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Hi berri bbs, can I request a small thing of sylus. Where mc goes to the n109 zone after the caleb plot and just takes a shower in sylus room and wears his top pjs and sleeps on his spot, all while being quiet because he's not there yet and he comes home and finds her like that.
hihi!! im not sure how caleb plays into this request but im gonna maybe think its bc like. youre a little shaken after the experience in skyhaven? so im gonna have it be kinda like, reader is just kinda trying to process everything that happened but not explicitly mention to sylus it's because of caleb quite yet/mention what caleb's become?? idk lol so it just became more. gen comf

You've never had a habit of announcing yourself whenever you come to visit but you'd at least shoot him a text after he was notified either through a surveillance camera in his home, Mephisto, or one of the twins after you greeted him. However, this time all he got was the notification that you used the key he gave you. He watches on his phone as you make your way through the house to his bedroom, ducking into the bathroom.
He can tell by the way you're carrying yourself that something bad happened but he doesn't know how to respond, not right away at least as he's busy. He also knows that if he cuts the mission short just to be with you you'd be mad at him for abandoning "something important" and the best way to optimise his time with you and the ability to talk to you would be to just get his work done. So he does.
He resists the urge to watch you through the cameras some more as you've expressed wanting your privacy even if you are in his home so he just speeds back on his motorcycle (safely, of course). He doesn't usually have a habit of just ditching his things at the door but he does today because the sooner he can get to you, the better.
His heart melts when he sees how comfortable you look, despite the furrowed brows. He gently comes to your side, lifting the blanket to see a set of his pajamas on your form. He gently runs a hand along the side of your body, the silk doing nothing to hide the warmth of you from his palm. He leans over and gives you a kiss to your forehead, wanting to slide into bed next to you but also know he should get changed first.
After showering and changing, he's sure to give a couple of spritzes of your favourite cologne on him before pulling you into his arms. You bury your face into his chest, letting his presence soak into your tired bones as the scrunch on your face finally dissipates. He won't ask anything of it right now but you did tell him you'd be on a business trip for a while and he assumes the trip didn't go as well as you were hoping it would.
When the two of you wake up in the morning he'll insist on a slow day, ignoring his schedule just to provide you some more comfort. You don't really end up telling him what the problem is but he doesn't care - he just wants to be there for you right now, distracting you from the turmoil as he spoils you with his attention.
#love and deepspace x reader#l&ds x reader#lads x reader#sylus x reader#l&ds sylus x reader#lads sylus x reader
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Sorry I can't get them out of my brain.
Movie!Sonic waking up movie!Tails at dark o'thirty. Tails groans and rubbing at his eyes, starting to ask Sonic what's going on before Sonic cuts him off, holds out a hand, offers to go on a nighttime race (no one will find out). The two race up to the highest point in Green Hills (Sonic wins, of course, but Tails is getting faster), but instead of running home afterwards, Sonic reveals to Tails that he was actually bringing him up to show him something. Sonic, woke Tails up, raced him to the peak, all so they could take in the sunrise on earth together.
Sonic and Tails curling around each other, cuddling in Sonic's racecar bed while Maddie and Tom are out of the house.
Thinking also of the first time Movie!Tails experiences a thunderstorm on Earth (early into his friendship with movie!Sonic). Tails instinctively grabbing onto Sonic for comfort, trying to apologize initially, but becoming too scared to do anything more than hold on. Sonic getting the instinct to push Tails away, not expecting the sudden physical touch, but ultimately (tentatively) wrapping his arms around Tails and pulling him close. He's no good at things like this, but he does his best, telling Tails that everything will be alright, trying to talk about things that may he scarier to the fox than the thunderstorm in hopes that that'll lessen his fear. And by the time it's over, Tails is apologizing for latching on to Sonic so suddenly, for probably making him uncomfortable. And, sure, Sonic won't lie that there was a level of awkwardness to it, he wasn't fully comfortable. But, despite this, his heart is warm, and his arms feel...empty now that Tails isn't in them. Strange, right? In the end, Sonic tells him it's no problem, just to try to warn him next time before he just suddenly latches on.
