#but now i dont even have that bc they expect u to know fucking r studio and stata or some shit like stopppppppp

[jerseygirl5000]

So jealous of people who also foolishly majored in the liberal arts but then transitioned into tech. theyre always like yeah i just taught myself to code. HUH???? i thought we majored in fuck ass majors like poli sci bc we couldnt do shit like that…..i thought you were one of us….

[chaoortu]

an analysis of 8-21

YAY CATHARSIS VOMIT!!! FINALLY

tara having her license and darcy being passenger royalty,i know that's right. i also love how tara is like: NO WE LOVE U STOP BEING SILLY WE R GONNA LIVE TOGETHER AND BE!! HAPPY! queen.

classic queer person coming out in car moment, a canon event i fear. i also love nick waking the fuck up for the pronoun announcement. he is locked in... but not locked in enough.

i really do love just. everyone's expressions. nick's little anxiety darkness, everyone else's stricken expression as they realize he may actually be sick in the car. i do fear nick laying on his man like that def made him sicker as someone whose been the drunk person in the back of a car if u dont sit ramrod straight with ur face turned to an open window? death. immediately. i feel like we really see the shame start rolling off nick in waves. he's usually the caretaker, now he is being taken care of... how does one cope with this change? they don't LMAO! at least,. nick kind of doesn't. i really do love that he bolted past charlie to get to the bathroom and then LOCKED the door behind him. it's such an interesting shift in their dynamic. these guys literally went from "tell me all your shit" on the paris trip to charlie locking nick out when he was mentally ill now to nick LITERALLY locking charlie out when he honestly kinda needs him most. i do love the parallel between darcy getting drunk pukey after nick came out as bi and now nick's gotten drunk pukey after darcy came out as nonbinary. again, they are the same character in different fonts and i really love that connection story wise.

i also like that when the tables are turned-- when nick is seriously hurting, charlie lowkey doesn't know what to fucking do! why would he? the last time nick sincerely was vulnerable with charlie like this, imo, was in the first FUCKING BOOK when he said he was confused. now. why the door lock? I have a few theories. 1) because puking is embarrassing and a sign of weakness nick cannot hide 2) because if charlie sees him as anything other than perfect, he might leave. what if he's disgusted, disappointed in him? what if he walks away just like his dad did and nick is left alone again. the thing is, we've seen so much growth from charlie and i feel like nick's inclination toward codependence really shines here, but in the same breath-- nick really doesn't have the same support system charlie does, and i feel like this was proven by the fact that tao and elle both bit his head off while he was incredibly drunk (yes, stressed from their own issues and i am empathetic toward that but would nick treat them the same way they treated him? no. -insert nick's 17th birthday episode here-) nick doesn't have a tori, or a tao on his side, or even an aled. all he seriously has is charlie and sometimes tara and darcy but they don't go to the same school, so their connection is limited in that way UGH. UGH. and finally

i'm never going to get over nick, who is usually taller beside charlie, larger, more protective, looking up at his boyfriend from the floor like an ashamed child afraid of the moment his boyfriend says: "i don't want to come here if you're just going to cry" possibly even expecting it, hence why he yelled at charlie to leave because at least then, nick has some control over it instead of being abandoned. and there is charlie, in his t-shirt, scars visible from nick's perspective, looking down at his boyfriend and perhaps seeing fully, for the first time, just how poorly nick's actually been doing over the past couple of months. however, after reading the last few chapters and rewatching season 2, i am wondering if nick overreacted to charlie being flirted with both because he was fucking plastered, but also bc in the show, we know that stephane remarried a woman nick hasn't even met. so i wonder if nick's brain is jumping to "if im not good enough, my boyfriend will leave me" to "my boyfriend will leave me and go to someone else if i'm not good enough." in that moment, hence why he asks Charlie if he's angry at him. (and i dont think charlie is once he realizes just how drunk nick is.) I also cANNOT stress enough how badly everyone but Tara kind of let Nick down in these past few chapters, why was she the only one telling him to sit down? i rlly hope wee see the friend group hash this out bc the fact that nick thinks they hate him makes my heart break for real

[dem1verse]

my thoughts watching kpop demon hunters: tw// huge ass spoilers 4 movie + me being a hating ass nigga

the fans are me asf with ghost what

'big back big back' ah meal

OH. CLOCK ITTT

ALR ZOEY DONT HURT EM NOW 😤😤

gwi-ma look like them yule log fireplaces you put on youtube during xmas

JINU HITTING ME WITH GENDER JEALOUSY ISTG THIS MOVIE HATES MEEEE

i half expected rumi to be half demon and half didn't so execution was *chefs kiss*

GOODBYE NOT THE KDRAMA LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT MONTAGE

whoever the wonho coded guy is zoey's reaction to his abs are FRYING MEEE 😭

'my little soda pop' hell to the fuck naw wrap it up i am not one of the curtis boys from the outsiders 🗣️

this entire ass song sounded like one big ass endorsment the soda can erupting from the ground just reinforced my thought

'romance is out due to heartburn' i STILL wanna eat his hair

'goo goo ga ga' PACK IT UP I AM IN TEARS WHAT 😭😭😭

girl those smiles are fucking sickening

oh alr we AND WHERE TF DID THEY PULL THOSE WEAPONS FROM?? (they look badASS not even gon hold yall)

this entire fight sequence reminds me of the first ever episode of winx club when bloom met stella

um, okay..? r we bedding with the opps now? oh nvm he pushed her

aint no way the WHOLE FUNCTION ARE #SAJA4LYFERS NOW IM CRYINGGG THIS MOVIE 💀💀

'my little soda pop...' gwi ma cant let the homies know he fuck with ts

oh shit that honmoon look like a dv victim it is in PAIN

join the pride? the gay one or the one from the lion king 😭

diss track? baby girl this is not kendrick vs. drake calm down 💀

THESE FACESSS LMAOOOO

bobby look like he dont even know what's going on at the party hes just there for the food and the vibes 😭😭

oh cute bird. HELL TO THE FUCKING NO ID BE OUT WHY DID YOU OPEN THAT DAMN DOOR RUMI

EWW CHESHIRE CAT LOOKING DIFFERENT WHAT HAPPENED

ykw maybe it is kinda cute

ngl jinu got AURA

okay now we bordering on enemies to lovers atp

JINU DONT POINT AT THE PANTS THEYRE LOVELY AND BEAUTIFUL BC I SAID SO SO FUCK WHAT YOU THINK 😤

OH SHIT FORGET WHAT I SAID FUCK GWI MA TF

girls yk you dont have to do it right? theres a lil smth called ✨OPTIONS✨

symmetrical? SYMMETRICAL?? IS THE SYMMETRICAL IN THE ROOM WITH US ALL IM SEEING IS MOUNT EVEREST 🧍🏾‍♂️

ZOEY COMING IN WITH THE FLOW OKAYYY

what in the rollie pollie ollie...

'we keep meeting like this~' SOUND THE ALARM EWWW

what the hellion jinu that isnt your business 🤨

okay on a real note jinu being pushy like this is REALLY making me have flashbacks to getting o*ted from 3 years ago

not mystery being bron breakker coded 😭

okay i FORREAL do not fuck with the way jinu's acting with rumi rn

THAT LITTLE GIRL IS MY DAUGHTER NOW ION WANT ANY OF YALL TO LAY A FINGER ON HER AM I CLEAR 🗣️🗣️

OH MY GIRL MIRA GOT THE POLYSLASH SHIP

oh? MISSING PERSON REPORTS? THIS IS GETTING GOOD 😋

oh wait i forgot jinu was like 400+ years old imma call him unc now

oh no rumi 😭😭

BOBBY NO HES FALLING TO THE DARK SIDE

oh? MIRA READING FOR FILTH?

OH SHIT RUMI CRASH OUT

that bird is me asf 😭

DAMN THEY KILLING THIS DUET WHAT 😤😤😤

WE COULD BE FREEEE 🗣️🗣️🗣️

aww <333

gwi ma looking like the evil ver of the fire from howls moving castle

NIGGA HUH???? FYM JINU ABANDONED THEM???? NO NO NO NO NO I NEED DETAILS

KILL ITTTTT

OH NO WHATS GOING ON

getting outed like that in front of the entire world is INSIDIOUS

oh... um...

