#but my family is having a rough time
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
We ended up euthanizing the family dog pretty suddenly yesterday so death has been on my mind a lot. It’s a natural part of life and I don’t think it’s inherently a bad thing but it’s still hard to adapt to.
#unfortunately she had was was probably cancer in her chest and she was severely anemic#i’m overall okay because i wasn’t incredibly bonded to her but she was a good dog#except for when she dug my blueberry bush out of the ground#but my family is having a rough time#so the house is just sad rn#i was the one that dealt with all the vet stuff and basically explaining things to my parents#so that was a lot#idk#just venting a little bit#i’ll be fine but it’s still hard#cw animal death
1 note
·
View note
Text
am I getting too convoluted if I said Johnny dies Dallas lives n Pony loses his hearing as a result of the way Dallas hits him (to put out the fire) when he pulls him out of the church au??
#idk man#this idea has been rotting in my head for a long time#i have like a terribly rough outline#where basically the events of the book happen exactly as canon up until post church fire#so pony johnny n dallas are in the hospital#n ponys reeling from literally everything that just happened#n he reunites with soda n darry n suddenly realizes like oh fuck#i cannot hear sodas hysterically releived laughter#or darrys voice as he thanks god ponys fine#n then the dr pulls darry aside n tells him that pony has profound hearing loss as a result of an injury sustained during the fire#the last voice he will ever have heard clearly is johnnys#johnny dies canon complicent#but before dallas can get himself shot by the cops darry gets to him first#so dallas survives#pony learns asl from a deaf woman who their family has always been familiar with#since their parents were always real keen on including people that the rest of the world looked down on#dallas has to deal with not only surviors guilt but feeling like he took something from Pony that can never be given back#he has his own arc with the woman#but it basically all boils down to deafness is not the LOSS of something#but rather just the ADDITION of a new community n language n experience#plus dallas learns sign n is just utterly overwhelmed by feelin like his hands can be used for somethin soft n good#UGH#if yall wanna hear more about this lemme know#bc i have been thinking about this for a WHILE#the outsiders#sodapop curtis#ponyboy curtis#darry curtis#dallas winston#the outsiders 1983
161 notes
·
View notes
Text
i've been playing the game in my own time but i gotta share this lil angel cus she's the cutest toddler my sims have ever had
#ts4#sims 4#hello hiii casually posting as if i didn't disappear for a few months#lifes just been beating me up these past two months and i ended up shutting everything out#the last two weeks have been particularly rough#but i'm still kicking 🙏🏻#i've been playing a lot of fortnite and terraria and wobbledogs#sorry for ignoring all my asks and dms and mentions since like fucking april#jesus christ its september now. where'd the time go#anyways GRACIE ❤��❤️❤️#full name gracie-lynn dufford#her mom is one of my favourite sims i've ever made#i'll probably start posting more soon enough since college is starting back up and all my procrastination habits will come back to me#you will see more of this lil cutie and her family#hope everyone's keeping well ❤️❤️#i will try to answer some asks and stuff tonight#no promises tho i'm sorry#bye til then <3
218 notes
·
View notes
Text
Loa characters as unhinged shit my family and I have said (part 1 probably. We say a lot of unhinged shit.)
Frost, to the goblinoids: both of your IQs combined are the equivalent to a fishes memory span, which is about 8 seconds
-
Shepherd: aren’t cats descended from dinosaurs?
*silence*
Clayton: I think you’re thinking of chickens
-
Gideon: I broke my sock with my cock
-
Briggsy, about Lethica: she’s experiencing all 7 stages of grief
Marius: there’s only 5?
Briggsy: you made her invent 2 more!
(Yes, this quote was spurned by the previous one. My 16yo brother is…something else)
-
Kremy: Look, I did it yesterday, and it didn’t taste terrible, it just tasted kinda bad
(This was said by my 8yo sister. No, I do not remember the context nor did I type it in my Google doc. Now I wish I did.)
