#but no it really is not that deep. rip.
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Anyway I find it very funny that I was trying to attatch a meaning to Yendo a la casa de Damian so hard but there's a 20 minute ted talk where Roberto basically goes "i went out to buy some cat food and things happened so then i wrote a song about a guy who goes outside and things happen."
You know I like a band when I start actually looking into them instead of just listening to the same 10 songs over and over again
#its not my fault that it references Demian by Herman Hesse#and uses spaglish lyrics#and the Cuarteto has sung about poverty before#that made me think it was a metaphor for classism. ok.#but no it really is not that deep. rip.#oh nvm i finished the talk turns out it was that deep. okay.
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â love; heretical and divine
{â} characters tsaritsa {â} notes cult au, yandere, drabble, gender neutral reader {â} warnings blood {â} word count 0.8k
To love a God is heretical. It is an act of blasphemyâ it is to drag them down from their throne of hollow gold, to topple the pedestal the worshipers uphold on their shoulders like lambs at the herders heel. It is the act of forcing them to their knees and ripping that beating heart of glorious gold and beautiful, cruel divinity from their chest, so pure it burns.
To love a God is to make them sin. To make them painfully, horribly human.
To love a God is to sin.
The love of a worshiper is no love at all, brilliant in its raw purity, untainted by sin. It is fear and obedience masked by adoration so overpowering it corrupts. It makes the lamb so unquestioning in it's faith it will never question the knife that cuts, the teeth that rip, the claws that tear. If the Creator deemed them unworthy of the very life crafted by their hands, then they must have committed a sin so grave there lay no salvation for their horrid soul.
But she is no worshiperâ her lips speak of heresy as easily as she breathes, her words nothing but lies, cold and cruel like the ice that crawls along her skin like webs.
She loves a God like a lover should.
A damned sinner reaching longingly for the heavens.
She loves a God in the subtle brush of their lips, their muffled voices behind closed doors as they indulge in curiosity untamed. She is a sinner through and through, but she feels herself fall further with every brush of her hand across their cheeks, every touch she bestows upon them like a lover. She memorizes the imperfections of their body like memorizing a mapâ every scar, every mark, every line drawn on their body like a canvas, her touch the brush that stains the pristine white.
No devoted lamb shall ever see the painting they create in these stolen momentsâ it is for the eyes of a heretic so vile it makes them shudder, their body dirtied by the love of a woman so vile even their divinity is obscured by the ice.
The lambs may be satisfied with fleeting glimpses of gold and empty words from lips that guide them to the jaws of the wolves, but she is not. Her hands crave them like a starving hound, aching to touch that imperfect skin hidden by the veil of gold that obscures the painfully human body beneath. She longs to free them from the golden cage that binds themâ to see their wings blot out the sky, their divinity tainted by sin and making them all the more beautiful for it.
It is a longing that leaves a festering wound that cannot heal, will not heal. Even if it could, she would not let it.
For as much as she tries, deny it as she may, she is no better then the blind lambs following the herder who holds a blade in their hand, glittering like gold in the sun, stained by dull red.
She is a fool, and what a fool they make of her with the touch of their hands against her skinâ so cold it leaves frost on their fingertips. Yet they do not fear the cold, mapping out every inch of her imperfections, carved into her body by her own hands.
She has always been a heretic, cursing the divine until she could speak no more, but if divinity can be found in them â in this love that consumes, that burns her hands and her lips â then she is a Saint, praying at the altar until her throat bled.
But in the end, she has and will always be a cold woman with hands stained with blood. Until it is all she can taste, until it is all she can smell, until it is all she can feel. These hands of hers, heretical and divine, will bleed the God from their veinsâ she will become the wolf to their lamb until the rivers of Teyvat run gold with their ichor, until the gold bleeds into red, the taste of their divinity on her tongue.
Until she drags a God from their lofty throne and makes of them a monster.
There is no greater triumph to the heretic then to love a God into sin. To make a God sin to love.