BOBBY NO UR THE BEST MANAGER EVER DONT LISTEN TO HIM

WAIT RUMI HOLD ON...

oh. that was a refreshing thing to see.

THE METALLICA GWIMA TSHIRT THREW ME WAY OFF 😭😭

fuck me sideways and call me angela white i have never wanted to bend a song over as much as i wanted to right now (like that by sleep token is a close second)

'so we can make a new one' UGHHHH BARSSSS

JINU 😭😭😭

gwi ma looking like a power ranger

NO NO WE CAN BRING HIM BACK COME BACK JIJI IM SORRY FOR CALLING U UNC

look at mystery 😭😭

pls im gonna cry now

THE TIGERS HERE YAYYYY

10/10 movie would recommend + watch again. expect a headcanon post in the near future <33

[pumpkinsy0]

headcanons for what purly get up to in like casual day to day life? (they drive me crazy they’re like the rats in the walls of my brain)

reaaaaaallllll

•ok all bs aside, i think they do dumb things daily, but its on a scale, yknow??? the crazy things i say they do def do happen but not AS often as it seems!!!

•they like, never 100% know where the other is, they have an IDEA, but they just ask around till they find each other,,,like two rat lovers in a maze,,,the prize isnt the cheese,,,but its finding the other, THATS,,,the real exit,,

•id like to think that curly brings pony along to help him fuck w his #enemies!! DOES pony wanna b apart of the beef??? not not rlly, but as long as it doesnt involve straight up jumping them, pony’ll go, ponys loyal but not “im not gonna help u jump someone idk” kinda loyal

•on a similar note, dare i say sometimes curly also takes pony along to do some of tims work w him, they arent THAT dangerous otherwise tim wouldnt let curly do it, plus all pony rlly does is stay in the car, curly likes it that way bc 1) makes him look more cool and mysterious 2) keeps pony safe

•they argue all the time, its just not BAD arguments, i mean yea they tend to tell but thats bc they dont have inside voices. if ur hanging out w them, expect to b a thirdwheel until they ask u to pick a side

•a solid amount of ponys clothes is thrifted, when darry gives pony money to go and get clothes, curly tags along and treats it like theyre gonna go on a honeymoon, “u would look great in this😏😏”, and the shirt would break if pony even attempted to try it on, he needs the clothes to LAST

•shhhh dont tell anyone i told u but they try to sneak into bucks place sometimes shhhhhh, but it never works so they just hang out at an arcade, particularly the pinball machine

•if u r a store owner and these two walk in, do urself a favor and accept that today u lost more money than u gained, 60s version of bonnie and clyde over here

•loveee carving their initials anywhere they can, they claim their territory bc they think theyre sm better than all the other couples in tulsa (they r but whatever🙄)

•ponybknows curly doesnt have much food at home so when its ponys turn to cook at his place, he asks if curly wants to come over, and chances r curly will agree. not bc hes hungry, but bc he wants to see his MALEWIFE in action

•ok look if curlys hair is in braids or whatever, pony helps him take it out, this is a good and bad thing bc sometimes curlys hair tangles up either bc he didnt take proper care of his braids while it WAS in braids or bc pony somehow messed up while talking them out

•they talk about the future wayyyy more than ppl would think!! while curlys wayyy more of a “im in the present im gonna live it up” baby, he thinks about what he wants to do NOW in order to b tougher and fiercer in the future, and i dont need to talk about pony and the future now, BUT MY POINT IS, they have their down times where they share their hopes!!

[thirdofdxcember]

guys i know like every text post has been about him IM SORRY BUT IDK WHAT TO DO hold on im probably just gonna yap i dont expect anyone to read this i just need to get it out

be warned its super long like 11 fat paragraphs long so only read if u wanna

in case u didnt see context is this post and this and this

so uhm yeah i dont fucking know. because like i said before he just has like. a bad reputation i guess? but not that. that makes him sound at least cool. he's not cool. he's a nerd who when asked about his hobbies said one of them was learning. LEARNING. i love nerds. i am a nerd. he is my type at face value. hes tall has glasses, like i said is a nerd and we can play minecraft together which is always fun. but he is just kinda known for being weird. i think something happened in middle school ive heard around but i didnt go to the same middle school as him and also who gives a fuck about middle school we're way past that. i swear nothing i did counts until i turned like 15. so idk what happened but i do know it wasnt THAT bad like he didnt do some horrible gross shit or whatever it was probably just something embarassing or weird or consitered weird bc he wasnt a "popular kid" (whatever that meant in middle school 😭😭). but idk. he and his friends are just kinda annoying and known for that. but the thing is if it were anyone in his friendgroup it would be immediately nope no no no dont talk to me dont even acknowledge my existence please. thyere just not it. hes the best of his friend group. but in that way it makes the bar look low. but hes actually really sweet.

when my friend said he liked me my first thought was really? him? it couldn't have been anyone else?? but i was like you know what i wanna give him a chance it could be worse so you can give him my number. and he's a VERY VERY VERY awkward texter. my first thought was like oh! why is he texting me like we're in a work meeting?! but then we called last night and i made a bunch of posts abt it and im like wait hes actually really nice. he's super sweet. and cute not in an i like him way but cute like aww thats nice ykwim. but we played minecraft together and talked for like two hours and i think it actually went really well. he did sound super nervous which was kinda flattering bc like why r u nervous around me im just a girl 🧍‍♀️ but yk.

and i definitely think that flattery does play a bigger role than i'd like to admit. nobody's ever liked me before, or if they have they have NOT made it obvious and have not confessed. so this is the first time anything like this has happened to me. so im like oh... someone likes me? they dont even know my personality they just saw me from across the lunch room and liked the way i looked?? thats insane?? so part of my brain is like oh you dont like him you just like that he likes you. which is a possibility. ill admit it. but i do think i like his personality (and his looks its hard to tell from photos bc theres no good ones but ive recognized him around school without really knowing him and he's not bad looking at all). but i have to acknowledge that the novelty of somebody showing interest in me at all can be swaying me more towards yes even if i dont acually feel that way.

another thing is tho. THIS IS BOTH OF OUR FIRST TIMES IN ANY SORT OF "TALKING STAGE" OR WHATEVER YOU WANNA CALL IT. we're both nerds. we're both losers. we're both "weird kids" or whatever tf you wanna call it. its his first time getting a someones number and its my first time being asked for my number. neither of us know what we're doing. and i think he's generally a bit of an awkward person, tho its hard to tell initially bc maybe he's just nervous idk. but so i dont really know what to do and i dont think he does either. its not even been a week. which is part of why im not rushing myself to determine how i feel be we started talking on friday and its now 3am on wednesday. but the point is that we havent even been talking for a week yet. so obviously nothing really happens for now bc we're still getting to know each other. but like. what am i supposed to do. what is he supposed to do? when do we do more? when is the right time to start complimenting each other without it being awkward? when is the right time to bring things up? because yes, the elephant in the room is that he likes me and we're talking as i try to figure out how i feel. but say i do figure out how i feel, im not gonna tell him that tomorrow and then be like great well we're dating now. bc thats not how it works. but i also dont know how it does work.

it's embarassing but i honestly dont even care. i need someone to answer (if you made it far god bless you did NOT have to actually read this) what is too soon for shit. because yesterday when we were on call and he asked what the "end goal" was for us. that i think makes sense i guess? but also he said smthn abt girlfriend HOLD ON let me copy and paste from my post

"we were talking abt something i cant even remember while we were playing minecraft and it somehow got existential and i said "i dont know" to whatever it was and then he goes "well yeah thats why we have games and minecraft and friends and maybe even girlfriends and boyfriends and people we can talk to when we dont know and we can not know together""

IS THAT TOO SOON? I GENUINLEY DONT KNOW. I WASNT MADE UNCOMFORTABLE BY IT I WAS JUST LIKE HM YEAH I MEAN YOURE RIGHT MAYBE (i didnt say anything i just kinda agreed like mhm yeah bc i was SURPRISED HE WAS BOLD). like i guess it doesnt matter what's "okay" by "normal" standards if we both dont know what we're doing and both are ok with it but idfk. and then we talked abt school dances bc we have hoco and winter ball (homecoming is honestly not that good) and then prom ofc for upperclassmen and he was like yeah i didnt go to them and i was explaining how winter ball is wayyyy better than hoco even tho its less hyped and whatever. and then just casually talking i didnt think anything of it when i said it i just sad "oh yeah and i definitely want to go to prom this year" right and bro really said smthn along the lines of "yeah yeah xyz [smthn eun forgot] together" SIR WHAT. it wasnt "lets go togteher" or "we should go together" or anything that straightforward. but it was very very bold. for like. our third day talking?? but like i said i wasnt made uncomfortable by it so i dont mind. and it doesnt matter what's "okay" or "too soon" if we are ok with it but still. i need an outsiders pov like someone who knows how relationships work to answer this question. so who knows.

and the thing is. as shallow as it is. part of me is like. "well if you date him that's embarassing!! because its him!" but no. thats the least part of my issues bc if i do end up talking to him over the summer and by the time school starts again we're dating, then i wont care bc if im dating him i actually like him so who gives a fuck what ppl think right. but i have social anxiety and thats something my brain also uses to hold me back.