-
Gricko, to Kremy: you don’t kiss by doing *makes vacuum noises*. You’re not a Hoover Vacuum! You’re not a Dyson Ballsucker!
-
Marius: does that say “feel my thighs”?
Lethica: I wish it did
-
Gricko: he’s speaking British
-
Gricko: do not drink the Milfk (milf milk)
-
The Krew: “you gave birth to a black hole, a vacuum, and a squeaker toy” “and waluigi”
(I just. Really wanted to include this quote.)
-
Skrimm: They cooked my hash-brown to hell. There is no hash, it’s just brown!
-
Skrimm: I can whip the snake
Queenie: okay, but can you watch it nae nae?
-
Barnabos: please don’t pepper my meat
-
Torbek: *incoherent sobbing and vague gesturing to food and clothes*
-
Barnabos: I had never before, and have never since, had to clean penis smudges off of the glass
#legends of avantris#once upon a witchlight#ouaw#edge of midnight#icebound#curse of strahdanya#morning frost#silas shepherd morgan#clayton azran#gideon coal#torbek#kremy lecroux#lethica nightborne#marius renathyr#briggsy kratch#gricko grimgrin#barnabos the dreadwake#skrimm stabbaskotch#queenie march#yes I was the Torbek one#okay in my defense#I had just gotten home from a rough day at work and was really tired and hungry#and a bit of my food got on my work clothes#no this was not the first time I have cried over food#nor will it be the last#unhinged shit my family has said#shit my brothers say#shit my siblings say#shit i say
78 notes
·
View notes
Text
it's funny how u can do/like something as a kid and then 15 years later ur family will still think of you like that
#my dad still claims i have a huge sweet tooth and gets shocked when i turn down sweets#i *do* like sweets but i have to be in the mood and it depends on the sweet#if ur offering me cake im less likely to take it cause i dont really like cake and i say this whenever cake is brought up in conversation 😭#moms side of the family called me tenderheaded for the longest time and my grandpa probably still would#i still wont take thw blame for that one i firmly believe everyone was just really rough on my baby head#kae.txt
82 notes
·
View notes
Text
Maybe IDW just hates me specifically
#fang the sniper#nack the weasel#fang the hunter#jet the jerboa#nack the knave#team hooligan#sonic the hedgehog#luna's shenanigans#sonic#bean the dynamite#bark the polar bear#clutch the opossum#rough and tumble#rough the skunk#tumble the skunk#sonic idw#idw sonic#i just want a silly evil trio that has a great time causing trouble#is that so much to ask#why does eggman get to have a full on robot family just fine#WHY IS THE ONLY OTHER GROUPED UP VILLAINS IN SONIC#THE DEADLY SIX?#WHY DO THEY GET TO STAY TOGETHER HM?#imma go to my corner#sobs
41 notes
·
View notes
Text
I’m so peopled-out today it’s bad
#camera talks#I didn’t even hang out around anyone but my immediate family (people in the house) yesterday#so I don’t know Why I’m so tired#but I just know today is going to be sooooo tiring#(we have multiple Christmas’s bc idk different extended family and different vibes but)#like sometimes I don’t feel like an introvert bc idk I just don’t but times like this I’m literally like#if I get taken out of my room today I might explode#also our oldest dog isn’t doing well and I’m really sad about that and i already feel like crying I love him so much he’s so sweet#idk what I’d do if I come home and he’s not here#augh sorry this is sad#I’m really tired and like. I just know today is gonna be a rough day but whatever </3
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
I've been thinking about names re: durges (and especially Corentin)
I haven't really liked the whole "this character's name is The Dark Urge" because it's honestly...silly to me? A bit? But I saw someone else discussing their durge's backstory today and it got me thinking about the function of names a bit more.
Naming someone "The Dark Urge" is super dehumanizing. And, like, that's the point, of course. But Corentin, even at their most compliant, was always trying to eek out some semblance of individuality or control or rebellion. They were kidnapped brought to the Bhaalists at 15, after all. Even with the cult's (and Bhaal's) efforts, it's difficult to completely rewire someone who's nearly a grown adult, especially one who's fighting it kicking and screaming most of the time.