To love is to be human, and they are no God.
Even if she must tear the gold from their very being until all that's left is something human. Even if Teyvat crumbles and decays, even if it begins over and over again..
She will do it again and again, until the gold can bleed no longer. Until her sins grow too great for Teyvat to contain.
To love a God is to devour, and be devoured. An endless cycle of sin that dulls the glow of gold into something newâ something horrifying and divine, in it's own right. Something just as horrid as her, just as divinely corrupted by the sins she carries on her shoulders like a trophy, as gold as the sun and as cold as ice.
Divinity, carved into something human by love all consuming, until it all bleeds away and they begin their dance anew, for as many cycles as it takes.
An eternity, if she must, of dooming this world of theirs to fire and decay for a glimpse of the being snared by their golden shackles.
#sagau#genshin sagau#self aware genshin#genshin impact sagau#self aware genshin impact#genshin cult au#genshin impact cult au#fic tag#tsaritsa#tsaritsa x reader#rip 2 anyone who expected like. a normal fic lol. lmao.#im very normal abt the tsaritsa and love its so tasty#i left it very up to interpretation what like. actually happens but. yknow.#i just think tsaritsa being the god of love and not knowing how 2 love without being weird abt it is fun#also wanted to dig into the concept of reader being fundamentally changed by being the creator besides gold blood yknow#but the tsaritsa Knows its changed you and she hates it. she hates it but how does one destroy what is divine?#how do you destroy the very thing that has created you in its hands so cruel and kind?#ive really gone off the deep end huh#this is a warning 2 the normal ppl u might as well leave now. lol#lowkey going for her actually straight up eating u but decided that was too weird for my first fic in a while. had 2 tone it down#i also wanted to add a bit of a concept of the constant resets teyvat goes through and how it plays into the themes#the tsaritsa constantly stuck in a cycle of getting rid of your divinity to be with you as you actually are but teyvat âdiesâ shortly after#bc obvs ur not the creator afterward so it just croaks and then it all resets again and again#but its the tsaritsa we r talking abt do u think that stops her. NO#obvs still up 2 interpretation go wild this was just what i intended#can u tell i have a lot of feelings abt tsaritsa and concepts of love from her pov. haha. I PROMISE IM NORMAL#i am mentally well why do u ask#what warnings do i add here. dont open this fic ive lost it maybe. yeah#covid rewiring my brain or smth idk man
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springtrap but he has claws and he slowwwwwly sinks them into youi while holdoing you close purring softly hes not eveb truing ta hurt you on ourpose justtrying ta keep you as close as possible and get you ta stay put for just a few more seconds oohohohhh ohhh hospital hostpital hospital. emergency room hospital
#ooooooooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhh'#springtrap w/claws my absolute weakness#ohhh ouhuhhohohohohoooooo#slash me w/them thnits please ohhh oh my gos#spacie spoinks#i want him ta latch on and never let go#aouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh#houaaauuuuuuugh ohhhh#who ami kidding i cant pay for the emergency room bill#urgent care urgent care pjaaaa waiting room in the urgent care#patiently waiting ta be seen in the urgent care while im bleeding all over the seats from springrtap ripping me apart#w/his claws and teeth#there are bite wounds and deep gashes all over me and i am just sitting there really content and springtrap#is embarrassed he did so much damage but also slightly worried#sorry for writing fanfic in the tags i need him so bad and i need 2 be held even more than that#ohhh my god i need 2 fuck him so bad#ohhhh ohhh my godddddd#utgent care urgent care ohhhh calm drive ta the urgent care as i cover the car seats w/my own blood#fuuuck oh my god fuck oh mt god
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it's starting to feel a little too much like that weather that killed Jackie Taylor :/
#girls when they're too deep in yj witnessing a normal occurrence: this is just like that time in yellowjackets whenâ#wait I drafted this from my bed and then looked outside and it really was the first snow of the year that's pretty funny#rip jackie tho#jackie taylor#yellowjackets
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RIP 2017 DRAFT LOVERS
#nolan patrick#nico hischier#im going to just assume nolans dumbass accidentally hit the unfollow button#all good things come to an end đȘ#when the ex really becomes the ex#itâs probably not that deep but rip#new jersey devils#philidelphia flyers#nolpat#my post#np19
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Garak is So much right from his first episode. Laura Palmer of Cardassia over here trying to get laid, foil a terrorist plot, AND work a retail shift, all while high as fuck. Dudeâs schedule in Past Prologue is FULL.