Or even...Sonic running to the kitchen to get a midnight "snack", only to get stuck in the doorway, staring at Tails—who's leaning against the kitchen counter and staring off into space, absentmindedly sipping on some hot chocolate. Maybe Tails notices him eventually, and as Sonic rushes to make his snack, trying to avoid the fact that he'd been caught staring, Tails prepares another round of hot chocolate (for the both of them this time)
Idk I just need them soft I need them domestic I need them navigating their weird friendship I need them feeling warm around each other and being embarrassing about it
#sontails#sonails#unbreakable bond#sonic the hedgehog#tails the fox#miles tails prower#movie sontails#sonic movie#sonic movie 2#movie tails#movie sonic#sonic wachowski#i just be ramblin#Sorry if it's not fully coherent#I'm writing this in some sort of fugue state#My brain is just running along thinking about them#Also if you're wondering where Knuckles is the answer is that sometimes Knuckles also joins in on their midnight excursions#sometimes just Knuckles and Sonic go#I like to imagine all 3 of them curling around each other#just assume for the sake of this post that Knuckles is asleep or out of the house or doing something else at that exact moment
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missing the days when the internet wasn't google et al trying to sell me the same five things through a million different websites
#trying to find a replacement watch band but i'm finding ennui and mounting panic#maybe i'll buy the kinda pricey one from a turkish etsy shop even if the shipping is a Lot#and despite the fact that the last minute tax addition was a huge turnoff#but noooo i wasn't looking for fancy leather i wanted a fun nylon band because the problem with the silicone one is breathability#but now idk maybe i won't get anything at all#(this saga is running on two years)#applied faunology#when i was a kid i had a watch band with DRAGONS!! why isn't everyone and their mother making that!!#there IS a market i know it
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concept: unromanced eleanor as drifter's romantic advisor and wingwoman. how successful she actually is at this depends on how serious she's feeling.
#ni blabs#warframe#warframe spoilers#warframe 1999#eleanor nightingale#[lettie is letting you hold a rat. as far as i'm concerned you two are basically engaged now.]#[that radio thing- somachord. see if you can't bring that back for aoi. listen to something with her.#because honestly if i have to hear her loop that boyband song through her mind one more time-]#[...what? don't look to me for advice on talking games with amir.#just because i can read his mind doesn't mean i understand what an iframe is.]#[...maybe if you pretend that you don't know what a gun is hard enough quincy'll do that thing where he stands behind you#while teaching you how to shoot? i don't know i'm just spitballing here.]#[good luck trying to get my brother to focus on anything but all the impending doom. you're going to need it.]#idk if any of this is super ooc for her it's 4 in the morning#...i need to stop making these posts during the witching hour and get more sleep#tumblr WHY are you fucking up my tags.#fine i won't use quotation marks. Are You Happy Now.
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hello <3 does anyone have any last-minute tips for idk . enjoying a (taemin!!!!!!!) concert when you have autism + adhd? HSJSJSJS
#im sooooo nervous holy shit. it's been a While since i did the whole queuing thing for an artist#and when we did it for harry i had moments were i felt truly Terrible HSJSJSJSJ and im also nervous it won't feel real#or i won't be able to like. feel grounded or present??? and just close off emotionally???#i know this is silly and ive only listened to taemin since 2020 and never religiously like i did for bt s and seventeen ofc#but yk!!!!!! it's taemin!!!!!! and obviously feel v v lucky i get to go at all (yk. godwilling everything goes well)#also if anyone has any taemin specific tips hmu dhsjsjdh i haven't looked up the setlist bc i wanna be surprised#i know all his songs i think but not all by heart?#(also everything about queuing is Stressful HSJSJD and we have to travel 3.5 hours by train first which really is a record distance#in this country GSJSJSJD)#(anyways hiiiiiii sorry)#(oh and how be at peace with what you have djjsjdd and not to regret things constantly)#(which ig with taemin im constantly like Just So Happy To Be Here but then if it's me who could've done things differently it's >:[)#also in hindsight i think i just had a ? shutdown? meltdown? at one of the harry shows rip that wasn't great#can i even say that. idk if i get those. but i was quite literally shaking crying (not throwing up!) and couldn't explain a thing#anyways i think i'll take my adhd meds so i at least won't have a billion other thoughts in my head??#i just haven't in ages but i took them today and my heart has been Pounding HSJSJS also im sweating and nervous but yk we deal#i realise im making a huge deal out of this and it will most likely be fine#it's just like. if I don't feel anything at this????? what's the point#so no pressure HDJSJSJSJDJ maybe that's not a great thought#concerts are just... tricky and so much worse still now with covid and wearing a mask as one of the only people there#also sensorily + heat wise whew. but for the best
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thinking about the person i could have been if i tried a little harder to find my own way
