#but oh well probably no one's gonna see this anyway i just wanted to get it off my chest

[twst-drabbles]

Octavinelle 18

Summary: After some whining and pestering on the seafolks part, you gave in and decide to sleep in the tank room for the night.

(Ough, I'm glad that I recovered from my pain, but now it means I have to trudge through writer's block all over again! All my writings at the moment just feel so… rusty. I really need to get my practice in.)

Initially, you were under the impression that while seafolk don't mind affection, they weren't especially needy for it. The sea is a cold place and often time is spent either hunting, feeding the young or looking out for danger if nothing else.

Essentially, when you first got Azul, Jade and Floyd, you were very much expecting to give more attention to their tank than to the actual creatures themselves. You'd come in, feed them until they're properly filled rather than stuffed, then spend the rest of the hour checking up on the particulars around them. Bitten fingers? Expected, you knew tense pets when you see them. Jets of water in your eyes? Also expected, Azul's particular breed are known for those kinds of warnings.

You were, however, not expecting for them to eventually get so attached that they'd get fussy about it.

It started off as these simple, long-held whistles, heard from right at the edge of your ear. At first you thought maybe it was your AC acting up again, or perhaps the plant nymphs outside practicing another strange ritual you're not aware of. So, you just ignored it. Wasn't bothering you anyway. Honestly, it was even a little cute when it turned out to be just Floyd whistling. A little playtime with him and it was enough to calm him down.

He did nip at you at the end when you left but you didn't pay it any mind.

Then Jade joined in as well, and boy do those two make a mean harmony. Those two bounce energy off of each other all the time. Could practically hear it from all the way in the backyard.

You played with them, coaxed them into their cave, but twenty minutes later, they would be back to their whistling sessions. Again, you didn't pay it much mind, you figured it was just another form of playing.

Then Azul chimed in with his trills. His trills, usually cute in how whiny they sounded, were very guttural. Like he was choking on something.

Of course, you go to the tank room to see what's wrong and guess what? They quieted down as soon as you opened the door. Even had the cheekiness to chirp in smug victory that they got you to their room.

You closed the door, and not even a minute later they began their noises all over again.

And so here you are, under a few layers of blankets because this room's practically a fridge, scrolling through your phone because your body's just not ready for sleep. Yeah you can sleep on the couch in the living room, and you have collapsed on the rug back when you had one, but sleeping with a sleeping bag on the hard floor was another sensation entirely. You're probably gonna be here all night, which sucks because you were just starting to sleep properly for once.

Oh well.

You took a cursory glance back at the dimly lit tank and saw three squishy faces pressed up against the glass, side by side, all giving the biggest of frowns. How long were they watching?

"What?" You're here, aren't you? What else do they want? "I'm not sleeping in the tank with you."

You turned back around and went back to reading whatever catches your interest, adjusting the pillow between your arm.

About a few minutes later, you heard a gentle pop.

Your thumb stopped, already sighing through your nose. "Oh boy…"

Immediately, your face was slapped with fish, three magical seafolk creature fish that is. You curled up. Wet slime rubbed at your ear, little claws on your cheek and lips, and finally tendrils on your shoulder. All so cold you had to clench your jaw to keep from shaking them off.

"Alright, alright," you gently pried Azul, Jade and Floyd from your skin and put them on the floor. "Give me a moment."

You swiped a towel from one of the cabinets--seafolk playtime never fails to leave water everywhere--dunked it in the empty tank, wrung it, then folded it right next to your pillow.

Floyd didn't hesitate to belly flop right onto the damp towel. Jade slithered right under a layer and purposefully butted Floyd to the side before poking his head out the other end. Azul slowly crawled over to the very corner of the towel, picking the one closest to your pillow with a very expectant look on his face.

"You can hang, but I'm putting you to bed when you're asleep, alright?" Can't have their skin drying out and making them itch.

Did they understand? Probably not since they're still just giving you that empty eyed stares of theirs.

You laid back down, and they all pounced on your face.

"Come on!"

This is going to be a long night.