#Star Trek: Deep Space 9#Past Prologue really reveals how immediately dickmatized he is by Julian cause it's Julian at some of his absolute peak autism obliviousnes#and Garak still wants him so bad. utterly pathetic to see. I'm obsessed with them.#also it sucks how we have to wait sooooooooo fucking long to see Garak again after that but it's also kind of hysterical#like DS9 said there is a full on Cardassian spy loose in the station. we will not be following up on this for an entire season btw.#he's just. hangin around.#Starky's Original Posts#Starky's Text Posts#garashir#garashir best ship because it's literally a former torturerspyassassin (all at once) whose tragic backstory is literally whatever you want#and the world's most adorable puppyish angelic twink who still sleeps with a teddy bear#STRAIGHT OUTTA WATTPAD FANFIC. I FUCKING LOVE YOU STAR TREK YOU CRAZY SON OF A BITCH#also didn't mean to imply that Julian's autism obliviousness is not an extremely sexy trait of his bc it is I just meant like#you wouldn't have thought it'd be so sexy to. a Cardassian and a spy. it's soooo funny#the way he has to desperately try to explain that the suit fitting is a metaphor. absolutely dickmatized RIP.
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Luke calls Annabeth is his sister. Full stop. Not âsheâs like a sister to me,â âshe is my sister.â
#this is really setting me up for heartbreak#I can already see the family Luke you promised#it already hurts#poor Annabeth#this mans who calls you his literal sister is going to betray you so hard#luke castellan#annabeth chase#Percy Jackson#percy jackson tv show#percy jackson tv series#percy jackson and the olympians tv show#percy jackson and the olympians#pjo#pjotv#pjo show#pjo tv show#I become supreme overlord of the bathroom#rip my heart#I am already upset and it hasnât even happen yet#the wound will cut deep#live reaction
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wait I missed something, you said Tanguish has a voice claim? who??
You didn't miss anything, I've never talked about it lol. I don't normally share my personal voice claims for characters because I don't like restricting people. It's for the same reason whenever someone says "Hey what's your design for X?" I always end the art/description with "You don't have to do that though!"
Anyway, to me Tanguish's voice is in the same higher register as Tango's voice, leaning on the higher end, but a lot smoother, without Tango's rasp. Examples would be:
LeGrand, the first singer in Give A Little
Bo Burnham, especially the silly noises he can make, and the way his tone flattens out on sustained notes like "Well Well" in this song.
The cadence and expressivity in You're Not Welcome by Naethan Apollo.
Ruse and the Caper by Coyote Theory is one of the few songs I can see Tanguish singing. Like, a near perfect match for his voice.
Yeah [jazz hands] there you go. My little scattershot voice claim range. Though as before so again, don't let me dictate how the little guy sounds in your head lol.
