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g'morning my friends!! here's to an awesome weekend <3 don't forget that self care ok?
#i was supposed to write yesterday#but my brain said nope#gotta love adhd brain#i'm feelin more motivated today tho!!!!#so lets gOOOOO#━━ ❛ THE GREMLIN SPEAKS ❋ ◤ ooc: general ◢
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#having a bit of a tumblr day#wish i could be doing anything else#but my brain said nope#stay here and scroll#it'll make you feel better
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Did you think I was done? Ahahahaha no, I have more.
Because chapter 70 of MOMU gave me the very dynamic between them that I missed so much, I just blacked out and started drawing uncontrollably lmao
Also. ALSO. I noticed a while ago that Prowl has the habit of..like…constantly frowning. So. I did a bit of research and made this graph.
In 70 chapters, Prowl frowns rougly 104 times. And the intensity of this gesture is very clearly correlated with the development of his relationship with Jazz, as you can see ahahahahah It might be wrong tho don’t take me seriously I’m not good with graphs
#maccadam#transformers#prowl#jazz#jazzprowl#fic fanart#momu fanart#I just#mmmmm#For the whole fic Prowl had to think twice about everything Jazz says#every information could end up being wrong#sometimes even without Jazz realising it#so when Prowl says#he’s trusting Jazz. it’s.#also it totally wasn’t me googling ‘believing and trusting nuance difference in english’#the moment I realised the difference I think my brain started rollercoaster loops#he can’t believe him but he found enough faith to trust him#while. YES. For the whole story Jazz couldn’t fucking be believed#list e n#Jazz did a lot of things for Prowl#fucktons of big and small gestures to show that yes he likes loves and appreciates Prowl#I’m so happy Prowl is returning this energy#like#remember that scene a while back when Jazz kissed Prowl? Cool cool okay. Did Prowl kiss him? nope. It was one sided gestures#*gesture. That kiss didn’t make me feel like it’s truly something precious because Jazz started it but Prowl didn’t do quite the same#but this👆. This feels so much more important for me. Because Prowl#who is for the whole story was mister I calculate every chance of possible betrayal. Prowl whos entire personality is to trust nobody#Prowl goes. Fuck that I trust you. You feel me?#it wouldn’t be the same if he said I love you. Because love is very much something you don’t have a lot of control over.#but to trust someone? It’s a choice Prowl had to consciously make. You see what I mean? I love it. oh fuck I ran out of tags..
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#original post#poll#fan fiction#oneshot#fic length#I didn't write it with the intention of splitting it but also it's like. 21 pages on Google Docs.#which is pretty long#and while I don't mind longer oneshots sometimes my brain sees a high word count and nopes on out of there#there is definitely something to be said for splitting things into bite-sized chunks you know?#anyway this is me procrastinating editing (and titling) the darn thing#Hogan's Heroes
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"I will cast abominable filth at you, make you vile, and make you a spectacle." Nahum 3:6
If We Were Villains - M.L. Rio / Twenty-four months - Everymanhybrid / Paparazzi performed at the 2009 VMAs - Lady Gaga / Class Trial 6 - Danganronpa V3 / Ricky "Jupe" Park - Nope (2022) / christmas. - Everymanhybrid / The Wicker King - K. Ancrum
#web weaving#everymanhybrid#the wicker king#if we were villains#nope 2022#drv3#so sorry to make this post#but the concept of spectacles have been in my head all day lon#and i have such a specific type of brain rot. as you can see by the media listed in this post#for comparing the paparazzi performance to drv3 I deserve the electric chair#i am acknowledging this fact so that you dont have to <3#but its about. making things worse by watching#by using the suffering of others for entertainment#until the horrors consume as as we consume spectacles#its all been said by people more eloquent than me#also i have a fever from my meningitis booster#emh
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i love my counselor because she refuses to pry. don’t even know if she knows that’s an option, I have so rarely met a person who stays so thoroughly in her lane.