THE THING IS THO. one of my bsfs refuses to give me her opinion on him. every time i ask she just goes away. then when she finally joiend the group chat call i asked her how she felt and she basically said "oh idk i just think that you deserve better" and i respect her opinion. i mean im not defending him rn i dont know him well enough to. she knows him bc they both do cross country and she says hes annoying. BUT my other bsf had animation with him and he was nice. me and the animation friend are taking him at how hes acting and how hes nice and all that but the cross country friend is more skeptical and is very strongly no. but i dont think she understands. like i felt the exact same way when i found out he liked me. i was like uhhh why him what is this why would i ever think abt dating him. but then i gave him a chance (WHICH SHE SAID WAS A GOOD IDEA SO SHE CANT EVEN COMPLAIN) and then i realized he's a lot nicer than i thought. she cant even give me her full opinion on him bc when i asked she kept being like "hmmm, uh... well , i dunno, i dont have an opinion" LIKE BITCH YES YOU DO TELL ME DONT PMOOOOOO

but yeah she is against him but i think its bc she knows the annoying him she's interacted with. i think she thinks im so desperate that i'll take whatever. and thats just not true. if he was a bad person or just didnt give off good vibes then i wouldnt be talking to him. im desperate, but if he actually sucked ass the way she percives him to, then yeah i would NOT let it get this far i would've blocked him after like the first day.i dont think she understands that i am not just letting him talk to me bc hes a guy. i genuinly do think there is potential for something between us but i just dont know if it'll happen or not.

it hasnt been long enough for me to form proper feelings for him yet, but we just need to give it time. so far, he seems like a genuinely well intentioned guy whos a little awkward but is really sweet. and until i hear that he did smthn weird or gross or said something shitty BC MY FRIEND REFUSES TO EXPLAIN FOR SOME REAOSN, then i have no reason to believe he's not a good guy. just awkward like me.

[ashes-hearts]

intro post after a whole month is a lil cursed but tbh i wasnt expecting to interact much so 😅 anyway!!

ash, 30, he/they. just bc i look like this doesnt mean u can she/her me. since this a kink/nsfw blog: i prefer "tits" n "cunt" for myself, i love "tdick" even tho im not on t, "boypussy" is fine but u dont have to do all that. rly just b normal abt trans ppl or get out thx

i WILL unfollow/stop msging/block u (depending) if u misgender me on purpose or treat me like/call me a girl, push me on my hard no's, ask me to send face pics or other personal info, try to turn things romantic/get too possessive (im taken!), push me to get on other apps, or just if ur a dick to me

queer n trans/nb n wld love to get to know other queer/trans ppl esp cardiophiles!

anons r on n dms r open! that being said, im p bad at keeping up w them - i have notifs off for tumblr n im not always regularly active, n even when i am sometimes msging is too much for me. pls dont take it personally! also, b cool pls, i can n will block u/turn anons etc off if i have to ☺️ im rly bad at rp but might b willing to try some depending, n im always happy to just chat too if u dont wanna get feisty in the dms! ask tag is "ask ash"

i have a lovely gf!! im here to indulge a kink she doesnt share n play around a lil but thats it ☺️

p mentally ill, might ventpost sometimes but usually delete later. ill tag "ventpost" n "tbd" n ill try b - pls ask if u want a specific thing tagged!! also im in treatment n im fine i promise im just also goin thru it lately lmao

i dont have other social media rn but ill update if that changes

HARD NOs: watersports/scat/omorashi, detrans/misgendering, incest/fauxcest, feederism/weight gain (pls dont talk to me abt my weight!), personally receiving anal, breeding/pregnancy/mpreg, lactation, foot fetish, inflation, ageplay. ykinmkato! just dont wanna talk abt these n prob wont follow back if u post alot of them, sry

more under the cut!

my hearts boring (read: healthy afaik 😂 now the multiple conditions/meds w increased cardiac risks...) but i love to fuck w it so i rly only record if i get a good reaction. rn im only working w my phone camera n mic - if u have any suggestions for (the literal cheapest) tech or how to make better recordings by all means lmk!! working on a steth mic atm

in terms of my own content i mostly use caffeine, my meds (they raise my hr/bp), weed, breathplay, pressure, n good ol' fashioned pleasure to try n get my heart to react. i try n post audio/video if i get anything good. i have a half decent steth n a pulse ox n a blood pressure cuff rn n thats it 😭 well. n the fitbit but that doesnt rly count

i wont do video/audio calls or post/share my face/voice so pls dont ask esp if weve never spoken before. im open to requests for pics/vids/recordings ig but i cant guarantee anything 😅 fyi im partially physically disabled so exercise is hard n some video angles dont work.

i use alot of emojis, my autocorrect is off, i abbreviate everything, n my lack of social skills is clinically significant 😅 sooo... sry...lmk if u need me to change it up for ease of understanding n ill do my best!! (also sry for typos when im high...)

im just broke enough that if theres sth u wanna see, i cld prob b persuaded to make u a video or whatever u want 😉 (possibly even for stuff thats usually a hard no!) i cant afford the time/tech to make lots of content unless its the quick easy stuff ive been posting til now but i love recording n i wanna share my heart (n body haha)! dm me 😉

oh also if u use ai to generate ur "stories" and/or "art" im not following u n might even block depending on how petty i feel. if u dont even care enough to make ur own niche fetish art a) i dont care enough to see it and b) why r u even here. cmon, make imperfect but human art that doesnt use enough energy to power a city block for hrs or w/e like the rest of us. miss me w that slop.

cardiophile stuff im into: fast heartbeats, visible hearts, exercise heartbeats, irregular heartbeats, resus/cpr/defib, monitoring (ecg/ekg n echo mostly)/stething, breathplay, queer n t4t art n stories esp, dark cardiophilia*

other kink stuff im into: praise kink, knife play, blood kink, weed intox, cnc, choking, hand kink, voice kink, D/s, shibari/bondage, being a completely useless sub, tentacles, edging, overstim. im also rly into whump so that might cross over some 😅

non-kink stuff abt me: im a pro musician n amateur fiction writer, i love hockey (go avs!), i like outdoor naturey stuff, im into scifi/fantasy media (books, movies, podcasts, video games, tv, anime...), i like to play d&d, n i love listening to basically all kinds of music! lately ive been esp into lord of the rings n star wars 😂 id love to chat about any of that too!