#rns asks#anonymous#tanguish#voice claim#this has a lot of external links so ill never be able to search it on my blog again rip#oh well#anyway still dont really have a good claim for helsknight#current closest picks are: steven rodriguez / andy black / jonathan young and like. creed of all bands.#but theyre all not... quite right#i think he sounds growl-y and deep#and realistically a song wouldnt work for him much anyway as a vc because i dont think the man can sing#he sings like a dog howls: it passes but it aint a wolf
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#the French Lebanon connection is deep and complicated but I bet itâs really fun for the athletes#most of my family came to USA/Canada but a whole branch ended up in France#Olympics#Iâm just they didnât skip Lebanon!!#they do it a lot rip#(on the USA broadcast)
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MY BOY, he got started today, i have like 5 more sessions to do his wing and his body and then some colour but now that im not all red and swollen he looks amazing!! his name is Bartholmeo
#sorry#tattoos#crow#birb#my hair is sticking to the plasma đ aaaaaaaaaaaaa#hes gonna be so prettyyyyyyyy and so biggggg#i feel.so cool now even tho im gonna look like the bent neck lady from hill house rip#i just got a quick lil oracle card reading and ngl i feels like it aligns with what im working towards latelt#its mostly appearance stuff but for me that has a lot to do with my life#getting my crow started and going in t injections instead of gel ans getting my teeth fixed is a massive step for me to get#where i want to be before i can leave for nova scotia or rather before the opportunity arises#im also going to get a new mattress topper and jars for making fancy drinks soon too#i kinda feel the motivation to do my own groceries too but hm less so#i feel really happy today after visiting my dearest friend too and getting a lot of good deep talks in#sad we live so far apart but also calm because i love them so much and im glad we feel the same way but again sad life has to be so hard#i hope that lil card reading is a good sign#i also keep seeing 11:11 everywhere too and im choosing to believe thats a lovely thing
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Well, I bugged @ericchristianolsenfans all day to make this post (and she obliged me cuz she's awesome!), but I should probably also share it here before the day ends! đ (Plus, I provided her with the screencaps, so it's technically like half my post too! đđ)
But Get Real turns 25 today (Sep 8)! I still don't know how I missed this show when it was actually airing on TV. I was totally the right demographic and would've loved it! Thankfully, in the past few years, some wonderful people have put the episodes up on YouTube so I've finally gotten to see them all! Well, all the ones that aired in the US - the show was canceled with two episodes to go, but some of the international broadcasts actually aired those episodes. Maybe someday those will surface again. Till then, if you search on yt you can find the 20 aired episodes and enjoy some young ECO!
There are also a fair number of recognizable faces who guest star in the series, which is fun to see too!!
#get real#1999#25th anniversary#eric christian olsen#anne hathaway#jesse eisenberg#there were a few other things I'd sent her from my deep dark internet searching the she didn't post#which is probably for the best#not sure what eric would think... đđđ#yes I'm being vague but you can msg me if you're curious! đ#I'd really like them to put it on a streaming something!#cuz why not! đ#i need it in better quality than bad VHS rips#i realized I posted about the 20th anniversary here too and at that point i hadn't seen a single ep yet - just some ads#two months later i saw the pilot at the Paley center#then the next year the YouTube versions went up#so yay!!#there are bts videos in the insta post if you click thru#Instagram
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obsessed with the degree to which they half-assed the rio reveal
#they were really like that's crazy! anyways#rip any fans who were looking forward to that#i'm sure (not really) that it will be explored in an deep and cool way later on (who knows with these shows)#agatha all along#agatha all along spoilers#this is one where the people who care knew for a while and the people who don't care could never have guessed#so i can't wait to see it land
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mmm essay about sally and kid gort in the tags (cw for child abuse, mentions of suicide, animal cruelty and a murder attempt. i always hope i donât have to say this but just in case: i donât excuse or condone any of her or gortâs behaviour at all.) this is literally not even touching upon everything i have to say because i hit the fucking tag limit lmao. NOBODY READ ITâS BAD BRAINSTORMING I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW
