#but still thats like. low on the list of reasons why it was bad of sisyphus to do that. and why he was in trouble.

[marklikely]

a LOT of people on that "why doesnt sisyphus just stop' post are saying that the furies attack him if he stops rolling the boulder.... quick question but did you guys ever play hades game.

[daisymbin]

14. "oh, so now we’re holding hands?" With Wonwoo pls and female:)))

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fluff prompt #14: "oh, so now we're holding hands?"

wonwoo didn’t know what he did wrong.

one moment, everything was fine. the next, you were cold, sharp replies replacing your usual warmth, and any attempt he made to talk to you was met with an annoyed glare. you weren’t outright ignoring him, but you might as well at this point.

so he did what any reasonable person would do: he followed you around and tried to make you laugh, even if it meant annoying you further. but no matter how much he teased or tried to catch your attention, you stayed firmly in your icy bubble, refusing to give him an inch.

after dinner with the rest of the boys, he thought you’d leave the moment the dishes were cleared. instead, you lingered in the living room, scrolling on your phone while pretending he wasn’t there.

thats when the idea came to him; he quickly pulled his phone out, texting jeonghan.

"let's watch a horror movie, im in the mood for it." jeonghan declared out loud. you didn’t object & wonwoo could only count that as a silent win.

wonwoo should feel bad, he really should, because he knows scary movies weren’t your thing, but he doesnt feel any remorse or guilt. so here you were, sitting stiffly on the couch beside him, your arms crossed, your gaze fixed stubbornly on the screen.

he tried not to smile, he really tried.

“you know, if you’re still mad at me, you can just say so,” he whispered as the opening credits rolled.

you didn’t even spare him a glance. “i’m not mad.”

“right,” he said, dragging out the word. “you’re just giving me the cold shoulder for fun.”

“wonwoo.” your tone was a warning, but it only made him grin wider.

“okay, okay,” he said, holding his hands up in surrender. but as the movie started and the eerie soundtrack filled the room, he couldn’t resist stealing glances at you, waiting for the moment you’d crack.

it didn’t take long.

the first jumpscare made you flinch. by the third, you were gripping the edge of the couch cushion so tightly that your knuckles turned white.

and then came the scene. the one with the flickering lights and the slow, suspenseful build-up that everyone knew would end in something terrible.

you tensed beside him, this is it, wonwoo thinks. your breath hitching as the music swelled. and just as the shadow moved on screen, you let out a startled yelp; one hand moving to grab at his biceps, hiding your face behind it and the other subconsciously intertwines with his fingers, clutching it tightly

he blinked, startled by the yelp you let out even though he expected it, and then, a slow, triumphant smile took over his face.

“oh?” his voice was soft, teasing. “so now we’re holding hands?”

your head snapped up, your eyes wide with realization. “i—i wasn’t—” you stammered, trying to pull your hand away, but his grip tightened, keeping your fingers firmly intertwined with his.

“uh-uh,” he said, his tone light but his hold steady. “you can’t just grab my hand and then let go like that. that’s rude, you know.”

“wonwoo,” you said, your cheeks burning as you tried to tug your hand free again. “let go.”

“no,” he replied, his thumb brushing casually over your knuckles. “besides, you’re still scared, right? so what’s the harm in holding on a little longer?”

“i’m not scared,” you shot back, though the tremble in your voice betrayed you.

“sure,” he said, clearly unconvinced. “totally fearless. that’s why you’re clinging to me like your life depends on it.”

“i am not clinging,” you hissed, glaring at him even as your face grew hotter.

he chuckled, the sound low and warm, and leaned in just slightly. “you’re cute when you’re flustered, you know that?”

“i’m not flustered,” you muttered, looking anywhere but at him. “and i’m still mad at you, by the way.” a small pout makes its way to your face.

“really?” he asked, his voice softening as he tilted his head. “because you’re not acting very mad right now.”

“i am,” you insisted, though your resolve was quickly crumbling under the weight of his teasing gaze and the warmth of his hand in yours.

“mhmm,” he hummed, his smile turning fond as he looked at you. “well, just so you know, i’m not letting go until you’re not mad anymore.”

your eyes darted to your joined hands, your heart racing as you registered the sincerity in his voice beneath the teasing.

“i’m not mad,” you admitted quietly, your voice barely above a whisper.

“oh?” he said, his grin widening. “so does that mean you’re holding my hand because you want to now?”

"I'm not holding your hand, you're holding mine!" you argued, your cheeks burning as you tried to pull away one last time.

but wonwoo didn’t budge. instead, he laced his fingers fully with yours, his grip firm but gentle.

“you should know,” he said softly, his teasing edge fading as he looked at you, “if you hold my hand so tight like this, i’m never letting go.”

your breath hitched, and for a moment, all you could do was stare at him, his words settling into the space between you like a promise.

[beelanddiavolosimp-blog]

I've decided to do this since it's been laying in my photos for a bit. I will give context!

Favs: I am absolutely in love with Beelzebub I have no idea why he attracted me so much but I have been non-stop horny and lovingly obsessed with him. This is actually recent I am Bi so I was saddened at first to realize there were no women dateables but once thirteen came out whew😮‍💨 I was completely smitten. She is so beautiful and really my type idrc if she was mean to me at first I need her.

Love: I love love LOVE 🪙Mammon🪙 he's so fucking cute and I love my men a little dumb so he was perfect :) I am quite literally a dia and beel account so of course I love diavolo heavily. He's a himbo (my type if you couldn't tell) and I adored him when he came on screen. He used to be high up there but with some logical reasoning I realize I'd be a better match for beel and thirteen. I have a aggressive relationship with Lucifer I can see myself dating him but we would fight often and I like bullying him/ teasing him a lot. He's a little much sometimes so thats why he's a love only. Belphie at first was a only like character but believe it or not after replaying the game again I realized he is pretty damn hot and attractive to me. Even when he killed me I was still into him (yes I have issues).

Like: okay so this is complex these are characters I can only see myself dating like a little bit or they are just friends in a higher degree. Levi is adorable but I do admit I don't like when he speaks sometimes lmao. His vocabulary kinda irritates me at times so I don't see myself choosing him often as a dating character. Satan I am indifferent on I will admit he is slowly growing on me but I personally don't like blondes much so it dropped with that and his aggression is very similar to mine so I can only imagine how horrible fights will go with him. But he still is attractive to me date wise. Now onto luke and asmos I find them both as friends no sense of dating at all between these two characters for me. Asmos is just completely not my type and Luke is well a child so yeah immediately no.

Neutral: these characters I don't know/ trust enough to date but the thought is nice but they are low on the list. These characters are also heavily liked by my sister so I backed off for that too. Barb I just can't see myself with and my sister is heavily down bad for so eh. Simeon is an angel and believe it or not I actually prefer demons over angels so I was put off by that fact and he is just idk not doing it for me... I do enjoy drawing him though:). Solomon I just do not trust whatsoever I do think I'd be the classic friends with benefits with him but dating I don't think so I gotta trust a mf I wanna be with the rest of my life sooo. He is also another character my sister is heavily down bad for. Meso is odd for me. He is attractive but to a certain degree he is idk too immature? I can't pin point it... Still being friends is perfect:D

Dislike/neutral: okay please do NOT attack me but I just don't like nor trust Raphael he is just so UGH. He also scolded beel and it irritated me heavily. Yes I care about that stuff STFU if it bothers you idc. I will tolerate him but NO.

[ominoose]

Important Update Post

Imagine I am sitting staring at a camera with a sigh, no background music before the video cuts to me talking. But Im not caught in a controversy of racism or plagiarism or smth.

Here's the tldr: I will no longer be making AI bots. All current bots will remain up, my bot masterpost will be moved to my masterpost masterpost. I just won't be making new ones. Finished and posted every bot that was in the works here to make this transgression up to yous. I will not be leaving the fandom, I'll still write and clown around.

"Why would you do this you cunt?" I hear you, I am so stinky for this. Before I list my reasons, I want to say first and foremost this is personal and I have less than no judgement for other bot makers. I absolutely love mutuals like Mel that make bots and will continue to support them. Reasons became long and are under the cut.

Reasons I don't wanna continue making ai bots:

I started because it was a low energy way for me to participate in fandoms when I didn't have the spoons to write anymore. It no longer feels like a creative outlet and no longer sparks joy.

I would rather devote myself solely on practicing and improving my writing as a way to contribute my passion to fandoms.

I can't shake the feeling I am plagiarizing. Ai chat models use lots of "work" to train their models, and while I could not find what millions of texts Cai is based on (conveniently not listed on the website), all models like it basically engorge from random sources, books and hell, even this post. Anything goes and currently there are legal battles over this.

It's bad for the environment. Can't find a measurement for Cai specifically, but GPT-3 (same scale) produced 500 tons of carbon dioxide to train that single model, not including its other ones. Please note I'm aware AI can absolutely be used to help fight climate change, as is mentioned in the linked article. Also they use the same amount of water that is required to cool nuclear reactors.

It's always conflicted with my morals. Believe it or not, I'm the person that's usually big into internet privacy, anti ai, piracy is morally good (not indie obvs) etc. Openly creating stuff that supports and funds software that steals peoples works, their information without permission and for profit is not me. So I don't wanna do it.