So while they lose their memories of their family due to the constant trauma, they do manage to hold on to some things. Their refusal to eat bog body stays the entire time, as does their insistence on maintaining a hair care routine (which is when they start braiding Orin's hair, too). But after they break, other aspects of cleanliness they'd managed to hold onto until that point fall to the wayside, and they stop resisting when Savorak, and Fel, and the Bhaalists call them "The Dark Urge" instead of their name. Orin still calls them Corentin for a little bit, but she stops eventually too as she gets more and more restless and insistent on gaining power.
And then they meet Gortash who, despite also being a horrible person, isn't as bad as the people Corentin had been forced to lead. At this point they know what the likely ending of the Absolutist plot is going to be (though they're still in the early stages of the plan) but being able to work so closely with someone who's sincere and, more importantly, isn't going to stab them the moment they turn their back to him, is like breathing in fresh air for the first time in a decade or more (both figuratively and literally). And they dare to hope that there's an actual, true way out of the hell they'd been living in.
So when Gortash eventually asks if The Dark Urge is really their name, they tell him no.
#rediscovering your humanity etc etc#tin fell HARD and FAST for the first person to show them actual kindness after losing their family#like ive said before: they fell for wyll b/c of his kindness and sincerity#wyll & gortash really are narrative foils#but that's a ramble for another time#part of the reason orin suspects that tin's going off the plan is b/c she overhears gortash call them by their actual name#i dont think bhaal notices. they're not really truly *resisting* their urges yet & we know canonically that bhaal only recognizes/bothered#to learn about the bhaalspawn part of durge. he's not omniscient he cant read their mind or anything#so if they're still going along w/ *enough* of the plan there's no reason for him to get suspicious. plus he's cocky as hell#this also messes w/ their head & heart when their memories start to come back post-tadpole moral reset#b/c they fully see just how bad gortash WAS. especially having met & become friends with one of his victims#having to fight him & orin is. rough on them but they dont process that until post-game#tbh i dont think they fully process gortash until after fixing karlach's heart#corentin#the prodigal saer#durgetash#my post#bg3 durge#enver gortash#bg3#bg3 tav#jay rambles#bg3 spoilers#durge spoilers
24 notes
·
View notes
Text
update
sent around 70 orders since my previous update! still slowly chipping away the rest, theres so much left
also. i already kinda talked about this on twitter in detail but:
.
.
to the customer who first told me they didnt know my book was a preorder, and didnt know i wrote an estimated shipping date on my faq, and if they knew earlier they wouldnt have bought it because it was for their niece's birthday which has now passed:
you wrote back again recently asking for updates when i previously mentioned it would take the same 2-3 weeks. i cant even send you your order beforehand because i didnt even have the books. but when i finally did i sent out your copy the next day instantly. i dont understand why you filed a paypal claim (under "item not received") against me on the same day i shipped out your order. and you even lied about me on the dispute notes which i can obviously read on my end. you asked for shipping info in which i cant even really send anything because you actively chose not to have your package tracked, and you are never satisfied with any answer i had my friends give you :(
i implore you to just reach out to me personally here but you dont even reply to emails anymore. if you feel vindicated bullying a small artist trying to share their works to people then you've did it because i give up.
im sorry i dont know what you want from me.
#im having such a rough time irl lately where i couldnt eat or sleep properly. i've attempted on overdose. i lost a family member#but i still wanted to fulfill the shop responsibility because everyone's counting on me#genuinely i know there will be nice people outweighing the bad ones but i dont feel like doing this anymore#and if i were to sell my art again it would just be between friends#faq#edit: truth be told i never even really wanted to sell my book because i made it as a commemorative item for my late friend#but a lot of people wanted it and asked for it so i thought okay i will do this for the people who asked#because if im in a position to spread a little joy in the world in the form of my art i wanna do it#but then people/experiences like this happens and i feel like i disappointed my friend
34 notes
·
View notes
Text
Moral Orel doesn't seem 100% like a show I'd feel seen in if you don't know me but then I remember the episode with the special ed kids and underneath the usual satire on extremist bible belt religion it reminds me WAY too much of how actual special ed departments treated me and other kids growing up.
