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#i have so much going on and so much to be anxious over#ive noticed that since i started therapy ive been better about prioritizing things and not getting anxious over everything all at once#at least as much as i used to#like im trying to not get anxious about hypothetical job interviews when i still need to worry about applying#and im trying to handle a few things at a time and not get overwhelmed#but i was really really hoping id get the job i interviewed for on Thursday. and then i could be done with being anxious about jobs#but i didn't#or they at least haven't gotten back to me yet#and now im doing things that i scheduled to be anxious about after the interview#but im thinking about how i need to keep looking for a job too#and i set a time to call another place. but then they said they'd call me back#so i got all worked up about that and then nothing came from it#and i scheduled it so it would be done#but i did my part and its still not done !! and i still have a future phone call to be anxious about!!#i had a few things scheduled for today. and after the last one i was supposed to be able to relax#well. i just did the last one.#but now im waiting on a call back.#i wish i had gotten that job just so i wouldn't have to deal with this anymore
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Do you ever do requests? If so, do you ever plan on drawing some Yandere with the Hantengu clones? :D hope you have a good day/night!!!
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yes!! I love yanderes.. and these guys.. these guys are such good material...... nods nods..
I'm not sure about requests..I assume you mean drawing requests? I suppose if it REALLY catches my interest enough, I'd do it, but it'd probably just be line art/sketches.
#null rot#yandere kny#yandere demon slayer#kny#kimetsu no yaiba#demon slayer#hantengu#hantengu clones#sekido#karaku#urogi#aizetsu#midori306#YOU ALREADY KNOW THE ANSWER TO THE YANDERE QUESTION MY BELOVED CULT MEMBER#uwaa and i recently checked back on their designs.. THEY HAVE LONG SLANTED EARS DUDE WHAT THE FUCKKK THATS LIKE THE CUTEST EVER#i tend to shitpost and focus on the dere than the yan but thats my mistake!! im sorry cult members.. I'll need scarousal#when calling sekdio. he pretends to ignore you but you can tell he heard you when his ear twitches#He's flabbergasted that you met someone else to begin with. who let you go out without one of them?!#hes too shocked and angry to even properly get upset!!#Karaku loves everything you have to say. less so if its positive abt someone else. still listens tho. listening carefully for details..#he doesnt mind others eyeing you. youre perfect in his eyes. who wouldnt? still.. thats not gonna fly well.#Urogi loves when you seek him out but mentioning someone else... is bc you want to feed him right? ofc! you want to benefit him!#its cause hes your favorite! yeah! youre so sweet!!! ofc he'll get rid of someone for you both!!#Aizetsu's bashful. he feels put on the spot when calling him but hes always hoping you give him affection of some kind. always ready for yo#mentioning someone else was NOT what he wanted and now hes sad.. youre making him sad.. whats so important you had to bring that up?#The thought of anyone else makes him feel so exhausted already.. wont you comfort him instead? he needs you now.. atone for your mistakes#uwaa expressions.. uwaaa aizetsu releasing some of the tension in his brows when hes feeling upset towards you uWAA#i CANT RAMBLE ENOUGH IN THE TAGS SO WAIT FOR THE POST I HAVE IN THE BACK BURNER FROM SOMEONE ELSE WHO ASKED FOR SOMETHING SIMILAR!!!!!!!
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Yeah, that about sums it up.
#in stars and time#in stars and time fanart#isat#isat fanart#isat siffrin#isat loop#sifloop#lucabyteart#me writing some of the most basic and not-a-new-concept dialogue possible: yeag ill finish this someday. maybe.#me realising the anniversary is soon: wait. extremely on the nose conclusion-of-an-essay ass dialogue is PERFECT for an anniversary piece#anyway happy birthday you fucking video game. christ. jesus christ. what the fuck happened. why have i drwawn these fucking things so much#adrienne what do you fucking Do to Me. what the Hell. thanks . i know how to draw comics now. legit. thanks but what the hell dawg#anyway no i dont know what the posing is on this theyre just kind of crumpled together. wasnt supposed 2 b a kiss because i dont think#that that fucker gets mouth privileges but like idk go nuts man. is this during canon? postcanon? some other shit? idk. your call#the world is yourrrrr oyster (this is my way of saying im hells of busy and am going back to neglecting everyone who followed me for this#specific weirdass ship content. bye. im dyig out there.)