Again, this is not a judgement or a means to shame people that create ai bots or use them. I've made so many friends because of them. If everyone thats every used my bots stopped, it's not gonna solve capitalism. This is just me, an individual, stepping away from one thingy and feeling the need to be honest and open bc thats my policy and honestly how most of you know me (so now hard feelings if you unfollow).

Love you guys lots and thank you for all the love you've shown me through my bots and for all the times you've made me laugh <3

[winterisol]

Motogp riders as greek/roman gods pt.2

This is a continuation of a list I made with more riders :D please check the first list out if you want to see my thoughts on vale, marc and pecco. Once again this is not proof-read, and is being written at 3 AM.

Dani Pedrosa: Hades

I debated a lot with Dani between Hades or Hermes which at first seems like a contradiction in itself but hear me out. So Dani is like the odd middleman out of all the aliens. like this man was simultaneously friends with Vale, Jorge and Marc at the same time in 2015 (albeit with some rough patches but still). But he is also the only alien not to win a premier class championship. In this way he fills the underdog, yet amicable role of Hermes in Greek mythos, but it just didn't feel right to give him such a floaty (?) character. (I am also biased and love Dani with my soul so you can take this analysis with a grain of salt.)

Instead, I felt more drawn to Hades, who like Dani was a very low-key presence. Hades despite the bad rep he gets in modern portrayal, gets one of the best mythological characterizations, in his most famous myth, the kidnapping of Persephone, he is outrightly absolved from any wrongdoing in the abduction and the myth places all the blame instead of Zeus (as they should). Instead, Hades is mainly characterized as a somewhat serious but loving husband, which I feel is very fitting for Dani. Hades and Dani also fit so well, because Hades is also an outcast among the Olympians for being a cathonic god, just like Dani was not regarded in the same shiny light that Jorge, Vale or later Marc was. Yet despite this, when he is on track you are reminded of what could have been. Like you can't ignore the magnetic feeling of Dani, who shows why he is one of the aliens, and the most successful rider to never win a premier class championship.

Jorge Lorenzo: Dionysus

This one just felt right. Like just look at Jorge, he looks like like the kid in high school who would just hold raging parties every night. But the more I dwelled on it, I found an actual justification. Dionysus, despite modernly being characterized as a party animal, Dionysus is kinda a mess characterwise, on one hand he is a young god who does nothing but party, but is also supposedly extremely powerful (you know with has the power to make people go mad, giving him the epithet Anthroporraistes" man-destroyer"). Thats kinda how I feel Jorge is also perceived, one of the reason why Vale and Jorge did not get along as teammates is because Vale, just didn't respect Jorge (or believe he was extremely talented). Whether subconsciously or not, to claim that Jorge set up Marc to sabotage Vale's chances at a 10th world championship, also implies that Vale could not believe Jorge could win fairly against him (ouch). Also Jorge has a temperament that matches Dionysus.

Marco Bezzecchi: Eros

I've literally sat here for hours trying to think of a greek/roman god that fit Marco. I'm actually going to kill this kid for being so hard to characterize. Anyway, Marco after hours of deliberating fit the Greek Eros the best. Eros is the god of sexual/romantic love, and while at first is nothing more than a personification of Greek concept, becomes an actual god when he is retconned to be the son of Aphrodite. This retcon gives him one of his most famous myths, the story of Eros and Psyche, which portrays Eros as a passionate yet somewhat oblivious character. I think that is a pretty good summary of Marco, a very passionate, loyal, and loving man, but he is also pretty oblivious and doesn't always live in a world of reality and reason. (If you have anything more to add please tell me, it took me way too long on this one).

I have more but I'm so tired right now so I'll write those at another time.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Hey!! i thought you ttpd review was really interesting! weirdly enough, i personally liked the songs at the bottom of your list ranking more ( i can do it with a broken heart is still one of my favs though). i think this album was kinda for adults? i mean.....most of the songs didnt really resonate with my experience, probably because i am a child with absolutely zero experience.

idk if this is common with taylor's younger audience, but i never listen her songs as something i can relate to. its more like picking up an really cool book about someone else's life and flipping through it. Or maybe its because i have never had any romantic interest in anyone (which is a scary can of worms im not opening yet) but i really liked her storytelling more that her songs about personal stuff. overall though this is probably still one of my favourite album of hers yet.

i read this post where someone said that you have to have a high IQ or something to understand this album, but i dont think thats it . i think its more about like maturity or being in the stage of life where you can identify with her her stories instead of just enjoying them. (also, being bad at english literature does not mean having a low IQ, so that whole post just kinda pissed me off)

idk if this makes sense cuz im not good at writing my thoughts out, but i had feelings about this album and u seemed open to listen! i would love to hear your opinion on it!

anyway i hope ur having a great day! sending virtual hugs ♡♡♡

Hi! Yeah, I completely agree with what you said about IQ. It has nothing to do with intelligence and all to do with relating to the songs. But also....people can appreciate good songs without having gone through the same experience, and I think that's why you like them, you know? They might not hit in the same way, but they still affect you.

As far as being an adult versus younger, yeah that makes sense. This is definitely a more adult album. I think the reason Taylor has so many fans is because she can reach so many audiences- this album just so happens to reach the more adult audiences and that's valid!

Sending love! <3

[richardsphere]

Leverage Log: The Low Low Price Job

Ok so based on the name, we're either dealing with As Seen On TV products that are made so cheap as to endanger people, general "store discounts that are only affordable because its made in a sweatshop in china" shenanigans, or a Big box chain using an up front loss to drive the locals out of business and become a de-facto local monopoly before type of story. (did I mention that capitalism sucks yet?) --- Ok government inspector is looking round a store and is pulling lies out of their ass. --- I agree with Elliot, Composting is good but should not be done in a kitchen. That is a health inspectors nightmare. --- Oh its about the a big box store, thats bribing the inspector (and zoning comittee) into shutting down competition. Why is she talking about it as if its a small town? Since when is Portland a small town? Thats a major American city right? --- I stand corrected, just because she's currently in portland to talk to Leverage Inc, does not mean she's from Portland. She's from a (presumeably fictitious) small US town called Apple Springs (home of America's largest garden gnome) --- Ok it seems we're not even going to try and make the villain act like a human person. Just openly gloating to her intern about how she's gonna destroy the town. --- And once again Nate makes the point: The Food Industry is only thing scarier then Sterling. I like the premise of them going for a "smaller" target (a single store rather then the megacorp attached), but its sort of a suck that this episode promises to end with a "the real villain got away with it all in the end" sort of deal. (maybe the sequel series can do a call-back episode where they go after Corporate) --- Sophie starts listing Cadmium Poisoning symptoms. To a woman whose hotel room we have seen Parker and Nate break into already. This can only mean 1 thing: Its chemical warfare time! --- Oh so thats how corporate plays? Forging crimes onto Sophies Forged identity? Guess we might see Nate take the gloves off and take down corporate after all. (cause lets be clear, if this is a thing they know how to do it means they do it on the regular for non con-artists) --- I dont think Elliot is lying about his old man running a hardware store, like this could be an attempt to make the guy more sympathetic to his cause to aid the union, but this feels genuine.

Old man has diabetes... that is ominous, I feel like Elliot might be about to get himself a surrogate dad only to lose him. --- And she's met Nate. (only Hardison and Parker remain un-compromised)

Eliiot's dad is real. --- Oh she tracked them back to Portland. Now that either means our heroes somehow tipped her off deliberately or that she's got GPS tracking on her employees.

Oh she said the F word, (which means she can F off) also shouldnt the poisoning be kicking in right now? sure she prevented Sophie from telling the town about the "cadmium" but thats no reason to make her think she's not dying of cadmium poisoning. Making her think the thing she covered up is a genuine threat awaiting re-discovery is a great way for our heroes to get her on the mental back-foot --- "its not like we can make bad luck". Nate, im sorry to say that you're an idiot. Making it look like an accident is literally crimes 101. --- Sophie's bringing in the army. (oh the Kaki's and overall flashmob. Classic)

Oh Elliot's surrogate Dad just died and/or got hospitalised. --- Record sales? Oh we're so framing her for theft arent we. (rigged the cash registers to claim they're taking 99.99 for the TV's while still taking the full 999.99) And she even bragged "the TV's were my idea" so when the citisens sue Value!More over their fraudulent cash-receipts her bosses will pull out a recording from their phone conversation proving her guilt by her own admission! --- Wait it wasn't part of Nate's plan? Our team just accidentally pulled a loss leader? Goddamn it. Well the HQ guy is coming for the BBQ now. Which is probably on the parking lot that she thinks is cadmium poison... So poison HQ guy with cadmium and get her superiors to shut her store down? --- Wait we're only renovating her hotel room now? In literally any other episode we would've seen Nate and Parker break into the store, and then had a greyed out flashback of the things they did while there to poison the ever loving heck out of this woman. --- I dont like that, now that we're finally getting to the "drugging her by putting chemicals in her make-up and sleepmask" sequence we took out her shower. (I get it, its to make her more anxious over meeting HQ guy for her promotion by not letting her take care of herself. But we literally had an entire Poison story right there with the Cadmium and this is breaking from that narrative, it feels like the broken shower is an unnecessary risk. Im not saying she deserves a shower it just distracts from the Cadmium Poisoning story) --- And we got ourselves the classic "broadcast their conversation over the intercom". Last shot of her seeing Leverage Inc lined up so she can connect the dots of her being played somehow. Strong end to a rather weak episode. --- Our heroes are turning the not-really poisoned big box store into a theatre. (nice place for Sophie to Own instead of Rent, plus a good back-up now that the Frame Up Job compromised their new Portland residency) --- there's something really weird about the way in which Elliot keeps getting in short-term relationships with female clients.