#thinkin too much about gortie side characters again.#sally this time and why she specifically talks about him the way she does#like dravo is obviously still shitty but to me he was. âjust âneglectful#while sally actively hated and even felt terrorised by her own child#like. itâs not like i donât understand her at all.#imagine you and your love donât have much besides each other and your shop and you get pregnant and ready to raise a child#only for it to not be a child he didnât and doesnât cry ever and he learns everything so much sooner than most but then he never calls you#his parents and itâs not just a petty thing kids do sometimes you feel that he doesnât see you as family and the worst part is that you#agree deep down#and as he gets older he doesnât have any friends and actively rejects the notion of the entire concept#but then as time passes you hear about how he has entire groups of children following him and then several of them commit suicide#and that thing coming to sit with you and dravo at the dinner table says that he did what you did last week when the axe to chop wood broke#and you discarded it and got a new one#and he has these habits of ripping out flowers and making sure that they donât regrow#and then you hear rumours about a friendâs daughterâs cat disappearing and think nothing of it#until you visit his tree house a month later and find a declawed cat and birds with clipped wings and crushed bugs that he keeps fondly#and then you see him with other children and they donât know and his face is different and body language is entirely different#and were it not for the fact that you know better you would never see anything but a normal child#and you know that you are one who painstakingly brought this thing that should not be into the world and so you decide to end it all one da#and go to him as heâs asleep with the knife shaking in your hand#but he cries when youâre above him! screams at the top of his lungs!#so you beg for forgiveness even though you donât deserve it through tears but as soon as the knife is put away you see the act drop and fee#his clever fingers having twisted your brain inside and out and you know that you can do nothing#and so the opportunity arises to at least remove him out of your life if not everyoneâs lives and you take it immediately.#but you heard him talk. how he will close his fist around the world one day. and you know that it is not a matter of if but when.#like. imagine that. jesus dude.#like i hc her as someone that is messy and does not know a lot about life and she certainly wouldnât have been a good mother but the love#or at least desire to love is there somewhere. and believing that having a child is really the only somewhat meaningful thing she can do#with her life. sheâs not some hero or rich or anything of note. so thereâs a lot obligation and not genuine desire for family here.#but she never really got the chance to be an actual mother in the first place so. who knows what that might have looked like
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Added my Double drabble to Lights, Camera, Sing Your Sins! I snuck it into chapter 2 so I figured I'd make a quick post with it here :)
âHey, stop bumping me.â
âYouâre bumping me â I canât see!â
âJust scooch over.â
âMy toes!â
Mikoto looked back at the group of prisoners huddled around him, packed tightly so that they could peer over his shoulder at the monitors. His hand paused from where it had been sweeping the stylus around, rearranging his latest creation.
âItâs not that exciting guys,â he laughed. âLet me at least show you some of the finished pieces, Iâm sure this is boringâŠâÂ
Not that the other pictures were that exciting, either. He pulled up the other frames heâd been busy editing. There came a chorus of oohs and ahhs, but Mikoto knew it was just out of obligation. He flicked through a few of them as quickly as he could.
It was the type of art he loved to do (with some input from Red now and then) but it didnât really suit any of the other prisonersâ tastes. Heâd heard enough questions about his field to know it wasnât all that impressive to most people.Â
Sure enough, Kazui squinted at the screen. âYou made all these?â he asked. âLike, you drew them?â
âErâŠin a way. I drew some of the elements, and had to do some work to make the effects look right. And the color coordination takes time too.â He scratched the back of his head. âI know it doesnât look like muchâŠâ
When he glanced over, though, Kazuiâs expression was one of awe. âNo, no, youâre very talented!â
Harukaâs finger tapped the screen. âCan you go back to that one?â
Mikoto clicked back to a photo of himself sitting on one of the train benches. It was meant to depict Red, made abundantly clear by the blood spatter, colored eyes, and savior label that had been placed with much deliberation. Blue had insisted on it, though Red only agreed with the addition of quotations. Their guilty verdict had been crushing for both of them (though not wholly unexpected), so it was important to show all sides of them, now.
Although it had been one of his favorites when working on it, he suddenly wondered if his personal flair had gotten out of hand. It was hardly distinguishable as the original shot, with too many textures and additions obscuring everything.
