyes of the world on her. Like it's just a regular conversation. Like sheâs not about to help send her brother to prison for life. âLena Luthor, sister of the defendantâ reads the helpful banner beneath her grim face. Even after everything, Kara is struck by her. She's breathtaking. Kara kind of hates her for it. âHold on, thatâs- you barely even saw her when you met! You donât know for sure.â Alex sounds desperate, which is fair. The younger sister of the man who tried to kill Superman is certainly not an ideal soulmate for someone like Kara, but it doesn't matter. It's her. âIâm sure,â she says, and feels the truth of it deep in her bones.
A giggle hits her then that's so inappropriate for the moment it makes her feel crazy, but she can't help it. As Lena Luthor begins to explain the piles of evidence sheâs gathered against her brother, Kara giggles away. She feels almost drunk on it, smug and satisfied. âFound you,â she says, almost like a taunt. She drags her finger over the screen, feeling the static of her ancient television biting back at her as she caresses Lena Luthor's face. The anger thatâs long settled inside of her seems to reignite with every charged word Lena speaks against her brother, with every glance she makes at the camera. She can feel Alexâs nervous energy behind her but she doesnât care. The politics of this, the implications - none of it matters to Kara. What matters is she has a name, and she has a general location. She's so close she can practically taste it. âSee you soon, soulmate,â Kara whispers, and for a second it feels almost like Lena is staring right back.
#Hey man here's a soulmate au that burst out of my brain and demanded to exist#this will probably end up on ao3 but I want to write another chapter at least before that#also this follows my standard formula that I love but rarely see in soulmate aus#where one (or ideally both) of them are like HEY ACTUALLY NO THANKS and try like hell to deny the deep and inevitable drag of destiny#mine#supercorp
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