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dukeofthomas · 2 months ago

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I find the fact that the confrontation at the end of UTRH is often summarized as Jason asking Bruce to kill the Joker for him fascinating.

Because that's not what happened.

Jason holds a gun up to Joker's head, gives Bruce another, and tells him that if Bruce doesn't do something (shoot Jason), he will kill Joker.

Jason doesn't give the gun to Bruce so that he would shoot Joker. He isn't expecting Bruce to pull the trigger on the clown. He's asking Bruce to do nothing. To be inactive. Because that will still be a choice, and despite having done nothing, everybody clearly agrees that Bruce would still, at least in part, be responsible for Joker's death.

...And to me, this moment is a kind of- microcosm, of the rest of Jason's point. Because after being captured and carted off to Arkham, the villain will escape again, and will kill more people. The only way to truly prevent that from happening would be to kill them; Bruce refuses to do so, and I respect his right to choose such a thing for himself, but it is still a choice, and if we agree that Bruce's inaction during the confrontation would leave him at least partly responsible for the Joker's death, then we must also agree that his inaction in permanently preventing the Rogues from killing more people means he is also, partly, responsible for all of those deaths.

#my dc posting #batman #dc #bruce wayne #jason todd #joker #uhh is this like analysis or meta #anyway. to me this is the message that scene sends #if we say bruce doing nothing would mean he assisted in the murder of joker then bruce doing nothing about the villains means he is also #responsible for those deaths #ANYWAY yes b4 you come at me;;#bruce's belief in rehabilitation and that everyone can get better is central to his character #and i love it and no i dont actually think he should kill the rogues or whatever #but the question there is. Are you fine with the future victims your decisions will cause?#Are their lives worth the slim chance any of these people will get better?#batman says yes theyre worth it. red hood says no theyre not.#thats the fundamental moral difference there #its why jason challenges the batman status quo #which is why he cant be harnessed well after his initial return bc comics can never truly escape that status quo #anyway i sure am having some thoughts for someone not that smart so if you disagree please tell me!!! just be civil or ill just block you <#...anyway this is another thing BTAS succeeds in bc i always feel like yes these villains do deserve yet another chance #despite what theyve done. bruce's belief in them doesnt feel stupid and naive #its abt what you yourself can live with. bruce can live w the deaths of the ppl the criminals he doesnt get rid of kill #and jason can live with killing those criminals and preventing further victims

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blueskittlesart · 7 months ago

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deeply refreshing to see someone critical of Swift who also like, genuinely likes her. Like i'm neutral to positive on her, but the online discourse has been absolutely rancid. flipping between "Taylor Swift has never done anything wrong ever and she's a fucking genius" and "Taylor Swift is the worst lyricist of all time and also a bad person" is exhausting, so thank you for like. nuance or something lmao

not to make it serious for a sec but i genuinely think that being able to like things that are bad is really important. like I think that it's an important skill to be able to look at something and see what you personally enjoy about it and then take a step back and acknowledge that objectively it's flawed. and to also be able to acknowledge that liking something isn't necessarily an identity or a moral stance. and i think that fandom space in general could really benefit from more people taking the time to learn how to do that. it's okay to like things that are bad