*IN THEORY im into p much as risky as it gets - needles, electricity, pressure, defibs, poppers, stimulants, etc - but IN PRACTICE this kink can b v dangerous n even deadly. pls do ur research, talk to ppl, know the risks before u consider trying anything u see here or any other blog urself. at the end of the day its ur body n ur life to put at risk but pls pls b careful. if u feel like the risk doesnt matter bc its just u, pls msg me n we can talk 🤍🤍

[our-afamspec-experience]

my afam experience is (this look like an aita post lmao)

like...okay so background firs, my aunt (X) divorced her husband after she gave birth to my little cousin (H), then X lives at a motel while H lives with our grandma until she passed away a couple years ago

AND I DONT KNOW WHY X BROUGHT HERSELF AND H TO LIVE IN MY PARENT'S HOUSE AFTER HER FUNERAL, X claimed its bc she wanted H to have someone to ride him to and from school/to study in the city as if its just somehow better when H could have been perfectly fine staying at his grandma's house because HE CAN STILL STUDY AT GRANMAS HOUSE!! grandma didnt live alone obv bc someone need to take care of her so my 1 of my uncle lives with her as well as his wife and two kids

so WHY do WE have to ride H to shcool every damn day when one of my uncle's kid is odler than me by 1 year

WHY is X so insistent on moving to my place when H can STILL GO TO SCHOOL THERE, LIKE, I GET GRANDMAS HOSUE IN COUNTRYSIDE SO THE EDUCATIONS NOT AS GOOD AS MY PLACE, M PLACE ISNT EVEN AT THE CITY ITS IN HE SURBURBAN, AND THERES LIKE 2 DAMN KIDS TO RIDE HIM INSTEAD OF ONE, AND THEYRE BOTH BOYS WHILE IM A GIRL WHAT IF I NEED TO RUSH HOME TO CHANGE MY PADS BUT nNNOOOo I HAVE TO WAIT FOR THIS STUPID LITTLE ASS WHO CANT EVEN FIND X TO CROSS THE STREET WHILE IM BLEEDING IN THE HOTTEST SWEATIEST WEATHER EVER, AND DONT START WITH THAT "ooohhh but the 2 kids dont go to the same school as him" BITCH ME TOO? IM IN HIGH SHCOOL WHILE HES IN ELEMENTARY BRO, ONE OF THE 2 KIDS IS IN SECONDARY THAT EVEN CLOSER AGE TO H THAN ME

and WHY do i have to share my ALREADY SMALL ROOM with X and H, like seriously. the damn room is a square. like...imagine a floor brick right. not too big not too small jsut average. the room is like 6x6 of said brick. NOT TO MENTION MY DAD MOVE THE UNUSED CLOSET INTO MY ROOM INSTEAD OF THE ROOM THEY USED FOR PRAYING AND STORING. THE PRAYING ROOM IS EVEN WIDER AND MORE BEATHABLE AND MORE AIRY THAN MY ROOM. THE STORAGE IS ONLY AT A CORNER, HERES PERFECTLY GOOD SPACE TO PUT THE DAMN CLOSET IN THAT THE CLOSET HAVE ALWAYS BEEN IN. us 3 can barely even fit and its so dman HOT IN THE SUMMER OMFG R U KIDDING ME. I NEVER GOT THOSE AESTHETIC SPACEY AHH CUTESEY ROOMS KIDS MY AGE HAS (okay well ive only been to my best friends room that looks like that and shes rich) BUT SITLL MY OTHER FRIEND ROOMA WHO THEY HAD TO SHARE WITH THEIR SIBLIGNS IS AT MOST DOUBLE THE SIZE OF MY ROOM (my parents room is bigger than mine obviously wow thanks)

and then whe i FNALLY i thought X and H were FINALLY getting the FUCK out of my life when X finally get a house (she still in debt of family members obviosly lol) ofc....she still leeches of my mom, and BY THE WAY X is older than mom... imagine being the older sibling and doing that..embarrassing

but ofc. my dad have to work far away starting this eyar so X just started coming over and leaving H there, and sometime mom or X work night shift, but whne neither of them work all 4 of us jsut sleep in my parents room. like the original plan was sending H over when X is busy w night shift but NnnnOoOo bc my moms goody two shoes ass just mMIiisSeeeEsS her sister soo much or sth idk, X and H jsut always live at our house on weekdays. even while they have their own fucking house. X alsways come over here to cook food so she doesnt have to pay gas nor eletricity bill, on the weekend* (read: saturday night and sunday) bc she SITLL come over ons turdaya nd onyl elave when my dad comes back in the evening (he prob knows she stay over at our hosue and i was expecting him to sya somehting abt it but he didnt>!?!? he prob fine w it CRIES </3), AND EVEN THEN H STILL STAY OVER IF X WORK NIGHT SHIFT OR DAY SHIFT BC NO ONE TAKES CARE OF H AND H DOESNT GO TO SCHOOL ON THE WEEKEND

and goes what saturdays r like for me now. at least dad is there on sudnay to watch him, but even when i have shcool on saturday H still stay at my house>?? LIKE THERE SNO ONE TOT KAE CARE OF HIM LEAVE HIM AT UR HOSUE U DAMNN BITCH X I FUCKING HATE U

and this piss me off even to now but one day when i go to take exams at school on a saturday , FUCKING H, THIS FUCKING LTITLE BITCH, STEAL 5 MILLION VND FROM ME. THIS. THIS FUCKING SHIT STOLE 5 MILLION FROM MY PLASTIC PIG THAT IW AS SAVING FOR FUCKING COLLEGE/UNI (yeahhh its not enough to aford college/uni but still better thna nothing) AND THEN HE GIVES IT TO HIS MOM WHILE LYING TO BOTH ME AND HIS MOM THAT IT WA SHIS FUCKING LUCKY MONEY. LIKE NO U DAMN MONEY STEALING FUCKASS I FUCKING HATE YOU. THANK COD UR STUPID LEECHING MOM GIVE IT BACK TO ME OR ELSE I WOULD HAVE KILLED BOTH OF YOU. YOU LIVE AT MY HOSUE, EAT MY PARENT'S FOOD (AND U STILL THROW IT AWAY WHEN U DONT WANNA EAT. ABSICALLY WASTING ALL THE FUCKING FOOD WHILE UR OWN MOM/AUNT WAKE UP AT 4 FUCKING AM TO MAKE FOOD FOR U, AND UR NAME IS SUPPOSED TO MEAN "BE GRATEFUL TO PARENTS" BE GRATEFUL MY ASS UR MOM NAME U LIKE THAT BUT U SITL TURN OUT TO BE A FUCKING BTICH) SINCE THEN I STILL DONT KNOW THE REAOSN WHY HE SOTL EIT I NEVER GOT AN EXPLANAITON BUT I BET ITS BC HIS STUPID MOM ALWASY GOE SON AND ON ABT MONEY AND TAXES THAT TI DRILLS INTO HIS FUCKING HEAD, LIKE DO U NOT KNOW HOW TO RAISE A CHILD. WHY DO U ALWAYS DUMP ALL UR PRBLEMS ON CHILDREN. U DONT EVEN DESERVE A KID. H WOOD HAVE TURN OUT BETTER IF U WERENT HIS MOM. FUCK U X

AND COD I HATE X SO DMAN BAD SHES RELIGIOUS WHILE RAISING THIS KIND OF SON, LIKE X ALWAYS BE TLAKIGN ABT BE KIND TO EVERYONE BUT ONLY SO U DONT BURN IN HELL OR SOME SHIT (shes not chrsitian btw) WHILE SHE ALWAYS SCORLLING ON FB WATCHING KIDS SUFFERING AND THEN TELLING H "LOOK" "LOOK WHAT HAPPEN WHEN U DO SOEMHTING U LIKE" "ETC ETC" URE BASICLALY THREATNING HIM DETAH IF HE DOTN LSITNE TO U. R U SADISTIC. WHY THE FUCK DO U ALWAYS WATCH THOSE. IF I WERE U ILL FEEL BAD AND TRY TO DONATE TO CHARITY NOT JSUT LOOKING LIKE A STUPID BYSTANDER. URE USELESS AS FUCK X. URE SUPPSOE DTO BE THE OLDER ONE OF MY MOM BUT URE SUCH A FAILURE IT ACTUALLY MAKE ME FEEL BETTER ABT MYSELF

soryr for rnaitng ms lo i need to ge tthis off my chest

That sounds really upsetting, I'm so sorry <22

[obsidianpen]

Hi pen it’s vodka anon I promise I’m not an alcoholic (probably) but it’s Halloween weekend and that means it’s time to dress slutty and see a bunch of hot girls in their costume and make fun of men for their stupid ones. If you were wondering, I wouldn’t even say I’m dressed up bc I’m wearing a princess outfit and that’s honestly what I feel I am. Feeling festive asf so I’ll write an edited version of a Halloween classic- somebody’s watching me by Rockwell

I’m just a 5’6 man, with a fucked up life

I’m not allowed to work, hell ya I pay the price

All I want is to be left alone, in bitch Draco’s home

But why do I always feel, like I’m the twilight zone

And

I always feel like somebody’s watching me

And I have no privacy

I always feel like voldys watching me

Tell me is it a dream? (Or a gift)

When I come home at 11 at night

I watch the black magic light

Voldy calls me on the connection, I’m trying to avoid

But can the dark lord see me, or am I just paranoid

When I’m at the vanity, I’m afraid to brush my hair

Cause I might open my eyes and find someone standing there (#silentaparation)

People say I’m “beautiful” just a little touched

But maybe mirrors remind me of that psycho too much

That’s why

I always feel like voldys watching me

And I have no privacy (oh, oh)

I always feel like tommies watching me

Who's playing tricks on me?

