#but my brain wont shut up

[daydreamerwonderkid]

Older tim keeps writing batman self insert rpf. It's just him winning every argument now

I ... I can't argue with this.

[belovedcarrion]

My brain fucking sucks sometimes

Like I need to sleep so that I'll be awake enough to go to my job but instead my brain is clawing at the inside of my skull like a rabid animal

I keep thinking of everything I need to be doing (not that I can at 4 in the morning) and I have sudden desire to go clean off my kitchen table for some reason

And god I really need ADHD meds but the ADHD makes it really hard to call someone and schedule an appointment to get treated for my ADHD

I'm just..

really frustrated

[fundamentallyviolet]

Please can someone send the sleep gods to me!!!

[moonlit-dreamers]

idek y i made this but here ya go

[chocolate-floof]

Fuck it, short homelander fic

Tw: canon typical violence, homelander, stalking detailed description of injuries. Allusion the child abuse and neglect (blink and you'll miss it) Sfw

Clicking send you finally finished the report for the day. Seeing the time on your phone, you had to do a double take to make sure you saw correctly. You had been here for nearly 12 hours, thanklessly working the night shift, despite also taking the mid-day shift. Working in media crisis management for the seven can be hard work especially when the member you have to deal with is the homelander. Deciding to use this time to your advantage, you walk around the darkened corporate hallways, mapping the building out internally, unaware of the prying eyes watching your every move.

"What is she still doing here?" He questioned to himself. Sometimes homelander gets bored and lonely, so he decides to watch the occasional Vought employees and how they run their "normal" lives that he definitely doesn't want, it's not stalking they should be glad their holding his attention! But their was something... Strange about you. He could never quite figure out what it was that made you feel so... Different compared to the rest. Maybe it was how much you work, often forgetting to take care of your bodily needs, maybe it's how interact with people, like your trying your best to make everyone happy. Or perhaps it has something to do with how often you flinch when people touch you. Whatever it is, for the past week he's been stuck on watching YOU. He watches you pack your things into your purse and head out. Clutching your purse closer to you as you weave and make your way down the city streets and through alleyways with seemingly no care for yourself.

He hears a scream, from a nearby alleyway he hears a woman scream in terror "I don't have it ,please!" She yells, the sharp shift in volume stinging his ears. He ignores it, trying surveil you but the panic continues. With a small irritated sigh he looks over, and lasers into the man's heart, chest now and open cavity he tries to scream and fails. He tries to put his hand were his heart once was, attempting to pant before blackened thick visceral starts spilling from his agape mouth and he falls to the ground, gurgling on his own blood. The woman looks up spotting homelander before running away without a word. "Not even a fucking thank you." He quietly says to himself before turning to follow your flowery scent. Making it to your small one bedroom apartment he watches from the roof of a near by building as you make yourself dinner. Your seemingly having a rice dish tonight, chickpea curry. The smell wafts from your open balcony door and he wants to fly closer to see if he can get more of it. He wonders if you'd ever cook for him. If you'd ever pet his head the way you pet your cat, like it's the most valuable and lovely thing you have. He wonders if you have the the same infatuation with his life as he does yours. People wanted him dead, his son seems to hate him and he's started aging abruptly. It felt like his life was falling apart, as the noise of everyday became louder, more urgent, suffocating. But when he watches you his thoughts quiet down. It MUST be because your life is so much more boring than his, because theirs no way he'd be stuck on a simple mud person he hasn't even spoken to once. No it's not because he wonders if you'd watch him too. Not because he wonders if you smile at him like that. Not because he wondered if the syrupy sound you make as you say "I love you so much" to the small mammal curled in your lap would ever be directed at him. He didn't wonder about you, no that preposterous. He just wished you'd be less oblivious, and less alluring.

[cubedmango]

episode 12 // movie

[secretsofthewilde]

So I'm attempting to watch Once Upon a Time again (the aim is to actually make it past Elsa showing up this time) and it's so funny just how different the experience is for me watching it now.

I'm rewatching season 3 at the moment, but I am genuinely unable to focus on anything in this episode other than Regina when she is wearing this shirt.

How on earth did Hook manage to monopolise my attention when this season first aired, when Regina Mills is out there serving looks every single episode

[becauseplot]

Okay so something about the spiderbit wedding has been sitting in the back of my mind for awhile now and I don't know if anyone's talked about it but I just recently figured out the words to articulate it (kind of) so here we go!

Prior to the q!spiderbit wedding, a lot of the fanart/fanfics I saw/read depicted Cellbit waiting at the altar while Roier is walked down the aisle by either Foolish or Vegetta. Which makes sense! It keeps with the idea of the father "giving away" the bride (or in this case, the groom) at the wedding, which wouldn't be possible for Cellbit since he doesn't have any parental figures on the island. So, I was a little surprised when the wedding day came and Cellbit was the one to walk down the aisle while Roier waited at the altar. I was a bit disappointed at first---they missed a chance to do a sweet little spin on a wedding tradition! (Found family* my beloved <3)

But then I kept thinking---something about Cellbit walking down the aisle. Something about Cellbit walking down the aisle. Something about Cellbit walking down the aisle to the altar where Roier, his soon-to-be husband and trusted confidant, stands; where Felps, his best friend whom he just got back from an unknown fate, stands; where Forever, the friend he wronged but never lost faith in and wants to do right by going forward, stands.