#people ask me sometimes why ill occasionally talk about something i like and then go 'but it's bad' and the answer is usually because it is #i love teen wolf. i love genshin impact. i love detective conan. and i fucking LOVE taylor swift. that doesnt mean theyre good #it just means i like them. and recognizing their flaws actually helps me better identify what i like about them!#it's like. in my mind bad > good is the x axis and i like it > i dont like it is the y axis yk. they're not mutually exclusive #tldr it's not that serious. we can all relax a little #irt taylor swift i do also think she has done some real harm to her fans in enabling them to deflect all criticism of her as misogyny #and i don't think it's fully the fault of these people who are parroting that response bc so much of her marketing has deliberately #reinforced this idea that to be a swiftie is to be a part of a sisterhood and that any attack on taylor is an attack on all of those women #who are in that in-group. when that's obviously not the case. but she's marketed herself as. for lack of a better term. 'girl music'#to the point where it makes her fans feel as though any criticism of the music or the woman responsible for it is an attack on their #personal experience of womanhood/girlhood/sisterhood/etc. and that's how you get all of thess bad-faith accusations of misogyny #i don't necessarily think this was her deliberate goal with her marketing tho because like. on first glance such a strong sense of communit #among fans sounds like a great thing. the friendship bracelets i got at the eras tour movie are really genuinely special to me.#but it does present a problem when your fans are unable to separate how they feel about the community and experience your music has fostere #from how they feel about you as a person. especially when you are a billionaire who absolutely CANNOT be above criticism in this economy #anyway. tldr i love taylor's music and i don't think swiftie hivemind is as deliberately malicious as it may seem #but it's obviously necessary to be able to take a step back and look objectively at what you're participating in.#anyway stream ttpd or don't idc <3 #taylor swift

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maliciousalice · 2 months ago

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#oh my godddddd this looks incredible #if youre a fan of kate and have the means to go to new york go see her #like from these clips alone it just shows off her absolute prowess as an actor #the stage really is her home man like she looks so natural there #im so sad i cant just whip up a plane ticket to ny but ill support her in spirit #kate mulgrew #i legit screeched upon watching this #like with any luck they'll do a cheeky full release of a filmed version after the show is over (unlikely but a girl can dream)#no but you guys dont understand that moment of her drawing is so interesting because she has said she misses her mother and #she has never really described herself as and artist but she absolutely is doing something there like her body language is dead on #i dont think she has the patience to be an actual artist it does require a bit of solitude and being in one place for countless hours #kate always strikes me as someone who doesnt settle down but she understands artmaking because of her mum/ family that is so epic to me omg #maybe in another life for her...she could have

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dreamsy990 · 8 months ago

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this joke mightve worked better for dream drop distance in retrospect

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possamble · 5 months ago

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Going back to work after this but

#i mean ill be doing laios and marcille genfic content regardless and you cant stop me but #this isnt something that necessarily has to happen in little creature so im just testing the waters #my sick little brain. and its love for putting these two in all the trappings of a het relationship #while its still completely platonic #i just. she is so pathetic and little and clingy when shes horribly beartbroken #and he is her big stupidest puppy in the world #she would preemptively like. yell at him and hit him with books and pillows and swear that if he makes it weird she'll kill him #while he literally hasnt said a word about it #and then she'd curl up like a shrimp so compact he could hold all of her in just his arms #and it would literally cause so much drama if anyone else saw but he doesnt care bc she needs it #and bc he and falin are the only ones she feels THAT safe with #he is all she has when she needs to cry *about* falin #polls #a little creature #sorry. i just.#she is the closest thing to a girlfriend he has and he is the closest thing to a boyfriend she has and its all platonic and i #[feral noises]#“boyfriend” but its your platonically life bonded himbo with the same cup size as you who could lift you with one arm #or EASILY cover your entire body with his just by crouching over you a little #and also he will be the happiest man alive at your wedding to his sister

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lena-in-a-red-dress · 2 months ago

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they just met why is kara always going on about how lena needs to give her more and more? maybe that should be the end, they had a nice time , we got nice smut and they parted ways. i get why kara doesn't see them working but idg what lena is seeing in kara long term beyond her being 'normal' i guess that's enough with her life, even when kara was told that those pictures were from before they even met she still judged her and made all about how lena hurt her feelings, lena will have tabloids saying shit about her always and kara is right that they won't work long term, they don't work even now when they should be in the honeymoon period

Yall I'm writing this on my phone, my thumbs dont have that kind of stamina.

Also, as for what Lena sees in Kara... tbh I'm relying pre-exisiting chemistry that y'all know is there, even if I'm not the best at showing it here. I might embellish when I move it to ao3, but I might not.

But also part of things is that Kara doesn't really have room to shine, because Lena sucks all the air from the room. And with based looooooosely on the anne hathaway movie that sees them reuniting in like five years, I had to have them split in a relatively timely manner.