[mirroredmemoriez]

Amanda Young's physical pain and more pain

Not saying anything new here once again, but the shit Amanda goes through throughout the entire franchise is depressing. Right now, I'm mainly looking at the physical aspect than the mental? But I'll probably mention that too as I always do. What brought this thought on was when I was doing some reference work for her and Lynn's deleted fight! We as a fandom always joke about how she's enjoying it because she at some points smirks and giggles... But the ending shot of that sequence is what I want to hone in on.

This is a defeated woman. She's just been attacked and cut up- There is as much terror as adrenaline in a humans body in a scenario like this. But this isn't even the first time whilst working under Jigsaw that Amanda has had someone harm or even attempt to kill her.

The first one I've shown is of course Cecilia Pederson backhanding Amanda to the floor- Which honestly, this scene is overall horrible as Amanda also during this period has to watch Gabriela get her neck stomped! But it could've been worse in theory... When putting John into the blood-board trap, Parker suggests putting her on the other end. If Carlos never was there, it's very likely that Amanda would've been blood boarded alongside John. We then have the very famous needle pit. There was no way to predict how anyone in the nerve gas house would react to their circumstances and due to that? Amanda inherently to me was always in danger. This is displayed quite well when she's tossed into a test not meant for her... I think it's the somewhat carelessness of this which is the most upsetting aspect? John had her in there to monitor Daniel and subdue him once the game was done. But what actual protection did Amanda have from anyone in there? We even see her try and take the gun from the magnum eyehole trap unsuccessfully.

Like imagine the guy who's like 6 foot and muscle that just tossed you into a PIT OF NEEDLES... IS CHASING YOU WITH A KNIFE. You're also quite aware that this man certainly killed the other guy you just saw with a spiked bat in his head. I'd be bricking it. Anyway, that same kid you had to insure stayed safe? Yeah his father who wrongfully imprisoned you is gonna beat you till one half of your face is just blood. OH HE'S ALSO GOING TO BITE YOU AND ATTEMPT TO STAB YOU TO DEATH.

The only reason you survive? Because he's already previously injured and you use that to your advantage. We're not done though! Amanda's mentor slash father figure is dying and she is getting basically blackmailed but that's not the only thing she needs to have on the mind- Because we have Lynn running up on her with a blade, supposedly to have a nice chat.

And I even made a poll asking people on this site... Do you think Lynn would've killed Amanda? Yes was the majority answer. We know that at least one of these slashes actually catches Amanda because she is bleeding by the end of this. Not to mention, Lynn was not messing around whatsoever? She throws what I think is an axe at Amanda at one point and also tries to kick her head in against the locker things... Which she did after failing to get a swing with said axe to Amanda's head. With all of this, it kinda pushes me to think that Amanda attempts to physically intimidate and scare Lynn a lot because she is aware being attacked is quite possible. For example, the scene that is kept in where Amanda literally hands Lynn the axe, ''I'd go for the neck- But I'm not the brain surgeon.'' She is clearly letting Lynn know during this that if you try and fight with me, you're screwed! All of these factors are against you. Then coming back to the deleted scene? None of these warnings have dissuaded Lynn from going, ''I'LL FUCKING YOU!'' Whatsoever really. So rounding it back up to the first image I presented.... I think Amanda is just fucking tired. How are you meant to have been healed and helped if you're getting the smackdown special every other some weeks to months. In literally every game she's been physically present for- She has been harmed physically too. It's traumatic, it's draining and it well... HURTS. I know the healing process from when Eric smashed her head into a wall multiple times wasn't nice either. AND AND AND AND AND AND!!!! Amanda doesn't even get peace with death, seeing as she dies in a very violet manner too. We watch her choke on her own blood after being shot in the throat..... Reaching out for the same man who put her through all of this really. Anyway.... HAPPY MANDY MONDAY FROM MAL!

[100frogsinatrenchcoat]

Isat fic part threeee there’s actually some comfort in this hurt/comfort now.

Part one is here, part two is here

POV SIFFRIN

Loop’s voice sounds like yours. It didn’t used to, when they were a star, but it does now.

It’s… unnerving, to say the least, to hear someone screaming in your own voice. Although you suppose it was theirs first.

You don’t know what to do. You don’t know how to help. A glance at Isa shows he’s just as lost as you are. Probably more lost, if anything. You’re still not sure exactly how much Isa saw, how much Isa knows.

