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whats up w jamsen 🤔 why do u like him? why does he keep not playing?
He's a 2020 7th round pick I've become enamoured with LOL!! he signed for a 2 year ELC just this summer and i did a little digging and. well. he's the creachurest boy to ever live
a scrungly angel in a previous incarnation (used to bleach his hair)
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lame ass stupid ass cringe ass designer/hypebeast obsessed LOSER <- the la kings keep signing guys i want to bully
He makes rap music on the side - stage name KIDJAM$EN - and plans to pursue music if hockey doesn't work out
was very popular back home apparently! flashy player. one of the first clips i saw when he got signed was him hitting a michigan
calls himself BOYWONDER <- all caps ! on his instagram
im 99% sure he brought exactly one (1) maroon suit with him to north america after trawling ontreign flickr and seeing him in the exact same suit with a rotating roster of fuckass beanies... i think Marco Sturm should give him special permission to wear his shitty hypebeast gear to games tbh
eurotrap weed dj yes-and thread (including neonfretra art!! <3)
I just love big personalities so much. I think I saw in media the Reign boys think he's a bit shy but I'm sure that'll change quick!! Jack Studnicka drives him to the rink :3
As for why he's a 4th liner who rotates in and out... Anyone's guess is as good as mine. I suppose they're trying to get him to acclimate to NA ice after playing in Europe? And there are other players who come before him on the depth chart (Fagemo, Chromiak, Pinelli) He's also been injured recently (right after his Gordie Howe hatty.... </3) so I'm sure they want to ease him back in.
He's very much a soft-skill winger despite the bouts of mean purse dog (here he is being picked up by an official after getting into a fight. We can't actually see his feet dangling off the ice but I like to imagine they are)
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Sturm was making him take faceoffs when I was watching the Reign regularly a couple months back, apparently wanted to get him more puck touches. I have a sample size of a handful of games and I think he's adjusting well.
when I complain it's mostly performative, I love holding petty grudges that mean nothing!! The Kings really like building through the draft, they've said so in a few draft videos I've watched, and I mostly trust their development pipeline... the Reign being so competitive at the same time as the Kings is certainly helpful and I'm sure Sturm is part of that lol
and honestly as to why I like Jams... at first it was his vibe but I've actually found it's pretty exciting to watch him with the puck on his stick!! He's a good carrier and passer, I can always count on him to do something fun, a little sideways.
despite the poor odds i hope he sees time with the Kings <3
#NOT 2 BE SINCERE BUT. MAN. I HOPE HE MAKES IT#Aatu Jämsen#aatu jamsen#la kings#ontario reign#lak lb#los angeles kings#asks#user endeus
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"shipping saiki is aphobic because he's aroace!"
stares at you with my demiromantic asexual in a committed relationship eyes then looks at the camera like im in the office
#good thing those folks have yet to find their way into my inbox or id be at risk of embarrassing myself lol#if you wanna see more of the content you prefer...make it yourself :3 MAKE IT YOUR FUCKING SELF lol#youre so attached to the idea youll complain about it but you refuse to do anything about it even create works that you and others will sur#ly enjoy how does this even make sense#sorry for reviving this from the dead when it blessfully hasnt been a thing in the tag for a hot moment but im still irritated hahahah#seriously you know what that screams to me? virtue signalling. you wont do anything except say a few words every now and again like#the motivation starts and ends at appealing to the popular opinion. earn your brownie points. and do nothing.#what is your care made of? thoughts and prayers?#every time ive asked one of these people why they dont make the content themselves the response has been 'i shouldnt have to lol'#you shouldnt have to bully people either with your aphobic BS but look at you! aw~#yall dont wanna commit to shit you just want to tell other people how they should exist.#if you cant create for whatever reason you better be ready and willing to drop your rec list and fave artists. and i sure as shit hope your#complimenting them thoroughly.
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A big reason why the Minrathos vs Treviso "choice" feels so weird to me is because I sent 3 people to Minrathos and 3 people to Treviso. So really I didn't make a choice at all except to choose where Rook specifically should go. Why is Rook singled out as the reason the fight in one city went better than in the other, and not one of the other companions?