#the thing about me is that I’m an open book with an expressive face. and also I keep a lot inside and refuse to speak on things#especially things that are bothering me#and that can be irresistible to some people who just want to dig into my soul#and it’s why I was afraid of counseling for so long. that someone would be like ‘what can we unearth in Maria’s psyche’#and she just doesn’t care/doesn’t try/is only going to take me at face value#so there is lots I don’t tell her/refuse to speak on. and you know what doesn’t it MATTER. because the point is not to push myself#to some arbitrary measure of absurd honesty/openness but to talk about stuff when/if it’s helpful#also a huge way she’s already helped me is she’s just like ‘girl you’re fine’#no but actually though. she’s always like ‘you sound like you’re thriving to me!’#and she’s also just like ‘you’re busy you have energy you have plans you make good eye contact you clearly have confidence’#with the underlying message being. the thing that’s hurting you the most is your own anxiety. which sounds obvious lol#but it is kind of the sheer act of worrying itself. the other stuff is (mostly) in order#and that has helped. she also has cured me of some wrong self/belief stuff.#like I was once like ‘I’m not organized! I make no plans!’ and she was like ‘your plans have plans what are you talking about’#she also said I was highly logical and analytical and didn’t act emotionally/from a place of emotion#and I was just like ‘pikachu face’ because one of my deepest beliefs was that I WAS an emotionally driven person#and she was like nope. you’re highly rational. I mean I took it as a compliment and loved to hear it#the problem with me is when the brain will simply spiral out of control and the details become monsters and I make things a big deal#I’m super good at that#anyway yeah just processing
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me: staring at the ceiling at 5 AM trying and failing to sleep but very extremely not thinking about a one-off AU gpose i did on a whim that i explicitly do not want to continue with in my personal canon
my stupid fucking gremlin brain: "what if in that AU mia was pregnant when she got on the train, so in addition to seeing their wife age 30 years in the span of a week ellie and lily suddenly have to reckon with having an adult child that did not exist a week ago in the source and mia had to reckon with being a single mother even though she knows her partners are alive"
me: "hey what the fuck is wrong with you"
#is this it. is this what fucking gets me to create a wolkid. ARE YOU REALLY GONNA DO THIS TO ME DAWNTRAIL. WTF. HOW DARE YOU.#i need to at LEAST see how the patches handle alexandria's Baggage™️before running with this shut up brain stop it shut up!!#ellie's ramblings#dawntrail spoilers#mia solution 9 au#i'm mostly annoyed bc i really would rather advance my “canon” 'verse instead of deep-diving fleshing out AUs but brain said lol nope. rude
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Bouncing around wips too much I need to probably just pick one but my tired brain isn’t letting me do that
#ough#I need to pick one but brain said nope#ackkkkk#rambles from the floor#I hate time changes but this one is the worst#my body has its rhythms and when they get thrown for a loop nobody is happy#just eating breakfast an hour earlier made me feel gross aaaaaaaa#not to be political or anything but I hate politicians who decide stupid things like this
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I would like to share with you a story from my time at Yonsei University in South Korea:
The Americans arrived about 4-5 days early, giving everyone a few schedule-free days to deal with jetlag and get acclimated before our Korean roommates arrived.
First semester, I had issues with my roommates keeping the room insanely hot (like, they kept the room so hot that laptops would overheat), mainly via the floor heater. My roommates had more flaws than good points and were actually banned from the program for academic reasons.
All I was told about second semester was that they actually put special focus on who my roommates would be, as a sort of apology for how bad mine were.
So, second semester, my first roommate arrives, a small and adorably doll-like girl whose English name was Sophia. Sweet, cute, almost cartoonishly high-pitched voice. She comes in and in the most angelic tone goes "Do you like it hot or cold?" I answered cold, and she grinned and said "Me too!" and walked over to the coil where the floor heater connected to power, slammed her designer stiletto heel into it so hard the whole thing dented at a right angle, and destroyed that thing, never to work again.
Then very sweetly and just as cheerfully said "Oops! It was like that when we both arrived :)"
And like, yeah, sure, whatever you say, psychopath who is now sleeping 3 feet from my skull.
Sophia had arrived early, the other 2 roommates were coming the next morning, and so we go to bed about an hour after meeting.
At 2 in the morning, I wake up to feel someone touching me. Sophia was pulling my blankets up to my chin (they'd apparently fallen when I rolled over). In a white nightgown with long black hair obscuring her face, illuminated only by a sliver of light through the curtains like a demon from a horror movie.
And in her sweet, high-pitched Poppy Playtime kind of doll-like voice she sing-songs "Sssh~ Go to sleep~~~"
I have never gone
from 97% asleep
to so very wide awake
so quickly
in my entire life.
#sophia you raging psychopath how i loved you and every single screw loose in your brain#she was an annabelle doll in human form but not trying to murder me so we were besties#she'd sit at her desk beside mine and gently stroke my hair while she studied because she thought white people hair felt nice#i wasn't about to tell her she couldn't my policy with her was 'whatever the psychopath wants the psychopath gets'#truth#i don't even know what to tag this with this has nothing to do with lita beyond that's basically how sophia was hovering over me#once sophia went to the library and brought back 'The Roommate' and was so happy that she found a movie 'about american college life'#and she and haryeong our other roommate watched it on her laptop#i wouldn't; i knew it was a thriller and saw the bit in the trailer where the girl rips out the other one's earring and that's a bit nope#also i had american college comedy movies with me; they never asked#so they watch the whole movie clutching each other for dear life#it ends#and sophia comes to sit on the bed beside me and just holds me and whispers 'thank you for not being crazy'#and i very gently said 'you took all the crazy; there was none left for me'#and she just softly said 'that's right' and kissed my cheek then went back to put the movie away
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an attack on @churchyaoi's Wisteria for AF 💜 She's very cute and I love purple!