… I don't know anymore

Are the death eaters watching me? (Who's watching?)

Well, is the stone watching me? (Tell me, snape, who's watching?)

And I don't feel safe anymore, ugh, that’s Bellatrix

I wonder who's watching me now (who?), the order of the phoenix?

Anyways if these edited songs are annoying you I shall stop bc they r getting a little long and maybe u don’t feel like posting this giant thing. ALSO, if you look up the lyrics and u read it with the back music it’s on beat and rhymes!!! Perhaps my love language is poems and love you the most pen. OH also update… after my confession, yes I am being made fun of for reading fanfiction at the ripe age of twenty. It’s 2024 and a girl can’t even read gay wizard porn without judgement??? But anyways, happy Halloween pen, I hope you and your family have a lovely time trick or treating…and if you post this happy Halloween to all the gorgeous gorgeous girls and gays here, stay safe, guard your drinks and have fun💗💗

okay so the lyrics are wondering minus Harry being 5’6”!!!! Maybe in the movies but not my Harry. I never doubted these lyrics were on beat. I expect nothing less. I am impressed you admit to reading fanfiction with irl people, I never did this and still usually dont (but my husband loves to tell people we don’t know, I despise this). Not because im ashamed of it, but because this then demands an hour long explaination of what I write and why, and then I have to explain my following and tumblr, and that gets messy fast. But when I was just reading, I guess…. Yeah I also never told anyone lmao. You should join one of the discords to find your secret internet tribe. Or just keep sending poetry here that’s fine too. Happy Halloween weekend vodka anon!!! I hope you’re not still trapped in a closet and afraid

[scoy-supremacy]

Pit Babe s2 e7

Im freaking out, im basically force feeding myself this ep bc im so stressed about the babies.

I know they made up sort of but theres so much happening and so much at risk. Can i just have like 8 eps more of just domestic bliss instead please??

Hey Charlie how about you tell everyone whats going on instead of pushing them away 'for their safety'. Let Babe decide his own level of risk. Hes a whole ass adult.

Babe please dont make sad faces, it kills me.

Winner looks good with that hair cut and in a suit. Im really hoping Willy with swap sides. I need him to see that Tony is afraid of Charlie too, and then Willy can go to Charlie and Babe, tell them everything and theyll help kill Tony again.

Willy smirking while covered in blood shouldnt be hot, but here we are.

I know charlie is also stressed but fuck dude. You cant quit and choose the lab right now???

Well i guess i do get it though. He sees this as the only way to save everyone from tony and their powers too. Hes protecting everyone and seperating himself while also doing what he can for Jeff.

What if i just cried every time Babe was being sad on screen.

Im so sorry Kim, idk how to tell you this but youre not the main character. Not even with Kenta there. My poir side character boys.

They should make a mini series spin off on Kenta and Kim.

'Be careful or youll end up like kenta' -Kim

I love him so much. He needs to be sassier more often.

Charlie: 'i need time'

Also Charlie: 'i prepared your meds and made sure you have everything you need in your schedule and cut up some fruit for you. Dont drink a lot, and xall me if you need me'

So you love him and should talk to him???

I adore Charlie but hes doing some dumb shit, namely hurting Babe. Not allowed to hurt Babe.

They really just want Babe's life to he ruined huh. Bc holy fuck, this poor baby. His adoptive dad was a horrible abuser. His best friend turned out to be under the control of his abusive adopted dad, and his best friend fucking asaults him. And then tries to make up for ut and FUCKING DIES.

AND THEN THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE LEAVES HIM

i cant do this yall. I really cant. Im right on the edge of putting this drama down until its completed so ill know if theres a happy ending.

The writers really said "i know were ruining your life right but look! KimKenta! Look how cute! Kim protects Kenta even though Kenta is definitely better as this than he is. How about we give you a chest to chest moment with Kenta being in awe of Kim for 5 seconds, thatll get you to keep watching right?"

And who am i to say no to that, ill eat these crumbs happily, thank you.

I sort of feel like they should have read read a bunch of KimKenta fan fiction bc almost too much of their development is happening off screen.

Thank you Jeff!! Can we normalize open communication please!?

Well im crying again, Babes voice breaking as he tells Charlie he loves him, like. THEYRE SO IN LOVE AND WANT TO PROTECT EACHOTHER AND IT HURTS SO BADDD

if something bad happens to either of them im going to mcfucking lose it.

Okay so. Can charlie absorb Jeffs powers? Is that a potential 'solution'?

IM SO UPSET

I need charlie and Babe to just make up for real. Please? Please please? Ill beg ok my knees idc

I love that Babe's solution to being told 'not now' is to be naked and beg Charlie for attention.

Whoops, i also got distracted by Babe being naked and forgot that Jeff would be calling. But also Pavel is a stunningly beautiful individual, how could i be expected to not get distracted.

JEFF, BABY, WHY R U DRIVING??

Alan, answer the god damn phone. Charlie is busy wrecking Babe, youre our next hope of rescue for Jeff.

Jeff T^T my baby...

Is Alan gonna die during surgery? If he just putting off his inevitable death?

Also is Jeff having issues bc hes been surpressing his powers? Would he be fine if he just used them??

AAA CHARLIE I WAS JUST TALKING ABOUT THIS

Fuck what do you mean thats the end of the episode??? AAAAAAAA

[goldencuffs]

mother of /god/ ruby. when ch 4 ended the way it did i honestly thought to myself, how am i going to survive waiting for two weeks for the update. but guess what, i slogged through it, its been hell istg, but update's here, and its G L O R I O U S. damen u sick fuck, how could you not know getting seen with jokaste with your goddamned history would end with any other conclusion?? do u actually not know how to be a good boyfriend. (jfc ruby, youre making me believe this damen doesnt know how to /actively/ be a good bf, hes just passively like /that/ but making the actual effort seems to be beyond him—must be all the goddamned kicks hes taken to his football addled head, i mean idk i dont know anything about football). he comes back to marlas and he still has no clue at all!!! wow, biggest fucking scrub in the face of the planet!!! thanks for the warning about lau/other bc im a one true pairing girlie through and through (even though i absolutely love jealousy fics and you do it so well!!! damen with lau/torveld in rnr and damianos with lau/alex in itaok??? nyam nyam). and jesuuusss, you werent kidding about laur finally crashing out HARD. the thing about his feet hurts me physically and him spreading himself thin is clawing at my soul. now i cant wait to see the aftermath and rubyyyy!!! ruby how will i survive the next weeks, pls my crops are dying, save meeee, its my birthday i swear ive been good. okay but legitimately?? it is my birthday and i just got back home to my cozy bed after a grueling shift at work and a long day with people, so this??? absolute best birthday gift to come home to. now i will feel like its my birthday everytime you update. i mean, it already felt like xmas, new years, and my birthday altogether when you posted the ending to itaok so how did i expect this to be any different? lmfaoooo THANK YOU FOR THAT CHAPTER. god, i cant believe people still do drugs when you can just read fic. (PS I SAW YOU ASK ABOUT JAYVIK. PLS COME TO THE DARK SIDE. WE HAVE METAL FORTUNE COOKIES. and rmb what i said about jealousy??? you would absolutely make a meal out of these two.) (PPS!!! also???? aleron and makedon???? i sent an ask about old man yaoi-ing them WEEKS ago. so yes, this absolutely means that i get to have cake ON MY BIRTHDAY /AND/ EAT IT TOO.)

HELLO OMG FIRST OF ALL HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MY ABSOLUTE LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

THIS WAS THE BEST THING IVE EVER READ ARE YOU KIDDING ME I AM ABSOLUTELY IN LOVE WITH YOU!!!!!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

this is like the sweetest, most beautiful comment EVER i cant believe you went through each point!!!!! so much happened in this chapter and you commented on everything im SO unbelieveably grateful!!!!!

omg you know what i didnt realise how much laurent/other i do until you pointed it out WHOOPS eheheh. and im so glad laurent spreading himself thin and then crashing out bc of it was justified bc i was really worried it owuldnt be!!!!!