And that got me thinking.
Why are half the companions always just sitting around doing nothing anyway? (in-universe i mean. I know the reason is gameplay.)
In the Minrathos vs the Treviso choice, we have 2 teams working at the same time in different locations, so it is possible.
Admittedly, none of these kinds of game ever give a reason a team can only have 3-4 people in it, so we take this as a given. But like. In the previous Dragon Age games it didn't feel weird that only the PC can do these quests, and the other companions just tag along.
In Origins, the PC is the only Grey Warden willing to lead a team.
In DA2, they aren't even saving the world! Hawke is just doing that stuff as a hobby and asking their friends for help. And the friends don't sit around doing nothing when they aren't with Hawke, they have their own lives!
In Inquisition, the Inquisitor is the only one who can seal the breaches, and they even put in a gameplay mechanic where certain tasks are delegated via the War Table. (Though, as I did complain about at the time, some more tasks could have been delegated. Looking at you, collect 10 elfroot)
But in DAtV? Why the hell aren't we dividing up all that work, all those quests? The companions in the Lighthouse have fuckall to do except cook and read! They could be out there!
Now, I'm not saying they SHOULD be out there, that would be ridiculous, gameplay-wise. But uhhh I WOULD appreciate it if the writing gave me a reason why they aren't. What makes Rook so special anyway??
#i feel like all my posts are complaining lmao#even tho i do enjoy the game or i wouldnt still be playing it#i love the characters#but i just wish the story was more interesting...#Theres barely any political tension at all#i feel like nothing interesting is happening that i can meaningfully engage with#evil gods bla blah yes yes#But what about the werewolves vs elves? mages vs templars? bhelen vs harromont?#what about the chantry? Wheres my complex society worldbuilding?#but thats for another post#for now i am wondering why ROOK is the PC at all#trees plays dragon age#dragon age#datv#dav#dragon age the veilguard#hmm is there some negativity tag i should be using?#not sure if the post is really all that negative or just pointing out smthg i found weird#im not trying to be a hater#datv critical#i guess#myposts
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no youre completely right - im a gay (trans)man and i legit wanna see so much more about the women bc There Is So Little. I wanna make a lesbian oc who gets bent in half by taash. im very normal.
i’m just tired man!!!! it feels so obvious how disproportionate it is when you’ve got. a cast of characters that we know almost equally little about. and a few of them explode in popularity and it’s like spongebob sticking his hand out the curtain. literally all a character needs to do numbers is to be a light-skinned man
#like you bring up taash!! we know equally little abt taash and emmrich. why is one FUCKING EVERYWHERE and i’m like. scrounging for scraps#sometimes i feel like there has to be a secret other main dragon age tag that has the real stuff in it#but maybe it’s just the tumblr userbase idfk#i feel like i’ve seen a little bit more of neve since the trailer but still not anything on the level as everyone’s fave boys#and before you hit me with ‘lucanis was in a couple short stories’ harding was in the literal entire last game. and she and neve had comics#there’s obviously something to be said about character types too. a lot of people love dark and broody#vs harding keeps getting described as Girl Next Door and that’s much less popular. fine i’m not going to argue abt individual tastes#but like. neve isn’t popping off??? on the columbo fansite????#everyone’s talking about emmrich’s experiments and research but no one talks about bellara’s??#like personally. ok. lesbian opinion so take that for what it’s worth. but i don’t understand all the lucanis thirst#davrin i could understand. davrin can get it. he gets way fewer thirstposts than the other men (hmmm interesting im sure it’s nothing 🙃)#i’m just like. tired. i don’t want to say people can’t enjoy what they’re excited about#but it adds up!#i feel guilty complaining when i am also not doing a lot of Female Character Poasting but like#there’s only so much i can do as someone who can’t draw and has been too busy to keep on top of all the breaking news
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Please stay the fuck out of the Dagon Age tag if you're a BG3 stan bitching about the fact that Dagon Age doesn't use non-white people solely as victims or villains, or that queer people don't exist to be written as rapists, or that women in positions of power aren't universally evil.