Like the writers must HAVE BEEN THERE IN LIFE, man. I'd kill to sit down with Dino Stamatopoulos and find out what the fuck inspired him and the other writing staff that day.
#husbandothings#moral orel#bonus fun tag rant? bonus fun tag rant...apparently#in those departments you are immediately written off as a tragic forever toddler by at least 50% of the staff regardless of your disability#there's good ones but the bad ones bring the fun spicy trauma#it doesn't matter how smart you actually are you gotta draw the sad face on that boy on the comic sans worksheet at the age of 15#in your free lesson spaces that you got because of reasons#if someone tells me they're a teaching assistant or have “qualifications” in autism and special needs development i immediately distrust#because I have never met a neurotypical person with those qualifications who knows how to treat kids like humans especially autistic kids#funniest part? I was mostly in the special ed department because of my hearing and not totally my undiagnosed autism#and a little because of wonky emotional development from get this...a freaking religious school#like i see adults in the show and i see the headteacher who tried to tell my parents i should forgive the bullies because jesus would#even though the truth is way more nuanced but he just wanted to wash his hands of it#it's funnier than it should be because that teacher would fit right in to this show for that and additional reasons I won't state here#my family were atheists but thought the school would be good#the weird thing is at that time as a little kid I liked the idea of believing in god but nothing that happened proved Him to me#and moral orel hits because it resonates with the fact i genuinely believe religion can do good and it's all about the people#the ones who want to use that faith for good in the world and surviving rough crap and not to do things that would make jesus flip tables#that has stuck with me for over a decade as has the people who felt the show reinforced their christianity#but anyway
54 notes
·
View notes
Text

hv! shrignold angst doodle .,.. thatz about it ..
#i just .. had a rough day#and i dont feel all too swell – thought i feel like that in general so like whatz the point in even bringing it up ?#in any caze ..#just ... have it#i havent been able to draw anything good at all ; a low quality doodle iz the best you're gonna get#also don't “flame” me for the way i draw fire#haha#but seriouzly i don't wanna hear any commentz about how it lookz like a toddler drew the candlez#i don't wanna hear anything about my declining art quality#i just want to disappear off the face of the earth#my family thinkz im a disappointment . my irlz dont care about me#im tired of relying on the “hope” itll all get better#i can't rely on “hope” ...#dhmis#dhmis au#high voltage au#dhmis shrignold#shrignold the butterfly#dhmis hv shrignold#vent doodle#shitty doodle#angst#ignore me#itz been forever since the last time i drew him in the ceremonial robez#i ought to make an actual dezign for them soon ...#://
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
I'm on an OC kick and also super indecisive so I spun a wheel (thank you for choosing for me, RNG).
Ricardo is a body guard and is bffs with Marlo. Ricardo's current job is watching after a celebrity's daughter who the public doesn't know even exists. She's just a teenage girl vibing with her mom and getting texts and calls from her dad (who loves her a whole lot and keeps her out of the spotlight very purposefully) and has this bodyguard and his weird friend. Marlo is just vibing with his best friend.