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"Shen Jiu, you really are a demon!"
in which yue qi saves an injured fox kit, which turns out to be an young fox demon. once he's recovered enough strength, he adopts a human form so that he can talk to yue qi properly, but ends up being caught by the slave traders as well. Since he can change form, it would be pretty easy for him to escape, but if he's discovered as a demon he'll never be able to return, and he has no home or family anyways, so he decides he would rather stay and help qi-ge, who will probably get himself killed without someone to stop him from doing stupid shit.
when shen jiu saves yue qi from death by horse carriage, and subsequently is bought by qiu jianluo, fairly quickly qjl realizes he is not human, and delightedly gifts him with a enchanted collar, which renders him unable to chnage forms, stuck in him demonic form and unable to change to full fox or full human shape. like this, he cannot leave the qiu manor at all without immediately giving himself away, even if qjl hadnt also locked him up. like this, he has no choice but to wait until yq makes his way back to the qiu manor at last, but when he's finally freed, he's initially almost feral from how he's been treated, and very nearly kills yqy...
#qijiuweek2024#partial nudity#qijiu#svsss#arts#shen jiu#yue qingyuan#79 or as i like to call it an excuse to spend an entire week spitballing fun ideas for 79 aus#and also playing around with art techniques#i think its fun to entertain aus sometimes where sj does wait long enough for yq to make it back to him#because it dont think it would have magically absolved them of Issues actually#both still coming out of this with grievous amounts of trauma#yqy still will agonize over how his actions made him so late when xiao was suffering so much#im undecided if yq KNOWS sj is a demon before he comes back#on one hand. the angst of sj not wanting qi ge to find out he's a demon on top of everything else#on the other hand i think its so fucking funny to imagine how yue “xiao jiu was only kidding when he tried to kill you with a rock” qi#would happily defend his now Literally A Demon Xiao Jiu
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It's so funny to me that Einstein clowned on himself for coming up with a stupid theory that he thought was wrong. And now today scientists are going back to it because he was actually really, really correct. Anyway, here's a picture of the Tarantula Nebula I stole (aka legally downloaded) from NASA's JWST telescope Flickr.
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#albert einstein#astrophysics#im talking about the cosmological constant#he called it 'the greatest blunder' of his career#and now scientists are like 'wait come back'#jwst images#james webb space telescope#jwst#tarantula nebula#nebula#ALL THE SPACE#nasa#the big bang theory#james webb telescope
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cherik mpreg son onslaught that charles gave birth to
actually appalled how this is a factual sentence and that this is canonical comic book lore
#snap chats#charles xavier never beating the pregnant allegations thats why they had to make him say it outright recently vjalkjaeklaj#dude no charles better than me tho if i had my intrusive thoughts running around after it fused with my evil ex i wouldve ended it all#wait on that note did i ever tell you guys i liked way of x. i think i did i liked how they actually. Evaluated their laws#deceased at how onslaught inherits charles twink body now but i fw the meaning for it. ok thats onslaught revelation but same arc#still funny as hell from going to a whole ass UNIT to being. Twig#not so disimilar to charles himself really.... ok 'unit' is a strong word but he was a lil heaftier back then but anyways#i should draw onslaught sometime. at the very least him and david#my favorite bit from that whole run was onslaught calling david his step brother#like girl youre right but im crying laughing at the fact it is true#oh no ive reminded myself i still want to get legion of x. it makes me emo i love the bits i skimmed i must have the full story#but the holidays are coming so no time for that#anyways. im done rambling JLFKAERJLAJ
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mmm a Happy Sketch for @sensitiveheartless wonderfull, wonderfull fic Skyline Pigeon bc it had me sobbing and crying and i think that Chuuya deserves to gently hold a bird <3
#im gonna give him the world#also i loved every single bird fact in there i was so invested in them#now i go back to the trenches (figuring out comic layouts)#i want to draw more of this fic#the brainrot is so strong i cant wait for chapter 2#im gonna see the notification and explode on impact#pls excuse how rough the sketch is i just needed to get something done hh#tho i like how the uughhjj light turned out#isnt this called dapple light?? idk i find it v pretty#anyways pls if u like chuuya hurt/comfort this is The fic to follow#bsd#bsd fanart#my art#chuuya my love#skk
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Oh my god perhaps it was a sign that I needed to stay home because if I went to school today I would've missed the call for the internship, which btw,
I GOT AN INTERNSHIP AT A CARDIOLOGY CLINIC!!!!