Something about Cellbit being alone and walking himself down the aisle towards them like he is making an active choice. After the fear and the isolation, pushing others away and hurting those close to him so he could make himself a martyr because he felt like he had to face the Federation alone and that he could only rely on himself---now choosing to walk towards the altar where they stand---walking towards his happy ending.

Because this is his happy ending. I'm not at all an advocate for the idea of "oh romance/marriage is the only thing that will make you happy in life" but not only is being married to Roier something Cellbit desperately wants, this wedding means so much more than just getting married.

Of course, this isn't really the end, but for someone like Cellbit, it's a start. A new beginning. A brand new chapter of love, friendship, and trust. So yes, Cellbit walks down the aisle at his wedding, and he does it alone, and he does it because he deserves it, and he does it because he wants to, and he does it because he has to, and he does it because he needs this.

*I would just like to note that found family does not have to follow a nuclear formula with parent-child roles and I don't wish to propagate this misconception. That's just how Roier's family is structured in canon. Foolish and Vegetta are boyfriends and Roier calls them (or at least Foolish) "dad" that's just how it is and it is beautiful &lt;3

Also apologies if I get any lore wrong. I'm not a Roier or Cellbit main viewer but I learn a lot through what I do watch of their streams and what I absorb through my dash. Hopefully this still makes sense.

[eosphoria]

Kats in middle school is so so annoying that if I were a classmate I'd be like "Oh so you want to be a hero! cool, that's quite common these days, but, uh, if I were to give you any advice, don't mention the H word to that blond mess over there, he won't shut the fuck up about how he will become the greatest hero and surpass all might and how deku fucking sucks because he quirkless and, ugh, look at him, he stands like someone who says extra a lot and that's exactly what he be doing every single fucking tim-"

[berryblu-soda]

yall think the team has started to go numb to losing someone by now? its happened so many times (jay´s had it the worst oh gosh)

an odd sort of numbness from knowing all too well this is exactly what theyve signed up for, a feeling hollow and cold but also eerly calm, worry, restlessness bubbling beneath everything

but the need duty to keep moving, keep fighting, you still have a world to protect (no time to fall apart, use the pressure to keep yourself together)

make their sacrifice count, and pray that if they come back, theyre still recognizable...

[thornyfluff]

***when some poor soul says they also like Transformers, and I impulsively "need" to tell them the entirety of transformersdom because I suck at humaning, and I'm starved for social interaction that don't involve everyone's f*cking problems and more stupid boring sh*t involving adulting and politics...***

I also like terrible B rated movies, and I seek out the weirdest, corniest, worst ones that I can find (a Rifftrax kinda gal). I'm actually a little surprised that this Vincent Price one called "Monster Club" was never on my radar till now. 👾💀👻

[canarys-coal-mine]

thinking abt how the evil queen probably compared raven to other villian children when raven was younger

[honeyhousesys]

The little meow meow

[blooming-cecilia]

papa venti thoughts again bc im ILL

can you just imagine venti holding his own child to his chest as they sleep on him and he rests with them

with a loose but firm? hold on his kid

keeping them safe and comfy as they both snooze away

carries his kid EVERYWHERE

"venti your child is old enough to walk on their own-" "i dont CARE if theyre asking me to carry them I CAN AND I WILL"

that child is forever his baby

speaking of, he always has many many nicknames and terms of endearments for his kids, much like he has with you

they're all just as creative too, and always feel special, and fits each child perfectly

(he did, after all, name the thousand winds individually. whats a couple more for his own beloved children and spouse?)

but if he just goes "darling?"

everyone in the house turns their head

you, the children, the dog, dvalin? lmao

and various replies of "yes?" "yes papa?" "i'm here, papa!" are all said in unison

he's surprised everytime, and turns around to face everyone, only to find expectant gazes on him and varying expressions: confusion, happiness

and he just goes, "ah-!" realizing what he just said

and giggles to himself and calls a specific nickname reserved just for that person, to specify just who he was calling for

ok now imagine storytime with the kids

one of them drags papa to read the book to him

the kid is one of the younger ones so theyre still struggling when it comes to reading

(but with a teacher like his papa, he's making amazing progress. he's just struggling with some newer words aaand just likes listening to him talk)

seeing papa sitting on The Chair, with a book and their younger sibling sitting in front of him on the rug, bouncing excitedly in their seat, has everyone quickly gathering next to them and getting ready for story time

venti's storytelling varies depending on the mood. sometimes he simply reads it, especially if its a chill day or bedtime, and sometimes he narrates and gets some of his kids as volunteers to act it ou

one thing for sure though, it's never boring. as you would, of course, expect from a bard.

you can't care less about theatrics or his enunciation

all you care about is the sight of your most loved ones gathered together and happy, laughing away without a care in the world

[corviiids]

wrote a whole Thing about how i characterise akc and ren in response to an ask but got so embarrassed about how long it is that i immediately banished it to the drafts. later

[prettyboykatsuki]

i mean this in the most endearing way possible, but it makes me chuckle when i’m scrolling through my following tab and see so many of your posts consecutively that i starting thinking i clicked on your blog instead

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