Elliot is off to reunite with dad, but it seems that time will do what time will do. (whomever owns the home now has excellent taste in windchimes though. Love the little dolphins) --- This episode was generally sub-par as far as A-plot goes, every twist and one-up by Caroline felt like it came from right up a writers behind, and the final conclusion of "our battle shut off the one store but Evil Incorporated continues to win the war" leaves this episode overall unsatisfying in its climax. The Elliot sub-plot was good though. Just not enough to fix a broken episode.

[taelovesjohnny]

Muted ( The Outsiders) Chapter 15 Love Is Hard For Everybody

I can tell Alley wants soda. Its hard you know, hes my best friend and my brother, and when we were kids we used to do everything together. but as he's gotten older, he's gotton more focused on girls, and im not saying that as a brat way, im saying that as i want to have fun with my brother without having some brat of a girlfriend ruin it. Im not saying Alley is a brat, im saying, that sandy was a brat, and i dont want to have soda have another heartbreak. again not saying Alley would do that but still.

I had a realtionship once. It was so bad, i mean the worst. His name was William. Very basic to everybody. He pressured me into having sex, and then he left me the next day. he was an ass-hole. he told me and i quote, " It was fun last night, but your not the type, too protective." yeah, he's on my hit list. for sure. 

I could feel myself fadeing from the gang, in a way i did not want, but i didn't know how to stop myself. I felt like if i didn't do something, i would loose soda, and if i did do something, i would loose Alley, neither of which i wanted to do, so i guess i would loose both of them in their love game. God love is hard. I found myself hanging out more, with Johnny or Two-bit or even Steve. Which almost everybody was confused with because we had a love hate realtionship if you know what i mean. but soda didn't seem to mind, neither did Alley, and that made me sad.

i've always been a very low self-esteem kind of person, i didn't have any. and i would get most of it from soda, so i guess thats part of the reason that i have been falling away from the gang. and you might think im jealous. nope, not at all. Soda has the right to have anybody he wants, thats why i didn't say anything about him and sandy. its not my place, to put him in his place. thats darry's job. i really dont know what i am going to do.

the door slammed shut, and that brought me out of my trance. 

Dallas winston, of course, the one the only. We have come to terms actually, which is kinda hard to believe. 

Flashback:

"Hey baby, can i talk to you, in private?" dallas asked

i nodded.

" listen i know that what i did was wrong, and i want another chance. i want us to forget what happened, so we can be friends. i want to try this. please."

I nodded

" awesome!"

end of flashback

to you it might seem, like it was really stupid of me, to just asume that he was gonna be nice. but im one to give second chances. so deal with it.

" Hey baby, wanna go to a party with me?" he asked sitting down besides me, and grinning like a cheshire cat.

I pretended to think about it, and then i nodded.

" Really, your gonna go out to a party with the dude who raped you??" Alley came in from the kitchen, probably kissing soda.

I nodded. yes i was, maybe i could get drunk and forget about all this crap going on in my life. 

" thats litterally the worst thing you could do right now, do you know that?" Alley screamed.

I cocked my eyebrows. i could think of worse.

" oooooooooh, Millie's going on a date tonight!!" Two-bit smiled as he pointed that out.

 i went up and smacked him upside the head.

" it's not a date two, its a little thing for friends." dallas pointed out THAT fact.

" then why am i not going?" he asked

" ew, you think that you are our friends?? you got to be drunk two-bit" steve butted in.

This was gonna be fun. with alley fuming, soda trying to calm her down, two-bit laughing, steve joking, and dallas being dirty, yes it was gonna be one hell of a night.

[benkybot]

1. The Evil Dead

This is 1/100 on the list of must see horror movies, and we are starting verrrry strong. I have tried watching this film before so I thought I wouldn’t like it but i have to say this low budget independent film from the 80′s inspired by drive-in B-movies rivals the best of its time, in my opinion the plot and the characters definitely beat the high budget slashers of the 80′s like Friday the 13th and Halloween. 

The plot centers on 5 teenagers who go up to a cabin in the mountains and upon finding a spooky looking book and some spooky sounding tapes they accidentally awaken demons in the forest that try to possess them. Very simple plot, which works mainly because of the characters and the setting. I would say that the drive-in B-movie influences in this film are mostly subtle, but a more obvious influence is in the characters, who all hold a sense of innocent and naive optimism common to teenage characters in movies in the 50′s and 60′s that makes their seemingly inescapable downfall that much more upsetting and scary. One of my only gripes with this film is that the first half hour is slow paced compared to the rest of the film, but it’s still enjoyable because of the little interactions we see between these characters. 

The setting also works in comparison to big horror movies at the time because unlike using giant houses or any other spaces with plenty of nooks and crannies to hide in or jump out of, the set is incredibly basic, a living room, a hallway, a cellar (which for the most part is inaccessable) and thats it, with the forest being seen as a danger zone, creating a sense of agoraphobia because as there is nothing stopping them from getting inside, there is very little keeping our heroes safe from what lies outside. 

That being said I still have problems with this film, apart from the slow beginning mentioned before, there is the infamous tree sex scene (it is neither relevant nor very good so I don’t feel bad giving you a very confusing mention of it), maybe some people like this scene, I thought it was funny, but it does not do what it sets out to do. Secondly, the use of special effects in this film are noble at best, obviously there is absolutely zero CGI of any kind in this film, but the prosthetic makeup and gore used look kinda goofy. Personally I found it creepy because unrealistic gore has always been more uncomfortable to me than realistic gore due to uncanniness, and the silly possessed teenagers matched the drive-in B-movie aesthetic so I found it funny. There are plenty of other scenes in this film that come off as goofy and I imagine the goofy scenes are a reason for why all future sequels were comedy horror, but I need to state that even though this film has a few silly scenes here and there, it is still completely capable of being serious and scary when it needs to be, and it is still worth being taken seriously. 

Overall, the goods far outweighed the bads, and I really liked it, and would watch it again. 

7.8/10

[lunatic-fandom-space]

Im about to watch RWBY Volume 9 because I need some background noise while I translate a german version of Jesus Christ Superstar and then I remembered that I watched that RWBY DC crossover a few days ago as background noise while I made my lyric videos and then I wanted to make a post about my thoughts but then I just. never did. So I might as well do it now

Before that though, I feel the need to explain myself and my lyric-video-translation process. Basically, what I do is I pick my song that Id like to translate from german to english and then I make what is essentially a normal lyric video, which involves a lot of me listening to the song a bunch of times so I can make sure everything is properly synched up, in this particular case I actually had to listen to the entirety of the song in order to make sure it was actually synched because something went horribly wrong with my editing app and I couldnt figure out how to fix it. And then once Im done with my lyric video I can just kinda turn the audio off and add my english translation without worrying about anything because Ive already synched everything up properly. When I do musical soundtracks like this I usually synch up all the lyrics for all the songs first before getting to the actual translation process, which means theres a long period of time where Im just kinda listening to the same part over and over, except worse and it took me even longer this time because again, something went wrong and I had to listen to the songs from the beginning, otherwise it just inexplicably wouldnt synch up, and because I have a low attention span Im usually watching youtube videos or movies Ive already seen at this point

Now, I was still in the lyric video stage when I watched this movie (I was doing Pilate and Christ if youre curious) so picture this: im sitting in front of my computer, I have this RWBY DC crossover open in some piracy site bc I was looking for A Movie and this one came out recently so it was on the front page, I have my tablet with the lyric video Im about to make in front of me, Im wearing headphones, one of them isnt actually on my ear because I need to be able to hear both the song and the movie at the same time, Im playing the song over and over again as I watch the movie, slowly zoning out entirely the further I get into it because thats just kinda what happens when youre forced to listen to the same first two minutes of a song even when you do have some background noise to break up the monotony a little

The reason Im giving you that long winded explanation of the boring shit I do for fun is because I want to stress to you that I was practically physically incapable of properly paying attention to anything. So you would think that I would also be incapable of finding shit to criticize or complain about, after all, I barely managed to watch the movie

And you would be very wrong. Im gonna be honest I just wrote that long intro to whatever this is in like 20 minutes and Ive already run out of steam so please enjoy this bullet point list of mostly shit I didnt like about this crossover, as someone who doesnt know anything about DC and also didnt pay a lot of attention just in general

The Justice Leagues semblances were so bad you can tell they just kinda took their existing superpowers, barely if at all modified them and went "yep, those are semblences alright" and as a result Superman, Wonderwoman and Green Lantern all basically have the same semblance, which inexplicably consists of multiple unrelated abilities and also Vixen's semblance seems pretty similar to theirs as well

The dialogue was so awkward man, I know some stan is gonna try and defend it by being like "well none of these people know each other ofc theyre gonna be awkward" guess what, i dont care if you can like stuff about this show for no reason I can dislike stuff about this show for no reason