Dagon Age👍
#dragon age#veilguard#yeah idk what they're on about#the closest ive gotten to complaining about veilguard being “woke” or whatever was critiquing taash's character arc and how trans people#are represented in game#and even then the issue wasnt the fact that there WERE trans people#it was that bioware couldnt be bothered to actually think about how gender and transness worked in thedas#and ended up just using a bunch of modern ideas and vocab. which just makes trans players like me feel like we're nothing more than a tool#for virtue signaling game companies to look hip#but im p sure i know who this person is and that wasn't even what the post was about.#so they're just accusing anyone they disagree with of bigotry#also. not a bg3 stan. my feelings on bg3 are fairly lukewarm.
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my entire life i’ve hated how weird my name is and have lamented over how i couldn’t believe my parents would do that to me but lately ive been thinking about baby names and i think lydia is literally the prettiest name ever
#continuing the cycle 😔😔#i’ve always loved the name rosemary too. but i was not bold enough to put that in the actual post.#sorry to my future kids i’m tryna pop out a whole gaggle of fairies#okay wait disclaimer that lydia isn’t a weird name. and it is objectively really pretty. it’s just an older name#which again there’s nothing wrong with that. but it’s like if u named ur kid cheryl#pretty name just wrong time#which might sound fucked to you but i’m sure u kid is gonna think it’s even more fucked that u wanted to be contrarian and different#okay one last thing i’m complaining that my real name is weird meanwhile the name im going by on here is sol… hypocrite much??
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soo many people mischaracterize shadow in their sonadow stuff to the point where he acts more like knuckles . and so many people also take moments between sonic and knuckles and try to make them about shadow and completely ignore knuckles or take certain themes and dynamics in sonic and knuckles' relationship and apply them to sonic and shadow instead even when it doesnt make sense and theyre just making stuff up. and its so annoying i often feel like im the only person whos noticed this i swear some sonadow fans would like sonknux more if it werent for the fact that they dont really care about knuckles all that much
#i cant even explain it properly i just sometimes see so/nadow fanart and go ''thats literally knuckles wearing a shadow costume''#to be clear im not complaining over so/nadow being more popular and im also not hating on the ship itself#im just annoyed at how oftne people like take stuff from so/nknux to make so/nadow appeal to them more or make more sense#when they could just... ship so/nknux instead ? that feels like the more logical thing to do#LIKEEE people are litearlly just seeing so/nknux and going ''oh thats cute'' and then reskinning knuckles into shadow#and changing nothing else#im sure not everyone is doing it consciously but its still annoying either way#ok thats enough sonic shipping opinions for today. sorry
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actually maybe its kind of weird to expect transmascs to immediately start saying transmisogynist shit when presented with a useful transmasc resource. im not saying there arent shitheads like that out there, there are shitheads of all stripes on the internet and some of those stripes are transmisogynist trans people, but pre-emptively going on the defensive on a post that contains nothing except resources for DIY is maybe a little telling about your assumptions of how transmascs act
#spitblaze says things#i would also like to make it clear that my thoughts here are not stronger than a 'hm.'#i will not bemoan transfems who have had issues with transmascs in the past and deal with present transmisogyny#it just feels very like.#what if i made a post with resources on feminizing hormones and then was like#'transfems in the notes dont get weird about how transmascs are taking up too many resources (or whatever) dont be weird'#i think we would all agree that its even weirder that i felt like i had to say that in the first place on a post that is otherwise#nothing but useful to transfems. and probably patronizing. and more than a bit insulting that id assume that kind of behavior#anyway this is about One Specific Post and One Specific person not like. a widespread pattern or anything#im not sure why you're providing transmasc resources when most of your posts that even mention them are complaining about them
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anyways now that 12 hours and passed and I’ve slept, a little bit better of a summary: (also I think I’m gonna start referring to her as Princess when I talk about her on here cause her some of her old url’s have had princess in it and it’s one of the pet names I use most often for her)