#ITS PRECISELY WHAT I NEEDED FOR MY CAREER!!!#holy shit holy shit im so excited im so excited!!@#i need to buy scrubs now!!! he said any light colored scrubs. does that mean i can go light purple? or light green?#no i shouldnt get ahead of myself....i should probably stick to light blue#holy shit holy shit. this is great news!! im so glad i sent that follow-up email yesterday wowowowoow#i was getting desperate ngl#wait actually. now im doubting#no interview? no nothing?#i sent in my resume and a few references but i didnt get an interview request at all#the guy on the phone just said im accepted to the internship#perhaps he meant internship interview?#uhhhhh hm. should i call back for clarification?#what I should 100% do is send up a follow up email thanking them for the opportunity. perhaps then i can ask them for clarification#this bird speaks#oh darn i forgot to ask whats a good number to call them at#i got so excited i forgot
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happy first ekky goal of the 2425 season AND its unassisted as the double whammy!!! and how due is ekky for a goal?
VERY. VERY VERY DUE. ITS INSANE CONSIDERING HE HAS 12 ASSISTS ON THE SEASON.
wall of love and yearning gus and ekky love IS so real and so true catmin <3
carolina hurricanes @ florida panthers | 11.30.24 (x)(x)(x)(x)
#aaron ekblad#gustav forsling#florida panthers#2425#reino is so tired of their shit im so sorry king that you have to see it EVERY single time#“LETSGO” ekky says to reino before he immediately abadons him to lovingly look at forsy and expect him in his arms#id just hack him in the legs and grumble to the bench like reino is so much stronger than i am#delicate waist holding#i know forsy has talked about it before. how he immediately has to take out his mouthguard for cellies.#but him putting it back in while staring at ekky and then proceeding to stick his tongue out MAKES ME FEEL SO FAINT#DONT TEASE EKKY LIKE THAT#WHY ARE YOU-#hes miming what ekkys gonna look like at the end of the night you know panting like a-#anyways :)#ekkys expectant face... the way it absolutely lights up when he turns to see forsy trucking towards him...#forsy tapping his stick NEXT TO EKKYS A#I NEED A MINUTE#forsy following after ekky for the bumpie line :((#CAMEO OF BOQY SO EXCITED FOR EKKY IM GONNA SOBBBB#the curse is lifted with the power of love congrats ekky you're not haunted anymore#funnily enough his first goal last season after returning from rehab early nov was on dec 27#so he didnt have to wait too long this time lmao#or i guess he HAD to considering he started the season healthy#1 month 10 days vs 1 month 22 days#pick your poison#now thats what i call consistency?
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meet my son his name is maunder he has br-HOLY SHIT DID ANYONE ELSE JUST SEE THAT?
#now that i look back on this sprite i shouldve done his buttons n cheeks with circle tool . Oh well#cosmosdex#fortuna#the tragedy of fortuna#sterotypical art tag#i got nofin to rant about this time . surprisingly .#OHHH WAIT . im using him in a dnd campaign thats like the worst ever#(its 5 apollos a cupid(IN AN ARTEMIS SHELL.) and a bia)#the bia has been named our twink rangler because otherwise were gonna tear eachother apart#Also willy wonka is on our crew .#insane shit . i should infodump about them sometime . Not now though ......#*ALL BEING APOLLOS WASNT EVEN PLANNED I. i just called up whopping 6 fortuna friends and was like#hey man do you guys wanna play dnd.#and they were all like Fuck yea man.#the bia isnt really a fortuna fan theyre gonna read it but their computers broken.#i get to infodump to them about all the important game mechanic stuff#its great !!!!!!!!#anyway the apollos wasnt planned we just all ended up pulling up with our horrible twinks.#aw. fuck i ranted too hard . UM WHAT EVER!#just ignore that =]#edit i realized after posting this that its spelt wrangler not rangler. Fuck my stupid fungus life
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consider sanuso bodyswap where Sanji is of course "admiring" Usopp's body and Usopp is trying desperately to keep himself from getting worked up so that he doesn't light himself on fire.