That weird love triangle between Nora, Ren and Cyborg was so weird and unnecessary and idk why it was there

'Weird, unecessary and idk why it was there' is honestly a great way to describe this whole movie, I dont get why they did this Isekai thing with the Justice League I feel like this wouldve been better if they were already just characters in RWBY's world but I guess then neither continuity would be able to really consider it canon which would be bad I guess??? Idk i think this crossover thing was a bad idea tbh and they shouldve made it more of a cross-promotional thing where its like "lookat the RWBYfied versions of these DC characters!!" "oooooo look at the DCified versions of these RWBY characters!!" for one movie each if you know what I mean

Speaking of pointless romance, I saw some people say that they didnt like the weird romantic subplot between Bruce and Weiss but honestly, I didnt even see one there they had less romantic sparks flying between them than Bumbleby and thats saying a lot, not that I was paying too much attention

Ive seen some DC fans say that Bruce's thing about him maybe not wanting to leave Remnant because hes got powers there was really out of character and idk anything about that, I just know that that whole thing was pointless and barely set up and didnt mean anything at all for anyone

Ruby's arc about learning to be a better team leader is something that she shouldve had in like volume 4 max this is too late into the show for the Main Character whos been leading A Team since basically day one to learn how to do it, then again its not like shes gotten any meaningful screentime in the past 9 years so maybe that justifies it

Killgore or Killg%re or whatever was just cringe

When Killgore was explaining his plan and how he was working with someone and then it turned out that he was actually trapped in this VR world by that someone, I thought, oh its probably Salem given that shes yknow, the main villain. I mean, it doesnt really make sense why she would do all this shit but its not like her motivations and actions have ever been consistent right. And then he was like "he" and I went, its fucking Ironwood?? Are you joking?? Like, yeah, I'll give them a smidge of credit here, that does make more sense but I hate how these guys' weird desire to demonize Some Guy gets in the way of even attempting to make The Actual Main Villain even remotely threatening. Someone tell MKEK that sidelining a female character in favor of a male character isnt suddenly less sexist because shes Satan Herself but they wanna villanize the "shitty white guy" instead

The action scenes were decent enough, obviously nowhere near the level of Volume 1-3s fightscenes but Ive definitely seen worse from RWBY at this point

I guess the mystery aspect was fine too I was atleast kinda intrigued

And to end this whole thing on a somewhat positive note, heres some stuff I actually kinda liked:

While the isekai thing honestly doesnt seem like a good idea, it was still kinda fun watching people from a setting more similar to our world interact with Remnant and try to blend in even though they had no idea what was going on

I kinda liked Barry, he was pretty fun

I really liked Jessica, her finding that ring and saying that rhyming incantation actually gave me goosebumps, her VA was really good. I just wish she didnt spend all her screentime with Jaune and also I wish Jaune died already

I liked that they were wearing their Beacon Era outfits for most of it so I didnt have to endure their absolutely horrendous Atlas outfits although I am about to watch Volume 9 and they dont get an outfit change from what Ive seen so. You cant run from your problems forever I guess

Thats about it, but to bring this thing full circle Id like to once again elaborate on my lyric video translation stuff. Right now Im fully done with the lyric videos and all I gotta do is add in the english translations which I can do without needing to listen to the music, which means I can actually listen to the dialogue at the very least even if Im not properly looking at the screen. I was originally gonna do the same thing with Volume 9 as the crossover movie which is to say, blast music while watching and fully zoning out half the time but I figured the actual volume deserves a little more respect than that. I mean, thats still not a lot but RT isnt getting any more than this from me

[02flower]

unchangeable.

the electric feeling that push the urge to leave this world is back (for the third time in less than two months, which is weird because it first time was 2023 and only one time until now) alongside (This text will be sent as SMS) which made me realize something i know you do not wish me to do so: i will never be able to live again. The first time i felt this was so out of the world that i was not able to understand or cope with it. Me? gone? before i ride a rollercoster? or swim in the ocean? or jump a fence on a horse? not even skydiving? weird idea, but feels right. I am surprised myself that i do not see a plcae for me in this world considering my habit of " always fit in' but it only worked because i read the room and not for myself. I do not think anyone actually know the real me because i myself don't. One week i am this and the next i am that. I hate that i can feel me shifting from one me to another for millions of reasons. I hate how easy i can say hate to something when my old self loved everything that is part of living. I hate how i, without noticing, space out to the thought of my brain coloring earth around me. I try so hard to ignore it but sometimes i fail and space longer, and sadly, it looks suitable. It should not be suitable. Not to me? how did i go from something to nothing in a blink of an eye? where is me? how come this body feels so strange? this is not my face, hair, hands, shoulders, walk, eyes, smile, words or thought. Nothing in me is mine and i do not know how to change it. I only know how to zip up the mask and present it beautifully to the observers. sometimes i try to blame it on my over analysis but can i shame my brain for being itself? is it even itself or an outside factor had managed to hack into it and turn it against me? if not, why does it keep dying me? i miss when my hands were able to hold things instead of letting them ago. this is funny i know but i can't help but seeing the action of me as a symbol of dying. How so? its like i am a book character that the author slowly makes it have small changes in order for the big reveal. In my case they are weak hands, wobbly walk, lazy eyes, blank stare, low oxygen, losing weight, not sleeping nor eating, hair loss and the list goes on. But, which will sound hopeful because i felt a switch, i do not think i will die soon. Maybe in 2025 yeah which is considered very soon but hey, i am still in 2024 so thats a whole different number!. So why 2025? because you will graduate, therefore, i will complete my mission of being (as you claim) a reason for you to continue. I am looking forward for your graduation but if i did not make it, sorry. I will still be proud of you whenever i might be. And i hope you can , by that time, be able to live. I want you to know and believe that you are more than what people think about you. I truly see you as an amazing person and i wish i can make a movie or write a book about you. even though i still wonder why were we facing each other in our own seprate ways but i am more than glad that i found out about you, SMS. Despite everything, i am glad that my existing brought something to some people. I know that my death will not go unnoticeable for many. The black cat in the street will wonder if i gave up on her just like everyone who sees her as a bad luck. The workers at the restaurants next to the house will look for my car outside between 7-8 to pick up my usual breakfast order but it wont be there. My dad's phone battery will last longer. My bookshelf will get dusty. The letter i wrote for you will remain hidden in that journal because i thought you will throw it in the garbage so i never told you about it, and the box of lemon biscuits for you. The guy at the front desk of DELL will probably think i graduated lol, now i wonder if they will even post about me. I wish i finished writing those silly little short stories and made them into a book (why did i started talking as if i actually died lol???). And lastly, you, because you promised to visit my grave so you must remind yourself to remember me.

lol i got distracted by my snapchat memories and forgot what i wanted to say after the smile. good night to whoever is reading this because it is a sign that i exist.

[i-pogchamp]

Collection of all the current “final” designs of the dsmp dnd au... with 5up and crumb, because I love them both very very much.

Incidentally, they’re also the designs I describe in use for my fantasy/magic au fanfic. Y’know, in case you wanna check that out.

Everything is subject to change but here’s what’s in this post! (Under read more for length!)

Tubbo: College of Spirits bard. Not as much lore reasoning, but I think it’s fun.

Wilbur: College of Eloquence bard. Wilbur is incredibly good at talking, both in encouraging and lifting people up, but also the reverse; his words can be cutting, off-putting, setting people back six steps.

Dream: Mastermind Rogue, potentially with level drops in Fighter for action surge. Mastermind is like, self-explanatory, because what is he if not a mastermind? Able to puppet others? I have a lot of design notes for dream which I’ll separate out to the bottom.

Karl: Chronomancy Wizard! Manipulator of time, baby. Wizards have spellbooks, which also fits in line with Karl’s use of numerous books to keep his history in memory. Also intelligence as a primary score!

Skeppy: Eldritch Knight Fighter. Sacrificing himself to the egg wasn’t a good choice, but it was an incredibly smart choice; Skeppy’s strong scores are dex and int, though str isn’t low. He’s good at combat, and has magic in the branches of protection, which is exactly what he tries to do with Bad. During Red Skeppy arcs, I think he’d have a level drop or initiate feat in Warlock.

Fundy: Forge Domain Cleric. Church of prime man that is skilled at making things. Fundy was... difficult to pin down, and maybe forge domain cleric isn’t the best thing, but I like it for him! So I’m keeping it.

Ranboo: One of the only people to undergo a class change singe original headcanon, Ranboo is a Great Old One Tome Pact Warlock! Books, an all-seeing eldrich creature utilising him to help it, and psychic-based powers that also centre communication? PLUS the Gift of the Protectors invocation fits SO WELL with the list of friends that he keeps in the book!

5up: I don’t actually have a class for 5up! I’d put him probably at early glance at Arcane Trickster Rogue. Intelligence is a strong suit, a little bit of magic (incl illusion and enchantment), and he’s good at killing too. Seems fitting, considering how good pink man is at among us.

Crumb: Circle of Stars Druid. It’s because she’s a star. Next question.