#probably the thing i am resenting my parents for right now is how good they were at convincing me#not to pursue any career paths other than the ones they laid out#every time i was like hey this seems interesting should i check it out? they would be so quick with the#do you care enough about it to stake your livelihood on it? to do it for your whole working life?#and obviously 8 yo 12 yo 14 yo 17 yo 18 yo me would get terrified and go no sorry and just not look into anything further#supposedly this is the safe option but everything i do feels meaningless#all of the jobs in this field seem meaningless#the job market in this field right now is dog shit and I'm fighting like hell for positions that just make me sad to think about#but every time i think hey what if i tried another thing#now my brain shuts me down with the do you care enough about it to stake your livelihood on it#your whole life on it#and the answer is no and it's gonna be no for a long time i bet#don't know if I'll ever find my way out of it#told my roommate's boyfriend about my general dispassion for pretty much everything in life#he asked me if I'm even a person#which feels very true#i feel like this path I've followed if i keep following it#I'm not going to be a person i can be proud of#i know it's really early in my life to say but#idk if it's nature or nurture or my own damn fault but all the ambition has been weaned out of me and I've been getting just surviving#i just wish i got told more you can be whatever you want to be :)#instead of whatever you'll do you'll be good at so do what makes money and push your hobbies to the side you can do them after you retire#your mom likes this and you're good at it so you'll like it too it'll make you money this is the best thing#the other thing is harder and doesn't make as much money don't do that you won't like it that much i bet#when i was younger#maybe I'd be struggling more but I'd be really happy and fulfilled#or maybe this is genuinely the best timeline and eggs who tried to pursue art hates it now#maybe I'd be really stupid at all the other things i gave a passing glance at#eggsistential speaks#tag rant
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really need to legally change my name at some point but i just really really hate paperwork and struggle to get started on it especially if it has multiple steps
#it's been literal years and like i send like 2 email enquiries but didn’t really get the answer i need and then i gave up lol#it's just bc it doesn't affect my day to day life but also once i change my name i need a new passport asap but i can probably only change#my name by being physically in the Netherlands and then I'd have to wait for the passport to get back home to the UK... and like i only hav#20 holidays a year and am not allowed to work from home really or maybe 2 days a week now so like#also i have to use 3 of the holidays for the time the company closes around Christmas#so yeah ig next year i could take all of my holidays to be in the Netherlands for almost 4 weeks and hope thatll be enoug#but that's all my holidays and i can't take unpaid holidays#maybe another way is possible but i can't find anything bc trans people living abroad needing to change their names is kinda niche ig#also once i change my name i have to change my name on like my bank card and everywhere else and idk how to do that etc bc i won't be a#british person doing it so it will be different#honestly never changing my name is just so tempting#but you know it would be good to be able to be stealth#*sent sorry#i always make this mistake even though i know how to do it correctly
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What you ever thought about doing a soft version of bombeep??
well thought is I've been asked about soft bombeep before actually but I never knew and still don't how to make a good whitty that would fit but whatever, just going with vibes now so ye lets go
slightly darker clothing and such related things bc reasons but also sometimes wearing cat ears and a mask in an effort to look less intimidating to people bc he's just a big softie obviously uwu
#bombeep#soft!bombeep#I guess ha#regular au whitty is just a big softie aswell ofc but soft whitty is even softer yet looks more scary maybe so lol makes sense#making soft whitty edgier looking than usual is a totally valid way to go right lol the cat ears make up for it I think lol#he also got eyeliner and rings and a choker and probably a silver chain aswell he's getting all the drip lol fun stuff#soft bf uh I kept his regular shade of the skin and the hair that I usually use for basic bf bc he just looked too pale to me otherwise ha#rest is mostly the soft colors anyways so ye#gave him some pastel nail polish bc idk I feel like it'd fit bc ye#whitty also got nail polish man they both got nails now they never had that before oh geez#also bf's hair is drawn slightly different idk probably won't affect the regular doodles just tried something different I guess lol#for the softer look I guess it works ha#also idk anything abt the soft mod and the story so just take this as an au of an au if things don't fit tbh I'm just vibin lol#anyways basic pose is basic and doodle kinda lazy but not gonna complain too much so#take it or leave it#fnf au#fnf soft au#fnf shipping#boyfriend#whitty#bf#soft!bf#soft!whitty#or well soft enough I guess lol#I draw what I want#thanks for the suggestion#stay groovy friendo
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When someone asks me what my biggest fear is but I can't say losing people that I've never met so I say the ocean.