Luffy and Chopper are not helping. They are in fact doing the opposite of helping. They've ramped up their pranks and are doing anything possible to get Usopp angry so that he combusts, freaks out, and then dives into the ocean to put himself out. They think it's hilarious.
Nami and Brook are Also not helping, since they're conspiring with Sanji to put on a fashion show with Usopp's body. Sanji called it "not wasting a precious opportunity to get him in something other than overalls". Usopp called it mutiny and he was gonna- dive into the ocean, holy fuck Sanji why is it so easy to catch fire?!
Best part about this is that Sanji assured him, several times, that his body doesn't get hurt by catching fire. Usopp still jumps into the ocean every time.
Robin pipes up at one point, asking if Sanji was immune to just his own flames or all flames. Sanji just kind of shrugs and said it depends. Franky, having just been leisurely watching all of this gets an idea. Would his Franky Fireball hurt Sanji's body or just give him more fire to work with?
He tries to coax Usopp into agreeing to test it out and, somehow, he manages it. Albeit, Usopp is all knocking knees and chattering teeth, a very odd sight from 'Sanji'. As part of the deal though, he can only shoot a fireball the size of his hand.
Usopp meant his small hand. The one Franky used for tinkering and fine detail work. He did not, however, clarify this.
So, when a fireball the size of Franky's big hand comes out, well. Usopp runs for his goddamn life.
It takes him a few moments- and the voices of his friends sounding distant and below him- to realize he hadn't, in fact, run to the men's quarters, but rather into the fucking sky.
And oooooh, boy he is gonna kill Sanji one of these days. Why was his body's first fucking instinct when running to go up, what the actual HELL-
Usopp lit himself on fire again.
He curses out Sanji as his Sky Walk fails in the same moment and he plummets towards the deck.
#one piece#sanuso#nemotime#usopp the first time he lights himself on fire: WHAT THE FUCK WHAY THE FUCK WHAT THE HELL OH GOD OH F-#oh ndvdggdvdv okay listen. listen. omagine Zoro's been asleep this whole time. and he misses the memo that there was a bodyswap.#and he wakes up to 'Sanji' kicking him abd immediately goes into fight mode... and then is really fucking spooked#bc 'Sanji' is blubbering about Zoro going to kill him and that he couldnt die this young and Zoro's just. Still as a statue.#Literally cannot compute.#and then 'Usopp' comes up to him. threatening him and calling him names the way he was expecting from 'Sanji'#Brook: oh dear he mustve slept through all the commotion. Zoro-san! Usopp and-!#Nami covering Brook's mouth: No wait i smell a money making opportunity#shes gonna con him. idk how or with what yet but shes definitely gonna con him#hes gonna be sooo pissed when he finds out she conned him but his usual outlet for physical violence is currently indisposed so. lol. lmao.#i like making zoro suffer idk why its just funny#wait wai what if Usopp didnt trip on him what if when he plummets to the deck he lands on Zoro lmfao#also Franky's standing there like 'Why did you dodge it?!' and Usopp is right back to trying not to light himself on fire again lol#oh n Jinbei gets roped into the fashion show stuff#where he incurs 'newbie's first debt to Nami'#damn now im thinking about him slightly concerned about all this spontaneous combustion and then Robin saying something to make it worse lol#ANYWAY MORE IMPORTANTLY the real tragedy of this post is that because Usopp's constantly worried about Combusting#it never really sinks in how blatantly Sanji is checking out his body + enjoying doing that fashion show#and because of Sanji 'enjoying the view' he never notices the brief moments where Usopp quietly does the same#before being interrupted by Luffy and Chopper coming out of nowhere wanting to roast marshmallows on Usopp's leg#okay im done were done im good its bed time gnight gmorning gday to all
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In a couple hours Arcane S2 comes out……………………….