And also tbh, in case the "writing this in my phone notes" didn't convey this strongly enough-- I am pantsing this thing to the maxxxxxx. Not a single outline or bullet point in sight. Total stream of consciousness. As a rule, one can expect my tumblr stuff to be considered a stream of consciousness more than anything else. Do NOT expect it to be polished or free of plot holes.

Also also... it's a free story with our fave peeps? Didn't think it needed to be much deeper on this here tumblr dot com...

#lol sorry #this is ramble central #like.... you dont have to like it....#but i dont have to hear that you dont?#unless i majorly fuck up in terms of representation or a microaggression or whatever #i want to know about that #but if its just a general 'this isnt good enough for my tastes' thing #you cannot imagine how demoralizing this would have been if I had been in less a good head space #and then a bunch of people who *do* like it would miss out on the ending/more content #im sure you didnt mean this in a mean way #but if i were more depressed than i currently am #i wouldnt be able to see the lack of ill intent #i would just see “your story sucks and doesnt work what are you doing”#so maybe give it a second thought before hitting send yeah?

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satorisoup · 4 months ago

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people will think im ordinary until they say one (1) thing about tmnt and all of a sudden im explaining the entire lore starting from the 1990’s movie & why donatello is the best turtle i fear… T^T

tag limit fights me… i must yap… please listen… SOB </3

#tmnt yap in the taggies !!#would you believe me if i said my cat is named after donnie… teehee !! ^_^#i have been a tmnt lover since i was the ripe age of 6 years old SOBSOB #i used to write bf headcanons on wattpad way long ago… thats where my love for writing started i fear…#i probably have more tmnt merch than i do anime merch which is soso crazy to think about PHEW !!!#notebooks cups plushies legos shirts pajamas stickers tins action figs keychains name something and i have it… is that weird… SOB #im not joking when i say i know the entire lore and could explain everything from start to finish… FOR EACH AND EVERY REBOOT EVER…. wowza…#other than rottmnt because i’ve never been a fan of that reboot sigh…#the only reason donatello hamato isnt on my blorbie list is because i do not want to seem out of touch… he used to be there though !! :3 #also i love raph too sigh #i fear donnie was my start to my love for nerdy men… raph was for the mean ones… cough cough akaashi and bakugo #tall lanky men… yeah hes a turtle… i know… let me speak… pls… i beg… T^T #tmnt 2012 will always be my star my light my beloved #i can recite every single episode </3 ALSO THE 2014 & 2017 MOVIES DONT GET ME STARTED i have them on dvd :3 #i also have the 1990’s movies on dvd teehee theyre sososososoo good T^T my comfort franchise forever and always #i may always speak of anime but just know tmnt will always be the start of it all and my most beloved <3 its everything to me #also i was and still am an avid tmnt 2012 april oneil hater someone get her out of there i loathe her >:/#was never a supa big fan of leo im very sorry… idk who im sorry to… where are my tmnt fans… am i alone in this world… hello… tmnt fans…#omigosh im back after looking at my old wattpad story IM GIGGLING why was the writing kinda good… it was first person though sigh… goodness #i should create my own tmnt yap tag i fear… i will never shut up about it EVER SOBSOBSOB !! i even had a tmnt party when i was younger </3 #donnie ( & mikey ) are so misunderstood UGH i could yap about the lore all day. donnie deserved more recognition he was always doing so muc #FOR ALL of his brothers and they never appreciated it… ill cry right now. donnie you will always be famous to me. april doesnt deserve you.#raph and his temper are so misunderstood too like please. always making him the bad guy HE JUST WANTS TO BE A GOOD BROTHER HES JUST AWKWARD #remembering when i had a crush on a guy names joseph in first grade and he liked tmnt too… joseph just know we were soulmates… i promise </#i used to go up to the tv and kiss the screen when donnie showed up. i was like 6 years old tho its okay… still sleep with my stuffie tho.#thank you to my yaya for buying me that when i had the flu hes still in perfect condition SOB donatello i love you so much UGH im crying #‘thats a mutant turtle ew !!’ HE IS VERY BEAUTIFUL AND LOVEABLE TO ME. YOU WOULDNT UNDERSTAND EVERYPONY </3 nia reference woah hi nia :3 #whos in favor of tmnt. raise your hands up high so i can see them. im giggling. tmnt lovers rise we sha’ll prosper… WE RIDE AT DAWN 🦅🦅🦅#is this like totally crazy of me… has anyone read this far… if you have jusy know i love you. i cherish you. you are my everything <3 #₍ᐢ..ᐢ₎ — lene’s latest gossip .ᐟ