ALSO you literally predicted old man yaoi go YOU omg!!!!!!!!1

i know nothing i say will ever be good enough but just know this meant the world to me and i absolutely LOVE YOU!!!!!!

[yasminewestbank]

all movie asks answers from the ask meme post bc it was fun

Your favorite movie released this year DIDNT WATCH ANY 2023 MOVIES YET.. CRIES

A movie you think is underrated - obliged to say An Elephant Sitting Still by hu bo bc i can never find it in dvd stores and i unfortunately honestly dont know if i will find a screening of it in a cinema available to me ever again but i dream of it

A movie you think is overrated - going to put two, one new and one classic. first one is parasite. im bitter abt this movie bc it was advertised like crazy and the reviews were so hyping and then i went and it was average. its not a bad movie but not only doesnt deserve the hype the hype ruined it for me bc if i went with the proper expectations i wouldnt have gotten so disappointed. a classic is alphaville of godard... obviously its a good movie and im sure it was groundbreaking at the time but by now the story doesnt feel as sophisticated bc this genre of story is at this point.. i wouldnt say overdone bc its still a great genre but its not fresh or suprising by now without making it more complex. this movie felt like a blueprint to the 1984 book soviet dystopia genre so it didnt keep up with the times. many classic movies are still exciting and fresh just like when they came out including other movies of godard but this isn't one of them. but i can also see how it was probably one of godard's top commercial movies, bc it was easier to digest and more basic than his other work

A movie you like but wouldn't recommend - stalker of tarkovsky and tarkovsky movies in general bc i think it would probs be boring to most ppl (its slow and not much plot) + tarkovsky movies r slow and the kind of movies u have to watch in the movie theater

A movie musical you like - annette of leox carax. and its not only a good movie the music is so good too

A horror movie you like - audition by takashi miike . love japanese violence

A sci-fi movie you like - high life by claire denis. AND it has robert pattinson in it!!!!!!!111 and hes amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A fantasy movie you like

A movie in your native language you like - Life According to Agfa by Assi Dayan. one of the only good israeli movies that exist bc i didnt see so far any good, worthwhile or complex israeli movie besides this one (not including documentaries).

A foreign-language movie you like - (i put a bunch already so ill do one in a language i didnt put yet) tori and lokita by the dardenne brothers. takes place in belgium in french about a young refugee woman and a refugee child from africa who pose as brother and sister. this is going to destroy you but its such a good movie i cant recommend it enough but i still cant recover

A movie you wish you could un-watch - the disney secretariat movie. it was so bad oh my god it was so fucking bad im in pain. i want disney to give me back the braincells i lost. this actor horse deserves so much better

A performance you think is underrated - Vicenç Altaió (yeah had to google this one) in story of my death by albert serra. his acting was insane. probably one of the best acting perfomances ive ever seen, specifically the toilet scene stuck with me. so it's a period movie about casanova. there a scene in the movie that all of it is just him taking a shit. and of course it sounds goofy but it was actually a really human and sensitive depiction and his acting was so natural i completely forgot i was watching a movie. he really made this scene what it is. and tbh i think even from those other photos u can see what i mean on him

A performance you think is overrated

A movie made better by the ending - only thing that comes up in my mind is barton fink of joel coen.. i can barely remember this movie bc i watched it years ago but (spoilers) i can just remember there was a twist in the middle that flipped the whole movie on its head and it was super enjoyable. besides this i cant think of anything

A movie ruined by the ending - the holy mountain of jodorowsky... at the time i watched it i was so disappointed by the ending it was so anticlimactic. i think he thought he did something but it just didnt work. (might be spoilers) same vibes when a story pulls "and then he found out it was all a dream". like.. in this case it just didnt feel fitting it was disappointing. but i watched it years ago so i wonder if i would feel the same now

A trilogy/franchise you like cant think of anything

A movie you never get tired of talking about - drive my car by ryusuke hamaguchi. its fun to talk abt this movie bc even tho there are a lot of themes and details that make it what it is, its not too complex to not be able to grasp and pinpoint them. so its complex enough to be a good movie but not too complex to not be able to talk abt it, both abt the good and bad things (bc there r also choices the director made that i dont like). and there's also so much to talk abt that stems from this movie not only in the movie itself but also what it shows abt japanese cinema, contemporary japanese cinema/this generation of japanese directors versus the previous generations. also i love this director in general i recc all his movies

A movie you never wanna hear about again - if i hear one more thing abt any marvel movie im going to kill myself

A movie you look forward to watching (could be an upcoming release or not) - aki karutismaki's fallen leaves that came out this year

A movie you think looks beautiful - red desert of antonioni. i adore the aesthetic of this movie. tbh its probably my favorite movie visuals wise. i just cant stop adding photos from google bc i love everything slkfdsflsfgds

A director you think is underrated - tbh hard to think of anyone.. i think any director i like got some kind of recognition, and if i think ok which one doesnt get mainstream recognition it would be basically most of them. so im trying to think.. who do i rlly think doesnt get recognition. maybe the crown should go to the photographer petra collins who actually directed the first season of euphoria before sam levinson kicked her out and claimed he did it and stole all her work

A director you think is overrated - HITCHCOCK!!!!!!! HES NOT THAT GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HES TRULY NOT THAT GOOD!!!!!!!!!!! I COULD PULL UP 10 DIRECTORS FROM HIS TIME AND BEFORE HIM THAT ARE SO MUCH BETTER THAN HE IS THAT ARENT AS HYPED UP. godard and kurosawa made movies so much better and decades before him so the reason hes hyped cant even be that what he made was groundbreaking for the time. hitchcock is MID

An animated movie you like - the cowboy bebop movie... its so fun and satisfying to watch i watched it so many times dsfdf

A silent movie you like cant think of anything

Your favorite movie - possession by andrej zulawski. im speechless abt it. dont read a summery go into this blind. its such an insane experience (sin look my fav movie is a polish movie)

Your least favorite movie i dont rlly have one i have a whole bunch of movies i dont like but i dont have THE hated movie

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

OMG MACCCC R U REWATCHIN TOKYO GHOUL...... shakin ur hand rn little 14 year old me loved this shit. kaneki ken fucked up little guy going thru things he never should have gone thru </3 have u ever watched the very last season??? i finally watched it when i did my rewatch of the full series like maybe a year or so ago and BOYYY IM NOT GONNA SPOIL ANYTHING BUT GOD...... it'll fuckin get u mac it'll GET U!!!! so excited i am grabbin ur hands and spinning around in a field of flowers with u i love this fucked up little guy i love blood and cannibalism <3

I DIDNT EXPECT TO GET SO INTO IT AGAIN. I WAS JUST GONNA WATCH THE FIRST COUPLE EPISODES FOR THE NOSTALGIA AND THE HELL OF IT AND THEN I GOT HOOKED AGAIN. KANEKI HAS WHITE HAIR NOW AND HES SOOOOO FUCKED UP <3 extended torture scenes spanning 4 episodes will do that to a mf.