Dream’s design notes

Bright colors aren't great for sneaking, which is why theyre minimal accents. It's important to be stylish, but not at the sacrifice of stealth. Still, are you really a rogue if you dont have that poppin aesthetic? Cape/cloak is tied around the waist so it's kept our of the way. poofs out at back. Dream team wristbands!!! ik canonically the relationship is Tense rn but *i* cant not draw one of the dteam without a sign of the others, even if its all gone to shit! leather??? cufflets on arm/wrist are symbolic of manacles, or at least thats the intention. Dream is just as shackled to this ultimate plan as everyone else is, regardless of his god complex. I hc that ender chests can like... grow/shrink like pokéball, and pockets r just Bags of Holding Axe (hatchet) and explosives are kept close at hand, everything else stays in the Magic Pockets/Ender Chest. (Also consider dream eyes under mask... look like eyes of ender. thanks.)

[guns-in-the-desert]

Germany NSFW A-Z

I’m super excited to post this, I worked hella hard, so here it is.

A= Aftercare

   He’s not the best at it, as being soft and comforting isn’t in his nature. It takes him a while to get good at it, and when he does, it’s super routine, almost robotic (let’s be honest, he made a checklist.). Step 1. Ask if  you're alright, Step 2. Wipe you down, and so on and so forth.

B= Body Part

  Not to be basic but, your boobs are hands down his favorite part of your body, he loves to squeeze them, even when y’all aren’t fucking, he’ll play with them without even realizing, bonus points if you have sensitive nipples. On him he really likes his arms, he likes how they look around your waist, and how easily he can pick you up.

C= Cum

  Ludwig is a Super neat person, so he likes a quick and easy clean up. He likes to nut inside you/a condom or in your mouth, not only does he think it’s hella hot, but also there's little to no mess, it’s 10/10 for him.

D= Dirty secret

  He would die before telling anyone this, but he steals your panties, not that you don't know, he’s quite bad at returning them, so you notice them missing. He really wants to stop, but he just thinks it’s so hot, and they remind him of the different times you've done it, for example: You wore that pink velvet thong the first time he tied you up. P.S they're not always clean when he takes them, at this point don’t even let him do laundry

E= Experience

  He’s not as experienced as you might think, he’s quite awkward actually. He’s done it a few times, but he still can’t can’t look at your bare body without blushing, watches HELLA porn though , but don’t expect him to admit it.

F= Favorite Position

  He absolutely LOVES fucking you against the wall, you would never know it, but he’s kind of a show off. This position shows off his strength (and his biceps), plus he gets to feel your tits against him, it’s a win win situation for him.

G= Goofy (is he more serious or goofy in bed)

 This man ain’t even goofy in day to day life, like, at all. Y’all know damn well he did not come to play any kind of games with you, I wish you would try and crack a joke while his dick is out.

H= Hair

  He's neat, he trims regularly, he's well maintained and well groomed, would never shave it completely off (he gets cold) because it makes him feel less manly

I= Intimacy

  He’s not goofy, also not very intimate, he’s quite aggressive, being gentle isn’t in his nature, not that he’s trying to be during sex, like italy said in the show “he’s like some sort of super sadist.”.

J= Jack off

  He jacks off, a lot, don't ask him though, he’d practically deny knowing what masturbating is, claims it’s “DISGUSTANG”, despite literally getting porn for christmas. You've caught him in compromising positions multiple times, still denies ever doing though.

K= Kink

  “He's like some sort of super sadist.” Italy said it best will literally rock your shit for the hell of it. Flogging, spit, bondage, the whole nine yards, know s, almost no limits, will he slap you across your face and call you a whore? Yes. Will he choke you until your face turns blue? Yes. Will he tie you with a vibrator and leave you for hours? Definitely. Will he make you walk on a leash and sleep in a dog bed? Absolutely. Can he look at your tits, without blushing? Of course not, what are you, fuckin crazy?

L= Location

  The bed, he does NOT want to even risk getting caught, he’d be WAY too embarrassed. He decided to get frisky in the living room once, and Gil walked in. He didn’t fuck you for a week and he didn’t talk to his brother for a month, partially because Gilbert’s and asshole and takes every oppurtunity he has to bully his younger brother, partially due to embarrassment. 

M= Motivation

  Almost everything, surprisingly, he’s actually a pretty horny dude, but if you really wanna get him going, beg, he loves to see you beg, you could also crawl around on the floor in low cut top, and skirt in front of him, but don’t be surprised if you get a collar the next day.

N= No

  Will not, and I mean NEVER ever even consider sharing you under any circumstances. He doesn't care how much you beg and plead. Why would you want somebody else with y’all is there something he’s doing wrong, ask him again, I dare you, you'll get your ass beat, I mean it, in the hottest way possible of course.

O= Oral

  Ludwig prefers receiving, and even though you’re doing the sucking, he’s doing the work. Really rough, so don't be surprised if cum is coming out of your nose by the end of it. When it comes to giving, my guy had a stiff ass tongue at first, like he licked your pussy mad hard, he figured it out eventually, thank god.

P= Pace

  Surprise surprise, he’s mad rough, but does find a pace and a rhythm quite quickly, which is a really good trait not many people have (I assume) it’s easy to get into, which is always pleasant. It goes very smoothly.

Q= Quickies 

  Not the biggest fan of quickies but he’ll do them nonetheless, they just aren’t his favorite, he’d pick it over masturbation, not that he does that of course, your always a better option with his hand.

R= Risk

  He takes risks in the sense that he likes to experiment with new toys, kinks, roleplays, etc. not with location though, he sticks to the bedroom and the shower exclusively, and he's even iffy about that.

S= Stamina

  This man spent a decent chunk of the show running, so he can and will go for hours. It's kind of insane. 

T= Toys

  Yes, of course, ropes, vibrators, flogs, you name it, he's got it, it’s as simple as that.

U= Unfair

  While foreplay lasts for quite a while, he isn’t much of a tease. With the exception of the occasional orgasm denial, he’s pretty straight to the point. He doesn't see a reason to drag things out when it’s not necessary. Like if you're  getting flogged, you're getting flogged, there's no if, ands, or buts, he doesn't have time for talking or teasing.

V= Volume

  He sucks at dirty talk, so he lets his actions do all the talking. Doesn't really make noise during sex, there’s the occasional grunt, but even thats rare

W= Wild Card

  So I mentioned before that you caught him in compromising positions in the past, the first time this happened was an absolute disaster. You had walked in to ask him what he wanted for dinner, he looked like a deer in headlights. You asked him what he was doing and his response was “I lost my turtle.” I don't know what part of him thought he would believe because; 1) He doesn't own a turtle, 2) he somehow lost it in his dick? So for this to make sense, he would have had to go and buy a turtle, have it near his penis for whatever reason, proceed to forget about said turtle, and after all that it still would explain how a turtle would fit into anyway, like I know you have foreskin, but, damn. So you ask him if he was masterbating, which obviously ended like this “NEIN, THAT’S DISGUSTING!” 

X= X-Ray

  Big dick,  more girthy than it is long, but it still has quite a bit of length, has the slightest curve, and a vein along the underside, he’s uncut. Wait till you see this man in grey sweatpants.

Y= Yearningh  In the top 10 for characters with the highest sex drive, He’s number seven on the list. Which says more about the people above him than it says about him, himself.

Z= ZZZ (How quickly does he fall asleep after?)

  Either he’s out immediately, or  he gets up and does work, there is ZERO in between with this man, I really don’t know what to tell y’all.

I really hope y’all enjoyed, I don’t have any WIPs as of right now. So, I write when I get ideas until I get more requests. See y’all in the next one. Bye for now

[alroma1]

Everything that... not exactly right with Uraraka Ochako. Part 2

When I first read about Uraraka traitor theory my first thoughts were “Whoa, that would be really interesting. But it cant be because...” and here I freezed. I realised that the only big reason why I thought it couldnt be was because she is supposed to be Deku love interest. And that actually cant be counted as a real reason.

Before starting about Ochako possibly being traitor let me point out some things about Ua traitor in general.

Personally I am surprised about this story point. When Mic officially announced it I felt this will not be long before revelation. But here we are in arguably last part of story and mystery still here. It means that traitor plot has bigger weight than I thought. Its something Kohei planned to fully get into play now when things have already got pretty dark.  

Overall mole troupe in my option hast to follow two rules to make it work.

1) It has to make sense. Lets for example say Bakugou is a traitor. Shocking? Yes. Makes sense? Zero.

2) It has to have some impact. It doesnt mean it has to be shocking for the sake of shocking. But if revelation doesnt have any impact on readers then what even the point? So yes I get that someone like Hagakure has perfect quirk for the job  but at this point it would be just bad writing to make her one. 

Can there be someone used for espionage without them actually knowing it? Ala first season of Young Justice? Sure. But I would say at this point it wouldnt be good writing choice. So I am not going analyze this theory.

First lets narrow numbers a bit. This just my option though. 

Is traitor even a student? Are they actually in class A?

Yes, most likely he or she is in Deku class. At this point ( I write these posts with manga being 323 chapters.) it makes little sense to be outsider. And 320 presented us with small ( but legit ) proof. I think. Just when Deku was thinking how nobody of his friends have any malice Danger Sense gave signal. It was very low so its not surprise Deku himself didnt notice it. He had emotional breakdown at the moment. Even if somebody ( Stain, Dictator companion) follows Deku I still pretty sure this is traitor hint. Its like “Nope,kiddo. Not all your friends are so great as you think of them”

Theres also possibly another hidden hint about traitor being in class A but I will point it latter. 