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boxwinebaddie · 3 months ago

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my favorite baby style ncu continuity is cute tiny hopeless romantic kindergarten disney prince stan falling in love with kyle broflovski at first sight and buying every flavor of ring pop trying to propose to him like 'you are...the most Beautiful person i've ever seen.'

and evil feral kindergarten nj kyle threatening to bite him, fight him and end his pitiful life like 'and you are...so Gahdamn WEIRD. stay the hell away from me, yA FREAK!' and trying to bear mace him skdhs

— but then k-garten stan doing something incredibly wholesome, mindboggling stupid and storybook chivalrous to save k-garten kyle's life, the ice around his cold black heart melting, bein forever changed and falling head over heels in love w boy hero k-garten stan...

...all to take the fATTEST L OF ALL FUCKING TIME because he is too emotionally constipated to confess his feelings and end up gettin stuck in the super best friend zone FOREVER bc every day perfect stan marsh gets lovelier, handsomer and....Fucking STUPIDER.

#nina speaks #i really do feel for ncu kyle...i do #that man got shafted #please note: if the super popular extremely pretty dark haired boy w/ big blue eyes confesses his love to you on day one #just say yes like just go along with it #however i will say that kyle being unapproachable and hating him and wanting to bear mace him did make him obsessed #which is soooooo mentally ill i am actually CRYING #but yeah because then youre going to realize that he is actually v sweet and cute and kind and wonderful and special #and your chest will start to swell and youll get light headed and want to start smiling and singing and swinging #and then you think he's gonna ask you to marry you again and he just asks you to be his super best friend forever #because he doesnt want to push it clearly u dont like him and he is just happy to be near you and spend time with you #and you want to push yourself off a cliff because now every person on planet earth is in love with stanley marsh #including you #and you are legitmately FUCKED #they really are who fell first who fell harder and i mean it #i love insane yandere black lab bf kgarten stan he is so funny like he has mental problems but i admire his detirmination #i also love emporer of evil probably has rabies new jersey potty mouth orange cat bf kgarten kyle who without a doubt 100%#would have a crush on a boy and send him death threats and be like Get Out Of My School because he makes him nervous #obsessed with my silly gay opposite attract sbf sons #ft baby stan like aw! u wrote me something <3 #( can't read bc he's illiterate ) ( hugs kyle ) you're the BEST! ( ft kindergarten kyle having shaking and having convulsions )#pour one out for kyle #specifically jersey #because his stan d*ed he never recovered and then fell in love with the sexc rockstar vers

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ad-hawkeye · 10 months ago

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[vibrating at speeds unknown to man] hey guys. i just finished alkaid's level 17 affinity event. i'm so normal right now. like so normal. extremely normal. no girl has been more normal than i am right now.

thinking about how alkaid does extreme sports because he yearns to be free and see everything, and how he would specifically push himself to do dangerous things just to feel untethered for even a moment. which is most likely how he wound up passed out on that snowy mountain (which mc STILL thinks about to this day)

and mc worrying and almost asking him to stop doing dangerous sports, but instead realizing to not only trust alkaid, but to try and see things through his pov by trying an extreme sport herself. and she winds up LOVING it

and how it was a give and take of mc expanding her views on things, but also alkaid realizing to not just recklessly throw himself into shit to feel something. its the mutual growth. [i start shaking you] are you listening to me. AND. And.