I did end up getting to see her !! She drove down like she said she would and met me in a parking lot next to the beach. She drove us out for some food and took my In-N-Out virginity and it was fun! We then went back and ended up hanging out on the beach for the rest of the time until we walked back to her car and delayed saying goodbye until she had to leave 💔. Short and sweet visit! Umm nothing really happened we didn’t get kiss we didn’t go back go back to my hotel room or anything hands never ended up between any legs ! But it was still really fun, she was really adorable IRL and had such a playful personality. We flirted a lot and I definitely teased too much! Ended up with my thumb in her mouth at one point and *might* have gently tugged on her hair at one point when she was bein bratty so there was definitely some fun tension between us 🥰 All in all I’m really happy I saw her ! She says she’d love to see me again so hopefully that’ll happen I just don’t know when
#unimportant thoughts#should I start a tag for her as well?#i could just use her last url or something#I don’t know trying to be more open and less secretive on here!#i had a good time though 🫶🏻#she told me after it was very hard to try and behave and stick to her rules and not go to my hotel room with me#which obviously is v cute and makes me feel better about how much i was teasin and pursuin her#but I’m glad she stood by her convictions and kept her boundaries !#don’t want to make decisions either of us will regret#GODDD did I want her though#one day!#im not sure where we’ll go from here (probably nowhere and just remain these flirty more-than-friends that we already are)#but im happy i got to see her at least and i cant complain if nothing else ever happens 🫶🏻#pinkypprincess
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if im bein real i am so deeply frustrated with my art every single thing i draw looks and feels wrong everythings worse than i envision it feels like i cant seriously improve anymore i cant decide on a style i like doing i cant find a brush that does what i want i have no creativity or self expression i only feel remotely skilled when im using an exact reference and even if im satisfied with a finished product its still not good enough and feels like i will never be good enough to be successful and why is instagram full of teenagers that are better than me and how fucking good would i be now if high school me didnt slow down drawing and university me didnt almost completely stop drawing. so anyways
#im sooooo. i cant even process how deeply pissed off i am constantly#NOTHINGS RIGHT NOTHING FITS NOTHING WORKS DUDE I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE#ik im just. havign growing pains. been having growing pains for years but theres no way ive hit my ceiling at age 23#ik i just need to keep practicing and i have some bad habits that r making me stuck and i just gotta. study more work harder practice more#i know i KNOW ive just got a boulder sized roadblock and there has to be a way to get past it but I CANT FIGURE IT OUT#ik my weaknesses but even when i try to fix them i still do them#i dont draw guidelines so things turn out wonky and the volume and perspective of 3d forms is always wrong#i wish i could go more cartoony so i didnt need to do so much but i Know things beinf detailed n realistically proportioned is more my style#but also if i go to realistic then everythings fucking boring#but i havent done non realistic shit in years and i have no style so im just fumbling around#GOD IM JUST SO FUCKING OVER IT DUDE#and social media makes it worse i feel like how my art performs online is gaslighting me and i cant trust my instincts anymore#like if i think i like how smth turned out. and then i post it and its crickets everywhere im like. Am i crazy do i actually suck#is this really bad and i have no idea. WHAT THE FUCK#and ik letting external validation get to me like that is bad but im just like. none of this would be so fucking difficult if i was better#esp now that ive quit my job i sure would love to ignore numbers but i gotta grow and get better to get commissions i dont got a CHOICE#and also i just constantly see art thats better than mine and its confusing yk#i feel like. i need to stay offline for like a week#predownload some work from some artists i like as a few concrete inspirations. study anatomy books. work without anybody watchcing me#or me watching anyone else#yk#but also i have no life if im offline for a week that means i get like no social interaction besides my parents for a week#I DONT FUCKING KNOW#IM SO FRUSTRATED#i feel like im constantly complaining but its constantly bottling up like shook pop#x
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Little Tally has been plodding around and she was trying to get into a box earlier and she later came up to me and stared at me expectantly then later tried to eat my plants again and just now she came up to sit next to me purring again and leaning into my pets
The medicine really is making her feel better I think. And it's really highlighting how bad she Has been feeling. Bc these are all very basic things, but she hasn't been doing it. Even up to her little walk, the plodding sounds of her footsteps... before today, she was moving so stiffly, an awkward little shamble, so I couldn't even really hear her when she got up (which was nowhere near as much as normal). Something as simple as hearing her drinking water is making me emotional. If she starts yowling tonight when I go to bed I really might just cry.