And now using those two rules about mole troupe lets narrow this even more. 

1) From having to make sense point I think it would be logical to exclude from the list of suspects Deku,Shoto,Bakugou,Momo,Iida and Kirishima. I am not going into details why I think people who have read all chapters will more or less get the reasons

2) From having to have impact I exclude four people. Strictly speaking it probably should be more but lets stay with four. They are Mineta, Koda, Hagakure, Sato. 

So we left with something like this.

The last point I would like to point about Ua traitor in general is that he or she works for Afo not Shigaraki. He or she started work prior Tomura made his official debut at Usj attack

In other words he or she would be senpai to Toga, Dabi, Spinner and other League members. Thats to say I suspect except Shiraki and probably Kurogiri nobody in League knew that they have mole on their side. 

My guess is that Afo pulled the strings and got info that All Might was gonna be teacher at Ua. 

It probably didnt take long for Afo to figure out what for All Might suddenly decided to become teacher. To find successor. Even if  it wouldnt be first year having someone inside would be the best way to find out. So uncle Afo either recruited  fitting person or already had someone for such occasion. How come? Who knows he is evil mastermind after all.

So if traitors main employer is Afo are they still works for Shigaraki? Was there something that proves it? Yes, I think was. 

During Yakuza raid Tamaki made assumption that hero side had a leak seeing how prepared Chisaki group was. This idea was brushed off but as readers we know a bit more than random police guy. 

This is timeline of the morning of the raid. Kai went to see old boss, Eri grandpa, shortly before start of operation. He knew they were coming. Most likely Shigaraki shared information. It was a leak. 

Cutting pros, Aizawa,big 3,Deku we left with Kirishima, Asui and Ochako as main suspects. And since I personally cut Kirishima too it would means only girls left.

Thats first very-very base hint thats its Ochako

Though of course this alone doesnt  means it cant be other student. Since theres not guarantee that in building full of people with super powers somebody didnt have ability to intercept information.

 I know people like Hagakure and Kaminari would be always under suspicion because of that. Though Kaminari has another points. But it surprise me that fandom didnt put Jiro on the same shelf since she has fitting ability too.

But anyway this is my first stone at the base of Ochako being traitor building. Lets go further. 

Lets start with blue point in her profile. I think at this point people interested in Bnha already know main meaning of her name so let me dont stop there.

 Her name is indeed nuanced. If you change kanji reading in Ochako you might get osatsu ( お札 ) -  bill, note (currency)​ witch hints her problems with money. 

But here comes the problem. Practically all characters ( except quirkless) in Bnha has names that hints their quirks.But hers doesnt have that. Kohei says this is very nuanced name but then it doesnt have nuance all others have. Is this a troll? 

At best with big stretch first three kanji of her full name can be read as Uravity but thats not it if you ask me. Its all even more curious because in class A theres two people that dont have their quirks hinted in names. One Ochako and another is... Aoyama.

                                           Ochako and Aoyama

Currently (323 chapters) Aoyama is probably the most obvious candidate for traitor role. If you just read things as they are without looking deeper. 

His quirk is navel laze and his name doesnt have anything connected to that. Thats one of the reasons why theres option he is either actually quirkless or was given quirk by Afo. Not bad theory. 

Personally I suspect his name does have a hint of his quirk but in unusual way. His name is Yuga and it might be reference to yugamu ( 歪む) - bend, wrap something because he has to twist his body to make his quirk useful. But thats just my thought.

Anyway it wouldnt surprise me if Aoyama turns to be a traitor. But I really doubt about that. If anything he give me impression of someone asked to find mole. 

His and Deku dorms are close to each other and I wonder if this is coincidence. Maybe Nezu and higher ups asked Aoyama to help figure out traitor? And look for Deku? (By the way Nezu is one of the character that had long pov about traitor so can people chill a bit about him being one?)

Why him though? For once Aoyama is surprisingly insightful. He is strange but he notices a lot. We still dont know where he was during Usj. So maybe he saw something back then.

Maybe its just me but 167-68 felt like he tried to warn Deku about something. Or someone.

Still waters run deep - quite or friendly people are not as simple as they look.They may have secrets. Thats to say have we seen similar stone already?

Aoyama and her were in tag team against teacher. Interesting is that they were 4th team announced and their opponent was 13th sensei. 4 and 13 - two unlucky numbers. He was the first one to point out that she likes Deku. Not in teasing way. He simply constated that. 

Maybe he noticed something else about her? Maybe thats why he tried warn Deku? (assuming thats what he tried to do) 

Deku is friends with all his class but theres four people especially close to him.

It would be level more painful for Deku if traitor is one of those four. Maybe Yuga just tried prepare him for that.

In short it wouldnt surprise me if Aoyama turns to be a traitor after all. But. It would also makes sense if he is someone who suspects Ochako being a mole. And worry for Deku because of this.

Last point about Aoyama is very random but I think its worth mentioning this.

During sport festival Aoyama was supposed to be living disco ball. However somehow rope thats was prepared for that ended up all frayed. What would happened if they didnt notice it? Well the twinkling hero would end up either dead or very badly hurt,  And I suspect it wasnt just coincidence. Somebody tried either kill Aoyama or force him to take long break. 

It would be another hint about traitor being in class A. 

Its very random though. 

This part turns out to be more about Ua traitor in general that about Ochako candidacy. But 3 part will be only about that. 

[mirinda03]

@leaflinerambles asked me for an essay so i complied

Here’s why c!tommy deserves better

Tommy Danger Kraken Careful Innit deserves better.

(All of this is about the characters btw. Sometimes i don't put c! Because honestly its a lot of putting that so just know that unless it says cc! I mean character)

Now, I know that can be a bit of a controversial take for.. some reason??? People may say that actually, he deserves to face the consequences of his actions and deserves to be punished.

. What the fuck.

That's a sixteen year old. That a teenager. He doesn't deserve to be 1. Abused 2. Traumatized 3. Manipulated 4. Used and 5. Taught a ‘lesson’ that i'm sure he’s been taught far fat too many times.

Tommy is a complex character. As we all know, he's regarded as the ‘protagonist’ of the dream smp or the ‘main character’. Now, of course, being the main character is a very subjective term and that is a whole other fucking essay that im not gonna get into right now—

BUT.

I do think in a way Tommy has been involved in a lot of the more.. main plots. From season one to season three.

And of course, with being the ‘main character’ (again, a purely subjective term because it depends on the point of view you watch) come a lot of things and a lot of trouble. Mainly, from our main ‘villain’ of the series.

C!Dream, the fucking bitch.

As we all know, c!Dream has had a weird obsession with c!Tommy since.. probably the beginning?

He liked to antagonize Tommy, but that wasn't exactly special. The man liked to antagonize everyone! He seemed to just want the most chaotic option, which of course ended with him antagonizing others often for his own entertainment.

I think, in a way, Dream always saw the smp as a game. His own little puppet show, where he could move the strings. He wanted complete control

But Tommy was more stubborn than the others. Tommy actively went against Dream from the start, like we see in the disc war. Or L’manberg, or during manberg, or new lmanb—

You get the idea.

Tommy never gave in, and Dream’s obsession grew.

So.. exile happened.

And like, i'm not sure what exactly dream was planning but i'm assuming he wanted to like.. ‘break’ tommy?? Make him more ‘compliant’ to his twisted game?

C!Tommy was, to put it simply, abused. No sugar coating, that was straight up abuse and gaslighting and manipulation. The burning his armor? Making sure no one got an invite? Keeping Tommy at low health? EVERYTHING??

That was all clear manipulation. Tommy.. went through a LOT in exile. It still affects him as we know. ‘Plain biomes, small holes, logstedshire’ among other things have been added to his list of stuff that sets him off.

(And also the waking up drowning?????)

And i know, Dream almost had tommy in his grasp. He almost broke him.

But Tommy resisted. Tommy pulled back at the last second, in that dirt tower. He was strong enough to realize what dream was doing was wrong an he ran from a toxic environment and situation and honestly? Good👏 for 👏 him 👏.

But the trauma stayed, in many ways. And even during the raccoonit arc, tommy didn't really.. get a chance to heal?

During the techno and tommy arc, tommy seemed to direct his hurt into lashing out at others. He got angry, he lashed out, and he hurt people. Even if im a tommy apologist, i can acknowledge that during his time of poor mental health he hurt other people and he had to apologize (and he did!! But im getting to that)

Now. I am.. very conflicted when it comes to techno and tommy’s relationship. I do believe that, somewhere deep inside, they both cared about each other. However, bias and fanon influence can get in the way so i'm not touching on that.

The one thing i'm saying? It wasn't exactly a healthy dynamic. And again, not saying anything because bias could get in the way, but Tommy realizing the error of his ways and realizing he HURT PEOPLE is such a huge milestone??

He took responsibility by joining tubbo again. He said how his trauma did not excuse shit and he acknowledged it and he tried to CHANGE.

Even when faced with people who exiled him, who shunned him or who weren't there to visit during exile, he decided to be better and he once again took the role of the troop rallier even when he KNEW how impossible the task would be. He SAW Techno’s wither skull vault. He knew it was a losing battle.