Loop keeps screaming. A ragged, painful, feral noise that sounds like it must be shredding their throat to ribbons.

Do you comfort them? Stars, what if that makes it worse? You don’t know what to blinding DO, useless useless useless. Loop is scared and angry and crying and SCREAMING and you’re USELESS.

Loop curls in on themself, pulling their hands from yours. They bury their hands in their hair and pull.

Ah! What do you do?! “No, nonono Loop, don’t do that please, you’ll hurt yourself, I- um-” You reach out and take their hands back into yours, pulling them away from their hair.

Loop doesn’t fight you.

Comfort, comfort, how do you help, how do you make it better? Touch? Would touch be good? Or too much? You don’t know. You don’t know, you don’t know, but Loop is still screaming and Isa looks completely out of his depth so- so you may as well try.

One hand still holding both of Loop’s, you run the other hand through their hair. It’s completely darkless the whole way through, there’s none of the dye that yours has.

They shudder at the contact. They don’t stop screaming, but they don’t move away either. You keep going, combing your hand through their hair, brushing tangles out with your fingers, your nails gently scratching against their scalp. You think it would feel nice. You think maybe if you were this scared, it would make you feel better.

Loop’s screaming slowly gives way to sobbing. You don’t know if it’s because they chose to stop screaming, or if their voice just gave out. Even their crying sounds painful. They don’t move, don’t look at you, they just stay, curled up like that, letting you run a hand through their hair.

Isa sits next to you, carefully keeping a good amount of space between himself and Loop.

Neither of you say anything. The forest is quiet, except for Loop’s sobs, and even those eventually give way into just exhausted, hiccuping whines.

“…Loop?” You try, after a while, “is there anything I can do to help?”

They don’t respond.

Isa speaks up. “I don’t think talking to them will work right now. I think they’re… disassociating? Maybe?“

You don’t know that Vaugardian word.

Isa must see it on your face because he clarifies, “like, like they got too upset or scared or something, so their brain just shut off. They’re not asleep or anything, they’re just… not totally here right now.”

Ah! Kind of like when you’d zone out during loops.

“I… I don’t think we should stay out here in the woods. It’ll be cold when the sun goes down.” Isa adds. “You’re craft-exhausted and hurt and, and I think they are too. We should head back to the clocktower. I don’t want you getting sicker.”

You nod, and move to stand. And promptly fall back on the ground.

Oh. Oh. Dizzy. Very very dizzy. Everything hurts. Craft exhaustion. Yeah. Ow.

You breathe in and out, and just focus on not vomiting.

“Oh! Um!” Isa fusses over you, “Sif! Are you okay?”

You give him a thumbs up from your spot on the ground.

“Okay! So! You can’t walk right now. I… don’t think I can carry both of you, and I don’t think Loop wants me to touch them anyway, so… I’m gonna go find Mira or M’dame Odile so they can help!”

“Okay…” you groan, “what… what are you gonna tell them?”

“Uhhh… that… that some weird stuff happened? I don’t know. I don’t even know what happened! So! I guess I’ll just tell them that everyone’s okay, but we need help.”

“…okay.”

“But uh… you’re gonna have to explain whatever… this all is later.”

Stars. Where to even begin. “…yeah. Thank you, Isa.”

“No problem! I’ll be as fast as I can!”

You sit up slowly. Loop still hasn’t moved from where they sit on their knees, curled into a shaking ball. “I don’t think me or Loop will be going anywhere”

“Yeah… I’ll still try to be quick!”

Isa runs off and the forest is silent again, other than Loop’s soft crying.

You go back to running your hands through their hair. You don’t know if it’s helping. You hope it is. You liked when Odile ruffled your hair, and when Mira combed it, so hopefully Loop does too!

A few minutes pass. Loop isn’t exactly crying anymore, but their breaths are quick and unsteady, and they’re shaking worse than you. You can feel their body shuddering under your hands.

You hope they don’t mind the contact. You think it’s…nice. The feeling of your hands in their hair. Warmth from being close to someone. It’s nice.

You would feel awful if they didn’t like it though.

Maybe you should stop. Maybe this isn’t fair. If they can’t talk, maybe you should stop. Yeah. Yeah, you should stop.