#struggling today lmfao i was gonna draw more but my hand is not cooperating with my brain...#i was gonna draw her actual hand doing a peace sign and i started to draw it and immediately said ''nope never mind'' 💀#nadiart#artfight#artfight 2024
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#random personal stuff#my friend stopped by the library and asked if I wanted to go with her to a reception they were having upstairs#and I said yes#but the second I got up there I saw the room full of strange important people and of course I wasn't really invited#and my whole brain went NOPE and I just sort of hid in the stacks outside the door until my friend came back#I haven't had a social anxiety reaction that bad in a while and I'm not sure exactly why it hit that hard this time#every time I think I'm getting better I regress#not competing with my brother anymore! nope the rivalry is retriggered#knowledgeable enough to spot manipulation! nope I get briefly fooled by someone who is reminiscent of That Man#confident enough to socialize with new people! haha that's what you think#and I bail on my friend and make her think I don't want to be around her#it's fine I will be fine but this is ridiculous
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When your author tries to draw their own fanart since I'm broke and cannot pay for commission art part.6
Too excited to see my own progress in drawing L so even if it's not done yet I still wanna post (god knows when I could finish the rest)
#why is hair so difficult to learn and draw#I should be focusing on finals and dissertation but my brain said nope here's an idea of L and M#death note#l lawliet#When your author tries to draw their own fanart since I’m broke and cannot pay for commission art
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really channeled my inner yassified!howdy today via being practically comatose all day due to Migraine, then as soon as i woke up i demolished so many tacos in one sitting. he's just like me fr
#also might i say that its fucking evil that i got two bad migraines in the span of three days#like what the fuck was that? who authorized it!#usually i get at Least a month between them!#but nooooooo this week in particular said Fuck Ya Life#and on Update Eve too smh....#i was ready to like... perhaps share excitement with people.... answer some asks with silly scribbles... nope!#for reference the migraine hit a little before 11 am#and the pain stopped around.... 6-7 pm#it took my whole day! the absolute nerve!!!#and now my brain's gonna be fucky tomorrow... On The Day.....#nightmare nightmare nightmare-#absolutely unprompted#no but seriously i was so fucking hungry. i INHALED those tacos like idk if i breathed#i had a very small teensy breakfast and then Pain Pain Pain and then a quick snooze to recover some energy#and then it was after 9!!! and i hadnt eaten Anything!!!#man i fuckin hate migraines...#it always takes a full day after to recover. steals two every time smh smfh#looking at butterfly!howdy: you're just like me... im just like you....#at least i finished a celebratory Art for tomorrow b4 the Graine! tis queued! idk if i like it but im posting it anyway!#now if yall will excuse me im gonna fuck around for a bit and then go back to sleep#i need my strength & energy for tomorrow
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I don't know how people can commit actual crimes.. I can't even sit in the wrong seat in a movie theater without feeling like a terrible person..
#to whoever was at the movies yesterday who i was sitting in your seat I'M SO SORRY I WAS JUST TRYING TO SIT WITH MY FRIENDS I'M SO SORRY 😭#she just said “excuse me you're in my seat” and I'm still like a day later thinking “oh god she probably hates me” like???#she probably forgot and you will never see each other again. it matters not at all. just forget. but my brain says nope it's a core memory🤗
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Whoever decided it was a good idea to bake a pie on a fucking wednesday afternoon is a goddamn clown and should be dropkicked into the sun
#🤡#it's me#god it was SO much more complicated than i thought!#i baked pie just a few weeks ago and there was no problem so i figured today would be the same but nooOoO#i can't function in a dirty kitchen so I had to do the dishes first and let my ingredients thaw as most are stuff i buy or gather on sale#and then use when i have energy or want to#but yeah i did the dishes for like an hour and a half yesterday so in my brain baking a pie would just be as easy as me going to the kitchen#and getting started! meanwhile i forgot mom cooked dinner yesterday and somehow that woman uses every goddamn pot and pan in the house when#she cooks#so i had to clean that up plus glasses and utensils and stuff we used since yesterday afternoon#anyway then i started on the actual fucking pie and i semi followed a recipe this time and it called for one and a half TEAspoons of#cinnamon but last time i baked a pie i was just going off my own brain and i used half a TABLESPOON so like. same fucking thing basically#but my brain read the recipe and was like oh that's kind of a lot. double checked yep that says tablespoons okay i mean sally hasnt led me#astray before in it goes THEN MY BRAIN READS IT RIGHT and I'm like fuck#that said 1.5 teaspoons not 1.5 tablespoons#and i had dumped it in on top of other unmixed spices so i couldnt just scoop it out#anyway i think i managed to save it maybe? drained a lot of liquid and reduced it instead and i tasted an apple and it was good though i#havent tried the reduction yet and i only added a little to the pie#AND THEN FOR SOME REASON I DECIDED TO DO A LATTICE CRUST. EVEN THOUGH I'VE ONLY EVER DONE IT ONCE BEFORE#and did i look at a guide? nope. it took forever#anyway girlie is finally in the oven and if it turns out bad I'm throwing out my oven#my post#baking#this took so much more energy than i was expecting it to#it better be fucking good!
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chewing gum somehow always makes leon hungry. so, he turns around to the person he's walking alongside with. "you wanna eat?" he asks. "i might pass out if i don't soon."
@valpostart
#i apologize for this crappy starter but my brain cell said nope#assume connections if you want !#love you guys
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