ALSO NO I NEVER FINISHED IT !!! which is part of the reason im watching it again!!! when i watched it the first time it was still being released so i just kind of forgot 2 keep up with it bc i wasnt technically allowed 2 be watching anime and had to sneak it anyway. i just kinda fell off and forgot abt it. i honestly dont even know if i finished season 2???????? i somehow completely forgot about the torture arc so this might mean we are reaching the end of what i actually saw. this is awesome though 14 yr old me was so predictable <3

[wayvsphantom]

ok hihihi im home from kcon so i wanna write everything i felt n saw before i forget it lmaoooo

nmixx: honestly super cute!! i didnt know the TWO songs they did but they were fun little summertime bops! i was up and moving for their "the feels" twice cover tho and i thought i was sick of that song shout out to the girlies for performing it really well!

ive: ok i dont know if my section is just women hating or women defending but my whole row sat down for their TWO songs and everyone got on their phones (including me!) instead of watching. I was genuinely upset and angry that the stylists for ive put them (actual minors, actual schoolgirls) in slutty schoolgirl uniforms, furthering the sexualization of minors needlessly and im glad people around me were also not supportive of it. anyway i heard them perform kitch (got literally no love from my section) and love dive (slightly more love from my section) but pls can they get some help im tired of seeing them do an overly sexual love dive dance break in slutty outfits when they are actual minors

cravity: they had good energy! i didnt know their TWO songs but they had good vibes and worked really hard!

taeyong: ok i thought i wasnt gonna vibe w his set but he came onstage and i LOST MY FUCKING MIND!!! like he really just has a star energy on stage it cant be stopped like he was my first ever nct bias and hes everyones bias for a reason!!! also shalala was so fun live the bass shook my bones fr ! taeyong you were great !! he should be really proud of that performance (of his TWO songs)

shownu n hyungwon: ok i did not realize how much i loved them until they performed on stage they were both so fucking good ?? like i fully need a mx tour bc i wanna see them so bad now ?? they peformed those TWO songs w such a fun sexy grown man energy that i was deeply missing lmao 10/10 pls come back to LA

wayv <3: OK U KNOW IM SOFT ON THEM BUT OMG THEY WERE SO FUCKING CRAZY GOOD WEISHENV U WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS THEY CAME OUT TO SCREAAAAAAAAAAAAMS I COULDNT BREATHE I WASNT READY AND THEN IT WAS A NEW SONG (that i was not feeling i cant lie) BUT THEN I FOUND OUT IT WAS THE KCON THEME SONG OR WHATEVER so i was able to breathe again.... anyway fake out over they came back later in the night and they WE4RE INSANE!!! LOVE TALK!!! U WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS!!! EVERYONE KN EW EVERY GODDAMN WORD TO THAT FUCKING SONG!! I was getting teary wayv u r not a flop u are the most famous group in the world!!! xiaojun is unreal pretty btw also yangyang and hendery.... omg TEN!!! TEN IS SO TALENTED AND PRETTY!! also i fully understand the winwin hype now i would die to protect that man ok okokokokokokok INCREDIBLE!!! they also gave us eng ver of phantom she was cute too!! the dance break finale gave me chills omg but i was missing kun :/ wish they couldve at least mentioned him but whatever.... WAYV WORLD TOUR ASAP

taemin <3: honestly the greatest performer ive ever seen live like holy shit thats a once in a lifetime talent right in front of me like yes i am very biased that is my ult right there but like he truly cannot ever be replicated. he came out swinging w advice and the boom that was "NEVER GET THE KEYS TO MY LOCK" the crowd was readdyyyyyyy and after advice this man got a 5min standing ovation every single person there recognized his god given gift to serve and it was incredible to see LITERALLY FUCKING CRAZY AND THEN THIS MAN GETS ON THE GROUND AND WE'RE DOING FUCKING CRIMINAL??? THE SONG THAT MADE ME WHO I AM TODAY?? and he even did the slutty little cuff removing w mouth move and i lost my v oice screaming so hard i feel so lucky to have seen that my life cannot get better anywayyyyyy MOVE!!! WE MOVED!!! HE MOVED THEY MOVED I MOVED WE ALL MOVED!!! THE GIRL THE MYTH THE LEGEND THE MOVEEEEEEEEEEE!!! those hips.......... yeasssss......... !!!!! he was swinging that concave ass like his life depended on it! he was also soooo flustered from everyone going insane like ik he wasnt expecting it taemin you will be famouus for a thousand years babygirl and he said big shinee news coming soon so !!! soooo!!! world tour!!!!

ok i think i hit every group i will unpack the wayv m&g too but i just had to get this all out kcon will pay for their crimes of 2 song every artist like i'll never go to kcon again or recommend it to anyone but i had fun!

[wawawawawawawawawawawawawa]

hiiiiiiii we havent sent you any asks for some time. mostly because kanra didnt front much

[idk if you can recognize us after all the url changes]

ereyesterday our their of pissed suggested getting into an outpatient psychward and told us to think about it. and silver[headmate] made a post on the tumbler saying that this could be a bad idea because somewhat recently i made a hole in a wall and less than a week ago Lyra messed up a cupboard. as if we're the only ones who on occasion damage stuff when angered. this is literally so mean for no reason.

also. a few months ago shinra had an accident with a knife. and we got a fun new 1 inch long scar and possibly a little bit of nerve damage or something. and we were supposed to get some reminder tetanus shot around a month after that since i had no idea when was my previous tetanus shot. and i uhhhhhhh didn't get it since i'm scared of doctors, and it would probably seem quite weird if i went to a doctor about this now

also im sorta balding but. scared of doctors so cant do anything about that

last sunday i was in some social studies class or some other shit. and the teacher said something about how lgbt people were never oppressed in this country. which is a very bold thing to say as someone living in a country in which like a quarter of the area declared itself a "lgbt free zone" and only calmed down a little when the european onion told them that that's probably illegal. and i decided to argue with the teacher a bit. one of the things she said was that sometimes there's dudes in pup masks on pride parades, which invokes disgust and thus should be banned, and. idk why but i kinda expected teachers to have a bit more common sense than 14 year old twitter users. also i came to school wearing a spiked dog collar on a regular basis. [for reasons unrelated to kink.]

well. good thing i'm failing every single one of my classes lmao. at least i won't be invoking disgust in fragile old ladies

also. i just met a doggy and he was very niceys. very soft and friendly. and polite also.

- toby

HOW COULD I NOT RECOGNIZE U MY BESTIE IN CHRIST <3 u changed ur url a binch of times but ur icon remained the same sdlfndnfkjsnsdf so i was able to keep track!

i however do not understand a single word of that first paragraph. if u want my advice, DO NOT. FUCKING GO. TO A PSYCH WARD!!!!! idfc Who it helped, it hurts a lot more than it helps, theres NO WAY to tell which psych wards are good and which are shit. no really let me go thru them all rn:

REFERRALS: most professionals that work in different offices do not know each other on a personal level and may never hear of their bad stories. a doctor that was the chillest coolest doctor id ever met referred me to a psychiatrist that sucked fucking ass shit. there is no way to know for sure

GOOGLE REVIEWS: im gonna b real i dont trust some of those mfs. you seen the guys that go into psych wards? a lot of mentally ill people r internalizers and just accept whatever happens to them, and even if they arent, society looks down on the mentally ill SO MUCH that they could b told "you deserve this bc ur crazy" and due to all this societal gaslighting, theyd agree

REVIEWS ON OTHER WEBSITES: same thing lol

why is this so important? because you cannot Fucking leave a psych ward. an outpatient ward yeah you can leave, but ive been to both in and outpatient and they excert the same level of bullshit control over their patients. in outpatient, one of the therapist told me "you are not mentally ill" and made me cry lol. she MEANT to mean it in a "you're not mentally ill, you're ~suffering from a mental illness~ uwu dont let ur disorder define you" kinda way, but that concept was introduced in therapy..... two days after she told me this. like hello? and then she tried to spin it as like, it was a problem with Me i.e. My PTSD Was Triggered and not She Is Dog Shit At Timing The Explaining Of Concepts.

this place also invited my abuser into group therapy even after me incessantly telling them "this is my abuser, she will use all this against me" and yeah guess what she did immidiatley after lol

dont go to wards.

WRT THE KNIFE: damn :0 thats insane dude, hopefully the nerve damage will heal but from experience its gonna take like, a few years at minimum lmao. i had a Knife Incident involving my pinky and the nerve damage was so bad that i couldnt hold scissors w my pinky in the scissor loop thing but evenchually it got better but it took like 4 years. if the knife was clean and not rusty ur risk of tetanus is pretty low i THINK, do not quote me on this. if ur scared of doctors, look into if ur pharmacy offers tetanus shots! some pharmacies have vaccinations other than flu and covid (which i need 2 get lol rip) so u might be able to get one THERE and not see A Doctor about it!

u dont need a doctor for the balding. minoxidil my dear boy, its at walmart, its the stuff thats in rogaine. you want "minoxidil 5%" thats whats in rogaine, theres "minoxidil 3%" thats For Girls but idk ive never heard of anyone having a problem w it. IT IS TOXIC TO CATS THOUGH IT IS VERY VERY TOXIC TO CATS IF YOU HAVE A CAT DO NOT LET THEM FUCKING TOUCH YOU OR RUB ON YOU UNTIL IT DRIES ok? :) id google more if i were u but boom. problem solved. i am the doctor now

"dog masks invoke disgust and should be banned" babygirl disgust is subjective and like, someone could use that logic to ban whatever YOU like, or Are. maybe someone is really disgusted by lil old ladies bc the wrinkles look gross as fuck to them. should we quarrantine the grandmas?

also lol at the dig against 14 year old internet puritans and then surprise surprise guess what happened on This Very Blog while this ask was sitting n collecting dust!! i gotta b on my best behavior bc theres a nonzero chance that The Feds will be looking at this blog (did u know u dont report cybercrime to local police and instead theres a form on the fbi's website? Well Now You Know!) and that goes 4 all of u too. bart please be good..... for the love of GOD please be good....... please tell me yall know that simpsons scene

also also yay doggy!! was it a regular dog or a dude in a pup mask? either way very fun n cool!!!