(Also Marlo would absolutely laugh if he heard Ricardo say "someone called me eye candy and it wasn't you and now I think you should call me that")
#my characters#i have an ask in my inbox that has me obsessively thinking about drawing fanart#but i just dont have the energy for what i want to draw for it#its been a rough day guys im dying (allergies and lacking sleep)#(why are allergies so bad today i ask after shoving my face into a cat while knowing im allergic to cats)#there are some prices i will always suffer and pay in life and the cat allergy is one of them you cant keep me away from a cat#im shoving my face in their fur and you CANT STOP ME FROM IT and also they kept bothering me#anyway i got to bed at like 6am after a lot of zoomies and restless legs and then#woke up with both cats in the guest bed with me and man i will not know peace for a few days#worth it tho bc i love them and i will take suffering if it means cattention#i dont really have much to say about the ocs tbh theyre just buddies being guys and then theres a teenage girl sometimes#and people suspect ricardo is her dad and she cant really say no my dads (celebrity) since thats the entire point of rico#so she makes sure its not troublesome for him to have people assume things like that and hes just#idc im in love with my best friend and hes not giving me any kids so not like anyone will start drama if im not with your mom#but he is also ! friends with the celebrity and his wife so he does just go on Family Outings with the wife and daughter#and sometimes marlo because the wife knows of him and invites him sometimes but she treats#rico and marlo like sons instead which is a bit weird to the daughter but she likes her weird fake brothers slash dad and question mark#marlo dyes his hair pink if that matters and has been doing so for a v long time
29 notes
·
View notes
Text
-SAINT CHRISTOPHER PROTECT US-
#it’s about the lightning parallels#ahhhhh this is my first time posting fanart and it’s a quick rough version of what i had in mind but I had to get it out before tomorrow#and I don’t have time later :(#buddie#buddie fanart#9-1-1#911 fan art#911 6x10#evan buckley#Eddie Diaz#christopher diaz#Evan buck Buckley#buckley diaz family
281 notes
·
View notes
Note
You know... you know when Percy goes missing Harry is jittery. Inconsolable. Aching to join the search.
I'm not sure if they COULD convince him to go back to Hogwarts while his brother is missing from camp, from home, from his whole life.
I had to google the timeline and ooooh boy.
Percy goes missing in December when Harry is in the middle of the Triwizard Tournament. Harry already can’t go home for the holidays for the first time ever and then he gets news that his brother is missing.
It’s a mess. Harry keeps trying to leave Hogwarts but is essentially trapped by the magical contract and Hecate herself stopping him because she can’t bear to lose another child after having lost so many. Harry is trapped knowing his brother is missing for months only for him to be found right around the time that Voldemort comes back and Harry… cant anymore. He runs off and gets swept into another prophecy. The wizarding world is in an uproar because Harry Potter, the boy that claims the dark lord is back went missing right after that announcement and no home has seen him in months.
Harry almost doesn’t go back at all, but Percy convinces him that he has to. That he needs all the training he can get for the third war they know is brewing all too soon. He is met by Umbridge on his first day back and things go… poorly to say the least.
#the elf talks#harry potter#pjo#spells and seas au#not pictured: Harry’s screaming match with his goddess mother as he attempts to run away from#Hogwarts for the fifth time to go find his brother#little man is going through it first he’s bummed about not seeing his family an friends then his brother goes missing then he has ti find a#date WHILE HIS BROTHER IS MISSING#then he sees a friend die and Voldemort comes back like my little dude is having a rough time of it
23 notes
·
View notes
Text
Time to update my info I guess
#i am...21.#wow.#i know i've been dreading it leading up to it for the past few days#but my friends and family made me love life more i think#so#yeah#i'm happy that i'm alive#i'm happy that i'm growing older#i'll miss the times i had#but i'm looking forward to making new things#having more fun times#and knowing that i'll still be me through it all#happy birthday noah#you're feeling ok now#and yeah things might get rough again#but you have safety nets now#you're safe#you're secure#you're home#krypt.txt
12 notes
·
View notes
Text
"it goes without saying" not to me it doesn't. spell it out.
#this is about me telling my people I love them btw#sending my mama a mountain of texts (guess which week of my cycle I'm on kids) and one was to pass along thanks from a friend#I nearly said “she said she loves you and it goes without saying but so do I” but NO#we gotta say the things#(this is also adjacent to my writing project but that's another thing entirely)#mine#(if y'all think of it please say a prayer for my family and specifically my parents. this time of year is just rough for us.#just passed two death anniversaries [grandmothers] and coming up on a few birthdays [grandmother and then grandfather on the other side])#(plus they're just overworked and tired and have midterms coming up)#greatest hits
76 notes
·
View notes