and how this all ties into the fairytale event?? where the modern world alkaid appears in the fairtytale world via his dreams and mc gets to finally give him his wish: the chance to fly freely and oh my god that part makes sense now

#lovebrush chronicles #alkaid mcgrath #addy rambles #lbc spoilers #what do you MEAN thats all the affinity convos ill get for now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAA #also dont htink i didnt notice mc saying alkaid just. doesnt talk about himself in detail like ever. What Was Your Past Like. Alkaid.#Hm. Tell.#i need to know more about modern alkaid or else im going to explode

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ganondoodle · 2 months ago

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struggling again with extreme artblock and general demotivation (as in nothing seems fun or appealing and you sit around staring at nothing doing nothing bc apparently no matter what i do whether drawing or not drawing i end up like this now)

i started to watch skitties totk video (again) and wrote a big post about how much i hate how the gorons are treated there but saved it as a draft like i have been doing with several rants now in order to not spam people with it over and over

but it does end up feeling like talking to a wall and just kinda .. increasing this looming feeling of extreme loneliness i have been fighting with for .... since i left school really..

#ganondoodles talks #personal #i know i know this is my own doing #i never go out and have enormous trouble keeping in contact with people or answering messages #i never ever mean it mean #it feels like my battery is never above 10% charged no matter what i do #and answering messages often takes too much #which just makes this whole problem worse #its like a spiral making everything worse and idk how to fight it #maybe meds would help me #but if i have trouble even answering an ask i cant try to start the process of getting diagnosed with whatever hundreds of things-#-that are wrong with me #also being afraid of being put under surveillance or something for it doesnt help either #also fearing wrong meds doing wrong things bc i am weird #also afraid of not taking any meds bc that can reduce your lifespan if you are weird like me or something #which ........................... adds dread and guilt and doesnt help either #sometimes i wonder how i am evn still alive #the only reasons why are probably -luck- and being too much of a coward to end it all back when i was at the worst point of my life #bc i am not strong or resilient and getting through the worst .. so far .. hasnt made me stronger- just weaker and more pathetic #idk why im rambling all this in the tags- it must be exhausting to read .. i know it is #ill just go back to staring at a wall

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aria0fgold · 7 months ago

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I just realized that Loop's dialogue icons have rock, paper, scissors hand signs, with rock and scissors modified in a way that resembles the sign itself instead.

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Scissors

#aria rants #was looking through the wiki gallery when i realized it. ohhh loop you lil rascal hiding something deeply connected to the #Universe in your dialogue sprites (resisting all the urges in me to think about the implications of that in regards to Things)#like did loop subconsciously just started doing those hand signs after the whole Stuff that happened or is loop purposely #doing that as a means to show that they feel more closely connected to the Universe than the world now that theyre #Like That. or is loop doing that as just to feel closer to Craft itself as someone who doesnt even have a craft type anymore?#isat #isat spoilers #is this spoilers??????? i am talking about the Universe in the tags so maaaaaaayyybee???? ill tag it just in case

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vnknowcrow · 7 months ago

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I'm so sorry y'all, maybe I missed something, some type of scene, something somewhere but I have no fucking clue how you can get lucyXcooper out of this show.

I truly don't gaf about rarepairs or enemies to lovers or shipping just cause you like how they look together or just cause it's fucked up but like genuinely saying they had good romance chemistry (better then Lucy and max even???) Is genuinely mind boggling to me.

Ship what you want, just don't lie to me?

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xxplastic-cubexx · 1 month ago

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hello!! i just want to tell you that your art is so goddamn scrumptious, you are literally feeding my xmen brainrot and I find myself smiling when i see your art come across my feed. I love how you draw charles, pretty privilege and post (lets be fr he's serving every time)

i hope you always have fantastic brainrot and id kiss your blessed hands for giving us the gift of cherik and charles xavier, you are literally an icon

hope you have a great day ahead of you and more!! you deserve it !!

well i'ma absolutely have a wonderful mornin after readin this AWWWW thank you so so much !!!! i haven't been postin xmen long, so it's been really heartwarmin seein the warm reception to my work in the wonderful tags people have been leavin on my posts- and especially gettin to answer the lovely asks y'all've been sendin in (❁´ ▽ `❁) !! im glad people also like my goofy text posts and esp quotes from my brother he really has no right being so funny at the most random times

i hope to be xmen posting a while: ive got at least 60 years worth of stuff to look through and ongoing, so i dont imagine my interest'll wane anytime soon :]] !!