#Guys#I’ve been waiting since 2021#And now that it’s here…….#YAYAYAGAGAHAHAHJ#SCREAMING AND CRYING AND THROWING UP#IM GOING TO SOB MY EYES OUT#WE GET MORE EKKO#VI IS EMO#And Cait…….#Don’t get me S T A R T E D on Cait#Like it’s finally HERE#Me and one of my beat friends are going on a call to watch it#SoOoOOOOo this blog will NOT be spoiler free 😙👍🏾#Warning everyone in advance#AND A COUPLE DAYS AGO I FORCED MY FRIEND TO WATCH TRANSFOMERS ONE#I LEGIT DRAGGED HER BACK INTO HER TRANSFORMERS OBSESSION EEHEHHHWJSJS#Me and her are legit Bee and Dee 🩶💛#Arcane
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as someone who also has read butter_peanuts (and rk700s) naruto fics, i completely understand what you mean about obito. very glad to have another on the bandwagon! so excited to read the rest of the fic when it comes out, cause this is my favorite flavor of obito. he just kinda needs to be off the walls batshit crazy. its necessary to the narrative. also funny.
"It's necessary to the narrative and also funny" is my MO, it's how I live my life. I know I do love writing out-there POVs, but the fun of a Naruto villain is that you can just make up something that's an entirely new flavor of bizarre. He was genuinely so much fun that I didn't know why more people hadn't written him. And Tobi! Tobi is an incredibly fun challenge as an author. I ended up being ridiculously precise about every line Tobi had and everything he said. Everything Tobi says and does is an extremely deliberate choice by Obito, so it has to be a very deliberate choice by the author.
I thought of Obito's time travelling experience as basically him reading Naruto, and him realizing that he was within Naruto, and that he was a villain in the hit Shonen Jump manga Naruto. He is now operating life under the basic understanding of Naruto convention. A very effective shortcut to 'this guy is not operating on the same plane of existence as everyone else' is to give him some basic understanding of the Fourth Wall, which is a niche that Tobi also fulfills. The question is: does this new understanding of reality make somebody much saner, or so much crazier?
One thing that I did very much want to keep is that he's still the same person who was an apex predator on the Naruto supervillain food chain (In the grand Naruto Matryoshka doll of evil, would you put Madara in him or him in Madara?). He's not evil anymore, but he's still the same person who did those evil things, and I didn't want to lose that. He's a broken person. People should write their narrators more evil, I think. People don't go had enough into the bad guyisms. It's fun. Somebody needs to be a basic level of demented to wake up in the morning and choose Tobi.
#obito: “im crazy im fun im a dilf why isnt kakashi calling me back”#my asks#my writing#jesus if you think hes bad now wait until kakashi shows up ohhhhh my god
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made Luffy and Law in tomodachi life like a week ago and im testing their compatibility with the girls (cant be gay in this game 😔) and while luffy best love compatibility is with a gnc lass named Jade Azhure aka Captain aka the fucking sea as person. he has little to no love compatibility with the rest of the girls which is so funny! He also has a 100% friendship compatibility with a guy called hamster (full name Pikimin Popuko).
Law on the other hands as a +90% love compatibility with four ppl including my fucking wife. (my wife and i love compatibility is 40%…..) why is he so popular??? is he going to steal my wife??
Law and Luffy friendship compatibility is fine, they haven’t met each other yet tho, living next to each other.
also bonus:
#undescribed#idk how divorce works in the game but I feel like after having 8 children with me my wife can’t go leave me for law. even though she would#have my full support. also anyone wants to know my family drama in tomodachi? my daughter is married to mod and her bestie is teru.#mob is head over heels for her but my girl has been considering divorce for year. I won’t let her tho cause its mob himself like cmon.#im waiting on grandchildren but i don’t feel like that will happen fjdjdj#mob and tsubomi dated a while back but they broke up and now he’s family. mogami and reigen are best friends.#sans is dating my oc gen which is just amazing as a concept. marshall lee is dating an old lady called granny justice. full name:#June Victoria. annnnd yeah. voilà.#i love this game
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ARCANE EPISODE 7!!!!
MY GOD I WASNT READY FOR ANY OF THIS!!! WHAT WAS THAT!!!