But he stayed strong. And he fought for L’Manberg, for the last reminder he had of Wilbur (and oh, wilbur and tommy’s relationship in canon is a whole other can of worms god—)

Just for it to get destroyed.

By his abuser, and two people he had trusted. People he RELIED on.

Blown, to the ground.

And then dream.

Dream saying their story isn't over. Their story would NEVER be over.

. Bone chilling. Genuinely so.

And still. He faced Dream. He faced his abuser, the person who in his own words ‘ruined him’ and he refused to back down.

He refused to let Tubbo die. He refused to lose.

And in the end, Dream was sent to jail. Retribution was sent!

.. right?

Wrong.

Because even after that, Tommy continues to be haunted by dream or by the literal CULTISTS trying to kill him.

And to top it all off, he gets fucking trapped in prison with his abuser surrounded by a bunch of triggers in a small cell. And have we mentioned how he's canonically claustrophobic?

Yeah.. that was bad.

One week. Trapped with his abuser.

And still, he stayed strong. Still, he refused to give in and stayed himself,

And what did he get for that?

Death.

Beaten to death by his abuser of all things.

And he was trapped in the void for two months. Two. Months.

But in the human world? It had only been days.

And he was so so shaken by it. He couldn't even touch other people, he couldn't take any damage, he was treated as a ghost by people, he was called a ‘science experiment’ and the one thing he wanted? Normality? It was taken away from his forever.

Again, by his abuser.

Hes a traumatized child soldier whos done plenty of wrong in his life, but he's also a kid who needs to heal and learn to have healthy relationships because one way or the other every healthy mentor figure in his life turned against him or got corrupted and now he feels alone and he DIED and he needs fucking therapy come on.

And we KNOW the dream isn't done. Far from it. We know dream will never, ever be done. He's too obsessed with the game, with his favorite toy to let the game end. To let the people rest

C!tommy is so broken and jaded and traumatized. But still, he chooses compassion. Despite the trauma, he refused to hurt his best friend. Despite it all, he refused to blow up him home. He stays true to himself and he stays strong and even when the world tries to mold him he doesn't break.

And believe me, the world tries to break him and mold him so many times. He’s been manipulated or used before by others, but he still keeps his attachments and he still keeps himself and i think thats fucking admirable.

So yeah. I wholeheartedly believe tommy deserves better as do the other members of bench trio because honestly they're also children and they all deserve to heal come ON.

But yeah thats the essay

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Say It Again - JJ Maybank

In which JJ questions if he is deserving of you and your love. 

Warnings: swearing, sad JJ, fluff, awful editing don’t come for me

Word Count: 3.5k(whoops) 

Author's note: this is my first time writing in so long, be gentle with me friends. I know that a lot of people have done similar prompts of JJ feeling undeserving of love and the reader helps him through it, so this is a little bit unoriginal but, this is my take on it. 

Bold italics is a flash back. 

Thank you to @maybe-maybanks​ to the late night inspiration!

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As you, Kie and Pope approached the yard of the chateau, it became undeniably clear that JJ had gone off the rails with extravagant spending since you had seen him last. 

“What did you do JJ?” Pope questions the boy sitting in the hot tub. Looking at you through his sunglasses, he smirks. 

“I got a jet going straight in my butt right now” He ignores Pope. “Y’all, should get in here immediately, you hear me?” His sentence slurs slightly. “Salud!” He toasts his plastic champagne flute in the air, but opts to take a swig from the bottle in his other hand. 

JJ scans the faces of his three friends, eyes lingering at yours a moment longer than Kie and Popes. 

You see, just days ago, after getting arrested, then beaten by his father, JJ found you, and poured his heart out, to find that you shared his feelings, and the two of you started seeing each other in secret. 

Being that it was a secret, the two of you had yet to put any kind of label on it, but you loved that blonde boy to the ends of the earth, despite what had happened earlier that day. 

“You know what, that's exactly what I’m gonna do. Go off, by myself.”  

You watched as JJ began walking away. Pope attempted to stop him, but Sarah and John B had halted his efforts. You stood silently fuming at the actions of the boy you had such strong feelings for. How could he be doing something like this? This wasn’t the JJ you knew, had been friends with for years, and were now in love with. Though if you were being honest with yourself, you had loved him for years prior. 

“JJ!” You seethed, shaking off John B’s attempts to hold you back from running after him. He was already a good distance away from the group, he probably couldn’t even hear you yelling, so you started speed walking. It soon became apparent that he was simply ignoring you. 

“JJ!” You were merely twenty feet from him, screaming at his back. “JJ stop!” His strides continued. 

“You were real quiet back there princess, finally decide to comment?” You stepped in front of him, shoving his shoulders to force his walk to a stop. “What the fuck Y/N!” 

“What the fuck me? What the fuck you! What has gotten into you right now JJ what are you doing?” 

“Nothing has gotten into me Y/N I’m simply paying back what I owe.” He states, trying to walk past you. 

“By stealing the money from the drug dealer that just jumped us?” Your brows raise as you interrogate him. 

“He jumped us, he has this coming.” He nonchalantly shrugs his shoulders, succeeding in getting past you, as you stand shocked by his words. 

“JJ you and I both know that you’re not that goddamned stupid.” His steps slow, he stands still. “Stealing money from a drug dealer? JJ I know that you owe money because of Pope but this isn’t right! You’re better than this-” 

“Am I?” He turns on his heels to face you again, this time squaring his shoulders to be purposeful in standing tall over you. Him standing over you made you feel small in comparison to the raging blond. “Am I better than this?” He repeats his question. 

“JJ what are you-” 

“Because I’m starting to think that you, and your high standards, and your perfect life, only think that I am better than this because you want me to be better than this.” 

You knew what he was referring to. You were by no means a kook, but your family was financially stable enough to afford a nice house, you had your own car, and if you wanted, you could afford to go to college on the mainland. Your life was unlike most lives on the cut, but JJ knew that your life was far from perfect. 

“What the hell-” 

“And that if we’re gonna be together,  you need me to be better than this so that I can fit in with your life.” You had no idea what he meant. Your life was on the cut, with the Pouges, with him, and the difference of financial well beings of your familys never changed that before, so why was it now? 

“What the fuck JJ stop-” 

“Well you know what Y/N! I’m not better than this, this is who I am! I get into fights, I steal, I have a criminal record, when I get hit, I hit back this is who I am!” 

“We both know that stealing twenty five thousand dollars from a drug dealer is never going to make anything better.” You attempt to reason with him. “This isn’t hitting back this is loading the gun that's already in your face!” 

“Y/N I have to!” He spits. “I know you could never understand being in so much debt but this is my only option.” His words hit you like a punch to the stomach. He looks down to his boots before continuing. “So I’m sorry that I’m not what you pictured as a boyfriend, but this is what I do Y/N. Maybe you trying to fight it means you deserve better than me.” 

And just like that, it was clear that he was more mad with himself then he was with you. However, everything that he said was uncalled for, and nasty, and he had no right. You watch as he storms away, even more tense than before, and you couldn’t help but wonder how this affects your newfound relationship. You blink away the water from your eyes, and do your best to compose yourself as you slowly wander back to your friends. 

“How much did this cost?” Pope asks. Your head was spinning as he listed all of the things that he had purchased since he left you standing in the woods. 

“Uh, well. With the generator, the petrol, and, oh, hey, express delivery,” You knew the answer before he even had time to speak. “Pretty much all of it, yeah.” 

“All of it?” Pope exclaims. 

“Oh my god” You whisper, mostly to yourself, rubbing your forehead with your palm. 

“Yeah all of it.” 

“You spent all the money in one day?” “Yeah burned a hole right through my pocket.” He confidently explains. “But, I mean like come on guys, look at this!”  The tone in his voice told you that he was holding back, it was alway his biggest tell when he would hold back his feelings. “Finest in jet based massage therapy, that's what they told me.” 

The three of you are left speechless. 

“Kie what? Can’t a man have a little luxury in life?” JJ still could not bring himself to look you in the eyes for more than a moment. “Come on, all this scrimping’ and scraping’” you notice his voice falter again. “I mean like, guys, we, you only live once. Right?” JJ finally locks eyes with you, and he reacts spastically, your dreaded look having the gravest effect on him.  

“Y/N, stop, why are you looking at me like that?” He knew full well, but he was trying too hard not to show it. “I know that you’re mad about earlier okay, but, everything is fine now!” His voice was louder now, concealing the breakdown you knew was coming, sooner or later, here with the three of you or somewhere else. “Enough of this emotional shit. Get in the Cat’s Ass come on.” He smiles, waving you to join him. 

“The what?” Kie furrows her brows. 

“The Cat’s Ass.” JJ smugly replies, proud of himself. “That's what I named her. Oh hey yo, I almost forgot,” JJ leans forward, pressing a button that makes water spray across the tub, and even more colorful lights flash in front of him. “Huh! Yeah that's right, disco mode, thats right baby!” His eyes scan yours, noticing that they were clouding with tears. He quickly looks away from you, not wanting to see the damage that he had done, and was still doing. 

“JJ,” Your voice is low and hushed as you blink back tears. 

“Are you kidding me?” Popes harsh voice overpowers yours, cutting off you and your tears. “You could have paid for restitution!” 