#fave #snap chats #'xmen posting' is so generous ive been posting the same two freaks day in day out !!!!!!#my blog desc does not lie i am cherik posting near exclusively because these two have captivated my brain in such a diabolical manner #that doesnt mean i dont love the rest of the xmen cast ofc ..... its been fun getting back into this franchise more in depth this year #its funny honestly: i was more of an avengers kid growing up but like. by the SMALLEST technical margin #i Vaguely caught eps of 92 as a kid and i distinctly remember the 'real raven' scene from first class when i was a teen #because of course thats the one (1) scene i saw as a kid while channel surfing jELJEA like Hello mr lehnsherr. Your zesty turtleneck.#and mystique. hello. but it didnt really go any deeper than that ... until recently HIIIII #i missed the train like a mfer tho all Three of my friends had watched the xmen movies growing up but better late than never !!#i got into comics through my bro and he only really took me to see avengers movies and the like but avengers hasnt really. stuck with me #not in the way xmen has recently. maybe its cause im older idk i just find myself attached to it and more interested in it as a whole #BUT ENOUGH OF THAT PRATTLE thank you so much for the kind words !!! they really do mean a lot i'll cherish this ask forever #im very happy people like how i draw charles i love drawing him sm.... pretty privilege and post thats heinous vjlkjvALVJELKJ #BUT VERY TRUE HE'S ALWAYS HANDSOME THO i love me a bald mfer im so serious this is no game #dark phoenix gets my ire for having mcavoy be bald the whole time but then i have to deal with The Rest Of The Movie #he just looks so good .... i mean Granted but he just looks especially good ... do we catch my cold ... ill stop now ...#point is i look forward to drawing charles many more times in the future Bald Or Not with his ex by his side <3 #i dont even wanna post this i just wanna keep readin it. and replyin to it vJEALKAEJKL BUT i must thank you ... so thank you !!!#i hope to continue makin the people happy with my silly postings :]]]

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thereareeyesinsidethetrees · 1 year ago

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needed a way to force myself to work on the hk skins a bit (i still dont have reference sprites for a lot of them)

so i made a bunch of pfps of them! transparent so different backgrounds/flags can be added behind them

portal ford ^

object-head bill ^

weirdmaggedon ford ^

gold ford ^

paranoid ford ^

bord (do not tag as ship do not tag as ship do not tag as ship-) ^

sea grunk ford ^

mullet stan ^

fez stan ^

weirdmaggedon stan ^

sea grunk stan ^

autism creature ^

scruffy creature (his hat fell off during the fall) ^

#you can really tell that i was just sorta figuring it out as i went along #let me know if there are any other ones youd be interested in seeing- we can do a round 2 for hk skins sometime! :]#doesnt even necessarily have to be gravity falls. au? yep. other fandom? ill see if i can get any good references #i just like making them into bugs yknow #(if youre wondering why some of them dont have glasses-)#(i didnt figure out how to simplify them properly until i got to sea grunk ford. shameful shameful)#(as it turns out simplifying means removing details. what a concept)#anyway #gravity falls #ford pines #stan pines #mabel pines #dipper pines #bill cipher #blood

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gece-misin-nesin · 1 year ago

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can't believe there are ppl who don't like lost days wtf. not even the end scene, they just don't like jason's character and motivations in it. i mean, i always thought lost days jason>utrh jason so 🤷‍♀️

