#but my brain wont let me

[cocktailjjrs]

So, Chapter 112 is out.

We don't exactly get much of explanation or distinction from S5 ending ep.

Mori, he really just glued in the fangs for FUN! What even is the Mafia! (Plus, Dazai Laughed!) We had old man Yaoi. I am not going to talk about it as we already know what went down there. We got Kunikida, Atsushi and Tanizaki. And Gogol man being sad (it broke my heart again to see his reaction). Ngl, even i would be sad if someone killed my Situationship But not Chuuya calling out that Situationship, lol (That was my exact reaction when a friend of mine told me she was in one and how it works) SKK bickering, still. And Fukuzawa being handed the greatest responsibility.

All in all, everything we had seen so far, only an added reaction here and there.

Next chapter will most likely also follow through the rest of the episode. But nothing much is left, so chances are that we may get new content. Or latest by April.

This all seems well and good, but I'm suddenly feeling anxious about how things are going to progress further.

I've said time and again, BSD takes 'it can't get worse than this' phase and just proves it wrong again and again. We reach new rock-bottoms every time.

So, things looking up now, gives me anxiety that something is going to go horribly wrong. (Cue the flashback of the 'Two hours later' bit)

All things that can horribly go wrong:

Everything with Soukoku at Meursault. I find it so weird that we are not getting detailed explanation of how things are proceeding there. We have seen Dazai and Fyodor play mind games for so many arcs now, there is always an explanation at the end of each one. But this doesn't have that 'satisfactory' level of explanation yet. Yes, Chuuya again came to Dazai's aid, but how? How did Dazai knew that the Vampires were turned in his favor. Would killing Fyodor (if he actually is dead) really be wise? How is he sure that it was Fyodor plan all along to get killed and he played right into it? You know when things are kept ambiguous, as most things related to Prison break arc are, it means there will be some facts that will come in light later. And that's what I'm scared of because it can be anything! It does not help that Dazai is yet to take that antidote! What if it doesn't work? What is Nikolai goes for revenge? Since he love's loosing himself and that's why he fought, so what if he continues? Can Chuuya's gravity manipulation even be effective against someone like Gogol? He can just go from one place to another, dodge all of Chuuya's attacks. We also know he can use his ability with Dazai as long as he isn't touching him. What is he takes the antidote form the case before Dazai can take it? That makes him such a kryptonite for Soukoku.

Then we have,

The Shin soukoku's battle against whatever that (Fukuchi) was. Two hours, if you think about it is not a long duration of time for things to start fucking up suddenly. There must be something already laid in waiting for it to start going shit when time comes. We are yet to get the details of how the Vampirism is going to wear off. Because it does, Akutagawa was back to normal when he was fighting with Atsushi. Sskk teaming up is well and good, but can they stand against that being? They had a hard time dealing with Fukuchi only a while ago, this enhanced being will be much tougher than them. What if this also is set for failure? only for the world to be purged into more chaos? Maybe i'm being a bit to pessimistic, but i've lost confidence in the mangaka's they always do the unexpected and kill everyone's favs, fr.

That also makes me think

Will taking on the role of Mankind's leader, lead to Fukuzawa on a deeper end? We know he struggled earlier, before founding agency, with his assassination work. He had refused to work in the war for a reason. Won't this be undoing everything he's worked for so many years? Also, taking in that honor from their government (or officials, i don't exactly remember what it was. I'm talking about the appreciation symbol of katana'?' they received at the beginning of S4) that basically led them to take on that case that declared them terrorists. Won't taking the role of Mankind's Leader also make Fukuzawa susceptible to be declared as the Mankind's Enemy? This seems similar to that previous situation. Reminds me of how Ranpo called this responsibility, or last wish, a curse. And Ranpo is always right, so there's that. Maybe that's how they are going to introduce the next adversaries?

Too much uncertainty and what-ifs.

[bipolaritysucksbutslaps]

finishing writing a fic is all fun and jokes until you realise you don't have a purpose in life anymore

[rymaninlimbo]

Can we see what outlast fics you have written and what characters inside ?