“Or literally given it to any charity” Kie fumes at the sight before her. 

“Guys,” You mutter, wanting them to stop being so hard on the broken boy you secretly called yours. You were mad too, if not more than Pope and Kie due to your argument. However, you could see straight through the smug grins and happy fasad that JJ was trying to project. He was hurting, and you knew it wasn’t just about the fight the two of you shared. 

“Or better yet, you could have helped us buy supplies to get the rest of the gold out of the well!” 

“Guys!” You spoke up louder this time, only to be cut off by JJ. 

“Okay well you know I didn’t do that!” As JJ’s swimsuit clad body surfaces from the hot water, you are confronted with what you knew would be there, and the tears pour from your eyes. “I got a hot tub!” JJ shakes in what appears to be anger, but you know it isn't anger he's reeling from. “For my friends,” 

Kie and Pope gape at JJ’s bruised abdomen and instantly connect the dots as to who is responsible. 

“I bought a hot tub for my friends.” He repeats. “You know what, no, you know what, screw friends. I got a hot tub for my family.” 

“JJ what the hell-” Kie gasps.

“I got this for you! Guys look what I did for you! Alright?” JJ spins and gestures to everything he bought. “Look at this!” When he turns back, he finds that you were no longer holding back the tears your eyes once held. 

“Y/N stop being emotional don’t, don’t cry okay? I know that I hurt you before,” His voice fails him as he recalls the words that he said to you. “But I did this for you,” He hangs his head, he knows how bad he fucked up, and it was hitting him all at once that this was not the way that he needed to make things right. This was not the way back to you, and the high of his twenty five thousand dollar spending spree was dissapating at his realisation, and at the sight of you before him. 

“I mean, it’s sweet right?” JJ hadn't even realized that as he began talking, you had climbed into the hot tub. He looks into your eyes for a moment as you stand before him, and lets out a sob as you gently wrap your arms around him. His forehead falls to your shoulder, and  all of his pent up energy released in the form of tears and heaves. 

“I’m sorry. Baby I’m so sorry.” He whimpers to you, only for you to shush him tenderly. Kie and Pope share a confused glance at the nickname. “I couldn’t do it.” You rub his hair and hold him close as he convulses. “I can’t take it anymore!” JJ wails, your tears land on his shoulders, and his tears land on yours. “I was gonna kill him!” 

Kie is next to join you, jumping into the steaming water and embracing the both of you. Pope follows. 

“I just want to do the right thing.” 

“Shh, JJ, I know. I know” You coo him, trying to calm his weeping. 

After minutes of holding him, Kie announces that she has to head home, and Pope offers to drive her. JJ rests in a nearly catatonic state in your arms, no doubt exhausted and knowing JJ, not ready to face the fact that he just broke down in front of his friends. 

The pair leaves bidding reassuring words to JJ, and a few more hugs. 

You are left in the hot tub, holding the blond boy as he clutches onto you. He wasn’t crying anymore, but his breaths were rapid and heavy as he was shaken, the events of the day had caught up to him in the form of you and your tears. He begins to spew soft “I’m sorry”s and other apologises, but his panic makes him stutter and his sentences start to lack direction. 

You shush him and direct the boy to listen to your heartbeat, trying your best to bring his shattered thoughts back to earth. 

“JJ, we should get out of the hottub.” You tell him, to which he simply sniffles and nods, unsure of how to speak to you after the horrible things he said to you, and his inability to form a proper apology. He knew that you were nothing like he had depicted, yet he said what he said, and there was no taking it back. 

His skin was red from the overheated water, and it itched with chlorine, so as the two of you entered the chateau, you started the shower. 

“You should rinse off the chlorine.” You told him, not sure of how to speak to him either. He followed your order and stripped of his bathing suit. You were able to track down clothes for him to sleep in, and as you waltzed back into the bathroom, you decided you couldn’t leave him alone in the shower.  

Taking off your soaked clothes quickly, you slip into the shower to find JJ standing still under the water. You snake your arms around his torso, careful of the bruises pressing your chest to his back. His hands find yours he holds them tight. You place a kiss on his spine, then rest your head where your lips touched. 

“I’m so sorry” He croaked, his voice was tired, worn out from the day. 

“JJ-” 

“No stop Y/N” He turns around to face you, grabbing your face in his hands. “I’m sorry. I should have never said any of those things about you, none of them were true, it's just that, its,” He stumbles on his words. You rub his back to ground him again, he takes a deep breath. “It's just that you do deserve better than me.” 

“JJ please-” He doesn’t let you continue. 

“No you do, Y/N you do. You deserve so much better than me, than this life, than what I can give you. You don’t deserve some, broken kid that's never getting off the cut, you don’t deserve, to, have to watch as I steal money from drug dealers, you don’t deserve any of the shit that I know that I put you through you just, you deserve better, better than someone who doesn’t come close to deserving you.” 

The tears streaming down both of your faces mix with the water coming from the shower and you have no idea how to make his saddening speech stop. 

“JJ” You sob, he pauses. “You deserve so much more, than what your life has given you. You deserve to be happy, you deserve to be loved JJ, you deserve everything that you want, why can’t you see that?” 

And instantly you feel stupid for asking. JJ’s eyes wander and find the bruises littering his body, answering your question. You stifle another sob as your eyes graze his battered skin. 

“Listen to me.” You demand his attention. “You are not worthless.” His eyes divert from yours as he realises what you’re referring to. “JJ look at me,” After a moment or two, his gaze wearily finds yours. “You are not worthless, you are worthy of love, and affection, and someone who takes care of you, and not only are you worthy but you deserve it too. Do you hear me?” 

JJ swallows thickly, nodding in acceptance of your beautiful words. He embraces you tightly, having no words of his own. No one had ever made him feel like this. No one had ever made him feel worthy of the good that was before him. 

He was hesitant to think that he deserved you. To him, no one was good enough to actually deserve you, especially not him. However your speech made him open to the idea that maybe he was at least worthy of your love. 

Your love. 

You both realised in the same moment that the word was shared between you. You had never shared the faithful declaration of love to each other since you had been together romantically, and yet now you had mentioned love twice in the span of thirty seconds. JJ smiled as he held you. You loved him, and this was one of the ways that you showed it. 

“Let's get the chlorine out of your hair J.” 

He let you massage his scalp with the shampoo that he's seen you use before to get pool chemicals out of your hair. He didn’t really know what it did or how it was different from other shampoos but, it smelled like you and he loved getting his head rubbed. His breathing was still shaky, but he finally felt some of his anxiety from the day wearing off. Fighting with you was something he never wanted to do again. Fighting with his dad was something he knew he would have to do the next time he went home. He elected to ignore those thoughts, as your fingers worked magic on his hair, seemingly drawing all of the negative ideas out of his head along with the chlorine. 

As JJ rinsed his hair of soap, he noticed you reaching for the bottle again, no doubt to wash your own hair. He holds out his hand, wordlessly asking if he could wash your hair for you, like you had done for him. This makes you grin as you hand him the bottle. JJ then realises that he doesn’t really know how to do what you did for him. That kind of small, soft, intimate touching was foreign to him. 

He squeezes way too much shampoo into his hand, but you pay that no mind. He starts slow, trying to remember the way your fingers moved on his scalp, but in the end knowing that he just wasn’t good at giving head massages. 

“I used way too much.” He states, watching as suds continue to produce from your locks.  

“It’s okay.” You hum watching the bubbles disappear down the drain. “I set out clothes for you when you’re ready, I’m probably gonna be another minute” You tell him, referring to the other bottles you had in the shower that you still had to use. 

“Okay, thank you” He kisses you as he exits the shower. You finish up quickly, wanting to be next to him, and hoping that his thoughts as he sits alone don’t carry him away like they had before. 

You find that he left his tee shirt for you, like he had on nights before. You wear the shirt that smelled of him along with a pair of comfortable running shorts and head to the spare bedroom of the chateau that JJ called his most nights. 

You spot JJ sitting at the edge of the bed, waiting for you. You slowly and carefully climb onto his lap, straddling him and holding his head close to your chest. You notice anxiety still radiating off of him. 

“Hey,” You start softly. “It’s okay, everythings okay-” 

“I love you” He states bluntly as he picks up his head from your chest. 

“What?” You stumble, surprised at his outburst. 

“I love you, and I want to be with you, like, publically, or whatever. I wanna tell the Pouges and-” before he starts rambling, you stop him. 

“I love you too JJ.” This pauses him. 

“Say it again.” 

You giggle, but inhale, knowing that he needs to hear it. 

“JJ.” You start. “I love you.” 

He lets out a breath you didn’t realize he was holding, eyes watering for the millionth time. 

“I still don’t think that I deserve this.” He admits, looking into your eyes with his crystal clear blue ones. 

“You do.” You push his hair back from his face. “And I’ll spend the rest of my life showing you that you do.” 

He was hesitant to accept everything that you had said to him that day, but he never doubted that you would give him your all. This was all he needed to know before he allowed himself fully over to you, kissing you with more desperation and love than ever before. 

“I love you so much.” You muttered into his lips, and from that day on, you would say it again and again, as many times as he needed to hear it. A constant reminder to him that he was deserving and worthy of good, of love, and of you.

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