#cw vent#tw vent#uughh#:(#me knowing Roswell won't fucking happen#i know we all wish it will but we genuinely have to look at the truth#think about it#there is no loopholes to get me out of my house.#is anyone actually going to go to Roswell?#actually going to buy tickets and fly there?#or drive there?#shit is expensive#trump is now taking over#hes ruining everything#im sorry i just can't keep lying to myself any more#idk anymore#things are changing and maybe in a fee months I'll probably just never speak to anyone here again#i don't know whats going to happen#i don't even know whats going on with me#does it all really matter anymore? did anything matter?
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pretty sure i’ve seen romance movies with scenes like this
#tomgreg#where do i even start with t his horseshit okay here we fucking go.#so tom's first instinct is to go to greg when he's on shaky ground with shiv. the only way he feels safe is to have GREG with him.#who tf would want greg as an attack dog??!?!? lets be fucking real. when he says that i think he means just a dog. just someone loyal.#who loves him and won't dick him around. i think he's pretty tired of it by now.#he wants an alliance with like. ok in this show who would you pick to ally with. i love greg but he's abso useless in terms of skills that#would keep you safe. if anything TOM would keep HIM safe. in fact tom himself says who else has taken care of you. literally spells it out.#he even says greg is a joke; will fail; will fuck up; so what use does he have for tom other than companionship. other than love?#a dog might do tricks for you but your main reason for getting one is usually love. right? at least it should be. it would be in tom's case.#and don't even fucking get me STARTED on ''do you wanna come with me? ...sporus?" like girl.#you know what you told him about nero and sporus right. and now you're saying to him; yeah i was talking about you.#you and me. you're my favourite and i wasn't joking when i said i'd marry you.#the whole while tom is asking greg to be his attack dog his fuckin. eyes and expression we get it you're in love with him. like it's ridic.#and all this coming with phrasing it sounds like they're fucking ELOPING. I HATE IT!!!!!! SHUT UP! stop saying that fucking shit god. god#they are so annoying. anyway#the way tom's voice breaks as he says he has things to do [what things. will i find out later.] and the deal and!!#what am i gonna do with a soul anyways... i have you what do i need it for. and as that paragraph said somewhere. he castrates his soul.#then they giggle and are fucking annoying and greg'S HANDS LOOK LIK EHE'S ABOUT TO IDK. HUG TOM? AROUND THE MIDDLE MAYBE#or do something else. and then they just hug instead and i fucking. ugh. i've had enough tbh good fucking bye
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It's that time of year where i get weirdly sad that my family will never know me
#Family Reunions are a great time to realize how much of an outsider you are in you're own family#A lot of that Is deliberate on my own part mind you#As a the Token Gay Cousin I don't really want my family asking me questions about Anything Ever#But part of me is a little sad that I'll never have the oppurtunity to introduce my partner to the family#It's a whole thing for me#And like I expected and made peace with that reality long before#It's much more Tangible now#My parents have never really met anyone i've dated Before or After they knew about the Me#I just have like hmmm.#I have a rather large extended family and my cousins are all married or settling down and meeting their partners is so normal#and I wish I could have that even If i know I would hate being perceived by my family#The last time my family knew i was in a relationship i was very uncomfortable with the Attention honestly so There's no winning here tbh#My Mother on The Regular: I just want you to get married and settle down :pleadingeyes:#Me: I could be so funny right now#But they Definitely wouldn't have approved#and Like fuck 'em for that and whatever#But Also Idk If my parent's weren't so complicated maybe i could tell them now.#I absolutely won't be doing that Right Now for a Lot of reasons but you know maybe in like 10 or 15 years I'll just let them know something#They Absolutely can't know I eloped my mother would be so distressed about it
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(rant in the tags, might be triggering or something)
#not to be a bitch and rant on tumblr but WHERE ELSE this is my diary since 2011 etc.#soooo i've been very alone for the last two weeks because my fiance is in germany at work and i am at home also working#and oir flatmate is spending the last weeks before uni at home so i've been absolutely alone for weeks now#the only time i talk to people is at work and it's starting to have some weird effect on me because.... i miss work lol#because i miss talking to people and just some interaction.... i am generally a loner and i like spending time in my own company!!!!#but#..... thats just too long. i feel bad and alone and unhealthy. and above all sad.#and today i talked to my friend from work like yeah so it's saturday maybe wine in the late evening?? and she said maybe#and then after a few hours it was no soery i can't i am too tired which. VALID girl i understand#but i let myself hope that i won't be alone tonight and idk maybe have some fun some karaoke whatever#and then#well it won't happen#i feel horrible#i shouldn't but i do#i feel like i will start talking to the walls because i've been talking to myself for too long#also i have the massive urge to just get drunk alone but also like what's the point. of anything#personal#alcohol tw#depression tw#uhh