[suzakushimon]

Thoughts on Jing Liu quest?

AHAHAHAHA (negative connotation)

u came to the right person anon, i have a lot to say...

IT WASNT THAT GREAT..... at first i spent a whole night convincing myself it was a reasonable way for the story to go but they did dan heng WAY too dirty. idk why luofu writing is so SHIT but if the current scandal is true and an employee rly has been messing w the story just to mess w the female fans, it explains a lot 💀

there were parts i liked: the art + the fight scene was a banger + how jingliu points out dan heng fights exactly like dan feng. it emphasizes how, whether he likes it or not, there are some things dh has inherited from df and he cant escape that. his appearance, his spear, his bracer, the ribbon, his vidyadhara powers, etc etc... if it wasnt for df, dh wouldnt be who he is today-- thats the truth, and its something dh can grow to accept.

but holy FUCK. the way they handled everything else. dan heng's memories. jingliu's introduction and her motives. blade's characterization. THE PLOTHOLES. just....ITS KINDA ALL WRONG!!!!!

IN MY OPINION. dan heng's whole POINT is that he doesnt remember his past life/his "past". he considers those memories as "not his", and asserts himself as his own individual person without them. its IMPORTANT he doesnt remember anything + that he doesnt NEED to bc this way he contrasts march 7th and the trailblazer, who also dont have their past memories-- but those 2 WANT to remember, are actively trying to, and they DO consider their past memories/past life as part of "themselves". whereas dan heng runs from his past and tries to find his "true self" without it, march and trailblazer run towards theirs, trying to catch glimpses of their "true selves" through it.

SO THERE'S LITERALLY NO REASON HE HAS TO REMEMBER DAN FENG'S PAST. it completely messes up his character arc/the message his character is trying to send!! they backpedaled so hard on their stance towards dan heng... first it was "only u can determine who u are, no one else; the expectations others hold for u dont matter" and now its "u are him no matter what u do, these sins are yours". like WHAT???? jingliu's quest just made more people equate dan heng with dan feng when the story is SUPPOSED to emphasize that they r DIFFERENT PEOPLE💀💀💀💀

dan heng did decide to face dan feng's sins, but he's NOT a part of the quintet. he's a WHOLE NEW PERSON. so why was he invited as a part of the quintet, but bailu wasn't?? its like theyre saying bailu is a whole new person, but dan heng is still dan feng, WHICH GOES AGAINST HIS CHARACTER THEMES(i am silenced and forced to sit down) anyways imo if bailu didn't have to attend the worlds worst high school reunion, dan heng shouldn't have had to attend either!!!! THIS AINT HIS PROBLEM. DAN HENG GET BEHIND ME!!!!!!!!!

his convo with blade at the end was so ooc it killed me. like, a little walk with his past life's old friend, and suddenly he's willing to forgive blade's literal years of stalking and attacking him??? now hes willing to play along with the vengeance he spent his whole life insisting was directed at the wrong person???????? i only chose that option bc the one on top sounded so wimpy/out of place it also felt ooc to me 💀 he wouldnt show weakness to blade, but there's no way he'd be that accepting either. maybe 3 years later and x patches in, but not NOW...

and jingliu. ooooh girlie. JINGLIU. THEY DID HER SOOOO FUCKING DIRTY. she's a new character. casuals/people who dont dig through lore don't know anything abt her except that shes jingyuans teacher. so why is her INTRODUCTION a fucking CONCLUSION TO HER CHARACTER ARC???? shes already DONE wandering and finding an answer in her heart. shes already DONE deciding whether or not to keep running or face her past. now shes mourning for a PERSON WE DONT EVEN KNOW. we watch her get closure for her dead girlfriend. BUT SO WHAT??? WE DONT EVEN KNOW EITHER OF THEM!!! SEEING HER GET CLOSURE MEANS NOTHING TO US. ITS JUST AWKWARD. why was her INTRO her fucking CHARACTER ARC'S CONCLUSION!!!!!!! they should've made her quest like luocha's, where all we did was speculate and her real motives remained a mystery. then we couldve been spared from this shitfest!!!!

the difference in quality between belobog story and luofu story is insane!!!! like, just compare luka's quest to jinglius....hello??? its crazy how unsympathetic they made her. it was literally "tell not show" instead of "show not tell".

anyways im just upset at dan heng's treatment. like, this character has a clear message/direction they were going for, but jinglius quest kind of stomps all over it, and her quest was supposed to introduce her but her introduction flopped hard. she was so much cooler when we saw her during yanqings quest and she was half insane. its awkward to mourn for someone we dont even know and its awkward to watch someone we dont know mourn. and, ngl, it rly felt like they only added dan heng in there bc they want more ppl to care abt the quintet. that whole quest couldve been through jingliu's pov where the reunion only happened between blade, jingliu, and jingyuan, so why wasn't it??? as opposed to those three, dan heng already moved on from the past. it was awkward for dan heng and for the audience💀

tldr i had high expectations bc i thought hoyo cared abt the quintet but not only did it flop it also dragged dan heng's characterization through the mud

[mysicklove]

this is like super random but do you have any advice for starting a thirst / x reader blog like yours? i've always wanted to give it a shot but it seems like SUPER intimidating because i have no idea how to set things up or even start

hmmm idk if im a good person to give advice but lol whatever i will!!

for the basics, i would recommened starting with a masterlist and rules, and you can build on other navigation stuff after that. a pinned post usually draws ppl in, bc its easy to navigate your blog!! and then just find a theme. i did a toga in the beginning and now a hanako theme, bc they are one of my fav characters, but u know there are tonnnnsssssss of themes and u can do whatever u want to! have fun with it 🥳

^ let me know if u need help figuring out how to link things, add colored/special fonts, banners, dividers, ect. i had to figure out through trial and error and that sucked LOL

in the beginning, dont expect to get many notes. if you go into it thinking about notes, you are going to get dissapointed lowkey. just relax, its not that deep, and eventually ppl will find your account with time. dont rush it!! but like i said, dont prioritize notes. i still am struggling with it, and so r other writers. it doesnt define ur writing at all. i had a one sentence post get like 3k notes, and then a 14k fic get like 400. literally notes dont mean shit, tumblr is weird.

also another thing. dont expect to get anons. or at least alot of them. in the beginning i had like no anons and i was lowkey kinda sad about it. but im telling u, as ur blog gets bigger u will get some. its nice to have anons in the beginning, but kinda unlikely. if smaller blogs r seeing this with tons of anons, good for you!! just idk didnt happen to me lol.

moral of those 2 paragraphs: i just dont want u to ever feel bad about notes and interactions. u may see other blogs get tons, but they have been established for alot longer than u. so do not stress about it plssssss. ive seen too many blogs make themselves feel bad because of notes and anons. and including myself, i would get unreasonably sad over something so fucking stupid.

big one: write for urself, not for others !!!!!!! once kinktober is over im bout to write an ungodly amount of hybrid and a/b/o shit, which alot of ppl dont like, but fuck it LOL.

last tip (ig?) walk into ur blog like its ur own space. dont be intimidated. i shit post and say embarrassing ass shit all the time to almost 2.5k people. its ur space, say what u want. i think thats really important. if u do make the blog, have FUN WITH IT !!! dont care what others think, make it ur safe space.

and be my mutual!! i will reblog ur stuff!!