Your heart sinks at the loss of contact, but you pull your hands away.

Loop’s shaking breaths turn into a heartbroken whine. Oh. Wrong choice?

They… reach a hand out for you. Barely. They barely move, but their hand reaches out for you.

You take their hand.

So… so contact was good! You were helping! Okay!

You scoot closer, and, feeling a bit better now that you know how to help, you gently pull Loop towards you.

They lean into your touch, and you think if they weren’t so tired, they might start sobbing again.

You feel like you might.

Loop lets you pull them in close, and they rest their head on your chest, curling up against you.

The contact is… a lot. Other than the group hug after, well, everything, you aren’t sure when the last time you had this much contact was. Your body buzzes with it. You think Loop probably feels the same way. They probably haven’t been touched in… stars, maybe the equivalent of years? They probably need this more than you do, and you need it so badly you think you might start sobbing.

Loop does start sobbing. You’re surprised there’s any tears left for them to cry, but there apparently are.

You just hold their shaking form closer, and lean against a nearby tree.

You’re so tired. Stars. You’re so, so tired.

Maybe it wouldn’t hurt to close your eyes. Just for a moment.

[egophiliac]

still ruminating over Lost In the Book With Spooky Skeletons Part 1, so here's a selection of some of my favorite little bits! (...some more loosely paraphrased than others) (I just feel like Idia has no room to criticize in general, okay)

anyway, I'm sure we're just going to have a fun time celebrating Halloween and nothing bad is going to happen whatsoever! :)

[xxplastic-cubexx]

Or even better, you can become a YouTuber. That way you can edit your streams or just ramble non-stop about lore for shit you like

oh i fear that'd involve listening to my voice and i'd rather die than do that

[deus-ex-mona]

i miss her…

[sqlmn]

Unfortunately for everyone involved, Brent doesn't understand the concept of being bought a joke, like, why would someone SPEND MONEY on a joke? Since Karen's his friend and bought him a shirt, he's like. Legally obligated to wear it at least once... ? Probably?

So while he suffers over the idea of wearing it and not wanting to wear it at work he eventually would wear it and Karen would suffer the fact she needs to actually not try to joke too much in a teasing way if it's gonna be Treated Seriously. Right suffering from being gay because oh, Brent looks nice in color. (Chris would find out about it at work that he missed Brent in color and just stares at Karen because she is an absolute menace how did she manage that.)

[em-b-sides]

I think about that tiktok trend where you like paint your partners eye color on your nails or make a bracelet or something with the color a lot actually

[edwinisms]

literally I have not written this much in the span of a couple weeks since like. mid high school. so around 7-8 years ago. what has this show done to me

[orcelito]

Got my backpack all dressed up for tomorrow 😌 spent a bit deliberating on where exactly to put everything, but I am satisfied with what I got.

I also did pack an Akira keychain, though it seemed both hard to put on + its connection seemed a little flimsy, so I decided to not go thru the hassle and risk losing him. These vash & wolfwood keychains are pretty solid, & they survived 2 flights and a Lot of walking in my trip last year, so they'll hopefully be fine for this trip, too.

Always a risk to put things on a backpack with a big convention, but it's worth it to me to have them out on display

[seventh-district]

it’s the last Sunday before Sunday’s banner ends so i suppose it’s about time for me to finally boot up HSR and pull him home… wish me luck

[todayisafridaynight]

getting wigs for characters with the same hair color as myself make me feel like the biggest dumbass around but youd have me fucked thinking im burdening myself with daigos 2000's emo cut just for a weekend

[phagodyke]

aouuugh my uterus......

[lunabug2004]

Ya'll as much as I love Fourth & Gemini... I really wish they weren't still so close with Prom. I don't like him and I don't want to support him. It's their choice to still hang out with him and idk maybe they know something I don't but as far as I know his whole scandal never really got redeemed or anything (idk if that's rlly the right word... but I think ya'll get what I mean). Idk I just feel a bit icky every time they post with or about him and it makes me sad bc I wanna support them w/o supporting him as well :(

[quietwingsinthesky]

Benny: Thanks for not giving up on me, brother.

Dean: Don't give me a reason to.

(im going to throw up)

[endbeginning]

and if i said.... pet.er peve.nsie.....