I really hope this keeps up... she's got just one more day of meds, but maybe it'll be enough... I hope so...
#speculation nation#animal illness ment/#im never going to complain about her again. even if she poops in the drain again.#i love her so dearly and a week ago when i didnt know what was wrong besides the fact that she was in pain and wouldnt eat much...#i cried so hard. i was so scared. bc while she may be a little shithead at times shes so so dear to me.#ive had her for 3 years now... watched her turn from an excitable 1 year old to a chiller (but still mischievous) 4 year old...#shes my little chaos demon who shrugs off any inconvenience and just moves onto the next thing just like that.#so seeing her so stiff and lethargic... it just feels so *wrong*.#it really has been so upsetting. ive been trying to not think about it too much. focusing on making sure shes eating.#just doing what i can for her. but god i want my tally back.#shes still not eating as much as normal but shes been eating some and shes moving around more than she has been#and asking for attention instead of just laying on the couch doing nothing for hours and hours...#my tally gets BORED and she hasnt been. she didnt even cause chaos when we were at my sister's place. it felt so wrong.#so. we'll hope this is signs of an upturn. and that she'll keep on this trend.#and if she doesnt. well i have that appointment scheduled for blood tests on Thursday.#if she goes back to how she was before after im out of the meds then itll have been like 2 weeks of this#which is a long time for a cat to be sick with a cold. and so the blood tests would be necessary.#even though i know she hates it. she got mad at me this morning when i picked her up to bring her to her food#both bc i disturbed her and also bc i think there was a moment where she thought i was bringing her back to the box.#and she didnt eat much right then. so i waited a bit and then brought the food to her. and she ate more then.#and then her meds! which she had a dose yesterday but it didnt affect her as much as today's dose seems to have.#she may also have just been recovering from the stress of it + the fluids thing they gave her on her scruff.#she was a Very unhappy camper yesterday. but shes doing better today... and thats what matters...#so glad shes been asking for affection. i was scared she was legit mad at me. since i keep bringing her to weird places.#it's for her health though... she might not understand it but it's all for her sake...
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My boss asked if I could come in and work a few hours on my birthday next month (it's on the weekend this year and my normal work schedule is just weekdays) because we have a very time sensitive and expensive two day experiment lined up and ngl as someone who doesn't really like her birthday or has the best memories associated with it, getting paid time and a half for a few hours to fuck around with super expensive shit sounds pretty fun.
#not tf#my ramblings#i just have not great feelings about my birthdays#its nothing traumatic#its just there have been so many things that happened every year#like throwing a party expecting 30 people and only 2 showed up#or my family asking me where i wanted to go eat and then complaining about my choice once we got to the restaurant#im also 99% sure my parents almost forgot my birthday last year because i didnt get a call or text from them til night#idk its just always been so hyped up for me only for the disappointment to always hurt more#so spending the day making some extra cash and then getting to go home and cuddle my cats seems like the best plan tbh
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(gaiden and iw spoilers) hiii i finished infinite wealth and I'm kinda insane about it hope you don't mind
i can't stop thinking about how disappointed i am in iws story :( especially with how the jimas they just get thrown under the bus all the time
what bothers me the most is that i was so hopeful after that scene where the four all fought together at the end of gaiden(when daigo says the No Balls line)
after he says that and kiryu has given him a little speech about how he's proud of him, majima and saejima nod at each other, and JUST THAT tells you so much about how he's talked to them about how insecure he feels about dissolving the clan, going into hiding and all that stuff, it made me so hopeful for a proper talk between daigo and kiryu, for kiryu to finally change his ways and actually try to help him out instead of asking for shit without giving anything back all the goddamn time