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idk if I should try to be more social for my last year of uni and force myself to go to a lot of socials or just hunker down and get on with my work
#I feel like I won't really make any friends especially as a third year#and even if I do I'm moving back home once I graduate so it feels a little pointless#but I definitely won't make any friends if I don't do anything social yk?#also a lot of the socials I don't really want to go to anyway =/ I can try the craft ones#but honestly there's not that many sober socials that really interest me#also a lot of them go on later and I like to be in bed by then#like most start at 6 and I take my meds at 7 those make me drowsy then bed by 9ish#idk the reason I didn't go to any I fancied this year was because I felt too tired to go out again by 6#but then I'm thinking how will I make any friends once I graduate?#so maybe I should try now while I've got good opportunities#how do adults with jobs make friends#if i get the job I'm hoping too I don't think I'll make any work friends they're all a lot older than me#nattering
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August… time to get spooky.
#dadbots.txt#this has been in my draft for... almost a month. Yikes.#I’ve been dissociating hella hard these past months or something. swear I don’t remember time moving this fast. maybe it’s just me tbh.#idk what to say about July other than… boring? not much happened and I don’t really remember it if I’m honest. just. mm. shrugs.#best way to describe it LOL#been sleeping a LOT lately and I think it’s fatigue again. was it like anything before? no. not at that rate (yet) but just.#where you wanna sleep and sleep and sleep type of fatigue. you never feel rested and just gotta sleep it off kinda.#just one of those moments yknow.#it sucks. all I’m doing is letting the days pass me by and ‘missing out’ on living life when I could be enjoying it. but I lost interest -#- in doing so for months - years now due to personal health matters. And whaddya know - it came back again. after months of healing.#I'm pretty pissed as it does feel like a slap in the face. but you win some - you lose some. Gonna try and fight through it.#I wrote something at the beginning of august but that got deleted. Had a breakdown and thought huh. what a great way to start the month -#and now it's almost september. Just like that. What a month it's been. Stuck on what else to say but that really.#don't want to keep talking about depressing stuff as that's what i used to do and realized hey. maybe you should stop doing that so often#and not use it so casually in humor and/or stuff. Even though I reblog vents here n' all. but yknow.#maybe it is hypocritical. but that's not the point. Just want to reflect and see if i've changed since coming back to the web after a year.#not like it's going bad. just wished this year was a bit more optimistic. Last year was rough & i'm afraid this year will be another repeat#though I did come out to a family member this month and that was like a punch to the gut. Considering my status with them and all.#won't get into that. for now let's just say i'm not too close with them. An impulsive choice on my end but hey. it went well.#and that's what matters tbh. My younger self would've thought i was actually insane. like to even DO that? really?#shocking. I'm still not over that moment. Probably one of my biggest achievements this year.#I'll update this if anything else comes to mind. none of this make sense and that's ok. clearing my mind right now.#let's see what september has in store for me. Hopefully it'll get better as things slow down w/ winter on its way.#hope y'all enjoyed your summer. 🖤🤘🏽
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I think felix like sprained one of his back legs 😔
#santino has been.... very aggressive lately 😔 I think it was cause he had unfettered access to the kitchen window#and he gets super aggressive when he watches the neighborhood kitties. and his redirected aggression is SO BAD#and I think he jumped on felix too hard or felix did something to one of his back legs getting away from him#either way felix is in a VERY bad mood and he won't jump up on anything#and he wouldn't stand on his back legs for brushins#he let me like... examine him so I don't think there's a break. he's walking. and eating. and going potty#he's just very upset and seems to be very ginger with his back legs#I'm pretty sure he did this before. santino jumps on him SO HARD and he's so small and delicate 😔#this is kinda why I've also been thinking abt getting another cat like idk maybe santino would have someone else to wressle with#and felix would be spared being rough housed with which he doesn't like#idk all I know for now is I'm helicopter momming the shit out of him making sure he's ok#erin explains it all
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