Also ekko wallpaper I got with my fries lmao
#OH MY GOOOD!!!!!! POWDER AND EKKO!!! AND BENZOOOOOO#ITS LITERALLY WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN OMGG!!!!! POWDER LOOKS SO CUTE 😭😭😭😭 IM CRYING ALREADYYYY#VANDER WITH A BUN!! AND EVERYTHING IS SO FULL OF LIGHT!!! HER EYES!!! MYLO LOOKS SO RIDICULOUS AKDJSK THIS GIRLAAA#“where would you be without her” WELL BUDDY IF YOU KNEW HOW HE IS WITH HER!!! VI IS DEAD????? OR SHE WAS TAKEN FOR THE INCIDENT!!!#LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID JAYCE!!! MY GOD!!! THE GEMS KILLED VI SO THEY JUST COMPLETELY PROHIBITED THEM!!! JAYCE IS IN JAIL PROBABLY!!#the fact we are seeing exactly why jayce should be sorry about what he has done.... and we are seeing him suffer because of it... cinema 🚬#also mel fading into viktor.... also has he realised how she manipulated him in the beggining??? there is so much stuff...#jayce eating contaminated animals and his wound being infected with the arcane too..... is that what will push him....#omg.... ekko likes powder so much... he apologised by painting actual adult vi portraits where the fallen are in his universe 😭😭😭#“she looks so badass” if you knew... is he gonna ask her to help him make hextech.... that is so sick and twisted....#also jayce hurting his leg loke viktor and having to use a cane and brace.... damn and you know whats worse..... that ekko could be like#this with the jinx of his universe IF ISHA HADNT DIED!!! AND IT IS BEACUSE OF JAYCE!! AGAIN!!!!! THIS MAN!!!!!#the drawing with the anomaly and the two men and the inifite symbol... we get it... jayce and viktor forever intertwined by fate....#powder is sensing something is off.... omg time travel..... THE LIMIT IS FOUR SECONDS AFTER HEIMERDINGER EPXLODED ALDHAKSHSKSJSOJSOSLS#i dont want a time travel ending.... if its done for plot to an extent is okay but idk about solving it all.... it makes it feel worhtless#claggor looks so fine its not even funny..... i cant wait to see what everyone thinks. WHERE IS THE LITTLE LADY bc hes called little man 😭#and vander with arm tattoos.... why did they hipster fied him.... he looks younger somehow ajdhakj he went from taking care of 4 kids to 3!#SILCO!!!! AND HE DID TRY TO KILL HIM!! ALSJAKSKAK Ekko just laighing at it.... girl i would be pissed STROMAE??? OMG POWDER!!!!#I JUST REALIZED THE PINK IN HER HAIR IS FOR VI!! AND HER JACKET!! AND A DRESS LIKE HER MOTHER'S!! CRYING!!! FULL BODY CHILLS!!!#CAN WE JUST PRETEND LIKE ITS THE FIRST TIME!!! I GAVE UP ON YOU!!! WHAT HAPPENED BACK THEN I NEED TO KNOW!!! IM SOBBING!!! EKKO!!!!#NOOOOOOO THE ANOMALY NOOOOO!!!! HEIMERDINGER NOOOOO!!!! AND THATS JAYCE!!! IS THAT MAGE VIKTOR???? the monkeys......#the vi toy with the out love song machine.... my god i wasnt expecting any of this i need to breathe i am stil tearing up my god#what a fucking punch in the stomach christ i cant breathe right akdhsksso#the credits saying the deries has benefited from a spanish tax rebate in the canary islands??? you're welcome i guess lmao#animation production carried out there and has ben collaboration with the Spanish gov... alright another win for perro sanxe#talking tag#watching arcane#watching arcane season 2#watching this i dont think im ready for caitvi sex.... after reconciliation even like what will be of me.... now im scared#i am still scared bc idk what happened to jinx and vi and cait still... thats what worried me and boom!! ekko powder with the steel chair..
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pls i need to provide updates
#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year#and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire#and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f#friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl#acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what#are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and#friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me!#LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after#everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to#invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me#i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother#and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids#so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo#any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷♀️#but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd#and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk#THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date#w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a#few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay#scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK#like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl#like is that even doable#but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much#.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us#god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x#but it would be soooo funny#I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed#popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x#i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like#its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe
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