it's really fucked up how we got that subtle story telling and then just. oh they're fishermen. oh kiryu's asking them to do stuff for him again. oh he got pissed and beat them up and then left without doing ANYTHING again after not seeing them for three years. oh they don't get to come with when kiryu's dying in a fucking helicopter
being a 3jimas fan is suffering we could have had so much man. how did they even get to that village. why is it abandoned. why didn't we get to do anything with them we just left
i'm so tired oh my god
i've ranted Extensively with My Cabinet about how much i'm annoyed and disappointed by IW's story and handling of characters, and how the 3jimas were handled is one of them- tbh mostly daigo since he had more of a presence in the plot but perhaps because of that its awkward to see how the game handled majima and saejima as well
to just focus on daigo, it genuinely was really annoying how we were given SOME semblance of finally getting a scene where daigo breaks it all down for kiryu about how much the past twosome decades have sucked and that kiryu was abysmal for just dumping (AND CONTINUING TO TRY TO DO SO) problems onto daigo and others and maybe JUST MAYBE kiryu gives a right proper apology or realizes he's being selfish (again). like the build up was great, but it just falls flat when kiryu just. LEAVES after the fight after making them all feel like piss about themselves so the jimas pull through at the tower anyway
#iw spoilers#spoilers#snap chats#'but kiryu said maybe he just wanted one last fight' ok he didnt have to do all that while guilt tripping everyone jesus christ#majima woulda fought him for a can of coke- hell he wouldve fought him for free dont talk to me#what ESPECIALLY pisses me off about the jimas/daigo is just how ... Whatever the fall of the security company is handled ????#like they just chalk it up to cancel culture and its just .... ouuGH THIS THE RANT I WAS ALLUDING TO IN MY OTHER POST#JUST. ALL THAT PLANNING AND FOR WHAT ??? JUST CAUSE SOME CATGIRL VTUBER SAID YALL SUCKED ???#daigo's passion for the tojo men and making sure they all had homes and a safety net just means fuckin nothing ???#can yall at least SHOW ME how bad it got cause Mr Stubborn folding just like that is annoying#LIKE TRUE AND HONEST circling back to a complain i had with IW is that they do a lot of telling and not showing#LIKE HYPOTHETICALLY you did not need to show any of sawashiro's flashbacks slideshow style BUT THEY DID#AND IM GLAD THEY DID I WOULDVE APPRECIATED IT IF WE GOT MORE THINGS LIKE THAT#ESPEEECCCIALLY FOR MAJOR EVENTS LIKE THE SECURITY COMPANY FALLING IDK#does not have to be anything super serious just show the office getting emptier day by day idfk ANYTHING#its too early to be ranting like this but im having one of those weeks where im sad and angry about everything
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If I could change one thing in my life I'd make it so no one ever commented on food
#elias.zip#im so fucking tired of it!!! joking or not its fucking degrading. just constantly. i get it im so fucking unhealthy all i eat is processed#chemical slop thats gonna kill me at 30 and im the unhealthiest person in the fucking work#world* you dont need to fucking remind me every goddamn day. even the comments that arent bad still make me feel likr shit for eating!!! i#already feel really bad about how poorly i eat. i literally cannot fucking starve myself more basically over this kind of comment.#like damn!!! i sure do have a lot of body issues for someone whos skinny WHY am i even complaining in the first place likr i used to fucking#hate my stomach and its noy when#even* big and i think its gone down bc i eat even less now!!! i cannoy make ANYONE happy no matter what i do or what i cook its always comme#nt comment comment in everything i fucking do. i swear to god im never going to fucking recover from living with them. i would've run away i#f i grew up with them im serious#negative#ihateithereihateithereihateithere#nothing's working out. i csnt make friends. i csnt keep them. im a fucking deadbeat im just like my dad in every conceivable way no ones pr#oud of me no matter what i do and i fucked myslef from any opportunity i had to get out of the system what is the fucking point#i jsut dont knoe anymore!!!!!! its not like the Future even looks good or that i see myself anywwhre but in the exact same spot because all#i ever fucking manage to achieve is self sabotage and whining about how no one loves me. god!!!!!