#“i didnt like making jason want to kill bruce its so generic” “ my brother in christ it is obvious as hell that jason only tries it because #also he clearly doesnt actually want bruce dead?? like he doesnt do it when he has the perfect chance #and he is obvsly lying to talia when he says “oh i want him to look at me as i kill him” like??#am i the only one who thought that or???#btw this isnt abt a specific person i just remembered someone on reddit saying that lost days jason made jason more #sympathetic in a fanservice way #i get what they mean by that but i rlly dont think thats whats up w lost days jason #bc whitewashing morally grey characters to make them appeal to a larger audience IS. a thing but i think youre missing the point here lol #anyway can't articulate why i ADORE lost days atm so #maybe ill make a seperate post on it one day but just know that i rlly like it(except the scene we dont talk about)#jason todd #lost days #red hood

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nomairuins · 3 months ago

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i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is

#ive been overthinking 1 light and casual mildly funny response to something but im worried itll come off as disrespectful and dismissive And #make me seem stupid and uncaring all at the same time. and also be seen as insulting. but like idt itd be insulting right like. im not #saying what it is so ig for all you guys know im like I mean if i say All your shit suck ball and i hateit kys. <- thats not the thing i was #going to say #like it doesnt matter now the window for response is closed now but i feel stupid bc i shouldve just said it it was light and casual. im so #bad at keeping convos gojng im convinced im not going to survive. In like a light and casual way like in a He will not make it through the #winter joke way. dw. im not going to do anything bc i had One failed interaction. if i was going to do anythjng itd be bc of the 8000000 #other failed interactions. But im not. anyways. it just makes me feel so useless 😭 like i want to respond i want to talk to ppl so bad but #i feel like i mess things up Irreparably every time i speak OR i take too LONG overthinking my response and then i just cant respond bc its #been too long and then its been 3 years and the only messages ive ever sent r my intro message and 1 message 2 years ago that nobody #responded to at all. or the conversation stopped immediately after. and like i used to be better at this i was lkke. talkative in a couple #muts servers like. i talked 2 ppl daily in those servers and i had fun and like. I was an important part of the group and i felt like it #but i just feel like such an outsider for Everything and its literally my fault bc i cant just like. Talk. The explosion. bc im always like #im gonna try im gonna do it this time im gonna get it back im going to finally be Good connor and im going to fix it all and make a Good #solid friend group and ill find HEALTHY LOVE and i wont selfsabotage and ill move out and have a job and ill balance it well and ill start #all my hobbies and ill have a great routine and be so loveable and on top of it and not stressed and content and happy and roll with the #punches and then theres a single hiccup and im like Well fuckinf whatever im going to be an unemployed hermit forever and im going to die b4 #im 25 anyways so Who cares and also im digging a little hole for myself. and its like. AUGHH ik i just have to persevere and overcome but #even saying that feels so stupid its not fucking hard its Talking to ppl. like. i literally if ive ever said a word to you i had to think #avt it and strategize how to respond right even for like. like. it makes it sound like its not genuine it is #like for example i want to say hey i love your art! but then i freak out and im like thats not normal thats like a rly generic comment they #hear that all the time theyll thjnk im being polite and my brains like hrmmm rewrite Your art changed my life. It shaped me. Ill never be #the same. Nad im like ok too far overcorrected go back and the sentence generator is like Your art has colors 💯 like. GOD. WHY IS IT SO #difficult. and then usually i either just dont say anythinf and feel awful abt it 4ever OR i send it on anon and then i spend like 15 #minutes ibsessively slightly tweaking the apelling and capitalization and punctuation to make sure it doesnt seem like its me just in case #it Is the worst possible thing to say but then i see the response and itll be like AWWW TYSM :] THIS MEANS A LOT or whathaveyou and i feel #stupid bc i couldve just Told them this to their face and it wouldve been a good positive interaction we had. but instead i had 2 hide and #tyoe entirely differently so they couldnt sniff me from my typing style. and it soesnt even feel like the thanks is actually 4 me bc i #tweaked the message sm. and it still makes me happy that the oersons hapoy but its like. that couldve been a nice mutual interaction #like not that i need a personal ty i compliment ppl when i Want to compliment ppl and when its genuine yk. i dont do it so i get mutualpoint

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