Fuuta whistled. âMan, that looks sick. You should have done my videoâŠâ
âMine too!â Mahiru said. âI love the bright colors youâre using in all of these. And the paper and ink just looks so crafty!â
Kotoko leaned in to get a better look. âI really like the focus on the eyes here.âÂ
âO-oh, thanks!â He could feel his chin lift at the commentary. âI got the idea a bit ago⊠itâs kind of a running thing now? I drew some of them here ââ he scrolled though a few frames. âAnd a scribble over the face here to keep the theme going. Little ones here, a string of them like this. Heh, I drew about a thousand different eye designs to get any actually liked. Then I have these big ones, see? Iâm debating on including a blue version, too, but maybe Iâm going overboard. I think Jackalope might have a heart attack, seeing all this crap.âÂ
âHeâll get over it.â Yuno answered his joking smile with a genuine one. âIâm so glad youâre having fun with these. Itâs all very⊠you.â
Mikotoâs gaze fell onto the last frame heâd pulled up: another messy one of Red filled with pink and blue, with the text save you repeated nearby.
âItâs both of us.â
#milgram#mikoto kayano#and technically everyones there too but they dont say much individually#using my headcanoned names of Blue and Red like in chapter 1 (in the hopes i can introduce Green in t3 đ€đ€đ€)#i tried really hard to sneak in a john reference but since this happens months before and es is the one to come up the name it didnt work#i just wanted to show mikoto finally using his art as an outlet rather than it being a career burden like double showed ;-;#and i need them to interact!!!! and look out for each other !!!#bare minimum be aware of each other!!! đ#im so crushed that bokukoto is still in the dark after all this#RIP deep cover delay btw -_- im so glad the animation team is taking the time they need though#fanfic#lights camera sing your sins
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the feminine urge to dig through every scene steve is in to compile a masterlist of any and all traits, facts, and details we could gather from canon
and not to prove a "right" way to characterize him but to give more ideas and jumping off points for us to play with. we don't have a lot of details explicitly laid out for us so we do assume a lot (some of those assumptions don't have a strong canon backing which is fine but some definitely do and a lot of people don't realize?? we're not too far off with some of this) but theres definitely stuff implied here and a good bit of it's probably intentional (you're rarely "looking too far into it" with filmmaking. there are happy accidents but a shit ton of this is intentional otherwise it wouldn't be there)
anyway would anyone be interested in seeing it? rn it's just like an impulse before i go to bed but if anyone actually wants to hear whatever i find it might actually push me to do it tomorrow
#stranger things#steve harrington#stranger things thoughts#stranger things tumblr#steddie tumblr#steddie#<<target audience#i might do it for other characters too if i have fun#maybe dustin or robin or erica or eddie?#since im a scoops troop enjoyer at heart#and eddie wouldn't take as long cause he has like 30 minutes of screentime rip#actually maybe not robin i forgot we literally have rebel robin right there and idk if i have the attention span for that#maybe just call it a screen-only-deep-dive then#but yeah i chose steve because i really connect with fanon steve but im curious about what we get in canon#also he has a pretty wide good-faith characterization range because hes pretty ambiguous in the show#mr mysery over here#i need to go to bed#steveharrington#steve stranger things#steve harrington stranger things
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#i think the universe is playing a prank on me here#that at age 14 i went#'rip to rose but i would never fall in love with the doctor could never be me'#and then to be faced with 13 and the realisation that rip to rose but im not different#and then and THEN#they put this fucker back in there so now im#here#like#ive done my best for my lesbianisms#ive put work into my lesbian tendencies alright#not a lesbian but i believe in their beliefs deeply#so like excuse me mr tennant but you cant just get back in here and have me googling#your fucking eye colour#just bc im that far gone for the thIRTEENTH doctor#thirteen. alright. hear me? mr tennant. thirteen.#its brown btw#which is great for the sentence i was about to write but thats really my only win here#deep deep sigh#i dont even like him!#likewith all due respect it wasnt mr wet sad puppy eyes who had me looking up the kinsey scale at 2 in the morning after the giggle alright#im hijacking his whole noble-temple-doctor happy ending just to write more thasmin and yET#yet i find myself#here. googling david tennants eye colour#we find ways to keep struggling on dont we#hes not that special!!!!!
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