Sure! I actually have them posted on my Ao3 acc!

I do want to write more for Outlast in general but here’s what I got so far! Under the cut~

The first one is with Leland Coyle and my reagent OC, basically it’s his first trial alone and gets spooked by Coyle and strikes up a deal with him- if he does what Coyle wants then he might be let go (general warning: smut, m/m, oneshot)

The second one is with the Slepoer Ex-Pop I lovingly named Sammy, it’s definitely a shameless self insert but I thought I’d post it anyway lol basically after Sammy gets spooked and runs away, he accidentally bumps into my reagent and instead of hitting him he latches onto him in a hug instead (general warning: smut, slight dub-con, m/m, one-shot)

[alightcaseofohno]

I don't have a crush to obsess over. I don't have a hyperfixation to consume my brain.

What am I supposed to do all day? Making pinterest boards and Spotify playlist won't satiated me for long!

WHY WONT MY BRAIN LATCH ONTO A NEW FANDOM

[thebraxiatelcollection]

I haven't picked up a book at all this year, and every time I try, I lose interest in it pretty quickly.

Whats best way to get back into reading or what books do you guys recommend?

[inuleeli]

When you need to stop and go to sleep but your brain is on some weird momentum that keeps you looking for stimuli.

[totentnz]

i love and appreciate how cyberpunk 2077 came with a free copy of cyberpunk red but i can barely read a regular book how do you expect me to read one at my pc 😭

[idiot-mushroom]

i hate writing <— has been writing ‘through your hollow bone’ ch.2 but my storyline method ‘fuck around and let your story go on it’s own coarse’ is getting so long to the point that i think it might hit six thousand words by the time i’m done with this damn chapter

end my suffering

[computed-dear]

yeah, yeah, I'm probably not autistic

*gets so excited about my Star Trek memes that I can barely eat breakfast*

anyway...

[zipshenanigans]

Tutorial on how to stop feeling sleepy 24/7 no glue no borax

[lowkeyren]

YOU'RE HITTING A MILESTONE?? omgggg tell us the number plsplspslsspslslspslsls (if its not 100303020201 im throwing hands)

HONESTLY? i can't decide whether to host an event or just keep it lowkey (haha.. i swear im funny) (nah im jk im probably gonna, milestone or not!! ive always wanted to host one xx)

nevertheless, thanks for all the support i love u all!!!! (๑ > ᴗ < ๑) it's not 100303020201 unfortunately, time to throw hands ig ☹️😓 /j

[lordkuntfuck]

Why is it so mindnumbingly difficult to actually start something

[moonstruckdraws]

I couldn't help myself and I decided to do a full image lol. I had a lot of joy shading the gold parts 'n stuff!

I thought it'd be cool to draw Tapa learning ballroom dances 'n such, just cus. Finding a gown was tough though, but I think it works. I also changed Tapa's hairstyle, since that is what is usually done, and found this one hairstyle with like pearls in the hair and thought it was cute! I was hoping the shape could still kind of look like bunny ears, but I think I made the hair too curly- Also drawing the full panel poses were so fun.

I thought that Tapa would be the kind of person to be terrible on their first try, but not even 5 minutes later they do it almost perfectly on the second try lol. Cass is salty about it, you can only handle your feet being stomped on so many times

And finally, I did a bit of a relaxing sketch with all of them outside! Tapa's making flower crowns while the other two are resting

I was going to draw more, but I knew that I'd keep drawing for another week and not post it probably lmao. So maybe I'll post more sketches of this some other time. And of course, the creators of this au, @somerandomdudelmao, @tapakah0, & @hodd1 . Still love it. I wanna draw more of it. Maybe I should do some for the dystopian au... centipede Cass does look fun to draw

[amateurmasksmith]

fuck it, I need the motivation:

for every note/like/rb/comment this gets, I’ll add 3 words to the thing I’m working on.

[wistfulenchantress]

going insane

[mossyoakswriting]

The one time I feel tired is when I get a full night’s sleep…what kind of sorcery is this?