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#im just gonna complain abt it here bc i just have to accept that i can't irl bc no one else gets it#its hard to b a dyslexic grad student. u have to read so much. and its good. lots of reading is good. u just have to contend with a soul#crushing amout of discouragement at the fact u just kinda cant read while ur peers r like sure i can read this in class and have things to#say abt it. if u make me read in my head in class i literally cannot fucking tell u what i just read. not a god damn thing and if i try to#let my computer read to me i cant fucking pay attention for long enough so i just have to accept that from here on out ill have to#physically read papers aloud which i hate so much. its the only way i can fucking understand things and it still makes me feel dumb bc ill#somehow still space out while reading and have to reread like 4 times before i understand wtf is being said. it takes forever and it takes#energy and i dont like talking very much and it also restricts me to only being able to read at home which is frustrating#and im like i need to stop my brain from distracting myself with things that dont matter and my counselor is like: ur ocd is trying to make#work ur whole life and im like yeah thats how i got it. its the only way i can keep swimming with the non dyslexics#so its like wtf do i do? i kinda have to take the hit and make work my whole life rn. morn the loss of other things for a while#i dunno im still a bummer rn. like im probably coming off as more an asocial freak than normal bc its hard to talk ans maintain conversation#rn. but whatever. sometimes things just suck and theres nothing u can do abt it but accept it and move on. ill learn lots of things with all#the reading i have to do and that's never a bad thing ...no matter how much i dont give a fuck abt animals#like jesus. i could not even begin to give a fuck about like 95% of mammals. fish r cool tho. plants too#but microbes is where its at. i dont understand y ppl dont understand how cool they r. oh well ill just have to tell them#if i can find my fucking enthusiasm. ugh i have to make one of my classes read a paper and i have to work with someone abt find it. she#works with like rabbits. i refuse to assign a mammal paper. i fucking refuse. we will do plants or microbes or fucking paleontology#i will fight her on this. ugh. light filtering or orchid speciation would b perfect. annoying#at least i get to work with some culturs this week#unrelated
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I am not exaggerating when I say I live with one of the worst cishet men I've ever met in my life and its horrible
Pretty big vent incoming in tags, just a warning. Feel free to scroll past /gen
#sorry i. need to vent#he is genuinely one of the most ignorant; stubborn; and absolutely manchild of a man I've ever seen#I'm not fucking lying when I say he gets pissy and shouts and complains about EVERYTHING#and I don't mean just occasional shouting and getting loud#whenever he's upset. its /loud/. very loud#first time in my 5 years of knowing him I had enough and snapped back at him because he was yelling at me-#-bc I supposedly do absolutely nothing around the house and I take horrible care of myself and dont care about anything#at least in regards to the house#and complains about why I'm deciding not to go to college and that he got a job at 15 while he's literally#in his mid 40's#so.#like.#I told him I'm still 18 and I dont want him to boss around my entire fucking life but he brought up the excuse again of-#-him doing all the shit I SHOULD be doing by his words when he was 15#first of all. like. to get things straight; we are not related at all not even in the slightest#he's my mothers bf; I don't know why he gets so pissy at me about MY life of all things#like Jesus Christ shut up challenge impossible#yeah I had a fun (/s) moment earlier where I went to clean my dish and he started to snap at me about how I-#-walk past the dishes every day while they're piled up and I should do them. meanwhile. they're literally not mine. ever#I get it yeah but. whatever. he kept going onn and on and on and got even more upset with me literally not saying or doing anything to-#-provoke him more#Ig he just doesn't know that!! wow!! I do actually care about my life and future!!!!#and that getting a job is not that easy or the same as it was 30+ fucking years ago!! wow!! who would've guessed!!!!#Like genuinely i am literally trying to get a job rn and shit and have been stressing horribly about it for literal YEARS#but yeah ignore that I guess ok sure buddy#god sorry i.. really hate him. a lot#I dont like to hate on people really; esp if im accustomed to them. but him. he. no <3#I will say I hate him w my full chest#vent#negative post
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